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amtrak12 · 4 months

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Something about doing twice as much work as I usually do in one month immediately after a nasty recovery from surgery drove me into a depression flare-up that even a four day weekend hasn't fully kicked.

Shocking, I know! I never could have saw it coming either! But it's led me to resurrecting the Big Damn Table of prompts from Ye Olde LiveJournal era and by Jo, I think I could actually complete this thing for the first time in my life. 😮

Not all at once, obviously, (there's 200 prompts!). But I already have 4 one-shots drafted, and I barely even tried. So yay! Maybe publishing some of those will finally make me feel like I'm good at writing again! 🤞

#I've published 17 chapters and over 120k words on the same fic #which is about 58 scene changes (I counted)#And that's apparently the magic number to make me good at plotting self-contained one-shots o_O #Before 'Can We Keep Her' every story idea was a 20k word fic MINIMUM so I wrote barely any of them #Now? I know how to end things #After writing 58 endings in the past year I guess that makes sense #Now if only I understood middles maybe I wouldn't be suffering from this depression flare up :S #(or maybe if I had gotten my average 16 comments on the latest chapter instead of 9 plus crickets....)#(... yes I know that sounds so spoiled but writing is really hard you guys!! I bleed and bleed and bleed onto the page and for what?! Why?!#(No seriously why. I need readers to tell me so I can build up the stamina to keep going.)#(It's a feedback loop! Both literally and figuratively!)

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