#(Kee is still 17)

[sturniqloo]

♡ MERRY CHRISTMAS ANGELS ♡

▪︎ this has been an big year,with lots of ups and downs for myself but for others too,i came on here just for fun and wanting to explore,in which i succeed but i did sooo much more! i met many new people (some were bad for me LMAO😭) and some who im really happy and glad i did,because they're my friends,who are really the best ppl out there! i immediately felt welcomed into this fandom and im thankful for every moment I've spend on here with you guys! ♡

▪︎ little appreciation time! ☆

▪︎ @chrislilcumslvt the sweetest girl ever,we've been friends for months now and i couldn't be happier with you,you have a big heart and lots of love that you give out! always listening to me yap and just talk about anything to you,you helped me through some of my hard times and i couldn't take you for granted,i love you sosooo much Marls. ♡♡

▪︎ @adoreechxmpion do i even have to comment? my dear Bri,you're one of the strongest woman's I've ever met,that bad bitch that lives in you is something i absolutely love. Always making me laugh even when i wanna cry (and wanting to beat some ppl up for me😭) you're literally everything someone could ask for in a person. Im soso happy i met you and i wouldn't change a thing. I love you Bri baby ♡♡♡

▪︎ @mattslolita Kee my baby,one of the first person I've met and started interacting with,you're the sweetest and nicest person ever! really good friend but also a very kind person,we got along together really quickly like it was meant to be and i believe it was! i love you Kee baby ♡♡

▪︎ @strnilolover GABBYYY my sweet girl,you are everything,we started talking through Bri but got along so fast,and became really good friends that it feels like its been so much longer! you always know what to say to make me smile and feel better when i need it,I can always talk to you about anything,and im so thankful for that. You give me soo much ideas for writing and such,always helping and making sure its alright! You're the best and i want you to remember that! i love you Gabs ♡♡

▪︎ @aether-17 Lulu,you're one of the nicest person here,and also very good to talk to,we became friends really spontaneously but im really glad we are! You're really funny,and interesting,i really enjoy your talks about certain topics cause im really impressed,again i wanna say that its really nice having you as a friend and as someone i can always talk to! I love you Lulu ♡♡

▪︎ @luvleyangeldust BELLAAA pretty girl,you're someone i can talk about non-stop,literally the sweetest and kindest girl ever! i enjoy your posts,and you're such a comfort person for me,you don't get it. Im sososo happy i met you and became close with you,even tho we don't talk much I enjoy being moots and really good friends with you,always remember you're really worth it. I love you Bella ♡♡

▪︎ @sharky-the-idiot literally the nicest,most funny and silly person ever,we met not so long ago but we got close really quickly! i love talking to you,and just getting to know you,you always make me laugh and there isn't a day where i don't think about how happy i am to be friends with a funny and kind person as you are. Keep being yourself angel,and im so thankful to have you as my friend. I love you Sharky ♡♡

▪︎ @flouqiis and last but not least,Luna my baby,you're the first person i actually met here,everything started from you and im so glad it did. i wouldn't change a thing on how we met,we don't talk much usually but you're still someone I would never forget even if i tried to,you're such a nice and sweet girl but a bad bitch in heart and i love that about you. I love you Luna♡♡

▪︎im sorry if i didn't put everyone,but this is just one of my closest friends that i have on here,but also everyone else that i know i love you guys all sooooo much and im glad i met you,yall are the coolest and nicest people ever!! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YALL xoxo ♡♡

[missywritesfor7]

❤️‍🩹Lifeline | MYG❤️‍🩹

Synopsis: It’s long been controversial for idols to date, but idols dating each other can be really beautiful or a complete nightmare. When Yoongi's relationship with another idol is discovered, he decides maybe it’s time to break the taboo and show people it’s ok for idols to date. Instead, they find themselves caught in the midst of one media frenzy after another and struggle to keep their relationship as strong as it had been the past 2 years. Yoongi finds a self destructive way to cope, and it causes even more problems than it solves. As they fight for their relationship and their careers, they discover that sometimes, the only way to truly be free is to let go.

Pairing: idol!Yoongi x idol!OC

Warnings: nsfw, alcoholism, cheating, depression, anxiety, Yoongi goes through a bisexy ho phase, Yoongi is also in his alcoholic phase, post-military BTS

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Ch. 17: Emotions

Treatment isn’t easy for Yoongi. Dealing with the effects of withdrawal is one thing, but having to face his feelings head on is the hardest. He’s felt like quitting a number of times, but every evening he gets a message from Hyeri that reminds him why he’s doing this.

Hyeri had tried to limit her communication with Yoongi while he’s in treatment. She thought it was nice that they allowed him to keep his phone, but she had done a bit of online research and came to the conclusion that talking to him too much could do more harm than good. She keeps her messages down to a summary text at the end of each day. She does her best to only send positive messages. Nothing about her now daily conflicts with JJS, or how she’s been searching for a way out because they continue to treat her like she’s a troublesome burden. That stress she’s been carrying on her own.

For Yoongi, he only knows what Hyeri tells him. So in his mind she’s doing perfectly fine. She’s working hard and simply waiting for her next role. He’s happy that she’s doing well and it helps him relax more knowing he doesn’t have to worry about her.

Although he’s still allowed internet access he hasn’t spent much time looking at social media. He did once and he came across the ever vicious rumor mill spreading lies about Jimin owing a gambling debt to someone. It was so ridiculous that all he could do was laugh, but when he had his session with Minho the laugh turned to a cry.

Up until then he mostly spoke about Hyeri and himself in his sessions. That day he had to explore his feelings towards his members and that hurt him more. It was never a question whether he loves them, but he didn’t realize how much of their pain he put on himself. The rumors about Jimin were laughable, but Yoongi took it personal. He felt bad for Jimin being dragged through the mud for no reason and he felt helpless to do anything to protect him. Someone as sweet and selfless as Jimin doesn’t deserve that. None of the members do. After that, Minho suggested Yoongi stay away from socials and so he did.

Until today. While having lunch he found himself going down a rabbit hole that simply started with him trying to figure out the type of wood that was used in the construction of the cabin he’s staying in. After reading the history of log cabins around the world and the best wood for different climates, he saw a random Naver article at the bottom of the page he was on that caught his attention.

Rainbow heard arguing with manager, acting career over?

Laugh. He’s supposed to laugh these things off. He’s telling himself to laugh. He’s not laughing. He’s watching a video taken of Hyeri and he’s not laughing at all.

He knew not to click the article. He knew not to play the video someone candidly took from their cell phone. He knew better but did it anyway. The video shows Hyeri yelling at her manager in a rage. He hadn’t seen her like that with anyone other than him. The soft spoken Na Hyeri was unloading on her manager about the jobs she’s not being offered and how they keep lying to her about it. She mentions being forced to accept tiny roles for no money because they’re punishing her for telling the truth.

Last night, Hyeri had a shoot for what she was told was a commercial for a new perfume. What it turned out to be was a small budget shoot for an amateur made air freshener spray. When she learned that the shoot was unpaid, which they also lied about at first, she unleashed her rage towards her manager.

Hyeri thought they were alone. She asked to speak to her manager out back. She had no idea someone was standing by recording for some reason. Almost as soon as it happened, the video was everywhere. She’s horrified by the invasion of privacy and even more horrified that she once again finds herself the center of controversy.

As if that wasn’t bad enough, she gets a message from Yoongi today asking her what’s going on and if she’s ok. Last night when she got home after the entire fiasco, she sent Yoongi her usual text telling him she had a small shoot and that was it. Now it seems he’s seen the news and she knows he’s not too happy about her not telling him about how bad things have gotten between her and JJS.

She admits that things have been rocky, but she didn’t feel it was anything she needed to worry him about. Of course now that he knows, it’s got him more worried than if she had told him from the start. Once more her silence has caused the exact thing she wanted to avoid.

Unconvinced that she’s ok, Yoongi decides to call Hyeri. Until now they’ve only texted each other. They both agreed that it would be best that way until he’s made it through the rough beginnings of his sobriety. Today he doesn’t care about that though. He needs to hear her voice to be sure she’s ok.

“You’re breaking the rules, Yoon-gya,” Hyeri chuckles when she answers.

“I think I deserve a pass this once,” he responds relieved to hear her voice and to hear that she doesn’t seem to be in any distress.

“You didn’t believe me when I said I was ok?” She jokes.

“You tend to lie about that a lot,” he chuckles.

“Look who’s talking,” she laughs softly.

It feels like nothing has changed but at the same time it feels the way it felt when their relationship was fresh and new. They talk about anything and giggle at how cute each other sounds for about an hour before Yoongi finally asks what he initially called her for.

“So are you going to tell me about the video?” He asks.

“I hate people always invading my privacy,” she huffs.

“What’s this about the roles you’ve been getting? I thought you were working on some commercials?”

“I was. It’s just that they’re small commercials. The small kind that don’t pay,” she admits with shame.

“Hyeri…”

“I know, but I tried to stand up for myself,” she says hoping for praise. “I finally told them how the way they’re treating me is bullshit. I found roles that I wanted to go for and they got upset about it.”

“I’m proud of you,” he says. He knows opposing anyone is hard for her. For her to stand up to JJS after she had been so complacent before is a big step. “You don’t even sound like you’ve been crying,” he jokes.

“I’m not the same Hyeri I used to be,” she chuckles. “But….” She trails off not finishing her sentence.

“But?”

“I’m still a little…scared I guess.” She didn’t want to admit to that. She doesn’t want him worried about her, but they had been having such a good talk that she was about to release her troubles to him out of habit. He’s her best friend and she had been holding her fears in since she couldn’t tell him. Now it’s out there and she knows he’ll try to pry every feeling out of her in an attempt to understand, comfort, and fix every issue.

“Scared of what?” He asks.

“Everything. Losing everything. JJS isn’t going to treat me right so I need to leave them, but then where can I go?”

“Have you been looking around?”

“Yeah, but what if I’m rejected by everyone? What if this is it for my acting career? I could go back to music but you know acting is my passion.”

“Baby, I’ve told you I can get you in contact with people. Anything you need. You don’t have to try to do this on your own.”

“But I can’t have you help me,” she sighs. “Not right now at least. You need to focus on you.”

“I’m doing fine. Let me know what company you want to go for and I can find a contact and get you in touch.”

“Yoongi stop.” This is exactly what she knew he would do and exactly why she didn’t want to say anything. “I mean it. I’m scared but I’m not completely helpless. Please focus on your recovery and don’t worry so much about me.”

“I know,” he groans. “It’s just hard when I’m away.”

“What’s going to convince you that I’m fine?”

“I don’t know,” he huffs. “If I could see you or…hold you…”

“I just need you to trust me. If I’m not ok I’ll let you know.”

“Will you?”

“Of course. I promise. I just need you to trust me. Trust me and keep taking care of yourself. Can you promise me that?” She pleas.

“Yeah,” he agrees. “I promise I’ll take care of myself. I promise I’ll be better so I can see you sooner. I miss you.”

“I miss you too. Don’t worry about me.”

“Can you at least promise me you won’t keep things from me anymore? I know you don’t want to worry me but I think I worry more when you don’t tell me what’s going on. Whether it’s good or bad, I just want to be able to support you.”

“I know. I promise, babe.”

“I love you so much, Bow.” She can’t tell but he’s suddenly holding back tears. Talking to her, hearing her voice is so calming to him. He misses her so much and though he knows this is for a better future, it still hurts to be separated from her.

“I love you too, Yoon-gya.”

Hyeri misses him just as much. Dealing with the stress JJS has had her under has been exceptionally difficult without Yoongi being there to comfort her when she feels overwhelmed. All she can do is ask herself what Yoongi would do. Every time she does she ends up in trouble or the talk of the town for a while. It’s not all bad though. She’s been walked over her whole life because she never felt like she had a voice and was afraid to speak up. Now she does and she feels good setting boundaries and fighting for herself. She fears for the future, but she at least knows she won’t let anyone walk all over her again.

Yoongi got an extra boost of motivation after talking to Hyeri. He was determined more than ever to return to her soon and healthy. He still worries about her, but hearing her voice and how she didn’t sound sad at all helped him feel better.

Minho has been helping a lot as well. Yoongi still has a long way to go, but Minho could always find a way to make Yoongi feel safe when he’s vulnerable. Each session he opens up more and he feels much lighter being able to talk about things he had been holding on to for a while.

His next session after talking to Hyeri, Yoongi is much more enthusiastic and bright. He tells Minho about their conversation and how he’s happy to be getting the help he needs so he can be the best for her, his members, and his fans. But especially Hyeri.

Only a week has passed since hearing Hyeri’s voice, but Yoongi feels like he’s made a lot of progress recently. He even sent a message in the group chat with the rest of the guys to tell them how he’s doing. He was optimistic and it was refreshing for the rest of the guys. They praised him for doing well and expressed how they can’t wait to see him again.

He’s in the middle of making himself dinner. Nothing special, just a simple pasta dish with a bit of steak. He found passion for cooking again and had been taking the time to cook each one of his meals. That’s just how motivated Hyeri made him.

He’s got his steak cooking in the pan and his pasta already in a bowl. Everything smells good and he feels great. To make things even better he gets a call from Hyeri. He hasn’t heard her voice since last week and he’s been dying to hear her again.

“Hey, babe,” he says when he answers.

“Hey,” she responds. “I wanted to call you because it would be easier than texting. I did it!” She shouts in excitement.

“Did what?” He asks confused but equally enthusiastic.

“I told JJS to go fuck themselves!” She giggles.

“You what?” He asks freezing in place.

“I’m done with them. I want to go for the lead in a super duper huge new series. It’s…maybe a bit ambitious,” she says shyly. “But I could at least audition but they tried to give me more bullshit about taking a break and being compliant so I told them to shove their compliance up their ass.”

“Wow,” he says in disbelief. She’s typically not the one to do such a thing, and certainly not when she hasn’t found another agency yet. “You really did that?”

“Yeah! I’m sick of them treating me like shit. I should’ve listened to you in the beginning and left them a long time ago.” She pauses and takes a deep breath. “I don’t know what happens next, but I’m happy. They won’t stress me out any longer.”

“Baby, that’s incredible! I wish I could take you out to celebrate.”

“We’ll have plenty of time for that later,” she giggles. “I’m just happy to be free.”

“I’m happy too.” He pauses and thinks a moment before speaking again. “Are you at home?”

“Yeah,” she responds. “Of course I am, why?”

“I want to see you.”

“How? I mean you can’t.”

“Sure I can. I want to see you so let’s video call,” he suggests.

“What? I mean no, I think it’s too soon. We already broke the rule about not talking on the phone.”

“Just once,” he pleads. “Plus I want to show you the dinner I made.”

“I don’t know,” she hesitates.

“I’m switching to video,” he says not giving her a choice. He switches to video and waits for her to do the same. “Please,” he pleads again. “Just for a minute, baby.”

She gives in and turns the video on after rushing to try fixing herself up a bit. Her camera turns on and Yoongi can instantly see why she was reluctant to video chat.

“You’ve been crying?” He asks noticing how her eyes are just a slight bit puffy. Her attempt to hide under the shadows of the low lighting in the bedroom wasn’t enough to fool him.

“No,” she lies.

“Hyeri!” He fusses.

“I mean I’m a little scared, I told you that.”

“But you’ve been crying.”

He wants to protect her. He wants to hold her and make sure she never cries alone. He would fix all of her problems and wipe every tear. She knew he would feel this way and that’s why she didn’t want him to know she had been crying. His priority is her now and she doesn’t want it to be.

“Just a little,” she admits. “It’s a big step and the future is unknown, but I’m ok. I’ve got a few agencies that I’m looking into. Don’t worry about me, Yoon-gya, I’ve got this. I told you, I’m not the same Hyeri I was before.”

“You’re sure you’re ok?” He asks still not convinced.

“You’ll never believe me, will you?” She chuckles.

“No,” he smiles.

“What about you though? How are you doing?”

“I feel better each day. I feel better hearing your voice and seeing your face.”

“Therapy is good?”

“Yeah,” he boasts. “It’s going great.”

That’s the truth, Yoongi has been getting better each day. He makes progress in many different ways. However, every time he thinks he’s made progress in one area, something in an old but forgotten area pops up.

Hyeri has been happy with her choice. She isn’t getting work, but that’s all going to change once she signs with a new agency. Though that had been in limbo for a little while.

JJS decided they would sue Hyeri for breaking her contract. They want her to pay damages for not holding up her end, claiming she’s cost them lots of money. She’s terrified since she’s never been sued before, but she couldn’t stand by without countersuing for her own reasons. The lies and especially the unpaid roles they had her doing without telling her from the start that they would be unpaid.

Yoongi got Hyeri in contact with an attorney he knows and trusts. Hyeri was happy, because without company resources she didn’t know how she’d get an attorney. It’s all a mess, but they both feel optimistic. There’s plenty of proof that JJS were in the wrong so she hopes it will be an easy case.

Just because it seems like it’s an easy case, doesn’t mean it will be a quick one. While the case is ongoing, Hyeri managed to land a deal with a new agency about two weeks after telling JJS to shove it. She’s ecstatic and eager to get working again.

Yoongi feels good that she’s found a new company. He’s happy that she seems in good spirits despite how long her case is taking in court. He’s happy that she’s happy. He’s happy.

He’s outside laying on top of the picnic table staring into the sky. His jaw is tightly clinched and his ears are welled with tears that have rolled down the side of his face. He wants a drink so bad right now.

He was fine at first. He started his day with some fruit and iced coffee. He played on his keyboard that he had brought in so he could work on music. Then he went walking outside a little. During his walk his mind started wandering as it typically does. But for some reason his mind was on Hyeri. Not that that’s unusual, but the thoughts went from typical longing to pure anxiety.

He knows Hyeri is trying to stay strong, but he knows her too well to believe that she’s doing as ok as she says she is. He’s worried about her. Worried that she’s going to bed sad and alone every night. Worried that he’s been away too long. Worried that something else may happen to her and he won’t be there for her. He still has the image of her car accident in his mind and he still hasn’t fully forgiven himself. As a matter of fact, he hasn’t forgiven himself for anything.

When he talks to Minho it’s always productive. He’s forgiven Hyeri for the way she handled things with the dating rumors both times. He thought he forgave her before but realized he hadn’t. Thanks to Minho’s help, Yoongi has been able to move past that. He’s talked about other things since, but hadn’t quite realized that deep down he still hates himself.

He’s staring at the sky through his tears wishing he could just have one drink. Something small to take the edge off. He thought there had to be something in that house or even something the doctor may have left behind in the second cabin after he left. Nothing. Yoongi searched and searched and found nothing. Now he’s sad and irritated.

“Is that comfortable?” Minho asks approaching the table. He’s arrived for today’s session but didn’t expect to find Yoongi crying on the table.

Yoongi doesn’t move, he only sighs in more frustration because he didn’t realize what time it was. He didn’t realize he’d been on the table crying for 3 hours.

“What’s going on?” Minho asks softly.

Yoongi shakes his head. He doesn’t want to talk. If he opens his mouth he won’t be able to speak through the sobs.

“Did something happen?”

Yoongi shakes his head again.

“Can you tell me what you’re feeling right now?”

Yoongi opens his mouth but no sound comes out. He doesn’t know how to describe what he’s feeling, he just knows he wants a drink.

“I-I…” Yoongi stutters. He takes a deep breath and closes his eyes. “I can’t do this.”

“Why?” Minho asks.

“I let her down too much. I can’t go back home to her.”

“I thought you wanted to do this so you could be what you feel she deserves.”

“I do, I just…I’m going to find a way to fuck it up again. She doesn’t deserve that. She deserves someone that will be by her side and take care of her. Not someone who will drink himself stupid and cheat on her.”

“Has she told you these things?”

“Come on,” Yoongi scoffs. “She’s not going to actually say something like that. She’d be too afraid to. Even if she hated me she wouldn’t hurt my feelings. I know that much, and that’s why she deserves better.”

“Are you wanting to end your relationship with her?” Minho asks placing a hand on Yoongi’s arm.

“No…I mean no…she…” Yoongi sputters.

“You think she deserves better, and you think you wouldn’t be it for her. That sounds like you want to at least end your romantic relationship with her, right?”

Yoongi lets out a pained wail and begins sobbing heavily. His chest is burning and it’s excruciating.

He just wants a damn drink.

[sky-forest-inn]

Welcome to the Sky Forest Inn!

Note: URL was formerly evilshelter

THIS PINNED POST IS OUTDATED!! NEW ONE WILL BE POSTED EVENTUALLY

Main major change is we’re pro-endo so yeah cry about it

We are a freshly discovered OSDD-1b system, and we are still a tad bit blurry, so do be patient with us as we go around things! Our main blog is @localwindmage Our Simply Plural is LocalWindmage. This blog post WILL be outdated super frequently due to how easily we split, but our Simply Plural should stay up to date most of the time!

General info: Syscovery: 7th Feb 2024 Collective pronouns: he/it/she AuDHD and Anxiety ridden Bodily 18 | March 22 Learned about systems for like FOUR YEARS and been in denial about being a system for at least two lmao Few of us used to be "kins" of Pinter's before our syscovery

SOURCEMATES ARE ALL WELCOME!!

Headmates under the cut (should be in order of image)

updated as of 16 May 2024

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HOSTS

[🌨️] Pinter/Cyco/Ashes (OTI) [HOST] he/it Genderless (Brainmade) Also a Maroon (Vs Imp) memory-holder and Slingshot (Phighting) kinnie ❤️Temnova (26/11/2018) ❤️Brunhilda (7/6/2022) ❤️Gambit (25/9/2023) ❤️Angel (12/1/2024) ❤️Ikabod (17/2/2024) ❣️Zimiri ❣️Midnight ❣️Kaz (forgot our anniversaries </3)

[🌑] Inka (OTI) [DISTRESS HOLDER/CARETAKER] he/they Gendervir (Fictive of Ikabod Kee (The Upturned)) ❤️Amanita (20/3/2024)

[👑] Revon (OTI) [CO-HOST] he/him Male (Fictive of Prince Revon (Arcane Odyssey))

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FREQUENT FRONTERS

[👾] Ballista/8-Bit (ATIUC) it/he Genderless (Fictive of Pixel (Animator vs Animation))

[🎷] Deka/Dekagon (OTI) pronouns + gender up to interp (Brainmade)

[🖤] Ikabod/IK/Ika (OTI) [GATEKEEPER] he/it Bigender (Fictive of Ikabod Kee (The Upturned)) ❤️Pinter (17/2/2024)

[🧨] Ixol (OTI) any pronouns Non-Binary (Fictive of Ixol (Adventure Forward 2))

[🔪] Razor/Blade/Dagger (OTI/IWC) [HOST / BACKUP FRONTER] she/her Trans-Female (Fictive of White (FNF Vs Imposter)) Also an Ixol (AF2) kinnie ❤️Angel (18/3/2024)

[💚] Wave/Ezra/Green (OTI) he/any (Fictive of Green (FNF Vs Imposter)) ❤️Angel (3/3/2024) ❤️Gambit (14/3/2024)

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OCCASIONAL FRONTERS

[🐍] Barracuda/Cuda/Serpent (ATI) he/it/they Questioning (Fictive of Barracuda [Noisestorm] (Just Shapes and Beats) ❤️Lycan (7/4/2024)

[🎥] CCTV/POV (OTI) he/it/they Genderless (Non-canon Skibidi Toilet alter)

[🎵] Cepheid (OTI) [CARETAKER] he/she/they Intersex Male (Fictive of HotPink Boombox (PHIGHTING!: Colorverse))

[🖋️] Cylon (OTI) he/they/any Genderless (Fictive of Cyalm (Adventure Forward 2))

[🎶] Green (OTI) any pronouns Genderfluid (Fictive of Green (Alan Becker))

[🔥] Hazard/Maroon/Ash (OTI) he/him Trans-Male (Fictive of Maroon (FNF Vs Imposter)) ❤️Angel (13/2/2024)

[🗝] Key/Locke/Chain (ATIUC/IWC) she/they Male (Fictive of Morden (Arcane Odyssey))

[💧] Lament (OTI) [EMOTIONAL REPRESSOR] any pronouns Undergendered (Fictive of Ikabod Kee (The Upturned))

[❄] Nevi/Neviro (ATI) he/him Male (Fictive of Neviro (Arcane Odyssey))

[❤️] Redbbox/RB (DNIUC) he/it Male (Fictive of Redbbox (PHIGHTING!: Colorverse)) ❤️Angel (14/2/2024) ❤️GK (9/5/2024)

[💙] Shotz (ATIUC/IWC) he/they Trans-Male (Fictive of Slingshot (PHIGHTING!))

[💕] Surveyor/Pink (OTI/IWC) she/her Demigirl (Fictive of Pink (Rodamrix)) Also a Monotone (Vs Imp) kinnie ❤️Purple (22/2/2024)

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RARE FRONTERS

[🤍] Angel/Alice/Auris (OTI) she/her Female (Fictive of Slingshot (PHIGHTING!))

[❤️‍🩹] Aries/Tan (OTI) they/she Genderfluid (Fictive of Tan (Rodamrix))

[🐉] Arrolin/Laoin (ATIUC) he/she/it/they Non-Binary (Fictive of Arrolin (Adventure Forward 2)) ❤️Temnova (11/3/2024)

[⚔] Asha (ATI) she/it Demiflux (Non-canon Arcane Odyssey alter [OC])

[🎖️] Captain/Crimson (OTI) he/him Male (Fictive of Crimson (Rodamrix))

[🔖] Cardboard (OTI) it/its Genderless (Brainmade)

[💣] Cherubim/Cherry/Cheru (OTI) she/they Questioning (Brainmade)

[📞] Comms/White (OTI) he/she/any Questioning (Fictive of White (Rodamrix))

[🚀] Kitty (OTI) she/any Gender (Fictive of Futureket/Futureshot (PHIGHTING!: Colorverse))

[🟠] Rockcliff/Circle (OTI) any pronouns Questioning (Fictive of Circle (Just Shapes and Beats)

[🕳] Sil (OTI) she/her Genderless (Brainmade)

[🏹] Silverthorn (DNI) he/they Male (Non-canon Arcane Odyssey alter [OC])

[🔭] Silvester (OTI) she/her Female (Fictive of Black Camerawoman (Skibidi Toilet))

[📎] Song/Del/Dark (OTI) he/they/she Genderfluid (Fictive of Black (FNF Vs Imposter))

[🌈] Vantablack/VB/Vanta (ATIUC) he/they Questioning (Fictive of Vantasword (PHIGHTING!: Colorverse))

[🎸] Zulius/ZK (DNIUEC) he/they Agender (Fictive of Zulius Kaltaris (Songs of War))

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NEARLY NEVER FRONTS

[⭐] Ansh (OTI) any pronouns Demiflux (Fictive of Anshine (Adventure Forward 2))

[💛] Aristris [ATI/IWC] [FORMER HOST/TRAUMA HOLDER] he/him Trans-Male (Fictive of Aristris (Super Paper Roblox))

[💫] Asura Gale (OTI) they/he Trans-Male (Non-canon Arcane Odyssey alter [OC])

[🎁] CK Rocky (OTI) she/he Genderfluid (Non-canon The Upturned alter)

[🌱] Seeker/Planter/Guardian (OTI) she/he Bigender (Fictive of Lime (Rodamrix))

[⚙] Shallare/Shally (OTI) she/he Bigender (Fictive of Shallare (Adventure Forward 2))

[🎩] Skylar/Blueband (OTI) he/any Bigender (Fictive of Blueband (Adventure Forward 1 Deluxe))

[🌹] Stelle (OTI) she/they Questioning (Fictive of Forteshifter (Rodamrix))

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TO BE ORDERED/NEW

[🪨] Carina (ATI) prns (Fictive of Lady Carina (Arcane Odyssey))

[🔆] Joy Zelgius (OTI) she/they Questioning (Non-canon Arcane Odyssey alter [OC])

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KEY: ❤️=romantic lover ❣️=platonic lover OTI= Okay to interact ATI = Ask to interact DNI = Do not interact ...UC = ... unless close DNIAA = Do not interact at all IWC = Interact with caution IWEC = Interact with extra caution

Bonus image of us in height order ✨

[telail]

The Air I Breathe. (CH. I)

SMG AMBW Warnings; language, drinking, smoking, assault, violence, gang violence, abuse, illegal activity, fem lead, age gap (f. lead is 17, m. lead is 19), smut, impulsive jealousy, overprotective boyfriend, toxic relationships, side characters. RATED M (MATURE) Genre: Gang Leader/Mafia AU, Producer/Rapper Mingi, Smut, fluff, angst, Romance.

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Kenai tapped her pen repetitively against the janky wooden desk she sat at, her leg bouncing anxiously underneath it. She chewed on her bottom lip as she turned to look at the clock perched up above the white board at the front of the classroom for what felt like the 100th time. It was routine for her to check this clock towards the end of every school day. Routine for damn near 9 months straight. Thank god the school year was coming to an end. It was the final day Kenai would have to constantly turn and look at that damned clock until her much too short 2 month long summer break met it's end.

"And a gentle reminder to have all of your borrowed text books turned into the library by the end of the day. If you choose not to it'll simply be added to your obligations, but be warned- those books are not cheap! Anyway, I hope you all have an amazing summer and we can't wait to see your cheerful faces again next year." And with that the principles announcement was cut. The soft chime of the last bell of the day finally rang. Relief washed over Kenai as she could almost feel the stress and worries of her junior year being lifted from her body. Happy wasn't even the word for what Kenai was feeling right now. She didn't have to worry about jolting awake to her annoying ass chime ringtone at the literal crack of dawn every morning and put in effort to look presentable to show up to a place that felt like prisons sibling. No more pulling all nighters just to finish assignments, essays, and reports that she had procrastinated on until the deadline was literally minutes away. She looked forward to focusing solely on relaxation and a peaceful state of mind throughout her 2 month break.

The halls were definitely crowded to say the least. Students hooting and shouting about being free, some crying and dramatically hugging each other as though phones didn't exist and they couldn't keep in touch over the summer regardless of distance.

Everyone seemed just as excited as Kenai was about this stressful year finally coming to an end. Despite such she still opted for keeping her equal happiness within the safety of her own mind.

Kenai had made sure to turn her text books in a day prior. Why waste time walking halfway across the campus on the last day of school to wait in a long line of students and stay here an extra 30 minutes when she could just go straight home?

She made her way down the hallway, popping her airpods in to tune out the world as she made her way to the pick up area.

As soon as she pressed play on her phone an arm was suddenly wildly slung around her shoulder causing her to immediately look up and somewhat aggressively push herself away from the person invading her personal space.

"Damn, who hurt you??" Toni, her best friend looked at her sideways. An amused smirk making its way onto her face as she realized she had most likely just scared the shit out of Kenai.

"I hate when you do that shit." Kenai said rolling her eyes as she instinctively reached out to hold Toni's pinkie finger with her own. It's been a thing for them to hold pinkies with each other since they met, which was around 6th grade.

Toni laughed at her friend's sudden attitude, teasing her a little for the small pout on her face.

"It's the last day of school Kee, you don't look even a lil bit excited."

"I am excited." Kenai said as she sarcastically forced a big smile on her face before it collapsed back into her typical neutral one.

"Are you now." Toni replied, her eyes squinting a bit as she stared at Kenai.

"I am, do I have to bounce off the walls to prove it?" Kenai said, raising her eyebrow as she looked down at her slightly shorter friend.

Toni just smacked her teeth and shook her head as she broke eye contact.

"Smartass."

She mumbled, cracking a smile and tightening her pinkie around Kenai's.

It was obvious that Toni and Kenai were nearly polar opposites. Toni was outgoing, energetic, and overall just the epitome of an extrovert. While Kenai was more on the calmer side, more so the observant type with a good head on her shoulders.

She preferred to stay home and chill out rather than go out, especially to crowded events like parties and concerts. There's no denying that Kenai was also extremely attentive, sometimes too attentive for her own good. Often picking up on things, that she wasn't supposed to and sometimes unintentionally disturbing her own peace by doing so.

Others often took Kenai as the "motherly" type out of her and Toni's relationship. Seeing the way she took care of the people close to her and gave the best advice.

They were far from the same but there was a balance despite the fact. How else would they get along so well? Toni was around 5'5 while Kenai stood at around 5'9.

Kenai's complexion was slightly lighter than Toni's Russet chestnut brown one. Both of them flaunted pretty brown eyes, Toni's a slight shade lighter than Kenai's.

Without a doubt they were both beautiful, often attracting attention with nothing but a mere smile. But Toni had more of a way with guys around campus due to her being a social butterfly.

Kenai definitely wasn't complaining, dudes and big crowds were never her type of fun to begin with so she for sure preferred things the way they were. Which Toni, for the most part respected and was cool with.

"So wassup, what're your plans for the summer?" Kenai asked, genuinely curious as to what Toni was gonna be up to even though she already had an idea.

Toni looked at her from the corner of her eye, a sly smirk making its way onto her face before she diverted her gaze back to what was in front of them.

"Y'know.. the usual- Oh, you know it's like hella people already got parties and kick backs pre-planned, Shaniya is plannin' on havin' some kind of beach party- glow in the dark I thi-"

"A beach party? With the way Florida weather been actin' it'll be a no for me. You already know how I feel about hot weather."

Kenai declined, already seeing where Toni was going with her rambling.

"You ain't even let me get the question out."

Toni said, rolling her eyes and smacking her teeth as she opened the door to the main exit of the school.

"You're predictable."

Kenai mumbled, shrugging her shoulders as she followed behind her through the door.

"You literally stayed in the entire school year, I let you slide cause you had the excuse of school in general but it's summer Kee, you're supposed to be OUTSIDEE that house is holding you hostage."

Toni said dramatically, waving her hands around as she emphasized on Kenai stepping out of her house for once.

Toni's words were doing absolutely nothing, Kenai's mind was already made up. She would be content with being alone in the safety and comfort of her own room with some snacks and her favorite show or book, that was enough to satisfy her. That was her version of fun.

Rarley would Kenai go out. Yes, she did leave the house but it wasn't common. She wasn't too fond of large social gatherings and struggled to mingle among a big crowd, it was typical of her to stray away.

Like Toni said, she was only so lenient with nagging Kenai on getting out more during the school year because of school, but now that it had come to an end Toni expected her to get out there more or in her terms "go outside." She wasn't upset with Toni necessarily, but it was still irritating nonetheless.

"You turned your books in ahead of time like I told you to right?" Kenai switched the topic, recalling how she told her a week prior to get them in before the last day so they wouldn't have to worry about leaving late.

"Yes mama, I did." Toni teased, mocking her best friend's mother-like tendencies.

"Good cause-" Kenai was interrupted by someone yelling for Toni, trying to get her attention.

"Aye Nini! C'mere real quick lemme talk to ya'"

"What I told you bout callin' me that Kari."

Toni responded, Irritation lacing her voice as she continued walking and simply cut her eyes at him.

"Whatchu mean? You let everybody else call you that but when I do it, it's a problem. Don't be green Toni."

Kari said, tilting his head to the side as he walked up to her clearly amused. He gave Kenai a nod of his head before looking back towards Toni.

"Boy I said what I said, call me by my name or don't call me at all."

She said giving him a dirty look before sliding around him, grabbing Kenai's hand as to not leave her behind in the process.

"Whatever, you ain' shit but a stuck up hoe anyways!"

Kari yelled, to which Toni reacted by sticking up her middle finger and continuing to look straight ahead. Her expression highly unamused.

"Yo wh-"

Kenai moved to turn around and say something but Toni simply squeezed her hand and shook her head, smiling as she did it as a way of reassuring Kenai that his disgusting remark didn't have much of an effect on her.

Kenai smacked her teeth but still respected Toni's wishes.

"His pussy ass, pisses me off when dudes say the stupidest shit when their pride is hurt." Kenai said, rolling her eyes. Toni could definitely understand what she meant, but guys like Kari didn't have too much of an effect on Toni unless they attempted to do something physical. Majority of the time they were all bark no bite.

"It's whatever.. I ain' stuttin Kari's thirsty ass." Toni replied, her tone simple but her vexation still evident.

Kenai left it at that before once again diverting the topic elsewhere.

"My crib or yours?"

Kenai asked, letting a strap of her book bag slip off one of her shoulders.

Toni hummed, thinking about it for a second as she looked up at the sky for a moment.

"Yours, ion' feel like hearin' my mama mouth today so I'll just text her I guess." Toni said, shrugging as she pulled her phone from her back pocket.

"Alright." Kenai said, glancing at Toni out the corner of her eye before looking forward again.

Toni's mom wasn't the best to say the least. Majority of the time she would verbally abuse Toni and say the most outrageous things to her no matter who she was in front of. It's been like that her entire life but it seemed as though the older she got the worse it got. Since Toni has been dealing with her mother's mouth since childhood this explains why she never took anything other people said to her to heart. She had to learn to not let things her mom said get to her or else it would cause her to come off as "weak." Or so her mom said.

With that Toni often found herself going everywhere but home. Usually ending up at Kenai's place, her cousins, or every blue moon at her dad's. He lived on a completely other side of town, almost 2 hours away hence why she went so rarely. She loved her dad though, he was always there even when he couldn't be physically. Always present in any way he could be and for that she was grateful. Maybe she would get to visit him more since summer break had come around.

"Anyways, runnin' it back to this beach party- I think you should goooo.." Toni said, dragging out the last bit of her sentence as an attempted tactic of persuasion.

Kenai groaned, she should've known Toni wasn't gonna let it go that easily.

Kenai smacked her teeth once again.

"Girl when is it." She asked, sounding more like a dead statement than a question.

Toni's eyes lit up. "It's 3 nights from now... Saturday. That's plenty of time to make up your mind."

"Uh huh, and your cousin, is hosting right?" Kenai knew better than to just pop up at some random's party, anything could happen when you're around too many unfamiliar people.

"Yeah, the fam will be there too.. I think. Y'know we gotchu' Kee." Toni promised. Surprisingly Kenai agreed, only because she knew Toni wasn't gonna let it go until she cracked.

She still felt like she needed to think on it more but lord knows Toni would still find a way to convince her to go one way or another.

-

Once they'd made it to Kenai's house they immediately noticed that they couldn't hear the sound of Kenai's step brother playing his loud ass music or laughing with a few of his friends from the back patio like they usually would.

She was slightly suspicious but decided not to question it maybe he just felt like staying in today? It was really hot after all.

Kenai fished for her house key in the side of her bag before successfully finding it and pushing it gently into the key hole.

Once unlocked she stepped inside with Toni following suit, the cool AC immediately engulfing their warm bodies in a cold embrace. Kenai hummed at the feeling letting out a small whistle at the sensation of the refreshing air soothing her warm skin.

"You can head up stairs I'm gonna go look for Joong and get us sum' to snack on." Kenai said, placing her house key in the small bowl sitting atop the table near the front door.

Toni hummed in acknowledgment, making sure to grab Kenai's bag from her before making her way upstairs.

"Yo', Hongjoong!!" Kenai shouted, expecting a reply from the boy in question. It was obvious that he was somewhere near cause although barley audible she could hear more than one voice down the hall from the living room.

"In here!" He yelled back.

Kenai clicked her tongue and turned on her heels towards the living room. Upon entering she scanned the room spotting Hongjoong laying against the arm rest of the couch with his laptop in his lap and one side of his headphones on. She peeped how there was someone else's phone not too far from his position on the couch but didn't think much of it.

"Wassup' Nai," He mumbled, acknowledging her but seemingly having returned to focusing intently on his laptop.

Kenai groaned as she plopped down next to him, causing his body to slightly bounce as he glanced up at her with a questioning look before returning his gaze back to the task at hand.

"So damn boring, I really shouldna' even went. I'm glad the year is over with though." She complained. Hongjoong hummed in reply.

Kenai's dad passed away in a car wreck when she was about 3 years old. Leaving her mom a widow for about 5 years before she eventually remarried to Hongjoong's father when Hongjoong was 11 years old. Making Hongjoong her stepbrother.

Kenai and Hongjoong had gotten close pretty easily. Hongjoong had always wanted a sister, but unfortunately his father struggled with fertility issues making it hard to conceive another healthy child. Hell Hongjoong alone was a miracle. So he protected and cared for Kenai like she was his blood, as he always will. And of course that bond was reciprocated. Kenai was willing to do the same for him as he would for her.

Kenai wasn't all that familiar with the whole "how I met your mother" story between her mom and his dad but it happened, and it resulted in marriage.

"Where's mummy and papa?" Kenai asked in some sort of goofy accent that she had a habit of randomly using. She heard a door opening and closing in the distance as she asked but figured Toni had just come back downstairs at some point.

"Mama is finishing up one of her private lessons, dad is at the office, sum' bout a client meeting.." He trailed off, his tongue coming out to wet his bottom lip as he squinted at his screen.

"Alright well- Toni's here. We'll be in my room.." Kenai said, smacking her brother's thigh before getting up and going to leave the living room to head towards the kitchen.

He hummed in response again before raising his eyebrows in realization. "I got a surprise for you by the way." He said with a proud smirk on his face.

Kenai stopped and turned around to look at him, "Like what?" She asked suspiciously whilst throwing her braids over her shoulder.

"mmm, somebody came to see you." He said, his eyes flicking to something behind her before he looked back at her then his laptop screen. "Look behind you."

Kenai had felt someone's presence behind her as they spoke, once again assuming it was Toni quietly waiting behind her but she swore she smelled the faint scent of cologne and weed, the smell familiar on her nose but she just assumed she was tripping.

Kenai slowly went to look behind her still unsure of who it was until he opened his mouth.

"Hey, Princess." He spoke, his deep voice an immediate indication as to who he was along with the pet name.

There was just one person in the world that addressed her as such, her heart damn near jumped out of her chest as she met his eyes. In a very.. subtle manner of course.

"Mingi." Kenai said unamused. Mingi was one of Hongjoong's best friends. Also a close friend of hers but a close friend that she was currently irritated with.

He opened his mouth to speak but before he could get anything out Kenai cut her eyes at him and shoved past him being sure to aggressively bump his shoulder as she moved.

Definitely wasn't the reaction Mingi was expecting, but he'd gotten one nonetheless. The hell was her problem?

Kenai's summer had just begun and from the looks of it, was already off to a janky start.

wc: 3k (3,064) a/n: this shit is PACKED with drama and it involves literally everything bad, killing, gangs, drug dealing. Literally the whole shabang if you're uncomfortable with this kind of content feel free to not read it. PUT YALL SEATBELTS ON!!! excuse any kind of mistakes. ;P

[incognitajones]

Fic author interview

Thanks to @sesamestreep and @glorious-spoon for tagging me in this one over the holidays! But between starting the new job and the holidays and the RCSS, it totally slipped my mind until now 😬

No-pressure tagging: @anghraine, @ladytharen, @luciechat, and anyone else who feels like it.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

An even 200 if I include both accounts.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

Just under 650K words altogether.

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Last Train 

I fought the war (but the war won) 

left-handed kisses 

Fixer Upper 

Chain Reaction 

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes! I want to let commenters know they're appreciated, and I enjoy talking about little details or plot turns. Lately I haven't had the time or energy for much more than a quick thank you, but I'm still trying to respond.

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

At one point it would've been the bad ending of I fought the war, but now I think this Whumptober piece takes the crown.

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

Considering canon, most of them have an unrealistically happy ending! Especially inside the vastness of the galaxy, the "Naomi & Filip get a happy reunion" story.

7. Do you write crossovers?

No. I enjoy writing & reading some fusions (i.e. characters from one canon in the setting of another) but traditional crossovers in which characters from two different canons meet don't generally appeal to me.

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not on AO3, but I've been sent anon hate on Tumblr about my writing a couple of times (find a Reylo writer who hasn't challenge).

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yeah, a fair bit - in fact it's hard to remember sometimes that I never wrote anything explicit before 2016! It's all pretty vanilla, though, minus a few attempts at kinkier stuff which are deservedly anonymous.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Kind of; someone commented on one of my stories on AO3 to tell me that another story had copied significant parts of it. (They'd already commented on and reported the other fic, so I didn't take any additional action. The plagiarizing story was eventually deleted.)

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! Bless the fandom translators, for they are amazing.

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nothing posted publically.

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I couldn't possibly choose a single favourite! In terms of longevity, it's either Han/Leia or Eowyn/Faramir. And Star Wars ships in general seem to have a strong hold on me 😁

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

The OT3 whumpfic. It's nearly done, but it's far outside my usual wheelhouse so without a beta reader, I can't tell whether it's worth finishing or beyond help.

15. What are your writing strengths?

I think I write decent dialogue, and I'm genuinely proud of the ideas behind I fought the war and pulse to pulse. I can also write a pretty good pastiche of 19C style, although you wouldn't know it from this account.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

Plotting. Falling back on boring/clichéd beats to flesh out dialogue-heavy scenes.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

A sentence or so? Sure. Can't think of a reason to do much more than that.

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

It would be either Buffy or Lord of the Rings - I honestly don't remember - not counting the terrible Shannara-fic I wrote as a pre-teen.

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

Someday I'd really like to write a Children of Men story telling what happened to Kee and [spoiler] after the movie, plus fixing [spoiler].

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Subject to change by the moment, of course, but looking back at some older stories recently reminded me that I've always been pretty fond of don't go home without me.

[kah-way-loh]

STOP THE PRESSES!

I found this on the bottom of Kee-Dah's box:

It reads, 6230C2.

Now if we rewind a little, I first hypothesized that this was Kee-Dah's datecode:

Here is where it's located (it's the code closest to his tail):

Now, if we use the "year number first" way of reading the datecode, the code on the box would read: August 17, 2016. The code on Kee-Dah would read August 16, 2016. We know testing, packing and manufacturing can take more than a day, so I think my initial hypothesis might be right! What is the code on Aquarius's bottom right side closest to his battery compartment? Use the first code before the FCC ID.

Further disproving the battery cover theory, I found something on the front of Kee-Dah's box.

Where have we seen that B7153 before?

Turns out that might not have been his datecode! I think the mystery of Kee-Dah's birthday can be officially closed!

OHHHHHH that makes so much more sense! Aquarius didn't have his box when I got him (secondhand from Mercari) so I'm glad you and Kee-Dah were able to help!

His code is right under his tail and for the life of me I can't get a clear enough photo; that, and it's also fading. But I remember in the first ask you sent that I translated it to July 3rd of 2016, which still makes him an Old Man by Connect standards!

[meditation-practices]

Words of Wisdom for October 17, 2024

Dear Friends: Awareness Arises Naturally Practice consisting of nothing but fierce desire simply upsets the mind and keeps it from being still. But when one’s awareness of the mind is just right, an inner awareness will arise naturally of its own accord. – Upasika Kee Nanayon, “A Clear Awareness of Nature ��� Read More Mini Mindfulness Breaks Click here to offer what you can for eBooks and…

[steveskafte]

TACITURNITY my boyhood passed in a taciturn eternity all those years waiting for the quiet man to speak knocked off my feet faithful to a fault his heart and mine locked in the same vault and it was no different when he spoke in tongues though they said back then that God would fill the gaps I started to doubt it when every time he just opened his mouth and out came the same lines um-shudda-ma-kee-de-a I still hear it in my head an exchange for all that's left unsaid I would've rather traded that Holy Spirit for the ghost of a heart that let me near it but the holes are where the hope gets through at the bottom of a bottomless well the speechless fathers speak for you ~ ~ ~ April 22, 2024 Sandy Cove, Nova Scotia Year 17, Day 6007 of my daily journal.

[jessicawardcreativeenquiry]

Contemporary Artists using Salt printing and its technique.

Figure 2.1 Untitled, from the In Subdued Light series, untoned ammonium chloride/sodium citrate salted paper, 26 × 17 cm © Kees

Funahashiya Senbei Shop, Sanyo, Kyoto 2011, platinum/palladium toned salted paper salted with Tokyo Bay water, printed on Bamboo Bristol, © Wynn White 2011

Elizabeth City, untoned ammonium chloride/sodium citrate/gelatin salted paper print © Christina Z. Anderson 2016

Stand Back Adam!, untoned salted paper print © Christina Z. Anderson 2016.

Moonlight on the Boulder, casein sized Hahnemühle Platinum Rag, 7″ × 10″ © Elaine Nabors 2017

Private, arrowroot-sized salted paper weakly selenium toned, 7.5″ × 10″ © Clara DeWeese 2017

Anderson, C. (2017) Salted Paper Printing. 1st edn. Taylor and Francis. Available at: https://www.perlego.com/book/1572380/salted-paper-printing-a-stepbystep-manual-highlighting-contemporary-artists-pdf (Accessed: 1 May 2023).

i found an amazing book by artist Christina Z. Anderson where she explained in detail the theory behind salt printing and the technique as well as include works of current contemporary artists who this technique. even tho i am not doing photography for this project it has still bee interesting to learn the process and see how salt has been used in other disciplines in art and the history of it. From talbots methos of using salt artist were then able to create photograph like drawings similar to the process of cyanotypes which then led to the cyanotype process itself. This is another clear example of how amazing the material, salt is an how diverse its properties are. It also gave me the question of how lightfast will my own work be? will the salt bleach in the the light, the colour that i have used with the rust to create depth and deeper tones. will this fade in a matter of weeks. only time again will tell whether i have created another piece of work that will fade.

[starshapedoasis]

Since I never followed up on this and I’ve reached a dead end, here’s was what I was talking about. I came across a pic of brother Paul wearing a similar bracelet to the matching ID bracelets that Liam and Noel have both worn.

This pic is associated with a 2011 audio interview he did with the bbc. I can’t find anymore pics of him wearing it. Also the audio doesn’t work anymore at least for me.

As you can tell, we can only see the back of the bracelet with the clasp. I’ve found this picture of the clasp of Liam’s bracelet.

As you can see, the clasp looks the same, but Liam’s chain looks thinner to me. As I said, this was a dead end for me. When I saw the picture of Paul, it got me thinking that maybe they potentially presented the ID bracelets as a sibling thing to the people around them. But we can’t tell if Paul’s is an ID bracelet for sure it could just be a Cuban or curb bracelet that is pretty popular with men.

@aint-that-kind-of-blog-bruv I think this might be a Claddagh ring, just one of the thicker style ones, but again, it’s the only picture I can find of Paul wearing anything like it. I thought I had a better picture of Peggy's, so I’m not positive now, but it still reminds me of a basic gold claddagh ring like the pic I included. Once again just kinda dead ends. 😵‍💫

I have a weird question, yk the ID bracelets liam and Noel have both worn does anyone have a pic of the clasp on them? I’ve been looking at sooo many pics can’t find one of the clasp.

[cosmic-abysss]

BELATED ASKS FOR THE ASK GAME IF YOU'RE STILL DOING IT: 3, 4, 17!!

ofc i will!! for you the world kee :DD

3.what is your favorite way to self care? hmm i think this would be planning to do things for future me :) like taking out butter so it can warm and im able to make cookies, or cleaning something up that i know im going to need later, idk i end up thinking “future me will be so proud and happy i did this rn” and so ill do that, even if it sucks in the moment to do it

4. tell me about your most vivid memory, good or bad. oh shit my terrible memory skills are really going to show with this one arent they?? hmm... i think atm the most vivid would be senior prom night, even though it was kinda a lot, there were a lot of wonderful and really lasting memories, mostly cramming myself into an armchair with one of my friends in a quiet part and then switching to sit with my partner in the chair too ^-^ overall a nice night, and despite the awkward parts it left a lot of vivid memories <3

17. what was your favorite color as a child and what is your favorite color now? :ooo i like this one!! i think little cosmic really enjoyed purple, i was a real purple enjoyer, even got my casts to be purple both times i broke my arm, but yeah i loved purple, i still do!! its a great color :)) now though, my favorite would be blue, theres so many incredible shades of blue that i just love so much, oh cool colors my beloveds <3 but yeah :D

[marigoldvance]

Dash Away

20th Chapter Celebration P*rn

FíKí, M (sexual content)

how-the-fuck-did-you-get-here plot, humor, side story (oneshot)

AO3

For hours Kíli sat in his bedroom – sulking, his mum teased, which made his sourness worse – contemplating what it would mean for them. Their relationship was easy while they were together, close not just in proximity but in spirit. With Fíli going, what would happen? Kíli didn’t want the fire to fizzle out but it would, wouldn’t it? Because people were easily distracted and forgot when things weren’t right in front of them and Fíli was the worst when it came to remembering.

coucou cocopuffs!

i can’t believe we’re here. that we’ve made it this far. that i’ve made it this far. since starting my journey into the chaotic world of fanfiction, i’ve never (n e v e r) written beyond 4 chapters. ever. even during my most teenage-obsession-fueled binges.

so, to celebrate the 20th chapter - can you believe it!? - of Dash Away, i thought i’d indulge myself and you, my beautiful readers, with something a little naughty and a lot fun: side story p*rn. 

thank you so much for carrying me through this challenge with your support and feedback! it means the world to me - you’ll never know how much! enjoy the lads engaging in amorous congress, my pretties 😎

xx - Mari

[natromanxoff]

Queen live at Groenoordhallen in Leiden, Netherlands - June 11, 1986 (Part-2)

Pics 4 through 10 were taken by Tim de Scally, and pic 3 was snapped by David van Dijk.

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Fan Stories

“This concert was the only Queenconcert I went to see. I was 16 years old at that time and we (my girlfriend, my best friend and his girl) didn't get to see a big concert like that until that day. We got hold of some tickets and went to Leiden. When the bus arrived in Leiden the doors were just opening, so I fogot all about my spare ticket. We rushed in and got right at the front of the stage. My girlfriend and myself went a little dizzy when after standing staight up and waiting for one and a half hours for the support-act. Like hundred guys were pushing us against the fences in front of the stage. We got out the crowd and found a better place just behind the jumping and pushing people (approx. 10 meters from the front). I have a good memory of details, in contrary to my friend, so when we talk about the concert I can recall a lot. This was almost 17 years ago . After seen so much of Queen material during the later years and having no-one to confirm things, I sometimes doubted the acurracy of my memories. But the bootleg recording is the proof for me! The support-act was INXS. Never heard of... The whole crowd was singing "We want Queen" between their songs. At a moment Michael Hutchins got a banana thrown at his feet. After their last song Michael thanked the audience and went of stage... A very loud cheer from the Queen fans followed. This was the moment we were waiting for! Queen was coming! At least we thought... After standing on the concrete for another whole hour the lights faded. The lightingset was put in a low-height position, the stage was being filled with smoke, and everybody was singing the football-anthem thing: Ole - olehe - ole!!! etc. Suddely the loud synth beginning of One Vision! We went mad at that point. Precizely after the smoke and the lights were high above the stage, Brian hits his first chords. Out of nowhere the band was there! I think I lost my voice in those first minutes. As we can hear on the cd's, Freddie asked us:" What was it you were singing? That football song..." So we did it all over again, but twice as loud as before. "Add a beat to it..." Roger was trying to find the beat to it, Brian and John were looking for the chords. The Groenoordhallen in Leiden is indoors with lousy accoustics and the crowd was getting to enthousiastic so it didn't work. I also recall Freddie having a beer. He asked someone in the front: "Want to have a beer, my dear?" He did give it to that person. "Pass it around, there is enough for everyone!" he joked. Since that day everytime I hear the beginning of One Vision I go back to 1986. At that time Friends Will Be Friends was in the dutch charts. It was never one of my fav.'s but it will remind me of the concert. The videoclip had a bit of the same atmoshere. I did see Brian Solo twice (Rotterdam and Utrecht) later, it was excellent but did not have as much impact on me as the Queen concert did...” - Kees Schurink

“I remember I was 12 years old and playing piano. I had study for Bohemian Rhapsody and my piano teacher told me that we go to the concert in Leiden. I was so young and was still attending the basic school. The only thing I remember was the taste of beer (for the fisrt time in my life) and the great light show and the unbelievable hard noise. Just remember I was 12 years old. What I also will remember was the fact that my piano teacher told me that he had a feeling that it was the last time we ever saw Queen. Goddamn he was right. I know that INXS were playing. We were talking about them and wondered where they come from. It's still a little scary that both singers of Queen and INXS are dead. Now it is 2002 and I live near Het Museumplein in Amsterdam. It is raining and on the radio I hear that Queen is coming to perform. My piano teacher (I stopped lessons when I was 16) called me and told me the news. So I gave it a shot and went to check it out. I heard one song, two songs, three songs and then I was walking away of this shameless show. It wasn't great: it was bad. John wasn't there, Freddie wasn't there. And Roger is a great background singer but not a lead singer. Man, how bad it was. Shameless. never again, please!!!” - Cees Niestuin

Part-1

[nolongerwrites]

Hello! Could I request terror prompt 17 with Chuuya :)!

Short king ✊🏻

It was dark and cold. The sound of dripping water filled the empty hallways. You had no idea where you were or how you got here. It was almost like a building with endless hallways and rooms. The floors below you were musty and stained with rust like Earth started reclaiming this place wherever it was. It was too dark to see anything as you got up and continued to try and find your way out. Your hands were pressed against the walls to try and feel your way around since your eyes had not yet adjusted to the darkness.

You were terrified to be alone; You were so scared that even the smallest sound made you jump. The eery sound of wind outside made the place sound like it was moaning. Your legs started to tremble in fear with every step you took and Tears started forming in the corner of your eyes. You swore to god you kept seeing things move in the darkness around you, only to frantically twist around and see nothing.

“W-who’s there?” You yelled hoping that maybe someone else was here. A moment of silence passed until a long scratchy hiss could be heard in the distance. This hiss turned into something more unexplainably terrifying as the sound got closer and closer. A mix between what sounded like growls from a thousand lions to the screech of something that had to be ungodly inhuman. Before this creature born of darkness could come into view, you took off as fast as you could.

When you turned the first corner of the hallway your foot had tripped over something you hadn’t seen, making you crash to the floor. You wined and held your knee in pain as blood oozed out of the small cuts. Another screech could be heard from the distance, prompting you to ignore the pain in your knee and continue running. You dashed through hallways and busted walls. Yet every hallway you went through only led to another.

Your eyes had adjusted to the dark by now but even with this new advantage you still had no clue where the hell you were. Your ran into one of the empty rooms as you looked back to see if you were being chased. You collided with something hard in front of you and that made you stumble back a little bit. Two pairs of hands grabbed your shoulders to steady you and you froze. When you finally registered who it was, a huge wave of relief washed over you.

“Chuuya!! Thank god your here!” You said as he gave you a blank stare. “Where were you? Where did you go? Chuuya I’m so scared..” tears had already started streaming down your face as you hugged him tightly. He didn’t wrap his arms around you. He didn’t say anything back. He didn’t feel like chuuya. Something told you that everything a out him was off. Slowly you let go of him and took a step back “c-chuuya..?”

His eyes were covered by his hair, his skin was pale, and he had a smirk plastered on his lips. You felt your heart stop when he finally looked up at you and his eyes were completely black. Fear racked your body to the core once again. This couldn’t be happening.. and just when you thought it had gotten worse, you stepped away from chuuya only to have your back collide with something yet again. You didn’t even flinch as something slimy and wet dripped onto your shoulder. Large puffs of air blew on your neck and the stench of blood flooded your nostrils. Slowly, you turned your head upwards. A pair of Large teeth were all you could register before you let out a blood curdling scream...

“Y/N!! Y/N wake up!!” Chuuya yelled at you while he shook your shoulders. You thrashed and screamed at him as he held your arms down to kee you from hitting him. Finally, your eyes opened wide and your screams were replaced with panting. Chuuya let out a sigh and wiped your hair from your face. “Jesus Christ you scared the shit out of me, are you okay?”

You quickly grabbed his face and checked his eyes before rubbing his cheeks and forehead to make sure it was really him. “Is it really you? Are you really chuuya??” His eyebrow twitched before slapping your hands away from him face ”of course it’s me damnit! What the hell was going on in your nightmare?”

You stayed silent. Instead you chose to throw yourself on him and bury your face in his chest and cry. He could feel you tremble underneath his hands as he slowly hugged you back. “Hey it’s okay, your safe now I promise. Tell me what’s wrong Y/N ” He whispered in your hair. After a few minutes you let go of him and wiped your tears with the back of your hand. You were about to tell him about the horrible dream you had just experienced until you noticed something that made the color drain from your face.

Your knee was still bleeding.

[avettabendrot]

Things I like RP partners to know

Copied from @sundered-souls and @scholarlostintime :p

I like to be called: Nova ( with any pronouns ) or A'vett since I feel very close to him x'D

Several things you should know about me:

I always like to say that english isn't my native language first. Which makes it had for me to get FF specific things right sometimes ^^; I hate to admit it but it took me months after I created this blog to find out about the "Scions of the seventh dawn" :'D

I dunno if this is a thing but I honestly only finished one (1) RP so far ^^; With finished I mean like...where both sides say "this is the end" and they may meet again one time. I would love to finish more T.T So please forgive me if I'm sorta hyped in it to keep on going. ( Maybe this is what dooms me always and ppl leave :'D )

One thing you should know about my muse(s):

His fear about the tailless thing? I mean this is nothing he likes to show but I think it should be mentioned x'D I mean there are a few things but those are mostly like a normal interaction so I won't mention them here ^^; I really like to keep every RP sorta unique. Means I normally don't effect other chars interactions ( ok expect Fennie as teacher cause this is way too perfect X'D )

One thing might be something....I have young and adult A'vett if you don't know XD I normally RP with adult A'vett who studied and works at his fathers bakery and his hobbies are magic,alchemy and stuff. Young A'vett ( as he looks in the picture at the header) is deeply in love with Haurchefant and is normally part of my story only XD I don't mind going as him but there we have a timeline where Haurchi lives and still leads camp dragonhead :3

First language: German

Age range: under 13  |  14–17 | 18–22 | 23–25 | 26–29 | 30+ | 70+

Am I okay with NSFW? yes | no | some nsfw ( some f things are ok but nothing bloody)

My favorite/most common thing to rp is: angst | fluff | smut | crack | action | plots | AUs | violence | slice of life | performances ( Ok for all of these things I have some HC about A'vett. Happy, dark and akward :'D )

Canon character friendly: yes | no | depends

Yes please~ I mean Ishgardians are always welcome hehe Other Miqo'te too ( * coughs Kee-Satt ) Well, A'vett is really friendly to mostly everyone. So I normally forget the bad taste I have personally against the NPC and play it as A'vetts feels about them :'D ( yh I won't burn G'raha or Estinien lol )

RP blog: does contain ooc posts | doesn’t contain ooc posts | occasionally contains ooc

Well sometimes yes. But even there I try to keep it A'vett related XD My mainblog is @thedangerv and there goes mostl of my OOC shitposts :'D

Tagged by: None but will count the two mentioned above for it XD

Tagging: @confusedtia @nyarumi-nyan @roguestly @hiraethwyl @mathemagiks @istolin @ynuloh-nunh @tavard-ffxiv @ffxivvalentinnoix @micaryn-tia @talitiaskauffxiv @ayoaibori @lady-isedaire

yeah sorry XD Went through my following list and found all these awesome ppl here haha

[zashamalkin]

Translation of Anna Kasterova’s live interview on 5/29/20.

Thanks to my amazing Gino Anon, the entire interview is translated below the cut. Final word count, btw, is 2405 so like, send big thanks their way. Holy shit! 

Anna got sick few days before the interview. Not covid, just a cold, that later turned into otitis. It was very painful, but now she’s feeling way better, though she still has some trouble hearing with her left ear. They talk a bit about the weather in Miami (it’s been raining there for a few days, but it’s still pretty hot). Igor asks if they’re allowed to swim during the quarantine. Anna says that the 1/ 

beaches were recently open, but there are obviously rules about keeping the safe distance. “Is Zhenya a good swimmer?” “Yeah, he’s great. He’s spending a lot of time with Nikita, teaching him how to swim. More in the pool though, than in the ocean.” “How do you and Zhenya feel about the latest news in NHL?” “I think, the idea is pretty good. Everyone has been waiting on some news about this season. I asked Zhenya if he preferred for the season to be cancelled. He said, he wanted to finish it 2/ 

properly. This season has been great for him, he’s in a great shape. And even though he hasn’t been skating for 2 months, he’s still been training pretty hard, running, roller skating and he didn’t lose his shape.” She thinks everything is turning pretty good so far and it’s great that the teams will have a time for training camps and a chance to go to playoffs.“In your opinion, were the players mentally prepared to continue the season?” “I think, those, who genuinely want to go to playoffs, 3/ 

have been working very hard to be ready, when the time comes. But, for sure, there are some players, who spent more time relaxing, rather than training. A lot of teams are asking their players to come back and start training on the ice and not all of the players follow their instructions.” “What are the rules about practice right now? Are they allowed to train in groups or…?” “There are no details about it yet. It haven’t even been decided yet, what cities will be chosen as Hub cities. So far 4/ 

the coaches are asking players to stay in shape. They have video calls together, where they go through different footage every time. But, as far as I understand, the organization and the coaching staff are ready for the players to come back.” “How do the players feel about the new rules for playoffs this season?” “No negative feelings. They’ve been under a lot of mental pressure, not knowing anything about the season and the playoffs. Everything seems pretty logical and they’re very happy to 5/ 

get back on ice and to have a chance to fight for SC.” “Is there any inside information about what cities will be chosen as Hubs?” “No one knows anything for sure. But I know that they’re very carefully considering epidemiological situation in the cities and will choose the safest options. ” *I SUCK at translating hockey terminology from Russian to English, so I’m sorry if anything is incorrect.* “Do you think it would’ve been fairer to include the numbers of “play-in” (I have no idea what he 6/ 

means by “play-in”) as well as the Robin Rounds into the statistics of regular season? Because it would give the players, like Ovechkin and Panarin, and Malkin to gain more points.” ��It’s a very difficult question. But I’m sure NHL and NHLPA have gone over all the possible scenarios and have chosen the best one.” “How has Geno been handling the quarantine?” “He’s been very calm and collected. He’s been doing great mentally, smiling and cracking jokes, and keeping us safe and happy.” “Why did 7/

your family (meaning Geno, Anna and Nikita) decide to do a covid testing in early April?” “I had a pneumonia in November and wanted to find out for myself, if it was covid-induced, if I had any antibodies for the virus. But all the testing came back negative. None of us had it.” “What books did you and Zhenya read during the quarantine?” “Zhenya likes to read fantasy books. He’s been reading “Quantum Warrior: The Future of the Mind” by John Kehoe.” “Does he read in English?” “No, in English 8/

he’s mostly watching TV shows.” “I was very impressed by the story, that after his 1st season in NHL, Zhenya hired Russian language and literature teacher.” “He’s had a lot of free time these past 2 months and he’s hired 2 tutors: English language tutor to work on his grammar and Russian language tutor. (*Sorry, I don’t know if I need to explain this, but Geno obviously knows how to speak Russian. What I think Anna means here, is that the pronunciation of the words in Russian changes depending9/

on where the person is from. Every region has its own accent. I think, what Geno is trying to do, is lose his Magnitogorsk accent and start to speak clearer Russian, like ppl in Moscow of St. Petersburg do.*) He has classes with his tutors Monday to Friday. I’m very happy for him.” One of Geno’s friends in Russia has been robbed recently. Igor is asking Anna, if they ever considered buying a gun, since it’s allowed in US. Anna says no, they feel safe and they live a good neighborhood. She 10/

doesn’t think it necessary or appropriate. They talk a bit about Ovi’s second child being born recently and if Geno and Anna are planning on having a second child any time soon. “Of course, we wouldn’t mind having another child. If it happens, we’ll be very happy. I would like to have a girl, though.” “What’s the best way to describe Zhenya’s and Ovechkin’s relationships today? Are they friends or rivals” “Both. And healthy rivalry is very important in order to reach their personal goals.” 11/

“When Caps and Pens play each other, is it possible for them to go have dinner after.” “No.” “What can you say about the relationships between Zhenya and Sidney Crosby? When we talked with Zhenya last year, he said very nice and kind things about him. Even though Zhenya is in Sid’s shadow a lot of the time.” “I can talk about it for hours. They push each other and make each other stronger. But they also can step in and do more than anyone, when the other is hurt and not playing. Off the ice, 12/

they are very good friends and they support each other. Have I ever thought about what his life would be like, if he was the only star player in a team? I think, he’d be the best player in the whole NHL. He’s very intelligent in terms of building a game, always plans 2-3 steps ahead. He’s very fearless in his game, very talented and vey multilateral player. He’s very unique. They won together THREE STANLEY CUPS! No one's saying Crosby is less talented. He’s an incredible player, he works very13/

hard every day. They are 2 number 1 players in this team. If Zhenya ever asked me if I’d like him to play in New York, f/e, I’d say, no. Pittsburgh is his city, his home. And management and coaching staff are also a very important part of team success. The relationship inside the team is very important. And Pens are the best in that, imo.” “You two watched Super Bowl at Sid’s place. What’s it like there?” “It’s a tradition. Every year Sid invites the team with their wifes/gfs/kids to watch 14/

Super Bowl. His gf Kathy does all the cooking. She’s a very geart person, very hospitable. *omg, this is the first time I hear any1 talking about Sid’s gf 😀, aww* Everyone on the team is very open, very kind, they are great guys. It’s the best thing about Pens. So we’re always happy to accept Sid’s invitation and we always have a great time.” “Do you want Nikita to become a hockey player?” “We’re not gonna push him to it. If it’s something he wants, sure. But I have big plans for his 15/

education. I’d like him to know 2 languages, (English) and Russian, especially grammar, not just being able to speak it freely. I’m studying with him and for an almost 4 yo he already knows quite a lot. And it’s always very hard for a child of a parent, who has achieved so much, to surpass that kind of success. And I don’t want my son to have this kind of pressure on him. I don’t want him to be known solely as “Malkin’s son”. For me it’s very important for him to get a good education and to 16/

choose his path in life.” “Talking about the tv series about Michael Jordan, would you like a bio series to be shot about Zhenya?” “I know he wants to act, in a tv series or in a movie. He talked about it many times. As for a biopic, of course I would like that. He has a huge success story. A man from a simple, working class family. It’s very expensive to play hockey. And he was so talented even in a young age, that his coaches would sometimes bring him a puck, or a stick, or a uniform, for 17/

free. Add to that a story about him finally getting to NHL.” “Zhenya said once in an interview, that you fight sometimes about him not being open enough w/ you, not sharing his problems etc. Has it changed during the quarantine?” “Everything’s been great during quarantine. During the season, he’s under a lot of pressure and always takes it hard if the team loses or if he doesn’t score. Right now he’s very calm and happy, and everything is great.” A question about a conflict around Geno having18/

a USA passport (a lot of people in Russia, his celebrity friends especially, weren’t happy with that, and judged him for that). What does Anna think about it? “He’s a patriot. He loves his country and his city. We were in a hopeless situation, when I needed to get all the documents ready ASAP, and we needed to get married, and him having a US passport would speed that up. You could say, he did it for me. On the other hand, America is his 2nd home. He spends here more time than in Russia. He’s19/

been working here for years. Why is that such a big problem? It’s not like he turned his back on Russia or anything.” Then she talked about Geno’s donation to families in Magnitogorsk, who suffered bc of explosion that happened there in December 2018, and how much he gives to his community in Russia, that ppl don’t know about, bc he prefers not to advertise it. Then Igor keeps asking political questions and Anna is getting more and more irritated by them. Geno publicly supported Putin’s 20/

reelection whenever that was, and interviewer is asking whether him having an American passport is appropriate, considering that he’s a part of Putin team? “Why is it inappropriate? America and Russia are not enemies. Yes, there are some unresolved political issues. They are 2 huge countries, of course they will always feel threatened by each other. But I don’t see any serious political confrontation. Maybe bc we’re in US right now. But Zhenya has a great respect for his president. *bleh, I 21/

don’t like Putin. I know, she has to say nice things about him, bc as long as Geno is a part of Team Russia and wants to have a life in Russia, they can’t be openly against him. But both Geno and Anna don’t strike me as ppl, who will support Putin’s ideals. Sorry for me butting in w/ my opinion*” Question about Geno’s new diet after 18-19 season. “He never drinks alcohol during season. He doesn’t eat potatoes anymore. It’s very hard to cook him a soup w/o any potatoes in it. No sweet things,22/

no gluten. Now before games, he eats gluten-free pasta.” “Is he very superstitious? Do you try to wean him off some of them?” “No, if it makes him feel comfortable, why would I do that?” She declined to name any of them, bc it’s a personal thing for Geno. “Do you put in any work in Zhenya’s image and style?” “I think so, a bit. His sense of style has become better, his taste in literature.” “Zhenya’s favorite music?” “Russian pop-music mostly.” Question about Geno’s gaming habits. Anna 23/

doesn’t try to control him or tell him not to play, bc for him these computer games are a way to relax. She doesn’t mind. It’s his personal time. He doesn’t have his computer in Miami, so he found another way to spend time – studying with his tutors. Question about Olympics. “Yes, he’d like to win a gold medal with Team Russia, when the time comes.” He doesn’t feel jealous about Datsyuk or Kovalchuk, who have an Olympic gold. “Do you think, Zhenya’s last hockey season before retirement will 24/

be in Magnitogorsk?” “Sure, I don’t see why not. He’s very grateful for everything Metallurg gave him and it would seem logical for him to come back there before retiring.” “What is Zhenya’s biggest motivation right now?” “He’s very self-critical (she means Geno’s words about his skills in 18-19 season). He always has a high bar for himself and je always tries to reach it.” Question about Geno reaching 1000 pts. “It was a very big moment for us and a big win for him. He was very inspired 25/

by it and it gave him a lot of self-confidence.” ‘Was Zhenya mad about not making NHL’s 100 players list?” “I was. I was very angry. But he knows his value and what he’s achieved as a player. But it was very strange for me.” “Who do you think Zhenya wil be after his career ends? And how will your life together change? Will you spend more time in Russia or in US?” “It’s a tough question. I imagine a house by the lake, in Russia, with kids and, later, grandkids. With a big fireplace. I think, 26/

after finishing his career, we’d like to travel a bit. But I don’t know. It’s something you should ask him.”