#(i didnt raise her for the first 8-9 years of her life (shes 11) so she will not let me or anyone else near her feet)

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3 ) You Protect Her Potter!

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She pushed her sunglasses up the bridge of her nose “see if you would just learn how to behave yourself this wouldve never happened” Draco sneered at her as they walked through Kings Cross station “Draco Artemis didnt do anything wrong! Remember children, Lucious wants you both home for Christmas holiday” Narcissa raised her voice. “Why do you care for her mother? Shes just an orphan that eats our food and wastes our space” he scoffs as she takes the trunks and places them on the train getting on shes the first one to their compartment she sighs as she sits down by the window her usual spot closing the door unzipping her bag and climbing in once she gets to where her Animagnus potion is brewing repeating the incantation that was needed til the next electrical storm she takes off her glasses walking to Igneous’s enclosure “hey boy..” she said quietly petting his beak she sighs out as he lands on his rock perch nudging her head slightly she smiles “hey cut it out” she laughed at the almost fully grown bird “are you sure you want to stay with me? Youre free to go whenever you please iggie” she coos ‘theres no where id rather be than with you.’ The voice said as he placed her head on his as she grew her understanding of animals became stronger and stronger she didnt know exactly when she started to be able to understand them fluently its just something she had grown to love. she sighed sitting down on the rock laying slightly he put his head on her stomach as she pet him “i could just say a cup fell on my eye. Its believable” she groaned he side eyed her “your right you’re right” she said softly as he closed his eyes again “i could say i got into a fight” she asked again ‘or just tell them the truth’ the bird said sighing out “the truth? That i had a cane come down on my eye because Lucious didnt like the fact a first year muggle born is going to be rooming with me?” She asked ludicrously ‘precisely’ the bird looked up from her “you know i cant. He’ll literally kill me?” She rolled her eyes at the bird ‘theyre coming’ he moved away as she put the glasses back on 

“ARTIE! ARTIE YOU IN HERE!” George yelled “IN IGNEOUS’S PEN!” She yelled back laying out in the sun  Igneous’s head looks up as Fred George and Lee come into the pen “Hey Artie!” Lee called out sitting next to her laying back mimicking her stance looking up at the clouds “hey cool glasses can i see?” George asked before she could protest he pulled the glasses off her face “George no wait!” She said eyes widening as he stood there shocked looking at her blackened eye he looked her in the eye her blood vessels had popped in her eye making blotches of red in the whites around her eye she looked down and away from his gaze his gaze hardens as Fred stepped next to him his hands went to her face making Artemis look up at him “what happened?” George asked in a cold low voice “its nothing George im fine” she said turning away from him reaching for her glasses that he threw across the room when he saw her reach for them “BULLSHIT ARTEMIS!” He yelled she flinched turning around walking away from him he got even more angry following her out of the enclosure “George drop it” she warned “NO! IM NOT DROPPING THIS ARTEMIS! WHO DID THIS TO YOU!” He yelled again  “George stop” she said wiping the tears from her eyes “NO! Im not going to stop! Someone hurt you! And youre protecting them!” He yelled she turned around her face flushed with tears “i cant tell you even if i wanted too” she looked at him and Fred in the eyes his eyes widened in shock “i cant tell you” she sobbed more  as she whispered softly Fred moved closer to her moving her hair out of her face so he could look at her “why cant you tell us love? Can you show us instead?” He asked in a soft voice “are you sure youre okay?” He asked slowly she looked at him with her big eyes and he knew his lips pulled into a line “okay.” He said softly he looked to George “she’ll tell us when shes ready George” Fred said softly Lee coming up behind them pulling her into him hugging her he cups her face in his hands looking at her “it’ll heal up nicely.” He said so they could hear him as he shoots George a glare “if you ever yell at my best friend again i will hex you” he spat out “and you if you ever hurt Artemis i will kill you!” Lee said playfully to Fred “ME?!? Why me?!!” Fred yelled “because you two are in loooooove!” Lee jested she pushed him off of her “shut up” she laughed smiling at the three boys  

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“Before you sit down you will be sorted into your houses” we heard Migonigal say as we walk to our usual spots sitting down “how was summer Artie?” Angelina asked “it was great! How was yours?” “We went to Rome” she smiled “ARTIE!!” A small voice yelled Artemis looked up and saw Ron waving at her “hey Ron” she said back softly Draco sneered at her with a smirk “HARRY POTTER!” Migonigal screams her head shoots to the direction of the stage ‘Padfoot, Artie tartie, wheres Athena and Apollo? are you ready to meet your god brother?” Uncle James smiles at her as she jumps up into his arms “theyll be here shortly prongs.” Sirius said as he followed his best friend farther into the house “come on, aunt Lily is in here with little Harry” James tells her as he walks through the house into the birthing room “theres my little bug!” Lily said with a big smile as James puts her down in her arm “want to hold your little brother?” She asked Artemis nods her head up and down with excitement Lily holds her into her lap as James hands her the newborn “Artemis this is Harry James Potter, you two are going to be great friends like your dads’ Lily coos she was shaken “we got Potter!” George yelled “you okay love?” Percy asks “yeah… i think hes my god brother” she whispered as she leaned her head on his shoulder “im going to head up to my dorm. I dont feel good” she told the group getting up and leaving the table half way down the hallway “ARTEMIS!” Fred yelled running adter her “here. You didnt eat anything. Take it and eat” he said smiling she takes the napkin “thank you” she smiled softly at him “does your eye hurt?” He asked “like a bitch.” She laughed as they walked together “i know you want to ask me” she said softly taking a bite of bread “im okay Fred i just…. Have to make it to fourteen” she said with a smile “is someone hurting you?” He asked not wanting to know the answer but needing to “its stops when i can get away” she said vaguely “your brother said that he got to Romania okay” she changed the subject he shook his head in disappointment “he sent me a dragon scale.” “You ever going to stop dancing around this subject?” She looks down “ask me anything else” she said softer “why did you rush out of dinner?” He asked she held out her hand placing it gently on his cheek showing him the memory that she had uncovered  “you knew Lily and James Potter and you held Harry as a baby?” “Im not exactly sure what i saw” she said as she slowly walked “thank you for telling me something. It sucks being in the dark sometimes.” She looks at him “i promise. I’ll tell you everything when im able too. Im willing to vow on my magic” she says as they stand in the hallway “i want you to know me. Just as much as you want to know me” she looks down “i just cant say yet” he looks down at her “okay. Thats all i need to know” he said as he walked her to her dorm “hey. You getting a room mate?” Fred asks seeing the trunk “yeah. Dumbledore said that he thought company would be good for me. Seeing as how my nightmares are under control. He owled the family i stay with informing them coming into the school term” she said sitting on her bed pulling out a book he sat down next to her leaning against the headboard 

“so, you ever going to tell me what family youre staying with?” He asked genuinely “well. The wife is technically my god mother. She somehow was best friends with mum.” He looked at her “my cousin. Not that theyd ever admit it freely is trying to cover up the good sweet person they really are to appease their dad.” She takes a deep breath out “the dad is just. Cold and mean.” She said her arm tensing “so what are you going to do at fourteen?” He asked “i want to move back into Grimmuald place. Kreacher is still there. Hes a friend not that he’d ever admit that” she said rolling her eyes “youd better get out of here before we get into trouble” she said poking his side “alright! Alright! Stop that tickles!!” He laughs standing up “i’ll see you at breakfast” he calls before walking out of the room she smiles til her face hurts. The door opened fifteen minutes later “Before you sit down you will be sorted into your houses” we heard Migonigal say as we walk to our usual spots sitting down “how was summer Artie?” Angelina asked “it was great! How was yours?” “We went to Rome” she smiled “ARTIE!!” A small voice yelled Artemis looked up and saw Ron waving at her “hey Ron” she said back softly Draco sneered at her with a smirk “HARRY POTTER!” Migonigal screams her head shoots to the direction of the stage ‘Padfoot, Artie tartie, wheres Athena and Apollo? are you ready to meet your god brother?” Uncle James smiles at her as she jumps up into his arms “theyll be here shortly prongs.” Sirius said as he followed his best friend farther into the house “come on, aunt Lily is in here with little Harry” James tells her as he walks through the house into the birthing room “theres my little bug!” Lily said with a big smile as James puts her down in her arm “want to hold your little brother?” She asked Artemis nods her head up and down with excitement Lily holds her into her lap as James hands her the newborn “Artemis this is Harry James Potter, you two are going to be great friends like your dads’ Lily coos she was shaken “we got Potter!” George yelled “you okay love?” Percy asks “yeah… i think hes my god brother” she whispered as she leaned her head on his shoulder “im going to head up to my dorm. I dont feel good” she told the group getting up and leaving the table half way down the hallway “ARTEMIS!” Fred yelled running adter her “here. You didnt eat anything. Take it and eat” he said smiling she takes the napkin “thank you” she smiled softly at him “does your eye hurt?” He asked “like a bitch.” She laughed as they walked together “i know you want to ask me” she said softly taking a bite of bread “im okay Fred i just…. Have to make it to fourteen” she said with a smile “is someone hurting you?” He asked not wanting to know the answer but needing to “its stops when i can get away” she said vaguely “your brother said that he got to Romania okay” she changed the subject he shook his head in disappointment “he sent me a dragon scale.” “You ever going to stop dancing around this subject?” She looks down “ask me anything else” she said softer “why did you rush out of dinner?” He asked she held out her hand placing it gently on his cheek showing him the memory that she had uncovered  “you knew Lily and James Potter and you held Harry as a baby?” “Im not exactly sure what i saw” she said as she slowly walked “thank you for telling me something. It sucks being in the dark sometimes.” She looks at him “i promise. I’ll tell you everything when im able too. Im willing to vow on my magic” she says as they stand in the hallway “i want you to know me. Just as much as you want to know me” she looks down “i just cant say yet” he looks down at her “okay. Thats all i need to know” he said as he walked her to her dorm “hey. You getting a room mate?” Fred asks seeing the trunk “yeah. Dumbledore said that he thought company would be good for me. Seeing as how my nightmares are under control. He owled the family i stay with informing them coming into the school term” she said sitting on her bed pulling out a book

he sat down next to her leaning against the headboard “so, you ever going to tell me what family youre staying with?” He asked genuinely “well. The wife is technically my god mother. She somehow was best friends with mum.” He looked at her “my cousin. Not that theyd ever admit it freely is trying to cover up the good sweet person they really are to appease their dad.” She takes a deep breath out “the dad is just. Cold and mean.” She said her arm tensing “so what are you going to do at fourteen?” He asked “i want to move back into Grimmuald place. Kreacher is still there. Hes a friend not that he’d ever admit that” she said rolling her eyes “youd better get out of here before we get into trouble” she said poking his side “alright! Alright! Stop that tickles!!” He laughs standing up “i’ll see you at breakfast” he calls before walking out of the room she smiles til her face hurts. The door opened fifteen minutes later “Hello” Artemis calls as the bushy haired girl walks in “you must be Hermione, im Artemis” she smiles “hello” the girl smiled shyly “is that the new fantastic beasts book?” She asks excitedly “yeah. I just finished it. Would you like to borrow it?” She asked “if i can” she said shyly “sure. Here” she hands the book over to the girl “so. How you liking hogwarts so far?” She asks as they sit on their respective beds  “its amazing here I just hope that I can make friends” she said looking down “just why wouldn’t you make friends Hermione?” Artemis asked gently “because im a muggle born, and a know it all” She said reading her book “well. I’ll be your friend” “you will?” She asked “of course” she smiled to Hermione. Fred sighed as he fell back on to his bed left leg hanging off as he brought his arm under his head looking up at the roof of the bed “what’s got you in such a good mood?” George asked him as he looked over “probably something to do with Artemis” Lee said shrugging his shoulders “he only smiles like that after he and her hang out” Lee said rolling his eyes. “I do not!” Fred shook his head as the two boys gave eachother a knowing look “you fancy her dont you” George asked “I do not. Shes just a friend. One of my best friends actually” he said glancing to his brother and Lee “shes actually dethroned Lee” Fred continued “theres more there Fred we’re not blind” George rolled his eyes “seems like the only people who dont see it is you and Artie” Lee commented “you two love eachother and the sooner you realize that. The better for Lee and i.” George sighed out “go to bed gits” Fred sighed turning over “im just saying the way you look at Artie is the way dad looks at mom.” George sighed laying down “but she doesnt look at me the same way George” he said in a sad voice “even if i did like her im not saying i do. She’ll never fall for me.” Fred said to the air “do you really think she’d ever fall in love with me. Shes… she deserves better than this” he turns over facing the wall “Fred. Youre as good as any other bloke in this school. Id date you if you were into guys” Lee complemented they both look at him “youre….” “Yeah” Lee said looking down “cool.” George said “what kinda guys?” He asked following up that statement Fred was grateful that the attention was off of him “im not completely sure really. But this isnt about me this is about Fred” shit so much for that he thought to himself “youre falling in love with her, and you dont even see it” Lee shakes his head “im not falling in love” Fred sighed out im already in love he thought to himself “go to bed” Fred frustratedly said

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The next afternoon Fred and George knock on Hermione and Artemis’s door she opens it “wh… what are you guys doing here? This is the girls dorm?” She asks slowly “we’re here for Artemis. Probably got her head too stuck in a book need us to remind her to eat most of the time. Im George. The funnier twin” he smiled walking into the room “and im Fred. The handsomer twin!” Fred said following his brother in “Hermione. Hermione Granger. Artie was gone when i woke up” Hermione said as she closed the door “shes still in the room. Just in a different part” Fred said as he picked her bag off from the ground and onto the bed stepping in leaving George and the confused girl alone “well you coming Granger?” George asked as he held open the bag for her “is this okay?” She asked softly “yeah. Just have to drink a potion when you get in. Artie's animals spook easy, she made us drink one when we first went in it just makes you smell like a dragon” George smiles at her “come on. Dont be shy i wont bite” he smiled at her guiding her down the ladder “come on. Their this way” George smiled at her leading her to the library seeing the plaque that read Athena Wahineleonahenahe Wyllt on it “try not to lose your mind Granger” George winks at her pushing the doors open “ARTIE! FRED!!” He yelled into the library as Hermione looked around with wide eyes “OVER HERE GEORGIE!!” Fred yelled back they followed his voice to Artie’s potions set up “Afternoon George” Artie smiles “i see you found my roommate in the dorm” she rolled her eyes playfully at him “ehat did you expect us to leave her there?” “No not at all. I wouldve brought her but she was asleep. Your git brother offended her” she said playfully “who Percy?” George asked “no Ronnie” she said “what did that git do?” Fred asked rolling his eyes “i corrected him in charms, then after class he called me a know it all. And Artemis found me brought me back to our dorm i guess i fell asleep” she shrugged “dont mind him Mione. You seem really nice” George started “and if he messes with you again. We’ll prank him” Fred continued “be nice boys” Artemis warned “we should probably head down for dinner. Mione wanna go to the bathroom before hand?” Artie asked “sure. We’ll meet you two down there” Hermione smiled at the boys she glanced to Fred who was intently watching Artemis with her potion lovingly looking down at her as she worked “are… are they a thing?” She leaned into George whispering “theyre best friends Hermione” Artemis said out loud making Fred look at Hermione with reddened cheeks Artemis laughed at the first year and Fred “well. When we get back from dinner we can come back and read together” “are we invited?” George asked in a hurt voice “when have i ever told you and lLee no?” She asked rhetorically “gasp you tell me no all the time!” Fred said in fake hurt Hermione laughed as they exited Artemis’s bag “see you guys at dinner” Artemis called walking with Hermione linking arms heading to the bathroom “so whats going on with you and Fred?” She asked with a cocked eyebrow. “I think its one sided on my part Mione” she said sighing out. “What do you mean?” She asks as she locks the door to her stall “i meanObviously i was doing something to make you question George in the library” “it wasnt you Artemis. It was Fred that made me question” “no need to boost my ego Mione. Fred only sees me as a friend” she laughs “but do you only see him as a friend?” “I see him as my best friend” not what i meant and you know it Artie” Hermione muses “stay where you are Hermione. Do not move” Artemis warns as she stares at the troll in the room “im going to slowly kick you my bag… unzip it get in and wait” she whispered “whats going on artie” Hermione whispered back “just do as i say. I wont let you get hurt when Ron Harry Fred and George storm into the bathroom and all hell breaks loose 

HERMIONE DUCK!” Artemis screams the trolls club hit the bathroom stall doors “protego!” Artemis points at Hermione as the debris land on her “Hermione Run!” She yells as the troll whacked Artemis flying her against the sinks “aressto momentum!” Fred screamed before she could slam against the sinks groaning as she landed on the porcelain softly “thanks Fred” she groaned “IM not LEAVING you!” Hermione yelled back “RON! Swish and Flick” Hermione yelled as Fred and George made their way to Artemis who was still laying still groaning pointing to the troll “petrificus totalus” she groaned out as Ron levitated the club out of reach just as it was stepping toward the young boys “you alright Harry? Ron?” She asked pulling them into a hug “fine Art” Ron said “good cause im going to kill you you git!” She yelled rolling off the sink and into Georges arms he stands her up “I had it covered Ronnie” she said matter of factly he rolled his eyes as George placed one of Artemis’s arms around his shoulder Fred mimicking him on the other “you alright?” He asks “just peachy” she groans Ron drops the club knocking the troll out she snaps her fingers the troll levitating off the ground as the professors walked in she charms the troll to Severus who nods at her “thank you Ms. Black.” He said with a nod “all in a days work of a superhero” she muses he smirks trying to hide a chuckle. But failing “thats enough Ms. Black” he said with a small smile “but you would be so lost with out your favorite non Slytherin student”she fake pouts as they all giggle “im the highlight of everyones day! Hogwarts favorite girl wonder! I’ll have you know that without me everything would be destroyed.” She jests earning a smile from all but one teacher. Quirrel “getting off topic here Minnie” Quirrel said with an eye roll “What are you six doing down here!” Minerva yelled as she looked at Artie hanging off of the twins shoulders “its my fault professor” Hermione’s voice rang out the bathroom “i heard about the troll and i thought that i could take care of it myself. But i was wrong. If it wasnt for Artemis, Harry, Ron, Fred and George id be dead” she lied as Artemis watched “they saved me Artie was about to summon an animal from her bag when the boys rushed in she got flinged into a wall Fred broke her fall and she petrified the troll while ron Knocked it out when Harry was on the trolls shoulders” Hermione continued “sorry Artie” Hermione called out “not a problem im just glad you’re all safe “Mr. And Mr. Weasley please take Artemis to the hospital wing. The three of you will be awarded 10 points each for your bravery. Five points will be taken from Ms. Granger for a reckless act. And ten points will be given to Mr. Potter and Mr. Weasley for sheer dumb luck” Migonigal shook her head “off to bed. The lot of you!” As Fred and George slowly walked her down “guys i can walk on my own. Im fine” “too bad Artie. Youre letting us help” George said “sorry we spooked the troll” Fred called out “we were worried about you and Mione, cant have our two bookworms being pummeled now could we?” George jests “thanks guys, I really appreciate it.” Artemis said as they hobbled down the path “I assume you two are staying while I heal her bruise?” Poppy asked “if thats okay” George and Fred say in sync “its amazing how you two do that” Artemis said pulling off her shirt  through out the months Her Fred George and Hermione got to know eachother becoming a tight unit she told Harry about what she remembered about his mom and dad and that she was his god sister they get really close

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“Artie are you sure about doing this?” Fred asked as he padded his side of the Slytherin common room with glitter bombs “oh, definitely I said I wanted to be here didnt I?” She looked up at him floating hers to the top “how did you guys get the password to the Slytherin common room anyway?” She asked “guys stop chatting and hurry up its almost time for them to come back!” George called out from the entrance Artemis rolled her eyes as they exited “we’re done George. We were just coming out” she said as they all walked to the corridor in front of the Slytherin common room they watch as Draco, Crabbe and Goyle walk into their common room and fear. Thats the only thing that she could describe filled her as a loud boom erupted from the room tears started leaking from her eyes as the three boys walked out Dracos eyes locked on hers as she reached for a wall but grabbed on to Freds hand he tensed up looking down at her. Her eyes well up with tears as they both look down at her hyperventilating as Draco walks right up to her but before he could reach her George steps in front of her Fred squeezes her hand as she starts to cry rubbing his thumb over her fist when Draco steps back “my father will be hearing about this you filthy orphan your days are numbered Artemis we’re going home for Winter holiday do you not remember?” Draco sneered Fred pushed her behind him protectively not letting go of her hand “what does your father have anything to do with this Malfoy?” George sneers back at him “im sorry I..l didnt know that you were going to be first back I..I” Artemis stuttered out “dont apologize to him Artemis it was us that planned it” Fred said angrily “oh she didnt tell you? pathetic really this disgrace of a human is my cousin. shes staying with us in the elf’s quarters. all shes good for really you ever think of where she learned to do wandless magic from? or where she got that ugly facescar from? Or where all her bruises and scars come from is because shes a stupid elf that cant do anything right. Shes worthless and youre better off without her in your lives. Its a miracle shes even still alive unless… you put out for them like you put out for father” Malfoy snickers staring right into her eyes “lets see how well you fare without your guard dogs protecting you.” Fred squeezes her hand tighter she drops his hand with tears spilling out of her eyes Fred and George look at her face stained with tears and back to Draco she runs off in a different direction before Migonigal said “Detention with Hagrid tonight” she got back to their dorm room and quickly went into her bag locking it from the inside where she lets herself cry herself to sleep a few hours later she wakes up and gets ready snapping her fingers to Hagrid’s hut “ARTEMIS!” Hagrid excitedly said “Hey Hagrid im here for detention” she sighs out “alrighty. We’re going to be patrolling the dark forest” “what? Why?” She asked “someones been harming the unicorns.” He said “alright you take Fang. He’ll keep ya safe. And split up from here” he explained she just nodded at him ‘I hate this forrest’ Fang shook his head “you and me both pup” she said as they walked through the forrest they hear a noise and she runs “protego” she points at the gold baby unicorn “bombarda” she yells pointing to the cloaked figure as the baby unicorn runs away she waves her hand and her wand comes to her hand

“confringo” the cloud of black smoke rushes her as she casts the shield charm around her and it disappears into nothing knocking her on her feet she sighs out as Fang licks her face “yeah. Im fine boy” she laughs “hey stop that. That tickles” she laughs as he looks back to the forrest she looks up to the baby unicorn “hello beautiful” she whispered out sitting on her knees the unicorn comes up to her “im glad youre okay” she whispered out as she pet his snout “youre pretty” she complemented as the young unicorn licked her face she giggled ‘thank you for saving my life’ his horn glowed as he talked “I was just doing what any brave wizard wouldve ‘thats not true. Most wizards use unicorns for selfish reasons, only Hagrid and Olivanders treat us with the respect we deserve’ a feminine deep voice called out ‘I want to reward you for saving my foal’ she called out her horn glowed as she weaved a chain choker necklace with a small phial shaped like a tear drop fastened itself around her neck ‘the phial around your neck is of my tears, that can only be used once in a lifetime. Unicorn tears are highly sought out and can bring a person back from the dead if they had just died. Use it wisely. My friend. Only you can take off the phial the chain is made out of phoenix feathers it will keep you in good health while wearing it. The tears will only work if you choose to heal them with your entire heart. There are no reprimands from gifted unicorn tears their soul will stay intact unlike when you drink our blood. Please. Allow us to escort you out of the forrest’ the unicorn explained as she turned for her to hop on “I dont know how to thank you” Artemis called out as she hopped on the unicorn

‘we owe you a debt. If you ever need us. Wish for us with this incantation’ she nods hopping off the unicorn next to Hagrid who looked awestruck “alright lets get you back to the castle” he said as he walked her to the gate “Pumpkin Spice” she whispers to the lady in the painting its near midnight and shes exhausted and sore walking through the corridor leading into the common room she looked up from watching her feet to Fred sitting on the sofa in front of the fire “what are you doing up?” She asks “i was waiting for you” he said looking to the hallway “if youre going to press me for answers tonight i dont have the mental compatibility to answer questions im drained” she said with a sigh “im fine. Its okay I can handle it. I deal just fine back home. Malfoy shouldnt have said what he said i dont want to talk about it. More like i cant” she sighs out “on a good note a unicorn gave me a gift tonight” she smiled softly at him hoping it was enough for him he looks at her neck bringing his hand to the pendant holding it in his hand looking up to her eyes ‘what did Malfoy mean?’ He thought to her her smile dropped “Fred please..” she said softly he runs a hand through his hair frustrated “i know youre mad. Just trust me will you?” She whispered “trust you? Artemis all I’ve been doing is trusting you and you give me nothing to go off of!” He raises his voice to her she flinches “its never Artemis you havent called me that since that detention… im sorry whatever i did i…” he cuts her off still angry at her “im trying really really hard to give you space and be a friend but you make this so.. so..” he lets put a deep breath as she looks at her hands in her lap “i cant do this anymore. Not tonight i cant do this tonight before i say something *i* will regret. I dont want to hurt you Artemis. I have to walk away im too angry right now, Im glad you made it back safely. Have a merry Christmas” “Fred please you have to understand!” she sobs “we’re still friends Artie… Lia, I just cant argue tonight.” He “all my life its just been me! This isnt easy for me! I’ve never had anyone care before! Why can’t you get that i just cant tell you everything right now! Please just let me explain” she cried he turned around and wiped her tears “i know that this is hard for you. But its not easy for the rest of us either. I have to go up stairs. We’re okay, okay?” He asked slowly ascending up the stairs to his dorm “Fred” she called up after him “Lia” he called out to her as the door shut hurt hit her in the chest Fred didnt come to see her off and George noticed it in her face “he’s just hurting Artie” he called to her holding her hand “Percy said to give this to you. Early Christmas gift” George smiled sympathetically “George i cant tell him right now” she cried softly “i can tell him after i turn fourteen. Not before its.. its” “shhh Artie-tartie. Its okay, youre going to miss the train. Go” he smiled at her she nodded “Fred” George called out walking back into the room “she can tell you after she turns fourteen” George continued and his eyes widened “what did she mean by that?” He asked “fourteen shes free” his eyes widened 

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She groaned as she pulled herself to a wall trying not to pass out seeing the bone in her thigh poking out of the skin she puts her hands on opposite sides pressing it together and popping the bone back in her vision blurring and fading in and out of consciousness breathing hard flashing into Dobby’s room sighing out as she lays face first on the floor “ARTIE!” Dobby called out “im fine Dobby just get me my potions” she whimpered Artemis groans at the pain in her torso as she pulls her self up from her bed in Dobby’s quarters she pulls off her shirt seeing the broken bones protruding through her skin but not quite breaking it black bruising around her eyes sides arms and thighs scatter throughout her body making her whimper at the air that blows on her skin ‘this ought to teach you a lesson you filthy cunt’ Lucious yelled as the cane came down faster she covers up in the biggest hoodie and sweat pants she owns groaning as she takes her trunk and Dracos trunk out to the car slowly sliding into her spot Lucious flicks his wand sending her flying into a nearby wall she groans out in pain hearing the bones in her chest crack on impact ‘still not crying yet are yoy? We’ll see how long that lasts’ he sneered as he cracked his neck pointing his wand at her ‘crucio’ Lucious yelled when Draco opens the door “Looks like father punished you good. Too bad he didn’t  kill you. What would those filthy blood traitors you call friends do then?” He sneers with a slight chuckle “one day Draco. The real you will come out and I will help you. The person your dad wants you to be and the person you really are are two different beings I know that theres good in you I can see it. But Lucious’s claws are buried so deep into you you cant even see it” she said softly to him as he scoffed her hand went to touch the phial of unicorn tears that hung lowly around her neck just between her collar bones ‘thats right take it’ his grip tightened over her throat closing her airway the other hand pinning both over her head ‘not going to make a sound are you little girl’ he growled in her ear licking the shell of it after loading the trunks into the train she slowly made her way to their empty carriage and ran her fingers over the carved letters C.W F.W G.W L.J A.B “theres no way im hiding this from them now” she sighs as the tears come out of her eyes in full force her hand tracing over the F blood poured out of her nose as he hit her again with a barbed belt her nose felt broken from being slammed into a wall as she held on to the wooden posts that she was tied to as he kept lashing away at her back she just stared forward not looking moving or making a sound as the cracks came down harder and faster when she limps out of the train Hagrid turns to greet her “Artemis!” He says with a big smile on his face when he actually sees her his face goes blank she gives him a tight lipped smile making her way to the great hall half way there the cuts along her back rip open due to how much she had been stumbling ‘worthless house elf cant do anything right’ his voice rang through her ears as she drifted in and out of consciousness over and catching her self on the jagged walls of the castle she pushes the door open and stumbles again leaning off to the side breathing heavily tightly skrewing her eyes shut to cope with the pain surging through her body when she finally opens her eyes she makes eye contact with George who had been smiling when he finally caught a glimpse of his best friend his eyes went wide

“George…” she whispered out seeing him grip Freds shoulder making him look to his twin who’s eyes were glued on her the chatter of the small group of friends stop as they see the terror on Georges face Freds eyes meet hers and a flash of anger comes over him Hermione and himself stand up and rush over to her he takes her face in his hands looking over her blackened eyes and split lip “Lia? You okay?” He coos in a soft but hard voice “what happened are you okay?” Hermione asks her she nods “Its not as bad as it looks I just want to go to our dorm” she said to Hermione with tears in her eyes that refused to fall “come on let me help you” Harry said as he comes up to her and places a hand on the back of her shoulder she yelps in pain lunging forward into Freds chest balling his vest into her hands he looked down at her confused “Artemis whats wrong?”he asked looking over to George as she shuts her eyes tight again starting to shake from the impact of Harrys hand. Harry looked at her with a weird look and back at his hand “Guys” was all he said as he saw her blood coating his hand “Artie… take off your jacket” Hermione said softly she lifts up slowly from Fred zipping the zipper down she looks over to Hermione “Mione I need help” she whispered as she started to tug the garment over Hermiones hands came to assist her once the jacket was off the thin white camisole that she wore under the jacket was seeping red with blood and they could see her bruises and broken bones “this is worse thank it looks Artemis!” Hermione whisper yelled at her Freds jaw tightens looking at her in such a frail state the anger in his eyes were scarce as he picks her up Bridal style “I dont give a shit if we’re in the middle of fighting right now Kahalialaulani. youre going to Madame Pomfreys right now im taking you and you cant fucking stop me youre hurt and you need me. I will never turn my back on you.” and rushes her to the hospital wing before bolting out the door he glances to his brothers “George Percy write mum get her down here RIGHT FUCKING NOW Ron get Migonigal.”  running out of the room with Hermione and Harry following him “MADAME POMFREY!” Fred yells as he slams the hospital wing doors open

“MADAME POMFREY I NEED HELP ITS AN EMERGENCY!” Fred yells again as he holds her body close to his she whimpers he looks down at her in his arms the blood seeping through his school uniform “WHAT IS ALL THAT RACKET!” She yells back taking her eyes from her tray from the back room to Fred with a limp Artemis in his hands the tray that she was holding drops to the ground “GOOD HEAVENS ARTEMIS!” She yells as she quickly sets up a room “Fred stand her up over here we need to get these clothes off. Boys wait outside Hermione you too!” She said Artemis quickly grabs her roommates hand “no please please stay with me” she pleads softly with Pomfrey she gives her a nod “Mione help” she said as she gestured to her shirt Mione softly pulls the shirt off of her head Hermione gasps at her naked top seeing the full extent of her injuries that extend under her bra the bruises that litter her body in various stages of healing she pulls down her sweat pants and hands them to Hermione as she helps Artie into bed covering her  “shes ready Madame Pomfrey” Hermione calls from the inside of the curtained make shift room when Minerva and Molly Weasley enter the hospital wing in the middle of Poppy examining her “Oh Artemis…” Molly sighs as Migonigal dismisses Hermione she reluctantly looked to Artemis not wanting to leave “Hermione dear, could you please go check on Fred before he combusts. I will be right here for her” Molly coos Artemis gives her a reassuring hand squeeze and nod Poppy nodded to her asking silently to take off her underwear while closing the blinds finishing up her examination she opens the curtains and pulls up the blanket giving Molly and Minerva a stern look not hearing Fred walk into the room Artemis’s quiet voice breaks the silence “Madame Pomfrey do you have…. can i have a contraceptive? lucious… when he….. he wasnt… he didnt…. it hurt so bad i heard it rip.. i got it to stop bleeding for a little bit… i dont want anything to… i cant get.. please just give me something to stop everything…. I was never on anything” she tears coming to her eyes. But refusing to fall when Migonigal sees her struggling Migonigal hugs her tightly

Molly sees red they only notice Fred in the room when he punches the wall “im going to kill him” they all turn to Fred she whimpers out his name “Fred” like seeing him was the straw that broke the camels back the tears freely flowed as he turned around to leave the hospital wing when he got to the door hand gripping the door handle a loud sob wracked through her throat that was his name “Freddie” he and the rest looked at her eyes spilling with tears fear and pain written in her features “Freddie no don’t no no no don’t leave me please don’t leave me here” she sobs trying to leave the bed  frozen to his spot Migonigal pushes her down slightly the fear and pain spread across her features as she landed on the bed she thrashed to get up seeing her freak out over him leaving melted his anger “please Freddie please don't leave i don't want to be alone don’t leave me here I cant be alone… please just stay… i… i need you” she quickly gets out stuttering in fear and sobs as they look at her in shock everything he was doing. Stops.  never hearing her sound like that or her use his nickname when she was fully awake and alert in the entirety of them knowing eachother she cries she holds out her hand for him to take reluctantly she hissed as she moved over in the cot for him he looked in her eyes asking for permission she nods he took it and hopped into her cot gently holding her “shhhhh love. Im here… i’m here… i wont leave… i’m sorry…. Im not leaving… i’ll stay….. i’ll stay with you… you’re okay… its okay… it’ll be okay…. Stop crying i’m here for you….. shhhh”  he whispers into her hair rubbing her back he looks up at his mom as she looks down at him Molly looks at the pair seeing her visibly relax in his arms “how bad is it Poppy?” Minerva asks after the girl had left the wing “Minnie its bad. She has a broken eye socket, her nose is broken in three places her collar bone on the left side had been completely shattered she has ten fractured ribs a dislocated shoulder four of her right fingers are broken all of her finger nails are missing she has a broken Femur her spine has been fractured she was whipped with a black magic whip shes lost a lot of blood and those are just the minor injuries. Shes been ripped Minerva. Ripped worse than what ive seen in child birth and her pelvis is shattered.” Poppy concluded “I dont know how shes alive right now let alone walking.” She said softly

“Let me bring her home to the burrow I can help her heal and recover there” Molly asked as Minerva looked to Poppy “do you have anything strong enough for her pain or do we have to bring her to st. Mungos?” Minerva asks “just heal it i’ll be fine” they all look at Artemis “heavens Artie are you sure?” She asks “nothing could hurt worse than getting them” she says as poppy nods “Mr. Weasley i’ll need you out of bed so i can heal her but you can stay in here.” Pomfrey says as he nods holding her hand gingerly she points her wand at Artemis’s forehead and makes her way down Artemis starts to groan the lower she gets Molly takes hold of her other hand “scream dear squeeze as hard as you need too i can take it love. I promise” she coos as she plays with Artemis’s hair she yelps when Poppy gets to her waist and legs 

she brings Fred’s hand to her forehead he kneels down by her bed side stroking her hair “Good girl Artie.. its okay. I know it hurts love. Im here im right here squeeze my hand baby girl. Youre okay” he whispered into her hair as he places his forehead on hers “hey…. Look at me.. look in my eyes” he softly whispers to her her breath hard and labored as she forces her eyes open looking at Fred in front of her he places the hand he was holding on his shoulder “youre okay” he softly smiles at her she lets go of Mollys hand putting it around his other shoulder looking at him  “i’ve got you” he said “almost through. Her femur is giving me a little trouble as it had already set wrong we may need to break and re set it again” Poppy spoke up Artemis released his shoulder and pointed at her leg muttering a spell that snapped het bone in the same place Lucious did biting her lip a closed mouth scream left her throat as she squeezed her arm tighter around the back of his neck “son of a bitch” she let out breathlessly looking up to Fred again with tears in her eyes his eyes soften meeting her gaze “Heavens Artemis!” Molly screeched again “just please get this over with” she said loud Fred moved his hand to her face bringing her chin up to look at him again “youre so strong.. let me be strong for you… im right here Artie and im not leaving you..” he cooed again she closes her eyes and lets the tears slip from her eyes wiping her cheeks with the rough pad of his thumb “he looks over his shoulder to madame Pomfrey who nods back at him “almost done love. Almost done” he coos Molly raises her eyebrow to her son he looks up at her “shes our best friend mum” he mumbles “i wasn’t insinuating anything Freddie” she smiles down at him “youre a good boy Fred” she shook her head as the rest of the adults went into the corner of the room she moves over for Fred in the cot he drapes his arms carefully over her pulling her into a tight hug she leans her head on his shoulder shutting her eyes for a minute “freddie” she whispers he looks down to her “its okay love.. rest i’ll be here when you get up”  Fred kisses the top of her head as she relaxes in his arms much like second year “she is not going back to that house” Molly chimed “Shes coming home with the boys over summer. Thats final.” Molly insisted “we must get the aurors involved this cant go unseen. Lucious and Narcissa should be jailed!” Poppy exclaimed when Albus and Narcissa Malfoy come into the room Narcissa making a bee line to Artemis who passed out in Freds arms Fred raising his wand to her pulling Artemis closer to him 

“STOP! STOP RIGHT THERE” Fred raises his voice the adults snapping their attention to the door “you touch her? And i will kill you myself. Artemis will never be hurt by you ever again” he growls at Narcissa with glowing eyes filled with anger Molly comes up in front of her son “Minerva, shes Fourteen. She has legally become an adult shes free to go back to Grimmuald place her birth right” Narcissa spoke up “shes got control of half of her moms Vault AND full control of Walburga Blacks vault. Shes free” Narcissa speaks to Minerva and Poppy “i tried to stop him. I tried. He… ive been trying to get her out of here since the first hit.. i owe a life debt to her mother.” Narcissa said in hurt “just let me see her” she pleaded with Molly “i have her mothers journals and everything she was supposed to get when she turned fourteen” she screamed slightly “aunt… aunt Cissy?” She called out drearily as she reached her hand out to her “oh thank heavens Artie” she kneels down by her bed side “aunt cissa im sorry i couldnt… i couldnt not come here” she started to cry “shut up Artie. This was never your fault. Never you hear me?” She coos brushing her hair out of her face “youre going to take this” she hands her a shrunken bag “and ive put some galleons whatever He wouldnt notice in the front pocket. Youre going to go find your brother. Bring him back, take care of eachother and you’ll go back to grimmuald place. Youre Free love. You made it to fourteen. No more house elf chores. No more reprimands. No more fear. Or lack of food. You can live your life the way your mom and dad envisioned for you and Apollo” she sighs out “ive got to go before he catches me here. Youll be alright?” She asks looking into her eyes she holds out her hand for Narcissa to take she puts her hand on her cheek showing her images of reassurance “i love you dear” she kisses her forehead “shes not living on her own shes just a girl! Shes coming home with my boys at the end of term!” Molly insisted “Mrs. Weasley its okay” Artemis said “Kreacher will take care of me.” She said sitting up slowly “YOURE coming home with Fred and George. No ands ifs or buts.” “Im not going to be a burden” she said stubbornly “i have Grimmuald place. I’ll be okay” she tried to reason with Molly “one summer. Youll stay one summer. And if you want to leave after the next term. I wont fight you” Molly compromised

“one summer?” She asked Molly “one summer.” She nodded “okay.” She sighed out “im not leaving her” Fred looked over to the adults after she passed out again. “Im staying here” he said firmer Poppy and Minerva look at each other sharing a smile “i dont see an issue with that Mr. Weasley” Poppy informed him Molly smiled “shes something special isnt she Fred” Molly asked her son “i… mom its not like..” “calm down Freddie” she chuckled “i really like her too” molly cooed brushing his hair put of his face A month later Fred and Artemis were sitting in bed “Fred im okay. You can leave you know” “im staying Artemis. Besides youd be bored without me here” he jests “George has been feeding the animals. He says Kalama finally stopped shooting hot water at him” he looks at her “i know you want to know Fred” she sighs out “i do. But i wont push you on it i dont want to fight again we’re finally okay, i almost lost you because i couldn’t wait. Im sorry i pushed it before.” she looks up to him his hazel eyes meeting her golden eyes “i’ll show you” she sighs out “promise me, promise me that you wont look at me different” she looked down “promise me nothing changes” she starts to nervously crack under his gaze “i promise” he holds out his pinky she smiles taking it he grabs her hand placing it on his cheek “show me the real you Artemis” he breathes out she takes a deep breath and looks into his eyes showing him her entire life she tore down walls that she built up and gave him her trust she stopped just before winter break “i…. I dont know if i should…” he holds her hand on his face “i want to know Artie.. show me” he says in a soft comforting voice she plays the memory in his head. He drops her hand from his face looking up at her with tears in his eyes “you promised” she said softly as he shed a single tear “how.. howd you not cry or scream through any of that” she shrugged “didnt want to give him the satisfaction” she sighed leaning on the headboard “can i give you a hug?” He asks cautiously “geez Fred im not broken if you want to hug me hug me act as normally as possible” she was cut off as he pulled her into him by the collar of her shirt “im so sorry you had to endure all if it” he whispered “im here for you you can trust me. You dont have to be strong around me i will catch you when ever you fall Artemis. You can lean on me” he rubbed up her back in a comforting hug tears came to her eyes as he spoke out to her “let it out love. Let it all out” she started to sob into his chest

“i have you. Thats it give it all to me. All the pain and hurt fear. I’ll take all of it for you, Artemis” he cooed as she started to scream into his chest he laid against the head board as Molly walked in “how long has she been asleep?” She asked softly “shes been out for about an hour” he sighed as he ran his fingers through her hair “she cried a lot, finally getting it all out” he sighed “do you two need anything?” Molly asked “could you get me another shirt?” He asked “of course dear” Molly said with a smile when she came back George and Harry come in “hey mum when did you get here?” George asked “just got here love. Came to check on Artemis” she said softly “Freddie go shower.” George said putting a hand on his shoulder “i’ll stay with her. Go take a shower. Five minutes tops. She’ll be fine” George nudges his shoulder he nods slipping out of bed he leans down kissing her forehead “i’ll be right back Artie. I promise” he coos She stirred awake seeing George sitting on the bed with her holding her hand with Molly and Harry sitting next to the bed “hey, morning sleepy head” George cooed “your animals are fine, i think Igneous misses you. Your Kelpie is getting big, and Kamaile stopped pecking my head everytime i go to feed him” he laughed “thank you for doing that George” she smiled softly at him “no issue. Youd do the same for me” he smiled she looked up at Harry and Molly “hey kid… how are you doing?” She asked Harry “shouldnt i be asking you that?” Harry gives her an empathetic smile “im alright. Hes been keeping me company” she shrugged “he went to take a shower. He should be back soon” Molly chimed in “ive been trying to get him to leave for days. I feel bad for keeping him here” she looked up at Molly  who just smiled at her “some people are worth staying for Fred made it clear that he was staying to all of the adults. Let him stay” she said as she brushed her hair out “hows your pain?” She asked gently “my leg hurts. But Poppy said its normal” she said softly “my back doesnt bother me much anymore, still havent gotten used to the scarring. But im sure that that will come later.” She shrugged. “Any nightmares?” Molly asked “all the time. But Fred wakes me when they happen” she smiles  “Charlie asked if you needed him to come back from Romania” she mentioned “as much as id love to see Charlie i wont ask him to uproot his life for me” she smiled at Molly “besides i have Fred George Ron Harry and Hermione constantly here. Hes not missing much. I will request his presence in the event i ever give birth though” she joked “you want kids?” George asked “i want a big family some day.” She looked at George who smiled “kids are fun. Im good with them.” She continued “i didnt know that” George smiled “yeah, i guess when you grew up like me… you want the things you never had when you can give them to yourself” she smiled “here. I got this for you. Or well. I had Molly get it” she said as she leaned over to the side table “its for feeding my pets” she said handing George the Honeydukes sweets and Zonkos toys “you didnt have to” he said “just take the sweets George.” She rolled her eyes at him “hey. Dont be like that” he jested “so how much longer are you in here for?”  Harry asked her grabbing her hand in his “i dont know kid. Until my hip and pelvis heals i assume” she said smiling at him “these things take time” she sighed “you can always come back to the burrow you know. Arthur and i would love to have you.” “I cant impose. Thank you Molly for the offer. But i cant” “of course you can!” She said with a small smile “Charlie already said you could have his room if you needed it” she looked at her “mum. She said no” Fred walked back in with damp hair. 

Dont push her. Shes been through more than she’s let on.” he said walking back over to the bed “she’ll open up when shes ready, in the mean time ive got this. I got her. Shes in great hands. Trust me i’ll do you proud mum” he sighed out “i never doubted you Freddie. I like this side of you” she smiles at him as she stood up George moving from his spot for Fred Fred shook his head at George who just relaxed “Migonigal gave me our work for the week” he said sitting at the foot of the bed “said to call her when we’re ready to take the quiz” he said softer she nodded “thank you Fred” she nudged his leg with her foot giving him a genuine smile “if youre going to stay here with me for the entire time. Promise me youll take care of yourself. That means going to meals, and shower. Let Harry and my other friends come and see me get out of your head if not for you but for me. You must be losing your mind worrying about me” she gave him a smile “if you can do that i want you to stay” “i can compromise.” He said “one hour to myself. Just one hour and im back here but George needs to stay with you while im not” he says looking at her intently “one hour” she nodded “and George stays?” He raises an eyebrow expectantly at her “fine. George stays” she rolls her eyes ‘i care about you Artemis’ he thought to himself as he ran a hand through his hair looking at George “youll stay with her?” He asked with worried eyes “like youd even have to ask Freddie. I’ll stay with her. Go get some rest. We’ll see you in an hour” George said Once George and Artemis was alone “please dont hurt him Artie” he whispered she cocked her eyebrow at him “George…. I… i think im in love with him why would i hurt him?” George smiled at her “i dont think he realizes how much he effects me… how much ive changed because of him… i dont want to hurt him i want to make him happy and proud” she sighs out looking down “you dont realize how much youve changed my brother. Hed softer with you.” He holds her hand “i dont think he feels the same” “and i know he does. Boys tend to be slower with their feelings Artemis” he smiled “i dont think so.” She smile

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“and just where do you think youre going?” Artemis raises an eyebrow to her room mate “Harry and Ron think that Snape is trying to get the sorcerers stone. We found a trap door” “yeah. No. Youre not going alone” she sighs out as she grabs a jumper “you just got out of the hospital wing!” “Yeah. You Harry and Ron are going to get yourselves killed. Im coming with you.” “Fred is going to kill me” she shook her head “are you really still stuck on this?” Artemis rolls her eyes “whats going on with you and Ron anyway i thought you had a thing for George?” She asks pulling the jumper over her head her cheeks go bright red “its nothing. nothing. Hurry up lets go” she said in a hurry “alright alright. You win” Artemis said following her out of the room getting down to the common room to meet Harry and Ron Ron rolls his eyes “Mione you werent supposed to tell her!” Ron said in an annoyed tone “she didnt have to tell me. She hangs around with you two. You two have been running a muck since you got here. Besides. You might want to have me around carrots.” she raised an eyebrow at him “i am good with animals. She told me about the three headed dog” she shook her head “FINE! JUST YOU THEN!” Ron screamed “you make like having me around is a bad thing Ronald.” she jests “no. Its not but where ever you are my brothers are and i dont need them following us!” He said draping the other end of the invisibility cloak on Harry and Hermione “Artie?” Fred asked as he walked down the stairs “yeah?” She asked back “what are you doing?” He asked wiping the sleep from his eyes “nothing. Im okay go back to bed” she smiled as Ron snickered under the cloak she glared at them “what are you glaring at?” Ron makes the sound of a whip quietly

“You wanna go ahead and tell me how youre not whipped mr. I cant tell the girl i like how i feel cause shes so much smarter than me im just going to stare at her til she falls in love with me” Artemis yells at whats seemingly air Fred raises an eyebrow at her “ARTEMIS!” Rons voice yelled from under the cloak Fred pulls the cloak off of the trio “carrot head junior thinks im whipped” she puts her hand on her hip “and just where do you lot think youre going?” Fred raises an expectant eyebrow at his brother “we’re waisting time lets just go. We’ll explain on the way” Hermione said grabbing both their wrists tugging them under the invisibility cloak “NO! Im not letting you guys go! Last time you three snuck out we lost hpuse points!” A scared Neville said “im really sorry about this Neville” Hermione said sadly stunning him. They walk out Artemis and Ron still arguing silently “see. Whenever youre around so is he” Ron rolled his eyes “thats not my fault!” Artemis argues “how is it not your fault!” Ron whisper yelled “ughhhhh youre gonna get us caught carrots” she said following Hermione closely “honestly would you two stop fighting!” Hermione groans “Ron. Artemis is the only one of us who deals with animals. We have no idea what challenges we have once we open the door. The more of us there. The better” Hermione said as they walked up the stairs “besides. Can you please stop chastising my sister. Shes majority of the time right” Harry continues “ikkle Ronniekins needs to admit he was wrong” Fred jested making everyone laugh Hermione pointed her wand at the door “Alohomora” the lock unlocks as they all walk in “thats one big dog” Fred looks at Fluffy who was sleeping on the trap door “the harps playing. Thats where we need to go” Harry said moving his paw slightly “who’s going first?” Ron gulped we all shot him a glare “seriously Ronald!” Hermione whisper yelled when drool dropped onto Rons shoulder the five kids look up Fred Ron Harry and Hermione started to yell Artemis rose to her feet “well look at you” she said softly “youre a beautiful doggie arent you” she cooed reaching her hand up to the middle heads nose as it snapped at her “i know you wont hurt me” she raised an eyebrow at the dog “whats your name? Are you the protector of the stone?” She asked gently the dogs ears shifted to pointing back as it bowed his head to her ‘Hagrid calls me Fluffy i protect the stone.’ “Youre doing such a good job boy yeah whos a good boy” his tail starts to wag as the left head licked her cheek she giggled “alright alright Fluffy, me and my friends are trying to protect the stone too. We think someones trying to steal it, can we pass?” She asked petting the middle heads snout he barks “theres a steak with your name on it when we get back” she scratched behind the middle heads ear “maybe i can get Hagrid to tell me where he got you from” she laughed as he licked her face more “okay, lets go” she said looking back at the group who was staring at her in shock “hurry up before Fluffy eats you four” she ran in jumping into the trap door “how shes able to do that i dont know” Fred shook his head jumping in after her “hurry up!” He yelled back up to the other three “Hermione” Artemis asked “devils snare” she looked at the girl “what do we do?” Artemis asked her Hermione looked to her as she was deep in thought when the idea popped into her head a giant smile came to her face 

“we stay calm and relax” she said to her room mate “good job Granger five points.” Artemis nodded looking over to Fred giving him a small smile she relaxed her body and fell through with Hermione falling next to her “JUST RELAX BOYS” Hermione called from below Fred was the next to fall through followed by Harry who fell on his bum making Artemis laugh “graceful Harry” she jests “shut up” he laughs coming to stand inbetween her and Hermione “hes not relaxing is he” she shook her head casting a spell light killed the devils snare around Ron making him fall through on his back he meets all of their eyes “next time.” Artemis starts “listen to your friend. And relax” she told him leaning all her weight on her left leg “sorry Hermione” Ron said with a blush “lets go” she said to the group pushing forward to a room with a broom floating and keys with wings flying “which one is the key?” Hermione asked as Artemis and Harry make contact with the one key with the broken wing “its that one” they say at the same time she turns to harry “okay. Chosen one” Artemis says holding out a fist “what are they doing?” Fred asked Hermione “theyre playing rock paper scissors to see who gets the key since they both saw it at the same time” she whispered to Fred “whats rock paper scissors?” “Just watch!” Hermione snapsHarry mimics Artemis “Rock, Paper, Scissors. Shoot!” They say together Artemis holding out scissors Harry holding out rock he smashes her scissors and smiles “basically who wins is safe the loser has to do the task” Hermione explains “its a muggle thing” she shrugs “yeah yeah. Whatever chosen one” she playfully rolls her eyes at him mounting the broom “you know i was going to try out for seeker last year” she tells him as she kicks off “really?” He asked “yeah. But i changed my mind. I wanted to take care of magical creatures” she said zooming up into the keys that started to make shallow cuts throughout her body chasing after the broken winged key once she got it she flew back down and handed the key to Harry “you okay?” Fred asks taking her arm in his hand “perfect” she smiled at him “it was fun” as Hermione healed her “Thanks Mione” she said as they walked into the next room to where a giant chess board is “what do we do now?” Fred asked “Hermione you stand where the castle is, Fred you take the second castle on the other side Harry. Artemis where the bishops are. I will play knight” he said as he hopped on to the horse. “D5!” Ron yelled as the piece moved up Ron continued to play the game getting Artemis and Harry to the other side “hes going to sacrifice himself!” “RON NO YOU CANT!” Both Hermione and Fred yell at the same time

“Harry, Artemis its you two that have to go on. Not me. Not Fred. Not Hermione. You and Artemis.” He said as the chess piece moved knocking him on conscious “lets go Harry” “OI!” Fred calls out to Harry and Artemis “You protect her you hear me Potter?! Do not let her out of your sight!” Fred yelled from his position “with my life Fred. I’ll protect her with my life” Harry said “lets go” Artemis rolled her eyes “i’ll be fine Freddie i promise” she said shooting him a smile he nods “we’ll be back.” She called as they ran through the doors “well now what? We need to check on him” Fred said as he tried to move on the board but got held back by the piece next to him “you tell Ron about George yet? Or are you still stuck between two of the finest Weasley men available” Fred asked Hermione casually while standing in his square “you ever going to tell Artemis youre in love with her?” “Im not in love with her” “you protect her Potter!” Hermione mimics “just because i care about her doesnt mean that im in love with her!” Fred scowled “but your actions prove it” Hermione stuck her tongue out at him “to answer your question no. I didnt tell ron about George. Or George about Ron. Im not sure exactly” her cheeks heated up “i dont think that theres anything their” she said softly “there is.” Fred reassured her “theres something there with Ron too.” He juts his chin to his knocked out brother “just dont hurt them okay?” He said rolling his eyes “i can say the same thing about you and Artemis” she smiled softly at him “she really is like a sister to me. Shes helped me more than i like to admit” Hermione sighed out “i dont know what i feel” Fred admits as he sits in his square “when shes around. Shes…” “suffocating. Like if youre not around her its hard to breathe? Like shes home?” Hermione asked sitting facing him his cheeks heat up as he slowly nods

“and i dont want to tell her that because im afraid shes going to want more… and i hurt her accidentally.” Hermione gave him a sympathetic smile “isnt that her decision to make? Artemis is a smart girl. She should know if youre as close as you say you two are” She asked in a soft voice “im not ready to lose her completely” he sighed out “its better if she finds someone better. Less cowardly. Someone who deserves her. And i make due with what i have” Fred sighs out before Hermione could speak he changed the subject “her boggart was Lucious standing over George Charlie and i dead. When she told me what happened over winter break. He threatened her with us. And she was so scared of it that its her boggart. Anyway. While she was being held screaming pleading with Lucious not to…. While the boggart mimicked her screams. She ran out of the room. Those screams haunted us for days. George took care of the Boggart and i ran after her she wouldnt talk for a week. All she did was correspond with Charlie. Charlie was so worried he recruited Bill and the three of them kept talking throughout the week. She just sat there. Staring at the wall” he said to the air. “Im scared that that was something more, that im something more to her.” “You are something more to her Fred. You should hear the way she talks about you when we’re alone. You got her out of her shell.” Hermione said gently “and its nothing to be afraid of. You deserve to love. And be loved. You both do i think you both will be good for each other” “when the time is right perhaps. Now isnt the time shes still… i want her to heal before i throw myself into the mix. I want her to be alright with herself. I dont want to manipulate her in anyway. Shape. Or form. I want it to be pure from the start. Cause thats what she deserves.” He sighs out “thats just it though Fred. Youre in love with the bad parts of her, thats the purest type of love there is or atleast thats what i get from the novels i read. You say you dont want to manipulate or pressure her and youre not youre supporting her. Its been pure from the start. just promise me i get to be the god mother of your kids and im her maid of honor at the wedding” Hermione jests “you ever going to tell George or Ron you fancy him?” He asks “i dont know how i feel to be honest with you. He…. Im.. im not…” she stutters “believe me when i say. Hes smitten. You have nothing to worry about.” Fred looks back to his younger brother “and dont worry about what he’d say. Its not his choice who you choose. Its yours.” he sighed out. “I get to be your man of honor at your wedding though. And your first sons middle name is Frederick. You better pick a flattering dress for my figure” they both laughed

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Harry and Artemis push their way into the room and see professor Quirrell in the mirror of Erised she puts her arm out in front of Harrys chest “i dont like this Harry” she whispered out “HARRY GET BACK!” She yells as Quirrell attacks Harry he gets her by her neck as he leans over her “you my dear. Will be useful in the future. Child of destiny Your blood line is a great one” he sneers as she fights his grip “GET THE STONE HARRY!” She yelled he grabs it “he flicks his wand and Quirrell flies off of her she choked on air as it filled her lungs she stood up as they began dueling with their professor after Harry had defeated Quirrell he looked to artemis who was bleeding from a gash on her head “you alright?” He asked “as fine as i’ve ever been” she smiled lightly at him he nods “need help?” She asks “yeah. I think my ankles broken” he says hissing to stand up “okay. Lets go get the others” she smiles slinging a hand over her shoulder “come on chosen one. Lets go” she smiles “whatever you say child of Destiny” he rolled his eyes as she slowly led them out of the room “HARRY ARTEMIS! Thank goodness!” Hermione yelled as she ran to them engulfing them into a hug Ron following not too long after. He tackled Harry into a hug “Mione.. Ronnie. easy. We just defeated an evil traitor you know” Artemis jested he slings an arm over Hermiones shoulder “go to him. He’s burning a hole through your head with his eyes” Harry whispers into her ear she nods slowly walking up to Fred “see? I told you i would be fine” she smiles looking up into his eyes he grabs her face in his hands looking at the gash “its just a cut. One healing potion and it should be fine” she smiled up at him  “Artemis i want to say something to you. But i dont want you to be scared off. But i just want to tell you f thats okay” she looked at him cocking her head

“Freddie you can tell me anything” she said softer he leans in slightly blush creeping onboth their cheeks she looks down at his lips and back up to his eyes as he leans in when he started to speak again “Artie i…” he got cut off when Dumbledore Minerva Hagrid and Snape entered the room “WHY IS IT THAT WHENEVER SOMETHING HAPPENS ITS YOU FOUR AND ONE OF THE TWINS OR BOTH!” Minerva yelled “ive been asking myself this since they got here Minnie” Artemis shook her head Albus looked at her and Harry before asking for a moment alone healing both of their wounds. “Thank you sir” Artie tells him as he apparates them to his office “Mr. Potter the stone please” he said cautiously Harry hands him the stone “sir… did we do something wrong?” Harry asked cautiously “no. Children you did nothing wrong, quite the opposite really.” Harry and Artemis walk to the great hall and sit next to their friends “you wanted to tell me something Fred?” She asked “im glad youre alright” his blush returning to his cheeks Slytherin banners hanging from the poles as they chatted “so what did Dumbledore want to talk to you?” Fred asked “oh. Nothing. I’ll tell you when we get home” she smiled at him ‘home’ he thought with reddened cheeks “its only for the summer. But i doubt that Molly wont be dragging you back and forth from my place” she shrugged looking at Fred “i just dont want to burden your family” she smiled softly “Artemis. Youre not a burden. My family loves you. Hell. Ron and you already fight like siblings, Charlie and Bill call you their sister and you have Ginny completely Smitten with you” Fred rolled his eyes “stay longer than summer. Stay with us…. Me… stay with me” he says softly “Freddie… i… i want too.. i really do…” “but you cant” he looked down with sad eyes “hey… I’ll just be a Floo away. Youre still my best friend and i dont know what id do without you” she smiled taking his face in her hands “ALRIGHT! I have some last minute awards!” Albus said “Miss Hermione Granger, for the cool use of intellect when others were in great peril, 50 points.“ “Miss Artemis Black, for wondrous courage and sacrifice in the face of fear. 10 points” “Mr. Fred Weasley, for protecting those you hold dear. 5 points” “Mr. Ronald Weasley, for the best played game of chess that Hogwarts has seen these many years, 50” “to Mr. Harry Potter, for pure nerve and outstanding courage, I award Gryffindor House 60 points.” “And finally, it takes a great deal of courage to stand up to your enemies, but a great deal more to stand up to your friends, I award 10 points, to Mr. Neville Longbottom. Assuming that my calculations are correct, I believe a change in decoration is in order. Gryffindor wins the house cup! Congratulations house of the lion!” Dumbledore congratulates as applause erupted from every table but Slytherin after we were released walking to the train station “I hope you enjoyed that Filthy orphan. Must be nice being fawned over! Hopefully Father got your blood out of the living room rug.” Draco spats as he shoves between Harry and Artemis who were walking with linked arms along with Hermione Lee and Ron with Fred and George following behind them “leave her alone Malfoy” Harry said letting go of her arm and pushing her behind him and into Lee “Yeah Malfoy leave Artie alone she didnt do anything wrong” Lee told the three boys who were trying to tower over her pushing her to Fred and George “and just what are you going to do about it Potter! Pathetic how you have first years protecting you dont you think?”

“Him? Hes going to do Nothing. Me? Im going to do This.” Artemis said turning him into a mouse and stomping her feet trying to but not trying to crush him she laughs. Then walks away as it scurried around once she was on the train she snapped her fingers and Malfoy turned back to normal “wicked” Fred and George said simultaneously “its creepy how you two can do that.” She and Harry said at the same time “now thats just wrong” George said with a shudder while Artemis and harry fist bumped each-other “do you know how long we’ve been practicing that?!” He said they all laughed “honestly you two need to give us more credit we’ve been practicing since i (she) got back from winter break” they say together again “stop! Thats creepy when you and harry do it!” George yells “Do what George? We’re not doing anything.” Harry and Artemis tilt their head to the left Fred just laughing at them “alright chosen one and child of destiny. Sit down before you give George a heart attack” Fred laughs “did you guys script this out?” Lee asks as Fred sits next to her in the middle of the bench “no. We didnt. Not at first” Artemis started “but then we thought itd be fun to prank Fred and George” Harry said sitting next to Fred nearest the door “so we planned it and now we’re here” Artie said “and its quite fun speaking like this” Harry said smiling “i think we’re going to keep doing it” Artie and Harry say together with a smile “its actually a charm Artemis came up with. With you two in mind” Harry said “we call it the insync” they say together as Artemis pulls out her wand undoing the charm “Finite” she whispered smiling “you are a brilliant” Fred breathes out slinging an arm over her shoulders pulling her into him for a side hug “teach us later?” George asks “why? You guys are already insync.” “Yeah. But imagine if we get Charlie in on this how creepy that would be for mum and dad” George laughed she smirked “fine. Only if im captain when we play quidditch back at the burrow” she muses leaning her head on the window watching the trees.

  “Guys, i think shes asleep” Harry said as he leaned up to look at her “she is, she usually sleeps while on the train.” George smiles lightly “she’ll be alright with you three then?” Harry asks “shes always alright with us Potter. We’ve been with her since our first year” Lee said with a soft smile “we’d die before we’d let anything happen to our Artemis. Some more so than others” lee insinuated while looking at Fred who unconsciously put his hand on her thigh not listening to the conversation “OI” harry whisper yelled Fred snapping his head to his direction “youre good for her, like really good for her. Protect her Weasley. Do not let her out of your sight. Protect my god sister.” he smiles as he walked out of the cabin Fred smiled “with my life Potter” he sighed “with my life” he looked over to her Harry smiled and into the one with Ron and Hermione “he’s right you know.” Lee commented “what are you on about Lee?” Fred asks “she told me about Lucious after you two got out of the hospital wing before the boggart in defense against the dark arts. She cried on my lap because you were sleeping and didnt want me to wake you. She asked me to pet her hair and let her cry” He continued “she wouldve never done that before” he sighed out “she said her nightmare woke her up and she needed someone when she came to our room she saw you two sleeping and me reading in bed. i said ‘okay, lets go downstairs’ she sat next to me and put her head on my lap and started to cry. ‘It was Lucious again’ she said her voice hoarse from crying Lees hand came to her hair as she closed her eyes just playing with the soft curls ‘i was back in the dungeons and he flung me into the wall again… i felt my leg snap… the heat of the crucio…” she said softer to him ‘youre safe Artie. Im here for you. We all are do you want me to wake Fred up?’ Lee asked ‘no…. I just got out of the hospital wing he’ll drag me back there and this is the first time hes actually asleep not pretending to sleep so he could watch me to wake me up’ she said as tears spilled down her face ‘wanna talk about it somemore?’ He asked softer ‘i feel so broken this shouldnt be effecting me so much’ she said ‘love. Listen to me.

Its effecting you the right amount. You are traumatized and thats okay. Nightmares are okay’ Lee cooed ‘im sorry im putting all of this on you Lee’ she cried ‘hey. Youre my best friend too. This falls in that jurisdiction of best friend duties and if you need to lay in my lap while i play with your hair as you cry? Guess what we’re doing. Sitting here in front of the fire. Just like this while i play with your hair letting you cry’ ‘he was so close to killing me Lee… he almost used the curse’ she said softly ‘he almost used Avada’ Lee asked softly ‘he said he was going to invite the Weasleys over.. and make me watch… before killing me starting with the twins’ she cried he looked down at her ‘is that what your nightmares are about? Him getting the twins?’ She shook her head ‘mostly him getting Fred… he was the first person that ever got me to open up…the first person that told me i was pretty.. hes’ ‘hes our best friend youre more than pretty Artemis and you are worth it’ lee finished for her as she nodded ‘nothings going to happen to the Weasleys Artemis, youre safe. We’re all safe’ he smiled down at her ‘get some sleep please, i’ll carry you back to bed when youre asleep’ he smiled at her she nodded it wasnt just George and Charlie she was scared of losing. Its you. Youre who’s shes scared the most of losing” Lee told Fred shaking the memory from his head “you and her? are closer than you think you are” she lets put a sigh taking her head off the window and on to the back of the bench

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That summer she decided to write Apollo with Fred and George’s support of course ‘Dear Apollo,

I know its weird getting a letter from me six years after we’ve been separated, Happy late 14th birthday Kaneleo, i miss you more than words could explain. Good news i’ve inherited Grandma’s flat and legally i can care for the both of us. Mums trust is split and i got Grandmothers vault when i turned fourteen. You can choose, have uncle Jake bring you to me, or you can stay with him. I wont turn your life upside down. Im staying with my friends family for the summer on the insistence of their mom. But i plan to return to grandmas after next term. Write me back i wanna catch up baba. Even if its just through letters. I miss you. So much and I miss mum. And dad. Dad mostly. I still sing you dream on in my dreams. I hope your childhood was amazing, Love always,

Artemis

A red envelope landed in her lap from America George and Fred give her a sympathetic look as she tears the seal on the howler open taking a deep breath out fully expecting her brother to cuss her out Fred places his hand on her thigh squeezing it comfortingly 

ARTEMIS KAHALIALAULANI NALEOPILIMEHANA BLACK!

YOU HAVE SOME EXPLAINING TO DO OLD LADY! I WAKE UP AND YOU ARE NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!! HOW DARE YOU NOT SAY GOODBYE! DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I CRIED OVER YOU! OF COURSE IM COMING BACK TO YOU YOU GIGANTIC LŌLŌ HEAD! IM GOING TO GUT YOU WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON YOU YOURE MY TWIN FOR CRYING OUT LOUD HOW COULD YOU! He takes a deep breath I know Uncle and Aunty said that it was to protect me. But it did hurt Li’a of course I chose you. They say that its my choice and I want to stay with you. Uncle Jake will be bringing me back to England a week before term starts he wrote to Dumbledore to enroll me. I cant wait to see you! Aunt and Uncle had a son around our age three years younger than us his name is Rolf. Cool kid if you think about it i miss you way too much. Aunt Altair said that I remind her of mum. But whenever I think back to what mom looks like all I see is you. Me and you at Grandmas. We were just kids when she died, and you stepped up Uncle and Aunt are great… but their not you Lia. I need you back. He breathed out Ive included some pictures of the places we’ve been the animals we’ve seen. Reminds me of mums niffler that she kept in her bag. do you still have her bag? And what was with you around Christmas time? I had to ice my left leg for a month! Uncle Rolf and Aunt Altair cant wait to see you as well they asked to ask where to bring me. Let me know please Lia AND IF YOU EVER DISAPPEAR AGAIN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT I WILL KILL YOU WITH MY BEAR HANDS YOU HEAR ME!!! SEE YOU IN TWO AND A HALF MONTHS!

                           Apollo

Molly walked into the living room as the red envelope tore itself up “you okay love?” Fred asked “hes coming?” She asked with tears in her eyes “hes really coming?” Tears falling down her face “thats what he yelled” George smiled at her “what was all that racket!” She yelled “oh Mrs. Weasley im sorry, that was my brother. Is it okay if he comes to stay for the last week of summer? Or we could go back to Grimmuald place” she said looking down “are you kidding? Of course he can stay. I’ll put a bed in mine and Fred’s room” George rolled his eyes “its Family Artemis” he rolled his eyes leaving the room Molly just smiled “its no issue dearey” she smiled 

Hey Lia bug

its great that you and your brother are finally corresponding, im glad he wants to come stay with you its nice knowing that you wont be alone in that house next summer. Before you ask Romania is wonderful. Theres this girl from Oahu thats staying in my cabin. Her name is Haukea. But she goes by snow. Its funny how that worked out. Shes funny and amazing with the dragons. I think youd like her. Bill came to visit as well hes worried about you. Wanted you to write him. Have you told mum about Apollo yet? Dont tell anyone but im planning on coming home at the end of summer to see Ginny off. That includes the twins hopefully Apollos there when i get there it would be nice to meet him. 

                            Charlie

Apollo,

The place im staying at is in Devon. With the Weasley family Molly says its alright for you to come at the end of summer i cant wait for you to meet everyone especially Fred and George followed by Harry Hermione Ron and Ginny, youll probably be rooming with Fred and George when you get here. Theyre twins like us! And great people. Hows things going over in america? Are you having fun? We played quidditch yesterday and i knocked George off his broom getting the golf ball we used for a snitch. We won against him and Ron. Ron wasnt too happy about losing. Maybe aunt Altair and Uncle Jacob can play a round before they leave back to america. I cant wait to see you. Just a couple of weeks left baby baba

                     Artemis,

Hey Duchess,

Charlie’s told me about Apollo and that we should coordinate trips back home to see our favorite non sister sister. His words not mine. Would it be possible for you to show me how to make that wondrous breakfast you made two years ago? Ive been craving it since last Christmas are your nightmares getting any better? What about the aftermath of the chamber? You and Harry try to stay out of trouble okay? I’ll see you when Charlie does. 

              Bill, Duke of Ginny’s tea party

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Artemis smiles at her latest letter sitting up in a tree near the burrow about to respond when George comes walking out of the back door tossing an apple up to her “did Apollo give you a time of arrival?” He asked as he started to climb up the tree to sit with her “yeah. Hes coming tomorrow at 9.” She said taking a bite “why are you out here all by your lonesome?” He asked biting his own honey crisp apple “can i show you?” He nods holding out his hand she takes it and he feels fear and tightness in his chest and the darkness that used to be the dungeon “im enjoying what i can of the light before its gone” she whispers out taking her hand back “youre afraid of the dark and cramped spaces?” He asked she nods slightly “Freddie Ron and i are going to rescue Harry tonight” George smiled “if there was enough room in the car i would invite you. But theres not. Sorry about that Artie” she smiles at him as they hear a pop “thats okay. Looks like my company for the night has just arrived “LIA BUG!” Charlie yelled from the gate “CHARLIE BEAR!” She yelled back as Mrs Weasley came out of the burrow “WILLIAM WEASLEY!” She shrieked as she ran engulfing her sons into a hug George looks at her “you knew they were coming?” “They wanted it to be a surprise” Artemis shrugged as George jumpped down hugging Bill than Charlie “come on now Duchess.” Bill said with a smile helping her down off the tree “five thirty A.M sharp at the kitchen ive already bought all the ingredients” she smiles at Bill Molly cocked an eyebrow “she promised to show me how to make her christmas breakfast so we’re cooking breakfast tomorrow youre not allowed to lift a single finger mum” Bill said leading his mom inside of the house “what are you two doing here?” She smiled as they sat down at the table “we wanted to meet Apollo. Check on Artie after winter since she wouldnt let me come when it happened” Charlie said cocking an eyebrow at her

“i promise youll be my birthing coach when i give birth some day. You’ll be right by my head hopefully making sure the father doesnt pass out will that make it up to you?” She cocks an eye brow at him “yes. Yes it does. Will the baby be named after me?” He asked “that we’ll have to see mr.” She tutted “its good to see you Lia Bug” he hugs her again “you too Charlie. Ive missed you” she said holding on tight “i brought you something from Romania” he said holding out a mirror to her “its a two way mirror. I sent the other half to Fred earlier this week. He told me to get it for you so you could call him from Grimmuald place.” Charlie smiled “heres the second one that ones for me. And Bill got you a muggle device that he uses when he’s in muggle egypt.” He said handing her the gifts. “Guys. You didnt have too” she smiled “of course we did!” Bill said “you get into too much trouble otherwise.” He rolled his eyes “you wound me sir” she giggled Midnight rolled around and Artemis was sitting on the sofa when Ron and the twins came down the stairs “so you three leaving then?” She said softly not wanting to stir Charlie awake she stands facing the three boys “don’t try and stop us!” Ron said rather loudly “calm down Ronnie. Save my little brother” she said hugging him moving to George “Keep them safe. Dont let Fred do anything dumb. Get Harry here safe” she whispered in his ear “always love” he whispered back to her she looks up to Fred “drive safe. Come back safe.” She said jumping into his arms “dont worry Artie. Its just going to London and back” “thats exactly why I’m driving.” Charlie’s voice called out she yelped “just when did you wake up” she whispered letting go of Fred who’s cheeks were bright red “‘dont try and stop us!’ Charlie mimicked Rons voice “lets go” he said as he walked out the door “nice going Ron” Fred scowled “we’ll be right back love” Fred smiled hugging her one last time “be safe” he nods “see you in a few hours” he softly said walking out the back door she snapped her fingers and the house started to clean itself thirty minutes later Bill walks into the kitchen as she was finishing up the side dishes of breakfast “Ready?” She asks him as he puts on an apron “as ready as I’ll ever be” he smiles “first, I split the English muffins and or bagels” she smiles as he helps her “the oven’s pre heated to 350 degrees toast the bread boil two parts water one part vinegar” “once its boiling make a tornado and crack an egg three minutes fish it out fry your ham after your eggs you assemble” she watches him as he puts it all together “good. Good, now this is the best part” she smiled “three egg yolks a stick of butter white vinegar put a bowl over boiling water and mix egg yolk and vinegar with butter adding that slowly until its thickened add a pinch of salt to taste” she hands him the bowl “pour over and youre done” she smiled as five people walked through the side door “WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN! CAR GONE! BEDS EMPTY! CHARLES SEPTIMUS WEASLEY! Harry dear its so good to see you” “IT WASNT HIS FAULT MUM! We had to rescue him! They were starving him and there were bars on his window!” “you best be glad I dont put bars on your window Ronald Weasley!” “Hey Lia smells great you didnt let Bill mess it up did you?” Charlie kissed her head grabbing a plate “yeah. He did well” she said as she sat down sipping her tea she stands up and hugs Harry “you didnt write me back” she frowned “it wasnt my choice. A house elf named Dobby said I couldn’t go back to Hogwarts “wait Dobby? The Malfoy’s elf?” She asked with an eyebrow cocked “sit. Eat you two” Molly smiled “MORNING WEASLEYS! Artemis” “MORNING DAD (mr. weasley)” as they continued to eat conversations continuing

Half way through breakfast there was a knock at the door her breath caught in her throat as Molly walked to the front door “whats going on?” Harry asked as Artemis stood up fidgeting hands “her brother is choosing to stay with her” George whispered to Harry she feels glued to her spot standing “Come in! Come in! We’re just eating breakfast!” Molly says as she ushered the three people in a boy the same hight as the twins stood in between two adults immediately locked eyes with Artemis they stood there looking at each other tears filled his eyes “Apollo…..” She breathed at the same time they ran and hugged eachother he picked her up by her waist rocking her slightly “Artie…” he cried lowering her back to her feet “ive missed you so much” he breathed “I smell eggs Bennys. Did you make it?” He asked she nodded she looked to her aunty “Artemis…” she hugged “you look just like Athena” she breathed “hello Uncle” she hugged him “alright. We’ll be off, Write us Apollo. And you too Artemis” Altair said apparating out of the house “hey, im Apollo, younger twin, mastermind, only person that has successfully pranked Artemis when we were four” he said ruffling her hair “shut up baba.’ She shakes her head “eat your food. Thats Mr and Mrs. Weasley, Bill the oldest, Charlie bear, the second, Percy third, Fred and George” “she told me so much about you two” “Ron and Harry, and Ginny’s upstairs” she smiles  when an owl flies into the window “and that would be Errol” Molly rolls her eyes as Percy takes the envelopes “Hogwarts letters! Harry Artemis’s and Apollo’s are here too” Percy called out handing the letters to each of them. “Thank you ma’am” Apollo said “oh heavens dear, its Molly” she patted his cheek “would you like some more food harry?” “You still never told me how you knew Dobby the house elf” he said as she scooped another scoop into his plate “oh. I used to live with him” “you used to live with him” “things didnt change for you?!?” Harry and Apollo said at the same time anger evident in his voice “what do you mean things didnt change?” Harry asked Apollo “Artie dont tell me while i was living a good life you were being someone elses house slave” he growled at her George shuddered first “Artemis and Harry now Apollo and Harry what coincidence is this” George whispered to Fred she snapped her fingers and appeared in the living room she levitated her plate to herself and snapped back to her seat

“Artemis please!” Apollo raised his voice pleading with her to deny that his worse fears are true “mate….” Fred started she put a hand on his arm she breathes out giving him a soft smile then looking to Apollo “lets talk outside Baba, theres a lot that we need to catch up on” she smiles as she gets up he follows her outside she stops at the door “excuse us,” Artemis smiled “What happened to you Artie?” He asked as the two of them sat down on a rock near the pond “i got sent to live with the Malfoys.” She said slowly “im going to show you” she whispered she held out her hand he took it and showed him her life since 7 years old he grips her hand “he beat you within an inch of your life” “yeah. I was going to kill myself when i got back to school. Instead… Fred brought me to Pomfreys and stayed the six months i had to stay. He never left my side and when he did. He left George in his place” she shrugged “Fred stayed with you?” He asked still holding her hand to his cheek “he protected you? Hes who i have to thank?” She cocks her head to the side nodding they talked everything through and Apollo listened he learned about everything Fred George and the Weasleys have done for her “why did do the animagus spell?” He asked “to be closer to dad” “i guess we are alike arent we?” “You?” He nodded to her she smiled “predator or prey?” She asked “predator, you?” “Predator” she smiled “so its Fred?” He asked her “Apollo” she shook her head “i dont want to break him” she whispered “Artie the bloke saved your life” “so?” “So are you kidding me Lōlō head hes the one that kept you safe for me i owe him everything” as he rushes back to the house “which ones Fred?” He asks the set of two “that would be him” George points to the left of him he grabs Freds wrist and pulls him into a hug “not complaining man… but whats this for?” He asks slowly putting a hand on his back “you saved my sister” he breathed out “you watched her. And protected her. You saved her” he hugged tighter “i did what a good friend wouldve?” He questioned “Apollo. Let go of Fred” she shook her head. “Sorry about that Freddie. He gets emotional sometimes. Or atleast he used to when we were kids.” She said as she walked passed him “when are we going for school supplies?” Artemis asked the twins “mums taking us tomorrow” George said as he walked upstairs “come on mate. I’ll show you to our room” George called out to Apollo. Artemis crossed her arms “if i get pranked youre going to regret it Gideon” she threatened lightly with a smile on her face “come on. Lets go play that game of quidditch” he smiled “race you up the stairs last one up does the washing up after dinner!” Fred yelled as he pushed her out of the way she snapped her fingers and appeared two steps ahead of him “YOU LITTLE MINX THATS CHEATING!” He yelled “YOU DIDNT SAY I COULDNT DO IT!” She said with a laugh  “who knew you both could play Quidditch so well” Charlie shook his head “youre the best seeker ive ever seen Lia” he complemented “why thank you charlie “and you. You make a good chaser Apollo, please call me Leonahe” he smiled to Charlie “im going to go take a shower” Artemis smiled as she closed the bathroom door “so. Who wants to learn how to prank my sister” Apollo smiles to the two boys sitting on the pull out bed “we’re in!” Fred and George say at the same time “wheres her room?” He asks they take him to her room he grabs something out of his pocket “one in each corner of the room” he smiled pulling out his wand floating two more above the door and another in each of the corners “now. We wait” he said a few moments later she opens the door and then she smells it “APOLLO!!!!” She yells as the stink bombs go off she sees the three boys standing outside her door “i cant even be mad” Artemis sighs as she looks between the three of them “you guys really suck you know that?” She smiles shaking her head jumping on her brothers back he easily catches her “now youre getting stink all over me” he groans “paybacks a bitch baba” she snickers

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Artemis’s screams fill the floor of the house they shared “NO STOP! FRED! GEORGE!! DONT HURT THEM! KILL ME INSTEAD LEAVE THEM ALONE! CHARLIE!” Her anguished screams pulled Fred from his sleep “Shit Artemis” he looked to George and Apollo jumping out of bed and running to her room “FRED! FRED GEORGE! CHARLIE! NO!” She screamed Charlie and Bill already outside her door about to open it Fred shoves them to the side as he bursted through the door with the group of boys behind him he jumps on the bed and pulls her into him George sits on the other side of her rubbing her back as Fred spoke “wake up baby girl. We’re okay. Wake up its just a dream” he whispered in her ear as she fought against his grip “Artemis its me. It’s Fred, its Fred and George its me wake up” he cooed rubbing her arms leaning back on the head board “Freddie? George? Charlie?” She looked around the room both boys pulled her into a big hug she let out a shakey breath “we’re here Artemis. He didnt get us. We’re alright. We’re right here.” George whispered holding her “you two got this then?” Bill whispered “we’ve got her Bill, you and Charlie get back to bed” George called as she balled up her fist in Freds pajama top crying letting the smell of cinnamon and fireworks take her “call us if you need anything” Charlie said glancing between the two boys “i’ll call you.” Fred said as the two oldest boys walked out of the room Apollo sits on the end of the bed “Lia?” He called “please stay…” she sobbed into Freds chest “dont leave me” she looked back to George, Apollo, and Fred “stay please” she cried again “we’re staying” the three boys said together “come on. I know what always made you feel better after a night mare” Apollo said pulling the covers so everyone was under the duvet him laying across the foot of the bed head propped up on his fist Artemis’s head on Freds chest the twins arms under her head and around her waist protectively “island baby… youre so beautiful… you drive me crazy you know youre all that i need so much more” Apollo sang to her as she relaxed in the twins arms Fred kissed her fore head “your strength and beauty i can see in your eyes. I loose sight of my world baby love no words can hold whats truly on my mind” Fred took over for Apollo who raised an eyebrow at him “just feel the beat of my heart and youll know what i need” George continued “youre my Pualena. Youre so beautiful god knows i love you and youre all i need pualena you take my breath away pualena” they sang together “you know lately” George starts “all i think about is holding you closely and never leaving your side I’ll keep you warm” Apollo sings holding her toe she giggles at him “time passes by and still youre on my mind i cant imagine living my life without you cause” Fred sings in her ear “the special moments you and i can only share will keep us together and never apart” Fred and George sing “youre my pualena” Apollo moves his head to her thighs her hand comes down to play with his hair “youre so beautiful” George sings “god knows i love you” Fred “and youre all i need” Apollo she closes her eyes and breathes out once she was asleep Apollo looked up at the twins who were still awake “how did you two know the song?” He asked quietly “we didnt at first” george breathed out flipping over with his back turned toward Artemis “she sang it constantly, in her bag. In the halls. Here. Class. We just picked up on the words” Fred breathed out as she cuddled more into him bringing his hand to brush through her hair “she said she wouldve killed herself if it wasnt for you and George staying with her.. taking her to Pomfreys” he sighed out

“shes staying because she loves you. She loves one of you and all of you” he says to the air “and with how fast you two Bill and Charlie got here and are choosing to stay with her on a tiny bed you love her too dont you?” Apollo asked “shes my best friend. The love i have for her is the kind of love thats friendly.” George sighed out yawning “im in love with her.” Fred whispered George snapped his head to his brother “youre finally admitting it to yourself there Gred?” “Shut up Forge” Fred shook his head he looked back to Apollo who was intent on him “i think ive always been in love with her. That first prank. A girl that could easily make my brothers laugh.. the way she played with my sister… when she smiles at me…. Her…” He sighed out “but i cant… Not yet. I want her to know that she doesnt need me to pick up her pieces for her and she can do it without someone there i want her to understand that shes strong enough, Brave enough, smart enough, And shes worth it for herself i dont want to overwhelm her by telling her how i feel im afraid its going to be too much too soon. And i break her” he absent mindedly played with her hair as she breathed out slumping more into him he smiles down at her “im not ready to lose her completely when shes fixing herself im here to help her and thats enough for me right now i dont deserve her the way i want her. She can find someone so much better someone who can give her the world” he whispered “thats exactly why you deserve her” Apollo whispered out to him “she looks at you.. she looks at you the way my mom looked at my dad in her wedding picture” he sighed out quietly accio ing the picture from the bag handing it to him “your mom was really pretty” George said as they looked at the picture of Athena and Sirius dancing “she kind of looks like him… but with your moms lips and eyes” Fred said as he studied the picture “See that look?” He pointed to his moms face “that look is how she looks at you” Apollo sighs out laying on his back looking up at the roof of the room “the old ladys in love” he mumbled “shes doing it all for you and your siblings because shes in love with you and your family. The way she treats Mrs. Weasley is the same way she used to be with my mom. But more…. Grown up?” He questions “she gave up her childhood for yours. She loves you” Fred thought out loud “she sacrificed her well being for Harry and my younger brother. She loves them.”  Fred pulls her closer “i want to give her everything” he sighed out “everything that shes missed” “because you love her” Apollo smiled “i like you.  And George. Your whole family saved her. Im happy she has all of you” “why are you saying like we dont have you too? Give yourself more credit Leonahe.” George asked “mums already making you a Christmas sweater from the first Howler you sent her. Youre not just a friend. Youre family.” George sighed out “Mrs. Weasley doesnt have to do that” he said softly

“she wants to. If mum had her way Artemis wouldnt leave this house ever again. You shouldve seen what happened the day she got back to Hogwarts from winter break. Mum was ready to strangle Narcissa” Fred whispered “only when Artemis agreed to Sunday dinners and Molly as an emergency contact did she agree to let Artemis go back to Grimmuald place, or atleast thats what she said” he continued “i asked her to stay” soft snores of George filled the room as they talked “shes stubborn. I know why she cant. It just sucks that i wasnt enough for her to stay.” Fred sighed “its not because you arent enough. Its because she needs to do this. She needs to get her closure. She needs to work some things out i dont know how much shes showed you or told you” “she showed me glimpses of everything. Nothing in too much detail. Other than winter break.” Fred said “our grandmother… she was mean. And filled our head with false information of our dad and mom. She hid most of my dads possessions in the mannor. Whatever mum didnt have the things he left behind when he ran away and get away in time.” Apollo sighed out “papers that proved his innocence. She wants to go back and find them she wants our family back she thinks that if she gets us back.. she’ll become whole again. But she doesnt see it. You. You your brothers and sister your parents. You made her whole. She is whole. Shes been that. Because of you. All of her happy memories she showed me?? Had you and George in them and some with Charlie. But most of them was you Fred ‘you protect her Potter do not let her out of your sight!’ That changed her”

Apollo sighed out “she told me you asked her to stay and she wanted to say yes. She cried that she said no. She wanted to stay with you. But this is something that she has to do.” “Then you know what she dreams about?” He asks yawning “yeah…. I know what shes dreaming about….. she told me about the boggart. And Lee. He sounds nice” Apollo sighed out “handsome too” he shifted on the bed closing his eyes “believe me when i say youre more than enough. My sister doesnt give her heart out. She never did. Not even to me. The things she told you. Shes never told me.” He yawns “goodnight Gred” Fred chuckles “she was right. I like you a lot” “i dont think you swing this way” he chuckled

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Molly opens the bedroom door looking in “she had a nightmare last night” Charlie called from his door she looks from Charlie back to the bed where Fred, Artemis, George ans Apollo are sleeping with Apollo laid out across their legs Artemis’s legs draped over Georges torso and her head on Freds as loud snores filled the room “she… she dreams about the things that happen” he explained more as he walked into the room shaking Apollo’s shoulder waking him slowly “Im sorry i didnt mean to disrespect you mr. Mcmiggen” he murmered as he shot up from the bed Charlie shaking the twins awake who wake Artemis “come on time for breakfast you four” Charlie said as he brushed his hand through Artemis’s hair “Charlie” she smiles “hey Lia you okay?” He asked “better now” she smiled at him softly he shares that smile “lets go eat” he smiled turning to walk out of the room “piggy back ride?” She asked Fred who was standing up next to Charlie he laughed “lets go” he said turning around  she wrapped her arms around his shoulders as he lifted her off the bed “ready?” Fred asked looking over his shoulder to her she smiled and nodded “lets go” he laughed as he ran down the stairs Artemis yelps in glee as he rounds the corner catching Arthurs attention he looked to his oldest twin “whats happening here” Arthur smiles “oh nothing Dad. Artie just wanted the royal treatment” Fred said adjusting her on his back as he walked into the kitchen putting her down in her chair he sits down next to her as they talk “theyre like us arent they Molls?” Arthur asked as his wife stood next to him in the living room “more like James and Lily” she smiled to her husband he looks at her “ten sickles” he smirked at his wife “youre on. I say sixth year. After a big fight” she challenged “i say by the end of next year. Romantic gesture on Freds part” Arthur bets “ten more sickles says she asks him” Charlie said “i bet 2 galleons he messes up and she snaps his head off telling him off while admitting her feelings this coming school year” Bill bet “looks like we have a bet” Arthur smiled at his wife and oldest boys watching the two sets of twins bicker in the kitchen “looks like the books are going to be expensive this year mum” Percy said as they all ate “we’ll manage “i’ll buy the books this year” Artemis said as she cut Molly off “absolutely not!” She argued “Molly you took care of me all summer this is the least i can do. Besides. Its books. I spend my money on books anyway” she shrugged “i get the books. You get the quills and ink pots” she smiled “that way you can get Ginny and Ron new robes this year” Artemis smiled “well if shes buying the books I’ll get the robes” Apollo said “Artemis. Apollo. No, we can manage” Molly argued “im sorry Mrs. Weasley but this isnt something that can be compromised on. Artemis is getting the books. I will get the robes for everyone.” Apollo said with a smile

“may i please be included in on the family dinners on Sundays when we move to our grandmothers house?” He asks her with soft eyes “you were always invited Apollo. So is Harry.” She smiled “i guess our hands are tied Arthur.” Molly sighed as she shook her head before they left Molly insisted they all bundle up Fred knocked on Artemis’s door “hey” he said walking in “hey Freddie” she smiled at him as she pulled on her sweat shirt “you were right. I do like him” he smiled “hes great. I finally got you” he smiled “first and last time Weasley” she said playfully she turns to him and looks him in his eye her smile dropped as she looked at him his face turned with turmoil  “Apollo told you… didnt he?” He nodded her heart dropped “Fred….” “If you ever feel like that ever again. And i mean ever. Artemis i want you to come to me. I want to help you. I want you to call me. Owl me. Floo to where i am. Please. I cant… i cant lose you Artie. I cant” he breathes out she wrapped her arms around his torso “i promise you wont lose me” she whispered looking up at him he huffed as he hugged her “i promise i’ll come to you. I promise youre the first to know. I promise i wont leave you” she closed her eyes he leaned his forehead on hers “okay” his voice cracked “lets get down stairs” he pulled away from her smiling she nodded linking their arms together 

[samanthadalton]

Star Crossed Lovers (part 14)

Do my eyes deceive me???? part 14???? we did it. im so sorry its taken forever, i will try my best to be more consistent with my writing. love yall for being patient with me it means the most. thank you, thank you. 

warnings: throughout this fic there will be mentions of substance abuse, homophobia, sexual abuse, violence, NSFW, mentions of abandonment, depression and death including suicide

reader discretion is advised

warnings: angst, swearing (lots of it) 

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word count: 4k (i feel like its short considering how long it took me to write but i still hope you guys enjoy) (also i didnt check for grammatical errors properly so sorry if you find any) 

part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4 part 5 part 6 part 7 part 8 part 9 part 10 part 11 part 12 part 13

The first steps to moving on 

“Bea please,” Poppy whispers, a repentant look creeping up to her face as she looks away from her girlfriend. “It can’t wait.” 

Bea sighs, her shoulders slumping as the last remains of her anger disseminates from her body. “Okay fine, lead the way babe.” 

Poppy stiffens that the pet name but she doesn’t let her awkwardness slip as she leads Bea to a secluded classroom, far away from prying eyes. Both her and Bea turn to look at each other, and both simultaneously open their mouths to talk. 

“I know you wanted to tell-” 

“We need to talk-” 

Both clamp their lips shut, a mutual smile playing on their lips as they look at one another. 

“You go first,” Poppy gestures towards Bea, as she moves to sit on the edge of a desk. 

Bea inhales softly, her tongue darts out licking her lips as she looks down at the ground, her face calculating. “Why does Chloe hate me?” She looks up to Poppy, her eyes boring into the strawberry blonde’s, sadness swimming inside of them, “I just don’t get what I’ve done for her to hate me.” 

Poppy sighs heavily, her eyes awkwardly darting away from Bea’s. “It’s complicated Bea.” 

“Complicated?” Bea lets out a humourless laugh, “I almost just went off on Chloe after she gave her condolences for my mom dying because I just felt she wasn’t genuine and you wanna tell me it's complicated?” 

Poppy sharply inhales, contemplating for a few moments before saying, “it’s because of your mom.” 

Bea scrunches her brows up in confusion, “my mom? What the hell does she have to do with this?” 

Poppy ineptly plays with her hands, not being able to look Bea in her eyes, “at first it was just a classist thing. When you first came to Belvoire, she just wanted to make herself feel superior over you, but in the last year you’ve noticed her getting more mean right?” 

“Right.” Bea stares at Poppy, her expression emotionless. 

“Chloe’s parents have been fighting non stop recently, and it’s been affecting her a lot.” 

Bea’s brows furrow in confusion, “what does that have to do with me or my mom?” 

“Just let me explain first before you react, please.” Bea’s eyes bore into Poppy’s for a few seconds before she nods understandingly. “Her dad cheated on her mom. A lot of times actually. But he was blackmailed by one of the women he slept with.” Poppy pauses for a few seconds, “your mom.” 

Bea lets out a shaky breath, her eyes blinking in disbelief, “no, you’re lying.” 

Poppy nervously bites her bottom lip, “look Bea-” 

“How long have you known?”

Poppy’s face scrunches up in anger, “this isn’t my fault Bea. I only found out that day I went to talk to Chloe about us. Chloe made me promise not to say anything to you-” 

“Poppy! My mom OD and I don’t even know why. And now you’re telling me she was blackmailing the St James family and it doesn’t occur to you that might have had something to do with her death?” 

“They’re not the fucking mafia Bea, jesus. They were trying to settle it quietly by giving your mom some money and make her sign some stuff so she couldn't threaten them anymore.” 

The devastating ramification of Poppy’s admission hangs in the air as the two girls let the words settle into them. “Chloe really is sorry about your mom Bea, we all are.” 

Bea sighs, staring off into space, as a few tears begin to fill up in her eyes. “I just don’t know what to do.” Bea begins sniffling, but Poppy makes no movement to console her girlfriend. Bea notices and her expression sobers, “so, uh what did you wanna tell me?” Bea sniffs a few more times, before looking up at Poppy, giving her a small encouraging smile. 

Poppy looks away, guilt creeping up on her face, as she tries her damndest not to catch Bea’s small smile on her face. “Bea…”. Bea carefully assesses her girlfriend’s demeanour, noticing the similar body language during when they first asked to take a break, she thinks back to the last couple of days, she had barely heard from her girlfriend, and now she’s not affectionate, even after she almost had a mental breakdown in the middle of the hallway and her smile drops. “We have to break up,” Poppy says, her tone so monotone and dry as if she didn’t mean the words she was saying at all. 

“I don’t understand,” is all Bea can muster, evidently hurt by Poppy’s admission. Poppy winces slightly at Bea’s tone, finally breaking her robotic demeanour as she lets out a few sniffles. “So is that it? We have to break up,” Bea retorts mockingly, “is that all I get after all these years?” 

“Bea..” Poppy reaches out but Bea immediately takes a step back, tears flooding in her eyes. 

“No,” she holds her hands up, “I don’t get it, things are going good, or at least whatever twisted definition of good we’ve made up. Where the hell did this come from?” 

“Bea my dad-” 

“Of course! Hayden Min fucking Sinclair had something to do with this. Why do you still live under his shadow? You talk all this shit about breaking out of your father’s prison and wanting to achieve your own goals but he sucks you back in.” 

“That’s not fair Bea,” Poppy interjects, balling her hands up into fists in an attempt to subdue her trembling, “my dad has given me so much and he’s threatening to take it all away.” 

“Yeah, all you have to do is get rid of me. Me or the Min Sinclair name.” 

“Bea this is the life I have, okay I’m not like you, I’m not built like you.” 

“So what? I can grow up without a dad and now without a mom but it’s okay because I’m used to pain and disappointment?” 

“I didn’t mean it like that, you have a plan, things you can achieve, I need the Min Sinclair name, I’m nothing without it.” 

“Wow.” Bea shakes her head, “So I just meant nothing?” Bea wildy throws her arms in the air, anger bubbling under the surface of her demeanour. “We’ve practically been together since we were kids. And you’re just gonna fucking throw that away? And for what? Fuck you Poppy.” 

Poppy takes half a step back, dumbfounded by Bea’s outburst. She scrunches her brows, evidently hurt, “you don’t get it Bea. Even though your mom wasn’t the best, she still supported you, even if you didn’t know about it. My dad he- my mom what would she think?” 

“Your mom? Poppy what kind of shit is your dad brainwashing you with? Your mom is dead! You have no idea how she would react to having a gay daughter, but I know she’s probably disappointed in you.” 

“Fuck you Bea.”Poppy runs out of the classroom, tears streaming down her face, leaving Bea on her own. 

“Shit,” Bea whispers to herself before throwing a bunch of punches at the wall, each more cathartic than the last until she can’t physically hold herself up anymore. Bea defeatedly slides into a chair, cradling her head in between her hands, letting the tears free fall, as reality begins setting in that she lost the one thing in the world that was her everything. Poppy Min Sinclair was her rock, the girl who she gave her heart to, the love of her life and just in a matter of moments it was over. Maybe it was too good to be true. The beautiful, perky popular rich girl and the girl who had almost nothing, complete polar opposites, it never should’ve worked. But time and time again when faced against the world they persevered so why was this time different? Poppy had chosen her namesake over the love of her life. She chose the life of glitz and glamour over the girl who gave her her entire heart. Bea feels her entire world crashing down, how much more heartbreak could she take? Was her life always going to be so hard? So full of hurt? Full of pain? She winces at the thought, her head hammering as she comes to the realisation that she understood her mother’s pain more than she thought. 

…. 

Bea hops off her bike, parking it in front of her house, as she pulls her phone out to look at the time. ‘It’s lunch time,’ she thinks to herself. After the day she had today, school wasn’t the best option for her right now. She makes her way to her front door but stops in her tracks when she realises her front door is slightly ajar. Her survival instincts kick in as she effortlessly pulls out her pocket knife, carefully pushing the door fully open. As she steps into the living room, her eyes dart to the closed door of her mother’s room, but when she hears a creaking sound coming towards her bedroom, she cautiously moves towards the source of the noise, the grip on her knife tightening. As she creeps up, she sees the door of her room half opened, a hooded figure standing by her bed with their back facing her. 

Bea stealthily sneaks up to the figure placing the knife a few inches from their throat before lowering her voice to a threatening tone, “who are you and what the fuck are you doing?” The figure gasps, dropping a bag that’s in their hands with a deafening thud before raising their hands in a sign of surrender. 

“It’s me, it’s me,” the voice whimpers out. 

“AJ?” Bea raises her eyebrows, retracting the knife from his throat while pulling down his hood with her other hand. “What the fuck are you doing?” Bea takes a step back while AJ scrambles grabbing the bag he just dropped moments before. When he turns to face Bea, his eyes are wide, filled with fear as he clutches the bag closely to his chest. 

“I have to go,” he says as he attempts to run out of the room, but Bea pulls him back, her face crumpled in suspicion. 

“No we’re not doing this, give me the bag now,” Bea snatches the bag out of his hands before he can protest and opens the zipper to find it filled with cash. She grits her teeth, anger settling into her features as she whips her head up to AJ, “is this my fucking money?” 

“Bea, I- I can explain-” 

“What the fuck AJ!” Bea throws the bag onto the bed, the cash spilling out as she jabs an accusing finger at AJ’s chest. “You’re stealing from me now? I haven’t seen you in god knows how long, you don’t call, text nothing. Even after everything that’s been happening in the last few weeks but you have the audacity to fucking steal from me? Money that I’ve spent years saving? Money that I’ve bussed my fucking ass off for, are you serious right now?” Bea’s voice is filled with rage as she’s practically screaming, her voice now thundering. AJ winces, guiltily averting his gaze to the ground, unable to meet Bea’s eyes. 

“I’m sorry about your mom Bea, I wanted to visit-” AJ croaks out.

“But you didn’t,” Bea interjects, her voice lowered but filled with hurt. “And now you’re taking money- I mean what is so important you had to steal from me.” 

AJ paces towards the bed, hanging his head in shame, when he speaks his voice is quiet, full of fear, “I’m in some bad shit Bea. These guys aren’t playing around.” 

“I told you not to fall into the wrong crowd, I warned you this shit would happen.” 

“Bea please, I’ll pay you back I just need it.” 

“No! What the fuck, when will you pay me back huh? This is my college money, I’m not letting you give that away to your crackhead friends.” 

“Bea please,” AJ clasps his hands together, his tone pleading, “I don’t know what to do.” 

“AJ I have too much shit on my plate right now, I can’t deal with this. You need to find something else, I can’t help you.” 

AJ’s face pales but he stands up, and makes his way towards the door, before leaving he turns to look back at Bea, “I’m sorry about everything.” 

Bea keeps her eyes trained on her bed where the money is sprawled all over the mattress, “yeah me too,” she replies quietly. Bea hears the front door close and she collapses to the ground, letting the tears flow. 

……

A few days later, Bea sits in her dark living room, curtains shut and lights completely off as she wallows in her sadness, drinking from a bottle of cheap beer, as she stares absentmindedly at the ceiling, so drowned in her thoughts she doesn’t hear the resounding knocks on her door until she hears a voice call out, “Bea! Are you there?” 

Bea crumples her brows, forcing herself to stand as she makes her way to the door, she wearily makes her way to her front door only slightly opening the door before poking her head out. “Veronica?” Veronica gives the girl a wide smile before pushing the door more open, ushering the figure behind her into the house too, “Carter? What are you guys doing here?’ 

Veronica looks around the dark room, noticing the pile of empty beer bottles on the floor, “yikes, drinking on your own on a friday night Hughes? That’s really sad.” Carter stands near the edge of the living room, as if he’s an explorer, his eyes darting all over the living room as he assesses this new environment. 

Bea on the other hand scowls at Veronica, “what the hell do you want Veronica, I’m not in the mood.” 

Veronica frowns slightly, pouting her lips together, “we heard about you and Poppy.” 

Bea rolls her eyes, “yeah well I’m trying to forget about her.” Bea picks up her beer bottle from the ground and makes a show by exaggeratingly drinking from the bottle until it's empty. She discards the empty bottle along with the other ones before turning to look at Veronica and Carter, “so if you’ll excuse me.” 

Veronica steps towards Bea, wrapping her hand around the brunette’s arm, “we’re not here for Poppy stupid, we’re here for you.” 

Bea raises an eyebrow, “for me?” 

Veronica turns to look at Carter, beckoning him forward, Carter breaks out of reverie and clears his throat, “yeah uh, we wanted to take you to a party.” 

“A party?” Bea looks between them confused, “I’m not that interested guys.”

“Wait, wait, wait Bea,” Veronica pleads, pulling Bea closer to her, “you’ve never been to a Belvoire party and the year is almost over, we thought we should take you to at least.” 

“I don’t know guys,” Bea says skeptically, “a lot of people don’t like me.” 

“Who gives a shit? You just had your heart broken and you need to let loose.” 

Bea sighs, pulling away from Veronica, “I don’t think it’s a good idea.” 

“Come on, it beats drinking in the dark on your own.” 

Bea sighs, dropping her shoulders, “what about uh Poppy?” 

“Poppy?” Veronica arches a brow, “her and Chloe are staying in tonight, she said she needed to catch up on homework or something.” 

Bea purses her lips together in thought before sighing,  “fine.” Veronica cheers, “but,” Bea over enunciates, “only for a few hours and if I don’t like it I’m going home.” 

“Okay, deal,” Veronica squeals, wrapping Bea in a big hug. Carter chuckles as Veronica gestures for him to join the hug, he awkwardly wraps his arms around the two girls, before pulling away. 

“Okay, I’ll wait in the car while you girls get ready. Just uh don’t take too long.”

Veronica playfully rolls her eyes as she Bea towards her bedroom, yelling back “thanks Carter.” Giddy, she rushes to Bea’s closest, assessing her clothes until she finds a short red dress hidden in the back. “This!” 

“No, no, no,” Bea shakes her head, pulling the dress out of the ombre-haired girl’s hands. 

“Why not? It would look so hot on you,” Veronica’s eyes trail down Bea’s body, as she sharply inhales. “Bea, you’re single and sexy, stop holding yourself back okay?” 

“I’m not,” Bea pushes back defensively, “I just-” she sighs heavily, “no one at Belvoire has ever seen me dressed up, I’m just- I’m nervous I guess.” 

“Then we have to show them what they’ve been missing for the last three years,” Veronica gives Bea a devilish smile as she takes the dress from Bea’s hands, sliding the dress off the hanger before handing it over to Bea. 

“Uh you gonna stay in the room?” Bea nervously wrings her hands together. 

“Why, are you offering a show?” Veronica lifts a teasing brow, noticing Bea’s cheeks redden slightly, which prompts her to let out a small laugh, “I’m kidding, don’t worry I won’t look.” Veronica makes a show of raising her hands to cover her eyes. Bea laughs as she slips out of her clothes and into the dress, she awkwardly clears her throat, grabbing Veronica’s attention. 

“Hey, uh help a girl out with her zipper?” 

“Sure,” Veronica moves to stand behind Bea, her hands ghosting around Bea’s exposed back, her breath momentarily taken away. She sturdies herself and places one of her hands on the small of the brunette’s back while the other moves towards the zipper, zipping the girl up. Bea smooths the dress down with her hands appreciating herself in the mirror, “you look gorgeous,” Veronica whispers into the shell of her ear. 

Bea’s face completely flushes red and slightly jerks at Veronica’s admission, “uhh thanks.” 

Veronica notices the awkward shift in the atmosphere, and promptly changes the subject, “so where’s your sister?” 

Bea sits in front of her mirror, a comb in her hand as she brushes her long locks, “she’s staying at a friend’s tonight.” 

“Cool,” Veronica answers back but her tone falls flat. The girls bask in the awkward silence as Bea continues to get ready but when Veronica notices Bea struggling to do her winged eyeliner she breaks the silence. “Hey do you need help?” 

Bea smiles bashfully, “yeah.” She rubs the back of her head with her hand, “sorry Poppy used to help me with my makeup.” 

“Right,” Veronica’s face slightly falls but she quickly covers it up, ushering Bea to come and sit on the bed. “Come on, I don’t bite,” Veronica bites the bottom of her lip, “unless you want me too.” Bea laughs but obliges sitting on the edge of the bed. Veronica clambers onto her lap, her thighs settling on the sides of Bea’s legs, and in response, Bea’s eyes widen in surprise but she remains glued in her spot, too shocked to move. 

“V, what are you doing?” Bea whispers, her voice attempting to come across as reprimanding but it comes out as breathy. 

“Relax, I’m just doing your eyeliner.” Veronica plucks the wand from Bea’s hand and angles herself close to the brunette’s face, as she begins drawing on the wings on Bea’s eyelids. Bea steadies herself, as she feels the heat of Veronica’s body so close to hers and when Veronica is finished with putting the finishing touches on her eyelids, she hops off Bea’s lap, making her way towards the desk, scuffling through Bea’s makeup bag before taking up her place on Bea’s lap once again. “Now I think this colour would look good on you,” 

“You don’t think it’s too much red?” 

“Oh babe, red means power, dominance, you don’t wanna be thinking about Poppy the entire night, you wanna have all eyes on you Bea Hughes.” Veronica uncaps the lipstick, her eyes burning into Bea’s lips as she carefully applies the red colour to her lips. “Perfect.” 

Bea smacks her lips together, evenly spreading the red on her lips. “Thanks V.” 

Veronica’s eyes dart to Bea’s lips, her tongue slightly running along her bottom lips before she breaks out of her reverie flashing Bea a smirk, “don’t thank me yet, thank me when you’re having the time of your life at the party.” Veronica slides off Bea’s lap, holding her hand out, “come on let’s finish up because Carter’s been waiting for a while.” Bea smiles up at Veronica, taking her hand as she lets the ombre-haired girl pull her off the bed, as they continue getting ready. 

………

Once they arrive at the party, Carter drops the girls off at the front of the huge house before telling them he will park the car. Veronica’s gaze darts to Bea, who’s nervously toying with her hands, looking up at the intimidating house, the lights blaring and as the music echoes throughout, the bass thumping in their ears. Noticing the nerves settling into her, Veronica slips into Bea's, giving her a reassuring squeeze, “hey, it’s okay, it’s just a bunch of drunk, preppy uptight teenagers, nothing you don't usually face everyday.” 

Bea lets out a small laugh, “just in a big ass house,” she jests. 

“Yeah, just in a big ass house,” she gives Bea a light squeeze as she starts pulling Bea into the house with her. Automatically, they’re met with stares and whispers, as the students look astonished at Bea, some appraising her outfit, while others are confused about her presence. “Hey, just stay with me okay?” Veronica whispers over to Bea. Bea nods, her eyes roaming the room. “I’ll get us drinks.” The ombre-haired girl gives Bea a reassuring pat on her arm and leaves her side and Bea walks into the living room, observing the difference between the vibes of the party between the north and the south. Her thoughts then move to think about Poppy, how Poppy would love going to parties in the north but Bea couldn’t find the appeal in it. Poppy. Poppy, who broke up with her. She’s interrupted from her thoughts by a tap of her shoulder, and Bea turns around to see Veronica offering her a red solo cup, Bea takes a sip and winces. 

“What the hell is this crap?” 

“Yeah for a bunch of rich kids, their taste in beer isn’t the best,” Veronica jokes, slightly nudging Bea. 

“We have way better beer in the south side.” 

“That I can agree with.” Veronica looks over to Bea who looks lost in thought, “hey what are you thinking about?” 

Bea sighs heavily, “Poppy,” she mutters. 

Veronica nods once, “right, yeah.” 

“Poppy would’ve loved a party like this, big fancy house an-” 

“Bea,” Veronica says, her tone slightly agitated, “this,” she gestures around the room, “is a no Poppy zone. That means we don’t think about Poppy, only about fun.” 

Bea nods, “fun. I can do that.” Veronica lifts her cup in the air, “what are we cheering to?” 

Veronica gives Bea a smile, “here’s to the first steps in moving on.” The girls tap their cups together before downing their drinks. “Now if we wanna get drunk, we’re gonna need a lot more of these.” 

The party is still ongoing, and Bea sits in a circle with a few girls from the volleyball team and a few of the football team and other people she doesn’t recognise while Veronica sits beside her. 

“Bea you look so pretty,” one of her teammates says. 

“Yeah Bea your makeup is literally gorgeous,” another chimes in. 

“Who knew strip tease can clean up well,” Ford jests, but Bea slumps her shoulders a little, remembering that these people are not her friends. 

Carter enters the circle slapping Ford on the head as he goes, “shut up, Hughes is cool.” Bea gives Carter a nod of appreciation before looking down at the drink in her hands. Her thoughts move a million miles a minute, but there’s a constant one stuck in her brain, Poppy.

Veronica looks over at Bea, frowning. “Hey come with me.” She stands, excusing herself from the group and Bea follows her close behind. 

“Where are we going?” 

“We’re gonna play a private game of truth or drink.” 

[detective-gum-chew]

okay okay okay

i know this isnt an orginal idea by any means but roleswap!narumitsu is just so good

so youll have to indulge me because this lives in my head rent free and i want to write it down concretely somewhere (also this gets LONG so ill pop a cut in here)

alright so:

1. at least in my writing of it, this is also a no-dl6/gregory lives au. but as well at that, miles and phoenix didnt go to school together

2. this means that there was nobody to defend phoenix at the class trial (yes i know the money stolen was edgeworths but shhh lets pretend it was someone elses, kay?) this lead to phoenix becoming not only bitter, but somewhat obsessive over the idea of punishing people that do wrong

(if someone can find that quote where phoenix talks about how he could have become a prosecutor because of the trial i will give u a gentle kiss on the forehead) 

3. Edgeworth was raised by Gregory and ends up becoming a defense attorney

4. in this, Von Karma goes down and Franzy is adopted by Gregory, and she assists Miles in his cases. (she can still have a whip, as a treat.)

5. anyway with that set up, lets get into some cases

6. Larry gets accused of Cindys murder, Miles defends with Franzy

7. Lets say Mia was in the crowd of that trial and decided to contact miles, seeing as he appears to be another uncorrupt lawyer and asks him for his help in taking down Redd White

8. He agrees, and she sets a time for him to meet at her office so they can talk. Mia then calls her sister and updates her on how shes going to recruit another person (Redd White hears this)

9. Much like the original case, Mia gets murdered, but this time, Maya isnt here to be blamed. Instead, its Miles himself, as the name that White heard over the phone (so basically we’re speed running to the “defend yourself in court” part)

10. the prosecutor today is Phoenix Wright.

11. but before that lets go into some backstory actually. Phoenix had encountered Mia previously during the Terry Fawles case. He had respected her as a peer, if not for just her determination and deductive skills. (After all, he was young at the time and solely focused on punishing the wicked) After Diego’s poisoning, he had briefly reached out for condolences

12. but anyway, Phoenix had distantly respected Mia, and now that she was dead, he was going to be tough on whoever he thought murdered her.

13. Miles proves his innocence, although it takes some baiting to get Redd White out of his building and actually into court. 

14. Wright is... not pleased about this, but theres not much he can do. His displeasure for Mias murder has shifted, but theres a new displeasure for Miles, the man who could beat him in court. (”well well well, you managed to save your own skin. But you should hope you get as lucky as you did in your next case”)

15. Next case! We know Miles is a steel samurai fan, so even without Maya it takes very little convincing for him to take the case. (Fran is not as amused but trusts her brother... enough.. to follow his lead)

16. Case proceeds mostly as normal, with Phoenix requiring Dee to re-do her testimony (maybe something deep within him still itches to put the true bad guy away, even if its harder than the accused)

17. I dont think Phonix would deliver the unnecessary feelings line, although there definetely is that moment in the lobby where hes like “hm. maybe you arent a bad person, but that doesnt mean i have to like you.”

18. and now, now now now, we finally get to the part where i somehow managed to put the most thought into. (for context it is nearly 2 am when i am writing this)

19. sleep schedule aside, you couldnt have thought i would made this WITHOUT some good angst, so here we go. case four is similarly structured to the original, but with an extra side of Phoenix angst.

20. Miles wakes up to Franzy shaking him. She points to the television. the news is on, but the voices are drowned out by a distant ringing as he stares at the image on the screen.

Famed Prosecutor Phoenix Wright Arrested For Murder

21. it just doesnt make sense. So he gets out of bed and into the closest clothes he can find and out the door with his sister in tow. He sits in the cold detention room, thinking about the other side of the glass.

22. Phoenix Wright looks dull. He asks what they want. Miles says he wants an explanation. Wright sneers and asks why. For some reason, that pisses Miles off. He slams his badge to the glass and Wright looks surprised.

“Do you know what this is? It’s my attorneys badge.”

“the badge doesnt mean youre a good lawyer.”

“Well Mr Wright, its 2-0, so i dont think you have any right to say that.” Miles glares at him and Wright sits back in his seat. He watches Miles for a long time.

“If im going to defend you, you need to tell me what happened.“ Wrights eyebrows shoot up and Franziska squawks at his side

“What do you mean defend him!”

“What she said.”

Miles narrows his eyes at Wright as he ponders to himself the answer. Why is he doing it? the answer comes to him. 

“Because i dont believe you did it.”

For all his snark, Miles cant bring himself to believe that the man in front of him would kill someone. Theres something about him, either in his eyes or the way he carries himself that makes the idea itself preposterous. Wright looks at him for a long time after he says it.

“Very well.”

21. Miles doesnt seem him until court, but at least he testifies. The next person up, a red head by the name of Melissa Foster, gives a testimony that seems airtight.

22. that is, until he looks over at Phoenix, who is pale as he looks at the woman on the witness stand. Phoenix catches his eye, and very carefully, very slowly, mouths one name.

Dahlia Hawthorne

23. (I really wish i could continue with the more narrative parts of this but im honestly running out of steam and ill get to the point lol. Maybe ill finish it later.)

24. Terry Fawles dies on the stand. Diego Armando falls into a coma. Dahlia Hawthorne walks free. Even after what happened to Diego, Phoenix is convinced he can do better. He sets up a meeting with Dahlia.

25. Doug shows up, trying to persuade him away from it, saying he overheard Dahlia’s plan to kill Phoenix when she arrives. Phoenix is cocky, and the pair fight. Doug gets shoved into the powerline. Phoenix, thinking him dead, panics and runs.

26. Dahlia, having overheard, goes back and finishes him off, drops some poison into his mouth perhaps. With an accidental death with a cause so obvious, nobody bothers to run blood tests (until Miles)

27. Its years later, and Phoenix gets a note that tells him they know what really happened to Doug. Phoenix arrives to a meeting place to find a dead body. He picks up the vial of poison almost absently. 

28. After all, Dahlia had gotten rid of Diego and Mia was dead. Now all she had to do was get rid of Phoenix

29. It plays out similarly to case four, with Phoenix being absolved of the first murder, then confessing to the old one. Miles has gone through the work to save his life once, that he cant not do it again.

30. but happy endings (ish) for all, with Phoenix being freed, Dahlia imprisoned and Miles having a better understanding of both him and Phoenix.

31. maybe more happens but we’re at bullet point 31 so its time to stop for now lmao. uh but yeah! roleswap au..... brainrot really.

[astralglam]

𝐒𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐝𝐝𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬 .

1. What does your muse smell like?

without soap or perfume, 683 smells bizarrely sterile, chemical-ish, like a dentist’s office, bleach or cleaning supplies.  like hand sanitizer that kills 99.9% of germs.  they have that faint smell of powdery clean cosmetics, only because they wear so much foundation, face powder and setting spray.  humans like things that smell less artificial, so 683 takes to using cheap perfume (think a teenager who just learned to douse themselves with axe or bath and bodyworks spray), which is artificial in a slightly more palatable way.  their clothes (which are almost all second hand) have that mothball-musty smell of a thrifted dress that hasn’t been washed yet, like an old book.    

2. What do your muse’s hands feel like?

cold, frigid and icy, almost like a mannequin’s if you left the mannequin in the freezer. their skin is tight over their tendons and fingers, with almost waxy, plasticy skin stretched over their joints and knuckles, which makes them seem very fragile.  sometimes their palms are uncannily clammy.  their skin on their palms isn’t rough or calloused but they’re starting to get scars on their fingertips from their voyages into the realm of string instruments.  they used to have very neat, clean and unpainted nails, but nowadays, they have divots and cracks because 683 is clumsy with the strings.  

3. What does your muse usually eat in a day?

683 is often at the mercy of when their friends will decide to cook for them/buy them food.  they don’t have any cooking skills and can barely wash and cut an apple (this isn’t because they’re stupid, on atomina they were used to communal dining with a designated set of people who cooked for everyone in their unit).  683 is naturally accustomed to eating plant matter and (unlike us humans) has a way better digestive system for breaking down cellulose and gets a lot more out of their vegetarian diet than you might expect (two stomachs aint for nothin).  left to their own devices they just eat Whatever (orange? handfuls of spinach, unwashed, pesticides dont hurt them.  microwave a tomato and watch it explode.  brave cutting open an avocado and just eating it with a spoon).  dinner is when priscilla either buys him take out or sid cooks something for him (and sid is an amazing cook!!!).  sid isn’t vegetarian, but his family is, so he knows how to make all kinds of dishes perfect for 683 -- substitute the dairy for nondiary alternatives and 683′s getting matter paneer (with tofu instead), malai kofta (with coconut milk), and aloo gobi (no butter), all sorts of things !!! 

4. Does your muse have a good singing voice?

sort of.  683′s voice, by itself, is nasally and weird and a little grating, but their devotion to music lets them make the most out of their “strange” voice and almost use it to their benefit to sound unique, different, super far out !11!11111  their lyrics, instrumentals and emotion combined is what makes them a talented musician rather than just a good quality voice.  so while they might not have a very pretty voice, they’re still a skilled singer due to their delivery.  

5. Does your muse have any bad habits or nervous ticks?

im assuming this is about bad (physical) habits rather than personality deficiencies (of which 683 has many).  683 stares, like, really just stares at people with reckless abandon, they havent figured out it’s rude.  they arent good at even pretending to listen so if they’re disinterested in what you have to say, they’ll look elsewhere, pick at their nails, mumble or interrupt you.  always finds a way to make the conversation about themself.  very disorganized and messy, has a hard time taking care of objects even if they value them (ex. dropping his guitar, misplacing jewelry, yanking a belt off and breaking it).  definitely self pities and has no problem trying to guilt you for everything and anything.  is a pretty frequent smoker, but is polite enough not to smoke if you ask him not to.  

683 is always a little nervous so their nervous ticks are just their baseline state of being (wringing hands, stammering, talking really fast, making insane gestures all around you but being too afraid to touch you, etc)

6. What does your muse usually look like / wear?

683 looks very put together at all times -- not necessarily polished or professional, but very intentional, in that you can tell they definitely made a conscious choice to dress the way they do.  he wore the same dumb uniform every day for the first 20 years of his life, so he’s very excited to try new clothing options.  

more femme-ish clothing preferences go to boxy, sleeveless a-line dresses, miniskirts, bright floral patterns, big plastic earrings, headbands, scarves, etc.  they like clunky platforms and prefer to wear boots.  very 60s mod and colorblocked.  she loves bright eyeshadow but tends to go for more neutral lipstick.  can never figure out what to do with her hair so she usually leaves it down or does a half-up half-down bun kinda deal.  

more masc clothing preferences are bell bottoms, button ups with butterfly collars, paisley print, turtlenecks and fringe jackets, etc. earthy tones and weird nasty olive green.  very late 60s / early 70s. prog rock flavor or glam rock flavor.  never got into the disco style only because he cant pull it off because he’s so scrawny and twitchy and has no chest hair to impress the ladies.    

one thing about 683 is that he hates tight long sleeves and goes insane if he has to wear them.  his uniform was sleeveless, so even short sleeves feel really weird and horrible on his arms.  prefers sleeveless, can do with short sleeves, 3/4ths sleeve or loose long sleeve, really tries to avoid tight/constricting long sleeves.  

i have a pinterest board of potential fits for him although i havent updated it because i barely know how to use pinterest.

7. Is your muse affectionate?  How much?  How so?

to most people, not really, he’s kind of a weird cagey asshole.  oscillates between fascinated with physical touch (suddenly wanting to hug his friends or snuggle with them or grabbing strangers when he’s trying to talk to them) to despising contact (cringes if you touch his hand when you pass him a cup).  he didnt grown up with a culture very big on it, so he isn’t sure if he likes it or not yet.  

to people he does care about, he tends to take his friends for granted but overperform affection for those he has romantic interest in.  not that he doesnt also dearly love and adore his friends, he’s just not the best at expressing his care for them other than random bursts of kindness and dissolving back into his weird normal self.  his understanding of romance has come from a very commercial, media-influenced place (he learns about it through television, novels and commercials, it’s not really inherent to his species) so he thinks romance is about buying flowers, holding hands, staring into each other’s eyes for three hours, etc. if he has romantic interest in you, he will constantly over and over again tell you how much he likes you and your company and you are soooo funny hahahhahhfhh, and will be unusually touchy (clings to your arm, sits RIGHT next to you, drops his head on your shoulder, etc).  

8. What position does your muse sleep in?

683 didnt know what blankets were until he came to earth (or deep space nine) !!! his old room was perfectly temperature controlled and he already has a lower natural body temperature, so there was no need for blankets at all.  human beds with big pillows and blankets are THE COOLEST, so he either curls up underneath a blanket with only the top of his head poking out or he sprawls out like a starfish to take advantage of as many pillows as possible.  his special move is to roll up in the blanket like some kind of little alien lumpia.  

he’s a fitful sleeper so if you sleep in the same bed as him, he’ll punch you or kick you on accident.  he does appreciate company, though, and will also plaster himself up against you and leech your body heat with his weird cold body.

9. Could you hear your muse in the hallway from another room?

depends.  they have a very average speaking voice and aren’t necessarily very loud (plus platforms dull footsteps), but if they were excited, they might raise their voice or yell or exclaim something.  and then they’re very shrill, so yes, you would hear her.  

Tagged by:  @sampati im sorry i took like a week it was really fun i love to type letters and words on the computer Tagging: @dynaura or @pataparty (for whoever you want) / @phantombs / @ofgentleresolve (for lamon? or anyone you want, really!!) / @bystcrdust / @kyrieleisen / @baelends / @bup1957

[yeoldontknow]

❧ check in tag

tagged by the sweetest angel @propinqxity to do this little tag. this is such a cute list of questions, and some of these i dont think ive been asked before. thank you so much for the tag and the tumblr crush mention lovely. you truly are a bright spot on this website and i mean that sincerely <333

going under a cut because im certain i will ramble ~

1. Why did you choose this url?

its sort of like a pun between yall dont know and the fact that, hopefully, sincerely, chanyeol does not in fact know that i run this blog lmao i changed to this after a long time of being bread-jinie and i wanted to rebrand. i will, however, do my best to never change URLs again because the masterlist switch over was a complete hassle

2. Any sideblogs? If you have them, name them and why you have them

i have a fic recs blog called @yeoldontknowiread. as to why i have it, i know it hasnt been updated in ages since ive been kind of on hiatus, but i think reading and sharing work on this platform is immensely important. i actually read quite a lot of fanfiction, and i try my best to share the things i read. im very very behind on recs at the moment cause i try my best to write something substantial for every recommendation i make. as a writer, i know exactly the kinds of thoughts and feedback on fics that make my heart soar so i try to put in the same energy to my recs. community is only fostered when there is reciprocation

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

hmmm since april 2017. i actually had my 4 year anniversary this year and i did have plans for things but i got roped into real life things and couldnt celebrate the way i truly wanted to :(

4. Do you have a queue tag?

no but sometimes i think i should. i view tags as a library on top of my knee jerk response to things. most of my tags are just my initial thoughts or feelings at any given moment, so those take precedence over a specific queue tag

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

when i was getting into exo, i was reading fanfiction like crazy. i used to write fanfic quite a lot in other fandoms, but at that time i hadnt written anything in about 2.5 years. exo was the first re-introduction to that feeling of excitement and inspiration. after about 3 weeks of straight reading, i decided i wanted to write again. i wrote the prologue to hero in about two hours and tried logging into AO3 to post it. sadly i forgot all of my log in information because it had been years, and was getting frustrated. i really wanted to put it somewhere out of fear that id lose interest if i didnt do something with it, and everything id read had been on tumblr. so i made a tumblr just to put hero lmao i didnt have any mutuals. it was a blog with straight 0. i hadnt even created an account to interact with writers before that moment, i really thought id be a silent reader forever. but exo woke me back up and for that i am eternally grateful.

6. Why did you choose your icon?

the yours music video is...so stunning? like the colour theory throughout the whole thing is truly so inspiring and gorgeous. and this shot of chanyeol looking at the painting took my breath away, truly. tulips and the color of peach, like do you know how evocative that is? ugh

7. Why did you choose your header

my header was made by @jamaisjoons for my birthday this year because shes literally the most talented person when it comes to graphics. and this was so kind of her to do, i cried a lot

8. What's your post with the most notes?

uhm....either the body through time or truth i cant remember which but i checked recently and its one of those

9. How many mutuals do you have?

honestly at this point im not even sure. i know ive lost a bunch while i was on hiatus because i was basically a dead blog, and some people do dash cleanses. and im certain others have left, too, for their own reasons. still, i have a good core of friends though who are active and that is enough for me

10. How many followers do you have?

more than i probably deserve

11. How many people do you follow?

399

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

uhm i guess? there was a time when nng was not updated and every wednesday id post the days go by music video in sadness and grief but im not a big shitposter. if i make a text post its usually a life update or me crying about chanyeol, theres no inbetween lmao

13. How often do you use Tumblr every day?

tbh i havent used tumblr that often, not since march i think. i used to use it many times a day, checking in on friends and stuff, but once i started focusing on my phd applications i was only here sporadically. i didnt make an announcement either, just let my blog run on queue so i wasnt totally gone. i think i was checking in twice a week or maybe once every two weeks to refill my queue and check mentions etc. but now that my interviews are done im trying to get back on here daily to reconnect

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

ive had my share of disagreements with people and any details about those situations shall remain as they are meant to: private

15. How do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts?

in what context? like, you need to reblog this or your wish wont come true? or like, please reblog this to spread the word/spread awareness, etc? in the case for the former, i scroll right by. in the case of the latter, if im around and see someone raising a go fund me or some major event is occurring and i find a post with good sources or charities i will reblog. mostly though, the full extent my activism isnt really on this blog. its my escape from reality. my activism is usually placed on other platforms.

16. Do you like tag games?

i doooo!!! theyre so fun i love learning about my friends

17. do you like ask games?

i love those too! theyre so cute and usually a nice way to have interaction immediacy with people in the community

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

no one. can we please abandon this notion of fame on tumblr? arent we all here to write about some dick and some smut and some fluff and then hang out together and log off? lmao tumblr isnt reality and followers/fame is so arbitrary on this platform, no one has any control over any of it

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

i am in love with so many people here. let me name a few:

@yehet-me-up @kyungseokie @jenmyeons @j-pping @jamaisjoons @inkedtae @kookdiaries @yoonia @dulcetvk @kithtaehyung @imdifferentshadesofpurple @ditzymax @sugaurora @sahmbtsficrecs @junghelioseok @yeojaa @augustbutwinter @joonscore @btssavedmylifeblr @cutechim @sunshinekims @kimtaehyunq @ouvuo @delhyun @exo-stentialism @sooibian @softyoongiionly @jinseunie @zibermuda @bratkook @1kook @luffles424 @xjoonchildx

and so many other people and mutuals that i am certainly forgetting. love is such an expansive feeling, and it encompasses platonic ardor and creative desire. i admire every single person listed for so many different reasons, and cherish and treasure them or what they provide to the community. love is such an important and broad experience. truly, i hope they feel adored every single day x

[horansqueen]

You & Me : chapter 43

A Niall Horan fanfiction ; rated MA

Sequel to AM CONVERSATIONS

CHAPTER 1 || CHAPTER 2 || CHAPTER 3 || CHAPTER 4 || CHAPTER 5 || CHAPTER 6 || CHAPTER 7 || CHAPTER 8 || CHAPTER 9 || CHAPTER 10 || CHAPTER 11 || CHAPTER 12 || CHAPTER 13 || CHAPTER 14 || CHAPTER 15 || CHAPTER 16 || CHAPTER 17 || CHAPTER 18 || CHAPTER 19 || CHAPTER 20 || CHAPTER 21 || CHAPTER 22 || CHAPTER 23 || CHAPTER 24 || CHAPTER 25 || CHAPTER 26 || CHAPTER 27 || CHAPTER 28 || CHAPTER 29 || CHAPTER 30 || CHAPTER 31 || CHAPTER 32 || CHAPTER 33 || CHAPTER 34|| CHAPTER 35 || CHAPTER 36 || CHAPTER 37 || CHAPTER 38 || CHAPTER 39 || CHAPTER 40 || CHAPTER 41 || CHAPTER 42

NOTES:

-one chapter is her pov, the next is his -4.5k -im sorry, i never proofread, i hate it. -there WILL be smut. but not only smut. -this is a romance, comedy, smut story. -for the summary, check my MASTERLIST.

READ AM CONVERSATIONS AGAIN ON WATTPAD HERE

- notes: wow, it took a while didnt it? i have a hard time writing this story for a few specific reasons and thats why it takes me longer. i also need to plan the ending of this and its not easy because im scared to forget something. but i hope you enjoy this chapter! thanks so much for still reading this story!!!

if you want to be on the list of blogs i notify when this is updated, just message me :)

requests! : its late and i hope i dont forget any! i didnt add everything from the 2nd request in my chapter tho. i also promise more requests in the next chapter! its all planned so thank you!

TAKE A LOOK AT THE CHARACTERS HERE

Chapter 43 : His chapter

NIALL

June 25th, 2018

"Okay, move slightly on the right." I heard her, doing what she told me cautiously. "Now watch out, there's a step."

"Big or small?"

"Uhm, medium" she replied after thinking about it.

"Gee Liv, thanks!" I replied sarcastically before I carefully tried to put my foot on the step.

She guided me with difficulty until the car and I packed her last few boxes in the trunk. We sat in the car and I started it, feeling her gaze on me but I tried to ignore it until I felt her hand on my thigh. I suddenly relaxed and my eyes met hers for half a second before going back on the road.

"You should have let me help you." she pointed out with a soft voice. "I can carry more than one box, you know."

The left corner of my lips raised gently and I glanced at her again before stopping at a red light and turning my head completely her way. Her eyebrows raised and I sent her a small smile, shaking my head.

"I want you to let me take care of you." I admitted, bending closer to press my lips gently against hers in a quick kiss. "Besides, an old lady like you shouldn't carry heavy things."

With a chuckle, she slapped my arm gently as I started laughing and started driving again. It was already mid june and we had been working on her moving in with me for about a week. Most things were actually bought by Louis so all the furniture stayed there but it took us a while to pack all her stuff and bring the boxes to my house. I mean, our house.

"I'm only two years older than you!" she argued, making me laugh even more. "Do I have to call you 'kiddo'?"

"Please, I'm a man." I let out with a frown, half-joking. "You know it, you've seen me naked."

"Oh how my life has changed since then." she replied wih a chuckle, making me smile too.

We brought her stuff to our room and started unpacking together after I put music on. It invaded the house so loudly that the neighbours probably heard since we had opened the windows. It was a warm saturday afternoon and I still had a little bit more than a week off. I knew we were going to miss each other since I was about to leave for three months (even if i was going to be back here at some point in august for a few concerts) but we didn't talk about it much, as if it would make things worst.

I kept glancing at her from time to time as I was putting her stuff in my closet and my lips curled when I noticed she was dancing while putting her clothes in her dresser. It was nothing new. She had always been like that but somehow, at this exact moment, it made me realize how perfect this moment was. Loud music, finally sharing a house with the woman I loved, watching my girlfriend dance and sing happily close to me with a promise ring hidden in my underwear drawer. That whole scenario happening right in front of me felt like the accomplishment of something very very important and even if I couldn't define exactly what, I tried to remember this in my brain like the movie of a memory I wanted to watch over and over again until i'd be on my death bed. The smallest details seemed important and when she moved a lock of hair that had stuck on her lips behind her ear, I held my breath. Could I write a song about this?

She turned around and our eyes met and suddenly, her lips curled into a fond smile. I loved when she looked at me like that. I was used to it, because she's looked at me like that for as long as I could remember, but it's only now, the second time we're dating, that I realized what it meant and how important it was.

"Are you gonna help me or are you just going to stare at me while I do all the work?"

I chuckled and rolled my eyes before shaking my head and grabbing an other box. It was heavy and when I opened it, I saw a bunch of books, the first one on the top being the one she was reading at the moment. I knew because sometimes we'd just sit together in the living room in silence. She'd read and sometimes i would too, or id end up writing, or playing guitar. Just being in the same room was enough sometimes and I liked it. I grabbed the book and turned it around to read the summary but something else caught my attention and I frowned. Something was sticking out of the book and I pulled on it slightly only to see my face and hers on a few pictures. It came from the photobooth and if my memory served me right, it was from the first time we dated. I pulled on it more to see all the pictures and finally just opened the book so she wouldn't lose her page and let my eyes roam on the older pictures of us. I remembered how I felt, but I was well aware it was not comparable to the feelings I had now.

"Can't believe you kept this."

My eyes didn't move from the pictures but I felt her stop moving and finally get closer to me. I sat on my bed and I felt her sit next to me in silence until I finally looked up in her eyes.

"You have no idea of all the things I kept." she admitted and I could swear her cheeks turned a soft shade of pink. "I kept a lot of souvenirs of you, Niall."

My smile curled a bit and she chuckled. "Really?"

"Oh don't look at me like that, it's not like I built a shrine for you or anything." she just rolled her eyes. "But your friendship and your love... yea, it's important for me."

I ran my thumb gently on the pictures for a few more minutes and finally put them back in the book before closing it. I stared at it until Liv grabbed my hand and I squeezed her fingers, looking up at her and sending her a smile.

"You know we need to christen the rooms." This time, she let out a loud laughter and it made my lips curl. "It's true!"

"It only applies to new places, Niall!" she laughed more. "We've already had sex pretty much in all the rooms of this house, and that says a lot!"

"Are you sure?" I asked, raising my eyebrows before she nodded. "All the bathrooms? Bedrooms?" She nodded again and I raised my nose up with a low groan, making her laugh again. "There must be somewhere we didn't fuck!"

"On the dryer."

"What?" I frowned.

"We never fucked on your dryer." she repeated with an amused smile, her head tilted. "We fucked in the showers, kitchen's table, kitchen's counter, on the couch, on the floor of the living room, in all the beds, on all the bedroom floors, in the music room and against that piano.. One time you even grabbed me when I got out of the shower to fuck me against the wall in the hall."

The left corner of my lips curled as the memory came back to my head and I raised my eyebrows. "Oh yea, I remember."

"But I don't remember fucking on the dryer."

My eyes roamed on her and I licked my lips. "We can do that now."

"Join me in 5 minutes?"

I raised my eyebrows in surprise when she suddenly got up and left. My fingers gripped the book in my hands tighter and I finally put it on the bed before turning my eyes to the alarm clock on the bedside table. It was the longest 5 minutes of my life and if I wanted to be honest, I only waited 3 and a half anyway.

I heard the dryer's noise and frowned a bit when I realized she had started it and when I got there, she was sitting on it and I noticed the matching black and silk panties and bra she was wearing. Her legs were hanging down the dryer and she was holding herself with her hands slightly behind her body, her dark hair falling near her back, and I stopped as soon as our eyes met.

"When did you put this on?"

"I wore them all day." she admitted with a smirk before chuckling when my face changed. "I mean, I wanted to show you but we were sort of busy."

I took a few steps closer slowly and put my palms on her thighs, sliding my hands up very slowly on her soft skin.

"Spread your legs, petal." I whispered as she bit her bottom lip but did as I asked.

"I wasn't sure if it actually looked good on me." she admitted low and I shook my head quickly.

"Oh shut up, darling, this makes me so fucking hard." To prove my point, I turned my hips a bit and pressed my hard cock through my pants against her naked thigh. "See?"

I ran my hands up to her breasts, touching them before slipping one of my hands under it to run the tip of two of my fingers on her nipple. "I'm so torn right now. I want to rip it off of you, but watching them on you is so fucking hot."

"Just move my panties aside and fuck me."

Her eyes seemed to sparkle but her expression was needy and I just licked my lips, bringing my hands down to my jeans and unzipping them as I kept staring at her.

"Such a needy little slut." I let out in a low tone. "Tell me how bad you want my cock. Beg me."

Her eyes never leaving mine, she brought her feet on the dryer, exposing her panties even more to me and slowly, I took my cock out and started stroking it. I could feel the dryer getting warmer and the way she seemed to shake over it made me want her even more.

"Fuck, Niall, I want you so bad. I need you deep inside me." she whimpered and licked her lips. "Please, Niall, I need your cock, please i'm begging you, fuck me."

I jerked off harder, making sure the tip of my dick rubbed against her pussy over her panties, and she whimpered and bit her bottom lip harder.

"Move your panties, pet. Show me your pretty little cunt."

She did as I asked and my eyes dropped between her legs as I moved even closer, close enough for the tip of my cock to push inside her. I groaned low and she let out a short whimper as I felt her throb around me.

"Deeper." she breathed out. "Fill me."

Quickly, I pushed myself inside her until I was balls deep and she let out a moan, her head falling back slightly and her eyes fluttering.

"Like this petal? How does my cock feel?"

She squirmed slightly and with difficulty but I watched her shake glancing a few times down to watch her grind despite herself on my dick. The feeling was amazing and I groaned louder when I felt her clench around me.

"So good, so fucking good." she whimpered again.

"You're so fucking wet and horny I just want to watch you fuck yourself on my cock until you cum all over it, baby girl." I let out without thinking. "How about you do that?"

I moved as close as I could and she ground on me for a few minutes. I loved the way she moved, all her facial expressions and the way her moans sounded but after a while, I couldn't take it anymore and grabbed her waist, my fingers sinking in her skin as I pulled her against me in motion with my thrusts.

"Fuck, i'm gonna cum." I just said still going hard.

I didn't know if it was because of my words or if she had been holding it for a while but she started shaking even harder against me as she came, my name escaping her lips in incredible moans and bringing me to my own orgasm. I shut my eyes tight, pushing myself so hard against her to make sure I went as deep as I could, and when I got down from my high, I leaned my forehead against hers, eyes still closed, as we both panted with parted lips.

"This is so much better." I whispered, moving a bit to reach her lips with mine.

"Better than what?" she asked in a breath as I kissed her gently again.

"Better than anything. Better than anyone." I confessed. "Better than sex without feelings."

It took her about a minute to talk but her words made me open my eyes suddenly.

"Are you in love with me, Niall?"

I pulled away to look in her eyes and frowned for a few seconds before shaking my head. I knew she was probably asking me simply because she wanted to hear it but I couldn't help but fear that she doubted it.

"Yes. I am in love with you, Olivia." I affirmed. "It will never change. I'll always be in love with you, for as long as I live, and maybe even after."

                                                        ---

June 29th, 2018

I was a bit sad she had insisted on inviting Louis and Eleanor on her birthday but I went along with it because it was her day and I loved her. She also had asked for nothing big, just a movie and games night with our friends, and somehow, I was down with that. Normally, I'd want to celebrate in a bar with many more friends but we were about to be separated for a while and I was not in the mood to celebrate that. I was just grateful I could spend her birth day with her.

"Okay, Liv, you sit next to me. Your boyfriend can sit next to El." I heard Louis say as I walked back in the living room with two bowls of popcorn.

"Excuse me? I pretty much intend on watching this movie cuddling my girlfriend, thank you very much!" I argued with a frown as I stood in the middle of the living room.

"If we do that we'll just spend an hour and a half making out!" Louis explained with round eyes. "At least you two will! You're both horny animals!"

"It's not like we were gonna fuck in front of you." I pointed out, rolling my eyes before sitting next to Eleanor who just laughed.

"Don't be a jealous boyfriend, Niall. Liv was my roommate before being your girlfriend again and I'm very sad that I can't wake her up by literally jumping in her bed at 6 in the morning anymore!" he joked with a chuckle before turning to my girlfriend. "Bet you miss it too!"

"6 in the morning?" I repeated with a frown again. "You never wake up so early."

"He did when he had meetings for his album." Olivia pointed out. "As you already know, 'pain in the ass' is in his DNA."

I laughed and she did too but the way she looked at me made me smile. Louis placed his arm on the back of the couch, near her shoulders, and I groaned low at sight. It's not that I wanted to read too much into this, but it was bothering me a lot and it was tough to hide. I was not the type to be jealous and I knew Olivia loved me, but every time I saw them near each other, I couldn't help but remember that they fucked multiple times and that nothing could ever erase that.

What took me out of my thoughts was something hitting my nose and the sweet laughter of my girlfriend. I shook my head slightly and sent her a smile as she sent me more popcorn and I grabbed some from my own bowl before throwing it at her, too. She laughed louder and we kept on throwing popcorn at each other until Louis groaned and stopped the movie. It was crazy how easily Louis could make himself home. He was using my remote for my tv, was sitting on my favorite spot on the couch, cuddling with my girlfriend.

"Fine! Fine I get it!" Louis gave in, raising his hand up in defeat. "You guys can't stay too far away from each other for too long. It's sad but it is what it is!"

He practically jumped off the couch and walked up to me. After a quick head movement, I sent him a smile and got up to. I let myself fall next to Liv and immediately, she cuddled my side like a magnet, making me smile more. I had no idea why I was insecure when it came to Louis, but she proved over and over again that I had no reason to be. I wrapped my arm around her to pull her closer and we finished the movie before grabbing a few beers and talking. It was almost 3 in the morning when Louis and El left and I watched as Liv got up, yawned and stretched.

"I'm so tired, let's go to bed, yea?"

"We really should clean first." I pointed out, grabbing a few bottles.

I was about to bring them to the kitchen but she stopped me with a grimace and a groan. "Niall, we need to sleep. Come onnnn, we can do that tomorrow."

I stared at her and sighed, not really sure I liked the idea but I finally nodded and followed her to the room as she held my hand and pulled me with her. We fell asleep quickly but she did before me and for some reason, I enjoyed watching her snore lightly, her lips parted, as I held her close to me. These days, we fell asleep holding each other face to face and it was very different from our usual spooning. Still, I liked it but when I woke up, she was on the other side of the bed, her legs were over mine, and I smiled at how much she had moved.

I got up, put sweatpants on and made coffee before drinking a cup as I looked at the mess in the living room and the kitchen. She joined me about half an hour later, entering the kitchen as she yawned. It made me chuckle but I liked the mess of her hair and her lazy smile. I wanted that every single morning of my life.

"Slept well?"

"Yes but not enough." she just shrugged with an other yawn.

I poured her coffee in her favorite mug and we both drank in silence, leaned against the counter. After I was done, I put my cup in the sink and without turning back to look at her, I sighed.

"We need to clean now."

"Mm, I just woke up. We can do that later in the afternoon." she just shrugged.

"Liv, we need to clean now. That's what happens when we postpone these kind of things. It'll never be fun but doing it now means we can do something else after."

She stared at me a few seconds and sighed, letting her head fall back on her shoulders. I didn't want to argue with her, and I knew how messy she was, but she also knew I was the opposite and that leaving everything as is the night before had been annoying to me.

"Well I don't want to do it now."

I didn't expect that answer and took a step back as my eyebrows raised.

"Why are you being like that?"

"Why are you being like that?" she repeated. "This can wait! I can't believe we're arguing over that!"

"Olivia, please! We left this mess last night and we need to clean!"

"You knew how i was before I started living here, it's nothing new!" she let out a bit roughly.

"And you know how I was too!" I argued before she brought her hands to her face and sighed. "You need to make efforts, okay? I am!"

My voice was a bit too loud and I knew it but I was getting pissed. I couldn't believe we were arguing over something like that. After all we had been through, I didn't want to accept that something so silly could be what would end us.

"I just... I need a shower."

I left without waiting for her answer and stayed a bit too long under the hot stream but when I got out of the bathroom with clean clothes, my lips curled at the sight. She had cleaned a good part of the living room and was now working on filling the dishwasher. I walked up to her and wrapped my arms around her waist from behind, leaning my chin on her shoulder.

"Thank you." I whispered, leaving a few kisses on her neck and she finally turned in my arms to look in my eyes.

"I'm sorry."she sighed and licked her lips. "I'll make efforts, I promise."

We finished cleaning and ended up sitting at the table with an other cup of coffee and eggs. The problem was, I couldn't stop thinking that I was leaving in a few days and it bothered me. I wanted us to discuss it but at the same time, I was not sure she wanted to talk about it. I knew that she thought mentioning things out loud made them more real or concrete but ignoring them and pretending the problems weren't there wouldn't make them disappear.

"It's gonna be tough, you know. We'll be away from each other for quite a while."

It took her a few seconds to answer as she seemed focused on her coffee but after a while, she breathed in and sighed.

"I know it won't be easy, Niall, but I also know that it will never be as hard as it was without you for a whole year. So yea, I think we can get through this and come out stronger." she said in a calm way before looking up in my eyes. "I hate being away from you but that won't change my love for you, not even just a little."

I reached for her hand on the table and squeezed her fingers before sending her a small smile. "It won't change mine either. And you're right, that year without you was the worse I've ever been through."

"It's... different." she told cautiously, looking up at me and noticing my questioning look. "You spent that year without me because you decided it, it was your choice. You did it for a reason and you wanted to be alone to live things you clearly thought you couldn't live with me. But me... I suffered through it. You broke up with me, broke my heart... I lost my best friend and the love of my life at the same time, you know? We didn't live that year the same way."

I felt my heart thump hard in my chest and I just nodded very slightly, as we stared at each other.

"You know, Niall... you left me with nothing." she said and I could swear I heard her voice crack. "I tried to find someone else, to find what I was missing from someone else, but I never really found it because what I was missing was you." Once again, she breathed in and sighed. "I know it's not easy but maybe you should try to put yourself in my shoes and... try to understand how I feel, you know? How I felt all those months."

I remembered that she told me it was tough for her but I never really understood how hard it had been until I found out she had literally tried to kill herself. Still, I felt like I couldn't really know the feeling and never would be able to. I remained silent as her words kept running in my head and finally held my breath. I couldn't believe I was thinking about writing a song in such a deep moment but I was and I just shook my head.

"You're right, Liv." I admitted, reaching for her other hand and squeezing both of them tight. "I'll try to understand how you felt in that year we were apart, after I broke you. It's hard to imagine but, I know I've hurt you more than I ever hurt anyone else, and I'll listen to everything you have to say about it."

She sent me a fond smile and nodded. "I can't really put it in the past." she added low. "Not because I don't want to, but because I feel like it's part of our story. I thought I knew who you were, I thought you'd never leave. I mean, we've known each other for decades... I thought you would never break my heart. But it was hard to accept, you know? That I didn't know you as well as I thought I did. I felt like... you ripped my heart out. Like you stole something from me that I could never get back without really knowing what it was. And I wanted it back. The worst was.. I still wanted to be with you. If you had came back I would have said yes in a heartbeat. I was always thinking of you, no matter who I was with, and yes, it includes Louis."

I stared at her, blinking a few times but still remained silent. I didn't want to let go of her hands and I also didn't want to talk. I thought it was just time to listen.

"I just... I went in bars and clubs to change my mind, I tried to date other people, I tried to drink my pain away... I just wanted to get over you and nothing worked, because I had nothing left." She paused again and shrugged. "I learned that making you the center of my life was not a good idea but it was something I was used to, I did it since I was a kid. Now I don't want to do things for you, Niall. I want to do things for us, and I want you to do the same. It's a team work. I mean, it's us against the world, right? That's what we said?"

I sent her a bigger smile and nodded. "It is. You and me."

[driftinglightofthewoods]

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You sendin’ 20 pencils? you gettin’ 20 ocs. You asked for this.

1. Sileves

I love Sileves, I love her big generous heart and how eagerly she accepts friends of her children and her husband as honorary family members. I wish I could talk more about her job as a healer because she takes such immense pride in it and she is what I would want any nurse or doctor to be; so caring and patient and kind.

2. Methenor

Methenor is a soft boi hidden under layers of icy indifference, sarcasm and dry etiquette and I love it. He cares for his family so much ;-; And like I feel incredibly bad for him because no wonder he’s cold as ice when pretty much his entire family left him in Rivendell; His parents sailed, his older sister is who knows where, his younger brother ran for Lothlorien and now his only son left him too.

3. Malgelir

Chirpy social butterfly with a small bit of a “ME FIRST” complex towards her siblings. Malgelir always wanted to get married and have a child, and the fact that she did so before her siblings does make her prouder than she probably should be. Thankfully this isnt out of pure malicious intent because I don’t think she ever had an evil thought in her life.

She also cares so much about her hubby and her son ;-; i cry

4. Rhoscthel

Fun fact I aint got a single clue about what goes into fashion design and yet here Rhoscthel is being a tailor. Send help. Plz. I’m making this up as I go and I just hope nobody notices I’m bluffing my way through anything that takes half a glance at her skill as a tailor.

I also wish I knew how people Actually Flirt TM because Rhos is supposed to be a charming she-elf with bargaining powers that could almost rival Caranthir’s but idk anything about either flirting or haggling. The woes of an introvert trying to play a socially savvy extrovert TM

5. Amathel

With Amathel I’ve been contemplating switching her social status of engaged to married but Amathel kind of has concerns and worries about the act of getting married so idk how to really.. change her status? Like should I just change it or drabble it or..

Like it’s not that she doesnt want to be married to Lagoron, she loves him very dearly, but there’s certain expectations that comes with having a wedding especially as a highly valued member of the Rivendell guard.

Idk I kinda want to dive more into the complex nature of her always wanting to be on top and number one in her class despite the fact that she has a lot of… performance anxiety, I guess you could call it?

She doesnt like to be put on the spot or even necessarily in the spotlight even though she has an ambitious drive and is always looking to improve as a guard.

6. Innith

With Innith I’m kinda having the opposite problem I do with Rhoscthel. I don’t get to use her much because she’s a shy, introverted scholar who would really only want to interact with coworkers and patrons of the library in Rivendell; and unfortunately there’s not a lot of those muses around.

this is very much me asking you to throw Pan at her sometimes I think they could be fun together plz

I’m also a bit sad the one ship I had for her has long since sailed away. F/F ships are so hard to come by.

7. Nethel

You would think I have a similar problem with Nethel like I do with Innith but since Nethel is such a drastically different character I actually dont find it hard to find interactions for her lol. People seem to be rather drawn to her even though she’s brutally blunt. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, Nethel is a lot like Feanor just minus the genius linguistic part. 

Plus while Nethel is cooped up in her workshop most of the time she does need to come out and tend to her biological needs like eating, bathing, sleeping, much to her dismay as she has little patience for small talk.

Aside from that I think most of the muns I toss her at are aware that she’s a deeply insecure person under all that brutal facade, and people generally seem to have a little more patience with a character like that? like idk, just something I noticed. 

8. Miston

Honestly without Miston this blog wouldnt exist and I wouldn’t be here to gush about all my characters, so needless to say Miston is incredibly important to me. I feel like he has grown as a character a lot since the beginning of this blog but that he has also remained true to the description I give him in his about section. He is still a character who doesn’t like sharing his feelings and rather deflect them, ignore them entirely or distract you with conversations about literally anything else.

Miston is very near and dear to my heart.

9. Eredhon

Baby. Precious soft child. Eredhon is such a sweetheart and it’s truly thanks to a lot of brainstorming with @legolasgoldy that he has been crawling out of his shell because for quite a while I myself didnt even know all that much about Eredhon.

He is a soft, gentle soul with a lot of deep running emotions and his social anxiety can definitely play cruel tricks on him, but with the right support system he blossoms into a very sweet and devoted friend who will always try to help you through any emotional problems. He’s also a lot more emotionally intelligent than I originally gave him credit for. He’s usually paired with social butterflies (see Malgelir) because he does get those type of characters to kind of.. relent the walls they build around themselves and let him see the emotional struggles they tend to ignore

He’ll also never apologises for feeling his emotions. He’ll apologize for snapping, for raising his voice, for letting his anxiety drive him up a wall and for anything that deserves an apology, but he won’t apologize for feeling sad or anxious or happy or in need of comfort.

10. Calithilon

I’ve been thinking about aging canon Cali up to at least a talkative elfling because honestly because he is so young in canon I haven’t really gotten a chance to use him all that effectively in the main storyline.

Most of Cali’s development comes from modern aus with @hclliish where he’s a teen, dating her Sleipnir (another precious child, just not one of mine lol)Cali takes after his mom in looks and unfortunately for him after his dad in personality, making him a rather shy and quiet person with a lot of insecurities. Being born to two singers makes him a natural singer as well, and his voice is higher in tone than that of his father.

Despite being an anxious teen (because when is puberty ever kind) he does find a lot of comfort in his parents unconditional love for him. They’re a very solid parents-child unit tbh.

11. Lagoron

Another character that I don’t get to use all that much, which is unfortunate because I find Lagoron an incredibly funny and interesting character. He’s a very un-elvish elf, in fact he’s more a hobbit in an elven disguise. While also being a guard, he is an entirely different type than Amathel; where Amathel yearns to be the best and the strongest, Lagoron is a team player who believes in the strength of numbers and strong bonds between guards to drag them through the most difficult situations; and that hasn’t exactly made him the top performer of the class. 

He is however truly the kind of person you want on your team, and in a fight he’s surprisingly endurant and likely to exhaust his opponent by focusing on dodging their power attacks rather than wasting his energy in fighting back.

Always has food on him and will offer it to anyone he feels like stricking up a friendly conversation with. 10/10 good friend.

12. Hinnoron

Hinnoron is definitely more of the tradtional elf. He’s radiant, and ethereal, and pleasant to be around. He also has a natural calmness about him and a certain kind of wisdom. Y’know, typical Tolkien Elf TM stuff.

Hinnoron gets interesting when you dive into his deeper relationships. His relationship with his eldest sister is on a very low pit, and the one he has with Methenor has definitely taken some blows. When Gelwenil left to follow the stars, Methenor got rather clingy towards Hinnoron, who felt suffocated in return.

Hinnoron left for Lothlorien, and to this day regrets that he abandoned Methenor when Methenor was clearly struggling with the departure of their parents and their sister. While they have mended their bond since, this kind of guilt does seem to creep into his relationships with Haldir ( @thehiddenhero ) and Oropher ( @oropherrrrr ) He often doesn’t tell them when things about the relationship upset him and bottles his emotions up to an unhealthy degree, all because he fears of upsetting their feelings or even damaging the image they have of him if he’s not the perfect, ethereal and unconditionally supportive partner. For someone who gives love so easily and unconditionally, he seems to have a hard time believing that the love he receives doesn’t come with the condition that he has to be a perfect lover or it’ll be revoked.

Someone plz teach him that he’s allowed to have needs and that he’s allowed to have those needs tended to.

13. Gelwenil

Ah yes. The lost one. Well no, not lost, she knows exactly where she’s going but nobody else does. Gelwenil honestly never meant to upset Methenor or Hinnoron when she left to follow the stars. Like Methenor was definitely struggling when his parents left for Valinor, but in retrospect Gelwenil left several years after that. Maybe not enough for him to have healed and moved on, but I don’t blame her for thinking that with his wife, children and their youngest brother Methenor would have enough of a support net to justify her wanting to explore the skies.

Gelwenil is an avid believer in the power of Varda, and also deeply respects Tilion and Arien. Any type of celestial Maia can be expected to be treated with the deepest respect from her.

Out of all my characters Gelwenil deserves the most TLC tbh I feel like she’s underdeveloped compared to everyone else because I dont use her a lot.

14. Faerveren

Uuuugh I miss Faerveren so much. Mistons second cousin twice removed, and probably the only person to ever leave him flabbergasted and when Miston is the voice of reason in a duo, you know somethings up.

Faerveren is also an interesting character because with her I wanted to present the idea of people assuming you’re always emotionally fine as long as you’re physically strong enough to be virtually invincible.

15. Nengelon

Local edition of the “I’m so fucking done with this shit I don’t get paid enough to deal with” club, together with Feren and Lindir. Nengelon tends to fall into an elven variety of Welsh when he runs upset with the leader of the Sabaid elves, and just about no one knows what he’s saying.

There’s also the implication that he basically ran away from the Riunnag (waterelves, maybe related to the Teleri through distant blood but sources (ie me) dont confirm that yet so its just rumors) tribe he belonged to because of his secret romantic ties to said leader, but Nengelon doesn’t speak of his romantic outings to anyone so it’s just a rumor.

16. Braigon

Ah, big, bulky, burly, 7 foot something Sabaid leader Braigon. Rides a grizzly bear as a warmount, wields a gigantic twohanded battle axe, and is an absolute terror on the battlefield… when he bothers to get his tribe of warrior travelers involved. Braigon tends to stroll around like he owns the place, because not many dare to defy this mountain of an elf.

Maybe thats why people are so bewildered when 5��9 sized Nengelon curses him out on his bullshit in some incomprehensible tongue they don’t know.

Braigon is actually a pretty solid leader of a tribe where elves can pretty much do as they please as long as they do their job as either warrior or provider (finding food and other supplies) outstandingly. The Sabaids aren’t a big tribe, there’s only a couple hundred of them, but they make for fantastic allies… but only if you can manage to convince Braigon to risk any of his people in any given war; and he usually isn’t concerned with fighting the battles of others for them without a good reason. 

 17. Bereneth

Bereneth is an interesting case. An accident between a Sinda lady and a Noldo refugee, at a time when those relationships weren’t exactly accepted after the reign of destruction left by the line of Finwe. (I like to believe thats something that took a generation or two for elves to get over dont @ me.)

Because of this, Bereneth was relentlessly bullied to the point where as soon as the oppertunity rose, her mother left for then newly settled Rivendell. Being under the rule of Elrond, she figured her daughter would be safe there. Bereneth remained there and bore three children to Carandolon and sailed to Valinor when their daughter in law was pregnant with her first child

18. Carandolon

Chieftain of a squadron while Greenwood was under the rule of Oropher, Carandolon was a bright eyed and wanderlust filled soul, born to two fullblooded Silvan elves. When on a mission to Rivendell, where he had to accompany a diplomat, he saw Bereneth and for him it was love at first sight.

When the mission was over and he returned to Greenwood, he immediately requested to be dismissed from his chieftain status and to be allowed to move and live to Rivendell.

A reckless and bold move, and it did take him a while to woo Bereneth, but they ultimately fell in love, got married, and had three children. He sailed with his wife when their daughter in law was pregnant with her first child

19. Nemiron

The missing link that connects Miston to the line of Finwe. Nemiron is the bastard son of Írimë and an unknown father of Vanyarin descent. Nemiron lost complete vision in his right eye when the healer tent he worked at got raided by the enemy in that war; and he threw himself as a shield between the blade and the wounded soldier it was aiming for.

During the war, he was usually found in the company of either Finrod or Edrahil, as he needed help to adjust to his new lack of depth perception. Sometimes during that same war, he left to settle in Lothlorien, where he met the weaver apprentice Dillothés. They married and moved to Rivendell as a position for an experienced healer was open there, and they had their family there.

Nemiron remained in Rivendell, despite yearning to sail, for the sake of his only daughter, and he ultimately sailed for Valinor when she was pregnant with her third child.

I havent decided if the power of Valinor heals Nemiron’s injury, but if it does (and I doubt it), it would do so only partially. His right eye will never be 100% functional.

20. Dillothés

The third and last born daughter of her parents, Dillothés worked as a weaver’s apprentice in Lothlorien before moving up to becoming a weaver of her own, selling her selfmade fabrics to tailors and others interested and making a comfortable living out of it

She became infatuated with Nemiron, who was often found in the library studying Lothlorien native herbs to aid in his small healer practice. After she learned of his injury she never backed away from him once, and helps and supports him to the best of her ability. This remains the case when they went to Valinor and whether or not he partially heals from his injury

[mykniverse]

17

TW// self harm, beatings, suicide, death

i remember storming home first, leaving family members behind. my thighs were pinched with thongs and i was dragged and locked out of the house in the cold. i was given a jug of water, some fruits and my schoolbag.

when sh did the same, he was lectured and was told not to do it again. 

i remember accidentally lashing out and i was forced to eat cili padi at 10 pm. 

when sh and iq did it, they were only shouted at.

i remember the day you found my goodbye card for my guy friend in primary school. i was scolded and shouted at and also beaten up.

when sh and iq exchanged love letters with girls, nothing was said or done.

i remember asking if i could go out with my friend at 9. i wasnt allowed to because i failed my exams.

sh and iq are able to go out even when their results are bad.

i remember wanting to go to a level camp so bad i wrote a note, begging to be allowed to go. but i got scolded for writing the note and i wasnt allowed to go. i wasnt allowed to go to camps till i was 13.

sh was able to go to camps between ages 11 and 12 with no problems.

i remember being told that if i failed PSLE i will be married off to a random guy. i was told to aim for 200. i scored 199. i didnt get to hear any “good job” or “you did well” as we had to rush to KL as someone passed on. in fact i didnt get to hear anything even after the trip. 

i remember sunday practices. waking up to reciting the timetable at the door no matter who was passing by. no breakfast till youre satisfied. and on weekdays after school, i’d have to recite them on a stool in front of the window where the sun was merciless. i remember when i collapsed due to the heat. i was in pain when i regained consciousness. i was asked to eat but while i was getting food i was slapped. i was laughed at by sh and iq.

i joined netball at 8. i was forced to quit at 9 because i didnt do well for my exams. i wasnt in any ccas till i was 13. but i couldnt choose what i wanted. i was forced to join a uniformed group. 

sh joined a dance cca and it was approved. iq joined badminton but quit. then he joined malay dance. both times it was approved. he was in the prefect team too. you kept giving him chances after chances even though he keeps failing. why couldnt i get the same amount of chances?

it was sh’s turn to take PSLE. when i texted about his results (i was out), you told me he did better than me. i was shocked as to how he could get 200 and above. he dropped out of the normal stream to foundation. he only scored 130. you were so proud of him. he went into a technical school and you supported him so much. i couldnt even choose which school i wanted to go to. “choose a school where you dont have to spend 5 years studying” but the first choice that you put would have led me to spend 5 years in secondary school. in the end i got the last choice that you put.

i remember you finding out that i was talking to a guy when i was 10. we were just talking. you found out and beat me up. i couldnt walk properly for the rest of the day. 

sh and iq are saying upfront that they have girlfriends but nothing is happening to them.

i got my first tiny phone that barely works at 13. i got my first actual, second hand phone at 14. and an actual phone that wasnt passed down at 15

they got their first brand new phones at 8 and 12 respectively.

i remember entering a new school with an old bag that sags while they continued being in the same school with new bags.

i remember you asking me to choose a new bag and i asked about them. you said they wont be getting the same. i felt special. till you asked them to get new bags too.

you gave me an anello bag for school once. i felt special again because i was the only one who had it. but a week later they have it too.

i remember only going out with my friends at 15. but my curfew was before dusk. 

iq went out at 9. sh went out at 13.  you gave sh a curfew. he came home hours later and didnt even get scolded. i brought it up and you acknowledged it but nothing happened.

i remember going home late after school. im a teen am i not supposed to have fun with my friends? but you brought it up to one of the upper ups in school. i was put on probation for months. it was embarrassing. teachers thought that i committed a crime. an innocent me is getting probation? why? because i go home late. i cant say that i have things after school at the last minute because you say its ridiculous and bullshit.

sh goes home late. you caught him at the playground, mall, void decks. you scold him. and he does it again. but nothing major happens. iq calls or texts you that he is staying in school and you allow him to. 

i remember self harming between ages 12 to 15. i was asked to go counselling. now i realised that the counselling was nothing. it didnt help at all. they put the blame on me. when you found out about this, i remember you scolding me. “what is there to be depressed about? youre only 14. all you have to do is study” i was scolded so much for being depressed and for self harming. you had to go for some parents counselling thingy too. i remember that one time i hit an all time low and self harmed again. sh snitched on me and told you about my scars. you got so mad when you saw the scars. i remember what you said to me. “why dont you do it deeper? end the burden once and for all. it’s so burdening and tiring to go to counselling after work?” i remember crying non stop. till we meet him. i was crying in the train. sh and iq was pointing at me and laughing. what you didnt know was that i was typing my suicide notes. i planned my suicide. when we met him, you told him and he glared at me so hard. i was given the silent treatment for so long. when you asked me why, i lied and say that im hated by people. how do i tell the cause of my depression that they are the cause of my depression?

i remember when i stopped self harming and counselling sessions are done. you got new piercings and i asked you if it hurts. you would always retaliate by saying that me self harming hurts more than getting pierced. you consistently did this while i was trying to heal. i remember when jonghyun passed on. i broke down a lot. i cried a lot. i revealed my vulnerable side. but i was mocked. “when a celebrity dies, she’s crying her eyes out. i wonder if she would even cry when her mom passes away.” i literally had to excuse myself so i dont break down in front of you.

i remember that you talked to me before i went on to pursue my tertiary education. you said you were disappointed in me. you said you didnt understand why i was content with my shitty results. i was content because the entire of 2018 was peak depression period. i could barely study because it was so overwhelming. the fact that i managed to even go somewhere was huge to me. i knew i disappointed you a lot because i was the only one who managed to maintain the standard and express stream. you didnt expect me to be where i am now. i put some money from my salary to pay my school fees and uniform for the first term. i already disappointed you so i didnt want to burden you. but you took it the wrong way. you thought i was trying to overthrow your responsibilities as a parent. you said that i was excited to grow up and get rid of you from my life. i remember being so shocked. yes i want to grow up so i leave this household but i have never once thought of getting rid of you.  

i remember and i know that you are very against what im doing now and what i want to do in the future. but im 17 now. im turning 18 soon. how long more are you gonna make my decisions for me? why cant i choose what i want to be? 

why do you assume that my depression is gone just because i dont have to go for counselling? why do you still joke about me self harming? why do you blame whatever sh and iq do on me? “monkey see, monkey do” what did i do? im still harming myself in a way. i picked up smoking at 13. and i started drinking recently. i have no idea where im gonna end up. a successful writer? at the void deck passed out? on the road surrounded by my own blood? i really dont know where i’ll end up. i dont know how long more i can take your hostile words. i hear that im useless every day. i hear that im hopeless every day. you always say that you dont understand us. why dont you try? why dont you try to put down your ego for a bit and try to understand us? try to understand me. try to talk to me. dont you notice that i never talk about how im doing? all i say is that im tired. and you scold me. “if youre tired then dont go to school” you dont even know when i get sick unless its the holidays. we stay under the same roof yet you dont know me at all. and you didnt raise me. for almost 10 years of my life, i was raised by my grandparents. please for once. stop talking and listen. understand. comfort instead of scolding. please. im losing my mind.

[thelittlehansy]

Random fanfic idea

Babysitting time

They were only supposed to pass some times between cousins when Louis has makes them followed him in the dark library of the castle. Now he was talking about some creepy story about an old imortal lord.

- and here is the mysterious place of Lord Cedric a creature half human half snake rumors says no one never succeed getting alive out of that room ! 

- really ? asked peter 

- yes , some  people have even saw him eating children alive !

Louis smirked when he saw the face of his cousins. The twins of uncle lucas ,Lola and juliet, were afraid , peter, remy, charles  the annoying triplet of uncle jurgen  had finally  stopped to talk and Arthur uncle timothy's 4 years old  little boy has hide behind Elizabeth. The only one who was not afraid was elizabeth 9 years old  and the oldest of the bunch uncle lars daughter. she has a little brother , Tristan, who  was  shaking , his gaze frightened behind his glasses. 

- i have read a lot of books and i have never heard of someone called lord Cedric ? tried to say Tristan when it was obvious the little boy was very anxious.

- Tristan you are only 8 ! Of course you don't know him. you haven’t read all the book in grandfather’s castle !

Louis took the opportunity when  they weren't watching him to left the library. He voluntary  slammed the doors and yelled.

-  nooo lord Cedric please someone help me ! 

He chuckled when he heard his cousins yelling his name he was only 13 years old and it was so easy to play with his cousins. Thats time even Elizabeth was scared.

...........................

- i m scared ! says juliet

- me too i want to leave the library ! Add her twins sister lola trying to opened the door

Elizabeth was going to calm her cousins when she heard Artur crying.

- no no its ok ! Its alright Arthy !

- Is lord cedric gonna eat us ? Say one of the triplet

- no no one is gonna be eat !

Suddenly she heard step coming from the back of the room arthur stopped crying and she whispered :

- hurry up ! Everyone under the table !

Once they were under the table the only thing they could saw was the floor and the sound of lord cedric in the library.

- i heard him he is next to us ! Whispered Tristan frightened.

 the children saw the shadow of a man , the shadow was walking toward them...they tried their best to hide under the table.

- woaaa lord cedric has a big foot size ! Added peter

elizabeth put her hands on his mouth

- suuuhhhh ! 

- what is he doing ? whispered lola

- i don’t know whispered tristan while shaking.

But the man was not going to leave....he still continue to walk and now he was in front of them and the children could only see his very long feet and very long legs.

- he is approaching ! mommy ! I m scared ! cried peter while his two brothers where silent.

- don’t forget what grandfather has say we are lion not little mice responded remy 

They heard the noise of a door slammed.

- i  m mice , i m definitely a mice ! a very little mice ! finally say remy while crossing his finger that their place will not be discovered by lord Cedric.

- i think he is  gone ! sighed elizabeth

Silence.

They could only hear the silence.

- yes he is gone i heard nothing say lounder Charles.

- no , he is still here ! Say a deep voice.

All the children jumped lord cedric has found them ! he was going to eat all of them ! Some covered their eyes with their little hands fearing what lord cedric may done to them.

all except lola , they could hear their cousin giggle.

giggle ? 

The little girl has been enough brave to raise her eyes  and at her big surprise  it was not that  lord cedric but definitely the face of unkie Hans. She giggle at the view of a familiar face after this intense fear and  run toward him who took  her in his arms.

- well....well...who i m gonna eat today ? Does i m gonna eat the little lola ?

Hans fake eating the little girl , making sound with his mouth  and tickle the little girl , which made her giggle even more 

- oh no! I think i ' m gonna burn alive peter ! Or i ' m gonna torture remy ! He say while looking at the children evilly.

- oh no please dont do anything added remi who was still covering his eyes

- this is uncle Hans remy not lord cedric ! Respond elizabeth annoyed at remi 

- uncle Hans ? no , no ! I dont know which uncle are you talking about elizabeth ? Say Hans.

- you have eat uncle hans ? asked  arthur  dumbfounded.

- exactly thats why i look like him arthy !

- thats the most stupid thing i have ever heard ! Said elizabeth with a malicious smile

- i beg your pardon little princess ? Responded hans faking being outraged.

- this is not possible ! Added tristan once you eat someone you cannot looks like him.

Damn....

why these kids must all the time makes smart comments like thats ? Hans thought.

Its was definitely gene on their mother side or it was their paternal grandfather. Yeah ! Grandfather is very powerful maybe he can control genetic also ?

- hum.....i cursed him before eating him ! But whatever because i have locked the door and now you are all going to pass the days of horror with me mouahahaha ! he say while posing lola on the floor.

Elizabeth giggle and the twins giggle when they heard their uncle diabolic laugh.

- are you laughing about my diabolic laugh , impertinent little girls ? hans claimed trying to sound severe but at the same time making a funny grimace.

The twins nodded a little smiled on their face.

Elisabeth added

- this is your face she is funny ! She giggled

- what my face is funny ? He makes another weird expression that makes the kid laughed.

Hans allowed himself to break out of character and laughed.

Yeah....he definitely sucks at being a villain in his everyday life , even kids are not afraid of him !

- what are you doing here in the library under the desk ?

- we were listening to stories with louis !

- oh and i guess louis has left and locked you here ? Respond hans his brothers has been enough imaginative during his childhood that he could guess every scenario ever.

- yes ! He talk about lord cedric !

- lord cedric ? He Raised an eyebrow confused at who is lord Cedric.

- is he gonna eat us ? added arthur still scared

Hans laughed

- no no ! Do not worry ! I m pretty sure lord cedric do not exist !

- your sure in all the books i read he is not in it maybe he is in a other book ?

- well , i have read all the book of the library and he definitely do not exist !

- family tree also ?asked peter not convinced

- family tree ? Hans makes a paused pretending to think.

- hum....i know by heart our whole family tree and there are not any lord cedric !

He affectionately ruffle his hair.

Suddenly hans remembered....

His sandwich ! That's why he was in the library he has forget his sandwich here !

He notice it on one of the desk of the library and then look at his nephews and nieces.

It was not that he didn't like them ! Of course he loved them very much and pity them ! Well the one who were cute , adorable not the spoiled brat ! in fact he pity them to have his brothers as fathers. It didn't really bothers him to babysit them since he didn't really have a lot of things to do in his miserable life. It was just that today , he has just plan a little time alone in the library only him , a book , and his sandwich.

He finally spoke :

- why stay in the library ? he add with a smile go enjoy the garden and the sun outside !

- grandfather say no he doesn't want us in the garden today ! Explain Charles

Hans would have never thought he would have say that but after spending almost 30 years with....grandfather and have seen everything from him....he didn't care at all now about what grandfather would have say.

- who cares about grandfather ?he laughed with a huge smile on his face.

- you have my permission just say uncle hans is the one who allowed us ! Trust me grandfather is not gonna yell at you !

he is gonna be happy...very happy grandfather doesnt need a reason to hate someone he added to himself.

He was going to pick a book but some of his nieces and nephews were still here.

- can i stay with you ? He heard the little voice of Arthur and his little eyes looking at him like he was  some god.

Because of his father being absent of his life , hans's 11 brother , The little boy was always trying to have  attention  of some of his  uncle. The one who were the most close to what a normal uncle should be. apparently Hans belongs into that category and each time he saw him Arthur followed him.

- you doesn't want to go outside ?

The little boy nodded.

- maybe you can pass sometimes with another uncle then ?he say with enthusiasm in order for the boy to like the idea.

This time it was elizabeth who talk she was still present in the library along with tristan and the twins. Hans realized that the one who went outside were the  undisciplined triplet maybe finally he cares a little about grandfather....he get rid of his father from his mind  and focus on the kids.

- which one ? Uncle runo , rudi are creepy ! Our dad are not in the castle. Uncle jurgen is taking a nap , uncle alphonse a little dumb..uncle klaus is also scary. Uncle emile is busy , he dont like uncle alexander and frank , uncle caleb...hum not forget about uncle caleb !

Hans laughed while listening to elizabeth. 

kids...always say the truth.

- so i guess i m only the free uncle...he looked at arthur.

- ok you can stay here !

Judging by all his niece and nephew reaction they were very happy...too much happy

He sat on his chair and finally took his sandwich he take a bite of it while thinking about a game for the kids but tristan cut him in his thought....

- you can tell us the story about that joke you did to  princess Anna?

his first bite in his sandwich goes down the wrong way and Hans took water when he heard Tristan reclamation.

- what ?

Hans has forget he has used with lars the word "jokes" to describe what he has did in arendelle. All his family has say nothing to the children not to keep his imagine clean , no they didnt really care about that , it was because they didnt wanted to give them idea mostly to louis the heir and prince caleb's son. Apparently tristan has a too great memory.

- you knows that was a bad joke she didn't really laugh and like it !

-  but... i heard everyone talking about it and no one wants to explain me ! he dramatically exposed sad and frustrated at the same time.

- alright, alright when you will be older ! 

- you already say that ! 

- i did ? 

- yes when i was 6 and now i m 8 !

- well you are still little i m sorry but...

The doors opened of the library and hans could see the triplet covert with soil on them and kristin caleb's wife crossing her arms and look severely  at hans

-they were messing in the garden , when i say to them grandfather has forbidden you to go play outside they say to me " who cares about grandfather"

hans burst out laughing and gave them a small, affectionate pinch on the face

- oh thats my nephews that !

a small smile appeared on the faces of the triplets visibly proud of them.

- no ! I dont want to laugh hans ! Unkie hans doesn't have to use his problem with grandfather to makes his grandkids disrespect him. What is going to say grandfather ?

Hans took another bite of his sandwi

- unkie Hans doesn't give a fuck about grandfather.

- hans....please you brothers are enough difficult to deal with dont makes things more harder ! 

she makes a paused

- and don’t swear in front of the kids ! 

hans took another bites of his sandwiches.

- ok ok ok calm down they are gonna stay inside ! I just doesnt have a game in mind...

- you alright ? she asked sincerely concerned she touch his forehead

- yes why i would not be alright ? 

-  well   it doesn't sound like you to not cares about your father and , well usually you are very....... resourceful to keep them busy...

- there is a first time in everything !

she finally laugh 

- right ! You keep the triplet with you ! I dont want them messing in the castle and they dont want to stay with the maid ! They prefer stay here and dont forget you are maybe the 13th prince of the southern isles but you are in the top 5 of best uncle out of 13 brothers ! She wink at him while leaving the library.

- yes yes of course ! He say while eating another part of his sandwich.

Now he needed to really find a game amusing , cool , entertaining......

But tristan has not forget his idea

- so are you gonna tell us about that bad joke you did ? He say excited.

Kristen was right....Usually when he was tired but had to babysit them he always find a solution.. usually he always find the silliest things to kept the kids entertain while he could do something other on the contrary of jurgen who let them do everything they wanted no wonder the triplet were so undisciplined.

he needed to makes them forget about princess anna bad joke. then Hans remember the maid at this time were cleaning the bedroom and he has saw a laundry basket with blanket and sheet next to the library when he entered an idea comes in his mind. 

-  i think i know something better than princess anna joke !  what about building your own hiding place in the library ?

Their face indicate him that they were definitely excited by the idea.

- a hiding place ?  like a tent asked juliet

- yes exactly ! 

- can i borrow chocolate in it ? 

- yes of course ! 

then hans notice , the triplet were still covered with soil. He lead them to the laundry basket where there were clothespin sheet and blanket.

- you have everything in it ! peter , charles , and remy you comes with me you need to find a servant to have new clothes !

as the triplet followed him , Hans smiled to himself , This time again he had succeeded deviate the subject now he just needed to pray that his nephew and niece has forget about princess anna bad joke.

* can’t remember if Hans saying to childrens he makes a bad joke to elsa and anna is something i read in a fanfic or just from my imagination.

[shellibisshe]

Literally just do all of the asks (besides the ones you've done already) I'm nosy and I'm love you >:O

ask and ye shall receive

long post ahead

2.) A picture of me:

3.) How many tattoos I have and what they are:

I have none :)

4.) Last time I cried and why:

literally yesterday. I made eye contact with my friend Jaylen who’s on the dance team for our band. it’s her senior year and she’s had a lot of health problems and yesterday was the last time she got to perform her routine for our field show

5.) Piercings I have:

none, not even my ears are pierced

7.) Biggest turn offs:

someone who says they’re open to other opinions but clearly isn’t. also someone who cries to their parents when someone is mean to them

8.) Top 5 (insert subjects):

I’ll do top five books;

1. Mosquitoland by David Arnold

2. Kids of Appetite by David Arnold

3. I Stop Somewhere by Te Carter

4. Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury

5. An Abundance of Katherines by John Green

9.) Tattoos I want:

maybe like,,, a tiny airplane? because i like to travel? or something small.

10.) biggest turn ons:

when someone is caring but not too much. when someone is open minded

11.) Age:

17 I’ll be 18 in like,,,5 or 6 months

12.) Ideas of a perfect date:

okay so listen,,, my family owns some property up in the mountains. so my perfect date would literally just be going and getting like fast food and then going up to that property to just sit and talk

13.) Life goal:

to become a psychiatrist

14.) Piercings I want:

none

15.) Relationship status:

Single

17.) A fact about my life:

I was raised partly in West Virginia by my dad’s parents but I live in Pennsylvania. my grandparents on that side would watch me during the day so my parents could go to work.

18.) Phobia:

Acrophobia

19.) Middle name:

Jae, after my dad

20.) Height:

5’3”

21.) Are you a virgin?

ye

22.) What’s your shoe size?

I have tiny feet,,, size 6/ 6 and a half. even 5 depending on the shoe

23.) What’s your sexual orientation?

bicurious. I’m not quite bi but I don’t think I’m straight either and I know that isn’t exactly what bicurious is but that’s the closest I can get.

24.) Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?

nope

25.) Someone you miss:

my dad’s mom. she was really close to me when I was younger

26.) What’s one thing you regret?

trusting certain people

27.) First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive:

Ryan Reynolds

28.) Favorite ice cream:

coffee flavored Haagen Daz!

29.) One insecurity:

that whatever I make won’t be good enough

30.) What my last text message says:

“I’m going with Morgan at 4 to help her pick out table setting for her wedding”

31.) Have you ever taken a picture naked?

no I’m a good child (but ya know it’s your body you do you)

32.) Have you ever painted your room?

yes. both accidentally when I was little and on purpose when I got older

33.) Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?

no

34.) Have you ever slept naked?

no

35.) Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?

nope I don’t like dancing

36.) Have you ever had a crush?

literally a thousand both real and fictional

37.) Have you ever been dumped?

nope I’ve only been in one relationship and I ended it

38.) Have you ever stolen money from a friend?

no but I’ve not paid someone back after they got me something and I’ve felt bad ever since

39.) Have you every gotten in a car with people you just met?

no

40.) Have you ever been in a fist fight?

no but I got really close one time because this giant dude in my grade threatened to punch me and I said “Do it you won’t” and spoiler he didn’t

41.) Have you ever snuck out of your house?

nope I’m too tired and clumsy

42.) Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?

HAVE I EVER HAD FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE WHO DIDNT HAVE THEM BACK?? YES ALL THE TIME

43.) Have you ever been arrested?

no

44.) Have you ever made out with a stranger?

ew no

45.) Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?

like,,, I’ve met guy friends to hang out with them

46.) Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?

no my mom knows my every move half the time

47.) Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?

ew no all my neighbors are old white guys

48.) Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?

no

49.) Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?

HECK YEA like two weekends ago I shared a bed with a girl in a hotel room

50.) Have you ever seen someone die?

no

51.) Have you ever been on a plane?

yes and I hate it

52.) Have you ever kissed a picture?

no

53.) Have you ever slept in until 3?

yes back in the day when I would watch Toonami

54.) Have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now?

yes

55.) Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?

yesss my family used to have a trampoline that’s all I did on that thing

56.) Have you ever made a snow angel?

yes

57.) Have you ever played dress up?

yes

58.) Have you ever cheated while playing a game?

I cheat at the sims

59.) Have you ever been lonely?

yeeeeep

60.) Have you ever fallen asleep at work/ school?

yes and my teacher just let me sleep

61.) Have you ever been to a club?

no

62.) Have you ever felt an earthquake?

no

63.) Have you ever touched a snake?

no

64.) Have you ever ran a red light?

bud I don’t even drive over the speed limit

65.) Have you ever been suspended from school?

nope

66.) Have you ever had detention?

in like elementary school

67.) Have you ever been in a car accident?

a minor one, no one was injured. a college student hit me and my mom when we were in my dad’s huge ass truck.

68.) Have you ever hated the way you look?

yes

69.) Have you ever witnessed a crime?

no

70.) Have you ever pole danced?

no

71.) Have you ever been lost?

physically, mentally, and emotionally

72.) Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?

no

73.) Have you ever felt like dying?

no

74.) Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

yes

75.) Have you ever sang karaoke?

no

77.) Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?

literally every day at lunch

78.) Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?

no

79.) Have you ever kissed in the rain?

no

80.) Have you ever sang in the shower?

yes I ~perform~

81.) Have you ever made out in a park?

nope

83.) Have you ever glued your hand to something?

almost?

84.) Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?

no

[kimito-pequenito]

21 Asks for D&D Characters

Amalli Dannae Corrinthe Tregothnan

Heir of the Noble House of Tregothnan, Baroness of Longacre within Cheliax.

Sylph Rogue, aka Malli

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1. What influenced or inspired the creation of this character?

Adeline died, I had to make someone less shitty to take her place in the campaign. It was a pretty low bar. Sylph seemed neat. I wanted to create someone cool and collected. A distant travelling individual (didnt happen). Then Cheliax was mentioned.

2. What is your character’s relationship with their family? Family is a word which here refers to biological relatives, close companions, and/or the individual(s) who raised them.

Dearly departed parents, she’s missed them ever since they passed away up until recently. They were the guiding force in what used to be her tiny world. She’s only recently heard disturbing whispers of evil things about them in her ears. Her parents made her so blind, she’ll have to be shown much more of the truth before she could ever start to believe how they really were.

3. Who is the closest person to them?

Before Almas, her elven governess Marilna and martial instructor Dominicus who essentially raised her and spent more time with her daily than her parents did. She’s since met and started a relationship with a former Eagle Knight named Lizbeth Fisher, but I think it’s in the early stages of puppy love for her. //heplz// puppy.

4. What were the conditions surrounding their formative years?

She still wears the rose-tinted blinders her parents raised her with. Raised as any wealthy chelish noble baroness would be. Her parents paid a price for her, arranged a contract with Asmodeus. They went to great lengths to protect and shelter their great investment of resources. This meant she wasn’t allowed off of the estate as a child unless she was with her parents. She was raised to believe that Cheliax is a great and powerful nation superior to others in every way, that some of the races were better than others, more civilized. That the common folk were dirty and barbaric. That the outside world was irrelevant.

5. What creature would they like to have as a pet?

Something that flies or is in tune with her Sylph quality. Dogs are also very cute but perplexing things too.

6. Do they have any bad habits?

Addicted to tea, gets irritable if she doesn’t have it at meals. Can give too long speeches.

7. Is there anyone they’d die for? Kill for?

She’d die for Marilna and Dominicus. Kill for Lizbeth, her f-f-friends, or anyone in need of saving.

8. Who was their first love?

Lizbeth was the first that she ever noticed had interest in her.

9. How would this character react to someone confessing their love for them?

Tomato face, begin drafting up a contract of courtship.

10. How old is this character?

80yo in Sylph, which equates to about 20yo in Human

11. Are they normally peaceful or aggressive?

Peaceful

12. How does this character handle stress?

Not well. “THIS IS SO STRESSFUL!!!!” //wails. Tries to drink one of the many teas she owns for relaxation. (Her family runs a plantation of many fields, including tea and other ehem…relaxing herbs). Constantly has worried looking eyebrows.

13. Does your character consider themselves lucky?

She’s very chipper.

14. What is their favorite holiday?

Any holiday or occasion her family threw parties for, typically in the name of their deity Asmodeus.

15. What is the best gift they could receive?

Friends. Jk Tea.

16. If they could instantly kill one person in the world without consequence, who would it be?

She holds no grudges or ill will towards anyone at the moment.

17. If they were in possession of a trio of wishes, what would their three wishes be?

To let her loved ones have the same lifespan as her, to be able to teleport anywhere in the world to better explore it, ……unlimited tea?

18. What is their favorite spell or method of attack?

Gaseous form and her acrobatic skills let’s her leap, jump, and fly through the air. It’s an exhilarating feeling as a sylph to become one with the swift wind and then slash through her target from above.

19. What are their guilty pleasures?

Copious amounts of tea, overspends on luxuries she’s accustomed to in her daily life.

20. What is something this character is or could be addicted to?

Tea. Her family grows it, so she has had and still does have it with every meal, for illness, or other malady.

21. Have you actually played this character yet?

Yes and I can’t believe she’s still alive.

[robertisbisexual]

15 questions, 15 mutuals, tagged by @vicbartons and @nightingalejames​

1. are you named after anyone? Two people actually. Malorie is because of Mallory from family ties and my dads big ol crush on Justine Bateman lmao but then also my middle name is Angela after my aunt angie who went missing when she was like 13 and they never found her. its like a really well known missing persons case in the crime .. people? circle stuff etc etc because of how long the case has been open. 

2. when was the last time you cried? Im absolute positive a tv show has made me cry since because im weak but the last time I remember like full on crying was when I watched Coco and it punched me in my heart.

3. do you have kids? no, but i have a million younger siblings/step siblings and the gap between me and the next older is 14 years so i helped raise some when younger lol

4. do you use sarcasm a lot? me? never.

5. what’s the first thing you notice about people? their voice probably

6. what’s your eye color? brown

7. scary movie or happy ending? either, i love a good scary movie but i also love a good happy ending so

8. any special talents? i know busted ass barely competent sign from hs [like i remember words and letters but i couldnt string a sentence together to save my life] and i can maybe stil play the trumpet. its been a while.

9. where were you born? tacoma, washington

10. what are your hobbies? reading, movies, tv, etc buncha nerd shit like wrestling rp

11. do you have any pets? yes, hamster robert [rip ur missed hamster aaron]

12. what sports do you play/have you played? Basketball, Volleyball, Softball. I actually got a half scholarships to college for Basketball but school and I didnt part on good terms :/ in my minor defense i went to a 4 year christian universality after being in private school since kindergarten and i only had one actual core class my first year and everything else was bible stuff and i was just drained and over it and just didnt enjoy the experience much.   like the people were great but as a whole it was not beneficial to me. idk if it would have been different had i had more ‘normal’ classes or not.

13. how tall are you? 5′5ish

14. favorite subject in school? English and History

15. dream job? I went to school to be a teacher but that obviously didnt pan out. as far as a ‘dream’ job i think something within the movie industry but specifically about like making the movies or movie history etc. idk ive always found all of that very interesting.

Im gonna tag @capseycartwright @letthebluerain @parryglasspools @priceofwarmclothes @frecklysugden @vcktoxica @rustandruin @longlivethefreakinme @peoplediedrobert

[nobleofthemanor]

Self help doesnt always work

When I was born my parents weren't in a stable place. My dad 20, strung out on heroine and was a dealer himself. My mom was 19 almost 20. Both grew up in abusive, neglective, and manipulative house holds till they married at 18. Neither had very great examples of parenting. My dad was either partying (sometimes at our home) or doing drugs. He did some things that Im not comfortable sharing on the internet, mostly because it's not my place to say it.

My surrounding family wasnt very stable either. My mom did her best to raise me and two sisters, but after my second sister was born she had a 2, 1 and newborn. I dont remember if she was trying to do college or not, but I know she was going through alot on top of raising kids.

My parents life changed drastically a few months before my 3rd birthday. My dad was busted and my mother was arrested with him. On the way to meet the cops my dad had given his life to Christ. Now this didnt mean he stopped struggling with his drug addiction. It took him roughly 6 months to truly quit, but he did. It was a hard six months as they had to deal with themselves and their relationship. (They almost divorced at one point).

Eventually my family reached a point of stabillity. My dad became a pastor at the church that had supported and guided him in his walk with christ. He also joined another ministry and started helping people who struggled the same way he did.

Id like to state both my parents had alot of issues. Both had to deal with their abusive past, parental issues, trust issues. They also had sepererate issues that the other did not have. but fast forward 15 years, with the help God, the wounds have healed.

My dad is no longer in drug ministry, but has taken on a more adminastrative role in the church. My family is still together and closer than ever. Also, in a few months my parents will celebrate 21 years of marriage and over 25 years of being together. My great granfather and great grandmother have both given their lives to christ(something my dad has been praying for since they were the ones who raised him). I graduated Highschool ast year and one of my younger sisters is about to graduate highschool and is hoping to join the airforce.

Im in college now and currently working in a preschool that my church runs. I love every moment of it.

While this is my wholesome storry it doesnt quite end there.

You see, while my parents had dealt with their issues and had healed. I had not.

My dad was saved when I was 3. So, for those three years of my life I lived in that really unstable enviroment. I suffered constant nightmares. I was also being somewhat raised by my grandparents, as they were usually baby sitting us when my mom and dad went to work/school. I was also the first born to two people who had bad examples of parenting. Basically, the trial run/expeirement I dont remember much of those three years, but I do know living in that enviroment for those years really affectted me growing up. However, my sisters were lucky as they were to young to be affected.

Growing up I was a really overly emotional child. I got angry and violent quickly. I had an attention span of 2 seconds. I tended to easily take things personal. I was really chatty and wuth drawn at the same time. I tended to be a loner at school. I was terrified of many things. When I was about 7/8, maybe 9, I dealt with feeling like my family would have been better off with out me and started physically seperating myself from my family. Eating at a seperate table when we sat at the four seater table or staying several feet behind if we were walking somwhere. Whenever my paeents would get on to me, I would try to make my self small by putting myself into a corner. I was always anxious like I should be on the run. I was/am constantly second guessing myself. I had broken record in my head that I was never enough. There are alot of other things that I cant think of at the. All in all it was just general behaviors that werent normal. I wasnt a normal child to begin with, but these were big clues that I was dealing with stuff and not coping very well. Im sure I have some form of anxiety and ADD. Though I highly doubt it, I wouldnt be surprised if someone told me Im autistic. On top of it all I had the pressure of putting on a good face as a pastor's kid, which didnt help.

As I got older I tended to become obsessed with things. When I was 11 I became addicted to anime and did things Im not proud of. It was a bad coping mechanism and I ended up wasting about 4 years of my life living in my room. Dont get me wrong, there were good times when I first started getting into it, but at the end of those 4 years I was a borderline fem-neckbeared I even had a fedora. I realized how much time Id wasted and manage to break the addiction, but the issues were still there.

My parents did there best to help me. I saw two different therapist one my parents made me visit as a kid and one I asked for as a teen. I stopped going to them for different reasons. My parents couldnt afford itanymore. And the second one was because I didnt see any change.

Both of these therapist were in my small town. Both were men, and both knew who my parents were. It made talking to them and opening up hard. So I stopped going.

Fast forward to six months ago. I started college and a new job. Both required my full attention forcing me to stop going to church and quit my volunteer work. I couldnt keep up and my anxiety was always present. Especially since I felt like I couldnt keep up with the fast paced required there. I felt like I was drowning and I couldn't take this feeling of being broken any more, so I asked my mom about seeing a therapist again. At first Mom was against it, I was at the point where I would take whatever medicine if it meant this insanity would stop. Mom is the type who doesnt rely on meds or people, she and God can fix it. She did eventually agree and we found a therapist. A wonderfull woman whose office is located in a learning center for autistic kids. Which is really cool.

The two of us instantly clicked and I enjoy my visits. I do my best to follow her advice. She has been the first person to truly tell me, your feelings are vallid. I can honestly say Ive improved more in my six months with her than I did in 18 years of trying to fix myself. My relationships and my life gratefull.

[yeoldontknow]

catch up tag 🌸

tagged by beautiful angels @chillingtae and @yoonia to do this catch up tag. thank you so much loves! i hope you guys are having a happy friday <3 <3

1. what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

kat is fine! i introduce myself to people as kat. if youre using my full name youre either upset with me or a member of my family lmao

2. when is your birthday?

jan 23

3. where do you live?

nyc

4. three things you are doing right now?

working (waiting for one of my systems to load which has been bogged down and super slow lately), listening to my spotify release radar (which is....not great today im disappointed), mentally drafting lines and description for the next hero chapter as im in the mood to write today but im absolutely not in a romantic place lmao

5. four fandoms that have peaked your interest?

uhhh ill list fandoms ive written fanfic for! kpop (obviously), merlin, muse, and supernatural (but like really specifically supernatural seasons 2-5)

6. how has the pandemic been treating you?

i mean....50/50. my company is amazing and i know im super privileged. ive been working from home since the end of february and corporate have been extremely generous (giving us additional time off, mental health days, extending summer fridays until end of 2021, compensating for home office needs, restructuring work from home policies to accommodate parents). i got a bonus in june in place of my raise due to financial tensions but was confirmed for another promotion next year - even was offered a new job, literally straight offered didnt even need to interview, to create my own team in a different department. i have a roof over my head and food on my table. my family is healthy, my parents are retired and safe. like...im so so so grateful.

mentally and emotionally and creatively...i am struggling. a lot of my inspiration for fics comes from being out in the city and observing people and their interactions. even architecture inspires me. the act of moving through a city inspires nearly all of my fics (like..i think everyone can sense that lmao asas is in london, light sakura is tokyo, all quiet is movement through spaces, hero was inspired by a building in harlem). not having that kind of motion and observation has made writing really hard. and also just...the news and the onslaught of hyper-reality. its been utterly daunting and ive found myself completely burned out more this year than ever before. usually my burnout hits during new years or the holidays. ive spent part of summer and part of autumn and literally all of november just...vacant.

so yeah. 50/50

7. a song you can’t stop listening to?

Flexibility of Mind - GRoost

8. recommend a movie?

Summer Wars (2009, hosoda mamoru)

9. how old are you?

31

10. school, university, occupation, other?

currently employed at a major company in the arts & entertainment industry

11. do you prefer heat or cold?

cold!!!! its so easy to warm up and bundle. who doesnt love cozy socks and hoodies and slippers <3 <3 its so hard for me to cool down in the summer and i hate sweating lmao

12. name one fact others may not know about you?

uhhh i worked in music supervision while getting my masters and the two degrees i have do not necessarily relate to the work i do now lmao

13. are you shy?

i can be. im definitely introverted and find other people to be way, way more interesting than i am. i enjoy listening to people talk about their passions and what interests them, and this also means that i dont say much or say anything at all about myself, really. im not usually the first person to engage in a group or even to introduce myself first to someone unless i get the sense there is someone uncomfortable (with the energy, the topic, the setting, etc) and then i will put myself in a position of leadership to make them feel safe

14. preferred pronouns?

she/her !

15. biggest pet peeves?

people who react rather than respond to criticism or confrontation; people who instigate drama; really loud groups of people on public transportation

16. what is your favorite ‘dere’ type?

i dont believe i have one

17. how would you rate your life from 1-10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be?

ill say like...8

18. what is your main blog?

this one - yeoldontknow

@yeoldontknowiread is for ficrecs

20. is there something people need to know about you before they become friends?

i can be pathologically secretive in that i dont really talk about myself or what my day has been like or what im up to unless something happens that is exciting or interesting. being an introvert also means that my regard for our friendship will define it as something sacred and i will likely be more devoted (though quietly so) than you might be if youre an extrovert. im really passionate about things and if i sense that you are not as passionate about those same things i will likely not bring them up again unless i feel like you want to hear about it. it might take me a while to respond to texts or messages, but it doesnt mean i love you less. there could be long periods of inactivity in our friendship but if someone else asks me about you i will say i love you and you are special to me and will call you a close friend even if its been years since weve last talked

tagging: @yehet-me-up @kyungseokie @jenmyeons @jamaisjoons @j-pping @yeolville @loeybeans @ditzymax @imdifferentshadesofpurple @red-exo @iris-somnia @inkedtae @yeojaa @hobi-gif @sahmfanficbts @snackhobi @delhyun @yutacrush @nunchiwrites @blackberrykai @kimtaehyunq @jiminiethot and anyone else who wants to do this. i know i tagged a lot of people but really i just want to check in on you and see how youre all doing. as always please only do so if you wish <3

[horansqueen]

AM Conversations : chapter 48

A Niall Horan fanfiction ; rated MA

CHAPTER 1 || CHAPTER 2 || CHAPTER 3 || CHAPTER 4 || CHAPTER 5 || CHAPTER 6 || CHAPTER 7 || CHAPTER 8 || CHAPTER 9 || CHAPTER 10 || CHAPTER 11 || CHAPTER 12 || CHAPTER 13 || CHAPTER 14 || CHAPTER 15 || CHAPTER 16 || CHAPTER 17 || CHAPTER 18 || CHAPTER 19 || CHAPTER 20 || CHAPTER 21 || CHAPTER 22 || CHAPTER 23 || CHAPTER 24 || CHAPTER 25 || CHAPTER 26 || CHAPTER 27 || CHAPTER 28 || CHAPTER 29 || CHAPTER 30 || CHAPTER 31 || CHAPTER 32 || CHAPTER 33 || CHAPTER 34 || CHAPTER 35 || CHAPTER 36 || CHAPTER 37 || CHAPTER 38 || CHAPTER 39 || CHAPTER 40 || CHAPTER 41 || CHAPTER 42 || CHAPTER 43 || CHAPTER 44 || CHAPTER 45 || CHAPTER 46 || CHAPTER 47

NOTES:

-one chapter is her pov, the next is his. -4.2k -im sorry, i never proofread, i hate it. -there WILL be smut. but not only smut. -this is a romance, comedy, smut story. -for the summary, check my MASTERLIST.

- if you want to be notified when this is updated, please message me or leave a comment!

- note for this chapter: i know my last chapter didnt get many notes but the chapter is ready so why not post it you know? sex is vanilla again. thought it was cute. sue me lol. theyll have kinker sex dont worry hahaha! i would LOVE to know what you think of the characters and their reactions and stuff. so please, message me!

here are the requests for this chapter! for the instagram one, i changed it a bit because i dont think her character would want to be in the spotlight like that i hope its ok! also i had already talked about their first time and such so I added the others :)

Chapter 48 : His chapter

NIALL

"Oh my god! Look at you flirting with that woman like she's not 30 years older than you!"

I started laughing and let my head fall back slightly. My arm was on the couch's back right behind her head and I brought it closer, pulling her to me by her neck.

"Is that the tone you use when you're jealous?"

I noticed her nose raise up in a grimace but she kept staring at the tv, making me laugh even more. For some reason, Olivia wanted us to watch old One Direction interviews, pretending it would help me for the ones I had planned in the next few weeks. It didn't really help, all it did was make us laugh and I had to admit it was quite entertaining and I was pretty sure I had never watched most of them.

"It was tough watching interviews back then." she admitted, raising a shoulder. "Especially the older ones. You were such a horny kid."

I frowned slightly at her comment. I could hear a lot of pain but also a bit of blame and it bothered me. I was young, I was newly famous and not shy at all. Of course, I was a bit stupid and I tried to be funny but out of all the people in the world, I thought she'd be the last one to comment on it.

"I just enjoyed flirting." I let out, shrugging too. "I don't do that anymore."

It took her a few seconds but she turned my way, staring at my profile.

"How many times did it work?"

I frowned, still looking the old 60 minutes interview we did a few years ago playing on screen. Did I really want to have this discussion?

"What are you asking?"

I held my breath and turned to her, noticing how painful it was for her to ask me something like that. I felt my annoyance falter a bit but not leave completely.

"How many girls did you have sex with?"

We had never talked about that before. I thought about asking, especially when we started dating, but I was scared it would start shit between us. When I was younger, I didn't mention my stories mostly because I didn't want to hear hers. Now that I think about it, it was probably out of jealousy, too.

"Liv, please-"

"More than 10?"

I stared at her a few seconds and nodded a bit. I watched her lick her lips and breathe in and nervously, I felt my fingers play with the fabric of the couch. I hated this, it could only turn wrong.

"More than 20?"

I could feel myself getting angry and I closed my eyes, trying to calm down. I didn't know why I was so touchy, it was not in my nature, but perhaps the way she asked me didn't help. It was not just a casual conversation, there was clearly a reason why she asked and I suddenly regretted that we never talked about these things before.

"20 sounds about right." I just said, impatient to talk about something else.

"That's more than twice my number."

We remained silent for a few seconds and I raised my eyebrows at her.

"Am I supposed to answer something to that?" I just wondered a bit rudly. "I don't know what you expected Olivia, but clearly you're delusional. I've had a lot of opportunities it's true, and no of course I didn't jump on all of them, but you don't ask an 18 year old boy to be reasonable after being thrown into fame. I don't think you can really understand what it's like."

I shook my head and sighed louder than needed before getting up a bit roughly. I felt her fingers wrap about my wrist and stopped immediately.

"I'm sorry."

I stayed motionless, standing up with my eyes closed as her fingers pressed around my wrist more.

"I'm just scared. And insecure." she added low as i felt her fingers slip and free my hand. "I don't understand why you're dating me, Niall. You could date so many girls or just fool around with anyone you want. But you're here with me and it just makes no fucking sense to me. So when I see how things used to be for you, it scares me for the future and at the same time, it reminds me how much I cried during those years."

I sighed and slowly sat back down next to her, still not being able to look at her.

"Why did you propose we watch that then?"

From the corner of my eyes, I noticed her looking down and swallowing. I couldn't pretend I knew how she felt, not now and not back then, but I was dating her now, I had been dating her for over 9 months. The fact that she was still doubting me... doubting us, was tough to accept.

"I thought i'd be okay, I thought since you were next to me, holding my hand, that it wouldn't bother me." she explained in a low and ashamed tone. "I was wrong."

I sighed again and rubbed my eyes before getting up again. Her head shot up quickly but I just held my hand out to her. It took her a few seconds but slowly, she slid her palm against mine and I pulled on her hand, helping her get up.

"Let's go outside, okay?"

She didn't say anything, she just let me bring her outside, in the backyard. I took my socks off after letting go of her hands and sat on the side of the pool, putting my feet in the water and waited for her. It took her a few minutes but I still didn't turn to her. The night was calm and warm enough, especially for late september, and I looked down at her feet moving slowly in the water.

"At the lodge, I saw you and Harry making out naked on the side of the pool. It made me very jealous, even if I didn't really realize it back then. Not really because you two were having sex, but mostly because he had your full attention, and I was so used to have it all for myself that losing it was like a slap in the face." I admitted, licking my lips. "I'm not saying I know how you feel, Liv, or how you used to feel. I just think that holding on to that is changing you and stressing you for no reason."

"Maybe."

She didn't comment on the part about Harry and I closed my eyes.

"The first date I ever went on was with a girl from school." I added low.

"Grace, I remember."

"The whole time, all I could think about was kissing her. I didn't care about anything else. I was young, I can't even remember if I liked her, but I wanted my real first kiss and it's all that mattered." I made a pause and sighed. "Then I had girlfriends when I was a bit older, and then I joined One Direction and met other girls. And whenever I hung out with them, I was never jealous, I thought 'hey if it doesn't work then it wasn't meant to be' and that's it. I didn't expect it to last because I didn't want it to last. I had nothing to lose. I thought about sex and having fun."

I turned to her and sighed louder when I noticed tears falling down her cheeks. I moved my body her way slightly and shook my head.

"Olivia, why are you crying? I'm trying to tell you that it's different with you. I care about you. And the first thing I thought of when it came to you was not sex, it was not kissing you. It was making you happy, it was how good I felt around you. Why would you cry for that?"

"Because you seem to forget that I was there, Niall. I saw you with these girls. I cried myself to sleep because I desperately wanted to be in their shoes. My first kiss was with a guy at school who was harassing me to go out with him and when he kissed me, all I thought about was you. The first time I had sex with Rian I wished it was you. Every single decision in my love life seems to have been related to you. I'm not blaming you, it's all on me, but its still not easy for me."

My eyes roamed on her face and I watched her wipe her tears and sniff a few times before clearing her throat.

"We both need to make efforts. You can't spend all your time asking questions about my past that's gonna hurt you, you know."

"I'll work on that." she whispered. "But you're gonna have to be patient with me."

"Okay."

We remained quiet again for a while, just looking at the lights of the pool shining on the water. I knew I should reach for her hand but I wasn't sure I wanted to.

"Remember the first time we got drunk together?" she asked with a chuckle, moving her feet a bit more vigorously and making the water move around her. "You were so cute, and so damn tactile. At some point I was so close to tell you that I loved you that I got scared and hid in the bathroom for half an hour."

I smiled at the memory and chuckled.

"You were so dramatic and I didn't even know!" I let out, making her laugh too. "I don't know how you kept it inside for so long."

"Fear of losing you." she shrugged. "I just looked at you, both of us totally pissed, and I thought 'everyone wants a piece of him but he's with you right now, don't ruin this Olivia'."

"You were cute, you had that really high ponytail. I remember because whenever you'd turn around, your hair would brush against my arm and I was so drunk it made me shiver every time."

My eyes found hers and she was not smiling anymore. Her lips were parted and her eyes were glued to me. I raised my eyebrows and moved my face closer to hers.

"Yes, I remember things. Not the same things you remember, and maybe not for the same reasons, but I do remember things."

Slowly, she pressed her lips together and they curled as she kept looking at me.

"I love you, Niall."

I moved my upper body over hers, forcing her to move down on the hard cement but she didn't complain. I placed both my hands on each side of her chest to hold myself over her and bent down to kiss her.

"I love you too." i answered, moving up to a bit to look at her.

Her eyes traveled on my face until my lips and she licked hers.

"You said you'd make love to me whenever I'd want." she whispered so low i barely heard. "I really want it now."

"It's not really comfortable." I pointed out, the right corner of my lips moving up.

"Then you're gonna have to be extra gentle with me."

I nodded and sat up, immediately reaching for the hem of her sweatpants and she moved her butt up to help me. She brought her feet off the water and placed them on the ground, her knees up, and my eyes roamed between her legs as I let out a low groan. I took my shirt off and didn't even react when it fell in the pool. It made Olivia chuckle and I just moved gently over her, placing myself between her legs.

One of her hands ran on my chest as I pressed myself against her. I felt her grind up slowly against me and bent down to kiss her. I could feel myself get harder with every move of her hips, even if she was barely moving and I let my lips brush on her jaw and down her neck.

"You should keep your shirt on, I don't want your back all scratched."

I brought my mouth back on hers and I noticed her lips curling in a fond but amused smile.

"You don't want to see me completely naked?"

"Don't be silly." I chuckled again, glancing down and noticing her hard nipples through the fabric of her shirt. "I really fucking do. But you don't need to be naked to turn me on."

She smiled more and I moved down on my elbows, moving her head up gently and placing my hands under it to make sure her head wouldn't rub against the cement.

"Are you sure you want to try it here?"

She didn't say anything, she just kept looking at me as her hands moved between us. One of her palms pressed on my cock and I groaned low. She started nibbling on her bottom lip, slowly pulling my pants down and I pushed myself into her. I was surprised at how wet she already was and how easy it was for us to do this, like our bodies just seemed to fit perfectly together.

"I love you."

I bent down again, kissing her as I started thrusting in and out of her so slowly that I could feel everything incredibly well. So well that it brought sensations in me that I hadn't felt before. I felt impatient and my whole body throbbed even more than usual. It was definitely different than what I was used to but I loved it. I could really see all of her facial expressions and ended up letting out a very low curse word when her lips parted and her eyes fluttered close. I watched her as she moved her chin up and I could feel the back of her head rubbing slowly against the palm of my hands, making a mess of her hair. She looked amazing, all fucked beneath me, and it made me realize how much I loved her.

"I love you too." I whispered back. "So much."

"Just me?"

My movements faltered and her eyes opened slowly. I stared at my best friend, laying under me, and I thought of all the things we went through together and all the things we'll go through together too. I thought about our friendship that turned into love, I thought about us when we were young, I thought about everything I missed with her and everything I lived with her, and I could swear I felt my heart skip a beat.

"Yes, only you."

Her hands traveled on my back until my ass and she let out a short whimper as her thighs pressed on my side to keep me close. I could feel my elbows and the back of my hands hurt from rubbing slightly on the cement but it was really the sharp pain in one of my knees that made it worse. I tried to push it out of my thoughts to focus on her and when she arched her back and started shaking, I knew she was cumming.

"Oh god Niall... I.. I'm..."

I tried to keep my movements slow and steady but it was pure torture until I felt an orgasm reach me. I felt it coming and held my breath as my eyes closed and I groaned again as it spread inside me slower than normally. I could feel it until the tip of my fingers and in my toes and when I came down from my high, I blinked a few times.

"I'm literally seeing spots." I let out with a short laugh.

"Me too." she chuckled just as my sight was getting clear again.

I looked at her laying under me and sighed. Now that it was over, I was more aware of the pain and I grimaced. I let myself roll on my back next to her and she moved her upper body over me with a frown.

"You okay? You're not bleeding are you?"

I brought my hands up to look at them and shook my head.

"I'm sorry." she added, raising her nose up. "We should have tried on the grass. Do you need ice or something?"

"And pizza." I pointed out with an exaggerated pain expression, making her laugh.

"Alright i'll bring all that in the living room."

She was about to get up but I put my hand on her thigh to stop her, my fingers brushing gently on her skin.

"Wait." She stopped and turned to me. "These girls, they mean nothing. You need to trust me."

She sent me a sad smile and shrugged a shoulder very slowly. I was tired to fight and I was scared it would ruin things between us.

"I'll try."

                                                         ---

I was driving the first time I heard 'This Town' on the radio and she was sitting next to me. I didn't know why but I felt incredibly lucky that I was not alone, and even luckier that she was the one with me. Her face illuminated and she let out a short scream, making me smile even more. I parked on the side of the road and she threw herself in my arms awkwardly since we both still had our seat belts on and we looked at each other the whole time it played until the very end.

"This is so fucking good Niall i'm so proud of you!"

I cupped her face and brought her closer a bit roughly, crashing my mouth against her and making her laugh. She grabbed the front of my shirt and deepened the kiss slightly, making me smile through it.

"Fucking hell."

She laughed as we pulled away slightly and smiled more.

"It's a big deal. Your first solo song." she whispered. "And you worked hard for that."

We remained in the car for a while, just flabbergasted by what had happened and a bit ecstatic. I looked at her reacting almost as intensely as me and it made me realize so many things that I just leaned against my seat and sighed. Despite all the fights we had, despite my almost total absence in the past few weeks, despite the fact that we had it hard recently, she was there, she supported me, and she was happy for me.

"A few drinks tonight to celebrate, how's that?" she proposed as I started the car again. "We could invite a few friends?"

"Yea, yea good call!" I let out, glancing at her. "Hey take my phone and go on instagram!"

She frowned a bit but she was still smiling and she did what I was told before looking at me again.

"You want to add something to your story?"she asked as I nodded. "Okay, go ahead!"

"Hello lovers, so we just heard 'This Town' for the first time on the radio a few minutes ago and we went completely crazy!" I just said with a laugh, trying to focus on the road as I passed one of my hands in my hair and shook my head. "Let me just get back home and I'll do a live and answer a few questions!"

She stopped filming and played with my phone for a few seconds before looking at me again.

"That's a very good idea."

With a smile plastered on my face, I parked the car and unlocked the front door before quickly getting my laptop. She put her purse on the couch and I sat next to it right before she disappeared in the kitchen. It took me a few minutes to go live but when I finally was, my smile hadn't faltered not even for a second. I started answering questions, glancing from time to time at Olivia that remained away from the camera. I knew she didn't like to be in the spotlight and that a lot of times, I brought attention to her without meaning to, but the fact that she was still there, in the shadows, to support me, meant the world.

"I was with Liv, it's her you heard on the video." I explained, answering an other question.

I saw my girlfriend grimace when she realized everyone had heard her voice and her probably her laughter when we recorded the small video in the car and my eyes found her again, her expression making me chuckle.

"From the face she's making now, it was clearly not intentional." I pointed out, laughing again.

My eyes caught a comment that made me frown but I tried to ignore it until I saw an other one and I finally closed my eyes, breathing in.

"Okay, i'm normally not the type to give attention to bad mouthing but we're trying to have a nice time and reading shit about my girlfriend is no fun."

I could feel Olivia tense near me as my eyes roamed on the comments.

'No Niall pls stay!!!'

'Ignore them we love her! OTP!'

'Fuck whoever talks shit about her'

'They don't deserve your attention!'

I didn't add anything else but kept on answering questions about an upcoming album, more songs, the process of writing and tour. After over half an hour, I said goodbye and turned my computer off. Olivia had left and I joined her in the kitchen, wrapping my arms around her waist from behind. My lips reached her neck and I squeezed her tighter against me.

"Hey, darling." I whispered. I heard her sniff and my heart twitched. "It wasn't that mean. I promise."

I watched her fingers grip the side of the sink more and suddenly felt extremely bad. I shouldn't have commented, that way, she wouldn't know about the mean comments, but when I saw them, I didn't think, I just reacted. It was not like me but reading shit about her made me a bit impulsive and now I regretted it.

"That's what I mean when I say I don't understand why you're dating me." she murmured after swallowing hard. "No one understands why you're dating me."

"People who know nothing about you or our story don't get it, so what?" I just replied, nuzzling her nape. "Fuck them. I know why i'm dating you and i've got a shitton of good reasons."

"Don't tell me you don't doubt us, sometimes, Niall." she shook her head. "Don't tell me it never crosses you mind that you should be dating someone who's in your league. A tall, skinny, gorgeous actress, model, singer... I don't know."

She moved away from me and turned around, her back still facing me. I let my arms fall on each side of my body and sighed a bit loud before rubbing my eyes. I was trying to comfort her but it seemed like nothing i'd do would change anything.

"I'm telling you it's you, okay? I love you!" I argued, getting annoyed again. "I don't get how it's so hard to understand!"

She finally turned to me slowly and I felt a pain at heart when I saw the tears on her red cheeks. I didn't know why it was affecting her that much and I felt like i'd never understand.

"Love is not everything. Contrary to popular belief, love is not all you need." she pointed out, her arms crossed on her chest. She shook her head again and licked her lips as I stayed still, holding my breath. "I don't get why you don't understand how I feel, and I can't seem to explain it. It's useless, Niall. I'm useless."

Without waiting for an answer, she turned around and walked in the hall. I closed my eyes, trying to calm the beating of my heart. I should have ran to her and took her in my arms. I should have tried again to tell her how much she meant to me. I should have begged her to believe me and trust me. Instead, I sat on a chair and sighed loud. I felt defeated and exhausted at the same time. I just wanted us to be happy like we used to be but I didn't know how.

After a good twenty minutes of thinking, I got up and walked to our room, opening the door slowly. She was laying in bed, on her side with her knees up. I took a few steps closer only to realize she was asleep. I put my hands deep in my pockets and stared at her for a few seconds. Her lips were slightly parted and I could hear her breathe a bit louder than usual. I sighed again and found a blanket before putting it over her and bending down.

"You're so much more than you seem to believe." I murmured close to her ear. "I wish I knew how to show you. Maybe i'm the useless one."

[shatteredfears-arch]

its 330 am, i have work at 11 am and have to be awame by 8, this is fine, heres more donna/angie/claudia thoughts

if claudia’s bones formed Angie, and claudia’s soul was attached to those bones, donna sharing her cadou with angie adda to the idea that angie’s personality being so vastly different from donna’s is because it isnt donna’s personality, it’s the personality donna looked up to and wished she had: its claudia.

donna is based on the folklore surrounding the weeping spirit haunting a desolate ground, the possession of dolls and the calls of the banshees.

donna was transformed after claudia’s death, and claudias canon death is 1996, at the age of 9 years old at most. donna was given angie after the fact, and given to miranda as a gift of her parents loyalty shortly after that.

miranda clearly let donna be raised in the house still, since the servants mention her steadily changing personality. which, as donna’s appearance change is never mentioned while theyre alive, leads me to believe miranda was performing more minor tests first. definitely looking at the young (likely 8-15 years old, at most) donna. The diary (in japanese text) says she suffered from extreme interpersonal fear as a small child, and i doubt it ever truly got better. The ‘gift’ seemed to be growing, and Donna started talking through Claudia. But Donna hadn’t received the Cadou yet, at least not fully, because if she had he would have seen her scar. he never mentions it.

also, something kind of concerning if you look at it too long. the part of angie’s face not made from the family crest? it looks like a younger donna. it looks like her dad might literally have deboned claudia’s corpse, and kept her face to preserve it in some way and use in angie. Meaning Claudia would be even more attached to angie.

which leads to this point: if claudia was the one actually speaking. the gardener says Donna was speaking through angie. Ventriloquists, most of the time you dont see their lips move when they speak. for all he knew, it was donna that was speaking, but the only time donna canonically speaks is when she forces a hallucination on ethan symbolizing speech. She does not talk, she’s nonverbal, and clearly miranda decided that was enough reason to claim her too ‘mentally ill’ to properly function as Eva.

Even in Miranda’s notes, she says Donna’s affliction with the cadou is extremely affinitive. If she were already disfigured from the cadou at that point, i doubt miranda would give such high prospects. she dissed all over cina for far less. i think the cadou disfigurement was after those notes were made, maybe miranda saying she’d offer donna more ability to spread the cadou to her dolls, not realizing what the cost would be.

and, maybe she didnt care, because claudia’s disdainful spirit, the only person donna actively listened to, was pulling her strings.

donna is the looming spirit, the haunting figure who’d been controlled and ignored all her life, and the only ones that cared either died or killed themselves. claudia’s death likely wasnt natural, and could have been a result of miranda’s experiments, thus making the likelihood that if angie’s made from claudia’s corpse, angie and claudia are one and the same all the more likely.

and donna giving angie most of her spirit with her initial transfiguring of power, would mean she gave most of her spirit, her power, and her mind to her sister, not a simple empty doll like her other dolls are.

thats why angie has the most power, and angie controls the rest of them.

and donna’s physical body is now too weak to do anything.

claudia could be steadily trapping donna into angie’s body with her, ensuring that they’d never be alone. And when Duke buys Angie off of Ethan, he’s getting the essence of not only Donna, but Claudia as well.

and one thing often stated in folklore

nothing is often stronger than the spirit of a deceased child.