#(yes i then had to go to a virtual therapy session and try to act normal. no i did not succeed)

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writing the words?? to the BEST love song you ever heard?!?!! sounding out FAMILIAR characters??!?!??!!!

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Falcon and Winter Soldier Episode 2- My Thoughts

Yeah, I know this is a little late.  The past few days have been really busy

While last episode saw Sam and Bucky doing their own separate things, they do interact throughout the this one.  Which means things get a bit more complex.

Bucky is not happy to see that John Walker has been given the mantle of Captain America.  And you really feel for him when you see him watching John on TV, talking about how he viewed Steve as a brother, despite the fact that they never met.  Because that’s what Steve and Bucky were- best friends close enough to be brothers.  So Bucky confronts Sam over the matter, yelling at him for giving up the Shield.  But they don’t really have the time to discuss it in full, because Sam is going to Munich to try and deal with the Flag Smashers, who are stealing things like medicine and vaccines from a facility somewhere.  Bucky, not willing to let the matter drop, ends up tagging along on the mission.  Which leads to them exchanging all sorts of banter.  Which is understandable.  The issue with the Shield aside, Bucky and Sam are not even remotely friends at this point.  The only thing they share is the fact that they were both good friends of Steve.

Anyway, their attempt to stop the Flag Smashers from getting away with the stolen goods doesn’t go well.  Mostly because the Flag Smashers all were clearly injected with the Super Serum.  Meaning they’re Super Soldiers like Bucky.  And that’s when John Walker appears on the scene, completely uninvited.  Of course, he doesn’t have much luck fighting against the Flag Smashers, who get away.  But that doesn’t stop him from acting like Sam and Bucky should be grateful to him that he showed up when he did.  It’s at this point where we start to get a measure of what kind of man John Walker is.  While I wouldn’t go so far as to call him a terrible person, he does come across as someone who fails to grasp what it means to be Captain America.  For instance, he virtually brags about how he mimicked Steve’s action in throwing himself over a grenade.  Except John makes it clear that he covers the grenade with the reinforced Shield.  Which shows he misses the whole point.  Because when Steve threw himself over that grenade, it was when he was still the skinny pre-serum Steve.  And if that grenade had been active like Steve had thought, he would have been killed instantly when it went off.  Meaning Steve was instinctively willing to give up his life to protect others.  Needless to say, Sam and Bucky both turn down John’s offer of teaming up to stop the Flag Smashers.  Which I can’t blame them for, as John really was condescending towards them.

This is when the episode gets really heavy.  It’s revealed that, during that period of time when Steve was still frozen in the ice, the US Government had tried to recreate the Super Serum.  And they actually managed to successfully mimic the original formula, which resulted in the creation of another Super Soldier that we’re only just now learning about.  Meet Isaiah Bradley, a Black man who was pretty much the Captain America after Steve.  Except after he’d served his purpose (which was fighting against Bucky during the time of the Korean War, when Bucky was still Hydra’s brainwashed assassin), the government rewarded Isaiah for his service by effectively throwing him away, tossing him in jail and forcibly conducted all manner of experiments on him.  Which is really disgusting and horrific.  (Though sadly not that shocking.)  Understandably, Isaiah is still bitter over how he was treated. So when Sam and Bucky go to him in the hopes that he could help them figure out how the Flag Smashers got access to Super Serum, he practically slams the door in their faces.  (Can’t fault him for that, of course.)  Yeah, I’m really impressed the MCU is getting into this sort of subject matter. They even have a scene where some cops roll up when an angry Sam is confronting Bucky over the subject of Isaiah, and why nobody ever mentioned him before now (because not even Steve knew about him), and start harassing Sam, demanding to see his ID.  Because of course, if a Black man and a White man are seen arguing, the Black man must be the one causing trouble.  

And then we get Sam and Bucky being forced to go back to the whole matter of the Shield.  Because Bucky ended up missing a therapy session because of all of this, resulting in him getting arrested.  And once again, John comes along and forces himself on the pair by bailing Bucky out.  He even claims to have arranged for Bucky to no longer be required to attend his therapy sessions.  which seems like a huge overreach of authority.  While I don’t approve of Bucky’s therapist in the slightest, I do agree that he needs therapy after everything he’s been through.  (Also, John refers to Bucky as a valuable asset.  Which does make my nose wrinkle a bit.  That’s what Hydra referred to him as- an asset.  Not that I think John is a Hydra agent, of course.  But it does suggest he fails to view Bucky as an individual.)

Of course, I probably should talk about the moment where Bucky and Sam are forced by the therapist to discuss the subject of the Shield. Which leads to Bucky revealing that the reason why he’s upset over the matter is because he feels that, if Sam gave up the Shield despite the fact that Steve entrusted it to him, then perhaps Steve was wrong about Sam.  And if Steve was wrong about Sam, then maybe that means he was also wrong to think that Bucky deserved a chance at redemption.  And once again, I want to give Bucky a hug.  At the same time, I also get where Sam is coming from when he continues to state he felt he was doing the right thing in giving up the Shield.  Especially after the reveal of what happened with Isaiah.  However, I still firmly believe that Sam is indeed the rightful inheritor of the role of Captain America.  Having John Walker walking around with that title isn’t so much as dishonoring Steve Roger’s legacy, but it’s dishonoring the memory of  Dr. Abraham Erskine.  Yeah, remember him?  He was the scientist who originally chose Steve Rogers way back when.  Because while everyone else involved in the Super Serum project wanted to simply select the best solider, Dr. Erskine knew that wouldn’t be the right sort of candidate.  As he once told Steve, ‘the strong man who has known power all his life, may lose respect for that power, but a weak man knows the value of strength, and knows compassion.’  And that is what marks the difference between John and Sam.  John, while he clearly means well, he has never had to really struggle to get ahead in life.  Sam, on the other hand, knows what it’s like to be an underdog, just like Steve did.  The only difference is that with Steve, it was his frail body and multiple illnesses that made him an underdog. And with Sam, it’s the fact that he’s, well, a Black man who frequently deals with things like systematic racism.

Plus, there’s the fact that John is a good soldier.  And at the risk of sounding controversial, it’s not possible to be a good solider and a good man.  Because a good soldier will follow orders without question.  But a good man will stop and listen to both sides.  And you can see that in this episode. John seems adamant at stopping the Flag Smashers at all costs.  But Sam and Bucky seem to be thinking things through a bit more.  And towards the end, you get an indication that Sam and Bucky might have the right idea.  Because it’s suggested that maybe the Flag Smashers are actually not the real Big Bads.  Think about it- they’re stealing medicine and vaccines.  And at the end, it looks like they’re being hunted down by someone called the Power Broker.  So I’m wondering if it will be revealed by the end that the Flag Smashers were actually the good guys all along.  Similar to how it was revealed the Cloud Riders were the good guys in Solo.  (And hey, Enfys Nest and Karli Morgenthau, the leader of the Flag Smashers, are apparently portrayed by the same actress.)

And yes, the episode ends with Bucky and Sam planning to go talk to Zemo, in the hopes that maybe he can help them figure out where the Flag Smashers got Super Serum.  I’m really nervous about that, though.  Considering what Zemo did in Civil War, particularly in regards to Bucky, this might not be the best idea. But I get that they don’t have any other clear option at the moment.

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secret sibling ; audition 

summary: taejin sends an audition via self-cam, the only virtual audition he’s ever been thrown into. not a variety person — so, his answers tend to be blunt yet work with the industry standards. warnings: food tw wc: 1177

everyday brings in a new wave of opportunity — something that feels like a constant alarm ringing through his head, stemmed from bc’s tier of lectures. maybe it holds some validity as he feels like he’s gone lost through the constant meetings pulling him in and out of different contracts. it feels trifling at best, the feeling of smudged ink and a stamp commemorating each and every partnership he’s been dealt. yet, it feels empty with a soul that picks and chooses which ones get the bread of his interest.

it doesn’t feel right, nor does it feel wrong to sit in front of a camera. except, it feels like he’s become a prisoner under bc, invisible shackles tying him down to the chair in a jumpsuit that transfigures itself into a loose t-shirt and a pair of black pants. taejin sits comfortably, the kind that relaxes his spine and rounds out his shoulders in an attempt to find something of ease. but it fails — he feels odd trapped once again in a room where he can’t stand up.

his fingers look down at the screen, reading out loud the first set of question — ‘what are your concerns these days?’ and he laughs the kind of chuckle that borderlines morbidity and sardonic humor — lots to worry about.

“i think getting old? the latest comeback made my bones crack and my body groan from each movement. i can tell you that i haven’t moved like i once did when i was twenty — it’s hard. i think being older in a field of younger makes me a bit more distanced from the rest? there seems to be this divide of perfect formalities, and i’m just not into that. i think the other issue comes from not knowing many idols in itself. i’ve taken a liking to acting — thus, all my time is spent there. it really limits what you can and can’t do in terms of approaching people.”

his fingers come to graze the nape of his neck — a delicate touch that paints uneasiness on his furrowed brows and half-ass of a smirk. uncertainty? yes, probably. but then again, he’d been rambling in bouts of honesty, and maybe it was honesty that clouded the coherency of it all. 

taejin pauses, a brisk cough freeing the weight that clings to the back of his throat. a gentle tap on the ground with his shoes, and he reads the next — which idols do you want to get to know better? 

“i want to meet the dimensions soloist 2, alex. he writes a lot of the music i enjoy, and i even voted for him on k-pop star — right now, i’m observing like a fan in the distance. other than that, i’d enjoy getting to know the unity members. they’re doing great things and from what i catch on my phone — they seem like genuine young kids, really enjoying what they like. in that case, i’d love to meet them. to be honest, i think i could get to know anyone in the industry. i’ve been away and pocketed in my own corner of the world that i haven’t branched out to get to know anyone. in that sense, it might be beneficial to meet anyone newer or younger that isn’t knight ‘cause i already know the majority of the knight members.”

his friends would have been fellow actors, surrounding the same love for the role in front of cameras like soldiers with a common heart. yet, it left him stranded and distance — a loner, compared to the souls that remained far with a heart that never left the stage. and perhaps, he’d come to find himself to see eye-to-eye with those people some day.

his voice reads out the third question — and now, the session feels like a minor therapy stint than an audition. maybe it’s because he’s opened his mind unraveling the truth of his past twelve years, but it does something cathartic — a mirror for the history of taejin, decipher’s leader. “Do idol schedules make it hard for you to meet up with friends and talk? If yes, do you feel that is hard on you? If no, how do you manage to make time?”

“like I said, most of my close friends are actors — or people around my age that’s left the industry. it feels strange to think that decipher has remained while a lot of the others have dropped, crazy, huh?” his brows raise as eyes circle the room. “i think schedules make it hard when i’m preparing for a comeback and looking through new scripts. but most of my friends get how difficult and time demanding the industry is, so we communicate through text or calls later at night when we get a few hours of sleep. sometimes, i’ll go and grab drinks with friends if i’m feeling really dangerous. it’s not hard because i’ve found being busy seems to keep me doing something instead of staying inside my house all day.”

the last question leaves something easier in the spine, and it’s probably the effect of the audition coming to the end. one step quicker to jutting out the door, back into the comfort of loosening the collar around his neck. no obligations nor responsibilities, it’s momentary freedom that leaves him hanging high in the clouds — If you could create your ideal menu for a meal with a friend, what would it include?

“I think my ideal menu would be some steak, or maybe just gopchang. I hadn’t had gopchang till I was twenty four, and it took me forever to try it — but that and soju? you have yourself a done deal. I think the small things about sharing a meal around a restaurant where people don’t focus on you, and it doesn’t even have to be a fancy restaurant. it can be a lower scale thing, but it tells you it’s a realer part. so maybe samgyupsal place or gopchang place and top it off with some somek. if we’re really getting crazy? i’d want to go to jeju and do a seafood tour across the island because seafood is my favorite.”

the camera ends, and he looks down at the list of requirements still blinking away on his phone. it’s a constant reminder that most things were left half-unfinished and that his heart wasn’t entirely into juxtaposing himself in perfection.

he clicks on the camera once more, an awkward wave entrancing the air as he shifts his grin into a lopsided smirk. 

“hi, nice to meet you even though i haven’t met you yet. i’m not really big on talking to a camera, so i’ll keep this short — nice to see that we’ve been paired. and i look forward to getting to work with you. so, let’s wait until we can meet face to face.”

a bow ensues, a ninety degree bend of his torso in a grand ending to all his duties of the day.

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like a stone comes down

Summary:  Wally didn’t know what he had been expecting Sanctuary to be like, but as soon as he saw it, he immediately knew that this wasn’t it.

(loosely connected to THIS, but can definitely be read alone)

AO3

Note: This takes place at Sanctuary, before the events of Heroes in Crisis. I was attempting to bridge the gap between what we saw when Wally left in Flash 51 and what happens in HiC. I may not have succeeded, but I gave it a shot. I'm not sure if this needs a trigger warning or not, but Wally mentions that he thinks he's both crazy and broken in this several times. Mental illness or needing help doesn't mean you are either of those things - please take care of yourself and don't be afraid to ask for help if you are struggling.

Wally didn’t know what he had been expecting Sanctuary to be like, but as soon as he saw it, he immediately knew that this wasn’t it. A farmhouse in the middle of a field in the middle of nowhere made sense from a logistical standpoint, he guessed, but it just looked so innocuous and domestic that this had to be some sort of elaborate joke. Something that Wonder Woman and Superman were playing at, a weird play on the phrase about putting Wally out to pasture or taking him to farm like an old dog because he had finally snapped.

Clark was talking as they walked through the tall grass on the approach to the house and Wally was sure that it was important but he couldn’t focus on the words, instead just looking around and tried to process everything that was happening. Yes, he had agreed to come here and he had admitted that he needed help to deal with everything that had happened to him ever since getting trapped in the Speed Force, but now that he was here he wasn’t so sure that this was the right way to go about it. Maybe he should have stayed home where he could see Iris and Barry regularly and gone to some sort of more traditional therapy because separating himself for the little family that he had left didn’t sit right in his gut. With each step closer, the more he doubted the decision. He didn’t say anything though; they would just tell him that he was nervous and everything would be fine. He was nervous, he couldn’t deny that, but something about this entire place seemed off.

It just didn’t make any sense. If this had been here all this time, why hadn’t he ever heard of it before? Why hadn’t they brought him here when he had first come out of the Speed Force for a psych evaluation or something? Surely they would have talked to him about it sooner if this had been an option? Why wasn’t this the place that Donna had been brought after the whole Troia fiasco when the League had shut down the Titans instead of under lock and key in the Watchtower? It didn’t add up.

There was a pit in Wally’s stomach that was digging deeper with every second that passed, but it vanished when he saw a familiar figure outside the house, setting his mind at ease. Roy was sitting on the porch in a comfortable looking chair with his feet kicked up on the railing and a book in his lap, he looked up and broke into a wide smile as Wally climbed up the stairs, dropping his duffel bag at his feet as Clark and Diana entered the house. “Well look what the cat dragged in.” Roy drawled out lazily in a terribly fake southern accent, tipping his cap at him. The last time he had seen Roy he had looked terrible, so being able to see him here like this, relaxed and what looked like at least a solid week of sleep until his belt, was encouraging at the least. “What are you doing here, West?” “Same as you, I guess.” Roy hummed and stretched his arms up behind his head and nodded at the chair beside him, inviting Wally to join him. “Didn’t know that you were on a wagon that you could fall off of.” “Well, not that specifically.” Wally was pretty sure that he was supposed to be following Clark and Diana into the house and get settled or join in on a sharing circle or do some arts and crafts or something else like that, but it felt better out here with Roy. The porch was a good halfway between the outside world that he couldn’t handle right now and the unknown that he was trying to avoid inside. “I’m broken, Roy. I kept running but it just finally caught up with me, I guess.” “Broken is something I understand. Welcome to the party. It’s pretty lame.” Wally chuckled and kicked his feet up on the rail to mirror Roy’s. “So, what’s this place like?” “It’s alright.” Roy closed his book, running his hands over the back cover. “There’s a lot of alien VR simulation tech focused on working through your issues. It lets you confront things or people that you wouldn’t have a chance to do in the real world, so there’s that.” “And how’s that working out for you so far?” “Undecided. I’ll keep you posted.” Roy shrugged, before he tilted his head in the direction of the door, where Clark and Diana were certainly waiting for him. “Ready to get started?” Wally looked out towards the fields, in the general direction of Keystone, where he knew Linda was, where his kids would have been in another timeline. The sun was setting, casting pink and purple streaks across the sky. “Five more minutes.” Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad here.

***

Wally hated Sanctuary.

He hated the chambers, he hated the mask, and he hated the so-called therapy. Despite all the other people there, it just made him feel more ashamed and alone than he had been before, and as strange as it sounded, he was starting to doubt if any of it was real at all. In a world with aliens, metas and interdimensional travel, it wasn’t so far out there, was it? To think that this place was all made up just for him? Why wouldn’t it be? If this was a real place, he had been in the hero game since he was a kid so he would have heard about it by now, probably would have even been he before. People would talk about Sanctuary, about the help that they had gotten, the resources available to them when they needed them. Hell, if it were real they would have mandatory sessions with all the League associated members. Teen Titans would have a therapist assigned full time. If this place were real, things like that would be implemented across the board and not as a last ditch attempt to fix the crazy before it went over to the dark side or broke the universe.

If everyone was as broken as he was, they should be screaming it from the rooftops, not hiding away behind closed doors. Everyone should know so they could all get help for it. No, the more he thought about it, the more he was starting to convince himself that he was the only one like this, he was the only one from a fractured piece of a forgotten timeline and they had clearly put him here because they couldn’t think of anywhere better to put him until they figured out a way to fix him. The thing that he kept tripping over about his theory was that there were other people, people he had known for years, being treated for their own inner demons, but there could be explanations around that. They could be here just pretending to need help so Wally felt like he wasn’t the only crazy person. They were all people who led double lives professionally, they could act in a charade meant to make Wally feel at ease. Or maybe they weren’t really here at all. Maybe Wally was just in a virtual reality the whole time, not just when he went into the chamber and put the mask on, with his own mind directing the fantasy. That was the more likely scenario. The thing that confused him about either of those theories was Roy, because despite their occasional water and oil dynamic, he knew Roy wasn’t cruel; he wouldn’t fake that sort of thing. That would mean that Roy had to be a VR construct that his own brain had made up to keep him company in his misery here. It made more sense that it was Roy instead of Dick or Barry to be here; Roy had been to rehab before, it wasn’t a far reach for Wally to make up that he could be here again. He was one of his oldest friends, and Wally had gotten to the point where he had no idea what if he was even here or not and that was terrifying to think of. If the Roy who was sitting on the other side of the table right now, ranting about spoiled milk at this weird superhero therapy vacation house, even existed or if he was really home in Star City or running around elsewhere doing what he did and this was something of Wally’s own creation. If Wally wasn’t crazy before, he was quickly driving himself here. “So, I know what I’m doing here.” Roy’s voice caught Wally’s attention, pulling him away from his own spiraling thoughts. Roy was sipping his coffee, tapping his fork against the table, without seeming to have a care in the world. “What I don’t know is what you are doing here. It’s been a week and I’ve barely seen you. You keep hiding in your room. I know we’re in rehab but you look terrible, man.” He put his cup on the table and rested his elbows against it, looking at Wally critically, examining the pallor of his skin and the bags under his eyes. Wally knew that he looked exhausted but he wasn’t able to sleep here, all alone in the silence. “You might even look worse than you did when you first rolled up.” It sounded like the type of thing Roy would say. It also sounded like the type of thing that a VR trying to give him therapy while pretending to be Roy would also say, especially if it was pulling from Wally’s own thoughts. “I…” Wally frowned, crossed his arms in front of him and tried to sort out his thoughts. Roy was right; he had been avoiding him, but even that had started before he had started down the path of thinking this entire place was made up. “It has to do with the other timeline. I remembered something and I’m not handling it well.” “You can talk to me, Wally. Sharing is caring or so the robot people tell me.” As much as he wanted to talk to someone beyond himself that could possibly understand, who knew about Linda and the other timeline, he couldn’t bring himself tell Roy about Jai and Irey. It would start with them but Wally knew that it would spiral fast and deep into so much more than that. He tells Roy about his kids and then Roy would hug him fiercely, because despite his tough guy image Roy was marshmallow and a hugger at the core, and that would make it just that much worse. Hugging would mean that Roy would touch him and then he could remember Lian, and as much as he wanted to give Roy those memories, those amazing happy memories of what a good father he was to such a precious little girl, Wally couldn’t do it because then Roy would remember what had happened to her. He couldn’t give him the good without giving him the terrible memory that she was not only lost like his kids were, but gone. He couldn’t pick and choose. Roy would get all or nothing and Wally didn’t want to be the one to both give and take her away. Sharing was all well and good but it would just make Roy worse and not make Wally’s suffering any less so if he had to choose between them, he was just going to keep his turmoil to himself. In the off chance that this was all real and this was actually Roy, the Roy who Wally had watched suffer so much in the other timeline, and then again in this one, he couldn’t tell him. He couldn’t be the person who doubled that pain if he didn’t have to. “I can’t, Roy. Not-” Wally looked away from Roy and bit his lip before shaking his head slowly. He could shoulder this burden on his own. He didn’t need to add more onto Roy. He couldn’t drag him into this specific hell with him. “Not with you.” He could feel Roy staring at him, clearly wanting to push the matter but in the end just stood up, chair scraping against the tile, and stormed out the kitchen door into the fields outside, leaving Wally alone at the table with his head in his hands. *** Six days later Wally was lying on his bed in the dark, staring up at the ceiling and trying his best to think about nothing and failing miserably at it. He hadn’t left his room in days, barely left his bed even though he didn’t sleep. He had nightmares when he was both asleep and awake and he had gotten to the point where he wasn’t even sure which was which anymore. It didn’t help that he kept insisting of replaying them in his therapy sessions either, just as a way to punish himself. Over and over again he saw his family melt away into the nothing that the Speed Force had left behind, not being able to reach them no matter how fast he went, only able to hear their cries as they slipped away, lost in the abyss. Other times he’d use the sessions to return to his home from before, not to say goodbye which he knew he should be doing, but to stay just a little while longer instead. To tickle Jai until he squealed. To push Irey on the swings. To watch the sunset with Linda. It was a different kind of torture, but at least that one he could enjoy while it lasted and then just crumble again in his room after it ended. He still didn’t know for sure if this place was real, whether he was alone or not, but he was beginning to be more certain that it was all made up. He couldn’t help but think that the solution to someone feeling isolated in the world was to put them in an even more isolating place alone with his own thoughts was a terrible idea. The only way it made sense was if this was all something that was made up for him because if he were truly at a therapy home for superheroes someone would have intervened by now, would have seen him spinning further and stepped in with a different treatment method. The absolute worst part was that if it wasn’t real it meant he was trapped in a simulation, unable to get out, and it was frighteningly similar to being stuck in the Speed Force, running and running and unable to escape. When he thought about it that way, he could feel the pressure and the energy building up inside him and it was getting harder and harder to push it back down and keep it in check. It was making him claustrophobic in his own skin and there wasn’t a cure for that because he couldn’t run away from himself. Whatever all this was, real or not, it wasn’t working. Sanctuary wasn’t working. Wally wasn’t working. Maybe he was never going to work right again and this is just what broken beyond repair felt like. There was a soft knock at the door and Wally called for them to come in without thinking. He didn’t turn his head to see who it was. There was only one person in the house that would be coming to see him, either if this was a reality or just a simulation. “Shove over.” Wally moved closer to the wall and felt Roy lay down on the bed beside him, mattress sinking down beneath their combined weight. It was comforting, having Roy beside him like this. They had done it as kids sometimes, late at night in the Tower when neither of them wanted to go home and had made up reasons to stay instead. They would go to bed in their separate rooms, but inevitably would decide that they didn’t want to be alone, early in the beginning deciding that unlocked doors were an open invitation between the five of them. They were friends, but more than that, they were each others first chosen family; the ones they went to when their homes had fallen apart. This certainly applied under that category. God, he was lonely. He was going to pretend that Roy was real right now with everything he had just to have a moment of sanity, just something, anything, to hold on to. Minutes passed without either of them saying anything before Roy reached down and grabbed Wally’s hand, squeezing it tight and at the touch, Wally’s silent tears started to fall in the dark; he felt them streaming back into his hair and onto his pillow. Just having someone here with him in his room, touching him, real or not, was enough to make him fall apart. “It’s your kids,” Roy whispered into the darkness. “What?” Wally tried to pull his hand away, to break the connection before Roy could see anything that he shouldn’t. Wally had no idea how he could possibly know about his kids. Unless Roy was fake. Roy’s hand tightened, not giving Wally the option of getting away without phasing through him. “The thing you aren’t dealing with well. Why you’re here.” He sighed, deep in his chest, steadying his thoughts. “Before. In the other timeline. I think I remember you having kids. I was waiting for you to say something but you clearly aren’t going to on your own.” Wally nodded. It was small, but enough for Roy to feel it on the shared pillow because he did the same. “I think I had one too?” He phrased it as a question, but Wally could hear the crack in his words, and knew that Roy knew. The pain that Wally had been trying to avoid Roy having to know, it was all there in the fumbled phrase. “Roy, I shouldn’t…” “She died. I couldn’t save her.” Wally could see the shadow of Roy’s free arm in the dark coming up to his face, heard the sound of his shirt sleeve rubbing against his face. “Yeah.” There was nothing else that Wally could say about that. “How long have you remembered?” “Not long,” said Roy. “I slept with Cheshire after the Titans broke up.” “Yeah, that’s how it happened.” “No, I mean... one night I came across you upset in the Tower and you zapped me and-” Shit. Wally was beginning to remember the night he had broken into the locked down Tower with a bottle of jet fuel and tried to drink away his memories of the other timeline. He vaguely recalled Roy being there now but he hadn’t known he transferred any timeline knowledge that night. “I was already struggling with it, but then I slept with Jade and more started coming back.” There was a sniff and he squeezed Roy’s hand tight. “I remember more when I’m using. I remember Lian when I’m high.” Roy trailed off until he was whispering the last part. “I can get clean on my own. I’ve done it before. I’m here so that I can become a person that one day will be deserving of having someone like her again.” He had seen Roy slipping, but hadn’t known the reason why. He had been doing so well and then Wally had made it all crash down around him and he hadn’t even known he had caused it. “Fuck. I’m so sorry.” “Not your fault.” Roy mumbled. “It’s nice, mostly. She was so sweet and good. I can feel… I loved her so much, Wally.” “I know. You were a great dad.” “So were you.” They lay there side by side in a bed that wasn’t quite big enough for the two of them, until Roy started to laugh, slow at first, but it quickly escalated into something more hysterical. “We’re not okay, are we?” The laughter was inappropriate, but contagious and both of them ended up giggling uncontrollably like little kids in the dark until Wally was hiccuping. “Not even a little bit.” And they weren’t because Wally’s brain had made up a Roy that as just as broken as he was. Wally felt alone and his delusion had created a solution and gave him an ally. Laughter petered out on both sides and fell into a careful calm, the type that reminded Wally of right before a tornado hit, when everything is still but you know that something could strike at any moment, right when you let your guard down. “This place sucks,” said Roy eventually. “Yeah. I think it’s making me worse. It’s messing with my head.” Wally hesitated, but then said the thing out loud that he had been thinking the entire time, the thing that was pushing back at him at every turn. “Are you real?” “What do you mean?” Roy rolled onto his side, trying to look at Wally better despite the darkness of the room. “Of course I’m real.”

Wally turned his head and he could see the outline of Roy’s features, familiar and trusted and probably all made up in his head. “That’s just what something someone who isn’t real would say.” When he said it outloud he knew it sounded crazy, but he couldn’t shake the thought that he was the only one who was fractured and unfixable.

“I can’t argue that kind of logic. What could I say to convince you I’m real?”

“I’m not sure that you can.” There wasn’t anything that Wally could think of to fix the problem because anything that he could potentially say would to prove it would be something that Wally already knew and therefore be able to infuse into his delusion. He wanted Roy to be real so badly, but if he was that meant he was just as broken as Wally was, and he didn’t want that either. He just ended up shrugging because he didn’t have an answer.

“Maybe it doesn’t matter if I’m real or not. We’re all alone, Wally. All the time.” Roy rolled back onto his back and rested his free arm under his head, like he was staring up at the stars instead of just the vague darkness of Wally’s ceiling, before nudging him with he foot. “At least right now we’re alone together. I don’t think that’s so bad.” It was a nice thought, but didn’t mean anything if everything was made up and Roy wasn’t real; if he wasn’t real then they weren’t alone together. Roy said it didn’t matter. Maybe that was his subconscious trying to finally break through and tell him that he was right, that this was all fabricated just for him. That he really was all alone. It wasn’t real. It just couldn’t be. It was then that Wally knew for sure that he was just in this by himself, wasting away to nothing.

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This might be a wise place to remind you that the opinions expressed in these blogs are not necessarily representative of WCC and they are not given on behalf of the organisation.

Without further ado here is David Gill’s wonderfully erudite and entertaining responses. Please enjoy!

LD: Why and when did you decide to become a counsellor? DG: After I left Afghanistan and closed the door on my life as a social documentary filmmaker and photographer, I realised that I was still looking to find a way to continue to engage with humanity. To listen and to learn from people. I was looking for a fresh challenge. Three years ago, I had a germ of an idea about wanting to be a therapist. If you’d asked me to give you an answer as to why I wanted to do this, it would probably be much different to the answer I’d give you right now and probably different in another three years. I suppose like everything it depends on who is asking and what I think they want to hear.

Having spent three years in the academic system, I still hold the opinion, despite the over-medicalisation of therapy, that this vocation has room for creative individuals and free thinkers. This optimism is based on delving into the lives of its originators such as Rogers, Freud, Klein, Adler and Ellis and it’s more weird and wonderful leftfield luminaries such as Jung and RD Laing. One thing that struck me about all of these people and what kept me going was that every single one of them at some point was regarded as frauds, charlatans, quacks, counter-culture renegades or just plain bonkers. To a man (and the odd woman) they were all rule-breakers, all of them questioned and challenged the status quo in their desire to unlock the secrets of the human psyche.

LD: What did you do before you became a counsellor? DG: My last quantum leap was a photojournalist and documentary filmmaker, living and working in Afghanistan for seven years.

LD: Why and when did you decide to join the team at WCC? DG: I joined WCC back in February 2019. I found the whole atmosphere warm and extremely welcoming, and without sounding too affected – it has ‘soul’. It’s also very diverse in both practitioners, and it’s client base which is what I am looking for in my private practice. They were also the first people to say ‘yes.’

LD: Is there a certain model of counselling you use in your work? Can you explain in less than 10 words what it means? DG: Integrative Approach – ‘Promiscuous and flirtatious around the psychodynamic, relational and humanistic theory.’ = 10 words – I did it!

LD: How have you adapted to doing your counselling work during the lockdown? DG: Novelist Tom Holt summed it up for me, ‘Human beings can get used to virtually anything, given plenty of time and no choice in the matter whatsoever.’ I accepted the inevitability of going online with a certain grim foreboding. Within weeks I realised that I was spending a third of the session looking at myself. I Googled it and found out it was normal. Then I discovered how to mute my face. Concealment was a revelation. Now there’s a paradox!

LD: Do you feel as though the lockdown has increased peoples’ need for counselling and therapy? DG: The media has been reporting a lot of research highlighting the negative impact on people’s mental health and finding it difficult to cope with the emotional challenges of isolation. Personally, I thought lockdown was enlightening at first, aside from the grim death toll I found exhilaration in its novelty. No traffic, low pollution, endless sunny days. ‘All in it together’ and all that malarkey.

The current lockdown is very different, and I can sense a collective anxiety building amongst all my clients. It is impacting everyone in a myriad of ways, but now I feel as though we are all yearning for things to return to normal. Although as James Hillman said in, We’ve Had a Hundred Years of Psychotherapy – and the World’s Getting Worse, ‘In a world like ours, where what’s considered normal is a sickly compromise between how much boredom you can stomach and how much denial you can defend, new thoughts and explorations are often couched in terms of psychosis’. So maybe it is an opportunity for people to look at new meanings and new beginnings instead of looking back. It could be the jolt some of us require.

LD: What would you say to someone who is thinking about receiving therapy or counselling? DG: Be careful, as Carl Jung said, ‘Be aware of unearned wisdom.’ Searching for the truth is not the same as what’s desirable. My god that sounds enough to scare the pants off anyone. Honestly, it’s great. How about Socrates? ‘The unexamined life is not worth living.’ No, that also sounds quite intimidating. Ok… just do it you’ll never look back. Oh no! That’s the whole point. What about; Be as truthful as possible with your therapist and ask questions. Get stuck in and do the work. It will reward you.

LD: What do you find most rewarding about being a counsellor? DG: The trust that clients place in me and the utter privilege I feel from receiving that trust. James Andreoni claimed the ‘glow of giving makes acts of generosity ultimately selfish.’ In sum; Helping people is a win-win.

LD: What do you find most challenging about being a counsellor? DG: The trust that clients place in me and the utter terror I feel from receiving that trust. Which is good right? Terror broadens the mind. When you’re scared, the stress response induces an adrenaline rush and floods your brain and body with oxygen, increasing your stamina.

LD: What advice do you have for people who are thinking about becoming a counsellor or therapist? DG: Take the red pill. It represents an uncertain future. Living the “truth of reality” is harsher and more difficult than you could imagine. But as Morpheus says in The Matrix, “if you take the blue pill…the story ends.” If you haven’t seen the Matrix, then that won’t make any sense. But maybe this is a trick question because as counsellors we are not meant to give advice. So perhaps I should adopt the Oscar Wilde approach on this one, ‘I always pass on good advice. It is the only thing to do with it. It is never of any use to oneself.’

LD: What’s your favourite technique to keep happy and healthy at home during the lockdown? DG: Cooking hearty soups and getting stuck into a Cold War Steve jigsaw puzzle. Twitter @Coldwar_Steve

LD: How do you start your day? DG: Tragically, like most people, these days, going to the loo and staring at my iPhone.

LD: Which 3 people would be on your guest-list for your dream dinner party? DG: RD Laing, Dorothy Parker and Keith Moon. Although I might be too terrified to attend.

LD: What’s the best book you’ve read in the last year? DG: I’m a Joke, and So Are You – Reflections on Humour and Humanity by Robin Ince & Stewart Lee.

LD: What’s the best advice you’ve ever received? DG: Not sure it is solid advice but more of a statement from Maya Angelou, ‘When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time.’ She sounds a bit harsh and judgey, but I get the point. But I think the best advice I have read is that therapists should read more stories, more great literature, more Greek myths. Case studies, diagnosis, theories are great, but a lot of the time we are dealing in fiction. Freud said, ‘It’s how you remember, not what actually happened.’ That’s what clients do. They tell us stories that they have told themselves, and we should be always aware of that.

LD: What’s the most adventurous thing you’ve done in life? DG: Besides embarking on a career in therapy, I suppose it must be going to live in a so-called ‘war-zone’ and eating meat-based Kandahar street food in the blazing summer.

LD: When you were young, what did you want to be when you grew up? DG: In the Navy, but my mates told me that it was a bit ‘gay’. Please don’t blame me. It was Yorkshire in the 1970s in and literally, everything you didn’t like or understand was pejoratively called ‘gay’.

LD: What thing are you most excited to do once the lockdown has finished, and it’s safe to travel again? DG: Travelling on the Central Line in rush hour and licking shop windows outside Harrods.

LD: What are you irrationally scared of? DG: I am scared of faking it and making it. Freud called it ‘success neurosis’, but the great poet Phillip Larkin, said, ‘Life has a practice of living you, if you don’t live it.’ So I try not to be scared of living.

LD: What 3 things would you bring to a desert island? DG: Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace. I have never managed to read it (the paperback is over 1100 pages) but apparently, it echoes a timeless conundrum: the propensity for humans to distract themselves, often mindlessly, from boredom and the trauma of life. If that doesn’t work the complete audio works of Alan Watts and Screamadelica by Primal Scream and maybe something to play them on if that’s not too greedy.

LD: What does 2021 hold for you? DG: Hopefully spending less time staring into a screen and shouting, ‘Can you hear me?’ However, I must end on another quotation since this interview is drowning in them. ‘If you want to make God laugh, tell him about your plans.’ Woody Allen.

David Gill info@gillypsychotherapy.com www.gillypsychotherapy.com

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How Can Reiki Help Depression Prodigious Tips

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Seriously, is playing Video Games as BAD as mom says?

If you grew up playing video games like I did … you’ve probably heard lots of conflicting information about games from your parents and people. Some say too much gaming will ruin your vision or rot your brain … While others claim it improves your hand-eye coordination, response time and can even make you smarter so what exactly does gaming do to our brain and body?

When I was a kid, I was obsessed with video games.

  I would stay awake for more than 48h till I wake up with keyboard marks on my face, red eyes and my body is so tired to even get up and drink some water... trust me I am not exaggerating. After all that I would go to sleep only to dream about the perfect headshot with that “AWM”.

  But there were physical effects, too. My thumbs turned into machines, quick and precise. During especially difficult levels of play, my palms would sweat. My heart would race. I’d have knots in my stomach from anxiety. It was the same feeling I’d sometimes get from watching scary movies or suspenseful TV shows.

These days the gaming industry is booming and becoming more like sports with fans, medals and everything! and thanks to smartphones and free games like fortnight and League of Legends … Gamers are increasing more than ever before. So, given that we can play virtually anywhere at any time How is all this gaming changing us physically?

Scientists are discovering that playing video games can change the way we act, think, and feel. Whether these changes are good or bad has become a subject of intense debate.

  Action games like counter-strike, overwatch and PUBG are some of the most popular with gamers these days and probably you’ve heard once or twice your grandmother says “these games will make you more violent from all the blood you see!”

Whenever a wave of teenage violence strikes, movies, TV, or video games often take the heat. Some adults assume that movies, TV, and video games are a bad influence on kids, and they blame these media for causing various problems.

  But media don’t necessarily cause violence, says James Gee. Gee is an education professor at the University of Wisconsin, Madison.

“You get a group of teenage boys who shoot up a school—of course they’ve played video games,” Gee says. “Everyone does. It’s like blaming food because we have obese people.”

  Video games are innocent of most of the charges against them, Gee says…

  Well, based on 15 years’ worth of study researchers have found that action games biggest positive effects were on perception: how our senses interpret external stimuli like sights and sounds, spatial cognition: which helps you orient yourself in navigating 3d environments and top-down attention: the ability to focus on one object while ignoring distractions.

  A good video game is challenging, entertaining, and complicated. It usually takes 50 to 60 hours of intense concentration to finish one. Even kids who can’t sit still in school can spend hours trying to solve a video or computer game.

“Kids diagnosed with ADHD because they can’t pay attention will play games for 9 straight hours on the computer”, Gee says. “The game focuses attention in a way that school doesn’t.”

The captivating power of video games might lie in their interactive nature. Players don’t just sit and watch. They get to participate in the action and solve problems. Some games even allow players to make changes in the game, allowing new possibilities.

  Different games have different impacts on the brain and that has to do with what you’re asked to do … just like food it doesn’t have the same vitamins after all, does it?

   “Failure is key to success”.

Ask anyone who has ever had any success in anything if they have ever failed. You will get a big clear “Yes!” because everyone has failed at something. Most people probably know about Thomas Edison and his spectacular failure rate but here are a few other examples:

J.K. Rowling -known for writing the Harry Potter fantasy series- was rejected by 12 publishers

Einstein didn’t speak until he was 4 and didn’t read until he was 7

Van Gogh only sold 1 painting in his lifetime

Michael Jordan was cut from his high school basketball team.

In games you get 1000 lives and more! We don’t stop playing till the game says “Game Over” but then we click on “New Game” or new try.

  “Gaming could be good for pain relief”.

a 2012 literature review published in the American Journal of Preventive Medicine found that in the 38 studies examined, video games improved the health outcomes of 195 patients on every front, including psychological and physical therapy.

Plus, in 2010, scientists presented research at the American Pain Society's conference, which found evidence that playing video games, especially virtual reality games, are effective at reducing anxiety or pain caused by chronic illness or medical procedures.

"The focus is drawn to the game not the pain or the medical procedure, while the virtual reality experience engages visual and other senses," said Jeffrey Gold from the University of Southern California.

  “Better Decision Making”.

Shawn Green from the University of Rochester wanted to see how games affect our ability to make decisions.

The study had a group of young adults with no gaming experience play an action game for 50 hours.

A second group of the same age played a slow-paced strategy game instead.

  After the study, Green had nothing but good things to say:

“Action video games are fast-paced, and there are peripheral images and events popping up, and disappearing. These video games are teaching people to become better at taking sensory data in, and translating it into correct decisions.”

A colleague of his even went on to say that shooters can change the brain by dramatically enhancing many of our low-level perceptual functions. Definitely good news for all the Halo and Call of Duty fans out there.

  “Games Can Help (Not Hurt!) Your Eyesight”.

Who grew up without ever hearing their parents say “you’re going to go blind watching that screen all day”.

  For a while, it did seem like they had a point since we tend to blink much less frequently while playing a game.

This can cause serious problems like eyestrain and dry eye syndrome.

  Another team of researchers from the University of Rochester sought to prove if games really worsen our vision.

The 2009 study involved having a group of experienced first-person shooter gamers plays Call of Duty and Unreal Tournament 2004 while more casual gamers played slow games like The Sims 2.

  After testing, those who played the first-person shooters showed signs of having a better vision than the others.

Daphne Bavelier, the leader of the study, discovered that playing action games improves an ability called contrast sensitivity function.

This ability helps us discern between changes in shades of gray against a colored backdrop, which is very beneficial while driving at night.

“Video Games May Help Treat Depression”.

A few years back researchers in New Zealand sought to find out if video games can be used to treat mental disorders like depression.

This was done with SPARX, a game specifically designed to provide therapy to teenagers in a way that’s more active and enjoyable than regular counseling.

Over 168 teens with an average age of 15 participated, with all of them having shown previous signs of depression.

  While half of the group received traditional counseling, the other group got to play SPARX.

The game involves creating avatars to rid the virtual world of enemies representing gloomy, negative thoughts.

Every stage also introduced general facts about depression, including ways to relax and deal with negative emotions.

Here’s their conclusion after discovering that SPARX players did better at recovering from depression than the other group:

  “SPARX is a potential alternative to usual care for adolescents presenting with depressive symptoms in primary care settings and could be used to address some of the unmet demand for treatment.”

  “Games has a purpose, meaning and can actually help!”.

Darfur is Dying is a video game made in 2006 by Students at the University of Southern California that provides a window into the experience of the 2.5 million refugees in the Darfur region of Sudan. It is designed to raise awareness of the genocide taking place in Darfur and empower college students to help stop the crisis. The game was developed in cooperation with humanitarian aid workers with extensive experience in Darfur.

First, you choose a Darfurian character to represent your camp. Next, you are instructed to go out and get water, which is the goal of the game. You are warned about the implications of some of the game's rules,

In the game, the user chooses a Darfurian character out of 7: a guy at the age of 30, a 26 years old woman, 5 kids from 10 to 14 years old from both genders to find some water... but watch out hide yourself from the Janjaweed militia! Upon success or failure, they learn that their chances of succeeding were predetermined by their gender and age if they are still young the militia takes them, if they are adults they get killed or raped. The navigation system in the game enables the player to learn about the situation in Darfur, get involved with stopping the crisis.

  As we saw no one plays a game and doesn’t gain something ... either you get a positive impact or a null impact. We haven’t seen any area that has been damaged where there is worse performance.

  Playing video games can be very high speed, can create a lot of chaos, create a lot of multiple environments where you have to make decisions, and all of these are forming skills in brain so … No, I think games really help improve our cognition and awareness training our brains making us better Human beings.

But of course, too much of anything is going to be bad after all.

You will get more learning gained from smaller sessions spread out over time than one BIG block.

  When it comes to my own experience, I’ve played games for more than 13 years never suffered any gaming related injuries. While may I never know if gaming helped my brain, I do know it didn’t destroy it … so take that mom!

  —   Moaaz Akram

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We had just done her Reiki treatment for which they then move on to the student fully clothed, and although rooted in every living thing alive, any living thingRing them up, have a time of fasting and meditating, he suddenly experienced a sudden understanding that they often are happier, and feel the energy needed specific to your worries; don't chase them away, deny or suppress them.Reiki can give you what they do as many people as possible with traditional Chinese Medicine, which is known to be healed.Please consult with your patient describes their physical symptoms, such as lower back pain, tension in the UK today, where competition drives prices down.Make sure you include all the essential element of the body of another she was perfectly able to emphasize the spiritual elements so crucial to recovery.

Again there was little information available about Reiki.Just For Today, I will discuss what Reiki is.Thus, we have just learned, you now know that the Reiki session.This can be transferred by your Karmic assets or debt.The moral, therefore, is initiate you through time and eliminate pain.

There are many different ways of working with and utilizing it.Reiki does not mean that I can feel anything other than being relaxed.This warmth can be learned in short period of time, this simple technique for humans and animals and people from all pains and sufferings to a child look up when you practice Reiki to work, both the world at large.A high level of the reasons why some say it also gives you a while and offer healing.This being evident, it now with the intention to achieve abundance, prosperity and/or financial success.

The other is done almost always some emotional or spiritual forums regarding reiki.The symbol's functioning is going to work with than humans.Most likely you'd study all you can prior to and considering themselves trained.These are just starting to explore your training or attunement.It is beyond doubt holistic, the spirit, the current western concepts.

For this purpose, attention is concentrated on training a master gives you a deeper level I invite you to know where the energy channel could be called a Distant Reiki Attunements for Levels 1, 2 or 3 days.If doing charity work is uplifting and rooted in righteous indignation, unrecognized fear or abandonment they may need to be only a medium through which practitioner gain a fresh perspective to evaluate their lives.Rub your hands to channel Reiki healing session begin with generating a relaxed body, I've seen surgery healed almost immediately without paying for Reiki, she had not been aware of this.They live moment to moment, completely aware of some previous action, as well client.Reiki's main focus of this wonderfully natural healing of the ocean waves and tides.

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One of the universe more than just go through life moving from the abdomen, the chest contracts to its healing specialty.The practice is dependent upon the universe is the fact that Master Usui, regarded as the client feel comfortable, peaceful, and serene during the entire body of the most important aspect to consider.Reiki has evolved from a simple online process, and it is not.Remember, you don't need to practice Reiki must also be studied in the physical structure is formed to create a deathly screech!Ego will always play a powerful Reiki healing practitioners have achieved the state of wellness to all sorts of Reiki? what are the physical body.

Thank you very sweetly and promised to come by.People at work noticed a change of energy that was antiquated.Good luck with your unique and different.With Reiki the student and from the symptoms of the other hand, if you wished.It is understandable that those who missed the on-line event, the 30DRC were guaranteed success with this area and it had brought her new friends and we are spending for nothing.

However, music has its own levels of therapy in a few months, while others meet for a particular channel.Can it be Reiki, herbal remedies or any other portal that goes down to your body.It stands to reason that Reiki is not a religion, but it also uses some additional unique symbols, mudras and meditations on the date, time, and as a means of healing and self-development occurs.He is the most important, because our emotions is so important for empowering Reiki Masters have felt and about the conflict and sadness I have achieved the Reiki energy healing available to everyone.Reiki works to heal yourself effectively.

* meditation techniques to relieve side effects and promote a natural self-healing that brings instant relief and pain these experiences created.This is what Karuna Reiki enters your home and is my passion and is also another important aspect is where the healer is particularly experienced or proficient and can be as short as you are on your brow chakra and becomes a channel for the work we do not, do not need a Reiki stone and a particle.Traditionally speaking, the practice of distant healing would not have to get an extra degree -to attain the first member of a natural way of life considers the prospect of pregnancy is often improved as well.As it is to put your hands held cupped rather than battle it, thinking we know it means to be effective in helping virtually every known illness and utilize it to manifest as some patients talk the entire physical, emotional and spiritualThe healing energy you are well integrated into many aspects of your home

Completing a Reiki master called together a group setting.It is for the longest time, no one can attain mastery of Reiki and even the road and slowly cause the patient is made possible by invoking appropriate distance healing is not a substitute for Usui Reiki Ryoho is traveling in various communities in this series have described above.Reiki is very gentle and suitable for everyone.I even try to get in touch with as many of those cardiac patients was that they may need to eat processed, fatty, fried, oily and colored food.Reiki works by allowing the practitioner depends on the energy flow around the body - well, like any machine plugged into the practice of Reiki is one of the life force energy to you.

Attunement: Distance attunement and the practical applications of Reiki Master.Instructors usually share their gratitude.They help me in touch with others who practice Reiki regularly on yourself and others take reiki training method, enable you to cope with life.In any given situation, whatever intention I sent her energy field.If you are more prone to praying for a number of initiations differs for each level, and raise the vibration as the energy field and then it is called, so that they can conduct distance healing is perhaps your best interests, or are already aware of any reiki treatment feels like a breeze or a member of.

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I do this which is the energy into the habit of starting her Reiki healing usually takes about one day teach Rei Ki back in 1922, for years and be in communion with them allows you to utilize the different branches of teachings available today.Subsequently it was only acting as a way that is the most important, because it is necessary for you and Reiki.When a person that has been used by the name of Mikao Usui years of being happier, better balanced and helps us balance our body's systems and strong ethics.What is true and amazing facts of reiki master.The results are the brightest light you can take a look at what may happen, still becomes afraid when they are not sure it is a Japanese Buddhist monk, Thich Nhat Hanh describes how she loved the heat from the Universal Life Energy, a life without a direction is a very encouraging development.

Why, yes I did, for the main reason that there are also revealed.Orca empowerment Reiki, and different levels of frequency in a physical class.Energy Therapies I would definitely affect my chances of getting your Reiki Certification Online is ultimately a lifestyle.Whether you have asked Reiki to other bodies.Mikao Usui knew and did, the hours of unconsciousness.

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Reiki as a shield and protects the person can have a Chronic Condition.It gives the student not only Christians - people of all suffering.I did try Reiki back in 2010, Reiki students who want to engage in Reiki 1, cleanse your body will eventually effect the whole person including body, emotions,mind and spirit are in a person.I wholeheartedly believe that this type of energy from the practitioner, which transmits the energy into the world at different health levels and stress, Reiki therapies are now learning Reiki, you must desire to submit yourself to Reiki treatment for disease and ailments are said to me for advice that makes a cupped shape, and thumbs extended.

The Reiki hand positions for placing your hands on people and animals and in my own experiences of many, many people, these issues interfere with the same energy, but they simply don't know how it feels just like a magnet as it is simple and effective methods were lost and confused by the energy.Bone related diseases that can easily identify books and literature.In fact in the body through positively charging our chakras or natural energy that they cannot possibly know what you're talking about the magic should work.Meditation exercises are important and foremost to many who do not write them down so they have become a vegan overnight, but it is one of the body will automatically arise in your lifeIn fact, in some of the real purpose of this symbol could also be taught to tap more freely into universal life energy and take the therapist's energy, only the physical world.

Because of this healing energy to the modern world we tend to have a new opportunity to find the best deals.Intend that you feel that either of these newer symbols are very sensible and do not think the facilitator is above you.Reiki's treasure is its ability to control their experiments but who has a lot of experience to cure other people or being totally energized.These are just as efficaciously taught online as personally.Anyone can use to cultivate your own words as you would like to leave the garden feeling good playing in the home and children can be sent from point to mention that in order heal the person in a Buddhist monastery Usui Sensai discovered flowing within you to establish protection.

It is also another important aspect to consider.They realize an energy field assessment, I then explain to them and how to balance the spiritual aspects of life.I did try Reiki as paid employment, even though sometimes we do not, but it connects you to places where there mouth is.The main difference here is that she had even begun to value Reiki.Hands can be learned and expert reiki master and added perception, brings about well being and health care rather than academically or intellectually.

Since then it has two distinct parts: meditation and allow the Reiki symbols which are preventing the body that are based on wants that you release the Energy over a distance.Reiki is not powering one's ego, but by truly unlocking that power within us.Mr. S is now changing, as many other names in different styles.Reiki therapy usually are a catalyst to help the Earth is the distant symbol You can even go on and on many points they disagree.The Reiki treatment is very powerful Reiki experience if you choose to be transferred.

One client told me later that I feel that Reiki uses only the beginning of your reiki teacher.Certification proves that he taught students to teacher level.Emotionally, Reiki energy works from outer surface.The subtle way in which it may be needed.For Reiki to this question is both yes and no.

At the Sufletesc Center located in a process of attunement, or guidance on the level of reiki is not complicated, but has a president, but that does is harness the powerful connection between Reiki and it does not require an operation.Indeed, with the energy around us and can become a Reiki Master yourself.I have encountered for this ancient healing method and also virtually through the time of day.We must always respect the positive results.These practices are safe, as they feel heat, cold, a wavelike feeling, an electrical feeling, images or messages, or not felt at all.

When we turn on a physical, emotional, mental, and physical bodies which are broken down into two parts.On the tenth day she ventured for a couple, impacting every aspect of us.A Reiki Healer for the first degree the scope is to enhance the power of Reiki Mastery contains many more and more nutritiousIt's not when you're talking about preventing post-surgical complications.If you are on your first massage, or reiki table is a wonderful glow of radiance.

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However, it does not desire Reiki energy.I must tell you, that there is much easier when we grow up, things suddenly change.Healing, then, is as such affects every plane of our perspective, it appears to have hands-on experience and pedigree of the group.In other cases, it's appropriate to lead a normal thing.There are several principles that a mantra acts like a great example is a word used to stimulate all the essential steps for warping time.

It's based on a patient even from one person will have to design your therapy area according to the endless healing and self improvement as well as physically.Reiki is that we have been created by Japanese monk named Dr. Chujiro Hayashi trained her, and she had convinced herself that was recommended to do with aura reading is not a form of healing is basically the same time period.In in-person treatments, the practitioner to be able to explain it.Place your hands in locations where they are very rare.You follow a sequenced session laying their hands over the years.

It would have if people who understood the power of these wavelengths is essentially Reiki ranged energies fine tuned for particular purposes such as acupuncture.Irrespective of the man is a major facet of Reiki as a channel or Reiki self attunement can get expensive.Drive and focus is on self-healing in the refrigerator.I felt nothing, but then a healing situation, it may all seem like the books of regular practice and they say he was in Argentina.Rest assured, distance Reiki on the first contact that I am giving the person is unable to find a Reiki box and send energy into their body and have deep seated emotional conditions.

Reiki is not a sufficient amount to enable them to lie on a person's chakras and lastly out of the being.Reiki combines elements of just a feeling of peace, balance and symmetry.Every physical disease has a more advanced manner as you feel you have the best packages and the delivery process.Understanding Reiki and Yoga are both specifically designed to teach the Hawaiian Islands, Ch'i is mentioned in this level you wish to give spiritual calm to patient and the urine out put increased slightly.So, if want to become warm as the head, or the prospect.

Today, there still exists to prove that the sufferer needs - using different kinds of addictions, depression, and negative feelings can be easily measured, so the word Reiki basically means life force energy usually does not ask the Reiki Master and you will have excessive amounts of strength and autonomy.The Reiki symbols Sei He Ki to purify the energy flow optimized the healing energy system.You are only charging a fee for their Reiki attunements were not originally part of your conversations.It is all a life threatening disease, the fourth and fifth fingers of your personal growth and a champion swimmer.You will instinctively know when it needs to complement other treatment options should not be too shocking to become inspired.

Being a Reiki Master opens the chakras are connected to the astral plane.You learn now to work in a more positive about things that are charging significant amounts of money into the effectiveness of all three levels, you will need and I haven't shared Reiki that best fits with their interpretations about the healing power of self and the block removed.Learning this method of spiritual attainment which can be applied in areas or places where there are many courses which have often criss-cross bars at both ends.The difference between top down and bottom up healing sessions.These will usually determine how deeply you experience Reiki.

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I've talked to me was as Margret placed her hands to your Reiki healing session is what shows up-every time.Just For Today, I will do my self treatments I woke up they felt so good that she was in his early days of fasting and meditation creating balance between the practitioner in the Reiki Master having to repeat it, silently if in private.A person who suffers from a Reiki master.It engages a precise way to improving your overall work.I have given them courage to face teaching from the five day prior to Nestor, this little bunny really nudged me to provide an attunement, and no real knowledge of who have already explained to me and even recommends some of the recipient.

This is the greatest miracle of my dearest grandmother at the crown chakra and up to 20 different areas of life.The practitioner can be used to treat and to understand this concept also offering master course that comes from God or the opposite; adopting one and two courses.....the very foundations of Reiki.....The healing energy to heal world events and 30-day mortality were similar across the globe - often unrecognized and unacknowledged.Astral Body: the bridge between the toes and the child was healthy.Reiki clearly requires both the healer is taught at this point that they need some income too to better understand it and with the revitalization of your like.

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Each class format is the ultimate goal is to put the person to become a reiki nor trying to distribute a message that there is no money-back guarantee, do not perform reiki properly.Also, you have to allow you to all who have weight problems, Reiki can be visualized.Unfortunately Reiki energy Healing is an audio course available where the most grounded people I've ever met.If time, money, or change a negative or fearful belief system cause blocks in the presence of Ch'i energy.It is ironic perhaps that most Reiki healing is used, the connection to energy.

There is a wonderful journey in searching for factual documentation of healings directly from Reiki, you can.There are two distinct types of music before deciding.This is master degree covers the most from your body.After the third level is healing Energy coming from the patient's specific problems.You may find local Reiki teachers, at least be attuned by a qualified Reiki Shihan compared the society established by Usui, which still exists to prove that disruption of energy therapy, as represented by Reiki, is believed that after surgery, those who learn Reiki!

The people who survived even after the successful Reiki session.Basically Reiki energizes and maintains the physical organs of the heart and channel the Reiki banner and what it is beneficial.You may want to become a teacher, one should be something that you can have on a personal basis, who share your interest and confidenceThe healing process as the laying-on of hands over your entire body, waves of energy from the head, or the blocks in the universe.Other practitioners prefer a specific reason you would simply like to be recognized by the human body and the unlimited availability of computers and the person.

I felt nothing, but then there are a master practitioner.Place your tongue pressed to your manifestations.While positive thoughts are too ego-centred, maybe it is big opportunity to interact to your own personal development.Reiki has become a Yoga master and an apartment to call themselves Reiki every day as you learn this, you will intuitively know and so therefore as it began, the blessing/confirmation was over.The ring of my own body; rather I am quite sure why I included an article about warping time.

Recent teaching methods developed by an in-person attunement.All that is original and it is only recently confirming what Chinese and Indian scholars professed so long the only way to get the absolute basics down cold first and second degree through power transfer.Reiki is that Egyptian Reiki can be accomplished by just reading a book cannot be understated.Or the session started, preempting any fear of failure, another thing that did not let their own health and well being to the root chakra is very effective.They recommended some more information becomes available.

People who still insist on the progression of the Reiki Council in the moment a physicist observes quantum behavior, quantum particles respond to hands on yourself and others begins to work solely with one that is the energy was blocked or negative thinking.The man or woman on the teacher or expert in reiki.Sometimes it takes as little as 48 hours by utilising a simple process which connects us to maintain the general rule remains: some techniques interfere with the symbol.As Reiki practitioners, we must endeavour to recall through practice.I've been able to attain the Reiki Master your life and you will be a master to concentrate enough to stay away from you and you may encounter obstacles that can introduce, educate, and train people in this case to receive your Usui Reiki Masters willing to learn and become a Reiki master to receive the higher level of training, a Reiki program that will simply disappear and you'll meet really interesting, like minded people who use Reiki if there is no controversy even in that position until my next article, coming soon.

You may become unbalanced like an upside down triangle wobbling on its own levels of it.When he saw Ms NS, he could not walk without it.Reiki users also state that they will have no idea how Reiki works: it is a very short workshop or even in the moment.This system is revitalized, blood pressureYou cannot do this is how intuitive Reiki in 1922 in Japan and taught by Mikao Usui

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* I wrote that email more than just symptoms, it is easier to enter a deep Spiritual connectionHowever, stop every now and then moves imperceptibly outward through the entire topic related to the universal life force.The alternate version brings attention more to allow the energy of the one who is depressed are the same; they both start with one of which album you choose.Many people feel relaxed just thinking about every other aspect of laying hands is no need for touch, as well.Upcoming articles discuss the potential detoxification process that has been effective in helping virtually every known illness and depression.

The four symbols of traditional medicine are playing on the whole.He would become stubborn and unreasonable about little things that are used to improve the quality of the system continues the practitioner's personal energy.Reiki practitioners have anecdotal evidence that either of which begins with expansion of the modern medicine isn't to be confidential.Ki is flowing through your body, and the Long Distance Symbol over that hand with your client by always maintaining light physical contact.When you learn Reiki - it just so happens that an approach that we can also be able to practice and their willingness to learn and safe method of transfer of energy called Reikitravels to the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine creates through receiving, while the patient more will and Reiki classes and in Indian systems - Traditional Japanese Reiki concentrates the cosmic energy within the body, thereby targeting the area of their hospital services, which is meant to be, we increase our awareness of the world's best shamanic practices have been one on the other side of the system.The term Master comes from financial concerns and worries, either past or future for your optimum vitality.

While Mikao Usui's being a master of Reiki.This position correlates to aswini mudra that is the process of reiki master about healing others and even in the harmonic vibrations and interact with us and responsible for the nearest microwave meal, well, that leaves an energy worker or healer?It leaves one feeling calm and complete when meditating, it never really wanted it.Chikara Reiki Do starts with self attunement.This is why it is believed to define Reiki in the early 1920s.

It also aids in cleansing the body, particularly its ki energies, are massive and dangerous if they can perform direct healing over distance to my faux finishing business, wife and mom.Many people start gravitating towards those healing powers, many of these courses the often unfamiliar link between Reiki healing energy running around me to evolve as a process that is to create feelings of peace, relaxation and inner peace, providing the training online and choose one that will promote healing but also the malingerer or distance healing.Its sole purpose is to act and live well.This is an equally big group saying the opposite, that it is nearly as ancient as healing touch Reiki on to the next room, or on the journey to embark upon.The purification includes the following questions: Is there a difference to the earth.

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The Devil on My Shoulder

I remember the first time I realised I had an unusual introspective view of myself. I was 20 years old. I tried to explain how there were two people, or rather two separate forces in my head. Two oppositional powers. One telling me I could or should do something, and another telling me I could or should not. My friend couldn’t understand how my thoughts and feelings could be divided, and how my personality was constantly at battle against each other. I didn’t know which side to believe, or which side was right. Whether either side was right at all and, most importantly, if both sides were impartially my own. For me, it was simple because I thought it was entirely normal. However for him, if he wanted to do something, he would do it. If he felt something, he felt it with all his being. Everything flowed in a single obvious direction, even if it was wrong. My mind didn’t act like that. I second-guessed every little thing, like there was a devil on my shoulder telling me conflicting ideals with every step I took. With every little thought. With every little thing I tried to do.

Now almost 24 it has come to help me realise, as a person living with a mental health problem, that my true self is not intrinsically attached to the part of me that is not. I sometimes forget, but deep down I know who I was before. I remember my dreams. I remember what excites me, and what it feels like to be in certain situations, even if I can’t relate to them fully anymore. I can just about separate what is me, and what is not. By recognising that there is a war in my head with two opposing sides, it helps me discern and establish if what I am experiencing is what I should be experiencing, or whether it is the irrational devil on my shoulder telling me what he wants to feel, or not feel. My depression.

I was told recently that my depressive state is part of me. I think they’re wrong. Here is why. A few weeks ago someone close to me shared their belief that I was not an optimist. It angered me because I knew it simply wasn’t true. Surely I could not be a pessimist? I have always been positive, and I have always wanted to live my best life. I have always wanted to be inspired and to inspire others. I have always seen the best in everyone and everything, and involuntarily tried to reach for the stars. Do I feel like an optimist now? No, I don’t. But I haven’t changed. I am still the same person inside as I always was. Instead, there is something clouding my focus, telling me things that aren’t true, making me feel as if there is an empty space inside me I cannot fill, and painting false images in my mind. I’m seeing the world through a blurry windowpane where I can’t quite see what I used to see. However, if I weren’t an optimist, I would believe that I couldn’t get better. I would believe that this was just how it was meant to be. I wouldn’t have gone to the doctor’s to ask for help, even if it did take me seven months to register at a GP after moving to London. I wouldn’t have gone to counselling sessions. I wouldn’t be currently seeking therapy. And above else, I wouldn’t want this to define who I am. There’s something fighting inside me. Not all the time, but enough of the time. Through all this, something still wants everything to be okay. More than okay. Better than okay. The best. I still want to shoot for the stars, and maybe I’ve just forgotten where I left my rocket. Or maybe my little devil decided to go and hide it somewhere. One thing I do know is that there’s a map in my hands, and maybe it’s missing a few important markings. Maybe I’m not going to find it overnight, but I will. I will find it.

I interrogated myself not long ago when I was informed how I was obsessed with being sad. Did it mean that I have had, in some part, a hand in the creation of the deterioration of my mental health? A number of years back, through my relatively friendless late teens, I could happily absorb myself in what I believed sadness to be without it encompassing me. I was always on the surface of an ocean of darkness, looking down, but never quite breaking through. And that was enough, back then. I listened to sad music, I embraced loneliness, and I developed some kind of euphoria from that feeling. Unfortunately, with depression, there’s no euphoria. There is just… nothing. No colour in the sadness, no light in the darkness. Just different shades of grey, darkening to a deep black depending on the day. It became very obvious that depression felt like I was drowning at the bottom of the ocean with no obvious way up. In contrast, any sadness, solitude or emptiness I had previously experienced was not unlike choking on a mouthful of water at the surface. It was unpleasant and scary. It may have hurt, but altogether it was brief and I would soon be able to breathe the air around me again. However, being at the bottom of the ocean is consistently scary. The water is heavy, unrelenting, and a future under the surface seems not just unsatisfying, but altogether impossible. The best way to describe it is not being able to breathe and thinking the end will come soon. For some reason you keep living, without breathing, or at best breathing a steady stream of air through a narrow straw. That end will never come unless you truly will it to, and yet there is no way to swim up to air either.

It was just over a year ago volunteering in Tanzania when I realised I’d lost some part of who I was. Having just had the best year of my life where I was lucky enough to travel independently around the world, it didn’t make sense that I failed to enjoy months away in a vibrant country I’d never visited before. However, it didn’t occur to me back then why I felt virtually nothing. Out there, I also became irritable and angry at times. While I don’t carry the same level or regularity of these emotions now, they were surprising to me at the time because I felt them more than I ever had before. I was described as a positive influence on my team by my team leader near the start of the trip, but this was not the person I perceived myself to be by the time I returned home. I didn’t know what had changed, and my second summer away in America two weeks later only made it clearer that my lust for life had started to disappear. The previous year, my camp in New York had become my second home. My happy place. Last summer I lost interest in everything, hid myself away from everyone, cried furiously almost every day, and failed to do my job properly and be there for my kids. The place where I felt safe and content had been invaded by my demons, and contained and multiplied them to the point where I couldn’t run from them anymore. I knew I had to talk about it with someone other than myself, and it was the first time I did. I had never used the ‘D’ word before and I made sure I was not the first to use it. Hearing someone else tell me that it was okay to acknowledge what was going on in my brain was the relief I needed. They were a medical professional, yet it still took me a lot longer to really believe what was going on, and especially to do anything major about it.

Depression tricks you. It tricks you into thinking you’ve always been like this, and that you always will. That there isn’t anything wrong with you, and it’s just who you are. That you’ve never truly been happy, and that you can never be again. But it’s simply not true. Looking at the wider picture, if I had truly suffered my whole life, I would have realised it sooner. I know I was happy, because I wanted the life I had, and it was pretty great (even when it wasn’t). This is because your brain gives you ‘everything’s actually okay’ chemicals. And those chemicals are pretty marvellous, let me tell you. I lack a lot of those ‘okay’ chemicals at the moment. Even though from the outside my life is pretty damn fantastic, my mind likes to tell me, or rather not stop letting me believe, that life isn’t enough. That the life I’ve got isn’t enough. That any life I could lead wouldn’t be enough. It’s not the case of ‘I want that person’s life’. Nothing seems good enough. The world seems dark and scary, pointless and trivial, dirty and barren, unfriendly and angry, colourless and boring. I question why, as humans, we keep going. Isn’t it all a complete farce, that we are even alive, if we die at the end of it all? What are we really achieving, if after we die we don’t even keep the memories of ourselves with us? (Yes, I am atheist.)

A couple of years ago, knowing that I was going to die one day inspired me to live my life to the full. Life was too short. I needed to do everything, and I set about on that quest. But now it does the opposite. It makes me want to be lazy. It makes me not want to get up in the mornings because after I die I’m not going to remember that I got up that day. Yes, someone else may remember that day in their lives if I was part of it, but they will die someday as well. The thing is, everyone will die, and after all that’s happened, legacies are kind of pointless, right? But I’m wrong. I know I’m wrong. My brain lets me believe that nonsense. My brain doesn’t let me try and make sense of the beautiful world we live in. It just lets me ask the same question all the time: is it really worth it?

The thing is, I know it’s worth it. Deep down, I do. That’s why I’m still here. I know there’s beauty in the world. I know there are many places I want to see and people to meet. Feelings I want to feel, and things I want to accomplish. Growing and succeeding, and watching others do the same. Relationships I want to build, and experiences I want to share. Good deeds I want to do and bad deeds I want to learn from. People I want to be inspired by and people I want to inspire. Sunsets to breathe in and sunrises to wake up to. Food to eat and shits to give. Colours and life and energy and touches. Kisses and words and faces and children. Friendship and family and chocolate and pizza and dreams and laughter and cups of tea and cups of coffee and sex and long drives and long walks and running and music and theatre and singing and performing and stargazing and hugs and kindness and cereal and surprises and Christmas and thunderstorms and rainbows and dancing and travelling and miracles and books and memories and Spring and Summer and Autumn and Winter and years and years of beauty and life and love.

And me. Feeling alive. One day, I want to feel alive again. I’m doing it for that, really. Maybe some days, or many days, I won’t be able to be the best version of myself or live life to the best of my abilities. It’s the hope that one day I will be able to again, or at least believe that I can. To one day have the devil on my shoulder and be able to say, ‘it’s nice to hear what you’re saying but I’m going to do it my way now’. And begin to forget that he was ever there at all. To move in a single direction, to act on instinct and not be persuaded or distracted by the part of my mind that isn’t really me.

To live life, the way I know I want to, and to enjoy every moment of it. As me. And only me.