#(i say they have a talk but really it's just nhs crying)

[wangxianficfinder]

In the mood for...

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1. Hi. Thank you for the last itmf, the recommendations made me cry. Again thanks to the hard work of the mods.

Right now for itmf I'm looking for fanfics where Wei Wuxian says "fuck it" to the cultivation world and everyone think "Good riddance" just to end up regretting. Extra points if LWJ goes with him or call out everyone. Similar to "The Line Between Good and Evil" by Dandelion_sama ( Really good fic) @anime-trash-parody

you've heard that melody before by Stratisphyre (M, 65k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Hurt/Comfort, Memory Loss, POV Multiple, Multiple Canon Character Deaths, Depictions of depression, Light Dom/sub, Somebody Lives/Not Everyone Dies, Twin Prides of Yúnmèng Dynamics) maybe? people don't say "good riddance" b/c he cast some sort of blanket amnesia spell, but they SURE DO REGRET IT

wide enough and wild by impossibletruths (E, 64k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Getting Together, Canonical Accidental Baby Acquisition, Families of Choice, References to Depression, Happy Ending, I Swear To God I’m Giving Them A Happy Ending, Overzealous Use Of Imagery, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Well Except WN But He Was Already Dead So, Fix-It of Sorts) he does go back

The Line Between Good and Evil by Dandelion_sama (G, 34k, wangxian, Canon Divergence, What-If, Rebirth, Time Travel, kind of Mass Reborn, reverse uno, Canon-Typical Violence, WIP)

The Best I Can by Zephyr (ZephyrAndTheSilverfish) (T, 26k, LJY & WWX, wangxian, WWX talking to his donkey, Canon Divergence, Light Angst, Drama, Recovery, Coming of Age, Secret Identity Fail, Friendship, Rogue Cultivator LWJ, Road Trips, POV Multiple, Happy Ending)

focal, filler, and line by bosbie (T, 26k, wangxian, canon divergence, flower shop au, fluff, hurt/comfort, pining, falling in love, WWX is not recognized in Dafan mountain, slice of life, WIP)

🔒 My Reason To Live by HeloSoph (Not rated, 3k, LSZ & WWX, Post-First Siege of the Burial Mound, Child LSZ, He's actually a Wei..., Suicidal Thoughts, Not Cultivation world friendly, Not JC friendly, not NMJ friendly, not LQR friendly, not JGS friendly, YLLZ WWX, WWX Deserves Better, And this time... he knows this..., A-Yuan is the best boy, Parent-Child Relationship, Parent WWX, BAMF WWX, wwx and a-yuan leave the BM..., WWX Leaves The Cultivation World, and they set on a journey to find a new home...)

And They Have Escaped The Weight of Darkness by cosmicmilktea (T, 10k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Amnesia, Memory Loss, Grief/Mourning, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Screw the Cultivation world tbh, The Lan precepts deserves better, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Falling In Love, domestic life, Social justice boyfriends wangxian, Happy Ending)

Home isn’t Where the Heart is. by Hauntcats (Not Rated, 7k, WangXian)

Lay my body down by tawaen (M, 48k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Rogue Cultivator WWX, Eventual WangXian, No Golden Core Transfer, Not Cultivation World Friendly, Canon-Typical Violence, Not Jiāng Chéng Friendly)

( 🔒 but I'm not in charge of sorrow (so please don't ask me when) by Tavina (M, 75k, NHS & NMJ, NHS & OCs, LXC & NHS, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Passive Suicidal Ideation, Found Family, Unconventional Families, Families of Choice, Post-Canon, Post-Guānyīn Temple Scene, What’s a Reconciliation Anyway?, Internalized Acephobia, Depression, Mental Health Issues, An Absolute Boatload of Nie OCs, Background characters and relationships, Intergenerational Trauma, the Horrific Persistence of Memory, NHNS Needs a Hug, NMJ is dead even when he's alive, JGY is also dead but like you get the impression he used to be alive, Sometimes 'just walk out' IS the answer, Non-Chronological, lots of people are dead in this fic and this fic is about why it's not okay) If you’d like another character doing the same thing, ie fucking off and leaving the cultivator world )

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2. Helloooo, can I have for the next ITMF some fics with something like ghost WWX? I know there's a tag but I've seen some fics where the authors don't tag them with that, and some where he's not actually a ghost (more like a memory or apparition?) that shows up randomly in the cultivation world. Both work for me (just no JC bashing please!). Thank you! @jiangclaritybell

🧡 Ghosts Shouldn’t by ShanaStoryteller (Not Rated, 15k, WangXian, Grief/Mourning, Canon Divergence, Angst with a Happy Ending)

asymptotic by chinxe (T, 26k, wangxian, Canon Divergence, Angst with a Happy Ending, Slow Burn, Misunderstandings, Pining, for 20+ years as per the course with lwj)

🔒 The Time Traveler's Soul by mondengel (Not rated, 2k, wangxian, time travel, podfic by flamingwell)

🔒 scatter and sunder by silversshadow (T, 15k, XuanLi, WangXian, Temporary Character Death, Canon Divergence)

Teatime with the Dead by Winxhelina (T, 6k, wangxian, Ghost WWX, Love Confessions, Kisses, Happy Ending, Fluff and Angst,bGhost City)

one good thing by Yuu_chi (T, 26k, WangXian, Modern AU, Ghost WWX, Angst and Humor, Angst with a Happy Ending, I swear there really is a happy ending, And an alarming amount of rabbits, [Podfic] One Good Thing by jellyfishfire)

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3.

Are there any fics which feel like this?

Or where wwx feels like this?

Thankyou very much

Also all these arts are by Ibuki Satsuki @constellationdks

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4. Hi! I’m looking for fics where wwx cries in the middle of the night and lwj comforts him and vise versa maybe they woke the other up bc they were sobbing. Wangxian hugs and having emotional intimacy each other. Thank you!

hunters seeking solid ground by Attila (E, 23k, WangXian, Canon Compliant, discussion of canon character death, Hurt/Comfort, Nightmares, bed sharing, Getting Together, Yearning, Literal Sleeping Together, Really Excessive Amounts of Hurt/Comfort) here's a GREAT fic that's all about that

hold me close by gentil-minou (Flyingsuits) (E, 13k, WangXian, Post-Canon, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Established Relationship, Porn with Feelings, Emotional Sex, Grief, Mental Health Issues, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, Character Study, Masturbation, Oral Sex, Anal Sex) If I may plug my own fic, there's a scene where lwj wakes from a nightmare and cries and wwx comforts him

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5. inmf lwj whump. the heavier, the better. happy ending appreciated, but not necessary. Physical whump is nice, but ain't picky. Thank you for the hard work! @jawla-mukhi

Stained With Blood and Tears by FaramirsBlessing (G, 63k, wangxian, LXC/JC, Hurt/Comfort, Heavy Angst w Happy Ending, Hurt LWJ, Doctors & Physicians, Chinese medicine, Medical Procedures, Major Character Injury, Injury Recovery, Pet Names, People cry, Bedside Vigils, nobody dies tho, Sad WWX, Night Hunts, Post-Canon, JC is a good brother, Poisoning, Forehead Kisses, Hair Braiding, Hair Brushing, WWX loves his husband's hair okay, Cuddling & Snuggling, Delirium, mix of novel and series, so much hand holding, Chaste Kisses, resentful energy, the juniors ship all the adults, they are the humor in this tbh, PTSD, Перевод на русский | Translation in Russian)

New Perspective Series by mrcformoso (T, 35k, WangXian, Angst, Hopeful Ending, Fatherhood, Regrets, Flashbacks, POV LWJ, LWJ-centric, Canonical Character Death - WWX, Pining LWJ, LWJ Has Feelings Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī Needs a Hug, Character Development, Dead WWX, Introspection, LWJ is Bad at Feelings, Character Study, Regretful, LWJ Breaking Toxic Cycles, Canon Compliant, LWJ in Seclusion, Post-LWJ in Seclusion, Child LSZ)

a buried and burning flame by otherhippo (hippopotamus) (T, 17k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Canon-Typical Violence, Canonical Character Death, Implied/Referenced Torture, Kinda dark?, Angst with a Happy Ending, does it count as bedsharing if theres...no bed, Imprisonment, Hurt/Comfort)

Across the street to another life by danegen (M, 99k, WangXian, Modern AU, unleashed au, Family Fluff, Set in America, Hurt/Comfort, Past Child Abuse, Addiction, Crime, Amnesia, Ableist Language, another fridged mother, POV Alternating, past wwx/ofc, past wwx/omc, Medium parent YZY, A-Yuan is wwx's biological son, Musicians, Happy Ending)

🔒the map of days by everythingispoetry (M, 20k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Permanent Injury, Recovery, Disability, Parenthood, Character Study, Thirteen Years of WWX's Death)

Alter by Solmae (E, 162k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Drama & Romance, Slow Burn, Canon-Typical Violence, Rape/Non-con Elements, Gang Rape, Forced Prostitution, PTSD, Top/Bottom Versatile | Switch WangXian, Explicit Sexual Content, Sexual Slavery, Angst with a Happy Ending, Implied/Referenced Torture) LWJ is kept as a sex slave by the Wen sect

hold me close by gentil-minou (Flyingsuits) (E, 13k, WangXian, Post-Canon, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Established Relationship, Porn with Feelings, Emotional Sex, Grief, Mental Health Issues, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, Character Study, Masturbation, Oral Sex, Anal Sex) LWJ struggles with WWX's death, even after WWX's return

Lan Yuan's War by BurningTea (G, 196k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Angst, Sick LWJ, Hurt/comfort, Eventual Happy Ending)

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6. itmf fic where wwx cheats on lwj

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7. itmf fics about granny wen! any fics about granny wen being a bamf, or being the (grand)parental all of our favs desperately need. looking for feel good fics. some angst is okay, but a happy ending is a must. ty all!

Lay my body down by tawaen (M, 48k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Rogue Cultivator WWX, Eventual WangXian, No Golden Core Transfer, Not Cultivation World Friendly, Canon-Typical Violence, Not Jiāng Chéng Friendly) Not sure if this counts as it's not really about Granny Wen, but she does become sect leader of the Wen Remnants in this & mingles with other sect leaders at a discussion conference

Granny Knows Best by The_Snarkivist (T, 5k, OYZZ/WN, JL/LSZ, Getting Together, Fluff, Accidental Elderly Acquisition, More OYZZ content in 2022 agenda, WN Centric, Let WN Be Happy Agenda, Happy Ending, fast burn, Granny does know best, POV WN, Post-Canon)

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8. hii how are you? I'm in the mood for a fic where either wwx or lwj go incoherent (sexually maybe) and the other takes care of them.

thank u sm for ur work and time!! @mercurygirlwt28

To Know, To Be Known Series by cqlorphan (E, 38k, WangXian, PWP, Bottom LWJ, Top WWX, Cock Warming, Multiple Orgasms, Marathon Sex, Under-negotiated Kink, Porn with Feelings, Aftercare, Dom/sub Undertones, Established Relationship, sex tears, gratuitous use of names, Begging, this is actually...really soft, Kink Discovery, Post-Canon, Switch WangXian, Cock rings, Rimming, Edging) Lwj definitely goes incoherent a few times!

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9. Please recommend some wangxian mafia au/ dark wangji modern au fics . Moreover Mafia wangji is so hott🥵 @itzweiwuxian

🔒🧡 Rule Number One: Never get attached. by KizuKatana (E, 130k, WangXian, Modern AU, A/B/O, Criminal underworld AU, Fluff and angst, Crime boss LWJ, Rouge criminal genius WWX, Explicit Sex)

to give a snapdragon by suton (T, 1k, WangXian, Modern AU, Mob, Dark LWJ, Minor ZhuiYi, Ambiguous/Open Ending) Short but sweet!

luminous by azuresummer (E, 50k, WIP, WangXian, Dom/sub, Dom/sub Undertones, Dominant LWJ, Submissive WWX, Modern AU, Merpeople, A/B/O Dynamics, Dark LXC, Dark LWJ, Possessive LWJ, Protective LWJ, Crime Boss LWJ, Omega WWX, Siren WWX, Merperson WWX, Hurt WWX, WWX Whump, Precious WWX, Spoiled WWX, WWX Has a Fear of Dogs, Hurt/Comfort, Panic Attacks, Nesting, Scenting, Power Imbalance, Obsession, Kidnapping, Organized Crime, Mild Gore, Minor Character Death, Excessive Amounts of Tenderness, Pining LWJ, Dark WangXian)

We do have a Mafia / Cop / Detective / Thief comp if you haven't checked it out yet ^^

how to be a heartbreaker by sweetlolixo (E, 105k, WangXian, Modern AU, Sugar Daddy LWJ, Sugar Baby WWX, Dark WWX, Dark LWJ, Pining LWJ, Possessive LWJ, Crossdressing WWX, Seductress WWX, Eventual Happy Ending, Dirty Talking LWJ, They Do Fall In Love and there’s Fluff, Dark!Wangxian, Power Couple, Off the Charts Sexual Tension, Size Kink, Daddy Kink, degradation kink) lwj darker in the 2nd part of this, this one is real good too. 2nd part has ambiguous ending.

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10. Hello! I'd like to make a request for the next fic finder- it's not necessarily itmf, more like "does it exist?" Crossover with tgcf, but focusing on a Guzi and A-Yuan friendship? I've only ever seen 2 artworks (both from the same artist). And I've tried searching, but no luck, does anyone else know if such a story exists? Or is too niche a request? Thank you ❤ @theladypeartree

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11. Hello! I'm in the mood of a fic where Wwx feels hurt/insecure about Lwj not burning paper money to him while he was dead. @annebaneriddle

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12. Hi! For ITMF, could you recommend me a fic where WWX collect children and become their father figure/mentor? I want MXY is one of those children if you can but other is fine too. I prefer if its not modern AU, except if it was modern with cultivation/magic. Thank you! @idontknowwhattowriteforusername

❤️ Seen and not heard by eatmyass (E, 51k, wangxian, case fic, no sunshot, kid fic, dadxian, strangers to lovers, found family, LWJ pov, pining, fake/pretend relationship, first time, falling in love)

Attempting the Impossible by Ariaste (T, 36k, WangXian, JC & WWX, Post-Canon, Yunmeng Bros Reconciliation, Adoption, Family Fluff, Kid fic, Family drama, Fluff, [PODFIC] Attempting the Impossible by Ariaste by lunatique)

🔒and having a marvelous time by varnes (E, 108k, WangXian, Yúnmèng Siblings, Sound of Music AU, (i know!!! i know. stay with me on this.), Slow Burn, Mutual Pining, Family Feels, spies to lovers???, Protective Siblings, Sometimes You Just Want Your Dads To Admit They're Your Dads, Angst with a Happy Ending)

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13. I'm looking for niche au fics! The more obscure the better: I've previously encountered figure skating, amish, cave diving, and surgeon aus. No WIPS please :) @mostergreentea

Into the Depths by elytchaeke (T, 47k, WangXian, Modern AU, Cave Diving, Slow Burn, not that slow, Speluncaphobia, Claustrophobia, Descriptions of Corpses, Drowning, Minor Character Death, Minor Violence, Sharing Body Heat, The Inherent Eroticism of Wordless Communication, Corpse Handling) cave diving fic that op is talking about

The Amish AU by bufflehead, goofs_n_gaffs (T, 13k, WangXian, XuanLi, Modern AU, but they're amish, Crack, Not taken seriously, Slurpee Acquisition, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, Cloud Recesses Shenanigan, rated h for hector, pitchforks, References to Shakespeare, Cultural Appropriation, of the amish, Fishing, Buggies, Violence Against Chickens, Bad Cooking, Goose Metaphors, First Kiss, Party Host JW) amish fic that op is talking about

Always Be Closing by betts (E, 32k, WangXian, QingXian, Modern AU, America, Office, Kid Fic, Drunken Kissing, Semi-Public Sex, Sexting, Divorce, Falling In Love, Bank Robbery, Secret Relationship, Co-workers) commercial lending au

🧡 Faire thee well by Scrippio (T, 77k, WangXian , ChengQing, XuanLi, 3Zun, Modern AU, Renaissance Faire, Mutual Pining, Fluff, Domestic Fluff, Slow Burn)

[Podcast] New Year, New Pod! jellyfishfire, kisahawklin (G, 2.5-3 hrs, Modern AU, Streaming, MP3, Cold Read, Trailers, Recommendations) @kisahawklin and @jellyfishfire did a great podcast recommending various fic and podfic where MDZS cast have unusual (for them) occupations. I bet a bunch of these would scratch your itch!

there is no limited dimensions by Stratisphyre (M, 122k, WangXian, NieLan, MianQing, WN/Other(s), Star Trek Fusion, Canon-Typical Violence, Slow Burn, Friends to Lovers, Assumed Character Death, Minor Character Death Tags on Each Chapter, references to non-con, references to canonical slavery, (The Orion Syndicate is just really bad okay?), bizarre space mpreg, Implied Future Pairings, Implied NHS/Others, POV Multiple, Accidental Child Acquisition, Found Family, Implied Future 3zun, Genius WWX) Star Trek AU (you don't need any familiarity with star trek to read)

Waiting for Spring Series by thievinghippo (E, 225k, WangXian, Modern AU, Sports, Baseball, Switch WangXian, mentions of past emotional abuse, slight angst, Happy Ending, Pining, Masturbation)

Creatures of Emotion by thievinghippo (E, 33k, WangXian, Modern AU, Rimming, Phone Sex, Blow Jobs, Office Sex)

light a lantern (and guide me home) by xuanxuanwo (ostentatiouslyrealistic) (T, 63k, WangXian, Moth WWX, Witch LWJ, Tea, Plants, Mountains, Loneliness, Curses, Curse Breaking, Melancholy, Friendship, Romance, Angst with a Happy Ending, Thunderstorms, Fluff and Angst, Minor Character Death, Memories) mothxian/witchji!

Wei Wuxian Makes a Wish series by natcat5 (M, 119k, wangxian, major character death, underage, madoka magica au, modern w/ magic, time travel, high school au, body horror, self-harm, angst w/ bittersweet ending, time loop, mental instability, suicidal thoughts) incredible madoka magical au

🧡🔒 Night of the Living History (an edutainment special!) by Aerlalaith (T, 51k, WangXian, Modern with Magic, Workplace Relationship, Fluff and Humor, Museums, living history, Some Plot, Slice of Life, Injury, a minor haunting) living cultivation history museum au

🧡 A Knight in Shining Armor by thievinghippo (G, 6k, WangXian, Modern AU, Single Parent WWX, Fluff, Meet-Cute)

Falling to the Rhythm by Selenay (E, 128k, WangXian, Modern: No Powers, Dance, Strictly Come Dancing Fusion, Ballroom Dancing, Dancer!WWX, Violinist LWJ, Pining While Dancing, Oblivious WWX, Gratuitous Costume Descriptions, Gratuitous dancing descriptions, Slow Burn, [Podfic] Falling to the Rhythm by semperfiona_podfic (semperfiona))

Covered in Bees by ScarlettStorm (T, 8k, WangXian,Modern AU, Beekeeping AU, Meet-Cute, Comedy, Fluff, Bees)

🔒some things go forward by everythingispoetry (T, 73k, WangXian, Modern AU, Hospitals, Teenage Drama, Slow Burn, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Happy Ending)

Wei Wuxian’s Home for Lost Creatures by Stratisphyre (G, 22k, WangXian, Modern with Magic, Fusion, Fluff, Single Dad LWJ, Near Drowning, injured animals, First Meetings, Falling In Love)

as if you were a mythical thing by daltoneering (M, 17k, WangXian, Historical, Science Fiction, Magical Realism, Steampunk, Getting Together, Fluff and Angst, Light Angst, WWX Master of Clocks)

🧡 Yiling Salon: Hair, Nails and Piercing by TriviasFolly (T, 22k, WangXian, Modern AU, hairstylist AU, WWX owns a salon, Hairstylist WWX, 5+1 Things, Fluff, Experimental Style)

C’est toi pour moi by eatmyass (T, 49k, WangXian, Jab We Met AU, Modern AU, Strangers to Lovers, travelling, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Sharing a Bed, Fluff, Slow Burn, Pining, POV LWJ, Endgame WangXian, All Is Not As It Seems, No cheating whatsoever!, Paris: the city of hate)

🧡 don’t threaten me with a good time by livinginaworldofnoise (G, 60k, WangXian, Modern AU, Great British bake off AU, Script format, Fluff and Crack, Reality TV, Social media)

Welcome to the Great Gusu Bake Off! series by BlackWiresOnHerHead (G, 59k, Modern, College/University AU, The Great British Bake Off AU, Humor)

💖 Pentimento. by orange_crushed (E, 73k, wangxian, modern, college/university au, art conservation, museums, pining, not actually unrequited love, angst w/ happy ending, misunderstandings, smut, major character injury, hospitalization, hurt/comfort, past incarceration, forgery)

always on my mind series by sami (E, 41k, wangxian, LWJ/Others, LWJ & JYL, Modern, references to past LWJ/others, references to past WWX/WQ, Family, Sexual Tension set in the early 90s, Grief, Erratic Gay Superstar Musician LWJ, life is what happens in the in between, Fluff, Children, Pregnancy, not mpreg, Parenthood, Music Videos, LWJ's Gremlin Tendencies, WWX's Gremlin Tendencies, Drag, Daytime Television, Bitches Get Things Done, fictional daytime talk shows, Q&A, Slice of Life, Awards shows, any resemblance between OCs and real people living or dead are coincidental I swear, Communication, and how LWJ is bad at it, LWJ's weirdly wholesome kink inclinations, LWJ's aggressively artistic musical career, References to Major Character Death, Celebrity stuff, Superstar musican LWJ)

🧡 I Don't Want to Debut! by countingcr0ws (G, 56k, wangxian, Modern, Reality Show, Idols, Celebrity, Social Media, Epistolary, Romance, Fluff, Footnotes, Kissing, Poetry, Podfic Available)

You're Home, I'm Home by Pip (Moirail) (E, 8k, WangXian, Modern AU, Ice Skating, Olympics, Falling In Love, Anal Sex, Rimming, Unsafe Sex, Creampie, Ice skater LWJ, Hockey player WWX)

down by the water by astrolesbian (E, 60k, WangXian, Slow Burn, Modern AU, Friends to Lovers, Surfer LWJ, Surfer WWX, Loneliness, complicated family relationships, mention of drowning, but no actual drowning is described, fluff and smut and angst, Reconciliation)

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14. itmf fics set during the cloud recesses study arc, with wwx and lwj exploring their sexualities with each other... basically having sex which is underage, but wholeheartedly consensual and wholesome. just the vibes being them excited cause they really like each other but its their first times, so they want to be careful. bottom!lwj preferred, or with neither topping or bottoming.

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15. itmf lwj being held hostage or used as blackmail

Alter by Solmae (E, 162k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Drama & Romance, Slow Burn, Canon-Typical Violence, Rape/Non-con Elements, Gang Rape, Forced Prostitution, PTSD, Top/Bottom Versatile | Switch WangXian, Explicit Sexual Content, Sexual Slavery, Angst with a Happy Ending, Implied/Referenced Torture) (link in #5) Alter works for this request as well since LWJ is being held prisoner to ensure LXC's good behaviour

the field meets the wood by astronicht (T, 7k, WangXian, BAMF WWX, slight whump, Ritualistic Self Harm, Canon Era, Tang Dynasty style, Blood Loss, Blood and Injury, salt economics, Post-Canon, [Podfic] the field meets the wood by semperfiona_podfic (semperfiona), [podfic] the field meets the wood by jellyfishfire)

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16. Hey, here after a long time. Hope you guys are doing well.

ITMF everyone simping over Wei WuXian. Something like Touch That Body, (It's Not Mine) @tinyfoxpeach

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17. heyy there thanks for your hard work! do you have any fic recs on wangixan post canon married life that's basically fluff? or any fics that wwx is injured or sick and lwj gets worried, protective and looks after him? thanks in advance! :) @aquiver-heart

small mercies by mellowflicker (E, 11k, WangXian, Post-Canon Fix-It, as in wwx doesn't walk away but stays to take care of his zhanzhan, Chief Cultivator LWJ, Getting Together, Domestic Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Switching)

the lives of birds by bleuett (E, 15k, WangXian, Post-Canon, Domestic Fluff, Gardens & Gardening, Fluff and Humor, Family Feels, Established Relationship, Anal Sex, Rimming, Blow Jobs)

As You Like It by cosmicmilktea (T, 8k, WangXian, Chief Cultivator LWJ, Food as a Metaphor for Love, Tea, Finding out preferences, Childhood Memories, Yunmeng trio feels, child rearing, Post-Canon, Very Very Light Angst, Fluff) Such lovely married wangxian. Wwx researching and helping lwj learn what is to his taste (literally, as in tea and food)

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would you ever write a modern/no-powers au for dreamling/sandman?

"Look, Mee," Hob says, for the fourth or fifth time that conversation. "I'm sure your brother is, uh, great, but I'm not sure -- "

"Come on," his best friend says, also for the fourth or fifth time that conversation. "Honestly, you'd be doing me a massive favor. I can barely get him out of the house most days, so I figured that at least the two of you could faff off and be really pathetic together?"

"Thanks." Hob switches the phone to his other ear and glares suspiciously out at the garden; when you've got two small children and it's quiet, you figure something's gone terribly amiss. Robyn and Alison haven't burnt the place down or gotten run over in traffic, but they're playing with something small, muddy and possibly still alive, and Hob debates whether he has to sprint out and save them from certain death. "You're a great friend, truly."

"I know," Morticia says airily. That does, bewilderingly, seem to be her actual name (were her parents massive Addams Family fans or something?) but with Hob and the rest of her friends, she generally goes by Mors, or Mee for short. He looked it up once. Ancient Roman god(dess) of death, which made him laugh, at least when it didn't kick him in the teeth. "You can thank me later."

"And I want to spend time with your brother... why?"

"Because." Oh God, here it comes. He can hear her trying not to say it, the same way everyone's tried not to say it in the going-on-eighteen months since his wife went into an ordinary central-London NHS hospital to give birth to their second child and didn't come back out. "You know it would be good for you, Robbie."

"Right." Hob's voice turns wry. "Can't have me wallowing alone in my misery? You know I've got the kids to look after, and they're talking about extending my contract at Birkbeck. I'm keeping busy."

Keeping busy. It always sounds stupid, even if it's the truth. Like you can chase overwhelming, soul-crushing grief away just by getting out of bed and making breakfast for the kids, holding Robyn's hand as you trundle off on the school run and tell him to have a good day, the thousand and one ways you think you're massively arsing this up and Ellie would have been so much better. Every time the doorbell rings or someone comes up the walk, he thinks -- for a stupid moment he thinks -- and then of course it isn't. You think about women dying in childbirth like it's something out of medieval times, or some third-world country. Not in England in the twenty-first century. Not in London. Not as if your daughter is beautiful and bright and alive, and every time you look at her, you remember that her mother isn't, and the happiness you feel is poisoned by grief again, cold and blue and endless as the ocean. You laugh with the kids at some Disney cartoon one moment, and the next, you're crying alone in the kitchen, in bed, in the silent darkness. And no matter how much you ask, she doesn't answer. You think she does, sometimes. You're just fooling yourself.

You know, Hob thinks. Maybe it would be good for him. At least it would let him spend time with (if Mee's account is anything to go by) the one man in all of London more pathetic than him. It doesn't have to be anything more than that. Even if she is trying to set him up, she wouldn't admit it. She isn't, surely? Trying to match her brother off with her best friend, widowed-single-dad-part-time-lecturer who's clinging onto sanity by the bare edge of his fingernails? Right? Fuck. Should never have told her that he's bi. Doubled her meddling possibilities at a stroke. And yet. He's so lonely, he almost doesn't care.

"Fine," Hob says resignedly. "I'll see if I can get a sitter for the kids. And it better not be that grotty brewery in Shepherd's Bush you dragged me to last time."

"No." Mee sounds like she's laughing at him. She probably is laughing at him, or else she thinks he's become such a pathologically undatable freak that his only chance for happiness ever again is with her equally pathetic little brother. "Nice new Asian-fusion place. Hammersmith. Fifteen minutes from you on the Tube. Don't chicken out, Robert."

And with that, well --

There's pretty much no choice.

Hob finds a sitter for the kids, promises to pay her twenty quid an hour (it's London, after all), and grumblingly picks out some clothes. He's not good at this. It's been almost ten years since he was dating anyone, and Eleanor was from a rich enough family that there was no chance of ever impressing her parents; he could have turned up in anything from Savile Row to a bloody dishcloth and they still would have hated him. Then he finds himself fucking around to the point where he's going to be late, the Tube will be a nightmare anyway, and panics again and rushes out the door with barely a word about what to feed the kids and when to put them to bed. Is nice Olivia from down the street judging him? She almost surely is.

Hob grimly toddles off to Hammersmith, exits into a light rain, and spends an inordinate amount of time searching for the restaurant. When he finally steps inside, he's not quite sure who he's looking for. Mee texted him a picture of her brother, but Hob has trouble believing that such a pale, pasty, and terminally uncharismatic twink could ever be related to her. One of them has to be adopted, and he's laying money on this one, whose name is -- no, seriously -- Morpheus. Morticia and Morpheus. What is wrong with their parents? Determined to doom their children to an eternity of primary-school torment?

Hob contemplates turning around and leaving, but now he's come this far, Olivia will definitely judge him if he returns within the hour, and frankly, he's judging himself. Even worse, he's fairly sure he's just spotted his man. Morpheus (come on, really?) is sitting by himself at a corner table, looking appropriately dark and broody, in his emo-goth dark coat and toilet-brush hair. Just like the photo. He's admittedly not bad-looking in person; he's got a pale, chiseled beauty that is briefly arresting, almost unearthly. Still, though. Definitely a wanker.

"Hello," Hob says, deciding to bite the bullet. He strides over, hand outstretched. "I'm Robert Gadling, and I think you're the bloke I'm supposed to be meeting? I know your sister."

Morpheus's mouth makes a small lemon-sucking motion. He rises to his feet, regards Hob's hand as if not certain what to do with it and/or wondering if he can get away with not touching it, and finally shakes it, brief and cold and dry. "I am," he says curtly. "You may sit."

Well, good. Glad they got His Majesty's permission. No unauthorized sitting happening here, no sir. Resisting the urge to roll his eyes, Hob puts his bag on the floor and slides into the chair across from Morpheus. Like every Londoner at a loss for a better opening line, he reaches for the weather. "Shame about this piss, isn't it? And it was all the way up to twenty degrees last week. Did you have to come far?"

"No," Morpheus says, still not displaying any particular delight in being forced to spend this evening in the presence of another human being and looking as if he is very much hoping the floor will suddenly open up and swallow him. "Not far."

Hob waits, in vain, on the chance that Morpheus might elaborate. He does not. Well. This is going swimmingly. Are they on a date? Did Mee tell him that they were on a date? Is Hob sure this isn't an extremely elaborate prank, and she just plucked one of her single friends from the vast and bewildering mystery of her acquaintances? Truly, it is no wonder that Morpheus is, in fact, unattached. He's got the personality of a soggy rag and the face of -- well, not that. He is pretty. But Hob is not that shallow. Thanks very much.

Conversation suffers badly until they order drinks and food; or rather Hob orders, and Morpheus says that he'll take just a glass of wine. He does loosen up slightly as they talk; Hob does most of that, but Morpheus listens with cool, intent attention. From time to time he asks a question, but he doesn't interrupt, and finally Hob, trying to make it as light-hearted as "my wife died eighteen months ago and this is the first not-date I've been on ever since" can possibly be, admits it. He braces for Morpheus to get up, to run, to fire off an indignant text to Morticia or anything else, but he doesn't. He just nods once. "I'm sorry," he says quietly. "I know that it is... difficult."

All of a sudden, Hob is forced to consider the startling and unsettling possibility that Morpheus himself knows something about this. He can't say why or how that might be, but life is full of mysteries. "I -- yeah." It's an abject relief to say it and to have someone acknowledge it simply and matter-of-factly, not smother him with sympathy or cluck about how hard it is. "So if I'm off my game, that, uh. That's why."

Morpheus thinks about that for a long moment. Then all at once, out of nowhere, he smiles. It completely transforms his face, it twists like a fishhook in Hob's gut, and all of a sudden, he wonders in alarm if he is, in fact, entirely that shallow after all. "Believe me, Hob Gadling," Morpheus says. "It has very much been my pleasure."

[messrsrarchives]

Heyyy You explain these things in ways I can actually understand is it insensitive to ask about the blocker ban? And I hope you haven't been affected by any of it and that you are okay 💖💖💖

HI !! i'm gonna be so honest and say that my initial response was going to be that i can't. and,,, i can't really.

but the corner feels really empty at the moment. which,,, i know it's not. but it's really fucking lonely both in and out of this space to be trans right now so i'm gonna make this corner mine 🙂↕️ let's talk about it.

to preface - it's so much deeper than everything below. it's,,, i haven't been hurt by the ban of puberty blockers but since they've made it indefinite, i've been taken off of all care. from my seizures to my mental health to even just "if i broke my leg right now, where the fuck do i go???". which,,, fucking sucks init. i thought maybe it was just a Me thing and i'd gotten unlucky with my gp, but all bar one of my trans friends have been taken off of everything. so,,, not directly no. but this isn't just an attack on Trans Healthcare, this is an attack on trans people receiving any healthcare. oh and they changed my name back to my deadname on the database without telling me. so that's. something.

yeah. it fucking sucks. eloquent, i know but idk. no words for it really and you've sent this at 4am which is prime crying time so 🫂🫂 thank you for checking in 🫂🫂

but now that the sob session is over, onto the important things:

THE BASICS:

puberty blockers: used to postpone puberty, once taken off of these puberty proceeds as normal.

these are not predominately a form of trans healthcare and can be used for: early onset puberty (affects v roughly 1 in 5-10,000), endometriosis (growth of uterine lining, incredibly painful condition), some forms of cancer - and some other things but these are the most common uses

these have been used commonly since the 80s to treat such things with no question in regards to their safety (because, spoiler alert: this isn't actually about the safety of them, it's about transphobia)

the ban only applies to gender dysphoria cases: note here, at the time of the original ban only 83 cases of this were being prescribed. more cis people were on them than trans people.

to clarify, in case it wasn't clear how blatant the transphobia is: puberty blockers do not function differently on trans people. healthcare does not discriminate, the system does.

TIMELINE:

MARCH 2024: nhs england decides that blockers will no longer be routine treatment for gender dysphoria

APRIL 2024: final cass report released -> more below but this was a review into gender identity services for under-18s, written by someone who hates trans people,,, i'm sure that won't be biased at all ! /s

MAY 2024: previous tory government tightens this and introduces an "emergent temporary ban" (those already on the drug are allowed to continue)

JULY 2024: labour gov comes into power and keep it in place. law is challenged in the high court, government wins.

AUGUST 2024: "temporary" ban extended again

NOW: wes streeting (health secretary) has made this indefinite with a review in 2027.

EXTRA DETAILS:

this comes from "expert advice" including the Cass Report. i'll link a review by Stonewall Scotland here but the general synopsis is that this is written by a terf who did not communicate with trans individuals, has no fucking clue what actually happens, and is completely fucking wrong about everything. government (both previous and current) approve this review 😄👍🏼 -PSSTTT so does jkr, she said she felt "vindicated" by this)

there are planned clinical trials by the nhs into the use of puberty blockers (will these happen? who knows! will they be fair? absolutely not, the nhs started this and have been cutting their trans services for fucking ages)

backed by Sex Matters (incrediblyyy transphobic organisation and PSSSTTTT jkr is connected to them! anyway :3 here's a quote from them -> "It marks another step towards puberty blockers being relegated to a shameful chapter of history, in which parents and health professionals were emotionally blackmailed into harming children in the name of 'progress'."

this here is a response from Trans Actual -> note, this is from the august extension, i'm unsure if they've responded to the indefinite ban yet.

there's most definitely more but i've spent too long looking at my google doc. i hope this helped explain it a little !!

it's all incredibly baseless with no evidence of the harm these "cause", but plenty of evidence on the harm the ban causes. it's blatant transphobia no matter how much they phrase it as "protecting kids"

[pettyrevenge-base]

No you can't have new years eve off.

So I started a new job this year and up until recently I've genuinely been enjoying it. There's some colleagues I've bonded with really well with and I'm actually really good at what I do. I work in primary care for the NHS (UK) and patients are always telling me how helpful and how kind I am. Since I joined in January, 6 patients have bought me chocolates/flowers by way of a thank you for fixing certain problems for them. For the first time in a really long time I feel like I've found some sort of calling. As lame as that sounds. But recently my days have become increasingly difficult.

4 months into my employment my colleague (let's call her Trish) who trained me up had to take some time out for a health issue so I spent 3 months basically doing the job without her, and at times it was incredibly stressful being the only person able to perform the job. Admittedly there was maybe one or two days it was too much and I had to run off for a small cry before getting back out there. However, eventually ended up taking it in my stride and thus gained praise and respect from colleagues and patients alike. But when it was said Trish was coming back I was relieved because I thought it would give me a bit more breathing room. I was wrong.

Now I'll preface all of this by saying that Trish isn't particularly well liked. She's known for being blunt to the point of cruelty both to patients and coworkers, she's snappy, and rude to pretty much everyone. There's negative comments regarding her on Google fir crying out loud. She's had umpteen complaints against her but they keep her around as she's worked there for around 20+ years. When she went on leave, granted I didn't know her that well, but we got on well and in spite of everyone bad mouthing her behind her back or making snarky comments when she went into a different room, I stood up for her. No one was particularly overjoyed she was coning back from leave other than me.

For the first few days she was back she went straight back to trying to "train" me in spite of the fact I'd been doing everything solo since her absence. Which rubbed me up the wrong way a little but I ignored it. The last time I saw her I was still regularly asking questions. So that's fair enough. But even though she could see I was quite capable and competent she kept talking to me like a moron so I had to be quite blunt with her and tell her I'd been doing the job by myself perfectly well with 0 help from her or anyone so I didn't need to be "refreshed" with training.

Since then (July) the relationship has soured somewhat. We're civil when it comes to work stuff but outside of that we don't really talk. Until a couple of weeks ago. I had a particularly difficult patient call up 3 days in a row and I just needed to vent. In my head it came under the headline of "work related" so I vented to Trish about the patient, she agreed the patient was difficult and I did the correct thing for them etc. I thanked her for letting me blow off some steam about it and went to do something else. I forgot something though so went back and caught Trish bitching about me to 2 other colleagues, calling me soft, a whingy cow, i just need to grow up and get on with it etc.. She was like a deer in headlights. Nothing was said between us but the whole next day she may as well have been kissing my arse.

Now my supervisor messaged me the other day re an extra holiday day around Christmas, Trish is on annual leave currently so the supervisor hadn't yet asked which extra day she wanted. From previous conversations with Trish I know she wanted to take the last few days of the year off so she could go over to Europe to spend NYE with her adult child. After the way she's treated me the last 2 months I felt like being incredibly petty so I asked for the day I knew she wanted and asked to use a couple of my annual leave days as I have "family commitments" meaning I had 3 days off, total, following the weekend (this was also going to be Trish's plan). My supervisor gave them to me. So that now means Trish won't be able to take the days off as there won't be any cover. I also know she's already booked her hotel and flights and she was just waiting for the supervisors to bring up the extra holidays.

So fuck you Trish.

TLDR; Caught a colleague slagging me off so knowingly booked annual leave for dates I knew colleague wanted. Colleague had booked hotel and flights to visit family for NYE. So now she won't be able to go as there won't be cover due to me having booked the time off.

Source: reddit.com/r/pettyrevenge

[padspadspads]

After every shift in work, I walk home. I go to an offy, grab an energy drink, some cigs, and have some decompression time on the walk. After a day of talking, it’s nice to just listen, whether that be music or regular Liverpool bustle.

Since we moved, there’s only two buses I can get home, with one being the most reliable. There’s a man there, every time. When the bus comes, he says “After you, mate.” and lets me on.

One day I got there first. I saw him stand next to me.

“You let me go first all the time mate, go on, go ahead.”

“Thanks mate, that’s really kind, I appreciate that. Kind things don’t happen often anymore.”

“Yeah, no worries.”

He’s a regular guy, we just so happen to finish work at the same time, and live on the same route. I don’t know why, but it hurts, and I can’t stop thinking about it.

“Kind things don’t happen often anymore.”

Kind things DO happen, kindness needs to exist: Money to the homeless, getting things from the top shelf for your short friend, making a cup of tea for someone, holding them while they cry, relighting a joint before you pass it, letting someone on the bus first.

Kindness is intrinsically human. It is as effortless as breathing, as real as anything.

As easy as it is to do, it’s easy to misconstrue.

There’s people who talk about one race, the human race. How there’s no difference between us, conflating the oppressed with the oppressor. They force them into the same camp, and treat them like a bratty child when they won’t hold a hand stained with the blood of their children, their parents, their pets, their community. This new-age-humanism will always kneel to a Neoliberal form of kindness.

Kindness 2.0, now with less dissent!

Now there’s the Labour Party, a beacon of hope as a child, who adopt this thought process. Mannequins in suits deciding that 50,000 will starve so the ruling class can afford Champagne instead of Prosecco.

“Have we thought of the LAST economy? Have we thought of the LAST shareholders? Don’t think of the mothers? Don’t think of the NHS? Don’t think of tourism? Don’t think about mass deportation? Don’t think about BNP? It wasn’t us who did all that; But it’s our turn.”

It’s hard to see the hope. But I do see it. I see people who really care, people who dedicate their lives to hope, to betterment.

I used to believe in the sentiment that (British) Southerners were nice but not kind, and Northerners were kind but not nice. “I’m sorry that happened, bye!” as opposed to “You dickhead, come on, let me help you up.” But I met kind Southerners, and I met nice Northerners. Two of the kindest Southerners I’ve ever met are now raising a baby, a beautiful little girl. The hope hasn’t left, these people will make sure she’s okay, that she’s safe, that she’s helpful, that she’s kind, and that she’s nice. That she’ll look out for people, that she’ll make sure she’s alright, and her kids are alright. The kids are alright. The kids are alright. The kids are alright.

[llycaons]

Section Six: Part XVII

Put on some horse blinders: fics for which I have to list particularly egregious author issues (rape porn, sibling incest). personally I’m pretty good at compartmentalizing. but I know everyone has different tolerance levels so I’m putting them in their own section

I draw a hard line for authors of explicit adult-child content or csa, so anyone writing that shouldn’t be on any of my pages at all.

*A Lot of Edges Called Perhaps* by hansbekhart

summary: a postcanon getting together work! legitimately one of the best fics I have ever read, and one of my personal favorites. mature and beautifully written and atmospheric and satisfying. they just know each other. their mutual interest in justice is important! I love how neither of them have any patience for the juniors’ overinterest in their relationship - it’s not their business and it’s not a joke. a lovely and satisfying conclusion, close to perfect imo. cql canon work issues: none, unless you have a problem with reading a whole lot of edging author issues: it pains me to say this because this fic is so good but the author has written a work tagged ‘noncon somnophilia’ so it’s been kicked down here

*Art in Life by northofallmusic (tofsla)

summary: a three-part introspective series on modern AU wwx reuniting with lwj in france, years after wwx has a breakdown and leaves the classical music scene. atmospheric and satisfying and tender. the chemistry and their dynamic was so natural and lovely. it was gratifying to see an older wwx remark on how much better and calmer he is now, similar to his canon postres peace. I thought it was going to be boring and it wasn’t. no knowledge of art required, but wwx remarks on several pieceswhen he talks about experiencing and overcoming his suicidal urges in the past work issues: none author issues: implied jc/wwx, dubcon, sex pollen, noncon somnophilia

*best laid plans* by ilip13

summary: modern AU wangxian try changing up their roles, to mixed results. great politics about topping/bottoming - this fic said switch RIGHTS. I loved the writing style of this, the romance was so tender and lovely, the drama clipped right along and there was so much communication and maturity. dramatic without being corny or overwrought. love it. either canon but I was feeling cql-verse work issues: none author issues: see above - dubcon, cnc, rape fantasy, sex pollen, ‘noncon dual cultivation’

*all the depths of us* by northofallmusic (tofsla)

summary: wwx and lwj get together while still solving the mystery postres, a little earlier than in canon. the characterizations and atmosphere are excellent, and I love how the romance and relationship is developed. I am reccing both the main fic and the secondary one. cql canon. work issues: none author issues: implied jc/wwx, noncon somnophilia, dubcon, sex pollen, and cnc

*Out of the darkness, into the day by ilip13

summary: a substantial postcanon getting-together work. the way the emotion in this is rendered is stunning, and the characterizations are excellent. realistic as well as appropriately dramatic. I don’t like the beginning so much because it’s really depressing, and they take SO long to get together I was ready to start crying, but the story becomes so joyful and it’s a real pleasure to go from one extreme to the other. it’s right there in the title. cql canon work issues: um their first kiss is a little iffy since one of them is half-asleep but he’s the one who initiates…it didn’t really bother me it was just a bit odd also the notes say things like ‘no spoken consent…their love transcends words’ which is a weird way to phrase it but everything IS consensual they just communicate nonverbally a lot (and consent is verbally explicit in most intimate scenes) author issues: dubcon, cnc, rape fantasy, sex pollen, noncon, noncon somnophilia, ‘noncon dual cultivation’ (🤮)

*here’s to upright men by isozyme

summary: an incredibly compelling and well-crafted work about nhs, five years after canon, encountering lxc for the first time since guanyin temple. excellent characterizations, darkly humorous, dramatic, and giving us unpredictable and satisfying interactions between characters who really should have had more screentime together. bit sad because jc and wwx haven’t reconciled, but it feels right for them if I was into sangcheng, this is the kind of dynamic I could get behind work issues: none author issues: jc/wwx smut…also genderbends, xiyao, and niyao but honestly that stuff just seems so trite in comparison

The Good That Won’t Come Out by raisedbyhyenas

summary: postcanon casefic where lwj and wwx solve a mystery and confront some truths about their past and their relationship. healing, grief, and comfort. I like how much chemistry wwx and lwj have, and lwj is funnier than he is in most fics that claim he’s funny. wwx’s fierce protectiveness and vengeful rage at seeing lwj threatened was nice. novel verse. work issues: none…it’s sad tho. not for wwx and lwj, but for the victims author issues: jc/wwx, nhs/jgy, xiyao, genderbends, jl/lsz

*Vagabond by xantissa

summary: postcanon, wwx returns from a year of travels to a mysterious illness plaguing the region. he, lwj, and another lan investigator work to solve it while he and lwj navigate their feelings. I liked the oc a lot - lwj has a friend! I don’t want to give more detail because the mystery is so compelling and the plot twist was a genuine surprise. there were a lot of little details that didn’t make sense, but I loved how sweet wwx was with wen ning, and the romance was so satisfying it’s kind of up to interpretation but there is arguably in-universe homophobia and consent to sex under a false identity also, one lan has romantic feelings for another one, but based on how it’s treated I really don’t think they’re related work issues: PM mountain kiss is talked about and it’s not made a big deal of 🙄 author issues: lxc/lwj is the big one. also nhs/nzh, niyao, xiyao, 3zun, dubcon

*让我留在你身边 // let me stay by your side by howodd5ever

summary: a ‘what if’ scenario for the month in between yi city and the meeting at jinlintai. there’s no big confession, but they do hook up and and it’s really sweet. good sex scenes! they take their time….it’s nice I like it. except a few throwaway lines, the characterizations are really good work issues: none author issues: lwj/lxc, 3zun, sl/xxc/xy, dubcon, lsz/ljy

为温暖 // for warmth by howodd5ever

summary: another work in the same series as the above - what if they got together immediately post-sunshot? classic post-war/lost gc angst from wwx, the realization that lwj knows it’s gone, and then they get together. I really like the sex scenes in this series - the work listed above is my favorite but this one might have the best sex scenes brief mention of wwx’s suicidal ideation/expecting to die after the end of the war in the opening few paragraphs work issues: none author issues: same author so I’m grouping them: lwj/lxc, 3zun, sl/xxc/xy, dubcon, lsz/ljy

Restraint and Revelation: or, The Necromancer of Yiling by Lirelyn

summary: a story-within-a-story regency AU loosely based off the popularity of gothic romance novels a la northanger abbey. a shallow and vaguely set genre pastiche rather than an actual AU that would place them in regency england (and whitewash them). the writing is impressively austenian, and the emotional journeys the characters canonically go on suit the format beautifully, so everything feels quite well translated. I’ve always fondly headcanoned lwj as being into shlocky romance novels, so this was a treat work issues: none, which is weird because the tags say ‘3zun if you squint’ but imo there is nothing to imply that jgy was involved with either lxc or mnj. iirc he barely was present in the fic at all author issues: wwx/lwj/jc and wwx/jc smut 💀 also xxc/sl/xy, niyao, and xiyao. there’s a ton of shit in there just don’t go to their page at all

underneath a starless sky, the wind blows towards the future by ilip13

summary: a dystopian modern urban fantasy take on the yiling laozu. lwj approaches wwx-as-yllz for aid as the gusu lan sect needs more and more help in fending off the tide of resentful energy. matters in the city progress, their relationship develops, and things come to a head as wwx appears to be the one to destroy the city, not save it. a bit corny, and a significant decision lwj makes at the end is quite ooc and thematically inappropriate, but I enjoyed the worldbuilding and the drama in the relationship development. cql characterizations for sure. a solid B+ it says this in the beginning of the work itself, but warning for discussion of non-specific suicide and depression work issues: none author issues: oh, ilip13. dubcon, rape fantasy, cnc, sex pollen, noncon somnophilia and dual cultivation

he comes in colors by ilip13

summary: modern cultivation AU, an lwj-centric work beginning when he lost his mother and following him through the years as he grows up in the still-traditional cloud recesses. it explores his relationship to the rules, his grief, his connection to music, and the powerful synesthesia he inherited from his mother. a story about family, identity, maturity, and self-discovery. I like the unique twist on the madam lan situation, and the way that lwj’s musical prodigy was explored. the characterizations aren’t bad but they’re a little…lackluster? lwj wasn’t as intense and weird as I think of him as. wwx was way more considerate and less mischievous than even in canon, and while the romance in here was nice, it was almost too sweet and low-drama. lwj is a sub too, and that’s a significant part of the work work issues: none author issues: same as above. shame this author is so talented and keeps writing fics that really speak to me because ugh. dubcon, cnc, rape fantasy, sex pollen, noncon, noncon somnophilia, ‘noncon dual cultivation’

Let the Crows Fly by eak_a_mouse

summary: sunshot AU where lwj and wwx are taken hostage by the wens after defeating the xuanwu of slaughter, and wwx is coerced into helping the wens develop demonic cultivation techniques. the politics in this are engaging, the characterizations are all excellent, the style and atmosphere were just gripping, the ending was hopeful, and the romance, while understated, was tangibly present in every single scene with them, even if they were apart firmly cql canon, and I think the author just nailed the atmosphere of the show and the tension of a very young wwx and lwj under duress and trying to keep each other safe work issues: none author issues: jc/wwx mpreg smut…also lwj/nmj hookup which is weird but at they're they're adults

Mostly Figurative Ducks by northofallmusic (tofsla)

summary: a very sweet little fic about wwx and jyl comforting each other throughout the years work issues: it’s literally too short to even fit anything bad author issues: insane to write this under the summary of this fic, but this author has written noncon, implied jc/wwx, noncon somnophilia, dubcon, sex pollen, and cnc

Back to Start

[living-with-herpes]

2 years on

So I completely forgot about this blog and have recently found it again.

It’s two years later and reading what I wrote makes me want to cry for myself. I honestly was so convinced my life was over and I can completely tell you, it is not!

I won’t lie, I was very low for a fair while and I cried about it a lot. I continued to google every which way under the sun and continued to terrify myself. I read so many statistics it made my mind swim.

But slowly I accepted what had happened.

I was so angry about it and so upset. I did some research into testing for it and in the uk apparently doctors don’t routinely test for herpes for 3 main reasons:

1) the tests are roughly 50% accurate if it is not swabbing an actual sore. A blood test will just test for antibodies and as not every person who carries the virus reacts to it, some people might be carrying the virus and not have needed to produce antibodies

2) the nhs doesn’t consider herpes to be dangerous enough to need testing for regularly. Let’s face it, you wouldn’t go to the doctor after kissing a stranger on a night out and ask them to take a blood test to test for a cold sore (hsv1 herpes) just in case

3) doctors consider the mental health implications of knowing you have the virus, worse than the symptoms of the virus itself so they almost think it’s better that sometimes people don’t know. I can personally attest to this.

Every site you go to the statistics vary slightly but the general consensus is that roughly 80% of the population have herpes (hsv1/hsv2).

I thought this diagnosis would be the end of my sex life, no one would want to touch me again. I was so wrong. Using barrier contraception like condoms really does minimise the potential for passing it on.

There is lots of talk on the internet of whether people need to disclose a herpes diagnosis or not to new partners. Again after all, people would disclose that they’ve had a cold sore before. I’m still undecided on this one but so far I have told my partners before sleeping with them. I can tell you now that no one has ran for the hills, in fact most don’t even care.

I’ve learnt a lot, in fact if I was on mastermind now I think my specialist subject could be herpes!

Basically the herpes virus lives in your nerves and can flare up from time to time, lots of things can trigger this from a cut, to stress or illness. Not every time you have a flare up, you have an actual outbreak with the little blisters. When you have a flare up with or without the blisters, it’s called viral shedding and this is called viral shedding. You are particularly contagious when viral shedding, and if you don’t always have blisters, this is why it’s so important to use protection as you don’t know when this happens.

Your first outbreak is usually considered the worst and in my experience it completely was! Since then I’ve had a few outbreaks. But now an outbreak consists of one tiny blister.

My doctors put my antiviral on a repeat prescription for me so I have made it so that I always have a pack in my bathroom cupboard so I can start them as soon as I feel one coming. It’s only a two day course.

Honestly it doesn’t affect my life massively at all now. It’s all manageable and I had no reason to worry.

Obviously I would prefer to have continued living my life without herpes. But it really is no different now I’m living with it.

I’m even now at the point where sometimes I go weeks without remembering that I have herpes.

Honestly all I could say to someone going through a diagnosis is, be sad if you need to be for a while but know there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it does not mean your life is over.

Xo

[187days]

Day Ninety-One

Today was the last day of the semester, which means it was the last day of APGOV. A few of my students brought me gifts and thank you cards, as well as college banners to add to my classroom collection (I pin them below my whiteboard). That was really sweet.

They'd had all semester to find a way to participate in the political process, so today they shared what they'd done and what they learned from it. Some had gone to local board meetings, others to presidential candidates' campaign events, others to issue forums. It was really neat to hear all about their experiences and what they'd learned, and it's a good way to end class because it celebrates the fact that they got out there and got involved- and hopefully will continue to do so! The best thing the eighteen-year-olds said to me was that they were carpooling to their local polling places with their friends to vote for the first time as soon as their classes were over.

It's pretty cool that their last day in my class was the day of the NH primary.

It's a tradition of mine to write a letter to deliver one last lesson and say goodbye to my GOV students, which, somehow, none of them had heard about, so I got to surprise them with them with that. A few read what I'd written right away, a few said they'd cry if they did that, and that probably would have made me cry, too! It's not really goodbye, though, because one of the congressmen who's a longtime friend of the class is coming to visit tomorrow, so these students are going to stick around one more day (with permission from their second semester teachers), along with my new students, to talk to him.

So that'll be fun.

Meantime, in Global Studies, I attempted to teach the same thing I'd taught yesterday, just to the other two sections. I say "attempted" because, while it went totally well in the first section, the fire alarm went off during the second.

Obviously, that was not planned, and now they're a bit behind. I'll get them caught up, though!

[atlafan]

Your relationship with your Nannie sounds so special and peaceful, I love that for you that you have her and her home as that place to go to!!

I'm very lucky that I have a "young" grandmother. She had my uncle at 18 and my mom at 19, so she was a young mom, and then her first grandkid, my cousin, was born when she was like 40??? So wild to even think about. And since I'm the youngest grandkid, I got to spend more time with her and my papa when they used to live in Boston. Like I was always with them and got to have the most sleepovers. My house was so toxic and dysfunctional, it was always a peaceful escape when I got to go to Nannie and Papa's. Even when they lived 20 minutes away, I'd cry when my mom or dad came to pick me up to bring me home. I never wanted to leave.

It was really hard on me when they moved to Florida. I was in the fourth grade. I got to visit them with my mom that year, and it was a blast. Then they got a place up in NH in the summer, and when I tell you that was better than summer camp?? It was. We'd go to the beach and the arcade, and I was actually given food to eat. Being with my grandparents truly were the only times I felt loved and cared for. I was their baby.

Then, since my papa was 18 years older than my nannie (both their second marriage lmao. I wasn't biologically related to him, but that man was my papa), they couldn't keep traveling back and forth. So, they'd come visit when they could, but it wasn't enough. When I was 15, I finally got to go to Florida by myself because I had a job and could buy the plane ticket on my own. It was wonderful, and I made it a yearly tradition. Mostly I'd go in the summer so it wouldn't conflict with school.

Every time I stepped off the plane, I was immediately put at ease. Florida was my happy place, and my grandparents were my sunshine. I miss my papa terribly, he died in 2016. But Nannie and I are still as close as ever. I have always been able to talk to her about anything, and we always make each other laugh. I am literally her little clone. We are so similar, it's scary. I get my road rage from her, I get my humor from her, and I get my bluntness from her. She always speaks up for herself and always says what's on her mind. And that's how I am at this point in my life. She's my whole world. I wish I could have stayed down there longer...but alas, I had to come home to Henry and get back to work. She's not going to be traveling up here much anymore since it's just too much work for her at this point. I'm the only one that really makes time to go down to visit with her. I know it's not feasible for my siblings or mom to go as often as I do, but...I can never understand why they don't feel that urge to be with her like I do. We all got to spend birthday weekends with my grandparents, and they always made us all feel special in our own way. So it bothers me that they don't call as often as I do, or send her cards for holidays/birthdays like I do. She and I shit talk them a lot, it's so validating lmao she and I just think the same about so much, it's so funny

I'm rambling now so I apologize! I had friends growing up that thought it was weird that I was so attached/close with my grandparents, so I always feel like I need to defend myself??? Anyways, yeah, I'm very lucky and privileged to have her

[mirandamckenni1]

Liked on YouTube: AUTISTICS, CHOOSE YOUR FORK! | Autism Memes || https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bVoxCnaeNRI || Autistic person reacts to Autism, ADHD & neurodivergent Memes! 💛 If you need more memes, here's the playlist 💛 : https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEHi2YmjD7gEssdqTn0247t_niQMt2b22 00:00 Rusty spoons & forks! 00:08 High school WAS that bad 00:47 It's all autism 01:56 AuDHDers losing their phones... 03:19 which fork ARE YOU? 04:26 SALAD FINGERS 05:11 Autism in DA club 05:53 Endless pursuit of love 06:18 Just sleep through work it fine 07:14 How small talk feels from the inside... 07:47 autistic people don't like this... 08:56 The personality of the blank sheet of paper... 09:22 autism is my whole personality 10:49 Why is everyone autistic now? 13:40 Why are rocks SO COOL? 14:08 We don't have BPD lol 17:40 Trying not to be rude 18:36 plz invite us 19:19 Am I an alien or a robot? Videos I Mentioned: 10 Signs you have Pathological Demand Avoidance: https://youtu.be/1Uq1n8UQ3hc Do YOU Have Pathological Demand Avoidance??: https://youtu.be/XTdx_oSjLBs ALL the Socially Anxious | Actually Autistic Memes: https://youtu.be/6YYUfBDPzos Autistic Special Interests are NOT what you think: https://youtu.be/yaZ10mYCQsM References: The PDA Society: https://ift.tt/ZP1HjxW The first person diagnosed as autistic: https://ift.tt/yaWQs53 BBC I don't have ADHD, but three private clinics say I do: https://ift.tt/lWBxCYH Autistic children wait up for five years for an NHS appointment: https://ift.tt/vFi6sJt. What is borderline personality disorder: https://ift.tt/9FybEsm Salad fingers??: https://youtu.be/tfy1ffrftoE Thank you so much for taking to the time to watch! Feel free to make requests for future videos in the comments. DISCLAIMER: I am a second-year psychology student and a late-diagnosed #actuallyautistic individual. I am not a qualified healthcare professional. *Books I'd Recommend about Autism: Different not Less by Chloe Hayden (read if you want to cry): https://amzn.to/40fKx2m Aspergirls by Rudy Simone: https://amzn.to/3xSZ6Mg *Unmasking Autism by Devon Price: https://amzn.to/3LhMV3j *Links with a star are affiliate links. The channel will receive a small commission if you buy anything on Amazon after clicking through with this link. There's no extra cost to you and any money will go towards putting out more content. I'd love to post twice a week and put more time into research for these videos. Thank you so much - I really appreciate everyone sharing their stories in the comments.

[lindsaywesker]

Good morning! I hope you slept well and feel rested? Currently sitting in my study, attired only in my blue towelling robe, enjoying my first cuppa of the day. Welcome to the working week although, for those of you working in the NHS, welcome to just another day.

R.I.P. Cynthia Weil. With her partner Barry Mann, she co-wrote many beautiful songs including ‘You’ve Lost That Lovin’ Feeling’ by The Righteous Brothers and ‘Don’t Know Much’ by Aaron Neville & Linda Ronstadt.

The weekend got off to a great start! Friday night at The Tabernacle! They’ve got one turntable, a huge sound system and the DJs play seven-inch vinyl to a very appreciative crowd. Good vibes! Good to see legendary DJ Smokey Joe, who I first met at The Palm Tree Club on Fore Street, Edmonton 40 years ago, and good to meet drummer Richard Bailey, who has been part of British black music since day one (playing on albums by Linda Lewis, Sharon Forrester, Osibisa, Billy Ocean, Gonzalez, Incognito, The Breakfast Band, Morrissey Mullen and now Cymande.)

We were at The Tabernacle to celebrate the 50th anniversary of Metronomes Steel Orchestra, an integral part of UK culture for decades. Our great-nephew Elijah-Pops is part of the band. He’s one of those beautiful kids at the top of my Facebook page. I’ve known him since the day he was born. When he cried, they gave him to me, and I would walk around the house saying to him, “There’s no crying in baseball!”

Metronomes is as much a social club and family as anything else. Parents send their kids to Metronomes to join the Mini-Metros, as they grow up, they graduate to the group you will see at Carnival, and then there is another line-up for virtuoso musicians. I’ve got into soca later in life and, having listened to SO much music over the last 62 years, I am very appreciative of people generating imaginative rhythmic arrangements (as opposed to the simplistic thud of flaccid house!)

During the show, I clicked on Facebook Live and captured a few minutes as it happened. Listening back to the video, it made me realise how noisy the audience was! Really hate it when people talk through a musical performance! Go and do your second-rate flirting somewhere else!

Also on Friday, I discovered that my mate Northolt Paul has just contracted Covid! This is a man I hugged last Sunday at The White Lion but, thankfully, I’m fine! And this is why I still wear my mask on public transport and in shops!

Many thanks to everyone that listened to the show live and to everyone that will listen to the show on MixCloud. The Letter N (Part One) next Saturday at 1.00 p.m.

We were going to spend Saturday night with one beautiful friend but she cancelled, so we thought we’d spend Saturday night with Lady Wesker instead but she cancelled too! The one person who was very happy about all this was The Mighty Josiah (he hates it when we go away), which meant we were suddenly on grandparent duty!

On Sunday, I was a man. I mean, obviously, I’m a man but, on Sunday, I was very manly. I attempted and achieved a fairly sacred set of manly tasks. 1) weekly grocery shop at Sainsbury’s, 2) washed the car (and my son’s car as well) with help from son and grandson, 3) took grandson to local park (played football in a cage with kids 50 years younger than me in 80 degree heat), and 4) came home to help prepare brunch. Still got it.

Have a marvellous and momentous Monday. I love you all.

[thesoundofmadness]

@destiny-in-the-universe I watch too many unresvoled mysteries youtube videos.

So, ninja fight, something goes wrong. Randy ends up on the floor, his own sword stabbed straight through his chest

Howard gets to him, tries to help him, but it's too late.

Randy's in shock, unable to understand what's going on, and slowly falling asleep. He hugs Howard, saying something like "at least I saved you..." Then holds Howard's hand, and tells him they'll meet up again tomorrow. He closes his eyes, and dies.

Howard is in utter hysterics. he won't stop crying and trying to get Randy to wake up again. At least an hour goes by before Heidi shows up on the scene.

Heidi hears Howard screaming, and walks into the room, finding Howard hovering over Randy's body. She draws the obvious conclusion, but Howard weakly tells her it was the monster. She calls the police, and tells Howard they should probably leave. Howard refuses.

By the time emergency services arrive, Randy's body is starting to decompose. It's turned cold and stiff, and his back is bruising. The blood is drying, and it's spread almost everywhere, partly due to Howard.

Police ask Heidi and Howard what happened. Heidi tells them everything, but Howard is too hysterical to properly explain. He can't cry anymore, and his voice is weak from all the screaming. He refuses to leave the scene, tries to stop them from messing with Randy's body, and even tries to go with them when they start to move the body.

Upon seeing the blood, paramedics check Howard out, only to find that it's not his.

NHS is shut down for a bit while an investigation is launched.

Howard is the biggest suspect, having Randy's blood on him when they find him. Also because Howard never gives a proper statement as to what happened. He says Heidi had nothing to do with it, but that's about it.

They clear Howard quickly though. Part of it is due to how he was acting at the scene. No one who just stabbed someone would be telling the police not to clear the body. Another part is lack of motive, and lack of ability. Randy and Howard were known to be good, long time friends, with EVERYONE who knows them vouching that. And Howard just wouldn't be capable of lifting the ninja sword.

Heidi is also cleared quickly, largely due to Howard INSISTING she had nothing to do with it.

The investigation is dropped after some time. Investigators simply couldn't figure out what happened. They know a monster attacked the school and the ninja showed up to fight it, but why would the ninja, the beloved hero of the town, stab a random student?

Sure Randy wasn't the most popular kid, nor was he the greatest student, but he was on okay terms with everyone. And he was a fan of the ninja.

Howard is fucking traumatized after the whole ordeal. He gets super depressed. He won't leave his room, can't sleep, and nearly drops out of school entirely. His parents and Heidi try to help him, and put him in consoling, but there's only so much they can do.

They generally keep Howard's name out of any reports about it, only referring to him as anonymous, due to him being a minor and his parents asking for it.

The nomicon ultimately chooses another ninja, but it, finja and plop plop mourn Randy. Finja in particular is shaken up, as he never expected to lose another ninja like this. Whoever the new ninja is, realizes what happened pretty quickly.

The school opens up again after the investigation clears. The teachers try to keep everyone from talking about it out of respect, but rumors and theories spread quickly. People ask Heidi about it, and some even try to ask the new ninja themselves.

i just know true crime and mystery spaces online have a fucking field day with this.

Howard slowly but ultimately moves on, but it never really goes away.

He fucking hates all the rumors and shit, but doesn't dare to say anything about it. He wants to, but Randy trusted him to keep his identity as the ninja a secret. He blames the nomicon for it, saying that it should have never chosen Randy in the first place.

Randy's parents partly blame Howard, but they'll never admit that. They try to be nice and tell him they're there if he needs them, but Howard knows that's not the case. He considers telling them the truth, but doesn't.

i imagine there's absolutely some supernatural shit going on, mostly Randy's ghost following Howard around whevever he goes. Whenever Howard is alone, he can sometimes feel Randy hugging him.

had this one idea where like. when howard gets older, he decides to make a video game about it, mostly to deal with his feelings but partly to get the truth out there. something like myhouse.wad.

the game is part visual novel, part beat-em-up, detailing the events of the week leading up to when Randy died, told from Howard's pov.

maybe it's a grave puncher mod????? idk

It directly outs Randy as the ninja, but doesn't go into much detail on how the whole ninja thing works aside from that. It also never directly states who the player character is, using a blacked out name whenever 'Randy' refers to the player. Howard changes some details, like Randy's last name, the school, and the town.

The game lets you explore and hang around Norrisvile with Randy. Some days you get to chose what you do, others Randy chooses. The days that Randy chooses what you do, a ninja battle happens, and you play as the ninja fighting off enemies.

Weirdly enough, you can't actually customize Randy at all during the beat-em-up sections. You have the whole range of ninja weapons (at least the ones Howard knows about), but you can't change them at all.

You always have the option to stop Randy from fighting the monster, but it never works. Randy says it's his duty, and promises he'll be back soon.

Maybe throughout the week, Randy progressively gets more and more tired from ninja fights. Maybe the last day before he dies, you try to go somewhere with him, but he's too exhausted so you just stay with him as he naps.

Throughout the entire thing, there's a weird disdain for the nomicon. whenever randy is called into the nomicon, the player notes how annoying it is. You never actually see what happens in the nomicon tho.

On the last day, Randy and the player go to school like normal, but things are really tense. There's more detail in the writing than usual, the music is quieter, the school background is even SLIGHTLY off-colored. you wouldn't notice it if you weren't paying attention.

When the monster attacks, you get the option to stop Randy from going like usual, but there's no option NOT to stop him. It just keeps telling you to stop him, with the player character seemingly getting more and more desperate. Randy always refuses, and even gets more annoyed the more you try to stop him.

You don't get to play as Randy during the last fight. The player character waits in a classroom, until you hear the nomicon calling for you. The character is slow to get to Randy, even though the dialouge is telling you to go faster.

When the character finally gets to Randy, you're presented with a horrifically realistic CG of the crime scene. The scene plays out with Randy hugging the player, and telling them you'll meet up tomorrow. The scene ends with Heidi walking in, saying "Howard?".

There's a file in the gamefiles with an obituary, a copy of the case report released by the police after the investigation, and a note. the note says something like, 'If you want to know the truth, here it is. I'm tired of the nonsense. Cunningham, I'm sorry. you're trusting me to keep this a secret, and I'm breaking it. I can't stand all the lies surrounding your name. if there's an afterlife, hopefully we'll meet again'

the game gets a lot of attention online, largely for it's ending. The ending comes out of no where, and you can't change it no matter how much you try. People speculate it's connection to Randy's case, and the validity of it.

Shortly after releasing, the game randomly gets an update. Doing something in the game unlocks a post credit scene. Randy lays on the floor, hunched against the wall with the sword in his chest. His body is stiff, pale, and cold, but he opens his eyes and tells the player, it's okay, it's not your fault, and he's sorry they couldn't go to the gamehole like he's promised. It ends after Randy says a stupid ghost pun

maybe there's a spooky cg of randy's ghost standing in the hallway to howard's bedroom, waving. He says something intimidating, then when the player character says they're not scared, Randy goes 'dang it. ill get you next time.'

In the note, Howard writes he doesn't remember adding that, but doesn't want to remove it.

i need to stop watching youtube

can I dump to someone about my murder mystery au pls I'm thinking about it again

[huacheng-zhu]

Relationships: Nie Huaisang & Wei Wuxian, with a dash of Wangxian (Wei Wuxian/Lan Wangji)

Rating: General Audiences

Word Count: 4.2k

Additional Tags: Reconciliation, Light Angst, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Post-Canon

Summary:

Wei Wuxian looks back to where Nie Huaisang had disappeared earlier, and feels a pinch to his heart. He does miss that time; when they were carefree, catching fish and trading silly porn books, getting drunk with Jiang Cheng while all of Cloud Recesses slept. Just. . . simple things.

But trust is a fragile line to walk, and after so many schemes and secrets, it’s hard to determine whether one’s intentions are good or deceiving.

or, Wei Wuxian and Nie Huaisang have a talk.

[maoam]

Everyone from NH to NARSAK to even SNS tries to find parallels between minakushi by looking at superficial similarities like who looks like Kushina or who has the same expression or gestures as her. But people are only looking at the superficial as usual in the Naruto fandom.

Sasuke doesn’t look like Kushina. He doesn’t have the same personality as her. He isn’t a woman. He’s a far more complex character than her too since well he is Sasuke while Minato/Kushina mostly exists to enchance Naruto’s character. But Kishi couldn’t have been more clear when he wrote about love.

Minato was the only one who cared and was persistent enough to save Kushina. Kushina said Minato changed her.

Even Orochimaru could see how much Naruto was changing Sasuke and saw that as a threat to his plans. Sasuke himself acknowledged Naruto alone had become his most intimate friend. Kishimoto wanted to make a point that it’s Naruto specifically who has this effect on Sasuke, not Sakura. And Sasuke himself acknowledges Naruto is the ONLY one who never tried to cut him off, or never gave up on him (take that SS!) and that Naruto was the one who saved him (take that SS!). In both cases, when Kushina and Sasuke had no one else to come to their aid and save them, they had Minato and Naruto. Why do you think Sasuke says “my one and only”? Because no one else had his back, and no one else can have such an effect on Sasuke. SS can cry about how he says “friend” but Kishi really couldn’t have been more clear Sakura had nothing to do with helping Sasuke or changing him. Sasuke himself said he needed to kill Naruto to kill his last connection. Because he loves Naruto.

I have talked about this many times before but there’s a clear parallel in the Kushina chapters and in the Boruto movie, where Kishimoto makes Boruto ask Sasuke about Naruto, in a similar fashion as when Naruto asked Kushina to tell things about Minato. Now why didn’t Kishi make Hinata tell Boruto about Naruto? Because he doesn’t see her as Naruto’s other half, or relevant to begin with. Just as her bento is ignored in Gaiden, she is ignored in the movie. Naruto is also told that Minato was able to achieve things because he had Kushina by his side. Sasuke is constantly being said to support Naruto as the other Hokage. Meanwhile Hinata can’t do anything for him in the movie.

 SP even tried to steal from Sasuke by taking the scene of him telling about Naruto to Boruto to Hinata! As if them stealing from Sasuke before wasn’t bad enough. There is also a filler scene where Naruto compliments Hinata’s cooking. These filler scenes exist to damage control Kishimoto’s writing. Afterall, he’s the one who wrote Naruto ignore Hinata’s bento and think about Sasuke when receiving it, him sleeping on the couch and him refusing to go home. However, unless you are a shallow consumer you can see through all this nonsense. Hinata and Sakura are both written as selfish and sheltered, they have nothing in common with Naruto and Sasuke. And Kishi knows this. Naruto knows Sasuke saved him, and Sasuke knows Naruto saved him, and that no one will love them more than they love each other. And anyone with a decent reading comprehension and emotional intelligence can tell it too.

[sneezemonster15]

Writing Sakura and Hinata in character would make ppl think you hate them for being in the way of your yaoi ship. They gonna put you in the mysoginist box as Kishimoto because "How dare you give those innocents pretty girls any flaws?! They just want to love their men, they are doing nothing wrong!"

I'm tired of reading fics where Sakura is understanding as soon as she learns about SNS secret relationship. Tired of people showing Hinata being understanding and moving on fast and finding a new man (often Kiba) as if she wouldnt cry herself to death because Naruto-kun dont love her.

Wished fanfic writers explored more about Sakura's loneliness and her regret and frustration. On one side, she is happy to be "married" to Sasuke but on the other side, deep down, she is probably feeling fucking lonely and stupid because he is never home and ppl probably talks behind her back about her husband who is never home and who probably cheat on her, and how she looks so miserable.

Like, lets be realistic.

My headcanon is that Sasuke hopes that the distance he puts between them will finally makes Sakura snaps and "cheat" on him while he is absent. He realized he will never be free as long as she dont realize herself bc she is too selfish to notice her "husband"is unhappy by her side.

I find it very ironic when female fans fight for these two ladies. Like when they self insert into these women, what do they get out of it? It's so masochistic. Ss and Nh have no love to speak of. None. But the force of wish fulfilment is so strong with these fans, they would gladly ignore or dismiss everything canon. And while I understand people would do a lot to preserve something that gives them so much pleasure, including denying things left and right without an iota of introspection or soul searching, the fact that they deny something that actually is of worth (SNS), that is emblematic of selfless love and devotion, that is a result of one of the most heart rending, impactful and meaningful love stories ever written in the history of fiction, it just breaks my heart and inflames it with rage at the same time. I just get very emotional. It's cruel to my boys. It's fucking unfair. They don't deserve this. It's fucking disrespectful to them. And when antis just run their mouths without understanding their story or their characterization or what it means to people who do understand them, I feel like ripping them apart. But also, requesting them to be more....human? More emotionally generous? More honest? To search within their own hearts as to what it really means to be that lonely and to finally find love in the other that everyone else denied them, including their own families? Anything that works.

How can they be so cruel to my boys? It's their story at the end of the day. Like what did Kishi even miss? He went to hell and back, he left no stones unturned to tell their story. But fans would just....dismiss it and demean it and disrespect it and call shippers delusional and horny and whatnot...and for what? Hinata and Sakura? Those two, that in almost any other media, would definitely be condemned for their actions and general behaviour, not just towards the boys but others? But because they weren't here, for obvious reasons, they are being venerated as some female role models that they are actually the opposite of?

Mind boggles. It ain't done man. Not if I have a say in it. Not here.

I agree that Sakura feels lonely and bereft. But she still hasn't done anything to change things. Which shows that she doesn't want to, because having Sasuke as a trophy is way more important to her than being loved and respected. Or even liked. She married his status, and she would rather live with the glory that 'achievement' bestows on her than doing anything to actually make herself and her family truly happy.

Both Sakura and Hinata are too self absorbed to notice how unhappy their husbands are with them. And neither one cares. If they really loved them, they would have strived to actually know them, because neither Sasuke nor Naruto are dishonest people. Naruto almost always wears his emotions on his sleeve. Sasuke also lets it show when he is happy and fulfilled. We have seen both of them when they were happy and now, when they are sad and dejected. And we can tell the difference. And if these ladies had bothered to do that, they would have never gotten married to them. But they weren't written to be that way. Not in their characters. From the start. So now we have this mess of a situation and no one is happy. Well, Hinata is. Because she is just way too selfish and oblivious and dumb to understand anything that doesn't directly concern her.

[llycaons]

ep22 (pt 1): SOUPGATE

aw man look at them. up on the roof like old times

and wwx is SO fondly nostalgic of CR! iirc, he only has good things to say about it from the LP attack on out. they're probably some of the last happy memories he has, carefree and innocent and young where the worst he can fear is a whipping and a scolding. and lwj is clearly a bit baffled bc they fought all the time back then but wwx is like 🥰 about it

this is not great but it IS a step up from 'wicked tricks'

oh jesus. I don't think we hear him talk about BM a lot, but that's fucking bleak

oh here he's worried about what do you call it. qi deviation. had to google it 😭

iirc this was mistranslated. he was promising not qi deviate here, only that

aww his smile when lwj offers to help him. he's relieved he doesn't have to lose him! I think he knows having a relaitonship would be impossible under these conditions but he's just glad that they can be buddies again. which they are! for the rest of this episode, they are literally not five feet from each other in almost every scene

aww nhs. I've seen ppl joke abt lwj drinking vinegar here but I've been watching his face and it literally didn't change at all from when nhs was calling goodbye. lwj not being very expressive means ppl tend to project on him a lot it seems. if he is jealous here, he doesn't show it

that's like 20 people....such an army lmao

oh god oh fuck

so when people become puppetified they just...burst into flame sometimes and then emerge as puppets. man, but this is really so boring

this shot was kind of neat

and this was funny. a zombie grabbing a jin cultivator by the leg and bodily throwing him across the battlefield and it cutting to jzx looking concerned and mildly disgusted

this was dumb. you can KIND of tell it's meng yao and you hear his voice, but he's still blurry. weak reveal if it was meant to be

cool set deisgn here

it's very obvious they're just having people yell and growl...sounds a bit silly, they could have sound workshopped it maybe

nmj is a very brave and honorable leader, but this plan was not well thought out! was there REALLY nobody stronger or sneakier or more capable in the army? if he's taken alive, he would be a powerful hostage. and if he fails, the nie clan would fall to HUAISANG in the middle of a war. the army would lose one of its only leaders and maybe its strongest fighter besides wwx. it's a plan that makes sense given nmj's outlook that a leader should personally risk himself to do something important and spare his men, but it's not a wise choice. delegate, my man!

lxc's outfit is so pretty here. he may be in the middle of a war but that is no reason not to look sharp

HERE'S SOUPGATE. xuan lu is so good at crying I love her

mm voice: young master, you stupid fuck

oh this is so cruel. jyl is clearly timid and not graced with high self-esteem or social talents, and jzx is being dismissive of her in public. his men are snickering and he doesn't tell them to stop. DICK

out of context, an admirable perspective, but I feel like most of the time he doesn't really think about this. he just pulls it out to use as a weapon against someone like jyl who is of high birth but whose actions he's judging.

and then wwx physically attacks jzx and his men over it and lwj has to come in and calm him down kjahdksadkl