#(bc the building doesn't work on saturday)

[justcallmealt]

The line! Yipeeeee!

[ihopeiexplode]

Householdhusband!Sukuna x CEO!Reader (+ some dad!sukuna too)

A/N: idk how u guys like my word bcs ys there so many of u begging me to upload something 😞😞(ily guys!!!)

Householdhusband!Sukuna

Who absolutely refused to be a stay-at-home husband. Why should you be the one working when he's a perfect provider? Sure your gonna inherit a company but still!

Householdhusband!Sukuna

who didn't even know how to do a simple household task, so why not turn to uraume for help!! sure he brunt down the kitchen one too many times in the process but hey none perfect right!...

Householdhusband!Sukuna

who saw your apron in your closet and decided to use it despite it being too 'girly' for his taste, why did he use it? he loves how comfy and multi-functional it is, plus he also like how it reminds him of you (refer to the cover pic for the ref!!)

(thx rina for this hc!! ^)

Householdhusband!Sukuna

who actually turned out to be a good cook after countless trial and errors with uraume...did he like doing it? no.

(yes he does he just doesnt wanna admit it bc its sukuna duh!!)

Householdhusband!Sukuna

who always cooks your favorite desserts/foods when you had a long day at work, he sees you upset the moment you walk through that door? he's imminently rushing to the kitchen grabbing the ingredients he needs

Householdhusband!Sukuna

who loves bringing you a whole feast when u wake up on every Saturday and Sunday, you're one providing for him plus being a CEO is hard work so why not reward you for it right?

Householdhusband!Sukuna

who brought you the lunch you left on your first day of your job and the moment he stepped into the building, everyone thought he CEO instead of you, i mean he screams CEO vibes doesn't he?

Householdhusband!Sukuna

who hates being teased by jin whenever he comes over to visit, sure the first thing he sees is sukuna in the kitchen wearing a pretty pink apron...

"You look pretty in pink, matches your hair" "ill kick you out the house if i hear one more word from you" "Shouldn't it be 'y/ns' house seeing how she's the provider?" woah i wonder how jin ended up out side your house in the cold!!! wonder who did that guys!!!

Householdhusband!Sukuna + Dad!Sukuna

who somehow convinced you to have a child with him...how? no clue!!

Householdhusband!Sukuna + Dad!Sukuna

who always fight with your child for your attention, you could be back home from work and you see a little mini sukuna and a large sukuna running towards you, with the mini on your leg and the large on your right as they push and pull you from one side to another

(sukuna ends up winning cause hes up against a child why wouldn't he)

Householdhusband!Sukuna + Dad!Sukuna

who doesn't let ANYONE in 'his' kitchen mf like Gordan Ramsay in there, the kitchen is quite literally his sanctuary and won't let ANYONE in regardless of what you are to him, but maybe he'll make expectations just for you and you ONLY.

and guess whos blacklisted from the kitchen? no other than your child seeing how they always play around with sukunas ingredients every time he cooks

Householdhusband!Sukuna

who gets anxious whenever you try helping him cook.. what if you mess up?.. sure he appreciates the fact your helping but he rather do it himself so its quicker and perfect!!

"y/n...your doing it wrong." "move. let me do it." "you didnt put enough of it." "y'know what just go...the kitchen might end up burning because of you." thats alot coming from someone who burnt it down 22th times whenever he tried cooking for the first time....

Householdhusband!Sukuna + Dad!Sukuna

who surprisingly gets along with other moms when he started parenting sessions, he even got some great tips on how to approach you whenever your feeling down did i mention he turned out to be great at gossiping to? And of course Sukuna always updates you on the latest gossip despite not knowing who the gossips about anyway..

Now you have random beef with a girl named Eleanor..

"Wait so if shes upset I shouldn't try comforting or helping her?? How does that make sense??"

"trust us. It'll make things worse. Only help her when she asks to and only comfort her when it really gets bad...buttt when she's on her period there's some exceptions to that rule"

"gosh women so confusing for what reason..."

—

"did you guys hear about Eleanor??"

"which Eleanor?"

"the one who has a kid with her husband that isn't even his"

"eugh. Her... Could you believe she tried striking up a conversation with me while I was out shopping? Don't get too close to me woman don't wanna get infected by whatever Infection she has going on in her mouth"

"Right! Seriously that girl has some real bad breath..."

"did I also mention I saw her out with another man while shopping?"

"no way. Was it Tobias?.."

"Xavier."

"THE BROTHER OF HER HUSBAND OUT OF ALL PEOPLE??"

(based of an actual convo I heard while I was in the mall🔥🔥)

Householdhusband!Sukuna

who HATES. the submissive allegations he gets whenever someone finds out your the man and provider in your relationship

"hey Sukuna since y/ns providing does that mean your the bottom in bed??"

"jin stfu you should NOT be speaking.. acting as if Kaori isn't the provider..."

"that's a different story..."

"this is why I should've eaten you in womb."

"I don't like that joke seeing how you actually almost ate me in it.."

"exactly.

[⛩️] @: Likes & Reblogs R appreciated! ^^

Permanent Taglist: @megumisfave

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA if I sent a complaint about my upstairs neighbors to our buildings management despite never having communicated with them directly? Okay so I live in an apartment building. My upstairs neighbors regularly have loud parties (?) It doesn't always sound like it, but at least loud music playing, and sometimes that includes stomping around (assumed dancing) and loud talking/laughing or rarely fighting. This usually occurs on weekend nights, from friday to saturday or from saturday to sunday (most common I'd say), and can last for hours. Sometimes it's just during the day/afternoon, which, annoying, but sure, it's day, can deal with it while just being annoyed.

At some point, this was mainly an issue when I had sleepover guests, since they would sleep in the living room, opposite side of the flat I sleep on, and usually where all that originates (assuming they are also doing this in their living room) But I feel like it has been getting progressively worse, both in volume and times this happens at. It's currently 3.45 am on a Saturday, and they've been going since at least 3, probably earlier, but that's when I woke up/became aware enough to actively notice it. (Proofreading and it's now 4.10am, still going strong up there-) Now, I'm not one to call the police, especially when there is no actual danger or physical harm that can't be dealt with otherwise effectively, bc ACAB, but I've taken several clips with audio tonight because I'm fucking tired and am heavily considering sending the management company for our building a complaint about them. The issue I'm not clear on is mostly...that I never really talked to them directly. I know they've gotten complaints and stopped before, and I've left a note together with a guest of mine in front of their door before. Yet it remains a recurring occurrence. I've never actually knocked or rang the doorbell to directly ask them to stop. I live alone and am afab in my 20s, all I know about my upstairs neighbors is that it's two men (though there's definitely sometimes people over, as I said sometimes these occurrences are definitely parties). At most I will have one friend over who's also afab on these occasions. (We are both trans/nb but p much present as our assigned gender in current circumstances) I also have social anxiety, though I don't think it's particularly unreasonable to be worried to confront unknown men, who will know where I live as well, about literally anything considering we live in a society TM. (Obviously I don't know that it wouldn't just go over very easily however, exactly the issue that you can never rly know that- like ik most people would probably react chill or at best annoyed I'm interrupting them or whatever but there's always a chance to run into the exceptions TM)

I don't need to work on the weekends (though other people in flats around us might, idk) but I still gotta like, maintain my sleeping rhythm ideally, and you know. Generally pleasant to be able to sleep at night if you would like to- I do not know what actions they would or could take if they do consider the complaint at all, but I'm not really assuming they'd like, cause them serious issues regarding their living situation, it's more likely at most they get a letter/some shitty little flyer to not loudly party in the middle of the night get put up in the hallway/at the building doors. But again that's my assumption and not a fact I know for sure, I could be completely wrong about that, and I don't know if there's potential other complaints.

So, WIBTA if I sent clips of the loud music in the middle of the night and a complaint to our building management without knowing potential consequences, even though I have not tried to communicate with my neighbors except a singular note one time?

What are these acronyms?

[guillotinna]

Intelligence analyst! Reader

No romance sorry 🤷🏻‍♀️

Baddie! Reader too bc these men r too comfortable 💅🏻

Imagine intelligence analyst! Reader who worked with Laswell in the past getting called in to look over some Intel. You owe Kate a favor so you couldn't really say no, she wasn't asking. You show up on base with your stupid government clearance, crisp work shirt and bad attitude. Hours turn into days which turn into 2 weeks. 14 days you've been stuck on the stifling base surrounded by brutes. You missed the basic luxuries you took for granted. The dull government building you once dreaded walking into each day looked like Eden compared to wherever the hell you were. And the task force....they were nice enough. Capable, helpful, a little odd but you've been around weirder in your line of work. What annoyed you was how they talked down to you, so clearly underestimating you. Sure you were fairly young compared to your counterparts, maybe your government-issued phone was covered in stickers and maybe there wasn't an ounce of muscle on you but Kate called you here for a reason, that should be proof enough. But no. Your days are filled with "are you sure?", "how do you know?", "who told you that?". Some of it was the team double checking your info, nothing inherently annoying, but the rest of it was rooted in their lack of faith in your skills. What would you have to do to get them to trust you?

Cut to 5 AM on a random weekend. You find yourself awake and unable to fall back asleep, so you head to the gym to stretch out your stiff bones. Being on a military base means constantly being surrounded by a lot of people which is why you've never been to the gym before but you figured the one time it might be empty is ass-crack o'clock on a Saturday. You were right! Plenty of quiet, serene minutes pass as you loosen your tension with yoga enjoying the peace. Until, 3 of the 4 men acting as the biggest pains in your ass clamor into the room, breaking the silence. They notice you quickly being the only people in the facility and of course they make their way right to you. As you get into downward dog, you hear in a thick scottish accent. "Wow, can't say the gym sees a lot of yoga. When was the last time you had a proper workout? " Tired of being spoken down to and slightly delirious from lack of sleep, you blurt out "probably when I fucked your dad".....oops. instead of hearing the shouts of anger you expected, you hear Gaz bark out a laugh and look up to see Soap's mouth agape in indignation. "She got you good mate, my god". Happy to not be screamed at this early in the morning, you glance and the scary lieutenant only to see a small wrinkle where his mouth sits under the mask indicating a smile. "Jesus christ Lass, you've got quite the mouth on you". Oh, he made it so easy. "That's funny, your dad said that too". In return, you get more laughter from Gaz and loud groan of disgust from Soap and he finally walks away. After a clap on the shoulder from the remaining Sargent and a brief "see you later", all parties continued with their respective activities.

Later in the afternoon, when the 141, Laswell and yourself all reconvened, a large part of you was expecting to get torn a new one for disrespecting an officer but instead, as you walked into the room you heard Gaz recounting the conversation to Capt. Price. "-and she was quick with it too captain. A proper shock if I do say so myself. " The chuckle you heard in response told you it was safe to enter the room. Sort of. "I heard you were bullying my Sargent earlier." Uh oh. No sir, just some banter, that's all you swear. "I wouldn't call it bullying. That doesn't sound quite like me." You mustered just as Kate walked in. "Dont lie y/n, I'd be surprised if I didn't hear about your attitude. Now leave these children alone and start working. You're onto something here. " You send a glance to the pouting scottsman only to watch his stick his nose up at you. Children was right. "Yes Ma'am". The conversation in the gym created a positive shift between you and the team. Maybe it humanized you, or maybe they just needed a laugh. Whatever it was, the doubt they shared over your skills eased significantly, allowing you to make more progress than you had before. It wasn't long before you got the hit you've all been searching for.

[ace-malarky]

Happy Storyteller Saturday! You mention finally finishing a scene you have been stuck on for months for the Shapeshifter WIP! What was the scene about? what can you tell us? And how did you overcome being stuck on it?

wait what do you mean it's Saturday already

Anyway yeah hi happy storyteller saturday!

The scene was titled Syn's Cat and when I started it all it said was that the cat is called Trixie

The cat does not? even turn up that much? it just felt important.

It is a scene largely of character set up and so there is very little that goes on except me going "look at this band of dorks"

so I stalled out because there's nothing much driving it except a hang out and I was annoyed that wasn't enough

also bc I got distracted by fic and gaming

I finished it simply by going "edit it once we know what's going on" because I could simply stall out on this forever trying to get the minutiae down. Like I know the overarching plot etc but all of the scenes I have started are like. vibes and unconnected because I'm a menace to myself first and foremost.

so it's a little disjointed and needs some work but the words are there. Now just to repeat with the other scenes I have started, and then we can fill out the rest around it.

(I keep forgetting that novels are allowed to be slow, that it doesn't have to start all at once, and this one should have some build up before Syn disappears actually)

[states-of-sunshine]

Oksana x Mommy (Eve) soft headcanons:

on long car rides, eve always packs plenty of toys, activities, coloring books, and snacks for oksana, but oksana usually falls asleep within the first 15 mins. also oksana sits in the back seat bc she's "too small" to sit in the front.

when eve is desperate for a mid-afternoon pick-me-up, she takes oksana to the local coffee shop. eve gets a large black coffee and oksana gets a small hot chocolate. they split a pastry and oksana always gets the bigger half.

oksana insists on painting eve's nails. she chooses 10 different colors. some are sparkly, some are super bright, none of them are painted well. eve goes into work the next day and is slightly embarrassed when she gets "compliments" about her manicure, but loves the constant reminder of her little girl.

oksana has to get her yearly flu shot but eve doesn't tell her until about 2 mins until it happens. she hangs onto her mommy for dear life at the little poke and only cries a little bit. the nice nurse gives her a peppa pig band aid and let's her choose a frozen sticker. eve is so proud of her brave baby.

eve is sleepy on a saturday afternoon but oksana is full of energy! she lays on the couch and falls asleep while oksana drives cars along her back, builds with her duplos, and then plays with her barbies. (eve's back makes a perfect Dream House)

konstantin becomes penpals with oksana. every week they send each other letters or drawings. eve takes oksana to the post office every tuesday to drop off her little drawings and pick out a cute stamp. sometimes konstantin sends $1-$5 and oksana stashes it away to use at the toy store or to buy candy.

[nothums-from-tj]

What is your hc on boomercup? for me, I think they bonded over the fact that they are the odd ones out of their siblings. Brick and Butch are always together doing things Blossom and Bubbles doing things together, and Buttercup and Boomer are just left out, not that they want to do the things their siblings are doing I also hc that boomer moved out like when he was 15-16 so that just adds to how estranged his relationship with his brothers is whilst buttercup is going out all the time with her friends just so she doesn't have to see how close her sisters are and how estranged she is and I also hc that they both were the last to get together so their siblings mostly blossom and bubbles set up double dates just so they make buttercup and boomer be together

I’m literally so excited someone asked me abt them I’m like in tears. This is a super long post just to give you a heads up

Just rq I feel like with how oblivious the two are they’d be like “why are we literally being dragged on a date” and then ditch their siblings to hang out with each other, said siblings laughing at them when they finally get together like “that’s literally WHY WE INVITED YOU BOTH WE BASICALLY FORCED YOU ON A DATE WITH EACH OTHER” “oh”

Ok so a one-shot I actually had in mind basically touches upon exactly that also loosely inspired by “Pity Party” by Melanie Martinez (full idea beneath the cut), although my main work right now—the fic I have going (you can find it under the tbmg tag I have on this post and my pinned) is Boomer being impulsive to try to impress some girl in a class they all share by trying to be “good” and so asking for help, and given it’s the most-behaved Ruff and the least-behaved Puff and somewhere along the line they’re still classified as a villain and a hero respectively despite not being too different fundamentally and it’s mostly a character study in that aspect while still building their friendship before getting them together. I like to think that as crime lessens in the future the Ruffs mostly stop having contact with Mojo and low contact with HIM providing they’re mainly just tools to them unlike the Puffs to Professor, who he sees as his children and created them specifically to have children in his life. Boomer, in Buttercup’s opinion, is the most annoying since he’s as much of an instigator as she is. For the most part they lose contact with the other groups save for Boomer and sometimes Brick just trying to have a bit of fun by getting on their nerves and eventually only really focus on Buttercup since she’s the only one to still give them a reaction

That, and it’s nice to have someone that can actually match each other’s strength—they mostly get into fights when having a rough day, when they need to either beat the shit out of someone until they feel better or it means violence is still some kind of physical contact that says there’s some kind of care in it, good or bad

This is sort of what I’m alluding to at the start of said fic that I’ll try to delve into further into the next chapter or the one following. During the next chapter is when I have them actually chatting and getting to actually know one another aside from any insecurities to jab at to initiate a fight

I have another hc I’ll put in a rb here at a later date bc it deals with some heavier topics (EDIT: some are featured here)

Alright one-shot idea:

It’s the girls’ 15th birthday, a Saturday, and Buttercup has always been the first to pick on her sisters right and it seems that’s the only way she really knows how to make connections which is a little bit what @milksteaki touched upon in her (edited to use proper pronouns) hcs as far as how she “flirts” with Boomer (not quite the same, it’s close enough), and I doubt her sisters would ever fully understand that

Especially as they get older I have a feeling Blossom and Butters would argue a bit more given they’re probably the two who bear the most insecurities and they’re so alike in sometimes getting on what really makes people tick. Anyway they probably had one the night before bc Buttercup is sometimes just so intense they don’t really know how to take it the way her sisters do and it literally scares their friends, especially when BC’s friend group are boys who roughhouse or are able to match her competitive nature and they mention this to her sisters in private who then try to relay the message to Buttercup or they try to encourage their friends to tell her straight up bc she really doesn’t mean any harm. Either way, Buttercup either didn’t invite her friends for those reasons or was told to invite someone else and she doesn’t have anybody else, that or everyone was busy/had games/whatever else. Blossom asks Buttercup not to “scare the guests” and she, in a bout of teenage angst, takes it as “don’t show up”

After that she’s left alone in the room and her immediate thought is to contact Boomer to play basketball at a park or something—just the two of them, since all he was really doing was either trying to ignore Brick and Butch fight or, providing you’re the second person I’ve known of to hc Boomer moving out as a teenager, he’s doing absolutely nothing and is more than happy to hang out with someone

They chat during the game and sometimes after shots—not like it’s a real game anyway—and Buttercup mentions that she’s been “kicked out for the day” or that she fought with Blossom again, really anything to keep from sharing too many details and it works as Boomer continues to say that he’s so glad to not really be around his brothers like that anymore. While Boomer is never the one really involved with Brick and Butch’s spats, he feels left out and like no one pays attention to him in kind of the opposite of how Bubbles feels

It’s late afternoon when Blossom finds her after realizing Buttercup isn’t in the room sulking or looking for privacy but straight up left, and only then did she realize Buttercup probably had no intention of showing up and felt horrible—they’re a tight-knit group, even with the arguing they both miss their sister terribly and their birthday is never too fun without the third

Another argument starts out since Blossom’s concerned and Buttercup’s pissed and they eventually forget Boomer’s there for a minute—at least Buttercup, until:

“You said you didn’t want me there!”

“I never said that! All I wanted was for the guests to have a good time!”

“Forget them, Blossom—it’s our birthday! I should be able to enjoy the day, too!”

Boomer’s heart sinks as he’s looking between the two as they argue and his voice is softer than he ever expects: “It’s your birthday today?”

Her heart stops when she remembers about his presence and how she was actively avoiding that detail and she can’t even think about a response, Blossom’s as silent as she is, and he just looks hurt that he was never told and about everything that’s already been said, “Why didn’t you tell me it’s your birthday?”

“It’s no big deal, Boomer. If I cared enough, I would’ve said something.”

“I care. The least I could’ve done is, I don’t know, made you dinner or something.”

They discuss to talk about it later since the most important thing is that Blossom wants her there for cake and they’ve refused to even light the candles without her there. They make up, there’s probably some tears, and Boomer is then invited to every party (he also probably makes a little friendship bracelet or a favorite snack as a gift that he brings to her in the midst of the night)

[astralartefact]

FFXIV Dawntrail Review Part 1 - Where I tell you if I liked it and also Bingo(?)

This post contains spoilers for all of Dawntrail's Main Story up until the Ending!

Hmm.

I'm a little bit embarrassed to write this. I genuinely didn't expect this. Should I have? No. I was perfectly right to not see this coming.

I really loved Dawntrail. Like. You don't understand.

I don't really rank the FFXIV Expansions (except that Heavensward is last) but Dawntrail might be up there. It's 2:00 am and I will probably delete this when I reread it when I have slept over it, but I might genuinely call this my favorite X.0 so far. (read over it and at least for now i will stand by it) (keep in mind most enjoyed =/= best and "best art" doesn't exist)

I know it won't be popular in the community, I've already known that 30% through and by the many, many posts proudly announcing that they do not like Wuk Lamat it seems like that Dawntrail truly will be Stormblood 2.0 in the eyes of the public - but what can I say, I loved it. I had a fantastic time.

There is a bunch of criticisms I've read that I disagree with. I thought the WoLs place in the story was great. What do you people mean by 'We're not the main character anymore' it has literally always been like this except that usually we don't only have one dedicated Expansion Character that gets this much of a monopoly on screentime (see Ryne) - by which I mean, are you jealous? - but also that isn't 'bad', they're allowed to do that and I liked it. also how do you go through this expansion and arrive at "we weren't the main character" - bro, everybody told us at every corner how happy they are we're here bc without us none of this would remotely work. also they literally teased the key is an azem thing clearly this is build up for something

I liked the pacing, I enjoyed the slowburn build-up of Wuk going through the nuances of her people's individual problems before turning to the actual crisis. I know people are big mad that the MSQ gameplay is mainly just Fetch Quests and Cutscenes - which is something we'll get back to - but tbh I didn't even think it was that bad? I feel like we had expansions that were far worse about it....

I also loved Wuk Lamat! I liked that she grew relatively quickly and continouosly, aside from the Seasickness Joke they repeated too often, and I was surprised how much genuinely smart and thought through things she added to the conversation. One example I remember is her bringing up that she would rather learn and fix why people are committing crimes in the first place instead of just 'adding police' - without anybody prompting her to learn that. I don't know, I just really appreciated that.

I even liked Bakool Ja Ja, there I said it. I knew people would be really mad about Wuk just forgiving him and his dad especially after the kind of stuff they did - the internet has become really weird about forgiveness the past few years especially if it's "unearned" whatever that means - but like, you guys know this is a story, right, he didn't threaten to murder someone in real life. Immersion is good and all, but you know you're playing FF14, right, a game that's 50% a Saturday Morning Cartoon, 50% Game of Thrones for a Young Adult Audience. also it's kind of necessary for the theme of the whole narrative for him to do something we 'hate' him for more than the others - and i guess i would agree that they could have written the details around it better - but what's there is there for a reason. if you want to know more that's what Part 2 is going to be for.

Which brings me back to the Fetch Quests. Listen, I'm not really defending anything here, I do agree that the MSQ gameplay could probably be a little more engaging - There's just a thing I thought that keeps coming up in other contexts too:

At which point does this become a "Consumer Problem" instead of a "Developer Problem"?

We're five expansions in. If all expansions before have been structurally exactly like this, at which point is it your problem for expecting it to be different. What I mean is, if you played four parts of a Visual Novel and then you play part 5 and complain that the gameplay is getting stale, I hope we can agree that, like, that's a you problem. If you don't want to read then why are you playing a Visual Novel.

Again, I'm not really trying to 'defend' the core issue - even Serialized Mediums, for all the security their regularity brings them, should mix it up a little sometimes and expressing that want as an audience member is completely fine with me - but I feel like this is also at least a little bit a perspective issue. Like. I'm so sorry to tell you that this is just the game you're playing. This probably won't change and it's probably better to not expect it to for your own sake - and yes, I'm so sorry but to some degree navigating your experience of this game is your own responsibility. What I'm saying is Skip Dialogue if you're bored. Farm a Dungeon. Are you guys not doing Fates on your way to a quest marker? I keep seeing people say 'I didn't fight against a single monster as part of the msq' - Well, That wasn't a problem I had, I fought constantly! There are monsters right there for you to fight! Like. Make your own fun!

Anyways, time to look at my bingo card!

(My WoL = Happened, Krile = Depending on who you ask, Sphene = Jury is still out) Certainly better than my Endwalker one!!

One thing I noticed while playing Dawntrail is how bitter exactly Myths of the Realm has made me about this game and i'm so sad!! Like, how did I forget how completely this game is made specifically for me. I will just fail to not like it, because I get it and it gets me. at least until 8.0 when whoever wrote Myths of the Realm gets to write the expansion

Let's go through the noteable ones.

ill-advised azem lore drop - is in hot water, because they did seem to imply that the novelty wine glass of shard travel has to do with azem.

someone sundered knows more than us - krile's parents count and also Gagool Ja Ja's party too to some extent

the forgotten people went to tural - for two seconds!!! technically correct!!!

questionable armor design choices - some of the second dye slots. choices were made.

somebody "important" (but not too important) dies - i didn't expect them to write meaningful side character deaths, but they did so... i guess on a technicality i win?

the twelfth shard is involved // they talk about sundering meta physics

this room. they're so mean. they talk about the silly masks but not about the fact that apparently whatever shard this is either has three moons or two other planets in its solar system. you knew what you were doing q_q

y:da did it better - hahahahahahAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I AM A FOOL! MEGUMI ONOZUKA! I KNOW THIS WAS YOUR DOING AND YOU CANNOT HIDE ANY LONGER! YOU ARE NOW ON MY LIST OF NAMES TO SHOUT!!!! If my theory in Part 2 turns out incorrect then I'm so sorry about this, buT IF I'M NOT THEN---!!!!

Shaaloani did not win me over - it being the padding zone really didn't help.

Erenville did not Outfit Change - but given the ending he's probably going to at some point. And I hope he stays around :)

who needs eternal life anyways - They tried to be a little bit more understanding about it and make it a "it's just not worth what it costs" sort of thing, but they did still say at least once - verbatim! - that "Eternal Life is Bad, Full Stop, you people suck and are failing the human game by not dying"

Something Actually Unexpected Happens - I was surprised by the Final Zone. Maybe it's not Actually Unexpected because in a way it's just "Amaurot meets What Myths of the Realm should have been" - but if that doesn't count I still didn't expect the devs to fully ugly down that zone when you're done with it lol. Shutting down the first one and realizing they didn't just mean it would be left empty, it's dead and fully without music physically hurt and it made going through the other three hurt so much more. I loved it. Like. Wow.

I guess to that, I was indeed reminded of Myths of the Realm - but not in the way I intended this square to be so I didn't mark it. Like. I wrote this in another post but how were these two in development at the same time???? What??? They come to radically different conclusions on the exact same premise and the only difference is that one is about Religion and the other about Eternal Life????

Was the last zone the original draft for Myths of the Realm and then they were like 'no that's too good, let's do that in the MSQ instead' and then they panicked and produced godly waste?? God, I kind of hope, that would mean that whoever wrote it didn't wholeheartedly mean what they wrote.

I'm not willing to let Wuk Lamat Distaste be Asinine Community Reaction - sadly that was to be expected given how people still fervently hate Lyse. Similarly I haven't looked into what funny theme changing English Localization Moment they decided to add to the plot today. Btw German Localization, you are as always my heroes. Don't let the Haters tell you different, I will always love you!!! I wanted to screenshot your names in the credits for this but i HIT THE WRONG BUTTON SOMEHOW

Anyways, look forward to Part 2 where I will talk some more about why exactly I really like Dawntrail - which is mainly the Themes - about why I think Megumi Onozuka is to blame and about YORHA DARK APOCALYPSE, THAT'S RIGHT, I WILL NEVER BE FREE

[cinematicnomad]

hey! what don’t you like about bridgerton s3 wrt the book? haven’t read the books so i’d love to hear your thoughts on where/why it’s falling short!

ok anon you asked this ages ago and i decided to re-read the book before answering, but then got derailed and haven't finished it yet. i also haven't finished s3 yet even though the next batch of eps are out. i'm gonna answer this for sleepover saturday instead. i'm not really gonna bother with complaining about the show and more just going to say what i like from the book:

the book takes place, like, 10 years after penelope's first season? so she is decidedly A Spinster™ when the book takes place which i think adds a really interesting dynamic to the whole story! she's v much settled into her life and comfortable with where she is. like, does she have some fantasies? some longings? of course. but she also has more freedom (she and eloise start planning to move in together! penelope has a younger sister who she acts as the chaperone to at different balls!) and really knows who she is. she doesn't bother seeking a husband bc she's basically accepted that it's not going to happen for her, which is a GREAT time for colin to come back into her life.

the other thing i love about her being a spinster is just: penelope is able to have a lot of pUBLIC interactions with colin and others without the scrutiny paid to younger, eligible girls. the book has this great friendship that builds between penelope, colin, and mrs. danbury through the conversations they have at different balls in full view of the public, and i just find it more compelling for penelope and colin's friendship to be witnessed and yet still come as a surprise to everyone when they get engaged.

also, her friendship with lady danbury is so special to me! throughout the book penelope gains a lot of confidence THROUGH that friendship and through lady danbury's belief in her. penelope's growth isn't dependent on colin's attention. similarly, in the book, eloise and penelope are not at odds (eloise doesn't know the truth about whistledown's identity) and so you really get to see penelope's bond with the bridgerton's AND with colin together. she really does feel like part of the family which is so nice.

also, in the book colin finds out lady whistledown's identity BEFORE the carriage scene, so he enters into the engagement and the marriage with full knowledge of the truth. that feels very important to me and also, i feel, leads to a more compelling conflict between them as it's more about his own jealousy of her life's work then it is about the secret of it all.

there's more, obviously. the book isn't perfect, but there's more i love about it then don't and honestly during my re-read there have been a ton of scenes that i wished could have fit in the show but would not have made sense based on choices made in prior seasons

✨sleepover saturday✨

[valentijnsstuff]

I really thought last week was gonna be chill but I overdid it again huh

Monday. Go to therapy, middle aged therapist asked how my date went that I was so nervous for two weeks ago. Tell her it was a huge dissapointment, but that its a funny story to tell. Do work. Text friends. Productive day.

Tuesday my dad comes over for lunch. He fixes some stuff he doesn't like in my house, without me having asked. We go for a walk, talk about jobs. A guy comes over for an intake to be my volunteer. He is a bit posh, but he is gay, ace and funny, and he thinks helping me is a fun way to do volunteer work. Go to queer focused trans support group in the evening. See some of the homies. Do my best to sit and listen, doodle drawings for my next porn comic. End up flirting with handsome transman from Italy.

Wednesday morning I go to my GP. I'm greeted with 'Wow buddy we heard you got into crisis treatment?' (yeh I was suicidal haha) 'You say that so matter-of-factly'. Have a meeting for a big gig in november. Spend the rest of the day chilling in bed, but also finishing work for comic deadline. Go to a transman support group in the evening. Get overwhelmed, bc I've been too productive.

Thursday I feel hungover, partly from taking half a Quetiapine. Try to mentally ready myself for the evening, because I'm giving a drag workshop with other drag artists. We have an interesting group of seniors and young people, everyone is shy but very excited about doing drag. A transmasc I matched on a dating app once is there, we flirt a lil. I go home and stay up way to late to take pictures of my make up.

Friday morning I skip therapy, because I am too hungover from the workshop, and everything before it. Spend the day purposefully aknowledging how miserable my body feels. Have a sleepy date night with poly girl. She cooks, we rewatch hungergames and cuddle. I am a bit put off by her boundless energy, but I regain some of mine as soon as the make out sessions start. Hot queer sex ensues.

Saturday morning, wake up in poly girls bed. Get up with them, but the sleepyness overtakes me and I go back to bed to take nap. They come and cuddle me when I wake up, it's nice and we both express how at ease we feel with eachother. I go home and get ready to chill, bc tonight is the big night in terms of a prestigious job that I have lined up. I give a workshop at a national museum for museum night. Everything goes really well, its a huge success, I get a lot of praise from the people I work with. But trough the rushed nature of the evening, I feel very flighty the whole time, and a bit scared I am going to crash really hard. Still totally worth it.

Wake up from a nightmare sunday morning. Ultimately I feel a lot less hangover than I thought I would. Get myself freshed up and go to poly girls house, because they are having a friend hangover. Immediately get infodumped on, now I do feel hungover. Two more poly people show up. Everyone watches me draw them as furries. We have a big cuddlepuddle, I get kinda sleepy and horny. I ask poly bestie if she'd like some when the others leave (she says yes). I'm a bit cautious, bc past partners never wanted to have sex twice a week. We have a good time, but when I go home, I somehow still feel horny. Spend the whole evening pent up, especially when having a call with the longer distance transman I have been flirting with for a few months.

(Bonus) Monday, sleep out till late, go to therapy. Have a fun session explaining my lore to a younger therapist who is a huge trans ally. I stick around the therapy building to do work, because it's a nice place to sit, with a garden. Have dinner at the house of a newly made poly friends. They are a huge nerd, who keeps telling me they are demi, but then continuesly flirts at me. They open the door with 'my other transmasc friend would definitely have sex with you' (hi buddy good to see you too). We chat about childhood stuff and make pizzas. At some point they propose cuddles and watching show, bc they know I like cuddling. We watch scavengers reign, and I somewhat taken aback how intimate they cuddle, but I act casual. We talk about our definitions of queer sex dynamics, while they are wrapped around my leg with theirs 😳 at some point we tickle fight 😳😳 before I go I mention I think I smell, they push their face into my armpit 😳😳😳 (can it get any gayer) I now have flustered feelings about all this. I dream about having sex with a transman later that night.

[beaversatemygrandma]

Yapping

So, I've realized that i have such a weird relationship with my mom now. Just first off. I heard I love you from her for the first time since young young childhood last month and we still have this thing of awkwardly saying goodbye on phone calls that last like an hour and dance around it until one of us does. Or entirely doesn't. But we have long ass phone calls now and i don't feel terrible afterwards now. So, honestly, an improvement. A big one. This is no longer a negative connection, but a connection. And I no longer want to cut her out of my life. So distance has helped. Just took... multiple years. ....I'm 26 now. This seems like the average age that happens to people. huh. (This is bc I just got off the phone with her. Not really much else there.)

But other than that, I've been stuck on something the last couple days. So, I've been like SUPER depressed this last week. After the failed dental extraction, and more dental appointments, being broke due to said appointments, going to work, being Extremely dissatisfied with my bf, and my side piece having gotten sick so I didn't even have an excuse to leave the house other than work. I was just straight up not having a good time through the week.

But saturday, my first day off, I woke up that morning and something in me was just "alright, I'm sick of this man. I'm sick of feeling like shit." And I went off on the bf first thing in the morning. I'm dressing myself in a way that feels hot as fuck. I straight up start ranting to him. Telling him that I've outgrown him, that he needs to get off his ass and out of his head and get a job, get a driver's license (we're 26 and live in the middle of nowhere. it is NEEDED and i don't want to be chauffeur all the damn time), that he's been annoying me lately, and that the only reason I haven't broken up with him was because I wouldn't have a place to live.

Yes, kind of super brutal for 10am.

But all he had in him was "I'm sorry. I deserve it. I'll put in more job applications." ...That was it. Kind of felt bad at that point because he didn't even stand up for himself. Like. Have some sense of self. Through the shopping trip of the day, because honestly it made me feel better, I had a very one sided and aggressive day of punch bug (they were EVERYWHERE for once.) and it just made me feel a bit better punching him every once and a while. And he just says "I guess the world feels the same way today. Just the day to beat me up." "I guess it's the abuse you day." I say entirely jokingly. He laughs sadly, "I deserve this. The world agrees." I can't even continue after that. Still punch him though. Still mad.

But I feel a bit better after that day. I feel bad for the bf. Not in the way that I feel bad for what I said, I literally just feel sorry for him. Though, I feel so much better having gotten those words out of my system. They were building up pretty badly.

But, that night, the side piece finally had time outside of work and other shit to find a few hours to hang out. And felt like a normal person again after whatever that sick was. (I heard his dad coughing while I was over there. It was true and it was not pleasant sounding.) I Needed to be away from the bf. I took him up on it so damn fast.

I ended up telling him exactly how the day went with the bf and I think he came to the same weird "I feel sorry for him." feeling. And also questioned how that didn't lead to a break up. And honestly, I kind of do too. Somehow, this same conversation evolved into him explaining how he'd slide into his old job that pays well and is an actual career job, paired with looking around for apartments. Then a whole damn thing of "They're always hesitant to rent to me due to the felon thing, but YOU."

So, basically an entire damn plan of me being the person on an apartment lease while he'd pay the rent. And there I am just reeling at a literal answer to my situation presented to me. I end up asking further on that. (Let's be honest, this guy is super easy to have a healthy thing going with, but is terrifying to commit to. There are layers. But, with this being ME on the lease, it wouldn't leave me stranded if he fucks up.) It came down to me having no credit in the slightest so i never get accepted for anything that requires a credit check. So suddenly he's turned into a financial advisor and is giving me every easy option to build credit. Pre-paid credit cards, car payments, etc. (I don't have a car payment. I own that thing.) I now have an auto pre-paid card on the way... And have an impulsive idea for when I have more than $1k in the bank. (Used car dealership in town has an old eclipse and it's kind of a dream car and it's only like $5k... It'll probably be the most unreliable thing I could ever get though. But it's nice looking and it'd be nice to have a car with more than a 4 liter engine. Though this is not even going to be a thought unless he'd be the one paying the down payment and everything for his little idea here.) Either way, holy shit, I've been presented with a whole ass escape plan.

We then spent the rest of the time, after a distraction of his kid's bedtime and her almost stabbing me with a cat (I shit you not.), just hanging out in his room and talking about the tattoo idea I had. He apparently knows somebody who does tattoos across the country and comes into town twice a year and always ends up booked out before he even gets to town. He's sending this guy a message, seeing when it would be, and all of this guy's stuff actually fits the vibe I'm going for. And did his best looking tattoo. I like these ideas. Especially because I'm not paying for any of it. And those tattoos are gorgeous.

But this is a whole thing. This guy is so damn strange to me. I know this has been going on for 8 months now and has been such a damn ride, but it still feels so odd. Like it started with me just rolling with things bc I genuinely just wanted to fuck up my current relationship somehow (bc telling him doesn't work.) and saying that I wouldn't want anything more than FWB. To him catching feelings. To me starting to. To probably the most pleasant "not-a-relationship" I've ever been in. To that weird parole issue and a small relapse that led to him being in jail for a month (This is the commitment fear!), to long phone calls that were a lot more romantically geared than usual, to him suddenly dropping the L word on me. To suddenly casual and feeling as if he was trying to start the entire relationship over. To as soon as we’re actually alone together right back into the more charged kind of interactions. To it feeling just more comfortable over time and us actively working on ourselves in our own ways and just coming together every once and a while bc it’s just comforting to be around each other for a bit.

To not a single one of those feelings having faded through all of it which is the crazy part.

Now there’s this being presented to me. It’s an escape from what’s been keeping me stagnant and depressed. It’s something where I wouldn’t have to be in control of everything because the other part of my partnership basically can’t do things for himself. This would be something where I wouldn’t have to be the one who is forced to organize and control the aspects of living. This would be somebody who is fully functional on his own and has outright told me that he dreams of it being a situation where I’d basically have the choice of working and paying rent. He wants to care for me and to quote “keep me happy and content”. He’s somebody who respects my boundaries and remembers all of the small things I say.

Like that idea he tossed out wasn’t random. It’s something I said early on into our whole weird relationship. Something where I told him that I’m searching for a way out but have nowhere to go that wouldn’t be me restarting in a whole new town. To which he said that he’d find a way to take care of it, that it might take a while, but he would. And now it’s starting to seem like this process is actually starting to make sense. It will take a while, but he’s actually doing that all the while keeping me happy and content the best he can.

Minus that one damn month. Given the phone calls were a nice nightly thing. But what was worse was before it and not quite noticing the very obvious signs of a relapse. That I now know at least. And I can talk sense into him. He actually listens. It’s not the bullshit where I explain things that need to be done, not even for the sake of the relationship but for himself, and only the bare minimum is taken from the conversation. It’s a whole damn long term plan with immediate action.

It’s stark is what it is. I’ve never really experienced that before. I know it’s with somebody who’s the riskiest damn person I could even have it happen with, but it’s somebody who actually does things right. I'M the one with the anxious attachment and the commitment fear. Not him. He’s willing for anything. And not even in a controlling way. (Now that one I have experienced. Scary shit.) This is just a very different thing that feels healthy and right but there’s so much to it that just feels like it’d be the stupidest mistake I could make.

8 goddamn months. This is longer than some people’s actual relationships that shatter and fall apart due to some of the shit that’s gone on here. And this has actual communication, understanding and care to it without the overbearing and clingy need of every other relationship I’ve been in. We have space apart and breathing room that actually helps us.

Given I’m curious what living together would do. Though we’d both be working and it’d mostly just be nights and that doesn’t even sound bad.

Though when I get depressed that space does leave me with that anxiety that everything has changed, he’s changed his mind and left this entire thing behind, hates me, or whatever bullshit my mind throws at me. But once I finally get his time and then him just listening to whatever I have to say from that time, it’s comforting to hear “why would you think that?” He’s not playing any games with me. It’s just what I’m used to.

It’s weird to look at all of this and realize that I’m the unhealthy one. I try not to be. I try not to let those thoughts just take over. They’re illogical and I know it. He’s just somebody who values in person time over anything else. He’s not somebody who wants to talk with me over text all the time. He waits to have our whole catch up of the week on the time that we get together so we’re able to keep our conversations going and interacting more. He’s quality time and acts of service which I can Greatly Appreciate.

I feel like I’m weighing the pros and cons of these two relationships. And there are so so many more pros with this one is all.

Edit: It's been two weeks. The updates on the bf: he got a successful interview at walmart of all places. And then proceeded to not answer the calls of any other places because that interview had been promising instead of weighing his options... Or even answered one call and said he already accepted an offer. (Uh. You didn't.) He focused on one of my notes instead of all of them. Got a job interview down. I'm going to be driving him there most of the time. A little counterintuitive tbh. He instead of giving me space and maybe making changes according to what I said, he's been attention seeking and needy. Affectionate and not in the ways I want. It's very much a "please pay attention to me, give me validation, and love me." when literally nothing has changed. I mean, he's practiced driving. Like ooh you drove from publix to walmart but you're still terrified of the neighborhood for some reason??? It's this overly anxious overthinking everything no matter what. You tell him not to worry, he worries. You tell him that nothing has to be perfect. It has to be perfect otherwise he freezes up and then goes into self depreciation mode because he "failed". Like genuinely, I think he needs some time in public with other people and a year or two of therapy before he'd even be a viable option for a long term relationship. I've at least gotten him to here I guess.

Then, the other one. Because I feel like I'm approaching something where i need to make a huge choice pretty soon. So, he got a second job back with an old employer and has been given a possibility of taking over their location, WITH AN ATTACHED 2 BED APT, and dropped some heavy hitting words on me with it. So, first off, I have a friend who shows up every couple years and it weirdly lines up with a couple months before a big life change. I mention this guy's appearance. This guy has nothing to do with the changes. So, he just casually mentions this job and place. A place that he could be in for free, just for working this location. Then says that this guy is just a weird harbinger and he hoped that a big change would happen for him. He mentions how he's trying to get taken off community control to make this option a possible one. And then very seriously and in a tone that definitely made sure it was heard (my hearing issues, he's figuring them out) says "I really do hope that part of that big life change would involve you." And then just starts going on describing the place and how we could easily just live there for free for a while. Just back to the concept of how he said months ago, that he just wants to have me happy, content, and cared for. So again: has listened to every little thing I worry about and has provided an escape plan for me. He's been working on this for a while.

And sure, the location is the next town over, but what's a 40 minute drive to work? To a place that I wouldn't even have to actually do full time at anymore in order to live?

My big thing here is literally just the fear I have of actually committing to him. He's volatile. He's a risk. I mean, everything is. But it'd be something where my independence is respected, but I'd be somewhat relying on somebody who could just go right back to old ways real quick and fuck up everything. (He's low risk right now tbh. But that could change...) I need to have time to sit down and properly talk to him about everything. I feel like we're kind of just skirting around the fact that we both clearly have feelings for each other that are just Stewing There, yet also working towards being able to have those in the open at the same time. Yet also not really doing much about it at all.

Then again, at some point in the next couple weeks, he did promise he'd make some extra time because he'll have the house to himself. And I'm pretty sure there's going to be a whole damn conversation during this. ...Paired in with some overdue stuff. Because it's been a couple months since we've had a chance to be alone proper... But this also leaves time to actually fully talk about this shit. Because I swear sometimes when he drops this stuff, I'm just staring at him like a deer in the headlights and I'm just thinking about how to even ask further about it. Because first off, it's presented without a lack of needed info. It's more just my anxiety wanting a full 100% explanation missing nothing. But what more do I need? This is a guy who has openly said that he loves me, listens to what I say, and acts on it. He's just busy. A lot lately. So it's distant. But he's actively working on something at the same time.

So, today, i was able to get the few minutes I could get with him. Literally just saying that what he said the other night has been just stuck in my head. And him just "let's hope it works." But it's the "I'll wait for you" at the risk of him possibly being late because there's those few minutes where our free time overlaps just to see each other. I can tell he's trying to make time for me in this chaotic schedule. He's reaching out and trying, but it's three different places that he needs to be for multiple hours a day. School, work, more work. Me? I've just got the one job and a want to be out of the house more so I don't get more annoyed with my bf's weirdly sad existence.

If I get off work early enough tomorrow then it'll happen again. And honestly, i expect a short morning text pep talk before my whole ass extraction procedure on thursday. Just little things in between that shows he remembers and cares. It's all I get. And I know why, but My God. I want him more than just this.

So back to pining for a bit I guess. Hopefully this gets soothed soon. Because there's a big choice that has to be made at some point in the future that I'm pretty sure I already know the answer to with how weirdly dissatisfied I am with my current state.

[xirae]

What sucks about recovering rn is it's a slow process. I still have to endure whole days of suffering even though I'm literally doing the right thing. I am getting stronger, but to get strong I need to work my body and then I need to rest and do nothing.

I run, but bc I'm the heaviest I've been in my life, my run is effectively a day of whole-body workout. Turns out I have to build the muscle required to be able to run at an effective treatment level. I give my brain the precious relief and precious chemicals, then I need at least one day of rest where I can't give it anymore - and I very much suffer on these days.

What is the worst is when I introduce new muscles. It's like the extreme difficulty version of this cycle. My body acts like it's in a crisis bc it's REALLY building new muscle now. I get anxious and hungry all day the next day bc my body just doesn't stop NEEDING, like literally I am in distress and have to be very mindful all day long to remain in control. And I'm relatively anhedonic, can't do anything / nothing is fun atm

So yesterday I did a leg workout and may or may not have added, I swear to god, EASY WEIGHT, leg extensions and some sort of hamstring push. And apparently those are hitting new areas. Saturday was my most recent 3-miles, with Sunday being a mile run. I am a bit deprived of whatever the fuck running gives to my head to make me feel better. So it's hard to deal with rn

tomorrow is hopefully a 3-mile run, at easy pace in half mile intervals. Hopefully have enough rest - it's easy for my cardio fitness, but possibly still a lift-equivalent workout for my legs. I'll feel it out; I may need an additional day of rest, which will be fine but will SUCK. Additionally, if my new muscle gets recruited for the run, I might have another hunger-distress episode the next day .-. afaik these are the last new areas I think my lifts need to cover, so hopefully I've gotten through the painful early game

[x3aspiration]

hazeldine bacc 4-6 monroe

last

new family time !! i had 3 cas sims in total to use, so i put two into one household :)

meet janetta monroe and her daughter victoria!

she came over with only 1,000 simoleons(!!!) hoping to find the best life possible for her daughter! upon settling in she realized there was no schools nor teachers, so she set out to get the funds to build and start up her own schoolhouse (and become the first teacher!)

her traits are never nude, hopeless romantic, charismatic, neurotic, and proper! she's also a family main asp and popularity secondary asp!

as far as her personality points go she is VERY serious, pretty neat, pretty outgoing, and about half active and kind!

her starting with basically no money means her persuit to building a schoolhouse (and regular house at that) doesn't come without its fair share of hard work! she actually dug up a few sculptures i wanted her to keep, but alas a toilet is more important than a little wooden man 😔

she was off to pretty rough starts there for a bit LOOL

after getting a nice wooden box made, she sat down to teach little victoria a nursery rhyme!! (she didnt finish before victoria aged 😔)

romeo kept stealing her stuff!!!!! he kept taking the newspapers and i caught him in the act about to take her gnome she dug up!!!

"are there aliens around here?? something keeps stealing my newspapers!!!"

victoria aged up!! she was potty trained and could talk, but unfortunately learning to walk wasn't really in the schedule

her traits are neurotic (inherited from her mom), unstable, and artistic!!

neurotic and unstable were picked by the traits object, but i picked artistic bc 1) she got a lot of creativity points before aging up and 2) her (and janetta's) OTH is music and dance!!!!

saturday park date!!!! jack hazeldine moving out meant a fourth household was placed, which unlocked us a non sim-owned community lot!! everyone's still kinda poor rn so the hazeldine's paid in full for the lot lol

since she's a proper sim she greets everyone like this!! i love it

she REALLY hit it off with jack hazeldine when she met him when she first moved in, like two attraction bolts kind of hit it off!! so she went back to the park on sunday looking for him after no luck the day before

leading to a park date and dancing in the rain!! they had a dream date naturally :-]

and that's all for her week!! still one more cas sim to put down!!!! the town is growing so fast i am so happy :)

link to the park build

next / next of this household

[nathank77]

11/29/24

4:14 p.m

I went to the gym and did the back/bicep combo machines, the chest/tricep machines, and I did 3 dumbbell shoulder workouts. It felt like a really effective workout tbh. I enjoyed it. I hope I can do that same workout with small variations in it Monday and Friday, so I can work my chest and back twice a week bc i can't work my chest on the dumbbells with more than one exercise atm... and my back well I could with dumbbells but idk if I'm confident enough with my form for most of them tbh. The machines really help with that. Same with the chest dumbbell exercises. I am only confident with one.

I'm going to do some serious edits to dumbbell day which i hope can be wednesdays.....maybe 3 triceps, 3 biceps and 3 shoulders and then if one exercise works say biceps and triceps then I'll count it towards one of the three for both. I'd really like to do my back and chest Monday and Friday and a light dumbbell session for my arms on Wednesday. It's absolutely the goal. I don't feel sore mostly. Funny enough my forearm wasn't really sore but only sometimes and working out seemed to stop it. Hopefully it stays that way. It's kinda like if you have a hang over and drink. Then you're not hung over anymore. It wasnt really painful just sore very occasionally but it gives me anxiety.... it was only ever sore on extension sometimes. I did arm circles and arm stretching before starting my workout today.

I also did abs hardcore today. Seated knee tucks (i feel it in my legs the most,) bicycle crunches (i fucking love them,) and two machines which i increased weight slightly. My shoulder is a little sore but this workout felt great.

I really hope the Monday, Friday thing works so I can keep up on my chest and also have nice back muscles..

I got home and my mother has been a bitch constantly about everything she doesnt even know this next part. The rescue is trying to make it work (all our limitations) but I doubt it... also I'm pretty sure if they come through skye will evict me.... so yea... I have anxiety about that... but yea she's been cunting out at me since I got home for cooking, for showering, for existing.

I'm giving up on fruits and vegetables, I went to buy cucumbers and I went to scan them and they had mold right on the side of them. I just can't. I get obsessive with checking them and washing them and they cost so much, have a very short shelf life. I can afford the calories eating other things. I found some other healthy-ish snack food. It'll save me money and go a lot further..

You can say my dad has high chlorestoral so it runs in the family but I mean lifestyle matters... he used to work at a desk and build stuff in his spare time. Idk what he eats. He could be getting dunkin everyday for all I know. So as stupid as it sounds to change my lifestyle and see what happens first and ignore my dad's high chlorestoral, idk if he is doing all the right things to control his chlorestoral and I mean maybe he isn't. Maybe his lifestyle doesn't cater to having low chlorestoral. Idk.

I got to give lifestyle changes a chance......

I'm planning on doing leg day tomorrow and altering my workout a little from machines. I'm planning on doing abs if I didn't push myself too hard today... it'll be better to do leg day tomorrow than to get bitched at all day tomorrow and listen to stupid Riley barking and whining while I try to game. No matter what I'm not really celebrating my testosterone day...

I might have a red bull day but idk.. I might do leg day, it depends on how I feel. I want to go to the gym 5 days a week and since I can't go Sunday it's Saturday or no gym until Monday. I always got to play my arms by year but my legs can handle every 2 or 3 days... the more fat i burn and muscles I gain the happier I get with my body.

If I go tomorrow I'll have hit the gym 5 days this week. Saturday to Saturday... 4 is good too but i mean I'll see how I feel and what i want to do tomorrow.

If I don't go tomorrow. I'll go Monday for chest and back machines ideally, Tuesday for legs, Wednesday for dumbbell day, Friday for upper body machines and Saturday for leg day. I don't really care about my leg muscle progress. I'm just trying to stay active and burn fat and gain muscle. So leg day helps with that. I'll see what I want to do. I hope my arms permit me to workout on Monday.

Sleep was god awful. Absolutely awful. Terrible. I laid there with my eyes closed for 2 hours before I just took a tiny baby piece of xanax... and a benadryl. I finally fell asleep around 1 a.m... I didn't get a full 7 hours but I got close.

I hope tonight goes better cause i got to take a full Xanax Saturday night, red bull day or not so I can sleep the night before my dad's house cause of the anxiety...

Idk what i did wrong and why I couldn't sleep. I didn't have caffeine late. I went out. I had my lights bright early. Had them mostly all off like normal at night before bed. I did everything right. Maybe it's my thyriod idk. I did poop 4 times yesterday...

I'm anxious about it though, I can't take more tonight bc I have to Saturday night otherwise I'll have to cancel going to my dad's and doing the Christmas tree.

Anyways here is my sexy af body, what are those lines????? I think my obliques. I fucking love the bicycle crunches. My reps are getting higher and higher and they hurt. They hurt so good.

[ace-malarky]

Happy Storyteller Saturday! So obviously with Veilguard out it's going to be difficult juggling video games and writing so I will ask about the balance between the two - is there anything in the Dragon Age world that inspires you creatively with your own worldbuilding? Or, if not Dragon Age, can you think of other creative influences on your work? Feel free to share snippets if relevant :)

hello happy Storyteller Saturday!

Oh it's going to be so hard to balance everything lmao but we shall persevere

(also this got long lmao my bad (I regret nothing))

So I have yet to meet a game with character design that doesn't result in me then. taking that character and putting them in stories lmao. We're seeing this most with Maverick at the moment (2nd BG3 playthrough, my beloved), so what I normally try to do to like. mitigate too many characters is create a character that I already have and play the game as them? And this has worked for some of the BG3 playthroughs.

Mav's is the most obvious I think bc there's the hag eye moment, then me going "we have to be mean so Astarion likes us and then I will drag him into the light", the second curse was just hilarious happenstance and then I. you know. ignore the end of the game for my own stuff :3

This has also happened with pokemon, I used Taerne when I played Kingdoms of Amalur... not so much Assassin's Creed bc that has a very definite Vibe for the assassins that doesn't feel like it gives you as much scope? I also haven't played them as much. Something about not getting to name them.

But ok yes for Dragon Age - and I only started playing them properly this year, but I've tried Origins many times before - I knew I didn't want to like. spawn more stories so what I did was go "these guys are now side characters in other stories" so they turn up in Mav's and Chant's and Tem's stories and that sort of helps

but particularly for my Hawke also, the backstory I've given her in the dnd writings is very similar to the DA2 background with the family et al. Girlie did not have a living family member (past her uncle and cousin ig) at the end of the game and she fully blamed herself for all of them :3

My hero of ferelden def meets his boyfriend in more or less the same manner as origins

so like yeah I pull the characters out and I pick 'n' choose their backstory and hilariously it is not the inquisitor I played that I slotted into Chant's stuff because he wasn't supposed to be my first run but I thought it was too funny to pass up. Have absolutely slotted my next one in there tho

Rook hasn't made an appearance yet because we're still working him out

Iiiin terms of world building. not? so much? ig bc I'm dumping them into dnd-esque stuff so I'm changing up things anyway. Have stolen their partners and renamed them and they're probably still obvious but it's not like this is for anything other than my own general enjoyment.

... n I was going to dump some of the excerpts below the cut but apparently I do not have access to the ones I actually wanted lmao

[mtndewpitchblack]

if you see this no the FUCK you don't but having said that. no reblogs vent under readmore

IF AT ANY POINT YOU BELIEVE YOU CAN PARSE THE IDENTITIES OF ANY FOLLOWING SUBJECT ALIASES [3, 4, 5, 5², 5³, 5⁴, 5⁵, 7] EXIT THE READMORE!!!!

It feels like all of my friends are so busy right now. Everyone I know and hang out with has something else going on, and it's not their fault. I can't blame them, life is busy! I get that! It just feels, really strongly, like they're all finding time for things, though. Just not me. [7] and [5] are busy as hell obviously but it turns out they, well, at least [7], is hanging out with [5²] despite saying that [7] and I would hang out like last week :(. And I tried this weekend and [7] was, again, busy, after I canceled plans with [5³]

post canceled i just need friends with not 5 letter names

post uncanceled. anyways i canceled rave plans with [5³] bc i just had a long emotional conversation with [5²] and even THEN i felt like I was ignoring the stuff I felt and wanted to say just to make [5²] feel better AGAIN. because it's not like I've been doing everything I can to make other people feel better for the last like 5 years of my overactive guilty conscience!!! but I had to make [5²] feel better, of course, because IM not the most hurt one here, but then, it turns out [5²] was JUST HANGING OUT WITH [7]!!! IVE BEEN TRYING!!!!!!!! [7] HAD [5²] HELPING [7] CLEAN [7] APARTMENT!!! LIKE I HAVWNT BEEN TRYING TO TEXT THE GC FOR TWO WEEKS TRYING TO SEE [7+5]!!!! [5] isn't even replying anymore, and I KNOW [5] is busy but fuck ME if it doesn't seem like it's just ME Specifically Getting Ignored!!! I shouldn't have to text [5] individually just to get some kind of response (note I have not actually done that yet. If [5] is ignoring me for some reason that's HIS thing to navigate.) but like. three years or so. I've been trying to be helpful and nice amd funny and interesting and trying so hard not to talk too much about my interests because I've already made [7, 5²] involve themselves in my interests a fuck ton as it is, and [5] doesn't always do well with recommendations, which I have been trying so hard not to take personally because I know [5] doesn't mean it!!

Anyways I canceled the plans with [5³] to relax and not break down and because I also was supposed to hang out with [5⁴] and either watch my fav movie, a new show [5⁴] showed me, or I'd get to show [5⁴] one of the abandoned buildings nearby, which are all activities that LITERALLY MEAN THE WORLD TO ME!!! IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE FRIDAY then. [5⁴] wasn't feeling good. so we raincheck for sat. Well now, it's sat, and [5⁴] has to go home to visit [5⁴] family, so we put it off for Sunday, and then it's Sunday, and [5⁴] gets back, barely texts about how [5⁴] water just got shut off and how there's an errand [5⁴] has to run, then about how "I'm sorry I'm so exhausted" which I GET bc it's your PARENTS HOUSE trust me brother i understand. so i try to reach out to literally any of my friends that I'm pretty sure might have time. See previous for results on this test with [7]. I didn't text [5, 5², 5³] or [5⁴], bc [5] isn't responding, I canceled with [5³], i still need time and space IRT [5²], and [5⁴] obviously canceled on me three days in a row which means [5⁴] MAY have lied about not being tired of me. But it turns out [3] was busy, and doesn't really ask me to clarify much on what I'm upset about, and ofc I'm not reaching out to mom and dad about this shit, and [5⁵+4] were supposed to play minecraft with me like ALL WEEKEND AND [4] kept canceling because of his late ass work shifts (ENTIRELY JUSTIFIED) and [5⁵] was barely on, bored, and isolated the whole time, and that was only like, Saturday, the only day anybody beyond myself alone played!! [5⁵+4] aren't even replying in our group chat sometimes!!! [5⁵] was just sitting AFK in the nether all day yesterday which means he was ONLINE SOMETIME BEFORE I GOT ON AND DIDNT TELL ANYONE DESPITE ME AAKING IN THE GROUPCHAT IF ANYONE WANTED TO PLAY YESTERDAY!!!! This shit is why losing friends always hurts me so goddamn much, because it seems like no matter how long it takes someone always eventually decides I'm too much and they start to step away. And what am I supposed to do, bring it up? Get my attention back out of guilt?? What kind of fucking egomaniac would I have to beeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! And sure there's inevitably a healthy way to communicate this stuff, but if they're BUSY I don't want to BOTHER them and if they're IGNORING ME then it doesn't MATTWR WHAT I SAY I GUESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!