#( would kill to own this romper ugh )

[cirque-celeste]

[purplesurveys]

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The person you had the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?  I imagine so, yeah. I’d check up on her family and help in any way I can, if it’s still welcomed.

Is there something you’re happy about at the moment?  I share this all the time in surveys at this point but I’m just really giddy that it’s a Friday evening hehe. Also, I’m seeing Angela, Hans, and (finally!!!) Reena later! We’ll be going to UP to shoot some photos since Angela and Reena are graduating this year and we wanna take pictures with the sunflowers in the campus before they die out. I also never got to take sunflower photos when I graduated last year, so it will be my chance to do so as well.

Do you want someone dead?  Wow, no.

Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to?  It almost never crosses my mind, honestly.

Have you ever fed or taken care of a stray animal?  I’ve fed many of them before, yup.

What is something you tend to worry about?  Pending deliverables at work, especially ones that are out of my control.

What is something you do that is unhealthy?  Be in front of a screen as soon as I’m awake until the second I turn in.

What is something you do that is good for you?  I’m no longer afraid to prioritize myself when necessary.

What last caused you to force a smile?  Ooh I’m not sure. I haven’t had to do that in a while, which is a good thing. What was the last video game you played? Was it fun?  Probably Mario Kart on the Switch, but it’s been a WHIIIIIIIIIIIIIILE. Yeah it’s one of my favorite series for a reason.

What is something not many people know about you?  The fact that I’m obsessed with anything classic Hollywood and I’m a big Audrey Hepburn fan. The topic never gets brought up so I don’t really get the chance to say anything about that interest of mine.

What word describes your basic style?  Casual, laidback. I’m more than happy with just a simple t-shirt and denim jeans these days and I think I’m over my jumpsuit/romper phase haha.

Have you ever been told you were going to Hell?  It was referred to/threatened to me, but not directly with these words.

Have you ever wanted to kill yourself?  It was a regular occurrence before.

If yes, what convinced you not to go through with it?  I think overall I was just scared of fucking it up and fucking up my brain for life as a consequence. Also I knew no one was going to take care of Kimi as well as I do, and I would never leave him behind.

Have you ever rejected a guy, only to have him push the issue by asking “why?” and insisting that you just need to get to know him better?  Nope.

Is there something that you believe everyone should do and you can’t believe that some people don’t do it (e.g., recycle or go to the dentist regularly)?  It’s definitely an Asian thing but it will sometimes hurt my chest when I see people wear shoes in their homes.

Regarding the last good choice (healthy choice, kind choice, selfless choice, etc.) you made, what was your real motivation behind it?  I wanted to be kind to myself and finally let go of what had been keeping me from starting to be happy and pleased with where I am and have.

What is something that you have had to practice at to get the hang of it? If you can’t think of anything, that’s okay, what’s something you are currently practicing at and trying to master?  This is such a shallow answer lol but I’ve recently gotten into this rhythm game called Rhythm Hive that I found impossible to master at first, but after weeks of practicing I now breeze through all the songs at their hardest level.

Have you ever gone to the store to buy something, like a video game, when it came out at midnight?  I haven’t done that, but I’ve watched a movie premiere at midnight - for both times the Breaking Dawn movies came out.

Regarding the last novel you read, was there a romance included? If so, was it central to the plot?  Yes and yes.

Have you ever done relaxation meditations or listened to relaxation guides or positive-thinking/healing recordings?  Nope, they don’t really work on me. I have my own outlets that help me relax.

Do you have any interests that are also often shared by children?  Coloring is one. Also animated movies; I never grew out of those.

Is there something that could be a solitary activity but you really only like to do it with other people (e.g., watching movies, playing video games, etc.)? Definitely eating out. I’ve done it a couple of times before by myself and it does feel nice, but I also always can’t help but think it would be a lot more fun and that I would be much happier if I was sharing the experience with someone else.

Are you satisfied with the interior design or decoration in your home? Or do you think it needs a total home makeover?  Ugh god I need to rearrange and upgrade my room STAT. My K-Pop merch are starting to pile up but they’re all currently in just lazy heaps scattered around in my room since I don’t have any shelves or anything to properly display them on.

Is there something that you’d like to own but you can’t find it anywhere? If not, can you a remember a time when you wanted something? Did you ever end up finding it or did you eventually stop wanting it? This is always me with BTS merch...

Who makes you smile the most?  My friends.

What piercings do you want/have?  Just one on each earlobe. I’m not looking to have any more.

What's your favorite website?  Twitter.

Do you own a fish tank with fish?  We never had one, no.

Do you like the movie 300?  I’ve never seen it and will probably never have plans to. It’s not my cup of tea.

Do you pop your knuckles?  When I feel stressed or when my knuckles feel strained, yes.

Do you have Photoshop?  Nope, I have no use for it.

Do you use tinypic or photobucket?  Way back in the day. I’m not even sure if those websites still exist.

What’s your favourite song from the 1980s?  Heaven Is A Place On Earth.

How about the 1990s?  I’m not sure I have one.

Have you won anything recently?  Yeah we played this online game over Google Meets with my co-workers just this afternoon, before clocking out. My team won twice.

How often do you make Excel tables? What for?  Oh everyday. I work on a handful of sheets every single day at work, but I also like making spreadsheets for personal use haha. Right now the one I’m currently super invested in is my tracker for all the merch I’ve been buying so I can keep note of my pending payments and which ones I should already be asking for updates on.

What was the last baby animal you saw in the wild?  Not sure, I’m barely outdoors.

Are you always available or online?  Yup.

Do you have dietary restrictions? Or do you just eat what you like?  No allergies or restrictions.

Do you prefer gold, silver or steel jewelry? Or no jewelry at all? Silver.

Have you been binge-watching any shows lately? If so, what?  Not really. I’ve stopped watching Hwarang for now, but I do have plans to come back to it someday. I guess I just haven’t been in a K-drama binge-watching mood lately.

If you dye your hair, do you do it yourself or go to a salon?  I’ve never had my hair dyed.

If you have any, do you like your in-laws? I don’t have any. < Same.

Would it bother you, if your partner had cut contact with their parents?  It depends on the story behind it, but mostly no. How close they are with their family isn’t a priority matter for me.

Have you ever wondered whether you were adopted? All the time, especially as a teenager who wasn’t getting any emotional support at home.

What’s the best physical feeling in the entire universe?  When you work on something and expect mediocre results and feedback, but it ends up getting praised instead and you feel all the hard work pay off.

Have you ever grown a berry bush?  Nope.

Have you done something new to your hair recently?  It’s been untouched since the very start of the pandemic. My sister actually suggested that since I had it cut right when the pandemic started, I should wait out till the end of it and see how long it’ll reach. It sounded intriguing enough so now I’m indefinitely growing it out hahaha.

Do you have bad anxiety? If so, do you take any kind of medication for it? I’m sure I have it, I’ve just never been diagnosed before.

One thing you’ve experienced that you thought you never would have?  Managing to get over a rough breakup quicker than I ever expected to.

What was the last thing someone said to you that kept repeating over & over in your head?  It was when I was leaving Angela’s house yesterday and an “I love you” to her parents rolled out of my tongue so naturally I almost didn’t notice it; and when they said it back in a heartbeat. It’s when I realized that her parents are really like my second parents and that her house is a second home at this point. My heart was filled the entire drive home.

How often do you have late nights out?  Never because we still have a curfew.

If you could, would you work from home? Do you think that would make you more or less productive?  I don’t have a choice; it’s the set-up we’re required to live in. I’m pretty productive here at home but then again I don’t have a point of comparison considering I got my first job already in the midst of the pandemic.

If you had the ability to change the weather, what would you change it to right now?  I would like to bring snow to the Philippines.

Is there something that you really need to do, but can’t seem to get motivated to do it?  Upgrade my room and invest in shelves and other home decor/interior design stuff that would make the space more comfy and homey. Right now it just looks like a warehouse with my merch piled up in scattered places.

Most disturbing movie you have ever seen?  Eraserhead or I’m Thinking of Ending Things.

Has a life goal or dream ever come true for you yet? If yes, what is it? If no, do you think you’ll achieve it?  I have multiple life goals - some of them I’ve achieved, like getting into my dream university and simply getting employed, and some of them I’m still working my way towards, like getting a promotion. Yeah I feel like I’ll achieve my goals someday. I don’t like losing LOL so when I want something I usually put it above everything else.

Have you ever had food poisoning?  Yup.

What are you listening to?  Blue & Grey by BTS.

Do you think there will be a WWIII? I find it inevitable at some point down humanity's future. People are too hateful for it not to eventually. < Yeah, let’s go with this too.

Has anyone ever asked you if you were emo?  No.

Has someone ever liked you that you never thought would?  Yes. Tbh I never expect anyone to like me so I’ve always been surprised when I hear about someone who does.

In all honesty, can a person be too nice?  Yes, especially if they’re starting to be taken advantage of.

Has one of your friend’s boyfriends ever tried to cheat on them with you?  No.

Is mental abuse really as bad as physical abuse?  Any abuse is bad. :/

Do you shop at Sephora for make-up?  Nope.

Zelda: Twilight Princess or Ocarina of Time?  Twilight Princess only because I grew up with it and never got to play Ocarina of Time.

Do you own a rosary?  I did - I went to Catholic school. But I lost mine all the time because I didn’t really care for them lol I always had to buy new ones at the school bookstore.

If you were homeless, how would you cope? I don’t know.

[gotmilk5101520]

Trollhunters: Tales of Arcadia Watch Episode 25 A Night to Remember (Part 1)

Yeah well, i really don’t remember any nights.

“We need help! Please!”

“Humans in Trollmarket?”

“What’s going on?” “Fleshbags”

“What are they doing here?” “I don’t trust him”

“They don’t belong here”

“Where are we...?” That’s a long story. You see-

“JIM!” Oh, hey you guys finally decided to show up even though Toby was looking for the Horngazel.

“A changeling!”

“Let’s crush it!” How did they know Strickler’s a changeling? For all they know Strickler is a human.

“Quickly! Bring them both to the examination dwell”

Please be gentle.

“You’re going to be okay, Barbara“

“Mr. Blinky?”

How long have they been waiting? Also Toby, Claire, Blinky, and Aaarrrgghh are in the same spot while Jim isn’t. You mean to tell me they stood at those spots for possibly hours?

“We’ll have to be careful”

“That crazy psychopath will be there”

“Oh! I forgot about Angor Rot!”

“No, Coach Lawrence!”

“It’s the Spring Fling Dance and he’s gonna be roaming the halls” Wait hold up. Episode 22 and 23 are the same day, while episode 24 was the next day. So does that mean that the beginning of this episode was still the same day and that Jim Toby and Claire likely skipped school? That means they stayed the entire day cause by the time Toby and Claire leaves it’s night and Spring Fling already started.

“The Spring Fling, it’s tonight”

”I forgot”

“Your mom’s life is more important than a stupid dance”

“I know”

“But”

“i was looking forward to our stupid dance”

“Me, too” Jim and Claire would’ve won Stupid Couple Dance.

“Haven’t i redeemed myself?”

“The humans have a saying”

“I would describe as accurate”

“NOT EVEN CLOSE!” Me, at Kylo Ren

Wait Toby went in the portal first.

But Claire came out first?

You understood that?

“Let’s make it quick, huh?”

“I’m not a fan of this room” Wonder why.

Oh, yeah.

“Eh...?”

“What’s going on in here?”

“Oh. I know what this is”

“You two lovebirds sneaking around”

”playing “romper room” unsupervised!”

“Us?” “Yeah”

“No way” “No. After all, Claire’s saving herself for Jim. OW!”

“So”

”When you and your friends said you were going camping...”

“We were getting a Triumbric stone from a place called Gatto’s Keep”

“Right”

“And when Steve crashed his Vespa?”

“Um... vulture troll”

“And your guidance counselor?”

“Blinky”

“He does give me a lot of guidance”

“I should’ve told you sooner”

“Maybe none of this would have ever happened”

“You’re suppose to be able to tell me anything”

“Whatever is happening, whatever it is you’re afraid to say”

“I want you to tell me, face to face”

“Believe it or not, there was a time when you used to share everything with me”

“I never should have lied to you”

“What do you mean”

“you won’t undo the binding spell?”

“I thought you cared about my mother!”

“I do”

“Much to my surprise”

“and quite deeply”

“In fact, i might even love-”

“Do not finish that sentence!” Jim would’ve killed him on the spot if it weren’t for the binding spell.

“You see my predicament, Young Atlas”

“I have my own interests to consider here”

“What interests?”

“The spell has been the only thing keeping you from harming me, for one”

“I won’t harm you”

“I promise”

“Wuss”

“And what of your troll friends?”

“They have no love for me”

“As my present confinement demonstrates”

“What’s to stop you from throwing me to the wolves the second my connection with your mother is severed?” He does have a point.

“Fine”

“I have an ace in the hole i was saving for swim class”

“But...”

“Blech!”

“Ugh!”

10/10 acting.

“Back up, everyone”

“I know CPR”

“No! No, no, no, No!”

“No, no!”

“NOOOOOOO!!!”

“Ugh!”

“Remind me never to choke”

“What are you waiting for?”

“Okay, take it! Take it!”

“Take your medical thing! Whatever! Okay!”

’Whatever it is, i don’t know!”

“You’re going to be just fine, Toby” And Toby stopped thinking.

“Come on, hurry! Angor Rot could be anywhere by now!”

“I’m trying!”

“Concentrate!”

“What do you think i’m doing?”

“Talking to me!” No one can concentrate when someone talks to them.

“The weak human thinks she has the will”

“to power the Skathe-Hrun” “The Gronk-Nuks Hitter” “THAT’S NOT WHAT IT’S CALLED!”

“A staff of such power is not meant”

“to be wielded by man!”

“I am not a man” OOOOOHHHHHH!!!!!

“Eat brick”

”Hamburger face!”

“When i’m finished with the girl”

“I’m coming for you-”

“Ugh!”

“Rule number 3″ Always kick them in the gronk-nuks.

To be continued.

Part 2

[ccnqueror]

DAD TO THE BONE.

d. Monday, 27th April to Friday, 1st May.

l. Lucius’s apartment, above Button and Bows.

w. 1382 words.

“I’ve never seen a baby before.”

Lucius bounced about in line, craning his neck to see the mandrakes being handed out. He had always wanted a sibling -- many a birthday wish was dedicated to this sole need. Mrs Malfoy, unfortunately, did not think the weight gain was worth a child (”You mean a second child?” Lucius used to ask); this was one of the only desires the Malfoys did not indulge their son with.

Gawain did not seem to care very much. He barely acknowledged the blond, standing there with his arms crossed. Lucius ignored him. Single fatherhood sounded so martyr-like, and Lucius craved nothing more than the imagery of a saint -- he would wander about the school, draping himself over various surfaces like a woman in a painting (maybe he’d let his chest out, even) and complain about the woes of deadbeats.

Lucius beamed. 

“I’m going to be a daddy!”

MONDAY.

It was going well, thus far. Lucius, thankfully, lived above a clothing boutique; it was only too easy, dressing the child-thing. By noon, he had a whole drawer full of baby clothes in all sorts of colours and fashions. The mandrake proved to be far wrigglier than he had expected, though nothing a quick Petrificus Totalus could not fix. Was hexing one’s child against the rules?

Never mind that, though, for the mandrake was now lying in a crib, wearing a light pink romper with the words, ‘Daddy’s Princess’ on it. There had, of course, been a small crown to accompany it, but the mandrake did not appear to like head-wear very much. 

“It’s a mandrake, not a woman-drake,” said Abraxas, who had been forced to floo over with a box of his son’s old baby things. “Why are you dressing it in girl’s clothes?”

“Hypocrite,” Ava snorted. She was Lucius’s landlady, and an old friend of the family’s; she had made plenty of baby clothes, for both Lucius and her own two boys. It was strange, adding a mandrake to that exclusive list.

Abraxas sneered. “I’m not the one who wanted to put him in that.” He nodded towards a frilly dress from when his son was three. Lucius held it up, pouting. The mandrake would not fit.

“Do mandrakes even have a gender?” Whispered one of the landlady’s sons, a boy Lucius often babysat. He was staring at the mandrake as though it were an Azkaban escapee, or, more accurately, a weird dirt-dweller that had stolen his toys. “Like, does it have a wiener?” 

His little brother giggled. “You said wiener.”

Lucius smacked them both upside the head. “It’s a girl,” he declared. “Her name is Cissy.”

TUESDAY.

He felt like a zombie. Day one had been fun, yes, but night one was not. If only he lived in Malfoy Manor again, where the child could be placed on the other side of the house so that crying could not be heard. It was rather unlucky for Lucius(’s house-elf) that the apartment was not so spacious; alas, the wailing was as piercing as ever, though Hogwarts had promised no side-effects.

Lucius had discovered something new that morning, though. He had been so tired from the previous night, having slept through only 80% of it, that he had broken out his de-stressing kit. And so there he lay, at the centre of his bed, with an avocado face mask and cucumber slices.

Cissy, as it turned out, liked them very much. Abraxas, who had stayed in Hogsmaede the previous night, made a worrying comment about her liking plant-matter on her face. Lucius considered the thought briefly -- briefly. It was a very worrying comment indeed.

“You need to be nicer to her,” Lucius complained, lifting a cucumber slice to stare at his father. “You’re her grandfather, and I want you to be a good one. My grandfather always yelled at me.” 

Abraxas rolled his eyes, having already eaten the cucumbers. He reached out for Lucius’s, saying, “That’s because you were a git.” He recalled many a time when his father-in-law had to discipline little Lucius -- no stealing cookies, no pushing your cousins, no copying your father. That sort of thing.

“Well,” said Lucius, “Cissy is a very good girl, and she deserves a very good grandfather.”

“Change that stupid name, and she might get one.”

Lucius narrowed his eyes. “Get the hell out of my house.”

WEDNESDAY.

Sleeping had improved. Lucius had moved the crib from the living room to the kitchen, where his house-elf slept. The door was promptly silenced. Any night-time-happenings were left to the elf, who was looking thinner and thinner every day.

“What’s this dirt doing on her dress?”

The elf swallowed thickly, wringing its hands. “Dobby is sorry, sir, Dobby was only trying to help.”

Lucius kicked him. “Go bathe in boiling water, you filthy animal.” He cuddled Cissy closer to him, rubbing at the stain. “There, there,” he cooed, “Daddy will get you a new dress.”

He had just finished changing her when the doorbell rang. Lucius immediately called for the elf, only to hear loud yelping and the splashing of water. Well, no need to bother its nice bath; besides, it’d be nice to show off Cissy’s dress to someone other than Lucius’s childhood stuffed duck, Waddles.

“Ugh,” said Lucius, having opened the door. “It’s other daddy.”

Gawain stared down at his arms, Cissy’s eyes blinking up at him from under a baby’s bonnet. He looked lost for words, like he was too enchanted to speak.

“I came to see if you needed anything.” Gawain frowned. “You look like you’re getting along well.”

“Say bye-bye to other daddy, now.” Lucius slammed the door shut. “He has to go to Azkaban to visit his daddy.”

THURSDAY.

Parenting turned out to be one of the easiest things he had ever done. Cissy was not a difficult baby to deal with; the elf dealt with the difficult things, of course. It needed a bath almost daily, now, from smelling so terribly from all the diaper changes. Or was that its natural smell? Honestly, Lucius had never interacted with the thing so much before. 

The puking was another issue. Babies, apparently, vomited a lot. He had been upset for the first few days, when matching clothes were ruined. Now, though, Lucius spent most of his time just in his pants, talking to her without holding her. She seemed to like the sound of Lucius’s voice just as much as he did; and Lucius spoke to her increasingly often. Maybe it was the lilting cadence of his voice, but Cissy liked to listen to him wax poetic about her future stepmother.

“How does one describe the most beautiful creature to have ever existed? He would say. “Narcissa is a one-of-a-kind, the sort of person you have to see to believe. Her hair, it’s so shiny, golden like the colour of Zeus’s ichor -- and her eyes, bottomless, drowning eyes, blue like the sky... Her whole face is perfection, a masterpiece; she has this cute little nose, but it’s pointed up, arrogant, like she’s better than everyone else, and she is, because they could never be so beautiful. Her jawline, it’s perfect, it fits in my hand; I swear, her whole face was made to be cupped in her hand, her hands were made to be held by me. And one day, I will hold that hand, one day I’ll put a ring there and she’ll be Lady Malfoy, and I’ll be her Lord, and we’ll live in the manor, together, us and our children -- oh, Merlin, Dobby! Dobby! She’s done it again! Good Lord, how does something so small smell so badly? Dobby, for the love of God, take her away before my whole nose rots off --”

FRIDAY.

“They took her away.” Lucius sobbed. “They took my baby away.”

Abraxas stared at him. “It was a mandrake.”

“Don’t,” Ava hissed, glaring. “He’s very upset.”

“They’re just going to kill it and use it for a potion.”

Lucius wailed.

“There, there,” said Ava. “Professor Slughorn promised he’d put her into a lovely hair-care potion for you.”

He felt better after that.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #270

“please remain calm; the end has arrived. we cannot save you; enjoy the ride.”

Do you own pastel-colored pants? No. What type of lotion do you use? I don't really use it. Nothing seems to help how dry my skin is. What were your favorite clothing stores in high school? Hot Topic. If you could have a car in any color you wanted, which color? Pastel pink, but realistically (given a pink car would probably have a paint job I'd have to pay for, I assume?), I like burnt orange cars. Not too brown-ish, though. What is your favorite color, do you look good in it, & do you wear it a lot? Pink, probably not, and no. Name someone you know who hates pink. Idk. What is your favorite Avril Lavigne song? "Nobody's Home." Do you kill bugs? Sometimes. Depends. If they're in my house, most likely. Have you ever had a bedroom that had wallpaper on the walls? No. Do you own any rompers? No. What’s one thing you’ve done to celebrate Earth Day? I made a birdhouse out of a milk carton once. Animal Planet taught me lol. Do you use window clings (aka window stickers)? No. What color is your stapler? Black. Do you have a desk that you sit at in your room? Ugh, no, but that's one reason I want to move to somewhere I have a bigger room for a desk so I don't do everything in my damn bed. What do you miss about college? Feeling like I was worth something and on a "proper" path. Was your middle school crush the same as your high school crush? No. What is/was your dream school? I never had a "dream" school. Do you wish you could talk to someone about your past? If so, who? Idk, probably someone. What motivates you? Music and/or videos on whatever subject I could use motivation in, like self-care on my bad days. Have you ever completed a weight loss program? No. Tried, though. When was the last time you did something for the first time? I went through a doctor appointment entirely without Mom just a few days ago; she had to stay in the car due to chemo, so I filled stuff out, checked in/out alone, answered questions on my own, that business. I'm entirely aware it's sad as hell that a 24 y/o did that for the first time, but if you knew just how dependent I am on my mom, you'd get it. Which do you prefer: Valentine’s Day or Easter? Valentine's when I actually have someone to celebrate with, but I love Easter as an aunt with how excited the kids are about candy and all. Easter sorta rubs me the wrong way though since, y'know, Christianity essentially stole and rebuilt it. Do you wait until the last minute to decorate, or do you decorate early? I myself don't even decorate. Mom only does for Christmas, and it's very last minute. What’s your favorite Starbucks drink? I don't drink Starbucks. What were you wearing in the last good selfie you took? *checks phone* uh the one where I'm wearing a red tank top is okay. That's all you can see cuz FUCK taking full-body pics of me. What’s on your wish list right now? Ha, I actually have a list in my phone of things I really want/need to buy when I can. A few include a bigger terrarium to Venus, a treadmill, an Unus Annus shirt before the channel and thus merch expire, glasses for driving... What do you use to sweeten your tea? I don't drink tea. Have you ever owned an expensive eyeshadow palette? No, I don't wear enough colors or makeup in general to warrant buying one. When was the last time you stepped outside of your comfort zone? The aforementioned doctor visit. How would you rate your self-esteem? Low, healthy, or high? Low as like, the deepest oceanic trench probs. Do you own a tripod for your camera? Yeah. Were you a bigger fan of Lindsay Lohan or Hilary Duff? Hilary. Do you make Halloween costumes out of clothes from your closet? Only ever to just be a goth to live out my inner fantasy of regularly flaunting that aesthetic. Do you enjoy putting outfits together? Not particularly. Would you rather it rain or snow? Snow! What does your umbrella look like? Don't have one. What’s one thing you’ve had a toxic reaction to? Do you mean like, emotionally/mentally toxic? I'm guessing probably yes. Even though parts of it were entirely realistic, understandable reactions/behaviors, I most definitely had some toxicity in me regarding the breakup, too. Which do you prefer: cropped tops or tunic tops? Uggghhhh, both are so cute. On me, I'd only ever wear tunic tops, but on others, I tend to find cropped tops cuter. What’s a style or trend that you think is ridiculous? I don't pay enough attention to this to really know... hm. Yeah, idk. Which YouTuber do you want to be more like? I could only dream of being as motivated and smart and determined and "I can do this shit" as Markiplier jfc I Love One Man Only. Do you like stuffed animals? EEEEEEEEK yes!!!! What was your favorite class in high school? Art. Have you ever gotten straight A’s in a class? If so, which classes? Yes; not to brag whatsoever, but too many for me to remember. I remember I got my very first B in 5th grade in I think math, and I was so bummed out. Were there any subjects that you got a perfect SAT score in? If so, what? I don't think so. Are you happy today? If so, what made you happy today? I'm content-ish, not happy, but also not unhappy. Is your bed right by a window? There's one to my upper right and middle left, but my bed's not exactly against either. Do you spend more time in your bedroom or your living room? I barely leave my bedroom. Which holiday is your favorite to decorate for? Halloween, if I actually did decorate. Do you name stuffed animals still? Very rarely. Depends on what it is, the importance, etc. What titles did you win in the senior class polls? I FUCKIN READ THIS AS "TITTIES" AND WAS JUST LIKE... Anyway, none. Were you popular in school? No. If you’re from the US, what states have you lived in? Only NC. Who was your best roommate? Well, Jason, if he even counted as a "roommate." Was your first roommate your best roommate? See above, considering idk if he fits the term; if he does, then yes. What’s the best family vacation you’ve ever been on? Disney World. Have you ever wanted to be a model? No. What years did you attend prom? Sophomore (bf was a senior and he took me) and senior. What do you want to be for Halloween? I was recently listening to a metal version of Oogie Boogie's song from TNBC and it hit me: MISS Oogie Boogie. A fat bitch could pull that shit off, watch me ho. Which member of your family are you closest to? My mom. If you have any regrets, what is the biggest one? If not, why do you have no regrets? Letting a boy become absolutely all that mattered and more to me. Would you ever apply to be on reality TV? Why? Ew, no. I don't need any more people judging me and my life. What is the best thing that has ever happened to you? The partial hospitalization program that saved my life, literally. Do you have a hard time letting things go? It depends on what it is, but generally, yes. I recently realized one of my greatest flaws: I respond very, very poorly to loss, in any way. Looking back on people (especially people), events, other things... a negative, chronic reaction to loss is present throughout. What have you accomplished in life that has made you the most happy? Emotionally healed, a lot. I don't think some things will ever fully scar over, but nevertheless, I don't mentally have fuckin gashes in me. Have you ever struggled with your weight? Ever since the breakup, yes. I thought I was slightly fat before then, but looking at pictures now, I just think "damn hunny u look gud" and realize I was perfectly healthy. But anyway, I was put on a medication called Abilify (full-on name droppin', fuck this med), and it MURDERED my metabolism. I could eat a fuckin carrot and gain five pounds, probably. Emotional eating probably contributed too, but here's the thing: my current doctor took me off of it, knowing the moment I mentioned it that it was not only bad for me and my conditions but also responsible for the extreme weight gain? Pounds dropped like a ton of bricks, and this started before my emotional eating began to die off and regulate. I lost around 80 pounds just from dropping a goddamn pill. Cue college essay-long rant here about how my body image was slaughtered, how much I loathe the fucking doc that kept me on the med and blamed everything on me, and now how I've been stuck weight-wise for two years despite a vast plethora of methods to continue shedding a;sdlkfajkwlelawe GUYS I could rant til my hypothetical great-grandchildren die. When you are out with your friends are you loud and outgoing or shy and reserved? It depends on who the friend is, where we are, etc., but generally, I'm just awkward, trying to be outgoing when in fact I'm questioning every single thing I say and do al;wekjrkawde this survey has taken a TURN. Do you like to stay in your pajamas all day long? I don't leave my pj's unless I have to leave the house and go inside somewhere besides like, a gas station or something that's just "whatever." In high school did you have a lot of friends? Do you still keep in touch? I wouldn't say a *lot*, no, but not a tiny amount, either. The only one I ever still see is Girt, but I keep up with many on Facebook via the like button and shit, ha. Do you really care about such issues as abortion, religion, and global warming? Fuck yes I do. Who is the biggest womanizer you know? Juan sure was, but I haven't been in contact with him for years. Would you ever have a threesome? No. Who is the most attractive person you know? Of those I personally know-know, my answer will probably always be Alon like jc she's beautiful. When did you last feel the most free? ZOINKS we can't ask that question in America rn. Is there anyone who likes (or liked) you and had a really hard time getting over you? I don't know. Did you ever love someone and feel like it was wrong? Love? No. Well, before I realized I was bi, maybe Mini counts, as then I was anti-LGBT and couldn't even imagine myself as anything but straight. What’s your favorite bug? Butterflies. What’s the longest amount of time you liked/loved somebody for? Yeesh... I still can't say with absolute confidence I no longer love Jason at all, whom I started dating in 2012 and went head over heels for. What song makes you cry? There's a few that are capable of it sometimes, but do fucking not play "Stairway To Heaven" if I'm within 10 miles of you. "Another Life" by MiW usually makes me tear up towards the end, but it normally doesn't get that far anymore. Do you like rock or rap music better? Rock, as I'm not a rap fan. If you could watch someone change, would you? Yes let me live my life a;lsdkfjaws Ever known someone with an eating disorder? I don't know. I think maybe? Have you ever had a white Christmas? I think? The best snow we ever got was late Christmas night though, and the next morning was a total whiteout. What’s something you want to do but aren’t sure of yet? Hm. Idk. I'm pretty sure of most things I want to do. Biggest lie you ever told? I'm not entirely sure and I'd rather not search for one. Do you have a religion? I don't fit perfectly into any. I relate most with Neo-Paganism, but even that I deviate from some. Believe that there is a point to churches? I mean sure, people have the right to believe in/worship what they want to, and some people get a lot of joy and reassurance out of going. How do eat Oreos? "I split them in half and lick the cream before eating the cookie." <<<< Converse or Vans? Idc. Eh, maybe Converse, but idk. Dancing or watching others dance? I love watching others dance, it's why I enjoyed dance recitals and competitions. Favorite thing to touch/feel? My cat! <3 Rather be in a tornado or a large earthquake? Both would be horrifying, but I guess earthquake. I've had an outrageous fear of tornadoes since I was very little. Would you rather Santa or the Easter Bunny actually exist? Santa, duh. Would you rather spread gossip or start a fight? Start a fight, I guess. Trying to sully someone's name with false information would haunt me way more than starting an understandable fight. What has been the best New Year's for you so far & why? I don't know. What is the weirdest fear you’ve ever heard of someone having? Do you have any weird fears, and if so, what are they? Uhhh I think maybe butterflies? Idk, even that's not too weird considering it's an insect, and that's common. I'm personally absolutely terrified of pregnancy and also whale sharks scare me quite a bit. ig that's weird. How did you find Tumblr? lol how could you not know at some point as a teen on the Internet. What of the 8 wonders of the world do you find the most fascinating, if any? I had to look them up lmao. I guess the Great Pyramid of Giza. I in general find Egyptian culture and art to be very cool. Do you have a webcam? If you do, do you ever use it and what for? I mean, it's built into the laptop. I never use it. What is something that you think is really underrated? The band Otep, for one. I mean they're not small, but I don't think most people interested in the metal genre know them. OH and then there are A LOT of YouTube artists that MADLY deserve to be signed. I have a large chunk of metal musicians I listen to, and those especially like Jonathan Young blow my fucking mind they haven't technically "made it," even if they have a large subscriber base. Have you ever had a dream where you died? Did anything weird happen to your body after it? Yes, a few. Now hang with me, okay? One of my worst nightmares as a kid involved the wicked witch from TWoO turning me into one of those fucking party things that you blow into it and the paper unfurls and her using it killed me. Yo idk. I was really scared of that witch as a kid. What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had? How about the most realistic? It involved my dad and that's all that needs to be said. Realistic? Hm. This was SO long ago that I barely remember *just* how real it felt, but I remember it felt real as fuck. I was very little when this happened. I dreamed that I went outside to our porch because there was a weird light and when I stepped outside, a swan and a goose flew down from the light onto the porch to become my late grandpa and my deeply beloved cat Midnight, who died from sickness. I'm sure it was just a dream now, but back then, I was VERY convinced it was like a vision from God or something, telling me they were okay and with us. Do you have a favorite fashion trend? What is it? Is there a fashion trend right now that you think is completely ridiculous, and if so, what? What do you think was the worst fashion trend of all time? I don't care about fashion enough to go in depth about all this. I'll tell you right now though that mullets were the worst mistake known to mankind. Do you tend to like original horror movies or re-makes better? What’s your favorite horror movie? Is it an original or a remake? If you're remaking an old one, I'll probably like it more since they're generally not nearly as cheesy. Modern horror movies, I don't have much of a preference. My fave is The Blair Witch Project, and it's an original. What is one characteristic in a person that you cannot stand? What characteristics do you like best in a person? Do you possess any of these characteristics? Those that act violent when they're angry, for one. Those scare me. Some traits that I really like are compassion, patience, genuineness, empathy, kindness just for the sake of being so, stuff like that. I'd like to think I've got some of those. It's notable that in my nightmares, I'm way more violent than I actually am, though. What kind of jeans do you like best? When I actually wore jeans, they were like solely skinny jeans. What has been the most traumatic experience of your life? Does it still bother you? A very abrupt and poorly-executed breakup after a long-term relationship and falling way, way too hard to be healthy. Does it still bother me? PTSD is stapled on my fucking forehead if you know the slightest about it. I've healed a whole lot, but I'm pretty sure it's a scar that's never going to even fully seal.

[blazinbeautywrites]

Broadmoor Manor

Note: Due to recent events and the rampant uprising of plagiarism on this site and others I am stating once and once only that this is my ORIGINAL work. If I find out that you have stolen/taken any part of my work I will handle you and the situation the way I see fit

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Summary: Broadmoor Manor is the place to be. With creatures ranging from witches, demons, werewolves and vampires, there is always something going on at the manor. With the town mayor dead, the residents of Broadmoor manor are the prime suspects. Will they take the fall or is there an even more sinister entity lurking in the town ready to stir up trouble?

Cast: EXO

Appearances by: JYP, Jinyoung (GOT7), BM (KARD), CL, Hyuna

Length: 1,168 words

Genre: Horror/Mystery/Suspense

A/N: I want to be able to update this series at least twice a week so the chapters after the first will be a bit shorter.

Chapter 1

It was a dreary, rainy morning in the town of Oldcrest when Celeste Donovan found her husband, Mayor Donovan, in his office, faced down in a pool of his own blood. She called Sheriff Palmer to their home in the secluded hills of the city.

“Mrs. Donovan, what happened here?” Sheriff Palmer asked.

“How the hell am I supposed to know? I walked in here to see what was keeping him up and I saw this then I immediately called you.” She replied.

“You don’t seem to really care that your husband is dead, Mrs. Donovan.” Sheriff Palmer replied.

“That’s because I don’t. My husband was a horrible drunk and I hated living in this house alone with him.” Mrs. Donovan answered.

“What about your dau-”

“Don’t mention that little bitch’s name in this house. She abandoned this family 4 years ago to live among those freaks. She can rot with them. Now enough talk about her. I want this handled quietly. Of course let your team know but I don’t want this getting out to the town until my husband is buried deep in the ground. As for your suspect list, I suggest you start at Broadmoor Manor. You know something is always up at that house.” Mrs. Donovan said.

“I’ll be sure to look into it, oh and Mrs. Donovan, at least pretend to be sad or else you’ll be added to my lists of suspects. No get out of this office. It’s a crime scene.” Sheriff Palmer said. He exited the room and immediately called the forensic team and filled them in on the situation.

Meanwhile on the other side of town at Broadmoor Manor, Jinyoung Park was wrapping up his weekly rendezvous with Millie Broadmoor.

“You know, you don’t have to keep rushing out of here every time we finish. No one is looking for us Jinyoung. You’re making me feel like I’m some sort of bootycall.” Millie said putting on her burgundy romper and pulling up her black boots. She fluffed up her curls and reapplied her plum lipstick.

“Let’s not pretend that we’re anything more. You’re just a quick fuck. That’s what we agreed to.” Jinyoung said, fastening his last shirt button.

“Sweetie I remember our deal, but what you’re not gonna do is disrespect me.” Yeah we’re fuck buddies but I at least thought we could be more civil about the situation but I see that’s a little too advanced for you. Our little arrangement it over.” Millie said. She gathered up her things to leave when Jinyoung grabbed her arm and spun her around to face him.

“You know I didn’t mean it like that, I just meant, fuck look just please come find me later to talk. I gotta get to work and so do you.” Jinyoung said.

“Goodbye Jinyoung!” Millie said. She took her arm from him and walked out of one of the many secret passageways in her family’s manor. Once she made it to the main hall she saw Matthew, or BM as everyone in the manor called him.

“Well well well sneaking out of your little secret room eh?” Matthew teased.

“Shut up. I’m really not in the mood and I’m running late for work.” Millie said.

“Okay what did Jinyoung do this time?” Matthew asked.

“It’s nothing really just, I’m tired of him belittling me and playing down our relationship. I mean yeah we only agreed to be fwb but he got drunk one night and told me he was in love with me. That fucked me up. Now I have all these weird feelings and I don’t want to have them. Ugh why is this shit so hard? But anyways I ended it.” Millie said. She quickly popped into her room and grabbed her umbrella and headed for the door.

“Honestly, you should have just stuck with Hyuna. At least you know what you’re getting with her.” Matthew replied.

“Who says I’m not fucking her too?” Millie said with a smug look on her face. It was no secret Millie enjoyed the company of both men and women but Hyuna Kim was a whole other level of complicated.

“Alright I see you girl do you.” Matthew said. Millie and Matthew continued to laugh and converse as he walked her to her car. He watched her drive off and as he was heading back into the house to get ready for his own work day, he ran into Jinyoung.

“Was that her?” Jinyoung asked.

“Yeah. Why the fuck do you care? She’s just a piece of ass to you right?” Matthew asked. He was angry as hell and Jinyoung saw as his eyes began to change from brown to a golden yellow, signaling his transformation.

“Wooooah, dude chill out. You know damn well I’m more powerful than you. I can kill you with a flick of my head. And yes, at first she was just a piece of ass but I kind of, you know, love her and I don’t know how to deal with it. I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. Plus my uncle would drag me back to hell if he knew I was fucking a Broadmoor. I need your help.” Jinyoung said.

“There’s no way in hell I’m helping you. Do her a favor and leave her alone. Now if you’ll excuse me I have shit to do today.” Matthew retorted.

“You think I don’t know what you and your little pack do at night? How you all pick up girls from a few towns over and hunt them town like prime rib in the Oldcrest woods? Then you pass out drugged blood to addict vamps so they can compel those poor girls to forget the terror you all subjected them too. And let’s not forget Fei, your ex. She was found dead and stuffed inside of a garbage can outside of a bar you frequented. You know who killed her but by the look on your face right now you’re afraid of them. Now, you will help me get what I want or I’ll reveal your little secret to the entire town. We have a deal?” Jinyoung asked. Matthew had tears brimming in his eyes but refused to let them fall. He refused to show Jinyoung his weakness.

“Fine! But once we’re done, you will no longer speak of my past, not even allude to it.” Matthew said.

“We’ll see. If I’m satisfied with your efforts then I won’t ever speak of your past transgressions. But until then, you will do whatever I say and you will do it when I say. Do I make myself clear?” Jinyoung asked him.

“Crystal.” Matthew said

“Now run along doggy, you have some work to do.” Jinyoung antagonized. He watched as Matthew stormed back into the house and almost lost it. He got into his car and began his drive into town to start his day. He let out a small chuckle knowing he had Matthew right where he wanted him.  

[jeonclouds]

2018 books / February

2018 Brooks / February.

February books. January 20, 2018 | Tessa MM. (08/48)

Keeping track of my 4 books of the month…

1. Alice’s adventures in wonderland

2. The stranger - Albert Camus

3. Los 4 Acuerdos.

4. Chicken soup for the teenage soul.

Alice’s adventures in wonderland (005):

 “Down, down, down, how far have i fallen now?”

 “Oh, why did i cry so much?”

 “Never get angry” ((thats a bad advice caterpillar)).

 The Stranger (006):

 “I may not have been sure about what really did interest me, but I was absolutely sure about what didn’t.”

“I opened myself to the gentle indifference of the world.”

“Since we’re all going to die, it’s obvious that when and how don’t matter.”

“Have you no hope at all? And do you really live with the thought that when you die, you die, and nothing remains?“ "Yes,” I said.”

“And it was like knocking four quick times on the door of unhappiness.”

PS: i remember i hated this book because i saw myself within Mersault, he is really, uh how you say it in english? Huraño, distant? aloof? he is portrayed as someone detached and emotionless, just the same way as i portray myself to the world and ppl around me. He is very impassive and he doesn’t really think about events or consequences and i was like ‘okay same!’, i think thats bad, he feels content with his indifference over the world, maybe bc he is protecting himself from pain (like me). He is so casual and indifferent over life events, i was pissed when Marie (his gf) asked if he wanted to marry her and he said he didnt cared lmao, that he would do it if she wanted to, and i was like bitch tf!!?? but at the same time i was like 'okay…me’ It made me reflect on myself and how i react when he killed the arab and he didnt showed any signs of guilt or remorse, there i was like 'okay thats not me’. His behavior is so distant and unresponsive, and he literally sees life and the people around him with despair, he appears to be so apathetic, its, its fucking annoying and amazing and it honestly makes me think about myself and how i make the world see me, its, ugh. It was a good book but i did not liked the fact that i could see so much of myself in the main character, a few moments ago when i was pondering about this i started to really think that…i, don’t want to be seen like that, and its scary to know that people could actually see me being that way, behaving that way, responding that way, because i know that i have done it, and now i dont like it anymore, as much as i want people to see me as someone 'mysterious’ i dont want them to see me as someone who doesnt care about her surroundings damn this book, it was a good book though, annoying as fuck, and it bored me and pissed me off, but its still a good book, i will carry with me the lesson i have learned from it, so, thanks joonie for the recommendation.  

 Los 4 Acuerdos (007):

“Estoy hecho de luz, estoy hecho de estrellas”

“Lo que realmente somos es puro amor, pura luz”

“Tu no escogiste tu lengua, ni tu religion, ni tus valores morales: ya estaban ahi antes de que nacieras. Nunca tuvimos la oportunidad de elegir que creer y que no creer. Nunca escogimos ni el mas insignificante de estos acuerdos. Nisiquiera elegimos nuestro propio nombre.”

'El 95% de las creencias que almacenamos en nuestra mente, no son mas que mentiras, y si sufrimos es porque creemos en todas ellas’

'En el sueño del planeta, a los seres humanos les resulta normal sufrir, vivir con miedo y crear dramas emocionales. El sueño externo no es un sueño placentero; es un sueño lleno de violencia, de miedo, de guerra, de injusticia.’

'El sueño personal de los seres humanos varía, pero en conjunto es una pesadilla. Si observamos la sociedad humana, comprobamos que es un lugar en el que resulta muy difícil vivir, porque está gobernado por el miedo.’

’ En el mundo entero, vemos sufrimiento, cólera, venganza, adicciones, violencia en las calles y una tremenda injusticia. Esto existe en diferentes niveles en los distintos países del mundo, pero el miedo controla el sueño externo.’

'No es la muerte; nuestro mayor miedo es arriesgarnos a vivir: correr el riesgo de estar vivos y de expresar lo que realmente somos.’

 'Los seres humanos nos castigamos a nosotros mismos sin cesar por no ser como creemos que deberíamos ser. Nos maltratamos a nosotros mismos y utilizamos a otras personas para que nos maltraten.’

 “Acuerdo 1 - Se impecable con tus palabras: Las palabras captan nuestra atención, entran en nuestra mente y cambian por entero, para bien o para mal, nuestras creencias. ”

 “El mayor pecado que cometes es rechazarte a ti mismo.”

 “La cantidad de amor que sientes por ti es directamente proporcional a la calidad e integridad de tus palabras. Cuando eres impecable con tus palabras, te sientes bien, eres feliz y estás en paz.”

 “Sé impecable con tus palabras. Este es el primer acuerdo al que debes llegar si quieres ser libre, ser feliz y trascender el nivel de existencia del infierno. Es muy poderoso. Utiliza tus palabras apropiadamente. Empléalas para compartir tu amor”

 'Usa la magia blanca empezando por ti. Dite a ti mismo que eres una persona maravillosa, fantástica. Dite cuánto te amas. Utiliza las palabras para romper todos esos pequeños acuerdos que te hacen sufrir.’

 Acuerdo 2 - No te tomes nada personalmente: Cuando nos tomamos personalmente lo que alguien nos dice, suponemos que sabe lo que hay en nuestro mundo e intentamos imponérselo por encima del suyo.

 'Si eres veraz contigo mismo, te ahorrarás mucho dolor emocional.

 Acuerdo 3 - No hacer suposiciones. La manera de evitar suposiciones es preguntar.

 Acuerdo 4 - Haz siempre lo maximo que puedas. Si haces lo maximo que puedas viviras con gran intensidad. Vivir con plenitud. No necesitamos saber ni probar nada. Ser, arriesgarnos a vivir y disfrutar de nuestra vida, es lo unico que importa.

 'Si eres impecable con tus palabras, no te tomas nada personalmente, no haces suposiciones y siempre haces lo maximo que puedas tu vida sera maravillosa y la controlaras al 100x100’

 'Si te caes no te juzgues’

 'El perdon es la unica manera de sanarnos’

 'Quiero que utilices tu imaginacion y la percepcion de tus nuevos ojos para verte a ti mismo viviendo un nuevo sueño, una vida en la que no sea necesario que justifiques tu existencia y en la que seas libre para ser quien realmente eres. Imagina que tienes permiso para ser feliz y para disfrutar de verdad tu vida. Imaginate que vives libre de conflictos contigo mismo y con los demas. Imaginate que no tienes miedo de expresar tus sueños. Sabes que quieres, cuando lo quieres y porque no quieres. Tienes libertad de cambiar tu vida y hacer lo que sea como tu quieras. No temes pedir lo que necesitas, decir que si o que no a quien sea o a lo que sea. Imagina que vives sin miedo a ser juzgado por los demas, Ya no te dejas llevar por lo que otras personas puedan pensar de ti. Ya no eres responsable de la opinión de nadie. No sientes la necesidad de controlar a nadie y nadie te controla a ti. Imagínate que vives sin juzgar a los demás, que los perdonas con facilidad y te desprendes de todos los juicios que sueles hacer. No sientes la necesidad de tener razón ni de decirle a nadie que está equivocado. Te respetas a ti mismo y a los demás, y ellos te respetan a ti. Imagínate que vives sin el miedo de amar y no ser correspondido. Ya no temes que te rechacen y no sientes la necesidad de que te acepten. Puedes decir: “Te quiero”, sin sentir vergüenza y sin justificarte. Imagínate que te amas a ti mismo tal como eres. Que amas tu cuerpo y tus emociones tal como son. Sabes que eres perfecto tal como eres.’

 'Puedes andar por el mundo con el corazón completamente abierto y sin el temor de que te puedan herir. Imagínate que vives sin miedo a arriesgarte y a explorar la vida. No temes perder nada. No tienes miedo de estar vivo en el mundo y tampoco de morir. ’

  Chicken soup for teenage the soul (008):  

The love we give and recieve is all that matters, and all that is remembered, suffering dissapears, love remains. “Have i told you yet today that i love you?”

 “We need four hugs a day for survival. We need eight hugs a day for maintenance. We need 12 hugs a day for growth. - Virginia Satir.

 Think of the people in your life, ate there any words you’d like to say? Are there any hugs you want to share? Are you waiting and hoping someone else will ask first? Please dont wait! Initiate! - Charles Faraone.

 I have learned never to underestimate the healing power we all have. It is always there to be uded for the highest good. We just have to remember to use it.

 "What i am is good enough if i would only be it openly” - Carl Rogers.

 “I own me and therefore i can engineer me. I am me, and i am okay.” - Virginia Satir.

 “Don’t worry about failures, worry about the chances you miss when you don’t even try.”  

 “Most everything that you want is just outside your comfort zone.”  

 “Everything you want is out there waiting for you to ask. Everything you want also wants you. But you have to take action to get it.”

 “Keep in mind that part of growing up is dealing with difficult issues, and the benefits can be great if you have the courage to ask for help. Human beings are not designed to go through life alone. No one has to bear the burden of tough times all by themselves.”

 “Sometimes you dance with a partner, and sometimes you dance alone. But the important thing is to keep dancing.”  

 “As you take a few minutes each day to quiet your mind, you will discover a nice benefit: your everyday, “ordinary” life will begin to seem far more extraordinary. Little things that

previously went unnoticed will begin to please you. You’ll be more easily satisfied, and happier all around. Rather than focusing on what’s wrong with your life, you’ll find yourself thinking about and more fully enjoying what’s right with your life. The world won’t change, but your perception of it will. You’ll start to notice the

little acts of kindness and caring from other people rather than the negativity and anger.”  

 “You only have control over three things in your life—the thoughts you think, the images you visualize, and the actions you take (your behavior).”