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futurefind · 8 months

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//of all the things my brains focused on for copium at work last few days its been. Tomas of all things :')) him @ the oshifam the venn diagram of feelings in general but also vastly different interpretations of stuff like Savior by Rise Against

How much like Sa some of his biggest mistakes / hurting oneself can be summarized via going "you're most safe without me here / I'm bad for my loved ones"

How he very clearly would prefer to not hurt Sasume but would try and maim / near kill her for sake of SOME goal presumably prioritizing her (otherwise, if he were truly malicious— why not kill her? why not take Shinrei, now or immediately after Lyra's death??)

Or how Sa rightfully sees him as nothing but a betraying bastard who either never truly cared at all OR threw away his care as soon as he put his friend (her mother) in the ground :') but also Cannot find ill will for him AND would interfere with her allies desires or attempts to kill him— even after he's nearly killed her himself

Just :'))) Duality of two different but simultaneous Maximum Fucked dynamics to have with a single family all at once :'))))

(To say nothing of the 'spoilerific' details and his behind the scenes scheming whose exact nature And motivations vary depending on the verse/setting— if anyone wants to know anything I can tell them directly but!! By default I'm keeping my lips sealed and waiting for rng rp dev exactitudes to have such things spilled Naturally :') )

#mun babbles //#about // sasume #about // tomas #meta //#meta // tomas #to say nothing of his own nebulous black box magic that lets him duel sa even With the psychic dmg nerfing her #parental death mention //#smth smth and how he doesnt(?) want sa to die but will submit to stringing her up if it protects her in the long term #smth smth if she doesnt have the sense or self Preservation to not be leroy jenkins even abt PlotsTM and such #then maybe sliding scale of physical and emotional trauma will do the trick...? :')#(sorry dude all ur doing is adding to her trauma. shes not a side chara or w.e shes The Shonen Protag so...)#(she can't be deterred so long as theres smth To be deterred from :')))) )#screams into a cup abt the oshifam #((btw the vaguely prev mentioned Bad Coping method shared btwn shida and lyra is jovial avoidance :')))

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