#🗡 𝙏𝙓𝙏. meta.

[rhaenyrha]

rhaenyra + love and sexuality:

rhaenyra has a very complicated relationship with romantic love and sexuality.  she is demiromantic and greysexual (in between sex neutral and sex positive), and a lot of the reason for that is because of how much it intertwines with her duty as heir, and the lack of agency she faces as a woman even despite her status as heir.  the ideas of love and marriage and sex have been forced upon her from a very young age, and it has led to her becoming rather averse to all of it.  what rhaenyra wants, more than anything, is agency — but she can’t have that, not when she is to be queen one day, not when she is a woman above all.  and not having a choice in matters that so intimately affect her suffocates her, fills her with resentment.  she does still understand it’s her duty and she does fulfill it by marrying and having children, all of whom she loves dearly and tries to be a good mother to, but it’s not something she would have ever chosen for herself.

[rhaenyrha]

𝙒𝙃𝘼𝙏 𝙄𝙎 𝙔𝙊𝙐𝙍 𝙇𝙄𝙏𝙀𝙍𝘼𝙍𝙔 𝘼𝙍𝘾𝙃𝙀𝙏𝙔𝙋𝙀?

the siren.

this archetype is one of the most misunderstood and misrepresented in my opinion, which i assume fits with you nicely.  people see you as some cold and awful person, seducing others only to discard them when you get bored.  in reality, you probably didn’t have a lot of control over your life before, did you?  this is the same case as the ruler, both lacking in power and autonomy.  the difference between you and the ruler, however, is that you only care about reclaiming that power for yourself.  you also seek the feeling of being wanted, truly and wholly, and this quest seems never ending.  try your best to avoid putting yourself into horrible situations just for a brief moment of respite from the loneliness.

[rhaenyrha]

𝙒𝙃𝙔 𝘿𝙊 𝙔𝙊𝙐 𝙃𝙐𝙍𝙏?

this isn’t enough for you.

the words creep into your head in the dead of night one night and you cannot get rid of them.  this isn't enough for me anymore.  you thought this was enough for you at some point, or maybe you hoped that it would be, but it isn't, and it hurts.  you need to change something, or die trying.  this — life like this — does not make life worth living.  there is a lump in your throat that demands attention every waking moment of the day.  there is pain in your body like a cavernous maw you cannot keep balance over.  this is not what you wanted.  you need to change.  you can't stay here.  it is not a character flaw.  you want more.

tagged by:  no one i stole it from myself :* tagging:  anyone else that wants to do this!

[rhaenyrha]

𝙒𝙃𝙊 𝘼𝙍𝙀 𝙔𝙊𝙐 𝙄𝙉 𝙏𝙃𝙄𝙎 𝙃𝘼𝙐𝙉𝙏𝙀𝘿 𝙃𝙊𝙐𝙎𝙀 𝙎𝙏𝙊𝙍𝙔?

the trapped soul.

time is now a story told by others.  you envy them, their freedom, their hope.  your existence is tied to this place, the beating heart of your tragedy and pain, your prison.  you wander these long corridors and some days, it becomes difficult to tell where this dreadful house ends and you begin.  you cry and destroy to remind yourself that you're still here.  it's been so long since you gave up on anyone seeing you.  the only company you keep is your past, and oh how it follows you.  you scream once more, a final test of your disappearance but— oh!  did... did they just look at you?

[rhaenyrha]

re: the daemyra post, i saw a blog posting about how daemon and rhaenyra often fall into a sibling dynamic (while also maintaining the uncle-niece one) because viserys both treats them like children and it’s so true? especially given that they widened viserys and daemon’s age gap in the show to at least 10/12 years (which is almost as wide as the gap between rhaenyra and aegon…)

yep i agree with that!  their isolation in court and the way they were treated by viserys and the people around them forced them to only really rely on each other. they had to be everything to each other — uncle/niece, brother/sister, even lovers.  the age gap between rhaenyra and daemon was lessened too, which also plays into the reason their dynamics don't feel so strictly uncle/niece.

[rhaenyrha]

📂

rhaenyra hates blood. she hates the smell of it, the taste of it, the warmth of it, the way it sticks when it dries — she's seen and experienced too much of it throughout her life, the loss of it has taken the people that she loves, and if it were up to her, she’d never be around it again.

send “📂” for a random yet completely useless headcanon i have.   /   accepting.