#(v) angels deserve to die (Supernatural)

[crushedbyhyperbole]

Whiskey on the Tongue

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader

Summary: You are the forbidden fruit Dean had always wanted to taste, and when you steal his whiskey the way you do, he is powerless to resist.

Words: 2.2k

A/N: This is my first ever Supernatural fic after having started watching the show just before Christmas. I know I'm late to the game but is it ever really too late to start loving a fandom? I've tried to make the reader generic in every way other than being cis-female, and Dean finding her hot.

It's been an absolute age since I wrote anything and probably longer since I posted anything here on Tumblr but I'm getting back into it now. Hopefully this finds its way to people in the Supernatural fandom who love a bit of Dean smut.

I hope you enjoy and, as always, I value your comments and feedback.

Warnings: Smut, explicit smut, alcohol consumption, mentions of people who have passed away, profanity as standard with pretty much everything I write.

*** Minors do not read or interact - 18+ content ***

Dean let his head fall back against the headboard, clenching his fists to try to distract himself from the deep ache in his left leg.  It had been falling asleep for well over an hour now, but he didn’t want to move and disturb you.

The door to his room in the bunker was closed.  Locked, in fact, though he did not remember doing it.  You didn’t comment or so much as move when Sam brayed on the door and tried the handle, calling out for Dean to return his book.  The very book that was in your hands right now.

“I need that book back, Dean.”  Sam grumbled.

“Not now, Sammy!”  Dean called back, hoping his little brother would just go away.

“I’m researching Nephilim to help Cas with the Kelly situation, Dean.  It’s important.”  Sam became more insistent.

“I said NOT NOW, SAM!”  Dean hollered with a kind of finality that even Sam wouldn’t argue with.

Outside the door, Sam huffed and stalked away.  Dean looked down to see you looking up at him from your position, lay on his bed.  Your head was resting on his left calf, his leg bent with his foot tucked under his right knee.  You had your knees up with your foot tapping along to his banging playlist, your jeans tight around your thighs and with your head tilted back he could see all the way down the deep V of your t-shirt.

He was going to hell.  Straight there.  Do not pass go.  Do not collect two hundred dollars.  And he probably deserved it.

He snapped his eyes up towards the ceiling but it was too late, he could feel himself stirring uncomfortably in his jeans.  If Bobby was alive he would have skinned him raw just for having you in his room.  Bobby was always protective of you, his niece.  You were only a couple of years younger than Sam but Bobby had made himself very clear that you were off limits.

“If you touch one single hair on her body, I’ll make you regret the day your balls dropped.  Do you hear me, boy?”

Bobby Singer.  That man did not mince his words.  And to this day, Dean had taken that threat as gospel.  Even now that Bobby was up there with the Angels, that son of a bitch would find a way to keep his word.

You shifted, causing a painful twang to shoot up his leg.  The reflexive grunt he failed to stifle made you look back up at him, giving him that glorious view again.

Dean decided he could die like this.  If having a dead leg was a legitimate threat to his life, he would go out happy with the view of your rack in that lacy black bra he could see within the V-shaped window of that too-tight t-shirt.

He raised his eyes, once again to heaven, asking Bobby to forgive him or give him strength or something because – god help him – he wanted to take you right then and there.

It wasn’t unusual for you to seek him out after a case when you didn’t want to be alone, but you didn’t want to talk.  You would just sit while he drank, reading or working on spells.  You said he quieted the noise in your head.  Hell, he wasn’t going to argue, you were a sight for sore eyes every time he came home.  You were wicked hot and sexy in a non-slutty way.  Not that slutty was bad.  Dean liked slutty.  But that wasn’t you, you were different.

A drink.  That’s what was missing.  Dean needed a damn drink, especially if you were going to torture him by laying on him all evening.

He reached over to his bedside unit, for the bottle he kept in there for special occasions.  A bottle of twenty-five-year-old Speyside single malt that he liberated from the British Men of Letters on his last interaction with Ketch.

The pour made you stir again but it wasn’t until he raised the cut crystal tumbler to his lips did you move.  Your hand came up and claimed the glass from underneath, twisting it as you sat up so as not to spill any.

“Where’s yours?”

The cheeky glint in your eye had him pursing his lips in mild annoyance.

“Don’t pout.”  You lifted the glass, turning it until the mark left by his lips touched yours and you sipped, looking him straight in the eye.

Dean’s jaw went slack.  The glisten of the whiskey on your lips and the satisfied hum you made when you swallowed – he swallowed unconsciously when you did – made his mouth go dry.  He had never seen you like this.

You moved to kneel on the bed and walked your way slowly closer, giving his leg a tap; an instruction to move it aside.  He did, causing pins and needles to infest his nerves like ants swarming on a log to escape a flood.

Knelt between his spread legs, you brought the glass to your lips again, sipping at the amber liquid.  You leaned in.

Dean watched you, breathing shallow, attention rapt.  You hadn’t so much as touched him, yet every nerve in his body felt like it was on fire in the best possible way.  The closer you got the shallower he breathed until he was almost holding his breath, looking down his nose at how close your lips were.  His eyelashes looked to flutter against his cheeks just as yours did when you brushed your whiskey dappled lips against his.

He refused to lick where you had been.  He couldn’t.  As soon as he tasted, he would pounce, and…

“Don’t.”  He croaked out when you moved to lay your lips on him once more.

You looked confused but at least you didn’t look hurt.  He couldn’t bear it if you looked hurt because of him.

“Bobby…”  Was all he could say through his constricting throat.

You smiled then, full of amusement, lips brushing against his, you whispered “he’ll understand.”

Dean tried not to respond to you but you coaxed his lips apart and teased your tongue to meet his, short circuiting his brain.  The taste of the scotch and the sweetness of your mouth made him groan.  He had fantasised about having you for years, but never did he think it would be you seducing him.

His hands on your hips guided you roughly to straddle him, the bulge in his jeans pushing up against you as you settled.  He took the glass from your hands and downed the contents, his eyes on yours as he dropped the glass carelessly on the bedside unit.

Your lips met his again but this time you devoured each other, tongues stroking together, moans stifled by each other’s mouths.  He trailed his hands up your body, dragging your t-shirt along with them.  Finally, he could see what he had been having glimpses of this whole evening.  Plush breasts cupped in scant lace that was completely impractical for a hunt, Dean realised, like you had meant to come here like this.  You had intended this from the beginning.

He tore at the lace, dragging it under your breasts to free them, shoulder straps slipped down.  Pawing at them like he had never touched a tittie before, all he wanted to do was suck and nip and nibble.

Your breathy sigh was divine, and the moan that followed was filthy.  You cupped the back of his head as he took your nipple into his mouth and sucked hard, pressing him further, asking for more.

While he worked on your breasts you undid his belt and fly, reaching into the front of his shorts to release him from the awkward angle at which he was trapped.  You stroked him, firm but slow, feeling him for the first time.  You had always wondered what he had going on down there that every woman he had ever been with would come back for more at the drop of a hat.  You weren’t disappointed.

Dean lifted his hips, you thought to allow you to push his jeans down but instead he flipped you, making you squeal.  Once under him, he ravished your breasts anew, pinching one nipple hard while licking and sucking the other.  Soon you were a mewling mess, hips writhing, begging for something he hadn’t given you yet.  Excited that he had taken control away from you, you watched him sit up and yank your jeans down, lifting your legs until they were bare.  Your knickers followed and he spread your legs without preamble, lowering himself between your thighs until his hair and eyes were all you could see above your mound.

“Jesus Christ of Nazareth!”

You groaned as he suckled against your sensitive spot.  Fuck, he was good with his tongue.  Everything about him was good except his image.  Bad boy Dean Winchester.  He was every woman’s wet dream.  He had been your wet dream since you were seventeen.  But now you were plenty old enough and finally getting what you wanted.

Bobby had told you to stay away from him when you were a kid.  Dean had a reputation as a ladies man even then, but he respected your uncle Bobby enough to keep his distance… until now.

Dean dipped two fingers inside, creating pressure in exactly the right spot.  You gasped and gripped his hair as your pleasure began to crest, tugging on it for dear life.  He looked up at you then, to see your eyes closed against the intensity of it, neck and face flushed red with your oncoming orgasm.  When it came, the pulsing of your core was his sign to slow down.  He left off his suckling and stroked you through the pleasure, watching you all the while.  You were a beautiful mess.

“That’s my girl.”  He praised you in that deep rough tone you adored, helping prolong your climax until you took his hand away yourself.  “Are you ready for me?”

You nodded, allowing him to lift your knees up and stroke the weeping tip of his cock over your swollen clit.

From the front pocket of the jeans he still wore, he pulled a foil packet with Trojan embossed on it.  He was swift with its application, aiming his tip just so.

When he slid home, your eyes rolled back and you reached to grip his forearms.  It was something Dean would never get tired of seeing but it felt that much different with you.  You were the forbidden thing he had always wanted but could never have.  Even now he didn’t know whether he would come to regret this.  God, he hoped not.

Balls deep in you, he leaned forward to kiss you, wrapping your legs around his hips.  His instinct was to fold you in half and pound the living shit out of you, but you were already overwhelmed and he wanted to make this soft for you.

“Tell me what you need.”  He spoke softly as he nuzzled your neck.

“Just you, like this.”  You sighed.  Who knew Dean Winchester was a considerate lover.

His slow, measured thrusts brought you closer to the edge, your core fluttering each time, he could feel it.  It surprised him how quickly is climax built at this pace, but the added connection you both shared seemed to turn him on.  He would never give up Busty Asian Babe porn but he could get used to this with you.

You didn’t close your eyes against the pleasure this time, you watched him come undone above you, gasping as his orgasm made his legs and arms shake, muscles clenched tight to keep his weight from collapsing on you.  When he swelled you dug your fingers into his hips to pull him deeper with each stroke, and when he spilled you also came, eyes fluttering shut finally.

Dean knelt up, slipping the rubber off as soon as he was clear of you and, tying a knot in the end, tossed it in the direction of the trash can.

“Shot.”  You said with a smile as the sticky bundle went straight in the can.

He quirked and eyebrow and give you a slightly smug lopsided smirk that said:  What can I say?  I don’t miss.

When you moved to sit, he stopped you.

“Here, lemme get that.”

“Thanks.”

He stripped his t-shirt off and used it to clean up the wetness between your legs.  Though none of it was his, it would still dribble when you moved.  Afterwards he tucked it under your ass and flopped down on the bed at your side, moving his arm behind your head so you could rest it on his chest.  You were both content.  Both had goofy grins on your faces.  Both disbelieving that you had finally gotten what you wanted.

A loud knock at the door started you.

“Are you done?”  Sam said.  “I need that book.”

“NO!”  You and Dean shouted back in unison, laughing afterwards.

“Bobby’s gonna kill you.”  Sam called back through the door.

“I KNOW!”  Dean yelled gruffly, pulling you closer.

There might be a time in the future where the ghost of Bobby Singer came to make him regret the day his balls dropped and, if it happened, Dean would be happy to see him again.  In the meantime, you and he could work on a whole bunch of reasons to make the cranky old bastard come down from up high for a visit.

Dean pulled the sheets over both of your heads, nibbling at your neck until you moaned his name.  Aside from the roar of Baby’s engine, he had found his new favourite sound.

[katsidhe]

could you do 9.10 and 9.13 for episode reviews.

Love your takes btw.

9.10 Final Thoughts

well, well, well, if it isn’t my old friend season 9. God I love season 9. buckle in. 

Plenty of what season 9 tries to do with angel drama falls flat, but plenty of it doesn’t. It’s at its strongest when interrogating the ways that the angels are looking for personal purpose, rather than folding themselves into various suit-clad factions. In this episode, we have Gadreel, Abner, and Thaddeus, all with very different takes.

Thaddeus is the most boring of the three—a straightforward narcissist and sadist. (Lucifer will follow in his rockstar-impersonating footsteps in s12. SPN clearly has a dim view of the music industry.) We don’t care when he dies, and we aren’t meant to.

Abner’s found a family, and he’s let go of revenge. He’s clearly found peace and happiness—but it’s stolen.  I’m ambivalent about this. I guess I could take his word that his vessel was abusive and therefore deserves to have been permanently body-snatched, and I guess I could believe him when he says his new family loves him, even though they clearly don’t know what he is or what he’s done. His regard for humanity as something other than a project is… uncertain. Even if everything is as sunny as he explains to Gadreel, there is fundamental selfishness and short-sightedness here. Get what you want, Abner says, and never let go.

Gadreel asks Abner if his vessel is happy. This reveals both Abner’s scorn for his vessel, and Gadreel’s uncomfortable awareness of and respect for Sam (and his bartender vessel, who Gadreel stares at, and who accepts Gadreel back easily).

Gadreel! OF COURSE Gadreel’s gotta be the scapegoat for Lucifer’s release, HAHAHAH. I love him to pieces, oml. Seriously, the Sam parallels could not BE more blatant. I’ve talked about this before, that it makes the earned antipathy between them all the more alarming, all the more visceral. The big sticking point is that Gadreel’s years of pointless torture came prior to his “redemption” arc, rather than as a consequence of it. Gadreel has all of s5 Sam’s despair and helpless anger and self-loathing, all of his drive to set things right at any price, and all of it is amplified by his trauma.

Sam and Gadreel’s relationship is defined by its liminal spaces. Gadreel threatens to tear Sam apart, but he does not, even when he is tortured. He locks Sam away in a dream rather than force him to watch him kill, or to suffer. But when Sam forces Gadreel out, Gadreel leaps instantly on telling Sam he is weak, reciting back Sam’s fears and Gadreel’s own. This reads like Gadreel is aiming quite a lot of his own self-pity and self-hatred at Sam.

Cas’s murderous rage at Gadreel when his identity is revealed is fun. It shows that Heaven’s PR team did a good job, for one thing. But Cas is furious because it’s specifically Lucifer. And the Apocalypse, and all the attendant suffering, his and Dean’s and Sam’s. It’s a personal wrath.

“Stupid for the right reasons…” oh, Cas, your scarcity of positive human role models is showing. Also, Cas’s particular brand of reassurance here isn’t actually something Dean has a problem with. He expresses regret over having been tricked—he says he’s stupid, he says he got played—but he’s never in doubt that his intentions were good. He’s never in doubt that he did the righteous thing. He’s never in doubt that he’d do it again.

Dean apologizes to Cas for barring him from the bunker. (Sam will not receive an apology.) Cas compares what Dean did to Sam to what Cas did by trusting Naomi. There’s a key difference here. Cas’s moral compass is not the problem; it’s his critical thinking skills.

Crowley, Cas, and Dean are a hilarious trio. (Also, I really hope that Cas’s pimpmobile got to Heaven too, like the Impala.)

Crowley being genuinely sorry that Kevin’s gone and his willingness to risk his life to help Sam are the best two moments of the generally weak Crowley-has-human-blood plot line. They feel earned. [also Crowley’s ‘I told Kevin he should’ve run!’ is both accurate, funny, and sad.]

Let’s talk 4.21 parallels! I mean, first, the glaringly obvious: Sam locked down to be purged of something supernatural; Sam suffering; Dean unable to bear Sam’s tortured screams; a very atmospheric fan. Dean walking away.

and then, of course, there’s “at least he dies human.” Right off the bat, Dean tells Cas he’s going to kill Gadreel. Cas, concerned, says that this will kill Sam too; Dean, sounding tortured, says he knows. Now, obviously, Dean doesn’t kill Sam. He doesn’t even get particularly close. But it’s really interesting that this is the first thing Dean brings up! He declares unprompted that he’s ready to kill Sam rather than leave him possessed. Which is both a recapitulation of the save-him-or-kill-him mantra, and an ironic twist on the decision Dean made in 9.01. Then, Dean knew Sam would rather die than be possessed, but had him possessed anyway. Now, Dean has decided instead that Sam must die because he is possessed. Obviously Dean’s opinion on the possessing entity has changed in the meantime: Sam’s hasn’t, but Sam’s isn’t what matters. 

Dean reaches new levels of PEAK IRONY when he declares that Cas should possess Sam too. Cas has to actually point out that Dean can’t, in fact, volunteer Sam’s permission. Because apparently Dean had forgotten, lmaooo. Crowley, on the other hand, is happy to oblige. Dean directs Cas to burn Sam’s tattoo off.

The language of this entire scene is so sexual. I mean, it’s Crowley, of course it is, double entendre is his first language. But this theme recurs again and again. Here it is just more pointed than usual. It is queasy.

Gadreel has Sam trapped in a Dean-type happy place—a hunt with ghouls and cheerleaders, no organic produce to be found. And I don’t think it’s because Gadreel doesn’t understand what Sam likes. I think it’s because Gadreel’s aim was for Sam to feel comfortable, not blissful. It smacks of Hallucifer, just a bit—using the verisimilitude of Dean’s louder moods rather than trying to appeal directly to Sam’s contentment, because of his always questionable, always a question, sense of reality. If things were too smooth, too cheerful, Sam might just be suspicious. Sam is easier to trick by proxy. 

The HORROR of this episode for Sam: Gadreel washing someone’s blood off of Sam’s hands. Crowley pushing needles into his brain. Sam’s body and life as a bargaining chip as Gadreel threatens to kill him, and then as Dean threatens to kill him right back. The quiet heartbreak as Sam remembers Kevin’s death, as he realizes the magnitude of Dean’s betrayal. But the worst part of it, I think, is somehow still Sam’s face when Crowley comes to get him in the dream where Gadreel stashed him. How his expression just crumples as Crowley tells him he is trapped in a lie, that his mindscape is once again a prison, that he truly cannot trust his reality. The sheer devastation of this on top of Sam’s history, plus the knowledge that Dean did this—and he pulls himself together and puts his foot on Gadreel’s neck and casts him OUT anyway. Sam Fucking Winchester.

and then the Bridge Scene. The lighting, the staging… it’s fucking gorgeous. It’s one of those scenes where I knew as I was watching it for the first time, seven years ago, that it was going to be something. I held my breath and still hold my breath. I can’t take my eyes off the way that Sam is shaking slightly, the entire time. The way he can barely meet Dean’s eyes but he does it anyway. He SAYS HIS PIECE, says it clearly, says it with an even tone despite what he’s gone through, despite the holes in his head that were healed seconds ago.

I love the gentleness between Sam and Cas here. I love knowing that 9.11 follows this. I love that there is no question that Cas will leave with Dean—he is staying with Sam, to heal and support him, even after he spent this episode mostly reassuring Dean.

Dean does not start this conversation to apologize. He starts out with the intent to DELIBERATELY egg Sam on: “come on, let’s hear it.” It’s an incitement, because Dean wants Sam to act angry, so that Dean can feel more justified in leaving. Sam does not rise to the bait.

Dean has an excuse for every point Sam has: I had no choice, you were dying, it’s not in me, he saved your life. He says, “I did a bad thing with bad consequences and I would 100% do it again, anyway, bye.”

And then the most infuriating thing: Dean is in the wrong, so he tells the person he’s wronged, ugh, I’m just such an awful poisonous person, I’m going to burn for this. It’s so clearly wrong-headed. Intentional or not, it’s such an obvious invitation for Sam to comfort him that it might well have been embossed. If this were in e.g. season 15, or if the crime he’d committed had been less awful, I can easily hear Sam’s reassurance: no, Dean, I promise you’re a good person, we all make mistakes. It is the most toxic way possible to frame a potential apology.

The textual theme of Dean-as-poison (and, for that matter, the consequence of Kevin’s death vs. the initial crime of the possession) is an intentional muddying of the waters: Crowley, Cas, and Dean himself all bring it up in some fashion, linking some fundamental aspect of Dean himself rather than Dean’s choices to Kevin’s death. Crowley is trying to be cutting; Cas is trying to be supportive; Dean is both excusing himself and camouflaging that fact in his exhausting self-loathing. There is a complicated interplay of what the text says about Dean’s guilt and what it condemns; this pattern continues throughout s9, and reaches its apex in the next several episodes. Dean’s love as a condemning feature rather than a redeeming one is one of my favorite things about SPN, and s9 has it in HIGH gear.

But, here, at least, Sam doesn’t rise to this bait either. “Don’t go thinking that’s the problem, ‘cause it’s not.” The problem is obviously, achingly, exhaustingly clear. Sam’s spelled it out in this very conversation: you tricked me. You lied to me. You got me possessed when I was willing to die. But Dean, and a fair portion of the audience, can’t hear it. So he doesn’t. And they don’t, and they pretend that this line is some sort of puzzle! a cliffhanger on a conversation unfinished! when it was the conclusion, not the beginning.

image that is now inextricable from 9.10

[arcadiabuilt]

@elysianbuilt

“Hey remember that time when I tried to save a pigeon with a broken wing? A street cat got him by morning and I had to bury pieces of his body in my building’s playground.”

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❤️ 💔 💕 💖

hi i’m truly in love w u!!!! anyways!!!!

❤️: what’s the working title?

Hearts Full of Teeth also probably will be the permanent title. I rarely change my titles bc I usually settle on those before the actual story lol

💔: give a brief character bio of your 3-5 MCs

I’ve got 6 MCs so I’m gonna break the rules sry

Jamie Bannick: where do I even begin I love this boy. big ass martyr problem. in love w max and max knows it and they hooked up and it ended badly. at all times when things get uncomfortable his brain starts banging pots and pans together going MAKE A JOKE MAKE A JOKE MAKE A JOKE. his self worth directly depends on how well he can take care of everyone else (bad!!!) and yet refuses to receive the same help from others. trying his best to grapple his grief over losing Summer and failing. an absolute bi icon and we stan

Hank O’Donnell: Jamie’s bestest best friend. the only person who can call him out on his shit and not receive a defensive and snappy response bc they love each other that much. hates confrontation like would rather die. you’d have to hold a gun to his head (or be a very persistent jamie) to get him to ever communicate his feelings about something. queen of bottling feelings!!!! truly unproblematic even tho he doesnt think so. walks w a cane ever since the monster. 

Philippa “Flip” Kim: absolutely that bitch in high school who excused being a bitch as “i’m just blunt and honest!” but she’s better now. a ballerina in new york!! smokes so many cigarettes it’s frightening. still cannot tell a lie--if u wanna know the real truth abt smth she will tell u. absolutely chaotic and up for anything at all time would rob a bank it wouldn’t take that much convincing other than “it’ll be funny”. would literally truly die for her friends and almost did last summer. big scar on her face from it. we dont talk about that. bi solidarity w Jamie and i love it

Max Enfield: a gay mess and a surprise fav like u think hes a dick and then he grows on u. in love w jamie (and jamie is dumb so does not know this) but got so scared abt it he retreated and knows he ruined everything. pretends to be dumb but is actually v v smart. just never has the shared braincell of the group. runs from love bc thinks he doesn’t deserve it esp w Jamie who he thinks hung the fuckin moon tbh, when he’s scared he turns it to angry or funny to hide it. fear is weakness says him and no one else!!! wonderfully sarcastic

Cooper Calloway: team leader. missing ring and pinky finger on his right hand. we also dont talk about that. the absolute mom friend and kind of a kill joy but it comes from love he just wants everyone to be safe. definitely the one that makes food for everyone at 3 AM when they’re drunk. terrified of failure and sees what happened last summer as his fault bc he made the plans. we love him even tho hes pretentious at times. 

Lou Eisner: i’d do anything for them!!!!! can read anyone like a book but keeps it to themselves bc they r sensitive and loving and r always there for anyting ppl need but won’t push or persist. They just Know Everything and will shut up abt it until u come to them w a “secret” and they r like yeah i know lol. but do keep any secret u tell them and wouldnt tell it even if they had a gun to their head!! probably knows all of their friends’ love languages bc they r an angel. very good at knowing exactly what ppl need and how and why. love getting high. obsessed w the supernatural they know every cryptid ever probably. 

(phew that was way too long sorrrryyyy!!!)

💕: what has your favorite scene been?

Probably the scene where the Bastards all finally reuinte together after a year apart!!!!! and get super high and have the best time. oh those were the days.

second to that is probably when they find Jamie at the bridge. I love these kids sm

💖: are you planning on publishing it? if so, how?

this and wtdss I definitely wanna publish but it still feels v far in the future so figuring stuff out. have a few friends of friends who r published YA authors that I have talked to!! We shall see. I definitely want HFoT out in the world!! it deserves it I think. even if my actual writing quality says otherwise lol 

writer wip asks✨

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Truths Part 2 Finale

Supernatural AU 

Link to Chapter 1 

Words: 5,551

Pairings: Gabriel x Reader

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You followed Gabriel out of the bedroom. Neither of you said a word to the other. To you, Gabriel didn’t seem to care that your soul was basically crying out to him. You were tired of being just a sex object of bed warmer to him. What if there were others he was seeing when he was away? It would make sense as to why he didn’t want to fully commit. The thought of someone else touching Gabriel made you feel almost crazy! Maybe it was time to put your foot down and say no more? Maybe it was time to show Gabriel just how crappy that he was making you feel? The archangel couldn’t just always have what he wanted. Your mind drifted back to a comment that Dean made one evening after an argument with Gabriel

“Y/n, this is your life. This isn’t Burger King. Gabriel can’t just have everything his way!”

You barely noticed Gabriel looking over his shoulder at the negative thoughts coming from you. Gabriel frowned immediately hating that he was making you feel this way. He was dying to tell you that you were his only one. He loved you in a way no one else could. Gabriel loved you in a way no mortal could understand! Maybe that was why you didn’t understand what was going on with him?

He reached back going for your hand but felt nothing. Gabriel hadn’t even noticed you walk away from him to take the cup of coffee Dean was holding out.

“Y/n, almost time to watch Jo get married. Are you planning on catching that bouquet?”

Dean asked with a smile. You rolled her eyes not even looking at Gabriel. That was a real hoot!

“Won’t do me any good.  That is never going to happen to me.”

Dean gave Gabriel a look. He was pleased to see the angry expression on the archangel’s face. To Dean, Gabriel needed a good kick in the ass!

“You never know.”

Dean said with a smirk. Y/n nodded.

“Oh, I know. I’m either going to die before I have the chance to get married or be a cat lady. You have to have someone love you before they marry you. People don’t just marry other people for kicks.”

You heard Gabriel mutter something like “what- fucking- ever” under his breath. You were pleased that you had struck a chord with the archangel.

“In all seriousness though I am happy for Jo. Alexander seems to be a good guy. I just want Jo to be happy.”

Dean sighed. He had started to ignore Gabriel and just focus on you. He didn’t like seeing his childhood friend looking so down on herself. Any guy would be lucky to have you! If the two of you didn’t know all of each other’s bad habits and it wouldn’t be like marrying his sister, Dean would be more than happy to date you.

“You deserve to be happy too.”

You shrugged.

“Well…it is what it is Dean. Come on we need to get going.”

You turned walking to the Impala without another word.

Once in the car, you settled yourself between Cas and Gabriel. You knew that Gabriel heard every word of your conversation with Dean and was almost afraid to look at him. His words of I’m an archangel not your fucking pet seemed to always ring in your mind when you wanted to be a dick to him. He could easily end your life. Whether he would or not would be another story. That sentence always sounded like something Lucifer would say…not Gabriel.

A hand sliding onto your thigh pulled you from your thoughts. You looked down at Gabriel’s hand with a sad sigh before laying your head on his shoulder. Was this his way of offering to makeup for a less than stellar attitude?

“Can we talk later?”

He asked softly. You nodded ignoring Dean’s watchful gaze.

“Yeah”

You let Gabriel continue to stroke your thigh. He leaned his head over on yours to nuzzle his face into your hair. Gabriel knew it would be so easy to say “I love you cupcake.”  It wouldn’t be that hard to say those words that he knew you were longing for. But for some reason, Gabriel couldn’t make them happen. Gabriel couldn’t help feeling like a caged bird at points. This is one of those times he wished his communication skills were better. He also wouldn’t mind not being an angel today. Maybe he could be a better lover.

Arriving at Bobby and Ellen’s, you smiled seeing your mom sitting on the porch with a smile on her face. Ellen immediately stood as you got out of the car.

“Darlin about time you got here!”

She said cheerfully pulling you into a hug. Right away Ellen could tell something was bothering you. It didn’t take being your mom to know that something wasn’t right in your world.

“Hi mamma.”

You said with a smile as Ellen kissed your face before moving to hug Sam and Dean. Ellen kissed both of the boys before hugging Cas and ruffling his hair. You had walked back to Gabriel’s side until you were literally knocked to the ground. Looking up you smiled seeing your sister on top of you.

“Y/n, you’re finally here! I’m so glad to see you!”

You coughed as the breath was slightly knocked out of you.

“Jo, damn, I missed you too. Can you let me up?”

Jo chuckled standing and pulling her you to your feet.

“I never thought you were going to get here. I need to make sure your dress fits you!”

You looked back at Gabriel. You were wanting nothing more than to see what he wanted to talk to you about but that was going to be put on the back burner. Jo smirked.

“He’ll be fine without you for a moment.”

Jo hurriedly pushed you into your childhood bedroom without another word.

For the next half an hour you tried on multiple dresses that Jo had picked out. Finally, Jo decided the emerald green deep v neck one was the way to go.

“I think that one is perfect. It makes you look so grown up.”

You rolled your eyes as Jo looked at you happily.

“So what’s happening with you and the archangel?”

Jo asked calmly. You sighed and sat down beside your twin with a tired sigh. How were you supposed to tell your own sister that your life was in a tailspin that you didn’t even know how to even control anymore?

“I honestly don’t know. One minute I am convinced that he loves me and actually wants to be with me. The next we are as far away from a couple as one could possibly get.”

Jo reached out taking your hand in hers.

“He watches you like you are something to eat. Maybe he doesn’t know how to accurately handle his feelings. I know he’s been on earth for a long time but maybe there is something preventing him from ...going forward.”

Lily laughed.

“I think you get him more than I do Jo. That’s probably all of the other girls that he sees that is preventing him from committing. I think that I am just wasting my time.”

After affirming the dress would be a fit, you followed Jo outside where Cas and Gabriel stood on the porch. Dean, Sam, and Bobby were looking at a car that Bobby had been fixing up. Gabriel turned to look at you as you finally got back to his side.

“Boys and their cars…I would say boys who look at cars like they are naked women but figured that wouldn’t be appropriate.”

You rolled your eyes as Gabriel wrapped an arm around your waist. That sinking feeling of despair returned like a freight train. You should have been happy but the way he was doing it no one could see they were even touching. As usual, it was Gabriel keeping things hidden. For once, you wanted him to be himself. Be the Gabriel that flirted with you nonstop until he got what he wanted. If it was that particular moment in time, he couldn’t have thought twice about wrapping his arms around you in front of everyone.

“Hasn’t stopped you before.”

You said with a smirk. Gabriel raised an eyebrow.

“Someone is feeling sassy.”

Feeling a little braver, you put a hand on Gabriel’s hip and stepped closer to him. His golden eyes were watching you with a wide lust-filled expression.

“Wait until you see the dress I’ll be wearing tomorrow. You will be able to see a lot of here.”

You motioned to your breasts making Gabriel’s eyes get even wider before he gave you that eyebrow wiggle.

“Now you are just getting wild.”

Before the little exchange could continue a voice caught your attention.

“Y/n?”

You turned to see a face that you hadn’t seen since the day you left home for good at age 18.

“Nathan?”

It was definitely Nathan Parker…the Nathan that you had a major crush on all the way through middle and high school. Here he stood 6'1, tall dark and handsome like before. The only difference now was he stood dressed in a nice suit and his jet black her fixed into an elegant hairstyle.

“Yeah, it's me. I heard you were in town for Jo’s wedding. I couldn’t wait to stop by and see you. Wow, you haven’t changed at all. You still look so beautiful.”

You could feel Gabriel tense. For a moment, you were afraid that the archangel was going to jump-start the apocalypse or smite Nathan one. You wrapped your hand around Gabriel’s keeping him from snapping his fingers. Gabriel was trying to get his hand free but it wasn’t about to happen!

“Uh thanks, Nathan. So what are you into these days?”

You tried to think of anything to get the conversation off of flirting. Nathan smiled.

“I own a chain of restaurants. I just bought myself that car your father is fixing up. I needed something fun for the weekends. So what are you doing out in Kansas these days?”

You blinked and tried to think of some grand tale. The last thing she wanted was for Gabriel to get all “holier than thou” and smite Nathan in mid-conversation. You remembered your mother telling you that Nathan was rolling in the money now and it was clearly evident.

“I uh…uh…I do writing.”

Nathan nodded seeming impressed.

“How about we go for a ride? I would love to catch up.”

You knew teasing Gabriel was wrong and that you would pay for it later. The cold angry glare on his face showed all of his feels at that moment. Maybe this was what Gabriel needed. Maybe he needed to see that you could move on to someone else.

“I would love to.”

You said with a smile before feeling Gabriel’s hand tighten on yours. You carefully got your hand away from the archangel’s not daring to look at his face.

“I’ll be back soon, Gabe.”

You spent the afternoon with Nathan. To your surprise, you hadn’t heard from Gabriel at all. You sent him a few texts only to receive nothing in return. You sighed, knowing that you would have one angry archangel to face later.

Around 7, you agreed to have dinner with Nathan before he would take you home. Walking into a quiet cafe, Nathan chose a table in the corner. You sat down across from him looking over the menu. Nathan smiled. Neither noticed the angry golden-eyed archangel in the corner watching like a hawk.

“So what’s with the guy whose hand you were holding? Are you two serious?”

You took a sip of the water in front of her.

“We ...I…uh…I don’t know. I really don’t know how to answer that.”

Nathan raised an eyebrow.

“Looks like he’s quite a bit older than you too. What’s his angle?”

You swallowed. How were you supposed to answer any question when it came to Gabriel? You couldn’t just say that your boyfriend was an archangel.

“He doesn’t really have one. Gabriel is a good man. He’s been really good to me. He is actually really funny. There is just a lot of stuff that…”

Nathan sighed.

“Look Y/n, I’ve known you for a long time. You know that I adore you. If you were with me, you wouldn’t be guessing at what our relationship was about. Gabriel sounds like he needs to get his priorities straightened out. “

You looked down uncomfortably. Nathan just summed up everything perfectly!

“Yeah. He does.”

The moment Nathan reached out to take your hand in his, the glass of water fell over sending water spilling all over his lap. Nathan jumped back hoping to stop the flow of water. Once he got the mess back into control, Nathan grinned.

“Boy, that was unexpected. Anyway, let's eat.”

Nathan went to put some salt on his food only for the entire salt shaker to empty all over the steak in front of him. You frowned. This was all happening way too conveniently.

“Gabriel, if you are here please stop. You have nothing to worry about. You don’t have to challenge him. Just come out in the open and take me home.”

When no golden-eyed trickster of an archangel appeared, you sighed. Gabriel was really upset! For him to not appear when you prayed to him was completely out of character.  You were so lost in your own thoughts that you didn’t notice the newest thing that was happening.

A woman screaming got your attention. You looked at a woman, a few feet away, who was swatting at a frog that was in her soup. Nathan meanwhile, was dealing with a pesky fly that wouldn’t get away from him.

“What the hell is with this place? Is this like the biblical plague restaurant?”

You groaned knowing 100% that Gabriel was behind all of this now. Putting a hand over her face, you looked down at your lap. Before you could say anything else there was a loud explosion in the kitchen and all of the sprinklers overhead began to go off. You sighed.

“Nathan I would really like to go home. I’m feeling really tired.”

Nathan nodded putting money down on the table. He too was less than pleased with the way that his date turned out. Nathan had all the intentions to try to woo you into staying home in South Dakota with him. Now he was almost positive that you were ready to run right back to Kansas with Gabriel.

Walking into the parking lot, Nathan yelled the moment he saw that he had a flat tire and a large key mark down the side of his car.

“What the hell?”

He squealed. Your eyes were wide as you looked almost embarrassed. This was getting all too amusing! It also showed you that Gabriel actually was serious about the relationship and wasn’t afraid to fight for what was his.

Arriving back to your parent's house, you walked in feeling a mixture of annoyed and flattered. Bobby and Ellen sat at the table playing poker with Dean and Sam. Cas was sitting on the couch watching a nature documentary on the Discovery Channel. Ellen smiled.

“Well look who finally came home. Did you have a fun time with Nathan?”

You smirked.

“It was interesting to say the least. Where is Gabriel?”

Dean grinned. The eldest Winchester looked totally happy as a clam.

“He’s in your bedroom pouting. I call him a baby in a leather jacket right now.”

You shook your head before turning and walking upstairs to your childhood bedroom. When you walked in Gabriel sat on the bed frowning at the TV.

“You made your point tonight.”

Gabriel turned looking at her coldly.

“What point? Have fun on your date?”

You took off your sweater laying it over your desk’s chair before turning back to Gabriel.

“It wasn’t a date, Gabriel. Nathan and I have been friends since we were kids.”

Gabriel gave you a glare.

“Fucker had a lot more than friendship on his mind.”

You shook your head in annoyance. There had to be some way to get through to Gabriel.

“Maybe he wants me for more than sex.”

The lights flickered in the room, cluing you in that you had hit a nerve with the archangel. Gabriel stood walking to you. For the second time that day, you were wondering about your safety when it came to the handsome archangel.

“What WE have isn’t just sex! I wish you would get it through that thick skull of yours.”

Losing your temper, you reached out and shoved Gabriel away. He elegantly regained his balance before giving you a confused expression. You began to pace.

“How the fuck do you think I am supposed to think anything different, Gabriel? All we do is have sex then you ignore me until you want another fuck. How am I supposed to think that you actually care? What you did tonight was the first actual hint of you remotely caring!”

Gabriel blinked.

“I’ve cared for a long time, sugar.”

“Right. You sure have a funny way of showing it!  I don’t know everything that happened before we got together. I’m sorry your past wasn’t perfect but the way you are handling us is telling me that you want to be alone forever. This is just like the night I asked to see your wings and you went ballistic on me. You know what, I am not having this conversation. Just go bug Cas or something. I need to get some sleep so I don’t look like a horrid maid of honor.”

Gabriel’s golden eyes were full of pain as he turned and walked from the room without a word. You immediately regretted your choice of words as you climbed into bed.

The next morning, you were awoken by your mother gently shaking your shoulder.

“Good morning, sweetie. Time to get you up and get you going.”

You yawned looking around the room.

“Where is Gabriel?”

Ellen shrugged.

“I think with Cas and Sam. Did you two have words last night?”

You sighed.

“Yeah, I bet you all heard everything too didn’t you?”

Ellen nodded sitting down.

“Your daddy wanted to come in here and knock his head off of his shoulders.”

You smiled, thinking of Bobby going into protective father mode.

“Well, it was mostly me, mom. I was doing the yelling. He was kind of just standing there. I didn’t even give him a chance to fight back before banishing him.”

Ellen reached out tucking one of your curls away from your face.

“Sweetie, I’m not going to pretend that I understand how hard your relationship with him is because you know I don’t.”

You sighed again.

“It’s beyond hard, mom! I am so in love with him. There is so much stuff he is keeping from me and I know that is what influences his actions in our relationship. I just wish that he would talk to me.”

You rolled your eyes.

“Baby, you know what it sounds like to me? No matter the species ...males do not communicate well.”

Ellen stood to walk to the closet to get the dress out but stopped looking back at you.

.“Sweetie, he loves you. You should have seen the look on his face when you took off with Nathan. I thought he was going to end the world. It took Cas and Sam to calm him down. I used to have my doubts about you dating an angel, especially an archangel at that, now not so much. Just talk to him later, sweetie.”

After an hour of getting ready, you were finally ready. You stood in front of Jo’s floor-length mirror looking at your appearance. It wasn’t often that you got dressed up like this.

“Hello, gorgeous!”

You turned seeing Dean and Cas at the door dressed in suits. Dean grinned as he motioned to his chest.

“Liking what I’m seeing!”

Cas gave Dean a look before focusing his attention back on you.

“You look beautiful.”

You smiled. You were used to Dean hitting on you from time to time. It had been that way since the two of you were young. Cas apparently still had to get used to that one.

“Thanks, guys. Have you seen Gabriel by any chance? I haven’t seen him since I threw him out of the bedroom last night.”

Dean chuckled.

“He’s with Sam. Probably still bitching about Nathan. He didn’t say anything about you but he was bitching about everything this morning. It started with me eating powdered doughnuts near him then went all the way to the help I have fallen and can’t get up button commercial.”

Cas winced.

“There was also the fact he was super annoyed with the Sock Slider commercial.”

Lily blinked, obviously confused.

“What?”

Dean laughed again.

“Okay, so it was one of those infomercial things where they want to sell you shit you don’t need. Well, this one was a device that helps you put your socks on. Like you don’t have to bend over or anything…you just slide your foot right in. Gabriel was bitching that just encouraged people to be lazy.”

You sighed turning to put the pearl earrings that Ellen had bought you in.

“Sounds like Gabe. One thing pisses him off and everything under the sun will bug him in some way or another. I figured he would have left after what I said to him.”

Cas and Dean exchanged frowns before Cas stepped forward.

“He wouldn’t leave. Go off and pout somewhere yes…but leave you no. As you have been told, my brother really loves you.”

You smiled at the angel in front of you.

“Thanks, Cas. Now come here and let me fix your hair.”

The wedding began without any major disasters. Thankfully Jo wasn’t a bridezilla either! You stood beside your sister as the ceremony began. As discreetly as possible, you scanned the church for any signs of your archangel.

When you finally found him, he was sitting beside Cas in the back of the church. His golden eyes met yours the instant that you found him. He gave you a half-smile that made your heart pound. You could feel your heart calling out to him. Unfortunately, he didn’t respond. He just kept his eyes glued to you.

You focused your attention back to your sister and soon to be brother-in-law. This service seemed to be going on forever and a day. You did whatever you could to keep your attention from going to Nathan. He sat about two rows in with his family and was doing whatever he could to get your attention.

“Can this get any longer?”

You thought miserably as you looked around the church. At the moment, all you wanted to do was get out of the emerald dress and flop down in her bed. The thought of Gabriel sitting in the back was driving you nuts. You wanted nothing more than to clear up what happened the previous night. There was also the fact that you wanted to get the archangel out of the button-down black shirt he was wearing. Sighing, you tightened your thighs trying to calm down the ache in your body.

Finally, the wedding was over and it was time for the reception. You wandered around the room looking for any sign of Gabriel again and avoiding Nathan at the same time. Just like at the wedding, Gabriel disappeared into the oblivion. How could someone so obvious just disappear like this?

“Come on Gabe.”

You muttered as Sam walked over.

“You good?”

You shook your head.

“If that stubborn archangel would just show up where I can get a hold of him I would be stellar.”

Sam handed you a glass of wine with a sheepish smile.

“Figured this may help.”

You downed the glass in one sip. Sam smirked as he noticed Nathan walking over. You clearly noticed it too.

“Shit! You have no idea where I am going.”

Sam smirked as you ducked under a table and out of sight.

“Never seen you before in my life.”

Sam went back to the beer in his hand as Nathan walked over. He smiled casually at Sam.

“Where did Y/n go? I just saw her.”

Sam shrugged.

“Said something about going to find her boyfriend. You know the one that she’s been with for a while…he’s around here someplace.”

Nathan nodded.

“So they are pretty serious?”

Sam looked thoughtful.

“Oh yeah! He’s crazy about her and the other way around too.”

Nathan smirked.

“I get the message.”

You meanwhile, had finally crawled to the other side of the table and crawled out successfully only to be grabbed by one of your cousins.

“Come on Y/n. Jo is about to throw the bouquet.”

You immediately winced.

“Nah, good luck with that!”

Your cousin shook her head.

“Oh no! You are totally coming! Jo will be so sad if you don’t try.”

You winced thinking about all the things that you had done for your sister. This was definitely one of those up there things that you did not want to do!

Standing in the group of your female cousins and other assorted people that you didn’t know, you felt miserable. You glanced around finally spotting Gabriel standing beside Cas. He gave you a smirk and was clearly amused by the expression on your face.

“Get me out of here.”

You mentally pleaded.

“No way, sugar.”

You gave Gabriel another glare.

“Now you decide to answer! Really?!”

Gabriel gave you a shrug before going back to talking quietly to Cas. You groaned as Jo turned her back to throw the thing. Looking at all the other girls around you, you decided to let them go for the prize and simply step out of the way. You winced as Jo started to throw the bouquet.

“Go away! Go away! Go away!”

You thought miserably as the cursed floral device landed directly in your hands. Blinking a few times, you winced as Jo began to giggle with delight.

“You’ve gotta be shitting me.”

You muttered as Jo ran over pulling you into a hug.

“Uh, Jo….can we do this again? I think cousin Mitzy is bound and determined to get Phillip to propose to her. You know I’m going to be a cat lady soooo….”

Jo shook her head.

“Oh no! It’s yours!”

“Son of a bitch..”

You muttered looking around for Gabriel and of course, he was MIA again!

For the next hour, you tried your best to have a good time but you mood had gone downhill ever since the disastrous bouquet catching. When you were finally able to slip away from your crazy relatives, you went outside to get some air. You jumped the moment a set of arms wrapped around you.

“Easy, sugar. Looking for me?”

You relaxed hearing Gabriel’s voice.

“I have been all damn day.”

Gabriel chuckled as he nuzzled his face into your curls.

“Sorry, I was trying to make sure you had a nice day.”

You frowned. It was time to unload!

“It’s been AWFUL! First, I have to wear this god awful dress. I haven’t been this naked in public since I came out of a uterus. I’ve had to play avoid the guy who wants you with Nathan. I had to crawl under a table to get away from him. Do you realize how difficult it was in this dress? It was BAD! I caught that damn bouquet and now Jo won’t leave me alone. All I wanted damn it was to be with you and you keep playing trickster and vanishing. God damn it, I just want to go home!”

Gabriel’s arm tightened around you.

“Being a little dramatic are we?”

“No, I am not!”

You growled as Gabriel kissed your shoulder.

“I’m sorry, sugar. I didn’t realize your day was that awful.”

You pouted harder.

“I’m a hunter not some party girl and I am sure as hell not wife material.”

Gabriel froze at that for a moment.

“I think you are.”

You pressed your lips together. You couldn’t say anything at the moment due to being almost 98% positive that if you did you would start sobbing. Gabriel sighed and held you tighter against him.

“Y/n, I love you. I don’t tell you enough and you deserve to hear it. I guess in ways I was scared to admit it. I’m not now. Everything you said last night was true and I needed to hear that. You wanted to know why I am the way I am…I’m ready to tell you everything now. There’s something else ...since you caught that bouquet…I want to marry you…”

Your eyes widened as you turned in Gabriel’s arms.

“I swear Gabriel if this is one of your tricks I’m going to slug you!”

Gabriel smirked.

“No tricks. It’s all serious. I want you all the way baby.”

He said with an innocent smirk watching Lily’s face for any signs of rejection.

“So sugar….”

You smiled again. Maybe this whole shitfest of a day was worth it after all. He knew that you wouldn’t want some skeptical made out of it. Plus Gabriel didn’t to be the whole down on one knee kind of guy anyway.

“Yes!”

You said as you stood on your tiptoes cramming your lips to the archangels. The two of you didn’t part for a moment once the kiss ended. It was just quiet cuddles.

“Get us back home.”

You whispered against his lips. Gabriel glanced over his shoulder, making sure no one was watching. He didn’t want to have to modify anyone’s memory at the moment. He was too preoccupied.

“Don’t you want to stay with your family for all of this ...stuff?”

You shook your head.

“No, and I don’t have to have something like this when we get married. I’m cool with Vegas.”

“You deserve more than that.”

Gabriel replied.

“You know I am no show-off.”

You said as you twirled one of his curls around your index finger. Gabriel raised an eyebrow.

“You may not be but I am. I want to show off what’s mine.”

You gave up and pressed your lips back to his.

“Can you get us home now?”

Gabriel smirked.

“You got it, sugar.”

He snapped his fingers and the next thing you knew the two of you were in your bedroom. Gabriel quickly pulled you on his lap. His face was back to the serious archangel as he wrapped his arms around your waist.

“Before we get too occupied I want you to know everything that happened before. Years ago…I was with another girl. She wasn’t at all like you. Lucifer found out about her and threatened to kill her. I thought breaking up with her would keep her safe. I thought it was the best thing to do. Damn, I was a jerk to her. I told her that I didn’t love her and that she bored me. Long story short I missed her too badly. I couldn’t stand being alone again. I went to talk to her…to tell her that I was wrong and everything that I said was a lie. When I arrived at her house the door was open. Right away everything felt wrong. She was dead when I found her. It wasn’t Lucifer that killed her but some common thief. If I had been there she wouldn’t have died. She was the only human I had ever let see my wings. I never planned on falling in love again. In fact, I swore I wouldn’t…then I found you. You haven’t deserved any of the venom that I have given you since we got together. I think deep down I was afraid that I would get you killed like her. Before you say anything I know that you are more than capable of taking care of yourself. I just…do not want to lose you.”

Your eyes had softened as you reached out cupping his cheek.

“Gabriel, you have been keeping me healthy since we got together. Nothing is going to happen to us.”

Gabriel smiled.

“I know. I won’t let anything happen to you.”

You leaned forward and pressed your lips to his.

“I’m still cool with Vegas.”

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Fictional Rec Friday (v.3): Leverage

This issue of FRF will cover something new: a TV show. There will be more shows to come in the future, along with Movies and books! 

There’s a reason it’s called “Fictional Rec Friday” instead of “Fic Rec Friday”

Too many Fic Rec’s out there already, it’s about time we had something different.

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Title: Leverage 

Creators:  Chris Downey, John Rogers

Genre: Crime, Mystery, Thriller

Network: TNT

Critics: IMDb= 7.9/10, TV.com= 8.8/10, Rotten Tomatoes= 92%

Rating: TV-PG

Starring:  Timothy Hutton,  Gina Bellman, Christian Kane, Beth Riesgraf, Aldis Hodge

Seasons: 5

Episodes: 77

Avg. Ep. Time: 42 min

Aired: 2008-2012

Available on: Vudu, Youtube, Amazon Prime, iTunes, and Google Play

Story line:  

Former insurance claims investigator Nathan Ford heads a team of former top-criminals. They handle 'unorthodox' cases of people unlikely to get their dues through regular channels and legal procedures. That often involves stinging or otherwise scamming criminals. Nate's team is altered at times, and his professional as well as personal past repeatedly seems to catch up.

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Leverage is one of the first shows me and my Father watched together when I was younger. To this day we’ve both seen the entire series multiple times and constantly make references.

If you like any sort of Robin Hood or Thief tropes, you’ll absolutely LOVE this show!

The comedy is priceless from the very beginning, the characters are written spectacularly, and each con more intricate than the last!

You’ll fall in love with our little group of criminals immediately. Even the supporting characters will get you to fall for them!

Speaking of supporting characters, if you are in any sort of geeky fandom, one name should stick out like a sore thumb...

Mark.

Sheppard.

That’s right, Mr. Crowley “King of the Crossroads”, the man in Supernatural,  Warehouse 13, White Collar, Doctor Who, Battlestar Galactica, NCIS, Burn Notice, Firefly, Charmed, Star Trek, X-Files, even Monk!

And imagine, that’s just a reoccurring character!

The main cast is just as impressive!

Timothy Hunton (Nate, the mastermind and leader of the group) has been in How to Get Away with Murder, The Haunting of Hill House, and a large number of other things since 1965!  He’s even the youngest winner of the Academy Award for Best Supporting Actor.

Christian Kane (Elliot, the muscle) has been in The Librarians, Secondhand Lions (really underrated movie from 2003), Close to Home, Angel (the TV series), The Broken Hearts Club, Just Married, and more! He was named #8 of the Top Ten Sexiest Men of the Buffy/Angel universe in a poll by the Buffy fanzine in 2004. Even though he’s done all of this, he’s never had any schooling or training for it!

Another very recognizable face, is Aldis Hodge (Hardison, the hacker). He’s been in Hidden Figures, Die Hard, Straight outta Compton, Star Trek, Brian Banks, Black Mirror, The Blacklist, CSI, Supernatural, Buffy, Charmed, ER, Bones, and so many more! (Hardison is also so freaking adorable and mood, I can’t UwU)

You’ll fall in love with everyone’s shenanigans and quirky personalities. I know I’ll always hold Leverage at the top of my list of TV shows. I just wish more people could enjoy it! It’s much more underrated than it deserves!

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I hope you check out this show, it’s a great time, I promise!

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Sam/Dean fic rec!

Recently got back into supernatural and this ship. Have been reading a lot of great stuff and figured they deserve a little rec :)

Favorite fics have a star. Always read warnings/tags on the AO3 page in case there’s something you don’t like! (I’ve linked to fics with rape fantasy, watersports and tampon kink lmao so be warned and heed warnings!) 

All I Want Is To Have My Peace Of Mind by Eugara | 8k | s9 - established

Season 9. Dean thinks Kevin might know about him and Sam. Well, he's not certain, but he's pretty sure. Really pretty sure. At least, he thinks he is.

☆ Always + A Walk In Space by frozen_delight | 16k | s10 - established - break-up - kink

Always: if this is the only happily ever after they’re going to get, life sucks. [Warning: temporary break up + getting back together]

A Walk in Space: Being together with Sam was like a walk in space without protective suit or oxygen tank. More often than not, Dean felt like he was drifting among the stars, weightless, breathless, completely out of his element.

As Angels Watched by Ninni | s12 - established - Mary finds out

It's the little things that makes Mary wary, at first.

Chemical High by themegalosaurus | 9k | s11 - established 

Partly, it’s just opportunity. It’s been a few weeks since he swiped the little tub from the old folks’ home, and it’s been burning a hole in his pocket ever since. Partly, it’s curiosity; he doesn’t really know what this stuff does, not exactly, beyond a vague idea that it’ll turn Sam into some kind of Energizer bunny of fucking. No way that’s not gonna be fun.

Dean doses Sam with the Viagra that he stole from the retirement home in 11x11. It sort of goes to plan.

Contagious by themegalosaurs | 6k | s8 - getting together - cursed 

'Nobody ever died of a boner, Dean’s pretty sure, whatever his teenaged self might have said to the girls back in high school when he was trying to get under their skirts. Or. Did anybody ever die of a boner? That would be just like Sam, to die of terminal sexual frustration and not to let Dean do anything about it until it was already too late.'

I asked for 'fanfic cliche' prompts and got 'sex pollen'; so I decided to go all out and make it a cursed-object-in-the-Bunker fic too. This is pretty much unadulterated PWP.

Crush by sonofabiscuit77 | 60k | established - future!fic - retired 

Five years after the apocalypse didn’t happen and Sam and Dean have settled down, or as much as the Winchesters can ever settle down. Sam is a college professor and Dean a well-respected small business owner and they’re learning how to balance work, hunting and dog-ownership while coping with the metaphorical and literal scars of war. Life’s not perfect, not for a (sort of) out and proud couple in small town USA with a lot to hide, but they’re dealing, that is, until Dean employs one sexually-confused teenager who develops an unhealthy obsession with both of them. Switching between five years earlier and now, we learn how the boys came together, how they made it through the big fight and whether they’ll ever manage to find that flighty temptress, happily ever after.

Dressing To Seduce by themegalosaurus | 2k | vague s11 - established

'Now, though? For some reason, Sam’s stripped down. He’s shed the shirts, all the layers that he uses to cocoon himself, and he’s leaning casual against the frame of the open doorway with only a tight navy v-necked tee stretched over his chest. Dressed like this, it’s evident how much progress Sam’s made in regaining the weight that he lost last year.'

Drip by thatsakitkat | 8k | vague s9 - established - a/b/o - kink

Sam chews the inside of his lip and looks down at the tampon in his fingers, taps the applicator between the webbing of his thumb and index. "I'll do it," he offers, hopes his voice is even and doesn't crack or tremble because looking at the tampon, he can picture the string hanging outside Dean's body and it's weird, what that imagery does to him.

Enchantment by doctor__idiot | 5k | vague s12 - getting together - cursed

For three days Sam has been leaving the bunker and returning a couple hours later, smelling like perfume and sex.

☆ Games We Play by sparklingice | 14k | s13 - established - kink

Dean wants to play a sex game. Sam's unamused. Things escalate from there.

Hatbox by smalltrolven | 5k | s13 - established - cursed

Dean’s started using an old leather hat box he found in the Bunker to carry his Western gear. Unfortunately for him it really should have been in the room of cursed and clearly labeled objects and not in what the brothers jokingly call the junk room

I Love This Road by smalltrolven | 5k | s9 - established

Dean's looking worse for wear after a hunt and several people assume that Sam must be abusing him. And Dean’s singing a song that he doesn’t know but that is in Sam’s brain.

I’m Still an Animal by thatsakitkat | 8k | vague s9 - established - a/b/o - kink

But Dean loves Sam, loves his knot too because it makes his orgasm feel like fucking magic, but it's the post part that he's not crazy about. Just, stuck to Sam, who's high on the resultant endorphins and turns into a complete mess of sap and sweet and soft kisses and words pressed into Dean's neck.

Just Another Day by selecasharp | 3k | vague s10 - established - holiday: bday

When rain keeps them in a motel for another night, Sam settles in for a quiet day of movies, popcorn, and cuddling (and maybe more) on a couch with Dean — until he realizes what day it is.

☆ Just Like This by keep_waking_up | 6k | established - kink

In which the boys are fucking, Sam has a kink, Dean freaks out a lot, and Sam has to explain a lot of things.

☆ Needs Practice by prufrocknonsense | 1.5k | getting together 

Sam has a huge dick. Dean isn't exactly a porn star. This is going to take some practice.

Nowhere Near Perfect by keep_waking_up | 2k | established

Dean may have been a self-proclaimed ladies’ man, but Sam knew better than to think that the two of them hooking up would be anywhere near romantic.

Out of the Woods by selecasharp | 17k | s10 - getting together - case fic

After Flint, the boys decide to go on one of their regular hunts in rural Ohio. But there's something else out there in the woods, stalking Dean, and for Sam, saving him means facing down the complicated mess of emotions sitting between them

Subjugation Is Its Own Reward by smalltrolven | 11k | s12 - established - case fic

After surviving their confrontation with Lucifer in Los Angeles, the brothers stick around for a hunt that Dean has always wanted to look into at a historic downtown hotel.

Too Old For Those Sweet Songs, Too Young For Rock And Roll by Anon1Adult | 9k | s12 - getting together

Dean had been forced to read Flowers in the Attic for a school assignment and it was far from a how-to guide.

He knew it wasn't going to be easy, but seducing Sam was turning out to be a lot harder than the books had led him to believe.

Touch by frozen_delight | 3k |  getting together

Sam never realized just how much he depended on Dean’s touch until it was taken away from him.

Written for the spn_masquerade prompt: Sam has a kink for Dean wearing his clothes. Can also throw in some size kink.

The Archivist by deadlybride | 11k | vague s13 - established

Sam's been taking pictures for a long, long time. He has only one subject.

The Darkness Within by selecasharp | 19k | vague s11 - getting together - case fic

Ever since he lost the Mark of Cain, Dean's been haunted by ever-worsening nightmares. He insists it's nothing, but when injuries he sustains while asleep appear on him for real, Sam goes to great lengths to figure out what's happening — and to make Dean let him in.

The Exodus by waywardelle | 14k | s12 - established - holiday: bday 

So. Dean left with Cas over a week ago on some sort of recon mission, and yeah, Sam has been trying to bury himself in research, but he's just not coping all that well with the long-term separation. He wakes up early one morning, expecting the day to be like all the rest, except it's even worse than all the rest, because he's completely and totally alone on his (brother-less) thirty-fourth birthday. His bleak outlook quickly changes with an unexpected phone call, and he has to admit that maybe someone, somewhere answered his embarrassingly needy birthday wish, despite his lack of candles to blow out.

“Yeah,” Sam breathes, trying to convince himself he’s not dreaming. It’s just-- Dean is only sweet like this, open like this in Sam’s best dreams, so… how on earth could this be real? “I missed you,” Sam adds, breathing it shyly into the air between them, watching how the words affect his brother.

The King and The Lionheart by waywardelle | 53k | s10 - getting together - retired 

After the disastrous but effective removal of the Mark, Sam and Dean Winchester suddenly face a life without allies or a reason to keep hunting, so they make a choice: to leave their old life behind them in flames. They re-emerge from the ashes as Sam and Dean Wesson, residents of Misty Luna, Maine-- a town with a personality all its own. As they settle into civilian life, they gain careers, a home, good friendships and the kind of fulfillment they never thought possible. But with nothing left to fight, the underbelly of their particular kind of love is thrown into sharp relief, especially considering the whole town thinks they’re married, anyway. After dancing around their feelings for the past twenty years, Sam and Dean find a peace they never knew existed, and through it all, they find each other again. And maybe, just maybe, forever. Curtain!fic. Canon divergence after 10x21, “Dark Dynasty.”

The Perils of Inviting the Son of Satan into Your Bunker by soy_em | 11k | s13

Dean sees the way Jack looks at Sam. But what’s worse, is that he can see the way Sam is starting to look back.

The Things We Swore We’d Never Do by whispered_story | 11k | vague s12 - getting together - cursed

Dean wakes up, jerks off in the shower while thinking about Sam, and then goes to fix breakfast for the two of them. A few days later, things start to get weird.

Tie Me Up, Hold Me Tight by whispered_story | 13k | vague s9 - getting together - cursed

Sam accidentally binds himself to Dean and the more time passes, the worse he feels when Dean isn't nearby. While the boys are scrambling to find a reverse spell, Sam's need to be close to Dean makes them reevaluate their relationship.

With Your Dreams Untold by waywardelle | 10k | s12 - getting together

For the past ten years, Dean has been bookmarking porn on the laptop for Sam to watch. Sam figured it would never go further than that, until one night, not long after killing Hitler, Dean decides to be brave. One thing is for sure: Dean is never going to let Sam live down the fact that porn is what brought them together, in the end. Set between 12x06 & 12x07, but not necessarily a coda.

"When Sam’s screen finally loads, he’s puzzled. Instead of a browser window with a video, his GMAIL account is up, with one new email from Dean. He sucks in a slow, steadying breath before clicking it open. The message has a video attachment, presumably from Dean’s cell phone, and nothing else. Instantly, adrenaline courses through Sam’s body, prickling icy-hot sweat under his arms and knees. He clicks on the attachment numbly, eyes trained on the screen. The thumbnail shows a bare-chested man with low-slung boxer briefs sitting on the edge of a bed, cupping the large bulge threatening to spill out."

You Look So Good To Me, You Never Change by whispered_story | 7k | vague s13 - established - holiday: vday 

Dean might think it's a stupid holiday, but he's still convinced he can give Sam the best Valentine's Day ever. It's a bet Sam is willing to lose.

[tinkdw]

Dean’s climax and denouement in season 13. Expositions through season 1 mirrors.

So, I’ve talked loads about how I feel that season 13 is subverting the pilot plot wise:

- Mary is the parent who is lost to be found, John is the parent who is dead.

- The Sam/ Jess v Dean/Cas parallels of 12x23.

- The Sam/Dean role reversal (also the precise words Jared used *yay!*). Sam is the one set on hunting, finding a way to fix things, trying to keep things together, Dean is the one mourning the loss of the person he loves, out for revenge and angry.

Basically for Dean’s own personal story:

- Pilot: Dean is first set up as uber-straight, butch and over compensating, faithless, feeling like he can’t have and doesn’t really deserve love, a hunter of the supernatural and living in the black and white, stab first - ask questions later, where supernatural beings are all evil and to be killed, he is Sam’s parent and guardian and Dean is less worthy of love and care than he is, whose mother up on her pedestal said that Angels were watching over him, but he’s not accepting of himself, expecting to die young, giving up his life for others and with a total lack of self worth.

- Endgame: self worth, accepting himself for who he is as a whole, accepting that he likes things he has always repressed, that he is no longer Sam’s parent, that he needs to let Sam go, that he deserves good things for himself, that his mother and father are not perfect. That he is in love with a supernatural being, a guy, who represents faith, an Angel who watches over him (and who he can watch over when he falls), having said Angel give up something big for him as a mirror for everything he has given up for others, learning that the world is not black and white, where he finally accepts himself and thinks he doesn’t deserve to die young, finally feeling self worth…

Regarding how I think this will play out in season 13:

We know now that 13x03 features Missouri Moseley. Who was a massive John mirror and was an exposition to why Dean is the way he is, repressed, self loathing and feeling worthless while Sam is to be protected and cared for. She and her granddaughter Patience are also psychics, a real coincidence given the point we will be at in 13x03 with Dean’s grief and emotions, hmmmmm.

We also know that we have the Scooby Doo episode where Dean potentially might flirt with or will at least come face to face with Daphne, the epitome of Dean’s old fantasies, the sweet, non threatening, childhood reminiscent kind of maternal reminding cartoon character, the best metaphor I can think of for Dean’s old facade and old way of dealing with things.

Basically everything we know so far, which is very little, about spoilers for season 13 point to the fact that they are absolutely using season 1 mirrors to show how much Dean has changed and grown, I mean throw in a couple of wendigos and ghosts, maybe, Chuck I hope for an episode where we see 2 brothers again like 1x18 but Dean doesn’t blame himself and tells the older brother to look out for himself and not always just his brother. I mean I don't know how it will play out of course I just feel this as happening as a theme and hey if we do see Dean acting at times like a dude bro douche reminiscent of season 1 it's probably exactly for this - to expose it and then smack it down because this ISN'T who he is and he knows that now, it's just to show US. 

off the top of my head (maybe I’ll meta properly about it at some point but right now I’m just flailing) but the themes in season 1 for Dean focus on:

- repression of emotions - lack of self worth and self acceptance - being Sam’s parent  - toxic masculinity - bisexuality - not feeling he deserves love

And these should now be addressed in order to expose that he is moving past them and has come out the other side of his long path to self acceptance and they already seem to be using the pilot/season 1 both plot-wise but also thematically to expose these to then subvert them.

[liamau]

i was tagged in so many of these by @kingofkiwis and @harryhugs i mashed them into one. 

i tag @freelouee @yourgaymajesty @lunarosa @hrrysolo @rbbsbb @shipandlighthouse @louisinyogapants @oopstatt @fondleeds @signofharrystime you can do one tag, all, or none! this is just for fun so it’s up to you!!

Harry Styles Self-Titled | Lyrics Tag

“list your ten favorite lyric/lines from the album and tag others to do it next with the links”

STREAM: 8 HOUR PLAYLIST | ITUNES

PURCHASE: STORE | AMAZON | TARGET | B&N | HMV | OU

“I walked the streets all day running with the fears”  | Meet Me In The Hallway

“have the time of your life” | Sign Of The Times

“How would I tell her that she's all I think about?” | Carolina

“Moon dances over your good side” | Two Ghosts

“Had another talk about where it's going wrong, but we're still young” | Sweet Creature

“Broke a finger knocking on your bedroom door I got splinters in my knuckles crawling across the floor” | Only Angel

“It's getting crazy, I think I'm losing it, I think I'm losing it” | Kiwi

“Must this hurt you just before you go?” | Ever Since New York

“Apologies are never gonna fix this” | Woman

“Why won't you ever say what you want to say?” | From The Dinning Table

rules: answer the questions honestly 

nickname: jay

starsign: pisces

height:5’4? i think? im the same height as my dad but he lies about it lol

last thing I googled: “eskibar” ?? idk either

fave music artist: is this even a question

song stuck in my head: 4x4 miley cyrus ajgfhfkak ignore me

last movie i watched: i showed my roommate but im a cheerleader today bc it’s an iconic gay film

last tv show i watched: i just finished dear white people!

what are you wearing right now: joggers and a t-shirt

when did you create your blog: 5 or 6 years ago ?

what kind of stuff do i post?: mostly larry but ive been posting about all the boys stuff lately!

do you have any other blog: @pastelphannie and @lunadesole

do you get asks regularly?: no lol

why did you choose your url?: bc harry loves louis )):

gender: male

hogwarts house: hufflepuff

pokemon team: mystic

fave color: i love green!

average hours of sleep: 2-3 , depends on the night

lucky number: 11

fave characters: does jack mcqueen count? I'm kidding. um. probably lexa or lincoln from the 100. or dean from supernatural. but i’d also die for mickey from shameless

how many blankets do you sleep with: usually my heated blanket and my comforter!

dream job: i honestly have no idea. maybe a graphic designer. or web designer

following: 330

rules: put your playlists on shuffle and select ten songs!!!

my own worst enemy - lit

stfu - mansionz

a-punk - vampire weekend

water fountain - tUnE-yArDs

are you gonna be my girl - jet

nancy mulligan - ed sheeran

rosie - valerie carpentier

what a feeling - one direction

bowling for soup - 1985

slow hands - niall horan

99 red balloons - goldfinger

god thats a mess i don't have a music taste im sorry

a - age: 19

b - birthplace: alberta, canada

c - current time: 23:28

d - drink you had last: kool aid jammer (i love being an adult)

e - easiest person to talk to: @harryhugs @kingofkiwis and my best friends irl hanna and jada

f - favorite song: atm it’s bullet hollywood undead just cause it’s a good jam

g - grossest memory: i used to get car sick all the time and when i was (1)5 i threw up all over myself bc my dad wouldn't pull over despite me relentlessly asking him to

h - horror yes or no: yes

i - in love: no

j - jealous of people: sometimes, not often

k - killed someone: lol as if

l - love at first sight or should i walk past again: don't even bother

m - middle name: giovanni

n - number of siblings: two and two step-siblings

o - one wish: to meet 1d (esp lou and h) and tell them they deserve the whole world ):

p - person i called last: my entire call log is just me calling my sister

q - question you’re always asked: are you old enough? or are you a boy or a girl?

r - reason to smile: 1d. my friends.

s - song you last sang: i think i sang burning up by the jonas brothers lmao

t - time you woke up: 9:45

u - underwear color: grey

v - vacation: im going to minneapolis soon!

w - worst habit: shaking my leg

x - xrays: foot/leg

y - your favorite food: crostoli!! its a dessert but whatever

z - zodiac sign:pisces

[dudewhatswiththeshorts-blog]

Some notes on 12x20: Twigs and Twine and Tasha Banes

So this is basically my reaction watching the show in order + some last minute thoughts at the end.

THEN

dean is so small. tiny. pure. i miss him.

and we’re bringing it back to season 2... bless

NOW

TASHA WHY doN’T BE DEAD PLEASE

Okay so... dean is an actual concerned boyfriend who misses Cas v much and is v worried

ALICIA

“Max and Alicia?” okay so yeah dean u have a crush babe

OKAY SO I MCFREAKING LOVE MAX AND ALICIA’S CLOTHES HERE. THE BOOTS!!

“What about Cas?” Okay, so in every episode Dean is always the one trying to go on one-off cases and now he’s so worried about Cas that he’s getting all irritated at sam he is so in love I'm trash ; ;

“Their mom’s on a hunting trip and hasn’t been home in a week” BRINGING IT BACK!

WTF MARY KETCH WYD

okay so it’s A SHAPE SHIFTER and I am ALL OVER THIS!!! Shape shifters are my fav out of the SPN lore oh gosh I’M INTO IT

we will ignore the continuity errors in this scene

ok so also why does ketch’s shape shifter have a weird drawl

so yeah sam’s hair looks good today thanks

FUCK MAX AND DEAN ARE GOING TO LOOK AT THE CAR TOGETHER i love my queer babes

Alicia and Sam are bonding over not fitting in with their fams and i know we get this same arch with every MOTW ep but i mcFREAKING LOVE IT

“Doesn’t seem like much of a hugger” ok now i’m sad it’s too true y can’t mary be loving

Yeah okay don’t check out the creepy cellar just go into the house and ignore it

what the fuck ok trash is back i am INTRIGUED

I love tasha and her hair is beautiful i’m in love

WAIT OK SO IS TASHA A SHAPE SHIFTER CUZ THAT WINE OPENER COULD BE SILVER AM I FISHING?? I JUST WANT A SHAPE SHIFTER

daNG I aM inTO THiS PLoT

Dean! Is Drinking! Wine! I love my fancy babe what a cutie 

yeah okay Mr. “torture is the answer” tell that to dean who spent 30 years resisting it in hell

k so now ketch is getting into shit w/ mary

Dean is like a cute mom drinking his wine, bonding with the other single-hunter-mom dean is a wine mom who goes on Facebook i’m calling it

mary you better call dean back or i’m screaming

YOU ENDED DEAN’S CALL I’M BITTER DON’T DO THAT

so mary is checking her email but it looks like all of Sam’s emails from a while ago??

k so it’s not sam’s emails BUT mary is signed up for the biggerson’s newsletter and also the “NEW ONLINE GAMES” email is favorited lmao

OKAY SO NOW WE’RE GETTING INTO SOME PLOT

THE FILMING IS SO GR8

shit this old woman is crazy what does she have planned???

AWW dean’s old voicemail is still up is that his old voice too?? did they re-record it??

“I miss you” plz say this to him when he has his phone on him i’m sobbing

lmao the cellar smells like death could job dean

MAX IS QUEER IN CANON ONE HUNDRED PERCENT OUT NO TAKE BACKS

nOOOO TASHA IS DEAD

max doesn’t deserve this no no no no

why is no one going to save alicia?? just letting her chill with not-mom??

mary wyd

IS THAT MICK

ya it’s mick

OKAY SO THE CHASE BETWEEN KETCH AND MARY IS NERVE WRACKING

OH MY GOD GARTH

CLAIRE

FUCK

if mary dies i will scream

GET HIM MARY YESSSSS

this is legit the best fight scene in the show so far

HELL YEAH MARY HEADBUTT THAT BITCH PUNCH HIM IN THE DICK YESS FUCK I’M SO HAPPY THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE

seriously ketch?? you fuck

THIS SHOT THO WITH THE ZOOMING IN AND THE EYES I’M SHOOK

max is such a fucking badass

this old woman has me shook

dang this is so cool this entire episode i love it

maX HaS To LiVE hiS MOther’S DEATH?? FUck NO i’m DEPREssed

maybe there’s a way to reverse things?? or maybe to do the doll thing in a not-evil way

FuCK max dO NOT tAKE ThE DeAL

max no no no no

YES ALICIA SAVE SAMM!!!!

holy shit no no no no this episode is so emotionally brutal alicia just got fucking stabbed by her mom

alicia HAS to stay alive PLEASE

NO WHY IS ALICIA DEAD THIS EPISODE WAS SO GOOD AND NOW IT’S THE SAME AS EVERY OTHER EPISODE

literally i am bitter as fuck

max, alicia, & tasha were pure and this shit happened they didn’t deserve this

DO NOT leave max alone

u fucks

no no deanbean don’t feel guilty you did the right thing my babe

max what the fuck

SHIT MAN THIS SCENE IS MIRRORING SEASON 2 WHEN DEAN LAYS SAM ON THE BED AND SHIT I LOVE THESE PARALLELS

spin off

SPIN OFFFFF

is it bad that i love this end scene

i hate that max essentially just sold his soul, but he also became an insanely powerful witch.... maybe him and rowena team up?? (PLEASE)

what’s up with sam why is he asleep?????

i love this mirroring from the beginning with the shape shifter and now with the real mary

shit Toni’s back wtf

Positives:

Mixed feelings about this episode. First of all, I loved the shots. Whoever directed this did a wonderful job. I love that Alicia and Max are being included in the narrative more often. I miss when Sam and Dean had a bunch of hunter friends which is why I’m happy that they’re slowly building their contact list up again this season. I think the MOL thing wasn’t overdone this episode which it feels like it is sometimes, so I applaud that. Also whoever choreographed that fight scene between Ketch and Mary was AWESOME because I could watch Mary punch someone is the dick everyday for the rest of my life. I also loved Dean’s pining for Cas and the way that Cas was brought into the episode without being in the episode. Kudos. And I loved that the fact max being gay(?) was brought up again and not ignored from the episode where he’s introduced. I’m glad we got to meet Tasha, no matter how brief. I thought she was a well developed character. I’m happy we’re seeing more “monsters” doing good in the world (aka witch hunters). That’s what SPN has always been about. Also! We’re straying away from angel/demon MOTW episodes which I’m very happy for!!! It feels closer to a season 1-3 sort of vibe which I’m really digging. Especially with all those parallels from the season 2 finale. Maybe we’ll see some more season two parallels (like we saw in the psychic mention from the early part of season 12 and also with the yellow eyed demon comeback). Those were all good things in my opinion.

Negatives:

Some things I wasn’t really digging was the fact more people of color had to die. THAT upset me. I hate all the unnecessary death in Supernatural. I’m hoping that Max and his newfound power becomes an important part of the storyline because if he’s forgotten and Tasha died for nothing I’m going to be severely disappointed. Also, even though Cas was mentioned I’m still bitter that he wasn’t in the episode.

Overall, I’m giving this:

Grade: A

[arcadiabuilt]

@singersonlydaughter doesn’t even get it queue’d -- let’s see Griffon with her smol protegee.

“So, these symbols--sigals--they all repel or do something different?” The young woman had been doodling them on Griffon’s arm for what seemed like ages as she learned, the meanings standing out in her head as she dragged the pen across the other girl’s pale skin.

[dachosmin]

Chocolate Box 2016

Hi there, dear writer!

I’m very excited to be doing Chocolate Box! Since I have a million ships, I’ll try to just throw out a short idea or two for each pairing in the interest of sparing you 10,000 words of me blabbering about why I love all of these characters and relationships so very very much. But rest assured I do love them, and despite the brevity of my prompts, I really will be thrilled with anything you come up with for any of these pairings!

Fandoms

Captive Prince

Gentleman Bastards

Westworld

The Dresden Files

The Lord of the Rings

General Likes

Gen Kinks

Time travel fix it AUs, Time loops, Reincarnation

Meddling Gods and Goddesses

Costume/Architecture/food porn

Historical AUs- Viking, Egyptian, Heian, Reconquista, Roman

Guidebook Style (travel guides, custom guides, history guides, food/clothes/grammar  guides)

Myths, fairytales, epic poems

Vivid and poetic imagery, a sense of magic and wonder

Supernatural elements left unexplained

Ship Kinks

Enemies to Lovers/reluctant allies, captivity/hostages

Arranged Marriage Fic

Hurt/Comfort of all of the flavors

Easy-Amnesia, esp the cheesy kind where A forgets their relationship with  B

Drunken Confessions, bedside confessions, presumed dead funeral  confessions

Mutual Pining, Misunderstandings

Kink… Kinks

Begging, crying

Praisekink

Bondage, restraint, denial

Dubcon, under the influence sex

Experience mismatch/instructional sex

dirty talk, humiliation

…tentacles

Captive Prince

Auguste/Damen/Laurent

Option A: a wild canon divergence appears! Auguste lives! I would be happy with both pwp or fluff or plot, but please keep the angst light for this one (I have the books for that!) Maybe both the brothers are taken as spoils of war by Damen? Or the duel happens, Damen secretly spares Auguste, and years later Kastor still rebels and sends Damen to Laurent?

Option B: canon happens, and Auguste watches, first as a sad and horrified ghost unable to help his brother as awful things happen, then as a matchmaker, subtly influencing things to get Damen and Laurent together, and finally as a voyeur, possibly getting off on his brother getting off and possibly super guilty but unable to help himself. Yay?

Gentleman Bastards

Jean Tannen/Locke Lamora

These two are melodramatic as all hell, I’d love something iddy and over the top to match. Locke fakes his own death for reasons and Jean puts on a funeral and weeps over his grave while alternating between cursing Locke out and eulogizing him, which Locke awkwardly interrupts? They have to pretend to be married and are each suffering stoically for what They Can Never Have?!?! They attend a masque ball as part of a con and kiss and there’s weird identity porn?!?! Either is sex pollen’d and the other has to take care of him while silently cursing his life? YES PLEASE.

And on that note, I will also happily accept straight (hah) up porn. I believe for all his bravado, Locke is at his core very self-flagellating, especially after the events of the first book. I can see him getting drunk and wanting Jean to punish him, and Jean not having any of it and worshipping his body all up and down the damn bed. Or, you know, Jean stoically resisting Locke’s seductions because he doesn’t want to take advantage and Locke getting increasingly frustrated that his seducing isn’t working. Except then it works. Yay.

Westworld

Bernard & Dolores

This is the only “&” pairing I put, but I’m no less fascinated by it! There’s so much to go off here! In a way they’re siblings, in a way she’s his child, before their awakenings she was just a tool to him... I would love to see any moment in their convoluted relationship, or echoes across it. Feel free to play with messy timelines and unreliable narrators!

Hector/Teddy

I’m 110% sure they’ve been made to have sex before, either in a storyline or for the gratification of someone like Charlotte. Would love to see some part of it; it doesn’t have to be explicit- if you want to detail a bit of hero/villain flirtation in a storyline that would rock too. If you want to go deeper and play off the idea of a pwp for the gratification of the reader mimicking the storylines for the gratification of the park visitors, I’d be fascinated to see what you come up with!

Dolores/Teddy/Wyatt

I didn’t nominate this but gosh does it interest me! I assume, based on end of season spoilers, that this isn’t a strictly literal pairing? But I’d love to see how Teddy is torn between the damsel in distress he loves and the soldier he hates, and how he reconciles them as the same person. If you want to do weird hallucinations in the vein of the show, I could see a threesome as a manifestation of this struggle? Also they’re both really hot, sue me?

The Dresden Files

Harry/Thomas

I will read anything about these two, but I love the pairing most when not everything has been neatly resolved yet. So give me the guilt, the pining, the angst, Thomas’s anger over Harry’s little incident on the boat, Thomas’s guilt over using his hunger, Harry’s fear about going darkside and his revulsion to monsters- any and all of it!

Charity/Michael/Harry

Someone mentioned this pairing to me ages ago and it’s fascinated me ever since. Harry has always sort of idolized the Carpenters and their goodness and his perfect life while at the same time telling himself he doesn’t deserve any of it. Perhaps Charity and Michael finally snap and try to show him he does. Through gentle domestic schmoop or a hot threesome where they both get all dommy on him, up to you!

Margaret/Lasciel

As I recall, there’s a projection of Margaret hanging around Harry’s mind, and of course Lasciel is in there too. Have they crossed paths? Margaret flirted with the darkness; I can see them hitting it off in Harry’s subconscious.

Lara/Thomas/Harry

I’m imagining this as “Lara seduces Harry in order to make Thomas jealous and it ends with a dubconny messed up threesome that’s one part hatesex (Lara-Thomas), one part angsty pining (Thomas-Harry), and one part really confused (Harry).”

Lara/Lasciel

Lara is a succubus and Lasciel is a fallen angel that specializes in seduction. What would have happened if Lara picked up Lasciel’s coin instead of Harry? One-upmanship pwps are also welcome!

Jared/Ebenezer

Jared and Ebenezer were reportedly on good terms as young men. That must have been an explosive pairing- a demonic assassin and a hotheaded young wizard, blowing things up across 1700s Europe. And then something went wrong in Istanbul, and now they’re bitter enemies. What happened? And do they still angrily/guiltily/angstily think of each other?

The Lord of the Rings

Aragorn/Boromir

I’d love something that plays with Boromir’s conflicted feelings about Aragorn- on the one hand he’s sort of a usurper and has none of the outward polish that one might expect- but on the other hand Boromir is drawn to him despite himself. 

Boromir/Faramir

YES more brothers! I am just realizing that this letter is v incest heavy. I love these two, for all we don’t get to see them interact together. Boromir’s protectiveness! Faramir’s hero worship! Guilt! Shame! Angst!

Faramir/Witch-King

Welp! File this under “things I didn’t know I wanted.” Umm if we matched on this one, please note I am quite fine with dubcon and noncon, but please no detailed mentions of maiming. And, uh, no fluff for this one?

Aragorn/Haldir

UI know Haldir isn’t technically supposed to be at Helm’s Deep, but that meeting and that hug! We-might-die tomorrow late night conversations and makeouts? Or if you are book-canon only, perhaps a look at their various meetings in Lorien?

Eomer/Faramir

They have very different personalities and cultures, and I’d love to see those clashes played with. Culture clashes and miscommunications! How do you flirt in Rohan?! Arranged marriages! Brothers in arms we-might-die tent sex while trying to be quiet ahh!

Aaaand that’s it! Thank you so much, dear writer!

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fandom tag drop. please note any muse can be fit to any fandom on this list.

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Anyone ready for some wild SPN season 12 speculation?

OK DISCLAIMER: this is just my opinion and I know nothing more than anyone else OK and I’m more than happy to be proved wrong or have lots and lots of opinions on this, please do, its just fun and I wanted to write down my thoughts as I flailed about this a lot today, lets be honest :)

Foreshadowing points through the season and Speculation under the cut.

Sam.

Foreshadowing:

He is allowing himself to start forgiving himself for his ‘monstrous’/supernatural past. Ie. His speech to Magda, his looking after Ellie and his interactions with Mary (who blames herself, not Sam for what happened to him) show that Sam is not to blame for his mother’s actions that led to his demon blood / Lucifer arc and for his ‘father’s’ actions (here replace ‘father’ with HITLER re: Ellie and LUCIFER re: Sam).  Then we have Eileen: foreshadowing / call back to 11x04: something more, with a hunter, someone who understands the life...

Speculation: 

He is learning to forgive himself and will eventually accept that Lucifer is not his fault (probably aided by Lucifer dying - that arc being closed. Not necessarily this season, but this will close this for Sam and Chuck I would love for that story arc to be over). Similarly I also see a real supernatural/human reconciliation within Sam as part of this forgiveness/acceptance with all the magical foreshadowing very strong this season with the good witch / bad witch vibes and Sam’s past and present use of magic himself. Witch!Sam kinda has to happen? Like, SOON please?

Mary. 

Foreshadowing: 

In theory as foreshadowed since the very beginning of the season Mary (who represents Sam and Dean’s past) should choose Heaven while the boys are OK with this, symbolising that they are putting the past behind them and moving forwards.

Speculation: 

Mary is going to have to make a choice soon and LBR either way it’s going to suck. She has a confrontation with Dean? I can only imagine how much this is going to move Dean’s arc along (I’m so ready for this!). She needs to realise the MOL are monsters, not hunters and reconcile with the boys. She kind of really needs to go back to Heaven (and I think still wants to really). She still doesn't fit or belong either with the boys or the BMOL. Even if she did eventually where’s she going to go? Buy a condo in Lawrence, pop in on the boys from time to time? Maybe if they feel bad for killing her off but, narrative wise she should go. She represents the boys’ past and she has to die for them to move forwards unless they want some kind of reconciliation of past and future arc. Really she is a plot device for the boys so as much as I want her to be her own character, she's not really been written as such, she aids the boys’ growth and season arc so, I’m just going to leave it here that most of what I care about is this *please don't hate me*.

Cas/Dean.

Does it surprise you that I put these two together? If you follow me it shouldn't ;)

Foreshadowing for Cas:  Cas says in the past he wouldn't have hesitated to kill the nephilim. Now he's unsure.  THE THINGS THEY’VE SHARED HAVE CHANGED HIM. Is still unsure of where he belongs.

Foreshadowing for Dean: He loses his memories (relevant to what I foreshadow for Cas). He reveals so much this season that he is NOT performing!Dean. He is finally allowing himself to feel that he deserves better ie. from Mary, from Sam’s lies and from Cas’s absence. He is finally putting himself, not necessarily first, but not last anymore either.He is growing (through Amara and Mary particularly this year). 12x12: He is upset that he is the one who led Cas to fall/change/be lying there dying. He blames himself. Since end of season 7 he has repressed his feelings for Cas and while doing so these feelings have grown over time, organically, from crush to pining to Chuck knows what, now entering season 12 as basically, husbands. Dean’s POV towards Cas is entirely evolved from, say, season 8 (relevant to my foreshadowing too).

Speculation for Cas: is going to be ‘restored to factory settings’ / brainwashed.

He will be restored to pre season 4 Cas by the Angels to ‘power him up’ v the nephilim. Narratively it fits, but also fits with Misha explaining pre season airing how Cas is back to season 4 Cas - which we have seen nothing really that might relate to this up until now. This also particularly fits IF Cas is absent in part or all of 12x20/21/22, where hopefully we will get ALL THE PINING! / WORRIED! DEAN. 

Speculation for Dean: During this time, we know he will face Mary in some sort of confrontation (which is thematically him confronting his past self). Dean will textually acknowledge that he has had a facade in place, mostly to protect Sam but also for himself due to his upbringing and the past, that performing!Dean EXISTS and that there is another side to him. This is also entirely relevant to his feelings towards Cas as well as so much else.

So... together:

Dean will have to get Cas out of the brainwashing like the crypt scene but this is 4 years on from the crypt scene and they both have grown so much. It also fits into Cas’s ‘belonging’ arc, if he can break the programming / brainwashing. Also remembering that he couldn't expel Lucifer in season 11 because he just didn’t believe that Dean (and Sam) really cared about him and was depressed, had PTSD and felt unworthy.

Crypt Scene + Attempted Expelling Lucifer Scene...

insert *I’m you but stronger* meme ;)

This is NOW the time for the proper crypt scene as it was supposed to be. 

Its all building to that for me. Sigh *true loves kiss*. Basically this:

Thank you @super-sootica :)

Aside from this.

Cas represents the light mirror to Lucifer: the fallen angel who loves Humanity v the fallen angel who hates Humanity.

It should therefore really be Cas who ends up defeating Lucifer, potentially alongside Crowley (and the boys, as they’re our protagonists) because, well, Cas/Crowley mirrors.

It also wouldn't surprise me if Crowley died in this, if he is to die, this is the way to go, as a mirror for Cas and to allow Cas/Dean to happen due to his place in their love chevron, though I am not sold completely on this as Crowley is more than capable of staying alive for the narrative and Mark reasons. Also Mark P saying we will really hate Lucifer? Yeah. Probably as he kills Crowley. OK it could be Mary but I would be pissed if so, thats not her narrative, she has to choose Heaven, not get killed.

So, this is my opinion based on what we have seen so far BUT 12x19 hasn't happened yet and that is going to be the key in all this. The rest I kind of don't see really how it will go another way but if this foreshadowing of memory loss etc doesn't come to pass then an entirely different scenario is most likely to be played out in relation to Dean/Cas, basically I see an unambiguous or extremely close to it confirmation of feelings from Cas at season end, followed by non-reciprocation from Dean (not flat out rejection, just not textually reciprocated and ambiguous enough to hurt) and a subsequent separation, probably Cas feeling rejected in hiatus.

Dean/Cas is always a mine field though because it doesn't just rely on the narrative, clearly, or they’d have been together long ago, but also on TPTB / network decisions so... ??

Anyway, please do feel free to add / disagree! Thanks everyone who listened to be babbling on about this today and for your thoughts :) @floralmotif @k-vichan @whyjm

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Mary, her boys and Destiel

My thoughts around Mary, what she has seen and her coping with her boys and their angel buddy. 

She's gone from being a mother of 2 babies in a (happily? generally?) cupid-induced loving marriage, still fighting the supernatural on occasion to happily dead in heaven (which she remembers), to now being a (unneeded) mother to 2 grown men - who live with a supernatural being, in an underground bunker owned by her family's 'mythical opposition' the men of letters and living the hunting life she was desperate to keep them away from. Yeah, tough.

- Resurrection : Dean convinces her of who he is by an emotional retelling of her life and how she met John.  Reminding us that when Mary and John first met they didn't actually immediately like each other, she 'knocked him flat on his ass'. They did fall intensely in love although their relationship and family was marred by the supernatural and they sometimes fought passionately (she doesn't know it was a Cupid of course).... Aside - *ahem "couple who were 'forced to be' v couple who embody free will" parallels*

- Witnessing Dean and Cas being reunited when Cas believes he has died. Cas throwing himself at Dean, shouting then quietly murmuring his name into his neck. She, understandably, has a questioning look in her eyes. Then, um, ANGEL?!

- Seeing Cas work tirelessly to find Sam. Seeing Dean completely trusting Cas to do this and also relying on him emotionally (overhearing their #married phone conversation about Dean not wanting to overwhelm her).

- Knowing that Cas lives in the bunker with them, but noting that he doesn't sleep, emphasising his 'inhuman' side.

- Seeing how completely Cas falls apart when Sam and Dean are imprisoned as he tries to find them and attempts to hunt alone (v how effective he was at finding just Sam, working with Dean, when she first met him). She blames him for their loss at first. Then upon seeing how completely he is broken, even counting the hours, she tries to support and help him in as much as she can, in her way. Upon realising how he is NOT coping she goes from her first instinct of blaming him for their loss in her role as their mother to actually consoling him.

Mary is NOT a monster, she's really struggling, she misses the people she loves and so buries herself in hunting to bury her emotions. Plus her automatic reaction to strong feelings of love, pain and guilt is to get angry... LIKE DEAN (very relevant for Cas’s death scene).

- Cas putting himself in danger to save her from Billie, he then gives an impassioned, muddled speech about how important you/you all is/are to him/everything... but predominantly throughout this is looking at Dean. Sure he doesn't want Mary to die, but this speech - this declaration is not really about them all being so important to everything, it can't be, she's not been around long enough and she hasn't done anything to show Cas that she's of any real importance. 

She wonders if he even really understands it himself, he looks so muddled and broken. Is it because he's an angel? Do angels feel like humans? She's confused and worried, she is already not sure of the new world she's come back to, and now there's a supernatural being in her and her boy's life, it's intense. And now this?! She turns to Dean and sees the look of pain in his eyes as he realises how broken Cas is and how he has put himself in harms way for them. 

His jaw is clenched, his body language is closed off, guarded. She understands this is far more complex than she first imagined.

- After such an emotive night she heads out to clear her head, she can't cope with being around them all, it's too much. The next time she sees them all it is most definitely jarring. Sam and Dean are all business with her, there's no sign of anything cosmic or anything in their actions to recall that emotional night. Dean partakes in some over the top posturing with the waitress on Cas's behalf while calling Cas 'devastatingly handsome' while Cas seems oblivious, or is that actually a scowl on his face? She's now even more confused. Does Dean not realise or is this something else entirely? Has she misread Cas? She doesn't know any other angels so it could be that she's misunderstood. He is a little awkward and supernatural after all.... but the boys want him around and he obviously cares for them so she should just get them all to get on with the hunt.

- Cas is dying and it's her fault. He wants the Winchesters to leave him as to save themselves. He tells Sam and Dean that his best moments have been with them which makes her wonder just how old he is and what he has seen. He says the things they've shared and done have changed him. She knows this is important but not exactly how, it's deeply emotional though and it reminds her of how little she actually knows of their time together and her boys that this angel, this supernatural being could have been affected so much by them. She turns and sees Sam, then Dean's faces and how they both are pained by Cas's dying words. Somehow though she can see not just sadness in Dean's eyes but also regret and self loathing. He blames himself. She knows because it's what she sees in the mirror. She is reminded again how Dean is so like her.

- Cas looking up at them all, calling them all his family, nodding at her to include her which just makes her feel awful for her part in having led to this, his death and all their pain. She doesn't really deserve this, to be a part of their family.

- Cas then immediately looking down, not catching anyone's eye as he says 'I love you'. 

Cas looking up at Sam as he tells him that he loves them all, meaning him, specifically TOO, then finally the long lingering, revealing look at Dean as he can't avoid him any longer. She knows now, she understands. 

She looks at Dean and sees so much of herself in him. She wonders if he understands too or if his self-loathing prevents his comprehension that he can be loved like this. She's not known him very long as an adult but she knows this much about him and that saddens her deeply, it also contributes to her own self-loathing in an ironic twist. And if he does understand Cas's words, does he reciprocate? Her and Dean, they work with actions, not words and she sees his actions now, how he's holding back. She understands. But it doesn't matter now anyway, 

Cas is dying and it's her fault. She could be the cause of the breaking of her little boy's heart and he doesn't even know it. But still in the back of her mind, is this not maybe for the best? How can you love something not...human?

- Sam and Dean fighting for Cas, refusing to leave him, emphasising that he is family, seeing the understanding and love in Cas's eyes as they do so. Dean had even been arguing with and insulting both the KING OF HELL and RAMIEL as he was so worried for Cas. Mary is terrified of Ramiel, another yellow eyed demon and she has seen this. 

Now, as he is dying, Sam's consoling words while Dean can't watch, he looks down like he might even be praying. Or perhaps he just can't watch Cas's last moments.

- But he lives, no thanks to Mary.

- "Let's go home"....

No wonder she can't stay around them, with the confusion over their supernatural 'friend' plus now the guilt (she's still in the old hunter mindset of kill anything inhuman, she doesn't have 12 years worth of Winchester Gospel storyline to teach her the grey areas like our boys have and they've only recently learned it fully re: Benny, Amy).

And yes she's made it a hell of a lot worse by now also betraying Sam with the BMOL, when he was the one who really still trusted her.

So yeah, in her struggle to find herself she's ‘abandoned’ BOTH Sam and Dean and now she's narratively: 

1. betrayed Sam through her work with the BMOL.

2. betrayed Dean.... by endangering Cas. 

So I think that speaks volumes.

Now for her redemption arc as she's already admitted to working with the BMoL and is clearly conflicted about nearly losing Cas, let’s get some more wake up calls :)

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“When you’re hurt, you don’t keep going until you pass out,” she bit, the wound stitched closed as she gave her opposite a stern look. “That could easily compromise everything. You let someone help as soon as possible.” Saga stood back up, watching carefully. “Don’t argue, please.”