#(i shouldn't but i probs will anyway)

[scuderiaspringsteen]

circular narratives, passing the gauntlet, and boy kings // inspired by @mnyd 's tags on @drivestraight 's post

[fictionadventurer]

Supposing that a lyric poet of the new school really had to deal with such an idea as that expressed in Pope's line about Man:

"A being darkly wise and rudely great,"

Is it really so certain that he would go deeper into the matter than that old antithetical jingle goes? I venture to doubt whether he would really be any wiser or weirder or more imaginative or more profound. The one thing that he would really be, would be longer. Instead of writing,

"A being darkly wise and rudely great,"

the contemporary poet, in his elaborately ornamented book of verses, would produce something like the following:

"A creature

Of feature

More dark, more dark, more dark than skies,

Yea, darkly wise, yea, darkly wise:

Darkly wise as a formless fate.

And if he be great,

If he be great, then rudely great,

Rudely great as a plough that plies,

And darkly wise, and darkly wise."

Have we really learnt to think more broadly? Or have we only learnt to spread our thoughts thinner?

-G.K. Chesterton, Varied Types

[loumauve]

work colleague (the one who I'm working on a project with, who was supposed to be showing me the ropes - which she already barely did - who is supposed to be a superior while our boss is on parental leave) told me that I need to join the team leader meeting next week "so things dont escalate again" bc apparently her temper got the best of her (she told me this herself btw, which.. jfc)

and I feel SO uncomfortable at even the idea of that thats I've been feeling sick to my stomach over it since Friday. I'm still an intern ffs, I don't get paid to do her job, which is to explain what we're doing and to explain why we're doing it. I didn't decide on making this a whole thing, and I certainly didn't sign up to take her place while she throws me to the wolves (clinic admins who are pissed that change is being introduced to how they've been running things for years)

I know I need to address it, and at least tell my boss, I feel like shit reaching out to him while he's supposed to be on leave, but if I don't push back and give in now when there's also so many other ways she's been dodging her responsibilities then idk.

she barely communicates which is the basis for working with anybody, and even when *I* reach out she barely ever replies and leaves me hanging, unable to progress in certain tasks just bc I *literally* don't know shit yet bc I've been working there for a total of two and a half months max. just.. boss guy would be happy for me to stay on but honestly that lady has as bad a temper and worse social skills than the lady who made my last job hell enough that I was out of commission for almost three years, first on sick leave and then in various rehab/therapy programs just to make it back to being able to work again.. I really don't want to go down this road again

so I guess I do need to write this all down tomorrow in a message to him and hopefully he'll at least acknowledge that this is a shit situation to put me in and have a talk with her. but idk tbh. not sure what to do if he asks me to still join that group meeting on Friday, also terrified of her reaction if he does bring it up with her, ngl

last time she got "upset" she didn't talk to me for a whole day, didn't reply to my message before I left for 5 weeks and then still didn't leave a single message to explain where to continue in our project before being gone herself for another 2 and a half weeks.. that kind of childish pettiness idk. really don't want to have to keep dealing with her

lazy colleagues idk sure it's frustrating cleaning up after them, but this kind of behaviour is as close to intolerable as things get before I need to get myself the fuck away for good

[icantalk710]

...So I guess he and I are just on IG story-viewing terms now...? 😕🤷🏽‍♂️

I get his being busy and I can/have tried to work with his not being a huge texter (being busy myself with work and fan projects) but I thought my mentioning that I wanted us to talk a *bit* more so I knew we were okay and even suggesting we Snap a little (since i remember he mentioned having one and it had been about two months since we hooked up/figured we'd both have liked the reminder since we didn't get to after our dinner in late August) would get some reply. We were supposed to hang on Labor Day (and kissed on it after said dinner), but it still gets me that he didn't tell me something came up, even when I checked in the day of (was fine, since I gave myself a 'noon in the park anyway), and more minor, it still kinda gets me that he didn't tell me how he thought dinner went or how it went with the rain leaks he had to run and tend to (because of his building super being shit). I'd sent him a doggo video on IG a couple weeks back to help him through a busy work weekend (he had liked the one i sent him a week or two before) and had sent a "😍" in reply to a selfie story before that, and both are still unread, yet he's still been viewing my IG story throughout all this--which sure, could be all he has energy for, but at some point I'd figured he would think of checking what I sent him? (His text before I said I wanted us to talk a bit more, after my first asking if we were okay, was a bit short as he apologized for disappearing and said things were hectic/he wasn't sure when would be a good time)

(Also hasn't helped that I've seen him active on the hookup site he connected with me on and had gotten a "testimonial" from a guy he met with during this--but we've only hung out twice so I didn't make much of it, yet he has still been online there and like... if we were still okay, it's like "hey I'm right here..." lol (literally--we're 10 streets apart). I also know he was being mostly truthful with how busy/hectic things were after our dinner chat, but...)

Then I sent a "how was your week" text two weekends ago which got no reply--so I decided to send a last text earlier this week hoping things had blown over some and that I missed him/it would still be nice to see him if he still wanted to hang and "no worries if not" and nothing yet, just more IG story views...

Ball is in his court, probably shouldn't still be thinking of him given all this, probably should've talked expectations some at dinner, don't know if the story views are meant to convey that he's still thinking of me in some way, but... it's confusing me why he would just view my stories for weeks and not actually communicate if he's still into things or not.

(Also doesn't help that currently I'm having some family trouble with my grandma's health getting worse in the hospital [I'm doing okay overall], and he'd be nice to talk to about it since he'd lost his a while back, but he won't just check in with me like I've tried with him--oh well)

[thek1ngtalks]

i have to rewrite the entirety of chapter 3 of MtNo cuz i was rereading the tower of wish chapters and found a forgotten plot device and it threw my whole chapter outline off because I HAVE to use it. but now we have jin sahyuk and more introspection than intended so that's good, right?

[daddysropepuppy]

Are you going to show off the new thigh tattoo?

i wanna let it heal a lil more first bc it's still feel a lil rough rn :(

[rebeccadumaurier]

looking at my finances & it's a little concerning how little i've saved...at least i'm not at a net loss, but i really should have saved more after a year of full-time work. on the bright side, we now have an office so i can actually have a (co)working space for free — staying inside was driving me insane lmao

[lovinglin]

Hey, just as a small reminder: I'm uncomfortable sharing P1co.

This also includes those who ship their own oc with him romantically/queerplatonically. I have nothing against oc x canon, but I prefer if you kept some distance from me if you do ship with him/ship your oc with him.

Thank you!

[plinkcat-gif]

the emotional highs and lows with nothing in between except apathy that i've been going through for 4 months are getting to me

[didderd]

Just to be sure, if something is drawn of your characters, do you want to be tagged in the post? /Genq

yes plz! it's the best way for me to be able to see it! :3

[venusiangguk]

I missed you! Are going to the Agust D tour at all?

i missed You!!

i'm going to try 😭 but i just dropped like... So much on txt, i fear that my wallet is a bit thin and yoongi is not going anywhere close to me :(

[skajador]

In shambles bc I am once again thinking about the Character Development Narrative I came up with for Michinaga

[lurkiestvoid]

yeahhhhh pretty much, except the only thing is it's less individual investors and more Hedge Funds.

Hedge funds use algorithms to maximize profits by any means necessary, up to and including certain tactics that will deliberately tank a stock. If it's not performing well or if they just don't want it to, they can bet against it and whip out a variety of bullshit of varying legality to push the share price down, which causes other HFs to sell to stay ahead of the market, which leads portfolio managers and accountants and regular folks to sell, and then when the selloffs are done the original HFs make fucking bank off strangling the stock. (This also works in reverse: betting a stock will rise, baiting others to buy in, profit, then bet against it again)

So a "strong" company is one with lots of gains and very few/short losses (harder to break/less room to manipulate, generally Big Name stocks like Disney/Apple/etc) whereas a "weak" company with more losses than gains or lots of volatility is a prime target for the piranhas. The people running companies are terrified of stagnation, let alone losses, because it can very, very easily be taken advantage of and even outright kill the company in just a few weeks or months. Perpetual growth is virtually required to survive the market as it is today.

Individual, casual/hobbyist investors with at most a couple dozen shares in a handful of companies don't have the numbers/margins to seriously affect a stock price. Even hobbyist/semipro "traders" who obsess/hoard and attempt to imitate The Big Guys are comparitively few in number and just don't have the weight to affect much more than their own account balance. But hedge funds do have MASSIVE weight in the market, throwing around thousands of shares at a time, several times a day, for dozens of different tickers, in multiple markets and across multiple industries.

And then there are "market makers." These are giant companies whose SOLE purpose is to manipulate the market ensure "market liquidity," or, "a buy for every sell, a sell for every buy." What this means is that if demand is high but there aren't enough shares available to sell, they make more by "borrowing" them, potentially infinitely. If these market makers feel a stock is too "overvalued," they can dump loads of those borrowed shares to saturate the market and drive the price back down. There is extremely little regulation on this, which leads to situations where the same one share can have dozens or hundreds of "owners."

This can happen because regular everyday investors don't actually "own" stock at all. Like, very literally, their "shares" are 1) not real and 2) can be liquidated by their brokers at any time, because, as the go-between third party, their brokers own the shares "on their behalf," and brokers essentially just "deliver" digital IOUs. All Actual Real Shares are held in the DTCC by a company called Cede & Co, and everything else is traded on credit.

If you buy a "share" in a company through a broker, it's not your name on the company shareholder list, it's your broker's. If you're submitting paperwork to your broker for voting for that company's policies at their annual meeting, your broker is pooling aaaaall the votes and "proportionally" voting "on your behalf." And your broker can decide to lend out your shares without telling you (to their own profit) and you may or may not ever get them back -- this is called "failure to delivers" or FTDs and there is a massive backlog of them that just ... never get addressed.

this is hella over-summarized and sloppy but the tl;dr is that supply and demand economics are beyond broken, the entire stock market is more fake than you ever imagined, it's propped up entirely by computer programs trading IOUs-of-IOUs-of-IOUs, and is easily manipulated at the literal whim of bank-and-billionaire proxies.

companies really have got to be okay with stagnant profits. what is wrong with earning the same amount every year? why does it always have to be more? it's not sustainable. there are only so many people on the planet you can profit from 😭

[darling-gemini]

Listening to Taylor's discography on shuffle (with all the vault tracks) is genuinely so humbling.

[aeide-thea]

me, full of ongoing scrupulosity abt microplastics and also a vague sense that it would be good for me to take another crack at incorporating running into my life for 'holy shit i desperately need endorphins' reasons, scouring the shorts market for anything natural-fiber but also functionally/aesthetically fit for purpose and coming up almost* entirely blank: what if i bought another one of the merino-tencel tanks whose fabric i'm in love with (or‚ you know‚ sourced similar fabric somewhere that wasn't already a different garment‚ but like‚ that would involve learning things about 'where to get specialty fabric' in addition to the 'how to sew it' part) and turned it into running shorts? surely it couldn't be that hard??

⸻ * in fairness, icebreaker does make some that tbh are probably ideal except for cost but like. do i want to go running in basketball shorts? not really. and the tiny (women's) version only comes in black which is so dreary. i keep hoping they'll come out with some other colors but so far no dice! also an extremely crunchy-granola company makes some weird little gym shorts in a hemp knit which. i'm sorry, i grew up in manhattan and i'm dubious! they might be great but! 🧐

[femmefae2005]

all day since i woke up this morning: wow i can't WAIT to go home and sleep

the past hour since i got in bed: I'm The Wake. nobody's even ever Been this waked up.