#( i'm happy leave me alone )

[cry-ptidd]

Common denominator

[charbies]

Linktober day 1 - merchant

[a-study-in-dante]

June 3rd, 2024 | First day back to class for a Summer School in Milano 🇮🇹 Very interesting so far, I'm socializing both in English and Italian (!!), + I get to take pretty notes and make aesthetic schedule bujo spreads again ah (more to see soon-ish!)

[mollyjames]

No okay you have to understand netflix took down the original ovas after the series came out and I was never able to find them anywhere and the series is good and I even like it okay but I loved those ovas and they were only available as a japanese import on amazon for like $50 and there's no way I was ever going to spend $50 on what is essentially a feature length movie but finally I was like fuck it and I got it and it comes with the art book and the soundtrack and it's mine forever now heheheheheheh

[picnokinesis]

y'know it's such a shame we didn't get any new episodes for the 60th anniversary of Doctor Who, but I guess I'm still riding on the high of Jodie Whittaker regenerating into Ncuti Gatwa, like what a moment, right? He looked so incredible in her burnt out clothes and I can't wait for his first ep where we get that classic post-regen loopiness as they try and solve an alien threat whilst staggering about in the previous regeneration's clothes - and also getting to own that moment, their first episode without being overshadowed by the person they were before? 😌 Anyway, at least on the plus side we got that ten and donna episode Wild Blue Yonder from s4 that they pulled out of the depths of the BBC archives? Like wow! What a find! Such a fascinating story, I'm gonna be thinking about it for weeks. And the way that it predicted Flux before it even happened? So so cool! But anyway mostly I'm excited to see the Fourteenth Doctor and Ruby in the Christmas Special 😊

[084392]

couldnt stop thinking about the not canon idea of the lake guardians mirroring hero, grovyle, and partners struggles somehow...

[my-little-random-world]

Don Damián: Do we have a meeting that I didn’t know about?

Marta: No. I’m the one who didn’t know about the meeting this morning where you announced the visit of the owner of Galerías Miranda.

Don Damián: You’re included, of course.

Marta: How nice. I would like to think that I still am part of this company.

Don Damián: It’s good that we’re all here, hm? Let them see the united family.

Marta: Are you sure? Mr. Miranda might see something strange in me. Some kind of perversion. Well, I won’t give him that pleasure. The united family will shine by its absence.

Don Damián: Alright. Do what you think is best.

Telephone rings

Don Damián: Hello, Isabel? Yes, let her in.

Fina: Good afternoon.

Don Damián: Come in and close the door. What do you need, Serafina?

Fina: I came to inform you that after considering it, I’m obliged to reject your offer to move to Barcelona.

Don Damián: I’m afraid I might not have explained it well yesterday. It’s not an offer; it’s the only opportunity you have to remain in this company. According to your contract, you must comply with the changes set by management.

Fina: I’m not going to leave, Don Damián.

Don Damián: Does that mean you’re leaving Perfumerías de la Reina?

Fina: Well, if that’s the only solution, then yes, I will. But the three of us here know how unfair this is and the reason why you’ve been forced to make this decision.

[k-martins]

Okay, now I'm thinking of a florist itfs au where Mamagumi had a flower shop and when she died, Toji decided to take over the business so he could keep his beloved wife's memory alive. He also remarried Tsumiki's mother because he thought Megumi needed some family structure, even though he didn't love this other woman. But Miki's mother left, which left Toji with two kids and a business to take care of.

Then Meg and Tsumiki grow up and take care of the flower shop with Toji.

Then one day Yuji, who was from Sendai and came to live in Tokyo with UncKuna (who is a surgeon because in my head it makes sense), meets Megs and is so enchanted that he makes the flower shop his favorite place while he adapts to the busy life of the capital.

Oh, and Gojo is Megs and Tsumiki's meddling godfather who is in the story because Toji needs to yell at someone other than his childrens.

Junpei and Yuji are online best friends who finally met, and Nobara is the gossip queen who will smile mischievously at Megumi whenever Yuji shows up.

[lestappenthings]

omg I'm crying. Charles home race win. Max being happy for him. First monagasque to win the home race in 93 years. A well deserved charles win. A lestappen hug. Bro I don't wanna live anymore. I've witnessed everything. (jk i still wanna see him win WDC)

[h1nds]

horrid loss but they looked good as fuck

[canisalbus]

Vasco and Machete are absolutely adorable, your style is so lovely and you draw the softest beds I’ve ever seen in any art ever

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[moonxq]

Thinking about Shin again but it's more of a brain dump of thoughts than an actual put-together essay with coherent sentence structure

I think it's likely that Shin already wasn't doing So Great mental-health wise before meeting Hiyori (his disappointment in himself and idolization of others is Concerning, but it seems to be something he's always struggled with). Then Hiyori comes along and encourages him, believes in his ability to become the person he wants to be, teaches him so much. If no one truly believed in him before, then of course Some Guy randomly coming along and giving him attention that's almost suffocating is. Kind of scary!! Then add onto that the fact that Hiyori is just intimidating without even needing to Do Anything (he stands with arms stiff at his sides leaning into your personal space while constantly staring into the depths of your soul).

Shin reads as someone who would much rather have faded into the background and avoided attention due to a lack of confidence. Then Hiyori proudly displays his photographs everywhere (a gesture that puts him directly into the spotlight, which would be incredibly uncomfortable if he wasn't used to something like that). Hiyori, this impressive and knowledable figure that Shin looked up to, saw something in him that he didn't see in himself.

It's worth noting for this scene below that when Hiyori says the first line, the cheerful/silly sound effect plays. It wasn't spoken as a threat, but as encouragement.

I think it's important that Hiyori doesn't say something like, he's going to just do everything for poor little helpless Shin (which would be pretty demeaning and more controlling). He makes a deal that puts them, more or less, on equal footing. He offers that Shin can do his own part, and even fulfill a wish of Hiyori's in exchange. It's a selfishly worded way to say that Shin isn't dead weight. That's an intimidating expectation to live up to for someone with little to no faith in himself!!

THEN. Hiyori just disappears out of nowhere and all of those memories get tainted by what was probably such a powerful feeling of abandonment. I wonder what Shin was feeling watching the data on the computer get erased before his eyes. Any hope of figuring out who Hiyori really was just. Slipping through his fingers and disappearing forever, practically a confirmation that whoever his friend was, he was wrapped up in something suspicious (maybe even dangerous). Maybe Hiyori was lying, and he didn't actually care at all, and he was just using him to some unknown end.

There's relief at that unwavering source of attention vanishing along with whatever suspicion and darkness that Hiyori was shrouded in. I don't think Shin was blind to the fact that something was up with Hiyori.

But he's lonely!! Shin goes from constant attention to Nothing. He misses Hiyori, desperately searches for him, wears his scarf without really understanding why (probably the only memoir he had of the man's existence). A symbol of strength and knowledge and intimidation and comfort and encouragement and whatever else he associated Hiyori with.

Also I think about this line all of the time. Shin WHAT did you get up to while trying to find Hiyori??

THEN he unexpectedly sees Hiyori on the laptop in the death game and he was probably feeling. So many things at once?? Like. This person you trusted and believed in but was kind of scary and suspicious who you haven't seen in years suddenly has a tie to this nightmare of a situation you've been dropped into. But he's described as a participant who died. And then it implies that he. Came back to life?? What are you supposed to do with that information but panic about those implications?? That this organization supposedly has power over life and death and your former friend was possibly a test subject for this?? That information is terrifying and absolutely no one would react to that Normally

And THEN. Shin sees him in person, a doll placed in a coffin, which is already. So messed up. Shin hasn't seen Hiyori in forever and now he's faced with what's essentially an unmoving corpse of a once lively friend. But THEN Hiyori GETS UP after playing a stupid prank and starts chatting cheerily with everyone just the way Shin remembers, like nothing is out of place at all, and he's a Floor Master treating their trauma as something fun/entertaining. So the bitterness and betrayal truly sets in.

This person you trusted and cared about and admired and feared and missed so much was preparing you for this from the beginning. And Shin has SO LITTLE time to process through this. Chapter 3 Shin is going through it So Bad he JUST watched Kanna die brutally after finally accepting and being prepared to die himself and then he's forced to live on and All Of This happens. Shin!!

Also I think about this exchange Constantly. Hiyori what's up with the hesitation here

Shin thinks, Hiyori only got close to him to hurt him. He was always going to hurt him and he never truly cared about him at all and it was all a lie (because it's easier to think that way. It's easier to think he's just a careless monster who used you for data and research. Ignore that he keeps a copy of your AI for himself and a keycard full of your smiling photos and a book full of memories containing poetry dedicated to you. Hiyori never cared, he couldn't have, because then why would he have put you through all of this?)

It's really no accident that their names compliment one another so well (sun/moon, truth/lies). In Shin's eyes, Hiyori really is the sun. His life orbited around Hiyori's, and Shin wanted to reflect that impressive talent himself (just like the moon reflects the sun's brilliance). Then, in Shin's eyes, Hiyori was a liar the entire time, and what Shin clings to and tries to convince the others of in the death game is the truth (it has to be the truth. It has to be, or you have to face the reality that the actions you took were not justifiable after all). Forget that Hiyori's actually the one who is quite truthful while Shin lies so skillfully.

The Sou Hiyori personality that Shin adopts isn't exactly the Sou Hiyori his old friend was. It's his idolization and bitterness and warped perception of the man from so much time spent apart mixed with his own jaded views of strength and weakness and the way the world operates. He turned Hiyori into a concept rather than a multifaceted person, into the embodiment of strength and intelligence and terror. Much like he does for Sara!!

I just feel like Shin's character is way more interesting considering all of this instead of treating him like he Only Suffered under Hiyori and saying that Hiyori controlled everything he did and that Hiyori was the source of all his problems. Shin is so much more complicated than that, and denying that denies his agency and intrigue as a character

[runawaymun]

my happy marriage said the secksiest a man can be is when he's (literally) storming in to burn down the house & save his girlfriend from her abusers and they were so right for that

[kayvsworld]

his new wings look so good. his new suit looks SO good. i'm so mad oh my god

[carouselunique]

Is it true that there's no animosity between you and... you know, you know who. You never talk about her in any way. I guess I'm curious. You guys seemed like really close friends and then just weren't friends at all. And there was some stuff she said that seemed very targeted at you...

I don't know if she feels any animosity toward me or not any more. Our mutual friends have said she doesn't and I take them on their word in that regard, assuming that if they have an answer for me it's because they're aware how she feels. I wouldn't know and it's not my place to put words in her mouth.

I haven't spoken to her/about her in a long time and the only time she even crosses my mind is when people bring her up to me. As for me feeling any animosity? I'll admit my feelings on her these days are complicated and way too nuance-core for people who aren't my friends to hear about but I wouldn't call them animosity in any way. I inherently want people my friends care about to live well because I care about my friends, and anyone my friends care about by proxy and I still share friends with her. I would never wish ill on people my friends care about so animosity doesn't fit into that by definition. I'd say I'm hurt more than anything and even then I've worked through a lot of it with trusted friends who have helped me deal with my emotions in a healthy way.

(Besides, my own life struggles keep me from even being able to invest time into animosity. I have to expend that energy loving my family, doing my best to support them during our struggles. And I've never been a hateful person it isn't in me. I would rather play 'Hot To Go' by Chappell Roan and teach my dad how to do the hand gestures to help him strengthen his muscles again than focus on hating anyone...)

I try not to think about her because it hurts. I often think that people forget that I'm a real person outside of her sphere, and that I wouldn't want to talk about what happened because I truly did consider her a friend for a long time. And when someone I consider a friend appears to not regard me with care any more suddenly and I don't even have closure on that... well... it hurts... A lot. Of course I never talk about it.

And I'm not stupid, I have seen some stuff she's said that I've gathered was about me. I remind myself that she has a right to vent in her own spaces and I truly mean that... it's just a shame that her own spaces have people who then have taken these things to me to show me (after all, I wouldn't have even seen these things myself if not for third-party anons going 'this u?') saying it is my own fault because I was a terribly cruel friend or my own fault for not listening to warnings about her when I had the chance and that makes me a stupid gullible bitch. You lot haven't seen some of the awful shit about me from some of her more ravenous fans and haters I've seen over the years that I've had to let roll off my back in the fear it would bring backlash - not even to me, to her. I don't want to be the cause of any hatred going to anyone.

Also I'm just not going to ever talk about the details of our fallen friendship or our fallen relationship. That's private. She might be a public person to some extent but I never was, even if I do gain some measure of small fandom for my work one day I'm just private about personal matters especially raw ones. I almost deleted this ask entirely but Idk I never stated that it bothers me when people talk to me about her from my own mouth, so I guess that's what this ramble is.

If you send me anything about Lily Orchard it will not be addressed. I am not a part of her life not even through our mutual friends. I do not know or care what's going on with her public/personal life. I haven't kept up. I will never keep up. Don't treat me as an extension of the situation because I am not in the situation. In the most plainly stated sense of the word: Leave me the Hell alone. (...pretty please.)

All I've wanted this entire time was to be left alone to process everything in a healthy, peaceful way. I'm workin' on it.

[akuma-tenshi]

i made this last night but my computer was having issues so bad that i had to turn it off immediately after or risk permanently damaging it. so here it is after i wake up instead. i sadly wasn't here for this event since i was taking a break from the game during it, and i'm kinda sad about that because it honestly seems really interesting. it probably has one of my favourite aesthetics of any anniv event tbh

song is freaks of nature by stardustlegend and arcarine w/ lucy