#(: i am so normal abt doom being back

[vulcan-moon]

you cannot deny the animal that you are

[gojosbf]

can u tell us about geto's goals/philosophies and his reasoning for them? or abt geto's mind overall (I wanna l read you yap abt him 😞) /nf

okay so buckle up i am going to talk from the very beginning

Geto wasn't meant to be a special grade, it was gojo's birth that caused shift in the balance of the world and suguru was born as a counter, he was doomed from the very beginning!! A special boy with two normal human parents was a rare case, he was a ticking time bomb since the start. His strong principles turned out to be his biggest weakness. When he was defending and lecturing gojo about how it is their responsibility as the strong ones to protect the weak he did not for once stop to think that the weak people he saves includes awful human beings too. He believed that what they as jujutsu sorcerers did was right and just, until they were hit by riko's death, that shock of watching a crowd cheering the death of a child was the first time he was facing real world, unlike gojo he always believed that he was putting himself through so much (ingesting curses which literally taste like a rag drenched in puke) for good people.

He believed in humanity and compassion, he thought that was his role, to protect, to save humans and it was his ideals that did not allow him to let gojo kill those cult members in the beginning. That was the first slap of cruelty to his face, then comes watching his best friend being overworked to the bone for the same people, then haibara's death because again! They're expected to protect normal people!! It does not matter if they die in the process or how outnumbered or untrained they're because that's their duty!! And then he visits the village where nanako and mimiko were kept in a cage and abused just because they happen to have cursed energy, the villagers refused to let those two little girls go even after geto assured them that the cursed spirit wasn't their doing. It was an event after event where he kept witnessing the ugliness of humanity, there was no logical explanation to their behaviour, he couldn't find a "meaning" in their actions neither was there any "meaning" in saving when all they perpetuate is violence and abuse and death, specially of his loved ones. For a 16 year old boy of course that was too much to bear. He did not want his friends to keep dying protecting people who couldn't care less whether the sorcerers die or live, who won't hesitate to throw them in harms way if it meant protecting themselves or for whatever selfish reasons they have, which is why he turned his attention to his loved ones who were risking their lives day and night. He saw what their future looked like: aka just a pile of dead bodies of all good sorcerers (and he was not wrong!). It was like a wake up call in worst way possible you know? He decided to become the villain if that meant his end goal could achieve a safe and happy environment for his loved ones to live and grow.

It's the "someone has to do the dirty work, someone has to have the blood on their hands to break the cycle" obviously it's not the best way of thinking but to him it seemed possible, gojo could do it, special grades have the ability to wipe out a country and he might've if he won against yuuta and captured rika. Not just that but his cult was literally build on killing and looting from rich scums, i am in no way trying to defend him but he always had his principles in check and followed them in his own twisted way even after leaving jujutsu high. (He did not attack anyone from jjk high either until it was absolutely necessary in yuuta's case). I think he did regret his decisions because in the novel it was mentioned that how his last words were from a man who has wiped himself away in pursuit of his goals for whom there was no turning back.

[minho-hoho]

Yandere!ENHYPEN's reaction to their S/O slapping them

genre... yandere! pairing... yandere!enhypen x gn!reader! warning... cursing, yandere themes and behaviour, violence, small caps intended etc...! wc...1.7k! note... yall, no month has ever been so hectic im so sorry, like ive been trying to deal with my feelings (not abt tumblr, for the first time ever im starting to like someone sooo) and i got sick (again, yes im sick every two weeks) bedridden, and still am but its okay. just idk now expect more fluff since im more in a lovey stage bc of that little someone :>!

MASTERLIST

이 희승 Lee Heeseung

it all started after a heated argument about you not being able to go out with some of your friends

you were starting to get really annoyed and angry at your boyfriend's over-the-counter possessiveness and protectiveness

you just wanted to go outside and enjoy yourself, without him for once

it was basically a yelling match and you were starting to get seriously frustrated by the situation

suddenly, you felt your body move by itself

and in a fit of rage, your hand flew to Heeseung's face

it didn't hit you immediately, you were so enraged you didn't notice the shock and disbelief on Heeseung's face

you were breathing heavily and tried to calm yourself down. to you, the world had stopped for minute, you clearly weren't aware of your surroundings

but Heeseung made sure to snap you back to reality with his livid voice

“what the fuck did you just do?”

“what? it's nowhere near as bad as anything you've done to me anyways” you retorted, still on your high

he threw a death glare your way, that you didn't even notice

“i think that someone here” he came closer to you and looked down at you “needs to be taught a lesson”

and just like that, you were dragged to a dreaded place, still seeing red

박 제이 Park Jay

to be honest, you didn't how did you get so far in an argument

you should have already been locked up, but yet you weren't, you were here, screaming your lungs out, tears rolling down your cheeks, trying to put some sense into your psychotic “boyfriend”

at this point, you couldn't even remember what you were originally arguing about, you were basically buying time before getting locked up

but the more you argued, the madder you got

you wanted Jay to get a taste of his own medicine so bad, even if it was just a little, even if the consequences could be almost deadly

you wanted to hit on his ego, to feel even tiny bit embarrassed to be treated in such a way

you were quite weak, but you took all the remaining strength in your body and gave him the biggest slap

the sound of your hand on his face resonated through the whole house, and what you felt like pmmthe whole universe

it felt good, but you now knew, that there was no buying time anymore

you were doomed, and you knew it too well, but you were at a point where you were just waiting for him to end you by inadvertence

Jay forcefully pushed you onto the ground and took a few seconds to take a look at you

he took your leg and dragged you across the floor and stairs to the basement not even taking a look at your suffering self

he couldn't care less, all he saw was rage and madness, he couldn't believe how bold you were and made sure to teach you and unforgettable lesson

심 제이크 Sim Jake

you didn't even remember the last time you argued with Jake

it was always pretty sweet with him, but only recently you started to take notice of the manipulation

you started to notice how the way he treated you was far from normal, and it was rapidly but carefully bulding in you anger and resentment towards Jake, who didn't really notice the subtle changes in your behaviour

it was after him begging for you two to not go out on a date that you lost it

you started screaming right at his face and pouring all the contents of your heart on him, insults after insults were thrown, taking him aback

but he still got the situation under control, he knew you very well, and this outbursts of yours was going to end in his favour

again, he used his best technique, manipulation. he tried, but despite his best efforts, you saw right through it

and you managed to get even more enraged, if that was even possible

you took angry steps towards Jake and waste a second to slap him harshly

a wave of anger came over Jake, but he knew better to act put of anger. the last thing he'd ever was to appear as the bad guy

he was going to use your act to victimise himself and make YOU the bad guy

and that's how he put you back into your place, and filled you with immeasurable guilt

박 성훈 Park Sunghoon

you usually always tip-toed when you were with Sunghoon, which was all the time

but being with such a person lead to built up frustration and anger, that you always made sure to never unleash onto him, knowing damn well that he wasn't going to spend a single second trying to understand you

but today was different, nothing seemed to go your way, everything seemed like it was trying to push your buttons further and Sunghoon was no exception

everything he did seemed to bug you more than usual, and today was not the day you were up to deal with his quite annoying teasing

you tried to tell him to stop, but he didn't want to listen driving you crazier

after another remark from him, your body started dmoving on its own and you slapped his face with all of your strength

your eyes widened before his did, and before he could even compute your bold act, apologies started spilling our of your mouth, tears already forming in your eyes

but to your surprise, Sunghoon just started laughing, his laugh getting crazier by the second, scaring you but nevertheless, you kept the apologies coming until they almost made no sense

“shut up” and you immediately did, he then grabbed your hair and dragged you too your room

“you've gotten so bold and mean and for what?” he shook his head “i've done nothing but be nice and you repay me like this?” he tugged at your hair harshly as you were struggling on the floor

“i guess i should have known better, you are a brat after all. i hope that what you'll be going be through today will be enough for you to finally understand.” he took a look at your pitiful figure “not like i mind pushing you anyways”

김 선우 Kim Sunoo

where did this rage even come from? maybe it was from being locked away from the world, trapped with someone you absolutely loathed. who knew, what mattered was the fact that Sunoo's clingy behaviour was greatly pissing you off

his recent jealousy was way more overbearing these days, and you couldn't stand him being attached to your hip after acting in such deranged ways.

hell, everything he did seemed to piss you off in some ways and you told him multiple times but you were met with a pouting Sunoo which irked you even more

but this time it was too much

your head was hurting and the lats thing you needed was Sunoo yelling at you for a reason you didn't even know, you assumed it was because of his jealousy

you argued back, todl him to shut up repeatedly but to no avail, it only angered him more

and that's when you did it

you slapped him, you could say goodbye to your head because he was now screaming his head off and you of course, received a slap back

all you could do was sob uncontrollably on the floor, begging for all the screaming to stop

양 정원 Yang Jungwon

the only reason an argument with Jungwon got so far, was only because he found it entertaining to see you so engaged as if you were going to change his mind, he found you quite adorable like that

but now he had enough of seeing you scream, he did prefer seeing you docile and calm, and he would be lying if he didn't want his peace and quiet

after some eye rolling, he told you off, having not listened to anything you've said, not really caring

“did you even listen to me at all?” you said angrily, Jungwon smirked

“of course not, why would i?” he laughed “now just shut up before i get angry”

you were boiling inside, you felt frustrated, could nothing get through his head? if words didn't, maybe actions would

and right then and there, you slapped him, not with much force, you just wanted to get your point across

but if he was feeling nice earlier, he sure wasn't now

he didn't plan on punishing you today, but now, to him at least, it was the only option left

“i tried being nice with you but i guess you didn't get the memo, hm?” without leaving you the chance to answer he grabbed your arm and brought his face close to yours

“i suppose violence is the only way you can understand who's in control”

西村 力 Nishimura Riki

you two were passionately arguing as always

spitting venom at each other, fighting your sides for your dear lives, too stubborn to stop and apologise

you didn't even remember why you were arguing, you were just arguing to argue, in your minds, there was no way you were going to lose this battle

red with rage, you couldn't help but get even angrier seeing Riki shooting daggers at you

it only drove you further in you indignation and furor

you knew how he pushed every single one of your buttons, and this was the last straw

insulting your loved ones, especially after taking you away from them, was just too much for you to bear

the second your processed his words your hand flew across the room to his face, leaving a huge mark on his cheek

“i guess this shuts you up, huh?” you said snarkily, still riding your high seeing Riki mouth wide opened

“okay i don't where the fuck did you get your confidence from, but know that i'm going to make you pay for this” now your eyes widened and gulped as you heard him speak

he pulled your hair to bring you closer to him before speaking in your ear

“i'm going to make sure you won't ever use these hands of yours in such ways”

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[yuukei-yikes]

chatting with my kagefriend @hibihiiyo about ayaki

i keep imagining how whenever shintaro activates retaining, all the routes bleed together in his mind so post str since its his constant state it's confusing AND terrifying to live past that august once and for all. like, it goes on beyond what he has known and remembers hundreds of versions of. so picture that, but from ayaki's perspective.....

all those routes, and shintaro finally knows. constantly. because shintaro will ALWAYS remember at one point, but then he'll forget again. ayaki is used to it. in fact she resents how she looks forward to it because it's the only time she interacts with... anything!!! she has actual influence when shintaro activates her. depending on what she says shintaro will say something different. routes always differ, at least slightly, but seeing shintaro at the end before it starts again is her one chance to say ANYTHING before she waits thousands of years again until shintaro is born and grows to be 18. she has actual presence when he remembers, even if they're tiny pockets of time in her eternity. however post str this is constant. shintaro is There.

and you know who else is there. HERSELF. time for ayano math.

ayano just fucking hates herself that's like. ayano 101. but what happens when there's 2 of them. they both hate themselves for doing things but those things are vastly different from each other. so... same person, different contexts and choices. which one is most hated by both? the answer is. well. whichever is alive!!

Because THAT ayano, so basically our final route ayano, has everything. but... erm, SHE wasn't supposed to Make It. ayano is never supposed to survive. ayano staying is an anomaly. and ayaki will continue to be miserable as her family and friends are alive and she is not there to be by their side, but that's always been part of the deal, she knew that she wasn't ever getting "a happy ending" because her Happiest Ending is her family's safety. her very existence is being doomed for infinity. but this route's version of her staying around and... GETTING A HAPPY ENDING!??!?!?! THAT.... WAS NOT EVER EVEN CONSIDERED.

shintaro continues to astonish her when he pulls something like this, letting ayano survive? SAVING ayano? who the hell does he think he is. hasnt ayaki suffered enough? why is she also cursed to watch herself get a happy ending. she doesn't deserve it and ayaki knows ayano knows she doesn't deserve it.

THIS ayano roped kano into it, she basically threw haruka and takane at the wolves, she left her siblings completely unprotected. ayaki was Left because she was willing to do something extreme and awful and scared her siblings away and made it right in her mind by cursing herself to be This, just for her "succesful" version to kill herself out of the situation AND get put on a pedestal for it? bullshit!!!!

this route's ayano is glorified and praised by her siblings and welcomed back with open arms and tears. this ayano gets to apologize and make things right, she gets to eat her favorite food again, she gets to become friends with mary, she gets to go on a date with shintaro, she gets her siblings to trust her. she gets everything despite she was a coward and wronged everyone FAR MORE than ayaki did, and she only suffered 2 years of the daze compared to ayaki's eternity in there.

hope articulated so spectacularly their thoughts abt ayaki's psyche that i am straight up quoting her text rn:

"she decided she’d punish herself by dying over and over again, and watching the people she loves die over and over again for all of eternity, until she manages to find some way to get thru to shintaro and fix it and never be able to be a human being again and live normally. thus is forced to become so numb, desensitized, and uncaring to pain and suffering that her otherwise human brain, which was never meant or designed to be turned into an immortal demi deity and the patron saint of suffering, would split in half and make her go insane. which it probably did. her human brain was not meant to live forever, to suffer forever, to watch others suffer forever, to watch the same mundane endless events with no agency or control over how they occur. death, pain, and suffering became tools to win her ultimate game of 5 dimensional, temporal chess and thus she can no longer abide by morals to fulfill her ultimate purpose. deci and ryan’s self determination theory states all humans need to feel relatedness, competency, and autonomy to thrive in their environment, and by martyring herself into a snake, ayaki chooses to deprive herself of all of these things. she is not good at her job and must fail over and over again for eternity because the story playing in front of her is RNG out of her control. ayaki cannot relate to anyone because nobody knows she’s there, not even shintaro except on rare instances. and ayaki has zero autonomy over anything, except her incredibly cryptic vague dreams that rarely even work"

ayaki's big curse is her humanity remaining. It's the pain she feels because of the love she feels, over and over, it nevers gets any easier and it never hurts any less, her love grows stronger and stronger with each reset. ayaki hates herself so much which is why she hates our route ayano Even More

[they-call-them-atlas]

Heyy! I'm Aleksei, im not very experienced and neither I use much Tumblr, but I wanted to make an intro post :3

I'm from Argentina, my province stays private, cause I'm not quite the type to shade stuff Ike that.

This is more of a personal acc I did, so if u follow me from my other socials don't expect any art in here.

I'm a furry lol

I'm autistic, professionally diagnosed, I do not condone self diagnosis.

I'm a comshipper (ONLY THE NORMAL STUFF, SUCH AS HUMAN×NONHUMAN, IM NOT A PEDO NOR A ZOO AND PLEASE DO NOT TELL ME I AM.😭😭)

I read a lot of manga and comics, also started reading warrior cats a while ago cause im a huge fan of fantasy books! I play a bunch of video games and visual novels

I am quite mentally ill, so do not get surprised if out of nowhere I act erratic, even though it is not common for me it DOES happen sometimes, you are warned :)

I'm a freelance artist, right now on the process of being hired for a psychology foundation for books ^^

I'm non binary and shappic (so, homoromantic)

I like madK, boyfriend to death, music (mostly deathcore, grind and such, my fave band is 1nfant ann1h1lator :3) hikaru ga shinda natsu, doom eternal (I'm ass at it) Call of duty (been playing since I'm 8 XD) , remember the flowers, gravity falls, dorohedoro, hellsing (only the ultimate, I've never seen the og JSKDN) and a lot of others.

If you wanna talk or something, I always follow back, so feel free to do so, just no RP and NSFW, I fomd it gross to talk abt such topics with people I'm no friends with.

And that's it! :3

[narutobad]

Ok ok I'm normally not a person that would do this but I have thoughtts that have been eating me feom inside and I feel like ur insane enough (/pos) to understand this but like

Have ur ever got the energy Abt sasusaku being like tragic? I not really into them bc I never got the right vibes for them to really appeal to me so I never really cared or paid attention to them in a romantic sense but after seeing some ppl talking Abt them divorcing put this ideas into my mind of them clearly loving caring respecting and trusting each other but being together as in married or commiting ina relationship doesn't make them happy or it even makes them unhappy but the idea of letting go especially now it's so painful that they stay and even when they try to break it of they end up back together bc staying with each other is always a better option then being without the other even if they know it's not doing the good

But idk um a sucker for divorce and doomed tragic relationships and am being a bit delusional lol

i do think there is a lot of tragedy around sasuke and sakura's relationship, yeah. there is so much grief there, with sasuke's history and trauma and sakura's complicated feelings towards him, so many years of waiting and all of it festering.

i like to think that with time, patience and the love they undoubtedly share they're able to figure it out, and thats part of why i like them, how complicated their relationship is - but just as easily there is a possibility of them not being able work it out, of course. and that's also interesting.

i can see it going the way you're pointing out, especially if you consider how sasuke behaves in boruto, which i personally don't because i find it ooo. in that universe, divorce is the answer yup. god, they'd grow to resent each other so much, it'd be super toxic.

all in all, for sasusaku to work out, there has to be a lot of healing on both sides, so much maturity and grace in both of them. i could see sakura making herself smaller for sasuke, as she often did when she was a child, and sasuke being emotionally unavailable, and taking and taking from sakura. i could see them being stuck in that dynamic, loving each other so much still, unable to let go.

that is tragic indeed, but in my interpretation by the end of the manga neither sasuke nor sakura are those people anymore/they are well on their way of leaving those people behind, and that's why i place my bets on them figuring it out 😝

[rueclfer]

This is random but like don’t even get me started on Gojo and Geto. I get that they are canonically JUST FRIENDS but come on. “My six eyes are telling me your suguru Geto but my HEART AND SOUL TELL ME OTHERWISE.” Like WHAT. I sobbed so hard when Gojo said that. I like relate to Geto so hard and I cried an embarrassing amount when I watched season 2. Like actually I went from being bored to being just actually distraught. Also all the edits on TikTok were NOT helping. In my mind they were in love with each other. Gojo could NOT save geto bc geto chose to save gojo. Geto would not let gojo save him. He always cared about satoru, even when he was loosing his mind, even on his death bed. It was always satoru. And his curse technique doomed him from the beginning. to have to house the worst of humanity’s emotions. their fears, their hatred, their anger, their sorrows. He was doomed to go down a dark path ☹️ and there wasn’t a way to save Geto and thats why gojo chooses to spend his time challenging the higher-ups and protecting the new students bc maybe if someone like him existed back then, he’d still have geto at his side. Also the way that Geto said “he’s the best friend I ever HAD” and Gojo said “my best friend found it” which means Gojo (atleast in the movie) still considered them friends but Geto thought Gojo hated him but I don’t think Gojo could bring himself to hate him.

Sorry I just needed a rant about them because I actually love their characters.

this is the best place to rant abt goji and geto bc i will never be normal about them like i am act obsessed with them as a duo 😭😭 thank u anon

[wlwanakin]

since you said to be more specific if i wanted to know more then can you talk abt what youve mapped out of grells and madams relationship? redcliff is my otp so i would love to hear what you think of the red murder wives

ok so!! my biggest thing w them is that to me they are just. horrible for each other. they are soulmates they are tied together by the red string of fate but god is it unhealthy. like if u build a relationship off of brutally murdering ppl ur not gonna have a healthy dynamic i’m sawrry (ESPECIALLY when it ends with murder. u don’t kill ur gf that casually if ur relationship is healthy). there’s so little content of them but the bits we see seem pretty tumultuous (i base a lot off that one rainbow butler one shot bc that shit was so gay but sooo toxic it’s scrumptious) so i just run with it! they’re both very mentally ill and homicidal that shit was doomed from the start

the whole relationship like a slow build from their first meeting bc anne is immediately like Live With Me and they’re inexplicably drawn to each other (read: horny) but it’s a slow evolution from yearning and going marginally insane and probably like drunk making out they refuse to talk abt after to insane love confessions and kinda just running with the idea that they’re basically married. and the whole time it’s just a constant flux between desperately needing each other always and divorce worthy fighting. so much divorce worthy fighting.

grell falls HARD like really fucking hard like despite being the world’s worst gf she’s also more invested. she has insane tunnel vision for anne like she abandoned her whole life for her so ofc she does!! it’s a genuine obsession and it’s so unhealthy and she’s desperately needy and anytime it feels like it may be crumbling she goes hard on trying to sabotage bc she will not leave until the bridge is burnt to fucking ASH (she’s also insanely impulsive abt it like the minute she regains common sense she’s just like “why did i do that” and then wants to rekill herself so bad).

anne is very very infatuated but she’s kind of the normaler party in the sense that she can have a life outside of grell (and grell does not like that). she’s a workaholic abt the murder and also about the Being An Aunt and she’s having a crisis of morality at all times and this makes her very preoccupied but also lowkey without grell she’d kill herself. grell is like her key to being able to live with herself morally it’s like. “no one will love me with how horrible i’m being but this bitch not only loves me but also condones my atrocities!! if she leaves me i’m blowing up the world.” but the thing is she’s confident enough that grell Won’t leave her to not be as invested in her. and she’s also not afraid to be a frigid bitch when she’s pissed at her and can be so extremely hot and cold about everything it’s absolutely insanity inducing.

they’re stuck in this insane loop of being madly in love, anne kinda zoning out of everything and getting cold, grell vying for attention via acting out or manipulation or cheating or something, Big Fight, and then back to being madly in love and they NEVER WANNA STOP bc they understand each other so deeply and fundamentally in a way no one else ever will!! they enable the worst parts of each other and they feel so safe with each other. they’re each other’s home but god that home is the worst place you’ve ever stepped foot in.

there’s also an internalized homophobia layer going on for sure that definitely does not help things. esp bc anne was probably grell’s bi awakening. i always write madam red as a lesbian who has already unpacked that and dealt with it so while she has like. period typical internalized homophobia it’s way less of a Thing for her. but for grell it’s just like Oh God What Is Happening Why Do I Want To Live In Her Skin What Are The Gender Implications Of This I Am Having A Bad Time!! so like the double whammy of a full blown sexuality crisis and first time doing commitment r driving her a little insane the whole time.

it also makes grell nerfing anne a lot less random in my brain. she just snapped in that moment and it was a 2.5 year buildup of frustration that she just let loose bc she felt like she was being rejected and like all her fears of abandonment were being confirmed and she kinda just lost it. i don’t even think she fully gets why she did it tbh it kinda just happened and she ran with it and processed it all two hours later and was like “oh shit i’m going to pretend that won’t make me wanna die forever” but it’s also just a response to a constant pattern of Fucking Everything Up So Bad Now, Kiss And Make Up Later except oopsies it was fatal this time!!!

basically when the relationship is good it’s perfect and idealistic and amazing in every way and when it’s bad it’s the worst fucking relationship you’ve ever seen. it’s a mess they’re a mess it’s so fun!!

[askfpslol]

RULES AND ABT SECTION

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For now, it contains Doom, Metroid, Halo, Half Life, Dead Space, Atomic Heart, Postal, Duke Nukem, and Wolfenstein. Depending on how I feel/my ever-expanding, autistic interests, this list will expand accordingly.

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But Master Chief isn't transfem! Gordon Freeman isn't Black! etc.

Yes, in canon this is true. Media is meant to be interpreted though and I have fun with it on my end. If you dont like things like that, this blog isn't for you. Sorry bud.

Don't you know Atomic Heart is Anti-Ukraine Propaganda?

From where I stand, I don't think it is. I say first and foremost, I 100% support Ukraine and I havn't actually bought the game, I got it off of gamepass. But due to the concepts and actual development of the game starting years ago (concepts go back to as far as 2008 if you look hard enough), from my opinion I don't believe the game has Communist propaganda. I do not support Russia in any way right now, I just want to like my silly, stupid game. I want to get that out of the way in case I get any asks about it, although I don't know if that controversy is still on-going.

I can't think of many other rules, so a proper introduction to the admin, yours truly!

My name is Flynn, and I'm a 17yrold transmasc autistic dude lol. I have a great fondness for old games, particularly FPS boomer-shooters, and I'm fuckeng insane lol. I like making shitty (or sometimes not so shitty) forms of art to express this fondness. Outside of making comics for this blog, I occasionally do serious art I might post here, along with 3d modeling, being a part-time game dev, and I love collecting things, naturally games and old mlp toys from the 80's. Also if you couldn't tell by the PFP and straight up what my name is, I project HARD onto Doomguy I am so sorry about this guys. Anyways,

[thornsent]

cried (I don't do that a lot anymore) to my therapist abt feeling doomed today & how I'm doing everything I should but it doesn't matter because of circumstances completely out of my control and how this contributes to an existential level of depression, and it's not that I want to kill myself or to die so much as I view dying young as an inevitability because of the reality of the conditions I am forced to live in, and I'm working not to prevent it but to postpone it.

I know things are technically changing, but they're incremental-- as was said by my therapist-- and I just... It's not that anything less than being isekai'd into my ideal life is purposeless, it's that I am afraid I cannot survive the slow pace, that I am afraid I cannot outlast it, and it's been this way since forever, literally. I feel like Sisyphus. The boulder is going to roll back down the hill.

I'm waiting for something to make me homeless again, or to otherwise just.... Fuck my life up, pretty much. Constantly. Why would I expect anything else when it's what has repeatedly happened before? I spent my early 20s running around the country so I wouldn't end up on the streets, hopping from one abusive relationship to another. I don't know life as anything but this.

I don't know how to heal when the world itself is fucked. I'm trying to carve out a space for myself but it is unfathomably difficult, even with help. Everything connects to everything else and just causes me so much pain. And I know this wouldn't be so fucking horrible if I was able to have a decent income. Poverty hasn't caused all of my problems, technically, but it's made solving them and preventing further ones nigh-impossible.

I don't even want that much out of life. I want to find someone I feel safe enough to spend my life with. I want a nice house, or townhome, somewhere with lots of windows and light and space for a garden, so I can grow herbs and maybe have chickens. I want a cat. I want space for a studio. I want to be somewhere that I think is beautiful and that I can feel safe to be my authentic self. It really isn't that much! I want a chance at a normal, decent life. I just don't know if I've been dealt a hand where even that is a possibility.

[fandommemequeen]

my 2022.

alright gamerz itz that time of year again 4 Gamerz Yearly Retrospective!!!

so uhh im not gonna sugarcoat it: this year rlly sucked. a lot of stuff went down this year that id rather not go into detail abt here, but its been rough and unfair and sometimes i felt like it was never gonna get better. add onto that skool being mega rough, facing tons of imposter syndrome over my identity, anxiety, World Events, and fricktons of executive dysfunction, and youve got urself a total recipe for disaster.

but amidst all the doom and gloom.. i had better days. i played videogames and arcade games, i hugged the stuffing out of plushies, i anticipated release dates for new videogames, i got my hands on the g3 monster high dolls and relieved my childhood, i still luv siivagunner and wii deleted you and invader zim and deltarune, i got into just shapes & beats, i discovered the tourney community through mashup week: megamix and made some amazing friends, i got into creepypasta and yfm and osu and taiko no tatsujin and arcane and tmk, i got kirby and the forgotten land and splatoon 3 both on launch day and have had SO MUCH FUN with both of them, i luved watching ghost files and puppet history s5 after school and catching new toh and g3 monster high episodes,,

ive also acomplished some milestones too. first time getting an award for one of my cosplays, coming out as arospec [and proceeding to fall in platonic luv with my irl bestie xd], getting a compression top/binder, getting the awesome short emo hair i wanted for months, first time cosplaying at a convention, getting diagnosed with adhd and finally confirming what i had suspected for so long but never outright said due to self-doubt and fear of faking, starting medication, being in counseling/art therapy, trying sodas and monster energy and starbucks frappucchinos with no coffee, and learning to luv being "cringe".

but overall the best thing i did to make it through 2022 was,, just being me. i wrote. i drew. i roleplayed. i cosplayed. i scrolled through social media and chatted with friends far away from me. i read and wrote fanfics. i crafted. i brainstormed. i coded. i listened to music and cranked the volume on my gamer headset with cat ears. i was so very Not Normal about fictional characters. i made new friends and still kept up with old ones. i revisited old fandoms. i vibed in the front yard while listening to music. i checked the mail pretty much every day, secretly hoping one of my pieces of fandom merch would be there. i supported my family through the hard times, and they always supported me. i imagined scenarios and animatics and animation memes while listening to music. i listened to fandom lofi while trudging through overdue assignments. i rocked out to skrillex and monstercat and camellia playing beat saber at 8 in the morning for my virtual p.e. class last year. i learned the absolute beauty of platonic love. i started making unironic mary sues just for the heck of it. i felt so many emotions. i cried of happiness and of sadness. i hugged. i made vent art on my phone. i had complicated feelings. i felt like a faker at times. i was [and still am] learning to overcome climate doomism and death anxiety. i was weird, i was imperfect, i was cringe... but i was so cool for embracing my weirdness, my imperfection, and my cringiness, and i wouldnt have it any other way.

i know i can survive whatever life throws at me. ive got my friends and family by my side, and just being me in the face of.. well, everything, is the strongest thing i can do. im tired of lying down and just taking it. im tired of feeling hopeless. i will fight. i will persist. i will find ways to cope with anxiety and executive dysfunction. and above all, i will continue to love. i will love my family and friends who always have my back, i will love my interests and hobbies, no matter how weird they may seem to others, and i WILL learn to love myself.

after my 2019 retrospective post, i always hesitated a bit to look to the new year with confidence and resilience and hope, in fear of my hopes being crushed and being miserable. now i see that no matter what, lifez gonna be hard sometimes, but i am strong and i will NOT BACK DOWN.

so, for the first time in years, ill say it again. and i rlly, TRULY mean it when i say this:

BRING IT ON, 2023. this scenekid and tourney-obsessed geek can and WILL handle WHATEVER U THROW AT ME!!

[lovelyjasmari]

Twisted Wonderland Reaction Part 14 ~ STOP PERCIEVING ME Edition

Hello everyone!

So I debated on weather to make a post abt this part of book 5 but I decided to anyway cause I have some kinda strong emotions abt it that I have to get out, preferably soon before the  en discourse begins to set in and I risk being nuked off the internet. Next reaction post will be 90% blind so there’s that. 

Warning: Pic heavy, swearing, emotional musings, slight Epel slander,  Vil simping and mention of my ocs (I try to keep it at a minimum). Also TW: Slight mentions of homophobia and my personal experiences with gender dysmorphia. 

Bonjour Honey!!! If you understand that reference, congratulations!! You have unlocked level 200 friendship access to me, please DM me to claim your prize~

Seriously are there no ad-blockers in Twisted Wonderland?!

I’ll say it once, I’ll say it again, Disney missed a huge opportunity playing it safe with Neige’s design and I hate them for it. Especially when we get to his SDC song. No spoilers but it’s pretty bad and I’m not just saying that cause I’m a Vil simp. 

Rook, sweetie, I usually love everything that comes from your mouth but this instant, kindly shut the hell up. You always struck me as someone who would appreciate beauty that is more dynamic and compelling and not so transient, please don’t fail me! 

And this right here, this is the seed Vil planted resulting in me really respecting and admiring him as a character. Carry on, my Pomefiore queen, crush Epel’s toxic way of thinking. We stan. 💙

Uhhh...it’s sounding like you wouldn’t mind that. Not that I’m judging. We don’t kinkshame in this house, for the most part. 😅

Ohhhh Kalim, my sweet sunshine, nice save cause Vil was really about to dropkick you here. And I’d probably let him too...

You truly are the fairest one of my heart. Now and forever. 💙

But seriously, these chapters really made me feel for Vil. I can appreciate the frustration he has of the world perceiving him in a certain way and then punishing him for those false assumptions. Especially since he seems not to be truly cruel, just incredibly tenacious. I’ve been suffering from people’s false assumptions of me for most of my life and I’ve yet to find a way to make people see who I truly am. But I think I could learn not to care about what they think, if I could one day be as radiant as Vil. 

More character development for my sunshine child! And for personal reasons that I’ve mentioned before, this moment made me even happier because it shows that even Kalim is capable of this level of introspection. It really makes me curious and excited for how his and Jamil’s relationship will develop in the future. 

Shut the fuck up Grim! Before I beat your ass with a stick! Christ, we’re having a deep moment and you had to ruin it with your fucking one track mind! You are seriously the worst! (half serious, half affectionate)

This cannot end well...

Your gluttony will be the doom of us all...

Everyone’s gansta ‘till Vil pulls out the ara ara~

👀👀👀 *bonks myself with my own stick* 

YESSIR!

OH FUCK NO! I CHANGED MY MIND VIL! I’LL SLEEP ON THE LOUNGE FLOOR WITH THE IDIOTS! THE SLEEP PARALYSIS RAT IS BACK!

Yes I can but I really wish I wasn’t. Also, Mickey having his OG design really throws a wrench in my Unreality theory I was working from for Yuulan’s storyline...not that I’m gonna fix it at this point though. 

Okay, WHO THE FUCK designed this new twistune?! Cause I’d like to have a word with them! No anger, just wanna talk cause I can usually SS most twistunes on easy and normal but this?! I JUST WANNA TALK

No not really, he was too busy pissing Danica off and she finally had enough...

Okay, so this was the moment that made me REALLY wanna punch Epel in the face and lowkey why I’m not pulling for him this week. The translation is also toned down some so if you understand what he’s saying, Epel comes off as VERY misogynistic here. It’s clear he’s dealing with some serious homophobia and by homophobia, I don’t mean hatred of gay people, I mean actual fear of being perceived in a feminine way which is just as bad (is there a word for that?Cause I know homophobia isn’t the one I’m looking for). Especially since some of his personal stories have shown that Epel does genuinely have some more feminine-perceived interests like embroidery, apple carving, etc. 

Once again, Vil is the right one in this situation. He can see Epel’s potential but because that potential is tied to society’s narrow perception of weakness and strength, Epel himself does not see it. Oddly enough, this is an issue that many of my female ocs deal with. Many of my main girls are very feminine and charming but they also posses incredible strength in various ways. Most of their stories focus on them balancing their strength with their femininity without forsaking their femininity all together. I don’t often see these kinds of stories in media but since I've struggled with my womanhood for so long, my characters are all the more important to me. Because strength is not mutually a masculine trait and there is power in grace. 

And I know some people have interpreted Vil’s actions and words towards Epel as harsh and even abusive but I don’t really.  As someone who has dealt with some serious gender related trauma and dysmorphia in the past, I really take issue with Epel’s comments here. Frankly, I feel like these ignorant societal notions cause as much dysmorphia in people as anything else. So I really cannot tolerate it. What’s more, I don’t really think Vil is trying to force Epel to change how he is, nor does he have contempt for Epel as he is, but he is trying to change his narrow way of thinking which is what’s REALLY holding Epel back. I’ll explain this further in a moment. 

I actually like blastcycle better than magic wheel, every now and then EN makes a translation choice that isn’t totally out there.

Awww, Ii really love Deuce and Epel’s interactions. There’s nothing heterosexual about them but that’s okay! ❤

DISNEYLAND!!!

Dumbass (highly affectionate)

Sweet, filthy farm child (also highly affectionate)

Another reason why I really haven’t taken issue with Vil’s actions yet. Even though he is harsh, Epel isn’t all in the right either and has some serious prejudices against certain types of people. Even after Vil vibe checks him more than a few times, he still hasn’t gotten what he’s trying to convey to him. He’s pretty hardheaded and sometimes gentle guidance doesn’t remedy that. 

If I’m being truly honest, out of all the boys who have OB so far, Vil IMO has been the LEAST problematic. I probably would not be saying that if it weren’t for some of the very specific experiences I’ve had in my life but really, Vil doesn’t seem genuinely cruel or malicious or even sus. Even Jamil was just a little sus though his grievances were equally as justified as Vil’s (but he went about things not in the best of ways). Now that may change since I stopped reading Book 5 at a certain point but as of now, if Vil is wrong for how he’s treated Epel, then Epel is just as wrong for his hardheadedness. 

But I want to make it clear I DO NOT DISLIKE EPEL AS A CHARACTER. His way of thinking is pretty common in more rural and conservative areas bible belt states and its only when some people grow up that they take on a different POV. And Epel probably has the same issue as Vil, being perceived a certain way by society and being punished for it. Hopefully with what Vil did for Epel’s family, he will soon understand what Vil has been trying to teach him. 

SEE?! HE IS LEARNING!!! 💖💖💖😊😊😊

OH GOD! FUCKING JUMPSCARE! They’re so sorry, Vil-san! Please don’t be too hard on them! They’re knuckleheads but they know better now! Have mercy!!

Ahhhhhhh, ahhhh, ahhhhh, oh god, is that who I think it is?? Does this mean...

MY DARLING DRAGON HUSBAND!! I squeezed my Malleus plushie so hard when he appeared! 💚

Really, if Lilia hadn’t run off so fast at the end of Book 4, I would have invited him to our holiday feast too! But concert tickets will have to suffice for now, please come over for ice cream when it gets warmer! 

Awww, he wanted to see us perform, he really is simping hard for MC and it’s adorable!

Goodnight, sweet prince. And with that, we conclude Book 5 part 2. Next time shit will likely hit the fan fast and hard and from what some of my friends playing JP have told me, it will hurt. So let’s enjoy this sweet reprieve for as long a we can. After the emotional roller coaster I’ve just had, I’m so happy I was able to make Malleus smile like this. 💚💚💚

[transsexualism-archive]

strange new worlds episode 1 onions:

i know so far im riding on the nostalgia wave and i'll probably end up liking the show Less than i do now but . . . this is literally all i ever wanted from a trek show

(well ALL i ever wanted also includes jim but they're not giving him to us for a number of reasons)

on the one hand it feels like they're cramming all the characters want to see into one place but ON THE OTHER HAND !!!!

we finally got to see m'benga im so happy

i really like uhura so far she's so nerdy and enthusiastic which is a welcome change. she's younger in the snw timeline and this is a great way to show it, im excited to see her character develop. (and im so happy we're spared from spuhura even if it means s'pring which actually deserves its own paragraph)

T'PRING MY ABSOLUTE BELOVED she's stunning !!!! the hair the jewelry the outfice she's just as elegant and sophisticated as in tos which is so good to see. idk abt her characterisation yet seeing as she had 2 scenes total in this episode but hhhhhh im not sure if this is my favourite spock/t'pring dynamic ever. ik my opinions are heavily clouded by my existing preferences but i just feel the need to give spock a love interest is... unnecessary. is2g kurtzman is deathly afraid of spock being shipped with m*n there's no other explanation. but yeah i feel like the established relationship takes away a lot from the dynamic, but it also gives opportunity for t'pring to have her own personality and inner conflicts outside of her relationship with spock OR stonn

ORTEGAS??? MA'AM?? i am looking very respectfully . . . i'll be very mad if she's just snw's version of tig notaro's character in dis (snarky butch with a high one liner per minute speed) but she's. very handsome. i desperately want to see more of her

idk about chapel yet and she doesn't really feel Like Chapel to me but <3 . very manic pixie dream girl

THERES AN ANDORIAN FINALLY AN ANDORIAN !!!!! they were in the post credits trailer thing so that probably means they're a significant character!!!! at long last. now all we need is a tellarite

i really don't care for pike's c-ptsd or the whole unavoidable future doomed from the beginning etc etc narrative it's just idk. i know partly it's just a nod to the canon and they had to follow through with dis' bullshit plot but :/ for a main character this is weak motivation

(also im sooooo disappointed by the way pike & spock's dynamic is handled by snw so far give me hero worship !!!! give me mentor figure !!!!! speaking of)

spock.... look how they massacred my boy.... i know it's impossible to satisfy tos/aos fans because it's not The Spock, and im completely biased in this regard, but its just a complete 180 from dis!spock who is literally autistic tormented by vision locked up in an asylum FORCED TO GO ON A UNIVERSE SAVING QUEST BECAUSE DESTINY IS UNAVOIDABLE and snw's straightwashed well adjusted spock. once again this is only the first episode and i might be completely wrong about everything but idk idk . ethan peck is a great actor tho and it's nice to see his interpretation of all the little spock mannerisms. his delivery feels as a kind of in-between between tos and aos!spocks in that he is much less emo than aos but also not the fully established tos!spock who is 100% comfortable in his skin. also the moment on the alien planet where he randomly let out an inhuman (sic!) shriek because he was in a lot of pain and then immediately went back to normal?? what was that about :/

also sam !!!!!!! im so desperate to know how the kirks are doing in this timeline !!!!! i have a very clear characterisation of him in my mind that's 99% fanon but im trying to have an open mind abt him. wheres jim.... how is winona doing....

im probably forgetting soooo much of what i wanted to say but yeah so far i have no trust in kurtzman & goldman and where this show is going to go but it IS exciting for me as you can clearly see from this fucking essay

[mersuperwholocked-lowlife]

“Please Don’t Leave Me Again”

Word Count: 1,137

Characters: Klaus Mikaelson, Elijah Mikaelson, Hayley Marshall, Adopted!Daughter!Reader

Pairings: Klaus Mikaelson x Daughter!Reader

Warnings: a lil angst, a lil fluff

A/N: .... yeahh let’s not talk abt my writing schedule

Masterlist

You laid back on your bed, letting a big breath out. You turned to look at your clock. It was already almost midnight. You sighed, before reaching for the light switch. Guess it was time to sleep, or so you thought.

Right as you reached for the lamp, someone called you.

“Ugh.”, you groaned, reaching your phone.

“Wh-”, you looked at it confused. It was Elijah.

“Hey.”, you answered.

“(Y/F/N).”, Elijah said.

You always called you by your full name. You didn’t really mind, but if anyone else did, you’d hurt them.

“Yeah,” you said.

“We need your help. Or rather Klaus does.”, Elijah started.

“Klaus is in trouble?”, you said, sitting up.

“He sees it as a disastrous mess, a great ordeal. Maybe you can talk to him.”, Elijah said.

“Well what happened?”, you asked.

“Klaus will be a father.”, Elijah explained.

“I thought vamps couldn’t have babies.”, you wondered.

“But a hybrid can.”, Elijah said.

“What? Okay, I’m leaving now. Just fill me in on the way. I’ll probably get there around 2 AM.”, you said.

You got out of bed and quickly gathered a few things before leaving.

----

You arrived in New Orleans at 2. To say you were exhausted was an understatement. You arrived in the French Quarter before pausing. It’s been years since you came here. You took a deep breath before walking to the door.

Before you could knock, Elijah opened the door, giving you a big hug.

“Elijah.”, you gasped.

“It’s been too long.”, he said.

“Yeah, 5 years.”, you said.

“Klaus is on the roof. Before you go, come meet Hayley.”, he said, rushing you in.

You laughed slightly at your over-excited uncle.

“(Y/N) this is Hayley. Hayley, (Y/F/N) Mikaelson.”, Elijah introduced you.

“So your Klaus’ other kid.”, she said.

“Well, not genetically, but yeah.”, you said, putting your hand out.

“Nice to meet you.”, you tried to smile, but instead a yawn came out.

“You must be tired. I apologize for making you come in such a rush.” Elijah said.

“It’s fine. I just want to make sure Klaus is okay.”, you said.

“Why?”, Hayley asked.

“Because?”, you replied, confused.

“Why does he even matter?”, Hayley asked.

“Look, I know Klaus gives off bad vibes, but he’s not a bad person. He’s a really good person, and bad things have happened to him.”, you defended your father.

“No. Klaus is a bad person.”, Hayley said. She looked like she was getting mad, but so were you.

“Enough. (Y/N), Klaus has made some bad decisions recently.” Elijah said. 

“I’m going to talk to him.”, you said, making your way to the roof.

----

Your legs wobbled on the roof, trying to stand without falling. You don’t remember how you did it before, but it had been years.

“You shouldn’t have came.”, Klaus said, without turning to look at you.

“Well, I’m here.”, you said, trying to make your way to him.

“Why are you here?”, he asked, still turned away from you.

“For you.”, you said.

You tried to grab onto the roof, to help you make your way across, but it only broke.

You let out a yelp and shut your eyes. Instead of falling to your doom, Klaus held onto you. His eyes were red and puffy. He must’ve been crying.

“Klaus.”, you started.

Before you could finish your sentence he hugged you tightly.

You held onto him tightly, never letting him go.

“Soon I’ll be with a child.”, Klaus said.

“I know, exciting, right?”, you tried to lighten the mood.

“No.”, he replied. He sat down and you sat next to him.

“What do you mean no?”, you asked.

“I don’t want a child.”, he said stubbornly.

“What are you talking about Klaus?”, you asked.

“I didn’t ask for any of this. How can I still be the king? I-If I’m stuck with the burden of fatherhood?!”, he nearly yelled.

“It’s not a burden Klaus. And I’ve known you for long enough to know that’s not the real reason you’re mad. What else?”, you said, crossing your arms.

“Do you think my enemies will fear me?”, Klaus asked you.

“Yes.”, you answered.

Klaus looked at you then rolled his eyes.

“No, it’s something else. You don’t care about that. You’re... You’re scared.”, you said, examining Klaus.

He only sat there, not replying.

“You’re scared, Klaus. Admit it,” you said.

He continued to not reply.

“Klaus..”, you sighed.

“Well, what do you want me to say?! That I’m scared? That me, a half-vampire half-werewolf hybrid is scared?! That the most powerful person on the planet is scared?!”, he yelled.

“Klaus, it’s okay to be scared. It’s normal.”, you started. Most would have been scared, but you weren’t most.

“I’m not normal!”, he yelled.

“Well, it’s okay to feel normal things! Normal feelings! It keeps you sane!”, you yelled back.

His voice lowered and quivered.

“I don’t want to become my father. I don’t want to turn into the man I despise, the man I feared my entire life.”, he said.

“You won’t become your father, Klaus. I mean, look, you raised me!”, you said, wrapping your arm around his shoulder.

“And you left me.”, he said, tears falling down his face.

“I didn’t leave, Klaus. I grew up. It happens.”, you said softly.

“It didn’t feel like that.”, he replied.

“Klaus, look. I know it’s gonna be hard, but it’ll be okay. You’ll have Elijah, and you’ll have Hayley.”, you said.

“Hayley despises me.”, Klaus said.

“Then don’t give her a reason to.”

“That’s impossible. My own sister despises me.”

“Well, forget about Rebekah. I don’t despise you, Klaus. I love you, so, so much. You’re my father. You raised me when my own blood abandoned me! I was all alone until you found me.”, you reminded him.

“You’ll always be special to me. And you’ll always have me.”

“Who taught you to be so grown up? So wise?”, Klaus chuckled lightly.

“Being a grown-up? I taught myself.”, you teased.

You and Klaus laughed together, sharing memories. 

“Think you’re ready to be a dad again?”, you asked him, looking up at him slightly.

“Not really, but I’ll have you with me.”, he said, staring at the view of the city. 

“Well, are you at least ready to go back down?”, you asked, yawning a bit.

“In a little.”, he said. You rested your head on his shoulder.

“Okay, fine.”, you said.

After a few minutes, Klaus looked down at you. You were already asleep.

“(Y/N)”, he said softly.

“Mmm.”, you stirred but didn’t wake.

“Just like old times.”, Klaus smiled to himself. He lifted you up carefully, going to your old room.

He laid you on the bed.

“Goodnight (Y/N)”, he kissed your forehead.

“Just please don’t leave me again”

[tfw-no-tennis]

mtmte liveblog issue 15

death awaits!

oh god the cover. I aint ready 

the cover of overlords open mouth w/rodimus floating inside or w/e,,,,the overlord mouth fixation continues i see

and of COURSE its by nick roche. of course

oh god the tension and dread in the first page, as we get overlords sinister promise to murder everyone, starting with rewind, and then seeing chromedome rush over to open the door, and knowing that 30 minutes have passed already...

that full page spread of everyone vs overlord is amazing

also I always thought that ambulon was trying to kick overlord but now that I look closer he’s actually jumping away from overlord, having just crashed one of those hover...thingys....into him...which is honestly cool as hell. also I'm never over the fact that ambulon kinda looks like he’s smiling here, just having a grand ole time as overlord tries his best to murder everyone

and chromedome just seeing this and saying ‘rewind?’ is fucking killing me thanks

PIPES NO DONT DO THIS. YOURE JUST RUBBING SALT IN THE WOUND. PLEASE don't talk about how much fun you're having on your wacky space adventure oh god, that’s just asking to be murdered,

GOD AND THERE HE GOES, DRIVING TO HIS DOOM. PIPES NO

AUGHHHHHHHHHH AND THERES OVERLORD WITH HIS GIANT FOOT. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

PIIIIIPES ;_; 

his messed up goodbye thoughts are brutal...plus the final shot of him laying all busted up....god :( 

that guy seriously had some awful luck this trip. rip lil guy

BUT he sounded the alarm!!! so good for him!! that's a pretty amazing final act right there

oh my god I forgot abt this scene where rewind is like ‘so brainstorm why is my husband saying your name in his sleep :))))’ and brainstorm is like ‘haha idk its certainly not because we’re working on a secret project together, so jot that down!’ lmao brainstorm....

also dw rewind brainstorm is not fucking ur husband, just look at his evidentially extensive collection of perceptor-style microscopes...my man is microscopesexual 

I forgot abt the metabomb omfg

‘some of my favorite words are monosyllabic’ rodimus ily, himbo of my heart,

fort max :( rung :( 

oughhghghg I forgot abt the scene of tailgate making cyclonus a new horn ;_; and then cyclonus materializes menacingly bc tg dared to volunteer their room for movie night hvbfshdjkfbaskj cyclonus anti-social icon

AUGHHHH GOD THE PANEL OF RATCHET TALKING ON THE COMMS AND OVERLORD IS JUST, RIGHT BEHIND HIM, WITH HIS BIG STUPID LIPS, OH MY GOD

what the fuck, is drift a flying car??? hello??? what the hell????

seriously he’s got like, rockets and shit, what the fuck

anyways, the entire exchange b/w ratchet and drift here kills me, for multiple reasons.... ‘my faith and my sword’ lmao love it. and then ratchet refusing to leave drift and calling him his friend ;_; aughhh

rodimus w/the squad like ‘lets go gays!!!’ 

also I guess cosmos WAS on the lost light lol, totally didn't remember that, I'm guessing he left at some point to go be in the other series lmao 

I'm sorry but ‘amazing. you speak entirely in name’ is so fucking funny, but also like stfu overlord you're not allowed to be funny

MAGNUSSSSSSSS

now I'm confusing myself lmao, rodimus DID know abt overlord, didn't he??? wasn't that the whole thing???? I don't remember if he was involved w/the whole mnemosurgery plan but he at least knew that overlord was there...but we haven't been told that in-story yet so now I'm questioning that lmao

oh god I forgot that overlord almost kills magnus, jeeeeesus. good thing he’s a russian nesting doll otherwise he probably would've died fr 

also damn that's gotta be scary for everyone else, bc magnus is The Big Guy, and a renown fighter...plus drift got all fucked up...yall are in for a bad time 

tailgate gettin his panic on I see

swerve w/the meta narration lmao 

cyclonus ily sm.......

rodimus charging at overlord....ohhh my boy not your best idea

cd and rewind both saying ‘I thought you were dead!’ HHHHHHHH I'm destroyed fuck it all

rodimus (inadvertently) saving the day by saying ‘til all are one’...iconic!!

FORT MAX IS HEREEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

drift just casually chillin w/no legs

chromedome going into extreme detail about all the mnemosurgery he’s been doing on overlord for WEEKS while rewind is Right There....my dude.

this issue has a LOT of completely white backgrounds but I cant even rlly blame milne bc this seems like more drawing work than usual

oh god cd don't say ‘we’ll finish this conversation later’ at a time like this, that’s never a good idea,

rewind no don't do it :( :( :( 

that panel of cd’s arm getting cut off...AUGHHH

GODDDDDDD IM FUCKING CRYING. AUGHHHHHHHHHHH I.....

so incredibly fucked that cd does what’s best for rewind by blowing the pod up....hhhhh god 

and then that last panel of cd laying on the ground....fucking destroy me!!!!!!!!

also I love that at the beginning of the issue we see whirl with the missile launcher thing, and that’s what cd uses at the end here....good bookends. jro is really great about putting stuff in the story that just seems like innocuous filler/fun character building but turns out to ALSO be plot relevant later

HOLY SHIT I forgot about the cast page with the big red X’s thru the dead people’s profiles....jesus christ 

AUGH this issue was a rollercoaster, phew...and the emotionally devastating conclusion to this arc is still yet to come! 

I will say that it’s super interesting looking back on this, in the sense that rewind & chromedome are introduced as the first ever gay tf couple, and a few issues after we get told this explicitly, rewind is killed. this doesn't really end up being an issue representation-wise bc literally everyone is gay and there are a bunch of other significant gay characters/relationships later on, AND rewind comes back later 

but still! it’s interesting to think about how, at the time this came out, the phrase/concept ‘bury your gays’ wasn't really something that was talked about a lot (or like, it was, but not as often as nowadays, and not really under the term ‘bury your gays’ iirc), but at the time of publication this would have fallen under that trope (though rewind coming back later negates it imo). I think it would've been tough for this story to come out nowadays due to the backlash that would've occurred from rewind’s initial death (it also makes me wonder if there was any backlash when this DID come out) 

to be clear, this isn't a writing criticism - in fact, the reason this is able to work at all is because of the crazy amount of representation mtmte has. it’s like, youre able to kill off gay characters without it being ‘bury your gays’ if literally all your characters are gay by default, and there are a bunch of significant gay relationships happening - technically speaking, any death in mtmte is bury your gays lmao 

this is a completely disjointed rant but my point is like, if this issue came out in 2020 people would probably be pretty put off by rewind dying (understandably), but in the context of the series as a whole I don't consider this to be bad writing/bad representation/bury your gays 

and like, WERE people really mad about this in 2013? I am curious now, bc I would definitely feel kinda betrayed if I didn't know all the stuff that happens later 

but its pretty nice, because now I'm free to enjoy the writing and be emotionally devastated by rewinds death in a normal way, and not a ‘I'm angry at the writers for killing off one of the only gay characters’ kinda way

anyways I'm tired as hell so I'm going to bed, ill continue the emotional devastation later, phew

[notwerewolfbutch]

is ganondorf the only male ever born to the gerudo like how does that work. do they just kick out any other men do they know that one of them will grow up to be evil is he always evil does his mom ever love him. how aware is anyone of the prophecy thing abt link zelda and ganon are there ever incarnations of them where they just like. live out their normal lives with nothing terrible and no reason for them to be heros and villains. do they all 3 always have the triforce on the back of their hands bc i think ganondorf has it in ocarina of time the first time we see him. is ganondorf like gerudo man and ganon pig man or do i have it mixed up. are there incarnations where they dont want to be part of a prophecy. are the doomed to fight every time they live. are there generations where they dont. is zelda like just a bloodline of ppl with the blood of hylia or is hers reincarnation like link. link is reincarnation right so is it his soul in some body since birth or is it like how rwby did it with ozpin like a boy wakes up one day n hes got the soul of the hero in him. is ganondorf also reincarnation and why is he the one that is evil whats stopping the other two. is it bc he is the triforce of power instead of wisdom or courage. arent those each of the golden goddesses so why is power the one thats always bad. is it more likely that the triforce is inside them or that its an object bc i really like it being a part of them. are there lives where theyre like. friends. bc the idea freaked me out at first and im still not sure of how i feel about it but i am still curious. are they predisposed to heroism and evil and they can never be friends. what happens if link is the one born as a gerudo like why is he always a hylian why cant ganon be a hylian. and theres no way theyre always cis right. that one specifically i know the game would never but still i stand by that statement.