#(clair doesn't understand memes)

[destinyc1020]

I feel like we all feel the same but I got the vibe when z and JE were together that they were kinda bored like there was no playfulness. All speculation guys but From Z’s side I think she thought he was hot but he didn’t understand her humor so she scaled back. Idk if he understood the people around her either like Darnell etc like i doubt he listens or cares for Beyoncé for example lol Hence why she was lurking on Tom shit on twitter because she was able to do those things with Tom. From JEs perspective I think he thought z was cute and she was fun to hang out with at first but he probably found her childish and couldn’t understand the deal with memes ( makes me sad because she didn’t go to a real school so she probably is online a lot lol) or maybe understand the people around her or her taste in music and humor and found her boring and even worse like too childish. He also probably hated her clean public persona and couldn’t deal. I think JEs true love was Kaia. The way his relationship with her was the most authentic to him. They were the most similar in personality and humor. They probably liked the same things. But back to z, the playfulness she has with Tom their entire relationship with lipsync battle them jumping up and down in the Beyoncé concert laughing and giggling in interviews that could never happen with JE. Tom understands her humor and even adds to it. I think you can only do so much with looks. And to the girls, guys will never give you the affection you need unless they really really like you. I think z wanted affection from JE and he was blah because he wasn’t into her like that. He just didn’t like her and that is fine lol the part that bothers me is I know z felt insecure because he was hanging out with Kaia while he was with her and she knew. Z was liking Kaia’s pics too imagine the questioning and insecurity the wondering too. And then to be proven right on your birthday with pics with the same girl you are keeping an eye on. And for all this to be public lol lawd

Yea girl, I def think TZ have always had something special, that they just didn't have with their other significant others and flings/rebounds. 🤷🏾‍♀️

I never felt that Z and JE's energy matched. For example, Z is way more light-hearted, fun, and loves to laugh and smile. Whereas JE always seemed sooo serious and seemed to take himself a bit too seriously?

Even the way he handled the paprazzi on their pap stroll in NYC was totally different (him flipping them bird vs her trying to put his hand down). 🥴

They just seemed to have some very different values.

I won't say that JE didn't get along with Darnell. Darnell seems pretty easy-going. 🤷🏾‍♀️ If JE clashed with anyone in Z's circle, it was probably Claire and Law lol 🤭

Law took that one trip with them to Greece, and you never saw Law with them ever again. And Law seems like he speaks his mind, and is pretty as fvk lol 😆

Claire seemed meh about him, and always preferred Tom over JE (that was pretty obvious 🤭).

The only thing I will add though is about the music thing.... You and your partner do NOT have to like the same type of music, movies, or even food. These little things are not what keep a relationship together. Yea, while it's nice if you and your bf both love the same type of music, I know of friends who are married and they always joke to me about how they and their husbands do not like the same joke at all lol. 😅

Those are very small things Anon lol.

Also, how do we know that JE doesn't like Beyoncé? We really don't know that lol.

But anyway, that's the only thing I would add to this.

To me, TZ are the definition of a couple that are soul mates. Meaning, they're not just dating each other, but they also genuinely LOVE each other as FRIENDS. THAT type of love with your partner is very hard to find. That's the type that only comes once or twice in a lifetime imo.

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[noel-levine-fan]

noel & dorothy parallels

circumstantially, noel & dorothy have a lot in common

took the witch's heart from a dead/dying person after realizing they could not be saved

person was dead/dying because of nicholas trying to get the witch's heart

took the heart to keep nicholas from getting it and making some nasty wish

took the witch's heart from claire's at the time caretaker

held onto the heart for a while after getting it until a situation arose that it could be used to protect claire

made a wish to protect claire

became the "monster" associated with the mansion (dorothy figuratively, by threatening everyone in her dying moments instead of defending herself from the murder accusations, noel literally by being an Actual Monster that scares people away)

despite this reputation, never actually intended to hurt anyone, just scare them

did this in order to protect sirius

[insert that "if i had a nickel for every time [x oddly specific situation] happens" meme here]

it's so interesting that noel basically, in a way, followed in dorothy's footsteps and did to her exactly what dorothy had done to fiona--and his motivations were basically the exact same as what dorothy's were: keep claire and sirius safe.

it's also so interesting, that, with all this considered, ashe would connect "the monster" as being one in the same as dorothy. i mean... ashe didn't have any of this information, so he was just throwing out theories he thought might be plausible, so it doesn't really mean much, but it's very interesting. the are both the mansion's "monster" with the same motives. so connecting the two as one in the same... kind of makes sense. even though sirius had been offended by the notion (and understandably so), it's actually... really interesting that noel ended up doing a lot of the same things that dorothy did. i just think about that a lot.

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What are your thoughts on umineko now that you (i presume) have finished it- what are your feeling on the themes and the presentation of the characters?

It's hard to go into everything so I'll just try to cover the stuff I can think of now. Placing it below a break for an obviously spoiler-filled read.

Short answer: it's good all the way down, genuinely can't think of a single element that left a lingering bad taste in my mouth, quite frankly might have retroactively made some things I enjoyed in the past less good. Read Umineko.

(for posterity, I see that people use "Sayo Yasuda" as the catch-all when speaking about Beato/Shannon/Kanon/Clair/etc. collectively, so I'll be doing the same)

Truth and Fiction

I think what Umineko has to say about the importance of truth and the importance of fiction, especially as related to coping with trauma, is fascinating. Conventional wisdom is that, in order to cope with trauma, the best- and maybe only real- way forward is to acknowledge the truth, work through the resulting pain, and then you can actually begin to heal. And- in basically every case that springs to mind- Umineko goes "that's bullshit".

Like, as I currently scan through the cast: what good did being confronted with the truth do for Sayo, or Maria, or Ange, or even Natsuhi? Sayo would probably still be unbalanced but not go full tilt if she hadn't realized that the entire purpose for her extended existence was to to give Kinzo the opportunity to feel forgiven for raping his daughter. A 9-year-old stands to gain less than nothing from being told, in no uncertain terms, that her mother is just a Bad Person. Ange finally understood that by the end of Episode 3, but couldn't get over it and poisoned herself with the Single Truth. There is literally zero reason for Bernkastel and Erika tearing down Natsuhi's illusion that Kinzo gave a single fuck about her but their own cruelty. The thrust of Umineko in this regard is that, at the end of the day, your coping mechanism ends with you- it's not capable of doing any more or any less than you are capable of without it.

However, it also doesn't purport that the coping mechanism needs to be there forever. The epilogue with Ange suggests that, eventually, she no longer needed to have everyone at her side to give her the strength to keep going.

There's only one other story that I've encountered where a character chooses to continue engaging with their trauma coping mechanism and it isn't presented as a bad thing (rot13: Fnzhenv Synzrapb), and I think Umineko makes that point much more effectively.

Gender

I've noted a couple of times in my reading that seeing a not-insignificant amount of unconnected "BEATO TRANS" art and memes influenced the way I thought about the story at some parts, mainly once The Mystery Baby manifested in Episode 5. Taking that into consideration, I think the way Gender As It Pertains To The Story is handled maybe better than anything else I've ever engaged with.

Direct discussion is brought up exactly one time- when Will asks Lion if they're a boy or girl- and Ryukishi07 then trusts the reader to Understand The Implications of that. Which is actually a recurring thing in the story: the reader is never told, explicitly, textually, who Beatrice is, nor what happened on Rokkenjima, which is a pretty bold move to make in (what could be described) as a mystery!

(Actually, it's twice, since someone mentions that Zepar and Furfur are also indeterminately gendered, but it doesn't seem as relevant in the moment as Will asking about Lion does in that moment, although in hindsight, it obviously is)

I had mentioned that I was a little anxious about whether or not they would dig into what Sayo meant when they were dressing down Genji and Nanjo for keeping her alive- if they would hackishly reveal that the only part of their body that was damaged was their genitals, and that's why they considered themselves furniture, or if it was more abstract, knowing that literally everyone they felt any kind of love for was off-limits due to the incest. @random-tree suggested that another popular theory is that Nanjo- intentionally or otherwise (because it was the 60's)- performed "corrective" surgery on an intersex baby Sayo. Ultimately, I'm glad that the gritty details were never dug into; in the same way that the narrative condemns the people desperate to know the Single Truth as intellectual rapists, it completely sails around even raising the opportunity to do the same to Sayo's body.

Also, since I don't want to reblog it to avoid spoilers and it's most relevant here, please look at this artwork of Sayo; it's outstanding.

NEVERMIND THAT SHIT, HERE COMES SHONEN!!!

The first time Kanon drew his energy sword, I assumed that was going to be a one-and-done thing. Like, "haha we're doing a shonen fight scene for shits and giggles before we get back back to our cerebral murder mystery and battle of wits between Reality and Fantasy". And then every single episode had at least one extended sequence that could be slotted in to Shonen Jump without anyone batting an eyelash.

For however I come across writing big long screeds like this about the stories I engage with, I am a shonen meathead in my heart of hearts. I love watching characters power up out of nowhere because they have determination, I love watching villains get outplayed because they underestimated their opponent- OR DID THEY?, I love Battler and Beato doing the Erupting God Burning Sekiha Love-Love Tenkyouken to defeat Erika. I drink all that up like water, and the fact that it was completely genuine was such an unexpected delight.

I mean, shit, Ange's masterpiece as a writer is not-One Piece.

Ryukishi07 was a social worker (you say) who wasn't driven cynical and hollow

Knowing nothing about Ryukishi07 besides the facts that A.) he wrote Umienko (and Higurashi and Ciconia, which I haven't read) and B.) he was a social worker in his past, paints a tremendously impressive picture of the man. Being a social worker is a potentially soul crushing job, in a completely different way than that term is typically used, and to come out the other end and write something so optimistic speaks to his character.

Like, there is exactly one character I complained about as being a one-dimensional waste of time, and that was Kasumi, who was ultimately literally just a vector for Ange to come to terms with Eva. It would've been such an easy decision to make any of the adult Ushiromiyas also be one-dimensional nothings. Like, even Gohda has something going on: he a glory-hogging oafish dumbass, but he's genuinely passionate about cooking! And even the characters who are beyond redemption- in no particular order, Rosa, Kinzo, Erika, and Bernkastel- you can at least see some reason for why they are the way they are, even if they don't actually earn (or even try to get) forgiveness.

I also don't think I have ever been as emotionally devastated by the two-hit combo of "Maria's 'verbal tic' is actually Maria trying to cast a spell to make Rosa love her" and "Rosa bought Sakutarou and pretended she made it", so, props for that as well.

I could probably rattle off more things I like if pressed, and if there was anything in particular you'd like me to comment on I'd be happy to, but those were my biggest thoughts.

Read Umineko.

[rescuefield]

i am once again coming here with an announcement, and this time nothing could have ever prepared us for it 💀 ( perhaps i'll add this to my rules too idk we'll see )

let's talk about leon(s). i'm a thousand years old, grew up watching my cousins play the ogs, my views are influenced by the way i was exposed to the plot through them and then i got to make my own opinion when i had the chance to play myself. when it comes the canon storyline i do believe that claire & leon are basically that "not platonic, not romantic but a secret third thing ( so devoted the lines blur )" meme, but also i have common sense and don't shove it down anyone's throats.

i never give for granted that interactions with any leon are based on a shipping level - i always write claire acting platonically and eventually if the other mun comes to me asking about it then i can give it some thought ( which is basically what happened with savvy almost a year and some ago, how time flies! ) so i would like writers to have the same regards toward me and not outright send me shippy / nsfw prompts on the basis that i "write it already with other leons".

we say not one character is the same even when it comes to the canon ones, so i don't see why me interacting with another blog of the same character means i have the same identical plots even with other blogs. so please don't try to force ship or guilt trip me into it, because it's not cool.

on another note, because i've been lowkey vagued about it and i saw even though i let it slide... i have a leon which i'm affiliated with, and of course when i mention cleon adjacent things you can rest assured it's about them. this is also written everywhere on my carrd, by the way, so it's not something i revealed today. if i write with a leon blog but i'm shipping with my affiliate, it doesn't mean the first blog is there just to "collect muses". it means my claire and your leon are just friends ( for now or forever ) and we can explore other type of stories. i understand some muns might feel bad about it but at the same time we all write with more variants of the same canon muses, so i don't understand why this is a topic to make a scene about.

[calix-soulmane]

For the Choose Violence ask-meme thingie (for DHMIS):

9.) Worst part of canon? 10.) Worst part of fanon? 22.) Your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores?

(Sorry, I'm bad at choosing and I love hearing people's thoughts!)

9.) Worst part of canon?

I don't think it's the worst, but I really hate - and this is for stories in general - the fact that they didn't give us more backstory for the teachers, like- I get they wanted them to be open for interpretation but I still wanted to know why they were doing this to the main trio? What lead them to be there? did they used to be people before entering the show or where they always like this?

That's the questions I make myself whenever I see the web/Tv series again. I hate the fact that they don't give us something else to make the character feel more fleshy, that's why, whenever I make a new AU about DHMIS I try to give motivations, lives before the show, anything to make then feel more real.

I don't know if this happens to anyone else, but I really appreciate more a character if they have something as to why they are like that, something so I can see if I can fully hate them or like them for their actions. Something that can make me understand them and the person they are today.

10.) Worst part of fanon?

I think this is just me but I really dislike when a character is too far away from the source material, like- instead of a version of this character you literally just made an oc out of this character, I don't know if I made myself clear here, but I tried.

22.) Your favourite part of canon that everyone else ignores?

It doesn't go entirely ignored but THE DEATH TALK WITH THE LAMP AND THE LIFE WITH CLAIRE AT THE JOBS EPISODE, GOODNess gracious I love these two scenes so much you guys have no idea,,

[dunb123]

(head cannons )if infinite darknesses leon and patrick were to fall for each other( my fav ship)

i feel like if they were gonna fall in it would and friends x lovers because after the white housev mission they would become acquaintances to work friends to friends to best friends then lovers

i feel as though when they start to catch feelings they would be in denial for a long ass time then as their friendship grows they would try to give each other hints but the other is too dense to notice the hints so they in their minds they both give up on hints

after months of suppressing their feelings for each other i feel it would only come out ( they don't tell each other feelings because they dont want to ruin there friendships). but as i was saying it would only come out if they got drunk and accidentally blurt it out then immediately regret it or one of them got jealous because the other was hanging out with someone else i also feel when patrick would get jealous he would get upset but keep his jealousy to himself on the other hand leon everyone can tell by his body language his tone his change in mood

there offical first date i feel would be at pat's house they wouldnt do a candle light dinner i feel as they would both prefer to be at home eat chinese or mexican take out watch tv shows or have movie marathons

they both have DEFINITELY love to build lego sets and have a seperate shelf after they build there sets they put it on the shelf

there first kiss would be awkward like leading up would be awkard because i feel patrick would be super nervous would have butterflies and then leon being the confident guy he is would intiate the kiss patrick would back out after a few moments of kissing but then would ease back into it and kisses back leon

now patrick has been updated from best friend to boyfriend status i feel leon would be more protective over patrick like since the white house mission patrick is has panic attacks becuse of what happened in the hallway that night so leon is super protective of his boyfriend

they wouldn't bring work into their relationship and try to avoid it i feel they would rarely argue only time they had a serious argument if patrick was being dumb and nearlt hurt himself and leon would worried and upset or if leon injured himself (eg. broke arm or leg ) pat would get upset and really worried about leon's safety and health alll over they would have health and happy relationship

affection i dont think they would super affectionate with each other in public they might hold hands outside of the dso office but would rather like to be alone and be more intimate and affectionate alone in each others apartment would definetly sleepover at each others house and would fall asleep cuddling

when they text i feel when they have conversations patrick would talk and talk and leon would listen to pat while smiling and looking at his boyfriends lovingly or when they text i feel pat would get a little annoyed with leons dry texts and replies and would get upset and be over dramatic and ignore leon and leon tries to improve his texting , when leon tells patrick dad jokes and patrick cringes a bit or doesnt understand but he laughs with leon to not hurt his feelings i feel like there text mainly are just sending memes to each other at ungodly hours on the night and sending each others memes that gen z kids would cringe at but pat and leon would laugh because they think its funny

patrick def becomes obsessed with Leon after leon saved his life in the white house mission obsessed leon and follows him around like a lost puppy and leon doesn't mind and lets him because he just likes keeping tabs on his boyfriend what his doing where he is making sure he isnt dead ( pat is more clingy to leon )

at the dso office they kinda only talk to each other and basically are each others only friend unless if they talk to claire

one time patrick cooked a random recipe he saw online and when it doesnt taste good leon laughs and makes fun of his boyfriend and pat gets upset and ignores leon and leon apologizes to pat when pat ignores his sorry leon bribes him with pats fav food

another time they try pet names (eg. sweetheart, bub, my love ) they both internally cringed and just stick to calling each other there names

they defintely share clothes like hoodies and shirts i feel like when pat sleeps over at leons he on purposely doesn't bring clothes over so he can wear leons clothes because he likes the way leon clothes smell and when leon sleeps over and goes to borrow something and finds his missing shirts and hoodies he interrogates patrick and some miracle gaslights leon into believing that leon left the clothes his clothes at pats house and pat was going to return his clothes but pat was never ever. gonna return leons hoodies and shirts cause he loves them (bestie is obsessed with his boyfriend)

when leon gets introduced to patricks friends he accidentally scares pats friends at first but leon grows on them

they have strict rule at the dso office they keep professional that was until leon gets ,desperate for some affection and yanks patrick into random places like his office , the bathroom , after a meeting in the meeting room and at random times when patrick isnt expecting it they had a couple times when they nearly get caught making out by there boss but make good excuses

patrick definitely got jealous of ada wong and got upset and told leon to distance himself for her or at least not talk to her as much during missions and leon obviously respects his boyfriends wishes and doesn't talk to her as much because he is in a committed relationship with patrick ( ada also backs off leon and doesn't flirt with leon as much as when he was single just because ada cant commit to leon does not mean my pookie bear ada is a homewrecker she a respectful girly )(Patrick just wants Leon all to him self)

ada also during patricks missions protects patrick from danger ( not to make him sound fragile or weak he can defend himself like when he kicked the zombie but in re4 she diverts the zombies attention away from leon to her so leon could save ashley) she only does this cause she knows how much patrick means to leon

i feel like claire and patrick get along and become best friends and claire would definitely embarrassed leon to patrick and claire and patrick are ✨besties✨

everyone in dso office knows that patrick and leon are dating but forgot because pat and leon act more like friends then ✨boyfriends✨ other agents are confused how pat and leon ended up dating because patrick hated leon then dated ? they dont really question it and let the couple be

overall there relationship would fun slightly chaotic definetyl healthl

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Supernatural (Sore, Dislocation, "you're next", Dehumanization, "Don't you dare", Sensory Overloas, Too weak to stand, Tossing & Turning, You're/I'm not going anywhere),

Sky: CotL (Stages of Grief, Burnout, Lost/Found, Grounding),

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⛈️Laying Hands || S4, Oneshot, 2k words, Cas-centric, Naomi || The Angels never wanted to kill Castiel. They only ever wanted him to come home to them.

⛈️Returning from Purgatory Fic || S8, Oneshot(?) Dean & Benny || Dean just has to follow the plan and keep moving. Never mind that the plans already gone half to hell. Keep moving, and don't look back.

⛈️The Carnival Date Fic || Late seasons Oneshot, Destiel, Saileen, & Jack || Dean, Cas, and the gang go to a local carnival

⛈️Am I Gay? quiz fic || Late seasons Oneshot, Bi!Dean, Destiel, Charlie, Claire, Sam || Dean tries an online quiz that gets him thinking...

⛈️The Clone Fic || S12 Multichapter, Dean-centric case fic, Dean, Sam, Cas, Rowena, Mary || On a case, Dean gets whammied with some kind of spell. Now there's two of him running around. But which Dean is the real Dean?

⛈️The Supernatural Tremors AU || Tremors Crossover, 20 chapters, Destiel, Sam/Jess || My baby behemoth monsterfic, because I really REALLY want to see Tremors happen with the supernatural characters. I'm just over here having a good time tbh

Kiss Kiss Bang Bang

⛈️You Wouldn't Want to Live There || oneshot, Perry-centric, Harry, Harmony || Taking Harry’s rose-colored glasses away a little so I can fill in the blanks around the hospital at the end of the film a little.

⛈️Sorry to Burst Your Bubble || Ongoing WIP, 8/24 chapters. Perry/Harry/Harmony || In which Perry has no sense of personal space, Harry is flexible, and Harmony doesn't really mind. Based on deviantArt's kiss memes. (working on cleanup and crossposting, and then I'm gonna finally finish this <3)

[storiecraft]

playbarbies sent: [ HELP ]: sender picks up and carries the badly wounded receiver as fast as possible to the nearest hospital or the nearest place to administer urgent first-aid. — sarah @ claire </3

claire has no one to blame but herself for this grievous injury. she chased a lead on her own—the one thing sarah asked her not to do. and what did it get her besides a literal thorn knife in her side? claire doesn't know if it's life-threatening, but she knows it's bad enough to blur the line between consciousness and darkness. it's also bad enough to make everything blurry. still, somehow the worst part is that sarah had to choose. she could've chased the man attacking claire and finally put an end to the reign of the creekside killer. instead, she's getting claire to safety. she counts a quick 1, 2, 3, and hoists claire into her arms, careful of the knife still jutting out of her side.

❝ ahh! ❞ the movement causes fresh pain to tear through claire's side. the pain radiates throughout the limbs on her left side. claire curls against sarah and clings to her signature green jacket. claire knows sarah well. no ambulance will reach them quickly enough for her. besides, she also has sirens that will part traffic.

even in her questionable state of consciousness, claire realizes something. the guy left his weapon in a hurry when sarah arrived. and when he attacked, he wasn't wearing gloves. claire isn't his best work. just for once, he was sloppy. so maybe this whole thing isn't a bust, after all. ❝ sarah... ❞ she trails off. speaking hurts, but she needs to get the thought out. ❝ the knife... no gloves. ❞ she winces. ❝ we can... fingerprints... ❞ the thoughts aren't as whole as she'd like, but she hopes sarah will understand regardless. a wave of pain washes over her and she fights to maintain consciousness. her head lolls to the side, resting against sarah's shoulder. her fingers squeeze sarah's jacket even tighter.

@playbarbies / a lost meme.

[theirmadness]

‘ I've killed for you. Who else can say that? ‘ from Seraphine to Claire

meme status: accepting. meme source: uknown.

❝ i never asked you to! i never wanted you to! ❞

claire never wanted anyone doing anything for her, for this exact reason. she hated the idea that people could dangle these things over her head. it's not really what seraphine is doing, but it feels that way, and it makes the blonde lash out, because it's the only thing she really knows how to do when she doesn't know what to do.

❝ i can handle myself. i can protect myself. i don't need you to go around acting like you have to do these things for me, like i'm a child or i need to be taken care of. i don't. i want you... i want you around, just because i want you around. can't you understand that? i don't need you to do anything but... be here. ❞

with a frustrated sigh, she broke the distance between them, grabbing the other's hand so she could squeeze it, hoping that she had managed to get her message across, even with the yelling and the passionate gesturing. to hear someone say they've killed for you would be worrying, for most people... but claire...

well, she's not most people, is she? and neither was seraphine.

[plethoraofpokegals-archive]

“What’s wrong, @champofpallet? Are you having a stroke? Speak English Japanese [PokemonVerseAssumedCommonLanguage]!”

[flying-elliska]

Anyway ! Better late than never but here's my favorite stuff I read in 2022 :

- Last Night at the Telegraph Club, by Malinda Lo. Without a doubt my favorite read of the year. Somehow it manages to be heartbreaking, tender and uplifting all at once. The writing is beautifully evocative, the details chosen so clever, and I found the main character painfully relatable. It illuminates a type of experience, that of a young Chinese American lesbian in 1950s San Francisco, that has generally fallen through the cracks of history - it's a celebration of the fact that queer people have existed, everywhere through time and space, and have found ways to be happy even though it was scary and hard and they couldn't tell anyone. And it also illustrates the complex intersections between her different identities - the struggle of her immigrant family to build a life in the US during the Red Scare, the racism she experiences in queer spaces, how she struggles to make a future for herself as a woman interested in science, etc, in a way that feels very important and builds on each other. Also, it's a wonderful tribute to queer spaces and how life saving they must have been, the wonder of discovery, having to rely on crumbs of info and representation, how dangerous and uncertain it all was, just, ugh. Reading this made me think of my 17 year old self who would repeatedly go through the street of the only lesbian bar in town on purpose without daring to go in for years. It's like !!!! That specific mix of longing and anxiety and anticipation. Things have gotten so much better, and yet. Ugh. Anyway, the sense of place and geography in this book is brilliant. Also the romance is very sweet, and the end, if frustratingly open ended, took my breath away. Anyway there is a reason why it got so popular and it's one of the best sapphic books I've read - also YA at its best, easy to read uplifting coming of age story that is also well written and doesn't set aside complexity, richness of historical detail or psychological nuance. Destined to be a classic honestly.

- One Last Stop by Casey McQuiston ; already reviewed this one but for me this was the perfect fun enjoyable queer summer romance with an interesting plot and cool characters and vibes. Perfect for what it was honestly.

- Sawkill Girls by Claire Legrand ; also popular for a reason ; clever and inventive and inspiring YA, with a great uplifting kick the patriarchy solidarity between girls + Buffy vibes. Good ace rep and I just found the main couple really compelling, especially Val, the privileged queen bee with the family secretly cursed to serve a horrible monster that takes over their bodies and forces them to commit atrocities, how she's honestly kind of an evil bitch at times and is allowed that moral ambiguity but also gets to be brave and heartbreaking and lovable and redeemed in the end and also empathized with as a victim of abuse, and it's like !!!! This is exactly the treatment that male characters get so often and female characters were denied for a long time. Main couple feels like the meme where the popular shallow girl and the 'not like other girls' edgy loner girl are actually falling in love and also, real people instead of cliches. I feel like the author could have done a bit more with the atmosphere but overall it was great and I would have been obsessed with this book as a teenager.

- A Marvellous Light, Freya Marske : gay Regency fantasy romance, what's not to love? Fascinating characters and cool magic system and just a joy to read. My main caveat is that I read it in the beginning of the year and I don't remember much of it but I did remember having a blast reading it.

- Cultish, Amanda Montell : Cults have been a hyperfixation of mine for a long time, for reasons that range from intellectual/writerly interest in what it says about human behavior and group dynamics, wanting to understand how power abuse works and generally processing some fucked up shit I've experienced and witnessed growing up. And there is a lot of sensationalist, dehumanizing stuff out there, so I liked the book's more compassionate and humanistic approach. People on the whole don't join cults because they're isolated wackos or mentally weak or instable or desperate ; in fact cults tend to go for the strong willed, determined idealists who want to see the best in people and have a lot to gain in joining a movement that promises change and real action for a better world. (Unfortunately this is why a lot of cult victims are oppressed minorities). They prey on people's innate need for group belonging and meaning in an atomized world that offers little, using manipulative mechanisms of language that slowly shift your reality away from you. Far from outlandish, these mechanisms are already used at a lesser degree by a lot of big mainstream institutions and religion, and are everywhere in ads and on social media (I especially liked the bit about how MLMs function like capitalistic cults whose protestant/prosperity gospel ideology is deeply tied into our current system, which is why they've been allowed to proliferate so well). And yeah honestly i think recognizing those techniques in order to be immune to them should be basic education. Also I liked the point that a lot of what makes people vulnerable to cults are also often very useful important qualities in other settings so you can't set them aside entirely. So a very interesting book, even though it's still pop science so it gets judgmental and imprecise in places.

- Getting to Yes, Fisher and Ury : lmao this is not a very tumblr book but this is a book about principled negociation, e.g how it's not being a domineering asshole that makes you a good negotiator but instead you can get to the best outcomes by being methodical, empathetic, knowing exactly when and where to stand your ground and when to be generous, setting good boundaries and communication and showing the example by being fair without being taken advantage of. Obvs very useful in a pro setting but I think in general this is a very affirming book if you're the quiet, shy type who struggles with self-confidence. Like, you don't have to be an obnoxious immoral backstabby asshole to get what you want, you really don't.

Overall this was not a good reading year, with 18 books read down from 34 in 2021 - mostly because there were some months where I completely forgot to read. But, I did have a lot of fun reading and I still think that's the most important. Also I read more queer love stories than straight ones, which I am very happy with and definitely want to continue with.

My main goals for 2023 are to read more and especially all the books sitting unread on my shelves (you know the issue.) I want to get into more intellectually challenging stuff and balance it out with lighter reads, esp. queer adult romance and fantasy. I'd like to write more reviews here again. And yeah I want to keep having fun most of all.

[fonulyn]

So I'm reading this sad Chreon story - as one does (it's me, I'm one) - and I just had the weirdest epiphany? Like, I dunno, it's probably dumb and far from a hot take or some eye opening character analysis no one has done before but I noticed that people (including myself, so like not saying this in any kind of bad way) tend to write Leon as stand offish, apathetic, and cold. Like this story stated it specifically, said something along the lines of "this is what Leon gets for cultivating a reputation for being unapproachable, apathetic, and indifferent" and the insinuation there is that he's done this on purpose, put on this front to seem unaffected by things when in the presence of others, and I think it's pretty true for his character. Like anything post RE2, Leon is kind of. I dunno, I wanna say deadpan? He seems to express v little emotion, and when he does it's usually in the form of a quip, one-liner, or snarky come back. Sometimes awkward small talk lol. But it feels like he's built this wall, this persona around himself, not just to protect himself from losing more people (bc he probably sees it as some kind of inevitability, and with his track record I certainly wouldn't blame him), but to protect people from him. This poor man has spent so long fighting, trying to save people, and even tho he saves the day in the end, so many people get lost in the process, and Leon feels every single loss personally. Right off the bat we see it every time someone dies in RE2, then again in RE4 with Luis, who he knew for a short period of time and yet mourned so heavily for, and even Krauser to an extent. Leon is someone who is quick to trust, even as he gets older, and we see that in RE Vendetta, too. Like that's probably one of the big reasons he's so devastated after losing his team. Not only was he entrusted with a group (which doesn't happen often, as far as we have seen), but he probably put his trust in them as well, including Petrucio, the man who betrayed them. I just think Leon is such a complex character who hides so much of himself (which is convenient for bad writers at Capcom who can't write good dialogue to save their lives lmao, but I also think it's a decent part of his character now), probably so what happened in RE2 doesn't happen again. Bc that shit was probably so traumatizing, and Leon was still a baby! I'm only a year older then he was at the time of RE2 but like, as humans our brains don't finish growing until age 25, so that kind of trauma at that age is for sure gonna stick with you, and it seems he picked up some unhealthy coping mechanisms from it that's more than just his drinking problem. Anyways I guess I just wanted to rant about how Leon is the most "emotionless" character in RE but in reality he feels and cares so much, so much so that if he doesn't put up that mask of indifference then he'll destroy himself. This man would die so that others could live, he's saved the world multiple times without a care for himself past the need to finish his mission and keep as many people as possible safe. He's such a tragic character and I love him so goddamn much, like he's one of those characters who you aspire to be like, in a way. Selfless, capable, dependable, reliable, smart, passionate, caring. And some of this might be my own character building I've done based off of other headcanons and character analysis posts and stories I've seen, but I do think we see a lot of this in the canon content, too. I just really love Leon S Kennedy, okay? He makes me sad but also so so happy and I love him v much, he is a big time comfort character for me. Sorry for the rant, just needed to scream about this with someone who would understand lol 😅

oh anon, I get you, I dooo. I think that you're right in that Leon has kind of this shell around himself because it's the only way he can cope. but there are so many cracks in his shell, and he lets people in so readily even when it would stand to reason that he shouldn't trust anyone anymore. he gets attached to people lightning fast, and he'd die for them even when he's barely met them.

this borders on headcanon territory, definitely, but I tend to often write him as someone who gets attached easily and falls for people easily (be it friendship or romantic or anything), but then he doesn't know how to properly let people in because he's got his defense mechanisms, he's trying to keep himself from breaking, and what if he truly lets someone past those walls and then another disaster strikes and he never recovers from it?

and I think it shows a lot in how he's so awkward with small talk, he can throw in one-liners and dad jokes and try to keep his own (and anyone else's) spirits up with that. but oh man. beyond that? the boy doesn't know how to naturally talk to people. (even like in Infinite Darkness, with Claire, I think his "don't do anything stupid" was 100% meant to be a joke, both times, but it just didn't exactly land perfectly. poor awkward bby)

but like even though he might put up this unaffected front, he's still so very expressive? like... if you really pay attention to him? he's far from actually an expressionless and cold person. he just isn't very loud about it. (i was just going through ID screencaps yesterday and while Shen May is talking and Leon is on the background, he goes through such a journey in expressions alone :'D)

AND HE CARES. like, for example in Infinite Darkness, he sees Patrick is shaken and the first possible moment he has, he immediately asks him if he's okay and takes a moment to reassure him. they're in a hurry, he's supposed to get going and not check up on a guy he's never even met before, but he does it anyway. and I think it speaks a lot of his character. he's quick to offer support and comfort, and he genuinely tries to be there for others the best he can. he desperately needs someone to listen to him in turn, seriously. give him emotional support, damnit.

and I wanna highlight what you said:

in reality he feels and cares so much, so much so that if he doesn't put up that mask of indifference then he'll destroy himself. This man would die so that others could live, he's saved the world multiple times without a care for himself past the need to finish his mission and keep as many people as possible safe.

because yes. 100%. also this:

he's one of those characters who you aspire to be like, in a way.

like. yes. there was this one meme thing going around which was basically like asking if you feel like you're like your favorite character and I'm just. I fucking wish I was one tenth of what he is :'D

I know not even he is perfect, c'mon, no such thing as perfect people exist (not even in fiction, or if they do then they'd be really damn boring :'D). i'm not trying to claim he has no flaws, or that he never does anything wrong. he has and he does. but the amount of genuine caring he shows and how hard he tries to do the right thing? truly awe inspiring.

i just. I'm right there with you. I love him so damn much. and that's why I spend most of my time writing fic where he gets at least some of that happiness he deserves :'D i need him taken care of, damnit, and if canon doesn't give him good things then i damn sure will.

[neonscreenlight]

what were your thoughts on the new mythro lore video?

oh god i stalled so much on this mythro's new video is coming out tomorrow. alright, sit down. this is gonna take a while.

first off, i just want to say that this video somehow didn't feel nearly as impactful as glad's pit? i swear, that video caused a revolution. suddenly there's a whole load of information about why sven hates mythro, which was one of the big things we couldn't figure out an answer to, plus more worldbuilding in general! there's a boatload of theories to throw out, new headcanons, and more angst opportunities! But I didn't really feel the same with this video, as it's mostly stuff we already knew about. this isn't to say i think the video wasn't good, it just felt a bit underwhelming for the most part. anyways, with that rant out of the way, onto the actual video.

there is so much to talk about the actual escape part. obviously the escape part itself was epic. i have no idea what happened, he like placed a chest and then epilepsy warning!!!!! also i love now nonchalant plumpkin is during the fight scene. it's like that "this is fine" meme. someone make that a meme.

also one thing about the stone statue thing, on the analysing stream mythro did he said that the "sign" that c!mythro saw was actually the guards falling asleep. he said that someone has to be watching the statue at all times to avoid the person in their mind from escaping. since the guard fell asleep, nobody's watching it anymore, so mythro could escape.

can i just say that it's incredibly fucked up that people in the creed can't show emotions? it kinda makes me wonder what the inside of the creed is really like. i don't really have much to say about this, i am a svenlore person, moving on.

WOOOOO the ray lore. ray is my second favourite character aside from sven ofc. best morally grey character. so the amount of things to say about this-

that scar on ray's eye. oh my god. hc that ray is partially blind because of that. i'd imagine having a huge scar on your eye wouldn't be that great for your eye.

also i swear ray is the most traumatized person in this series. it definitely shows with his pure anger towards myth, the fact that even the mention of netti breaks him, and the way he talks about the experience of ares' vault with passion but a hint of sadness. i can tell he's trying to push it away and act like it doesn't bother him. get this fox some therapy man.

finally, the svenlore part. one: hoooooly shit his coat has the two white sides!! good reference to the how to summon a sven video (watch that video btw) and also has a few implications! btw thanks to temteno on discord for most of this, she has a tumblr too i think but i can't remember it rn

in summary:

the yin/yang symbolism in this context probably talks about opposite forces, and without the two forces, everything collapes. once sven split off into yin and yang, yang!sven can only rationalize with yang, so instead of figuring out how to understand mythro's situation, he just assumes he's a bad person.

and you can see that in this scene, sven saying that he doesn't believe mythro after everything he's done to him and that he'd rather trust plumpkin. even after mythro tells him he's being manipulated, it doesn't change his mind. with a combination of being stuck in anger and not being able to rationalize correctly, he turns all his grief on mythro and almost admires plumpkin.

also, on a less theorising note, can i just say that that scene before the fight gave off huge "cutscene before a boss battle" vibes? it's like this is some action-adventure game and i gotta fight them myself. especially that zoom out before the fight... it's like the camera is about to go back to the player.

the personality change????? that journal girl definitely has something to do with that. also, i've been calling the journal girl claire. why? because i want to. it definitely makes talking about her easier, at least.

[zmediaoutlet]

Inspired by the writer ask meme but not one of the questions. About into the flood again, are there any other people you'd be interested in seeing their reaction to the incest + why did you pick Jody?

Oh, what an interesting question. Well --

into the flood again

I think there are a few people where it'd be interesting to see the reaction, but relatively few for whom it would make a good story, if that makes sense. The biggest thing that Sam and Dean have going for them in a physicalized incest world is that no one would ever really think they were having sex. People comment on their unusual closeness -- they mention the married couple vibes or that they go to lengths that are amazing for each other -- but really, no one is actually imagining them screwing. Now, make it real.

I picked Jody because that little moment in the fic -- the moment where Dean's shirt rides up and shows the lace and Sam comments, in which it's highly and concretely visible, was an idea that came to me years before and wouldn't get out of my head. It's one of those incontrovertible moments that can't really be read as anything other than what it is, with the benefit that you don't have to rely on anything as obvious as someone literally walking in on them kissing (or more). I liked Jody as the viewer because Jody is... a grown-up, basically, but also not someone to whom they actually owe that much. She's a friend, but she's not family the way Bobby is/was. She's known them for a while but she could be cut out of their life and they'd miss her, but not in a way that would hurt forever. So---what would their reaction to her knowing be? Well, I provided a possible answer.

But the trick is that that level of knowing made for a short story. Other people don't actually provide much more than a paragraph, unless you draw it out for a long time, and going into the Winchesters-reaction-to-their-reaction doesn't necessarily make for good narrative either. Like if Castiel or Crowley lets on that they know -- there's not much there there other than embarrassment/shame. In a different way, if e.g. Claire or Alex found out -- what's there? "Ew gross" or maybe even "ew that makes sense" or, from Alex particularly, a kind of possible understanding that Sam and Dean would be worried about -- but I'm not really interested in the 'acceptance' stage, especially since real acceptance always reads to me as wildly OOC for pretty much any human (per the first paragraph).

Weirdly, the other day, someone for whom it occurred to me "knowing" would be interesting is... Ketch. I wrote a version of this ages ago, but Ketch has the perfectly amoral disinterest that would make his knowing both unaffected by the "ew gross" but also... kind of freeing? In a way. Both Sam and Dean would probably hate him knowing -- Dean more at first, Sam more later on -- but... what does the judgment of Ketch do? Nothing. Granted the boys would probably rather it wasn't involving panties, lol, but in that very late period where Ketch is their eyeroll partner -- about the level of Crowley -- I can see a moment where him and Dean are getting their scotch on and Ketch has a curiosity and Dean might... actually answer. Maybe. A weird relief, maybe. To not have to wear this one mask, sometimes. (The thing is that I think the mask would still stay on, with Jody. With Ketch it doesn't have to.)

[postmodernmulticoloredcloak]

I love the purgatory prayer for the Emotions and acting choices. But at the same time, I'm really bothered by the implications that it was wrong and unreasonable of Dean to be upset about his mother's death and he should apologise for that. I mean, apologising for your behaviour is great, but that's his mom, and Cas did fuck up in this situation, Dean had every right to be pissed! Esp since it all really happened not so long ago.

Idk, that's probably my problem with the whole Beren's anger arc in s13-15: they repeatedly gave Dean very good reasons for anger (bc he's still a protagonist), but then turned around and acted like he's crazy for expressing or even feeling it. It just doesn't sit right with me. Also, it felt kind of redundant after the MoC plot, which was also about Dean's rage. And tbh, to me, MoC storyline handled this theme (for the most part) better.

Sorry for ranting in your ask box, you are my fave meta writer in this fandom, and it's always interesting to see your pov on different aspects of the show.

Thank you ^-^

I agree! It’s actually curious that you bring up the MoC arc because earlier I was thinking about it... That was different, because the “rage” was programmaticly trauma. In the Carver era Dean’s mirrors are characters like Claire, Amara, characters who lash out from a place of pain and betrayal. That was clear and intentional.

The narrative drastically shifted at a certain point from “the MoC draws from your inner darkness” (which was more in line with the “dark variation on fantasy” thing they played with back then) to “the MoC draws from the Darkness” but at the end of the day it doesn’t really change much, because Dean and Amara are the same. In Supernatural’s horror variation on the fantasy classic, there’s no clear lines drawn between who’s Frodo and who’s Gollum and who’s the Ring, because there’s no magical source of evil, but evil is trauma. (But Dean is definitely Frodo, who gets his return to the Shire at the end that he can never quite enjoy because everything’s changed - I’m pretty sure it was planned all along that Mary wouldn’t be The Perfect Mother, because she was supposed to be Frodo’s return home, things can never be the same after the journey. But I don’t think Mary was supposed to just get killed like that.)

The Jack arc feels different because Dean also lashes out from pain and trauma, but somehow the narrative is not compassionate to him. The narrative of the Carver is kind to Dean, it gives him the return home at the end.

Now, people have been making jokes and memes about Dean in the Jack arc - how he was basically the man resentful at the child for killing the wife in childbirth, how he was “baby trapped”, how he and Cas were respectively husband-coded and wife-coded... well, that’s not an incorrect assessment...? Dean was painted as an angry man, you know? Not as a villain, of course, because it was still acknowledged that his anger came from a place of pain and trauma, but in a way where he cannot understand his feelings and doesn’t really have much to write home about in the emotional intelligence department.

The Carver era painted Dean as a wronged woman in pain slash Frodo who thinks he’s Gollum or even the Ring itself, the last seasons painted Dean as an angry man who somewhat can’t recognize that anger comes from trauma. (I’ve always said that the tragedy of Dean is that Dean is aware. And the tragedy comes from the helplessness. That’s how I read him, at least.)

Obviously not all writers write Dean the same which results in a picture more complex than this, but this at least is the general gist of it, imo. Or, at least, this is one side of the issue.

The other side of the issue, as you point out, is that the narrative doesn’t seem to allow Dean his feelings. I don’t know if it’s a reaction to the Carver’s era tendency to write Sam as vaguely unsympathetic and Cas as chronically suffering from bad decision syndrome, but possibly - Sam is now the sympathetic one (at least in theory, because Dean always defies intentions...) and Cas is Definitely Taking The Right Decisions. So everything regarding Jack is The Right Decision, because Jack Is Good And Will Save The World, and Dean... Dean is chronically wrong and an ass because he doesn’t quite jump on the wagon. (Despite being cool with getting on the wagon on his own terms, based on his own assessments.)

Jack is repeatedly shown as naive and dangerously easy to manipulate for the wrong things, and hardly in control of his hyper-powerful powers, but if Dean expresses reservations then he’s chastized for it, despite having all the reasons to be terrified of what Jack can potentially do.

But first Sam projects himself on Jack (and when that happens there’s no escape from it, Dean is the asshole ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) and then Cas is Totally Right This Time, so Dean should not be a dick and definitely should not experience grief and trauma in ways we don’t like. Only Good(TM) trauma survivors allowed.