#( answered ︰emma mountebank / the actress )

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@smiledickhead sent: "if we were able to evolve as we wished, women would all have wings."

A small giggle at her thought as her head turned. Phone being put down in her lap as she did so contemplating for a moment before laughing. She had a good point, life would be easier, they would be the ideal in not only beauty but angelic as well. Not to mention how much EASIER it would be to get away from her problems if she could simply fly away from them.

And as if she was spawning her own problems her phone went off, a moment of silence, and then it went off again, and then a third time. An exasperated sigh as she lifted it and rolled her eyes before tossing it toward a corner. A rare thing especially for an influencer like her but alas, Jacob was a pest she could simply not deal with. Especially not with girl time.

 ❝Ugh- tell me about it? Plus running away from the most annoying of boys would be so much easier if we could fly. Oh my god also every picture we would all look like those pretty models from those fashion shows.❞

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@storyblend sent: “i don't understand my own feelings.”

There was a glimmer of understanding behind her eyes at his words as the sat. Rock in her hand as she gently threw it across the water although it fell after two skips. Jacob had always made it seem so much easier, that or she was just bad. But it was probably the former, there was NO WAY she was that bad at something. But all that aside as he speaks she resonates.

That was the one thing they had in common. The masks they wore, the humor they used to hide that deep down neither of them truly understood themselves or their feelings. Perhaps that was what all THREE of them had in common. Ryan seemed both so sure of himself and at times unsure, and her and Dylan were both all over the place. A small smile, a friendship foraged until this moment in on that unseen mutual trait.

She leans her head over on his shoulder in a sisterly manner and lets out an exaggerated sigh. Who knew this summer was going to be so complicated emotionally for EVERYONE. But after a moment it turned to a hug. Arms wrapped around Dylan tightly as she spoke.

 ❝It'll all be clear soon. There is no reason for either of us to get bent out of shape for not understanding them right away right? Plus like, feelings are so complicated and it can take a long time for someone to process through what like real love or real rage is so-- I don't blame you.❞

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" there's nothing bad inside you . nothing . " for Emma

A gentle shrug of her shoulders. He could be right but there was so much pointing to him being wrong. The way she acted in front of EVERYONE else, the way she played to an audience. The fact she felt that it was ok to leave for a summer during the hardest year of their lives. To once again be late or leave early so that she could be selfish.

Emma Mountebank, the walking definition of selfishness, of self serving.

A shake of her head as she looked down, she had gone to the Quarry as a kid and after everything maybe connecting with nature and summer again it would be good to work through everything there. She met with the others two weeks ago at orientation. Dylan, her and Ryan were already texting. Well, her and also Jacob too but she would feel too much guilt to tell Josh about that.

Instead she moves her head, rests it on his shoulder. They were all supposed to grow up and do all the cool shit they could together and now, it was just her and Josh. No twins, her parents were constantly trying to help Bob and Melinda so she was basically on her own now.

 ❝Maybe, but maybe I am secretly possessed by a horrible monster that's making me think leaving for this stupid camp, where I can't even be on my phone is a good idea. It's totally transforming me into a different monster. ❞

A tone of joking in her voice, she is pandering again. He should, or rather she hopes, he knows her well enough to see its just a facade. She wasn't sure why she was suddenly so emotional over going to the Quarry but maybe it was just because she KNEW him. She knew how he was and was worried the moment she left something bad would happen and she wouldn't be there because her phone was going to be with Mr. Hackett.

After a moment she moved away and stood up. Her hand grabbed her phone quickly shoot off three texts to the boys she had so suddenly become close with and looked up. Hopefully these sudden new friends wouldn't hurt him too much. He might even like Dylan, they were so similar from what she could tell at orientation.

 ❝Ok, I can hide my phone from Mr. Hackett and if he asks everyone agrees to help cover for me about it. So if you need anything when I am gone you call or text me ok?❞

Ryan seemed hesitant but, everyone else seemed onboard. Probably because of her charm and the emoji's but either way this already made her feel better. The strangers on her side not knowing anything other than her having a crisis was nice. Not to mention she knew Jacob was kissing her ass because he liked her. At least that could benefit her here.

 ❝With that out of the way. We should talk more about the plans for when I get back we will only have like what a few more months for planning. Plus going up early to set things up.❞