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why are crocs fucking sixty dollars đ
#i was misled earlier into thinking the ones i wanted for a friend were on sale but apparently that was for only one colour#and not the one i wanted! however đ i already purchased the jibbitz for him so i was like well damn#im not gonna get him those and not get the thing they go on!#i think crocs should bee no more than 30 dollars tbh. 35 for the lined ones like come ON :/#(im happy to get my friend these ofc but im just. as i said earlier: đ
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Ok a rant about Cerri bomb and how much I HATE her
In the addict music video she was a very supportive friend of Angel and I loved her in the pilot! I wish we got that supportive best friend to Angel in the final product, but unfortunately she is a woman in a vivziepop show.
Sheâs AWFUL now I canât stand her, the way she tried to make Angel relapse was so weird like pilot cherri wouldnât do that! I also really dislike her design it has to be one of my personal least favourites (not the bottom though nothing is worse than alastors design to me) she isnât enjoyable to watch anymore she had potential if sheâd only been introduced earlier! Imagine if she was introduced in episode 4 and played the supportive friend she was originally supposed to be!
And GOD I hate her ship with pentious, it was SO RUSHED, so poorly done and the ship isnât very âso cute and in love!!â When you remember she showed literally NO interest in him until Angel brought up that he has 2 dicks, and this is supposed to be a romantic relationship we CARE about.
Cherri didnât need a romantic relationship she needed CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT we needed to get to know her! If youâve only seen the show and no other Hazbin media at all (which shouldnât be required you should be able to get all your info FROM THE SHOW) youâd barely know anything about her character or who she is. I wish we got pilot cherri bomb, and that she got a design update, and that her and pentâs relationship was either taken slower or didnât happen at all
You silly little creature you, you have me writing in my notes app instead of Tumblr because Iâm about to go crazy!
Cherri Bomb. More like Cherri what the hell happened
Anyway Iâm gonna tackle this one thing at a time, and also forgive me if I word something weird I just woke up an hour ago at the time of writing this.
First thing, design: I personally quite like her design since it very loosely reminds me of Iris from Ruby Gloom with ofc the one eye, the very rowdy personality and kind of the hair, but those are very broad design choices and its just me remembering some random girl I thought was silly but like Iris did it better.
Okay now second thing and then we go into literally everything else: My blog has been an angry pit of despair for everything in Episode 6 as of recent so letâs tap into that again đ¤ just a little. I am going to give my classic centrist opinion and say I donât mind Cherri Bomb all that much but I absolutely get why people dislike her, and I mean this in the kinda way as people who dislike⌠Idk Fukuchi from BSD. WILD jump in fandoms but gimme a second. I canât 100% say that Cherri Bomb in the pilot was better than the series since we have no idea if maybe for some reason she was intended to be like that offscreen, but judging by the pilot and âAddictâ alone, itâs very unlikely. I could see her maybe being a bad influence at times and being like âLoosen up dude weâre in hell and its Fridayâ or something (idk if they have Friday in hell but everyday is probably Monday đĽ) but overall I feel like sheâd end up apologising for it. However on the other side of things, I can understand why Cherri did that in Episode 6. Of course not to say this is okay, but Cherri is still very clearly not in the âredemptionâ mindset. Sheâs happy the way she is and is really only focused on certain aspects of issues. We see her comfort Angel in âAddictâ but thats basically the extent of it. Cherriâs definition of âself-careâ seems to be less of actually taking care of yourself and more like just letting go and having fun instead which really only gives a momentary fix to the issue, much like how substances can be abused. Do you kinda see what im getting at? Cherri offering Angel drugs while heâs trying not to relapse is not okay, full stop. But her reasoning as to why makes a bit of sense for her purpose in the show which is honestly not much, since, as you said, she is a woman in a Vivziepop show.
To my knowledge Cherri is like 30-ish years younger than Angel Dust in Hell experience so sheâs likely not reached a point where sheâs gotten tired of how things work, as well as the fact we donât really have much of an idea on her backstory aside from that random shot in âAddictâ of that guy in a puddle??? But generally she seems to be in a better position than Angel is, so there isnât really any reason for her to want to change, yknow? I will say I do like exploring characters that are good friends while still being bad influences at times, but Iâm going to be honest I feel like thats really not what Angel needs right now. I wouldnât be as pissy about it if she did end up apologising afterwards (Iâm just gonna headcanon she did for my sanity) but even then as Angelâs friend we donât know like⌠anything about her. I wouldâve really liked to get some kind of callback to the pilot where Cherri mentions she thought Angel was dead until the random Sir Pentious turf war, and maybe we could see her actually being worried about Angel again instead of those 3 frames in âAddictâ, but Hazbin is rushed and I guess we donât have time for that. And also YES it wouldâve been great to see her in Episode 4 and actually doing something but again, Vivziepop is boring.
Going forward I would really like to see Cherri, if not become a patron, at least try to be a better friend and sure if she wants to keep doing stuff she can keep doing it, but just donât encourage other people to relapse. It is very simple.
SIR PENTIOUS! About Sir Pentious, this is going to be incredibly short. I donât hate the ship but also Iâm not really crazy about any of the Hazbin Hotel ships? I also donât really hate any except for the genuinely horrid ones but thats basic sense. I absolutely agree with you, Cherri does not need a romantic interest. Romance doesnât always = growth and growth should not always = romance. She needs some genuine character TLC and I hope to god she gets some in season 2. Weâve only seen a few minutes of her so I have yet to give a firm opinion, but as of now Iâm just hoping they do something actually interesting with her instead of just alluding to Sir Pentious ship. Also the penis thing. 1. What was that, and 2. It made me and my friends briefly pause to sex Sir Pentious and come to the conclusion he is likely transgender/hj
TLDR; Please give us a fun Cherri Bomb again. âšď¸
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel criticism#hazbin hotel critical#hazbin critical#hazbin hotel rewrite#cherri bomb#cherri hazbin hotel#cherri bomb hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel cherri bomb#hazbin cherri bomb#angel dust#hazbin angel#hazbin angel dust#angel dust hazbin#hazbin sir pentious#hazbin hotel pentious#hazbin pentious#sir pentious#cherri x sir pentious#raimble
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-(OT7) How bf!Enha met their s/o-
Parings: Bf!Enha x fem!reader, bf!Enha x afab!reader Genre: fluff, established relationship (???) Warnings: none! just a full fluff
-> Lee Heeseung !! He met you in a dating app (well I guess you could tell it was an ldr??) You and Heeseung haven't met personally, so after a year 'n a half on the long distance relationship, he wanted to meet up and you agreed since you also wanted to meet him. The day of meeting up you got dressed nicely and went to the airport waiting for him, while you were waiting someone suddenly back hugged you, you turned around immediately and saw Heeseung infront of you smiling ''Hi my love'' You tackled him to a big hug and look up at him since he's taller than you. ''wow..your really here now..You look more handsome in person, love'' you said while touching his face softly because you couldn't believe it, the love of you life is right Infront of you right now. ''I'm here now my love..I will spend every single second of my life beside you, forever''
-> Park Jongseong !! You met Jay in a photoshoot you had for Prada (HEAR ME OUT. I feel like jay would fit in a model au smthg) You we're almost done with you photoshoot but Jay approached you, ''Hi Y/N..I was wondering if I could get your number? I want to be friends with you, you did a great job earlier too!'' you eventually gave your phone number since why not? Then the next day he would text you asking you too meet up and ofc you agreed after that you both would go on multiple ''friend'' dates, you started developing feelings for him, I mean who wouldn't? he's an absolute husband material. After a couple of months of the continues dates, he confessed his feelings and you reciprocate his feelings. You both started Dating after that, I could imagine him taking you out on a fancy restaurant. Would not hesitate to announce his relationship with you on his socials.
-> Sim Jaeyun !! You both met through your brother, Jake was your brother's bestfriend. (I had no ideas left huhu I wrote sun,hoon and jake last) Your brother needed to go travel to another country for business purposes and needed someone to look after you, so he called his bestfriend; Jake, to look after you for a week, Honestly for your case you were happy since you like Jake, He was a big tease and would flirt with you any chance you get since he just loves seeing you flustered (he likes you btw !!) you both go on friendly dates and after that your feelings started growing more and more each day. One day he left a note on the table saying that you to meet him at a restaurant and to dress nicely, after you read it you immediately dressed up and rush to go to the restaurant only to see him at the table with flowers in his hands and he confessed his feelings to you, asking if he can court you, You were surprised but happy. After a few months you finally decide to answer him and make him your boyfriend.
-> Park Sunghoon !! (this one is a bit long than the others!) You both met at the ice rink. (actually this one is quite clichĂŠ but idcidc) Sunghoon brought his little sister to the ice rink, while they were ice skating. He needed to buy something so he left his sister there for awhile, but then his little sister was confused were he went or where he is, she looked at the whole area but sunghoon wasn't there, so she started crying then you saw sunghoon's sister crying sitting on the ice and you approached her, ''hi..im Y/N, why are you crying..?'' the little girl explained that she cant find her brother so you helped her find her brother andd after a bit you both found sunghoon waiting in line for something, the little girl ran to him immediately hugging him ''Sorry sis..I forgot to tell you..Thank you for helping her..Ms Y/N'' after that you would see the both of them almost everyday in malls, parks and restaurants, one day when you saw them again in the mall sunghoon approached you and asked for your number, ofc you gave it, the next day he would text you and asking if you would want to go on a ''friend'' date with him, months past by and finally he confessed to you.
-> Kim Sunoo !! You both met through a mutual friend! Your friend, Wonyoung introduced Sunoo to you, in a party. You and Sunoo got along with each other instantly, (+Wonyoung introduced sunoo to you because sunoo had a crush on you since highschool and wanted to talk to you but he was shy so when he knew wonyoung was your bestfriend he begged for her to help him get closer to you) after that day you both would talk more, you both decided to be seatmates, eat together at lunch time in school. Sunoo flirts with you sometimes and you would get shy everytime, He takes you out everyday and always sends small gifts, you were developing feelings for sunoo, every night you would look at you and sunoo's picture together and smiling nonstop. Eventually you confessed to him and you both started dating after!
-> Yang Jungwon !! You met Jungwon in a Cafe where you work at (ORR it could be at the garden!!! I can make a separate one! i just feel like it suits him ykk) Jungwon was popular in your neighborhood because he was handsome and cute, but he studies in an all boys school so girls cant see him much, well as for you, you don't focus on that stuff, you focus more on studies so you don't really know about this ''jungwon'' guy, One day when you we're working, screams were heard from outside, you look up to see a young, handsome and cute guy, you immediately fell in love (love at first sight ?? OKAYY I'm not saying anymore!! I'm actually making this a smau orr!! written, I'll post spoilers soo please look out for it !! <3)
-> Nishimura Ni-ki !! You both met in a gaming cafe !! You two was teammates in a match (you saw his user in his screen soo, he also knows) You and Ni-ki was well known for being the best players in valorant, you actually wanted to talk with him and possibly play with him but you were having second thoughts but now was the perfect time, after that match ended, you nudged ni-ki and told him how amazing he was in playing, and praised him for his skills, Ni-ki also compliments you for your skills and asked if you both can be mutuals, since he wanted to play more with you. You immediately said yes and gave him your number. You and ni-ki would always talk nonstop and playing, After a few months you both started dating.
Š arikaluvss
#arikatalks#arikawrites!#jungwon x reader#jungwon smau#heeseung x reader#heeseung smau#sunghoon x reader#sunghoon smau#sunoo smau#sunoo x reader#jake x reader#jake smau#jay x reader#jay smau#ni-ki x reader#ni-ki smau#enhypen x reader
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ik youâve mentioned that DSS is your least fav book in the series and iâm wondering what you would change about it?
im not the biggest fan of it either tbh :)
Oh SO many things buckle in team. Ok so roughly in keeping with canon:
- first, Hazel wouldn't mention that Daisy was dead in the first chapter, nor would it mention it on the blurb
- for me it took the shock out of it so much that I wasn't even surprised she came back
- so it would be this secret until. Well. She actually throws herself in and then the Grief Pages
- just as a side note, when I first read the chapters where Hazel was grieving, I remember thinking 'surely Hazel should be sadder?' because emotions always tend to come through really nicely when Robin writes her. I like to think that Hazel was telling herself 'Daisy wouldn't like me moping about and wailing in the casebook about it'
- anyway
- I'm ALWAYS sitting on the fence about whether I like the moment they reveal themselves as detectives/police officers (I can't quite remember what they call themselves)
- first read I hated it I was like 'what are you doing!!!' but on a re-read I did think 'oh this is very fifteen year old behaviour'
- I really enjoyed the 'theyre 1930s teenage girls so have to be covert in their operations' aspect of MMU, so when they did reveal themselves as 'police officers' and were conducting interviews I did miss those vibes
- so I'd possibly change that bit, I'm not sure what to though
- I'd change how the Damina kiss played out
- I think it was too on the fly personally
- I would have written as Daisy goes to Amina's room for something. And then when she comes back, Hazel describes her as pink and distracted and how she keeps touching her lips. And Hazel writes in her casebook how 'Daisy has lipstick on her lips that wasn't there before but knew Daisy wouldn't appreciate her pointing it out' sort of thing
- I'd change nearly the whole ending
- it's always always bugged me (and made me sad if I'm being honest) how everyone was paired up at the end. I've spoken about this before, but just to reiterate, I think it was bad that a series aimed at 9-12 had all the characters pair up at the end of the series, as if all happy endings included a partner, and especially considering the speed at which it was done
- Halexander I get, it'd been building for a while. Damina, for the same reason, though I would have liked more development. But George and Lavinia I actually had to put the book down because I was speechless
- so yeah I'd do away with George and Lavinia completely (apologies George/Lavinia shippers đ)
- as for Halexander like I said I get it it had been building
- but what I'd have liked to had seen is the bit where George is like 'has Alex really not said anything?' I would have somehow implied that he was being respectful of Hazel's grief, rather than just being nervous to confess
- and then Hazel would go seek him out instead, and ask him, and ofc he'd say yes
- but then Hazel would tell him 'i can't do this, not right now' and I like to think it would be a sweet moment where they agree to be 'friends for the foreseeable future'
- the whole 'Daisy reveal' thing bugs me too, I just didn't enjoy the way it was done. I'm possibly biased and pinning more on these relationships than there actually is, but I think Bertie and Hazel should have got to see Daisy alive together
- No do you know what I just didn't like the way Daisy actually 'died' either. If we're keeping with canon, she had to die because of the Grief Pages, but maybe I would have had Daisy pulled overboard secretly at night without Hazel realising, maybe about halfway through the book (so earlier than in canon)
- and so Hazel still has this glimmer of hope that Daisy is out there and takes charge and perseveres to solve the case with George, Alex and Amina
- which in my professional opinion would have made the 'madam president' and Hazel telling Daisy she made herself president more meaningful
#don't even get me started in what my personal canon is#murder most unladylike#mmu#daisy wells#hazel wong#alexander arcady#george mukherjee#amina el maghrabi#death sets sail#dss
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hi!! i feel like you may have talked about this before but out of curiosity, could you explain/talk about your kurtâs tattoos? :3
hi yes ofc i would love to!! i did in fact talk about it ages ago but i am always happy to say more and u picked a great time to ask bc i've been reworking all of the vb au tats so this isn't just a repeat of my previous post about it (except i never finished my official redesign of kurt's sleeve yet so i can't actually show u my reference)
for his sleeve i went the floral route with flowers that represent the most important relationships in his life, so it's intertwined ivy leaves and forget-me-nots wrapping around his arm (whether or not they actually look like the flowers they're supposed to be is a whole other thing lmao i think i get sloppier the more i draw them)
ivy symbolises fidelity, marriage and friendship - obviously u have to ignore the marriage part here bc this one is for finn and santana (furtana best friends and siblings fr <3)
forget-me-nots symbolise true love and respect, as well as the promise that u will always keep someone in ur thoughts - i always see this one as being primarily for his mom, but i think it probably does eventually extend to the entire hudmelpez clan
i also originally gave him a lil sun on his forearm for burt as a lil nod to you are the sunshine of my life gcv, which is kinda visible in some of the older drawings that have his tattoo but. i recently realised that i chose a really stupid placement for it so im gonna move the sun to his shoulder once i actually update my reference sheets. that being said i am realising right now that i still included the sun on his forearm in yesterday's post and that's devastating to me personally so pls pretend it's not there
and then the newest addition to kurt's tattoos is a very "u have to know where to look for it otherwise i think it's easy to miss it" but i did slip it into yesterday's post so! furtana matching tattoos my beloved let's talk about that one too <33
i think that things are extremely tense between furtana during the earlier stages of burt and carole's relationship (especially between kurt and the other 2) (not gonna really get into this rn bc it's not super relevant lol) so to me they do end up connecting over music and it remains a really important common interest for them over time despite their different tastes (in the sense that like. idk i think as duos they have more interests in common but as a trio they probably don't so music is a big thing for them) (i wish i could articulate this better but hopefully u get it) etc etc so. had to sit down and imagine what each of them drawing an eigth note would look like based on their handwriting (as one does i guess?) and then i figured it would be neat if they each had all 3 notes instead of just the one they drew so. matching tats for the siblings :)
(here's part of my unfinished reference sheet for that lol i think i still need to adjust stuff for the size/placement of finn's and santana's but kurt's is already figured out) (for artistic purposes i did actually change it from my original placement, which was closer to his ear) (i just wanted it to be a bit more visible in drawings lol)
#ask md#porcelainvino#vb au asks#kurt's tattoos!!#looked in the tags i added on my prev ask about this and apparently i wanted to give him one on his shoulder blade??#can't remember what that would've been lmao#anyway thank u for indulging me!! i love to ramble about these guys
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Familiar pt.2 | Sim Jake
PAIRING: (ex)online bestfriend!Jake x (ex)online bestfriend!fem!reader
SUMMARY: Jake has a plan (appearance of jay) (and an unnamed friend for now (?) im horrible at names.)
GENRE: bitter angst, lil crying
WC: 585 (well this was..shitting short.)
A/N: also based on real-life experience.. :)
im thinking of making this a mini-series?..
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okay, Jake couldn't do this anymore. in his defense, he was attached. too attached, even after 6 months.
29 January, your birthday. a day Jake was always looking forward to, just so he could wish you a happy birthday first, which he, much proudly, was successful in for 4 straight years.
well, once some other guy in your school wished you earlier than him. stupid douchebag, he thought.
but that didn't matter when you said his wish meant more and was always first in your heart.
and god was Jake in another spiral, staring at the his endless messages with 'Instagram User' on New Year's Eve.
''what a great year it's going to be.'', he grumbled.
unwillingly while reading those texts, a droplet fell on the very desk he was at. then another. and it kept going, till he had to set that damn phone aside and pour it out.
Jake couldn't do it anymore, he missed you. you were his bestfriend. the one he could talk to for hours, to rely on and vent to when he had a fight with his friends, the one who had such horrible memory that you had to save little things you knew about Jake in a separate note on your phone. Jake found it cute though.
he had felt care, but this was attachment.
this was such a strong attachment, something he cried over so much he felt his heart clench. when he went out after the day you blocked him, he feet the agony when he saw anything that reminded him of you. he was so proud of your friendship he'd show it off to anyone.
and now, after that day, he couldn't focus on anyone but you. that day, did he really see you again?
after being done with all the emotion, he picked up his phone again, and wiped the tears away.
wait, he thought.
he quickly shuffled around his phone, through the same messages, till he got to it. one very specific message.
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| @(username)
| is this ur friend? i noticed yall matching pfps and followed-
| WHAT THE FUCK JAKE THATS MY BEST FRIEND HOWD U FIND HER?
| ok ykw nvm since u already followed let it be js dont talk to her she doesnt know i got online friends
| and DONT unfollow. she'll get suspicious and bombard me with tons of questions if she sees both of us know each other.
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Jake never really understood why you kept your online social life a secret so badly. but he never questioned it further.
until now.
he clicked on your friend's profile. and just stared at the screen. should he do it? but you warned him not to. but he wants to know- no, he needs to know how you're doing. this could be his chance-
''hey, you okay?'' it was Jay.
''y-yeah i..just been thinking..'' Jake sighs and puts his phone away. fuck it, just let it be. maybe he's going crazy, he definitely does not want to mess himself up further.
''tell me about it.'' Jay pauses, sitting next to him. ''is it about her again?''
Jay knew well, as his roommate, about what Jake has been through and how he remembers you time to time.
''well....yeah. Y/N.'' Jake sighs. maybe Jay can give him proper advice? since he's clearly (well, in this aspect) more sane and less impulsive than him. so, turning around in his chair, he faces his older properly.
''okay, so..''
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to be continued!
ive been getting some ideas lately for series ^^ but ofc theyre gonna take long ahaha </3
#aperiodtm#enhypen#enhypen fics#enhypen jake#jake enhypen#enha#jake enha#sim jake#enhypen imagines#enha fics#sim jaeyun#enhypen angst#jake angst#sim jake angst#enhypen jake angst#enhypen ff#enha ff#jake ff#sim jake ff#enhypen jake ff#enha jake ff#jake enha ff#enhypen imagine
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strawb if u could please please please write more abt jealous tyler durden 99% its always narrator being the jealous one that 1% is a gold mine
OMG Ikr?? There is not enough jealous Tyler content out there đđđ what little I have seen of it is so good too.. and it doesnât feel ooc at all for him in my opinion. Like just because we all know he thinks he is hot shit, doesnât mean that he canât get jealous as well. I donât think heâs particularly worried that someone will just come along and sweep the narrator off his feet and take him away from him one day since he can at least tell that the narrator is pretty obsessed with him (which is such a understatement) but he does get worried when he feels like something is just âdifferentâ compared to how the narrator is with most of his other âlittle friendsâ. He is always wrong bc the narrator is ride or die for him ofc.. ANYWAYS HERE ARE SOME THOUGHTS
â˘What probably starts making him feel suspicious is if they give the narrator things, if the narrator talks about them more than Tyler thinks is appropriate, if he talks about them too fondly, if they make a plan to hang out one night and Tyler doesnât get invited, and stuff like that. He doesnât particularly mind if the narrator has a few pals like Bob and whatever especially if he has met them and knows their âdealâ. Itâs just if the narrator seems a little too happy while talking about them is when Tyler can get a little irked.
â˘He will say shit like âWell have fun with your boyfriendâ if the narrator says heâs going out for a bit to hang out with someone. If heâs dating the narrator, he will say ânew boyfriendâ instead of just boyfriend and he will say it in a tone where he sounds âdoneâ. If itâs before they date then he might say it a bit more in a way where the narrator thinks heâs just teasing him. He means both with annoyance though. He genuinely doesnât know why the narrator would rather be anywhere else in the world when he is there to keep him company.
â˘A lot of questions will go through his mind about the person he finds himself jealous of. Heâs so confused about what the narrator is seeing or getting that he doesnât get from him. He will analyze the person silently if they are in the same room. He will take note of what the narrator smiles about when talking with them, if they give each other little touches, if the narrator is telling the person things even Tyler didnât know about beforehand, and etc. Tyler is questioning how is this person any better & what could he be âmissingâ.
â˘I said this earlier too but he just acts like itâs all fine in the moment if heâs with them. He just smiles but the narrator can see something is off in it or in his eyes. If he doesnât know that Tyler can be jealous, he might just ignore it tbh and keep carrying on as usual and just will think to ask if something was wrong later. (Which earns him silence, a punch, or vague/snarky and or mean comments.) The narrator would assume that jealously isnât something Tyler can feel. The way he views him, Tyler is too godlike to worry about âchildish thingsâ or to compare himself to others but heâs wrronnngg :3
â˘If they are dating Tyler is much more mean and stand-offish about what happened. Heâll ignore him or brush him off. He expects the narrator to know what to apologize for. He thinks there is no way in hell the narrator doesnât know what heâs angry about :/
If they arenât together heâs still stand-offish but not as much but the narrator can just feel the tension even during normal conversations.
â˘If someone (that wasnât a family member) got the narrator something as a gift, he sooo thinks about tossing it out or breaking it. He can pass it off as a âdonât bring new things into my house without telling meâ type of thing but he just doesnât want a reminder someone might be trying to âwooâ the narrator. Until he feels comfortable enough to break whatever it is, he will glare at it or make mean comments about it. Like in my mind im picturing a plushie or some small item that doesnât actually serve anything useful.
He might be a litttleeee nice though and not actually break or throw away whatever it is and just actually hide it somewhere and just say he did. He wants to see his reaction and if they manage to talk it out, he will set it out for the narrator to find later on.
#asks#IM SORRY THESE R CRAP#AND I DEF HAVE MORE IDEAS#ILL TAG U IF I EXPAND MORE ON MY JEALOUS TYLER THOUGHTS đ
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confession sunday â i feel like a fake christian
hi!! so i rlly wanted to start making confessions on my blog as a way to let go and put down the thoughts and feelings im having. most of them r toxic and things i shouldnât be thinking.
this is also an invitation for others to send their issues and let them go and put them down â simply tell me what it is and iâll try n break it down to explain to u why u need to let go of those ideas! ofc, anons r opened <3
anyways, letâs get into mine bc.. yeah.
i feel like a fake christian.
this is something iâve been struggling with my whole life â but it is resurfaced when i had a conversation w my friends abt witchcraft n the bible n whatnot. she said something along the lines of âyouâre not a christian because you believe witchcraft is okay.â
first of all⌠what? right before this my other friend said âa lot of people in the bible pick and choose what they believe. for example â christianâs arenât allowed to eat seafood bc itâs seen as impureâ and the same girl from earlier agreed n said âi still love my crab legsâ đ LMDAOOA
im friends w everyone mentioned in this convo btw, so dont worry. no hate to any of them.
during this conversation, i js agreed with the one, letâs call her sarah, that said believing witchcraft is okay makes me not a christian.
sarah made me feel bad â invalidated in a way. i remember walking out that class feeling fake, like i am wrong for what i believe and i need to remove everything that isnât said in the most common places in the bible from my life.
FALSE ââ WRONG ââ INCORRECT ââ SEE ME AFTER CLASS.
DUDE TO BE A CHRISTIAN U ONLY HAVE TO DO TWO THINGS
1 believe jesus christ died for our sins and rose again (some say jesus christ only died and rose again)
2 have a RELATIONSHIP with christ
if it isnât clear already, i have both of these. iâve known and believed the stories ik the bible since i was so young, and even now i believe them.
and i have a deep rooted relationship w jesus n god â i mean how the hell do u think i even found out abt other deities đ about shifting?? through him dude! itâs only by him answering my prayers that im here rn
what im trying to say is that the ânormalâ isnt always right. i hate churches â they feel like cults, nd i hate when ppl say ur required to do things â ur not. itâs if u want to and between u n god.
i said this to my friend nile earlier â âbut like christianity is supposed to be individuality â it always has been that way. hell, even jesus says it. he flipped tables in a religious place bc they donât have a relationship w god, they r js actingâ.
they didnât want it â they just wanted to b superior. and thatâs not what i want â i want to help others and be happy.
thatâs it for my confession. i hope this helps and encourages someone else to begin doing the same! sending my love.
#abyss .rambles#.confessions#reality shifting#shiftblr#reality shift#shifting#desired reality#shifting community#black shifters#shifting motivation#shifting realities#christian faith#christian toxicity
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My Stray Kids Fanmeet Experience
So i saw skz for the first time in real life the other day (jan 202023 to be exact :p) and i wanna write my whole experience so that i can look back at this in the future cuz my memory is shit đ
It all started last year 2022 around Nov/Dec when bench announced that they'll have a bench x stray kids fanmeet this Jan 2023 (excite excite) so obv i just HAD to get tickets. ITS STRAY KIDS HELLO?
minor detour for some of that extra context lol:
I got into skz mid to late 2021 and ofc it was felix with his deep ass âcooking like a chefâ yt short that sucked me in. From then on i just got hooked into their content and just them in general. Really nice to see a grp thats around my age doing something amazing like what theyre doing now.
Anyway! Back to my fan meet xp
So last yr i saw the announcement and got all majorly excited. At first i was thinking of getting VIP tickets. I was actually willing to spend 8k for a fanmeet and a chance to receive a poster from them. But then i saw the lines in bench and i was like,, hell naw! I aint gonna be putting myself through that. Yâall can wait in line for that imma spend my time elsewhere. So i waited for the promo period to get tickets for lower box instead. This was only 4k with a chance for a bye wave opportunity (no physical up close interaction like shaking hands or anything but at least u get to see them closer up). I was totally fine w this since i spend less and since im not going for what majority (who can afford) want, less ppl to deal with/wait in line for.
Now.. i went through s t r u g g l e just to claim my ticket after buying my stuff from bench. Dont really wanna retype everything since ive already shared w my friends so imma just attach screenshots of my rant
(Screenshots here)
Now, after that whole ordeal, is the new year and i honestly forgot there was a raffle. Also can i just say, thank goodness ate girl (for those that dont know ate is filipino for sister that we use even for non relatives.. kinda like noona/unnie) was kind enough to send me my code that night so i was still able to enter my code for the raffle to win a bye wave opportunity. Cuz if not⌠i wouldnt have seen skz up closeđż
Jan 12 day of the bye wave winners announcement: I checked my email around morning and noon; nothing. So i was like ayt, i didnt win. Iâll still get to see skz tho irl w decent seats.
BUT THEN
when i checked my email again in the evening- actually i didnt purposefully check my mail; i just saw the push notif on my phone. Something like âSTRAY KIDS WINNER, congratulations!â and I FREAKED THE FUCK OUT. Like OH MY GOD. OH. MY. GOD!! I WON?!?!??? Suuuper ecstatic. Kept squeeling and shit. I could not even.đśđąđ¤đľđĽ´đŤ đ¤Şđ¤Şđ¤Ş
After i was able to calm down, I immediately let ate girl know if we could meet up earlier so i can get my receipt back so i can have no trouble on the day of the fanmeet when i claim the raffle. She was nice enough to agree and meet up earlier and it was nice that she seemed happy for my win (she also bought lb tix) kinda regretful i didnt try to be friends w her but im shy so whatever. I just want receipt so i can see the boisđđđđ
Cut to day of fan meet. Wait no- actually.. the week of the fanmeet. The monday of that wk is when i met up w ate gurl to get my receipt. Friday was the fanmeet. In between i was tryna decide my outfit (that i dont have a pic of but whatever. iâll describe it nalang) which ended up being a kinda loose white tank top with a green plaid long sleeve on top then dark grey/black slim jeans. Add in a couple of accessories ( choker, chains, earrings) and weâre good to go. Oh i also had on my hidden high heel highcut black sneakers (or at least i think theyre sneakers; can never remember fashion shtuff)
In case it wasnât obvious i was fully planning to go on my own since my friends/cousins said they couldnt (busy or broke) so whatever. BUT THEN my friend, day before the fanmeet- night before actually- was like â hey! Joke lang im actually going to the meetâ so i was like âomg yay!â Not like that exactly but yeah. Same sentiments :p
I asked my friend if we could meet up on fri and she said sure. Sheâll just be w her friend who got her the ticket.
Now! We can finally cut to the day of the fanmeet. Claiming for raffle winners are from 10am-2pm then theres an orientation @3pm so i went to moa around 12-1230, got my photo cards (chan, leeknow, & hyunjin) and the wristband showing me as a bye wave winner. Went around moa, had lunch in jollibee, waited around in my car for my friend to arrive around 4, 5pm. Ate again in ikea resto then we finally went to the venue.
While lining up we made friends w another stay who gave out some freebies (ngl i forgot her nameđĽ˛) she was sweet. I was kinda stupid and decided to split up from my friend (cuz there 2 lines and the one i went to was shorter but my friend didnt follow so đâšď¸) so i ended lining up alone when i told her that i wanted to meet up so i wouldnt line up alone lol. Anyway, i got inside moa arena went to my seat in lb 221 and got ready for the fanmeet.
The fanmeet started around 7pm (tho gates opened at 5) it wasnt fully packed inside but there were still a LOT of Stay that attended. Tho i think gen ad was fully packed.
Honestly everything happened so fast that if i didnt take videos and didnt see the vids that others have posted online, i woulda forgotten everything but i know i enjoyed every minute of itđ
So first off skz opened w Godâs Menu then the host, Sam Oh (who i know of because she used to be on radio and i loved listening to her shows then), introduced them and on the programme went.
The kids played some jenga w missions, whisper challenge, dance replay challange, domino challange, paint a shirt that was raffled out to the audience) call w a fan(that didnt work out cuz of cell service issues) also i didnt quite get that WE had to call the numbers of the phones in front of the skz members so i didnt really try until it was too late. One fan was able to connect tho but it didnt really work out too well. Im glossing over these and might have mentioned them in the wrong order but thats because there are tons of vids out there about these so i wonât go into detail.
At the end of the fan meet skz performed Case 143 and we moved on to the giving out of signed posters THEN my long anticipated bye wave opportunity. So while the poster receivers were getting ready so were the bye wavers. There was an usher of sorts holding a sign for us to recognize and follow to the exit. The staff told us that no pics/vid was allowedđ sucks but i was planning to sneak a vid if possible. Others also tried im sure of it. I was 15/200 in line. Unfortunately because i was so close to the front and they were ushering us to the stage pretty fast, i couldnt set up my phone to video on time. No matter tho. There was a barrier that was too high for the phone in my front jean pocket to even capture anything so it wouldve failed anyway.
Going up the stage felt so rushed even tho the videos showed that we werent even walking that fast. But it felt so fast that i couldnt even tell you what order the kids were in when i was waving bye to them. Thank god for other Stays tho so imma put their line up here so i can recall my experience better
They were grouped by twos behind some barriers that looked like kiosk stands from left to right (tho we entered right and left the stage left) it went
Chan - Lee Know | Changbin - Hyunjin | Han - Felix | Seungmun - I.N.
We were like 5ft away from them kandhaksbskabxj
Ok so first i saw was IN and i gotta be honest i cant remember the experience đđ id like to say we made brief eye contact but im not sure. I think i saw that he was looking at the ones behind me so i moved my eyes to Seungmin. Again i cant remember anymore so idek what actually happened here
Now Seungmin, bb, i swear we made eye contact and i think i shocked him with my hair cause his eyes widened and mouth opened wider while looking at me aidbsidbdlaj. Context: i have a shaved head. Tho im in the middle of growing it out. My last shave was mid Dec last yr so my hair at this point is about an inch to an inch and a half
Lemme just insert here that i COULD NOT stop smiling
Next was Felix and oh. my. GOODNESS GRACIOUS!!!!! We made the looongest eye contact ever!!! wodbsisbdb SWEAR!! At least 2 seconds! It was glorious~ And his face was just so beautiful and his smile was angelic and he may not be my bias but he lives rent free mehn. Rent. Free. Period.
Ayt so Han. My bb, my bias. I feel so bad cause i think i got so caught up w looking at felix ( making fucken 2 second eye contact) that i think Han saw me not looking at him so he went on to say bye to the ones behind me alreadyđđŁđđ˘đ tho i did try to catch his eyes but no such luck cause i had to keep moving
Moving on, it was Hyunjin. Very brief, my encounter with him. Again i think i spent too long looking at Felix that it just pushed back the rest to skip over me causing me to miss meeting eyes with the rest. But Hyunjin đ also he be the tallest of the grp
Same thing with Changbin tho i really did try my best to look at them whenever they were more or less directly in front of me. The size of this man tho! Batak! So buff đŞ i just wanna feel⌠all of itđ in a non sexual way ofcđś unless? đ jk (or am iđ¤)
Anyway!
Lee Know is so pretty like wtf . But again he was already looking at those behind međ and i had to keep the line moving so.. sad=me Lee Know is my bias wrecker pa naman𫤠i really love his relationship w Han whether its just friends or whatever it is I just love seeing the interactions. (Ngl tho,, the fan edits of minsung that i see Stay post? Mmm is something alright)
Bang fucken Chan DOE! Maybe cuz heâs last idk. But he made it a point to look at me in the eyesđ𼰠made me soo happy~ and his smile! And dimples! My gosh heâs just adorableâşď¸đđŤ đŤ đ¤ i just wanna be your friend man. Actually i just wanna be friends with all 8 of them bdkajxhak
Moving on.
After all this we were ushered out of the arena and I decided to loiter a bit outside before i went back to my car. Fangirled like crazy. Then promptly went back to the hotel. I fangirled again when i saw my cousins at the hotel roofdeck cuz i couldnt just keep this in mehn i had to let it out and share my joy.
Later in the night i found out that skz stayed a bit longer to jam w the crowd while Doodle was playing. Kinda jealous but i got to see them up close so im content for now.
The upcoming concert in March tho.. i NEED to get sound check and vip tix. I just gottađŞ heres to me, hopinâ i get the tickets i wantđ¤đ¤
#skz#stray kids#bench fanmeet#personal experience#i wouldve fixed my typos but thats not who i am lol#i think i did ok anyways#stray kids everywhere all around the world you make stray kids stay#stray kids bench fanmeet#stray kids fanmeet#idk y i bothered to tag this i dont actually want ppl to readđ#insert keyboard smash here#nvm ill do it myself#landjajdna#oki bye#this is my longest post ever i think
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week eighty
this week was good mentally ig? idk my ocd has been really nice to me lately and my compulsions havent been as bad as they usually are which is nice. i hope this continues for a while at least.
monday was happy for me. wearing my fav bowie shirt helps too. its gotten a small spot now that didnt go away in the wash and ive frantically been putting a bunch of cleaning chemicals on it and hoping itll go away bc shit was expensive + its one of my fav shirts i own + its one of my comfiest shirts + ratio + ur mom.
we had a grunting workshop at school w the singer of finntroll which was super epic. hes so cool lol and i was just super excited ab getting the proper learn it and get feedback in real time so ik im not doing something bad to my vocal chords and throat and all that. he said i sounded good while we were trying some stuff out as a group so that boosted my ego a lot lol.
now,,,, exciting !!! thing !!!
me and my friends came back to school by the end of lunch break and who do i see as we walk in...?
w, of course!
i had said hi to him earlier iirc but i might be mixing up the days, anyways, i somehow managed to just walk up to him and talk to him. nothing crazy, i just asked him ab the paramore cover band stuff and being like âyooo, is it still happening or..?â and he was like âoh yeah, i still really want to do it, im just very busy atmâ and i was like âah, thats fine, i can help u out w anything if u want to. its fine if it gets a bit postponed too!â and he was all like âah, thanks!â. that wasnt perfectly transcribed bc ive honestly forgotten a lot of the things that were said but those were the key points ig. i just got so nervous when talking to him lol i was just staring into his eyes the whole time which is super rare for me but ig i was so focused on what i had to say that i didnt even think of it but now all i remember is how green his eyes are and how cutely he smiled when he thanked me and i also feel like ive stood way too close to him although i dont think i did in reality but like considering all i remember are his eyes it feels as it ive stood too close. we had a cute lil bye sesh and then i ran to class. everyone was there already and i just sat next to c and smiled frantically. my friends had seen me walk up to him and thankfully they just walked to class wo me bc i wouldnt have done so,,, okay w them behind me, watching me try to talk to this silly lil guy. anyways, i explained as much as i could considering we were still in a room full of ppl who know this guy lol. i showed how shakey i was to c and they laughed ab it. i remember going to fill my water bottle and just jumping up and down in excitement the second i locked the bathroom door and my hand shaking like crazy as i held my water bottle under the streaming water.
tuesday! the workshop continued! afterwards we were in a smaller group of people and got more personal feedback. he said i did it really well and that i have the technique down so im super happy ab that.
wednesday was iconic. there was this party for the uni part of my school that ppl had been talking ab lots. as far as ik it was like a lil party for just the uni students where they were performing for each other. w was playing there even though hes not in uni yet. he played w his tribute band (which ik bc i saw him listening to a playlist w the name of the party and it was just filled w the police songs and it was made by the bassist in that band, who i later followed on spotify too hehe hes so cool and his music taste is so good bro?). so thered be that performance thing party and then an after party in our school party place thingy in the basement.
since it was wednesday, it was music quiz as well so i was ofc going to that. i knew i could get into the after party so i decided to freshen myself up a bit extra before going out for the extremely tiny chance that w would be at the party.
for context, w is NOT a party person. he doesnt drink and he also just,, doesnt ever go out really?? hes just like me fr but anyways, i thought today he might actually be there bc of the performance thingy. like yk, he might as well go? i thought?
so i first go to a short pregame at ds place. i got there so late that i didnt drink anything before going to the bar. i watched them speedrun a drinking game before we left to the bar.
once we were at the bar we had to sit further in bc of how full it was. i prefer sitting closer to the enterance bc the volumes lower, anyways, vs parents were there which was quite fun ig haha they were really nice and his mom was so cute so it was fun. the quiz this week was so hard though, the songs were so weird and the trivia qs were just a bunch of statistics that no one would know. i was so hungry so i decided to not drink anything until the afterparty bc i didnt want to throw up. vs dad bought us salmiac shots though which i obviously could not refuse, theyre my fav. afterwards, i went home and devoured some cheese and tomato sandwiches and then i went back to ds place. we stayed there until we got a green light to leave and go to the after party.
earlier at the bar i had asked c how big of a chance it would be that w would be at the after party. she confidently laughed and said âlike, 10%. absolutely no way hes there, sorry girl!â. i try to persuade her being like âhm but think ab it!â and shes like âyea, its a bigger chance than other days but dont get ur hopes up too muchâ. i ask the same thing of l. they say âoh god, no way. he wont be there. 95% sure he wont be there. no way.â. personally, i thought there was like a 40% chance hed be there.
we arrive at the after party. me and l were by ourselves pretty much. we scan the place and no w is to be seen. i get a bit disappointed although nothing crazy since i knew he wouldnt ACTUALLY be there but yk, i still had my hopes up. me and l sit down in a couch by the bar. i turn to them and kinda pout being like a bit sarcastically overdramatic and say ânot even ds here!â. linnea looks at me and points behind me w a small gesture and goes: âlookâ.
i see d walking confidently towards the bar. n and w walking softly behind him. me and l just stare at each other w wide eyes and the second they walked out the room we burst out in laughter bc both the chance and the timing was so crazy. we get up to see where they went but dont stalk too intently. we went back to the bar room after a while and sit down on another couch and talk w s. s is super talkative and fun so hes very appreciated when ur feeling a bit lost at parties and gatherings. we sit and talk w him and i see d, n and w walking back in the room. they walk past and i stare lovingly at w. they sit down on the couch me and l sat on earlier and w sat right where i sat. ty god!
i can see w nicely from where im sitting and its like a side angle but like far enough back that he cant see me staring unless he turns his head so im taking this opportunity to STARE. i analyze his outfit. hes wearing black shoes instead of the usual white nikes ones or the yellow vans. his long brown hair falls cutely under his hat. his black tee is once again hugging his biceps so ,, attractively. at one point he throws his head back and keeps it there for a while. he was probably tired. it was 1 am tbf. i feel quite bad saying its hot in a way bc i do feel bad for him if he was just feeling tired and wanted to go home but like,,, bro put his whole adams apple on display for me, a firm lover of big adams apples, i just couldnt help but die on the inside. so hot. i had never noticed how big his adams apple was until that. new feature to admire hihi!
i watch him scroll through facebook and insta as his friends talk w others. im far away enough that i cant tell what the posts r or anything. hes so interesting. ive always seen him as super talkative and outgoing but hes not really? i think he might just be an introvert whose social battery had run out. i think we might be quite similar socially actually. i do think hes less shy than me, he seems that way at least but i do think hes similar to me where i just have better and worse days and somedays im super talkative and talk to random ppl more easily and somedays im quite quiet and barely talk to ppl ik. hes also like, alone, a lot. i feel a bit bad for him. i think it might be by choice? he does talk to ppl, its not that, but he tends to walk around school alone. ig its bc hes not actually in school but just doing civilian work.
i slept a total of four hours before my shift the next morning. two at night, got ready in one hour and slept for another two before leaving for work. i was surprisingly awake at work though. like, yeah, i could feel the lack of sleep but it wasnt terrible. i did some grocery shopping afterwards.
friday! last official day of school. i just have my graduation left. we didnt have anything important in the morning but i went to school to see if w was there. he wasnt in the morning TT i followed l to the shop and they went to buy coffee then went to the library to study. i went back to school for a short bit to see if hed be there, he wasnt. i talked to c briefly and told her ab why i was in school so early and she gave me a lil look and scoffed but it was funny. i went home and drank a pepsi and got some studying done before heading back for lunch. during lunch break i see w for the first time. i was too shy to say hi though.
our schedule said the afternoon was a surprise so no one knew what we were doing. we all met in the main hallway of the music building and then went out. they left while i was in the bathroom so i had to run and catch up w them. theyd gone quite far so it was quite embarrassing running all across the town square. everyone was guessing where we were going as we walked. i walked w c, l and l. l joked that we were going to see one of the schools alumni play in the park and i believed him for a good minute before they told me it was just a joke. i guessed we were going to play mini golf and i was right lol. we played mini golf and it was so hot outside bro. i was wearing a black hoodie and black jeans so i was DYING. it was fun for a bit but i dont really enjoy it so it got boring quickly since it was so hot too and its just too repetitive and w a big team it takes ages to finish.
after that we had a music quiz (or two in a way, one w tv show themes and one w normal songs) in the park w some ice cream. i was sad we didnt get to pick teams but i got to be in the same team as c at least. we took one last class group pic together too :â)
there was this small culture event starting in the evening. it was a festival that lasted all weekend. it had a small participation fee and it was even cheaper w the student âpay what u canâ ticket. i only went on friday and saturday bc the only event on sunday was the same art exhibition they displayed the entire weekend. i was pleasantly surprised by friday bc i had higher expectations ab saturday but ended up liking fridays programmes more.
on friday, me and l got there around 7 pm and wHO DO I SEE AS SOON AS I GET THROUGH THE DOOR??? not w BUT both of his parents. see, ive stalked his parents instas LIGHTLY. i felt weird ab going too deep but ive just seen the pics hes tagged in from his parents instas so i just know his parents names and what they look like. i knew his mom had some project there bc her name was on all of the posters. i âfangirlâ a bit to l and we go on w the exhibition, enjoying the epic art. the first programme is a 30 minute sesh of video art on the screen. i love video art a lot, its always my fav when at a museum. the first one was actually the one ws mom made, or well, she was the performer in it and i was just staring bc she looked SO YOUNG. she has gray hair but in the video it was blonde and she just looked so youthful i was questioning whether i was tripping and just seeing things. shes such a cute lady. it was a really cool video of her doing,,, interpretive dancing? silly gestures? in the forest. it was so pretty. afterwards she held a little speech and it was really interesting and agh such a cute lady like actually so loveable. i love humans sm.
the second video was a video of someone manically vacuuming while dressed in underwear. it was silly but it was nice w something less intense in-between.
the third was quite a short one of a robot speaking ab how it doesnt feel feelings and stuff. kinda scary.
the fourth one i cried at lol idk if it was bc i felt emotional or if it was eyeliner getting into my eye or the bright light coming from the screen but i cried lol. it was another forest video. a person standing in the forest, trying to rip their sweater off but not managing to do it. there was a repeating phrase in swedish in the back but i cant remember the exact quote but it was something like âtaking off the body that is youâ. so beautiful.
id say the last one had the most elements to it. white (like, literally, fully white clothing, hair and makeup) person walking around in unsaturated landscapes. v pretty.
afterwards there was a dj thing that we decided to skip to go to the bar. we went to see a rage against the machine cover band but i had to leave quite early bc i was so socially drained and also, i forgot my ear protection so i was scared to stand there wo it. im so scared of getting tinnitus, esp as a musician.
saturday! i met up w e in the early afternoon. shes got a summer job at h&m and im so jealous. we went to some garden thrift shops (?) in the older part of town. such pretty gardens and i ended up getting a dark blue flannel and three glass bottles to put flowers in. v happy!
we later went to a cafĂŠ and chatted for an hour or so. i had an iced latte and a mudcake and it was so yum ! we then went walking around some shops and then went out for ice cream from the ice cream stand. theyve changed to the yucky soft serve and im so sad. only mcdonalds has the good soft serve nowadays TT
we spent the last hour or so at my place and did nothing really. i just touched up my makeup and gave her a try-on haul of the flannel. i feel really bad in a way. im so sure she likes me and it feels so mean now that i have a crush on someone else. i liked her a LITTLE. like i was a bit intrigued by the idea back in september but she didnt seem to have that then. i do think she deserves someone who gets as much butterflies as she does when theyre w each other though. ive realized thats usually the best way to make me realize whether i like someone or not. i need butterflies! such a good feeling!
in the evening me, c, l and ls âfriendâ e went to the event again to join a queer culture quiz. we SUCKED, it was truly humbling. e was super nice and it was fun getting to speak english for a bit. after the quiz i joined c to the store to buy some food. i didnt get anything bc i wasnt THAT hungry and i knew wed go out for food later anyways. we met i on the way there and then again in the store. c and i sat in the park while they ate their food and then we went back to the venue. we missed some performance thingy but i wasnt too interested in it anyways. we came just in time for an elvis impersonator. it was surely,,, something. me and c were both very shocked over the ,,, quality... the thing is it was supposed to be satire but like it was just,,, actually bad. the costume was cool though. we then listened to some ambient music woah. i thought it would be a bit different but it was alright. c had to leave earlier bc she got overwhelmed by it and me, e and l left once some more ppl started leaving. nobody seemed to enjoy it that much. we stood outside and talked w s for a while. at one point a bunchhhh of ppl started leaving which was quite funny to watch happen.
we left after a bit and we went to get fries and the hot guy was at the cash register!!!!!!! super happy. me and c fangirled a bit over how hot he was.
we ate the fries in the park and i was feeling a bit woah ab the fact that we were IN the park so late at night. its a big park and its kinda known for being sketchy at night but we walked out unstabbed so id call it a success.
lastly, we went to the bar. it was filled w ppl and the festival held its after party there. it was basically a rave so i didnt really go to the dance floor but i stood outside passively smoking for hours instead. we were kind of awkward bc no one wanted to go up and talk to ppl. i suggested we couldve gone and talk to h and s and their friends or c and d and after suggesting c and d, c (my friend c, not this guy c) scoffed and went like âwhat would we talk ab w c and d? smoking weed?â and i was like âyeah? lets smoke w them yo!â and then they just ignored it lol but i kept talking ab going smoking w d throughout the night and i think i was the only one who found it funny. good thing i was sober bc i think if i wouldve been drunk i mightve even actually walked up to d and been like âyo,,, ik weve never exchanged a single word before but ur really cool, love ur bass stuff dawg (+ i have a massive crush on ur drummer friend), wanna get high?â
i left after a while bc i got bored bc my chingus didnt want to talk w anyoneeeee. fell asleep and woke up w a cold and its so bad atm. my entire body hurts and im so weak. work was so bad bc of it and idk,,, i might have to call in sick next shift. well see.
ive been listening to a lot of the police this past week so obviously...
sotw: the police - every breath you take
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I know older h has comforted his girl a couple of times but her being scared or something happening to her and he literally bolts to her he cants see or hear anything he just want to be near her :( âdonât hurry h Iâm okay no rushing please?â
if he thought for even a second that she as in danger or in a bad situation he would be ssosososo so scared for her :( like maybe she called him on a night out w her friends and she got a little too drunk and now she doesn't really know where she is like her friends dragged her to this club shes never been to before and its a in a sketchy area and her friend knew this guy at the club thats maybe trying to get them more drinks and y/ns over it and a little nervous but shes in that state of drunk where its all good everything will work out!! so she texts h like ":?))))) idk when I'll be home bc im at this club ive never been to before and I want to stop drinking but this guy keeps buying us drinks but imm sure we'll go home soon just wanted u to know:)" like shes assuming hes asleep until her phone starts going off and hes calling her so she steps outside and h is all where are you are you okay??? don't drink anything he gives you y/n where are you????? and shes all woah!!! im okay im fine im a little drunk and im at this club and like im tired but the girls aren'y ready to go yet so we'll be out a little later its all okay h:) and hes like just a little conflicted bc she sounds okay but he knows that when shes drunk like this she can just like kind of let things go and go with it all ben if shes in a bad situation but he doesn't want to be that boyfriend that cuts it all short when shes having a good time but hes sosososo worried and "will you please send me your location sweetheart? I just need to know youre safe" and still on the phone she ofc does as soon as he sees where she is hes like oh.....oh no shes....she needs to come home or hes ab to go sit at a bar w her in his sweats bc if the reputation of that bar hasn't changed he remembers it from his college days and that is not the place to go when you want to have just a normal fun Saturday night thats where u go to get into some trouble and hes just worried about her sososo worried so hes just "u said you were tired sweetheart? if you want I can come pick you up and take yu home? don't have to wait on the others to be ready!" and hes just trying to coax her into being okay w the idea and she perks up like really?? you'd do that?:) and hes like yes ofc ofc let me come get you and I'll stop and get you some food too! and hes already tugging on his pants and some shoes and shes all excited now on the other line like really!!!! yes yes please:))) iv want to see you:) you can meet my friends:))) and hes like yeah yeah ofc :) but he really doesn't care he just wants to make sure shes okay and safe with him and before he hangs up the phone he makes her promise to stay at that bar and wait for him and that she doesn't drink anything she doesn't order herself she doesn't care if its from one of her friends she doesn't need anything they give her:( and shes all bubbly and happy still excited to see him so shes like okay:))))) and when he finally gets to the club hes sooooo excited to see her and before hes out of the car he can see her saying bye to her friends and waving off some guys he doesn't recognize and shes running out to see him and shes so excited climbing in the car and she smells like the clubs a little bit sweaty and alcoholy but still traces of her perfume she left the house w and her watermelon hand lotion and hes just so happy to see shes safe:( other than a little drunk shes exactly how he left her earlier in the night:(
#anon#ask#prosecco inspo#concept#I don't think this is what you were thinking when u sent this but....I kind of went off so sorry bestie SGUGFHSUFH
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HELLO
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May I request a Hanakou oneshot where Hanako feels insecure about being Kou's boyfriend, thinking he can get something much better so Kou comforts him??
Thank u đ¤
Ah cat ofc
My first hanakou writing (took me while to make that ugly banner)
Daily hanakouđ§Ąâ¤ď¸
Insecure hanako!
It was a basic day hanako said to himself
Exept he is all alone
In the bathroom
Waiting for the the next day to start so he can see his boyfriend kou again
For some reason this time it felt like a WEEK has passed and not 4hours
So he decided to go take a walk at the garden to clear off his mind
While he was outside he was not able to think straight because all he could think of is kou
He barely started to visit for cleaning duty with yashiro
Because he was too busy hanging with another ghost
Or sometimes he leaves earlier with yashiro to go somewhere fun
He mumbled to himself.
âOfcourse. Whats so fun in hanging out at schoolâ
Was he not good enough?,was he getting boring? He hopes that this isnât the case
He wished that he could also go outside with them. To the beach.park.Restaurants.
But he just HAD to be cursed by not being able to leave the school
He didnât even realize that the sun is starting to rise
He was too deep in his awful thoughts
But after snapping out of it he went back to the school into the girls bathroom
â4 more hoursâ
Itâs Friday so they had a short day today
Just as all the kids started to enter the school he was on his way to greet both of them
He didnât see yashiro âprobably is lateâ he thought to himself
But then his eyes landed on kou
He was about to approach him until he saw him
Mitsuba. One of kouâs friends
Guess he was faster than him..
Not wanting to âdisturbâ these two he decided that he should go.
â2 more hoursâŚ.should i?â
He was unsure if he should go visit kou
He did miss him so he went
âYouâve got to be kidding meâ
Why is He there again.
He is so damn CLINGY
He didnât try to make a move on kou though right?
A small panic ran through his mind
And without thinking straight he just went up to these two
They both look at hanako
âOh hanako! How are you? Ive missed you!â
Mitsuba just stayed quiet not wanting to say anything to the other ghost
Missed him huh? If he really did then he wouldnât have avoided him so much
âUhm yeah hey kou.im ok.ive missed you tooâ
âOh by the way is it okay if we wonât do the cleaning duty today? Me and yashiro promised to meet up at her place todayâ
Again?.
How long will this all keep going?!!?
âAh well canât you like dunno skip it on another day? You know its very VEEERRRY lonely being allllll alone here~â
âOh come on you wont die from boredom. And besides its pretty important to me.â
âFine fine. I have to talk to you later anyway. So Iâll see you at lunchâ
âA-actually i promised to go take pictures with mitsuba at lunchtimeâ
Hearing that made hanako snap on the inside
He quickly turned around to the pink ghost giving him a death glare
âIs that so?âŚâ
âI-I UHM ACTUALLY HAVE SOME THINGS TO DO dont hurt me SO SORRY KOU WE CANT MEET UP UHM BYEâ
This sudden reaction made kou startle a little
âuhm bye? See you.â
âSoooooooo still busy?????â
âWell not anymore hahâ
âGREATâ
He hugged kou tightly happy that he can spend time with him
This made kou blush a little by his sudden hug but he still hugged back
âCan you let go? People are starting to look weirdly at meâ
âJust five more minutesâ¤ď¸â
As expected kou went to the bathroom to meet up with hanako
Just as he entered he was already greeted with a kiss on his cheek
âHahha you shouldâve seen your face!â
He was right kouâs face looked super funny. He was red like a tomato!
âYOU DAMN BASTARDS THATS CHEATINGâ
âNope. No it wasnât ~â
Kou just mumbled some light hearted curse words while hanako was laughing
â hahahhâŚah Ive missed thisâ
âWhat do you mean by that?â
Crap
Hanako frowned and took kouâs hand
âListen this might sound selfish from me butâŚâ
Kou was feeling intense at this moment
âIâve been feeling as if im not good enough for youâ
Ok help the poor boy he is about to have a Heart attack
âMaybe you should find someone e-â
Kou quickly grabbed hanakoâs other hand
âDONT YOU DARE SAY THATâ
Hanako was taken back by his sudden rising voice
âHanako.you mean a lot to me.i donât know what made you feel that you arenât good enough but i will do my best to make you never EVER feel like thatâ
These words almost made hanako tear up
âIts just. Why would you be with someone who canât even leave the schoolâ
Kou just suddenly hugged hanako
âI understand what you mean.mitsuba also told me how much this suck-âŚno this is isnt about him right now.â
He pushed hanako slightly to look him in the eyes
âalways stuck to the school or not.i dont care.ghost or human.i dont care. Ive fallen for your personality.and all the adventures weâve hadâ
âI love you and only you hanakoâ
Hanako was speechless
âHe just hugged him back but this time more tightly
âI know idiot.i love you tooâ
Thank you for your request! Hope i left you satisfied as always! Please visit again <3
#tbhk hanako#tbhk kou#hanakou#hanako x kou#tbhk hanakou#tbhk amane#jshk kou#jshk hanako#jshk hanakou
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Happy fucking birthday to me Ig.
My mom earlier today asked my brothers and I if "we'd be okay with" her drinking again, but "with a limit". We didnt know how to respond so we all just gave unsure, half-hearted "oh- alright?"s and moved on. She swore up and down that she wouldnt be getting drunk but she'd be drinking.
Well she's throwing that out for tonight because "[her bf] did something i didnt like so i texted [her best friend] about how im not sure how much of his stuff i can take, and he saw and left" So now she just told us she's going out to get trashed. She claims she isnt gonna be driving, she's going to be back later (honestly prefer if she'd stay at a friend's house but i digress.).
She asked if "thats alright". We all didnt want to respond. Obviously not. Stop asking us for "permission". Then when we responded with even more unsure "ok", she said "i feel like everyone's disappointed in me". My brother tried to do what i usually do in this situation and comfort her like "no no its alright :(". I said nothing bc ofc we're disappointed.
Who wouldnt be? She said she was done drinking the last day of Jan., Swore up and down she was done drinking, one week later she has a friend drop off a 6 pack, two days later she says she's going to drink again ""with limits"", and now she's getting trashed. Yes. I'm VERY disappointed. OBVIOUSLY.
I'm mad, im upset, im scared for how she's going to come home like, I'm tired and I just want her to stop making these flimsy promises.
I turn 18 in 3 hours and 20 minutes. Happy. Fucking. Birthday.
Update to my last vent post:
My mom claims she's not going to be drinking again once the month changes, and she said that if she drinks again this month the last time it's going to happen is Tuesday.
We'll see. đ
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hi this is horizonandstar! im a sideblog and not sure how you'd feel just me reblogging a screenshot of your tags and respond that way but anyways! i am in your askbox!
yeah its kinda sad when fics get dropped. for my case specifically, the next chapter came out later than my usual update schedule due to a mix of back to school and chapter being uncooperative in writing. i also made a sideblog which also slowed me down by a lot because back then, the only times i could talk about the fic was when it updated, and i felt like i was going to explode if i didnt share my thoughts, so
ive never actually seen subnautica aus before! the first one i found was Leviathan's Song which made me go autism creature on it and i knew then i really really wanted to write a subnautica au fic. ive since then occasionally check the tags to see if any more subnautica aus dropped, and there's 2 so far that i like and another that i would like to start reading
tbh my aus is just me going "put the blorbos in a situation" which usually ends up placing them in a pre-established setting. also! what are the parts thats relevant to your circles interests!! curiosity is tugging on me and id like to know if youre cool with that!
yeah ofc!!! subnautica, borrowers, and pokemon are all Relevant to my friends (and by extension my) interests!!! imo we really need more of subnautica, the isolation factor and what ppl usually associate the dca with mixes really well. I've thought about writing my own, but I feel like its kinda cheating to use other people's mer!dca designs and I'm not confident in making my own so... eh. Maybe one day.
as for borrowers and pmd (ESPECIALLY pmd), I have no idea how it would work but the idea is fun. little guy living in the walls, the mouse to moon's cat? sick, awesome, love it.
i did see that you were talking about specifics to the pmd au earlier and I gotta agree with that one person - it's much better to have character pokemon set in stone so you're happy with it as the author. Doesn't really matter what the reader opinion is on that because we're not the ones writing it! Do what makes you happy! Happy author = more writing = happy readers anyway.
all that said i think ur ideas are cool and ur writing is a super fun read
#dont feel bad about dropping things tho#sometimes the love dies and thats fine that's normal#just dont delete them!!! people still read those I swear#i used to delete all my fics when I got sick of them but its sucks when it happens the other way around
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Manager!Seijoh
a/n: im a seijoh stan and theyre my little plant babies
for more seijoh content, check this masterlist out!
this is so long oml i hate myself
theyre an actual boy band istg
lets be honest, they probably thought you were just another oikawa fangirl
they thought you just wanted to be closer to their captain bc you were another delusional girl who wanted to live out her fantasies
lmao im not trying to be salty
but when you just stared blankly at oikawa tooru after he called you a beautiful flower,
stageplay hinata calling you a mugwort
the team just about threw themselves on your feet
tbh you werent really there to get a boyfriend or for oikawa
you just needed an after school club and the other teams already had managers
the only sport that didnt was the boys volleyball team
imagine why
you were actually a little wary, since you knew of oikawa, being a first year yourself, and you were aware of his psycho fangirls who could probably kill you
but you needed a club that would last you for the next 3 years to graduate
it was kunimi who actually recommended being a manager
you were in his class and you noticed him sleeping in the morning so you gave him your energy bar
âthanksâ
you shrugged and smiled
thats why he tolerated you more than others
you were nice and you were the only one who noticed his tiredness, even the teacher left him alone, and did something about it
sometimes, you even gave him an energy drink
âcan you tell me why youve been so tired lately? i dont think ive seen you wake up until lunchâ
he opened the snack and started munching while replying
âearly morning practice for volleyball is still a big adjustment. our captain demands us to be there 6 in the morning sharp and if weâre even a minute late, weâd have to run laps. like for every minute youre late, you have to run those amountâ
oh my why is kunimi talking so much
but i love kunimi and first year seijoh boys rights in this household is valid
you furrowed your eyebrows
âbut yall are still growing and you need all your sleep. if i were there, id yell at your captainâ
he grinned slightly, imagining your short height beating up their captain
âmeh. you want to be our manager? i saw you looking at the clubs board yesterday and we dont have one so you could take the opportunity and beat him up thenâ
ofc you agreed bc kunimi was best boi and you just wanted him to have enough sleep for once
after class, he waited for you to finish packing up and when you finished, yall left the classroom
until another guy with a spiky hairstyle joined you and you noticed him as the guy who sometimes came over to eat lunch with kunimi
âoh, hello l/n-sanâ
you smiled gently
âdrop the formalities, kindaichi-kun. its only fair.â
he nodded before walking beside kunimi
âkindaichi, l/n might be our new managerâ
the onion head excitedly looked at you
âreally?! yes! so we dont have to fill our bottles ourselves anymore!â
kunimi glared at him and slapped his stomach
âshes our manager, not our maidâ
you laughed but placed an arm on him
âits okay. i was a manager for my middle school volleyball team so i know a little bit about being oneâ
the two shared a look
god, they really hit the jackpot
as yall walked closer to the gym, you noticed the big pile of girls huddling at the corner
kunimi sighed
âl/n, ill warn you ahead of time of our captain. hes kinda,,,, too muchâ
but you flashed him a smile
âhes not the first one ive handledâ
oml player-chan!!!
so when you opened the door and entered the gym and oikawa hit you with his normal antics, you just stared at him
âokay and?â
hanamaki and mattsun howled before rushing to you and grabbing you in a hug
âgirls like her really exist!!â
you gave kunimi and kindaichi a signal of help and they nodded before gently prying the senpais off of you
âsenpai, pleaseâ
you gave kunimi a grateful nod
coach irihata went up to you bc wow, kunimi has a friend with of another gender?
âhow can we help you, miss?â
âim l/n y/n, first year, and id like to apply as the managerâ
internally, the coach sighed bc you werent the first one to apply
the reason they havent had a manager for years was bc of oikawaâs fangirls hiding themselves under that false facade
but he saw you brush off that comment oikawa make with no hint of fluster or blush on your face so he decides to give you a trial run, in guise of seeing if you could handle these chaotic boys
âdo you have any experience as manager? or do we need to teach you the ropes?â
âi was a manager for 3 years in my middle school volleyballâ
he nodded
âill give you one month. a trial run of a month to test the watersâ
you agreed and your trial run began
kunimi mentioned that morning practice starts at 6 am sharp so you set your alarm for 5 to get ready and get to school on time before the boys
you remembered how to set up the nets so you quickly put them out (using a step stool bc we short) and ran to get the basket of balls
their water bottles were filled and you were in the middle of lugging the big basket of towels when the third years entered
the 4 of them usually came earlier than the rest so they saw you dragging the basket of fresh towels and wipe your sweat before smiling at the work youve done
iwa was so happy bc it was usually him who did this stuff and now that he had someone do it for him, it was like a god-send
oikawaâs eyes shone and he waved at you
âyohoo, y/n-chan!â
you cringed at the loud voice of the famous oikawa tooru
âhello, oikawa-sanâ
he chuckled at your politeness before hugging you
âyou did all this for us? youre so cute, y/n-chan!â
instead of the normal blush and love-struck eyes, you were actually very uncomfortable of the sudden skinship and you quickly ran to the side when iwa hit him at the head
âshittykawa! leave her alone!â
âiwa-chan!â
makki and mattsun stood next to you as the boys did their usual fight
âis this all an act or are you really not attracted to oikawa?â
mattsun shot him a surprised look bc why was he so straightforward
but you just shrugged
âhes cute, i admit. but ive seen much cuter and the boys in my middle school team was basically full of him so,,, and i hate guys who think theyre all that just bc theyre blessed w a pretty face. if anything, ill probably go for iwaizumi-sanâ
pop off S I S T E R!!!
you just won the heart of these two
slowly but surely, they all came to accept you and iwa straight out loves you bc you maintained this routine for the whole month of your trial run
and you still remained indifferent of oikawaâs advances and he was even impressed and slightly agitated that you werent paying attention to him
ây/n-chan, one date! just one!â
you huffed before looking up from your clipboard
âi like men, oikawa-san. not boysâ
that comment made the guys shriek
ây/n-chan! youre just a first year! you dont need a man!â
âyoure not a man, oikawa!â
you left oikawa to be tormented by his teammates and went to go and hand over the report to the coach
he was impressed by the notes you made bc they were ones he even missed
like the split-second of hesitation that kindaichi usually has that goes unnoticed but you immediately saw
or the wince oikawa has whenever he so much as jumps an inch
you could even tell the difference between iwaâs spike and if he was being easy or he was going full-out
this added on to the fact that the boys loved you and irihata actually saw kunimi try moreÂ
but he thinks its only to earn your praises
ây/n, youre officially the team managerâ
yall celebrated at the normal hang-out spot which was the ramen shop and it truly shocked you at how much these boys ate
granted, this was the first time you ate together but you didnt expect them to eat nearly 5 bowls each
you could only finish 2 and you already feel like throwing up
âhonestly, how do you guys not gain weight after this?â
the table you sat at, iwa, kindaichi, mattsun, and kunimi, looked at you and shrugged
âi work outâ
âi runâ
âi fastâ
âi poop it outâ
lmao im sorry i cackled too hard at this
you stared blankly at mattsunâs answer who said it so seriously that you snorted a laugh
they watched you and your laughter bc you havent really expressed yourself as muchÂ
so they made it their goal to see you laugh more
ây/n-chan! you need to eat more!â
oikawa shouted, clearly food drunk, but you shook your head aggressively
âi only planned to eat one bowl but he just had to shove another down my throatâ
âbut you need to grow, y/n-chan!â
âi want to grow taller! not wider!!â
As a manager:
oh boy
you basically grew into kinda their mom
âoikawa-san! you need to rest your knee or youre going to hurt yourself! i will drag you home myself!â
âkunimi, if you try to get this one more spike, iâll buy you a bag of those caramel bites you likeâ
âiwa-san! if you hit oikawa-san too much, youll destroy the little braincells he has!â
âyahaba-san, nice dump!â
âis your knee okay, watari-san?â
yall really forget that watari and yahaba exist sometimes smh
it was part of the work
keeping up with seijoh
so to keep them encouraged, you gave them praises that they always demand for and they always turn to you whenever they did something good
mattsun gives you a look whenever he blocks iwaâs spikes and you give kindaichi a head pat whenever he blocks some too
bc of how you are with them, sometimes, they forget that you are actually just a first year
they get shocked whenever you walk in with kunimi and kindaichi and talk about the current homework bc it slips their mind that their hard-working manager was actually just a 15-year-old girl
so, they try to ease the burden whenever they can
like iwa offering to help you whenever you have to take their jerseys to the laundrymat
or offering to help you with your assignments since theyve only been through it once
more like watari, yahaba, and iwa bc the matsuhana are clueless and acts like they completely skipped that grade
also
!!!!
oikawaâs fangirls ltr dont leave you alone!!!
now, its known that youre the manager of the volleyball team bc oikawa has boasted about your efforts and such
this obvs ticked off a bunch of girls bc they were jealous that you got to spend more time in a single practice with their precious oikawa-senpai than they have their entire lives
more than once theyve cornered you to threaten you to stay away from their senpai or youll have something coming for you
you never take them seriously bc you can fight too and you just give them a look and push them away
but this one time
TRIGGER WARNING-START
okay tea
the self-proclaimed president of the oikawa tooru fanclub, kenta miyo, cornered you at the bathroom with her other minions
you were just washing your hands and drying them off when she marched up to you and grabbed your hair before tugging it back
obviously you were surprised and shouted
âoi! what the hell?!â
âyou slut! you need to stay away from my tooru, got it?!â
ehm what
you hissed and wrenched her arm from your hair and pushed her away
your hair was now a mess and you were fuming, already sick and tired of the torture these girls put you through
âhe belongs to himself, not you! so stop being delusional and leave me alone already!â
she signalled for the girls to hold on to you which you slapped away but they forcefully grabbed your arm while you kicked at them and struggle to get out of their hold
jesus what do these girls eat
miyo watches you struggle with a smile and cackles
âoh? no fight anymore, little kouhai?â
you glared at her
âi dont want to beat yall up bc id get yelled at by tooru so you need to let me go or regret itâ
at the mention of his first name, her eyes widened and her face twisted and she slapped you
âoi! respect your senpai, you brat! dont you ever say oikawaâs first name!â
your lips curled
âoh? thats funny, because he actually told me to call him that since he wants his cute little manager to be very comfortable with himâ
you achieved a feat that she has been working to get her entire high school life and miyo was not happy
âive been with him for 3 years and you just suddenly show up out of nowhere and call him that?! i dont think so!â
she had her hands around your neck and you gripped her arms, making her wince
but you laughed at that comment
âheh, thats pathetic, isnât it? here you are, my senpai, who has been vying for his attention for 3 years only to be ignored yet a mere first year, who shows up out of nowhere, has been asked to a date nearly a million times every day. that must be toughâ
she shrieked at that comment and threw you on the floor, making you accidentally hit your head at the edge of the sink
yall im actually so bothered by this scene and im wincing as im typing
you bit your lip to prevent any sound of pain to escape bc you knew thats what she wanted to hear from you
but you werent going to give her the satisfaction
instead, you looked up at her, hatred swirling in your eyes
âyoure freaking psycho, you know that? once tooru and hajime knows about this, theyre going to give you hell. they wont ever let this go bc im the manager of their prized team and their little baby sister. so go ahead, do what you want with me. bc i paid too much for these nails to be tainted by dirt like youâ
saiyo, a girl you noticed to be watariâs classmate when you went and visited him, nervously tugged on miyoâs jacket
âmiyo, we should go-â
âSHES BLUFFING. AND HERE, SINCE YOUR SOCCERFIELD FOREHEAD IS BLEEDING, LET ME HELP WASH IT OUTâ
and she poured over a carton of banana milk over you, making you wince at the sticky and cold liquid
the tough facade was crumbling and you were now screaming for help in your head, hoping that stupid theory from yahaba about team telepathy to work
but it didnt
TRIGGER WARNING-END
when miyo and her girls left, you sat on the floor, soaked and sticky and bleeding
then you begin to cry angry tears
you were angry that you were being treated like this just bc you were a manager
you were angry that you let them do that to you
you were angry that you prized your nails more than punching her square in the nose
you were just angry
periodt
staggering on your own feet, you stood up and leaned on the sink, eyes widening at the dripping red liquid from the gash on your forehead, staining the porcelain sink
you were stupid and unconsciously touched it making you winceÂ
âshit, that hurtsâ
you whined quietly
there was little you can do with toilet paper and water to clean yourself up but you managed to at least stop the bleeding
you knew you had to be put on concussion protocol just in case bc you that hit was quite hard but at the moment, that wasnt your concern
practice has already started and this was the first time you werent present for daily practice
this was confirmed at the constant buzzing of your phone in your skirt pocket which you didnt listen to and instead, started thinking of ways to go to your locker and get your stuff and fake being sick but at the same time, not be seen and relayed to the team
time was ticking and you had to come up with a plan fast before oikawa will send the team to come looking around the building for you
once you looked at your reflection and smiled big, you decided it was enough to not show the pain you were in right now
girl im hurting for you
you peeked out of the bathroom door and saw the coast was clear so you quickly ran to your classroom, which was thankfully empty, and quickly grabbed your things
but as you were packing up, the tears just kept falling
it didnt stop as you bolted down the stairs, using your cardigan to hide your face from the public
once you were safely out of school grounds, you finally took out your phone and reviewed through all the worried and concerned texts from the team group chat
but you just replied, âim fine but i just feel really sick right now. girl stuffâ
you smirked, knowing that would keep the boys away
but oikawa had to go and ask you to call him
ây/n-chan! do you want oikawa-senpai to come over with chocolates and ice cream?! wings or no wings?!â
your jaw dropped at the question and clearly scandalized by the question
the team was too as shouting began and you could faintly hear iwa scream, âoh my god, shittykawa!â
âim seriously okay, oikawa-san. i just need to be alone right now and ill try and get some sleep. good byeâ
then you hung up
there was no way you could tell them
they were in their last year anyways so doing something about it wouldnt matter
and you were strongÂ
but apparently not strong enough to fight them off though
you would cover the wound with concealer and continue on with practice tomorrow as if everything was normal
but there was only so much you could take
just yesterday, they trashed your locker and a week ago, they took your bento and threw it away
you even got into a fight with this one girl but she scampered away, too scared to do anything alone
so you were actually just tired and want everyone to leave you alone
believe me, youve thought of quitting sometimes
but youve actually created a bond with these boys
like when you take hanamaki to get cream puffs whenever he loses against iwa in arm wrestling
or when yahaba calls you at ungodly hours to express his worries for next year and to fill oikawaâs shoes
it was simple moments that you shared with each player that kept you from not leaving
soon, you found yourself crying again and the looks pedestrians were giving you was starting to make you uncomfortable
a girl, with her gross hair in a bun, puffy eyes with a bleeding wound and walking down the street
that was a sight
so you cut a corner to an alley by your house to escape from the judging eyes and you were too busy wiping your eyes to see a boy who was crouched down on the floor and ended up walking over him
omg my baby kyoken hello luv!!!!
you gasped and you were surprised and quickly apologized
kyotani was originally about to yell at you, no matter what, but he saw the state you were in and concluded you were either from a fight or was beaten up
he recognized that and decided to just glare at you and go back to feeding the stray dogs and cats
you breathed a sigh in relief when he didnt yell at you bc that wouldve been the last thing you needed today
âsir, im sorry for hitting you. if there is something i could do for you, dont hesitateâ
he ignored you and you focused on him paying attention to the strays
going into your backpack, you had a milk carton and a sausage stick from earlier
you used your thermos lid to serve as the milk bowl for the cats while you peeled open the meat and used your scissors to cut chunks of it for the dogs to have some
kyotani watched as you went into action to feeding the animals that people usually ignored
he knew you
well, he recognized you
when he watched from the top of the gym, he saw you as their manager who ran around and helped everyone
sure, he still didnt trust youÂ
but he watched you grin and smile as the animals started to eat
âim in a hurry right now so i have to go but ill feed you again tomorrow, okay? you too, stranger-san. ill bring food for you tooâ
then you stood up and ran away, probably in a hurry to fix that wound
he wouldve offered to treat it for you but he remained silent, watching the cats mewl at the now empty lid
the next day, oikawa was worried for you and when he saw you at early morning practice, he practically glomped to your side
ây/n-chan! you okay?! oikawa-senpai was so worried for you!â
you cringed but nodded
âim okay, oikawa-sanâ
âsenpai, y/n-chan! call me senpai!â
âim not going to feed into your kink, oikawa-sanâ
*cue everyone busting a lung*
to this day, no one still knew what happened to you
you kept it quiet and you were sure you got everything handled
except for one person
kyotani was smart and for some reason he knew you got beat up by the fangirls and the perpetrators were easily found bc he saw them huddled around your locker, probably trashing it again, and lets just say,Â
no one is def going to mess w you now
back to manager moments!!
during practice matches, the boys rally around you to prevent other teams from sweet-talking you
they make sure no one gets past them and always have excuses to get your attention
you knew what they were doing but you pretended not to, heart warming at their protectiveness and hunger for your attention
even though you have your own jacket, the team gives you theirs all the time like oikawa has his special team jacket w his name at the back and when he feels threatened by schools like johzenji, he makes you wear it
âyoure mine, y/n-chan and i want that blondie to knowâ
âehm, no, oikawa-san. im iwaizumi-sanâsâ
oikawa screamed
lmao training camps w them is CHAOTIC
YOU WANT TO CRYYYYYY
OIKAWA IS CRYING BC IWAIZUMI IS BEATING HIM UP, MATSUHANA ARE FREAKING OUT THE FIRST YEARS ABOUT THE GHOSTS IN THE WOODS AND NOW KINDAICHI REFUSES TO LET GO OF YOU, WATARI GOT LOST GOING TO THE BATHROOM AND YAHABA IS SCREAMING ABOUT THE WEATHER MESSING UP HIS HAIR AND MAKING IT FRIZZY
reminder: threaten to quit everytime they get too much
your hugs are the best!!!!
you have a special hug for every player
oikawa gets his favorite which was the normal arm around the waist with your arms around his neck while he snuggles in your neck
iwa gets flustered easily so you hug him from behind so you cant see his flustered look
mattsun actually likes the jumping in the air so he catches you type of hug
makki is more tame and has his arms around your shoulder with his chin on your head
yahaba is the twirly kind where he just picks you up and swings you around
watari also gets flustered easily so he likes the one-arm hugs
kindaichi gets blushy at the slightest touch from you but he gives you a hug from behind you himself where he can bury his face in your hair while you caress his arms
kunimi, now he likes it when you squeeze him extremely tight bc it makes him feel loved and feel alive
kyo doesnt even talk to you what makes you think you can give him a hug
their lost for shiratorizawa really broke them though
you made them their own bentos for nearly a week to keep them encouraged and gave oikawa extra attention to keep him from sulking or practicing late
âoikawa-senpai, lets go watch that new movie laterâ
âS-S-SENPAI?!â
then the arrival of our baby kyoken
yahaba was moody the whole practice and you were currently trying to keep him from spiking a ball to someone
âeven just today, heâs lateâ
âwho?â
âthat stupid dogâ
he just keeps mumbling and grunting
and then the said dog arrived
you peaked out from behind iwaizumi, who protectively went in front of you
shock ran through you and you pointed at him
âpuppy-kun!â
lmao puppy what
youve called him that since he refused to tell you his name, but you call him that bc he paid special attention to this one baby beagle
he raised a hand in greeting and you gave him a smile
âyoure a player here, too?!â
he âglaredâ at you but nodded stiffly
the team really thought that he would lash out at you but he is surprisingly tolerant
the power of the manager
he still hasnt talked to you but he does respond to you and even helps you with chores, still not talking ofc
hes so tsun tsun and he deserves my heart yall
however, youve heard him talk to iwaizumi, and iwaizumi only, so youve heard his voice before
ngl, you were flustered by how gruff and deep it was
then their loss to karasuno
bruh, it was KARASUNO
the entire team fell apart and after the match, each of them ran away from you to stop lashing out
you were also on the verge of crying, seeing the broken look on your third years
your precious third years
you decided to give them their own space but you heard a loud banging sound from the bathroom
yahaba and watari were outside, clearly trying to talk to someone in there on coming out but it got louder
okay you were lowkey like, âhm, i should not be hereâ
but you recognized that voice
you knocked at the boys door to be respectful
âkyo-san? its me, y/nâ
he was silent but he did unlock it
you took this as a sign to enter and you gave yahaba and watari a smile
âiâll be fine. go to kindaichi and kunimi. they need your comfort right nowâ
tbh, you were surprised the bathroom was still intact but you saw the stall door at the very end being rattled and shaken
you remained by the door but you wanted to go to him
âkyo-san, please come out so i can treat your injuriesâ
he expected you to say those words like âits okayâ or âtheres always next yearâ but you didnt
instead, you knew he was hurt and wanted to help him
he continued to give a few punches to the wall and the door before emerging
you wordlessly treated the wounds and offered your hand
âim here, kyo-san. dont worry, im right hereâ
at the ramen shop, you told them to eat as much as they want and wordlessly gave them your card, slightly crying inside bc you know this was going to be like over a hundred dollars
but you were treating the boys bc they deserved it
you sat beside kindaichi, who was just sobbing and apologizing, so you were wiping his tears and holding his hand under the table
this precious babie
bruh i was sobbing when i watched this part like uuggghhhh
after dinner, you walked with the other third years, knowing they would go to the gym, so you gave everyone else your special hugs before sending them home
âtext me when you arrive safely, okay?â
âyes, momâ
âKINDAICHI WHATâ
oikawaâs speech made you cry bc despite only knowing them for not even a year, you already feel like a family
you didnt want your family to be broken but you knew they would all go their separate ways eventually
there was a big hug pile of third years on the side where you took a picture and sent it to the group chat
you had to eventually go home after helping them clean up and when you checked your phone, a fresh batch of tears rolled down
each from every person on the team but with the same sentence and same words
âwe love you, l/n y/n. thanks for everything.â
ngl i dont think this was that good and its like 8 in the morning and im extremely tired
i want to do karasuno, nekoma, and fukurodani but im so exhausted i cannot right now
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fight club (p.h.)
request: hii can i request smth angsty with pope ? maybe it could end well for both the reader and him but overall itâs just filled with angst and slow burn and tension ? ty xx
ofc lovieee!!! loving this pope recognition finally!! :)
this will be a two part becuause this was longer than i expected!!! part 2 here!!!
masterlist.
you literally felt like you could not sit still. anger was pulsating through your veins as you paced back and forth on the porch of the chateau. you also felt the piercing eyes of pope follow you back and forth as you struggled to form a cohesive sentence.
âitâs just- ugh! she canât get away with this! she thinks because sheâs a kook that iâll be begging for her forigveness and shit like iâm a starving peasant just to save my reputation! iâm a fucking pogue, i donât have a reputation to uphold!â you spat as your hands clenched together so hard you swear you were going to accidentally draw blood from your palms.
vanessa was a kook that you never had problems with when you were kids because you two had a friendship that was secretive and playful because of opposing groups. it wasnât until middle school was when she ditched you, similar to kie and sarahâs relationship. thankfully for them, they sorted it out. however, vanessa was bitter and bitchy every chance she could get.Â
âyes (y/n)! keep it fiesty! i wanna see you win a good cat fight.â jj egged you on.
âyouâre gonna make yourself go crazy if you donât just sit down.â pope spoke in a sterner tone than you would have expected. but as the rage filled you from vanessa, popeâs tone was not helping. you felt a tinge of hurt in your chest as he expressed his clear stress and annoyance with you. but you werenât going to let it go that easily; not in this state.
âiâm fine just the way i am, thanks.â you responded just as passive-aggressively as he did. you literally had to restrain yourself from rolling your eyes so you wouldnât egg this on, because the last thing you needed was for pope of all people to be on your bad side.Â
you heard him scoff from behind you and his footsteps faded away. you spun around so quickly, maybe even too quickly to play it cool, to just see a flash of him as he turned the corner. your eyes flashed to john b, kie, and jj who had expressions that were just as shocked as your own.
âwhatâs his problem?â you asked, expecting an answer real quick before you had to go investigate it yourself. your teeth grinded against each other and you felt your face and ears go hot.Â
âhe probably just doesnât think this is worth it (y/n/n).â kiara stated, trying to give him the benefit of the doubt and giving you a look that said donât let it get to you. kiara shared a quick glance with john b and jj, which definitely did not go unnoticed by you.
âw-what was that? that little look you three shared?â you asked pointing your finger at them interchangeably and confused but angrily eager to find out. you raised your eyebrows, expecting another speedy answer as you finally turned towards jj who held his hands up in defense and bit his tongue.Â
âcut pope some slack. youâve been looking for trouble lately (y/n), itâs been keeping him on edge each time.â john b responded and slapped his hands on this thighs before getting up off the couch. you felt your cheeks get a little hot and your jaw drop slightly.
pope was trying to be protective of you. this was not a secret that you and pope were always flirty with each other but neither of you ever acted on it. both keeping the same sad mindset, if they wanted to, they would. everytime you talked about this with kiara and sarah at a girlsâ night, they playfully judged you for thinking like that and tried to encourage you to just go for it.Â
you took a deep inhale and relaxed your shoulders and face, feeling the tension ease up on your body. âsheâs asking for it...look i donât want to make pope upset or anything but vanessa canât keep pulling this shit. sheâs asking for her teeth to get knocked in.â you huffed out as you grabbed your backpack and phone to hop on your bike and head home.Â
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your grabbed your phone and backpack as you headed back outside to your bike. you didnât even bother to text the rest of the group about catching a ride to tonights kegger because you were just a little fired up from earlier. they were your friends and if this were any other case, they would be backing you up. why is this time any different?
youâre recalling yourself getting ready. stud earrings because she can grab hold of hoops. your hair in two braids because there was less surface area for her to snatch onto. sneakers to make a run for it in case shit gets bad.Â
what the rest of them donât understand is that not only was vanessa mean, spoiled, and made your existence on the obx difficult, was that you had a bumpy past with her. more than just losing a friend. she made up a rumor based on fake ideas that she overheard her parents talking about. when she would run into you on the street with her other kook friends at the ripe age of 13, she would be a bystander as they spat insults your way. that always caused a strain in your friendship.Â
until one day, she started the picking on first. she judged you on your familyâs financial situation and said quote-by-quote âi heard her mom cheats on her dad with all of her little pogue friendâs dads. who knows, they could actually be related and we wouldnât know. sheâs a whore and iâm sure sheâll end up just like her.â tears still brim your eyes at that memory. you wouldnât dare tell the rest of the pogues, whether it was out of embarassment or fear. it was best for them and their own minds that it was never brought up again. since then, it seems like constant torture from her.Â
you pulled up on the beach and hopped off your bike as your tires were definitely not made for the sand. you laid it on a tree and made a b-line to the keg that john b was basically guarding. âthought weâd hear from you.â you heard kiara state as she sat on the sand and glanced up at you, squinting her eyes to keep the remaining sun from basically burning them.
âyeah well, just got a lot on my mind.â you responded. you didnât want to be so abrupt with them but your blood was basically boiling with the idea of vanessa. john b stared between you and kiara and handed you a full red solo cup which you gladly took, taking a gulp.
âsoooo...â jj started, throwing an arm around your shoulder, âcat fight tonight?â you felt a chuckle rise out of you as you playfully rolled your eyes.
âif youâre lucky enough, maybe youâll get front row.â you joked, sending a smirk jjâs way and taking another gulp. you felt a presence behind you and turned to be faced with pope. his facial expression had clearly changed from what you saw from him last time. he looked almost guilty and concerned rather than aggravated.Â
âcome to snap at me again?â you said, turning towards the horizon on the water. looking into his eyes right now was difficult. maybe because it was the idea that you knew some part of you wanted to snap at him for him snapping at you earlier but you couldnât make another enemy. not tonight.Â
âabout that...can i actually talk to you for a minute?â pope muttered, instincitvely cracking his knuckles, clearly scared to tread on water. you felt your shoulders relax and your facial muscles follow suit. placing your drink and backpack on the ground you followed a few paces behind him, closer to the sand where the tide was rolling in. although he didnât stop, he wanted this to be a walk and talk situation.Â
you strolled beside him, both of your hands slightly brushing against each other every now and then. while neither of you took initiative to grab the othersâ hand, neither of you pulled your hands out of that pathway either. that connection and touch felt nice. it was reassuring that his snappiness, along with your own, was out of love and protection of each other.Â
âyou wonât be happy with what iâm about to say...â pope started, basically holding his breath.
âso why say it, pope? i know it sounds bad to say outloud but, why not just let me fight her? she has made my existence so unbearably difficult on this island and has slandered my name and countless others of those i love too much and for too long. iâm sick of being a pushover and letting her get away with it because of mommy and daddyâs money. im done!â you blurted out, letting more info out than you expected. âwhy does it bother you so much? if this was topper and john b going at it, or rafe and jj? which keep in mind, both have actually happened, iâm sure you would be more hesitant to stop them.â
your strolling came to a sudden halt as pope took a step directly in front of you, face to face. he looked longingly into your eyes, somewhat darting back and forth between your own eyes to search for an answer to his questions or even an answer to yours.Â
â(y/n)! i canât see you get hurt. i know how badly you want to do this and how much it means to you but in the end, what is it going to get you? an even worse reputation among kooks, bloody nose, and a black eye? is it worth it?â pope rambled drasticaly.Â
âit is worth it! and iâm so thankful that you care about me and my well being and everything in between but this is something that i have to do. once and for all. iâm not putting myself and everyone i love through this torture anymore. and if that means beating the shit out of her and getting a bloody lip and battered up on the way, than so be it!â you responded, using your hands quite animatedly throughout the performance. the waves seemed like the loudest thing on earth as you awaited an answer from pope. he looked defeated and anxious, knowing that there was no getting through to you for this.Â
âi-â pope started before cutting himself off, looking deafeated yet again. he ran his hands over his face in frustration and as he let his eyes shine over the tips of his fingers, they locked with yours. you felt stuck in place and in a trance for a split second before you felt a pair of hands on your waist and soon enough, you were lip locked with pope.Â
instantly you pulled away, your heart feeling full and your legs feeling limp. your hands made their way to his jawline, slightly caressing his cheeks and neck as you pulled him back into the kiss, elongating it.Â
he pulled away, shocked yet proud with himself. you could not help the small smile that made itâs way onto your face as your cheeks felt hot immediately. âi canât believe iâm saying this but...fuck it. beat the shit out of vanessa.âÂ
the small smile grew as a laugh escaped your lips. you were quick to grab his hand as you both made your way back towards the kegger that was becoming a little more dense as the minutes passed. sarah, kiara, jj, and john bâs eyes were quick to fall on your interlocked hands with pope. both of you kept quiet, playing it nonchalantly. but you couldnât help but notice popeâs look to john b and jj, all with smirks lined up on their faces.
part two out later!! :)Â
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