#((dont follow that thats his old blog. i just like the url and need to find what email its connected))

[plasticross]

my beautiful @pumpkinhea6 i love you pepper.

[cupidsintern]

i was tagged by @withoneheadlight who is one of my fav mutuals of all time so jot that down

1. why did you choose your url?

i have hyperfixated on the concept of love since i was 13. cupid has long since been the personification of that hyperfixation because of two books: Juliet Dove, Queen of Love and The House of Hades (yes the pjo book).

so now im his intern in spreading love and chaos which means i get him coffee every morning and he doesnt pay me.

2. any side-blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.

i used to have a phineas and ferb sideblog on my old acc. it was a doof fanblog. i miss it

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

two and a half years

4. do you have a queue tag?

lol no im not that put together

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

to impress a girl. it worked tho

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

picrew of me self explanatory. if u want mullet proof lmk

7. why did you choose your header?

I change it a lot im just big into pinterest and i like picking new Good Images with A Lot Of Gender

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

on my old acc it was Firsts! one of my fav fics ive ever written :)

9. how many mutuals do you have?

idk?

10. how many followers do you have?

idk lol

11. how many people do you follow?

120?

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

yes why is this a question do people have serious blogs???

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

like once before bed lmao

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

yeahhhhhhhh. many times. ive been cancelled before lmao. it's no secret i'll explain: I'm gnc and i called myself a 'femboy' as a joke as i am transmasc (thats the best way to describe it) and like to do drag (to look fem for fun) and i was cancelled for unlawful slur reclamation lmao. also i talked abt how nazis in germany brainwashed children after watching jojo rabbit and how i felt bad for them (the kids) and would want to write abt that and got called a nazi sympathizer.

i just moved accounts lol

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts

hate em. as someone who has OCD for real i hate the stupid guilt driven virtue signaling lol

16. do you like tag games?

YES makes it feel like were all on a lil talk show interviewing each other :)

17. do you like ask games?

yes! same reason

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

i dont know lmao

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

am dating @thehappycrockpot <3

20. tags?

@thehappycrockpot @holdenduckfield @awickedplacethisis @thinger-strang @draculcid idk who has and hasnt done this no pressure <3

[mrfutureboy]

@rovermcfly tysm for tagging me and sorry this took 5ever!!

why did you choose your url?

i wanted a bttf url last summer when i got back into the fandom, and i wanted it to be specific to marty bc i love him but i also want to be him. im like, obsessed with the nickname "future boy" that doc gives him in 1955, and the url futureboy is taken, so i am mrfutureboy bc i am marty (kinnie shit)

any side blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them

i literally only have a handful for url-saving purposes. @rhodeystark and @masloki are my most notable old urls so i wanted them for safe keeping. i also have @goodnightfutureboy bc that was one of the bttf urls i was considering and i never got around to deleting it (if by chance anyone wants that lmk)

how long have you been on tumblr?

I think i joined in 2010.

do you have a queue tag?

back when i blogged a lot on desktop, xkit worked for me, and i actually queued shit for my blog it was “since queue been gone” bc i thought i was clever. i still think its clever tbh i just dont really queue anymore

why did you start your blog in the first place?

Iirc, an irl friend of mine heard about tumblr thru an upperclassman she was friends with, so she was like “sonny we should sign up for tumblr!” and i was like sure why not. first url was miss-math bc thats my deviantart username

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

im obsessed w mjf but im also a kinnie /j. i specifically love his look in that interview and also i own a very similar sweater now so. it me. also im basically aromantic even tho i dont really use the label so yeah i put that behind his pretty face

why did you choose your header?

skfkdksk its because i kept fucking dying in the stuart little 2 gba game. I havent played in a while but im stuck on the level where stuart goes into the sink drain to retrieve the wedding ring that isnt even in there

what’s your post with the most notes?

Feel free to fact check me, but im 90% sure it’s a screenshot of gwen and trent from tdi that i took, where gwen is like leaning on the table all miserable and trents got his hand on her back, captioned “rb if you agree” bc i thought they were really cute. i still get fucking notifications for that post i think its at over 500 notes now

how many followers do you have?

i dont particularly like sharing this since this is the only site that doesnt make that public, and it’s nice to not feel intimidated or make other people feel intimidated or ashamed, like how it kinda makes you feel bad when you have fewer followers than your friends on insta. but i’ll play, and as of right now i have 1065 followers im very grateful for <3

how many people do you follow?

240. ik my ratio is bad i promise im not being an asshole abt it

have you made a shitpost?

Ive been on tumblr a long time. Of course i have

how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ post?

I get turned off by those posts a lot but i do be reblogging shit sometimes ill admit. but not blindly like i have to actually read it and care about it. But if its a 10 mile long post where everyones adding how necessary it is that its rb’d, forget about it

do you like tag games?

yeah!!! it just takes me a long time to finish them lol

do you like ask games?

I dont play them v often or receive them but i do!

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

@chloezhao, period. also @jedflah and @lonepinetimeline were some of the big names within the bttf community that i kept seeing last summer and i remember being like “omg they followed me”. (Well. Actually with theo i didnt recognize his main blog so for an embarrassingly long time i didnt realize we were mutuals slfksk. he would like my personal posts and i was like “wait who is this” and i felt like a huge idiot when i realized it was him! our 1 yr friendaversary is coming up love u cowboy <4)

do you have a crush on a mutual?

no but @biathelstan and i are cowboy soulmates

Tagging: @biathelstan @thereisnosafetythistime @anakins-rattail @mahourobotto

[woozi]

i agree how you described twt, sometimes everyone's just ready to fight it seems, i've genuinely had fun on both platforms at different times but now it's just too much on stan twt (no space for difference of opinion djsjdjj) it's good to know you're having fun as well :3 & omg i've seen few of my moots starting to give svt their attention after fallin flower dropped, everything abt it is <3333 the song, mv, choreo i love it.

hdjdjddkdjdj " virgos 😐 " also me in next breath "happy birthday mark :D i love you so much 🥺💕💗" any virgos reading this i really hope you enjoy your month to the fullest djjdjd <3. righttt?? you're correct abt mark's temper being very virgo djdjdkd.

your line screams hard-working people <3 jihoon, jaebeom, jeonghan the 3Js <3. isn't jaebeom also an infj? (i don't take mbtis seriously but at the same time it also makes me happy if it ends up matching someone i like djdjjd) chan & yugs 🥺 these two imo have the sweetest personality, like the one which makes you feel welcomed & they also have the cutest laugh 🥺.

i love jus2 <3 focus on me is one of my favorite kpop mvs of all time & also drunk on you??? i love this song so much, very sexy of them. the vibes, style and everything w/ their album, i want more songs like that. and for when i am feeling melancholy i need more songs like jjp's verse 2 😭💔 but i am also okay if they don't want to go back to these units bcoz everything so far they've been giving is just as great <33 ( maybe in future we'll get blessed w/ features 🥺)

honestly g7 as grp and individually have won me over with their music style, even if i don't like full album ik there will be 3-4 songs which will be exactly what i like to listen to, all of the music they've released individually i've liked it so much. there is this song of youngjae's, titled "i'm all ears" i had no idea of its existence until it popped up in my spotify i'm so glad it did, it's been in my playlist ever since. there was also a time when i was obsessed with jackson's 'on the rocks' djdjdk.

aww <3 the live performance video of 1° has mark as thumbnail so for long time i used to associate this song with him jdjddk. i think the only j*pe thing i'd miss is got7 studio live sessions 🥺. RIGHTJDKSKS aju nice's mv is very cute djjddk I love it, in reality its reverse tho, i see them and boom! 💖💛💗🤍💕💙

it was the year they won first bb*as award so that gave them the exposure, and no i don't follow them anymore. mixed feelings abt them, very negative feelings abt f*ndom fjdjdjd. i do miss what it used to feel like liking them sometimes. at that time i never thought i'll willingly drop them from my interest (i've stanned zayn since 2012 first him as grp member then solo. sometimes thinking abt it gives me a whiplash hddjks it's been 9 years, really thought it would be same with them too but it didn't happen)

i've had falling in love by yugs and in to you by jaebs on loop for days djdkdk i really love these two songs and also air by bammie <3 (i'm slow jams kinda person djdjdk :3)

(bam released the most fun album & title this year idc abt others, ribbon is one of the soty) also special mention of look so fine & running through the rain. yes! you do make sense they feel organic & very them.

exactly 😭 it's more believable when they drop stuff out of nowhere like encore 😭😭. the way youngjae posted his letter on twt too ddjjdkssk the announcement & release of encore is such a 'you just had to be there' situation the excitement, nervousness, confusion and everything 😭 sometimes i can't with them. also is the bibi with mark on ost, the same one you mentioned in last ask? the ost is really good <3, it must've been fun to see it happen (if its same bibi).

making a whole ass playlist just for me???? 😭😭😭🥺💗 yza you're so sweet nooooo 💖

and don't worry abt replying late jdjdkdjd i mean it, sometimes my friends text me after weeks and i'm am the same. it's really okay <3. i hope this week is treating you kindly, take care yza - 🪂

p.s ( just saw last post djjej) - it was me who manifested more bunny dino <3 manifesting even more <33

i was on stan twt during my younger years too and it was v fun and memorable to me ngl <3 idk what happened though.. it's evolved to be.. Something Else.. i still see a lot of good people there though 😭 and now that i'm in my Hag Era... idk it's just too fast for me now 😭 it's still my go-to place for updates though nothing can top twitter on that dept

and ms fallin flower.... i feel like everyone was blown away by it (based off of what i see carats when talk about it) and rightly so!! she SERVED. the looks too oh my god. it's another factor i look forward to and enjoy so much when i watch their performances!!

u know what? virgos 😐 indeed KJJKDFJKFDJKFDKJ i want to slander virgos today because it's their season and no one slanders them that often so <3 ABOUT MARK'S VIRGO TEMPER THOUGH... i know i've said i enjoy seeing it sm but whenever i think abt it i cant help but say that.. I Love His Temper <3 he doesn't get pissed off in a scary and douchebag-y way it seems so... contained?? IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT he punched an a/c though so that might not be the perfect word to describe him lmaoo <3

THE J TRINITY HFDJFJDJHDF BESTIE UR MIND IS SO!!!!!!!!!!! honestly... maybe it's the acts of service for me <3 JKDFKJFDKJFJKD i think this is just my eldest sister and savior syndrome speaking though kfjkdkjf ALSO OH MY GOD THE WAY U NOTICE THESE THINGS <3 THAT'S SO SEXIE OF U!!! and yes he used to be an infj!! there was an interview that's more recent wherein he mentioned that he's now an enfj though but i cant rmb which interview it's from :/ ALSO MOOD FKJJKGJGKF i dont believe in mbtis too but im just... a little obsessed w it for the fun of it all <3 and the way u described them </3 what if i tear up a little </3 I LOVE CHAN'S LAUGH SO MUCH BUT IM SO SOS O GLAD U BROUGHT UP YUGYEOM'S LAUGH??????????? IT'S NOT TALKED ABT ENOUGH LIKE...... HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! one of my bird moots said he sounded like a schoolboy in choir 😭😭😭😭😭😭

GOD UR TASTE!!!!!!! what if i start falling in l*ve a little :/ what then :/ focus on me was ahead of it's time and people fucking slept on THEM i cannot fucking believe this. this has to be some kind of sick joke 😭 ALSO HAVE U SEEN THE CHOREO FOR SENSES!!!!!!1 INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!! holy fuck!!!!!! sorry for the expletives but like.... holy SHIT they did THAT!!!!!!!! ALSO UR SO RIGHT </3 jjp verse 3 when... ALSO did u know i let go of the jjprojects url... thats the worst mistake of my life KDKJDSKJDSJK also agree wholeheartedly <3 i think they're all trying to find their footing this time around as soloists and im so proud of them for that!! i'll stand by my jus2 agenda though bc they're almost in the same company so maybe.. i might have hope left 😭

SO TRUE BESTIE!!! the same principle goes w svt for me as well <3 got7's such a flavorful group musically like... all of them have the capacity to go solo and they're still considered flops.. waht the fuck <3 ALSO OMG FJDKJFKFJD YOU'VE HEARD The Song!!!!!!!! maybe he'll be releasing something along those lines <3 esp now that he's supposedly coming w an album KJSJKDJSK on a similar note.. do u also listen to jamie (the other artist on the song) <3 NOO SHUT UP THIS CANNOT BE FOR REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i was obsessed w on the rocks too 😭😭😭😭😭😭 IT WAS MY FAVORITE ON THE MIRRORS ALBUM HELLO??????????????????????????? im proposing to u rn

ok now i have to watch all the live vids again JKDSJKSJDKDSKJ ik keep saying 'ur so right', 'i agree', and 'so true bestie' but im gonna have to say this again bc i LOVE LOVE LOVE live sessions sm no matter the artist. i also just am a little partial to live bands in performances like that in general so JDJKKDSJDS

the way you're saying these cute things abt the svteenies.. </3 giving me heartache!!! i'd bully them though i can't coddle them anymore <3

not the fandom JKFDKJFDKJFDKJFKJF ok but i think it's mostly their younger fans tbh. it wasn't this bad before.. i also really liked bts during their debut days. their songs were really good!! i kind of lost interest though and couldn't really get into them although their songs slapped lol. my irls are still into them though so i still hear about them. 9 YEARS............................... wait oh my god it HAS BEEN a little over a decade since 1d was The Thing huh 😭 now i feel kinda old lmao. and i totally get that feeling </3 it really do be like that sometimes JKFDJKJKFD

you really ARE keeping up w the sevens oh my god how are you doing it!!!!!!!!!!! it's like getting svt content now at this point but more complicated bc u need to get the updates from different sources JDKJSDKJJSKD love ur song choices too <3

ALSO FULLY RELATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i saw bam's teasers... the aes was my cup of tea and THE HIGHLIGHT MEDLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't fucking get it out of my mind it's objectively one of the best things i've seen from kpop in 2021. i'm super impressed <3 love how abyss really supported bambam on this. they really went all in for him!!

I KNOW GKJDFJDK I GOT SUPER ???????/// DURING THE TIME EVERYONE THOUGHT THEY WERE DISBANDING LMAOOOO they pulled a move that's so unheard of though no one really expected That. i respect jaebeom so much for handling all the paperwork and shit behind the scenes it must've been HELL!! ALSO IT MEANT I CRIED FOR NOTHING THEN 😭😭😭 AND YES OH MY GOD IT'S THE SAME BIBI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE SHOCK I HAD WHEN I SAW THE LIST????????????????????????? thought i was gonna black out like,,, mark,,, AND BIBI??????????????? she's fucking phenomenal how is she just a YEAR older than me.. INSANE!!! ... and i also thought jackson was gonna have an ost for this movie.. idk why it wasn't released though i didnt look into it :/

i had a rough few days so i'm not yet finished with the playlist (my laptop's Dead i am still trying to revive her and uni's starting soon 😭) but for the mean time, here's another one that some people from caratblr previously asked for JDSJKSDJ these are mostly english songs though its not my k-playlist KJDSKJSDJK

i do hope this week gets better!!! and i hope that you'll have a fun one too <3 thank u for being so patient w me 🥺 i just get so many messages and find the need to recharge FDKJDFJK

ALSO I FELT LIKE IT WAS U!!!!!! OH MY GOD, i even searched my blog for the word manifest but for some reason your ask didn't come up in the search so i didnt mention u in the tags so i wont misattribute if it ends up not being u 😭 thank u for manifesting this chan for me he's my little... hop hop now ig... 😭

[miedei]

— the interview question tag game!

tagged by @atsuwiee !!

1. why did you choose your url?

mine has absolutely no story behind it 💀 i wanted a catchy nickname and so i took 'mie' from my name and 'dei' from the scottish word deil bc a friend taught it to me when i was like 5 and i think its a cool word

2. any side blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them?

not yet! i might make a personal one later but right now it's just the one

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

im rlly new! i'm coming up on a month soon i think im not exactly sure

4. do you have a queue tag?

ooh not yet! i've been trying different ones but none of them really stuck yet

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

i had an old one where i just read, and i decided to upgrade from my crappy wattpad acc and made miedei so i could start fresh with a writing acc!

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

its so funny i never fail to laugh at it

7. why did you choose your header?

once again its so funny and it sums up my entire life rn so i figured i better let everyone know what they're working with

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

i think it's the jay drabble i wrote with the dhruv song? im really happy about that one i love his songs

9. how many mutuals do you have?

4ish? im shit at communication though so sorry if im really awkward!

10. how many followers do you have?

20-something? i'm pretty new so i think thats actually a lot more than i was expecting

11. how many people do you follow?

like 70 omg

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

not exactly? my rant tag is v full for how new my blog is but i'm not sure if that counts

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

not that much i dont think? i write most of my wips in google docs so i'm mostly here to interact with moots and read

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

no! im kind of looking forward to my first hate anon but i dont think id want to fight with a blog unless theyre a real asshole

15. how do you feel about 'you need to share this posts’?

depends, i usually do research them before sharing and most of them are legit so i'll reblog them, but some of them are complete bs and trying to guilt you into misinformation so i'm kind 50/50 on them some of them are important but others can be really hurtful or incorrect

16. do you like tag games?

yeah!! theyre so funn

17. do you like ask games?

these are fun too! i like to interact with anons on here please send in asks can you tell im desperate for some regular anons they look so fun

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

@arteqmiss tin the tumblr queen

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

@atsuwiee bc tel is so swagger

tagging: @googoojeu @arteqmiss @bloom-bloom-pow if you guys haven't done it yet + anyone who wants to do it!

[haevolution]

Rules: answer questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better ❤️

@kunwoodz thank you for tagging me!! sorry for being a bit late lol also feliz aniversário atrasado!!

Name/nickname: ícaro, formerly known as enki bc changing your chosen name 293784 times is just the trans experience lmao

Gender: genderqueer + transmasc (he/they)

Star sign: Sagittarius

Height: 1,66m / 5'5" ish

Time: 04:56 (lmao)

Birthday: December 21st

Favourite bands: nct (all units, yes wayv included bc obviously), stray kids, bts but i literally only listen to their title tracks and the love yourself trilogy

Favourite soloists: im going off kpop with this one bc i gotta do my civic duty and praise our queen dodie

Last movie: probably parasite

Last show: the queens gambit

Song stuck in my head: somehow both lotto by exo and nectar by wayv..... dont ask

When i created this blog: probably late 2018 bc thats when i was finally sucked into the bottomless pit that is kpop for good after a couple attempts by different friends since late 2016

Last thing i googled: thomas mann (bc i hate his guts and wanted to remember the specific book by him i had to read for class last year which was an experience i hated with a burning passion bc he never shuts up god)

Other blogs: my main is @transtemic and i have a couple extra archive type blogs to keep stuff i need/want to remmeber somewhere less cluttered than my main or this blog..... theyre @icarosarchives @icarosartrefpics @aestattoos....... also a dead art blog which i dont wanna disclose and like 5 blogs that are just saved urls

Do i get asks: once in a blue moon and when i do theyre chain games like this one which i almost never do bc im a disaster at being somewhat social

Why i chose my url: i love wayv and the whole nct universe and was just getting into seventeen which led to me becoming aware of vernons amazing insta handle @/chwenotchew and i was just like Ive Connected The Dots lmao

Following: 1599

Followers: on here i have 53 and half of them are p0rnbots.... tho im not a cc and barely talk on here so its understandable kshdncjcjn

Lucky numbers: 3, 9, 21 (basically most multiples of 3)

Avg hours of sleep: i wanna say around 5 hours when schools in session but quarantine has me simultaneously having the Worst Sleep Schedule (see: me doing this at 5am) and sleeping betwen 8-12 hours a day which like....... no comment

Instruments: i know the basics of ukulele but i really should practice more...... i love singing and like being able to play my own accompaniment but i can only do that w like 3 songs lol

What i'm wearing right now: an old tshit pj pants and socks

Dream trip: rn i just wanna be able to travel home and see my family and best friend :( give me the vaccine NOW

Favourite food: again im homesick to literally just my moms food lmao bur specifically either her creamy tuna pasta or just rice beans and minced meat (maybe a sunny side up egg on top)

Nationality: brazilian but i live in germany (ergo the homesickness and missing good rice and beans lmao)

Favourite song: i physically cannot answer that....... but also almost every time i open my playlist i scroll all the way down to chain by nct 127 and then let it go on shuffle from there jsgdndhndfj so do with that as you will

Top 3 fictional universes: any that are better than this one are you kidding me like holy shit please get me out of here

my brain is too dead to tag 20 people rn so im going with @jisungshotfirst @fef65b-felix @honeyboyfelix and @tearsof-regret and also anyone else who wants to do this!!!! dont feel pressured to tho <3

[voxdecobra]

BITCH I GOTTA SEND THIS IN PARTS -- your URL reputation to me issss ughhghghg your ven (like all your other muses) is the cream of the crop. not just that, it's the cream that settles on top of the cream of the crop. i just.... i do not say this lightly. not in the slightest. this one is not a comment made of bias ; i can GENUINELY hear his voice. i read the dialogue, apply that good ol' fashion steven ogg, and just... damn. fuck. of course, outside of your dialogue your writing is top notch ->

-> and something i reference to better my own ALL THE FUCKIN TIME… in general, i’m really #blessed to not only write with you, but just know you in general….. no homo tho lmao

—

✦ SOURCE ✦

Tommy. HOw dare you.

(edit: this gets long)

Dude I feel the same about you, estupido. The first time I met you (yes we were indeed talking about this the other day but it still makes me laugh) I was thinking 

hoo shit. I gotta make a good impression, their [MUSE] is really good. LIke fuck thats’s a good [MUSE right there, look at that [MUSE]. We aren’t even in the same fandom so I gotta make this WORK.

And i fuckign approached you holding my trash son Sanchez. Fucking hell Idk how our friendship bloomed from that but I’m so glad it did. It was a chance I took joining that server in a fandom I was new to, and it was like. Heartbeat increase when you liked that starter call, even when you followed back. I’m only mad I didn’t join that fandom sooner when the show came out, I might have met you sooner.

You awakened an OLD old muse I had from the my first fandom and I really never said thank you for that. Usually when I go on hiatus on a blog, I find a new niche, super sudden hyperfixation and jump to a new blog, a new muse, a new train of thought. With Antoine? He might be a reboot, a new name, dialogue style, and even design, but he was always special to me since he was one of my VERY first.

Like when you, as a twelve year old, design an OC. They’re terrible, have emo hair, super overpowered and the hashtag tragic hero to your fanfiction. The New Love Interest to the main canon hero, and at the time you dont know they’re terrible but they ARE. Because you made something, you made them, and because of that they are special. You throw them out into the world, and just overall are happy to have accumulated thoughts, ideas, and everything else and made something, all by yourself.

And then, YEARS, even a DECADE later, you are reminded that they still exist. You have new ideas, new headcanons, and most importantly, NEW EXPERIENCE. You can articulate your thoughts right, you know the name of the game, and you can make them SO much better than they were. You know how to structure sentences, know how to balance power with weakness, and give them the round they need to feel real, not flat.

I’m rambling at this point because reasons but dude.

Simply by writing your own muse in the fandom I started rp with, I not only made a best friend, but rekindled a love for such a character that meant irrationally so much to me.

Thank you.

From your Boxman to your other muses, to us just fucking around in discord, to you dealing with my shit and in turn helping me grow as a person,

thank you.

[dr-gloom]

Kintsukuroi

A continuation of Fall Apart, loooong overdue! Thank you everyone for being patient with me while I worked up the focus and motivation to write this. I hope you like it as much as I! <3

Fandom: Sander’s Sides

Pairing: none

Words: 1,207

Summary: Virgil is trying to recover from his soul-shattering breakup with Roman, reminded that the world won’t stop for his depression. He learns to pick himself back up and gains a nugget of wisdom from an unlikely source. 

Tags/Warnings: depression, Human AU, recovery, basically vent-fic-part-2

A/N: so yeah, just like Fall Apart, this is based heavily on real life. The only real difference is that I never met a Patton. 

Read it on AO3

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To say that things got better would be a complete fucking lie.

In the remainder of his shitty summer vacation, Virgil only really left his bed to use the bathroom or eat when the hunger became unbearable. He slept a majority of the time, turning his back on the sunlight shining through his blinds in a mocking reminder that just because his world was falling apart, that didn’t mean the real world was. He was numb. And when he wasn’t numb he was heartbroken, or angry. He had no one to talk to about it because Logan wasn’t the most empathetic person out there and Roman still had him blocked.

Roman.

Virgil couldn’t stop asking himself what he’d done wrong. How had he screwed this up? He thought they were doing great, he thought Roman loved him. What was he talking about in that last message?

He wished he could just ask.

When he felt up to it, he brought up Tumblr on his phone to scroll through it and distract his mind. That became rather hard when half the posts were about people venting their problems and talking about how depressed they were, though. He remembered back when he was new to Tumblr and had just followed all of these blogs, how happy and dumb and funny everyone was. Now they all just logged on to use Tumblr as a personal diary.

He deleted his blog the next day.

Eventually he has to force himself out of bed to go to his fall classes. No matter how low he’s feeling or how much he hates himself he’s always been a good student, and it wouldn’t stop just because he was alonealonealone a little depressed. His classes gave him plenty to focus on to distract himself, making his mind numb, empty of free thought and only capable of answering homework questions or performing basic tasks like showering and eating.

Logan still messaged him at least once a week to ask how he was doing, if he wanted to hang out, or just to make sure Virgil was still alive. Virgil hardly ever responded, and when he did it was short one- or two-word answers. He didn’t want to talk to Logan. He didn’t want to talk about what happened and how he was doing and how his thoughts were cognitive distortions. He knew Logan meant well, but he just… He didn’t think he could deal with that right now, so he was all but avoiding the other, claiming to be swamped with school.

It wasn’t a total lie; this was his last semester before fieldwork, so he’d needed to shove as many classes into these sixteen weeks as possible. Eighteen units, the absolute max they would allow, and even though that usually meant homework all day every day, he still found himself with some free time. God, he was so bored.

So he made a new Tumblr.

He felt bad abandoning the friends he’d made on his old Tumblr, but he wasn’t interested in the same things anymore and they were all so depressed and…. He just. Didn’t need that.

He spent an obsessively-long time trying to think of a new URL. For some reason, he found himself cycling through the nicknames Roman had given him over the months.

doom-and-gloom? Nope, taken.

dark-stormy-knight? Nah. Damn.

surley-temple? Taken.

jack-smellington? Taken.

Taken.

Taken.

Taken.

Taken.

God dammit.

Virgil groaned, rubbing his forehead tiredly. Without thinking too much of it - it was probably taken - he types in ‘dr-gloom’.

Not taken.

He grins for the first time in weeks as he finishes going through the mandatory bullshit to set up his blog and find people to follow. Sure, he looks up some of the people he used to follow and follows them on this new blog, but he doesn’t tell them who he is.

This is a new beginning, after all.

He’s already decided that this blog will be more positive. He’ll be the positivity he wanted when he was hurting. It’s… out of character for him, but that doesn’t mean it can’t become a part of him. By being others’ positivity, he can be his own too.

As he finds more people to follow and his dash is filled with posts, something inside him - a gut instinct he’s learned not to ignore - tells him to message people. Not everyone; specific URLs stick out to him and he can’t help but feel like maybe the universe is telling him who needs his help. It’s stupid, and maybe a little egotistical, but after he sends the messages he feels…. Good. He sends good morning and good night messages to ten strangers-turned-family every day, regardless of how he feels inside, and little by little he finds that he’s not as depressed as he used to be. His daily ritual actually picks up his mood as he reads the responses from people and talks to them through PMs.

He does this for nearly two months before someone randomly messages him one day. The URL reads ‘pattoncakes94’, the icon most likely a selfie of possibly the cutest, bubbliest person Virgil has ever seen.

pattoncakes94 hey! just wanted to come say hi! i love those messages you send to people, it’s a great idea!

He takes entirely too long trying to come up with something to say that doesn’t sound too cheery, hyper, or creepy.

dr-gloom uh thanks

He face-palms. He sounds like a jackass!

pattoncakes94 oh! sorry, i should probably introduce myself, huh? im patton (he/him/his)! im 24, i looooove cats and puns and cookies and sweaters, and im a taurus!

Virgil snorts. Oh my god, this guy’s a dork.

dr-gloom thats cool uh im virgil 20 he/him/his i like music, nightmare before christmas, and deathnote and im a leo i think i dont really do the astrology thing

pattoncakes94 oh, thats okay! its just kinda fun, i dont actually believe in those daily astrology things what kinda music do you like?

The next few hours go like this, with the two men chatting about anything and everything. Virgil didn’t even know how two people could talk this long without the conversation feeling strained or boring. He hated small talk, but for some reason he found himself enjoying talking to Patton. The conversation flows seamlessly, Patton filling any possible pauses or lulls with his own little anecdotes or questions.

Over the next few weeks, whenever he’s in a bad mind space Virgil messages Patton. Patton never asks what’s bothering him or pressures him into opening up. Instead, he willingly provides a distraction and chats with Virgil until he’s laughing in the comfort of his room, heart light and mind clear. His favorite conversations were the ones that were the most random, but led to Virgil learning something new.

pattoncakes94 hey, you ever heard of kintsugi? also known as kintsukuroi

dr-gloom no…? what is it

pattoncakes94 it’s this japanese thing, it’s so cool! basically they take broken pottery and fix it with gold, silver, or platinum instead of throwing it out!

dr-gloom why? sounds like a waste of time

pattoncakes94 because they saw the beauty in those flaws in the cracks and breaks because just like people, it’s the blemishes that make them beautiful

[acidwaste]

hey so it seems i’ve forgot to do a l o t of tag memes, and i’m lucky i drafted a big bunch of them! lots of questions overlapped so i did my best to answer in different ways, sorry for the lateness! also @ the people that tagged me here, i wouldn't hesitate to kill for you

@natcaptor / @gayspaced

name: leon or lionel!

nicknames: literally the only nickname I’ve been referred to is “big gay” and like. word!

gender: im pretty sure im a guy, i have been kinda 🤔🤔🤔 abt my gender identity since around november-ish though

star sign: sagittarius!

height: 6’1! i’m told that I’m tall but my uncle is 6’7 so...

time: 3:36pm rn! ive been watching video essays and binging music all afternoon

birthday: december 9th!

favourite bands: animal collective, beach house, camp cope, car seat headrest, death grips, fleet foxes, florence + the machine, gang of youths, glass animals, gorillaz, hop along, iceage, idles, kero kero bonito, mgmt, miike snow, modest mouse, run the jewels, superorganism, the avalanches, the cat empire, the go! team, the mountain goats, the wombats, xiu xiu

favourite solo artists: alex lahey, anderson .paak, ariana grande, billie eilish, bjork, cashmere cat, charli xcx, courtney barnett, cupcakke, d.r.a.m, eric taxxon, frank ocean, gfoty, hatchie, janelle monae, jeff rosenstock, joanna newsom, jorja smith, jpegmafia, kacey musgraves, kali uchis, kendrick lamar, khalid, kimbra, lorde, mac demarco, madeon, mick jenkins, mitski, oneohtrix point never, perfume genius, ravyn lenae, rina sawayama, serpentwithfeet, sophie, st. vincent, sza, vince staples

song stuck in my head: caramelo duro | miguel // kali uchis! its a bop, miguel is one of the few singers that can convincingly make sex jams

last movie i watched: deadpool 2! it was even better than the first, which is a feat in itself ngl

when did i create my blog: december 2016??? i only started using it properly in february last year tho

last thing i googled: “im in my mums car broom broom.” dont @ me

do i have any other blogs: yeah, plenty actually!! i have blogs for aesthetic (@moltenstar), general inspo (@wverns), flight rising (@szarising, kinda inactive?), and overwatch (@blackhardts) tbh the vast majority of my ‘sideblogs’ are just saved urls H

do i get asks: when i say stupid shit like “rung has the ass of a dilf but the dick of a cockroach”

why i chose my url: that one panel where kobd have a vacation at the acid wastes because fuck its finally canon babey!

following: 1,767, which is kinda horrifying!!

followers: 890?? somehow??? thats almost One Whole Thousand and i don't even make content

average hours of sleep: around 6 or 7!! n e v e r more though

lucky number: 43 and 64!!

instruments: i'm too poor to afford music lessons or instruments jsbddsjknfs

what am i wearing: a grey shirt and nothing on my bottom half so my [redacted] is hanging tf out, i should put on some damn clothes

dream job:  oooo uhhh, i’m studying to get an education degree rn because i’d love to teach children (around grade 3-4s preferably because i'm too jittery to handle anyone younger and older kids probs won't listen to me as much as i lack plenty of assertiveness), but!! i’d honestly love to be a musician, one of those underground ones that get lots of critical acclaim

dream trip: one day i wanna gather up some friends and just go on a road trip! idm where we go to, as long as we just have fun and just! adventure!

favourite foods: rare steak, mashed potatoes, eggs, and energy shakes made with like. fruit / cheese / yoghurt / oats / chia seeds ! protein is a large part of my diet

nationality: new zealand, but living in australia

favourite song right now: best part | daniel caesar // h.e.r - gosh i need to re-listen to daniel’s album again, i don’t remember this beautiful song being there and that’s a crime

@damndesi / @novarebel / @luciform-philogynist

APPEARANCE - I am 5'7 or taller - I wear glasses - I have at least one tattoo (but I am getting a tā moko in December, I believe) - I have at least one piercing (planning to get a nose ring, like a bull!) - I have blonde hair - I have brown eyes - I have short hair - My abs are at least somewhat defined (b a r e l y) - I have or had braces

PERSONALITY - I love meeting new people - People tell me I am funny - Helping others with their problems is a big priority of mine - I enjoy physical challenges - I enjoy mental challenges - I am playfully rude to people I know - I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it - There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY - I can sing well - I can play an instrument - I can do over 30 pushups without stopping (barely) - I am a fast runner - I can draw well - I have a good memory - I am good at doing math in my head - I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute - I have beaten at least 2 people arm wrestling - I can make at least 3 recipes from scratch - I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES - I enjoy sports - I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else - I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else - I have learned a new song in the past week - I exercise at least once a week - I have gone for runs at least once a week in warmer months - I have drawn something in the past month - I enjoy writing - Fandoms are my #1 priority - I do some form of Martial arts

EXPERIENCES - I have had my first kiss - I have had alcohol (tastes like shit) - I have scored a winning point in a sport - I have watched an entire TV series in one sitting - I have been at an overnight event - I have been in a taxi - I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year - I have beaten a video game in one day - I have visited another country - I have been to one of my favorite bands concerts

MY LIFE - I have one person that I consider to be my Best Friend - I live relatively close to my school/work - My parents are still together - I have at least one sibling - I live in the United States - There is snow where I live right now - I have hung out with a friend in the past month - I have a smart phone - I own at least 15 CDs - I share my room with someone

RELATIONSHIPS - I am in a Relationship - I have a crush on a celebrity - I have a crush on someone I know - I’ve been in at least 3 relationships - I have never been in a Relationship - I have admitted my feelings to a crush - I get crushes easily - I have had a crush for over a year - I have been in a relationship for over a year - I have had feelings for a friend

RANDOM - I have break-danced - I know a person named Jamie - I have had a teacher that has a name that is hard to pronounce - I have dyed my hair - I’m listening to a song on repeat right now - I have punched someone in the past week - I know someone who has gone to jail - I have broken a bone (do fractures count?) - I have eaten a waffle today - I know what I want to do in life - I speak at least two languages (not fluently) - I have made a new friend in the past year

@smstransformers

age: 16

birthplace: auckland, nz

current time: 4:19 pm rn!!!

drink you last had: i just skulled half a liter of water whoops

favourite song: jesus etc. | wilco if we're talking abt an all-time favourite

grossest memory: accidentally swallowing a bee when i was seven years old (somehow nothing bad happened?)

horror, yes or no: not unless it’s an incredibly tame horror t b h, my threshold for scariness is very low

in love: i believe so!

jealous of people: lots of times, over really dumb things

love by first sight or should I walk by again: i believe that infatuation can exist at first sight but true love not so much. wish that could happen tho :C

middle name: shane!

siblings: my sister is eight years old, and my brother is seven!

one wish: EZ, make my anxiety disappear, i’d have a much more productive life

song i last sang: jupiter | haiku hands

time i woke up: 7:13, woke up immediately because i usually like to wake at 6:30

underwear colour: blue + purble

vacation destination: auckland / kingston / sydney!

worst habit: not remembering to make my goddamn bed, it looks like garbage

favourite food: mashed potatoes….

zodiac sign: sagittarius !!!

@alyonian

relationship status:

at the moment i’m single! and while being in a relationship sounds brilliant, the last two relationships i was involved in? didn’t work out to say the least, lucky i’m still young

favourite colour:

it’s been emerald green for the longest time but orange seems to be dethroning it at a steady pace

lipstick or chapstick:

i haven’t used chapstick since i was six but i probably should use it again, water is my substitute rn fdghdgh - and i haven’t ever used lipstick in any capacity? so i’d have to go with the former

last song i listened to:

the space traveller’s lullaby | kamasi washington - i’m trying to get through his second album rn (i left off on the second disk yesterday) and while everything he makes is undeniably amazing, it’s? a three hour album? i don’t have the attention span for his spiritual jazz, as great as it is

last movie:

monsters inc is playing on the television right now, i’ll go with that! the animation aged kinda badly but it’s still such a fun movie! sidenote: james p. sullivan? a childhood crush, so this gives me memories

top 3 tv shows/podcasts/comics:

i rarely, if ever, venture into these forms of media but! if i had to answer, i’d say;

unbreakable kimmy schmidt / parks & recreation / luke cage

taz / mbmbam (i havent like. watched a full episode of either but they seem cool,)

tf idw / …………. yeah that’s it, i’ve never read anything else. probably should!

additional favs:

my friends, writing (in theory), listening to video essays, learning music theory + instruments and understanding audio production software

top 3 bands / artists:

HHH okay if i had to limit my choices to just three artists, uh. lorde, the mountain goats, and sophie. i couldnt even fit janelle in i hate th is

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@alyonian

color(s): light colors are always nice and pleasant, though anything peachy and sandy are the best! orange (specially pastel orange) is like. the best thing

last band t-shirt i bought: usually merchandising is very expensive and i dont have the money to accommodate that, but like. i do recall having a wiggles shirt when i was five. i wore it all the time, shjdjgsksd im sure that counts

last band i saw live: i almost went to splendor in the grass last year with family, which wasn't only cool since i’ve never been out of the state since i immigrated - the festival was in queensland, which is around a two hour flight from victoria - but the lineup was pretty fuckin lit too! the xx, haim, peking duk, tash sultana, future islands, vallis alps, a.b original,, i was p excited! unfortunately my uncle fell ill and so they had to give the tickets to extended family :( otherwise, i haven't been to a single concert in my life

last song i listened to: street fighter mas | kamasi washington - up to this song on the album and i really fuckin dig this! also the video is hypnotizing

last movie i watched: monsters inc is about to finish and up next is monsters university! which like…. honestly, this is an extremely unpopular opinion but, i like it just as much as the original? my opinion might be skewed because i’m a monster [hugger], but i like everything abt the movie! except for the finale of the scare games and the last five minutes of the movie, both were just. dreadful.

last three tv shows i watched: if aggretsuko counts that’s the last series i watched of my own volition, which is a miracle in itself considering that’s legit only the second anime i’ve watched to completion (the first being shirokuma cafe, which i probably need to re-watch). otherwise, the last two shows i had beared witness to were thirteen reasons why and queer eye bc my cousin put them on! that first show i could completely do without but queer eye is iconique

last 3 characters i identified with: grimlock (legit. all of them), urdnot grunt (mass effect) and vector the crocodile (sth), i’m not sure what this says about me other than Big

book(s) i’m currently reading: i’m reading ‘maus’ by art spiegelman at the moment, for the third time i believe? i believe my classmates are supposed to be writing an essay on this next term and shit, this novel is heartbreaking, i haven't been this emotional when reading a book than… ever, really. it’s a recommendation of the highest caliber

@victorion

name: leon / lionel, i picked up the second name because i was in a server with an admin that was also a Leon™

nickname: besides ‘Big Gay’ i also have the nickname ‘lemon lion’ which is! nice!!

zodiac sign: archer man

height: Tall™

language(s) spoken: english / some maori + italian

fav fruit: watermelons (only when in season)

fav scent: the smell of a freezer tbh? it just smells Nice i don’t know how to properly explain it

fav season: spring! the breezes are welcoming without being overbearingly freezing

fav color: ornge,,,,

fav animal: SHARKS + CROCS + FERRETS

coffee, tea or hot chocolate: tea! with some milk tho

average hrs of sleep: too little

fav fictional character: One character?????? uhhhhhhh……. like. biggest cc right now is either idw skids or oz from monster prom

no. of blankets you sleep with: depending on my mood but i’d say the average is like, 3??

fav songs: i quickly whipped up some songs i listen to

fav artists: i came to the realization that i like acts that are considered ‘bad’ like maroon 5/drake/lil yachty etc in specific doses… i wouldn't call them good yet, but! i have no beef and thats good

fav books: remember ‘where the wild things are’??? that shit was like. literal childhood, man.. :happytears: i really need to look for a copy again

@thonany-klieme

name: leon / lionel, interchangeable really

gender: male, im probs an nb guy

star sign: sagittarius!

height: 6’1

sexuality: gay??? im not sure, im mostly attracted to other guys but i have had very brief crushes on girls + nb people? sexuality’s confusing so im gonna just latch to the gaybel (gay label) for now

lock screen image: its the album cover of 1992 deluxe by princess nokia, tho it was “T Hanos” a few days ago since i change it often - my home screen is venom but his torso says ‘fuck machine’

ever had a crush on a teacher: no??

where do you see yourself in ten years: ideally i’m teaching kids math n english, realistically i’m probably going down with the political climate

if you could go anywhere, where would you go: new zealand!! or the netherlands

what was your favorite halloween costume: halloween is not big at all where i live, the only time i tried trick or treating was when i was like 7?? i threw a bedsheet on myself and pretended to be a ghost, though since there were no eyeholes + the sheet was blue, it looked more like i was just a moving lump

last kiss: never had one

have you ever been to las vegas: nah and i dont plan to?? how do you handle regular days of 40C wtf

favorite pair of shoes: i have this pair of jandals that ive worn for a fair bit longer than my other pair of shoes, tho i only wear them in summer + very warm nights

favorite book: ngl its. ‘the very hungry caterpillar’ by eric carle. i just, love it alot and i cant explain w h y

[wickedsmallfighterjets]

The formal callout for Driad aka Daniel Mahone

Daniel Mahone from Cambridge UK is an online sexual predator. We are unsure about his age since he’s changed his age many times but he’s claiming to be 18 currently. He targets very young teenagers and coerces them into sexual conversations and has done this for years without repercussion.

He’s currently off tumblr as far as we know but he remakes often and having this widespread for awareness is a priority.

Some examples of the things he’s done are under the cut, general tw.

urls: driad, cptdriad, captaindriad, dryad

twitter: captaindriad

skype: mrdriad

kik: cptdriad

steam: bigbrownbat

photo of Driad / Daniel Mahone above

Daniel, referred to as Driad from here on, is stalking tumblr user 75pennies. He obsessively adds her and follows her on alternate accounts and fake accounts pretending to be someone else.

Referring to an alpaca stuffie he had given her. She had stated already that she no longer wanted to be in contact with him.

Here’s some from this blog from other tumblr users.

“Im gonna be blunt: Tumblr user driad is a sexual abuser, and a pedophile. This time last year, we met via some mutuals or something, i don’t really remember; he just started messaging me. I was 14, he was 17, and i was in a very bad unstable situation. From day one, he was sexual with me. The night we started talking, he admitted he was jacking off while we were talking on Skype, and he tried to make me “help him”. I respectfully declined, and then i respectfully had a panic attack in my bathroom. He kept messaging me after that, a lot of it casual conversation, and a lot of it flirting. He eventually wooed me over through flattery, i guess, because i warmed up to him. Now, my situation plays into this because i was not in a good place at all at the time. I had stopped taking my medication secretly, behind the backs of my doctors and parents. This medications controls my depression, panic attacks, and impulses, and i have been on it since i was 7 years old. I also was going through a lot of social drama, and i was desperate for approval. Combine those things, and you get a kid who’s pretty susceptible to a lot of things. He eventually started getting me to do sexual things that included: masturbating with him on Skype, sending him nude photos and videos of me doing different things, him making me insert inanimate objects into me on Skype calls, him making me do rather dangerous things (painful foreign insertion of objects anally, to put it nicely,) him calling me names like “kitten”, him making me call him “master”, the list goes on. I would often have panic attacks while performing these acts for him. At one point he introduced me to one of his friends. I don’t remember their gender, but they were DFAB as well, and he made them do similar things. At one point he made group chats and made us BOTH do things for him at the same time. I think the friend was about 16 at the time, but once again, i dont remember; i didn’t know his friend outside of this. One night, me and them just spent hours talking about how much we hated him, how much we wished he wasn’t like that, but neither of us knew what to do. I fell out of contact with the friend after a short while, but his abuse went on for months. He sent me rape threats, death threats, messages while i was in school (sometimes he would make me go to the bathroom to take nudes against my will,) and he spammed me constantly and got upset when i didn’t answer immediately. He would pretend to be sad and guilt trip me until i talked to him, or Skyped him, or sent him nudes. I was so afraid of disappointing him, of making him hate me. He became my fp, and i developed a crush on him. I told him that, and he didn’t feel the same way, but he absolutely used it to his advantage to get what he wanted. Eventually i had had enough. I don’t know what flipped in me, but I told him he could fucking suck it, and i blocked him and remade on everything he ever knew me on. The aftermath was awful; i have had flashbacks, panic attacks, and breakdowns. I have been through therapy dedicated to helping sexually abused kids. My depression surrounding this was so awful that i was hospitalized for self harm and suicide attempts. All because i was SO desperate for an abuser to love me. But he didn’t, he took advantage of me. And i know he still does it. I saw a post on my dash tonight made by someone who is 14, the same age i was. They were made uncomfortable by him and his requests as well. I messaged them and warned them to block him, and they thanked me. Thats why i made this. Because i don’t want anything like what happened to me to EVER happen to anybody else. Driad is now 18 years old, an adult. His blog is @driad. Please, PLEASE be careful, especially if you are underage.“

“I reblogged a post of his (not directly from him) and then he started following me, sent me asks saying "bigs boys" Bc of the post of his I reblogged. I followed him, he started messaging me, saying he wanted to cuddle, tummy rubs, and when I said - No lmfao brb gonna shower -, they asked for nudes. When I said I was taken they said No Homo and that my bf didn't need to know. I blocked them after my friends told me to. I wish I still had screenshots of it for proof.“

https://wickedsmallfighterjets.tumblr.com/post/156230617039/this-is-cringeworthy-as-hell-but-i-thought-id#notes

“ I hadn't really put 2 and 2 together that driad was probably harassing other people when he first messaged me. I'm aggressively asexual and he kept talking about "fisting my vagina" despite me telling him I'm a boy and ace. I eventually got him to stop messaging me by continuing to change the topic to potatoes and ended up blocking him to keep him from messaging me again “

Daniel Mahone is a sexual predator. If he returns he’ll most likely be under a variation of the name Driad. Please look out for him.

[kissared-blog]

Listen  I know people are going to end up getting all upset over this . BUT , this has to be done since I won’t stand for it any longer. I am going to be talking about a person under the url of @desbearer . they go by Unicorn ( like what kind of gay name is that ) in the rp community . I call them UNI , since they do not deserve that corn part of it. Make’s things rather CORNY ( trying to lighten up the mood a bit guys ) . OKAY so back to business . They have suffered a lot , yet this shouldn’t give them the right to change on us and to change on me . . I’ll explain.

UNI , aka Miss. Uni-corn , was ONCE known as a very good Monokuma . . . However since world war ii , uni ended up changing for the worst . we usually accept everyone for being different -- but uni took it too far . They decided to do their own thing , to become divergent with their muse and . . . and . . . dare I say it --- be HAPPY with what they are rping ? ? ? how gave them the right to actually be happy with their own muse . isn’t roleplaying suppose to be a job and force people to suffer ? she is not like us anymore . . . must be PTSD from the war . I am very sorry for her , but still , this doesn’t give her the right to randomly change on us . we TRUSTED her -- we followed her ever command and need . we gave her our love and what do we get ? nothing . we get nothing in return but memes . oh how the memes have destroyed my family . i found my son twerking and dabbing to spongebob vocaloid song . he had to be sent to the hospital . his condition is called twerabbing . . . he will forever suffer from it and it’s all uni’s fault. IF ONLY she stayed the same DAMN Monokuma that she was before ! like those anons sent her . uni has become . . . INDEPENDENT . how awful ! she decides to SMILE instead of frown . she decided to be COOL ? ? ? what the fidget spinning donkey do do gave her the right ?? I just can’t believe what she has become . we use to be friends . we use to be lovers . i even donated my spleen to make sure she would keep on rping the CANON monokuma . . . i don’t have my spleen anymore . i only have sadness .

now i shall provide some examples of her awesomeness that destroyed my life 

EXMAPLE ONE : her background .

as you can see through a screen shot i took of her background , you can spot the coolness of the whole original design . what gave her the right to do that ? she’s presenting that she’s better than the community and i can’t stand for this . she’s too ??? awesome ?? it’s ridiculous and frankly , its fake af. i find it highly offense ###trigger warning#### . the colors represent death and death isn’t funny . a lot of people experience death and its seriously not cool to put it in her background without warning . she should probably put a big #tw on it as well .and do you see that wolf ? dear lord oh might , send jesus to this corn .theres a hand all up and wiggling out of its mouth . is that ?? satanic marks ??? does she support satanism ??? does she even like flowers??? its such a punishment to mankind . i cannot believe - i simply cannot . she’s just too diggity darn cool for all of us . we might as well delete our blogs .

EXAMPLE TWO : mains

listen . she all up and choosing who she wants to rp with to make herself feel better . how dare she ?? we all wanna rp , but you gonna delete us like that ? are we not good enough for you ? jesus christ . i cannot believe - isrrlious ca noot. do i even needles to complains about this ? i do not . i dooont . you get it. movin on. plus if you don’t get it then that means you must be racist.

EXAMPLE THREE : her fc

SPONGEBOB is an icon to children . is uni a child ? no , they aint . they manipulated the image of spongebob to their own liking ??? how could you do that ?? aint spongebob good neough for you?? you gotta change it ? really ? wowie . uni is like 49 years old .i got the proof . lookie here , a ppictue of them . that a fucking good ass picture of uni . disgusting . very disgusting. BUT THAT JUST MOVES ONTO NUMBER 4TH.

EXMAPLE : shipping

girl , is all you think about shipping ? like the fuck ? do you even rp correctly ? do you even tpye right ? UNI has an obsessive behavior with shipping . all they do is ship. she be wantin her DIVERGENT NON CANON MUSE THAT SOPPOSE TO BE CANON LEMME TELL YEA H , to be snuggle dunkie dunkie with some funkie other muses . all she rps is yoaoi . she don’t even rp yuri or straightness . how sexist is that . if you dont find this to be sexist , you gotta be sexist yourself .

oh my god i cant keep writing this . im laughin too much . tbh this is just bullshit . Uni is a fucking amazing roleplayer and they are soo fucking cool . I cannot explain the amount of love I have for uni . I’ve always admired them and I always look up to them . I love their layout , love the character they were able to develop over time ( 2 years ?? girl i cant even stay on a blog for 3 months ), and I appreciate them . I LOVE that they are in the rpin community , it’s the best to see them on my blog . some people might not like the way uni is going but i love it since they are doing what they want . all blogs dont end up being 100 percent canon , its impossible to stay canon without getting bored . thats like no muse development and thats the worst thing that can happen to someone . to be bored with their own muse ?? so yeah . I love uni <3 don’t take any of the top part seriously . its a joke and only a joke . i show all my love to uni as much as possible and i do it to everyone tbh . i love everyone hah. but this is all silly shit to throw in . don’t harass uni because they happen to be diverg from the canon . isn’t it cooler to see a diverg ?? its very different and brings more interesting stuff . 

ilu uni <3

[xiaobaobaei]

get to know me tag💕

i was tagged by @jimoons thank u bb!!💝 rules: answer 30 questions about yourself then tag 20 people you want to get to know better 1. nickname: dont really have one! my name is sonja so theres not many options for nicknames i guess 2. gender: female 3. star sign: taurus 4. height: 158cm i think thats like 5'2? 5. time: 11:03 pm 6. birthday: april 24th 7. favorite bands: uHH i dont really listen to that many bands omg years & years, alt-j, the neighbourhood, and my boys bts obviously 8. favorite solo artists: frank ocean and lorde are my absolute faves atm! also childish gambino (even tho his newest album wasnt that great rip🤧), and uhhh idk i listen to mostly mainstream rap / hip hop / pop stuff 9. song stuck in my head: Rolex by Ayo & Teo someone please help me 10. last movie watched: uhhhh idk but i think the last time i actually went to the cinema was for the purge: election year?? good movie!!!! 11. last show watched: idk what its called bc it was chinese but we had english subtitles n it was really funny!! (also sidenote i agree with sophie avatar: the last airbender is the greatest show of all time...... prince zuko is the love of my life) 12. when did i create my blog: i had this blog since like 2012 (bc of one direction lmao like probably 90% of people on this website) then i abandoned it for years and started using it again last year maybe? 13. what do i post: pink and beige aesthetic pics, bts, memes and uhh text posts 14. last thing i googled: "i feel like absolute shit just want her back meme" what the fuck did i need that for oh my god 15: do you have any other blogs: yeah one reference blog for posts i wanna keep like lists, art reference / inspiration, skincare etc etc so i have it all in one place with a nice tagging system so i dont need to search thru my likes and another one for bts stuff that doesnt fit the colour scheme on my main but i dont want them to get lost in my likes (also to say dumb shit in the tags lol yeet) 16: do you get asks: maybe once every 3 decades most of my followers dont even recognize my existence omg 17: why did you choose your url: uhm its a good time of the day and also aesthetically pleasing i guess 18: following: 170 i think 19: followers: around 200 bc i soft blocked old / inactive followers when i restarted this blog 20: favorite colors: blush pink and olive green 21: average hours of sleep: i dont know tbh im on autopilot 70% of the day i dont pay attention to these things 22: lucky number: i really don’t have one but i like the number 12 for some reason 23: instruments: none binch i am too impatient to learn 24: what am i wearing: babyblue pants (not jeans, the soft ones idk what they're called in english lol theyre more "dressy" i guess), a black oversized shirt and a black belt 25: how many blankets do i sleep with: one and my legs have to be outside or i will overheat and die on the spot 26: dream job: im really interested in graphic design / product design and stuff like that and i also love interior design but im not sure yet 27: dream trip: i always wanted to go to asia and im actually in china right now and i love it so much!!! i also wanna see some scandinavian countries 28: favorite food: uhh pasta tbh its the love of my life and i miss it 29: nationality: german 30: favorite song now: i cant choose one song but french montanas new album is really good!!! i tag everyone who reads this💝💝💝💝 (which means no one will do it but ok i guess😪)

[despairfullies-blog]

Callout for garbageday

urls: pyukumu, choromaso, etc.

TW: abuse, rape threats, suicide threats, etc.

This was the last thing i wanted to do pertaining to this whole drama but yea ive never written a callout before so please bear with me through this ill do my best. Im also getting help with this from amazing friends so here we go:

First off im gonna start by debunking my callout he made by trying to go through each point gaster has made to the of my ability. If you dont know what callout that is just click here:

1. I dont remember this ever occurring?? If i did i a sincerely sorry for that. I do not mean to make anyone unomfortable on here, so if i did indeed do that i am completely sorry and ill do anything to earn forgiveness from the person in question

2. None of that dialouge was from me, i have never dated gaster nor broken up with him. The whole breakup thing was my system mate, Tsubaki. He isnt currently fronting or i would have him do something about all of that but he is the one that dated gaster in the past. I had no romantic/sexual relation to gaster in the slightest so all those screenshots are not of me. Tsubaki has abandonment issues and was very dependent on gaster so their breakup was a rocky one. I have no right to say much else unfortunately cause i am not tsubaki but if you want proof of them dating, Tsubaki has had many chatter between him and gaster on his old blog here

3. Im not gonna deal with the whole id thing. If i really must i will, but i have made myself clear many times. Some of those ids are for coping while some im just questioning. Im sorry me iding with those people make you uncomfortable and if they do you can block me, but because my mental state isnt that good rn i cant say much else about all of that. This will probably be the weakest point in my arguement cause that all is a drama on its own

4. All of ‘that’ was in reference to gaster being emotional manipulative to my system mate. My system mate broke down so in turn i acted out like that. I might have said some rude things but on most basis’ the things i said were true. He is abusive, manipulative, and at this point obsessive which ill get to later on. All in all i probably shouldnt have said such rude words to him, but i will not back down from saying he did have some of it coming

5 (All of the bonus content). I have never contacted gaster on Christmas eve. Im not sure if one of my system mates did?? But i can say for certain i never did in the slightest. I have never tried to do sexual contact with a minor. If i really have please show me proof cause i have never seen or heard of any of this?? I am a very flirtatious person, a any of my mutuals can agree on, but like i said i do not want to make anyone uncomfortable so if that really happened i am truly sorry. If i pressured you into sexting too i am sorry about that, i do admit i was very unstable before but im doing my best to change, make friends, etc. So i am sorry if you felt that way and i had done that. And the last one, i have never admitted i am a pedophile. Never in my life have i done that. Im sorry if you thought that but i am not a pedophile case closed.

Alright all of that is done now for the actual callout of this ,,,, individual:

Gaster is a manipulative, abusive, and once again obsessive individual. Lets start off with that fact he was emotional abusive to my system mate while they were dating. For instance he would make Tsubaki front practically days and weeks in a row even tough told many times that he is unstable and cant do that and when Tsubaki did not front he would harras whoever was in front till they would make Tsubaki front (Im cropping out his username on skype for safety for gaster)

He even told my system mate was fake after having accepted him and us as a system for around a year. He would try to blame this onto tsubaki and us as a whole whenever Tsubaki said/did something that would make gaster upset. Im all for helping your partner through something like this, but when its only to manuiplate him/her thats uncalled for. This isnt the first time he plays the ‘your existance is fake’ card but this was the first time he did

He also did alot more manipulative and abusive things towards my system mate but i wont talk further about this because this is someting my system mate should be saying, not me. Now as for the recent drama with gaster, between me and him, he has done many things including sending anon hate inculding rape threats, abuse threats, and suicide threats (i crop most of them cause of convince sake)

He has also sent my irl gore, but unfortunately i dont have any of that screenshoted cause i deleted the instant it was in my submission box. All i have as proof are the countless emails i was sent from tumblr telling me someone put something in my submission.

Last but not least he had the idea i had ‘told my followers to harass him’ which i never stated in my lifetime here on this tumblr. But he thought and proceeded to messege me

I do admit i was mean to Tsubaki. Me and him are working through all of that but thats a different talk all together.

Now one last thing before i wrap this up. One of my friends (who ill let remain anonymous due to everything) also got hurt by him. He showed how he was not only rude to my friend, but also the fact that he would manipulate my system mate Tsubaki once he lived him (which btw is another thing gaster did he tried to peer pressure my system mate into living with him)

Anyways long story short, gaster is manipulative, abusive, and down right obsessive at this rate. I admit im not a fantastic guy either, but i dont want to fight anymore. Im not gaster’s ex, i have no beef with him except for all of this. Ive just tipped the ice berg with everything gaster has done so if you need me to provide more evidence please let me know. Thank you everyone and i hope you have a nice day.

[erizee]

got tagged by @excessively-english-jd ! :D thanks

1. why did you choose your url

ok so dont make fun of me for this but i chose it years ago when i was much more into homestuck than i am now and i didnt know how ship names work so. its 13 year old me's 2 favourite homestuck characters lmao. id change it but now its just My Name so

2. any side-blogs? if so, name them & why you have them

i also have @onlyforl8r & @refstoremembermine but theyre both just collections of stuff to look at later so theyre not like. Actual side blogs. i also have a ~secret personal trans stuff~ side blog but im not saying what it is lol

3. how long have u been on tumblr

since november (?) 2013 but i only rly started using it sometime in 2014 bc i didnt get how it works before that lmao

4. do u have a queue tag

nope im wayy too lazy to actually make a queue i just post everything live

5. why did u start ur blog in the first place

my friend convinced me to get it (if u see this hi lol)

6. why did u choose ur icon/pfp

i was super into mcr when i was 15 & i kept seeing gerard called "gee", which rhymes with "bee", so i drew gerard way as a bee. havent changed it since, its been 6 years

7. why did u choose ur header

its cute! its from my 1st town in animal crossing having coffee with one of my fave villagers in a trans shirt so it just fits too well

8. whats your post with the most notes

i assume this means posts we made ourselves bc thats the only thing ill find. anyway i only have 2 posts w more than 300 notes & theyre 1) a 671 note post about how everyone in venom (including venom) is rly hot & 2) a 602 note screenshot from the 3rd gotham season finale w a tumblr post screenshot "selling my feelings on ebay" on it. if ur curious theyre tagged for fandoms & i only tag my own posts so u can easily find them on my blog i think

9. how many people do u follow

oh god i have no idea, i barely ever unfollow people i just turn notifications off so its probably above 1000

10. have u ever made a shitpost

i mean yea ive had this blog for 8 years i 100% made stupid jokes on here before lol

11. how often do u use tumblr

its Thee social media i use so. every day many times a day lol. probably too much but eh who cares

12. did u ever have a fight/argument with a blog? who won?

nothing specific as far as i can remember but i used to be rly into one fandom a few years ago and there was a Huge mess going down there at the end. i wasnt involved but i knew/was mutuals with most ppl that were so

13. how do u feel abt "u need to reblog this post"

rly depends on my mood/what its about, sometimes ill reblog it & sometimes i wont

14. do u like tag games

yea! tagging other ppl is always rly hard because i never know if its okay or if im annoying ppl so i usually just do the answers & dont tag anyone lol but i Do like tag games!

15. do u like ask games

if thats what i think it is ("say sth & sent this to people") then :/ idk im not a fan, its like a tag game except u need to ask other ppl Much more directly & its terrifying lol

16. which of ur mutuals do u think is tumblr famous

uh idk? honestly i dont even know who im mutuals with for some ppl i know but im not checking my follower list that much so idk

17. do u have a crush on a mutual

(movie voice) "uh i have a boyfriend" lmao. no but seriously i dont rly get crushes nearly ever the "regular" way & it definitely never happens over tumblr for me

im tagging uhhhh @idkjustbreath, @scumlow, @geislieb & @cricketchirps

no pressure to answer but it would be nice :)

[thickrthnwater]

yeah, answer all of them that you can

... ho boytell me about your crush!!!!!!! hes v sweet and says rly nice things to and about me and hes very smart. he has almost black hair, very kind dark dark brown eyes, nice thick brows (yes theyre nice i love thick eyebrows) like.. very thick, a warm wide smile that could light up a whole country. hes the kindest person ive ever met, also loves weed a LOT, and has a vvv cute dog named gizmo and shares his love of dogs with me. way more than a crush. tell me about your ex. well ur one of my exes, ur very smart also, intellectual, definitely gonna use your knowledge for a greater good. also v cool. my other ex is a fucking scumbag :) tell me about your day. my chemistry teacher doesnt like me bc i dont understand the material, i actually woke up on time, uh... not that eventful to talk about. headed to therapy rn. tell me about your dreams i just wanna get out of new england with someone i love and have a dog farm and grow weed and die happy. i wanna travel the world too. tell me about your drama i dont have anytell me about yourself :-) im short, kind of awkward, i love photography and makeup and singing and music and dogs. the office is my favorite tv show, my favorite color is bluetell me about something awkward/embarrassing one time at a middle school dance my pants ripped right on my ass and nobody told me for half an hour and by the end of the night my pants had ripped down to my calftell me about a funny story or something telling funny stories results in them being less funny than it was for me so im good. tell me your favourite band/artist/album/song i love the deftones, slipknot, all of a$ap mob, 21 savage, green day, etc etctell me about your favourite meme nothing beats the nut meme for me. basic, but can use it in endless situationstell me about your favourite fic i dont read fanfictiontell me a secret ;) one time when i had strep throat really bad every time id cough id puke and i coughed in my sleep and puked all over my facetell me who you ship me with whoever you liketell me a lame joke/bad pick-up line ehtell me about your favourite tumblr user(s) too manytell me about your least favourite tumblr user(s) probably a stupid pointless blog, none i can think oftell me what you’re thinking about smoking a bowl when i get back from therapy and dreading homeworktell me your assumptions about me idktell me your feelings about me youre cool tell me why you started following me bc youre my friendtell me why I’m problematic ur not problematic in the slightest ask for advice ehask for fic recs ehask for song recs if i needed them id text youask me weird questions id text youask me personal questions id text youask me random questions id text youask me deep questions id text youask for makeup recs/tips u dont wear makeupask me my “top 5″ anything id text ugive makeup recs/tips blend ur eyeshadow, make sure ur contour isnt orange, make sure ur foundation is blended, dont do winged eyeliner with stick eyeliner, only gel or liquidask for hair dying tips dont fucking bleach ur hair at homesend me headcannons ugh send me blurb/fic/oneshot ideas write something about winter idksend me blurbs!!!!! ehsend me song recs we dont share the same music taste and if we so, we listen to the same stuffsend me unpopular opinions idksend me your zodiac sign and I will tell you if I’d date you or not ur a sagittarius and sure if i wasnt seriously invested in someone else send me a url and I will tell you what I think about that person eh i follow like 850 blogs thats a lot of worksend me your honest opinion of me you know it already confess your sins ive dated like 40 people and i slept with a 21 year old oncefangirl about stuff!!! just look at my blog tagsrant about stuff!!! school is fucking stupid and has made my self esteem non existent whats new and my grandma said i was becoming more narcissistic even tho thats not true at allgossip about stuff!!! i dontvent about stuff!!! thats what ranting meansgive me playlist ideas songs that you listen to during nighttime drives or just at night or when youre lonely n shitmaybe give me some fic recs? please oh my god stop with this fucking questionmake me choose between two things life or death, food or beverages, liquor or wine, weed or dabs/waxmost likely to go off the grid and do some fucking awesome, novel worthy shitfuck marry kill fuck, whoever you please, marry, whoever u marry, kill, anyone who really fucks u over truth or dare this isnt 5th gradewould you rather would you rather breathe or blinklet’s talk about the sex because sex ed isn’t talked about enough weve done that in the past enough fuel my ego and tell me your favourite things about me your hair is pretty cool, your eyebrows are too good fuck utalk to me about astrology stuff!!! mercury is in retrogradetalk to me about aliens!!! this is getting oldwrite an “about me” pretending to be me im bored now sorrydescribe me in three words or lessif I was a stereotype in a movie what would I be? edgy highschool burn outgo on anon and drag meask me about anythingtalk to me about anythingI will answer every ask I get nothing will go unansweredseriously just please come talk to me (✿◕ ‿◕ฺ)ノ))。₀: *゜