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[wingwaver]

I wanna preface this with saying I've never been in law school-

I know those guys signed waivers that mentioned they could die 3 time in it- BUT- I am curious about exactly what the waivers explained... because I highly doubt that it mentioned anything about how Rush did everything he could to avoid insuring this vessel was 100% certified safe. I'm sure they left out the crucial details of Rush firing his safety regulations guy after he brought up that the submersible was unsafe and I wonder if they mentioned the actual capacity of the ship's pressure limit. With all the details about how this thing was an unregulated death trap I wonder if the company could actually face legal trouble now...

[mulderscully]

the connection between rose and clara as companions or moreso, as love interests to the doctors, is so fasinating to me.

whenever i see people try to pit these relationships against each other it boggles my mind completely.

there are, of course, deep differences between these two women and how they were written but at the core of it they are so similar. young, lost a parent, want to see and do more. love the doctor but have a boyfriend back home. see the doctor regenerate. they both meet the doctor at a time where they have lost so much, where they're so hopeless and devoid of wonder and help bring him back to life just by existing.

i love how clara and rose are two sides of the same coin. imo clara is what would have happened to rose had she stayed with the doctor forever. when jackie says "50 years from now there will be some strange woman on some planet but she's not rose tyler. not anymore." etc vs how clara essentially became immortal in the end and herself becomes the doctor, in a sense, losing her humanity.

but she still cannot be with him, even though she's immortal! it does not work. because forever does not exist for the doctor. being immortal is not the answer. there simply is no answer for this timelord.

rose gets to keep her humanity, her sense of self and her family by getting a version of the doctor who could stay for HER forever, but that too in a good 80 years will end for them. but that doesn't make it any less important or real. just like clara's ending doesn't negate the love she and the doctor have for each other either.

the power of having a relationship with the doctor is that it is fleeting, and that it is worth it nonetheless.

the doctor can love you with all of their hearts, but no one can stay with them forever. and both rose and clara show that so so so perfectly in completely opposite directions.

the rose and crown. the flowers outside of the tardis in hell bent. clara singing hungry like the wolf. she and rose are bound together in some way and i love to think about it.

[nitazenes]

even if things “aren’t as they seem”

they should be treated with the same level of seriousness

and how is he supposed to be the one to judge when he doesn’t want to get to know how your system functions?

when we told our therapist we have DID the first thing she’s done was get to learn about us and how we function

how can he help when he’s so disinterested? it’s so strange and honestly a bit creepy

well like (tw ramcoa and programming mentions below, also brief animal death mention)

you in no way have to read everything ive said below bc i really went on a rant here but tl;dr you're totally right. Even if it was something else, it still clearly effects me and i need treatment for it. Honestly youre not the first one to call him a creep --- rant starts here --- Not to expose too much but I have spoken to a fellow RAMCOA survivor and i dont really know anything re: programming and the point of it or how it even works

But i sat down and verbatim, almost word for word recited two different things that had happened to us that were *textbook* RAMCOA. The fact I parroted what happened to me without even knowing programming terms and definitions just, takes away all skepticism i have. And the fact that a survivor and I experienced ALMOST the exact same programming, literally just going back and forth about what happened. There's no fucking WAY i just made that up.

I avoid reading stuff about programming bc my own targets therapeutic language, if I start reading about it, very quickly we begin to spin, get motion sick, scatter, or rapid switch.

And true. even if it wasnt what it seemed (which it def was RAMCOA) but lets just say its not what it seemed, it still seems very real to me, and effects me severely. That means it's still a problem that should be addressed the same way you would address any RAMCOA survivor.

The fact he wont listen means he's not going to catch on if i start recycling or having a coded trigger be set off. I even had a programmed response to him once already where a program triggered from some hand gesture he made and I was completely out-- but it had me on my knees in front of my therapist trying to get his belt off. Thankfully in that situation he actually responded appropriately and backed up, helped me up and walked me back to my chair and said "You dont have to do that for me to help you" thats the ONE TIME ive gotten the care I want out of him. that was 8 years ago. i have displayed my programming directly in his face. Many times at this point. and at the time i didnt even know why i did that and i was so ashamed and embarrassed and crying and he was just like. "it's ok"

he shows no interest in learning who my alters are, what they do, what jobs they perform, my system map (very complex and layered with different subsystems) this dude has to know i am programmed like i said in some post somewhere, i killed a rattle snake BY MYSELF at 8 years old bc it was threatening our chickens, in fact i was so confident that i didnt even have snake boots on (boots that snake bites cannot penetrate) we lived in rattle snake central and yet as an 8 year old i drove a shovel into that snake and killed it.

i dont think people realize how young that is to be killing an animal, for ANY reason. had my parents any care for me, they would have made sure I had my boots on, and they would have monitored me while in the backyard, i killed the snake and had to go get my dad on the other side of the house that a snake was going after the chickens but i dealt with it and the most he said was "good job, wear your boots next time"

like ik rn im trauma dumping on this post but even if things weren't what they seemed, why do i have a scar with two dots visible from having a stun gun jammed into my ribs as a kid, That scar didnt come from nowhere. I might not have known what it was but i took my own stun gun (it was similar to the one id been attacked with) and the prongs line up exactly with the dots. At this point, esp given that i remembered the institution i went to, i just want someone to wholly believe me.

If i said one day

"it was all a lie. i made it up. im not mentally ill, ive just lived the life of someone with a disorder i dont have"

my family would take that as gospel. they would much rather believe that i lied my whole fucking life, than me calling out the fact that I was surrounded by evangelicals and fundamentalist christians most of my childhood who were weird and malicious towards me.

i finally opened up to my therapist about my fear of surveillance last week, that these days, anytime youre outside youre on some camera. and im afraid of audio bugs. So much that i carry a device that causes horrid feedback to whoever is listening on the other end of a radio, its like a signal jammer. he goes "What makes you think youre so unique that the government or whomever is watching you"

and i finally just shut off and said "i cant tell you" its more damaging for me to go into these therapy sessions feeling like i need to convince my therapist that this was real.

He may have shown interest in my system rediscovery for about the first year i saw him. after that he doesnt even ask how my alters are doing, always expects it to be me (Rey) at the front at all times and he doesnt even know how my system functions, i dont even think he knows theres a hierarchy in my system-- so how can he help me if he doesnt care or know what i am truly dealing with.

His mind is still in the 70's when MPD was a thing.

I can't even talk to him about my sexuality or gender

ive never had someone to talk to about how I feel gender-wise (i used to identify as male, but now identify as Agender bc really, i dont fit in with most binary terms) he calls me she/her and i can forgive an old man for not using they/them/xe/xem pronouns for us but like. I also used to define myself as asexual but realized im more bi/pan than i thought and im not repulsed anymore. Mostly. but the most he said was "how does it feel to admit youre not asexual" i explained how it was new to me. that was the end of the subject.

What about the fact that i have cis, trans, and intersex alters all over the board? how do i help them with their dysphoria? I dunno!!

my aunt has been paying out of pocket for the past 8 years for his treatment where i feel like after 3 years, he'd gotten tired of me. Lost interest. most of his clients are older than me and they seem to have great relationships with him. I guess old people just get along with fellow old people.

[lzrdprsn]

The Tortured Poets Department is the single most ironic name Taylor Swift could have chosen for her album. Can you be a "tortured poet" or a "starving artist" while simultaneously threatening legal action against the person tracking the constant movement and carbon emissions of your multiple private jets? Is that torture to you, Taylor?

[the-rockers]

Not gonna lie, I don't know if I have the knowledge to say "this is ableist" or whatever but the more I think on it the less I like the "is X in the room with us right now" meme because like. I dunno doesn't it just kind of seem like the butt of the joke is people who experience delusions or hallucinations?

I don't want to come across as preachy, because the obvious meaning is "X is not real", but in conveying that it puts the joke's recipient in the role of someone experiencing a delusion or hallucination. "X isn't real and you're crazy", yeah? And while it's not overly saying, like, "it's bad to experience delusions or hallucinations", it ultimately does draw on that comparison, and puts someone being mocked or shamed in that role.

It's bad to use gay as an insult because you're saying "you're gay, which is a bad thing", and this isn't doing that; but it's saying "you're imagining things, like a delusional person." Is it that big of a difference? I don't know, and I can't say, but it doesn't sit well with me.

[beetlehorn]

sorry but like the whole warrior cat community saw spottedthistle and went "this is unacceptable especially for this book series about minors" and then went and made amvs/pmvs and art about it the same way they do everything else in the series and it feels inappropriate

[mxlfoydraco]

drop that podcast list pls

well researched & victim focused true crime pods for anyone interested!

[iguessyouregonnamissthepantyraid]

funniest news blurb i've ever seen actually. "there was a plot to kill trump last weekend. no not that one. totally different one. we figured out about it beforehand though so we heightened security at the rally. yeah that rally. yeah the one where-- yeah. yeah that one."

[lazaruspiss]

People know that the whole "don't portray [harmful action] because viewers might recreate it" thing is a rule for children's shows right? It's supposed to be shit like "don't show peppa pig playing with fire so we don't get sued if a kid watches it and burns their house down." Not like, fanfiction for adults.

Edit: this was me venting about fandom cops. not me making some nuanced hot take. don't be weird in my comments.

Edit 2: turning off notifications. PSA: do not use pet names for strangers, especially not without asking. it's creepy.

[084392]

had never heard of "mlp infection aus" until this month and ngl i still dont know what they are but. it made me want to draw some of them getting taken over by their cutie marks or something......

[wingwaver]

I highly doubt those guys are still alive down there but I do hope they manage to find the submersible just to give the families closure

[mulderscully]

Veronika I'm telling you your TwelveClara posts and tags recently have been making me INCREDIBLY insane in a way I can't quite explain. he was falling in love with her as Eleven... y eah 😭

omg i remember watching the snowmen LIVE and instantly falling in love with clara and matt and jenna's chemistry. it made me feel something for the show i hadn't felt in a while and at the time since i was a doctor/rose blog i made a WHOLE SIDEBLOG about them so trust me, i adore them sm!! twelveclara make me nuts but it all starts with elevenclara. i'm probably gonna post some more sets of them over on timelordgifs later <3

[pukicho]

please speak about palestine

Alright. There are a lot of politics surrounding this event, so much random bullshit that tries to obfuscate the simple fact that what is happening in Palestine is vile, and plainly wrong. When deciding whether or not you should step in and help, you must remind yourself that this isn't about the ''politics'' of the situation, this isn't about the bullshit arguing we make for 'both sides' whilst we sit safely within the confines of our homes - this is about humanity - Don't let people confuse you, or downplay the terrible acts that are happening. See your fellow person in trouble and help them when they're suffering, it's as simple as that.

Imagine how easy it is to spend $20 bucks on a subway sandwich and a side of chips, so instead of doing that, spend the equivalent helping people not die (or do even more!). I suggest you all spend some time donating, sharing with others and helping out where you can <3

E-sims

Supporting Displaced Families

Emergency relief

Spreadsheet of Gofundme's

[infinitelystrangemachinex]

in this house we love the artists and engineers and actors who worked on arcane so much that we will not share the leaks

remember that the people who really suffer from leaks are regular people like you and me who worked hard for weeks, months, and years to make this show a reality

[girlbob-boypants]

Dorian: Welcome to Tevinter! As I told you, it's beautiful and amazing and cultured and also has indoor plumbing. Basically the best place ever!

The giant floating castle that kills people with fireballs if they break the law:

[sky-scribbles]

I'm not sure how much of it was intentional, but I'm still very amused by TLOVM including a red dragonborn mage from Draconia whose main problems are:

She resents Kima and Allura being together, because she wanted a relationship with one of them

She felt entitled to the spotlight and couldn't stand it when her party members got it instead

She failed to communicate effectively with any of her friends

And then Vorugal stomps her to death with his talons.