#((from here on out I'm gonna queue / schedule my posts so I can spread this brainrot out a little))

[tophattrio]

((I'm a HORRID mun and I only just realized Trio turned 10 years old last January (New Years Day actually)!! I may not be as active as I was in the past, but these three have stood the test of time and hundreds of my other fixations that have come and go. That in itself deserves to be celebrated! Soooooooo.... shiny new icon?))

[lowkeysebastianstan]

hey there. I totally get your frustration with endgame and the ending. I wasn't happy and I'm not happy how half the fandom tells me/us how we have to look at it. how we have to accept it. how the actors are happy with it and so should we. how the writers/producers - okay, I'm gonna leave them out of this seeing neither of them have any idea what they have done in the first place. after all they disagree on everything in every interview since the release. and isn't that funny? (1/?)

how even they are not on one side with the movie? what I despise most right now when it comes to this movie and this fandom is how we are treated. how we should tag our “hate” - which I think is funny since I didn’t hate the movie entirely. I hated pieces of it, like I did with past movies. I never liked doctor strange and even back then people were allowed to mention how casting cumberbatch for the part wasn’t the smartest idea they had. (2/?)

people want us to be happy with an ending that doesn’t make sense to us and they appreciate and are “allowed” to shove down our throats with their happy posts about a perfect ending. how is taking tony’s life after he finally married pepper and got a daughter is perfect? how is sending steve back to peggy after they did everything in their power to convince us he moved on from his past life…how is that perfect? (3/?)

you can probably tell I’m bitter. I really am. there’s not a day that goes by I’m not frustrated with what we got after ten years and 22 movies. however, I thought to myself what would it give me to cling on to this on my blog. would it change anything? I do know I’m not alone. I see so many people agreeing with this anger and it gives me some sort of peace. at the end of the day, though, it’s also important to see what it gives to you. (4/?)

talking to one of my closest friends about it and voicing my frustration with the end helps me more than keep posting about it. because in the end it won’t change a thing. the longer I surround myself with the frustration and anger and everything that comes with this not being what I had hoped for the more it pushes me from the fandom. of course everyone do as they please and I get people who want to get it out of their system. (5/?)

but maybe sitting down and look at what the constant repeating will give you in the end, realizing where it might end, could help finding some kind of peace for you. I’d hope for you to enjoy the parts of the fandom that still apply to you. I really like your blog and you as a person and I’d hate to see one of my fave people on this site to leave (I lost count, but this is the last)

whew! hi right back, that was quite something. 

i feel ive answered this ask before, was that also you?

i mean, yeah. i know im not alone, i do. i see some of it on my dash, but not a lot, since ive had to block every marvel related tag just to keep from indulging in some light murder (just gentle ones, not to worry), and i really cannot fathom why ppl on the other side of the isle can’t do the same? or if you’re getting tired of the negativity? blacklist. or unfollow, block even. 

as ive said a few times lately, ive been here 6 years. and this is the first time ive aired my frustration in any noticeable way. sure there’s been a few occasions where i got the salt shaker out, but that was in relation to much more limited subjects, and it was a post or two at the most. 

ive been frustrated with previous movies too, but ive kept my trap shut, ive just gone on, kept my queue stocked, giffed the rare set and hid behind pretty solid content, no drama, not personality, no engagement. 

and it’s not too bad, to just be anonymous, to look at the pretty, spread the pretty, do the occasional tag rant, and let that be it. 

but.

when i came back after a long hiatus last autumn i started writing again. i posted a psa where i apologised for the fact that i would reblog my writing on this blog, i informed what tags i was gonna use, and for the first time i actually checked my follower count before and after. i lost 20 followers the first day. for posting writing. my writing. that was tagged to a ridiculous degree. and i saw a fair few more disappear before the exodus, and idk. i made me realise a thing or two.

one, people like my blog and the content i post

two, they’re only here for that content

three, to have a strictly themed blog will limit you horribly

four, my followers in general don’t give a shit about me, only about the content i post, which fair enough

five, i care about that, even if i don’t care about the follower count as such, i do care that the ones i have actually like me

six, which is completely absurd bc none of them knows me at all, i never show myself

but that was then. this is now. and the last weeks has made me realise the most important thing of all, i dont care any more. why the fuck should i? when my showing any kind of negativity about something that i did care a whole lot about but i no longer have?

endgame might have killed all my enthusiasm for the mcu, and it fucking hurts. it’s been a staple in my life for years, ive invested my time, my creativity, my love and my goddamn money, and ive got jack shit to show for it. i have a blog that i used to love, but is becoming alien to me, and that hurts too. ive invested a lot in this blog too, after i deleted a few of my other blogs a couple of years back, this is by far my biggest one. and im torn tbh. 

do i want to leave it? no, i don’t. can i go back? honestly? i doubt it. if my love for the mcu is gone, well so is bucky. and lets be real, a sebastian stan blog with no bucky? i cannot really see it, can you?

but hey. ill make you a deal, all of you. ill ease up on the memes, i won’t stop bc i have a few scheduled, you guys blacklist or unfollow if you dont want to see them, and ill see about sprinkling in some sebastian content if i can find any i deem worth it. 

also i don’t have any close irl friends to air my frustrations with, everyone here loved this crap, and that’s not really the discourse im looking for. but im happy for you, it sounds nice :)

hope you’re having a great day! 

eta: i won’t leave btw. not unless the porn hub thing comes into fruition. just so you know, and if anyone cares. just sayin. 

eta2: also? the fact that i, or we, are complaining and being pissed at the movie, but the opposition are attacking us for doing that? instead of, again, fucking blacklist and leave us the fuck alone? yeah, doesn’t help with the bitter. if y’all are so threatened by our arguments, maybe you should reevaluate your own, seems you’re trying a bit too hard there. i don’t want to take enjoyment from anyone, i envy you too much for that, but ffs, just leave me the fuck alone to deal with it. (that’s not @ you, that’s to them)

eta3: and thank you for saying im someone you like. but see? ive been trolling you all, im terrible. and i expect you don’t like me as much now anyways. but thank you, it was nice to hear nevertheless.

[159potterhead]

(I'm sorry I was stuck with something. No matter how late it gets I will always come back <3)

I'm back baby!! I also had suspicion about the quiz but I didn't knew what else to do. Babe hang in there I will come back in a few years to update you on my love life and sexuality situation until then my orientation is of Platypus. Hope you will accept me like this. I have identified myself as Perry the Platypus.

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You are not a lab rat babe and stop running towards the cheese 😂😂

No no the rat is not about to die.😂😂😂 It's just that the rat has two options he can either survive or die. (Here our buddy rat is not having any death wish that I am gonna eat and have sex rat is not saying that these are my priorities before dying).

Yeah babe. How will a rat procreate alone? The rat has to find another rat. Also in that part I talking in general not just for the rat. If any animal has to procreate then that animal has to find a partner. They can't do it alone.

You are soooo cuteee. I wanna hug you come here 🤗🤗 I really wanna see world from your perspective. I wish you were right but babe the most important thing is looking for love.

That's coz of survival. Evolution want species to not die so it will just make animals to look for another partner and have sex. Baseline level brain ensure that animal is looking for love/partner, that the animal want to procreate If you are not even looking for partner/love then there is no procreation and species will die. Other steps don't matter if you are not even looking. Now this first step of looking is also called want/desire to have sex/procreate. The animal want to have sex. So evolution wasted a lot of time to ensure this this happens like we can say 1000 or millions of yrs evolution happened only to make sure everyone is procreating, and it doesn't matter with whom. It can be with anyone brother sister anyone. It just wanted the animal to have sex and the continuation of species.

Once this got sorted. Evolution said let's figure out if we mate with certain peeps so we can have advantages. Evolution was like let's see what happens if we can choose. Then selective choosing happens so there can be advantage for next generation. Over here the animal is not having kids with anyone. Over here we it's giving us a choice we have to choose someone based on some things that will help the next generation

And then for a long time it was just this. Evolution perfected this system of picking someone good. It was like let's see which pattern is good for us and which is not. Here it gets different for all animals (Peacock spread their feathers saying pick me so perfecting of this system is a primitive thing) for humans it can be that humans do body building stuff gyming, signalling that pick me I'm strong.

After this got sorted it said let's take it up a notch and see if you both can stay together. See if you can keep love. This is where family come this system also took billions of years to build and get perfected.

(babeeee that song😭😭)

(hiiii! oh don’t worry<3 if you notice, literally all my posts have been from my queue!😂 my schedule is clear for the next few hours today so good timing in sending this ask! aw ily<3)

heyyyy!!! that’s great! take as many years as you will in this self discovery trip of yours! ooo then platypus it is then;) oh you are most definitely accepted. a pleasure indeed it is to meet you, perry the platypus🥸 (<- this is the disguise)

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well maybe I am! and what if I love cheese??

that doesnt make sense!😂 is it always in a survival/death mode??? cause thats kinda stressful ngl. (okay maybe not a death wish, but there’s definitely a list of priorities there)

jeez. and what if they can’t find one? can hamsters and rats get together? yeah I knew that, but I didn’t know they had to find a suitable partner. that’s kinda wonderful.

alright make some space, I am leaping into your arms!!✨ idek how the world is from my perspective, I really wanna see it as a movie or something. maybe my brain and I can have a movie night🤔 woah so love really is the meaning of it all…

so it‘s engrained in all of them that they must never stop mating to ensure the continuity of their species? wow. HOW MANY YEARS??!! wait I completely flew over the thought that rats have siblings!😂😂 so it doesn’t matter who, as long as it’s the same species?

hmm i’m kinda lost on that point. mind paraphrasing it?

okayyy it’s all coming together now! so the entirety of this whole evolution brought us to this single point, which is the meaning of procreation as we now know it?

that’s actually very fascinating. wow I didn’t know there was a whole story behind it, I just assumed the world was always like that. thanks for this whole wonderful journey, I really enjoyed it a lot!!!😁

(snjdksks ik ik ik)

🎶I don't like walking around this old and empty house… so hold my hand, I'll walk with you my dear. the stairs creak as I sleep, it’s keeping me awake… it’s the house telling you to close your eyes🎶💕