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I think I just saw Rollo fucking Flamme from Nobel Bell College outside the school wtaf - 🥀
pardon my language, but what the actual hell.
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(if u saw me post this the first time with the wrong poll length no you didn't)
#🥀📜#theres been a lot of hate towards nonsharers recently#im 100 a sharer but i dont understand the hate#why do you gaf#anyone who holds this opinion of “idk why nonsharers make such a big deal about being nonsharing” mentality please explain that to me /gen#self shipping#self ship#self shipper#selfshipper#selfship#selfshipping#f/o#f/o community#fictoromantic#romantic f/o#fictoromantism#ficto#fictional other#fictosexual#yumedanshi#yumejoshi#yumeship
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WW2 AU
PART 1
(+2scetches)
One September day, B. Wooster found out about Jeeves' disappearance from Aunt Dahlia's telegram.
Early summer of 1940. Bertram Wooster was completing his studies at an aviation school. At the same time his faithful valet, Jeeves, temporarily went to the service of the already mentioned relative at Brinkley Court and became the second jewel in the staff of servants besides the highly talented cook Anatole.
Due to the straitened financial situation of Uncle Tom, who complained more and more about the increasing taxes, the dearest aunt had to take forced measures and fire a few servants. She wanted to make a small sacrifice, and it might have been enough if one day her stingy husband had not cut the already small wages of the remaining servants. Many of them had applied for dismissal after that, and they were quite understandable.
This radical decision, although to a lesser extent, also affected Jeeves. Nevertheless, he continued to be a professional. He fulfilled his basic duties and often helped her, and her old friends get out of troubles.
Within a few months of Jeeves' work, they had become friends. Bertram almost felt like a third wheel in this idyll when he came to visit and boast of his achievements. Aunt Dahlia treasured her new valet and his unrivalled intelligence, and often jokingly promised in letters to her nephew that Jeeves would be returned safe and sound.
That was why she was seriously worried when Jeeves went missing. One clear day in early September, an elderly relative had let him go to London on his own business. In addition to this, it was Jeeves' duty to check on their good old Berkeley Mansions flat from time to time and keep it clean, so he planned to finish his business by evening and stay in the city overnight. He was supposed to return early the next morning. But that never happened. Not in two days. Not in three.
That night London was bombarded.
Something seemed to snap and collapse inside Bertie when he learnt that the search for Jeeves had been fruitless. Neither his relatives nor his club could shed any light on his mysterious disappearance.
The dark thoughts from which Bertram had fled during the day caught up with him at night. He would toss and turn on the hard bed, thinking of Jeeves's fate and replaying happy memories of their past, and in the daytime, tired and broken, he would give his duty to his country.
The whole situation seemed strange and unreal to him. The only thing that was found out for sure was that no one appeared in the apartment that miraculously survived the monstrous raids that day. It was dusty.
A couple of months had passed since the tragedy that divided Bertie's life into before and after. The war continued. He was learning to adjust to his new reality.
Sometimes he managed to carve out some free time and pop into London for a bit. The city where he had lived more than a third of his life was in ruins. The familiar places where he used to meet his friends and have a good time were empty.
Your humble servant avoided going into that very flat. There were too many vivid memories of that place, which painfully and mercilessly squeezed Bertram Wooster's poor skull. Indeed, the most precious person in his life had been living at his side all that time.
But still, as the sole and responsible owner of his property, he had to overpower himself. He had to go in and make sure that everything was all right. And one such day Bertie found himself there, in their former cozy home.
He walked in and looked around the living room: a layer of dust covering almost everything, furniture wrapped in covers, and only a few of his own things that he had left or forgotten here. The piano was covered with a cloth. Unbearably quiet and lifeless. There was nobody else to keep order here, nobody else's hand to create the home comfort. Sorrowful feelings pressed upon his chest.
He looked all over the flat. Almost all of it. There was only one room left to check.
After a moment's hesitation, Bertram pulled himself together and went into Jeeves's room. He had only glimpsed it from inside before. It was modest and not as spacious as his bedroom. Wooster sat down on the perfectly made bed, looking at what little was left of his dear friend, guide, and philosopher. His eyes rested on the various books dusting the shelves and cupboards.
He recognized one of them. It was the volume of Spinoza's writings he had given Jeeves for his birthday. No doubt Jeeves had read it all. As the rest of the books in the room. Bertie remembered his politely grateful smile and how he had clearly decided that this fellow deserved a whole library of those Spinozas.
He got out of bed. The code of the Woosters did not allow him to touch other people's things (even if those things belonged to a man who might never come back into his life), but something outweighed the young master's unwavering principles that day.
He didn't even notice how he left the flat with the book in his hands.
Of course, this sort of talisman invariably occupied a place in his suitcase. Though he had endeavored to handle the book with care, it had become tattered with the passage of time. Bertram often held it in his hands, flicked through the pages, ran his eyes over the neat pencil notes of its former owner. It calmed him a little in the most difficult moments of his pilot practice. He didn't understand anything about philosophy, but he treasured this book too damn much.
When they reunited, they were about a year away from the end of the war. The house with their previous flat was in a state of emergency damaged by the recent bombing raids, so Jeeves looked for a new flat for them while his employer was still undergoing treatment.
It happened some time later after their move-in. Jeeves was doing his household chores while the young master followed him around and chattered about anything that came into his head. It would have annoyed anyone, but not Jeeves.
You see, he had been abroad for a long time. However, he was not on holiday. Against his will, he was assigned important tasks and missions which he had to fulfil if he did not want to lose his freedom, his successful career, his reputation, his family, and friends. The special promise of making one particular person's life unbearable also left him no choice.
Every day, Jeeves felt like he was sitting on a powder keg: at any moment, a surprise inspection could come through the doors of his headquarters. A highly undesirable event for a man who kept fake documents, weapons, and encrypted data transmission devices in his flat. But all possible escape routes had been carefully worked out and memorized: Jeeves was always prudent. Otherwise, he had to have time to take a special pill before he found himself tied to a chair in a small interrogation room.
Keeping his charm and politeness, he was effective in getting the right information from the right people. His knowledge of psychology and accumulated experience of working with people helped him in this.
Jeeves' missions were rarely close to failure. His life depended on it.
The slightest mistake could have been fatal to him. Of course, he had learned much about the country during his training to pass for a typical Frenchman. His French had been practically flawless even before, which only made his life easier. But still somewhere in the back of his mind was the fear that he would be exposed for the smallest inaccuracy.
Jeeves lived under a false identity with a fake life story. He changed outwardly and inwardly. His gait, the way he spoke, his body language, his facial expressions. He had complete control over his body. Especially his gaze, which could tell a lot about his thoughts. It was exhausting.
After a long time of living in this way, he began to have trouble sleeping: he slept very little and sensitively or could not fall asleep at all.
He rarely had any dreams during the restless hours when he was able to fall asleep. Sometimes he had nightmares. But they were not about him. They were about Mr Wooster. Same scenario: church, flowers, closed coffin. Then it would slowly open from the inside. And Jeeves would wake up in a cold sweat.
On sleepless nights, he was also tormented by thoughts of his former employer. Where was he now? Was he all right? Was he even alive? How did he feel about his disappearance? Would he want to see him again...?
Jeeves felt his mind, which he relied on in the most critical situations, begin to fail.
Meeting his employer again and doing the household chores for him, he felt himself slowly getting his head in order. He was enjoying the much-anticipated company of Mr Wooster. It soothed him and made him feel at home.
Jeeves opened the closet to put the ironed clothes in it. The young master standing next to him had been lost in the chatter and missed the moment when he should have pulled him back. In the next moment Jeeves had pulled the ruined book out of the wardrobe the same way as he pulled out foreign clothes. By the title of the book, he thought at first that his master was interested in serious literature. But on closer look and leafing through the book, he realized that it was his own.
Bertie watched it silently with his eye wide open. He couldn't just get rid of it, but at the same time he was ashamed to return a book in such a terrible condition to its owner. He planned to buy the exact same one soon, but until then, this volume of essays would be safely hidden away. But here his innocent secret was revealed. Jeeves looked at him with a silent question in his eyes.
He tried to justify himself, but this particular Wooster was a bad liar. Especially when the pent-up feelings were starting to overwhelm him. Jeeves often let his employer fool him about little things, but they both knew very well that it was actually impossible to do this. A couple of precise laconic remarks and B. Wooster found himself disarmed. He took a breath of air and began to speak.
Jeeves listened patiently to his poor master with a mask of calmness pulled over his face and dared not interrupt.
He was sorry. He was deeply sorry for the pain he had caused Mr Wooster and his dear people by his forced departure. However, Jeeves spoke little and reluctantly about what he had been doing in recent years and did not tell anyone about the very reasons for his disappearance. This information could have caused a lot of trouble.
And Bertram realized it. His Jeeves could not just disappear for no reason, he was sure of it. But sometimes, in the deep sleepless night, a wild guess would cross his weary mind. What if Jeeves had run away, had simply abandoned him? Of course, Bertie had scolded himself for such thoughts in the mornings then. And today when Jeeves prepares breakfast for him, reminds him to take his medicine, and helps him to dress, that idea seems to him on the verge of sanity. But then he was quite capable of finding irrefutable evidence in all sorts of little things. At that time, he did not know what to think: the search for the injured had ended, Jeeves remained on the list of missing persons.
Bertram stood before him and could find no more words. But words were no longer needed. Jeeves looked at him with bright, penetrating eyes and the silence that settled in the room was filled with peace. Jeeves was truly touched. He felt a huge boulder fall from his soul.
It seemed now, as his employer lowered his head dejectedly and hid his wet eyes from him, they had the perfect moment to dot the «i».
It's been a long day.
Of course, this book stayed in their new flat and became a symbol of something important for them. Bertram, Jeeves' poor love, had indeed taken desperate measures then.
However, Jeeves pointed out that such measures would no longer be necessary.
For now, he would be there for him. He came back.
#jeeves and wooster#bertie wooster#reginald jeeves#jooster#it should have been just a couple paragraphs to explain the context of the first picture.....#but somehow it turned into five pages of text#AHAHAH((#if you thought it was snotty and sentimental#you're right#it's just that sometimes I need something like that👉👈#actually I'm not good at writing serious fiction and fanfic and stuff like that#especially in English#it was hard#so feel free to criticize if you find any mistakes or wrong words I used#I will correct it :)#oh and one more thing#If I remember correctly Bertie was renting the apartment not owning it🤔#but there was no turning back...😔🥀#fanart#my art#artists on tumblr
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hii these next few days are gonna be pretty difficult for me, my girlfriends family dog passed away and we where all there for the euthanasia and it has filled me with a lot of complex emotions.. he was a really good boy and we go over to their house a lot so its just empty feeling of a lost family member right now.. rip rugby goodest doggy ever
#🥀#drivel#thanatophobia#i dont know how to explain it but my gfs family has basically adopted me so like#theyre all really special to me and it hurts to see them hurt so much and also to lose such an old puppy hurts a lot..
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I am extremely bored, so here is a comic from my skk AU "Horns and Wings bathed in gold"
#i feel like this is too specific for anyone to understand. and I wont explain /j#🥀 slugidiot#🥀 my art#art#my art#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#fandom#artists on tumblr#bsd skk#skk#soukoku#16 soukoku#au#alternative universe#mine#so. in short. dazai is a demon and chuuya is a being with wings and feather ears#i cant draw wings or feather so stay w this for a while#i was too lazy to add the gold details rn. and my arms hurt
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Tutorial on how to stop feeling like my personality is a false persona and that deep down I’m a terrible human being no glue or borax
#꒰🥀꒱ ❝ Tragic Prose ❞#‘what role does the syndrome play in the psyche’ the imposterrrrrr#sorry that was nothing.#so! heres the thing#I’ve only RECENTLY figured out I have really bad imposter syndrome#y’know. just another thing to heap onto the pile of shit that’s wrong with me#I dunno quite how to explain it. I want to believe it when people say that I’m a nice person and what have you#but I don’t really feel like I deserve being called such#like… I’m only pretending to be what I imagine a good person is instead of actually BEING a good person#even if evidence points otherwise I can’t help but feel like I’m lying to myself and secretly I’m a bad person#I dunno man. It’s weird
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ELAINE!! Nickname Ei :D
Elaine doesn't have any family in town really, but she does have her dad. Her dad owns a motor shop that the town is famous for. She sees Ross' dad a lot because of it. Well, plus Ross since he comes along. The two get along well since their friends are siblings.
Elaine is great in school and all the activities she's done without trying. It makes it feel, almost empty. She much rather prefers doing things she isn't as great at. Sometimes people will walk up to her drawing, tell her it looks horrible, and she'll just smile. All of her drawings and old sheet music is hung around her dad's shop.
She loved Rai for years but never fully realized until Rai broke down in her arms. The two have been dating since. She was terrified to tell her dad, but when she did he just said they had practically already been dating.
She doesn't remember her mom, her dad said it's for the better. Her mom and dad got divorced soon after she was born, her mom just left her with her dad. It's okay though, her family's happy, her friends are happy, and her lover is happy. For now at least. She always thinks about the future.
She's constantly thinking about the future and how she can make it better for everyone. Luckily she also thinks about herself. Unfortunately, she thinks about herself first unless she's with someone. If she's by herself she makes the decision that will benefit her the best.
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Dissociation is where you disconnect from the world around you. It can cause you to forget about certain time periods and subjects.
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ah. That sounds… familiar.
#ooc: screw it this is too funny#im making a list of things people have had to explain to him#ask#william afton#ask blog#🥀 anon
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🥀 ooc. that dnd session sure was something /pos
#i cannot even Begin to explain#we had 2 ic mental breakdowns we had riddles we had session 2 npc thrulines being connected-‐#🥀❛ — ooc.
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like i think DID is such an incredibly personal experience due to just.. not only how each system works but also how each persons thoughts alone are formed differently
#🥀;#like for years before figuring it out we were kinda in a dissociation soup?#where like. it wasn't hear voices type of stuff because we just. didnt think at least in the common meaning of it LMAO#<- i was mostly guessing it bcs of amnesia at that point but honestly figuring it out alone helped regulate and explain a looot of stuff
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I got so busy and disappeared because of house renovations (AGAIN) and then my brain mysteriously stopped working on Sunday but I think I might be back to functioning levels. finally.
#ramblings#🥀#I never know how to explain this but it is really just spells of brain fog sometimes.combined with holiday fatigue
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nothing like listening to classical music that gets u in the mood for a dancing thread-
#﹙🥀 — ooc.﹚#( im begging on my knees dancing with emily would be so cute )#( hhhufhudhfdif i dont have the braincells to explain )#( also finding good period accurate gifs of dancing is HARD tf .. )#tbd.
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this is an act by a queer & loving god .
#🥀 ⠀ ⠀ * ⠀ ⠀𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐨𝐟𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐲.⠀ / ⠀ rambling.#/ nothing else . can explain this promo schedule#arguing with my bf about the bts to succession pipeline. iykyk
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Genuinely gonna cry cause I saw the most disgusting thing ( literally what’s new I get new traumas at least once a day LMAO )
#I’d rather watch gore#than see this#SOB SOB SOBBBB#ik I was saying stuff like girl kaveh we are married bla bla bla etc redacted + etc for good measure but today I realise I don’t mean that#because I feel like crying#I think I proved to myself none of this is very comfy no matter the gender LMAO anyways me and girl kaveh are still married I’ll just cry#as much if kaveh was a boy too as well as if he’s a girl 🤷♀️#astaghfirAllah I’m so annoying this makes no sense to you guys but I am in shambles 😭#dora daily#the “you guys” are the guests in my head the voices 😔🖤🥀⛓️💔#I was like in the past I might’ve been a tad fruity but turns out I was just traumatised and also I hate everyone equally#THIS REMINDS ME today my grandpa (😾) answered my dads call and I rolled my eyes so far back I saw my optic nerve#so cue covering my face as my dad was shoving the phone on my face while I was being verbally harassed into saying hi (I don’t wanna say hi)#so then my dad explains that I’m not an affectionate person and I dislike love because I don’t kiss him (firstly even if he was a normal man#I wouldn’t do it) and he went on to say I don’t even let my mum kiss me etc etc because I hate it#not only that it’s just I’m so sick of them all man 😭 I’m okay with hugs it’s just nothing I feel particularly inclined to#like I’ll do it if it’s expected but I’m like I dunno I wouldn’t feel an undying urge to ???#and then my grandpa was like the shocked pikachu face#yeah like I am never kissing anyone on the cheek all I want is to be left alone 😭#my dads shock when he realises I do in fact hate love when I’m 50 and unmarried#I can’t believe he as a man knowing what men are like expects me to want a guy#barf#and don’t get me started on how men talk about women like they’re in a cult and women are trading cards#like do they not get jealous 😭 whyre they like good on you bro you scored etc etc#I’m not explaining this right but I hope y’all get what I’m trying to say#damn fellas this one was a touch long#my apologies
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Rai!! Full name Raelynn :)
Rai is Radford's younger sister but Roberts'older sister, making her the middle child. Though she doesn't fit the stereotypes very well. Everyone thinks she's the youngest anyways, because of this Robert likes to call her his 'Little Sister' as a joke. She doesn't mind, unless someone else calls her his little sister.
She's only half siblings with the two, they have different dads. After Radford was born their parents had issues, their dad left, causing their mom to go for someone else. Rai's father, she only got with him to try and prove a point and get her real love back. But after Rai's father got her pregnant and left she was furious, she left Rai on his doorstep so he could take care of her.
But he didn't take care of her. He fed her and clothed her until she was about four or five. Then she had to do everything herself, since she could finally walk and talk. As if making her do everything herself wasn't enough he would also get mad if she did something wrong, like sweep the wrong way. Luckily John ended up finding her when she was about seven when he got multiple noise complaints. He put the man behind bars immediately.
Rai was terrified of everything and everyone after this, she didn't talk or even learn her brother's names until a month later. They had to practically force her to eat and force her to stop cleaning and just rest. Other kids thought she was weird, as a result John would try to put her in different activities. This is where she met Elaine.
She's known Elaine for years, they did cheer together, softball, and now marching band. The two were inseparable for years, now even more inseparable. Elaine helped Rai get out of her shell and even realize a few things about herself. The two are now happily dating, until something happens at least.
#⚡🌙 {Rai}#🥀☀️ {Elaine}#🪡 {ZappingFlower}#thanks for saying her actually#i don't think i got to explain it all together#like i think it wasall different asks/posts
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🥀 ooc. logs in, writes three things, who knows when i will reappear, i have been working on another blog, i'm running a dnd session tmrw, and its about to be july which is incredibly busy but hello ily all
#🥀❛ — ooc.#gotta keep reminding myself i dont need to keep explaining myself and my activity levels but man is that difficult#also hello how the hell is it almost july?????????
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