#(but believable from dean)

[daftmooncretin]

last three seasons spn are crazy. its just dean being borderline suicidal while sam tries to fix it by basically dangling his keys at him and going : “dean look! cowboys!” “dean look! strip club!” “dean look! haunted action figure.”

Meanwhile castiel is like i see that dean is suicidal, this is clearly my fault so i will remedy this by dying.

[mayasdeluca]

Easter Eggs in Station 19: 7x09 'How Am I Supposed To Live Without You' List made here by a fan and writer of the episode

[shedontlovehuhself]

I think about this at least once a week.

[mishaesque]

Scenic Supernatural Season 1

[darkshrimpemotions]

[aerialworms-art]

"Somehow I always knew you'd come back."

Happy November 5th!

Click for quality! (ID under cut)

[Image ID: A digital painting of Castiel and Dean from Supernatural.

They are in the Empty; darkness swirls around them. However, they are both well lit. They are hugging each other, and Cas' rainbow coloured wings are wrapped around them both, forming a vague heart shape. Dean is wearing his green jacket, still with Cas' bloody handprint on the shoulder. He has his back towards the 'camera'. Cas' face is visible. He's leaning into Dean, smiling beatifically, eyes closed in happiness. They're clutching each other tightly.

It is signed '@aerialworms' beneath Cas' left wing. /End ID]

[kerryweaverlesbian]

Dean Winchester of Supernatural fame is NOT reading parenting books he is putting on Cheaper By The Dozen, Daddy Daycare and Honey I Shrunk The Kids taking notes.

[youchoseeachother]

Sam, getting to know Dean in season 1.

[sammygender]

not indirecting anyone but i keep seeing the take that sam has power over dean because dean is so attached to and dependent on him. like it’s everywhere. and its just soooo fundamentally flawed. that is not how anything works. not to sound like a broken record but that type of dynamic (where one partner, the aggressor, views themselves as in fact controlled/dictated by the whims of the other) is actually very standard in an abusive relationship…

whether or not sam has ‘power’ over dean in this way is functionally irrelevant because his ‘power’ extends to his ability to somehow, what, psychically manipulate dean into doing what he wants?? whereas dean’s ‘power’ over sam is making sure sam adheres to exactly what he’s decided sam should do and punishing him if he doesnt do that, and deciding he has ultimate control over sam’s own decisions about his life (see main plot events of s4, 5, 6, 8, 9, 10, so on and so forth…).

[wigglebox]

“I know who you love… what you fear…”

[winbred]

I like to imagine Sam Winchester pre-Stanford has the most toxic/possessive idea of love ever. He wants to be Dean's number one, he wants reminders. A blood pact, matching jewelry, matching bites, testing what Dean would drop to be at his side. Whatever he can get.

It isn't out of distrust, but something in his heart is satisfied when Deans with him and expresses his admiration for Sam because he adores Dean too. To Sam, it just is them two together forever, and it will be. Dean is endeared by it, his cute but clearly dangerously clingy and emotionally unstable brother who should never worry about having to be second place to anything in Dean's life.

But when Dean is silent when Sam is arguing with John about him going to college, Sam's world falls apart as that is the first true and outright rejection (at least in his scrambled, warped mind) from his big brother. It should be the two together, running away. Dean picked John, of course, he would how stupid can he be.

He's heartbroken and he's gone. When Sam and Dean meet again in Season 1 it's almost freaky to the Dean, Sam's unwillingness to leave behind school, his girlfriend for the family, for him. He guesses Sam's learned to be 'normal' now and knows how to love appropriately. But his attachment is there, hidden. The fact in seasons later Sam asks Dean to use him to get out his emotions and frustrations is a showcase of that. Desperation.

[thezephyrus7]

Which version do you guys prefer??? (Also flash warning for the speed paint)

[quietwingsinthesky]

Dean is such a paradox for me because on the one hand, I have been actively triggered by him in the show, there are moments where, intentionally or not, the writers managed to create a portrayal of manipulation and abuse and control issues that it sets off actual alarms for me. And on the other hand, I would not have him any other way. There is something — not comforting, that’s too soft a word — about knowing where Dean’s actions stem from, having seen and learned all that we do about his childhood neglect and parentification and the trauma he goes through repeatedly in the show, and that he doesn’t come out clean. He comes out a goddamn mess who ends up hurting the people around him in reaction to his own pain!

There’s a reality there that’s. Almost nice, actually. Distressing to watch, but it is a fucking mess, it’s a good mess! He’s got zero healthy coping skills and a healthy relationship with say, his brother, is terrifying because it leaves him open to abandonment!

I’m not sure I’m wording this correctly. There is a way to be a good abuse victim. Take the pain, martyr yourself on it, and then, even if you have no support or idea how to, then you have to become a Good Person who never hurts anyone the way you have been learning to your entire life. Simply toss everything that shaped you out the door and emerge a saint with a tragic backstory. And Dean is not that. And that’s so fucking good. Everything that he has gone through continues to effect the way he treats the people around him, and he can’t fight the behaviors he might recognize as harmful because he also sees them as protecting him (or protecting Sam by keeping Sam with him.)

And sometimes, idk. It feels good to see a guy who didn’t heal the “right way.” Who mostly didn’t heal at all, just keeps the wound open because it’s easier that way.

[monstermoviedean]

dean is trying so hard with jack and it means a lot to me, actually. and i think the best evidence that they'll work it out is the fact that they start to when mrs. butters is around. at the beginning of the episode jack is staying in his room and not talking to anyone, and dean is insisting sam give him time and space. with mrs. butters helping keep them running and taking some things off their collective plate, dean and jack both can dedicate more energy to healing. jack comes out of his room more. dean talks to jack more. by the end of the episode dean is going out of his way to make jack feel special and cared for by making him a cake. nothing has changed. they just got space and time, and perhaps more importantly, genuine care from someone they could look at without feeling guilt and pain.

[laniidae-passerine]

I made my post about Dean Highbottom and then as I was writing my tags realised that his Hunger Games counterpart is Haymitch. and now my head is in my hands and I don’t think I’ll ever recover

[orpheuscas]

“Dean.” A creak of the floor as Cas pushes himself to standing. Then the dip of the mattress as Cas settles on the edge of it. His voice is closer when he says, “I’m worried. Please tell me what’s going on.”

Even if he were able to speak, he doesn’t know how he would explain this to Cas. Everything is just so much, and how can he make Cas understand that?—Cas, who created galaxies, who witnessed all of human history from its very beginning, who even now could crumble skyscrapers into dust with one withering look. Dean doesn’t have the strength today to sit up in bed. He doesn’t know how to explain this to a being more powerful than he can possibly comprehend.

“I’m tired,” he says finally.

Even the half-truth is so shameful that it makes tears burn behind his still-shut eyelids.

[dean is having a bad time. cas is there for him. read on ao3]