#(your absence is felt)
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i think about splinter walking in on the aftermath of caged lungs a lot

#canary continuity#rottmnt#like#pov: you are splinter. you have spent the past few months feeling Off#theres this odd air in your home that you cant place and some distance from your sons again#but you trust their independence and you tend to wane in and out again already#and theyve all been encouraging you to go out there and get a social life!!#even before the curse you dont know about yet theyve been nothing but supportive#maybe a bit pushy lately. but you think theyre just happy for you#teenagers are rebellious. youre sure theyll use your absence for shenanigans but thats a part of being a teen#so you go for a night out.#its a break from the odd tension youve felt#you come home feeling relaxed. lighter. youre smiling to yourself as you walk back into your home#for a moment its quiet and you can just breathe in the comfortable silence#and then you smell blood. not the faint clinging tang of it youd smelled for a few weeks and dismissed. FRESH blood#your veins chill with panic. dread prickles down your spine. you run towards the smell#and then you hear your oldest sons SCREAMING.#both of them dont scream like donnie and mikey do. they SHOUT a lot. they dont SCREAM#they dont scream like their souls are being torn out of their chest. not like that#(for a moment you freeze. and all you can think about is torn flesh and the snap of bones. cheering. blood caked across your bruised fists.#and then the panic hits you at once and you BOLT#and you walk into the culmination of fifteen years of your careless mistakes.#and nothing is ever the same again
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Cranky having a healing moment in the book 'Really useful stories for growing up.'
#ttte cranky#this felt relevant to everyones day#other ttte books#a cute illustration to cheer up your day#apologies for my absence i'm still alive I promise
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#still thinking about it.#what's crazy is the 'angrily pulling tie off' felt like it came directly from my head like i somehow knew this existed before i saw it#no offence mark like i understand your grief has narratively driven the show#& the series is fundamentally ab gemma's absence in the same way some of my favourite media is about a person-shaped hole & its consequence#yknow like lup in taz#or laura palmer#or even rose quartz#but if tramell tillman is deadass not even on imdb for the credits of episode 7#i will have to rally milchick nation.#'chikhai bardo' OK and what about. My Guy Blorbo#severance#severance spoilers#seth milchick
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The thing about having read The Blue Angel by Paul Magrs and Jeremy Hoad is that nothing will ever again be The Blue Angel by Paul Magrs and Jeremy Hoad
#not necessarily a bad thing٫ mind#as much as I like it٫ it's good for your series to have things like 'comprehensible plot' sometimes#but its absence is keenly felt#doctor who#edas
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If google translate isn't completely off then touma claims to attend the servamp academy graduation ceremony for tsurugi, but since its also mahiru's graduation I guess we can also count it as the first important event of mahiru's life that his father was there for.
#servamp#mahiru shirota#taishi touma#this is from the end of volume 21#I'm really not sure if touma's absence from mahiru's life was bad or a blessing#On one hand mahiru felt lonely because after akira's death he only had his uncle who was often away for work#But touma is...touma#I really can't wait to see mahiru's reaction to learning that this guy is his father#In the manga and the gag world#Imagine finding out the teacher that annoys you is your long lost father
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random but like. are you alive and well 😭 please take care my dear <333 and please don't be dead
this is so sweet you are such an angel omg YES i'm alive and well :') i hate to worry you!
just been taking a lil break frm writing + being online and it's done me rlly good. but i miss u guys so >:-) i shall debut a lil something later this week hehe i'm feeling inspired and as always i have the best requests waiting for me wowwwwww xx
i love u~ my thoughts on ur other asks dealing w boredom and daydreaming abt dazai are that change can be inconsequential but the uselessness in itself is sometimes all the excitement u need. the acknowledgment can be enough just like thinking abt a silly & suicidal freak can be enough ^_^
#ivy chat#broken-spirit101#u are seriously the shit... i still want to reply to ur other asks but i am an ASK HOARDER#your messages r so heartwarming i dont mean to sound like THAT but i didn't think my absence could b felt ily#asks#is this what the ada feels like when dazai doesn't check in for a while like oops he's done it now huh
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hi my sweet darlings omg it’s been like over a week??? since i last posted??? sorry about that wtf ??? i’m taking (much needed) time and space to figure some things out rn but trust I SHALL RETURN 💗💗💗 LOVE YA
#mr vice president im speaking !#tldr: my personal life is fucking me in the ass and i’m making it everyone’s problem#LMFAO SORRY IM EXAGGERATING#JUST WABTED TO SAY SMTH BECAUSE MY ABSENCE HAS BEEN QUITE ABRUPT#and felt across all nations i’m sure#(sarcasm laced tone)#to the anons that are checking up on me HI IM OKAY DONT WORRY YOUR PRETTY LITTLE HEAD ABOUT IT I LOVE YOU 💗💗#linda is in charge while im gone and guys#please don’t do a repeat of last time where you accidentally sent us into war because of a playground territory mixup again#also this new tumblr layout is so butt ugly#OKAY BYE LOVE YOU LOVE YOU YES YOU RN READING THIS LOVE YOU LITTLE SCOUNDREL
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#not a vent just a journal entry (feel free to scroll past; there is no snz here and this is also not that interesting)#realizing now that i never thought of myself as#someone whose absence would register to others in any other way than just neutral/detached recognition?#phrasing this really badly and i am truly going to delete this later bc it is embarrassing LOL#i think when i was young and posting all this fic into questionable places (the f*rum) i was like#(@ an unfinished work of mine) no way anyone could be bothered by these cliffhangers 👍 they can just imagine the ending#even though i would frequently be bothered by other people's cliffhangers. that exact same principle just wouldn't apply to me in my head#and when i did not respond to people i was like.. i'm sure i wasn't really an important part of their lives so they won't mind it#if i stepped away?#i never really entertained the concept of people missing me or looking forward to my responses 😭 i never thought of myself as someone worth#missing... so when i disappeared it was always with little to no sense of guilt. i think even now i struggle with#seeing myself as someone that inhabits like a tangible enough space in other people's lives that my absence would be felt#(and i don't mean that in a morbid way. and i do recognize that it's quite hypocritical)#on the flipside of things i frequently miss people and look forward to their responses. and sometimes i wonder like#do they all know? do they all know that i miss them because they somehow understand this aspect of human nature better than i do?#or are they in the dark like i am? are these things assumed or are they only known when they are said... 😭#i am a little bit of a coward so i am not saying anything (also because can you even say this kind of thing to someone??#i would probably die of embarrassment) but#how strange it is to have someone suddenly inhabit a space in your life that is substantial enough that#when they're gone you feel that space open up and you miss them#the few times in my life people have conveyed that sentiment to me i remember feeling puzzled that my presence could have that kind of#weight to them. i think my problem is that i purposefully do not read between the lines if the conclusion is something favorable towards me#because i don't want to bank on something good that might or might not be true 😭 anyways this is way too long already. if you read this#then good morning or goodnight
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I’m really appreciating Seth on a whole new level on my reread and like reading the extra content on Seth and finding out about how in another draft Neil helped Seth realize that there is more to life than his own resignation and Seth finally changing his ways. Finding out that he wanted to go into social work and help people. He was going to propose to Allison. He wanted to get clean. shoot me right here right now it would hurt less

#SETH GORDON YOUR DEATH WAS TOO EARLY#I APPRECIATE YOU. I SEE YOU. I MISS YOU#your absence is deeply felt#aggghhh but also just how knowing all of this makes his death so much more tragic#like I know that Neil doesn’t give a shit about Seth dying and I understand why. but as a reader. I care !!! I CARE !!!#all for the game#aftg
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Does anybody else feel like the world has changed so much in the last 10 years that it is nigh incomprehensible, even though your status quo is locked in the past? And now you're scrambling to find familiarity in a world that is brand-new to you. Almost as if the past decade has passed in a flash, as if you had simply time-travelled to this point in time. Every-so-often, there is a little pocket that strikes as recognisable and comfortable, but it just seems to make the rest of the world seem that much different.
I feel like I'm stuck in the past, and everything around me is revolving at a lightspeed. I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in six years, I did not realise that six years had passed. I think about you constantly. Do you feel the same, or does six years feel like six years to you..?
#Is this just what being 25 is like?#Now that '10 years ago' is a comprehensible thought - rather than fuzzy memories?#Let me know your thoughts. Yes - you - person reading this!#It was the day of the dead this weekend. I saw Marcus' portrait attended to and shared photos of it on my FaceBook timeline.#It's been about four years. I still have 'recent' pictures of our characters together - it felt recent. It's been four years.#Four years of his absence. It feels like it was yesterday.
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i follow you wherever you go
#art tag#regular art... of sheepys in a field#to be honest to everybody... everything feels really bad and scary right now. really really bad#and especially really really really scary. moreso right now. so its been hard to feel motivated#to do anything besides what keeps me alive. and that includes drawing. i havent really felt like it since i finished the zine piece...#i wish i had some positive to say to this but its hard to feel positive when it feels like the next 3 yrs of your life will be a nightmare#and you know this feeling very well from almost half a decade ago. an ugly fear on your shoulder. if you know you know...#well. i dont know. wishing for a brief escape would be abandoning those who cant escape. so its hard to get anywhere with this.#so i suppose all i will say is keep those you love closest to you and cherish them. you have to love more now than ever. you must#because we never know when we may not see each other for a very long time. love those you love. love new people#even if everythings upside down and nightmarish love is all we got... why shouldnt we offer relief when we can?#though i havent felt like drawing i thought putting my thoughts into art form would help a little. i follow you no matter where you go#and hopefully where we end up is warm and nice.#apologies if that was insanely yap-y and also corny. i suppose i owe some sort of explanation for my absence
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I can't get over the landfillcore thing enough to buy toy
#I just want my devil amogy keychain back like u rmr being a kid n if u lost a precious object it was like. The time it took to frm#Losing it to suddenly moving on to a new object felt like Years. the absence of precious garage sale necklace under pillow#not ever feeling That marble in your palm again.#bitch that's kinda me n that keychain lol
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billlllllllllllllllll. billllllllllllllllllllllllll
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I hope you have a good day/night whatever it is for you^^ -🪲
It is early afternoon for me, and thank you!! I have exercised, I have eaten lunch, and the sun is shining bright enough to blind, so I have a good feeling about the rest of the day!! 💕
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here we go again gut wrenching stomach aches galore
#was thinking it hadn’t appeared in a while#welcome back fucking stomachaches#felt amazing in your absence#cory's thoughts#cory's rants
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everyone’s coming over? 🎤
yes, and where are you???????
#🌺 ❝ 𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙣𝙞𝙘𝙚𝙮𝙨 ❞ ; inbox#felt a disturbance in the force n it’s your absence. rectify this IMMEDIATELY.
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