#((hes fine dont worry about it much casey uwu))

[ducknotinarow]

Was Casey furious and embarrassed? Yes. Was he going to kick Raph’s ass? Totally. Then why wasn’t he already attempting to beat them to a pulp? Because Raph currently had his forehead on their shoulder, clearly resting against him, their silent way of seeking comfort. Least, Casey thought it was their silent way of doing so; he knew he did it after that big fight with Hun that left his arm snapped. Boy the Doctors were pissed at him for that one. Point is, he doesn’t immediately move to start biting, kinda just...letting Raph remain there. It gave him a moment to think really,

“Yeah, course I think all that stuff ‘bout yer Raph,” He admits in a murmur, feeling how red his face is, “I know I aint able t’ say it, I get, I dunno, tongue tied when we get all mushy an’ stuff...but like, yer d’ kinda mean the Worl’ t’ me yanno...” 

There’s all those warm fuzzy feelings again. The same ones he felt when they napped together during that rain storm. The same ones he felt when he saw Raph and Angel hanging out. The same ones he gets whenever Raph is being all soft with Young Savage. Casey gets stupid, well, stupider, whenever they begin to buzz. Maybe that’s why he’s looking to his notebook, slowly turning the pages to the specific piece of writing Raphael was reading. He bites his bottom lip; maybe he can’t say it to them, but, he could always try reading it out to him. Cause Casey felt a lot, and he felt it all so deeply,

“...It aint always yer meet someone like you, someone that helps yer see the day through. Someone with the same rage and fire, not just to fight but also with desire, For a long time I’ve been alone, trapped in the shadows an’ stayin’ there ‘cause I thought it was my home. But then I met him, an’ the World didn’t seem so dim. With green eyes that shine like an emerald, lookin’ int’ them makes my heart tremble. An’ a mask as red as my heart, that bleeds for him whenever we’re apart... Raphael is his name, since meetin’ him my life aint been the same. The weight of the World feels lighter, the stars we lay under t’gether look brighter. The way he laughs and grins at me, breaks the chains of my fears and sets me free. I’ve never been so protected, never met someone that I’ve felt so connected. We are an eternal flame, an’ I feel so safe whenever I even think of his name. He’s helped me forget some of the pressure, made my life feel so much better. I aint ever loved someone like Raphael, from his temper to his strong an’ deep green shell. I see him as my best friend, someone I can always depend. I see him as my lover, I aint ever gonna feel this way for another. I see him as my rock, someone t’ ‘elp me tag the city with chalk. Many will find our love weird, but I aint gonna let it be smeared. Cause t’ me it aint ever gonna find it shameful, to look at Raphael as my Guardian Angel...” 

Casey was aware of how much his face was burning in that moment, heart slamming against his ribcage. But he had done it. He had read out the entire poem without stuttering or making an idiot out of himself. And hey, maybe this will stop Raphael from looking more into it, because, in truth, the entire book had writings and drawings about the two of them. Casey just knew he had only brought up ‘emerald’ in one of them. Raph didn’t need to know he had an entire thing dedicated to them though. Turning his head a little, Casey tried to smile his way, aware of how mushy he had just been. He’s about to suggest that they ditch dragon hunting to stay here instead, but when he’s able to catch just a little bit of their face, Casey frowns,

“H-hey Raph? What’s wrong? Are yer okay?” 

Book dropped to the floor, Casey turns, quick to grab the Turtle and bring them into a hug,

“I-it’s okay Raph...I’m ‘ere,” Casey holds them tighter, “I’m ‘ere.” 

| Continued from here because emotions uwu

Forehead to Casey’s shoulder he couldn’t explain what was rattling around in his head at the moment. HE was feeling giddy learning just how big of a sensitive ass Casey was more so about Raph himself. But it wasn’t out of some sort of cloud 9 emotional high he leaned into his boyfriend it was something else,just out of some instinct he found himself moving in to lean in against Casey. Sort of just lost in the moment. Their was a nice warmth buzzing within in his chest as he thought over the bit he saw in Casey’s notebook. Okay maybe he was being stupid here? maybe. Of course, the guy you are dating is gonna well you know like things about you? Wow this did sound dumb out loud.After all Raph thought Casey’s brown eyes were the best thing in the world. So yeah sure Casey liked Raph’s. How did he put it right emerald eyes. Raph wasn’t sure why it was hitting him so damn hard in this moment though. Why he was seeking comfort from Casey right now, neither of them ever worded that need they sort of found different ways to express it like another secret code they had between each other.

“Yeah, course I think all that stuff ‘bout yer Raph,”

There’s a small hitch in Raph’s breath just now when hearing Casey mummer that under his own breath. Needing a second to tell himself off for reacting like that was a surprise. Fuck what was with him? 

“I know I aint able t’ say it, I get, I dunno, tongue tied when we get all mushy an’ stuff...but like, yer d’ kinda mean the Worl’ t’ me yanno...”

Raph glances up from Casey’s shoulder a moment at that last bit. Eyes wide and fixed on the human, question what they just said in their gaze alone. Raph meant the world to Casey? He swallowed hard just now, his heart pounded against his shell just. Raph wished he read more of what Casey put now, he only focused on some small bits. Wondering if he asked if maybe they would let him read more? maybe with permission he be okay with it? Casey though kind of did Raph one better. He heared the sound of pages rustling off to the side glancing over watching Casey’s look at their notebook just now, or he guesses it might be more than a notebook Casey wrote into.

“...It aint always yer meet someone like you, someone that helps yer see the day through. Someone with the same rage and fire, not just to fight but also with desire, For a long time I’ve been alone, trapped in the shadows an’ stayin’ there ‘cause I thought it was my home. But then I met him, an’ the World didn’t seem so dim. With green eyes that shine like an emerald, lookin’ int’ them makes my heart tremble. An’ a mask as red as my heart, that bleeds for him whenever we’re apart... Raphael is his name, since meetin’ him my life aint been the same. The weight of the World feels lighter, the stars we lay under t’gether look brighter. The way he laughs and grins at me, breaks the chains of my fears and sets me free. I’ve never been so protected, never met someone that I’ve felt so connected. We are an eternal flame, an’ I feel so safe whenever I even think of his name. He’s helped me forget some of the pressure, made my life feel so much better. I aint ever loved someone like Raphael, from his temper to his strong an’ deep green shell. I see him as my best friend, someone I can always depend. I see him as my lover, I aint ever gonna feel this way for another. I see him as my rock, someone t’ ‘elp me tag the city with chalk. Many will find our love weird, but I aint gonna let it be smeared. Cause t’ me it aint ever gonna find it shameful, to look at Raphael as my Guardian Angel...”

Raph felt frozen, hanging on every word that left Casey’s mouth just now, was this vain of Raphael? Listening so intently on all this? Because it was about him? No it was about Casey’s feelings for him. That was a bit of difference but damn was it vain to seek out more to hear more on what Casey felt and saw when it came to him? Raph knows Casey is his best friend. he trusts them with well everything. Every thought that crossed his mind, his stupid fear of bugs with how much he makes sure his stock of bug spray never gets lower than six cans. Casey trusted him back of course he knows considering what Casey was willing to admit to him even. They even trusted their romantic feelings to each other. Crossing over that line between friends and lovers... though sometimes Raph wondered if being with another human would be easier they would have to sneek around just for a date after all. Casey worte he wouldn’t feel this way for another? Raph was his rock? He knew Casey found it easy to lean on him but Raph was that much of a support for them? Of course Raph knew he helped casey he just never thought much on it. He liked coming over to Casey’s place it was..his get away. he helped them with his sister now that she knew him or just picked up the place a bit anything that meant spending more time with Casey. Raph kind of thought it selfish but. He blinked a second finding his vision started to blur he was trying to stay focused on Casey, watching their mouth as they were reciting their poem.What? what was going on with him right now, hand lifted up a little to hold on to Casey’s hoodie, gripping on to the fabric tight. Grounding himself a moment. He knew Casey saw him as some kind of guardian Angel and of course Raph would do anything. ANYTHING. For Casey. To keep them safe, to help them anything if it was Casey Raph knew he would go to the ends of the world. He would follow Casey down the darkest paths if it was for Casey he would do it in a heart beat. So why was hearing all of this about himself self from someone he loved so fiercely getting to him? He knew Casey liked him..but it was hitting him. Casey saw all of this in him? This was in Raphael? How?  Raph hadn’t noticed Casey stopped just now he was just left standing in a daze he was starting to grasp at what was going on with him.

“H-hey Raph? What’s wrong? Are yer okay?”

He didn’t even notice the tears till Casey’s voice snapped him back to realty. Only aware of the warmth from his tears against his cheek when the sound of the book landed on the floor had him shift his gaze down and he noticed how blurred his view got just now. Body tugged over as Raph found his face pressed in against Casey. Their arms moved to hold around him.

“I-it’s okay Raph...I’m ‘ere,”

Words weren’t coming to him, fuck he was doing it again. Breaking down like this in front of Casey. Raph just shut his eyes tight as he buried his face in against their chest, slightly rubbing his face in against them in a poor attempt to dry his tears but they just kept coming out. Raph kind of wished Casey had just kicked his ass instead right now. He wasn’t against letting Casey see him like this course not..he trusted Casey to fall apart like this. Maybe thats why he was able to break down like that with them, cause he just could. Something reassuring in Casey’s comment though.

“I’m ‘ere.”

Raph nodded his head he still couldn’t get words out, fuck, he breathed in heavily trying his best to clam himself to sooth his tears to at least tell them he loved that poem. He wanted to memorize every word they just said. He wanted it in Casey’s voice though. It couldn’t be in his voice. Both hands gripping onto the front of Casey’s hoodie now. There was no way Raphael could say anything remotely close to even nice. That’s why he wanted to memorize exactly how Casey said all of that to him. From Raph it be a lie, but Casey? never he could trust it from Casey. “I’m..fine” he manages out “just..fuck” Near burrowing into Casey’s chest now as he gripped tighter on to them. “ I love ya...so fuckn’ much Case” was all he could get out before falling quite once more. Well as quite as a sniffling turtle could be.

[ray-the-fanatic]

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 I’ll tell you:

The first character I first fell in love with:  I feel the answer is well know XD I love Raph! I mean makes sense he was my favorite in 03 but I turly loved what 2012 did with him as well. He such a cocky shit at the start of the show and its not that he stops that trait but you do see how he develops for the better as the shown went on. Him feeling he was better and should be leader to how he more takes to his role in his team. You see him go from someone who cracks under pressure when given leadership to making sure he's always prepared, how he makes sure none of them esp Leo are left behind how he lets his softer side come out more when Chompy comes in. HE's also a little smart ass and people need to let him cuss he's had it u-u

The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: 

Shinigami, I sort of dropped off watch 2012 during season 4 so I didn't see her much outside a few epsiode I caught here and there. I havent quite gotten to when she is in the show now either outside clips and such I have seen. But I expected me to feel as I do Renet shes fine but there. Honestly though? I love her. I like how she isn't the usual gloom and doom but even laughs at Mikey's jokes i dunno I just enjoy her.

The character everyone else loves that I don’t: 

Renet, I wouldn't say I hate her. Much how I just wasn't much for the 03 version I would say gose the same in 12. I like her just fine shes a fun charater for the episodes she comes in for and such mostly love the season 5 monter arch. I personlly love her most for the fact she shares a VA with Terra from Teen Titans so it was like getting Beast Boy and Terra back. She just there she's fine I dont find her annoying but Im not hyped about her personally myself.

The character I love that everyone else hates: 

I wouldn't say he is hated but I do see Casey tends to not get much love or people will makes statments about him I just don't agree with like saying he is selfish and uncaring. When you do see that isn't ture. You learn that he and raph talk about stuff like what happened to spike. You see hes the one April talks when at the time who she thought was her mom wanted to leave and she had to pick to stay or go with her. Casey dose care about the turtles he often right there when they need help, he covers them in their battles and like the nightmare episode from the farm house arch he was ready to beat an old man for possibly being the reason they were going to die. I genuinely just love Casey my re watch has made me love him even more I just can't get over his stupid laugh sometimes XD

The character I used to love but don’t any longer:

Slash, NOT that I hate him either I thought he was villain longer though? but he had such a sudden turn around and it felt like such a waste to me. I felt like he could have been good as Raph arch enemy over Xever. Could been used to add to Raph and Casey friendship/partnership. I still like Slash I just wish he had been a villain a bit longer just for all untap story he had to offer.

The character I would totally smooch: 

Give all the turtles smooches on their heads they been through it in this shown u-u

The character I’d want to be like: 

hmmm mr murakami? I dunno dude seems to be enjoying live got hos own businesses willing to make stuff for the turtles he seems chill despite getting dragged into stuff from just knowing the turtles.

The character I’d slap: 

-Raph I love my boy but he needs to be slapped u-u

-Leo also needs a slap sometimes

-Casey he exsits hit em

-Donnie i love him to but smack this boy A pairing that I love:

Rasey uwu I love these two no matter the series I gotta ship these idiots im a sucker for the best friends to lovers trope A pairing that I despise:

hmm I don't think I have any sure theres some I dont ship or personally like much but eh cant say I have a ship I like hate you know? Besides I rather spend time enjoy what I love anyway.