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stole the joke from this comic. its so funny. i couldnt stop thinking about it. i should be working on other stuff right now
#CHAT BE HONEST W ME is this too much#i mean its probably fine but i wanted to run this thang by tumblr first#i am simply afraid of the Possibilities. as you know. as you are too i am sure.#anyway ive been awake a good 24 hours now and i drew this during my gay little breaks between work#im working on other things too tho i prommy#i should also go to bed soon. but WILL I? remains to be seen#GOD im seeing so many mistakes but it dontmatter. aint none o this matters. ill fix it up later its part ofa bigger doodly page anyway#no tags or watever we break containmant
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not even gonna bother making the meme. me posting art: yeah that only look good from 5 meters away drop it
#like you ever hit post and realize mistakes and can only think ohh this is going to be great redraw material for future me#its like stages of grief speedrun when i do that#posting this at 2 am hours after i posted art bc im having a real normal one not overthinking at all#(im fine i prommy o<-<)
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BITING YOU BITING YOU RAAAA AHSJKDHSAJKDFHS HFSDJFDGF BUTTERS IM SOBBING ;;A;; THEMMMM OH MY GOSH HECKIN BEST THING I'VE READ SHOVING THIS IN MY MOUTH AND SHAKING IT AHUSERE
Call/Response
A lil' oneshot for @bloo-the-dragon of a branch of their mer AU cos we kept talking about it in Discord and then I got brainworms OwO
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When Eclipse wakes up, Ruin isn't on the bed.
That was… unusual, but not overly alarming. Even though Eclipse's ‘just this once’ had extended by nearly two months now, with the slender mer curling up in a nest made of stolen blankets or wriggling under the sheets almost every night, there was still the occasional exception. His current favorite jacket, claimed just before laundry day and which wouldn't be surrendered until the next laundry day, is also missing, which soothes Eclipse’s mild anxiety further. Clearly Ruin had decided to move to a different sleeping spot during the night, that was all.
Eclipse stretches, feeling cables pull and worn joints scrub, before he leans over to look off the other side of the bed. No sleeping fish here, just a pillow that had gotten knocked to the floor. The door to the closet is wide open, which leaves either the couch or the tub as options.
He hopes it's the couch this time. He's getting really tired of hanging soggy sheets out to dry.
“Rue? You get overheated or something?” Eclipse listens, a faint frown pulling at his mouth when he doesn't hear anything. No scratch of scales against the tub, nor any sleepy chirps. Standing, he heads to the bathroom, poking his head inside.
The shower curtain is pulled back, revealing the tub to be as empty of mers as the bed. There aren't even any puddles on the floor to suggest Ruin might have been here earlier, only to move when it got closer to morning.
Faint unease coils in his chest, but Eclipse tamps down on it, turning towards the living room instead. Things were fine, there was no need to panic. Maybe the fish was feeling sick or something, and that was why he was hiding.
“Ruin?” His boots thud against the worn hardwood floor. From this angle he can't see the couch, nor if anyone is on it. He crosses the threshold of the bedroom–
– and stumbles as his foot comes down on a swaying deck.
Automatically his optics adjust to the change in light levels, from a darkened room to mid-morning sun, with the added bonus of glare thrown back back by cresting waves. There’s activity around him, men with heavy coats and heavier beards lugging coils of rope and net to the ship’s edge, checking that the hauling chains were in good order. Gulls call to one another in their shrill voices, the background soundtrack for most of his life.
He was… back on the ship?
Eclipse’s ventilations hitch, and he immediately turns on his heel. He shouldn’t be on the ship, he’d left it (brilliant red flames leaping into a sky filled with smoke, the distant sound of sirens) but through the door is nothing but his pitiful little closet, too small to even be called a room.
“Well there you are!” The harsh voice pulls him out of his stupor, and he looks over to see the captain glaring at him. “Come on, Sleeping Beauty, get your tools and go check out the No. 2 winch.”
“No, I…” His head feels like it’s full of fog, smothering his thoughts under a blanket of panic, but he manages to force words through the static haze. “Wasn’t I guarding the mer?”
“Hm?”
Eclipse shakes his head, fixing the captain with his best level look and trying to keep the distress out of his voice. “The– the mer that we picked up, the one that was all– all mangled. I’m supposed to be keeping an eye on h– it?”
And the captain tilts his head in that way, scorn and impatience under heavy brows, and it sparks a nervousness in Eclipse that he hasn’t felt since he was a boot just learning what his new life would be. The device at the base of his neck weighs heavily with malicious potential.
“You flush your memory after breakfast or something?” The captain snorts, gesturing towards the stern. “We offloaded it this morning! Nearly wasn’t worth the effort of keepin’ it fed on the way back– I would have made twice as much if we’d just gone ahead and skinned it for a pair of boots!”
Offloaded…?
Eclipse isn’t listening anymore. He pushes past the human and rushes to the stern of the ship, catching himself against the railing.
Just on the horizon is a grey smudge, and something in Eclipse twists with despair when he realizes how far they are from shore. Any wild ideas about jumping ship are immediately dashed; he can’t swim, and trying to grab one of the life rafts would get him shut down before he even got it inflated.
Something rises in his throat, bitterly cold and covered in sharp edges, but it’s only when the half-static sound falls from his mouth that he recognizes the feeble cheep for what it is.
A call for help, or to locate companions.
(Where are you?)
His ventilations hitch again. It feels like his chest is crumpling in, like some uncaring god has reached out and started wadding him up like aluminium foil. He can hear the men moving around the ship, low conversation and boisterous laughter and nothing connected to him. Eclipse was a toy, a machine: on the records as barely sentient, the mockery of life constructed from metal. Of no use and no importance to anyone.
Except, maybe, a mangled little mer, who had met his assigned vigil with tolerance and curiosity. Who hadn’t yelled at him, hadn’t dismissed him as a thing just because he was made of metal and there was a hole where his past should be.
Who had heard Eclipse, and called back.
Another cheep rises in his throat.
(Where are you?)
“Hey! Shut up and get back to your station!”
The railing creaks under his grip, metal fingers leaving shallow dents in the aluminium. Conditioning has his voice faltering for a second, the habit of just enough obedience to buy him another day– but the despair is stronger. The longing is stronger.
Eclipse slams his volume to max and shrieks.
(Please, answer me.)
The echoes fade, shrill sound thrown back by countless cresting waves. Land was so, so far away, but surely something would make it the vast distance, and all he had to do was listen. Past the calls of gulls circling the ship, the slap of water against the hull, the complaints of the men behind him.
Listening for the faintest hint of a response. A whisper, a breath.
Anything to let him know he’d been heard, for once.
“I said knock that crap off!”
Heavy boots against the deck, jingling buckles and the snarl of promised punishment. Eclipse turns just in time to catch the blur of metal before something impacts his face.
Everything goes dark.
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When Eclipse wakes up, it takes his panic-addled mind several seconds to recognize his surroundings.
The soft surface under his cheek and clenched hands is a blanket, a bed, and when he sits up he can feel the gentle tug and sway of a charging cable. Shadows gradually resolve themselves into doorways and furniture, a pile of clothes on top of a shabby dresser, his boots by the door. His roaring fans are loud in the darkness of so-late-it’s-early-morning, yet he can’t seem to get them to quiet.
Something gently touches his arm.
Still on edge, Eclipse can’t help flinching away from the contact, head whipping around to stare down at the culprit. The mer stares back up at him with wide, mismatched eyes, looking nearly as alarmed as Eclipse himself.
“Eclipse…? Are you alright?”
The British accent is still jarring to hear, even now– some hysterical part of him wants to laugh, or snap at the mer in misplaced irritation. The rest of him is struggling to form words, to figure out how to dismiss this or reassure the mer or just get him to forget about it. Everything feels brittle, like the soft blankets draped over his legs will shatter if he moves, but surely he can get himself back under control.
He can’t do it. The words won’t come. Expression crumpling in misery, he stops trying to swallow back the lump in his throat and cheeps.
(Where are you?)
And Ruin blinks, ragged frills flaring out like the rays of a tattered sun, and chirps back.
(I’m here.)
The pitch is a little flat, with a layer of complexity his own chirps lack. It still hits that hollow place inside him, covering near-constant anxiety with a soft blanket of reassurance, a cool hand on a feverish forehead. The rest of his self control breaks and Eclipse buries his face in his hands, shoulders shaking with sobs that are equal parts relief and fading fear, interspersed with pitiful cheeps.
Ruin chirps back every time. A constant stream of reassurance, an unignorable reminder that there was someone here, that they hadn’t left. That he wasn’t alone.
(I’m here. You’re safe. We’re together.)
Eventually the sobbing trails off, then stops. Eclipse spares a moment to be glad that he’s not organic, otherwise his hands and face would probably be covered in tears and snot and it would just be even more embarrassing. It’s bad enough he just broke down over a stupid nightmare, of all things. Huffing through his vents, Eclipse finally drops his hands from his face, and finds that Ruin has built a nest around him.
That’s what it looks like, anyway. The blankets have been arranged so that they more or less encircle him, with Ruin’s current favorite jacket tucked in closest to his body. The mer himself forms the outermost layer of the nest: head pillowed on his arms, body curled in such a way that his crooked tail goes all the way around behind Eclipse and comes back to nearly touch his cap thing.
“Thanks…” The gratitude just slips from him, rough and scraping like gravel. He doesn’t even know if a ‘thank you’ is the appropriate response to this kind of thing.
With how Ruin’s eyes light up, the barely visible patting of his hands against the sheets, he can guess that the mer is probably fine with it. “You’re welcome! I hoped– are you feeling better?”
He can’t help the bitter laugh, looking down at the hands that sit limply in his lap. Scratched, dented, scuffed: the marks of a life spent clawing for anything he could hold on to, and having it ripped away anyway. “Yeah… I guess? I’m not– …yeah. I’m fine.”
Out of the corner of his eye he can just barely see how Ruin’s head tilts. His voice is soft, hesitant. “Did you have a bad dream?”
Well, there was no sense in hiding it, was there? Ruin could sometimes lack what Eclipse considered common sense, or made some bizarre leaps of logic– but it didn’t take a genius to figure out why Eclipse might have gone from peaceful slumber to outright sobbing.
“Just… stupid stuff. Like being back on the boat, working for that asshole again. We were already pretty far out at sea– and it’s dumb, right? That hasn’t been my life for months now, and I made sure that it wouldn’t be ever again.”
Soft tugs on the blanket, a pair of webbed hands slowly inching their way across his legs. It’s easier to watch their progress towards his own hands than it is to look Ruin in the face and see those big, gentle eyes. Eclipse takes a deep breath, trying to keep his voice flippant and steady.
“We were out at sea, and– and I guess I chickened out or something because you weren’t… there. I’d left you in that cage on shore.” The lump is back in his throat, scraping the edges off of his words so that they emerge laced in static, barely more than a whisper. “I tried to call out, but we were too far away, I think. You didn’t answer.”
“Oh. I see.” Soft, organic fingers close over his own, covering the scratched metal with cerulean blue and buttery gold. It always took him by surprise that Ruin’s hands were so warm; all of an animatronic’s warmth was centered in their chest, with the extremities left to range from ‘room temperature’ to ‘christ that’s cold!’. The tail behind him shifts as the coil of Ruin’s body gets a little smaller, the mer doing his best to scootch closer while refusing to let go of Eclipse’s hands.
“I understand. Believe me, I do understand,” he says quietly. There is a deep sorrow behind the words, scars matching the ones that cover Ruin’s body from top to tailtip. The marks of a life spent clawing for anything to hold on to. “However…”
Organic fingers tighten their grip, a reassuringly solid presence. The mer flattens himself against the bed, trying to catch Eclipse’s downcast eyes, and he offers a small smile when the animatronic finally relents.
“However, I am here. You are here.” His smile widens, showing razor sharp teeth, and he makes a musical, trilling sound that Eclipse has no hope of reproducing. It’s soothing, a sound that doesn’t pull at his programming like the chirps do, but it makes him feel better in a way that he can’t quite nail down. He’s hearing it because Ruin is here, because they’re both here.
“Yeah. Yeah, you’re right, bud.” Eclipse tries a small smile himself, though he knows it's still pretty wobbly on the edges. The tattered remains of the nightmare cling to him like cobwebs, but Ruin is still holding his hands, and it’s surprisingly easy to focus on that warmth instead.
This hasn’t been taken away from him. Ruin won’t suddenly disappear into the morning mist. Eclipse has his own home and a companion that wants to be here, and stupid nightmares can’t change that.
“Come on, we might as well get up now and start the day early.” The small grin gets wider when Ruin whines dramatically, flopping over onto his side and covering his face with his tail in protest. He knows that it’s all for show, and he reaches over to pat what he can see of Ruin’s head, his other hand unplugging the charger. “I’ll make you some waffles, how’s that?”
“...fish waffles?”
“Yeah, I’ll cut ‘em into fish shapes, too.”
#Reblog#fnaf#fnaf security breach#sun and moon show#art for me <3#sams mer au#BUTTERS OUT HERE HECKING-#ONE SHOTTING ME#WITH ONE SHOTS#OF MY BOYS#JUST#RAA#RAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#so yeah! i've been rambling about an au with eclipse 3.0 and ruin as a mer#AND BUTTERS YOU#Y O U#IM CRYING#RUIN HELPING#HE HELP#GET HELD ECLIPSE U IDIOT#LOVE THEM#i am saving this immedietely and injecting it into my heckin soul#i've been blessed this fine day#AND I WILL GIVE MORE CONTEXT FOR THIS AU SOON I PROMMIE#it has me in a chokehold#NYEHHHH
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pinned post thingo… pt 3 !
hiii my name is 💥 micah 💥 and this is my selfship sideblog! i use he/him and im a certified transsexual 🔥 aroace and gay as well. its a complex and wondrous thing yk how it is ‼️ i’m also australian 🎉
i tend to see my selfships as more on the fictional side; i like to explore the relationships like any other relationship in fiction, meaning that it wont always be the healthiest, so… keep that in mind i guess 👍
i dont like to associate this blog too closely with my main but if you get notifs from a blog with a url starting with d and a rainbow pfp of castiel, thats almost definitely me! if u wanna know the exact url feel free to ask and i’ll let you know 👍
you can also check out my strawpage for some general info about me and an f/o list, etc. :^)
i draw sometimes ‼️ i tag all my art with “#my art”
my main f/os are dave s.trider & c.handler bing but ive also got a couple more in the bag!
proship and closely associated please kindly don’t follow 🙏 strictly nsfw or 18+ blogs preferably dni too closely also . generally tho i’ll just block people i don’t want interacting
f/o list, sharing boundaries, etc. below the cut!
for romantic f/os, my general policy is that i’m not particularly comfortable with sharing and while you’re free to follow or interact if we share f/os, keep in mind i’m less likely to follow back— this ofc does not apply if i follow first. platonic, familial, etc. f/os im totally fine with sharing, in fact i think thats awesome
also! i have no tagging system— that being said, if you want me to tag a certain ship for filtering purposes or similar, i’d be happy to do so
characters i talk about in a romantic manner (some are f/os, some not, it’s complicated):
dave strider (homestuck) — f/o. thats my boyf riend . basically my first proper f/o i heart him lots 💗
chandler bing (friends) — f/o. thats also my boyf riend. my beloved sarcastic repressed boring yet not boring guy. this may come as a surprise but i also love him lots
hitch (ruby redfort) — f/o. i dont talk about him as much but i do love him. middle aged secret agent who’s afraid of crocodiles and is secretly silly :-)
prismo (adventure time) — f/o. also dont talk about him as much but i love him i prommy. idc that he’s 2D i will find a way to give him a kiss 🫡
jonny goodman (friday night dinner) — fictional crush or something i dont even know. i was briefly obsessed with him during my fnd interest period and i still hold him dearly and sometimes rewatch some fnd episodes and think of him
bernard black (black books) — i truly dont know tbh i just love black books and am a little obsessed with him. manny & fran too but i dont have gay little crushes on them so
jeremy usbourne (peep show) — practically an f/o atp but im in denial. side effect of my recent peep show obsession was developing a secondary obsession with this freak
characters i have some sort of weird little qpr situation with
foxy (fnaf) — idk how to explain it he was one of the first characters i started selfshipping with in some variety and i like him :-)
the nice cream guy (deltarune) — he’s a developed character 2 meeee. we’re gayass boy best friends
red guy (dhmis) — who knows but it’s not a normal friendship folks
characters that are my friendssss my familyyy etc. you get the idea
toriel & asgore dreemurr (deltarune) — my parents:)
kris & asriel dreemurr (deltarune) — my siblings:)
basically the entire rest of the main characters from the other medias ive already mentioned — my friends:)
THAT’S ALL FOLKS!! THANK YOU FOR READING :^)
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🌈 'sup. i'm aria. unovan transfer student in paldea's uva academy, hobbyist breeder/trainer, and your local catperson ( in both ways ).
🧶 i don't really do much other than just kinda exploring, catching pokemon, n' doing classes. i did complete the paldea dex that one time and maybe stopped a few threats and i may or may not be a supplier of a good few of the various professor's starter pokemon but yknoooow. typical stuff compared to things othr ppl r doin
🌻 my """ace""" ( in many quotes bc i never have consistent teams ) is a meowscarada the head of uva gifted me who i named forsythia. he's showy and loves doing tricks for ppl so i sometimes have him outside of his ball so he can show off. if ur ever in paldea and see a meowscarada in mesagoza chances are it might be mine lol
🔴 you can battle me if u want ig but i dont battle suuuuper duper competitively. like yea i know what evs and ivs are and i try to maximize my favorite pokemons ones since thats rlly cheap nowadays ( bottlecaps used to be sm more expensive ) but other than that i dont do much else
🖌️i also like uh, drawing and writing and stuff like that a lot but i only rlly post abt that stuff online lol. i've wanted to be a musician but learning stuff other than singing is hard, and same w/ game dev stuff. codings hard. but i also play games ofc ofc. i love splatoon 3 n im good at my ursaco shifts >:3c
idk what else 2 put here. uhh. have fun
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OOC:
hiiii this is a pokemon irl blog :3
anyone can interact. pokemon, pokepasta, rp blogs, non-pokemon related blogs, whoever tf!!! the excuse is just "alt timelines/dimensions" etc for crossover stuff or different pokemon rpers/irl blogs who have diff rules
RULES | ABOUT ARIA ( IC ) | ABOUT ARIA ( OOC )
🌀 the character being played is aria! a 19 year old pokemon trainer ( who is also uh. a catperson. ) enrolled in naranja-uva academy ( specifically uva ) and just sort of exploring the world to find themselves and all. they/he pronouns. if you want more go here.
the character is an AU of my persona based on my playthrough of pokemon violet specifically but is also just generally based on my experience with pokemon - except mixed with if it was in real life. they aren't 100% me bc that'd probably make things weird, but they are mostly made up of my segments and parts hence. them being a sona.
⚠️ most of the way this blog goes abt the whole pokemon irl and related stuff doesn't follow any super specific rules or anything. of course, it follows most of the groundwork of that and stuff, but its a little mixed with canon pokemon a little more so it might be a little more outlandish as opposed to the more grounded ( quote unquote ) nature of most pkmn irl blogs. it's still mostly grounded, just like, everso slightly more akin to the pokemon games for a little more wiggleroom. also whatever the natural catboyism is about. it is not explained nor will be probably.
⚡ "yes and"-ing / improv is very important for any pkmn irl blog but if anything doesn't follow Your blogs canon the explanation is probably just "timeline bullshit" or "don't think abt it too hard" with some specific things ( the fact aria is a catboy just, like, naturally ). u can point these out but aria will just be like "lol? that's always how its been"
🔔 follow me if u r interested... i will post now and again. I do not know how to make good info/first posts.
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❤️ ooc, i am a young adult and use he/they pronouns.
🐈 i am. also named aria. aria's a self-insert/sona but at the same time not really. it's complicated, but there's enough levels of separation where things won't be weird i prommy.
🐱 idrc who interacts, but do note i'm fine with suggestive jokes but they'll be tagged like that and not taken further than just jokes + i probably won't make them that often? just if smth asks me smth like that or if i see an Opportunity for a joke.
✨ magic anons are allowed but i have the right to refuse them.
📧 asks are allowed and so are interactions, ofc ofc
⚠️ i likely won't tag unreality / high stakes pokereality unless any post feels particularly hard to distinguish, so heres your warning; this blog contains unreality since these blogs r for acting as if pokemon are real!
⛔ of course as always bigots, terfs, prosh/ppers, etc DNI ⛔
anyways have fun!
#pkmn irl#pokemon irl#rotumblr#pokemon rp#pkmn rp#oc rp#about post#info post#unreality#ooc#idk how to tag these.#real pokemon#pokeblogging
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Entry 1.0.0-2 - Caving
Welcome to my blog. I’m not tagging anything but entry #, so sorry if my unrelated mess somehow ends up in your search.
I think I'm unflagged now?? I think??? We'll see. Who knew minecraft could be so controversial to the flagging algorithm, i prommy im not a pornbot staff ;-;
i've been mining in the area and because i'm a a little bitch i've been turning peaceful on and off to keep myself sane
I got extremely lucky and it turns out the mountain behind my house has a cave that is so large that it leads through an abandoned mine shaft and several lava pools. Finally got my first diamonds (i was too slow to catch the achievement :o) )
not a bad haul if I do say so myself, but I'm a bit bitter at how much more experience I should have from coal, redstone, and lapiz. can't say i can complain too much though, i'll probably be hoarding iron ore blocks for the eventual day i can hit them with fortune to get the raw iron.
>:O please be skeletons please be skeletons
ugh. i guess that's fine. wouldve preferred to have the bones, but when more crops are added to the game this'll be a nice farming method (i hope zombies can immediately drop them--)
There wasn't even a chest in here 😭 i feel robbed
AND a ravine nearby damn this cave has everything
I kinda miss bedrock fog tbh. it gave everything a much spookier feel in the caves, and i've gotten startled a couple of times seeing the shadows of zombies within the fog down here.
Alright my inventory is packed to the brim, I need to finish mining for now. Thankfully I emerged from a cave on the other side of this small mountain, I wasn't prepared to try to trek home dodging monsters
I'll let this be the end of this play session, next time I'll see how I fare in ye olde nether. As soon as I can find the stronghold I'll probably build a rail line to it to knock out that achievement.
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CATEGORY FIVE VILLAIN MOMENT ! ! !
hello!! i am villain from @lunarticking and @sootburz 's system
i use he/him, it/its, rot/rots, boom/booms, vamp/vamps, meow/meows and im unsure about she prns rn but u can use them as a test!! you can use they also i guess idm !! i am still looking for neos also :D
i'm genderqueer , aroace, and bisexual/omnisexual AS WELL as polyamorous.. :)) but i dont like labels that much !! You Cannot Label Me In A Way That Matters
i am sourced from.. pogtopia era c!wilbur !! yayyy !!! i uh i use vilbur because i identify with the term but i am aware that usage for the character is problematic. im using it for ME though !! i am reclaiming...
i'm a persecutor (i prommy i wont be mean to you i stay away from social media when im in a bad mood and YOU SHOULD TOO !!!) and frequent fronter as for right now :) my emoji is 🧨 if u care abt that...
i'm 25-27 agewise i think though the BODY is 17!!
aabout me uhmm i sometimes have black wings!! and have cat ears and a tail other times... i am silly !!
i DON'T MIND if you flirt with me /r or /srs !! just make sure you clarify if you want something more because i'm neurodivergent and don't really understand those things...
i like when sourcemates interact!! IN fact i would love if any interacted... except for c!phil maybe. idk. everyone else is fine ^o^ i might bully you tho !!
SPECIFIC sourcemates i am LLOOKING to interact!! : c!quackity /p or /r, c!schlatt /p or /r, any other form of c!wilbur /p or /r , sally /p or /r, and TOMMY!!! /fam
ii have an interests in CATS !! i like red and black as colors and i think bombs are cool (wahoo!!), i lke heathers (musical and movie), and i like MINECRAFT !! i LOVEEEE los campesinos and i will post abt the and any other musics i like. sorrey
i dont really have boundaries or a dni just dont be weird and dont be a dick !! i will just block u if i dont like you or tell you to FUCK OFF !! lol
bblinkies under the cut ! ! avatar credit is here
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its weird to me that ppl will say you shouldnt have kids for the stupidest reasons 8ut when YOU'RE the one saying you dont want kids they pull out even more stupid-ass reasons why you HAVE to have kids like this random person's life depends on it
#clove rambles#'ohhhh kids n33d a mother AND a father so y-- w8 you dont want kids anyway? 8-8-8ut what a8out your /8loodline/!!!!'#so gross lol#anyway i was thinking a8t thos 8ilateral salpingectomies again most of the night#cause i remem8er when i learned they existed i cooooooould not stop thinking a8t them the idea i Could have kids 8iologically made me f33l#like; dysphoria is the closest word i can descri8e it with; 8ut not at all gender dysphoria; like 'this is someone elses 8ody' dysphoria#8a8y dysphoria? .....reproduction dysphoria??????????? 8largh#8ut anyway the past few months ive kinda just forgotten a8t it 8ut i still want to get it when i can#and i realized im kinda unconsciously having a f33ling of like.... 'ok so you dont wanna have kids thats fine;#8ut why go so far why make it permanant cant you just leave it as is and not have kids and 8e neutral a8t it?!?!'#and i f33l like thats a f33ling im gonna wrassle(??) with for a good while 8ut just.... god#'ik you dont want kids 8ut why dont you just leave your 8ody as is' f33ls like its missing the point for me#i dont want kids! 8ottom line! getting my tu8es removed would 8e part of that affirming and going through with Not Having Kids#and also i just like it i like knowing theres not even a slight possi8ility 8a8ies can happen (which is why i dont want other forms-#-of 8irth control) i like 8eing a8le to exist in my 8ody w/o worrying a8t stuff i like it 8eing My 8ody and not smth cr33ps will f33l-#-the right to Comment8 on (warding off/shutting down losers making uncomforta8le invasive comments a8t smth as 8ig as having kids-#-is a small part of it i prommy 8ut GOD.) I LIKE THE COOL SCARS i wanna get em im tempted to ask my future doctor to make em More visi8le#cause my 8ody's made of anti-scar cream and i just like it 8eing a choice i can make instead of having to settle with ...this#and f33ling trapped and doomed and like its smth i have to live with even if the chances of me having an accident are like. minute#thats not really the issue here i just dont like the fact It Is There hence the earlier dysphoria comment#ANYWAY its ma 8edtime now zzz#personal
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