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The frames of the video from the comic in the previous post. I experimented a lot with this, it was really fun to work with this chunky brush I found. Also the first time I draw the Reaper of Destruction as it was before Lumity!
More comments under the cut+a frame I ended up scrapping!
I'll go by order of appearance, because it's basically a chronological retelling of the events of part 1.
So the first frame is the least fancy because it was the first and I didn't nail down a style for this yet lol. It shows Ghost and Soap's first true meeting, in chapter 1, where Ghost helps Soap when he gets impaled by a rebar.
The second frame jumps to chapter 8, when Ghost first put Soap in Limbo. The triangle around them was a later addition, taken from the next frame. I love this scene, it's so fun to see it drawn out now :)
The third frame was the most important one to nail the style. I painted a whole frame, only to come back to it the next day and restart from almost 0.
This is the original third frame
They both show the same event - chapter 21, the second time Soap is thrown into Limbo. The difference is, one shows a more literal image of what happened, and the other is more symbolic.
And by now I think you know how much I love symbolism lol
What also bothered me with the scraped painting is that the composition isn't central, and the entire pose, while more dynamic, isn't fitting the mural feel the rest has.
There's an even earlier version of the scrapped painting, with Soap's face, but nowhere else there are faces in these series, so I went wild with it and covered it with flames. He had them behind him already, as the description of this scene in the fic says Soap had a helo of fire behind him.
(also hated how Limbo's victims looked in the scrapped version like... ew lol)
There wasn't a real reason to add the circles around Soap. I just wanted to lean more heavily into the mural style. But I took that circle motif to the end, after that, and added it to Ghost as well, hence the triangle.
Soap has one skeletal hand, and one palm. That one is on purpose, to show he's hanging in between life and death.
The fourth frame is pretty self-explanatory, it shows the part in chapter 21 where Soap gets the dark marks on his forearm. If the colors look weird in that one, it's because I messed with them so much I couldn't tell if they look good anymore on not
The fifth frame shows another favorite moment of mine, the moment Ghost gets his marks, the white tear tracks, when he finally notices Soap fighting in the void.
The sixth frame is my favorite of the bunch. Soap and Ghost, the triangle and circle combined. The moment they killed Graves, Ghost in full control of his subjects, Soap with his sword of white fire and army of burning moths. They look so scary in this one I love them
The seventh frame shows Void and Destruction. Void was straight forward, I've drawn it a few times before, but I had to make a more detailed design for Destruction, and I only had the very first sketches I made for Revenant AU to go off of, as well as Lumity's design. Idk why I designed Lumity before Destruction, but that's how it is. I wanted Destruction melting, like it can't handle its own heat.
The eighth frame is of Void and Destruction combining. In the fic they had in-between states, it didn't look like this, but for the sake of the video I thought it'd be nicer to have a clear frame of them combining.
The ninth and last frame is of our beloved Lumity. Their design is a little more detailed than the drawing I made a while back. This frame is also the only one that interacts with the foreground, aka Makarov. I think he was jump-scared, don't know how much that comes across.
Damn I had a lot to write. Well, when given the opportunity to ramble...
#call of duty modern warfare 2#cod mw2#cod ghost#cod soap#john soap mactavish#simon ghost riley#call of duty modern warfare#revenant au#cod fanart#...fanart of my own au for the most part but oh well#ty for reading whoever did <3
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LOBCORPxISAT AU ABNO IDEAS
Made it to Act 3! I now have more information to work with! Hooray!
Current Ideas for Siffrin, The King, and Loop as abnormalities under Read More due to length
ALSO IF YOU HAVE IDEAS/CRITISCMS, LMK PLEASE AND THANK YOU!!! I don't have any Unique Bonnie ideas yet, and I'm stumped, so I'm posting for feedback.
Siffrin
Sif is def an Abno. Formerly human, but lacking some humanity from being in containment so long. Prolly around HE or WAW.
Works best with Attachment, worst with Repression. (He's durable as anything from however many loops he's gone through- I don't think they'd take being forcefully repressed very well, either) Deals White damage in Unit.
Abilities wise, I think Sif would be pretty fun to play with, but also simple! They have a base counter of 3, and if their Counter hits 0, they breach and start attacking people. "WHO CARES?! THEY'RE NOT EVEN REAL!" kinda vibes. Resistant to Black and Red damage, Weak to White and Pale. He'd just tear through the facility until he's defeated, and if health gets to half, they'll start running away. If they aren't attacked for about a second, they'll heal themselves for 1/4 of max hp, and start dealing black and red damage at once. ofc, thats only if they get away.
For Mechanics, it's still basically the same idea as mentioned before; Every start of the day, when the ordeals are chosen, Siffrin chooses a genre of play, which dictates their likes and dislikes for the day. Add some interactions with Retrying Days, the time breaking abnos (I.E: Shelter from the 27th of March and Backwards Clock), and the other ISAT abnos, and there's something fun!
Comedy means they want Good Results, Tragedy means he wants Bad Results. Musicals are Insight, Slice of Life are Attachment, Dramas are Instinct. Nothing selected means they want Repression- Some suicidal ideation, in a way.
Equipment would obviously be based on Sif's things from ISAT: Weapon is a Temperance based Knife, curved and split at the tip, so it looks like a closed pair of scissors. Suit is a black suit with a short white cape and hood, maybe with off-white boots and gloves. (I can't think of any effects TT) For the gift, the Nugget gets a dark circle marking like the Healing Craft symbol, on their cheek, which turns a pale white when spent.
Idea: How about… a "get out of death free" type deal as a Ego Gift? Only once per Employee, a nugget can dodge death, in and out of Containment units. As a counter, it instantly drops their sanity to 0, and any other non-death effects still take place. (So, Counters dropping, breakouts, infections- that kind of deal. Might still be broken, but its fun to think about!)
The King
The King fits really well as an Aleph (idk if he's that powerful in ISAT, but still).
I think he'd be one of the abnos who change reaction based on level. Notable thoughts include: Lv 5 Insight is Bad, Lv 4 Insight is Good, Attachment works well but would be picky (From the offer to the party to be frozen).
Definitely still trying to freeze the world in time, producing tears, and showing visions of the future. For more interesting "gameplay", he could get the ability to create Sadnesses out of his Tears.
When his counter hits 0 and he breaches, he'd head to his department's Main Room, freezing anyone he comes in contact with. Upon reaching the destination, he'd begin to cry, spawning Tears and Sadnesses that spread away from him and begin attacking non-frozen Nuggets and Clerks. Being in the same room as him deals White damage over time. If defeated, the frozen Nuggets will return to normal, but the Tears and Sadnesses will continue to roam- The King is considered breaching until all of them are taken out, making them an end of day nightmare. So, essentially, a tanky Abno that can cause an Ordeal! Fun!!
Equipment: Weapon is a Shield and Mace combo, which lowers incoming damage taken when equipped (Deals Black, Reduces Pale). Suit is a deep blue, almost black set of armor with white strands that float off of it like hair in water (Weak to Black, neutral to all others). Ego gift gives the Nugget tears around their mouth and eyes.
Loop
Loop would be an abnormality, but I have no idea what level. The only idea I have so far is that their containment unit would also have the Favor Tree- The two could be fused in a way? Whether that makes Loop a dryad type deal or two separate entities in the same room, idk.
[I was think like parasite tree at first, but I like Loop being able to leave the Tree]
Maybe the Favor Tree grants wishes, and Loop tries to stop people from making them? Appearing inhuman, celestial, and ghost-like (maybe even scary) to ward people off. Or at least, that's the rumor. "The tree is fiercely protective of its leaves, calling upon a second form to punish those who take anything from it."
I really don't know enough yet to make them accurate to ISAT, so I'll just swing it to horror. Loop is a spirit that is given form by the favor tree specifically to "punish" (Kill brutally) anyone who takes things from the tree. Have them look human, but be able to pull people apart at the seams
In Unit, they deal white damage, definitely. If Loop were playing nice, their personality might only be a mild annoyance, but without that incentive, why not drive a few randos to madness for the hell of it?
Outside the unit... idrk " If high level, Pale. If low level, Black.
I feel like they'd get more aggro if the Nugget working on them had equipment/gifts from the other ISAT Abnos. A bit like Snow Queen, but not insta death. (Could include Loop's gifts too. "I gave you that in good faith, and you use it against me? Well, I guess I'll take it back!"
Would need high-ish Temperance or Prudence to avoid dropping their counter. Probably likes... insight. From the chats with Sif, and the Nugget knowing not to take anything (Thank you, Red Eyes)
Ego Equip would be a Staff with White, Star-like leaves. Deals White damage and slows the enemy slightly. (If high level, maybe heals?) Outfit is a white suit with black arms. If I could, I'd give a mask or helmet to make the Nugget look more like Loop as part of the suit. (Resist Black, Endure Red, Weak to White- Pale Res affected by level, again) Gift? Def a helmet- Imagine a laurel made of stars, that trails down the side of your face and covers an eye. (Raise Temp, lower SP)
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my ohshc au is just kyoya’s dad has a personal vendetta against host clubs so kyoya has to hide his involvement / association with the host club
-> he can’t use his family’s influence as leverage or for resources
-> basically every host club event is the same but event planning is 1,000,000x more difficult and stressful
he should feel the weight of event planning anxiety thats my truth
#he should especially learn what it’s like to work with a team#on the day of an event and two people were late and one person isn’t answering their phone#kyoya trials and tribulations: he can’t directly interact w his connections for hc#like the tea cup guy for example#so he has to use another host as proxy#mori and hani’s families dont have any connections in events / hospitality#tamaki is useless in negotiation and ends up giving more favors than getting then#The twins are better at making deals but together they have 0 manners 0 charm 0 platitudes and flattery 0 filter#my sketches#ohshc#kyoya ootori#ohshc 2024#kyoya manager au#kyoya torture au
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TSS mini SPOILERS
EEEEEEEE!
They're right next to each other. He's right by him to annoy him further and I could not be more happy about it.
WE GET TO SEE THEIR NEW PLACEMENTS!
#sanders sides#im so happy to see them interact again!#even if it is just a few pieces of dialogue#0 DAYS SINCE DUKEXIETY INTERACTED!!!#dukexiety#tss spoilers
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posting that sketch yesterday made me remember just how much i love my taashath so i did another doodle <3
#dai#dragon age#dragon age inquisition#da inquisitor#the inquisitor#adaar#inquisitor#inquisitor adaar#taashath adaar#some fun facts about her that im hiding in the tags!!#taashath was born under the qun and used to be a tamassran! the left the qun when she discovered one of her#children- her last child in fact- had magic. she didnt want him to be taken as a saarebas and so she tried to leave with him#her kid was killed in the process of leaving :(. she snapped and. surprise. she has magic too. shes just done a really good job of hiding it#she manages to escape with the help of one of the soldiers assigned to protecting her (meraad who another inquisitor in a different run)#but doesnt exactly remember How. all she remembers is waking up on the shore of wycome without meraad#eventually she was found by the valo-kas and taken in by them. they helped teach her how to properly control her magic and they took care of#her as she slowly got back on her feet.#and then she became the inquisitor.#she allied with the mages. conscripted the wardens. and made celene gaspard and briala shake hands. she also sacrificed loghain in the fade.#she doesnt have a canonical romance BUT. she had a few flings with some of the others and spent years pining after vivienne.#she ends up close friends with dorian bull cole and sera! she... does not end up friends with blackwall. but she does spare him#she Was close with solas at the start of inquisiton but she struggled to connect with him. his interactions with some of the other#companions didnt help. but she does care about him!! its just. difficult. it was difficult with sera and dorian at first too. and bull#she is completely Unsure what to think of varric but they are friends. and taashi absolutely adores josephine. leliana scares her just a bit#and she struggles to intetact with cullen but she does care for him. cassandra ends up as her divine (from a game glitch i made canon) even#though she did everything she could to get vivienne on the throne.#shes also trans!!! very big bonding point between her bull and krem is that she is aqun-athlok. everytime dorian or varric mentions mae she#goes :0 as well. uhhh yeah! i love her sm. if anyone has any questions pls pls 🥺🙏 send em
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AWH... I'm skipping through Roier's QSMP Day 1 VOD because I'm looking for a specific thing, and I just noticed that when Jaiden stands in front of the group to do her introduction and her mic isn't working, Mariana laughs (not in a mean way, I laughed too) and Roier immediately smacks him and tells him off for laughing.
[Timestamp ~36m 50s, volume warning for Quackity's awful mic]
It's such a little thing, but I think it's really sweet in retrospect, especially considering how Roier and Jaiden have become such good friends in recent weeks :')
#i talk#qsmp talk#legitimately though I frickin adore Roier and Jaiden's friendship IT'S SO SWEET THEY'RE SUCH GOOD FRIENDS...#Jaiden was so nervous the first few days of QSMP and she talked about how she was too anxious to talk to people she didn't know#So this Egg event really helped her (and a lot of other people too)#It gave everyone a chance to make friends / bonds with people they might not have interacted with as much otherwise#it's just really sweet#I've got a special place in my heart for Jaiden I like her a lot#I used to watch her animations a bunch because my little cousin loves her#then I just kinda stopped because I don't watch Youtube creators much and my memory is awful#But QSMP made me start watching her again#and I found out all the stuff she's had to go through and I watched her videos where she talks about more serious stuff / her personal life#and like not to sound parasocial or whatever but my ''protective parental instinct'' went nuts after hearing all that#she's been through the wringer but it seems like she's doing a lot better#she's really funny and cool#but social anxiety is still a nightmare#I'm really glad she got Roier as her Egg partner -- he's so friendly and nice I think it really helped her relax a lot#and she's actually learning more Spanish despite saying she had 0 Spanish knowledge whatsoever when joining the server!!!#Idk man I'm just really proud of everything everyone's been doing on the server#and I'm really proud of Quackity for bringing people together like this. It's amazing#I love him so much and I'm so grateful this server exists.#First and Best Multilingual server baby!!!#Anyways I forgot how bad Quackity's mic sucked from literally everyone else's perspectives on Day 1 LMFAO#Roier specifically says ''Don't laugh!'' and ''Give [her] a pass!'' (for the mute issue)#alright I added a clip I can't not put a clip for this
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projecting onto donnie moment
#first time making a comic#based on an interaction i had with an irl friend the other day#so yeah sorry if theyre ooc because if that#just wanted to draw this lol#rottmnt#rottmnt leo#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt comic#save rottmnt#fanart#sleepys art#sleepyheadd.0
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everytime sukugo gets called a crack ship i suffer +10 damage
#f.txt#it's not about the ship or anything#it's more just. they be calling anything a crack ship these days huh#djdfhskdsffgs#like with skg they did used to be a rarepair but arent anymore#but they were never a Crack ship. it's a ship that has made sense since the begginning. (ok maybe i MIGHT be a biased fdjfdfg)#but!!!!! they had 2 interactions!!! two!!!!! for a crack ship u need a minimum requirement of 0 canon interactions#even THEN. u might not necessarily call it a crack ship#i think it maybe has to do with how fandom has gotten much larger and the Big Ships are so much more omnipresent in any fandom#so maybe that skews people's perceptions of other ships? like. any smaller ships gets totally overshadowed.#or maybe it's just confusing the term with rarepair#but i mean i have seen people be so confused when presented with skg and finding it slightly bizarre#and before i would have kinda gotten it . but now after the fight. im like......did u NOT see all that.#a lot of people seem to not venture into ships outside the 'main' ones#and take them as canon to a certain degree ?#('why would u ship X with Y if Z is right there')#idk#it's interesting#maybe related to the mainstreaming of fandom#?#just thoughts honestly#tho i feel the same about rarepairs tbh dsfjsdfds#i feel like the idea of a rarepair has also gotten skewed#where some big ships (in my opinion) are also getting called rarepairs#had this drafted from a while back. but i saw skg being called a crack ship again and remembered it#anyways. i will reiterate......ppl really be calling anything a crack ship these days#dhsfjdhjdghjfffddfhhfd#it just makes me feel....old(?) idk fjdhfjshgjs more kinda like a purist all NO!!!!!!!! wrong use of the word!!!!!!!!#but let's be honest ppl have always been like that. 'there's X!! why ship Y!!!!!'#basically. conclusion. fandom gettin so big intimidates me fhdjdfghjdfhjdfhfsdfgg
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thinking about the whole twt scam situation ™ again ough
#monolith mumbles#gonna rant for a min#like main situation sorted fine#then boom 27 yr old mutual of op comes crawling out the woodworks#i did ask a silly question which i apologized for twice and reiterated TWICE. and they then kept yapping and arguing 💀#like erm i think calling an autistic person braindead at ur big age is weird actually#''omfg are you braindead this is a common scam get it through your thick skulls'' first im a tumblr main. second it clearly isnt common#enough considering op got scammed💀#and i still think im justified being put off that nobody (excluding op) noticed the glaring differences in the accounts 💀 and how it was#up for 10+ hours with no one noticing 💀#along with that they tried to frame it like i thought op had it out for me then said i wasnt important enough for someone to target me#because my twt acc has like 300 followers which. clearly i was because the scammer used my art💀#again twenty fucking seven. 27 DOING ALL THIS#after my final reply i ignored my twt main for like 2 days. which someone else replied saying something that started with#''all this happened because you'' then i just blocked them today before reading the rest. and just blocked everyone involved#like if ur mutual is 27 behaving like this i do nawt want to have any interaction with you at all soz. i also didn't get any priv apologies#instead they were pushing how they were innocent and not accusing anyone of being guilty which. its like you were a min ago#u were accusing ME💀 go d#me miffed about not getting priv apologies is me being petty but im 5'4 im never the bigger person so#I'll stay petty actually#anyway blocked all of them for my own piece hope op gets $60 back somehow but i also want 0 interaction based on their oomf
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whateverr posting wip ig. trying to draw dorian and it was looking sooo much like him and idk what i did but now i feel like it doesn’t look like him anymore…. going to try paint him later bleehh
#if you saw me post the exact same thing on twitter no you didn’t#also my sera art is popping off on there?? but not on here??? which is so surprising#ig da tumblr is deader than da twitter…#because i usually get 0 interaction on my twitter posts#anywayyy#bones rambles#dai#dragon age#dorian pavus#wip
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it's one of these days now when i really want to stay non verbal the whole day, no go out of my room, sleep and do stuff that doesn't need much effort
#that's what 1 school day made me crave if you want to know#i really want the non verbal thing#like 0 social interaction for one day just my head clear as a glass of water
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Like i dunno man there is something disturbing about finding another otherwise unassuming blog you just end up seeing in the whump tag in the notes of a terf’s post referring to trans guys as “tif’s” like honest to god if you’re gonna be transphobic id rather you make that clear instead of trying to blend in with the rest of us.
#transphobia tw#once again fixing the sign to say#‘it’s been 0 days since something transphobic popped up in the Whump community’#it’s the whole. hiding it while interacting with trans people thing that weirds me out#‘hey I hate you and I think you’re fucking delusional. nice prompt tho’
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Dear @jessamine-rose,
I'll let you in on a secret of mine. Not a single letter goes to my apprentice without me reading it prior. This should be expected, since they made my bakery their home address. An honest misjudgment on their side. Shiro has always been easy to give their trust away.
Given how smart you are, I'm sure you've unravelled my reasons for writing this message to you.
When, on 14 February, a letter addressed to 'Shiro' appeared, I was the first to read it. Your mention of cupcakes… Were you thinking of me?
While I suppose it would be unwise of me to share why this letter took several days before it got relayed to Shiro, you should believe that my intentions are well.
A few days after its disappearance, it 'suddenly' appeared back in the mail. And while it’s not uncommon for mail to get delayed or lost, Shiro appeared to be flustered when they realised that they missed their chance to send something in return.
According to my expectations, this gave me the opportunity to mention 'White Day', something that's been steadily growing more popular in Snezhnaya. (We have a White Day collection in the bakery. It'd pleasantly surprise you how well it sells.) This, in return, made her ask for my help, re: a gift to send to you;
Today, before dawn, I got up to make a special batch of cupcakes. I sincerely hope your manners have kept you from eating them before reading this letter, because I fear the pink one is not made for you.
If you happen to dislike anyone at this given moment, I suggest giving this pink cupcake as a gift. I'm sure you'll enjoy the results.
The blue one, however, Shiro and I made together. It's a popular item on our menu, and I hope you'll enjoy it.
Unfortunately, Shiro's letter got lost somewhere between my leave from the bakery and my arrival to your house. It's something I have to apologise for, an honest mistake. It seems that I've grown clumsy. All the more reason to enjoy my letter instead.
But I can assure you, she wishes for you to have a "Happy White day".
We hope to see you in the bakery soon.
Signed by yours,
P.s. In return for my gift, I trust you’ll keep this letter a secret between you and me.
There is no need to share a mention of these fleeting interactions with Shiro. Lest they get worried, fretting that I might’ve said something 'unpleasant'. (Can you believe it? How insulting.)
#🧁˚୨୧⋆。˚ ⋆ Answered by: DOTT#🧁˚୨୧⋆。˚ ⋆ The Bakery#(ooc: FIRST DOTT INTERACTION!!!#hope you don't mind it :') I told you me + DOTT would visit on White Day but he stole the stage#anyways#Happy White day :0#I'll add the cupcakes to the menu soon :3)
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where: common area
when: late night
with: @natcliachen
eliza would loathe to say she was nervous about seeing any of the others, but that was surely the only way of describing the nerves she felt when reminded of natalia. not because of what their relationship currently was, but because of what it used to be. woodrow house was synonymous with cold stares and veiled cutting words, a separation that felt much like a sheet of ice. though some of it had melted away over the years — with college and adult life — it always seemed to freeze again when they were both in the house. old habits die hard, after all. so when she found herself alone in a room with natalia, eliza was not sure what to expect. a part of her thought that she shouldn’t have come to natalia’s territory, which was at best nonsensical. it’s not like the older girl was the only one to live in the third floor. “has paris been nice?” she asked, looking up from the book she was half scamming. “i only ever went there during winter. very pretty and very cold."
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people wonder why artists are leaving the site in droves and abandoning their accounts meanwhile most FANDOM art barely gets 5 likes in two days. barely gets 2 reblogs in the span of half a year.
and im not even gonna TOUCH on what it's like for oc art (which gets no interaction. at all. ever. oops I just touched on it.)
why the fuck would people keep feeding ai companies when absolutely no one is supporting them? when absolutely no one cares about their art? when no one even spares it a second glance? why would tey go through the trouble of glazing and nightshading everything when it gets NO INTERACTION AT ALL. When it's going to rot in the tags buried under hundreds of other ignored pieces of art. when ai generated photos get dozens of reblogs and likes in the first hour.
you people wonder why artists are leaving? You. you are the reason.
#bc if people had actual interaction they would choose to stay DESPITE the ai.#they would have a reason to stay#notice how the only ones staying are super huge artists with thousands of followers and who get hundreds of reblogs every day#every small artist is leaving because you people NEVER SUPPORT THEM#anti ai#fuck ai#artists against ai#ai art is not art#support artists#likes are useless#if you want artists to stay actually reblog their art#maybe leave a comment on it.#same with fanfics.#because otherwise whats actually the point?#im not even the type of person who cares about internet validation#look at most of my posts. most of them have 0 notes at all.#but what the hell is the point of posting your art to a place that steals it if literally no one is going to look at it?#i could leave it in my phones gallery; not have it be stolen; AND get the SAME AMOUNT OF INTERACTION as i would if i posted it#make art for yourself and only for yourself bestie
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i don't think kanan is good at being alone. he's someone that really greatly benefits from constantly being around other people.
he grew up in the jedi order, a whole community in the same building, he would always be around other younglings, and later on constantly with his master.
and then order 66 happens, and he's (understandably) not doing well, not helped by the fact that he's actually alone with his thoughts for the first time in his life. not that loneliness alone fucked him up but it cant have helped, and probably also created an association between being alone and literally the worst time in his life, being hunted and catastrophising that he'a going to die.
then he meets hera, and he's living in a tiny ship in close quarters with someone else, and he's not alone anymore. he sees hera's conviction to make change in the galaxy and it starts to pull him out of his alcoholism and his despondency and it makes him better. it reminds him that hey its not all terrible doom ahead of us, there are people who believe in a better world, and he wouldn't have reached that point on his own (considering a new dawn is like 7?? years after o66, he was coping he wasn't living). and then again with ezra, he grapples with inadequacy but he's not left to basically sit and brood about how much he sucks. it is partly out of necessity beacuse ezra is depending on him, but also that the expectation of him to do better does make him better, because he doesn't let himself fall into a deeper spiral and it pushes him into believing in himself, and that aids in his ability to actually do the thing and work on himself.
and after malachor, he distances himself. at the start of s3 hera talks to him like he's a stranger, almost, because he stopped opening up and stopped letting himself be part of a family and he made himself alone, and got so bad that bendu had to force an emotional realisation out of him. trauma can obviously manifest and affect people in different ways, and it is realistic that kanan is extremely emotionally affected by everything and doesn't just bounce back like nothing happened, but i do think its significant that when kanan's mental health is terrible the show makes it a point of telling us he's been isolating himself. he's deliberately separating himself from his family. it is a textbook sign of Not Doing Great, but i think it also reflects how well kanan copes when he's on his own. there are people who do perfectly fine or after prolonged periods of not really interacting with people, but i dont think that's kanan. when he's alone he's clouded, he gets lost in his emotions, and its important that other people are there; it reminds him what's important and what he's capable of.
basically i think when he gets left alone for too long it gets much easier for the self doubt to creep in, and he starts contemplating the hopelessness of existence, then he spends 5 minutes with hera and realises his last 2 days worth of brooding was decidedly Not Normal.
#inspired by me getting incredibly depressed during school holidays because i go from daily social interaction to 0 social interaction#its such a noticable pattern for me and i CANNOT sit alone with myself for too long at this point it makes me worse#like yes everyone needs some time alone to think and reflect etc but if i go like more than 3 days#i start actively getting worse#i think kanan is the same he benefits a lot from having other people around him reminding him hey the outside world exists#kanan jarrus#star wars rebels#skribbles !#its 3.32 am right now and i took a very important 3 hour math exam this morning so if this isnt entirely coherent thats why#and i cant sit and think on this for several hours bc there are more exams to come </3#i just think being alone is Bad for him#more so than other people
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