#(nothing can be done

[wingsmadeforflying]

[insert your favorite ship]: unhinged deranged one gifted a water bottle that reveals a cute message from or art of their partner, to encourage them to Fucking Drink Water

[babylove007]

They wrapped it up and took turns.

The cops wrapped it up and took turns in that hotel room.

Orville was already dead.

And then the fire department walked in and said

"This just became a recovery mission."

Notes: Bed was facing west, hallway door to the north west Desk and chair to right of the bed

[all-else-hippy-pip]

my heart is a smoking gun / and nothing can be done

[storiesofasicko]

dec 8, 2023, allergist appt

left the house for an immunologist appointment i had been dreading. leaving the house has been a very big undertaking lately because i'm in a flare. had several hours of panic attacks prior to leaving the house despite taking xanax. i thought i could go to the appointment by myself, but my girlfriend went with. without her, i would not have gone. as the day went on i became less cognitively well, had a giant mast cell flare after the initial flare during the panic attacks. i was "glad" the doc could see this flare, even though it was not has bad as the flares from anxiety i usually get in a medical setting.

the doc interned at the Mayo in MN and at the end of listening to my story of gi issues since potty training, allergy to contrast dye at age 3/4, weird blood pooling on every injury, and current-day symptoms of allergies to every med and a stevens-johnson-type reaction to RX and otc meds and extreme metal allergy. there are a litany of other symptoms. my doc said, "i think you have MCAS. you know more about MCAS than i do. i have no idea how to treat you, and i don't think you are going to find anyone in MN, including the Mayo, to help you," and "you are the most severe case of MCAS i have seen."

i thanked her for her skepticism and humility because i'd rather a doc be honest about their limitations than try to save face and waste my time and limited money on "treatments" that aren't going to benefit me. i'm not mad or anything, i'm just totally hopeless. there is no point of going to specialists, the dentist, the gyno. mast cell is destroying my mouth despite using a sonicare and waterpik. every treatment involves metals i'm allergic to. drawing blood leaves a giant mast cell lesion for months because of the stainless steel, and still there is no accepted set of tests for MCAS diagnosis. i would be triggering my mast cell symptoms simply for diagnostic work, without even getting to the treatment part. i wish the level of a patient's inability to participate in society, eat foods, or get any form of pain medication could be a diagnosis criteria.

i am willing to drive wherever to even be diagnosed. my treatment options are limited cause salicytes are in EVERY med and cause a mast cell flare. i don't know what to do anymore. caring about this and trying to find answers anywhere on the internet makes me feel more hopeless with every search.

[twilightcitysky]

If S3 gets cancelled you know Michael and David will get dressed up, hair dyed, contacts and bow tie in place, and tell Georgia to grab the phone. Remember, they both know how it ends.

[bookshelfdreams]

yk when you see someone share a finished handmade item that they clearly spent a lot of time and money on and it's just. The absolute tackiest thing you have seen in your life. And then you ask yourself why someone would waste all those resources on such an eyesore.

(no, of course you can't relate to that because you're a much nicer person than me)

In any case.

BEHOLD!

A wool coat!

The top fabric is handwoven and handspun, the whole thing is sewn by hand, too.

Leftovers. Barely anything, all things considered, which is very satisfying.

This thing took me well over 3 years to make, on and off. And now I'm done.

Thank you for your attention.

[seafoamsol]

Place your trust in my sovereignty.

[glo-shroom]

yes & no by Natalie Wee | Trigun Ultimate Overhaul

[cozylittleartblog]

cringe is dead because rouxls is carrying the weight of it all madoka style

[valtsv]

[benevolenterrancy]

("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)

[catmask]

it is insane how normal i am medicated like. you mean this was an option the whole time. what

[mahou-goth]

I've deduced I need to draw Yang pressing Weiss up against the wall in every outfit they've worn.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bare skin, bare feelings.

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[dykedvonte]

Curly's little blurb on his steam trading card just keeps reminding me he is a much more miserable person than people realize.

We don't get a lot of his thoughts, inner confliction that aren't bogged down by what Jimmy says or does. Even in the The Last One and Then Another, his dialogue is reflective, not the Curly before the crash but the result of everything. Parts of the him he was are there of course, but also disfigured and warped beyond recognition just like he is physically.

Curly really doesn't think much of himself and desires. He clearly chases fleeting moments of happiness. He doesn't really have prospects for himself, assumes in a similar way to Swansea, that if it should make it happy then he is happy. Though, he hasn't reached the point Swansea did to admit it doesn't. He neither sees the glass half full or empty, it's just water, something he needs and he'll take it from any perspective.

He wasn't running from anything but he's never really been going towards something either. He's listless. I've been using the term complacent to describe how he feels about his life and the closest people (really just Jimmy) in it, but now that word feels too neutral, too nice. Happier than Curly really was. There isn't just one word for it, he's unfulfilled, uncertain, uninspired. There are no active problems he faces and that's the issue, why should he be upset?

I believe he really is a person who doesn't know who he is or wants to be. He follows a structure. I don't think he's suicidal, but he clearly doesn't think about what makes him happy. He's numb. I suppose that is a better word than complacent, used to the feeling even if he hates it. It doesn't hurt so why stop it?

[tender-emotional-music]

I need to do a whole post ranting about this, because it is so hilarious how people will see the leaks of byler always filming together and teaming up and say "it's just them on bikes! Byler isn't real!" or the alleged casting call for young byler + Jonathan and say "omg you delusional losers! There aren't going to be any romantic scenes between 8 year olds!"

Because surely they understand story structure and realise that El and Mike ending on ambiguous terms in s4 + Finn and Noah constantly filming together + Millie and Finn not filming together past the first two episodes + El apparently having a storyline with Hopper and Lucas/Erica/Max (just as the s4 finale foreshadowed!!) does indeed mean something?

I constantly see them refuse to place this information in the greater scope of the narrative and character arcs for s5, instead just interpreting them in isolation. We aren't excited about the flashbacks because we want to see romance between children; we're excited because it demonstrates that their early relationship is important enough to warrant showing on screen, and that whatever that scene establishes will be important to their current-day selves. The bike pics aren't significant because they're hanging out; they're significant because they suggest that they truly are teaming up in s5 and that this pairing will be important to the overall narrative (as is always the case when couples team up in the show). These things imply that the writers do take this plot seriously.

Of course, this doesn't CONFIRM byler, but as I've said before, the only place they can really take mlvn in s5 is them being a team, proving they did work through their issues in s4. But that does not seem to be happening, and yes, that does mean something. People will say that Will needs to move on and learn to be himself. If that were the case, he would not be paired up with Mike. He would be with someone/a group which enables him to foster his identity outside of Mike. Funnily enough, that does seem to be happening....with El.