#( also i loveeee including flower symbolism don't mind me lol )

[lostusagis]

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A gasp leaves her through separated ringed fingers against her agape mouth. Amethyst optics quivering in awe at what Kamui arrived to her doorstep with. "Kamui... You... You really brought me another one?" Namida remembers texting Kamui how the flower he gave her on the day they met up for the Cherry Blossom Festival was beginning to show signs of withering and how sad it made her feel. Well, it was a bittersweet feeling at least. The memories of that day are a good and happy one. It will always live on in her mind and within her diary. Actually, she's thinking about "pressing" the flower flat to preserve it's white pink gradient colors and unique shapes forever within the written page about that wonderful day in her diary. Like the dried up flowers you'd see as a beautiful addition to scrapbook pages or handmade cards or being used in arts and crafts or displayed in frames. All good things must come to end... Not unless Kamui has something to say about it! He always knows how to make her happy so easily. He's so thoughtful. That cheerful smile on his handsome face radiated the kind of charm and warmth that captures her heart. He KNOWS this gift would make her happy and she appreciates him so much for it. She truly is so grateful for Kamui being in her life.

"Kamui..." She wanted to jump up and glomp him in a tight embrace in glee, but she didn't want to damage the flower in any way. It felt like Deja vu to when he gave her the beautiful flower the first time. Namida carefully takes the blossom from his hand and raises it up to hide half of her face behind it to cover her grin. Her head slightly bowed in shyness as she giggles and smiles so wide like a happy idiot; as if she were a lovestruck school girl that received a flower from her boyfriend on their first date. Her fingers twirling the stem in circles closely to her face. "Eheheheh~! Kamuiiiiiiii~! I'm so happy! Eheheheh~!" She then leans up on her toes to plant a chaste gentle kiss to his cheek as a sweet symbol of thanks. This is something Namida has done a couple times before especially when she wants to kiss his forehead; leaning up on her tippy toes to reach him better. "Thank you, Kamui. It's so beautiful." She says softly with the warmest of smiles, before closing her eyes and taking a small whiff of the precious flower. "Mmmm I love the smell it gives. It's so nice and elegantly delicate."

With the flower in her one hand, her other hand takes his and merrily leads Kamui inside her apartment. Inside, she takes him to the living room where the small round table is specifically used for the vase of the flower Kamui gave her before and decorated in cherry blossom petals. Actually, she's thinking of pressing those petals too in her diary to preserve forever. "Eheheh. I really love this table. It helps me to smile whenever I'm alone here..." She replaces the almost withering flower with the newly fresh one, but she doesn't throw out the more cherished one. Instead, she lightly hugs it against her chest and smiles fondly down at it. Black nailed fingers carefully caressing the frilly petals. "I um... I don't want to throw it away. I know it'll eventually wither completely if I keep it, but... It's really important to me, so..." She looks up at him with an optimistically-hopeful expression. "I have an idea on how to keep it~! I'm basically going to use the 'pressed flowers' method! With appropriate care, pressed plants can last for hundreds of years. It'll feel more dry when it's done, but the longevity is the goal for me. Wanna see how it's done?"

Namida goes to her bookshelf to take out a sketchbook, full of drawings she'd done, with a cherry blossom cover on it and then goes to the kitchen to take two pieces of parchment paper sheets one would use for baking purposes. She then takes a pair of sharp scissors and sets everything down on the dinner table. She was excited to prepare such a precious memory with Kamui, the one who bestowed unto her an unforgettable memory, next to her. It also felt endearing to teach him something that humans do when they want to keep a plant forever. Perhaps it could be a skill Kamui could use at any point in his life? Oh! Maybe Kagura would want to know of this skill too for any arts and crafts, if she wants! "It's quite simple, really! I remember doing this in school when I was a kid. This flower is kinda thick, so I'll have to cut it in half so it can be dried flat easier." She lays the flower down on the surface and uses the scissors to cut the flower and stem equally in half and doing her best to keep it even. It's perfect, because she wants to keep on half in her diary within the page written about that cherished day and the other half she'll display in a glass frame! Namida really... really doesn't want to let this precious gift go. It means so much her.

"Okay next step: the parchment paper~! It's used to absorb excess moisture from the flowers as they dry out." She places the two halves of the flower between the two sheets of parchment paper and then sets them between the blank pages of her sketchbook. She made sure to choose a sketchbook that she won’t need to use over the next several weeks since that's how long pressing flowers take. It's a good thing she has an extra sketchbook she still needs to draw in! "And last step: stacking 2 or 3 heavy books or something heavy to provide extra weight~!" She hurries off into her room to take out books from her bookshelf again. This time gathering hardcovers about dark/gothic romances that aren't manga; one of them telling a romantic story about a girl who rescued a handsome fallen angel. She comes back side-eyeing Kamui with flushed cheeks, because yes... There's smut in this story. "D-Don't say it... I know you're thinking it DON'T. SAY IT." She stacks them on top of her closed sketchbook and smiles proudly at it with hands on her hips and chest puffed out. "Eheheh~! And done! Now I just gotta wait like 1 to 2 weeks. They should feel like fine tissue paper."

Namida takes note of the time on the clock and just realized Kamui had visited later than usual. Was he busy today? He looks tired too. And yet he went through all that trouble to find another flower for her... "Kamui..." A sympathetic smile is warmly glowing, like a lit candle in a dark room, on her face as she gently places her hand atop his hand against the table and caresses his bandages with her thumb. Her voice soft and quiet. "Hey... Let's do something relaxing together today, hm? I really don't mind just sitting in silence with you, just so you know. If anything, I find it really comfy... Just having you here with me is enough to make me happy." She takes a moment to close her eyes and press her forehead gently against his own like an affectionate cat, before eventually standing up and leading him to the sofa in the living room hand in hand.

She sits down with him and kindly gestures him to lay his head on her lap. When he did, she could feel how his limbs fall loose and his breathing relax. Staring down at him, he reminded her of a cat and smiles softly at the thought. He looked so peaceful right now. Completely harmless. We all need a cozy place to hide at times; to feel safe and cocooned from within. This is how it should always be like for him; peaceful. He deserves for everything to go right in his life. To not worry about the urge to kill anymore. To not worry about the deep pains of his past. To use his hands for what they were born to do: to hold and not to hurt. To simply just... feel calm and relief in his heart. There is a solace in feeling the goodness of his soul as she slowly combs through his hair with her fingers; in the gentle certainty that he was born to absorb and reflect love. And oh how he reflects love alright... So much so she's feel she's found heaven from basking in how he treats her and would witness the embarrassed and honest parts of him that reveal how he really feels. Who he really is underneath the surface layers people tend to see. The kind that proves love isn't fiction like she previously thought.

While in her quiet contemplation, she notices his ahoge bouncing and forming a heart. This manifests a loving grin to appear. He's soooooooo cute! ♡ She gently pats and pets his head a couple times in between her still brushing his silky orangey-auburn hair. He must be really content and happy, huh? She's so glad. After all, Namida always wants nothing more than to make him happy. Her index digit leisurely tracing the heart it made and gently twirling around his ahoge before untwirling it, while her other hand rubs his back slowly up and down. That's when she hears a phone going off in the dining area. It's not hers since it's in her bag, so that must be... She turns her head to look behind herself and sees Kamui's phone on the floor next to the dinner table. it must've fell out of his pocket without them noticing. It's vibrating repeatedly, which means it's most likely a phone call.

"Oh uh... You can stay here and rest some more, ok Mui? Don't worry I'll get up and get it for you, so you don't have to move." However, when Namida tried getting up... She'd feel his arms wrap around her waist tightly. His hold keeping her rooted on the spot. "A-Ah... Kamui?" He doesn't want her going anywhere; acting clingy. It's always been hard to budge him. Whenever she tried, it was like moving a wall: impossible for a human. She blinks a few times in astonishment, before her facial features softened and she smiles. "Oh, Kamui.... Okay." He's being sooooo cute. Maybe the call is job-related, considering the many times Kamui has ignored Abuto's calls, but... Namida can't find it in her heart to leave him when he's like this. Ultimately, she brushes his hair some more and plants a loving kiss to the top of his head. Whispering reassuringly. "I'll stay. I won't go anywhere. I'm right here."

Then an idea crosses her mind. "Hey, Kamui? Do you know what a sleepover is? It's something friends do on earth when they want to stay the night. Games, DVDs, gossip, spa treatments, blanket forts and junk food are sleepover mainstays, but we can also just... Stay like this relaxing and sleeping... Is it okay for you to stay one night? Eheh... Waking up in the morning to see you would be a nice change. I feel like it'd be fun to find out if you snore in your sleep or not hmmmm~?" She cheekily, though quietly, giggles at that little tease, but then stops when realizing he'll find out if SHE snores or not. Cheeks growing red. "Th-That's not to say that I'M the type to snore! I-I don't snore!" Yea we'll see about that.

Kamui had been really excited to give her this flower. It was the one that he had mentioned to her not long ago, saying it reminded him of her. It was a Lisianthus flower, which was the same color as her eyes. Kamui honestly really liked her eyes. Especially with the way they'll lighten up whenever he'd do something that made her happy. Since Namida had mentioned the previous flower he gave her was withering, he decided to go back to that planet he went to where he found a large field of lisianthus flowers. Just like he wanted, she looked really happy when he gave her to her. Kamui couldn't help smiling himself.

''I just didn't want you to be sad over the other flower wilting at some point.'' He'd say, warmth filling the hues of blue he'd gaze at her with. Kamui, however, wasn't aware that the flowers he gave her were well known for representing lifelong love. It could very well represent how he felt for her, even if he, himself, hadn't yet realized the truth.

''And I really enjoy seeing you smile too. ♡'' He really couldn't help but feel a racing within his chest, just from her influence alone. Happiness filling him from seeing how her features brighten, made him want to do nothing but strive to make sure she always looked like that. When he was with her, it seemed... every blood thirsty thought was replaced with this gentle feeling. It only increased when she took the flower, and kissed him on the cheek. The feeling was impossible to fight, he really didn't make an effort to though. ''You're welcome.'' Yeah, he probably would do just about anything for her. Just to see her like that, just to feel this way from the sight of it. He'll do anything.

Kamui was glad she hadn't been busy and brought him inside her apartment. His ahoge would even excitedly wave about, since he gets to spend time with his favorite person. Her apartment always felt so relaxing. More when she was there though, whenever he came over when she wasn't home just didn't feel the same. But, he did like having a meal cooked up for her by the time she came home. Then being able to eat together too? He loved that.

When Namida guided him to the living room, showing Kamui a table where the wilting flower had been placed. Seeing how much this meant to her, resulted in a soft laugh escaping him. ''You're.... really cute you know?'' He couldn't help saying that when observing her. He's definitely going to continue getting her more flowers in the future.

However, when she brought up the whole topic of pressing flowers, to no one's surprise he just looked at her confused. He's never heard about that, but Kamui was really intrigued on this method that allowed someone to keep a flower from wilting. ''People on earth really know some interesting stuff, so sure I'd like to see.'' The fact that she's going through the trouble to preserve a gift he gave her, meant a lot to him. Kamui would stand there observing her closely, to see how the whole process worked. When she brought up doing this in school though, he was perplexed since all his education came from his parents, and anything he learned on his own or from experience. Maybe he'll ask her about that some other time. He was more interested in watching her in silence right now. However, the way she acted after bringing out those books made him unable to hold back a snort.

''I wasn't even going to comment, but you made yourself guilty by the way you're acting. I can already guess what's in those books now. Pervert.'' Cue the playful smirk he gives her, since he had been more interested in the flower pressing but Namida was just giving him ammo to bully her at this point. When she was finished, he'd made an impressed sound.

''Oooh, so the flower will last forever now? That's pretty cool. So you can keep any flower I give you for as long as you want. I'll make sure to get you a lot more. I mean, you're as beautiful as a flower in my opinion. Only makes sense to.'' Complimenting her came so natural, since his thoughts about Namida were always positive nowadays.

Before he had arrived, Kamui had been busy. To make matters worse, his sleeping wasn't all that good either. But he still went to the effort to get her the flower before visiting. He would always prioritize her over anything, which would be worrying had he revealed that out loud. Kamui just really... wanted to see her happy. He was being a good friend, wasn't he? She was the only thing that mattered, so that's how it should be.

He'd see the way she smiled at him, and would immediately catch onto how she noticed his state despite him showing her his own smile. It was genuine, he rarely showed that usual fake smile to her, if ever anymore. But he did feel genuine happiness being here because of her, though he'd avert his gaze when witnessing that sympathetic look on her face. It'd end up focusing on the way her hand laid over his own on the table, the way she caressed it easily made him so relaxed. Namida's touch had a strong impact, it made him feel like things weren't terrible. It made him delusional enough to believe he wasn't worthless.

''I'm honestly.... happy doing anything as long as you're there.'' He'd say, quickly brightening up. When their foreheads touch, for a moment Kamui stares while she had her eyes closed. Just admiring her face for a second. How could someone be so beautiful in every shape and form?

When he was led to the sofa, without question Kamui laid his head on her lap. He loved being on her lap so much, it was so relaxing. Plus, he loved getting such a good view of her face. Her nice hair, pretty eyes, kissable cheeks and even more kissable lips. Hearts were liable to float around him with how fond he's become of her. When Namida started brushing through his hair, it really felt like he was on cloud nine. Kamui loved whenever her fingers laced through his hair. It was so relaxing.

His ahoge pretty much expressed everything, bouncing happily before forming into the usual heart shape it would go into whenever he was around her. Hues of blue even flutter close, basically he left himself completely vulnerable and at her mercy which he had no problem with. The way she pat his head, did make his cheeks redden somewhat. Kamui was being pampered with affection and relishing in every minute.

Eyes would open slightly, watching contently while she played with his ahoge, and rubbed his back. She was great.... so, so, great. It was only unfortunate that pleasant thoughts were interrupted by his phone. The most irritated of noises came from him, since he didn't like being bothered when he was alone with Namida. He had been quick to stop her, since he didn't see it as important. ''....Don't worry about it, and stay, please?'' His arms were wrapped around her waist, getting all pouty. Abuto can handle whatever boring crap he needed to on his own. He was just relieved Namida settled for not getting up, even reassuring him. Which made Kamui sigh out in relief.

He immediately beams when she started being affectionate again with him. This was everything to him. However he'd listen to her talking about sleep and the suggestion immediately interested him. So much so... he got really excited and it led to him basically pushing her down on the sofa with Kamui looming over her.

''A sleepover sounds reaaaaally fun! I'd love to spend the night! We can do that whenever you want! I love that!'' The idea made him so happy, although when looking down at her... Kamui couldn't help but lean in to kiss her. His own lips gently brushing against her gloss covered ones, lingering for a bit before pulling back.

''Sorry, I got... really excited. I always wanted to stay over but I wasn't sure if you'd be up for the idea.'' Kamui laughs before nuzzling into her neck affectionately,

''I'm not sure if I do snore, but if I do... you're not allowed to say anything or I'll bully you more. Maybe I'll check out those books you got so flustered over and see how perverted they are so I can tease you about it.'' He meant every word of that, since he loved seeing her blushing expression. Kamui couldn't wait to have their first sleepover, it sounded great from what she mentioned. Maybe sleeping in her apartment, with her nearby might help him sleep better.

''What kind of junk food are we talking about? Can it just be anything like maybe pocky, taiyaki, stuff like that?'' Of course, he was most concerned over what to eat. But overall, he was just happy he'd get to stay with Namida for an entire night. Seeing her face first thing in the morning sounded like the best thing ever. He could even surprise her with breakfast too. ''I hope you know... visiting you makes me the happiest guy ever. You make it so easy to not worry about anything just from being around me.'' His lips pressed themselves against her cheek.

''Spending time with you makes me soooo happy, so I'm really looking forward to this. ♡''