#( ocm : aurelia pta'hoa the motherly jedi master )

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A Heart In Chains

⚔️ For @prodijedi who liked for a starter ⚔️

To the surprise of absolutely no one, the discovery request was taking its sweet time being fulfilled. Whispers of suspicion were quick to rise and just as quick to die down with a few key words from a few key players. The last thing they needed was Palpatine to be made aware that there was an ongoing investigation occurring - one that could, and likely would, end with his execution. Unfortunately, the rumor mill had turned. And though it had been stopped, it was not without the ears of a certain few having been perked up and put on edge to the point where they were now digging their heels in, or otherwise dragging their feet in an attempt impede the investigation.

The High Chancellor? A traitor? Certainly not! We'll have no part of this witch-hunt.

So it went. And while many on the Council, including the Grandmaster, were convinced that they'd find enough evidence, the tension remained. Again, the idea of Dooku testifying and using his journals as evidence was raised, but that was a whole other debate that was ongoing in the council. To trust or not to trust the word of a treacherous count. The idea certainly had its merit. But the evidence was circumstantial at best. They needed concrete proof to back it up. At least, that was Master Yoda's belief.

Because if they could find that, then it could mean the fall of the Sith, and the exoneration of his old Padawan.

For now however, both the Council and their investigation were in gridlock. Still debating, still searching. And for Dooku, that meant he was stuck in a limbo of sorts. Back in the Temple at last but still donning his force-suppression cuffs, afforded only as much freedom as his leash would allow him and left in the care of his handler. His bond-mate.

"Nothing yet," she sighed as she walked in, carrying with her a datapad that displayed the current updates from the scribe recording all the ongoing conversations in the Council's chamber. "They're waiting on some sort of breakthrough from the investigation team. But they've been at a halt for the last two weeks because neither the Banking Clan nor Nute Gunray want to answer any questions. They won't even respond to invitations from the likes of Senator Amidala."

The datapad slipped from her hands into the basket tucked into the crook of one arm as she collapsed into a chair near the door, one paw rising to press at her temple. She was aggravated. Her brow and her tail were both twitching, indicating that she likely had a tension headache from all the stress. After a moment of trying to soothe it was some small circles, she looked back at Yan and smiled. Oh that smile. All these years and it never ceased to be so warm, so comforting, even with the exhaustion she felt lingering in the corners of her eyes. "I don't know how you were ever able to do all this. Politics, I mean. It all just seems so exhausting."

She sighed, trying to cast the thoughts from her mind for the moment. Trying to bask in the relief that came with the realization that such a job would never be hers. Instead, she redirected her attention to the basket still hanging off of her free arm and moved to pull it into her lap. The datapad was removed and banished to the table beside her and she moved to navigate through the actual contents within, verifying it was still intact before setting it on the floor and pushing it towards him. "Enough about that though. Here, I brought you something."

Indeed she had.

Handmade tarts, just like the ones she used to bring to their picnics when they were still just younglings. Carefully folded pastries filled with sweet creams and jam made from various fruits across the galaxy. A rare sweet treat indeed. And to think, her first thought upon seeing them for sale was of him.

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// Quick doodle I did of Aurelia and @prodijedi ‘s Dooku

// What can I say? I just love their dynamic and I think Dooku should get one or two dozen kisses from his dragon god wife ❤️

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@sithsjedi said: ❛  some part of me stayed alive each time that you called. ❜ — Dooku to Aurelia

⚔️ Hozier - Unreal Unearth Prompts // ACCEPTING ⚔️

“While the sentiment is flattering, I hardly think I was the one keeping you alive.” It’s half an attempt at being modest and half sincere. There’s a part of her that wants the words to be true. More than anything in the world. But an even bigger part of her- the Jedi part of her- that knows it’s not. That such dependency would be forbidden, for it is neither pure nor healthy. But also, she knows that she alone would not have been able to bring him back from the edge of the abyss he so precariously teetered upon. It was his own strength of will that allowed him to come back. No matter how much she might’ve helped, the decision to remain alive was ultimately up to him.

“You made the choice to continue living, Dooku. The reasons for doing so hardly matter. In the end, it was your own choice and your own strength that pulled you up from the darkness. Maybe myself and Master Yoda were reasons for doing so. Maybe we were lights shining in the darkness like lanterns held at the eve of one’s darkest hour. But ultimately, it was not us that saved you. It was the result of your own strength. Your own resolve.” Because no matter how much we tried, we would not have been able to save you. Only you could save yourself.

She leaves that final part unspoken, for despite how accurate the assessment may be, there is a hollow ache in her chest that grows more intense with the realization of the truth in it. Yet even still, perhaps some part of that thought remains so heavy on her mind that it echoes across their joined psyches in a whisper that disturbs his very thoughts. He had to know, either through similar echoes or through visions, the guilt she carried for not being able to save him. From Sidious or from himself.

She wanted to. Maker, how she wanted to! But she couldn’t…

The number of times she’d wanted to fly out and find him, drag him back from the ominous precipice which he so precariously teetered upon… Drag him back home, back to the temple, kicking and screaming if need be… it was innumerable. The urge to simply find him, to take his hand and pull him back from the void which he had so willingly gone to- no, been deceived into huddling towards as though it were the warm inviting glow of a campfire and not the cold endless void that awaited all when they reached the inevitable end of their time on this mortal coil. But then she was captured, and she realized that it wouldn’t help. No amount of leading or pulling or dragging would help. And it broke her heart.

She could have so easily gathered him up in the jaws of her more bestial primal form and carried him off of his own ship so effortlessly. But it still wouldn’t have worked. Because she could have led him all the way home, put him before the council, and had them all forgive him right then and there. But it wouldn’t be genuine. It wouldn’t have been sincere.

And he still wouldn’t have saved him.

Only he could realize what he was doing, what he had done, and stop himself. Only he could save himself.

And they both knew that.

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// me: man I can’t decide if Aurelia should be a super thicc warm and fluffy kickass or a fucking muscle bound tank of fighter

// also me, about to have the biggest brain realization: …wait a minute

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Aurelia tilts her head, almost tempted to betray a puzzled expression before she remembers herself and her circumstance. She nods slowly, offering the gentlest smile. "Indeed he has. He forfeited himself to the council when it became clear that Darth Sidious had a plot to exterminate the Jedi Order using the Clone Army. With his help, we were able to prevent the disaster and oust the Dark Lord from where he'd been hiding right under our noses as the Supreme Chancellor Sheev Palpatine."

It's a lot to take in. Even now, in this universe, it was a difficult thing to comprehend. How close they had come to extinction. How long had their enemy been hiding right before their eyes, playing both sides of the war to win either way, holding a plot to hold the galaxy and far beyond this time and this space as a dome for his own manipulations and amusement. How close they had come to void.

But they had survived the encounter.

Still, that proved little comfort when she heard the other Master's words. Her smile grew sad and bittersweet as she listened, ears drooping somewhat, eyes growing misty. "I am deeply sorry for your loss, Master Yoda. I cannot imagine what you have been through." A part of her can. A part of her knows widespread loss and the death rattles of hope as it struggles to breathe through the stench of smoke and death. A plot such as this would not be the first time someone has tried to render her and hers extinct.

"In this universe, we have survived. For the time being at least. We maintain the way of life and maintain the peace of the galaxy. There is... some strife over in the political side of the Order - the ones who consort more closely with the members of the Senate. But we remain intact. Whole. Growing stronger despite the danger. Perhaps, you might like to stay here?"

It's a genuine offer. A kind one. One that promises the attempt to let him heal and experience the galaxy as it was always meant for him. Less sadness, less suffering. More of that familiar home he knew.

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In a gesture of simultaneous acknowledgement and respect towards her master, Shi’al bowed her head, then permitted her eyes to flicker upwards and meet Aurelia’s own. “ Indeed it does, master. ” The young woman responded, glancing at her otherworldly companion. “ It has everything to do with him. We both know how happy Master Yoda was made with Master Dooku’s return— ”

⠀ ⠀ ⠀ Yoda’s head snapped upwards at the mention of his old padawan. “ Dooku? Return? ” The achingly familiar name slipped out of him in a breathless whisper, before it could be suppressed. His grip on his gimer staff tightened; if he let go of it, he feared, he would faint. He gazed at Aurelia with wide eyes, as though he has just heard talk of a ghost. “ Come home your Dooku has? ”

Shi’al swallowed the lump in her throat, and offered the elderly Jedi Master a sad smile of confirmation. Master Dooku was home where he belonged, and the galaxy was all the better for it. “ — but the universe … well … ” She shrugged, her shoulders sagging. “ The universe isn’t always so kind to him. Where this Yoda comes from, I think … I think the Order Sixty-Six plot that Master Dooku warned us about happened. I think Sidious won the clone war. ”

⠀ ⠀ “ Your padawan is correct, Master. ” Yoda confirmed, keeping his gaze locked on Aurelia whilst he spoke. The hand clutching the gimer staff began to shake despite his efforts to keep it steady. “ How know you of such an evil plot I do not, but one of the last of this Order I am in my world. An empire Sidious has created; nearly destroyed our way of life is. Not thriving, but instead abandoned this temple should be. ”

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MINI CHARACTER PLAYLIST

AURELIA PTA'HOA

SHARE AT LEAST FIVE SONGS THAT REMIND YOU OF YOUR MUSE, OR THAT YOU ASSOCIATE WITH YOUR MUSE’S CHARACTER ARC. Including lyrics is optional.

ECHO (AmaLee / dj-Jo cover)

What the hell's going on? / Can someone tell me please / Why I'm switching faster than the channels on TV / I'm black, then I'm white / No! Something isn't right! / My enemy's invisible / I don't know how to fight

// Reflecting the traumatic circumstances from which the Order rescued her

HERE COMES THE SUN (The Beatles)

Little darling / It’s been a long, cold, lonely winter / Little darling / It feels like years since it's been here

// Reflecting how the Order felt like a new beginning and a chance for a hopeful future

Birds (Imagine Dragons ft. Elisa)

Seasons, they will change / Life will make you grow / Dreams will make you cry, cry, cry / Everything is temporary / Everything will slide / Love will never die, die, die

// Reflecting the heartbreak that overwhelmed her when Sutek left and joined the Dark Side

Mr. Fear (SIAMÉS)

Hello, my name is Mr. Fear / I wish I had a faster therapy / I've come to mind control your needs / Tonight I'm gonna star all of your leads

You know / I'll never disappear / Now get me out of here / Just trust in me, my dear /No cure is coming near

// Portrays the horror and fear she felt when Sutek took control of her and used her dragon form as a weapon of destruction

Rain (Boldly In The Pretend) (Joff Bush, Jazz D’Arcy)

Now I race of to work / And I step in some sand / I brush the mud off / With the palm of my hand

I look up at the kids / As they play in the rain / Their white socks (are) brown / We play the same game

We all race those boats down the road to the end / We all race those boats down the road to the end / And live boldly in the pretend

// Portrays the return to normalcy after Sutek came back. She has her own Padawan and spends her days training and looking after the other younglings in relative peace

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@prodijedi said: inspo + Aurelia

⚔️ Muse Inspo Collage // ACCEPTING ⚔️

SISUDATU - RAYA AND THE LAST DRAGON

Sisu's was a primary inspiration for Aurelia's dragon from design. The long body with shorter limbs, fur, and horns was something I wanted to incorporate into her design. I wanted her to look fierce and graceful but also have some level of charming adorableness that embodied the fact she's a lot more friendly and approachable than she looked. And while she was never naive like Sisu was, the idea of being the main star in some powerful prophecy that will bring about grand change but having no idea how to fulfill it and create a positive outcome was something I drew upon for her backstory. The idea of being someone with big shoes to fill but not knowing how was a major detail I wanted her to have, especially given that she's a Star Wars OC. And Star Wars is all about prophecies when you really peel back a few layers.

MOLL MACTIRE - WOLFWALKERS

One of the things I wanted to convey with Aurelia is a connection to nature and magic. For that, I drew from Moll. Moll is a very mysterious character who we don't really get to learn much about except from what we hear Mebh say of her. We know she's a wolfwalker. She leads her pack, she uses magic to help hide them and keep them safe, to heal wounds, and to keep the forest alive and thriving. She's a protector of nature despite increasing pressure and dire circumstances. And the one thing Moll is most protective of is her daughter, Mebh. So much so that she is willing to sacrifice herself and remain trapped in order to give Mebh the opportunity to escape. But when all is said and done, she's also willing to turn very quickly on anyone who tries to hurt Mebh and break her own rules to defend her (i.e. no biting). That sort of characterization was another being inspiration for Aurelia. She's meant to be this grand protector of life. A healer by trade and someone who does not want to fight but will defend those closest to her. She's willing to go against her own code to do so, and is more than willing to sacrifice herself in order to give her loved ones a chance when the odds are at their worst.

TORIEL - UNDERTALE

Toriel was a major inspiration for Aurelia. Both design-wise and personality wise. I wanted her humanoid form to be very soft and gentle in appearance. Someone who exudes comfort and calm during the worst moments. Also, Toriel inspired the idea of Aurelia being very maternal. The idea of loving children, wanting to guide them and protect them and nurture them - that came from Toriel. Though unlike her inspiration, Aurelia is less overprotective and knows when to let go and let children explore for themselves. And unlike Toriel, Aurelia does not know the devastation of losing a child. She only knows the frustration of not being able to have them due to restrictions set by her religion.

GRANMAMARE - PONYO ON THE CLIFF BY THE SEA

Granmamare, at least from what we hear from the sailors in Ponyo, is known as a sea goddess and a goddess of mercy. She's adoring of all living things, of nature, and regarded as being a loving mother who understands change and the importance of letting go. Her love for Fujimoto is pure, showing grace even when he blames himself for losing Ponyo. She's the only one who can calm him down when he begins to stress out about it and show a deep sense of love and understanding for Ponyo. Even when Fujimoto points out that Ponyo could turn to seafoam if Sasuke's love is not pure, she accepts that keeping her trapped where she is not happy would be far more painful. This sense of understanding, connection with others, and empathy was something I wanted to carry over into Aurelia well. Aside from the fact that she is a goddess in her own right, I wanted her to be able to display this same sort of grace and understanding that things change. This sort of acceptance and adaptability is something she prides herself on having. In public anyway.

PRINCESS CELESTIA - MY LITTLE PONY: FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC

Similar to Granmamare, although perhaps more so, Princess Celestia display a lot of grace and wisdom. She's a teacher who enjoys engaging with her students, who leads by example, and who is incredibly powerful - something that can sometimes be forgotten just looking at her. She also brings to the table the idea of opposing forces in balance. She cares very deeply for all the people she's tasked with protecting, but in particular, her sister Luna. The idea of being viewed as "the good sibling" and the one who protects against evil versus her sister, who has a dark prophecy about her and was banished to the moon for becoming a monster, are part of what inspired Aurelia's backstory. The idea of being a twin that holds great power in a balance with her sibling, and is largely viewed as the "good" one despite the prophecy saying that both are needed was partly inspired by Celestia and her story.

TE FITI - MOANA

Te Fiti was a really big inspiration for the whole Life Goddess part of Aurelia's character. Being able to spread foliage and life with just a touch and having a heart that can create life from seemingly nothing gave me the idea for Aurelia's prophecy. A being that broke away from the wrath of a god of death and destruction and chose instead to be a maker of things and bringer of life to a suffering people. The idea of being able to just walk around and have plants bloom under and around your feet is a concept I love, ngl. So of course, I had to incorporate that into my thoughts about Aurelia's Goddess abilities.

PTAH - EGYPTIAN MYTHOLOGY

The biggest inspiration by far. So much so that I actually pay homage to them in her name. In Egyptian mythology, Ptah is known as creator-god and maker of things. He's a patron of craftsmen, especially sculptors, said to have formed all, from the cosmos to the other Gods of the Egyptian pantheon. This inspiration really ties back into the concept of Aurelia as the avatar of a creation goddess that was known for bring balance to a race of beings who had only known wildness, and chaos, and destruction by giving them the power to create and channel themselves into productive acts like art, music, and dance. One who created life from seemingly nothing and challenged the pre-existing god who thrived in death and destruction. Hands down if I had to pick just one out of this ensemble to say as my main inspiration for Aurelia, it would be Ptah.

ELINOR - DISNEY’S BRAVE

Elinor from Disney's Brave was a relatively minor inspiration but an inspiration nonetheless. Specifically though, her change at the end of the movie is what I took to create Aurelia. Throughout the film, Elinor prides herself and projects unto her daughter this image of perfection, of grace, and of power. The idea that fate is out of our hands and that things should be done for the greater good even if it comes at our expense. That's not Aurelia. Aurelia is very much the kind that measures pros and cons and weighs options, and while she believes in self-sacrifice to a degree that border on martyrdom for herself, she doesn't allow others to make those sacrifices themselves. Rather, it's the Elinor at the end of the film that inspires my portrayal of Aurelia. How quickly she forsakes all of her grace and queenliness the second she sees her daughter in danger. She calls on strength she never knew she had and fights like a wild beast, throwing all of her carefully crafted manners out the window in a display of sheer ferocity to protect the one she loves. That's Aurelia. So willing to mold herself to the expectations of the Jedi Council, willing to sacrifice that which she wants and her own comforts to serve a greater good- until there is an extreme point at which she cannot stand aside anymore. And that point is when it comes to her loved ones. How quickly she will revert to wild instincts, getting on all fours, biting, clawing, wrestling - unleashing the dragon in a display of intense, powerful emotion and raw ferocity, all to protect the ones she loves most.

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@valorums said: “ sometimes it feels like you're the only one that hears me. ” [ AURELIA ]

⚔️ Something Special About You Prompts // CLOSED ⚔️

"I try my best not to only hear, but to listen." Aurelia offers with a gentle smile. "Because, I was once like you Shi'al. Youth is beautiful. It is a time of newfound freedom, of expression, of flexibility and discovery. But it is also hard. You still have little experience. You are naive and the world is unkind. Rather than offer kindness when imparting its wisdom, it offers lessons through cruelty and with harsh tongue. And people are sometimes no different. They disregard your emotions, your experiences, tell you simply to grow up as if it were so simple. People will hear your complaints - anyone can. But to listen requires compassion, empathy. Something that many seem to run short of the older they get."

Not her though. Aurelia, somehow - despite the war, despite the conflict, despite the sadness and the loss she had endured, despite the trauma that life had so gracelessly bestowed upon her - had remained gentle. Kind. Understanding. She'd not forgotten the way life had imparted its wisdom upon her with cruelty and horror. But rather, she had simply chosen to focus on the lesson taught to her with kindness, compassion, valor, and charity. In a galaxy so cruel, she chose to remain kind. She chose to break the cycle.

"If you hold onto nothing else, Shi'al, hold onto your heart. Your kindness will last forever. It will break cycles of cruelty. It will be a light shining in the darkness. It will be remembered as the impact that changes lives. Do not ever doubt the power that a simple word or act of compassion can hold."

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⚔️ What Emotion Are You? ⚔️

AURELIA PTA’HOA

LONGING

Your longing is like a ghost, a haunting presence that follows you wherever you go. It is a feeling that slips in and out of your mind, a reminder of what you have lost, what you will never have. Don’t you wish to feel their touch again? It’s too late, so let me guide you. You can resist, it’s expected. The passion of your heart is like a wound that never heals, a scar that won't fade. Not even you can stop it.

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Character Associations

repost and fill in the answers you most associate your character with to each question.

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AURELIA PTA’HOA

ANIMAL: The Dragon (Standard Western) COLOR: Lavender MONTH: May SONG: This Is Me - Keala Settle NUMBER: 4 TIME OF DAY: Twilight PLANT: Lilac SMELL: New floral blooms CRYSTAL: Amethyst SEASON: Spring PLACE: The forest MAJOR ARCANA: The Magician STAR SIGN: Cancer ELEMENT: Wind/Water BEVERAGE: Cream Wine

ALFINNEA

ANIMAL: The Wolf COLOR: Maroon MONTH: June SONG: Nobody Knows Your Heart - Sasha Lazard NUMBER: 9 TIME OF DAY: Midday PLANT: Asiatic Lily (Mapira) SMELL: The earth after a fresh rain CRYSTAL: Maroon Carnelian SEASON: Summer PLACE: The forest and meadows MAJOR ARCANA: Strength STAR SIGN: Leo ELEMENT: Earth BEVERAGE: Nectar

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// Everybody gangsta until Aurelia starts running on all fours at you-

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// Dash game board!

AURELIA PTA'HOA

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// THEY'RE HERE! THE JEDI OC AND THE SITH OC!

// Sparknotes version: They're twin siblings that were brought into the Order together at an older age than is typical for younglings. They already had strong experience with Force magic thanks to their culture's roots and so they had something of a jumpstart in Jedi training. Both felt the Order was archaic and dated in its beliefs. Aurelia thought it would become stronger if it evolved while Sutek thought it was a hopeless cause and turned to the Dark Side with the intention of destroying the Order and forming a new one that would keep up with the times. Same goal, but they took different paths to achieve it.

// One is a powerful Jedi Master who is devoted to the arts, a healer, and a protector that is considered radical by Jedi standards - inspired by the Egyptian creator god Ptah. The other is a powerful Sith lord who believes in his convictions and that the Dark Side will give him the ability to make the galaxy more safe and orderly and advanced, and claims he's doing to to give his sister a better life - inspired by the Egyptian war, chaos, and storm god Set.

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MUSE PLAYLIST.

AURELIA PTA'HOA

⚔️ main: Princess Mononoke by Sasha Lazard ↳ "Your secret heart belongs to the world of the things that sigh in the dark - oh the things that cry in the dark."

Aurelia comes off as enigmatic and beautiful. But ultimately, she keeps her heart very much in her chest. She is open and honest and compassionate, but she does not where he heart on her sleeve per se. Nobody knows her deepest desires, nor do they know her deepest fears. All they know is that she is sweet, gentle, kind, and very good with animals. She aligns with the dragon imagery of her culture quite well, but she keeps the true reason why as secretive as possible. All the same her people know the truth: that her destiny and her very being belongs to her homeworld and the beasts of its prophecy.

⚔️ silly: Judy You Hung the Moon by HARBOUR ↳ "summer nights together drivin' cobra, no headlights, rum and coca cola - we'll drive all night 503 until the mornin'"

Lighthearted and indicative of her more fun and playful side, Aurelia enjoys spending time in the company of others. She indulges in things that others in the Order raise a brow at. Where others might view drinking soda, driving around all night, playing card games, and dancing like a college kid in a club as questionable and unbecoming, Aurelia prefers to enjoy living life a little more casually than others in the Order might think appropriate.

⚔️ determination: 10,000 Enemies by Emeli Sande ↳ "I feel the whole earth shake, brought to my knees. Although 10,000 strong, I shall be free"

There are few who hold Aurelia's sense of steadfast hope- or stubbornness. No matter how fraught the situation, how slim the odds, or how grim the circumstances, she never yields. Perhaps the goal is inspire others to stand with her through the worst of things - she is quite outspoken and rebellious when she wants to be. Or perhaps it's simply because she really is just that stubborn. In any case, Aurelia concedes to no outside force. Not man, nor God, nor beast will intimidate her or convince her to back down once she's made up her mind.

⚔️ battle: WW III by grandson ↳ 'Tell me what I'm supposed to think when the bullets start to pour, lie about some greater good when you ship me off to war. Thousand dead on either side, is there no one keeping score? I just wanna make it home when you ship me off to war!'

One of the things Aurelia is ashamed of as a Jedi is the fact that she is not just a general, but a good general. In her mind, Jedi were never meant to be anything more than peacekeepers. But the Clone Wars forced them into a position of commanding armies and choosing who lives and who dies. And she's not okay with that. In the Order, she trained to be a healer. She trained to save lives and improve the quality of those who survived wounds or illness. This whole concept of killing people is against everything she stands for and she despises it. She's deeply shaken by the number of dead she's had to help bury, the wounds of war she's had to heal. She's deeply in tune with and connected to the clones she leads and she does not have the heart to sacrifice them, no matter the cause. She puts herself in their shoes and the devastation she feels as a result of losing them breaks her after every battle.

⚔️ sad: Bad Liar by Imagine Dragons ↳ "So look me in the eyes, tell me what you see. Perfect paradise tearing at the seams? I wish I could escape, I don't wanna fake it. Wish I could erase it, make your heart believe - but I'm a bad liar"

Aurelia maintains a terrible habit of repressing everything that makes her sad. She will constantly tell those around her that she's okay but on the inside, she grapples with these intense feelings of inadequacy and paranoid thoughts that she is a danger to the point where she will drown herself in the anxieties and what-if scenarios, choking herself on the fear she conjures up within herself to the point of literally being unable to breathe during panic attacks and meltdowns. She's desperate to talk it out with someone but she fears the reactions that come from telling her secret to others, and the cycle continues until the point of her breaking down.

⚔️ relaxed: Hymn for the Weekend by Coldplay ft. Beyonce ↳ "You said, "Drink from me, drink from me" when I was so thirsty. Pour on a symphony - now I just can't get enough!"

Giving comes naturally to Aurelia. Few things make her feel more relaxed than being able to help people. Seeing others content and in a state of relaxation also relaxes her. It lets her know that she can set down her blade for a while and enjoy life the way it was meant to. When at rest and truly in a zen state, one might even be able to see flowers and plants blooming around Aurelia where she sits. Birds and other wildlife might perch on her or sit around her for the moment, enjoying the peaceful aura she lets off.

⚔️ contemplative: You Say by Lauren Daigle ↳ "I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I'm not enough. Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up. Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low? Remind me once again just who I am because I need to know"

Identity is a constant conflict within Aurelia. The loss of her home and her induction into the Order, her role as a Jedi and her role as a divine reincarnation, her existence as an individual person and her existence as a dragon goddess - all of these identities contradict each other and create this sense of displacement and confusion within Aurelia. In calmer moments when she's alone with the thoughts - usually after something has happened that requires her to confront them - she's left questioning her role, her place in the galaxy, and even her worth as a person. Sometimes the outcome of this pondering is the realization that she is still worthy of love and can offer the galaxy goodness. Other times, it's just the segue into a downward spiral of her own anxieties and doubts.

⚔️ happy: Here Comes the Sun by the Beatles ↳ 'Little darlin', the smile's returning to their faces. Little darlin', it seems like years since it's been here. Here comes the sun'

Aurelia is naturally very cheerful and optimistic. She puts out a radiant energy that hopes to lift the spirits of those around her. She offers a warmth and a comfort to those in distress or harboring sadness. A hug from her or a some comforting chatter can change someone's entire day. She puts out a more positive energy than she often feels in an attempt to spare others the same heartache she feels. Her love of life and her love of others is genuine, inspiring optimism and joy wherever she can plant the seeds of it. She wants others to be happy and be at peace, no matter how bad things seem.

⚔️ love theme: All I Ask of You by Josh Groban and Kelly Clarkson ↳ "Let me be your freedom. Let daylight dry your tears. I'm here, with you, beside you to guard you and to guide you."

Where romance is concerned, Aurelia questions whether she is worthy of it. Due to the internal struggle of her role and identity, as well as past experiences where her secrets are concerned, she often feels that she cannot adequately connect with anyone. She doesn't feel safe trusting herself to love others in case the beast comes out. She doesn't feel safe developing connections because that would mean having to inevitably reveal her secrets, and she's afraid of the rejection she thinks she'll face. She doesn't want to connect with someone, give them her heart, give them her love, and then face the heartbreak of being called a monster when the beast comes out. She pushes people away for that reason. But all the same, she craves intimate connection. She yearns to love and be loved, she yearns to have a wonderful partner and her own children and a big happy family. All she wants is companionship and family. But she's too afraid to pursue it on her own- not to mention the restrictions on attachment in the Order.

⚔️ breakup / heartbreak: Copycat by CircusP ↳ "I'll become what you like. This is what you wanted, right? Sacrifice all I know - I will teach myself to let go"

Aurelia has a terrible habit of trying to adapt herself in ways that will please others that she cares for. Minor changes might be fine, but that's not what she does. She overexerts herself and tries to morph herself into a version of herself that she isn't in an attempt to please them. She sets herself up to be manipulated and strung along - or she exhausts herself playing the role of someone or something she's not and breaks her own heart in the process.

⚔️ failure / defeat: Monster by Imagine Dragons ↳ "If I told you what I was would you turn your back on me? And if I seem dangerous would you be scared? I get the feeling just because everything I touch isn't dark enough, If this problem lies in me; I'm only a man with a candle to guide me. I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me. A monster, a monster - I've turned into a monster! A monster, a monster - and it keeps getting stronger!"

The greatest failure that Aurelia feels she can fall to is the beast inside. She fears what the dragon within is capable of, and she fears even more what it might do if she does not maintain strict control over it. If she were to somehow lose her free will over herself and the ability control the beast (as she canonly does when Sutek manages to override her consciousness and use her dragon form as a weapon of destruction), she would actually fall apart and break completely. Becoming that monster that everyone fears is her deepest fear, and seeing that happen during her small moment of clarity where she manages to break free of his hold is what drives her to try and spear herself on a statue of him in the hopes that it will stop the carnage. She doesn't want to be a monster. She would rather die than become a monster, and the reason people suffer.

⚔️ final battle: ECHO by Crusher-P (JubyPhonic, Dj-jo cover) ↳ "the trembling fear is more than i can take when i'm up against the echo in the mirror"

By far, Aurelia's biggest battle is in her own mind. Being the child of prophecy where you're seen as a reincarnation of a god that could fix the galaxy as easily as you could completely destroy weighs on her. A lot. This is not helped by the fact that she has no control over her more divine abilities - like turning into a dragon. The few times she's done it by accident due to uncontrolled emotional outbursts has led to her terrifying people and causing unintentional but massive damage to buildings. She's been called a monster so many times and it hurts her so badly. As a result, the dragon her people view as a blessing, she views as her own personal curse. It's a demon that she sees every time she looks in a mirror and constantly feels like she's fighting with - and she's in a losing battle against it.

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Statistical Character Personality Quiz

take the linked quiz from the perspective of your character, then select 5-10 results from the complete matches list that you feel resonate with your character the most.

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AURELIA PTA'HOA

Deanna Troi (Star Trek: The Next Generation): 94%

Waverly Earp (Wynonna Earp): 93%

Guinan (Star Trek: The Next Generation): 92%

Rosalind Walker (Chilling Adventures of Sabrina): 91%

Bonnie Bennett (The Vampire Diaries): 91%

Alice Cullen (Twilight): 90%

Kara Danvers (Supergirl): 90%

Mary Margaret Blanchard (Once Upon a Time): 90%

Belle French (Once Upon a Time): 90%

Debora (Baby Driver): 90%

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// Yes Aurelia did go dragon mode during Order 66 trying to protect the younglings and padawans. I’d like to believe that she had to physically face off against her brother, he lopped off her horn and threw her aside to go for the children she was protecting and seeing the fear in her eyes is what triggered it. I’m sure having two giant dragons fighting in the temple did nothing to ease the chaos-