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[jamesheathridge]

angus sleeping.png

[yanderehighschool-confessions]

Godspeed, Connie.

[icewindandboringhorror]

Misc. photos from the past year or so ~

[naejigo]

You know, the world is in a treacherous state right now, and humanity looks a bit ugly. There is nothing good to celebrate. It is New Year. I don't think I like the way I'm shaping my thoughts lately, but I try to keep a positive outlook on things. I'm trying to make peace with fate. I don't want anything from the past back into my palms, I would not cradle them so well. I would die, I think. You see, I believe in heaven and hell, and also reincarnation. I'm not sure how purgatory works, so I can't say much about that. But otherwise. I do think life if worth living a moment longer everyday because you're here. I do think humanity is astoundingly beautiful at times because you're part of it. I think this generation have lost a sense of love that feels genuine, therefore I won't deprave myself of honesty and vulnerability.

If I get into heaven I'd pull you in with me and you'll be my neighbour.

[minophus]

the way my first ever ultkill fanart was a suggestive mirage pic

[xx-hail2theking-xx]

Mortals.

It has been. A very long day.

-Duke Valefar.

[jurisffiction]

here's to languishing 🥂

i feel like i need to take this invitation to add commentary to my post that i was thinking as i typed it and wanted to clarify then but held myself back because i've been working on not compulsively vomiting my thought processes to everyone out of the hypervigilant response born of being misunderstood my whole life.

but you opened the floor. so! i typed languishing because it's the word that came to me first, but then i recalled all those pandemic mental health articles that framed 'languishing' as some type of pathological and definitive term next to clinical depression – some kind of specific state of unnerving stasis of self. and i thought to myself, well, that's not what I'm doing currently, so should i be describing my current action as 'languishing'? is that what I want the reader to associate and conjure in their mind?

but then i remembered i'd opened with the word languid, an obvious relation, though 'languid' manages to carry with it instead a sense of purposeful insolence; a disinclination, a near-luxuriating in laziness in contrast to languishing's connotations of discordia of the mind and body. so i left it as languishing, knowing at least that i meant it far more as an extension of my initial and intentional languor and not a indictment of myself.

now, however, i'm more curious. two lead questions: are those connotations i have actually common for others? and if so, how do two forms of essentially the same word hold such differing connotations? how separate are their etymological roots, really?

the oxford english dictionary (quite useful for tracking changes in meaning over time) marks the earliest records of 'languish' as a verb c1325 as our understanding of weakness or feebleness, but quite close c1380 it lists a "now-archaic" use to describe a "droop in spirits; to pine or brood, esp. with love or grief", and, by 1567 (also now-archaic) "to waste away with longing for; to yearn (to do something)". now that's what I'm talking about! (the oed also notes some usages as "chiefly poetic;" which i would like to specifically shout out.)

all of that—for languishing��� seems to fit moreso for my usage of languid than the descriptions listed for languid itself: first recorded in 1595 (as 'weakness', again, though the note of 'listless' strikes true for my use) though by 1727 there is an association to 'leisurely; unhurried' and 1723, of peacefulness.

so what have i learnt here. I suppose that i had somehow completely conjured the periphery of my understanding of the word 'languid' out of thin air for myself, but/and some of the connotations i insist on are at least part of the archaic understanding of the older 'languish' regardless. 

and as for my specific commentary notes, i'd clarify i meant both terms exclusively in archaic sense; the most resonant wording of such being the oxford languages': to assume a sentimentally tender or melancholy expression or tone; to pine with love or grief.

[lrndvs]

compliments from girls go hard

[itsscaredycat]

so ok yeah fine i watched gravity falls again and read the book of bill

[hydrattan]

I was feeling agitated and artblocked yesterday so I decided to give my brain a rest by watching TV and then the next thing I knew these were in front of me

[willinghands]

i think r/BenignExistence is my favorite subreddit 🥲 i love these pleasant little glimpses into strangers' lives

[piedpip3rrr]

What is this? A crossover episode???

[lakanakana]

war never changes

[climbingthefloors]

obsessed with this baby hippo from thailand's khao khew zoo.. she has been so utterly betrayed by the world

[parttimepunner]

Pour one out for a real one.