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Hi! Just sending in this ask before I forget my idea, dont answer this until your asks are open again I just want to write this down before I forget!! Boten x single father! male reader, reader works at a restaurant and Boten comes in one night and Mikey takes a liking to him, his daughter sits in the staff room and draws/plays because she’s too young to be home alone- 🦇 anon
Title: cute waiter
Fandom: Tokyo revengers
Characters: bonten
Fic type: fluff
Pairings: Mikey x reader
Warnings: male reader, reader insert, single dad reader, fluff, nameless daughter, Mikey has that weird ass rizz as the kids say
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Summary: bonten goes to a small restaurant while in town for business and Mikey falls for the cute waiter.
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(Name) Could never thank his boss enough for letting (daughters name) stay in the office, the elderly woman finding the toddlers company pleasant while she worked on scheduling and order's.
"(Name), could you cover booth three? I have to talk to (boss name) about the schedule" (name) looked to his co-worker who managed the hardest puppy eyes he could "fine, but you owe me"
"Thank you!"
(Name) Never knew what to expect at the small restaurant, typically it was the locals in the small town but sometimes some rich people came in and even foreigners which was a gamble on how the experience would go.
Usually they were nice though.
"Hello! Could I get you gentlemen started with water or perhaps the chef's choice of wine?" (Name) Said happily to the group who sized him up, the man in the middle just staring him down with cold blackened eyes but (name) just continued smiling and even making eye contact with them.
Blissfully unaware of who they were or what their tattoos meant.
"We will start with the finest wine you have" the white haired man with snake like eyes said simply, his rings shining under the warm lights "of course! I will be back momentarily with your wine, gentlemen" and with that (name) turned and left, bonten not missing Mikey's curious look and the lock on to the waiters ass. They all exchanged glances while their boss just ate his snacks, flipping to the dessert menu to see they had the good stuff.
(Name) Returned moments later and filled their glasses, Mikey freezing when the waiter got close to him and the white haired man could smell the others cologne faintly and nearly shoved his face into the poor man's neck if it wasn't for his self control "so tell us about yourself, Mr waiter ~" ran was going to do his boss a favor, knowing Mikey had the romantic abilities of a snail. "Ah, what would you like to know?" (Name) Was so easy going, care free "you in school?" "You single?" "You know how to bake?"
(Name) Was a bit startled by the questions but didn't see the harm "I'm not, I graduated last year, I am single and I do know how to bake, yes" (name) laughed a bit at the questions "now, what can I get you gentlemen?" Changing the topic to get to business and not have these attractive men ask every detail of his life.
Of course they ordered the nicest things on the menu, it was going to be a pricy bill no doubt but (name) wasted no time getting their order before his coworker took over his table for his break and hang out with his tot. (Name) Brought in dinner for the two, free food from the restaurant and (daughters name) got cute rice balls shaped like hearts and for dessert she got taiyaki shaped like stars and filled with custard.
"Wow you drew this?" (Name) Cheered on his kid who beamed, the owner who became their grandmother of sorts always splurged on the good coloring supplies for the little girl and finding some cute toys for the office so she's never bored.
"Why don't we show the team, yeah?" (Name) Asked the little one who bounced a little, clearly happy at the idea "let's go!" Holding his little girls hand, the restaurant was nearly dead save for the group of eight who were furious that (name) was changed out for another person but Mikeys anger quickly melted when he saw the tiny version of (name) waddle towards the elderly owner who was rolling cutlery.
"My!" She cooed and lifted the little girl up "you're so talented!"
Mikey and (name) locked eyes, the waiter offering a sweet smile and Mikey's face dusted red, (name) didn't miss the stares and the blushes on the pale man, knowing damn well the awkward blond thought he was attractive "you enjoy your meal?" (Name) Asked him casually, the blond composing himself "yeah..." His words simply and short, never the one for small talk "that your kid?"
"Ah, yeah... She's too young to be alone and my boss practically helped raise me as a teen so she just hangs here"
Mikey nodded and looked over (name) who caught his stare "would you like to go out sometime?" (Name) Thought the blond was cute, even if he barely spoke and just stared ominously.
Mikey froze, usually it was him doing that "you don't know who we are, do you?"
"...models...?" (Name) Said confused, unsure of his answer and Mikey just stared back at the man "what? Used to people not recognizing you?"
"Something like that"
"Well I hope to get to know you better, I have to get my rugrat in for her nap but I'll be back soon yeah"
Mikey never felt so complacent, nodding and even letting (name) kiss his cheek gently before going to get his daughter.
#tokyo revengers x reader#tokyo revengers x male reader#tokyo revengers fluff#male reader#bonten x reader#x male reader#anime x male reader#anime x reader#mikey x male reader#mikey x reader
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Left On Read - Yuta x Reader SMAU
chap 4: roblox masterlist
before watching Smile, yuta thought it would be appropriate to order you your favorite food for dinner. how did he know this much about you? you weren’t sure, but you appreciated it nonetheless.
while yuta left to shower, waiting for the food to arrive, he lent you his laptop to play whatever silly games he had. you were more of a fan of competitive games, like overwatch, fortnite, and dead by daylight, while yuta only had stardew valley, minecraft, roblox, and terraria downloaded… you decided to logon roblox.
while you were absolutely cooking up in dandy’s world, floor 20 and all, you received a message in your roblox chats..
oh. it was yuji. you could tell by his horrific 2016 username he’s never bothered to change.
minecraftgodxX69: yn ): we fucked up pls unblock us
you sighed, running a hand through your hair. you didn’t want to forgive them, not after seeing those messages. they were your best friends, yet the only one who even bothered to defend you was yuta, a man you barely knew.
part of you wanted to block him again, show him you weren’t going to back down. however, another part of you wanted some closure at the very least. to understand why they did what they did. and to insult yuji so bad he’ll never think to speak to you ever again.
so, in an act of saving your pride and not messaging yuji as “kittypower05”, your roblox username you also neglected to change, you unblocked him on imessage and sent him a quick text.
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i know a lot of u DONT want to forgive them and dw im not rushing you won’t forgive them yet!! ur gonna chew yuji out next chapter… 😈 gonna have an evil arc and everything trust
sorry if this is very unserious i wanted to display how yuji and nobara rlly aren’t taking this seriously, and megumi is the only one who’s starting to realize the consequences of their actions. he’ll have a 1 on 1 moment too, soon!
thank u all so much for the support and silly comments i love reading them!! here’s the tag list love u all
@shokosbunny @kalulakunundrum @tenthmilo @maddietries @genxnarumi @reiluvr @love-me-satoru @crystal-freak24 @gigiiiiislife @juujujs @heartz4nanami there were some of u i couldn’t tag idk why ): i’m sorry
#jjk smau#jjk texts#jjk text fic#jjk x reader#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#yuta x y/n#yuta x you#yuta x reader#yuta okkotsu#yuuta okkotsu x reader#okkotsu yuta x you#yuuta okkotsu x y/n#yuji x you#yuji itadori#yuji x y/n#yuji x reader#megumi x y/n#megumi x you#megumi x reader#megumi fushiguro#nobara kugisaki#maki zenin#inumaki toge#toge x reader#toge x you#toge x y/n
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𝐒𝐞𝐥𝐟𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐬 | 𝐚𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐚 𝐨𝐭𝟒
Synopsis: aespas strap game
Pairing: aespa ot4 x fem! reader
Genre: smut no plot lol
Themes: biting, hair pulling, rough sex,
T/W: none <3
WC: 500
a/n: yall.... i have been dead...but heres a veryyyyy short and self-indulgent aespa + strap headcannons drabble for you lol!! no-one asked for this but i feel like everyone kinda needed it lmao. and obviously these are just my opinions don't take this too serious teehee <333
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Karina (receiving): rina is a missionary girl through and through lovessss taking strap in missionary and ofccccc you love giving it!! The sight of her tits bouncing in your face mfhmghmm 🥴what a sight to behold… and i know she makes the lewdest sounds while you thrust deeplyyyy in her perfect pussy. She aint afraid to be loud and let you know how well you fuck her mhm 🙂↕️
I know she begs for a good pounding. Locking her legs around your waist while you’re inches deep in her… bruh i need to get her pregnant 😵💫
Giselle (giving): she FUCKS from underneath. Just because you’re on top of her doesn’t mean you're in control nuh uh. Your full body weight will be on her while she pounds you underneath jack hammer style :( she can be so rough with it too, ripping orgasm after orgasm from you and not letting you rest 🥴but don't worry she’ll suck your tits while they bounce in her face, giving them soft kisses in the process.
Dont even get me started on the eye contactttttt hmghmmmh 🥴i know my girl forces you to look at her while she fucks, grabbing your face so you look her in the eyes. She won’t let you off until you're a shaking, helpless mess :( she can be such a bitch but she can’t help it, she just loves to ruin you 🙂↕️
Winter (giving): doggy style… LISTEN! Minjeong likes fucking from behind I said it! I just know she’s rough with it too. Leaving hand marks all over your ass after she slaps it. Digging her nails into your hips as she pounds you relentlessly :( this tiny woman’s got a lot of pent up feelings alright, it's not her fault she needs to take it out on you.
and if I was to say she bends you over any chance she gets?? Then what !!! my girl is soooo needy when she wants to be. The concept of time and place doesn’t occur to her when she’s in the mood. She’d literally fuck you over the couch, on the kitchen counter, in the bathroom, she don’t careeee. She takes her time with you too, drawing it out, making you whine in desperation :( she can be such a bitch if she wants to be. She's rough with it too, biting your shoulder and pulling your hair while your face is buried in the pillow 😵💫I said nut in me duhhh 🙄
Ningning (receiving): your honour she RIDES. It actually makes me dizzy thinking about it 😵💫 i know she takes it so well :(( and i know she’s such a slut for praise too.. A word of praise can have her cumming in seconds 🥴I know my girl likes fucking in front of the mirror too, just so she can see how fucking hot she looks while she takes the strap.
Also LOVES her tits being teased :( she has such sensitive nipples and needs them played with neowwww!!! Did someone say whimperer??? Cuz yeah i know thats right 🙂↕️shes got such a filthy mouth and needs to bite her lip to muffle herself.
#aespa#kpop gg#kpop fanfic#aespa smut#kpop smut#wlw fics#wlw smut#aespa x fem reader#aespa x reader#ningning x reader#ningning smut#aespa karina#aespa ningning#aespa winter#aespa giselle#giselle smut#karina smut#winter smut#winter x reader#karina x reader#giselle x reader
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hi if you support trump get the fuck off my page btw!! 🫶
i dont want anyone bringing up any "we should be able to get along regardless of politics" bullshit. trump wants me and my friends stripped of our rights, exploited, and dead. full stop. so if you voted for him i don't want anything to do with you.
also, please stay safe tonight. even if youre in a really blue area like i am here in nyc, and especially if you live somewhere with a lot of red. riots aren't exactly unheard of. get home and stay home.
#this applies to non-americans too btw#dont think i dont care just cause you can't vote for him#gtfo with that shit#2024#presidential election#2024 presidential election#trump#kamala harris#kamala 2024#yes she is far from ideal but shes way better than HIM#america#politics#buzzing
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high pitched whimper
#SORRY FOR THE DRAMA IM BEING STUPISD I KNOW 😭😭😭😭#me when i'm validated by 99% of ppl but the 1% ruins my vibe: everyone hates me and they want me dead#I KNOWW i should ignore the weird ppl and focus on doing what i like bc this is my blog but hahahHAJ#its crazy ive been holding myself back from drawing or yumeing some characters since 2021#seeing so much hostility and toxity around a certain character does irreversible damage to ur psyche#also has seen ppl here literally be guilt tripped and criticized for switching oshis.....whathe fuck#''why don't you just make another oc'' no. non-negotiable#i'm still genuinely uncomfortable with the cheating implications so . please dont.#people can like multiple characters ...... but thats too much for yume community to process ig
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home : 1.09 pt1 — jess’s sister.
You’re not stupid. At least you hope not. You pray you’re not. You knock on their motel door a little less sure of the fact, maybe it’ll increase in confidence when you see them.
It doesn’t. The second your eyes lock with Sam’s half-asleep ones you’re positive your breath hitches just enough that your heart stops beating momentarily. His messy hair, his exhausted expression, the dark bags under his eyes even him still wearing jeans and a shirt.
“Hey, you came.” You nod and lean into the hug he pulls you in for. His cologne is palpable, the same one he used to wear in Stanford and it’s comforting for you to know he hasnt thrown the bottle away.
“I came.” You whisper, letting go and stepping inside when he moves to let you in. Dean’s on a bed, looks like he’s sleeping peacefully. You wish you could too but everytime you close your eyes your sister is on the ceiling. Sometimes she’s calling out for you to help. Other times she’s telling you that you’re the reason she’s gone. Your carelessness. You didn’t lock the doors. The windows, you were fast, you didn’t hear anything, you—
“You okay?” Sam pulls you away from the dark thoughts and you nod. “Okay well, Dean’s asleep and I don’t think we’ll talk much right now, you can catch a few hours.” you nod at the offer, thanking him quietly. You're still in jeans yourself but you don't mind since you're not sure you’ll be sleeping.
“I’ll take the couch.” he stares at you like you just said bruised his ego then shakes his head. “Sam, im serious, i dont sleep—”
“Vampire?” he jokes half heartedly and you smile.
“I just mean i usually take power naps. Please, sam, just take the bed.” he ends up pulling you on it next to him and you’re not sure why for the first time in months you fall asleep with no nightmares.
Sam doesnt. Sam wakes up suddenly, forcing you out of your sleep, to a nightmare. You’re shuddering thinking of the fact that you felt that safe in your dead sister’s boyfriend’s arms.
You pretend you’re asleep until sam’s breath gets softer and peel yourself off the bed and to the couch. Theres not much to do at four in the morning so you read, you snoop around for a bit, wonder how much sam would hate you if you opened his bag, and eventually take another nap on the couch.
Still no nightmare, you wake up to the sound of Dean’s boots tapping against on the floor. You quickly sit up a little, taking in your surroundings.
“‘Morning, sweetheart.” your lips apart, sure you're going to respond like a normal human with ‘good morning’ but it doesn’t come, you just nod. “Want coffee?” only then do you notice the two paper cups in his hand.
“Sure, thanks, Dean.”
“Didn’t know what you liked so i got it cream and sugar.”
“It’s good, that’s how i usually take it.” totally not true, you actually take it with milk but you’re not sure you’re staying long enough for him to have to know that. He smiles at you, taking a seat next to you on the couch. “I’m sorry for showing up so suddenly, Dean.” you mumble before trying the coffee. It’s not bad, not your usual taste but definitely still enjoyable.
“‘S no problem, you’re always welcome with us, i gave you my number so you could call me at anytime.” you can’t be held responsible for any of the fluttery feelings in your stomach after that.
“I guess… i felt like i was slipping, you know? My parents— me and jess never talked to them and they didn’t even call me when she died, i literally had no one, as pathetic as it sounds. Our dad’s side hates us, my mum’s side is on the opposite side of the world and they’ve been calling me but it’s not the same. Its not fair to do this to you two but i dont now what else to do, i just wish someone would tell me.” you're not certain when the first tear started flowing but your thankful its the only one.
“Hey, we’re here for you. Always.” Somehow, you don’t believe it.
#Image credit: nmlupin#spn sam winchester#spn dean winchester#dean winchester#jessica moore#supernatural imagine#supernatural#jess moore#Sam winchester#spn 1x09#spn rewatch#spn 1.09#dean winchester x reader#spn20rewatch#Sam Winchester x reader
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“cant remember how to say your name, let alone count all the freckles on your face..”
skz Angst Felix x reader
yes based off beabadoobees song
idk id theres any cw maybe swearing?, mentions of betrayal and cheating? enjoy please dont repost<3
“I guess.”
Your eyes widened as his words hit you like a freight train. An ache built inside, spreading through your chest. "The hell you mean you guess you cheated on me!?" you spat out, your voice cracking under the weight of disbelief and hurt. You searched his eyes for any sign of remorse, but there was none—just a hollow emptiness that made your stomach churn. His gaze roamed over your face, almost as if he were studying your pain. "Y/n..." he murmured, his right hand grazing your face. The touch that once brought you comfort now felt like a dagger, twisting deeper into the wound his betrayal had carved into your heart. The world seemed to crumble around you, leaving you drowning in a sea of sorrow and shattered trust. Your words cut through the air like a knife, filled with a mix of anger, pain, and betrayal. "Fuck off," you whispered, your voice trembling with raw emotion. As you slapped his hands away, tears streamed down your face, leaving a trail of heartbreak in their wake. Your nose grew snotty, your throat tight with unshed tears, as you tried to make sense of the shattered pieces of your once perfect world.
"You were everything I ever wanted, Felix," you choked out, the weight of your words heavy in the air. The ache in your chest mirrored the ache in your voice, strained with emotion. Sniffles and hiccups punctuated your words, a symphony of sorrow and shattered dreams. In that moment, it felt like the world had crumbled around you, leaving you standing in the wreckage of a love that once felt infinite.
You thought about it, really thought about it. Someone you loved so deeply had done you so wrong. There were no regrets, it seemed, as you looked at his face buried in his hands, gripping onto his blonde hair. The stress he felt now was ironic. Why didn't you think of me first? The memories of your shared moments flashed before your eyes—every laugh, every whispered secret, every promise made in the dead of night. Now, they felt tainted, poisoned by his betrayal. The love that once filled your heart now felt like a heavy burden, dragging you down into an abyss of despair. His touch, once a source of warmth and safety, now felt like a cruel reminder of everything you had lost. The future you had envisioned together shattered into a million pieces, leaving you to pick up the fragments of your broken heart alone She found herself standing “You done me fucking wrong, you hurt me, you.. you done this to me.” You found yourself sinking to the floor bawling like you had been stabbed almost. Felix stared. he knew he fucked up. he knew it, the regret was evident.
“ Y/n-ah…”
The brown in his eyes almost like the mud in the summer when it dries, becoming golden in the fading light, reflecting the warmth that once drew you in. But now, that warmth felt like a distant memory, overshadowed by the pain that hung heavy in the air. The pink in his ears, a stark contrast to the turmoil inside, was a testament to his sorrow, a visual reminder of the tears that had fallen, of the weight of his regret.
He knew he ruined you, knew that every moment spent together now felt tainted by his betrayal. The realization settled over him like a dark cloud, suffocating and relentless. His glazed eyes, filled with a mix of remorse and disbelief, stared at you as if trying to comprehend the enormity of what he had done. You could see the flicker of guilt, the recognition that he had taken something beautiful and crushed it beneath the weight of his actions. He ruined everything. The dreams you had woven together, the laughter that once echoed in your shared moments, now felt like echoes of a life that could have been. You stood there, heartbroken, feeling as if the foundation of your very being had been ripped away. All those plans, those whispered promises in the dark, were now nothing more than shattered pieces scattered at your feet. It was as if time had stopped, leaving you both suspended in this moment of raw, unfiltered emotion, the reality of his choices crashing down around you like a tidal wave.
please leave some comments and requests it would make my day<3
#straykids#stray kids x reader#skz x reader#greif#angst#skz angst#felix x reader#beabadoobee#Spotify
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npd traits culture is if someone i talk to or at least see around a lot doesnt hate me and want to hurt me then who am i really. i Deserve someone to fight and get mad at and hate with all my being i think. i mean like being hated is a whole other level of people thinking about you! AND itll draw attention! i just want the people i hate to hate me back and be dicks to me so i can make fun of them for being stupid and petty and so other people like me more
(brought to you by two situations: "A Bitch Ass Motherfucker I Talk To Sometimes Is Getting Harassed And Therefore More Attention Than Me And Im Pissed As Fuck" and "I Thought These Two People Wanted Me Dead For A Whole Year But It Turns Out They Dont Care Actually And I Am Fucking Crushed")
and i know youre not really supposed to send fake hate anons to yourself but. THE TEMPTATION </////////3
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#npd culture is#npd traits culture is#actually narcissistic#actually npd#narcissistic personality disorder#npd#cluster b#npd traits#narcissistic traits
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In another (happier) world, I think Muhen would've been Akechi's Sojiro. Akechi would've lived above Jazz Jin just like how Joker lived above Leblanc. Muhen would've taught him how to make the drinks and close up at night. They would've bonded over music. And Akechi would finally have an adult looking after him. Because Muhen does care about him in-canon. He's the only character in the epilogue that mentions Akechi, he notices who Akechi spends time with, and he wishes to see him again.
It's so sad that Akechi assumes nobody cares about him or wants him around and yet this random jazz club owner does. Do you ever think about Muhen seeing Akechi at the Jazz Jin sometime in December, not knowing it would be the last time he ever would
#i die inside whenever i think about how akechi will never know that Muhen cares about him. even if its really small it's still there#it means so much that joker isnt the only one that remembers akechi and still wants him around#and the fact that joker does NOT reveal to Muhen that Akechi is 'dead' is so important to me#it means the only two people that care about him in the epilogue both hope that he will return one day#“you are loved more than you will ever know” etc etc.#yeah dont mind me im just hyperfixating on a minor character with 1.5 seconds of screentime again#persona 5#persona 5 royal#my post#goro akechi#p5#p5r#p5r akechi#shuake#akira kurusu#p5r muhen
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gg buddy am I right (ethubs doodle that I don't know what to do with)
#ethubs#Ive wanted to draw ethubs angst for so many days but art block is still hitting hard and this thing has been sitting around for awhile#hey ethubers how did you. survive#last life ethubs upsets me so much make it end#The way after Bdubs dies Etho is trying to justify to himself not having given him a life to begin with rather than#telling him to prove himself#its like he expects the others who are with him to comment on it but they dont. Etho's all "I couldn't have just given it to him you know..#without them asking about it or anything. And Etho just keeps going. god damn it Etho I feel so bad for them#dont even get me started on what Bdubs said to G about Etho grrrr GRRRR I saw that for the first time not long ago GRRRRRR#I still wanna draw proper ethubs though. someday#also the damage to Bdubs' face is supposed to be from the rocket Lizzie shot#does it make sense? No probably not but its an excuse to make him look more dead#tubby art
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i dont wanna doom people with the taint without them knowing, but the game doesn't let me warn them ú_ù except with velanna. she deserves to make an informed decision
#i know its supposed to be a secret but fuck that let me tell the people#also i was so close to not recruit oghren cause im like#man you are a father u dont need this shit you dont even dream and now you are gonna start having nightmares and die earlier than you shoul#but that means Not Hanging Out With Oghren so. i had to doom him#choices were made#same with anders its like i know this is gonna fuck u up but also i know i cant stop da2 from happening dgijgdfioj#i also feel bad about recruiting nathaniel he could had a decent life...#velanna at least knows and wants it#sigrun is in the legion of the dead anyway and justice is already a warden technically so no problem with them#dragon age#dragon age awakening#daa#dao#brosca#the warden#priscilla brosca#anders#anders dragon age#oghren#oghren kondrat#velanna
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mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.
now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.
He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.
(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)
The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.
The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.
And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.
(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)
The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.
anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)
#mxtx svsss#svsss au#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#disciple shen yuan#scum villain#svsss#*points at SQQ/SY* i want him to go nuts. as a treat. let him crumble just a little over the stress of his fate and the stress of survival#and the stress of having a lack of autonomy over a handful of his decisions. starry craves angst and she craves a very specific SQQ angst#he was a number 1 hater back in the day and lbr being a hater takes energyyyy. ive heard that this man was the BIGGEST hater i wanna#see him rip a man to shreds with nothing but his tongue and a voice that could cut marble clean in half. skin a man alive sqq you deserve i#*mortal kombat voice* FINISH HIM#i love without-a-cure but unfortunately i dont think SQQ would be able to have WAC and also survive in the abyss.#the succubi nest that adopted him tried seducing him at first. it didn't work. but he did somehow charm them with his cringefail ways#so now they have a brand new mortal big/little brother to dote on. SQQ is frankly delighted to learn all about succubi culture that doesnt#revolve around sex. he makes quite a few friends/allies in the abyss because of his pure fascination and unbiased desire to learn about#demonic culture and all the different niches and nuances of it across species. he's still going insane tho. like that's not stopping.#there's a single LBH pov chapter in the fic and its frankly so unhinged it was fantastic. he's so possessive. he straight up goes:#'oh SQQ isnt gonna be the next peak lord. he's ascending to heaven with me when i do :)' when Sha Hualing (also peak lord) told him that he#couldn't keep his disciple in the bamboo house all the time. what was SQQ gonna do when LBH ascends and he becomes the new peak lord?#gosh that first chapter is rotating around in my mind so bad. LBH was SO unwell. like losing his actual shit over SQQ near the edge.#i so want to write a oneshot abt this where SQQ is also in hysterics (albeit over slightly diff reasons) and tells LBH on his knees:#'this disciple deeply apologizes to his shizun. for he will not be ascending to the heavens with him.' right before he falls into the abyss#this au being disciple SY is for shits and giggles but i can also see it happening for regular SQQ bc 'fuck it im a dead man either way'#frothing at the mouth at this idea also being a SY-is-SJ au too. for the extra angst of SQQ trying to bear the weight of multiple lives on#his shoulders and trying to figure out what is real and what isn't and if he's meant to suffer in all of his lives no matter what he does.#not once in his life has he ever been free to do what he likes has he? self-hatred to the max. he's going mad. poor boy :]
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incest and pedophilia isn't sexy
#bungo stray dogs#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd x reader#bsd fanfic#bsd headcanons#fanfiction#fanfic#x reader#anti incest#from someone who's so terrified of something like that happening to me#its caused me several panic attacks#from intrusive thoughts and certain remarks made towards me#i cant fathom how people can request and write about it#and how people defend others for writing about it and requesting it#fantasizing about it is insane#just simply sparing it a thought makes me want to cry#I'm gonna block the tags and peopl but still#idk#i just feel very strongly about it#whether you act on it or not#not targeted#same as people say#if you dont like their content block them#if you dont like my opinion on this block me too#dead dove do not eat#sensitive content#| ray's yapping ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
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just how can i protect your smile?
#you guys like yaoi? can i get you some yaoi#pjsk#prsk#project sekai#proseka#tsukasa tenma#rui kamishiro#ruikasa#AUUUUUGH.#this is what finally makes me actually draw riks. vocaloid autism#putting the link in the caption because NOBODY FUCKIGN TLAKS ABOUT SCISSORHANDS EVER WHERES THE HYPE I NEED HER. SONG OF THE DECADE(2009)#this song makes me incredibly normal. my bad. i saw the miume choreography when i was like 11 and my brain shifted#i wanted their outfits to look like mikus in the mv so bad. Fuck my life for that btw stupid fuckign frill trim. why did she have to slay#tried to think of smth other than butterflies for kasa but i have no brain and tbh i hope his life is miserable so its fine#me posting this only to tmblr and not twt because i fucking hate twt#im drawing more song covers that live in my mind palace so i'll pist them there all together. and maybe here all together. who give a shit.#emnn skeleton orchestra next and it will fix me#Good lord. sorry. Im so caught up posting this for no reason. Get me out of here#im supposed to have a lecture in 3 hours but post covid symptoms say otherwise. im so fucked#i have a cyberpunk dead boy wip with them but idk i dont like posting wips on here its like an archive. n i want to actually finish it#but dear lord rendering it with their stupid outfits. clutches my chest falls to the floor. AUUUUGH#wxs killing me killing me taking damage augh auugh aughg
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no one told me that the simone-karl plot from why women kill would rip my heart out and stomp it into little itty bitty pieces
#why women kill#im so late to this#but they mean so much to me#people talk about the beth ann plot being the best but like...#"please youre my best friend”... “its not enough”#turning into#“i want only you here”... “you're the love of my life”#but still in a plaTONIC WAY#where simone accepts the reality of their love and puts aside her pride and chooses to show up for karl#because hes her favorite person in the whole wide world even if they dont love each other romantically#and she cant imagine life without him#and then ends up...#and her devoting her life to...#bahhhhh im dead#literally deceased#~~like karl~~
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thinking about Eddie & hyacinths again
#as you can surmise im Perfectly Normal about it#this man doesnt make me insane at all. nope.#trying out some new coloring and texture and background things...#on a side note. and i say this so lovingly bc theyre my favorite flowers#FUCK DRAWING HYACINTHS ALL MY HOMIES HATE DRAWING HYACINTHS#that was hell on earth.#ANYWAY THIS DUDE IS NEAT I HOPE HE DIES#nah im jesting im Jesting. am i tho#dead or alive i want him to experience unimaginable horrors and then die ten times and come back Normal#bc eddie strikes me as a 'dying would fix them' character#whether its a real death or a perceived death or Youve Been Dead The Whole Time death dont care dont care#i need him dead on the ground for at leeeaaaast five minutes#id be frothing at the fucking mouth. ragh#scribble garnish#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#eddie dear#originally this was gonna be a Very bloody little piece#but then my brain went 'hey. symbolism. what if the blood was flower petals. from hyacinths'#and ohhhh i couldnt pass that up#i wish i did! i would have had a lot more fun drawing a gruesome injury rather than Those Damn Flowers!#i dont know why ive latched onto the hyacinths outside the post office but my brain wont let go#ITS JUST SO SPECIFIC. why why whyyyyyy put that specific flower by this specific guy#especially flowers with Those Meanings and That Myth#*violently shaking the site* WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNN#ok im getting myself too worked up i need to touch grass or poke the fire
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