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[dazaiaiko]

Hello! Hope you are having a good day/night. So sorry to bother you, could you write about Fyodor and Dazai (separately) meeting and dating S/O who is a young mom? Sorry if it’s weird and sorry if it makes you uncomfy.

its been a long time since I've written (college is a bitch) but i actually watched a movie about a single mom a week back so i might be doing something with this.

Note: I have yet to post Fyodor's part as it is a work in progress and I have named our S/O as her name is part of the story I have written, apart from this, everything is pretty similar to your request. Hope you enjoyed it<33

Characters : Dazai x fem!reader (young mom), tags : suicide, depression and death mentioned frequently

The recent talk of the neighbourhood circled around - a woman living alone with her toddler in a rundown apartment.

"who knows who the father of that child is...!"

Our subject of this rumour had applied to the quiet yet popular cafe Uzumaki.

Quite obviously in her early 20's, she sat in a corner of the cafe as the old couple took her interview. The afternoon was a quiet one, with two customers quietly sipping away their coffee in shared silence. The neighbourhood outside, quiet, as the streets basked in the afternoon sun. Summer was approaching..

She could make some miso soup for her daughter today and perhaps take her out for a evening walk. Breaking away from the daze, she returned her focus to the interview as she assessed her future employers.

The cafe owners were an old, childless couple. They had already made up their minds to take her in after the rumours travelling the streets reached their ears. However when catering to an organisation as special as the ADA, special measures were to be taken.

"So.... you know how to make coffee, bake goods, manage a register....have you learnt self defence perhaps?"

As she was about to answer, a hoarse voice spoke out behind her, from one of the tables, as a man in his 20's donning a brown coat spoke without moving his gaze from the open book in his hands,

"I believe the lady here has learnt how to wield a knife efficiently, Perhaps Judo when you were young, although I can tell you're out of practise." He looked up from his book to flash a bright smile as he made his way to their table.

"Dazai, Dazai Osamu. And You are..?"

"Hana Shinigami, nice to meet you. And yes you would be totally correct if not for the fact that I am in-fact not out of practise, just out of posture." She flashed a professional smile as she returned her attention to the old couple.

"Ah it seems I judged too fast. However! you bear quite an interesting name! 'Belladonna' pales in comparison!"

Hana - Kanji: 花 means withered flowers often associated with funeral/death

Shinigami - Kanji: 死神 means Goddess of death

"Should I be honoured? My parents were funeral directors so death is quite well imbued in a family like mine. Although, I wouldn't be wrong to think you are way too excited to be encountering someone associated with death, would I?" She giggled as the thought itself seemed ridiculous.

Having seen her parents being ridiculed their whole life for naming their daughter with such an ominous name, she couldn't help but laugh at the childlike amusement of the man she had just met.

"Death is to come to us all, so why fear it and to some the sweet release of death is what keeps them going."

"I see......oh! look at the time, I need to pick up my daughter now then, please excuse me."

"Surely yes, You can join work starting tomorrow and since the cafe is empty and quiet most of the time, you can even bring your daughter here. It would surely liven up the atmosphere."

She nodded at their requests while she said her farewell and went off to the distant as Dazai's gaze remained in her direction. It was the first time he had not called someone Belladonna. How could he when her mere name was a poetic mesh of words he longed for.

The next month passed in a flash as the cafe brightened up by their newest addition- Aoi Shinigami. Her laughter and giggles filled the cafe as she ran around in her little dress, falling and crashing into the legs of the customers.

ADA's recent activities had involved playing with the little star as she hid under tables and chairs, complained about her mother to them all while small jewel like drops fell from her eyes when she expressed her anger and sadness. Her crying would make these renowned individuals come running from their desks to attend to her needs.

Yosano and Kyouka dressed her up in cute outfits and took pictures of her (the pictures adorning their desks as we speak) , Atsushi dropped her off to her preschool and picked her up while Hana worked her shifts, Ranpo even shared his secret snack stash with her and spoke to the oblivious child about cases as she happily gobbled up the sweets (according to him, it helped him think better), Fukuzawa might have added her to his "new kitten" collection on his phone with countless pictures of her curled up taking a nap (a picture of her playing with the cats lying in his phone), Kunikida became her unpaid teacher as he taught her hiragana and katakana in his spare time (he even attended her PTMs) and the siblings became her unofficial babysitters.

How could they let her be when she looked at them with those round hazelnut eyes and dark hair, mumbling incoherent nonsense, whenever she stumbled upon a problem too big for her little hands to handle.

These days you could see the agency transmigrating their office downstairs to the cafe to keep an eye on their little angel sprightly playing around and talking about her friends from school, babbling and muttering about worldly issues and falling asleep in the most random places. Once they found her curled up under atsushi's desk with her head resting on his shoes. What a sight to behold.

Recently they even went to her annual sports event, clicking pictures, cheering for her (even more so than her own blood mother) and taking her for a treat when she did well in her little tests. Hana couldn't be more satisfied with her life. The Uzumaki owners had offered their downstairs floor to her after learning about her living condition, for a cheap rent of course.

Her daughter's days were filled with intellectual people who doted her unconditionally. Her life was simple, quiet and filled with laughter and summer this time seemed more warm than the past four summers.

Dazai too, adored the little star however his attention could be found more focused elsewhere. His eyes followed Hana everywhere with his mind always on the topic of their conversation. Their conversations were witty banters and philosophical debates on the way of life which was quite unusual but they quite enjoyed it over a cup of coffee.

Slowly but surely this unusual union of two people would start opening up to each other.

The evening Hana had opened up to him about her past, they were drinking on the rooftop while the rest were watching a show with her daughter downstairs. The show must have been funny as their laughter could be heard every other minute.

Feeling comforted in the cold night, with laughter and giggles drowning her words, she began her short yet tragic story, overcome with liquid courage,

"You know, I was infatuated, with a man 11 years older than me: Aoi's father.... I was immature and in love. A dangerous combination."

Taking a sip from her whiskey she continued, " He worked in the special armed forces. 'A reckless but fulfilling life', in his own words.

My entire pregnancy, I saw him 8 times, 8 times and then never again. Around that time during my third trimester, my parent's funeral house closed, as they went under debt... They jumped off a bridge with not so much as a final goodbye to their only pregnant daughter.

Not so much as an apology for what they were about to commit or even a second thought. Perhaps they thought if they embraced their death, they could embrace my namesake.

Not much later, came the news of his death, his body never came home. He was compromised abroad so the government refused to acknowledge him as their own.

This was the glorifying death he always talked about, dying in service to his people. Yet it would have been better if he had stayed. In the end he cared for the strangers on the street more than the mother of his child. It would have been better if he had just....stayed And the funniest part? The father of my child and my lover had forsaken all his money after his death to the mother he cut off years ago."

"It was never love, It was an arrangement of sorts, he really never cared."

"Yet here I am confessing my struggles to a man who is obsessed with the idea of imminent and painless death. I guess people's names really do determine their future."

No words were exchanged as the mere act of consoling her would be too harsh from someone who could completely resonate with the thoughts of her parents and lover in the moment of their deaths.

But he moved closer to her, still not uttering a word. Taking the glass of whiskey from her hand, he caressed her cheeks. The scarred bandaged hands moving across her face comforted her, it stopped the tears at the very least. Dazai didn't dare move, he glided his arms around her waist, pulling her slouching body from the chair in to his chest.

Then,

He kissed her. He sprinkled tender kisses on her closed eyes, her lips, her rosy cheeks, her cold hands, her shivering neck. He left no part untouched yet she didn't stop him. She reclined back into her chair with an arm around the man as she let it happen. The night passed in silence as Hana received not consolation but the physical presence and reassurance which she always had craved for,

not the sweet whispers of "eternal love", "being in their hearts" but their raw presence and Dazai offered it to her like a sweet drug she couldn't refuse.

She satisfied her addiction time and time again, The feeling was so sweet and intoxicating that it had become a vice and a blessing, yet she didn't think of it, she didn't let herself think of it when the moments passed.

Soon, he too started talking. He started talking about buried emotions, stories, friends and the distant past which kept lingering with an ominous shadow in his future, and his fears of the unknown for there was little unknown to him and she only listened with closed eyes and lips holding his hand in the deadly silence of the night.

This went on for over a year when their feelings, an entangled mess of emotions and desires as they refused to talk about it until the eventful day:

"Papa!" A noise called out from below as Dazai picked up the toddler.

"Whom are you calling, Aoi?", she pointed her little fingers towards him as she exclaimed gleefully, "Papa!" and ran off towards her mother working behind the counter in the wee hours of the morning.

Dazai, bewildered at the child's declaration, let out a uncontrolled laugh as glances were exchanged between him and the woman who plagued his every waking thoughts as one longing look was all they needed to label what they had, to build on what they had created and resume what had already begun.

THE END

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the rush i felt from writing this was immense. I'm sorry if my writing has become a bit dull from not writing for so long. Signing out- Byee

[myucchu]

s/o, atsushi and kyouka are misunderstood for a family

pairing: atsushi nakajima x reader (?)

genre: fluff, headcanos

albedo's note: this idea came to my mind and found it very cute ^^ so i hope you like it and sorry for any mistakes

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• being atsushi's lover meant sharing the apartment with him and kyouka and you didn't mind bc atsushi was your boyfriend and kyouka was a real angel with you . unfortunately they always had work to do consequently they leave you alone in the apartment. you weren't angry, it was their job and it was their duty to do it, but your days were so boring and sad without your beloved tiger and your little bff :(

• when they told you they had some days off you were really happy. you immediately proposed to go out to the amusement park to spend some time together

• poor babies, they couldn't say no bc you literally cried when they told you they were on break from the agency

• so yay! finally some time together!

• the day you went to the amusement park was all perfect and no, i'm not exaggerating. the sun shines in the sky and there were few people that meant that you didn't have to wait to get on the rides.

• you was so close to punch the guy who said kyouka was "tOo LiTtLe " to get on one of the rides, but atsushi stopped you and suggested you and kyouka to try out some of the prize games

• you caught a fish in one of the games and gave it to kyouka (you cried when she said she would call it y / n)

• in one of the games the prizes was a white tiger-shaped puppet which reminded you of atsushi

• after quite a few attempts (and money) you finally managed to take the puppet and you gave it to atsushi but he insisted that you had to keep it because you got it with your own strength and blah blah

• "atsushi darling, shut up and take this stupid puppet"

• he blushed and accepted the gift (finally-)

• after a while kyouka claimed to be hungry so you and atsushi decided it was time to eat something

• bad decision

• kyouka tried every type of food that the amusement park offered and it worried your and atsushi's wallet

• but hey, if it hadn't been for her this cute and embarrassing accident it wouldn't have happened :D

• you decided to go to a takoyaki shop because bby atsushi never tasted them

• so you entered and went to the store clerk

• completely normal right ? well until the clerk said :

"oh a young married couple and their beautiful daughter! how can i help you?"

• silence

• the boy asked you the question again, thinking that you wouldn't hear it, oh but you heard it loud and clear

• after a couple of seconds you literally got out of your mind

• young married couple ??? beautiful daughter ??? like , a family ????

• atsushi, red as a tomato, explained that yes , you and him were dating but not married and that kyouka was not your daughter but only a kind of friend

• you laughed lightly despite your cheeks burning. kyouka was silently dying of embarrassment

• you took the takoyaki and sat on a bench, still shocked for what happened

• atsushi tried to joke about it, asking if kyouka really seemed like a fusion between you and him

• kyouka, continued to eat as if she forgot everything (she remembered, she just wanted to forget)

• you decided to intervene but what you said only made atsushi blush more

• "i think it would be nice ..."

"eh? what?"

"get married to the person you love"

• atsushi.exe has stopped working

"or have children ..."

kyouka has sworn to have seen atsushi's soul leave his body

" i wouldn't mind having a family with you, atsushi"

"y / n, please stop it. you're killing him"

• when you got home, it was already night so you decided to go to bed immediately. kyouka wished you a good night and you did the same and then followed atsushi to your room

• as soon as you lay down on the bed you rested your head on his chest you were about to fall asleep when atsushi whispered something to you

"y / n-chan ..?"

"mh?"

"i wouldn't mind either ... you know...have a family with you"

• you blushed, apologizing to atsushi for saying those things, but he just giggles "no need to apologize." he said and put a kiss on your cheek

[myucchu]

rip akaashi 😔

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[007] — freak out!

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a/n: next update is hopefully going to be a written chapter so i’m excited 🥵

fun facts! —

iwaizumi didn’t know what the party was for, but he still tagged along either way

hinata and sugawara were in the middle of a really heartfelt reunion since they haven’t seen each other since high school before being interrupted by y/n freaking out

akaashi the entire time 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️

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Library Date 📚 Soukoku Highschool AU (Gotta thank my dear friend @mia_kapa00 for the lovely request 😊🥰) #bsd #soukoku #doodle https://www.instagram.com/p/CV8ELzhqoJ-/?utm_medium=tumblr

[dazaiaiko]

Can I please request dazai cheating on his s/O while she is pregnant 🤰if you have time and if you feel comfortable with it

*confusion* Are you both the same person???

Anyways!! Here you go! We all love a bit angst especially with Dazai :-

Requested by : anon @kittenwhiskers109

Warnings: Cheating on partner.Guys this is a requested fic and Cheating is in no way supported. Its pathetic truly and if you get triggers or don't wish to proceed further hence the warning has been placed.

CHEAT - Falling Apart

The sky was just as sombre tonight as it had been for a month.

Or perhaps it was not? Was it only you who saw it that way through your unclear visage while the night tried to shine in its fullest?

How could anything seem beautiful to you when you had spent nights waiting to be held and comforted again by your only family?

The stars which littered the jet sky were slowly getting blurred away in your vision fading away with the others and losing their individuality and personal importance just like you had faded into the background in Dazai's hectic and troublesome life.

Wondering when was the last time you had watched him smile at you with that fulfilling genuineness he used to shower you during those lazy Sunday mornings lying in bed and talking all about your week.

When was the last time he had surprised you with a date? When was the last time he had held you close with firm certainty of never letting you go? When had he whispered those sweet confessions of love as surprising and refreshing as your first?

They had now all become cherished memories of the past. Fulfilling memories yet bringing the nostalgia of the past. Unfair? Yes it was and also a curse. Would you want to relive them again? Perhaps you would. Perhaps you won't.

Only time would tell where you both tread. And where you will come across that dead end where you would only be allowed to let go of each other. Where you both stand right now in your moments of uncertainty and doubts in this relationship. Or perhaps only you?

Tears start falling when you realised that the effect of this won't reach only you but also the child who was going to be born out of your historic and passionate love. Your child you had once thought of as a boon of love and gift of everlasting happiness now became the cause of your worries.

Dazai hadn't been home in days and this made you first doubt yourself and then doubt the authenticity of this relationship. But now you were doubting his loyalty. It hurt to even fathom the vicious thought.....

The rattling of the doorknob startled you from your drowning thoughts as you looked up from the place near the window with half hope and half fear of what was about to occur.

"Hey love, I'm home."

"Hmm"

With a half-hearted look at your dishevelled state he removed his coat and shoes and slouched down on the sofa.

"How's the baby?"

"The child has a name Dazai. Chieko."

"Ah yes Chieko. was there any problem?"

"No. Rather where were you for a week?"

"You know love, just work."

You flinched at his blatant lie as he yawned and stretched on the couch without a care. You may have been in love but you were not foolish. The signs. There were plenty, the faint tint of lip gloss on his neck and the slight waft of perfume tingling your sensitive nose, of course there were the attempts of removing it with his own, but pregnancy had made you sensitive to the faintest of smells.

He wouldn't know that though, and obviously he must have prepared an answer if asked. A sadistic laugh made its way to your throat before you suppressed it. What had it come to now? From the days you used to bask in loyalty and truth, now you were deducing the other's actions?

"Y/n....Lets sleep for today, I will make it up to you tomorrow."

Lying beside him was hard without thinking about how it would be the last time, how your baby won't get to know her father...how you were going to be alone forever.

Morning came and so did the sombre news of your departure.

The note said:

"Give this ring to her Dazai. Tell her you had a pregnant wife at home. But if she already knew then I must say you both messed me up real bad. It doesn't hurt anymore to write this. I waited for a long time you know? For you to come up to me and confess everything and I would probably have forgiven you. But right now, it doesn't hurt anymore. If possible when our child is big enough I will surely send her to her father once in a while after 2 years. Till then don't dare to come near me. That's the least I could get as a parting gift from you.

-Used to be yours,

Y/n."

Wedding ring in his hand, as he frantically runs about in the apartment looking for any lasting trace of you. Wardrobe cleaned of your belongings. With only your wedding photo in his hand and memories streaming his head like a flood.

Running like a madman in the streets with only you in mind.

His multi-genius brain unable to track you for you had known him well for way too long to process his thoughts. Breaking down on the street as he realised the factors he forgot to include during his stupid affair. He hadn't fallen out of love, No.

He loved you. But pregnancy had made him confused, elated yet disappointed. He wanted more of you. He wasn't satisfied. But when he found your look-alike he couldn't stop to satisfy himself just until you gave birth. Then everything would have been fine.

Oh but how he was wrong. As he watches you a year later playing with a little angel in a park when he was visiting a nearby country, your homeland. The girl giggling in ecstasy in her mother's lap. You looked a lot brighter and smiled a lot more than you had in the last few months with him. And you, god, you looked gorgeous and he fell hard for you again, looking at the way you flashed that kind motherly smile while telling her to keep careful while running.

He could never forget the amazing 5 years he spent with you, but seeing you again made him want to spend more, perhaps your entire life, only if he could afford it.

You had always known you would have a girl. Mother's intuition as you called it. Though he could never understand. But only if he asked you more.

Tears of pain fall as he realises he could have been by your side right now, cooing at his little girl, and holding you tight in his arms, with his own little family, if not for his mistake. And now he had to wait until you gave him right to see his daughter.

THE END

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[dazaiaiko]

BSD Poe x female reader who is introverted and her ability lets her talk to nocturnal animals like Karl. Karl and reader talking while reader translates for Poe.🥰🥺

Hey there!! I finally got the motivation to write and Poe? Well he is a cutie 🥰 so here I go !!

"Karl...Let Poe's manuscript go now.....Slowly.....Yes, you did it..”

The raccoon who was creating a ruckus for the past half an hour finally gave in and let go of the piece of expensive writing paper with a grunt.

He jumped down from the high cupboard with agility and made his way towards the mistress of the house, you.

“Only this time though. Next time if I don’t get my premium imported cookies, I will chew Poe’s head next. Heh”

“I will try to bring them as soon as possible Karl….”

Karl finally put an end to the argument with a satisfied grin of having made his way yet again in this household as he laid down on your lap, ready for a quick nap.

As Karl drifted off to wonderland, Poe, who for the past hour was hiding behind an overturned sofa, came out. He looked frantically with panicked eyes at Karl lying peacefully in your lap.

Only then did he relax, realising the end of the tantrum, the third this week.

You looked around the parlour of your house as papers chewed lay strewn across the floor. Sofas overturned and ink dribbling down the fallen bottles. Although this wasn’t the only parlour in the house. There were so many that you had lost count. But still, the state of the room made you feel disappointed at the increased work for the maids.

Poe gently sat down beside you on the couch carefully so as to not wake Karl up again.

“I am so sorry love…I will see to it that the cookies arrive soon. And I will make sure the room is spotless and clean before long. I know you like cleanliness.”

You shake your head at your husband’s endless generosity. You both were newlyweds and so he never let you do anything around the house.

He treated you so well that you felt like a queen. But you needed something to do to last the time.

Tending to the gardens, helping Poe with his ideas, looking after the household, maintaining finances were your duties. Neither did you want to be overworked nor jobless, so the work was perfect for someone like you.

“It’s alright Poe….I am just worried we will be seeing more of these tantrums if those cookies don’t arrive soon”

“Seems like Karl is the real master of the house…I should tell the butler that..”

You both fell silent for a while before breaking into a quiet laugh as your head fell on his shoulders. Then silence arrived but a comfortable one. The silence one could bask in all day and still crave for more.

The chirping of crickets in your lawn could be heard in the hot summer afternoon. Paired with the melodious singing of the birds in the nearby trees. A dog could be heard barking in the neighbour’s mansion. The maids were heard giggling with each other as they mowed the lawn and watered the flowers. Downstairs the scent of lunch being prepared was also watering.

Such an afternoon was much seemed after by you. It symbolised such peace and serenity, what could one want more? And top of it having Poe right beside you all the time was also quite heavenly, since his work didn’t require him outside much.

You heard Poe sigh from beside you.

“Love, what do the crickets Chirp so loudly about?”

You couldn’t help but laugh at this question. Poe has always had a strong curiosity towards different topics and personalities and after meeting you his affinity towards animals had increased double fold and so had their appearance and importance in his books.

All owing to your ability of being able to talk and understand animals.

“Hmm…Poe, crickets chirp…to- umm how do I explain it….attract females for…mating?”

You couldn’t control your chuckle at his wanton expression of confound surprise. Learning something so surprising was new for your all knowing lover. It was quite rare to have caught him in ignorance of information.

You both were a quiet couple so having Poe this astonished and expressing himself was not something you got to see everyday.

“Do other animals do this too? No wait you have to listen to this everyday?? Can’t you mute out your ability??”

“If I could I would but it seems I have no option but to listen their feuds and other stuff…but don’t worry I feel more at peace with you. You cancel them out Poe, with just your voice, so just be there for me and talk to me…..?”

You blushed at having confessed something like this. You yourself were quite shy and avoided expressing yourself too much. Your cheeks grew red with passing time as no reply continued to come out of Poe. You kept your head still on his shoulder, listening to his breathing.

While Poe wasn’t too far off either. One would think he got a heatstroke at the rate he was turning red.

You stood up to leave quietly when Poe’s hand gently grabbed your wrist. You didn’t have a chance to think before you were pulled back down on the couch with your head on his lapsed his hands in your hair, Twirling your hair.

“Don’t look up okay…? And do you mind if I talk to you about the idea of my new book….”

You could imagine his face all tomato red and embarrassed for acting this proactive but you liked it nonetheless. The afternoon was making you brave and the peace was making him bold.

You smiled gently at his kindness as he willingly wanted to become your noise cancelling headphones. Also, You could use some break from the noises surrounding you all the time.

“Why not? I think Karl would love it too” as you glanced at Karl who had now woken up and was settled beside you, all ready to listen to Poe intently.

Well this afternoon was going to be fun.

Thanks for bearing with me @ravenina14 I finally felt satisfied with what came out in this fic. I hope you like it too!! And I will finish the other one soon too.

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[myucchu]

Cool Off

➤ fluff; drabble || akutagawa ryūnosuke x reader

"I don't want to move," Was the gruff response of Akutagawa when you tried to pull him away from the park bench.

"But... we still have a lot of places to go to," You pout.

"It's too hot to move around."

"Well, maybe if you removed your co–" A simple glare from him stopped you mid-sentence.

He crosses his arms and looks away, sighing. There goes your plans for today. You try to reach out to him but decided against it.

"Um... I'll be back," You mutter. Turning around and walking away, you leave him alone for now. Akutagawa glances at you from the corner of his eye but makes no move to follow you. The heat was unbearable today and he just wanted to go home already.

But a part of him wanted to stay too. He doesn't want to disappoint you.

It was a few minutes later that you came back. Standing in front of him, you hold out two ice cream cones, offering him one.

"Here," You smile. "This might help us cool off."

He stares at the cold treats for a while before deciding to grab the chocolate flavored one.

"Thanks."

"I'm sorry we had to go out today," You say as you take a seat beside him. "We can go home now if you want."

Akutagawa shakes his head and looks up at the sky.

"No, it's okay," He says while holding up the ice cream cone. "I am happy we can spend time like this."

You chuckle at the sudden change in his expression and he looks at you questioningly.

"What?"

"Nothing," You moved a little closer to him and kissed his cheek. "Thank you, Ryū."

If his expression was any sign, Akutagawa miserably failed at hiding his surprise. He turned the other way, slightly coughing and covering half his face.

Whether it was from the coldness of the ice cream, or the sweetness that was you, he isn't quite sure.

But one thing's for certain, Akutagawa really is happy to be with you. And for the rest of the day, he couldn't stop the small smiles that would form on his lips whenever you talked and moved closer and closer to him.

[dazaiaiko]

𝕄𝕌𝕊𝕀ℂ 𝕆𝔽 𝕐𝕆𝕌ℝ 𝕃𝕆𝕍𝔼

Pairing: Dazaix fem!Kpop reader

Summary: As Dazai watches your new music video he reminisces about your time together and the time yet to come……

"Kunikida kuun~! Let me go home today? please? my sweet love will be all alone at home!! I have to kiss her right now and then hold her wai--!!!!"

"STOP right there- I still don't know which poor soul would wait for you but just get out of here for now!! And work overtime tomorrow!!! OI DAZAI! Are you even listening to what I am saying?!"

Of course he wasn't. He had already turned around and was rushing out of the ADA office as soon as he got the permission to.

His coat in hand, as he rushed through the myriads of streets, blindly trusting his feet which were navigating his way home. The cold not bothering his shivering hands and no apologies tumbling out of his mouth for the people when he pushed the out of his way.

Not even turning around to look at a lady whom he crashed into, as well as forgetting to ask her out for a double suicide. Totally unlike him.

His mind was occupied only in the thoughts of seeing you again after a long long time.

He opened the door to his apartment, once again sighing at the dull and empty space he lived in, half expecting someone to jump-scare him from behind and for that someone to be you.

This living room used to be so lively and aesthetic when you had come to visit him last month but now? It was littered with pictures of you and him scattered across the floor. DVD's lying around in hopes of being returned to their rightful place. But it would never happen, not until it was you who returned into his arms and reprimanded him for the mess.

After all it was your home too.

He changed into his comfortable clothes and took out his laptop on the white stainless bed. A cup of steaming coffee in one hand and his another adjusting the headphone on his head.

The headphone burst with life as the wait for the premiere of a newly uploaded song started.

The song "On the ground" was about to be released on all platforms today, for the very first time. The singers, A K-pop idol group consisting of four people and among them the lead vocalist - Y/n, you.

That one person who had managed to manipulate his heartstrings, as he liked to call it. Or made him fall in love as you liked to call it.

Opposite in thoughts but similar in ideals. That's what your relation with him summarised to.

Your meeting was bizarre to say the least. Encounter at the backstage during one of your shows and during one of his investigations.

Your sweet voice had enchanted him. You were a hotshot around the world. He had expected that scornful glare and mocking look when he accidentally bumped into you but instead he found a hand being held out to him.

The stadium full of people calling your name, yet you held patience and kindness, one his eyes were lacking of. Not budging from your position until he held your hand and accepted your help.

You were like that in your relation too. Never backing down until he accepted your help and let you guide him through the dark.

Dating for 7 months, yet seeing each other only 6 times out of that. But he could not feel the need to even glance at another woman for more than a second with or without your presence.

You felt so fulfilling.

In your absence never did he feel empty, you did not let him. Instead he felt the rushing adrenaline whenever he waited for your return to the place you both called home.

He did not feel lonely, your voice reached him 1000 miles away, your sincerity touched him like a rushing storm, your voice addicted him like sweet but burning sake, yet your love was not too scorching. It was warm like the spring sun.

In the bitter midst of winter he felt as if he was in - spring.

His string of thoughts broke once he heard the sweet yet melancholy tune of the song starting. The live comment section was full of people cheering on the members of your group, commenting on their beauty and talents.

He smiled at the comments which supported you but then one comment made him clench his fists.

ANONYMOUS: Damn I would love to take one of those girls right then and there

USER123: LOL yes look at that hottie in black. Feel like ruining her now.

ANONYMOUSXD: Have they gained weight? Don't they care for their figure?!

He frowned at the comments which were downright drooling over you and hating you at the same time. He wanted to take you away from the prying eyes of these scums who always wanted to degrade you but it was your decision and being in the industry for so long you knew how to deal with them properly.

Yet it never failed to irk him, having to watch these scums lewdly dreaming of his Bella or downsizing your confidence.

Then his attention was taken away by your figure which lit up his screen. The song was fully raging now, it being about a lover who was far away from you and you were drowning in memories of him and regret of being away.

Your group danced along to the music with different scenes at the back. The MV was beautiful and you pulled off every outfit you wore.

The lyrics went on with a soothing effect when your part came. Your vocals gave the music a tangy turn and the lines went along:

"My world's been hectic, seems electric But I've been waking up with your voice in my head And I'm tryna send a message and let you know that Every single minute I'm without you, I regret it"

He smiled inwardly on realising your secret message. You were coming home, soon.

He felt giddy with excitement as he thought about lazy mornings in your arms, your fingers threading through his hair, watching cheesy Rom com and laughing hysterically at comedy shows and most of all being there with you physically instead of replaying your songs and videos of you and him for the millionth time on lonely nights with sake in hand.

Every day, every night I've been thinkin' back on you and I Every day, every night

I worked my whole life Just to get right, just to be like "Look at me, I'm never coming down" I worked my whole life Just to get high, just to realise Everything I need is on the Everything I need is on the ground

Your voice blared through his headphones as the lines kept repeating in his mind, you were coming, right?That's what this indicated, right?

Being a man who took pride in his intellect but he couldn't help but doubt his conclusion this time. What if he was disappointed after all this planning and dreaming. What if your company and manager found out about you and him and told you to break it off before you could meet him one last time.

What if you fell in love with one of those boys in the kpop industry people so often shipped you with.

His mind slowly drifted away from the music as he continued to think and rethink about the possibilities of never being able to talk, feel or touch you ever again.

His head hurt from the million events that could occur to pull you both away from each other. To make him lose his source of constant light.

Suddenly the music hits him with these lines.

I worked my whole life Just to get right, just to be like "Look at me, I'm never coming down" I worked my whole life Just to get high, just to realise Everything I need is on the Everything I need is on the ground

You were never coming down. You were too high up for him to reach.

Your place belonged in the throne of the stars whereas he was only ever allowed to glance at your majestic and ethereal beauty but never to touch it with his filthy hands stained with the blood of others.

He was not allowed to taint you with his selfish requests and dreams.

But still he hoped to be selfish. To be able to properly bid you goodbye from his life. To be able to melt in your touch once again before having to let go of everything he considered the reason to see the next morning.

Read your good morning messages or hyping you up before an press interview. Talking to you while making coffee while you scolded him for not eating a healthy breakfast.

He loved it all. It made him feel normal, these moments made him alive.

He realised he had been truly living for the past 6 months. Living in your light, warm love, in wait of your embrace and feeling all of those emotions he had only ever read or heard about.

But would the sun of his spring fade into the gloomy winter too soon? Would he never get to see this spring again?

He had been too lost to hear the doorbell of his apartment ring. When his mind finally registered the interruption he got up slowly, his thoughts weighing him down as he made his way to the door.

Absent mindedly he opened the door to reveal an above average tall woman dressed in a white coat, sunglasses covering her eyes. Half of her face was covered with a black mask to avoid unnecessary attention.

But oh Dazai could recognise this masked face everywhere. She was his light and a meagre being like him could never afford to forget his benefactor.

You lifted your sunglasses up and dropped all your bags to the ground. You jumped him as you recognized your new song playing in the background. His soft scent of coffee and book lingering in your nose as you finally felt home.

He felt the air being sucked out of him as you pounced on him, your legs hanging from his waist and your arms round his neck.

He felt himself smiling with tears in his eyes as he hugged you back with the same force, you were here. With him.

He had missed you too much.

He felt the crook of his neck tickle as he felt you speak,

"I am home Osamu.."

THE END

Song lyrics from the song - on the ground by Rose from black pink!!

Here's what I promised! Now Byee! See you when I complete my next request!! Plus exam pressure ^^ 🔪

Comment if you want a chuuya of the same AU. Am going to do one anyways

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[dazaiaiko]

꧁༒ 𝑀𝒶𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓁𝒾𝓈𝓉༒꧂

🖋 ARMED DETECTIVE AGENCY ⚖️🕊

Fluff

A date - 💕

A music for your love - 💞

Angst

Memories - 💔

A squeeze - 💔

Infidelity - 💔

Headcannons

How he would break up with you- 💔

Cat antics - 💕

Pregnancy - 💕

With a lawyer s/o - 💕

Wedding day - 💕

Losing your pet - 💕

Analysis

Dazai Beyond his Bandages

Fluff

Angst

Memories - 💔

Headcannons

Fluff

A Hug Better Than a Thousand Words - 💕

Angst

Headcannons

How he would break up with you - 💔

Fluff

Angst

Headcannons

[dazaiaiko]

Can I please have dazai from bsd cheating on his s/O while she is pregnant. Olympic if you fell comfortable and when you have time

Hey there! sorry for the late! here's the link to this request : click me!!

[myucchu]

Innocent Sparks 🎆

“You make my heart flutter, I feel so light on my feet when I'm around you. Like all my worries melt away like cotton candy when my lips meet yours.

I also fluster so easily when you suddenly pull me into an embrace. I can't ever get used to it, I'm easily shaken by your natural charm. It's no wonder I can never get you out of my mind.

Is it too soon to make you my life partner? Sure, our love is like wildfire, starting out in bright embers that are spreading so fast I'm feeling dizzy. I want to make our flame last, so maybe it wouldn't be so bad to stay with you longer this way?”

— Stardust 🌠