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[yeagerxrobotics]

"Up and at 'em. We have activity."

“ Optimus, please just take me with you. “

He pleaded with the Autobot leader. His chest, no his entire being, felt like it was being torn in two as he watched the Prime jettison himself off into the unknown.

Why did it hurt so much …

       why …

              why …

He’s gasping awake at the sound of Ghosts words, not having realized he had fallen asleep in the first place. It had been months since Hong Kong, months since coming back to the U.S. and living life on the run; months since Prime-

Cade forced himself to sit up, rubbing a hand against tired eyes before taking in their surroundings. He looked gaunt, the hollow ache in his chest the only thing that kept him going. When was the last time he ate? When was the last time he even felt like eating?

“ TRF or Cemetary Wind, ” was the only response he afforded the triple changer as he hoisted himself onto unsteady legs.

[artxstic-scr1bbles]

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[arifeathers]

Give me some of your hcs for Kickin chicken and DogDay for your Oneiros au!

KickinChicken 🏳️‍⚧️

He’s the middle child out of five siblings, one older brother and sister and two younger sisters. Gets along with his sisters of them most of the time but has a strained relationship with his dad and oldest brother.

Also has an adopted cousin named Lyra Lorikeet who is two years older than him. She taught him how to mimic other people’s voices and he often uses it to play pranks on the others with his friendly rival and best friend, Hoppy.

Came out to his family as trans at age 10. His sisters and his mum took it well and accepted Kickin as a brother and son, his father and brother didn’t however and often purposely misgendered and dead named him, among other things.

Got his top surgery at age 16.

Left the henhouse shorty after three weeks of his father and brother’s bs, despite his mum’s and sister’s protests. Went to stay with his childhood friend PickyPiggy and her two mums after making it to Critter’s Valley, before building his beach hut by himself at 15 years old.

Loves the beach and often surfs whenever he can and wants to. If not surfing, then he’s likely seen participating in whatever competition he and Hoppy have made up together.

Has very good accuracy and often uses throwing knives and stars as weapons. He doesn’t have any magic like Catnap, DogDay, CraftyCorn and Hoppy, but makes the most of his throwing skills and athleticism to protect himself and his friends.

Often gives out eggs to his friends living in Critter’s Valley. He finds it pretty shameful and embarrassing, but his friends don’t treat him any different. Picky often invites him over to help her make breakfast and cook for the other critters. (He doesn’t eat the eggs for obvious reasons.)

First met Bubba when the elephant first moved to the Valley. Initially he was pretty neutral towards him, giving an energetic hello, a friendly slap on the back and making him do friendly strength competitions (which he always loses.). But his feelings towards Bubba started to change after the latter stood up to his father and older brother over him being trans, beginning a proper friendship and a bashful crush.

His other best friend after Hoppy is DogDay. They often hang out to together and sing karaoke duets during sleepovers or in general. Both are also constantly pushing the other to confess their feelings to their respective crushes every now and then. He also does the same thing with Hoppy and her crush on Bobby.

DogDay ☀️

The youngest brother out of his two parents and an older brother. He was abandoned by them at 7 years of age for being too “weak, clumsy and useless”, under the premise of having a family picnic with them. Held a grudge against his family ever since, except for his aunt and uncle who took him and Catnap into their care after they made their way to Critter Valley.

Met Catnap shortly after realising his family isn’t coming back for him and the latter waking up on the physical realm and unable to go home to the Dream realm. Awkward first meeting from being startled by each other and a lot of hissing and growling, before realising that neither of them are gonna hurt each other and slowly bonding over being fellow orphans. He let Catnap come with him, after deciding to find his Aunt and Uncle who lives in Critter Valley.

The journey to Critter’s Valley took roughly a year and a half for both Dogday and Catnap and full of perils, excitement and the two of them becoming inseparable.

His Uncle and Aunt was initially unnerved by Catnap’s otherworldly aura and demeanour but look after him at their nephew’s insistence. They both moved out sometime ago and left their house to Dogday and Catnao deciding to move next door into the old treehouse, which was later renovated with the other critters’ help.

Has feelings for his best friend since they were kids, but didn’t want to confess due to belief that Catnap only sees him as a brother. Catnap on the other hand, feels the same but is too shy to confess.

Is immune to Catnap’s Red Smoke thanks to a magic charm cast over him by the purple cat when they were children.

Is able to cast magic in the form of ball shaped lights and blasts. He doesn’t like fighting unless it’s absolutely necessary and to defend himself. Prefers to stun his attackers using his light magic, but will use his firewood axe if needed.

Before winter, Dogday often chops firewood for himself and the other critters, going from house to house to deliver a stack.

Next to Catnap, Kickin Chicken is his best friend and they often sing karaoke together or go to the beach together. He is also able to match Kickin with any teasing remarks.

If he meets his real life canon counterpart in the factory, he’ll be shocked, horrified and just full of denial that his best friend (and crush) would ever do that to him. He would also save him from the mini critters.

If he meets the Prototype, he’ll be scared of the latter’s appearance, until realisation kicks in when he remembers Catnap dreaming about a metal claw and fear turns into protective rage.

[orchidyoonkook]

I adore your stories. I literally keep going back to them, they're that good! You're easily one of my favorite fic writers on Tumblr.

I was wondering if I could ask for some writing advice?

I used to write fics, and I have a ton of ideas that I'm wanting to write out. I'm even wanting to pick up and re-write an old fic. My issue is I have no clue where to start again.

How do you get motivated to write?

And do you ever look at your work and feel blah about it, like it doesn't seem to be good to you?

I am so happy this ask caught me on a catch up day. I've literally spent all day catching up on missed asks I can asnwer and reviews and messages. It's honestly like a little reward and for that I wanna say such a big thank you.

Onto!:

(note from future yoon: omg this is so long im so sorry)

I adore your stories. I literally keep going back to them, they're that good! You're easily one of my favorite fic writers on Tumblr.

Well I guess I'm starting this off in tears?? This is the sweetest thing literally ever and I cannot thank you enough for giving my stories a chance. I'm sure you know as a writer yourself but this is the most any writer could ask for in terms of feedback and I literally just wanna hug you.

Thank you so much for reading.

And the fact that I'm one of literally anyone's favourite fic writers is actually insane. Take that highschool english teacher! But in all seriousness I will actually cry this is so kind thank you thank you thank you. 😭😭😭♥♥♥♥♥

I was wondering if I could ask for some writing advice?

Absolutely, always. But idk how good it'll be XD

I used to write fics, and I have a ton of ideas that I'm wanting to write out. I'm even wanting to pick up and re-write an old fic. My issue is I have no clue where to start again.

literal story of my life my god how i relate to this.

How do you get motivated to write?

I don't. That's the thing. When I'm motivated it's like a fluke. (jsyk this is gunna be long because I cant shut up)

TWWWBAATTA was a complete and total fluke. I'd had a dream, it was the first act of the story. I loved the idea so much that when I woke up I wrote the spark notes of it in my notes app. And then I sat on it for two weeks. I hadn't written anything in maybe 4 years, let alone fic, let alone a BTS fic. I'd only ever written one thing prior that wasn't for my education so I had no idea what the hell I was going to do.

The idea kept pounding at the door of my brain, begging to be let in and explore every freaking nook and crany it could. So i let it. and after two weeks, I had a very VERY rough plot. I kept the ideas in either my notes app or a google doc, and i just let them flow. Anything and everything. And soon enough TWWWBAATTA was born.

UTWT came from a writing prompts list. I saw a prompt for "First kiss" and then thought "wouldn't it be cool if it was under a willow tree like the one in my hometown?" and literally 2 days later UTWT was written. -> Rainfall Brings Tomorrow came from an ask, it hit me out of freaking nowhere. I just wanted something short and sweet and ask fulfilling and RBT worked perfectly for that.

TDWV was the first thing I actively sat down and told myself to write. Halloween is my favourite holiday, and I wanted to do something for it last year. I'd had the title written down in my idea's note, and built it up from there. I went to pinterest, I looked at old and new "story ideas" on there and on tumblr lists. I essentially just pick and chose pieces of prompts and stuff from my own ideas and built it up from there. I had a general goal: spooky, yoongi, first attempt at writing smut -> because I always put a challenge in the stories for myself, whether that be writing something I never have or exploring a new topic or following specific tropes <- and then I chose a setting. And literally just built up the story as I went.

Most recently with PG, I'd been in such a writing rut, still am. But I wanted to write SOMETHING. and PG -> Pretty Girl was another thing I'd had in my ideas note. So I took that and then decided in order to just write, I'd write something easy and took a lot of my favourite tropes and decided to write off those. In this case it was older brothers best friend, age gap, forbidden love, yearning, possessive male lead, overprotective older brother and head strong female lead. And went wild with it. I didn't know the member I was writing at first, but then when I went to go write the vibe of the male lead, I realised it was Tae.

Once I have a general idea of the overall story I can usually just channel the rest. As in I can just write the story as it plays out. But sometimes it doesnt work like that and I get stuck, like with a Joon fic I've half started. I have the overall vibe, and I can feel what I want to happen, but I'm missing some key points or I can't see them yet so it's still vibing in my drafts.

So you can see I don't really get motivation so more of a it finds me and then I work on it. Sometimes I have to just make it from thin air. The thing that helps me most tho is I have to remember that I enjoy writing. I like doing it. I like telling stories even if no one else will like them. I like experiencing them with the characters, as the characters, as the settings and their props, i enjoy character creation and giving them their quirks and hobbies and backstories. It's not a chore to write their stories, it's a priviledge they chose me to tell it.

It's so hard to explain, but if you're having a tough time with the stories you're wanting to tell, it probably means they need just a touch more shelf time, or at least so is the case for me.

My advice would be to weave a fic into something you love. My female characters are often in the arts because I love art and creating it. I wove PG from tropes I'm a sucker for. I wove UTWT from a single idea and a tree from my hometown I've always adored. Little itty bitty things like this can drive story ideas and motivation because you can always go back and realise why you were writing it in the first place.

One of the most important things for me is to remember that somebody else has already done your idea. But you haven't. It's never been done your way. And idk about you, but I can absolutely say I've never said "Oh no! not ANOTHER forbidden romance fic! there's just too many of them" because there's not. I will happily read the same exact fic with slight variations a hundred times over. And so will other people, so don't worry about it being like others.

Motivation is something people think they need in order to to the big overall arcing task. But you dont. All you have to do is set aside an hour or three (I use 9pm-midnight) for the thing you want to do. If i write or plot or idea come up with for three hours a night, seven days a week, thats 21 hours of writing time. I could get out 2 sentences or 20k words in that time. But all that matters is that I did SOMETHING.

You don't have to do it all in one go. You don't even have to do it over the course of a set period of time. I started TWWWBAATTA in August of 2022 and I only have 8(?) chapters out. I work on it when I can, but I don't push it because writing is meant to be a hobby I enjoy.

As for where to start. Start somewhere new or somewhere familiar. Pick an idea or a previously written scene and write it or update it to match your current writing style. I cannot begin to tell you the amount of times I've picked up and put down a chapter of TWWWBAATTA because it wasn't what I wanted or I hated the direction it was going. But I always came back and either added or edited, and sooner or later an idea would strike or I'd figure it out through the repitition. Having multiple stories to bounce between has also helped me when I'm stuck. I try to keep three on hand, but two works just as well. Just to get a variation. Like I had PG going at the same time as the previously mentioned Joon fic another Yoongi fic on the go. All differernt genres, all wildly different plots and directions, and just being able to go between the three when one wasn't working to give my brain a breather helped a lot.

is that sufficient? I feel like I've just been ranting about my process versus answering the question, but it's through my process that I answer the question, does that make sense? If not, feel free to ask again or more specifically in exactly what you'd like to know, I'm literally always happy to talk anyones ear off.

And do you ever look at your work and feel blah about it, like it doesn't seem to be good to you?

A L W A Y S. alwayssss. All of the goddamn time. But I see it as a good thing because that means I'm improving.

Writing is one of those things that you will never reach the top skill level off because it doesn't exist. You can always get better, be better, write more, write better, write differently. It's a constantly evolving internal staircase that you will never reach the top of. Which is both extremely relieving because that means you can always improve, and yet incredibly frustrating because you will constantly be looking back on previous works like "what the hell was I thinking' because your style has evolved with the progress you've made.

I used to be so goddamn proud of the first chapter of TWWWBAATTA. I loved it. I thought it was the perfect opening chapter to this huge story in my head. It set up everything, I was just really pleased with it and excited to post it. But I reread it a while ago and my literal thoughts were "This, THIS, is what I was so proud of?? It needs literally so much work oh my god"

And then I remember that I wrote that two years ago, I have two years more of experience than I did before I wrote it. So of course it's not going to be as good as I could do now. But it was as good as I could do then. And that's okay. I'm still proud of 2 years ago me, and I'm happy she was really pleased with her work. She was excited and eager and happy to write. That's the feeling I try to chase with writing, not how good the writing is, but the feeling I get when I do it.

okay rant over, thank you for sending this ask in it was so much fun to talk shop!! I barely do it nowadays with new folks and all my friends are probably sick to death of me talking process XD.

I hope your writing goals are met and your ideas flow. But even if they dont, try writing something completely different. Try to describe a colour without using it's name, or a season without using it's key descriptive points. My favourite is taking cliche lines and reworking them into something different and more creative (ex: "My heart was racing" into something like "My heart threatened to break free from it's prison with nothing more than it's quick thundering beats" you get the gist). Or set a goal for yourself. Write four sentences everyday. They could all be one word. They could all be filled with commas and semi colons and take up half the page when your done.

My point, I guess, is to just write. Whether it's good or bad, doesnt matter, you can always fix it later. Editing is the easy part, you just gotta get the ideas down first, and then refine from there.

[rpfofficial]

also 11. ... what do you consider to be romance ? bc i think its an interesting question

i think romance is when you want to be near a person all the time. idk how to define romantic love and even though im in a relationship and i have crushes on people all the time and i definitely experience romantic attraction i can't tell what romance is. theres a david foster wallace about love being a measure of distance:

"... his hatred of being alone is a consequence of what his memoir will call his great intellectual concept: the distance at which we see each other, arrange each other, love. That love, he will say, is a federal highway, lines putting communities, that move and exist at great distance, in touch."

and i understand romance as being strong love that fills any distance between two people, no matter how big. its the act of bridging the gap between you and another person, even if that other person is on another continent.

[nemotiabound]

Magic Anon!

For the next 24 hours, your muse has amnesia! No take backs!

“ Wait, NO-! “

There’s panic in the medics voice as he tries to plead. Before he can even finish his sentence, he’s being wiped clean; a blank slate. He knows his designation and that’s about it.

“ Wh-Where am I … ? “

[bumbledblogging]

"as a medic what's your frame types and genders?"

" oh- ! my- ,,, my frame type ? that's a -! a good question! um- well !! i use he / him pronouns, but if you want to call me by anything different, i really don't mind ! i'm a mini - bot, so i'm a- , i guess a,,, Bit on the . . smaller side, i suppose, & i- ,, i consume a ... a tad more sweets than i should,, so my- i suppose my fuel tanks aren't really the,, they aren't exactly the size they used to b-"

" N O T . PURPLE. anything BUT purple. i FRAGGIN' DESPISE THE COLOR PURPLE. not the organic movie, though, i love that scrap. really sad for like 2 hours. fraggin' fantastic. BUT THE COLOR PURPLE ( color ) fragging DISGUSTS me, it's DISGUSTING !! purple WANTS to be BLUE sO B A D , but it CAN'T. because it's stuck as STUPID PURPLE!!! && because it's stuck as stupid purple, it's SELF - CONSCIOUS, && tries to convince BLUE that BLUE is the stupid one, but GUESS WHo's PURPLE? not BLUE!!!! here's some free advice, shitlips, if you're purple, 1, ask primus why he hates you, 2, get a paint job, && if 2 doesn't work, then resort to 3, JUMP OFF A - "

" . . . Frame* types . not your Favorite types, soundwave . & that's a rather Shallow & odd thing to specify , sir ,,,

maybe if you didn't Interrupt me while i was SPEAKING, you would've understood the question BETTER . . . - but Nooo, let's just all babble over bumblebee today! actually, scratch that, let's just senselessly squabble over all of his DILLIGENTLY WRITTEN, NO RECHARGE IN FOREVER, DOUBLE - SPACED, BETA READ, 190 BILLION PAGED PRE-WRITTEN SPEECHES that i've worked TIRELESSLY to perfect -- "

the bots continued to babble over the other, both with grandiose senses of self - importance, & both failing miserably to realize it. blitzwing soon joins in to make it a 3 man circus of morons because he's purple, & frankly, insulted . but also kind of just pissed about soundwave ripping off his favorite insult, & he didn't even add a creative little flare! just sliced the pizazz right in half! ILLEGAL ACTIVITIES !!

[yeagerxrobotics]

So this- Is the Yaegermeister? Rodimus is going to peer at the human curiously, palms on his hips. Spoiler wings fluttering slightly," ... Sup?" And, SMILE~ Pearly denta check, gorgeous finish check, stellar personality and a go. " Cade right? I was lookin' for the big bot but hey not complaining to meet the brain behind the brawn too."

He had just been minding his own business, but that seems to be the trend of how he finds himself in trouble. Cade wasn’t expecting a visitor, much less one so…vain/loud/chipper.

“Uh…yeah. If you’re lookin for Prime he stepped out for a bit. I’m sorry, I don’t think we’ve met before,” he’s crossing his arms over his chest and looking over the new mech.

Extremely shiny, loud as hell paint job…He knew some of the other bots liked to be fancy but damn.

[artxstic-scr1bbles]

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Have a wonderful day Moot!

I sprained my wrist yesterday so-

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[arifeathers]

Hey uh I know u already did some stuff for heretic dogday and his human self but mind giving more hcs and info on him and his relationship with theo catnap?

Sure! Here we go:

Before meeting Theo, Samuel used to be friends with three other orphans named Joseph, Eliza and Kalia. But Samuel broke ties with them when they kept bullying Theo.

Samuel went through foster home to foster home for a variety of reasons before ending up in Playcare. He never mentioned why he kept switching from foster home to foster home, not even to Theo, but it was one of the few things he was able to bond with the latter.

Samuel met the Prototype when Theo introduced him to the experiment. To make it plainly, he was terrified and intrigued then extremely grateful and loyal until… sometime after the Hour of Joy.

When he learned he was about to get adopted *cough* chosen for testing *cough* he was extremely worried and unhappy despite the party that was thrown for him, due to his concern for Theo. This was what drove him to help Theo and the Prototype in their attempt to escape from the factory, leading to both Theo and his fate sealed as Catnap and DogDay.

As a result for settling into his new body much more quickly compared to Theo. DogDay was allowed to help out the orphans in Playcare with the other Smiling Critters. But he would often cause trouble, in order to get thrown back into the same cage where Catnap was kept to stay with him, despite the torture he would receive from the other workers.

While he was nowhere near as fanatic as Catnap before the Hour of Joy and changing his opinion on the Prototype. Dogday used to feel a great amount of gratitude and looked up to the experiment due to saving his life along with Theo’s. Until the end of Hour of Joy when he realised it was all for nothing and led to the death of many innocent people, leading him to turn traitor.

[orchidyoonkook]

Why did I just now notice that you replied back to my message weeks ago? But, then again, I've been preoccupied with everything in life. So I can't blame you. And you were on vacation for some time too, so I'm sure not many people want to social online while they're on vacations.

And it helped with "recharging my batteries" as an introvert.. Because I'm in a healthier mindset now. Being a turbulent INTJ explains a lot if that is true. I'm between INTJ-A and INTJ-T equally, but I slightly lean more towards turbulent though. But that could be the perfectionism.

But it depends on my mindset? Since I'm similar to an INTJ-A in more healthier mindsets, but INTJ-T in unhealthier mindsets. At least that's what it seems like to me. That might be unnecessary information.

Ignore that.

I did have a lot of ups and downs with bands, musicians and music in these months. Bands with disbanding or reuniting (technically it's the band coming out of hiatus); musicians dying, or starting new musical careers. And also a lot of songs and videos being released this year.

I couldn't go to the concert. The concert was in their native county so that would have been more money than even I could afford. If they do come back to my country, then I'll try going to their concerts here if it ever happens. Hopefully, I'll be able to meet the other band members, even if I never got to meet the musician who dyed. That was draining.

I didn't think you were making it about yourself. But that's definitely a main autistic trait when it comes to their grieving.. Or in situations for the autistic person trying to help with someone grieving. If we are not able to process our emotions, we try explaining situations to people if we're trying to connect with that person. Sometimes it can be helpful in some situations but there may be situations where it upsets lots of people too. So it depends on the person. But I didn't take it that way.

But that was my step grandmother so she was younger than a typical grandmother. Well.. It's complicated to say. Since grandmothers have different ages now. Anyway. She died of cancer, and she actually died not even a week after her diagnosis. Like four days later? So we never had the chance to spend time with her before she died.. Just because she was in a different state when she died, but she still had her family caring for her though. So family was with her when she died, so then I can say she wasn't alone. She wasn't alone, and she didn't suffer at all either. Her birthday's coming up (actually her birthday is just a couple days after mine). So now I only have one grandparent who's still alive.

Well.. The symbols. The symbols I was mentioning before, that font is specially made for fonts. You'd have to download that fond to use it at all. But it's only usable on word documents, I don't think it works on a site though. At least not on this site anyone. Which is disappointing.

I don't know? I haven't been speaking to that many people lately. Like maybe one person. Most people I know have either been busy with all their personal lives; family and friends, work, events or vacations. So I haven't talked to many people lately. So I can't remember if I ever did.

To my knowledge, I never had a horrible life. Maybe some oppression at times.. Because my parents can be restrictive about lot of things in my life. Especially my mother who is the overbearing helicopter type.

I'm still judgmental towards them about the oppressive tendencies I'd have because of them. And definitely reasons why I do hate them too.

But I wasn't abused by my family. Or anything like that. So my version of a complicated life is probably different than yours is though.. But it could be how you worded that too? I'm not sure. So I could be wrong.

But! Being the weird child who always enjoyed things that people lots of people hated since a young age, this isn't any different than that to me. Maybe that's how I think of it? Or.. Something along those lines.

But... I just realized that I keep saying that... I don't think that I've ever heard of Bad Omens? I might've heard the band name before, but I'm sure I've never listened to their music. So I can't comment on them in general. But I know what you mean though. You have an eclectic view on your own personal interests that's drastically different from mostly everything else you'd enjoy. I know some people who are like that too.

Yeah. Most of my family, friends, people I know are "authentic" in how we express ourselves. Most of us hate changing ourselves to make so many people like us, we'd rather people like us for who we are. Y'know the whole cliché commentaries of people accepting you as yourself is the simplest way to explain that. But I've always hated fake people. I'd never understand changing yourself for people, just to love other fake versions of yourself. I could have worded that a lot different than that.

As for tattoos and piercings.. I think I know what you mean? Maybe? I knew a couple girls in school who had dermal piercings, and at least a girl, one of them, had to surgically get her dermal piercings removed.. And that was because the metal got trapped somewhere in her body, something like that. So I'll never get dermal piercings for that reason.

My hair has been different shades of blue since November? I have the blue hair at the moment. Since my birthday is next week.. I might dye my hair blue again for now, and then maybe change it sometime after my birthday. Because blues and greens are usually the difficult colors to remove from your hair. I like the blue shades, and I also want to dye my hair green (but only certain shades though) but everyone ends up arguing with me about that. But I would dye my hair blue again, since I did like how the coloring was with those dyes. Not sure about green. And I'm not sure what color I would do after the blue is removed from my hair either. I'm probably thinking colors I haven't done yet though. But I always bleach my hair before dying it vibrant colors because I've always wanted the colors to be extra dark or vibrant depending on it's shading. And it helps that I usually get discounts for my hair when I'm going to my hairdresser, if I go to her, because it depends on styles.

Yeah.. I should've learned how to sew. Or something. A hobby that did involve fashion. Because of being a little person, I'm a midget, then I'd have been able to learn how to create my clothes; based on sizes and styles. When it comes to some celebrities I follow - like any musicians and models with that style - are known to create their own clothing in whatever they want to fit their style but I'm not capable of doing that.

I would love to get back into creative hobbies but sometimes I do feel like I'm holding myself back too? Sometimes like I'm blocking myself.

"Like I wanna spend my days doing my creative hobbies so bad, and then I just.. don't. and then I scream at myself internally." Yes. That.

Apparently autistic people have creative abstract imagination from it being creative abstract imagination and thought processes. So where is that creative abstract way of doing these creative hobbies in ways I think might've helped me. But no. It's completely blocked for reasons that I don't know why that is. And it doesn't make sense why that is.

I do that too. Like.. I do hate telling people I'm autistic because I have always assumed people would notice based on my mannerisms since I always thought it was obvious. The people closest to me know. But I think it's different for strangers, like some know and some don't know too. But the moment I mention my diagnosis to some people, there is a portion of those people who do treat me differently. But, regardless if they treat me differently, I feel like they should accept to me as I am in every way. If they're just expecting me to accept them as they have been, they should accept me as I am. It's that simple. So I may be the biggest cunt ever in these situations, which is fine, that's how I am if I know someone won't accept me as I am. Doesn't matter if the people are family, potential friends, coworkers, and people in general. Like if people expect me to accept how they are, they should accept me as I am too. You can't have it one way. I've never been the masking type.

Exactly! Just because I'm a "slow" learner doesn't mean I don't learn... Everyone has a different way of learning. Some people are visual type learners, some are verbal learners, and some are kinesthetic learners.

Which reminds me. There's four different types of autistic types.. Just like four different personalities. Their Personality Types in Asperger's: Fixated, Disruptive, Approach and Avoidant. I'm not a disruptive type. But I can say that I'm primarily avoidant (with approach and fixated in the mix). Avoidant is definitely my personality but I also have some of the mannerisms of approach and fixated too. Is what I meant to say.

You're what.. Six years younger than me? At least five years younger. I can't remember what your birthday is. If you ever did mentioned that.

My birthday is next week. Like Yoongi, I would actually be the grumpy old person (who isn't that old), who just complains about every young generation. "Back in my day, this happened.." Even if you are younger, at least you know what a vhs is. I think. I'm just assuming that you do.

Don't disappoint me with this.

Oh! Adding onto the story of the daughter friend. This was years ago.. About fifteen years? We bumped into each other again, and we talked during that time. And tried reconciling the friendship. Which was very stupid of me to think that. Because she was older than the last time, I was expecting her to be different. Like she matured. But no. So when we were trying to reconcile, she invited me over to her house to hang out with her and even invited me to sleep over too. Her and her father (this was before my parents stopped being friends with him) came to pick me up at my house, since their new house (after they've moved), was so far away. She brought her boyfriend with her. So instead of us hanging out as old friends trying to spend time together like I actually thought, was just me being a third wheel to her and her boyfriend the whole weekend. Like why invite me over if we're not spending time?!

That's another thing I hated about her. Safe to say that family is not in our lives anymore. So they're definitely horrible people in my opinion.

"(Made me giggle when I read it in the first place cuz owning up to things like that is something I am notorious for doing.)" Because I see no point in lying to people. I own who I am, the good and bad traits of me. The balance of who I am. So why waste time trying to be another person. Why waste time lying to people. So my honest seems like I'm an insensitive person, even a cunt a times, but I see no point in lying.

"But the sun is such a beautiful thing to have in life, to not go out and greet her every now and then." Not when you have heat intolerance in life. Another reason why I've rarely left my house during the summer.

The heat tolerance is part of the sensory overload in autism for me.. It has been something that I've always had since I was a baby. Were you ever underwhelmed or overwhelmed in different temperatures?

https://augmentive.io/blog/autism-heat

If you ever wanted to read about it.

- 💋

I literally just counted the months I have been a horrible friend for not answering this sooner and literally said out loud "Oh my god I'm so bad at this."

I really shouldn't make promises I can't keep, but in all honesty I didn't know I wouldn't be able to keep it when I made it. Being an adult is stupid because it keeps you so busy and I hate it and love it at the same time.

Please accept my most humble apologies for being absolutely shit at answering asks, outernet life is insane and unfortunately my internet life suffers the price.

Why did I just now notice that you replied back to my message weeks ago? But, then again, I've been preoccupied with everything in life. So I can't blame you. And you were on vacation for some time too, so I'm sure not many people want to social online while they're on vacations.

You did better than me dude. I literally cannot apologise enough. I wish I could say I'll do better in the future but I've learned my lesson and all I will say now is I will try my best to be better.

And it helped with "recharging my batteries" as an introvert.. Because I'm in a healthier mindset now. Being a turbulent INTJ explains a lot if that is true. I'm between INTJ-A and INTJ-T equally, but I slightly lean more towards turbulent though. But that could be the perfectionism.

I hope this has remained true!! I love that you've managed to create a better mindset for yourself. That takes such hard work and I am so proud of you <<<3333

I myself am a ENFJ-A, but I'l be honest and say that I am not up to speed on what that means exactly.

But it depends on my mindset? Since I'm similar to an INTJ-A in more healthier mindsets, but INTJ-T in unhealthier mindsets. At least that's what it seems like to me. That might be unnecessary information.

Any info you are willing to share is good and necessary. I will not have you second guessing wanting to share bits and pieces of yourself, that's completely normal and I appreciate you for trusting me with it.

Ignore that.

Ooop to late XD sorry..

I did have a lot of ups and downs with bands, musicians and music in these months. Bands with disbanding or reuniting (technically it's the band coming out of hiatus); musicians dying, or starting new musical careers. And also a lot of songs and videos being released this year.

That's.. incredibly turbulent. I'm both happy and excited for you whilst also being truly sorry for any loses you've experienced regarding thid topic. These kinds of loses always hit in such a specific way that it's hard to describe, you just know it hurts, and for that you have my comfort and wellest wishes <3

I couldn't go to the concert. The concert was in their native county so that would have been more money than even I could afford. If they do come back to my country, then I'll try going to their concerts here if it ever happens. Hopefully, I'll be able to meet the other band members, even if I never got to meet the musician who dyed. That was draining.

Well shit! I'm so sorry. I totally get the different country send off. My moms favourite band did that and it killed her not to be able to go.

I'll have my fingers crossed that they do come back to your country for you, as well as being able to meet the members. I know it isn't much to offer, but it's there and it's yours <3

I didn't think you were making it about yourself. But that's definitely a main autistic trait when it comes to their grieving.. Or in situations for the autistic person trying to help with someone grieving. If we are not able to process our emotions, we try explaining situations to people if we're trying to connect with that person. Sometimes it can be helpful in some situations but there may be situations where it upsets lots of people too. So it depends on the person. But I didn't take it that way.

thank you for understanding the way I communicate and empathize, I truly cannot put into words how relieving that is for me. You completely nailed the explination, I forget sometimes how similar we are in this regard.

But that was my step grandmother so she was younger than a typical grandmother. Well.. It's complicated to say. Since grandmothers have different ages now. Anyway. She died of cancer, and she actually died not even a week after her diagnosis. Like four days later? So we never had the chance to spend time with her before she died.. Just because she was in a different state when she died, but she still had her family caring for her though. So family was with her when she died, so then I can say she wasn't alone. She wasn't alone, and she didn't suffer at all either. Her birthday's coming up (actually her birthday is just a couple days after mine). So now I only have one grandparent who's still alive.

Oh 💋, I'm truly from the bottom of my heart so sorry for your loss. I hope it's a comfort to you that she had family with her, and that she didn't suffer. That feels like a foolish thing to write now that I've written it, but I don't quite know how best to phrase my sympathies other than I genuinely am so sorry, and that even though you weren't able to be there, that I hope she knew you wished you could have been (if that was indeed the case).

Loss is such a profoundly undescribeable feeling because everyone experiences and deals with it so differently. I hope in the time that has passed since you sent this in that you have been able to spend some time with your grandparent who's still with us (if that has been something you've wanted to do, of course). Or been able to deal with these emotions in a way that has been cathartic and healthy for you.

Insane change of topic to: Happy belated birthday! I'm quite late as it seems, but the well wishes are meant the same as if I wasn't.

Well.. The symbols. The symbols I was mentioning before, that font is specially made for fonts. You'd have to download that fond to use it at all. But it's only usable on word documents, I don't think it works on a site though. At least not on this site anyone. Which is disappointing.

Ohhhhhh gotcha, I see what you mean. I thought it was like, a complicated emoticon or something, but I getchu now.

I don't know? I haven't been speaking to that many people lately. Like maybe one person. Most people I know have either been busy with all their personal lives; family and friends, work, events or vacations. So I haven't talked to many people lately. So I can't remember if I ever did.

Her blog is Violetsiren90 if that helps at all. And I will say that has been true for me, I don't think my life has ever been this busy or mentally and physically draining before, so I would like to once again apologise for my shit response times, and to know that I am unintentionally doing it to almost everyone I speak to both irl and on the internet. I have at least 20+ message notifications at all times because I'm so backed up and then I just get overwhelmed. All this to say, I really need to get better at responding to people so they know I value them, their time, and their thoughts and opinions, and that the time inbetween them sharing those and my responses is not at all correlated with how much I value them. It's just my brain being unable to tackle the mountain.

To my knowledge, I never had a horrible life. Maybe some oppression at times.. Because my parents can be restrictive about lot of things in my life. Especially my mother who is the overbearing helicopter type.

We are one in the same here, but it was my dad who was the helicopter.

I'm still judgmental towards them about the oppressive tendencies I'd have because of them. And definitely reasons why I do hate them too.

Once again we're on the same boat.

But I wasn't abused by my family. Or anything like that. So my version of a complicated life is probably different than yours is though.. But it could be how you worded that too? I'm not sure. So I could be wrong.

I was mostly mentally abused but not in a direct way, my dad is a narcissist so it was that kind of like, gaslighting and can't cry otherise it'll be used against me, versus anything else. And like, I was spanked as a young kid but I don't resent them for that at all. I hate to admit it did teach me discipline because my actions had true consequences. But saying this, it wasn't a regular punishment, it was like.. when I had REALLLLLY screwed up as a kid. idk. I don't hate them for it. But I'm also not thankful for it.

But! Being the weird child who always enjoyed things that people lots of people hated since a young age, this isn't any different than that to me. Maybe that's how I think of it? Or.. Something along those lines.

Makes total sense to me. I liked odd things as well!

But... I just realized that I keep saying that... I don't think that I've ever heard of Bad Omens? I might've heard the band name before, but I'm sure I've never listened to their music. So I can't comment on them in general. But I know what you mean though. You have an eclectic view on your own personal interests that's drastically different from mostly everything else you'd enjoy. I know some people who are like that too.

I just need to say once again I adore the fact that you just... like.. understand what I mean. It's so incredibly refreshing and lovely and I can't thank you enough for that.

As for Bad Omens, they are rising higher in the metal scene. They'll be going on 'tour' with Linkin Park!! So that's cool! I love pretty much all of their songs, so if you ever wanna check them out, I totally reccomend them!

Yeah. Most of my family, friends, people I know are "authentic" in how we express ourselves. Most of us hate changing ourselves to make so many people like us, we'd rather people like us for who we are. Y'know the whole cliché commentaries of people accepting you as yourself is the simplest way to explain that. But I've always hated fake people. I'd never understand changing yourself for people, just to love other fake versions of yourself. I could have worded that a lot different than that.

No no!!! i totally get it!! That's how me and my mum are. Like why the hell would I change myslef to fit into a group a people who wouldn't like me otherwise??? Like?? I dont get that mentality at all. So the fact that that is just how you and yours are is awesome to me. I love it.

As for tattoos and piercings.. I think I know what you mean? Maybe? I knew a couple girls in school who had dermal piercings, and at least a girl, one of them, had to surgically get her dermal piercings removed.. And that was because the metal got trapped somewhere in her body, something like that. So I'll never get dermal piercings for that reason.

exactly! maybe i've just seen one too many "look what went wrong" videos or too many infection videos or idk dude. I just say that my brain is weird and leave it at that XD

My hair has been different shades of blue since November? I have the blue hair at the moment. Since my birthday is next week.. I might dye my hair blue again for now, and then maybe change it sometime after my birthday. Because blues and greens are usually the difficult colors to remove from your hair. I like the blue shades, and I also want to dye my hair green (but only certain shades though) but everyone ends up arguing with me about that. But I would dye my hair blue again, since I did like how the coloring was with those dyes. Not sure about green. And I'm not sure what color I would do after the blue is removed from my hair either. I'm probably thinking colors I haven't done yet though. But I always bleach my hair before dying it vibrant colors because I've always wanted the colors to be extra dark or vibrant depending on it's shading. And it helps that I usually get discounts for my hair when I'm going to my hairdresser, if I go to her, because it depends on styles.

Blue sounds rad dude. I find you cant really go wrong with it, so I hope you rocked that shit !!! Did you stick with it after? or have you since switched as it's been a minute since this was written. I'm gunna guess either Red or Orange just for funsies, but if you just kept the blue, rock on. I did that for about six years XD

My hairdresser gives me a discount too!!! XD

Yeah.. I should've learned how to sew. Or something. A hobby that did involve fashion. Because of being a little person, I'm a midget, then I'd have been able to learn how to create my clothes; based on sizes and styles. When it comes to some celebrities I follow - like any musicians and models with that style - are known to create their own clothing in whatever they want to fit their style but I'm not capable of doing that.

I hate to be the annoying cliche here but- it's never too late to learn something new. And I say that because it's a lesson I've seen repeated by my mom and grandfather. They are constantly learning new things. Like my mum for example, she was 48 when she picked up silversmithing for fun, and now she kicks all the ass at 51.

Sewing is allegedly 'easy' to learn too!! (or so I am told)

I would love to get back into creative hobbies but sometimes I do feel like I'm holding myself back too? Sometimes like I'm blocking myself.

I felt this in my soul.

"Like I wanna spend my days doing my creative hobbies so bad, and then I just.. don't. and then I scream at myself internally." Yes. That.

yes. that. indeed.

Apparently autistic people have creative abstract imagination from it being creative abstract imagination and thought processes. So where is that creative abstract way of doing these creative hobbies in ways I think might've helped me. But no. It's completely blocked for reasons that I don't know why that is. And it doesn't make sense why that is.

I think this may be me as well too. I want to do all of the things but then I just don't, and its another wasted day of either doom scrolling or reading. (I read a LOT)

I do that too. Like.. I do hate telling people I'm autistic because I have always assumed people would notice based on my mannerisms since I always thought it was obvious. The people closest to me know. But I think it's different for strangers, like some know and some don't know too. But the moment I mention my diagnosis to some people, there is a portion of those people who do treat me differently. But, regardless if they treat me differently, I feel like they should accept to me as I am in every way. If they're just expecting me to accept them as they have been, they should accept me as I am. It's that simple. So I may be the biggest cunt ever in these situations, which is fine, that's how I am if I know someone won't accept me as I am. Doesn't matter if the people are family, potential friends, coworkers, and people in general. Like if people expect me to accept how they are, they should accept me as I am too. You can't have it one way. I've never been the masking type.

YOU GET IT. EXACTLY. they just expect to be accepted, it's not evena question in their minds. So I damn well will expect the same thing, and if they don't I call that ableism tbh. And I will not waste my time on them at all. Like god forbid someone be a little different.

I hate that it's even a thing. Like. The second you bring it up and you can see in that exact moment who will treat you differently. and I hate that.

Exactly! Just because I'm a "slow" learner doesn't mean I don't learn... Everyone has a different way of learning. Some people are visual type learners, some are verbal learners, and some are kinesthetic learners.

I've had friends who were labelled 'slow learners' but they weren't properly accomodated in school for the way that they learn, so of course when everyone elses needs are met and theirs aren't they're going to struggle.

I used to know which learning I was, but I honestly can't remember now. I just know I'm not a verbal one cuz I have a shit verbal memory.

Which reminds me. There's four different types of autistic types.. Just like four different personalities. Their Personality Types in Asperger's: Fixated, Disruptive, Approach and Avoidant. I'm not a disruptive type. But I can say that I'm primarily avoidant (with approach and fixated in the mix). Avoidant is definitely my personality but I also have some of the mannerisms of approach and fixated too. Is what I meant to say.

I had to google this, and I can semi-confidently say that off the bat I identify with the Fixated and Approach -> moreso the cant shut up than the personal space violations, the most. I'm not disruptive at all, and I have bouts of the avoidant, but moreso when I was younger. I'm going to have to do some more research tho to get a better grip on the terms. Thank you for this! This is new info for me.

You're what.. Six years younger than me? At least five years younger. I can't remember what your birthday is. If you ever did mentioned that.

April of '99! That makes you the age of a lot of my friends XD. Most of them are 4-12 years older than me.

My birthday is next week. Like Yoongi, I would actually be the grumpy old person (who isn't that old), who just complains about every young generation. "Back in my day, this happened.." Even if you are younger, at least you know what a vhs is. I think. I'm just assuming that you do.

I've started to reach the "back when i was young" age and it freaks me out just a little.

Don't disappoint me with this.

Yes I know what and how to use a VHS tape XD I had Rugrats and 101 Dalmations (and more) on VHS for the first like....7? years of my life. On a semi related note, my first car was a '98, so I also know and used to frequently use music tapes/cassettes as well.

Oh! Adding onto the story of the daughter friend. This was years ago.. About fifteen years? We bumped into each other again, and we talked during that time. And tried reconciling the friendship. Which was very stupid of me to think that. Because she was older than the last time, I was expecting her to be different. Like she matured. But no. So when we were trying to reconcile, she invited me over to her house to hang out with her and even invited me to sleep over too. Her and her father (this was before my parents stopped being friends with him) came to pick me up at my house, since their new house (after they've moved), was so far away. She brought her boyfriend with her. So instead of us hanging out as old friends trying to spend time together like I actually thought, was just me being a third wheel to her and her boyfriend the whole weekend. Like why invite me over if we're not spending time?!

I'm sorry (no I'm not) but like... what a bitch??? I would never do that to a friend (I have a longterm bf). Like. I cannot IMAGINE doing that to a friend ever. How stupid must she... actually, nevermind, it's clear from what you've told me that she's barely hanging on to the handful of brain cells she had years ago. I'm sorry she's a shit person, you deserve and deserved better.

That's another thing I hated about her. Safe to say that family is not in our lives anymore. So they're definitely horrible people in my opinion.

GOOD.

"(Made me giggle when I read it in the first place cuz owning up to things like that is something I am notorious for doing.)" Because I see no point in lying to people. I own who I am, the good and bad traits of me. The balance of who I am. So why waste time trying to be another person. Why waste time lying to people. So my honest seems like I'm an insensitive person, even a cunt a times, but I see no point in lying.

E X A C T L Y. I've been called blunt, intimidating, too honest, etc. And I'm just like??? I'm just not lying?? Why do you want me to perform a personality like a court jester in order to gain social approval???

"But the sun is such a beautiful thing to have in life, to not go out and greet her every now and then." Not when you have heat intolerance in life. Another reason why I've rarely left my house during the summer.

oh that's so valid. When I get super hot I get SO overwhelmed. Like I bike to work (fastest way to get there), and where I am hit temps around 30 C when I would bike home, so by the time I actually got home I was hot, sweaty, overstimulated and just, a mess.

I solved this by showering in freezing water every single day. But for the 15 minute ride home I am miserable.

The heat tolerance is part of the sensory overload in autism for me.. It has been something that I've always had since I was a baby. Were you ever underwhelmed or overwhelmed in different temperatures?

YES. I h a t e being to cold or too hot. A little more than normal on either end of the spectrum is okay, like if I'm going swimming I let myself get warmer than I'm comfortable with cuz I know I will be in the water soon, or I'll ket myself get a lil extra cold so I can cozy up in 15 layers of blankets. But I hate the extremes.

If you ever wanted to read about it. - 💋

This is marvelous. Thank you.

Thank you so much for this, it was so so lovely to hear from you again. I truly love it. Even if I suck ass at response times. Like I've said in the past, I absolutely will get to it, just in my own time. I never fully ignore anyone, I just demand to be in the right mental space to respond with the same energy given, and sometimes that takes time. I never want anyone to send something in and have it feel like a waste of their time because I don't respond in equal if not more excitement or whichever emotion is necessary.

That being said, I hope you're well. I hope your hair is an amazing colour. Thank you for the new info and resource link! You are darling and I adore you.

I hope to hear from you again!!

[rpfofficial]

youre going to martinaise boy 🫵

ah shit.

[nemotiabound]

Your conjunx is a murderer you know. Gutter trash. Why would you ever choose Drift when you could have had someone prestigious like Pharma? A safe life would suit someone like you more than one with that feckless leaker.

" Speak of Drift like that again and I will show you just how precise these servos can still be. "

A deep seeded growl leaves the medic's intake as he glares daggers at the accuser. However ... they weren't wrong, were they. Those were thoughts he'd had himself when he had started discovering his own feelings for the swordsmech.

" Pharma is - was ... someone I held in high regard. He was someone I admired, cherished, wanted a life with. But ... ever since I met Drift in the Dead End, saved his life, I knew that there was something different meant for me. Call it fate, or divine providence, but ... our lives were bound from that moment on. "

There's the softest of a smile spreading across the CMO's face. It wasn't often he got to reminisce on the past he had with his conjunx afterall.

" Regardless of what he has done, who he had been, I will always choose Drift in this life or the next thousand more. I don't want prestige; could care less about that. Drift keeps me safe. He cares for me far more than anyone has ever before. "

A servo rests on his chassis, right over his spark as he reaches into that sparkbond to caress his other half. " I love him ... and without love, there is no meaning. "

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