#(and of course. knowing how his psyche works)
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Oh this is a great question to think about! Tbh I had a lot of hopes back when the series was premiering (and before when it was just announced), so to go off of those... well first off, I really really wanted an exploration of Loki's trauma, his past and even his psyche. Like I know a psychological thriller/horror probably wouldn't have been in the cards for a Disney+ show, but tbf I feel like the creators of Wandavision touched on aspects found in those types of genres (if in a PG 13 kind of way) so I don't think I was too off base for hoping to see something like that for Loki. (Not to mention the ridiculous comparisons to films like Se7en and The Silence of the Lambs that Mike Waldron kept making... but I'm not gonna get into that rant again.)
I think I would've put a lot of focus on what the hell actually happened to Loki when he fell into the Void and disappeared for an entire year or so, and how he ended up encountering Thanos and the Black Order, how that all went down, etc. Either through flashbacks, or (possibly altered) memories, or Loki recounting those events interview/interrogation-style (and being an extremely unreliable narrator in doing so, like for instance saying something like "I made a deal with Thanos and worked with him willingly" and then at some point you see into his head through flashbacks/night terrors and realize that clearly wasn't the case, just stuff like that). The possibilities were endless tbh, like there's just so many creative opportunities to explore that one aspect of Loki's backstory. And since that's such a burning question to me (and many other fans tbh) still to this day, I feel like that'd be the first thing I'd want to tackle.
Another important thing I'd want to include would be Loki's gender fluidity and his bi identity. Like I don't think it necessarily has to go with Loki referring to himself as bi, like I don't think he has to say the actual word "bi" in order to give any meaningful kind of rep?? Especially now that Agatha All Along has come out, I feel like I'd want to approach Loki's identity in a similar type of way, just unapologetic, and as authentic as possible to his comic book counter part. Like hell, he can have hang ups with those parts of his identity (which would actually make sense, being from Asgard and since he already has a lot of self-loathing issues in general due to being Jotun).
I wouldn't mind that, especially if it was done in a non-typical way, like maybe it's not being sexually intimate with men/males that's looked down upon on Asgard, but - similar to the Norse apparently - it's on what role they play, or basically who's the "bottom" - that gets shamed, or maybe same sex relationships aren't looked down upon at all on Asgard, but giving birth/getting pregnant while being/presenting as male is, bc it's seen as unnatural, and then let Loki go through an experience where he develops deep rooted insecurities about those aspects of his identity due to Asgard's cultural prejudices. And like this doesn't even have to be explicit (tho after the birth scenes in both Wandavision and especially Agatha All Along I can't help but roll my eyes at ppl having a hang up with Loki going thru something like this, especially if they were totally okay with Wanda and Agatha having birthing scenes, but anyways). It can be something as simple and as subtle as Loki finding out he's pregnant (maybe he can magically feel the fetus growing inside him, or he can hear the heartbeat/etc, or maybe it's as simple as having morning sickness and/or a change of diet). And it just ends up with him drinking tea/potion (due to pressure from Odin/Frigga/society, or maybe he's not ready and seeks it out himself) which gets rid of the baby, but again it's done in a very non graphic way. Of course the whole mpreg thing is just an example, and doesn't have to be in a series about Loki (that's what fanfic is for!) but basically: let Loki be queer, he can have hang ups about being queer, and tbh I'd want the hang ups to be kind of different from the usual discussions/portrayals of queerness in media mainly bc Asgard's an alien/fantasy society so I'd want their cultural norms to be pretty different from ours (human society in general), but overall just let Loki be queer, goddamnit!
Furthermore, I'd want to explore Loki's self loathing in particular, and see his view of himself change as he develops and grows throughout the series. If he encounters other versions of himself then I'd want to see what that would look like... and preferably done differently from how the show approached it (regarding Sylvie). Like I don't want him to just, I don't know, praise his other self up the way he ends up doing in the series (I know he also fought with Sylvie at the beginning but tbh I couldn't really take their rivalry seriously, it felt very sibling-like - which I actually enjoyed at the time, mind you, but a reflection of one's internal self-hatred it certainly is NOT, and like overall the whole dynamic just didn't work for me bc I find those two characters so undeniably different from each other and therefore it doesn't really work as a metaphor for self hatred/self love, but that's neither here nor there).
Like - let it be messy! Let it actually be vitriolic and hateful if that's what the series is trying to convey. Let Loki be angry, let him rage, let him lash out - at versions of himself and at other characters, like c'mon! This is a character that has a lot of inner darkness and has suffered through a lot of trauma and has difficulty trusting others due to said trauma (especially if we're going with Avengers era Loki) so how about we Show That.
Tbh I wouldn't have minded for Loki's main villain (both in the series overall and wrt the lead character) to be a version of himself. (As long as it was portrayed in a thoughtful way, like don't just make him evil please, in fact he doesn't even have to be evil at all - he doesn't have to destroy or conquer other worlds, he could literally just be out there destroying all versions of Loki, which would force our protagonist to fight/confront this person hunting him down). Like I think there would be so many possibilities for all of the ways a protagonist could deal with a "villain" - or rather, an antagonist like that. Some far more darker than others, depending on how you want your story to go. Like it could end similarly to the Agent of Asgard comics (where I believe Loki ends up forgiving and embracing his "evil" self... tho I've not read the comics so please feel free to correct me if I've gotten something wrong). Or if I were writing this series, I would've just had Loki forced into a position where, after being worn down to reaching his emotional breaking point, and in a fit of sheer rage, he'd end up brutally murdering the antagonistic version of himself, in the ultimate form of self destruction, and then I'd have him reeling from the internal consequences of such an extreme form of violence done against himself - but that's just my ridiculously morbid psychological-horror-loving ass for you. I'd just want to completely unravel him ngl, before having him overcome the impossible by rebuilding himself once more (w/ a little help from his newfound friends)...
If the TVA had to be involved in some way, I'd want to approach them as an ominous totalitarian organization, and if Loki were to be tortured by said organization, it most certainly would NOT be portrayed as some throw-away-attempt-at-comedy-type-of-scene (AHEM). I'd go for a darker tone overall, and Loki's torture at the TVA would be portrayed with all of the horror demanded by those types of scenes dealing with that kind of subject matter.
Tbh I have so many ideas for a Loki-centric show, some that involve the TVA and some that don't, but there's just so many threads and I don't want to make this any more convoluted than it already is, so to put it simply: I'd want the focus to be on Loki first and foremost. If it's called Loki, then it should be about the main lead, similar to how Agatha All Along was about Agatha, and Wandavision was about Wanda. (Which means, if the TVA has to be involved, then they would be secondary to the series' main focus - which would be on Loki and his relationship with himself.) Secondly, I'd want to see his trauma not only brought up, but fully explored. Which includes his traumatic upbringing (Odin's A++ Parenting, Frigga's enabling, family dysfunction, Asgard's toxic social/cultural norms) as well as the horror he experienced in the Void and on Sanctuary, maybe even some events in the first Avengers film, but seen through Loki's eyes this time. And I'd just want Loki to be queer, so if he's bi then let him have previous (or current!) relationships (or flirtations) with men (or attraction towards men) as well as women, if he's gender fluid then Show. That. Whether he physically transforms into a woman at times, or through his inner monologue where he refers to himself with different pronouns even if his gender presentation hasn't changed, or even his ambivalence towards being trapped/labeled in a one-gender-ticked-box, but Show. It. That part of his identity deserves to be shown, especially in a series where Loki's the central character.
If you yourself couldâve directed/wrote the Loki series, what would you have done differently? What would you have wanted to see in a series about Loki? What would you have focused on? Would the series take place somewhere other than the TVA? Which characters would you include? What would be the end goal? What aspects of his character would be explored?
#Loki#Loki Series AU#MCU Loki#So this was... A Lot.#I guess I had a lot of thoughts on the matter lol...#Also with regards to Thor: while I think his relationship with Loki is very important to Loki's character overall -#- I wouldn't want to place too much focus on their relationship mainly bc Thor already has his own film series...#(Which is meant to focus on Thor and on his relationship with his brother... )#(Now whether the films actually do a good job on conveying those things are a whole other matter... )#But yeah. Basically I'd want the Loki show to be about LOKI.#(Tho further exploration of Loki's love for his family and memories of his brother would definitely fall into this... )#Anyways this was long enough!#Loki Series Criticism#Just in case bc I didn't remain as neutral in tone as I initially wanted to be...#Also also: with regards to morality and redemption arcs... tbh when it comes to Loki I'm more interested in a character study approach...#Tho I wouldn't mind if he reflected on some of the destructive actions he's taken - from the invasion of Earth -#- to the attempted annihilation of Jotunheim...#As well as seemingly ''smaller'' destructive moments... such as when he'd nearly killed a human Thor back in the first film...#His denial of Frigga being his mother right before her death...#As well as his perceived guilt over Frigga's death...#(Assuming he somehow managed to see how his life would've played out had he not taken the Tesseract.)#More than anything I'd want to explore Loki's self destructive tendencies - and ultimately end it on Loki reconciling with himself...#Including the aspects of himself that he hates... whether it's as something as blameless as being born the ''wrong'' race...#Or being so very unlike the Asgardian ideal...#His feelings of being a ''monster'' due to his Jotunness...#As well as due to the destructive actions he'd taken during previous films...#''Deep down Loki wants to be Worthy''#(A paraphrased quote from the Thor: The Dark World BTS that I can't help but think about from time to time... )#If Loki were to have a redemption arc... I'd want it to play out in a way where it's completely intertwined with his self-healing arc...#Basically: You can't have one without the other.
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Ohhh my gods. Oh my gods. Oh my gods. Of fucking course. Very funny.
#bird boy with the coffee addiction and daddy issues. how did i not see it before.#and the other one! my gods!#come ON brain we have like 4 archetypes and clearly this endless permutation thing is only getting us so far#oh but maybe this time it'll be different-#yeah yeah#this is still very funny#'dont you have a bird thing too?' - guy who doesnt know enough yet#absolutely the fuck not#im not a bird but one of my brothers is. his dad? cant stand that guy#why? daddy issues.#gods.#and the whole third wheeling in my own psyche thing is an annoying pattern but its the least of my concern l#sometimes we work better in pairs or trios#this is probably incoherent as fuck ive been awake for 24 hours straight#but one of them said something and it just clicked and its so fucking funny#of course. of course.#t-posting#j-posting#i guess they have tags now#fuck my life#called m laughing me ass off#my bird is *symbolic*#they arent THAT similar considering#which is why when those parallels hit it was so funny i guess
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Gojo Satoru & Geto Suguru
⥠TW: fear, prank, prank gone too far, dubcon-ish
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âHaha, âToruânice try,â is all you say to the tall figure, having stood patiently in wait and perfectly positioned to do a jump scare with his silly store-bought Ghostface mask on.
You sigh and go back to your dealings, and he remains as if the gist isnât upâever-committed to the task as if youâre suddenly going to forget that itâs him. Likeâof course, itâs him! Despite what the movies will have you believe, not a lot of guys have bodies like that.
If he was really committed to tricking you, he should have worn something baggier to hide his perfectly shredded chest. But noâheâs set on wearing his black muscle shirtâprobably opting to make you both scared and horny at the same time.
You carry on with what youâd been doingâcleaning up the kitchen. âOi, quit standing there already and come help me.â
He doesnât. But thatâs not unlike himâheâll take any excuse not to do the dishes. And right now, the excuse is this dumb prank. But itâs your fault in any caseâyouâre the one that put him up to it by saying heâd never be able to get a rise out of you.
You sigh and scold yourself for being so short-sightedâshouldâve kept my dumb mouth shut. Knowing him, heâs probably going to be this way all through October, the insufferable prick.
He still stands there. Silent. And still. Eerily unlike him. And almost, just almost, utterly unlike him.
But noâdonât be stupid! Heâs the same height and the same build, for fuckâs sake! What are the odds of someone with the exact same measurements as your boyfriend breaking in right at the time he isnât around in something so cliche and dumb as a Ghostface replica? No, it stinks of Satoruâitâs got his goofy antics written all over it.
You scoff againâa little winded this time, a little strained. You have to hand it to himâhe is a little scary when he shuts up for this long.
âYou can knock it off, Satoru. I know itâs you.â You face him again, hand on your hip, with a frown.Â
You sigh again when he still doesnât answer, insisting on his stupid tactic of psyching you out. And youâre getting pissed that itâs actually almost working.
âUgh, youâre so stupid.â You start stomping overâaiming to rip that dumb thing off his head and point your death glare directly in his insufferable blue eyesâthose insufferable blue eyes youâre actually starting to hope are under there more than knowing without a doubt are there for sure.Â
âTchâitâs insulting if you think some half-assed performance like this is gonna be enough to scare me. At least have the creativity to come up with something somewhat decentââ
You stop in your tracks halfway over. Hair is peaking out from under the mask. You hadnât seen it from afar, matted against the black shirt he was wearingâbut how could you? How could you when itâs not white hair?
You flinch backward. Stumbling. Assessing the dark, silken locks a second time before looking up at the mask againâthat soulless white warped skull with pitch-black bottomless eyesockets.
You take another step back. Breath hitching in your throat when the figure takes a step as wellâtoward you.
Your heart flares. Itâs not Satoru.
Eyes peeled, you feel the panic overthrow you in an instantâlike a cold rush, reaching all the way into your bonemarrow, making it hard to move, hard to do much of anything without feeling vulnerable to what it might trigger.
But once the figure pulls his hand out from behind his back, brandishing a butcherâs knife that catches the light and glints in the airâyou have no other choice but to run.
What a perfect fucking day to wear fuzzy fucking socks! Fucking October cold is going to be the reason you dieâstabbed to death in your own house by some cringey Scream fanboy. Noâthis canât be the endânot this way! Why isnât Satoru home yet? Why canât he ever be where you need him to be?
You make your way through the houseâhoping to reach the door, but turning the corner has you slip and fall, and the intruderâs on youâknife raised, poised prettily in the air above your helpless body, clad in your tiny heart-print pjâsâlike the perfect hot airhead in any slasher spoof.
You scream and squeeze your eyes shut, âNo! Noâplease! Please! Satoru, help!â
And right as the knife is supposed to come down and puncture your chest, making it spurt out red until you finally bleed out, dead and gone, thereâs a bang instead as two palms land flat on the floor on either side of your head.
Joined by a muffled voice, âAre yah scared yet?â
With your eyes wide open again, you look up at not one mask blocking out the ceiling light but two. And with all the pure alarm savaging your chest, you manage to let out a real horror-movie squealâunlike a sound youâve ever made before.
And then, of all things, thereâs laughterâno, not laughterâstraight cackling.
Andâfortunately or unfortunatelyâyouâre quite sure you recognize that sound.
The last one pulls off his mask, and you really canât believe itâpretty porcelain face squished in amusement with tears of joy in the corner of his insufferable blue eyes.
That fucking bitch.
âYou should have seen your face!â he chortlesâdownright heaves. But for all his handsome features, he truly must be the ugliest laugher there is. Or maybe itâs just that the bastard always laughs at your expense, and after one too many times, itâs left a bad taste in your mouth.
Still, you sigh, eyes closed in relief, âI hate you, âToru. You took it way too far, you ass.â
âNo, no, Satoru, help~â he ignores you and mocks in a high-pitched moan, showing not a sign of remorseâholding his hand over his stomach as he falls to the floor, struggling to leave room for breath between hooting and howling.
Your eyes go to the original perpetrator. âAnd you? You proud or what?â
The wearer pulls off its mask and is revealed to be none other than Satoruâs best friendâGeto.
Honestly, you should have fucking known...
âSorry, heheâŠâ
Youâre upsetâyou make that clear with your pout, giving him your best guilt-tripping look from where you rest beneath him.
But still, within, your heart eases at the sight of his kind face and that apologetic smile across itâever thankful to see him and not the cold-blooded murderer you were convinced was going to kill you only a moment agoâeven when pinned beneath him in a position that should be making Satoru jealous.
But your boyfriend couldnât care less, it seemsâtoo busy rolling on the floor and laughing out loud quite literally, even banging his fist against the wood. Prick.
âIâm gonna throw upââ you say as the nerves finally settle. âAnd when Iâm done, Iâm gonna kill you. Both of you.â
Geto seems to think thatâs fair, still with that sheepish smile on his face, but Satoru is quick to interjectâlaughing fit over as he shakes his head, âNuh-uh. You said if I manage to scare you once this Halloween, Iâd get whatever I want.â
You swear he can be such a child sometimes.
Oh, who are you kidding? Heâs always a child. Itâs only surprising heâs managed to rope Geto into all thisâa guy whoâs usually so mature.
âI donât remember saying thatâŠâ you sigh, laying the back of your hand atop your forehead, still calming your breaths and the pounding in your headâyour body not yet caught up to the fact that itâs trepidation over impending death was all just some silly joke played on you by two idiots.
You canât believe himâyou canât believe either of them.
âFucking shit, GetoâI thought I was gonna die.â
He still hasnât gotten off youâthe look of worry on his face tells you heâs probably just wanting to stay close to make you feel safe. You appreciate it, though itâs a little awkward lying beneath him like thisâitâs not exactly a position you share with just anyoneâŠ
âHonestly, I didnât think it would work,â he saysâeyes slim like always, in that charming way. âI always thought you were smarter than to fall for something this stupid.â
You pull a frown at thatâtaking it all back. Heâs as childish and dumb as Satoru is. Heâs just better at hiding it.Â
âOh, shut upâas if you wouldnât scream if someone chased you down with a knife,â you grumble. âNow get off, you prick.â
You begin to lift yourself onto your elbows, yet despite the clear intention of getting up, Geto doesnât budge to make it happen.
No, instead, he leans further inâfine-kempt raven hair slipping off his shoulders, falling with the same grace as a veil.
âI was told thereâd be a prize for the one that got you to crack, and seeing as Iâm the one that made that happenâI want it.â
You have to blinkâblanched at the sudden demand.
Satoru, as well, a little stunnedâlooks wide-eyed at the two of you, upside down where he lies flat on his back, long limbs stretched out like a starfish.
âYou what now?â both of you ask in unison.
Geto chuckles before repeating, âMy prize. I want it. Itâs only fair,â as if itâs the most obvious thing in the world.Â
Satoru rolls over onto his stomach to view you both the right way, pursing his lips in thought. âHmmâŠâ Hand on his chin as if itâs really something to deliberate when the dumbass very well knows what the two of you had bet on and how it very much isnât a reward you can give to just anyone.
Yet, despite that. âOkay,â he agreesâas if itâs even up to him.
âHold on now, wait a minute.â You intervene in the almost business-esque dealing theyâd somehow held without you. "Not happening.â
âWhy not?â they both ask, looking at you.Â
And you canât keep from gaping. The nerve.
Spluttering as you explain, âBecause itâsâwell, because it was a bet between me and my dumbass boyfriend, and it was very clear what the prize was gonna be, come winner or loserâso, sorry to break it to you, but there is no prize.â
But that doesnât seem to deter Geto. âOh, I think there isâŠâ he all but purrs as he leans down further.
âSatoru already agreed. And youâre already on your back beneath me.â
His smile isnât all so friendly anymore, and still⊠you canât help but blush being caught beneath it, holding your breath with fear a little different from the one before but no different in how it makes your heart pound.
âSo, if neither of you mindâŠ" he grins slyly. "I think Iâll just take it.âÂ
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Forever and Always
Joel Miller x F!reader.
Summary I Your work life is awful and there's nothing you want more after an exhausting day both mentally and physically than to come home to Joel, but on calling him and finding out that's not possible you're dreading the thought of going home to be alone. However, it doesn't seem that that's the case once you actually make it back, and it turns into once of the best and happiest nights of your life. Content/warnings I So much cute fluff, Joel Miller being the most doting and caring boyfriend. 'babygirl', Joel has a cute little saying to let reader know just how much he loves her. Asking to move in together. No use of y/n, no outbreak. A/N I Once again another random idea that popped into my head that I decided to run with. I really hope you enjoy soppy, cute Joel taking care of his woman!
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It always puts a smile on his face when you call. Your name working wonders for the grumpy moods he finds himself in on jobs. Even with the jokes he cracks with Tommy. Nothing compares to when heâs with you, talking to you. Just doing anything that involves you. âHey baby you, okay?â His husky voice grumbles down the receiver once heâs removed himself away from the bustle of the house, heâs currently working in.
âJoel?â You sniff.
His smile falters. Something is obviously wrong, and whateverâs happened heâll kill them. No one upsets you. âBabe? Hey, hey whatâs wrong?â
âI- sniff- Iâm just having such a horrible day. I canât stand this job anyone, I wana quit so bad. Please can you come over when I finish?â The sobs grow in volume as you force a hand to your mouth to try to quiet them. The impact of hearing those words leave your own mouth proving to you just how much you rely on him.
âOh baby mâso sorry youâre having a shitty day. Listen weâre on a bad job today mânot gonna finish till super late so I most likely canât come round. But Iâll call you later okay yâcan tell me all about it okay baby. Promise.â
âOkayâ you sniff upset he canât come but you knew he was busy and that it was a long shot. You pine after him when you feel vulnerable like this.
âYou know I love you, donât you?â He grumbles evidently worried heâs in the doghouse.
âI know. I love you too so much.â
âForever and always baby girl.â
The words making your heart flutter as they always do.
When the call cuts you hold your phone against your chest and sob a little more before psyching yourself up for your afternoon. Your colleagues donât deserve to know just how bad they make you feel, theyâd probably thrive on it if they knew.
So, instead you sort yourself out wash your face, wait till your eyes are less puffy, paint on your smile and go about the remainder of your shift thank fuck itâs Friday.
Of course no one notices, why would they when they make it clear how much they canât stand you being around.
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Finally five oâclock arrives and you rush out to your car as quick as you can. Putting on the cheesy cd playlist Joel made you. You love that heâs like that, so unbelievably cheesy, so old fashioned itâs why you adore him the way you do. When yours and Joelâs song comes on tears escape you again. God youâve never loved someone the way you love him, but these tears youâre spilling are tears of happiness not pain.
When you make it home your shitty mood overcomes you again, the thought of your empty apartment and cold bed. So you settle on the idea of a large glass of red wine, a crappy comfort series and a good cry before you go to sleep. Youâre have a day trip with Joel planned tomorrow and thatâs enough to keep you going.
However, itâs like you can tell somethingâs off from the second your key is in the door. After momentarily hesitating you uneasily open your door and those thoughts are made true. Your apartment isnât dark, cold, nor is it empty. The smell of food hits you so mouth-wateringly beautiful, and the radio is playing softly.
You kick off your shoes and move to the kitchen and there he is, Joel in all his glory slaving away over the stove. Dancing along to the music with an apron round his neck.
He turns to look at you with a smile on his face and it breaks you.
You stand on the spot throw your bag to the floor from your shoulder and cry. But he quickly rushes over âhey shhh itâs okay.â He cradles you close a hand on the back of your head pushing you closer to his chest. Allowing you to inhale his comforting scent.
âSâokay mâhere baby.â He mumbles against your hair as he rests his lips against you. Holding you as close as possible.
After a few minutes you pull away red faced and puffy eyes to look up at him. âHow did you get here I thought you were busy?â
âMâsorry baby, I know I didnât think Iâd be able to. And Iâm so sorry that that made you upset, I really am, but as much as I am super busy at work the second, I heard you cryinâ I knew I needed to make sure I was finishinâ early so I could come over and see you, you mean more to me than any job, any amount of money. So I took a sick day for the remainder.â
âThankyouâ you whisper before moving to grasp at his stubbly cheeks. You smile sadly at him as your thumbs stroke him and then you move your lips to his, kissing him softly.
âIâve made your favourite babyâ he begins once you pull back away. Arms resting round his neck as you stand on your tip toes to be exactly in his eye-line. âAnd then I want you tâtell me all about this shitty day oâyours so we can get it outa your pretty head. Youâre too beautiful to be burdened by that shit.â
You chuckle âIâd really like that, thank you so much for being here.â
âAlways baby. Always.â
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After a long moan fest over Joelâs signature spaghetti and meatballs, youâre cuddling on the couch with your long-awaited red wine.
Your difficult day long forgotten about which is why you love being around him so much, he really does make everything better. Just by being himself- so unapologetically himself.
Youâre cuddled into him your feet kicked up behind you as he strokes your side. His calloused fingertips gliding lightly from your hip all the way up to the side of your breast, over and over causing constant goosebumps.
âYou know vâbeen thinkinââ he mumbles softly into the silence.
âShit did it hurt?â You chuckle as you jest with him, you love when you get the perfect opportunity to use that joke.
He pokes at your side in retaliation, and you giggle into it, loving every second of being with him.
âSeriously now though babygirl, sit up nâlook at me.âÂ
Which you do without a momentâs hesitation. You pull away from him so you can face him sat on your knees.
God heâs gorgeous. His beautiful salt and pepper hair slightly longer than he would like but with you adoring him just like that he refuses to cut it.
He takes your hands in his and god it makes you nervous. Butterflies swim around in your stomach as you stare into each otherâs eyes.
âI realised somethinâ today.â
Your breathing increases as you reply âwhat?â
He takes a nervous breath closing his eyes on the inhale and opening them back up to stare right back at you on the exhale. His perfectly pert lips opening just slightly to let the air out. He clears his throat as he shifts slightly in the seat. âYâbelong with me, all the time, all day every day, and it breaks my heart tâthink that you could need me and we ainât together.â
You smile softly at him, you know your rightful place is with him 24/7, thereâs nowhere youâd rather be.
But the next words to leave him are so far from what you expected itâs as though time stands still. âMove in wâme.â
âWhat?â Youâre excited from the moment the words leave his lips, but youâre certain you misheard.
âI want you tâmove in with me, get out of this lil apartment. Come make my house ours, letâs always be together. No more late nights alone letâs always be there together even if my stupid fuckinâ job means I get in at 2am.â
You squeal throwing your arms around his neck as you practically pounce on him. âOh my god yes, yes, yes when?â
He chuckles pushing you back slightly so heâs able to look at you once more. âWell I mean we could start moving ya stuff in tomorrow, I know we said weâd go out for the day but-â
âNo!â You say it all too quickly and he laughs âI wana move in letâs do that fuck the plans! We can do that any day!â You forcefully hug him again. Pulling away heâs beaming at you âdo you promise you mean it?â
âWith all my heart baby.â The hand he has resting on your back moves up and down slowly. So soothing, so full of love.
You scream in excitement before kissing him.
When you eventually pull away you look directly into his hooded eyes. âForever and always?â
âForever and always babygirlâ and he rubs his nose against yours.
#the last of us#joel miller#fluff and smut#no outbreak!joel miller#domestic fluff#fluff#you and joel#joel the last of us#joel miller x y/n#joel miller x you#joel miller x reader#Joel Miller being adorable
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naps - trafalgar water d. law
a/n: every time i write for law, i always second guess myself until i actually start writing đđđ i psyche myself the hell out over here like "omg does this characterization make sense?" and it somehow always falls into place, but trust me, im stressingggg before i finish a law fic because it only ever makes sense right towards the end when my brain finally remembers "ah yes, i do love this man, i am in fact obsessed with him too" đ
nothing but fluff heređ
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-he claims he hates when you play with his tattoos (he is 100% lying and you both know it) the soft and gentle touches of your fingers casually outlining the design of his chest tattoo is the one thing guaranteed to lull him to sleep. it's the only time you see him this relaxed
-this man is perpetually tired, however it takes some extreme convincing to get him to take a nap with you. not because he doesn't want too, but mainly because he likes to hear you whine and beg for him đđ (and because he also hates stepping away from work)
-law prefers when you lay on top of him, straddling his leg or hips with your thighs, putting your full body weight onto him. he's wrap his arms around you, pulling you in close to him. and when he's bored, he'll gently stroke your hair, leaving kisses on top of your head. and he definitely pouts when you guys cuddle/nap in another position. he'll still do it, of course, but he'll complain while he does.
-he smells so good, this man smells like a deep bourbon whisky vanilla, sweet but also deep and intoxicating. smells so heavenly that you wonder how you ever slept without it.
-when he's really sleep deprived in his office, it takes a lot less than normal to convince law to take a nap with you; you crawled into his lap putting your legs over one of the arms of the chair, his arms around your waist holding you close to him, with your hand tangled in his dark brown locks, he instantly caves when you whisper "wanna take a nap with me, captain?" you'll be thrown over his shoulder and onto his mattress before he ever utters the word "yes"
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a/n: it's been a minute since i posted for my law girlies, so this is for you guys (law's version of the confession series is officially in the works)đ
a/n enjoyed this fic? here's my masterlist!!
#one piece#one piece fic#one piece fanfic#one piece x reader#one piece headcanons#one piece fluff#one piece trafalgar law#op trafalgar law#trafalgar law#trafalgar water d law#one piece law#op law#trafalgar law x reader#law x reader#law x you#law fluff#law headcanons#fluff fic#via's fics
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ౚৠoh ! dear diary, i met a boy !
ౚৠđœđźđ¶đżđ¶đ»đŽ â step!bro anakin x fem!reader
ౚৠđđđșđșđźđżđ â your stepbrother anakin finds your diary full of all your dirty little secrets
ౚৠđđŒđżđ± đ°đŒđđ»đ â 6k
ౚৠđđźđżđ»đ¶đ»đŽđ â swearing, stepcest, smut ( masturbation f and m, oral sex f and m, vibrator, degradation, praise, use of the term slut/little slut, unprotected sex, p in v, fingering, overstimulation ) i think thatâs all !
ౚৠđ”đŒđœđČ đđœđČđźđžđ ! â someone call the psych ward immediately !
part two part three masterlist
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anakin groaned in annoyance as he stormed up the steps at his mothers command asking him to fetch his stepsister for some reason or another. he barged into your bedroom not bothering to knock, he always liked seeing you jump, sometimes you were on your bed, phone dropping from your hands as your lips parted in surprise. other times you were perched at your vanity catching his eye in the mirror with horrified delight. but his favourite would always be when he entered your room to find you clad in nothing but a pair of white panties. your face had been painted crimson, eyes clutching your breasts but he could still see your rosy nipples peeking beneath your manicured nails, pert from the cold winter air.
but this time, much to his disappointment he found the room empty, your fairlights glittered along the ceiling and the pink lamp beside your bed cast light on the little book had seen you clutching to your chest every so often, it was hot pink and dotted with stickers of various celebrities that he despised. you had always been protective of it, even your father had once gained a slap to the hand when he tried to touch your book. so anakin knew he had no choice, he slowly entered the room further, noting the sound of rushing water from the bathroom. perfect.
he crossed your room in a matter of seconds and scooped up the book, flicking through a couple pages, the first few he saw held nothing of interest and he skimmed through. there were no dates but he could tell they were from before your father and shmi had bought the house and blended your family, he read a few sentences of you complaining about school, and friend drama and almost called it a bust. his innocent priss of a stepsister was the same in her diary as she was every day. that was until he skipped ahead and found his name appearing. with new found interest he settled down on your bed.
/ anakin came back from college today and he actually looked happy to see me, or he smiled when he got out of the car which is a first. i wish he would smile more, he looks so pretty when he smiles.
anakin scoffed at this, rolling his eyes, this had only been a few weeks ago and he had been laughing at a text just moments before, but of course you would think he was happy to see you. you always greeted him the same, glossy lips twisted in a saccharine smile as you bounced on the balls of your feet, begging for an ounce of attention from him. it was ridiculous, but he had to know more.
/ anakin is fixing up dadâs old car in the driveway so that he can use it, iâve never been so happy for my fatherâs hoarding tendencies in my life. i was sat at my window for two hours today watching him. he was wearing that black wife beater, the one that makes his arms look even bigger than usual, so muscly and strong. i wonder what it would feel like for him to pick me up, and feel his muscles against my back, they look so good when theyâre tensed. he was so sweaty too, i wanted to run out there and lick it from his skin, how disgusting but wow, i wish i took a picture of him like that. soaked in sweat and oil.
anakinâs jaw was agape, his sweet innocent stepsister wasnât such an angel as he once thought. his dick twitched beneath his sweatpants at the thought of you perched on your window seat with a perfect view of him working rubbing your thighs together, desperate for his touch, his taste. it was taboo, disgusting, your parents were married and here you were writing dirty little fantasies. he loved it. addicted to the words you had spilled across the page in pretty gel pens.
/ dad asked me why i was so distracted today at dinner, how could i not be? anakin came down in just shorts and i swear i could see everything, heâs bigger than i imagined, i probably wouldnât even be able to fit my hand around it, but ellen said boys like that. i wonder what it looks like, iâve only ever seen them in porn. anakin didnât even notice anything was off with me, didnât notice me staring. i wish he would.
âfuck,â anakin hissed, his dick was now almost fully hard and throbbing. who knew you were such a slut, fantasising about his cock at the dinner table. if he had known⊠god he wanted to fucking ruin you. show you how to take his dick, watch as you choked and cried around it as he forced it past your swollen lips. he wanted to paint you in his cum and not stop until you were a shaking writhing mess. he knew you were hot, had thought it the second he saw you, your hair in braids clad in ivory like some kind of fallen angel but had pushed it away, you were his stepsister for fuck sake, but nowâŠ
/ he walked in on me changing today, i was only in my underwear and he laughed, but i caught him staring at my boobs, i made sure not to cover them properly and it worked. i got so wet, i donât think iâve ever come so hard before. i wanted him to do something, walk over to me and rip my hands away, push me on the bed and fuck me till i saw stars, but instead i just had to use my vibrator. sometimes i wish he could hear me moaning through the wall, maybe he can.
âlittle fucking slut,â anakin said to himself as he glanced across the page, hand cupping his rock hard cock through his trousers, your words were depraved, desperate. maybe he should walk into the bathroom right now and take you like you were so desperate for, you would have no trouble spreading your legs for him, would probably beg for it, do anything he asked. his perfect little fuck toy. he couldnât help himself anymore, spitting on his hand and slipping it down his trousers tugging at his cock as he continued to read.
/ i bought a dildo today from ann summers but iâm scared, my fingers are so small compared to it, the woman said it was about average but wow. no matter how much prep i do it hurts. i bet anakin would feel better, the silicon is so hard and cold. i wore one of his t-shirts it smells like him, that helped a little but itâs not the same, iâve heard his stories when he talks to his friends about the girls heâs fucked. he knows what heâs doing, i wonder how he would take me, on my back nice and slow, or pound into me from behind while i screamed. maybe he would call me angel like he does sometimes, i wish. now my arm just hurts so iâm here alone in my bed playing with my clit wishing it was him.
anakin jerked against his hand at the last sentence, he had never cum this quickly before, but your words had him loosing his shit, he couldnât even imagine what else you thought if this was only what you choose to write down, what other dirty secrets lurked beneath that pretty facade of pink and glitter. the next page held a collection of polaroids you had taken of him, some from the window as he worked on his car, skin sheened in sweat and oil, shirtless as he drank a bottle of water. another of him laying on the sofa arm resting behind his head a can of beer in hand, and the last was him glaring at the camera. he remembered this one, he had demanded you rip it up, but here it was immortalized with pink and purple hearts surrounding it. but the next page was from today.
/ anakin came home from playing baseball with his friends about an hour ago, he was gross, sweaty and loud after hours with his friends. he slid past me in the kitchen his hands on my hips for just a second i wish he would have bent me over the counter and fucked me there and then. i would have let him, dad was in the living room but i donât care, god, heâs ruined me. all i can think about is him, his cock, his hands, his lips. i need him. iâm gonna go shower, i was meant to help shmi with dinner but i couldnât, not when i was soaking through my panties while stood next to her fantasising about her son.
âoh fuck,â anakin hissed as he came into his fist, cum coating his boxers and knuckles. you were insane, and maybe so was he for getting so worked up but he knew he couldnât hold back now, he had seen those words and there was no going back. a bit shakily he stood from the bed wiping his hands on his sweatpants and grabbing the sparkly pen from your desk and decided to leave a little note of his own in your dirty little diary.
/ who knew you were such a dirty little slut, angel girl
and with that he left your bedroom, cum drying on his boxers, he could only hope you found his note sooner rather than later.
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after your shower you felt a lot better, you had turned the water considerably cooler than usual and taken some deep breaths you had learned from yoga, pushing anakin far from your mind, you let the ritual of getting redressed soothe your mind, slipping into a soft matching set of white shorts and a crop top, leaving your hair loose and applying your skin care. you almost felt like yourself, untainted by the dirty thoughts that seemed perpetually in your mind.
you wished it would stop, you hated yourself for it, your father was finally happy after years of thinking he would never find love again after your mother had passed. if he knew what you were thinking he would be disgusted, he would probably send you off to your aunt to protect anakin and shmi from your sick mind, the thought made your stomach hurt. you wanted to stop you really did, but then you would see him and all those dirty thoughts would slip back in, he was haunting you.
you headed downstairs, an airpod pressed in one ear hoping some music would soothe your guilty mind, finding shmi in the kitchen. the woman smiled in relief when she saw you.
âthere you are, i sent ani up to get you half an hour ago,â she said a little flustered and instantly your heart dropped, you didnât know why she was upset but she had needed you. you hated upsetting people, âalways a people pleaserâ your mother had used to scold you fondly.
âiâm so sorry, anakin never told me,â you said truthfully and the woman sighed before laughing begrudgingly.
âmy son has many talents, listening has never been one of them,â she said with a fond smile before turning back to the stove, âiâm making your dad that soup he loves so much but this recipe seems wrong, think you could help me out?â she requested holding out a sheet of paper to you and you took it immediately, nodding happily.
âof course,â you beamed, âwell firstly itâs chicken stock not vegetable stock,â you informed her, âand secondly use heavy cream instead of milk, he likes the taste more. but other than that it seems perfectâ
âreally?â she asks you, face a little tight.
âyep, we always make it a little different depending on what we have but you have got this down to a t now i would say, and dads gonna love it,â you said and shmi finally smiled again, you hated when she frowned, it made her seem much older, an echo of the struggling woman she had once been and she didnât deserve that, she never did.
âwant to stay and help me make it?â she asked and you accepted. the pair of you worked in tandem, and soon you had a delicious pot of soup bubbling on the stove ready to be served along with homemade grilled cheese.
âokay, iâm gonna go grab your dad from the den do you mind getting, ani,â shmi asked and you agreed despite yourself, bounding out of the kitchen and up the stairs to anakinâs room, knocking once, then twice and then three times before you finally got a response.
âcome in,â he called out, so you swung the door open, expecting a scowl or a blank stare but instead he was smirking widely at you, as though he knew something you didnât and it made your skin crawl. âoh, hey, angel,â he greeted. fuck.
âdinners ready,â you told him, proud that you managed to keep your voice steady and his face dropped a little bit before his smile suddenly widened again.
âand you came to get me?â he asked teasingly, your stomach tightened, twisting into a ball and sending a jolt of heat straight to your core. he was going to kill you.
âyour mum asked me to,â you say shortly, spinning around and walking away, taking a deep breath as you did so. stupid, stupid, stupidâŠ
âangel,â anakin said again, and that name was going to send you into overdrive, a flush growing on your cheeks. ânot gonna wait for me? thatâs not very nice,â he complained and you shook your head.
âare you high?â you asked him as you reached the landing but anakin grabbed your wrist stopping you from heading down the steps.
âwhat makes you say that?â he asked you, drawing closer to you so that your faces were only inches apart, you could feel his hot breath fanning on your cheeks, see deep into his eyes, so pretty and blue beneath the crystalline lights above.
âyour acting strange,â you pointed out with a frown, anakin was never nice to you, he was cordial sometimes, blunt others and sometimes he was simply rude, but never this. never teasing and friendly and chasing you down through the halls of your home to chat. it was as unnerving as it was utterly addictive.
âi just learned something new today, something thatâs changed my perspective a little bit,â he crooned, hand coming up and resting on the wall beside your head, you blinked at him. what the fuck?
âwhat did you learn?â you asked him curiously and anakin grinned, a beautiful blinding thing that took your breath away.
âyouâll see,â was all he said before withdrawing from you and heading down the steps leaving you flabbergasted where you stood, heart racing and core throbbing. âcome on, angel, donât wanna be late for dinner,â he called up to you and you followed soundlessly, wondering if you had accidentally fallen into a different dimension while in the shower.
dinner was normal, or as normal is it could be with anakin acting so out of character, he was chatting like he hadnât seen anyone in years, some kind of newfound zest for life that even had his mother seemed confused about but accepted with open arms. it was nice to see anakin talking, usually, he would mutter a few words before disappearing back to his room.
âyea, i was thinking of working at the garage next term to get a little extra cash, you know where youâre going to colleague next year, angel?â anakin asked, you looked over at him a little wide-eyed at the nickname in front of your parents, but glancing at them you saw that they both seemed⊠pleased.
âum, i have a few options actually, still not sure,â you murmured, still lost in what was happening, but it was making your head spin.
âsheâs been looking at your school a bit,â your dad cut in, âitâs got a great program for what she wants to study,â
âoh really? maybe i could set something up for you, or maybe just give you a show around of the school next term, let you see what itâs really about,â anakin suggested with a smile and shmi beamed.
âoh that's a lovely idea, ani dear,â she exclaimed, âwhat do you think, sweetheart?â she asked her eyes darting to you and you pulled your lips into a smile.
âyea that sounds great,â you agreed, glancing back at anakin who sent you a wink. you almost groaned, rubbing your thighs together, you thought anakin being mean to you was enough to send you spiraling, spilling dirty fantasies into your book but him being nice was going to send you into a whirl of delusions that were going to be detrimental to your mental health if it continued.
once dinner was finished you rushed to your room, ready to spill your guts into your diary, you grabbed it from your bedside table and flicked to the next open page, your heart dropping to your stomach when you saw the words scrawled on the page.
\ who knew you were such a dirty little slut, angel girl
âoh my god,â you whispered to yourself, tossing the book down onto the bed, horror-struck. you knew that handwriting, had seen it many times before and now here it was taunting you in a book full of your sick twisted fantasies that all featured him. you felt nauseous, bile rising in your throat, is this why he was so happy, some sort of twisted revenge? had he taken pictures of it? did he plan on showing your dad? âthis canât be happening,â you whispered to yourself.
âi see you found my note,â a cocky voice echoed from behind you, you span around, lips trembling and anakinâs brows furrowed slightly.
âplease donât tell my dad, iâm so sorry anakin. i know itâs wrong and disgusting but please he will never forgive me if i ruin this for him, he loves your mum so much and iâŠâ the world were tumbling from your lips so quickly you could hardly process them, not even noting as anakin shut the door behind him and crossed the room so that he was stood before you, âiâm sorry,â you practically wailed, âyou were never supposed to see that, it was just somewhere to put down my thoughts,â tears were streaming down your cheeks now, âplease donât hate me,â
âyou gonna be quiet now?â anakin asked you once you finally stopped rambling and you nodded through sniffles, vision blurred by your tears. âgood,â he whispered, reaching up and cupping your cheek, âiâm not gonna tell your dad, angel,â he said soothingly, ânot when i know how much fun we can have now,â anakin said with a smile.
âwhat⊠what are you saying?â you asked him. this couldnât be real, this couldnât be happening right now. no way.
âiâm saying, that i wanna see just how dirty you can be, angel,â he cooed, âi wanna know the darkest parts of that fucked up little mind of yours,â your breathing hitched, raising your hands to wipe the tears from your ruddy cheeks and staring at him in disbelief.
âanakinâŠâ you whispered, âthis is wrong,â
âoh i know that, baby, but it didnât stop you from burying your fingers into your cunt and imagining it was me. from laying in bed only a room away from me and moaning my name while you tried to use a dildo on yourself wishing it was me,â he hummed, âand what was it that you wrote earlier? that you were picturing me bending you over with your dad in the next room, that you couldnât be with my mother in the kitchen because you were dripping down your thighs thinking about me,â
âoh fuck,â you moaned, hearing him depict your fantasies, the things you had said were driving you wild, something stirring within you, it set your veins alight with molten flames, spreading through your body and stirring your aching cunt, you could feel your arousal flooding your panties, sticky and wet, you didnât know what to do, what to think but you needed him, more than you had ever needed anything in your life.
âthatâs it, angel, i wanna hear every pretty sound you can make fall from your pretty lips,â anakin prompted, one hand falling to your hips and pulling you in so that your flush was pressed against him another moan falling from your lips when you felt his half hard cock press against your stomach. âwhat is it you want, tell me, what dirty secret are we sharing tonight?â he asked you.
âkiss me, just kiss me please,â you begged, and anakin obliged crashing his lips to yours, it was messy, all teeth and tongue and spit. immediately he was diving in, tongue prying through your lips and plunging into your mouth, he tasted of smoke, mint and sugar and instantly you were addicted. your hands rose to his shoulders, tugging him closer you wanted to feel every part of him. your hands tugged at his t-shirt wanting to taste his skin, to see him everywhere.
âso eager, baby,â he muttered against your lips before reaching behind him, tugging his t-shirt over his head revealing the planes of his chest and his toned stomach to your awaiting eyes, you had seen him shirtless many times before, but now you could touch him. âtake what you want,â he grinned and you did just that, fingers dipping into every crevice, you explored him as though one would a fine piece of art you wanted to memorise the feeling of his skin, the taste, you hardly thought twice before leaning down and kissing the middle of his chest, running your tongue along the unblemished skin, moaning at the taste of salt and skin. âgod,â the boy murmured, reaching down and grasping your hair, yanking your head back harshly, âtake my sweatpants off,â he commanded and you were not one to disobey, not now, not when you had him.
you wrapped your hands around the waist band and tugged, gasping when his dick sprung free, unrestrained by any boxers beneath, he was already hard, really hard, his cock flushed a deep red, the tip weeping milky precum and gods were you right, he was big, long and thick, far bigger than the dildo you had purchased. you salivated at the sight.
âcan iâŠâ you whispered, slowly trailing off, a wave of embarrassment washing over you.
âtell me what you want, angel, this is your dirty little dream, iâm just helping make it come true,â anakin said and you nodded, taking a deep breath.
âwanna taste you, ani, can i?â you asked him gently, batting your lashes at him and the boy hissed through his teeth, jaw clenching in a way that made your entire body sing.
âfuck me, go ahead, pretty girl, show me what that mouth is actually good for,â his words were disgusting, a sick way of calling your words worthless and it made you go fucking feral, you sank to your knees, eyeing his cock a little unsurely before carefully wrapping a hand around his thick length, anakin groaned, watching you, eyes alight with interest.
âlook at that you were right,â he told you, âyour hand canât even fit around it,â he said, and you shuddered, ingjerking your hand slightly, letting itit glide along the velvety skin of his cock, admiring it, and the sound he made was worth it, so much so that you leaned in, licking a stripe along the side of his cock, stopping once you reached the tip and suckling it gently. a.nakinâs hands fell to your hair gripping it, but not forcing you, he was letting you explore first, you bobbed you head, sinking deeper on his cock, the sensation was strange but not unpleasant. so you took him deeper, the salty taste of him drawing you in further, you pulled back, sucking in a deep breath before taking him deeper until it hit the back of your throat. you were hardly halfway down his cock, so you tried again this time more forcefully, choking when his cockhead rammed into the back of your throat.
âeasy, baby,â anakin cooed, pulling you off of his cock, you looked up at him with glossy eyes, spit spilling down your chin.
âyouâre so big,â you whined at him accusingly making the boy laugh, stroking your cheek with his thumb.
âpoor little slut, so desperate for cock but has no clue what sheâs doing,â he patronised, thumb trailing down and hooking in your mouth, parting your lips for him, you let your mouth fall open. âgotta take it slow, you arenât gonna take it all the first time, okay? probably not for a few times, gotta train that throat of yours to take cock, huh?â he asked and you nodded at him, unable to speak with his thumb in you mouth. âtry again, huh,â he prompted and you nodded eagerly, this time letting anakin guide your mouth to his awaiting cock, you followed his instructions going slower this time, starting at just the tip suckling it, savoring the taste of his salty cum in your mouth but eventually anakin began to push you further with a groan. you swallowed around him, trying to remember to breathe with the heavy weight on your tongue, your mouth felt stretched, lips stinging, and jaw aching but you couldnât stop. you needed this, needed him to cum, to know he was enjoying this as much as you were.
âgood girl, thatâs it,â anakin praised you and you preened, moaning around his cock and making the boy chuckle, âoh you like that, huh, pretty girl? wanna be my good girl?â you couldnât move, couldnât speak so instead you locked your eyes with his and this time it was anakinâs turn to moan. âyou look so fucking sexy like this, should have known you made for it,â you bobbed your head faster in agreement, it felt wrong to agree, to accept that you were just some sort of object that was made to take dick and love it, but you couldn't argue. not now when you had tasted his cock and you knew you would never be the same again, this was it for you, a springboard into a world that would drive you insane.
âyou keep going iâm gonna cum, you ready for that, angel?â he asked you, but you didnât respond, only forcing him deeper, spluttering slightly but you didnât pull back, instead taking a settling breath through your nose, spit was dripping down your chin, tears streaming but you couldnât stop, continuing to choke on his cock, only pulling away when you absolutely had too and it was barley for a few seconds before you were on him again. it was only about a minute before anakinâs hips began to twitch, his cock heavier in your mouth.
 âiâm gonna cum, fuck, baby pull back a little you donât wanna choke,â he prompted and you did as you were told. lips suctioned around his tip, using your hand to jerk off the rest of his cock and with that, he was cumming down your throat in thick hot spurts. it was disorientating and everything you had ever dreamed of. you swallowed as much as you could of the salty liquid, but some escaped the corners of your mouth, dripping down your chin and onto your plush carpet, you kept suckling until anakin pulled you away, his lips parted and cheeks flushed.
âthat wasâŠâ he trailed off voice hoarse, âyou did such a good job, angel,â he cooed, reaching out and helping you stand up, your knees ached and you felt a little shaky but you couldn't ignore the heat in your core and the sopping wetness between your legs.
âi liked it,â you said bashfully, voice scratchy.
âof course you did,â anakin mocked lightly but there was no malice behind his words, instead he reached down and grabbed his shirt using it to mop your cheeks and mouth, âcome on i wanna try something,â he said, grabbing you hand and leading you over to your bed, âlay down, pretty girl,â
âwhat are you doing?â you asked him softly and he grinned.
âjust lay down, okay, iâm gonna do the work for a bit,â he said, so you followed instruction and laid down on the bed, looking up at him with such innocent trust that it made his heart stutter slightly, âiâm gonna take your top off okay?â he said, climbing onto the bed with you and hovering over you, his legs stradling either side of your hips, he looked so big like this, tall and strong, body on show as he looked down at you.
âokay,â you agreed, letting anakin tug the crop top from your body leaving your chest bare to him.
âbeen waiting a while to see these again,â he murmured, finger pinching your nipple lightly, you gasped, jolting upwards at the sensation and anakin laughed, âsensitive girl,â he teased, pinching your other nipple, using his body to keep you pinned to the bed. âwhat was it you said in that dirty little book when i saw your tits for the first time?â he asked you, âhm, letâs have a look shall we?â he said grabbing the book from where it lay only a few inches away from you. your cheeks lit up in shame, shaking your head.
âani, no,â you pleaded with him but the boy shot you a harsh stare.
âwhat was that, baby?â he questioned, tone stern, âi thought you wanted this? want me to leave you to deal with this alone like you always do, seeing my cock should do you a good couple months, and you even got to taste it,â
âdonât leaveâ you begged, âiâm just embarrassed,â you whimper, this brought the smile back to anakinâs face.
âyou donât need to be embarrassed, pretty girl, without this little thing you would probably still be downstairs watching tv with your dad trying not to think about me, isnât that right?â he asked, leaning in to plant a soft kiss on your swollen lips.
âyes,â you said quietly, âjust donât be mean, i really⊠i needed you. i need you,â
âoh, baby, but you like it when iâm a little mean donât you?â he snickered, âbut back to what i was saying, where is it?â he asked flicking through the pages of the book before he found what he was looking for, âah, here it is. you wanted me to push you onto this bed and fuck you till you saw stars,â you whimper at this, âand look how proud you were that you caught me staring at your tits,â he grinned, âpretty things arenât they,â he leaned down, capturing your right nipple between his teeth, nibbling slightly before sucking it into his mouth. the sensation was too much, you gasped, trying to jerk against him but anakin was too strong, he bit down on your nipple, a warning before soothing it with his tongue, moving and doing the same to the other one until you were a panting mess.
âgood girl,â he praised, ânow this wasnât what i wanted to do actually, just had to get a taste,â he told you with a wink and you blinked at him stunned. âwhere do you keep your vibrator, angel?â anakin questioned you.
âum, my bedside draw,â you murmured and anakin nodded, leaning over and opening up and pulling out your pretty pink vibrator.
âcute,â he said, ânow, baby, i want to see you use this, okay? wanna know what you look like when you are playing with yourself and thinking about me,â he crooned.
âani, iâm⊠fuck okay,â you said reaching out and taking the vibrator from him, anakin climbed off of you and you immediately missed the weight of him atop of you but ignored it was you yanked your shorts and panties down, revealing your throbbing pussy to anakin, the boy groaning in apprecation.
âholy shit, youâre fucking soaked, angel,â he crooned, âlook at your clit, all puffy and red. all from sucking my cock?â anakin asked and you nodded, cheeks crimson. âyou are a dream, pretty girl,â your clit pulsed at his words and quickly you pressed your vibrator to it before switching it on. your body writhed at the contact, you had been desperate for this for what felt like hours, every inch of your being aching for relief as you trailed the toy down, soaking it in your wetness before bringing it back to your clit, moaning at the feeling.
âfuck, anakin, feels so goodâ you cried out, tilting your head to look at him and seeing him gazing at your pussy in awe.
âi bet it does, angel, you were so sore, so desperate for this,â he said, reaching out and trailing a finger along your dripping slit, your hips jerked, heart pounding, âgonna come that quick, fuck, do it, baby,â he prompted. you pressed the toy harder to your clit gasping and crying out, the sight of anakin before you, the months of waiting, wanting, it all built up and before you could even react the coil in your stomach snapped and you came with a sharp moan, the vibrator still pressed to your cunt as you twitched through the aftershocks of your orgasm. then you felt it, something wet and warm trailing through your fold, you looked down to see anakin now lying between your legs, his tongue buried in your cunt.
âaniâ you sobbed, switching the vibrator off and tossing it to the side, anakin taking this as his chance to wrap is lips around your clit and suck. you all but screamed, still strumming with pleasure and overwhelmed by the feeling of his mouth on you, it was hypnotic.
âdid i tell you to stop?â he asked pulling back and grabbing the vibrator and flicking it on, pressing to to your abused clit, you gasped, looking down at him with wide eyes, âyou are gonna hold this while i eat you out okay, you move it and iâll stop,â he commanded.
âbut, ani, itâs so sensitive,â you told him and anakin simply scoffed.
âyou can take it, sluts like you can come as many times as you need to, bet you are still aching for relief,â he said pressing it down harder and you screeched, âtake it,â and you did, grabbing the toy from his hand and holding it there as he burried his tongue back inside of you, licking into your sopping walls.
âoh my god, oh my god, anakin please,â you begged one hand slipping down to his hair, tugging on the dark strands with a sob. the vibrator on your clit was brutal, stirring up another orgasm in quick sucession to the last but anakin didnât stop, he continued to lick and suck while you trembled, slick pouring from your slit as you jerked violently, cumming twice before anakin finally let up.
âyou taste fucking divine, angel,â anakin said, his face glossy with your cum, you couldnât move, couldnât think as he switched the vibrator off and tossed it to the ground. âfuck me, iâve never seen such a pretty girl before,â he crooned, wiping his mouth on the back of his hand before crawling up your body and pressing a dirty kiss to your lips. he tasted of salt and your release and it made your body ache once more.
âani, ani, please,â you begged against his mouth, you werent sure exactly what you were begging for but you needed it, needed him.
âsh, angel, its okay,â he said gently, running his hands down your hips sothingly, âtell me what you needâ he prompted and you wailed, he looked stunned, âhey, come on talk to me, too much?â he questioned but you shook your head violently.
âneed to feel you,â you said through heaving breaths, clumsily reaching out and grasping his cock that pulsed in your hand, he spluttered out a moan, rocking his hips into you, head of his cock catching your clit with such delicious pleasure that you swore you almost saw stars. âinside,â you demanded, words failing you in that moment of utter want.
âneed to prep you first,â he said, gently removing your hands from his cock before sliding his fingers through your throbbing heat finding your slit with ease and slowly sinking one finger in.
âmore,â you begged almost instantly, hands clinging to his shoulders and anakin complied, sinking another finger inside of you, pumping into your wet heat as you babbled and cried.
ânever imagined i would have you like this, so desperate for me,â anakin panted, âwanna know a secret, iâve wanted this for so long, have pictured taking you so many times,â he whispered, âi came reading your diary, seeing how much you wanted me,â
âanakin,â you said, hands coming to his cheeks cupping them so that he would face you, you could see the raw desire that danced behind his pretty blue eyes, âiâm ready, please,â and he complied, slowly lining his cockhead with your swollen hole slowly inching in. the burn was intense, a tearing feeling consuming your cunt even as you leaked more slick onto his sodden cock. you gasped, more tears streaming down your cheeks as anakin slowly inched deeper.
âyou can do it, baby, doing so well for me,â he praised as he sunk deeper, inch by inch before burying himself at the hilt and staying there, âlook at that, angel, you did it,â
âoh, oh fuck,â it was nothing like your dildo that was all solid plastic and cold feel, instead it was warm and hard and sending your body into overdrive, it took a few moments to adjust to the feel of it, the intrusive weight uncomfortable but not unwelcomed, and it was all worth it to see anakins face. his eyes screwed up in pleasure, bottom lip pinched between his teeth as he tried to stay still for you. âmove, you can move, please,â
âyou sure, baby,â anakin gasped, voice tight.
âyes, please,â you agreed, he started slow at first, gentle shalow thrusts that allowed you to get used to the feeling of it, but soon he began to speed up, sinking deeper inside of you with each thrust until you could feel the tip pressing against your cervix, the pleasure was indescribable, you never knew it could feel like this, so all consuming. âyes, yes, harder,â you pleaded with him.
âyou sure,â he gasped out.
âyes, iâm okay,â you nodded, and anakin listened, suddenly there was nothing between you but the heat of your skin and the slick of your bodies, a mix of sweat, cum and spit. it was disgusting, a sick merging of your bodies, anakinâs face was burried in your neck, sucking crimson marks onto your sensitive skin while you clawed at his back, manicured nails cutting into his golden skin.
âshit, you feel fucking amazing,â anakin said against your skin, grinding deeper, âsuch a good little pussy for me, taking me so well,â he told you, âyou need to come on my cock again, wanna feel you cleanch around me, okay?â he said and you nodded frantically.
âplease, ani,â
âthatâs it, good girl,â he cooed, thumb coming between you to circle your clit, you could feel your orgasm building as he jerked into you, his thrusts getting sloppy and you knew he was close, could tatse it on your tongue, you needed it, needed him. âi own this pussy now,â he hissed, âgonna make every single one of your dirty fantasies come true and then we can try some of mine,â anakin told you, thumb speeding up and pleasure exploded behind your eyelids, everything went white and you were gone. when you came too anakin was hovering over you still cock in hand jerking himself off frantically.
âani,â you whispered, hand coming up shakily and grasping his cock jerking it lightly and anakin came in thick hot spurts all over your chest and face while you took it happily. he collapsed down beside you, pulling you in so your face was pressed against his chest, leg cocking over his hips. âwow,â was all you managed to say.
âbetter get ready baby, this was only the beginning,â anakin smirked, pressing a kiss to your sweaty forhead and you couldnât wait to see what else he had in store for you, and you thanked the stars that you had made that little diary.
ââââââââââââââââââââââââ
part 2???
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Forbidden - Part 2
In which you go to Max's hotel room to watch a movie. And only watch a movie. ;)
Warnings: alcohol use (but really only if you squint), steamy but not smutty, use of pet names.
Word Count: 2.6k Part One
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You knew you were playing with fire when you sent that text to Max. Judging by how Charlieâs head had nearly exploded when he (quite innocently) caught the two of you catching up on the couch a few weeks ago, you knew that he would lose his mind if he knew you were in Maxâs hotel room late at night. Even if it was with the purest of intentions. Because of course it was.Â
But, Charlie had left you alone in Austria on a Friday night without anything to do other than watch Austrian TV so really, this was all his fault. Alexandra was at home in Monaco, having some work to finish up at the new art gallery sheâs curating. Pierreâs girlfriend Kika, who was fast becoming your other best friend in the paddock, wasnât going to be here until tomorrow before qualifying, so you were left to your own devices.Â
Which is exactly why you found yourself standing outside Max Verstappenâs hotel room at 8 oâclock at night, arms overflowing with snacks and a bottle of wine, knowing that you had everything but watching a movie running through your mind.Â
The thing was, you had spent the entirety of today trading glances with Max from his garage three doors down from Charlieâs. It seemed like every time you looked towards the Red Bull garages, Max was already looking at you. He even managed to manufacture a lunch invite from Charlie and Carlos while you were standing right there, so the four of you had gotten lunch in Ferarriâs motorhome today. You were quite pleased that Charlie spent the entire time looking like he had swallowed a lemon every time you and Max even looked at each other. Even Carlos had noticed, asking your brother several times if he was okay. Every time, your brotherâs response was a strained âyesâ. Â
But you werenât teasing Max just to make your brother mad. You knew that. You were genuinely interested in the driver. Ever since the afternoon you two spent catching up in Charlieâs apartment in Monaco, the two of you had been trading random text messages and had even run into each other while out. What started off as an innocent crush had spiraled into something more, even if neither of you had voiced it quite yet. You knew Max was quite shy when it came to his feelings, side effects from growing up as Jos Verstappenâs son you supposed. Youâd always been able tell what he was thinking though, ever since you were kids. Â
Which landed you here. Tonight you had been bored and feeling a little attention starved, so you had been thrilled when Max invited you up to his suite for a movie night. It was something you had done frequently with friends at the track when you were younger, those movie nights being some of your favorite memories from growing up.Â
It took Max a few moments to answer the door when you knocked that evening. He had to psych himself up for it, finding himself suddenly nervous about having you over. It felt like every time he looked towards the Ferrari garage today, he had instantly found you. And more times than not, you caught him staring. Gone was his usual cool facade that he kept so securely in place when it came to you and heâd be lying if he said it didnât unnerve him.Â
âI brought snacks!â You proclaim the moment Max opens the door and he canât help but feel all the anxiety heâd been feeling moments before evaporate into thin air with a single look at your pretty face, hair tied up in a messy top knot, oversized Ferrari sweatshirt hanging so low just the bottoms of your sleep shorts poked out. It took every bit of control Max possessed not to bit down on his knuckles and groan then and there.Â
Max chuckles and you try to ignore the shimmer of pleasure that danced down your spine at the sound. It doesnât work though. Probably because making him laugh was one of your favorite activities lately and it had all started that afternoon he showed up at Charlieâs door.Â
Your brother was going to be so mad.Â
âDid you think you were feeding the entire grid, beestje?âÂ
You shove the bottle of wine at him while rolling your eyes. âHopefully you have a bottle opener, Maxie or else weâre going to have to go on an adventure.âÂ
âThat sounds like a terrible idea. You out in public without your brother to control you?âÂ
Max expertly dodges the pillow you lob at his head before taking the bottle of wine to the little kitchenette in his suite. âIâll have you know I am a whole grown ass adult that has lived on my own in a big city for the last six years, thank you very much.â You snip.Â
Spreading the snacks out on the bed, you do your best to ignore the fact that Max is looking so very attractive in a pair of grey joggers and black t-shirt. Seriously, what was it about a pair of slutty grey sweatpants and tight tshirts that got you all worked up?Â
âIâm surprised you donât have a sim rig set up somewhere in this giant room.â You tease, settling down on the large king sized bed that takes up most of one side of his suite.Â
Max looks at you, a bit puzzled before saying, âThat race isnât until tomorrow night after quali, I just havenât set it up yet.âÂ
The laugh that leaves your lips sets Maxâs skin tingling with pleasure and he tries to remind himself that Charles would quite literally kill him if anything happened between the two of you. But with each passing moment, watching you settle back into his pillows on his bed, heâs finding it harder and harder to really care what Charles thinks. Youâre a grown woman, after all. Maxâs eyes drag over your body, admiring the miles of legs on display for him. Yep. You certainly were very grown up, thatâs for sure. Â
âJust donât stay up all night. I donât want Buxton to have an excuse to call you out in post-race interviews again.â You smirk.Â
âThat was one time and it hasnât happened since.â He argues, shooting you a glare that has you giggling under your breath.
You hum in response but donât respond, needing to focus your attention elsewhere now that Max is searching for the bottle opener and the concentration on his face is making you squeeze your legs together just a bit.Â
Max does, in fact, locate a bottle opener and before you know it youâre both settled on his bed, side by side, wine glasses in hand, bag of chips open between you. You try your hardest to ignore the head radiating off of Max and Max tries his hardest to ignore the fact that youâre wearing the tiniest shorts heâs ever seen. Neither of you do a very good job of it.Â
âIâm surprised youâre not out with Lando and the rest of the boys tonight. Getting a little tired in your old age?â You tease (always with the teasing, you two) as Max scrolls through Netflix, trying to find something you can both agree on to watch.Â
âI went out with him and Carlos last week.âÂ
You pop a chip in your mouth before responding. âAnd from what I saw on Instagram, youâre probably still recovering from it.âÂ
You remember the night he was talking about. The jealousy that washed over you when you saw his private Instagram stories from that night, girls falling over him in a dimly lit Jimmy Zâs, him and Lando on stage with the DJ clearly wasted on his favorite G&Tâs, was a feeling you were entirely unfamiliar with. You never got jealous, not over someone you were dating and certainly not over someone like Max Verstappen. Absolutely not.Â
âAre you keeping tabs on me, beestje?â Max bumps your shoulder with his as he hits play on the OG Jurassic Park movie.Â
You canât help the pout that materializes on your face. âStop calling me that.â You whine, unashamed at how bratty you sound in the moment. Frankly, you were tired of being treated as the little sister of the group, never being taken seriously and always being teased. âIf youâre going to be mean to me, Iâm going to leave.âÂ
You lean forward to go, not really intending on leaving but wanting to teach Max a lesson. A strong hand wraps around your wrist before you make it off the bed though and he pulls you back so quickly you nearly end up in his lap. âDonât leave, schatje.âÂ
Schatje? Oh. Oh.Â
Your heart hammers in your chest as you realize Max hasnât let go of your wrist. Quite the opposite, actually. Heâs pulled your wrist closer to him so your hand is resting on his thigh and heâs looking at you like youâve hung the moon. Heâs only ever called you beestje before. His little beast. You never really hated it if you were being quite honest, thought it was quite cute actually. A name that Max reserved only for you. But heâs never called you schatje and heâs absolutely never called you schatje in that tone of voice before, all husky and raspy like just saying the word does something to him.Â
All at once, thereâs a fire in his eyes that youâve never seen before. Something akin to a lion stalking his prey. He knows what he wants and itâs like something finally clicked for him. You sitting there, pouting away at the nickname heâs always only reserved for you, plump bottom lip popping out, just asking to be bitten. He follows your gaze to where youâre staring at your hand in his, giving your wrist a little squeeze to get your attention back up to his face. âDonât pretend you came up here just to watch Jurassic Park with me tonight.â He murmurs, leaning in incrementally more. Heâs so close now you can feel his heated breath fan out over your cheeks.Â
âMax.â You whisper, thoughts moving a mile a minute and sluggishly slow all at once. Youâd been wanting this exact thing for weeks now, his hands on yours, hadnât you? So why were you suddenly so unsure of what the fuck you were doing.Â
When he tugs you into his lap, bag of chips crunching under your knees, you feel a flush creep up your neck. Knees straddling his thighs, youâre suddenly in a very compromising position and feeling something veryâŠthick pressing into your center. A single roll of your hips is enough to have Max tipping his head back on a groan.Â
âWe shouldnât Max.â Where in the hell did that protest come from? Your body practically screams, desperately needing your mind to shut the fuck up just this once. Â
âI will happily stop if you want me to, schatje but your hips are telling me a very different story right now.â Max stares up at you and almost shudders at the look on your face. Itâs a look heâs never seen on you before, all unabashed want and need and heat and fuck if it does something to him seeing that lusty gaze aimed his way.Â
The two of you stay like this for several moments, the movie long forgotten, Maxâs hands resting on your hips, fingertips digging into your flesh. Itâs almost like youâre both daring the other one to make the first move. You both know you want it, the tension thick in the air. Energy crackles between you as Max drops his gaze from your eyes down to your lips and then back up again. You find yourself slipping deeper into those icy blue eyes of his, unable to tear your eyes away from how heâs looking at you. Like heâs seeing you all at once for the very first time. The sheer awestruck look on his face has you catching your bottom lip between your teeth, a smile begging to be released.Â
âI want to kiss you.â Max breathes, voice barely audible but in the silent room, you donât miss the whispered confession.Â
âWhatâs stopping you?â You probably should be embarrassed at how breathy your voice is, how needy your hips are as they roll into his again.Â
And then, itâs happening. Heâs leaning in, eyes never leaving yours as your breath catches in your throat, dizzy with anticipation. Youâve kissed people before, of course you had, but never in your entire life has the moment before a kiss been this torturously pleasurable before.Â
And if the anticipation of the kiss is enough to have you groaning with pleasure, the moment his lips connect with yours is astronomically better. A spark ignites when he presses a kiss to your mouth, one hand snaking up your body to frame your face as you tip your head down to allow a deeper kiss. The sound that you make when he licks into you the first time is obscene, a throaty purr rumbling out from you.Â
Max canât help but smile against you when he feels you try to press your legs together, the fact that youâre straddling him completely lost on your distracted thoughts. The way you tasted was something straight out of a romance novel and he instantly found himself addicted. He could win every fucking Grand Prix for the rest of his career and it still wouldnât compare to the first time he got his lips on you. His other hand skates up your slender back, finding heated bare skin under your Ferrari sweatshirt.Â
âWeâre going to need to get you something Red Bull, I canât have you in my bed wearing Ferrari colors.â Max grumbles, mouth barely leaving yours.Â
You giggle, âIn your bed, huh? Someoneâs cocky.â You lift an eyebrow at him, liking the frown that tips down at the edges of his mouth when you pull away.Â
âConfident, schatje. Iâm confident.âÂ
Your lips find his again and they continue the exploration Max started, your tongue slipping between his lips, teeth first nipping at his lush bottom lip before sucking it back into your mouth. The soothing sensation on his swollen lips has Maxâs hips tipping up towards yours, seeking more friction than your grinding hips are already causing.Â
When you reach for the hem of your sweatshirt, intending to take it off so you can get your skin closer to his, Max lifts a hand to stop you. The confusion that clouds your face has him shaking his head, âWe should stop before we get carried away.â
âWhat? Why?â You pout.Â
Max brushes a calloused thumb over your swollen bottom lip before looking at up at you. There that look was again. Only this time it was like youâd hung both the moon and the stars and were trying to give him both. âBecause if weâre going to do this, weâre going to do it right.âÂ
You blink down at him, somewhat surprised and very caught of guard. âAnd what exactly is this?â Youâre almost too afraid to hear his response, not sure if itâs the one you need to hear.Â
âI donât know but I know that itâs not a one night thing. It never could be with you.âÂ
You melt into his arms, your head finding its home in the crook of his neck. Dragging in a steadying breath, you allow the clean, sharp scent of Maxâs shirt bring you back down to earth. He was right. You knew that. It would be a monumentally bad idea to sleep together so quickly.
âOh Maxie.â You sigh, wondering what the hell youâve both started here tonight.Â
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The Doctor's In - Part 4
Summary: Wanda and R have their first date ;)
Wanda: Sorry I missed you before you left for work. Wanna come over for dinner with us?
Y/N: Would love to :)
âYouâre awfully cheerful for someone who just got dumpedâ Darcy says as you smile at your phone.
âWho got what?â
âCarol and MariaâŠâ
âNo one dump me, there was no relationship to endâ you say, locking your phone. You have noticed that Carol has been avoiding you, which is pretty idiotic, considering a lot of the trauma cases that come your way are ortho related.
That would also explain why Kamala rambled so much every time you requested a consult, so you made a note to speak to Carol about it.
âSoâŠâ Darcy ponders, and you wish sheâd just drop it. She snaps her fingers. âThe hot mom!â
âHer name is Wanda, and we are just talkingâ you refuse to look at her, knowing she can smell the bullshit from miles away.
âSomething tells me talking wasnât the only thing you did with your mouthsâ she insists, pulling on your sleeve.
âFine! We kissed and it was awesome! Happy, you little pestering gnome?â
âYes, lesbian whore. Congrats on securing a ticket to MILF paradiseâ
âFuck youâ
âDoctor Y/L/Nâ Kamala enters the room as you give Darcy the middle finger. âI can come back! Sorry!â
âLook what youâve doneâ you mumble as Darcy cackles. The joy doesnât last long, as you steal her chips. Sheâs too distracted making fun of you to notice.
âHey, not fairâ
You close the door and go after the resident.
âHey, Kamalaâ
âOh, hi. Doctor Danvers asked me to show you some X-Raysâ
âTell Doctor Danvers to show me herself. Or better yet, I will go directly to her. Where can I find her, Doctor Kahn?â
âUh⊠IâŠâ
âNever mind, Iâll ask Mariaâ you turn to leave and Kamala screeches in horror.
âOR 2. Sheâs in OR 2. Please donât do it, my Baba will never forgive me if I get kicked out of the programâ the young doctor clings to your arm.
âKamala. Get it together. Itâs gonna be fine. If Carol gets mad, you can be in my service for a weekâ you promise and she barely stops hyperventilating.
By the time you reach the OR, Carol is done with her surgery. She stops in her tracks when your eyes meet.
âDoctor Danvers, a word?â you ask, trying to sound professional.
âOf courseâ she nods. Leading you to an empty scrub room, Carol opens the door for you, fidgeting. âWhatâs up?â
âStop making everything so awkward. Iâm not mad at you. Kamala is about to have a stress induced stroke from all the consults you send her to avoid meâ
âYouâre really not mad?â Carol says.
âNo! I never expected anything else from you. We didnât talk about it but I always knew what your true feelings wereâ
âIâm sorryâ
âDonât be, honestly. Just, stop acting like you left me at the altar or some weird shit. Weâre colleagues and friendsâ
âThat makes me happy. I didnât want to stop talking to youâ she relaxes. âThough I have to be honest, I told Maria what happened between usâ
âIs she mad?â
âOnly a bit and just to me. Iâll manage to turn it aroundâ the blonde smiles, a dreamy look on her eyes.
âIf it helps, tell her I have a date on Thursdayâ you say, leaving the room, Carol right behind you.
âOh, let me guess. The hot mom?â she jokes.
âHer name is Wanda!â you repeat.
âWell, let me know how the date goes?â Carol pats your shoulder, and you nod.
âWill do. Now page your resident and tell her weâre all set before she gets admitted to the Psych wardâ
â
The footsteps approaching on the other side make your heart jump. You wonder if the flowers are too much, but when Wanda sees them, her face lights up and you know it was the right thing to do.
âCome on inâ Wanda says, taking the flowers and then standing on her toes to kiss your cheek. âThe boys are in the living roomâ
âWant some help with the food?â
âNo, Iâm almost done. It will be more helpful if you entertain the twins for a littleâ she says, pulling the flowers close to her chest.
âAlright, thenâ youâre about to kiss her when the boys walk in. Theyâre so excited to see you that they donât notice how close you are to their mother.
âY/Nâ Billy says, running towards you.
âHey, kiddosâ you pick them up, carrying them over your shoulder and they giggle. âCome on, thereâs a new game I wanna show youâ
You take your time to set everything up, explaining a bit about the game. They giggle as Crash jumps and turns in the sand of the first level, and you finish it all, including the tricky jump at the end.
âWho wants to go next?â
âMeâ Tommy says, sitting next to you. They are both focused on the game, so you take advantage of the distraction to go see Wanda.
Sliding into the kitchen, you grab her by the waist.
âYou scared meâ she laughs, allowing you to press against her back, kissing her temple. âWhatâs going on?â
âI have approximately fifty seconds before they ask for my help so Iâm making sure they countâ you turn her around and lean forward, capturing her lips and sighing against her mouth. âYou look very prettyâ
âThank youâ
âYou smell really niceâ you add, kissing her again, making Wanda laugh. âAnd I really, really, like kissing youâ
Wanda smiles at that, her hand caressing your cheek.
âY/N!â the boys chant in unison.
âLike clockworkâ you mutter, kissing Wandaâs forehead as you go back to the living room.
You spend a few more minutes playing with the kids, until Wanda calls everyone for dinner.
âHowâs the arm, kiddo?â you say, sitting next to Billy with Tommy and Wanda in front of you. As you take a bite of the chicken, you notice a funny flavor. âIs this broccâŠâ
Wanda widens her eyes and kicks you under the table.
âOuchâ
âYou ok?â Tommy asks, none the wiser.
âYeah, I just bit my tongueâ you lie, Wanda taking a sip of her water to hide her laugh.
âKids, eatâ she encourages them, and you get the hint. The flavor of the broccoli is hidden with the cheese, so you smile and continue to eat, enjoying every single bite.
âIâm on cleaning dutyâ you say as soon as everyone finishes, taking the dishes and cleaning the table.
Billy and Tommy run to the living room to continue playing, and as you get ready to wash the dishes, Wanda leans forward and kisses your cheek.
âItâs nice to have you hereâ
âYou have an odd way of showing it, Miss Maximoffâ you joke, leaning against her touch.
âIn my defense, itâs the only way to get them to eat their greensâ she jokes and you lean forward, your lips inches away from hers. In that precise moment, the boys call for her.
âBehaveâ she warns the children, pulling away to see what the fuss is about.
âHave you thought about boarding schools?â you joke and she pinches your side. âAh, kidding! I would miss them too muchâ
You load the dishwasher, clean the pots and put the rest of the food on some containers. By the time youâre done, the kids are getting ready to go to bed.
âCan you come over again tomorrow?â
âIf your mom wants me to, sure. I can bring the food this time so she takes a break from cookingâ you offer, smiling at Wanda.
âWeâll see about that, Y/N works hard enough as it is. Say goodbye to her, boysâ
Tommy and Billy wave at you, already dragging their feet. You stay on the living room, and a few minutes later Wanda comes down.
âHiâ she plops down next to you and you smile.
âAll good?â
âA bit tired, thatâs all. Just ignore me, youâre the one that works all those crazy hoursâ
âNah, itâs fine. Iâm used to it by nowâ you shrug your shoulders.
âWould you like some wine?â
âSure, I donât have work tomorrowâ
âHow come?â Wanda asks when she returns, handing you a glass of red wine and sitting closer to you on the couch.
âWell, I have a really hot date coming up and I need to plan every detailâ
âShe sounds like a lucky girlâ Wanda blushes, biting her lip.
âOh, Iâm the lucky oneâ you say, placing both of your glasses on the coffee table. âSheâs smart, funny, has legs for days, cooks amazing foodâŠâ
âStopâ she laughs, and you shake your head no. Wanda is still laughing when you connect your lips with hers, a sigh leaving her mouth when you lift her and place her on your lap, her legs straddling you.
âIs this ok?â
âYeahâ she nods, leaning her forehead against yours. âMore than ok. As a matter of fact, I remember reading that kissing is good for your healthâ
âItâs so goodâ you say, your lips traveling to her jaw, behind her ear, down her neck. âIâd say do it as often as possibleâ
âDoctorâs orders?â Wanda jokes, her voice faltering as you come back to her mouth, your tongue swiping across her bottom lip.
âDoctorâs ordersâ
â
The plan is coming along. You have the tickets for the exhibit and the next thing on the list should be the dinner reservation. Your pager beeps the minute you call the restaurant.Â
911.
âShitâÂ
You sprint to the car, knowing no one would call you outside of work if it wasnât serious.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â you walk to the ER, looking around.
âWhat on Earth is this?â Tony Stark, neurosurgeon and professional asshole gets in your face the minute you get there.
âI donât know, Iâve been off work since yesterday, Starkâ you take the chart, reading all the information until you get to the signature. The writing got progressively worse, until it was just senseless lines.
âThis person was clearly having a stroke, and the staff didnât notice. I have to scrub in and see if I can save his lifeâ
âAnd youâre wasting time arguing with meâ you roll your eyes, pushing the chart to his chest and walking to the OR.
âWhere do you think youâre going?â
âTo scrub in. If you want to blame me, thatâs fine. Iâm staying by this patientâs side until he pulls throughâ
âIf he pulls throughâ Stark says angrily and you ignore him.Â
Before scrubbing in, you check your phone.
Wanda: Is everything ok? I saw you leaving in a hurry.Â
âBy all means, take your timeâ Stark says, glaring as he walks by you.
You spend the entire surgery in his OR, standing still and doing everything he asks. Heâs a rude, pretentious cunt, but if anyone can work a miracle, itâs him, so you suck it up and take every snide comment with a blank stare.
After hours working, Tony sighs, nodding at his work.Â
âClose him, Parker,â he asks his resident. You stand watching the young manâs work, until the surgeon asks you to come with him.
âIâm sorryâ he blurts out the minute you step out. âThis wasnât your patient, nor your responsibility. And I made it seem like it wasâ
âItâs still not right. If I had been here, I would have noticedâ
âI know. Your work is impeccableâ he acknowledges and you nod. Even if heâs an ass, this is the hospital his father built, and heâs a genius with years ahead of you in experience.
âWill he be alright?â
âThereâs a good chance heâll pull through. Letâs be cautiously optimistic. Iâll let Parker explain everything to the family. Sorry for interrupting your days offâ
âNot a problemâÂ
âItâs the first time youâve taken PTO in 3 years. Furyâs gonna have my head for making you comeâ Tony says, laughing.
The patient is moved to the ICU, but youâre still not comfortable leaving, so you go back to the on-call room, sitting in a bed to gather your thoughts. Yelling in the hallway makes you stand up, watching as Parker tries to speak to a man and his wife.Â
âYou discharged him, said he was fineâ the man yells, pointing at Peterâs face.Â
âSir, I can assure you, weâre doing our best to make sure your sonâŠâ
âWe wanna see him nowâ the man takes Peter by his coat, almost lifting him off the ground. The young man stutters, not knowing how to deescalate the situation.
âHey, thatâs enoughâ you step in, not realizing the man is about to throw a punch until you make him drop Peter, his elbow connecting with your cheek.
âCrap, Doctor Y/L/N, are you ok?â Peter says, rushing to your side.
âYeah, fineâ
Fucking fantastic.Â
âSir, Iâm going to ask you to wait in the foyer, or Iâll call securityâ Carol steps in, glaring at the man. She waits until heâs gone, muttering an apology your way. âYou ok?â
âMhm, greatâ
âI thought you had a few days offâ
âYeah, me tooâ
âCome on, letâs have a look at that punchâ Carol says, dragging you to one of the exam rooms. You sigh, trying to keep your eye closed. âNo stitches neededâ
âGreatâ you mumble, pulling out your phone. Thereâs like five messages from Wanda but before you can answer, she calls you.
âHeyâ
âHey, are you ok? You had me worriedâ
âYeah, there was a thing at the hospital and I⊠ouch! Carol, a little warning?â you hiss as the blonde pours some disinfectant on the bruised skin.
âOh, I didnât know you were busyâ Wanda says, her demeanor changing. âIâm sorry, Iâll leave you aloneâ
âWait, Wanda!â you say but itâs too late, the call cut off. âGod, could this day get any worse? I have to goâ
âWant me to drive you there?â Carol says with a smile and you roll your eyes.
âYeah. That will make Wanda so happyâ
âWhippedâ Carol jokes and you try to glare, but it hurts your eye.
Wanda barely put the kids to bed, when she hears a knock on the door. Sheâs prepared to give you an attitude but then sees your swollen cheek.
âOh, my God, what happened to you, are you ok?â the brunette says, immediately forgetting sheâs mad at you.
âItâs a long story. But that doesnât matter. Listen, I know how it seems, I tell you Iâm busy and when you call me Iâm with Carolâ
âI know you work together. Itâs fineâ Wanda lies.
âNo, itâs not, come onâ
âOk, just come in and explain everything while I get you some ice, ok?â
âThanksâ you mutter, sitting at the kitchen counter. You fidget with your hands, not looking up until Wanda comes closer, her eyes soft as she moves the hair out of your face.
âColdâ she warns, placing a compress against your skin. You sigh with relief, holding her hand close.
âIâm sorry. I was called in to fix something I didnât breakâ
âDonât apologize for doing your job, Y/Nâ she says in a soft voice. âIs everyone ok? Is that how you got hurt?â
âEveryoneâs ok. The parents were just pissed and I tried to break the fightâ
âDoes it hurt?â Wanda pulls the compress and examines the skin. Itâs a little bruised, but not too swollen.
âIt will laterâ you sigh.
âAnything I can do to help?â
âYou can kiss it betterâ
âIs that what Carol was doing earlier?â Wanda tilts her head, a dangerous look in her eyes that sends shivers down your spine.
âOh, come on! Not fair!â
âIâm kiddingâ she says, finally kissing you softly. You close your eyes, relaxing for the first time in 12 hours. âIâm sorry for giving you a hard time, you were saving livesâ
âWhat you feel is valid. Donât apologize for it, ok? Iâll always listen to you, I promiseâ you kiss her hand, smiling when she blushes. âWeâre still up for our date, right?â
âWe can reschedule, you must be exhaustedâ
âNot a chanceâ you say, pulling her closer again. âIâve been waiting too long for thisâ
âWell, alright. If you insistâ she pecks your lips and you nod.
âI doâ
âI have an⊠odd requestâ she says, avoiding your eyes.
âI wonât kink shame you, I promiseâ
âCan you be serious for just a second?â Wanda laughs, taking your hand. You make a motion to keep quiet, and let her speak. âCan you⊠pick me up around the block?â
âI can. But why am I doing it?â
âFirst of all, if the kids see you, theyâll want to tag along. And also⊠Iâm not trying to be pessimistic here, I just want to protect them. Itâs been the three of us since they were born and Iâve never even dated anyone, let alone someone they knowâ she takes a deep breath, hoping you wonât get upset.
âBilly and Tommy come first, alwaysâ you nod. âI agree to the new rule, or I can wear glasses and a fake mustacheâ
âNopeâ she shakes her head, covering your mouth with her hand.
âA bald cap thenâ you mumble against her palm.
She figures the only way to make it stop is by kissing you and she leans forward, her lips against yours. You smile dreamily as she pulls apart.
âNow. Would you like some dinner?â Wanda offers, and you almost drop to your knees.
âGod, youâre so fucking perfect, Wanda Maximoffâ
The way she blushes and giggles makes up for all the shitty things that happened in the past hours.
â
âThereâs food and snacks, a list of phone numbers on the fridge in case of an emergencyâ
âYes, Mrs. Maximoff,â Morgan says, following the woman around the house. Itâs her first time babysitting the twins, but Wanda has known the girl since she started giving her private art lessons and trusts her.
âBoys, Iâm leavingâ Wanda calls, the kids standing up from the table to hug their mom goodbye. âBe good to Morgan, ok?â
âWhere are you going?â Tommy asks.
âA work thingâ she lies, feeling terrible about hiding the truth from the twins. But still, she knows itâs for the best to keep this private.
She waves goodbye one last time and walks past the house, noticing your car is no longer in the driveway. Her heart beats fast at the expectation of an evening together.
âHey, gorgeousâ you greet, leaning against the passenger door. âYou look absolutely stunningâ
You admire how amazing she looks in a pair of jeans, a white tee and a long sleeve sweater.
âSo do youâ she kisses you, smiling as you open the door to the car.
âThanks, the purple eye gives my look a nice touchâ you say as you begin the drive.
âAre you gonna tell me where we are going?â
âYouâll find out soon enoughâ you say, hoping she likes the surprise. âFirst stopâ you announce, opening the car door for Wanda and looking at the building in front of you.Â
âArtechouse. Oh, Iâve heard about thisâ Wanda nods, intrigued.
âI did too, but never made the time to go. Come onâ you lead her to the entrance, showing your tickets. âThereâs a small bar if you wanna have a drink before we go inâÂ
âLetâs go in nowâ she says, looking everywhere.Â
You think itâs a good sign that sheâs so interested in the exhibit, so you lead her to the start, both of you gasping as you enter a room that is projecting videos of flowers from floor to ceiling. Wandaâs hand searches yours in the dark, and you smile shyly as she holds it, walking around the room.
The intimacy of the place allows you to come closer, sharing everything you see in a low voice and enjoying the show.Â
âCheck this outâ you say, lifting your arm, the animation following your movements. Wanda lets out a laugh, doing the same.
Each room enchants Wanda even more, the next installation featuring plants that react to the touch with light and sound. Your favorite by far is the tree that reacts differently if youâre holding hands or hugging. As you walk up to it, Wanda is still holding your hand and you both look at the screen. Well, sheâs looking at the projection and youâre looking at her, thinking how beautiful she is.Â
Taking a step forward, your arms go around her waist and you smile, admiring how the images change.
âItâs beautifulâ Wanda whispers, turning to you. âYouâre not lookingâÂ
âI have the best view right in front of meâ you smile, happy when she kisses you softly.
Wanda takes her time examining everything and once sheâs done, you walk to the exit.Â
âThat was amazing. I forgot how much I enjoy these things. Thank you, Y/Nâ
âGlad you liked itâÂ
âBest first date Iâve had,â she smiles.
âOh, this is only the first part. You donât really think Iâd forget about the food, right?âÂ
âWhere are we going?â
âWell, thereâs a very fancy option but I donât feel like going with this thing on my faceâ you point at the bruise, annoyed. âIf youâre feeling adventurous we could try something different?âÂ
âYou look perfectly fine, darlingâ she kisses your cheek. âBut Iâm up for an adventure, so lead the wayâÂ
âAwesomeâ you hold her hand, walking down the street and away from the museum. This is your favorite part of town, close to the pier and the little shops that are open until late.Â
You walk down the promenade, showing Wanda some of the places you love. Thereâs a small gallery, a cafe, and other shops.Â
âWeâre hereâ you announce, pointing excitedly at the kebab shop. âThis is fine, right? We can still go to the fancy place if you likeâ
âSorry this place isnât fancy enough for you, Majestyâ the owner pops out of nowhere, scaring you.
âSamir! Thatâs not what I meant. You know I love your foodâ
âMhmâ he glares, but then smiles at Wanda. âWhat can I get for you, angel?â
âWell, whatâs good here?â Wanda wonders, not as familiar with the dishes. âMaybe a shawarmaâÂ
âHow about a kebab box, fries to share and a donerâ you suggest, âAnd her shawarma, of courseâÂ
âThatâs a lot of foodâ she protests and you shrug your shoulders.
âIâm always eating leftovers before I leave for work so itâs fine, babeâÂ
âOh, wellâ she wants to scold you about your eating habits, but the pet name makes her dizzy.Â
You pay and lead them to a small table outside, unaware of Wandaâs flustered state. You hand over a soda and open your can, taking a sip.
âWe can go to other art shows whenever you want, you know? Even if I donât understand anything, I do enjoy watching youâ you smile, laughing as Wandaâs cheeks go red at the comment.
âI did enjoy it, thank you. You come here often?â
âI do, I love the food here. Samir noticed I came late because of my shifts and he always saved me some food. Nice fellaâ you turn to make sure heâs not listening. âBut I promise Iâll take you to dinner to that other place when I donât look like a raccoonâ
âYou donât have toâÂ
âI kinda want to see you in a dress, all fancy like that time you left for another dateâ you smile at the memory of how beautiful she looked.
Wandaâs heart bursts with the way you look at her, complete adoration in your eyes. Sheâs almost left speechless, but her phone saves her.Â
âItâs my brotherâ she apologizes, taking the call. âHi, Pietro. No, Iâm not with them. Because, Iâm out. Of course with a babysitter, stupidâ she rolls her eyes, and then switches to a language that you donât understand, but sounds like Russian. You look at her in awe, until Samir calls for you to get the food. By the time youâre back at the table, Wanda already hung up.
âSorry about thatâÂ
âNo, donât worry. I guess I never asked, but are you Russian?â
âSokovianâ she corrects. âWe moved to the States when Pietro and I were tenâÂ
âWow. I never⊠you donât even have an accentâÂ
âIt slips up from time to time, especially if Iâm angry or⊠flusteredâ Wanda says, and you almost choke on the food, thinking of all the ways you could make it come out.Â
âOh, wellâ you clear your throat. âIs your brother ok?â
âYeah, he wanted to ask the boys something about video games that I donât understand. Iâm sure you wouldâÂ
âI donât know, my knowledge is limited to things that existed when I was a kid. Howâs the food?â
âAmazing. Wowâ Wanda says, pleased with the flavor of the meat and how it compliments the rice and dips.
âSee? Weâre good enough for a first dateâ Samir shouts from the kitchen.
âStop listening to our conversationâ you shout back and he grumbles. Wanda smiles, thinking of something sheâs wanted to ask for a while now.
âDo you ever visit your family?âÂ
âNo, not reallyâ you shake your head. âI pretty much left for college and never returned. Except this one Christmas, where I was feeling kind of lonely and tired. I just wanted to be home, but everything was so different, my half siblings were just too much to handle for anyone⊠and I didnât even know what to do, no one bought me a present because I was never around and they just thought Iâd be gone like last yearâ
âIâm sorry, I shouldnât have askedâŠâ
âItâs fineâ you shrug your shoulders. âI know itâs weird, but I like my life, you know? My colleagues are great, Iâm doing what I love⊠and if I hadnât moved here, I wouldnât have met youâ
âYeah, thatâs true. Itâs their lossâ Wanda smiles, kissing you. You smile against her lips. âYou can always spend the holidays with us, you know? I mean, itâs too soon to talk about it, Iâm just sayingâ
âThat would be niceâ you interrupt her rambling. âNow, I have something very important to ask. Out of all the neighbors, which one is the most annoying and why?â
âWell, Iâd say itâs⊠Agathaâ
âHarkness! Yes! I knew you disliked her tooâÂ
Wanda laughs and you keep the conversation going. By the time youâre done, you pay and leave a big tip for Samir, who gives you a hug as you leave the store.
âIâm so fullâ Wanda says, patting her stomach.Â
âI know. Oh, you want ice cream?â you say, remembering the gelato store that is a few shops ahead.Â
âYou just said you were full!â
âItâs ice cream, come onâ you take her hand, and pay for two cones. Wanda orders strawberry while you opt for chocolate.
âHow is it?â you ask as you walk down the pier, enjoying the view.Â
âAmazing, have someâ she offers the cone, but you kiss her instead. âThatâs not what I meantâ Wanda laughs against your lips.
âWell, it tastes amazing to meâ you say, leaning forward and chasing after her soft lips, the flavor lingering as you deepen the kiss. Wanda sighs against your mouth, pulling you closer until your hand goes down her waist. âBest ice cream Iâve ever hadâÂ
âYeahâ Wanda nods, her eyes closed. You peck her lips one last time, and continue your walk, still talking about everything you can think of, enjoying each otherâs company.
When she checks the time more than once you get the hint, ready to go home.
âIâm sorry, Iâm just being annoying, we can stay longerâÂ
âItâs ok, I know you like to be home early. Come on, we can drink wine or Iâll let you go to bedâ
You rest your hand on Wandaâs leg for the entire ride home, unaware that your touch is making the woman restless. When youâre close to your house, you stop exactly where you picked Wanda up.
âI can just park at home, right? The boys are probably asleepâ
âYeahâ Wanda nods, flustered. Youâre about to ask whatâs wrong when she moves forward, pulling you down for a rough kiss that takes your breath away. Itâs a bit messy and desperate, and you ignore the strain of your seatbelt as Wanda pulls you closer to her, sighing against your mouth.
âYou canât park here!â an annoying person knocks on your window and you both break apart. âOh, my! Wanda? Doctor Y/L/N?â
Damn it, itâs Agatha Harkness. Your nosy, annoying neighbor. Rolling down the window and smoothing your clothes, you smile at her.
âHey, Miss Harkness. Sorry, Iâll move right nowâÂ
âNo, donât worryâ she gives you a sly smile. âHave a good night, you two love birdsâ
âNight, Agathaâ Wanda says and you turn on the car, finally parking in your driveway.
âThat was funâ you comment, opening the door for Wanda and crossing the street to walk her home.
âYeah, just our luckâ Wanda laughs, taking your hand. âWanna come in? Or do you have to work tomorrow?â
âNot until Saturday. Come onâ you let her lead you to her house, opening the door as quietly as possible. Wanda sees Morgan at the kitchen table, doing her homework.
âHow did everything go?â
âGreat, they went to sleep an hour agoâÂ
âMorgan Stark?â you greet, closing the door behind you.Â
âYou two know each other?â Wanda says.
âYeah, my parents work at the hospital with Doctor Y/L/Nâ Morgan says, waving at you. âNice to see youâÂ
âDid you drive here? Or want me to take you home?âÂ
âItâs fine, I drove hereâ she says, and you hand over some money before Wanda can pay her.Â
âDrive safely, ok? Donât want your dad giving me crap on the next meetingâ
âWill do. Good night, Miss Maximoffâ
âNight, Morganâ
âYou didnât have to pay for that tooâ Wanda says, kissing you. âBut thank youâÂ
âAnytime. How do you know Morgan?â you nod when she offers you a glass of wine and you walk to the living room with her.
âIâm giving her private art lessons. Sheâs really good. Had no idea her parents were doctorsâ
âNot just any doctors, babyâ you say, taking a sip. âTonyâs father built the hospital we work in. And heâs done some amazing research in neurosurgery. Pepper is also one of the best plastic surgeons in the worldâÂ
âWow, Morgan is so sweet and down to Earthâ
âShe gets that from her mom, Tony can be an assâ you mutter and Wanda laughs. âSo, did I secure a second date?â
âA third one as well. But only if I can pay for the next oneâ
âNu-uh. Iâm spoiling you, babyâ you say, your hand going to her leg. You notice how Wandaâs cheeks turn red, and youâre not sure if itâs the nickname or the contact. âCome hereâ
You take her glass of wine, approaching her slowly and kissing her. Itâs tender at first, but then your hands travel to her lower back, and Wanda moans against your mouth. You deepen the kiss, sighing when she pushes you on your back, climbing on top of you.
Wanda kisses down your neck, biting slightly. The sudden nip makes your hips jolt forward, and she has to hold back another moan.
âI donât know how you do itâ she says, shivering when your hands travel down and cup her ass through her jeans.
âDo what, baby?â
âDrive me crazy with just one touchâ
âLet me take care of youâ you ask, kissing her, your hands going all the way to the front of her pants.
âMom?â
âShitâ she mutters, both of her hands covering your mouth. âWhat is it, sweetheart?â
âIâm thirsty,â Tommy says.
âAlright, donât come down, Iâll be right there, ok?â she says, hoping the boy hasnât noticed anything strange. But heâs too sleepy so he just agrees and returns to his room. âIâm sorryâ
She removes her hands from your mouth, helping you up.
âItâs fine, I enjoy the choking but just give me a heads upâ
âStopâ she says, blushing. âIâll be right back. Unless, you want to go? Iâm sorryâ
âI can stayâ you nod, smiling at her disheveled state.
âAlright, Iâll be backâ Wanda promises, pecking your lips.
You sit up, fixing your hair and taking a sip of the wine to calm down.
âEverything ok?â you say as Wanda comes down. She nods, smiling and sitting next to you.
âYeah, I just didnât think theyâd be up. Maybe⊠we could wait a bit? When Iâm not worried about the boys walking in on anythingâ
âOf course. Come hereâ you open your arms, and she settles, leaning her head against your shoulder. You kiss her temple. âWanna watch some tv?â
âWhat about a sitcom? I love watching thoseâ
âLike Friends?â
âLike Bewitched or⊠The Dick Van Dyke showâ she says and you laugh, completely caught off guard by the suggestion.
âYouâre fascinating, Wanda Maximoffâ you say, handing over the remote, ready to watch whatever she wants.
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One of the things I love the most about AUs where Danny moves to Gotham City is how easily he fits in. There are AUs where Danny makes a statement and gets noticed for the great guy he is and I enjoy those too, but I love the AUs where Danny fits in as if he's always been here. Where he doesn't stand out, doesn't make a statement.
There is something so quietly compelling about this transition in Danny's life. Danny has always stood out in a negative way. His parents are the town hacks, his sister is a genius that he'll never compare to. Friends who create rallies for their respective causes and actually makes people listen. Even amongst the outsiders, Danny sticks out like a sore thumb.
Danny likes Paulina because it's safe. Anyone would have a crush on the most popular girl in school. That's expected, that's normal. Of course he wants to be popular, what kid doesn't want to be popular?
The A-Listers stand out, not because they're particularly special, but because everyone else has set the standard that only they can reach. They present these kids as what every student should be, and everyone else is just failing to reach their level.
Danny has always striven for normalcy but the only way to achieve it is to fundamentally change who he is and he can't. No matter how hard he tries he can't be that person. He can try, and god has he tried, but he can't change who he is.
And then Danny moves to Gotham.
You can use all sorts of reasons for the move. Maybe this is a scenario where a reveal goes sideways and Danny has to flee. Maybe he has a bad breakup and he wants a fresh start. Maybe he's going to college out-of-state. Maybe he received a promotion at work and his boss wants him to manage the new Gotham branch.
No matter what reason you use, it all leads back to square one. Danny is in a city where he hardly knows anyone, but has heard all the horror stories for. The crime here is nothing like he's ever experienced before. At least with the ghosts, Danny knew they were coming thanks to his ghost sense. He doesn't always get the same courtesy with Arkham breakouts.
But he adapts. It's his specialty. He adapts to new powers and new enemies all the time, he can adapt here too. Human crime might not be his specialty but he knows how to protect himself. And for once he doesn't stand out for it.
Danny is paranoid and hypervigilant? Don't worry, most people here are. They have to be. Danny has scars on his knuckles from fighting ghosts? That's not the mark of a troublemaker, that's the mark of a survivor. Danny keeps a metal baseball bat by his front door? Okay, maybe that's a little strange; most people keep their weapons by their bed.
The point is that all these habits ingrained in Danny's psyche aren't out of place in Gotham. Here, no one thinks strangely of his behavior because they've all developed habits to help them survive. There is a different normal here in Gotham, a different standard, and for once Danny can reach it.
For once Danny is normal and he didn't have to change himself in any way to achieve it. It's proof that there was never anything wrong with him. He just didn't fit in with Amity Park anymore, but there is a place out there where he can.
Gotham City might not have been the home he grew up in, but it's accepted him more than the one he left behind. On the outside, this community might seem rough and harsh and brutal. But these people understand Danny better than anyone else could, because they know what it feels like to fight every day just to survive.
And I think there's something so cathartic about leaving one home, and all the fears that come with that, only to find a better one you never thought you could have.
I don't know. It's just so personal to me.
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Bf!Skz Favorite Habits Headcanons
Headcanons: BF!Stray Kids and their favorite habits of yours
Requested By: @thunderous-wolf
Pairings: Bf!Skz x Gn!Reader
Warnings: Not all of these will be relatable of course, and some are a bit personally fulfilling. Headcanons related to food/eating in Changbins, Seungmin & I.N's.
Words: 1.6k
Bang Chan:
Bang Chan loves listening to you hum or sing quietly as you are working or doing errands.
Your soft voice or hummed melodies send a gentle comfort through him that makes him happy.
He also uses it as an indicator to tell how you are feeling.
If you are stressed or upset in any way, you tend to stop humming or singing.
This allows him to know something is up without you having to tell him anything.
You are always confused how he could tell when you weren't showing any signs (that you knew of).
In a similar vein, you often drum or tap your fingers or pen/pencil when you are lost in thought.
He also finds this quite cute and sometimes get distracted while watching you hum and tap your fingers as you work.
When you come back to your senses you often find him staring at you with an adoring smile on his face.
Chan can't help himself sometimes and when you are humming or singing he will join in.
He sometimes pulls you into his arms and starts singing and dancing with you to make you laugh.
Lee Know:
Minho always notices your habit of stacking, straightening or lining up objects.
Your notebooks are always stacked straight, your pencils lined up or placed in their own holders.
You sort your belongings like books in very specific orders, that might only make sense to you.
If you notice crooked paintings or objects you subtly straighten them.
Every time he notices he smiles softly to himself.
He is always careful not to mess up the way you straighten things.
He also has his own habit of noting this, so if he ever has to use something, he will put it back the exact way it was.
If he wants to playfully annoy you he will purposefully move something so its crooked while making eye contact with you.
Peak cat behavior.
You also tend to by matching things. Decorations, kitchenware, pencils, notebooks, etc, that all match or go well with stuff you already own.
So if he ever buys you anything, he makes sure it matches.
Even at his dorm, he has a mug that matches his own so you can use it.
He uses this habit of yours as an excuse to buy cute matching couple stuff, even though he also likes matching with you (but he wont admit it).
Changbin:
Changbin finds amusement in the way you eat food.
Saving the best bite till last. Eating everything individually, eating your least favorite thing first, and leaving your favorite food until last, things like that.
He noticed it early on in your relationship, and it eventually bled into his own eating habits.
He would find himself saving the perfect bite until last, or his favorite food till the end.
He didn't notice he was doing it at first until I.N pointed it out.
If you have particular ingredients you don't like, you pick them out and put them on the side.
If Changbin orders food for you, he does this ahead of time so you don't have too.
He also finds your gym/work out routines adorable.
The way you psyche yourself up, and then prepare the perfect playlist of songs before you start anything.
He also notices how you do the same stretches in order each time before your workout.
If you ever miss out on any or skip them he knows you aren't feeling it that day, and often tries to psyche you up himself or will tell you to rest and not force yourself.
Hyunjin:
Hyunjin loves that when the two of you are hanging out, you often doodle or sketch things on loose paper.
He will find little doodles on sticky notes or pieces of paper he was going to throw out.
They make him smile because they are little reminders of you, so he often keeps them when he finds them.
If you are in college, he will sometimes flip through your notebooks and see all of the little drawings you did when you got distracted or bored during class.
When the two of you are hanging out doing nothing, he will purposefully give you a pencil and paper, or he will give you his arm to doodle on.
He jokes about getting some of the things you drew on him tattooed, but you would never let him. (But he definitely thinks about it)
He thinks it would be a nice reminder to always have you with him.
But he settles for taking his sketchbook with him and often flipping through the pages he let you sketch on.
Sometimes you take turns on a drawing, adding to it randomly, like a co-op piece. You did it with some paintings as well.
He has a few of these framed.
Han:
Han was confused at first, when he would find his hoodie ties braided or tied into knots.
It wasn't until one day when the two of you were lounging together that he noticed you absentmindedly making a decorative knot out of the tie on your own hoodie.
It clicked in his mind that it was you who had been doing it to his when you would wear them.
He thought it was adorable, and began purposefully wearing hoodies with long strings on them so you could play with them when cuddling.
At times when you are fidgety or antsy, or even just bored Han will ask you to play with his hair, knowing you will add little braids and get distracted by doing it.
It's his way of not only silently comforting you, but it also makes him feel good.
Yes he does forget about the braids and leave them in, often resulting in teasing from the others.
He doesn't care though and just calls them love braids, displaying them with pride.
Sometimes he takes selfies of them and sends them to you, 'The others keep making fun of me, but I love it!'
Felix:
Felix notices a lot about you, and something he noticed that he absolutely adores, is your habit of silent acts of service.
The way you help people without them noticing, or you making it obvious.
Casually fixing something without someone noticing. Picking up something they dropped without realizing. Making sure they don't hit their head when they reach down to do something.
You have a knack of noticing when someone wants something but is too shy or afraid to ask for it.
So you do it for them. Whether it is getting a drink, listening to them speak when others are talking, or asking them to do something with you, when in reality it was what they wanted and you are silently helping them to achieve it.
Felix is similar in this way so he noticed you do it as well.
He admires it and adores it and believes it shows just how lovely of a person you are.
You are also the type to pick up trash on the street, tell people is their shoes are untied, or if they have something in their teeth even if they are strangers.
You do the things you wish more people did for you, and Felix loves this about you.
Seungmin:
Seungmin notices your routines, big and small.
It ranges from doing the same steps every morning and evening with your facial care, taking showers at the same time of day, when you have your meals if your not working, etc.
He was able to figure out your routines pretty quickly so now he motions himself around them so you do them together.
This turns into him sharing the bathroom with you and being a menace.
Messing you up when you are brushing your teeth, cause you to smear toothpaste on your chin.
Him taking a shower as you are doing your nighttime routine, and singing loudly to entertain you.
When you are in the shower, he does his routine.
You also tend to get the same types of drinks and foods when you stop at the same places.
So if you are ever unable to make it, or he wants to surprise you with coffee/tea or food in the morning he knows exactly what to get you.
You never have to tell him what you would order, because he knows what you would order on pretty much any menu.
He says you are predictable, but in a cute way.
Bonus: If there are two dishes you can't decide between, he will get the other so you can try both.
He acts like he didn't do it for you, and says its because he wanted to try it but you know this is a lie
I.N:
I.N. loves that when you cook (especially for him), you put your heart into it, often making the food cute or aesthetically pleasing.
You cut strawberries into hearts, and the vegetables into cute or fun shapes, you are alarmingly good at coffee art, making cute desserts, etc.
He sees the care you have, in every small detail and he loves it.
He has a photo album dedicated to the cute food you make.
Sometimes he has trouble convincing himself to eat it because it's too cute.
I.N adores that you get happy and do a little dance when the food you are eating is good.
Other habits you have that he finds cute is when you are angry, you chew on the inside of your cheek or absentmindedly mumble under your breath.
He finds it adorable, and will tease you to lighten the mood. But he also just finds you cute when you are irritated. (He will pinch your cheeks before hugging you and being cute).
Folding paper/Origami
When you are bored you have a tendency to turn random pieces of paper into various forms.
Planes, flowers, stars, animals, etc.
I.N has kept an embarrassing amount of them and you will find them in various places around his room.
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thoughts jealous genshin boys?
including. scaramouche, lyney
cw. jealous syx, fem! reader
â ê° SCARAMOUCHE ê±
it's evident in his eyes, indigo mist manifesting to the shade of need and angerâ and so of course, you instantly catch it, regardless of scaramouche desperate attempts to keep his bothersome jealousy hidden from you, even though it secretly turned you on.
because it showed that he cared, in a way, and a perception of lust takes a hold of your trembling frame, his chest being pressed so close against your own that you can vividly feel just how fast the beat of his heart was racing for you.
truly it aggravated him, when he sees how someone was able to make you laugh just like that, when in reality it should only be him you're gifting your sweet attention to, no other person in this broken world should even blink near you, breathe near you or stand near you if it was for scaramouche personallyâ who now was working his hips in between your legs, a harsh gasp rattling through his clenched jaw as he keeps on telling you to fucking keep your thighs spread apart for him, okay? so he angrily spit on your cunt.
even like this, while you're brimming full of the racing pressure on your wet cunt being repeatedly stuffed by his shaft, the smacks of his hips loud and echoing, his pace almost too rough for its own good as you simply cannot help yourself but admire your boyfriend's outstanding beauty and soft features, which were radiantly glowing even stronger whenever he was a little angry at you, or jealous for that particular matter.
it's cute, really, you have to admitâ seeing him like that while being out of breath with a sheen layer of sweat holding together the bangs on his forehead, his psyche all concentrated on pleasing you as good as he could, almost as if he was scared of losing youâ and it's because he thrusts so deep that your tits bounce back and forth, his hot breath sticking on your glossy lips when he roughly fucks his cock in and out your warm hole spreading so nicely for him, reaching all those places that only scaramouche was able to reach.
â ê° LYNEY ê±
it's almost disgusting and surreal how fast lyney could switch his mind into something else when it came to his love for youâ and of course, he loves you, a sickly sweet love that would forevermore run through his bloodstream and soothe his mind, in fact, just looking at you could make the man bend to your every will.
well, only when you're behaving that is, when you aren't looking for ways to practically piss him off until he has you draped against a desk with his head tightly shut between your rattling thighs, noticing how you're instantly arching your back into his mouth and reveling at each and every new stroke of his arousal-drenched tongue littering across your velvet walls.
if only you were nice tonight, lyney would definitely had made you cum at least twice, in fact, he would always put your pleasure first because he was a good boyfriend, a perfect one if being honest for a secondâ so for you to just make him jealous like that, you meanie! giggling enthusiastically at a person you barely know while holding their gaze through your dazzling eyes.
no, don't even go there, don't just assume lyney is making stuff up in his mindâ he would never let this happen, but punishing you with his tongue and rutting it across your drenched hole was always a delicious meal on its own, a sticky one at that until his rosy cheeks and chin were aglow of arousal and messed up of your gooey slick.
your thighs were now, shaking viciously as you're forced to take it all with your hips twitching when you grind your cunt against his mouth, taking the rough and precise brushes of warm tongue like a good girl as it easily dug past the flesh of your folds until lyney hits your sensitive clit with the tip of his wet muscle, circling over the bundle of nervesâ his focused brain catching on to every single detail of your lewd whimpers, electric twitches and sensitive turns, or the way your precious thighs would clamp up around his head even more, while most importantly, how your glazed eyes would suddenly collect warm crystallines on your lashes.
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âá° "You knew all too well i was right where you left me" | CL16 àŁȘđČÖŒ ᄫᥠâ
parings: retired!charles leclerc x writer!ex!reader
đ chapter one: "love is short but forgetting is so long"
chapter two: âdid the love affair maim you too?â -> chapter three
summary: Itâs the story of a woman frozen in the moment her world fell apart. A perfect dinner ended with, âI met someone else,â and while everyone moved on, she remained stuck in that instant, unable to let go of the past. A poignant tale of heartbreak, grief, and the weight of being trapped in a âforeverâ that never was.
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It's been a few crazy days for you. After what happened last time, it took you a few days to go back to the last flower cafe to write. You preferred writing in your studio at home. You had a comfy balcony with a lovely view of the Monaco sea. So you just took inspiration from it to write another chapter of your book.Â
Seeing Charles confused you. You didn't know what to think or how to feel about it. You got scared you would see him again. But at the same time, you wanted to see him again.Â
It felt confusing because you knew it wasn't right for you or the best to see him again, or wanting to or whatever. But even if he broke your psyche the way he did, you couldn't stop thinking about the what ifs.Â
What if this time works? What if he was immature but he is worth it? What if this time is better? What if he feels the same way you do? What if he says heâs sorry? What if you forgive him?
All of those questions filled the fire to write. Writedown all of the what ifs as it was reality for your character. Maybe in this fictional life, you two have your happy ending. Â
Your writing process was interrupted by your bestie phone call that you, of course, picked up. âHeyâ you could hear the kids scream as if you were there.
âAre you coming to pick the kids up?â she asked, remembering you, you promised her to take them to have ice cream and for a walk. You facepalm. You forgot about it.
âOh sorry, A. Yeah,of course. Iâll pick them up in 30 minutes. Iâm sorry, i forgotâ you apologised starting to walk towards your bedroom to get change. You still have your pajamas on.Â
âItâs okay y/n. I knew you would probably forget thatâs why I called. They will be ready when you get here. Thank you, i love youâ you said i love you back and ended the call.Â
You chose to wear a tracksuit, trainers and a coat. It was really cold this year in particular. But you loved it. You werenât a fan of summer that much. You preferred snow and hot chocolate. Cuddling in bed to keep yourself warm. And playing cards near the chimney. You Loved autumn and winter, it made you feel special.Â
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So today was the day, the day he probably would become officially single. Charles really hated the divorce process. It was a very painful one. He had, once again, broken another womanâs heart. He wasn't proud of it but he really wanted to do things the right way from now on. No more bullshit. No more feeling guilty of the past, tied to it as if he had to pay for everything. So 6 months ago he communicated it to Alex, it was really heavy on the heart scene. He felt like an actual monster. However, he started therapy. He was starting to understand himself more and learning to forgive himself for every decision he took that maybe wasnât the best, but he didn't know better. He was young and about to become one of the most successful drivers in formula one. He thought he knew what he was doing to then realize he actually didn't at all.Â
He started his day journaling. He tried to write something but all he could do was drawing your face. That image he couldn't stop seeing every time he closed his eyes. He felt scared about it but he let himself follow along. It was best to try to take you out of his mind in some way. Then after breakfast he decided to play some piano and record new parts of a new piece he was working on. He sent it to his producer and drove to Carlos' house to have lunch together. Lando was also there. They all chatted and enjoyed barbeque at Carlosâ beach house.Â
And at that moment, talking in the living room, something changed.Â
âYeah, I don't know. I think she is a writer. I always see her on the balcony surrounded by multiple sheets of papers and a computer. Or maybe she is a translator or something I don't know but she is cute, you know? Maybe you can hit on her lando " Carlos commented while serving more wine to their cups.
âDo you follow her on instagram or something?â Lando asked for further information, apparently interested. Charles was zooming out thinking about you.Â
âOh no I don't, I don't even know her name butâ Carlos opened his window curtains âyup, there she isâ Carlos pointed to the balcony that was visible from there. Lando patted Charles' arm so the three of them could see through the window hoping the woman wouldn't notice them.Â
âOh my godâ Charles almost fainted when he saw you there in your sherk pajamas drinking from an avengers cup (you didn't change that, though. You still are a geek for movies, superheroes, comics and books he guessed). Your balcony was quite close, the view was 4k. The guys who looked at Charles getting whiter, felt weirded out about his reaction.
âAll right mate? I don't think she is that ugly, you know? I mean, she is fine as hell if you ask me and I'm not that into red hairâ Lando said, checking on charles.
âYeah, maybe she is too beautiful⊠now that heâs officially singleâ Carlos added.
Charles shook his head going back to the sofa.
âItâs y/N, carlos. y/n itâs your fucking neighbor. She was there all this time and i didnt fucking know. I don't know how I never bumped into her " Charles spitted with so much mixed feeling. Lando and Carlos looked at each other. Carlos closed the curtains before sitting along them.
âMate, i didn't have a clue she could be y/N to be honest. Iâve never met her, "Carlos explained himself.
âWait, whoâs y/N? And why is she neighbors with you?â Lando was confused. For a moment he thought they were joking but Charles looked affected. He missed a part of Charles' story or something. The only woman he met was alexandra and she is officially out of his life.
âItâs his ex, like the oneâ Carlos explained to him but then Lando was even more confused. Charles noticed and with a sigh he explained the situation better in his opinion.
ây/n was my girlfriend during my f2 days. I left her for Alex but since that moment I regret it. It was like 10 years ago. "Lando's face expressed understanding with his mouth showing an âoâ.
âSo I guess I can't date her now, right?â Lando said, receiving a correcting punch on his arm by carlos. âAlright, alrightâÂ
âI need to go guys, i got stuff to doâ Charles said after a long silence and stood up ready to go. He Couldn't stay longer. He needed to breathe some air. He was scared. He actually hated feeling like that. Scared of what? Of her? Of himself? Of the truth? The truth that maybe he did indeed waste all of these years pretending to like his life when all he wanted to do was go back to her? Maybe. But the truth was too heavy to admit and process.Â
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You were out with your nephews. It was a saturday afternoon, cold but the sun was shining bright. Between giggles you were walking with them to their favorite ice cream shop.Â
Unfortunately, it was LEC ice cream.Â
Benjamin and Renato were four years old, they were twins. And then there was Dante who was 6 years old. They were messy but today was a good day, they were chilling. They ran inside the ice cream shop all excited followed by you. You closed the door and they were already on the counter talking with the cashier. You smiled shyly.Â
âgood afternoonâ you greeted her and she smiled back at you.
âAuntie, I want the chocolate one! It is always so yummy!â said Benjamin, excitedly grabbing your coat and pulling from it in desperation. He did a few little excited jumps as his twin.Â
âNo! Benjamin! I want the chocolate one!â Renato got mad at his brother. Their voices were so cute they made you giggle a bit.Â
âIt's alright boys, you both can get the chocolate oneâ you said, mediating between the siblings smiling at the cashier. She noted and went to look for them. âDante, darling, which one do you want?â He was the shyest out of them all. He was so like your best friend, polite and collected. He looked at the flavour list on the wall.Â
âI want the vanilla one, pleaseâ he talked directly to the cashier making you smile proudly.
âThatâs my boy,â you said, congratulating him. Seeing him smile filled your heart full. You loved those three kids with your whole heart. You always get so emotional realising how fast they are growing.Â
âAlright, gentlemen, here are your ice creamsâ the cashier said warmly and rounded the counter to give the ice cream to each one of them. You smiled watching the scene. They got shy but grabbed their ice creams anyway.Â
âWhat do you say boys?â you looked at them gently.Â
âThank you very muchâ they said in unison, making the cashier smile widely. âgo seatâ you told them and they obeyed you. You got close to the cashier now in her seat on the counter. âHow much is it?â you asked but before she could answer you, a voice, that fucking voice, interrupted.
âItâs on the houseâ you wanted to believe it was a dream and that it wasnât real. But it was. It was charles. You turned to look at him a bit confused about the whole situation. He smiled at you again, the same way he did at the restaurant. You tried to play it cool, but you knew your smile and attitude were weird.Â
âOh, thank you. It wasnât necessaryâ you said politely and he shook his head.Â
âNo problem, for realâ he said and you half smiled in return.Â
âThank youâ you say for both of them and went to sit with your boys at the sofa table they chose. You just didn't want to look at him that much nor you didn't know what to say. âHeyâ you greeted them, and took some napkins from the table and cleaned the twins' faces full of chocolate. you smiled funny. Dante got closer to you while you were helping Benjamin clean his hands.Â
âAuntie, is that the driver dad is a fan of?â he asked shyly close to you and really low so only you could hear him.Â
âI think it is darling, would you like a picture with him?â you offer sweetly. He nods, smiling brightly. That made your heart race because you now have to talk to charles. You could hear him talking to his employees in a relaxed way. You could hear he came just to check in.Â
You licked your lips nervously âi'll be right back, okay?â you tell the kids and stand up to walk right back to the counter. Your heart was racing. âUm, excuse meâ you tried to capture his attention, and for sure you did. He looked at you immediately. His eyes found yours and you felt your heart skip a beat for a moment. âSorry, but one of my nephews recognized you and I wanted to ask you if you could take a picture with him? Don't mean to bother you, of course,â you finally said. And you saw his face light up instantly. You were pretending you didn't know each other. You just played along without even mentioning it. You swallowed hard half smiling.
âOf course, no problem,â he said sweetly.
âThank youâ you said to him before getting to the kids.
âIt's fine,â he assured you.Â
You called Dante to come over and he came all shy. âHey champ, is it good?â Charles was squatting to be on Dante's height. He talked really sweet to him. Dante stuck to you, intimidated to have that awesome driver his dad loved so much. He nodded looking at him. âYou wanna take a picture? Iâll be really happy to have one with youâ he said sweetly so Dante would loosen himself. He looked at me for aprovation. You just smiled and nodded at him excitedly. Dante then relaxed, nodding towards Charles in a huge smile. He gave him a hug and charlesâ heart melted between the kidâs arms.Â
They posed together and you took as many pictures as you could. And after cleaning Benjamin and Renato`s faces again, they also posed with charles. They started yapping with him and imitating car noises. They made you laugh for a bit.Â
They got so excited, they gave Charles so many hugs. You played along so they can have a great moment to remember someday. You recorded some videos to send to your best friend agostina later, so she can have the memories. âMy daddy loves you! He always screams to the tv âGOOO CHARLES GOOOOâ â Dante commented imitating his dad in the funniest way making you laugh. âBut he doesn't like Carlos that much, he prefers hamilton!â
âOh wow, you are an expert in formula 1. Whoâs your daddy?â Charles really engaged with your nephews. He even sat next to you so he could have a conversation with them. He got confused for a bit, he believed they were your children. But it didn't seem like that.Â
âMy dad is andrew and my mom is agostina, and she is auntie y/Nâ dante explained to charles the whole family dynamic in his way. You smiled nodding looking at Dante, then moved to see charles. He now understood the whole thing. You were their aunt. His heart melted for a moment. He didn't know what to say.
Benjamin asked you to grab him and you did. You sat him on your tights, and he was sleepy. You stroke his thin shiny hair gently as he pressed his head on your chest wanting to fall asleep.Â
Charles looked at you with a half smile.
âI think itâs time to go home kids, mommy is waiting for you. Itâs pizza night!â you told them funny and excited so they would get excited. Dante celebrated along with Renato doing a victory dance making you and Charles let out a laugh.
âLet me give you a ride, that baby wants to sleep,â Charles offered sweetly, looking at Benjamin in your chest. He was trying to play it cool but his heart was speeding faster than his car in any race. Looking at you like this, made him regret every single decision of his life. How could he leave you like that? He wanted to punch himself on the face because he was sure you hated him. So it was impossible to get a second chance nor that he believed he deserved it.Â
You doubted but he got a point. Walking ten blocks with a baby or two in your arms was not gonna be an easy task and your back will suffer a lot. You sighed. âAlright, thank you. Itâs really nice of youâ you gave in at his offer and he smiled widely.Â
âAlright, letâs go home guysâ Charles announced. The cashier was even more confused than the two of you were. Since when did Charles Leclerc engage so much with strangers and offer them a lift? They must not be strangers at all. They must know each other all too well.Â
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Charles helped you get the kids in the car, or well, his Ferrari that was parked one block away. Dante, all excited, wanted to touch every single thing the car had so you had to tell him to calm down and behave for a bit. You got in the passenger seat.Â
Charles let you use his phone so you put your friend's address on it. He now knew where you lived and he was thinking of offering to drop you there after leaving the kids but at the same time he didn't want to be so invasive.Â
Smelling your perfume was sending him on a spiral. You still had that effect on him. And he didn't know how to feel about it. You didn't look at him. You probably hate him, he thought. He couldnât stop thinking about it. But then why did you let this happen? Because of the kids? It was ten blocks away. He stopped himself from keeping up his delusions for way too long he would believe them. He felt like a kid about this whole thing with you. Or the one you had. The life you had. You made him and his family so happy. Arthur still likes you, you always had a soft spot on his heart. And that made Charles feel miserable.Â
The drive was silent. The kids fell asleep in like three blocks. You were so nervous you would throw up right then and there. You just looked out through the window. You didn't want to talk that much with him. You knew that would be dangerous.Â
He knew it too. He knew all too well what you were trying to do and in a way he was thankful for it. But in another way, he just wanted to know everything about you, again.Â
A million questions were playing again and again in your heads silently but agonizingly at the same time.
Ten minutes later, you were finally on your destination: your best friendâs, agostina, house. She was waiting at the porch of her house. When she saw the black ferrari stop by her sidewalk she frowned. She thought you were coming on foot with her three children.Â
You looked at charles in a half smile, just praying your friend doesn't get mad at you for this insane idea. âThank you for lifting usâ you said shortly and he nodded. It was awkward.Â
âLet me help youâ Charles said and both of you got out of his car.Â
When your friend first saw you, she looked confused, with a million question marks in her eyes. But then, when she saw Charles coming off the driving seat, her eyes almost fell out. I mean, she was relieved that it was him at some point but not so much out of concern for you.Â
âHey, Aâ Charles greeted her with a wave helping you wake the kids up. He remembers your friend, of course. He remembered everything about you.Â
âHey, charles. Itâs been a long timeâ A said, grabbing Benjamin from your arms. Charles helped Dante and you grabbed Renato in your arms. Both baby twins were knocked out sleeping. Dante grabbed his mum's hand and waved to Charles in a goodbye. He closed his Ferrari door and waved to us. You just smiled. You were in the most uncomfortable situation of your life. You didn't have a good feeling about this.Â
You felt it was the beginning of the end, for some odd reason you couldn't identify yet.Â
âBye charles!â Dante said happily and was still a bit sleepy. Agostina smiled at him but when she turned to look at you, her eyes were screaming âARE YOU CRAZY GIRL?â and how could you blame her for it. You just put her kids into the car of a known stranger.Â
Charles observed the situation with you and your friend from his car. The sunset sun made you glow. And your eyes were so shiny he got confused for a bit if he was actually dreaming. He made his horn sound and disappeared into the monaco streets pretty fast.Â
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Cozy wrapped around blankets and pillows, your friend brought you a cup of hot chocolate. You decided it was to sleep overnight to gossip because Andrew, her husband, was out of town for work. The kids were sleeping in their rooms. The baby monitor in front of you two. You were laying on the living room couch with ambient music in the background playing from the tv above the chimney.Â
âI can't believe you bumped into Charles, to be honest. It's been ten years, you have never seen him and out of nowhere you see him everywhereâ your friend was as surprised as you were.Â
âYeah, I don't know. I feel really weird about it. I thought next time i would bump into him i would be dead but iâm still alive so far. He felt so different⊠Yet he felt the same. His perfume was the same. His eyes are the same, the way they shine andâŠâ you sighed stopping yourself. You started crying. You didn't know what you were feeling. If you were supposed to feel happy or angry or sad. The stress level was at its peak. It was too much emotionally to handle.Â
It hurts you to pretend you didn't know him, that you didn't want him or that he was once your everything and now he was a stranger. A stranger holding so many secrets of you. All of your life traumas and experiences, your virginity, your first ever love story (and the only one). It still hurts because it couldn't be easier. Why couldn't it be forever together as you dreamed? When you saw him you felt the same as that last day you watched him leave that motherfucking restaurant.Â
Your friend hugged you understanding how hard this was for you. And how frustrating it must feel to finally be ready to move on and then he is back just like that. How unfair life could be, right? She felt so sorry for you. You deserved to be so happy yet here we are, still crying for that ficking stupid asshole.Â
It felt like the beginning of the end.
âËàż đđËâ
âHey, Arthur, I'm officially and legally single again. Want to have dinner at my place?â Charles called his brother on his Ferrari the second he sat in the driverâs seat. He needed to talk to someone about what happened this afternoon. His anxiety had made a hole in his stomach and he almost threw up a couple of times.Â
He felt guilty. Like he did something terrible lifting you and your nephews to your friendâs house.
âBro!!! Thatâs amazing!! Ready to enjoy life? Iâll be there in 30 minutes, and order some steak. Iâll bring wine. Love you!!â he shouted into the phone making Charles put it a little far away from his ear so he won't be left deaf. He ended the call, so Charles couldn't say otherwise. He giggled a little to himself. He loved his family, but especially Arthur, he was his little brother, and also his best friend. Â
After a few minutes, he was already wearing his comfy clothes and had ordered the stake his brother told him to. He had set the table and put some random playlist on spotify on shuffle. Now that he was home, the hole in his stomach was not as huge as it was during the day. His house was his safe place. Though, it still felt weird not having leo (his and alexâs puppy son) or alex around. He tried so hard to love her, he got used to having her around. The chemicals on his brain were adjusting still to his new life. He changed furniture and redecorated the whole house. He wanted to start again from zero. Rebuilt himself step by step and finally, the Charles he always wanted to be.Â
The bell took him out of his thoughts announcing his brother had arrived.Â
âHey, Brody,â Arthur said excitedly, hugging his brother when the older one opened the door. Arthur was really proud of his brother. He knew how hard all of it was. And how hard he was with himself when it came to mistakes committed in the past.
âËàż đđËâ
They sat on the couch in front of the tv with everything already tidy up and with their stomachs full. They talked about everything and anything but yet not about her.Â
âI brought you something, wait a secondâ Arthur said and got up looking for his bed. Charles observed his brother a little tipsy by wine already. He didn't know what to expect from him. He was always a surprise box. âI know you saw her again, I don't know how you feel about it but I know we will eventually talk about her. But I think it will help you if you read her book. I think itâs a fictional story but the way she tells it⊠i think it can make you reflect on what happened.â he added coming back from his bag with a book in hand. After he sat again on the couch he handed it to charles. Charles listened and watched the book in front of him. He took it carefully.
âI saw her today, she was with her nephews. I also know where she lives now as well. It was at carlosâ house and he was talking about his neighbor being attractive so Lando could try and hit on her. So he opened the fucking curtains and there she was on her balcony. I almost choked and died. Then I saw her at LEC. and I gave her a lift to her friendâs house. "Charles started throwing up everything that happened that day. Arthurâs eyes were big as plates. He couldn't understand how his brother survived o all of that. I mean, he was happy. He loved y/n, but he knew damn too well it was probably a nightmare for his brother to go through all of that.Â
âOh my god, charles. And you also were announced to be single legally? How did you survive? I'm impressed. Youâre strong dudeâ arthur commented half joking half serious. Charles laughed it out a bit shaking his head.Â
âI don't know but all I know is that my heart almost stopped how fast it was beating,â Charles answered.
âThatâs called anxiety,â Arthur pointed out.
âI know. I was scared. She looked even more beautiful than she ever did or that I rememberâ he grabbed the book in his hands more strongly. He took a deep breath. âToday was too much for me,â his brother agreed.Â
After Arthur was gone, Charles sprinted to his bed. He had a headache. He wanted to pretend it was because of the two bottles of wine they drank. But he knew it was because of overthinking. He laid in bed. Book in his hands. He started analyzing the cover: It was light blue, her favorite color he remembered. A red scarf and autumn leaves falling down. Her name is printed on the corner of it. He brushed his thumb above it taking a moment.
Adjusting his glasses he flipped to the back cover of it and thatâs where something changed inside him.
âJust between us, did the love affair maim you too?â
âËàż TO BE CONTINUED đđËâ
chapter three: coming soon.
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day 14: overstimulation/massaging/begging with hwang intak
genre: smut, 18+ mdni
wc: 4.9k
summary: intak has been your massage therapist for a few months now. you donât know if itâs the actual magic in his hands or itâs just your seemingly silly crush on him but you canât go to anyone else for massages. one night he makes an exception for you to see him after hours.
cw: dom massage therapist!intak x sub!reader, porn with plot, strangers to lovers, massaging, begging, overstimulation, dirty talk, fingering, intak accidentally walks in on you naked once, pretty as a pet name, praise, body worship(?), sensory deprivation kind of (reader is laying face down on the table for most of it)
a/n: this is my first time ever writing a full fic with plot and itâs for piwontober! thank you sooo so much @sxfterhearts and @kisseobie for hosting such a wonderful event. i'm so grateful to get the opportunity to write for this event alongside all these amazing writers ⥠and thank you to my bb @hazyhae for beta reading <3
the first time you meet intak, itâs your first time at the massage spa heâs a manager and massage therapist at. your best friend, being the sweet angel she is, handed you a free voucher for this place sheâs been going to for the last few months while you guys were out at saturday brunch.
âyou know,â she meets your eyes. âyou deserve to treat yourself every once in a while,â her big doe eyes stare at you, concern flashing through them. you smile softly at her.
âthanks for looking out for me y/f/n,â you thank her sincerely. the both of you know how many hours youâre working in a week, spending at least 8 hours a day (sometimes 10 depending on the time of year) hunched in front of a computer.
of course your shitty company turned down the idea of implementing standing desks or higher quality office chairs, so youâre consistently stuck with tight hips, sore shoulders, and a killer stiff neck.
you decide to go the very next day as you, surprisingly, didnât have anything planned on a sunday. usually, youâd be grocery shopping or prepping for the week ahead, but you took care of that with your best friend before brunch so your sunday was free for a much needed self-care day.
the moment you walk through the doors of serenity spa, an insanely cute guy greets you with these big brown eyes that sparkle at you as he speaks. âhi, welcome to serenity spa! do you have an appointment with us?â his eyes are big and round, staring up at you.
âi donât,â you shake your head. you reach in your purse for the voucher and present it to him. âbut i have this voucher for a free massage? itâs my first time here and i saw i could just walk in.â
he takes the paper from your hands while smiling. âthatâs perfect! here, you can take a seat and just fill out this preference sheet,â he says, handing you a clipboard and pen. you follow as he says and get to scribbling on the sheet.
ây/n, 60 minutes, full back massage, light pressure, and aromatherapy,â he repeats your choices back to you. âyou donât have a preference for a therapist, right?â he double checks your paper and glances up at you, your breath catching in your throat at the sudden eye contact as you shake your head no.
âit seems that everyone else has a client, but lucky for you my books are actually free for the next hour. so i can take care of you for your first time if youâd like?â his plush lips turning up into a smile.
you finally glance at his name tag which reads intak and head manager right under.
âthat sounds great actually,â you return the smile, a light blush dusting your cheeks as you realize how intimate he could possibly get on the first meeting. âbut thatâs his job,â you have to remind yourself before you end up psyching out.
he leads you to a room where the lights are dim, a handful of lit candles are placed throughout, and thereâs soft spa music playing from a speaker.
âalright y/n, just go ahead and get undressed. you can lay on your front and cover yourself with this towel. iâll give you a few minutes,â intak explains, gesturing toward the massage bed with a small cover up and towel for your privacy placed nicely in the center.
you let the door close behind him before you move to place your bag on the small table in the corner of the room. you follow his directions, pushing any embarrassing thoughts of getting naked in front of this incredibly attractive stranger on the first meeting.
lying down on the table, you gently place your head through the hole and pull the towel over your butt before resting your arms by your side as you stare at the ground, taking a few deep breaths to get rid of your nerves. itâs just a massage.
the massage goes incredibly smoothly with the help of intakâs professionalism soothing any worries you had. his large warm palms worked their magic all around your back and shoulders, working gently through the knots you had built up under the skin.
you were so lost in time, his hands distracting you from thinking of anything that could possibly stress you that you almost whine in protest at the end of your massage, wishing you had booked him for longer.
you hear him wipe his hands on a towel before wiping lightly the excess massage oil off your back and arms.
âiâll let you get dressed and you can meet me back at the front desk to get you checked out, alright?â you hum in agreement, feeling a bit sleepy after the complete relaxation session you just had.
he chuckles at the slight rasp in your voice after such a quiet session, since you only replied in hums any time he asked you if the pressure he was applying was okay, or if the temperature of the warm towels he used were alright.
âjust take your time, thereâs no rush,â he reassures you softly. thank god you were lying face down so he couldnât see the blush on your cheeks.
you get redressed and grab your bag before checking out at the front desk.
âand did you want to book your next appointment at this time?â intak asks.
âyeah, why not?â you smile at him. he nods before clicking around on the computer. he schedules your next appointment for a month out at the same time as today.
âdid you want to book me again or see a different massage therapist?â you blush at his question, already knowing you wanted to feel his incredible hands on you again. thatâs not weird, right?
âi guess i wouldnât mind seeing you again,â you tease him, a smile creeping onto your face. âoh, and can you make it a 90-minute appointment this time?â you ask shyly. âi actually wish this session was longer because youâve got some mad skills,â you have to mumble to save yourself a bit.
âoh so iâve already got you hooked after one visit, huh?â he smirks back at you, a small giggle leaving his lips. âdonât worry, y/n, iâve got you.â he grabs a card from the acrylic holder in front of him, scribbling down your appointment details with a pen. you roll your eyes but canât wipe your smile away.
âthanks. iâll see you next month, intak,â you reply, turning to walk out before you can get any more embarrassed. what you donât see is intak cheesing like an idiot for the rest of the day after you leave.
the third time you meet intak, itâs at your third appointment which you happened to book just 2 weeks after the second one instead of another month out.
itâs not that work got any worse than it already was, or that you had other stressors in your life. you donât even really work out hard enough to really be sore.
to be quite frank, you simply couldnât get enough of not just his hands (hell, you even start to add other body areas to your sessions now that youâve gotten more comfortable with him), but now his company as well.
during your second appointment, you made a conscious effort to initiate more small talk with intak. you couldnât help but want to learn more about him and this time wouldnât be different from the last.
after intak leads you to his massage room and leaves you be, you start your usual routine of putting your belongings on the corner table before undressing. this time, though, you get distracted by the buzzing of your phone in your bag. you reach for it to put it on do not disturb, and you miss the knock at the door.
you donât react fast enough before it swings open, a yelp escaping your lips as your hands come up to cover yourself as much as you can.
âoh! shit, iâm so sorry,â intak mutters before shutting the door. in all his time of working here he has never accidentally walked in on anyone until now. and of course it was you. he presses his hands to his face to cool himself down, walking back to the front desk to take a sip of cold water to bring him back to his senses.
your heart is racing while you stand vulnerably alone in the massage room. you put your phone away and settle onto the massage table like normal. god, how was the rest of this appointment gonna go now?
after what feels like forever, thereâs another knock at the door, and this time intak remembers to ask if youâre ready for him.
âyeah, iâm ready,â you reply, clearing your throat afterwards. once intak takes a deep breath, he enters the room, proceeding as usual.
âi am so sorry about that, y/n,â he starts to apologize, genuine worry in his voice as the guilt pangs in his chest. âiâm not going to make any excuses but it was a genuine accident.â the last thing he wanted was to make you uncomfortable, but he wanted to respect your boundaries.
âitâs okay!â you blurt out a bit too quickly. âit was a mistake and you really do sound like you feel bad, so apology accepted,â you continue, hoping to ease his concerns. âand hey, we can forget this ever happened as long as you work your magic like you always do.â you lift your head slightly in order to get a peek of him since you never get to see his face during these appointments.
intak sighs in relief, meeting your eyes and smiling apologetically. âthank you for understanding,â he says sincerely.
once he gets started, it feels like most, if not all, the tension in both the air and your muscles has faded out.
âso how long have you been a massage therapist for?â you asked, breathing deeply to try not to audibly react to his hands that worked through your calf muscles.
âitâs been a little over a year,â he replies. âi got the manager position here about 6 months ago now and i love it. i enjoy making a difference in peopleâs lives and their wellbeing,â he speaks fondly.
âyou donât need to take my word for it, but you deserve it. youâre amazing at what you do- ooooh,â your last word draws out as he digs a bit deeper into your leg.
he laughs at your reaction. âthat didnât hurt did it?â he soothes over the area with a broad hand as to not put any more pressure in case it did hurt.
âno! no, not at all. it felt really good,â you exhaled. âyouâve got some sorcery or something in those hands, intak, i swear.â his cheeks flush at your compliments.
âiâm just doing my job, y/n,â he mutters, not being able to accept such kind words from someone as pretty as you. heâs grateful youâre not facing him because he would not be handling this as coolly as he is now.
âcan you tell me more about yourself?â you ask, voice a bit small as even you canât believe youâre initiating this.
âhmm,â he hums, thinking of what to tell you. âwhen iâm not working, iâm at the gym. i love working out and improving myself. i usually lift weights but⊠i actually really love dancing too.â
your eyebrows raise, even though he canât see you. âreally?â you ask in disbelief. âi wish i could dance⊠maybe you can teach me someday,â you say through a smile.
âi would love to teach you,â he replies, chuckling. are you flirting with him right now? no⊠surely itâs just a friendly conversation.
âyour girlfriend must be really lucky,â you say, immediately flustering yourself at how bold that statement was. âi mean, like imagine coming home from work and you just get one hell of a massage from your partner,â you stumble out, trying to cover for yourself, holding your breath.
âwhoa, hey. relax your muscles for me and keep breathing. youâre tensing up,â intak points out, his hands gliding across your skin with the help of the massage oil. âand for the record, iâm single,â he adds, blood rushing to his cheeks. okay maybe you are flirting with him.
you exhale a little louder than you mean to, a great relief washing over you at this new knowledge. as if a lightbulb goes off above your head, you start brainstorming with more conversation topics. not wanting to make things awkward, you both move past this conversation and begin to talk about yourself to allow him to know about you too.
the fourth time you meet intak is at your fourth appointment. you booked this one for just a week after the last one, too impatient to wait an extra week to see him again.
after last weekâs session of you two nonstop flirting in the massage room, you just wanted to see him even more often. your best friend even caught your change in attitude, noting you were happier and more lively ever since you started going to the spa for massages. you just blushed and brushed her off, not wanting her to tease you for crushing on your massage therapist.
todayâs session was almost no different than the last, the two of you settling into a routine now.
you knew he started with the aromatherapy, letting you breathe in the scent of lavender for relaxation.
you knew he kindly moved any stray hairs away from your neck before settling into the muscles there.
you knew the paths he took on your body each time.
of course, you hadnât changed up your preferences besides longer sessions and firmer pressure since the first session.
this time, though, you decided not to hold back on your sighs and sounds of pleasure as his dexterous fingers kneaded and relaxed your muscles.
you wanted to test the waters. at first, it really was just a reflex. you were a naturally sensitive and reactive person. you had just been holding back in front of intak in case things became awkward, or it was too unprofessional on your end.
after learning he was single, you never missed the way his eyes lit up when he spoke to you at the front desk, or the slight stutter in his answers when you asked him something a bit more personal. it was cute, really. there was just something about flustering a cute boy who already has his hands all over you.
it didnât take much from him to draw out a few mewls from you. the first few times, he didnât think much of it. his hands still moved steadily as they always did across the expanse of your back.
the more noises you made, the more intakâs hands, which are usually confident and firm, started to falter.
he clears his throat. âyouâre sure iâm not hurting you, right y/n?â he asks, trying to keep his voice steady.
âintak, i would tell you if it hurt,â you reassured him. âit just feels really really good⊠you just really know how to work those hands.â
intak thanks whatever higher being there is that you canât see him, otherwise youâd poke fun at how red and hot his cheeks and ears were getting. hell, his hands were even starting to sweat and he didnât think that was possible with the oil covering his hands.
âwhy, is there something wrong?â you ask, trying to hide the smirk in your voice after noticing he couldnât even reply back. there was no way you werenât doing this on purposeâŠ
âno, no,â he chokes out. ânot at all⊠youâre just a bit more⊠reactive today and i just wanted to make sure you were comfortable⊠you know, with the pressure and everything,â intak babbles on. âbut if everythingâs okay iâm gonna continue with the massage.â
you hum back in response, deciding to spare the poor guy of your teasing.
the fifth time you meet intak is at your fifth appointment.
after the incident of your fourth appointment, intak shyly asked for your number (even though it was already in the system after your first visit; he didnât wanna seem like a creep just taking it from the computer).
âyou know, just in case you need an emergency visit from me,â he fibs. you laughed and agreed, reading out your number for him to shoot you a text.
âintak :)â the text simply reads.
since getting each othersâ numbers, the flirting between the two of you had become both more natural and frequent. you guys text all day everyday about anything and everything, and intak can confidently admit he is very happy you havenât booked with another massage therapist that isnât him.
needless to say, youâve become a regular of his and youâd be lying if you said you were booking massages for the sole reason of getting a massage. it had become your routine to see him at this point.
as usual, you book your next appointment at the end of the previous one. and usually, you reserve these appointment days just to see intak. youâd been seeing him for 2 months now so you already knew which days youâd be seeing him, but you forgot to check in advanced and only now (2 days before your scheduled appointment) realized you had other plans that day already.
shit, now you have to reschedule with intak.
5:42pm you: hey intak
5:42pm you: remember when you said i could ask you for emergency visits?
5:47pm intak: hi pretty, yeah why?
5:49pm you: i didnât realize i was already busy at the same time as my next appointment is scheduledâŠ
5:49pm you: can i redeem an emergency visit for today instead? itâs okay if not
you only half-expected intak to drop everything to see you, but what you didnât expect was for your fifth appointment to be held after hours at the massage spa.
intak would be lying if said he wasnât giggling and kicking his feet at the idea of just the two of you alone in such an intimate session. was he risking his career for this? possibly. could he find a way to cover this up to his coworkers and supervisor? that was an issue for later.
right now, as he unlocked the front door with you standing behind him, his heart was pounding. he really couldnât believe he was doing this just for you, but he was curious as to what was going to happen now after the incident.
âif you want, you can just sit here while i get the room prepped,â intak smiles at you, pointing to the massage table. you sit down, still clothed, legs hanging off the side as you watch intak prepare everything that would be needed for the next 90 minutes. you were curious since you never got to see the behind-the-scenes before your usual appointments.
intak leaves and lets you change and get comfortable, shouting for him once youâre ready like he instructed since it was just the two of you.
the massage starts like normal, everything being the exact same as every other time youâre laying on this very table. but thereâs something else in the air thatâs distracting you.
something about the two of you being alone in such an intimate environment, really getting to feel his hands make their way across your skin, especially after all the flirting and tension that has been growing between the two of you, has you hot and bothered.
even thinking about how flustered he got when you were moaning out to tease him just a week ago has your thighs pressing together to give you some relief.
intak notices right away. âjust relax and keep breathing for me, pretty,â he mumbles. heâs working on the backs of your thighs, fingers dancing so close to where you want him. heâs gently pulling your legs apart to knead into the supple skin, but you let out a whimper at his actions.
âare you okay?â he asks, slightly breathless. you hope heâs thinking the same thing as you before you inhale and exhale deeply.
âintak⊠can you please touch me?â you ask just loud enough for him to hear, your breath catching in your throat.
âi⊠iâm massaging you, y/n. what do you mean touch you?â his fingers stop in their tracks and his ears perk up because of how nicely you asked, catching him off guard.
you use your arms to push your upper body off of the table, moving your hair to one side as you look back at him, one of your arms coming across your chest to cover yourself slightly.
intakâs big puppy eyes donât leave yours as soon as your eyes lock with his.
âplease⊠i need you here,â you say, wiggling your butt with his hands still placed on your skin there.
intak all but gasps, blood rushing straight down after hearing how desperate you sound. his fingers trail up cautiously while he feels your eyes still on him. he swipes a finger across your slit which is now dripping with arousal.
âshit,â he mutters. âdo you get this wet every time i give you a massage?â he asks gingerly, his eyes nearly burning a hole through the towel thatâs covering your butt.
âintakâŠâ you whine. âcan you just take the towel off my ass please?â you ask desperately, your upper body dropping back onto the massage table after losing strength at the slightest feeling of his fingers.
intak swallows thickly, getting rid of the dry feeling he was getting from gawking at you with his mouth open, and obliges.
âare you sure you want this? here? now?â heâs asking. you lift your head to look at him again. his cheeks are a deep shade of red.
âintak i swear to god,â you huff. you had to admit the consent was hot. he literally had you at the palm of his hand and he was still asking if you were okay. âyes. yes i want this, please just-â youâre cut off by your own gasp as he pulls the towel off, his fingers come back to your slit, sliding down to your clit once. you let out a sigh at the relief his digits are providing you.
âso fucking wet,â intak whispers and you almost miss it. you hear the cap to the massage oil pop open before you feel a warm liquid being poured onto your ass and it sends butterflies to your stomach. he uses both hands to massage and spread your cheeks with the oil and you do nothing to stop the noises that are escaping your lips.
as one hand continues gripping and groping your ass, his other fingers are back on your pussy and he groans at the sight of you, oiled up and sprawled out for him. he presses a single digit to your hole which flutters at the contact before pulling away, making you whine.
âwhatâs wrong, pretty?â he asks, feigning concern as he starts drawing slow circles on your clit. you feel his weight on the table as he sits on it by your leg. you wiggle back at him, not trusting your voice right now.
âintaaak,â you whine out, getting frustrated that he was still talking to you like you werenât at his complete mercy.
âgo on, youâve got it,â he encourages, biting back a smile. âtell me what you wantâŠâ
âplease,â you breathe out. he barely moves. once you realize that wasnât enough you continue. âplease⊠i want- i need your fingers,â you barely manage to squeak out the words.
fortunately for you, this was enough for intak. he pours more oil over your cunt, not that you needed it, but there was something about seeing your pussy glistening between his fingers that had his head reeling. he pushes your legs further apart and uses both hands to slowly spread your folds apart, almost like itâs part of the massage routine.
youâre doing nothing to bite back your moans, but you donât miss his soft grunts in response just from seeing you and hearing your noises for him.
âyouâre so cute when you beg for me, pretty,â intak mumbles. his sinfully sweet words paired with one of his soft fingers sinking into your impossibly slick cunt has you breathless. he lets out a breath he didnât know he was holding as he watches you suck his finger back in each time he thrusts out, feeling your walls fluttering around his digit.
âletting me take care of you like thisâŠâ intak revels in the sight of you laying on the table all sprawled out for him. he adds another finger, eyebrows furrowing at how tight you are. âshit, baby youâre so tight,â intak grits.
you feel his other hand leave your ass, snaking its way around to your clit. heâs now massaging your pussy with both of his hands and the stimulation has you going lightheaded. you so badly wish you could see his face, but youâre stuck on your stomach, staring at the ground.
the longer his fingers are between your legs, toying with your most sensitive parts, the tighter the knot in your stomach gets. intak can feel the way youâre clenching around his fingers. he can hear your staggered breaths. he sees the way your thighs start to shake.
âyouâre gonna cum arenât you, pretty?â he asks in the sweetest voice. his fingers quicken their pace both inside of you and on your clit, and you feel the band about to snap.
âyes! yes, f-fuck⊠intak please,â you manage to get out between moans.
âyouâre so sweet, pretty... i donât even have to ask you to beg⊠you just do it anywayâŠâ intak is in awe. how was he so lucky to be experiencing this right now? âgo on, cum for me.â
hot white flashes behind your eyes as you cum, your walls constricting his fingers like they donât want them to leave. and he doesnât.
intak doesnât stop stroking your gummy walls, nor does he stop circling your clit with the smooth tips of his fingers. heâs pumping his digits even faster and deeper in you than before, determined to make you cum again.
âintak!â you gasp, body writhing at the overwhelming sensations. but intak doesnât hear you. his eyes are laser focused on your cunt, not stopping his movements. âintak, itâs⊠itâs too much, please!â
âoh, pretty,â he coos. âiâm sure you can take another one, canât you?â he asks gently. the contrast between the sweet tone of his voice and the harsh movement of his fingers has your eyes rolling back. you feel another band tightening deep in your stomach this time and it makes you squeal.
he coaxes another orgasm out of you, and truth be told he could do this forever. between the cute noises leaving you and the way your pussy grips onto his fingers, he canât get enough of you. your body squirms under his touch and youâre met with post-orgasm shudders.
intak finally lets up, pulling his fingers out of you slowly. he watches your hole clench around nothing, streaks of oil and cum smeared on your inner thighs.
you pull yourself up again on your elbows as best as you can, head turning to look at intak whoâs already looking at you with a shit-eating grin on his face. heâs holding up his fingers which are covered in your slick for you to see. you wince at him before heâs putting his fingers in his mouth, tongue cleaning them up with a groan.
âoh⊠now i really need to taste you,â intak sighs out, moving toward you.
âwhat happened to hello, how are you?â you ask in disbelief. a smile makes its way to your lips as you notice him pouting at you, his sweet puppy eyes on full display.
âhello, how are you, pretty?â he asks, smiling at you now. he kneels down next to you. âi know this is really backwards but⊠can i take you out for dinner?â he asks shyly. you pretend to think about it, his eyes not leaving your face as he waits for your answer.
âhmmâŠâ you start, noticing his lips moving into a pout again. âi would love to go out with you, intak.â you both are smiling like idiots, coming to realize what really just happened at his workplace of all places.
âi canât believe we just did that,â intak laughs.
âyeah but were you gonna make the first move if i didnât?â you raise an eyebrow at him.
âoh shut up,â he replies, his cheeks turning pink.
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Kinktober '23: Breeding | Choi Seungcheol
Pairing: Choi Seungcheol x Fem!Reader (established)
Genre: Smut (minors DO NOT interact), Kinktober 2023
Summary: You and Cheol had talked plenty about the future, but nothing could have prepared you to see his huge frame cradling a tiny baby and the absolute reaction you'd have to it
WC: 2.5k
Warnings: Seungcheol with a baby, very baby-centric breeding, baby fever hits Reader like a train, breeding, unprotected sex (obviously, I'm not even gonna apologize for this one), fingering, Cheol goes feral, talk of having kids, Seungcheol runs his mouth, petnames, Daddy kink, reader is referred to as a mommy like once, multiple orgasms, slight body worship, praise
A/N: Let me know if I missed anything in the warnings and, of course, I hope you enjoy!
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Maybe going to your friend's house with Cheol was a bad idea. Maybe visiting Joshua and his partner to finally meet their baby was an experience you werenât altogether prepared for. It had been a few months now since their little boy had been born, and you had only seen him through pictures and facetimes, wanting to give the couple a bit of space to settle into the new dynamic.
But now you were sitting on their couch, trying desperately to have a conversation with your friends while being distracted by the little swaddled bundle cradled carefully in your boyfriend's arms. The delicate little thing, pudgy cheeks and drool running from his lips that Seungcheol delicately wiped away, all fragile and peaceful against his chest. You were always aware of how handsome Cheol was, how hard he worked to keep his physique, but it wasn't something that had ever fully sunk into your psyche until you saw the way his biceps looked with something so tiny sleeping on them.
A voice caught your attention, a gentle call of your name, and you looked up, a little shaken from how deep in thought you'd been.
"Do you want to hold him?" Cheol asked, nodding to the sleeping infant in his arms. Your face split into an adoring grin, and you nodded eagerly. The care with which your boyfriend handled him was enough to make your heart skip in your chest as he carefully transferred the baby into your arms. The boy fussed a little, and you shushed him gently, swaying back and forth until he was sound asleep again.
The others continued talking, but all you could think about was having one of your own. Maybe a little girl, one with Cheol's eyes and your nose. A family where the two of you became three, a unit that always took care of each other.
When the two of you got home, Cheol dragged you to the bedroom, pulling you close and cuddling up to you in the comfort of your bed. You curled closer, letting him trace your arm quietly.
"What's on your mind? You've been in your head all day." He asked you. You hummed thoughtfully. You and Seungcheol had talked about it before, having kids, but you had never fully planned anything. You were still so young, and you hadn't fully settled on whether or not you two were ready to take that step.
"I'm thinking about Jaehan." You said, finally turning your attention back to him. "He's cute don't you think?"
"Yeah, he's adorable. Looks like his dad." He said. You nodded, propping yourself up on your elbow.
"Keep thinking about how natural you looked holding him. Didn't really know that it would be so...attractive seeing you hold a baby."
Seungcheol hummed, placing a large hand against your hip to pull you onto his lap. You looked down at him, smiling brightly at the sight of his dark locks in a wavy halo around his head.
"You think I looked hot?" He asked, a playful tone creeping into his voice. You rolled your eyes.
"I said it was attractive. I kept thinking about how maybe one day you'd be holding our kid, I guess. You'd be a good daddy." You said, your hands smoothing aimlessly across his chest, up, along the curve of his shoulders, then down his arms and back up again.
You watched his eyes darken, his hands moving to rub gently over your tummy.
"Could be sooner than later if you want." He said, eyes still trained on your stomach, imagining how pretty you'd look round with his child growing inside of you. Some primal, desperate part of him was awakening at the thought. A part of him tying itself to a part of you and giving you something to share and teach and care for. He was already starting to harden underneath you at the thought.
"Do you mean that?" You asked seriously, your hands stilling against his chest. "Because I don't want you to do something you're not ready for. Don't just want it to be an excuse to fuck me."
He softened for a moment, guiding your face gently towards his to capture your lips in a warm kiss.
"I promise I mean it. Want to have a family with you, wouldn't even think of lying about that. Let me do that, please." He kissed you again, his kiss just as desperate and sincere as his words as he flipped the two of you over so you were laying underneath him. You melted into the kiss, your hands tangling into his hair to hold him close as if he'd disappear if you didn't.
His tongue teased against your lips, coaxing you open for him and drawing the sweetest whine from your throat. He pulled away after a bit, breathless and flushed. He sat back, stripping your shirt off with ease, then letting his follow.
"Gonna take such good care of you. You and our baby," He hummed, leaning down to press a string of wet, warm kisses to your chest, along the swell of your breasts, and down until his lips could wrap around your nipple, sucking gently. Your back arched off the bed, and his hands stroked along the curve of your waist, holding you in place so he could switch to the other side and give it the same gentle treatment.
You weren't a stranger to having Cheol worship every inch of you, but this felt different. It was heavy and warm and nearly suffocating in all the best ways, anchoring you to each other and letting the rest of the world fade into blank space. He slid lower, kissing down your sternum, along your stomach until he reached the space just above your panty line. He looked up at you then, a large palm coming to rest against the spot.
"Gonna grow our little one right here. Gonna fill you up so full, make sure it takes. Do it over and over until we're sure." He mumbled, kissing your lower stomach again before tugging your panties down your legs and leaving you bare beneath him.
You were already aching, thighs wet with your arousal. Seeing him so wound up at the idea of you carrying his child was doing things you had never imagined. He pushed your thighs wider apart, hungry eyes burning into the sight of your dripping core. He brought his hand down, thumb swiping through your wet folds before nestling against your clit, pressing heavy, slow circles against the bundle of nerves.
"Fuck," You keened, thighs twitching, but he pressed his free hand against one of them, continuing his work. "Cheol, please. Need more."
"I got you baby, don't worry. Know just what you need." He promised, speeding up his movements and making your head fall back against the pillows. He slid his fingers down, pressing his middle finger into you and pumping it slowly before he added a second.
He was good with his hands, never having any problem getting you worked up or stretching you out with his fingers alone, and this was no different. You watched the way his brows furrowed, his lips curling into a concentrated pout while he worked his fingers into you, curling them to find your weak spot and continuing to grind his fingertips into it when he felt it.
You were breathless, squirming and gripping at the sheets as he fucked you slowly with his fingers. Your sounds were nearly incoherent, just breathless whines and gasps of his name as he milked your first orgasm out of you. He praised you all the way through it, his hand never stopping as you coated it in your wetness. Once the waves of your orgasm subsided, he pulled his hand away, reaching up to slip his fingers into your mouth and watching as you obediently sucked and licked them clean of your cum.
"That's my good girl. Doing so well for me. Deserve to feel good." He hummed, standing up to kick his pants off. His cock stood at full mast, the tip leaking and flaring pink. He stroked himself slowly, just admiring the way that you were sprawled out for him.
He quickly settled himself between your legs again, and you welcomed him just as eagerly. He pressed the head of his cock against your hole, and you whined when he didn't move.
"Baby, please. Don't tease me," You huffed, and he chuckled leaning down to capture your lips in another long kiss as he rolled his hips forward, filling you up in one steady thrust. Your walls clenched around him, adjusting to the way he stretched you out, and you moaned into his mouth. Your hands found his waist, nails digging into the sensitive flesh and reveling in the way he hissed out.
He stayed buried inside of you for longer than you would have liked, but soon enough his hips were rolling, dragging out before punching back in and stealing your breath away. You never got used to how well he fucked you, how perfectly he fit inside of you and hit spots you could only hope to reach on your own.
"So perfect, taking me so well." He praised, his hands settling on your hips and pulling you to meet his thrusts. The only sounds in the room were the slick sound of your pussy sucking him in, and the soft sounds shared between the two of you.
"Cheol, 'm close." You mumbled, eyes falling shut as you focused on the warmth running through you, the tension pulling tight in your stomach and the way his thrusts got harsher at your words.
"Go ahead, pretty girl. Cum on my dick, lemme feel it." He grunted out harshly, his head rolling back as your walls clenched around him, trying desperately to keep him inside of you. Then you were gone, trembling underneath him as your second orgasm hit, a silent moan parting your lips. He continued fucking you through it. He didn't stop even when you came down from your high, chasing his own pleasure.
"Cheollie, please," You whimpered, wrapping your arms around his neck to pull him closer, dragging your nails over his broad shoulders. "Want you to cum. Need to be full. Please, Daddy."
He moaned, full and from his chest, his thrusts becoming harsher, less calculated, and then he was burying his face in your neck. His breath hitched, a broken moan of your name, and a sloppy kiss against your neck followed as he spilled inside of you.
The moment after was filled with heavy breaths and the sweetest kisses to your shoulders and collarbone. Finally he pulled out, looking down at the way that his cum dripped out of your hole. He huffed a little, reaching down and using his fingers to stuff it back inside of you. You whined, hips jolting a little from the sensitivity.
"Gotta make sure it stays in so it sticks. Gotta get you knocked up." He said, but it almost sounded like he was talking to himself, voice gravelly and barely audible. Then he was tugging at your hips, flipping you over. You let out an indignant squeak at how easily he maneuvered you around, hiking your hips up so your weight was on your arms folded under your head. "Gotta give you another one. Need to make sure."
You didn't have time to think before he was sliding into you again, still achingly hard and desperate to fill you up just a little more, to give you the baby you were both so desperate for, to start a family and have another precious piece of his life to care for. He needed it, the thought of it taking over the most primal, desperate part of his mind.
His thrusts were harsh, and probably would have been pushing you up the bed if it weren't for the bruising grip on your hips, pulling you back into each thrust and making you absolutely see stars.
"Daddy, 's too much," You whined, burying your face in your arm. His hand smoothed over your back, his pace never faltering.
"You can take it, baby. Just gotta get you nice and full. You wanna have my baby, right? Gotta take it," He cooed sweetly, even as you whined and squirmed. The heat searing through you stung, nerve endings on fire, but it only added to the pleasure that was taking over. You could barely form words at this point with Seungcheol hitting so deep inside of you that you were sure you wouldn't be able to walk, and with the gentle way he stroked your back and sides as if he wasn't fucking you dumb.
"I'm gonna-" You whined high in your throat, a broken moan following as you tried to warn him, but he knew your body better than you did, and he could tell just by the way your hips were pressing back insistently that you were gonna cum again.
"Go on, pretty. Cum for daddy. Cream my cock, please baby. Wanna feel it, know you can gimme one more." He urged you on, and you sobbed as the feeling rocked through you. Your thighs were trembling, and your toes were going numb. You didn't try to open your eyes, but you were sure your vision would have blacked out if you had.
His second orgasm followed not long after, filling you up with his seed again. He leaned against you, one arm holding the both of you up, the other wrapped around your waist to keep you pressed as close as possible to him. You were both breathless, bodies exhausted and minds fuzzy with the blend of pleasure and exhaustion. Once you both were back in reality, he pulled out of you carefully, easing you onto your back and curling against your side. His hand traced against your stomach.
"Was I too rough?" He asked quietly. You shook your head, turning to press a chaste kiss to his lips.
âYou know I can take it." You promised. He smiled, reaching up to wipe the drying tears from your cheeks
"I know you can. But it's my job to take care of you. And the little one." He said. You laughed lightly.
"Cheol there isn't even a little one yet." You said, your hand landing over his on your tummy and tracing the length of his fingers. He linked your hands together, smiling brightly.
"There will be. If it doesn't take this time I'll just keep breeding you until it does. Wanna make you a mommy. Want our baby to look just like you." His eyes were alight with pure adoration, and you had to admit as you snuggled closer to him that having a couple of mini Seungcheols running around the house sounded like a dream come true.
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Hi Neil.
I know you are flooded with asks and this somehow became extremely long. Too long. âWhy am I suddenly telling this poor man my life story?â too long. âI think Iâd rather he work on the GO3 script than read this wild beastâ too long. âHeâs going to think youâre criminally dangerously insaneâ too long. If you never get to it, Iâm good with never seeing a response from you. Maybe itâs better that way? Maybe an anon would have been nice here. But, itâs 2024, so I say âwe ball.â Itâs a privilege to be able to send this to you at all. You get a lot to this effect and I hope they give you good feels, so maybe whatâs the harm, yeah? Because this is not an ask. This is a thank you letter.
First, thanks for reblogging my therapist post, I hope it amused you. I nearly sent you âHow am i supposed to explain this to my therapist?!â But refrained. At that time.
So, therapy. What is therapy really? WellâŠ
Things have been really rotten for as long as I can remember. Bad health, bad doctors, bad relationships, bad coping mechanisms, bad all kinds of things. (Yeah, bad is a weak and unhelpful word, my therapist reminds me, but weâre doing this.)
Well, things got even more really really rotten and BAD these last few years. Health declined further, coping mechanisms declined further and more intensely, packed up my life, applied for disability, moved back in with my parents across the country.
Then 4 years ago last week I watched my fiance die of a sudden heart attack. I was 29. Two years later my best friend died. Then last summer I sauntered vaguely into a cancer scare. Not long before an operation my cat who has been my companion through so much garbage died as well. Iâm not entirely in the clear on the cancer scare front. All my attempts at going back to work, volunteering, going to grad school - they collapsed on me because I couldnât get through this STUFF.
(Sometimes when I talk about this, when I tell people, I think âthey are going to think you are a raging pathological liar.â Because Iâm not sure I would believe someone if they told me all of this happened to them. In such a short time period. All before they were 35. And hell if that hasnât been isolating. You know how it sounds? Lonely. And it is.)
I did the hypervigilant and sensation/experience chasing stage of PTSD. It got me in a lot of trouble in all kinds of ways. I had to do a lot of medical and psych advocating because things kept getting worse. That was exhausting. Then that peaked. I went into the thick of the âI feel absolutely nothingâ stage for a long time. I didnât feel fatigue or hunger or thirst. Not people, feelings, a reason. Not hope.
But of course, like seems be for a lot of us, I somehow found Good Omens at just the right time. I was a very âIâm so cool and intellectual I mostly consume non-fiction mediaâ person for too long. Like, what? How is that even a real thing? And it wasnât real. It was just part of this curated autism mask that I donât think anyone really bought anyway.
I think I got to a point where Iâd just had too much reality. I needed fantasy. I didnât realize I always needed it. But I denied myself for too many odd and painful reasons. Maybe I thought it was an escape I didnât deserve.
But as it turns out, it wasnât an escape. I watched both seasons last fall, and then this light came on. I watched it again and again.
I came to tumblr because I needed more. I found this fandom. I stepped into this beautiful world of fanart and fanfiction and brain flexing meta writing and a sense of community and wonder that you and Terry created - that everyone involved in the show inflated - exploded in the right way - like fireworks if fireworks were some kind of autocatalytic reaction - a self perpetuating force.
Itâs not a âsaved my lifeâ feeling. Not a âgetting my life backâ feeling. Itâs been a âmaybe itâs time for you to have the life youâve always been denied - that youâve denied yourselfâ feeling.
Iâm creating. Iâm not âgreatâ yet. Not terribly âgoodâ at all. Maybe âbehindâ as far as the âproperâ timeline for starting. I know there isnât one, not really, but boy does that society machine make ya feel like there is. And sure, I started and stopped a lot in the past. But the second it got hard I always gave up. I felt like if I didnât get it ârightâ to begin with, then I just didnât have it in me at all. But for once Iâm really in it. Iâm writing and trying to draw things that look less like fever dream five year old drawings. (Not that thereâs anything wrong with those, is there? đ) Iâm eating better. Iâm sleeping better. I reach out to old friends more. Iâve made new friends who share this love of Good Omens.
My therapist has been floored by the change in me. After that first funny mini flop, he has been so encouraging about it. I saw him this week and I said âMaybe this is helping me get prepared to start living again. Maybe itâs a springboard.â And he honest to god said âBut You ARE living. This is YOU LIVING. Why does it have to be a springboard? Why do you have to turn this into âwork?â Just let yourself have this for once in your life.â
But there were two more added elements that made it all work. And I canât help but think this whole brainrot thing wouldnât have happened without them. So many things just happened all at just the right time - a proper coincidence.
In all of the madness of the last few years I finally got the memo that I'm autistic. i figured I was for a while. But it finally sunk in for me and my docs and my people. So Iâd been working on unpacking that. Grieving the life that could have been entirely different, shedding the mask. I let myself hyperfixate openly instead of hiding it and hating myself for âspirallingâ or âobsessingâ like others -!like âIâ always punished myself for before we knew that it was a trait and not a personality flaw.
Then over the last few months my therapist and I started trying this new exercise. One session he stopped me and said âin the last 20 minutes you have responded to what Iâve said with 9 âI knows.ââ My response to that? âUgh, I know.â So we started this âI knowâ swear jar type situation. Really, Iâve been afraid of not knowing. I couldnât let myself ânot know.â Because it meant I was âdumb.â I was just drowning for so long in guilt and self loathing for the âI knew better and screwed up anyway.â Or âI shouldâve known better - I should know that by now.â
As it turns out, thereâs a lot of things I donât know. That I didnât know. Things I will never know. And refusing to admit all of that kept me from learning a damn thing. Kept me from asking questions. Kept me from trying new things because it was scary to do something new - something unknown - and I "knew" how it would all turn out anyway. Kept me from connecting with people because it was painful or embarrassing when they knew things I didnât and it seemed like I already should have. Kept me from getting better at making art, music, writing. Kept me from forgiving myself. Kept me from growing. And kept me from moving forward. Maybe not on. I donât know if we ever âmove onâ from things. But we can move forward as we carry them. And as we do, the weight gets less. Weâre able to carry it better. But only if we can admit that we donât know how. Only if we donât treat ourselves like this is something we do know or should know and weâre just failing because weâre less than. Not good enough. Not strong enough. Not deserving. We have to be able to say âI donât know how to do this.â And then we can start looking for the answers. We can ask. We can learn.
I thought about the apple. Being able to tell the difference between good and evil. Aziraphaleâs years and years of watching what he âknowsâ to be true be proven wrong. Crowleyâs need to ask questionsâŠ
The simple and enormous gift of âKnowledge.â The âKnowledgeâ of the difference between Good and Evil. The âKnowledgeâ that can only be gained by realizing, accepting, admitting that there are things we donât know. Asking the questions. Sometimes we get answers we donât like. Sometimes the consequences of asking hurt us. And unless you want to stay in that painful place that painful knowledge got you, well, youâve got to let yourself learn how to get out.
So all of this good? I never expected this. I never thought I deserved it. Joy and belonging and this sense that âYeah, maybe things can get better. Maybe things can be good.â Because I said those things, not truly believing them, to the people I thought needed to hear it. But it couldnât save them. It was hollow. The proof for us wasnât really in our orbit or on our radar at the time. And now theyâre gone.
People always say âitâs never too late.â
One of the people I lost said âitâs later than you think.â
I jokingly would respond âitâs already too late.â
It was for him in the end. For them. For some people I guess it really is. But maybe a lot of the âtoo lateâ people are there because they think âthey knowâ that things will never be good for them. So they stop looking, they stop asking, stop finding. And eventually they just stop.
Then there came Crowleyâs âItâs always too late.â The first time I heard it I thought âFor sure, Crowley-cakes, I KNOW.â
But thenâŠI just needed to rewatch the whole thing. And lines like thatâŠfamiliar thingsâŠfamiliar themesâŠI was suddenly identifying with these characters. I suddenly saw myself. And the realization hit - I connected with something! Something new. And I FELT THAT. And that tiny little crack that made in the wall was just enough to start breaking it down. Yeah, when you start letting yourself feel after not feeling for so long, opening up to the good feelings means opening up to feelings and then the bad ones come out too. But when there IS good ⊠it helps you balance. You can deal with the bad a little better because youâve got the good thing to lean against when it gets too much. And now youâve got feelings. Youâve got good and bad. Youâve got sticky foggy grey. Youâve got life.
Whew.
So, TLDR, thank you. From the bottom of my slowly healing heart, thank you.
And to sign off with some shits and giggles⊠I couldnât find this in existence as a sticker so I had to custom order. Perhaps this will spread misery and panic among the humans of my city - or at least a malignant and creepy sense of unease.
Or maybe theyâll say âwtfâ and go home and google it and theyâll fall into the Good Omens hole they never knew they needed too.
Thank you for this. I never quite know what to say to messages like this apart from I am really glad that it helps. (It becomes the weird extra piece that I worry about when writing season 3 -- hoping that it will be that thing again. Not just a story, but something that helps people feel and helps with healing and helps with love.)
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Yandere Cow Boy
Beau is my first Yandere Oc ever done. He's a few years old now, and he means a lot to me.
I apologize if the writing seems rushed. I am not a great writer, and English is hard. (Also can you tell the Pearl inspiration? Teehee)
"There are bonds stronger than those made by blood.... Or so granny has told me haha! Do you agree :) ?"
At first glance, you may think Beau is a sweet man that works in the bakery across the street, the one with the grandma that always seems grumpy?Â
Well... đŹÂ
In his universe, a lot of animals have started to turn scarce with human greed. The solution? To make a mix of human and animal of course! So when they proliferate amongst themselves or with normal humans we don't have to worry about the shortage of materials :)
Except a lot of them aren't treated... That humanely.
Beau is a crossbreed experimentation to see if they could have a cow and a bull at the same time. He never met his parents. As soon as he was born he was taken along with his older sister (a failed version of the experiment) to a farm.
Farms that take hybrids receive help from the government, but the authorities don't care much about welfare, just make sure they don't die.
And that was the case. Since young, they milked Beau dry for his unique birth. Milk, breeding, meat? Of course! He is one of a kind after all! He can restore "most" of his organs!
His only shelter was his older sister. Motherly, caring, worried for him. He never understood what was happening at first, but she explained everything to him!
He felt awful about the situation. He didn't care much about himself at first, but he wanted to give his sister a better life as he grew. He made a plan with a new worker at the farm that felt bad for them: he would take both in the delivery cart at night and they would escape.
Or so he thought. The night he was ready to leave with his sister, he went to get her and she wasn't anywhere. Terrified the owners did something, he ran to where he was going to meet the worker to see.... Nothing, no cart, no one.
Well... Except a shotgun at his back.
The owners found out about the situation. But they weren't angry, oh no! His sister and the worker could leave, hell they could take some money too! If they left Beau. His sister was a bother, too much work for not a lot of stuff to sell and the worker talked too much. So they left.
They left.
They left me.
He was in such a state of shock, he says he didn't remember a thing....
The sun was rising, before he even noticed the mangled bodies of the farm owners. They were two old fuckers anyway.Â
Oh! He found his sister and the worker not too far from there. The cart was on the side of the road, silent.
Traitors don't talk, after all. And they don't move anymore either.
He leaves on foot, since he doesn't know how to drive, and settles down in front of a closed establishment.
As soon as he wakes up, he sees a grumpy but worried granny, thinking the blood was his own. Her vision hasn't been the same, and we all know how hybrids are treated around these parts.
He can stay for now.... She is a bit lonely, and could use a hand in the bakery.
ËÊâĄÉË Some more facts about him! ËÊâĄÉË
Beau was treated like cattle, so he doesn't understand human structures and psyche that well.Â
He wants to form a new family, have a new beginning.
One of his first meals at Granny was Neapolitan ice cream. He liked it so much he dyed his hair pink, now he is a Neapolitan cow :D
He works in the back, and takes the shippings.
Always raised by women, he likes more feminine things, but still prefers He/Him pronouns.
He has broken two beds because of how massive he is.
He never calls anyone by name, only "friend". Well... Except Grandma and Darling.
Height: 204 cm (6'8 feet)
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