#🪷 Introject ask game ❓

[side-effect-alien]

for the ask game, 20 and 8?

20: Is there something about the fandom of your source you like

Fankids! As I'm a """fankid""" (not really as I'm not an OC, I'm a real person, but you get what I mean) it's always interesting to see others out there! It makes me feel like I have cousins! :) I also enjoy pretty much any happy fanart of my family together

8: Aside from your own source, what things do you enjoy?

I've... never actually thought about that. I've been so hyperfixated on my source family and discovering myself I haven't really payed much attention to anything else;;; Hmmm... I guess researching system stuff and drawing art? (I actually have a comic I made today in my drafts rn I'm waiting to post) I also enjoy interacting with my irl friends!! I said this in my last ask but I call them my moms as a semi-joke as they're the ones who gave me my first names and were there during the split! They're kinda like... my godmothers? The body is technically the eldest by a few months, but internally I'm the youngest of the group by like 6 YEARS. So it's fun to have older family members to play with!

[side-effect-alien]

For the introject ask game: 2, 3, 6, 10, 13

2: Are you comfortable talking about your source?

Yeah! My source is probably the body's favorite show so I love talking about it!! :)

3: What's your favorite thing about your source?

Probably just how good the storyline was and all the characters! Ik I'm biased but collectively Leo is our favorite in the show. We also just love how many iterations there are and how unique each of them are! We're really excited to watch Rise next (and also slightly scared to)

6: Is there someone specific you're looking for or would like to interact with?

Honestly, just my dad or any of my uncles would be great! My system has no internal communication so I can't talk to anyone within my own system :( I've also never met my grandfather, so that would be cool too!! (Btw this includes other iterations, not just 2012 TMNT!! Leo and I both love interacting with sourcemates)

10: What do you have in common with your source?

Well that's kinda hard to answer since.. I don't exist in my source at all! So unfortunately I don't really have anything to compare myself to! Closest thing I could compare myself to is Leo as I split off of our system's fictive of him. In which that case the most common thing I have with (canon) Leo is probably our system's knife collection

13: Favorite memories?

This is gonna be a long one, so I'm putting it under the read more!

Well, while I don't have source memories, my favorite memories from fronting in the system is probably from the night I was created. I was confused and didn't know who I was. I was worried I was faking it and was feeling lots of self-doubt. Luckily, my dad's (Leo's) friends were staying the night at the same time I split so they were there to help assist me. They saw it happen and were giving us our space and comforting us through it

It was a very disorienting time. Dad had been disassociating a bit throughout the day due to high stress and anger (worse than any of us had ever seen in the past) and I guess eventually it just became too much for our system. Our friends noticed something was off and we weren't really able to speak much due to what was happening. We just gave a short response like ".....I think I'm disassociating..." and curled up in on ourselves. After awhile it finally ended and I was able to tell something felt... off... My- well- being felt different than dad's

As I was pretty much just born, I didn't know anything about myself at the time. My gender, name, what I looked like or even what species I was. To help ground me and give me a sense of identity our friends gave me a temporary name to go by and helped calm my anxieties. (Now I call them my moms as a half-joke!) They even confirmed that they could tell something about me seemed much different about how I acted and my personality than Leo, who was just previously fronting

Once I calmed down and the disassociation started to fade a bit, I started off with trying to just draw myself. Not even thinking about it, just letting my pen flow on it's own and see where it takes me. That resulted in this drawing right here!

This partially led to my theory that I was split off of Leo. I still felt like I was a turtle, I still felt connected to TMNT 2012. But, I didn't feel like him, despite feeling like I shared his consciousness and memories. Something was just wrong. Sometimes this could just be a case of a headmate disassociating, but the feeling never went away. I even tried to post on his blog as him, but it just didn't feel right. Sometimes I still hijack it, but never actually pretend to be him. I always make it clear that it's me posting. I always feel a need to make a distinction

As time has gone on I've slowly begun to learn more and more about myself and the differences between us. Sometimes it gets hard to tell which of us is fronting since we feel somewhat similar, but I'm beginning to tell what makes us unique. I think this connection between me and him is what made me see him as a father figure. His anger, his stress, it's what caused us to split. And when we did, I still ended up being similar to him and taking his memories. I don't know if he'll see me as his kid or not, but I see him as my dad. I may only technically be 4 days old, but there's so much I've learned about myself already and more I'm excited to learn!