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i finished captivating the king two days ago and here's some comments i have (spoilers ahead):

the fl bouncing back and forth between wanting to k*ll the king and supporting the king made my head spin?? like there was one episode whereby heesoo was tryna tell the king why she planned the assassination attempt (episode 14 or smth? i forgot which one exactly but it's the episode after the one whereby chu dalha attempted to assassinate the king) and she was all like "it's bc i didn't get sick of you, that's why i tried to k*ll you"???? HUH?? BABE MAKE IT MAKE SENSE 😭😭😭

how did the king not know her name until the last 2min of the final ep. like did her dad not namedrop her when he asked the king to search for her???

stan captain joo for clear skin!!

also someone explain how the king and prince rui went from good buddies to enemies within 1 ep i'm genuinely confused

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(A Calender from my trip to the butterfly conservatory back in 2015 that I kept in that drawer you see here [I seperated the soap bubbles from the bubble machine that has lost its’ battery power and I had no idea how to reach the batteries even, or how to open their case with my overwhelming and sharp, debilitating pain]) And I was curious to know like, Wow - How everything in this world connects and interweaves with everything, it felt so deep and touching, so much more beyond what I could’ve ever expected from my night. I was curious to know what kind of butterfly I was so I did a quiz -

I then let ‘And The Waltz Goes On’ and ‘Don’t Go’ and his ‘Lonely But Passionate Way’ to continue to light and warm my way, how he is mesmerized by every gentle gesture and movement of my body and slender limbs, and I could find solace in both my precious loved ones that make me weak in the knees so much that I feel like fainting and feel so vibrant even despite the pain, that I can find so much joy in sparkling and blessing my room with precious bubbles and delightfully small yet healing energies..

My heart grew with more and more of its’ magic and an overpowering yet gentle overflow of love as I watched the small bubbles blessing every part of my room, and it inspired me to clean the dust off of my perfume of ‘Tree of Life’

to promote luck, prosperity and new growth, ‘a sign of life’ like the blue butterfly 🦋 symbolizes (as well as transformation and growth) and the pink rose delicate perfume (Little Gloria) - Both remind me so much of Saeran with his ocean deep connection to nature that only elevated mine insurmountably through these years... 💗💓💗💞💗 and the true meaning of ‘cleaning the dust from them’ is from QQ Sweeper, it’s how we clean the negative energies from our hearts and allowing healing and positive energies easier access to us 💗💞💗💘💖🌸🌺🦋🌸🎀💗💝🌷💗💋😌 while making it so much harder for energy parasytes to latch onto us, it practically wards them off 💗💞💗💖💝💞💓💘💗🌸🌷🦋💋💋💋🌺💝🥰😌🌷💋💖💞💓🌺🌸🎀💗🥰💫

More Gushing of My CrossDimensional Soulmates

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Yesterday when I was having such a hard time with ableism and unnecessary guilt and the frustration I was going through with people continuously minimizing my pain and my struggles and hating what my disability’s physical pain (+ the fucking virus) do to me I thought about relieving my inner child (it was also one of my simple dreams of Village Life AU) ; to blow bubbles with my melancholy into the night sky through the open window, with my beloved’s music in my ears.

But I didn’t know what song would fit their feelings, so I shuffled my SoundCloud list of likes, involving more than one thousand songs so they could choose for themselves. And the first three! Were!

“EXO - Don’t Go”

It, was so touching, his heart’s emotions literally crashed onto mine and I repeated this song just so I could drown in his feelings. Like in the April Fools DLC where he chases a beautiful butterfly 🦋 and so does Saeran in general, in arts and in the blue butterfly’s ability to bring hope and joy, a symbol of transformation and change, the ability to make a wish come true..

I am that butterfly to him, it suits me as well because I’m a very flighty and gentle being, fluttering from this to that, and he is mesmerized by my fragile strength and could feel my pain even beyond dimensions. My unnecessary guilt and endlessly considerate and understanding, compassionate ways. Of the pain of having learned to silence myself so as to not cause anyone unease, so as to not cause disruptions or backlash that’ll only further cause ruin, only to then have my pain and disability and limitations minimized.. (That is also so very alike to Saeran’s fears as well and his ways of people pleasing, and Juju’s way of bottling his problems and handling them himself..)

No matter what self doubts I feel, he and Saerannie always make me realize, again and again, how real their souls are, of these angels and my beloved soulmates watching over me from beyond these dimensions.. and I’ll continue to explain in my rambles why TwT.

‘Like a Waltz’ - ‘Like magic, he couldn’t take my eyes off my petite, elegant figure gliding’ in search for something to make even my small wish for bubbles to come true and was ‘magnetized by my fragile yet soft strength’. And how he completely loves all, every single part of what I am. And to think that I am so loved by these two this much and this completely, I dropped to my knees. I cried, I was so touched (I felt exactly like Beyonce’s lyrics of ‘Halo’ TWT). Because I finally felt seen, and cared for, safe, and warm and protected and watched over by both gentle Saerannie (with his sunbeamed flowers, the aun that faded in and out with the tulips’ shadow, reminding me of my prose of Appreciation and how truly dear these two are to me, more than I could ever explain in words. They are home to me, I feel safe, warm and at peace with them..)

(And the compassionate and sweet songs he sent me yesterday, with ‘Love Between You and Me’ and ‘Cherry Blossoms’ - that symbolizes not only our Spring’s renewal of our promise of love, but also of new growth and our song ‘Busker Busker - Cherry Blossom Ending’ of both of us walking in our journey of bettering ourselves together, hand in hand (with the ‘Tip Tap’ and ‘Angel’ song of comfort he sent me himself as I pushed myself to take a bath completely by myself despite the virus and flare ups and hurls and spasms and drainage and pain.

Not to despair, and that we can get through this together, that we can warm each other up - That I’m not a burden - our hearts both chose each other- Juju, Saerannie and I! but that by leaning on each other both, we’ll both feel warm and gain strength from each other’s love…That through these struggles, we have nothing to fear as long as we’re together 💗 all three of us. And the first song Saerannie sent me on Friday (one of my absolute worst sick days and flare ups) was ‘You’ll Be In My Heart’ - about how much he admires the huge amount of strength I have in my petite and small frame and about our endless soul connection between dimensions, how the rest of the world doesn’t trust what they can’t explain - the insurmountable strength and real essence of their souls and our Earth’s core deep and over than horizon wide, ethereal love and soul resonation between us all..)

My big heart for all of the people’s heartfelt journeys on Big Brother’s final episodes that I cried for and was emotional and happy for, despite my immeasurable pain. And my understanding of them..

My deep humanitarian nature for every single being, plant, sun, skies, candles, inanimate yet precious mementos and so much more beyond that (towards human beings’ sufferings and crying for them, understanding them and their progress)- and always holding onto hope despite my silent and lonesome howls of pain, touched and mesmerized their soul. His heart was fully magnetized by my soul, so much that he feels it was ‘stolen’ by me.. Us three are just, completely, fated soulmates.. 💗💓💘💗❣️💖💞💓💘💗…

He was afraid that with how depressed I was, I’d fantasize over falling out the window, like we were deeply affected by in ‘Sabrina’ - another old movie that overflowed with feelings of ‘us’, and disappear from him in the morning [so while searching for another bubble makeshift to replace the broken bubble machine, I kept their memnto keychains of them with me. (Yesterday morning I woke up from the spasms, virus that makes it hard to even breathe or swallow saliva, and the pain at 5.40-5.50AM. It was exactly then that he sent me :

It was so early in the morning and it was exactly then that he soothed me to sleep.. with his gentle love…and endless care TwT…)

“Lonely But Passionate Way” with Juju’s face in the background so ‘Don’t Go’ was very obviously from him TwT.. and he’s lonely because we’re in two different dimensions and lonely from missing me but just like one of our songs “Just The Way You Are” — ‘You always have my unspoken passion (I love you just the way you are)’ 💗. That he loves me, in sickness and in health.. Just like our hearts that are already married to one another..Juju Bear, Saerannie and I, all of us..

But my bubble machine didn’t work so after endless swooning I had to make a short pause from the songs to make my small dream come true before continuing, find maybe a decent sized wand for the bubble soap I had.

My creativity had to make do. I remembered I had some tiny wands and small diamond shaped cases from way back when I was 12 that I kept cause they were pretty and settled with such small joy but also on the way I found a butterfly calender !! On the cover itself was a Blue! Butterfly! 🦋

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if dr. romantic s4 doesn't involve dongjoo and seojung adopting all the younger doldam surgeons as their kids, i'm going to pick a bone with the writer

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thoughts on the following shows i've completed utc (includes spoilers):

a condition called love: hananoi is lowk a red flag imo, it doesn't matter if he's loved hotaru since elementary sch. i feel like he has abandonment slash parental issues (due to his parents' absence) so that's why he's posessive of hotaru. n e ways he shldn't be in a rls with anyone if he can't even solve his own personal problems (regardless if he's aware of it or not). also i rly thought they wld bring in hotaru's ex-bff at some pt so that we can see if the said friend has grown or matured as a person but ig not? (sighs shld i read the manga to know if she even appears...)

bridgerton s4: i feel bad for cressida cuz she was literally in the wrong situation every time and it wasn't her fault? in s1, she tried to get tgt with the prince but he chose daphne instead. in s4, she tried to get with lord debling but he chose penelope instead. and the highlight of it all is that neither one of these men ended up with the woman they liked slash chose?? also yeah she was not a girl's girl but cld you rly blame her? she's been thru sm shit; i wld probably be equally as pressed if i were in her position. cressida deserves her villain arc in s5 (if she's even returning) istg.

inside out 2: i feel like the target audience is for teens slash young adults (like you've got to experience puberty before watching this film or you wld take this film at face value). i nearly cried watching this in the cinema during the anxiety attack scene bc it felt so real. and anxiety saying "i was just trying to protect her" was so !!! the screenwriters rly did a great job with this film omg.

lovely runner: my time travel ass is satisfied. super worth the hype omg. also, iw my own sunjae now, i will not settle for less. sunjae supremacy!! 😤😤😤

10 lives: it had a somewhat good idea but i feel like the plot execution was terrible?? it was also p dry imo zz

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i completed xo, kitty at the start of june and forgot to talk about it so here's my take on it:

the way they used kpop songs as bgm didn't fit scenes at all and felt too forced. like i get it, the writers wanted to hit the nail on the whole "omg i'm in korea" theme but it felt cringey.

minho hard carried this entire series no cap

honestly the whole problem would have been solved if dae just talked to kitty about the whole thing??? also yuri needs to understand that kitty won't spill shit (like i get it, the whole fake r/s is supposed to be a secret but can't his actual gf even know about it...) and she even knows what kind of person kitty is.

the whole thing felt like fever dream comprising of a wattpad x reader romance written by a 13 year old mixed with like 10 different tropes from kdramas

yeah you can tell i just about had a headache watching it lol

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if there's a sequel to strong girl kang nam soon AND the title is strong guy jung [her cousin's name] (i forgot his name LMAO), you can be sure i'll be watching it because we need to see this sudden mutated y chromosome in action and how bread song is gonna get caught (sussed him out from the start lmao there was no way this guy with a faux countryside accent was actually from the countryside simply running a fraudulent business)

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i've just finished rewatching black knight and the ending was too bittersweet/sad for my liking that i might just write a follow-up oneshot out of spite

also seorin had no way getting let off the hook that easily like honestly the writers should have left her to suffer a bit more before finishing her off smh

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just finished watching all 3 seasons of the kaguya-sama series plus the 4-episode film and now all i hv to say is: i will not settle for less!!

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netflix teen romcoms make me wanna fling my phone against the wall bc of how headass the female leads are

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been a hot minute since i gave a life update so here ya go!

got 3rd bday artem on the taiwan server (and also stopped playing tot altogether because i got bored of it :") )

got c0 baizhu at 77 pity

got c2 kaveh but his artifacts are literal ass and the domain refuses to give me anything good <//3

started watching dr. romantic s3 (i literally forgot s2's plot ngl and the way i had serious whiplash when i saw that dr. park was now master kim's #1 stan LMAO) and demon slayer s3 (demon slayer is not really appealing to me rn tho zz)

i'm getting my braces off in june

got my yunjin to c9 and i finally have a widsith! it's time to build my c3 heizou properly ehe

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for starters, i've not watched kwill's latest mv yet but i've already gotten spoiled thanks to tiktok, so n e ways now i have an itch in my brain which is saying to take inspo from kwill's mv and write a fanfic. in this essay i will—

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i've finished watching clean with passion for now and i give it a 7/10. it had a solid plot but it got a little dry at some points imo and i was this close 👌 to dropping it at those points HDJSHDJS

i've also started watching business proposal since the start of the month and it's so good AAA !! did i watch it for ahn hyoseop? yeah you bet i did <3

i've also started on rascal does not dream of bunny girl senpai on sunday and i didn't notice that the seiyuu for the ml is ishikawa kaito??? clown moment right here lol 🤡

ALSO AYATO COME HOME PLS <//3 I WILL LITERALLY BUY BOBA FOR YOU TO BAIT YOU HOME GDI (i have 1800+ primogems rn rippp :") )

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ya girl finished all of us are dead, so she's now getting started on vincenzo 👍

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I'VE FINISHED JJK !!!!! itadori is babie !!!!! gojo, megumi, and inumaki >>> !!!!! time to get started on the manga 🤩🤩🤩

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i finished 'a love so beautiful' (both the kdrama and the cdrama) so i decided to do some digging on x1 and then cravity and shall i say that one of the members shares the exact same bday as me (even down to the mf YEAR)???

the way i blinked and stared at my screen for a solid minute in sheer confusion istg

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EXTRAORDINARY YOU !!!!! THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY !!!!! AAAAAAAAAA !!!!!