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time to start query round #5 (active torture, geneva convention violation, i need a forehead kiss)
#me as person#galaxy's writing#i want to rip my teeth out#i'm so exhausted#i want this to work so badly and like. ugh.#on the plus side my therapist asked to read something from me and i brought her chapter one today and she really really liked it#and i'm like#<3<3<3<3<3#it. uh. was the confidence boost i needed to try again which was largely the point#but still!!#like you don't think it's going to be as draining as it is#i got a form rejection like two days ago from someone i quiered in.....................october?? and i was like#bud#bud i kind of assumed ngl
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Hero whump part 2
Continued from here
Cw: hero whump. Exhaustion whump (sort of, I tried). Kidnapping (mentioned). Wing whump. Implied torture.
Superhero was in his office, buried knee-deep in reports. The blinds and windows were all closed, the only light in there a lonely, big lamp on top of his desk. He had locked himself in there for days, his only interactions being with his secretary and occasionally Sidekick, who liked to pop in from time to time to check on him. Nice kid. Smart, too. They could always tell what he really needed at times like these. They had been begging Superhero to take a break, however small, but he had refused. How could he?
He knew he had told everyone that was left after the⌠he wouldnât call it âwarâ exactly. But he wouldnât call it fight either. Seriously, what the hell even was that. It all came so sudden, leaving them unprepared.
âSuperhero!â A hero yelled. Superhero only grunted in response, too busy stuffing his face with pie. âHn?â
The hero panted as he ran towards the cafeteria table, their hair disheveled, their eyes blown wide. âSuperheroâŚâ they wheezed, and Superhero saw then that they had some blood smeared on their face too. He straightened his back, this had to be serious. âSuperheroâŚâ the hero almost fell to their knees, nearly sobbing, saying his hero title like a prayer. The superâs spine went rigid.
âSpeak, hero.â Â He ordered, not unkindly. He had to know what was going on.
âVillainsâŚâ the sobbing hero chocked out. Superhero only quirked his brow, waiting for them to calm down. Other heroes were watching them, some with concern and wariness, some with curiosity, others with frustration as their peaceful break got interrupted. But the shaken hero before him payed them no mind. They shook as they struggled to stand on their own two feet.
âTake your time.â Superhero smiled reassuringly at them and patted thespot beside him. âCome. Sit. You seem quite shaken up.â He said, observing them as they sat down, wincing. Superhero frowned slightly. There was blood coming out of their leg. They were in need of medical assistance, but he decided not to press on the matter, judging by the deep breaths the hero took as they tried to regain their composure. He patted their back lightly, relieved to see that they didnât flinch.
After a while, the young hero licked their lips nervously. Superhero offered their bottle of water wordlessly, but they other didnât even notice. âVillains...â They rasped. âVillains are attacking the Square.â
âHow many of them?â Superhero asked softly. The hero beside them was young, but he doubted that that was the reason they came all the way from the Square to HQ in this condition.
âTen.â They whispered, their voice wavering and Superhero stilled. Did he hear that right? Ten? Ten?!
âTen?â His voice was composed, belying his speeding heartrate. He could feel other heroes nearby blinking and murmuring with each other in confusion. Ten villains in one place was⌠well it was unheard of. UnlessâŚ
âWere they in some sort of group? Gang? Cult?â He stopped suggesting when the hero shook their head repeatedly.
âThey all wore different suits. They didnât have any patterns, didnât look like they belonged in one group. There were only two at first.â They whispered, as if scared to relieve the memory. âI was patrolling with my⌠with my partner,â their voice cracked, âwhen we saw them. They werenât really doing anything, they were just⌠lurking there. My partner and I saw them and we sort of stopped walking, because we were a bit confused, you know?â Superhero nodded, even though he didnât know. He always went to confront villains, always the daring one of his group, never the one to sit still. But that wasnât important right now.
âOur eyes locked and thenâŚâ the hero clutched their seat, their knuckles going white, âand then they just started attacking? Unprompted. No explanation. They just, they just lunged at us.
âWe fought against them as long as we could and for a while we had them. But then a third and fourth showed up.â The heroâs body started shaking and Superhero put a gentle hand on their shoulder. âAnd then a fifth. And then a few others. I called for backup, but these guys⌠they were on a different level. I wanted to keep fighting, I swear, but-â they hiccupped, tears in their eyes, âmy partner, they were taken away and IâŚâ they trailed off, their body shaking as they sobbed.
Superhero frowned and turned his head towards other heroes who had listened to the whole thing. âGather all your partners and check on the Square. And all the areas nearby.â He ordered with a jerk of his head. âAll of you. Now.â
None of them protested. Superheroâs orders were absolute. The break room filled with the scraping of chairs as they stood up and the voices of the heroes calling out to their partners, explaining the situation as they headed out. The one that gave the order focused on the young hero beside him. God, they looked⌠sixteen, seventeen? Werenât they too young for this job? âI wanted to continue fighting, I swear, I was doing fine, it was my partner thatâŚâ they mumbled to themselves. Superhero rubbed their shoulders in a friendly manner and made sure that his tone was gentle, even though he had a very bad feeling in his gut. âDonât worry. You made the right decision by coming here.â
âTheyâre gone. My partner⌠heâs gone⌠they took themâŚâ the hero continued muttering.
âHey. Hey. Look at me.â The older super tilted the young heroâs chin slowly. âYou did the right thing. Iâm sorry for your loss, truly. But you did all you could, I know that. I see that.â He gestured at their injured leg. The hero blinked, as if just noticing it was there. âAll you have to do now is rest. Whatâs your name, little one?â
The hero sniffed. âYoungest.â They answered. âAnd Iâm not that little, I turn twenty next month. Donât speak to me like Iâm a child.â
Superhero only laughed softly. âCould have fooled me. Seriously, you kids nowadays need to eat more.â He ruffled their hair and stood up. âCome on now. Letâs get you to the nurseâs office.â
Youngest stood slowly, their whole body shaking. The older hero helped them as they limped towards Medicâs office. âDonât worry. Weâll find your partner.â He told them after a few moments of trudging. âEverything will be alright. I promise.â The young hero choked on a sob.
Superhero sighed. He had kept his promise; the heroes had found Youngestâs partner. With their powers ripped off. Thatâs how they had learned that Supervillain was at play. And thatâs when everything started going to shit.
Superhero put his hands on his head, pulling his hair slightly. None of the reports made any sense! Not only were the kidnapped heroes gone without a trace, but so were the villains. Sure, there were a few burglaries here and there, but nothing serious. The supers had left current crimes to the police, seeing that the culprits didnât have any powers. It was quiet with the supers, too quiet. It was unnerving. Superhero often wondered if this was Supervillainâs plan, to make him slowly go insane while he spent every second of his life on edge, waiting for something, anything to jump out of the shadows as he went over and over the survivorsâ reports.
Knock-knock.
He knew that knock.
Sure enough, Sidekickâs head popped in as they opened the door slowly. ââSup, coocoo.â They greeted as they strolled in. âYou still locked in here?â They wrinkled their nose in disgust as they groaned. âUgh. Open your fucking windows man.â
âNo, Iâll lose my focus.â Superhero waved his hand as his gaze went back again at the reports. He sighed. âI just feel like Iâm missing something. Like the answerâs right here and itâs staring me right in the face. Like Iâm so close, yet I canât seem to grasp it. Iâm- excuse me, what do you think youâre doing?â his head swiveled at the sound of the window opening.
âYouâve been here for hours man.â Sidekick grunted as they opened another window. âIâm serious. You need a break. Effective immediately.â
âDonât you give me orders.â Superhero stretched, his back popping with the movement as he grunted in satisfaction. âShouldnât you be home by now? Itâs probably getting late⌠What?â
The sidekick only stared as they opened the blinds. Superhero blinked at the bright sunlight. It was morning?!
âPlease donât tell me youâve been here all night.â One look at Superheroâs face and the bags under his eyes and Sidekick didnât need to know the answer. They scrutinized the super with a look of concern. âSuperhero, please, Iâm begging you. Take a break. Please.â
Superhero only huffed as he stood up, twisting his back as a form of exercise. Two times left. Two times right. Then he put his arms up and stretched with a yawn. âDid you at least eat anything?â He opened his mouth. âThat wasnât an energy bar or a bag of chips?â He closed his mouth and awkwardly kicked his trash bin out of Sidekickâs sight. Not that they needed to see, they already knew the answer.
The younger super exhaled deeply. âCome on, sir.â They said as they pulled their superior by their arm. âLetâs get you some breakfast. Iâm thinking of a ham sandwich, you feel me? Iâve been craving that damn chicken meat for nearly a week now.â
âPig meat.â Superhero corrected as he allowed them to pull him away from the scattered piles of reports around his office. Sidekick ignored him.
âIâll tell your secretary to make sure no one is coming to bother you while you take a well-deserved nap after breakfast. Then weâll eat lunch and after that you can tell me what exactly youâre searching for.â Sidekick rambled as they pulled the sleep-deprived superhero out of their office and through the many corridors of HQ.
The tired hero only sighed deeply. âIâm sorry, Sidekick.â The sidekick turned their head towards the super as they continued walking towards the break room, a question mark on their face. âAll Iâm doing is eating breakfast. I have no time for naps. Besides,â they said before Sidekick could protest, âremember that hero I told you about? The one that was in coma nearly two months ago?â
âYou mean the one that actually landed a hit on Supervillain?â
âThatâs the one, yes.â The superhero responded, closing his eyes, relaxing them a bit as their trusted sidekick guided him through the halls. âSheâs coming today. Iâm thinking of recruiting her to my team.â
Sidekick halted, causing Superhero to trip behind them with a small âwhoa!â
âRecruit them?!â sidekick faced their boss, a look of bewilderment on their face. âBut you said that she had her powers stolen!â
Superhero grinned. âAnd yet, she still managed to punch that bastard right on the face.â
Sidekick blinked. âYouâre insane. Youâve finally gone insane.â They murmured. âHey, buddy?â They said then, their voice a bit louder and gentler, as if taming a wild animal. Superheroâs eye twitched. âDonât you think that putting some non-powered girl in your team seem, I donât know, a tad bit risky? For both the team and her?â
âShe punched Supervillain, the Supervillain, right in the face, Sidekick.â
âSo she got lucky. I just donât think-â
âI saw her, Sidekick.â Superhero said then, their voice low and full of something that Sidekick did not recognize. âWhat she did was no accident, there was no luck involved. I saw her get her powers sucked right out of her and I watched as she was thrown to the ground. She got up, Sidekick. And you know what she did?â
Sidekick shrugged, eyes darting from side to side. It was unlike Superhero to use that particular tone with them. Or with anyone really. It was as ifâŚ
âShe calculated.â
Sidekick blinked. âOka-?â
Their shoulders were grabbed suddenly. Sidekick flinched. Superhero leaned close to them and they suppressed the urge to step back. They had never seen Superhero so⌠so excited.
âYou donât understand.â The older super rasped, clutching their friendâs shoulder tight. âShe waited, got up, calculated the odds and then attacked him and punched him right in the face. Donât you see?â He clutched them tighter, a manic gleam in his eye. Sidekick winced. âShe managed to outsmart Supervillain. Supervillain!â
Sidekick blinked and ignored the pain as they finally understood. Superheroâs tone was one of awe. Of wonder. He respected this random hero that had gotten lucky. No, not gotten lucky, they told themselves, just very smart... apparently.
âBut,â Sidekick licked their lips, âare we sure that Supervillain didnât just let her? Or maybe she just caught him by surprise?â
Superhero smiled as they released his hold of their shoulders. âI know Supervillain, kid.â His eyes shone with nostalgia before it was overshadowed by a look of resentment and betrayal. âTheir narcissistic ass would never allow anyone touch their face. He despises looking like a fool, especially in front of his underlings.â He smirked. âYou should have seen the look on their face when they wiped the blood of their nose. Hehe.â Superheroâs giggles turned into full-blown laughter. Sidekick only watched him with worry and uneasiness. They hesitantly continued dragging their superior towards the breakroom, his laughter echoing in the empty halls.
Meanwhile, Hero stood in front of her workplaceâs door, sweating. Do I even belong here anymore? She quickly pushed the thought away as she stepped in. Nobody shooed her out. Good, this was good. Inhaling and exhaling deeply, the powerless hero entered the elevator and scanned her ID. Her heart pounded in her chest as it went down, underground. The familiar feeling of belonging entered her veins as the doors opened and she was met with the nearly empty lobby. She smiled at the secretary who smiled in return.
âGood to see youâre well.â He greeted.
âGood to be back.â She looked around. âI must be early.â
Something sad shone in Secretaryâs face and Hero regretted talking at all. âA lot of heroes had went missing ever sinceâŚâ
The hero gulped and rubbed her fingers in her pocket. âYeah, Iâve heard.â Still, couldn't help but glance arouns again.
Secretary only smiled. âDonât worry, thereâs also not been any attacks lately, so itâs not like weâre understaffed.â He clicked something on his computer. âYouâre here to see Superhero, right?â
âRight.â Hero said absentmindedly, her mind on Villainâs warning. Then, for some reason, her mind wandered to Hero 2. Her mouth went dry. She didnât know him personally, they were just coworkers as far as she was concerned. Still, he had saved her during the fight. And that wasnât the only time. He always was one of the early birds, always punctual, always lurking in the lobby even at the crack of dawn. Hero surveyed the room again. Maybe heâs just getting a snack.
âHey, Secretary?â
âHm?â
âIs Hero 2 here?â
The man in front of the computer paused, biting his lip. Heroâs heart dropped. She didn't need to hear the answer.
Hero 2âs wings hurt. Theyâd been nailed to wall for hours now. His teary eyes that had already dried up threatened to shed new ones at every small move he made. He bit his lip. He would not scream. He would not cry. Not over such a small thing as this. There were others who currently had it worse. He would not complain about this.
âComfortable?â
The chained hero glared at the voice.
âAw⌠donât look at me like that.â The cat-like villainess entered his cell. âIâm just trying to strike conversation here. It feels like itâs been weeks since weâve really talked.â
Because it has been weeks. The hero thought bitterly. He balled his bound hands to fists behind him.
ââŚstill not in a talking mood?â The villain sighed and strolled in, halting in front of him. He just met his gaze defiantly. He clenched his jaw when his chin was tilted by the villainâs finger, forcing his neck into an uncomfortable position. The hero flinched, his eyes flashing with regret and pain as his mutilated wings also moved. He choked on a gasp, his eyes brimming with new tears. âThis could all go away so easy, you know.â The winged hero only clenched his teeth, his muscles tense as he willed himself not to tremble and cry at the pain. He ignored the villainessâ voice. Or tried to.
She grabbed his face, her claws scratching his cheeks. âListen to me.â She purred. âIs your defiance really worth it? Is it worth all the pain and the suffering? Really, Hero 2, I thought youâd come to your senses by now.â She leaned in and whispered in his ear. âIs it really that hard for you to join us?â
The heroâs breath hitched when the villainess suddenly pulled his face, making him whimper as his wings nearly ripped behind him. He could feel the blood sticking on his feathers, the thought of it making him feel bile in his throat.
âAre you going to come to your senses,â the villainess continued to whisper in his ear, her tail swishing behind her, ignoring the manâs whimpers, âor do I have to bring Torturer here again?â
The chained hero visibly paled. The villainess leaned back, admiring the fear in his eyes. She stroked his face softly, as if she didnât just bring up the source of his current nightmares, the one who nearly ripped his wings off is his back. Who wouldâve ripped his wings right off of his back if the villainess holding his face hadnât stopped them.
âNo.â He whispered, terror in his voice. âNo, donât. Please.â Two months ago he wouldnât have even thought about begging, especially to her. But that was before Torturer had clipped his wings and forced them into a makeshift oven, nearly burning them of. Before they plucked his wings one by one until the stubborn hero started crying. Before they had chained the hero to the ceiling by the wings, leaving him dangling there for two days straight. They wouldâve left him a third day if he hadnât resorted to begging. âNot them, please.â
âYou know what to do, hero.â The hero stilled. âJoin us and you will suffer no longer.â
A few seconds passed.
âNo.â Hero 2 whispered.
Villainess sighed tiredly and released his face, too suddenly. The hero bit back a scream as he heard a rippp coming from behind. âIs the word ânoâ the only one in your vocabulary?â She shook her head like a disappointed mother. âLooks to me like you still need another lesson.â
The hero shook his head and choked back a cry, his shoulders shaking as tears streamed freely down his face. The villainess ignored him, walking out of the cell humming a tune.
The hero cried freely then, begging to any god that would listen that the ones that had survived during the war were still looking for him.
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If you read all of that, thank you and congrats. I didn't know it would come out so long
Sidekick's live reaction to Superhero suggesting recruiting a hero whose power was taken away because she managed to land a lucky hit on his nemesis (they're concerned for both Superhero and the Hero):

#dilf superhero#he might be a bit insane ngl#exhaustion whump#tired superhero#hero villain story#heroes and villains#villains and heroes#tw implied torture#cw implied torture#wing whump#hero whump#hero whumpee#winged whumpee#villain whumper#writing#my writing#hero x villain#villain x hero#stubborn whumpee
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little hiatus (again) guys my busy summer continues unfortunately đŹ on Friday a friend will come to visit me & Iâll show her my new home & on Monday we will leave for a few days in Vienna, before I have my next (but also final!!) session of my advanced education there. Then my choir also has a big concert on Saturday, so yeah I will be busy & not really here until Sunday next week!
#looking forward to all of this but god I am exhausted xD#& two weeks later I will go on a conference & then on vacation back in germanyy#ANYWAY I will try to write a bit today & tomorrow#but tomorrow is also gonna be dedicated to cleaning the flat ngl xD
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my drafts are a goldmine

#iâm crying#to be FAIR i was delirious when i wrote that#i wanted to write a whole Thing but i physically and mentally and emotionally could not#i had a great idea i just. jcbdhdudjsjsj. was in the fucking trenches#weâll see if i can tap into it later or not#iâm ngl iâm still exhausted. ffg is no fucking joke!!!!!
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wip wednesday
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made a bit of progress on the sick fic so here it isđ¤ˇ
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âMaybe we should get you to a doctor.â Buck muses, wrapping the blanket over Eddieâs shoulders.
âI donât need- I just closed my eyes for a second. Iâm fine.â he grumbles, fumbling with the blanket too long to want to actually throw it off, but he does in the end â heâs cold and refuses to admit it, and heâd rather sit here and pretend heâs fine. Heâs impossible.
âEddie, that cough did not sound fine.â he points out.Â
âBuck-â he sneezes, and then wraps the sleeves of his hoodie over his palms. Buck raises his eyebrow, and Eddie pointedly avoids his eyes, as he not-so-discreetly wipes his nose with a sleeve.Â
âI bought tissues.â Buck reaches for the bag and digs out a box, then tries to give it to Eddie, who, instead of taking it, just levels him with a stare, as he sniffles loudly, and swipes a sleeve under his nose again. âSeriously? Youâre gonna be gross and disgusting just to prove youâre not sick?â Thatâs a new level of stubborn Buck hasnât seen from Eddie yet. He canât believe this is the man his heart decided it wants. And that even while sick and gross and stubborn and ridiculous, a part of Buck is still endeared by him.
âIâm not.â Eddie insists, sounding so congested Buck swears he can feel it in his own sinuses. âLet me just finish my coffee, and then I-â another sneeze. âHave so much to do today.â he finishes, but at least this time he reaches for the tissues, looking anywhere but at Buck, cheeks red.
âYeah, no, all youâre gonna do today is rest and take some medicine.â Buck says decisively, then takes the bag in his hand, and slowly starts walking to the kitchen. âGet comfortable, and Iâll just put this all away and be right back. I bought meds, tissues, and something to cook you some soup-â he starts listing off, getting louder the further he gets. âOh, and stopped by the farmerâs market to get honey. Did you know that honey has antioxidant and antibacterial properties?â he asks excitedly, ready to tell Eddie every single thing he found in his quick research. Buck learned a long time ago that with Eddie he doesnât need to hold back and can rant and ramble all he wants, and Eddie is happy to listen to him.
âYeah?â Eddie yells back, voice hoarse and strained. Buck can hear the couch shift as Eddie gets comfortable, maybe even finally lays down. He knows Eddie wonât just give in and admit heâs sick, but this is a start. âWhy donât you tell me all about it?â he sounds genuinely interested, though also really tired.Â
âI will, just a sec! Iâll make you some tea with lemon and honey, howâs that sound?â he asks, and gets a grunt in response, though heâs not sure if thatâs an answer, or if Eddieâs just trying to suppress a cough in an attempt to hide that heâs sick, as if Buck didnât already know. He chuckles to himself. He really has his work cut out for him today.
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#wip wednesday#sick eddie fic#eddie is so ridiculous in this lmao#this is really gonna be so silly and fluffy i can't wait haha#buddie fic#buddie wip#buddie#wikiangela writes#my writing#fic snippet#my wips#still lowkey stuck on alive shannon and coffee shop#and this one isnt going so smoothly either#but im here and trying to work on it all!#ngl i still feel so fucking bad and exhausted and awful and sad i cant even explain it#i thought itd be better and id be back to myself after my cold and my period were over but nope#thought about taking a lil break from writing but tbh idk how id cope without it so pushing myself through it lol#this got venty lmao ignore me#i think this silliness is exactly what i need rn hahaha
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New Life Begins is mirror opposite to The Double in vibes and it desperately makes me want to mash up both in a crossover. maybe after Yin Zheng takes the throne, meeting with emperors from other countries for diplomatic reasons? at least one brother accompanies him and they spend the entire time absolutely Extremely Aware of the women's scheming and high key judging the other men of the court for being oblivious and/or dismissive of the women in general. maybe visits the first time with what's his name fourth brother, then he makes a second visit except this time with Stupid An under the guise of more trading and business because Yin An can always be relied on to proudly boast about his wives being smart and amazing and extremely accomplished businessmen. Li Wei goes with him both times obviously, probably causes three diplomatic issues by accident and fixes them all with food. Yin Zheng is just sitting back and enjoying the chaos like it's his favorite theatre. Xiao Heng and Xue Fengfei are scheming so much while everyone is distracted. Zhao Ye has a headache and wants to know if his ally would take it personally if he banned him from ever showing his face in his court again.
#new life begins#the double#ask game: fics im not writing#ngl if i did write this#itd just be the brothers gossiping behind their hands the whole time#women are not treated well in the double and the wife stans from new life begins are JUDGING them#i dont rly want to write diplomatic relationships here i just want to write stupid an sputtering and causing a ruckus in court#while yin zheng pretends to scold him while fanning the flames#xiao heng has never been more entertained in his life#zhao ye is EXHAUSTED#the women are also here but li wei's kidnapped xue fengfei to go eat dumplings or something#girl knows her priorities<333
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looking at my gif ideas list and feeling absolutely nothing has to be one of the most crushing feelings as a creator

#life#ngl i've been feeling my drive to make gifs slowly declining but would always brush it away as 'having a bad day'#and just push myself to make things because those are MY blorbos?? and if i don't make anything then no one will#but i fear i'm slowly approaching the end of things#like i downloaded the hug mod and looked at it and looked at it and looked at it#and felt absolutely nothing#mel from like 5 months ago would be STOKED af about it rushing to find the prettiest location the cutest outfits etc.#and now i'm just.. yea#funny enough i was inspired to write quite a bit today so holding on to that creatively#not to be all gloom and doom though fingers crossed it's just exhaustion and heat doing a number on me#but i just felt like finally voicing what's been going on in my noggin#will go sit in the garden today and plant some flowers and see how i feel about things after that
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the degenerates: out of context
#td:ex#rip to the dnd story i started & never finished.......#hi. i'm cleaning out my drafts. these have been sitting around collecting dust for like. a year. maybe two. idek#yk i want so badly to be a storyteller on here but like.#story posts are just not for me man.#i can do 10+ photos for an edit no problem but for a story post?#absolutely not. it's just exhausting to me. i don't know why#i do actually really like this story though & it is part of the canonverse so i'll still write it#i just probably won't post it? idk i might do stuff with the characters on here from time to time#uhh fun lil spoiler for the few who were invested in this story way back when#they all die at the end#all of them#that's how the campaign ends#i've had the ending planned since before i even started writing the story#man. maybe i should get back into writing it. ngl monster boyz has kinda taken over#both my blog & my brain lol#n e way i have an edit q'd for wednesday. it's from one of my mini AUs#ok bye#rainyrambles
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Yâall I was fighting for my life to stay normal when the Christmas family dinner conversation shifted to Snape discourse
#I FAILED#it was so funny I really shouldnât be allowed to talk about this stuff irl#the conversation was more broadly about the issues with the Harry Potter series#so my brother was trying to list reasons it sucked and the Snape pointâ˘ď¸ came up and I was not having it!#I won that part of the argument and changed his mind but had to concede to every other point he made#he was spittin ngl#donât have three generations of leftists dissecting a dumbass childrenâs book because your gonna end with a one of them giving a very#convincing argument that wizards participated heavily in the atlantic slave trade#my grandpa should write tumblr meta#iâm exhausted
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Are you still alive?
yeah!!! i just dont really post bc all my asks are fic requests and i struggle to write nsft fics unless im particularly in the mood to. im planning on getting around to them soon(ish) once i have the time
#asks#anonymous#my focus is primarily on my sfw blog ngl. but also i just really dont a lot of non fic req asks and it gets overwhelming lmao#i want to get around to them but ive also been slightly burnt out of writing so its been. difficult!!#but if its just chatting abt hcs and stuff id be more active im just exhausted from full fics#not that im complaining ig its nice 2 see my blog is still active in terms of asks but i dont want 2 write constant fics yknow..#i need a break from full fics for a bit ough
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Maybe Iâll post some old Lumi pages hereâŚ
#finally found the folder theyâre in and dang some are actually pretty good still#tomorrow though⌠Iâm exhausted#ngl the comic is. a sort of embarassing thing for me bc I feel like it doesnât showcase my writing very well#but maybe Iâll do some retrospectives on it though who knows#maybe itâll be interesting#Evan bleats
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if i told y'all what fandom i've been doing time in you'd never believe me and i'd be more cancelled than for any ascended astarion noncon
#i haven't been writing! haven't been doing anything productive actually!#no updates in fact i somehow lost braincells#i miss writing but ngl i feel a little lost & strange these days#moving is exhausting i feel like it never ends#i read two dune books so there's that#i need a new blorbo that i can write fanfic over#come on universe where's my white boy of the month
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#I've been quiet for a while because I've been so exhausted#haven't touched my computer in a week except for some editing I had to do for someone IRL and I was still half asleep for that#got a reprieve from the long shifts today tho so more awake#gonna do those three sentence fics that have been in my asks#ngl tho I probably will go quiet again#maybe not right away because it's supposed to rain Monday so it won't be long hours if it does just normal hours#and my day tomorrow should be short because I'm not on the crew doing the long shift#but I also have a bunch of other things planned for tomorrow because we weren't gonna work at all so uh#probably not gonna do much on the writing front
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anxiety level: imma cry at the thought of finally having 1 hour to myself to just vibe đŻââď¸
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#lamb loose liveblogging#sneaky niki#ngl to yâall... Iâm over ch 11 & 12#I wish I could just overlook the details and be done with them already but no#no bc KOJ decided to make a surprise visit and idk what to do with this man anymore#also. sidenote. I am tempted to watch that drama where the actor plays Nina ;-;#but ik deep into my genderfluid ass I will cry my eyes out and idk if Iâm emotionally stable for that#also I donât really vibe with dramas set in the military world#any variation of it tbh#fun fact: my dadâs hyperfixation is watching every season of ncis on repeat#i can probably quote some eps by heart from proximity to him alone#on the one hand Iâm too exhausted to explain to him why that amount of copaganda is bad#on the other who am I to interfere. ik I would not appreciate having him snoop in my business about fictional criminalsâs mating rituals#but like............ Iâm over it. any more military dramas and I might quit consuming media entirely#also who am I kidding. I got no time to drama watch#Iâve had the same page open on 3 body problem for months at this point#all I do is study and write. and I want to finish both activities in 2 months max#so. yeah what was I talking about?#ah yes KOJ#this kid is /this/ close to show up under SDYâs window with a boombox Iâm telling you#HDS is not amused
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the fact someone's business/military/etc handler can be answering to one of clark's aliases who is answering to one of his other aliases who is answering to him is hilarious to me kdfjbgdg
#like you go Oh Mr. Thompson you're so big and powerful and connected#and yeah true its like impressive and he's a threat#but i also need you to realize he's pretty much LARPing with himself like 80% of the time lmAO like it's actually so cringe#i want to write so bad but im exhausted fellas im ngl#tbd
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can't believe i missed our 6th birthday here! damn ... time flies, eh? â¤ď¸
#QUICK TAGS UPDATE WHILE I'M HERE!#last day at work ended up being 9/13 and ngl it's been practically non-stop ever since#mostly moving things - packing - organizing - etc. it's been exhausting mentally emotionally and physically tbh!#SO! like i've mentioned i've got tumblr on hiatus at least until i can get moved to cali and settled in a bit (we should hit the road 10/15#it's just been ... a lot#and then trying to figure out what's next since i won't have my job or a consistent income starting on 10/13 for the first time in 11 years#no insurance either so that's another thing to sort out!#i'm trying really hard to be hopeful and optimistic and i DO believe that this is all going to be for the best#it's just hard right now#trying to rest and relax whenever i have a moment or two but still need to find time to get some 'professional' stuff taken care of lol#why are careers??? like i just wanna live and vibe i wish i could just retire *sobs*#ANYWHO.#i love you all and i'll be checking blogs more consistently sometime after i move i hope!#until then feel free to hmu on discord! i'm down to chat / plot / write there in the meantime! â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸#â main â ( OOC. )
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