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~ welcome to my rec list for stray kids! Iâll have sfw and nsfw fics in different sections!đ please feel free to find something to read and show these writers some love!! if you would like my opinion on a fic, I have reblogged all of them with my love and appreciation and will provide a link to said reblog which will be this â©! I hope you are having a lovely day/nightđ (donât forget to reblog the fics you like) This list is updated everyday!
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~ Bang Chan
  *SFW
⧠six seconds âž @sulfurcosmos â©
⧠galanthus girl âž @thevampywolf â©
⧠whatâs yours is mine âž @rachalixie â©Â
⧠lover of mine âž @sulfurcosmos â©Â â©
⧠stations and destinations âž @sulfurcosmos â©
⧠opposites attract âž @sulfurcosmos â©
  *NSFW
⧠purple flame âž @therhythmafterthesummer â©
⧠runaway princess âž @therhythmafterthesummer â©
⧠legendary âž @lavenderbexlatte  â©Â â©
⧠falling rain âž @staytheword â©
⧠for reasons wretched and divine âž @noramoons â©
⧠the color of water âž @lixesque â©
~ Lee Minho
  *SFW
⧠little paw âž @violet211221â â©
⧠flustered âž @aakomii â©
⧠dear minho, have you ever felt love before? ➠@sungbeam  â©
⧠cursed âž @lotus-dly â©
⧠cursed pt2 âž @lotus-dly â©
⧠kitty love âž @linovely â©
⧠written on paper âž @starseungs â©
  *NSFW
 ⧠iridescent âž @tasteleeknow â©
 ⧠bunny âž @tasteleeknow-remade â©
 ⧠euphoria âž @cherrydumpling â©
 â§Â itâs high tide, baby. âžÂ @lettersfromaphrodite â©
~ Seo Changbin
  *SFW
⧠between the lines âž @lixesqueâ â©
⧠showstopper âž @mxxndreams â©
⧠too many feelings âž @sulfurcosmos â©
  *NSFW
⧠under your skin previewâž @kwanisms â©
⧠finding comfort in autumn âž @therhythmafterthesummer â©Â
⧠respite âž @fizzydrink698 â©
⧠good luck charm âž @dreamescapeswriting â©
⧠prompt fic âž @ppiri-bahng â©
~ Hwang HyunjinÂ
  *SFW
⧠up all night âž @ppiri-bahng â©
⧠11:11pm âž @starseungs â©
⧠goodnight n go âž @cosmic-railwayxo â©Â â©Â â©
⧠sunshowers in spring âž @sulfurcosmos â©
⧠traditions âž @h0neydewmoon â©
  *NSFW
⧠solve for ex (tell me why) âž @lixesqueâ â©
⧠honeyed milk âž @straywrds â©
⧠come here âž @hh0320 â©
⧠watercolor âž @jinhyun â©Â â©Â â©
~ Han Jisung
  *SFW
⧠paper airplanes âž @portalhan â©
⧠kyoto ➠@quokkacore  â©
  *NSFW
⧠accidental âž @binsmut â©
~ Lee FelixÂ
  *SFWÂ
⧠omg âž @teacasketâ â©
⧠groupie love âž @aakomiiâ â©
⧠pinky promise âž @aakomiiâ â©
⧠cookie taste tester âž @caseiloveuâ â©
⧠one night stand âž @lixieswritingbakery â©
⧠dirty blood âž @dreamescapeswriting â©
⧠beauty and the beast âž @h0neydewmoon â©
  *NSFW
⧠skyway avenue âž @chvnnie â©Â
~ Kim Seungmin
  *SFW
⧠study date âž @sulfurcosmosâ â©
⧠closed books âž @lixesqueâ â©
⧠crybaby âž @sensitiveandhungryâ â©
⧠spider-min âž @caseiloveu â©
⧠sleepy seungmin âž @rachalixie â©
⧠closer than friends âž @dreamescapeswriting â©
⧠[7:22 pm] âž @blue-jisungs â©
  *NSFW
~ Yang Jeongin
  *SFW
⧠lead and chase âž @lixesqueâ â©
⧠24 to 25 (to26) âž @rachalixie â©
⧠ask fic âž @tasteleeknow â©
⧠star lost âž @nomniki â©
⧠the thought of you âž @dreamescapeswriting â©
⧠sunshine in my eyes âž @plutominho â©
⧠dandelions âž @tinyyzz â©
⧠by the blooms âž @macaroonff â©
  *NSFW
~ ot8Â Â Â Â
  *SFW  Â
  *NSFW
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'Jisung had asked you for a âsmallâ favour a couple months earlier' Giving living quarters to a whole human being is not a small favor, Jisungđđ and for a couple months too!?đ 'Jisung should be expecting your complaints if something bad happened between you and your new housemate.' Ppssshh ajwnjsn as he should omlđ€Łđ . 'As you two had made it clear before, you hardly knew each other, and here you were living together as people of unfamiliarity.' My goodness the atmosphere must be super tense whenever they are in the same roomđ "I got groceries on the way, I'll cook dinner." Aisnisnkskwkwbut he cooks dinnerđ„čđ„ș "Minho sat down beside youâhe usually sat across from you which kept a nice distance between the two of youâhe was very close today.' AHHHHH HE MAKING SLOW MOVESđ€đ«Ą "Can you...just ask him for me?" ACK poor bbyđ âMy girlfriend donât like the fact that Iâm still friends with my exes, so she wiped out their contacts from my phone.â oop not a very good girlfriendđ toxic behaviorsđ 'Holding the microphone as he sang you a love song, the amount of money you spent on that karaoke machine paid off.' AKSMSKSMKS PAID OFF INDEED OMLđ«Łđ 'Minho did not broke eyes-contact with you, in a hushed voice, stating that you were the only beauty he would keep in his sight tonight. Gently holding your hand in his, he placed it on his chest.' AHH AKSNQKNQKS OML I WOULD'VE DIEDđ« đ«Ł
housemates â lee know
> summary . how can you live your life peacefully with having your housemate constantly seducing you like that?!
> genre . smut, fluff, housemates au, forced proximity, housemate!minho, gn!reader.
> warnings . sexual tension, general sexual themes, minor language, oral (receiving), unprotected sex, tipsy sex.
(wc) > 6.3k
(sunny's note) â "and they were roommates.â wanted to be sweet and cute, until lee minho is in the equation. sorry for the late upload, i had a really bad writing slump and progress was slow. but i made it!
You shouldnât have agreed to this if you knew this was how it would turn out. What a mistake, your kindness that yourself and other has taken for granted. And currently stuck in a living situation that tested your patience every waking hours, your dormitory experience was no match for this.
Jisung had asked you for a âsmallâ favour a couple months earlier, about how his friend got evicted and was now homeless, wondering if you could let him stay for a while until he find a new place. First of all, that was not a small favor. Secondly, you didnât even know this friend that he was talking about. And you were reluctant to let a stranger stay in your house right off the bat. You lived in a dorm before, but that was a dorm and not your own house.
âPlease, [Y/N], just a couple months.â Jisung pushed over the phone, you could tell he was outside from the loud and slightly muffled noise that the speaker picked up upon.
Sighing, your soft spot for him would be the death of you. Agreed with hesitation, since you were glad you were out of the dorm life and regained your privacy, but it seemed that life had came to pull you back in. Jisung should be expecting your complaints if something bad happened between you and your new housemate.
From the first initial meeting, you got some of the weirdest vibe from this guy. Maybe it was the amount of black and leather he was dressed up in, or the bitchy look on his face that could kill with a single stare. How the fuck was Jisung friends with a person like this? They were the complete opposite of one another, the guy looked as if he committed first degree murders as his favourite past-time. What you meant was you were convinced that he was a sociopathic killer, and he was probably plotting yours and Jisungâs death soon.
For one person, he sure did had a lot of stuff. You three brought around eight or ten different sized carton boxes up to your apartment, not counting the two gigantic suitcases that he had to take a second trip with Jisung to go get. He must have been living in his old place for very long to have that much stuff, wonder why he got kicked out? Possibly because the landlord found the bodies with how sharp his eyes always glared at.
âDonât worry about the rent, Minho can pay for his half.â Jisung reassured, starting his car. The engine roared loudly, it had been through a rough day of carrying all that stuff to here.
Before he left, Jisung told you one last thing. âOh, and donât be afraid to ask him for help around the house, Minho may look intimidating but heâs quite a sweet guy.â With that sentence stuck in the back of your head, he drove away. If you could even have enough courage to ask him to take the trash out, maybe that statement would be proven.
You did all the house chores yourself, you didn't ask for any assistance from Minho. Wether it was because you were used to having to do everything yourself, or he was just still as unapproachable as the first time you two met. But he too, barely talked to you. You heard his voice once or twice when he was on the phone, but he did not speak a full sentence to you and ought for short few words replies.
"Do you need any help?" Another voice emerged from behind your back, offering assistance.
You pulled the trash bag out of the can, "I'm good, thanks,"
"Whatever, suit yourself." Minho walked away. Not even a bit of small talk? It frustrated you of how aloof he was acting, he didn't want to get to know you at all. However, it pissed him off just as much, you would always shrug him off every-time he offered to help you. As you two had made it clear before, you hardly knew each other, and here you were living together as people of unfamiliarity.
You didn't know his last name, or how he met your three years best friendâJisung. Neither did he held any personal information about you, he wasn't even sure which variation of your name was the correct one. Already a month has passed by and no one was willing to start up a conversation with the other person. This ice between you and Minho just kept getting thicker and colder.
Ranting on the phone, "I'm telling you, I can not get through him! I think he hate me!"
"Calm down, [Y/N], he doesn't hate you." Jisung reassured, sighing as this was the third phone call of the month that you were expressing your discontent for the same subject. "It's simple, just talk to him, even if it's small talk."
Hearing the front door opened, "Fuck, he's back, I'll talk to you later." You didn't let Jisung say 'bye', hanging up in the midst of his sentence.
Minho worked a nine-to-five job, you weren't sure of his occupation in particular. You got a sense of his routine, he would leave the house at exactly seven-fifty in the morning and usually came home around five or sixâdepending on the traffic that day. On few occasions, he was nice enough to bring food home for the both of you.
"Hey, you're back quite late today?" You asked, seeing the clock already hitting six at the moment.
He set down a few plastic bags on the table, "I got groceries on the way, I'll cook dinner." He explained shortly, bringing ingredients to the kitchen for preparation.
That was a first, he had never offered to cook before, much less thanking you for the meals you made for dinner. Guessed he was just hot and cold like that, and this was his way of showing his gratitude. You weren't mad, on what normal day would you have someone cook for you enjoy? You technically did everything yourself when you moved out a few years ago.
Watching his figure diligently cooking in the kitchen, it comforted you in an unusual way. He was like your own personal boyfriendâfor tonight at least, he would cook and then sit at the table with you to eat, maybe he might even offer to wash the dishes. A fine, hard-working young man? Anyone who could scored him would probably be winning in life. You couldnât hide your jealousy if he ever bring home a date.
He walked over to you, holding out a spoon with a small portion of thick orange liquid. Minho asked, âTry it, tell me if it suit your taste.â
The tangy flavour stood out immediately, he must have put something citrusy as it melt into your tastebuds. It was good, no, amazing even! This hidden talent of his was worth all the waiting you had done, you never knew Minho could be such a great chef. For a while, you thought this guy couldnât possibly hold a knife correctly, yet you were proven wrong of your assumptions.
You nodded, the sound you made when encountered good food already told him enough. Everything smelled so mouth-watering, and the presentation was tempting you to devour everything in on sitting.
"Thanks for the food!" As soon as he placed the last dish onto the table, you immediately picked up your utensils. You could not hold yourself back when face with good home-cooked food, good home-cooked food made by an equally good-looking guy.
Minho sat down beside youâhe usually sat across from you which kept a nice distance between the two of youâhe was very close today. Asked he, "How is it? Good?"
You didn't hold back on your praises, "God, why didn't you cook sooner? This is actual heaven~!"
He simply smiled in a humble manner. Your face was a little puffed up when you eat, which he found quite endearing. Watching you stuffed your entire face with rice, sweet and sour ribs, and eggrolls. Flattered by how much you were enjoying it, yet concerned from how fast you were eating.
"Slow down, wouldn't want you to choke." He gazed at you as he advised.
"Unless you like it like that." Immediately, you started coughing profusely. A grain of rice flew up to your nose, making everything worse the longer it stayed stuck up there.
Minho patted your back, "Woah, are you alright?" Uh, obviously no?! You were coughing out rice over here, how could you even be remotely okay? And how did he expect you to be okay after that suggestive comment he just made? This guy was unbelievable. The smile laced with deviousness, as if he was silently planning something that would catch you off guardâwhich certainly did a minute ago.
He picked up a single rib and ate it with his chopsticks, he probably mind getting his hands dirty from that sticky sauce he used. How could Minho looked so graceful while eating while you were here devouring everything down like a fucking caveman. Work on your image a bit, would you? Especially when you were living with someone that wouldn't use their hands to eat ribs.
"Have you been talking to Jisung recently?" Minho suddenly questioned, setting down his bowl as to show respect.
You turned to him, confusion sitting on your shoulders and your heart sinking with a bit of guilt. By any chance, did he overheard your conversations? "Yeah, I have." Continued by another question, "What? Are you two not talking?"
Minho's eyes was bigger than you expected, now seeing him a bit closer from your distance from each other. It curved in a very pretty way, and glistened upon every reflections of his soul. You couldn't help, couldn't help but get a little sad every-time you gazed into his eyes, or when they would unknowingly stared back at you. He looked at you, as if through his eyes saw you as the most precious person to exist in the short timespan that was the human life.
"He haven't been answering my texts and calls, I don't know if he's upset with me or something?" Minho sighed, "Can you...just ask him for me?"
In a bit of hesitation, "Would it be a bit rude for an outsider to chime in? Whatever it is you and Jisung are going through, it's best if you two worked it out together...privately." You told, trying to offer other solutions.
Minho let out a tired breath, "I don't know, I'm not sure what I did wrong that made him upset with me, that's what I'm most worried about."
You patted his back, "Just talk it out with him, communication is key!" How ironic, you could hardly hold a conversation with him, and now you were here giving out communication advise? Unreliable source. You knew you shouldn't interfere with whatever beef Jisung and Minho was having between each other, but you were making it seem like you wouldn't ask Jisung for details. Or Jisung would tell you himself from how much he like to rant to you.
Minho flashed a genuine smile towards you, "Thanks, I owe you one!"
Your heart skipped a beat, just one enough for your whole system to go the very bit haywire. You were finally making some good progress with Minho, and his entire intimidating and remote façade all came crashing down when he smiled. Keep up the good work!
âAre you and Minho back on speaking terms yet?â The other line went quiet for a few seconds, you heard a sigh being let out.
Jisung replied with a question, âHe told you?â
Fuck, your nosy tendencies were acting up again, it slipped out of you like a natural instinct. âNoâum, yeah he did but I donât know the details or anything! He was just wondering if you were mad at him or something since you stop contacting him.â You went on to explain, trying to tell Jisung that you werenât intending to be impolite and simply wanted to help your friend out.
The other giggled at your tone of voice, of how freaked out he got you. You acted as if the people you were working for to take down started suspecting you to be a double agent, but unlike those action films, you were terrible at hiding the truth.
âMy girlfriend donât like the fact that Iâm still friends with my exes, so she wiped out their contacts from my phone.â The whole problem was finally solved as the explanation came out.
Wait, one thing. âMinho is your ex?!â You exclaimed at the sudden realization.
Jisung was absolutely enjoying this from the other line, âWhat? You want him?â He teased.
Your face went red, denying the question thrown at you. This whole time, this was the relationship your housemate has with your best friend? And he had never cared to tell you about anything regarding this romance he once had? All these people do was lie. Struggling through your words, you outwardly rejected the idea. âNoâ! Noâ I donât! Iâ!â
Jisung interrupted, âItâs fine, heâs all yours.â
You tried denying, âNo, I donât want himâ!â Quickly being cut of by Jisung once more.
âAnd heâs a really great kisserââ
âJisung, shut the fuck up!â You hanged up in embarrassment, throwing your phone away in a state of panic. Why would he tell you that? As if you needed to be more careful around Minho now that you knew these things about him. God, how did he expect you to continue living with this knowledge? Unlike Jisung, you saw Minho everyday of the week.
The door to your bedroom suddenly opened, âAre you okay? I heard a thud.â Minho was still in his work attire, a tad bit sweaty from the heated summer air, the first two buttons of his shirt were left undone. Solely from the condition of his appearance was in, you were mentally restraining yourself.
âDid you just came back?â You asked, begging that he didnât heard your conversation with Jisung on the phone a few minutes ago.
He replied shortly, âYeah, Iâll go shower now so we can eat.â Closing your door as he left without another word, left silently with knowing what you said earlier. He heard enough of your phone call, you were too caught up with talking that you didnât hear the front door open. Minho was halfway across the hall to his room when he heard you shouted, his name fell out from your mouth as clear as day.
Oh, Jisung never told you that he and Minho were a thing? Now it was kind of awkward for the both of you. But if you wanted him, he wanted you too. He saw the way you would look at him, stealing glances from across the table. He was a very attractive guy, you were sure he wholeheartedly knew this, and he used it to his advantage.
Coming out of a cold shower, his hair was wet and dripping water down his back and shoulders, but at least have some respect for you by covering up his entire bare torso. At the dinner table? Was he going to be half-naked for the whole duration of dinner? He wanted you dead, you boldly claimed.
âSoâŠhow was work?â You opened up a topic, hoping he would start talking to fill the silence that was ongoing between the two of you.
Minho let out a chuckle, "Not fun." Handing you a pair of chopsticks and a ceramic bowl. That was understandable, he did looked quite worn out coming home after work.
"What do you do, if you don't mind me asking." You raised a question into his occupation.
He began picking up food from the many plates into his bowl, the wondrous scent controlled his chopsticks faster than his mind. Minho answered while pouring the meat broth over his rice, "I'm an accountant."
An accountant? Was that a code word for sex workers? No one in their right mind would go into accounting. Minho out of all people, worked as an accountant? You had no negative comments on his intelligences, or his work ethics. But accounting sounded so boring for someone as interesting as Minho, you thought what he said was a joke of some sort. Maybe he had a side hustle doing unconventional and dirty jobs.
"It's not fun, but I got bills to pay." Minho joked to lighten up the mood, filling in the empty pauses with yours and his joyful laughs.
He shook his head in a subtle yet prominent dissappointment, smiling to hide his actual emotion on his feeling of unfulfillment. "I wish I became a singer back then."
What he said piqued your interest, you looked up at him with a spark of excitement. Straight into his eyes, you asked. "You sing?"
His vocals was almost professional singer level, for a first in the short timespan of knowing him, you saw such happiness on his face. Holding the microphone as he sang you a love song, the amount of money you spent on that karaoke machine paid off. Minho wasn't wrong or thought too highly of himself when he said he should had became a singer, you would have said the same thing if you knew him sooner. And if he did, you would support him with your all.
The atmosphere got a bit hotter and hotter as the night went on, with alcohol entering the table as an uninvited guest. When a sensual song came on, the mood totally changed for better or worse. His loose t-shirt was showing some skin, it was too a little short as it was showing peeks of his toned stomach underneath. Your mind was going places, wether it was because of the alcohol getting you tipsy or it was your inner desires for intimacy.
Minho did not broke eyes-contact with you, in a hushed voice, stating that you were the only beauty he would keep in his sight tonight. Gently holding your hand in his, he placed it on his chest. Did you feel it? Under the warm and shaking palm of yours. His heart beating at a tiny bit quicker pace than usual, beating for you with all of these temptations in him.
"Minho, I should go to bed now, it's getting awfully late." You told, diverting away in a flustered mess. Yet, despite your attempt at diluting the air, Minho persuasion didn't seem to back down. Too heated, too close as you could now smell his liquor-laced breath.
Eyes half-lidded which made his desires just the more prominent, he was serious with no control. Before your lips could touch one another, a loud vibration emerged abruptly that pulled both of you out of that drunken trance.
Blindly grabbing for your phone, your eyelids were giving up as each minute continued to pass by. You didn't look at the contact name, the alcohol was taking over your system like a pernicious poison. A voice echoed out from your phone speaker, it took you a few seconds to register the other lineâs speaking and its distinct frequency.
âWhere is your report?! [Y/N], you are driving me crazy with your constant delays!â They roared at you, annoyed and angered.
You got off from your place on the couch, walking away with your phone in hand as you used your last few excuses to save yourself. âSeungmin, itâs not really a good time right now, can I call you back?â
Seeing you caught up with work on the line, he figured he would clean up this mess you two made on the coffee table for you. For a moment, he thought you felt it too. He might had read the room wrong, but the way you tried to avert from the situation felt almost like a reassurance for him. As if you wanted to go further with him, go little deeper, but you were unsure if he was onboard as well. He thought of apologizing, after you sober up more than the state you were in at the moment.
You swore, you couldn't remember anything from the night before. Went to bed at nearly one in the morning, woke up head-empty and half of the blankets and pillows were off your bed. Come on, you could confidently say that you did not exceed your limit. Yet as shown this morning, you had a rough night yesterday with the leftover liquor running through your veins.
You were absolutely dumb-founded when he said he was sorry for what happened last night, as if you remembered everything clearly to its very details. Let's see, you ate dinner, you talked, sang a couple songs out of boredom you assumed, then it all when foggy after that.
"What are you on about? I have no idea of whatever the hell you are apologizing for." Telling him straight up, you could not register anything he was saying to make any sense.
Frustrated, and a bit taken over by the shame from yesterday. "No, it's okay, you're better off not knowing anyway. Sorry for making a scene so early in the morning."
Minho finished the few last sips of his Americano, grabbing his laptop bag from under the dining table in a hurry. "I have to go now, see you again at six." He bid goodbye at the front door.
Before he go for the next ten hours, you told him tonight's plan. "I have a few friends over tonight, if you don't mind their companies."
"How many are coming?" Minho asked.
You tilted your head as you tried to remind yourself of the size of your party, maybe even the identities of your guests as well. "Just three. Jisung is going to be there too, if you want to see him."
You could forget anything, anything that you deemed important. But one thing that you couldn't seem to shake off your mind, as it has been bugging you ever since you knew of it, was the bygone romance Minho had with your best friendâhappened to be Jisung. Now that you were non-actively trying to persue the guy, it left a bittersweet taste in your mouth. Though Jisung had affirmed that the past was in the past, you could court his ex-boyfriend all you want.
Minho looked down, "We'll talk later, okay? I'm late for work." Leaving things unfinished between you, he closed the door as he left.
You didn't work until around noon, you could work from home if you wanted, yet you still came into the office everyday since things moved faster with you being physically there. But after that call from Seungminâhead of your department, you were already considered brave for the mere thought of showing up. Despite how nice Seungmin actually was, his anger was incomparable to anything you had ever seen.
After your short shift, you went back home to get things prepare. On the way home, you had already picked up a few ingredients. Said ingredients were just a six-pack of cold beers and Gochujang sauce for the beef. The others wouldn't come for another hour, for the time being, you would have to get everything ready by yourself.
Pray to god that the table grill was still working today since you haven't brought it out for a good few years now, it was collecting dust in the very far back of your cupboard. The hangout had been planned for a little while already, you got most of the things a day or two prior.
Was Minho going to join you? His expression carried a bit of hesitation when you asked this morning, though you would be happy to have him if he did changed his mind. The more the merrier!
Hyunjin and Jisung came over just a tiny bit earlier than Felix, guessed he was caught up with some baking for desert. You and your friends were all gathered up together at the dining table, it felt crowded by how small of a space you had to eat for four people. Happy that Hyunjinâs beer wasnât on the floor since it was standing so confidently at the edge.
âWhen is Minho coming home?â Jisung suddenly turned to you.
âI donât know, usually he would be back by now.â You shrugged, just now noticing todayâs abnormalities. Maybe something came up at the office, or he had something else he needed to do beside from work matter. Whatever it was, you just hoped he would get home safety.
Speak of the devil, not even ten minutes had passed and the front door softly rang of clicking keys. You came to open the door for Minho, meeting his slightly stunned expression. His glossy tired eyes under the dirty frames of his glasses gazed back at you, his hair disheveled and sticking to his forehead as if he ran his way home. God, he looked rough, but so strangely enticing at the same time.
"Hey, we were just talking about you!" You beamed.
"Sorry, I'm late. My digital files got corrupted, so I had to get I.T to check that bitch out." Minho sighed deeply, you could imagine how long it took to resolve it purely from how worn out he presented.
The others greeted him at the dining table, getting a stool for him to sit since you were out of chairs. Minho was sandwiched between you and Hyunjin, one he knew, one he didnât. He felt the tiniest bit uncomfortable sitting in such a tight spot, especially when yours and his thighs were rubbing against each other. He didnât mind it too much, he liked you anyways.
âAh, Minho! This is Hyunjin, and thatâs Felix, theyâre my college friends.â You introduced. Though he was a year older, they treated him with a casual formality. Felt more like meeting old friends than new people, your group broke the ice a lot quicker than he had previously expected. Soon you all were drinking and chatting, learning a bit too much about each other for the first meeting.
Felix tapped out, âNo more, Iâm driving tonight.â With Jisung following along as most had already decided to stop drinking, including you.
You placed your hand on the shoulder of the person next to you, âAre you still going? Damn, you must know how to handle your liquor.â
Minho stared back at you as you spoke to him, his eyes half-lidded like the night before. The first few buttons were unfastened, his bare and defined chest laid underneath the thin fabric. A sheer cast of sweat made his body glistened by the overhead light, his glasses was slowly slipping off his nose bridge which reflected the sweat even more than it should have. His face was flushed red and pink everywhere, flushed from a love confession of a drunken mind. Any minute now, he might just be making out with you.
His heart and guts was burning up with these carnal desires, if your friends weren't here, you could bet he would be fucking your brains out like how you so desperately wanted him to. He wanted you just as much, so shamelessly wanted you.
Minho leaned in suddenly, his lips and hot intoxicated breath lingered your ears. Whispered gently with his mellow, sleepy tone of voice, "When are they leaving?"
âWeâre just going to have some tea and brownies, theyâll be on their way soon. Why do you ask?â You returned, asking in with a bit of hesitation in the back of you mind. Could it be he was overloaded enough, or did he not like your friends? You doubted the second one, since they had so much fun together. But that didnât mean it couldnât happen.
He didnât further elaborate, ending the subject then and there with no other explanation. His intentions were unclear, as if he was hiding something from you but you couldnât figure out what it was. Hopefully not something shady, or would leave you with a bad image of Minho. Keep it simple, he was probably tired and he needed a bit more peace and quiet. And he couldn't get any peace and quiet if your friends were here, right?
You wanted him to take off his shirt, take every single piece of fabric on his body off, let you admire all of his grace and beauty. Occupied with drooling over your housemate, the teapot seemed to had slipped your mind.
"Fuck!" Yelped you, the heat of the hot tea finally burned your skin.
Hearing pain from your voice, Minho and the others were already there to aid you. Especially Minho, he grabbed your hand into his as soon as he noticed. Luckily for you, the injury was minor and running it through cool water was good enough.
Minho really has you in a chokehold, metaphorically speaking obviouslyâunless. If you two did become a thing, would it be a little awkward? Maybe not for Jisung, but you were unsure of how or what to think in a situation like this. Though, despite how much you might try to push the idea away due to having quite a lot of repect for your best friend, you couldn't help yourself.
Seduction existed in his eyes and body language, it was subtle yet effective. An absolute disaster that the two of you also lived together, which pumped you up with an amount of hormone that a high-school student would have.
The way he dressed may be ordinary, office worker fashion. His shoulders flexing in his fitted button-up, straight dress pant hugging his thighs. His thick frame glasses further accentuated his winsome features. There was no exaggeration that he, for a definite, has a lot of admirers from work. You too, would be weak on your knees if Minho was your colleague.
It was around eight oâ clock by the time you finished up, which wasnât lateâat least to your definitionâbut tomorrow was still a work day. Especially for Hyunjin, who was flying out of the country for a business trip, of which it was crucial for him to leave early morning for his flight.
âIâm catching a cab home.â Jisung answered when you asked him how he was going to get home without a car, since the other two already left on their separate ways.
âNo, Iâll drive you home.â You offered kindly.
âYou drank a lot tonight, you really shouldnât be driving, [Y/N].â Jisung denied, pointing out the slight alcoholic haze you were in. He wasnât wrong, you were a literally beast with the bottle. However, you were awake enough to still talk normally and sort of think, like being half asleep.
Reassuring you that he would be fine on his own, and that he would be sure to text you when he arrived at his place. You knew Jisung for too long for you to be worried about him on trivial things, it simply felt like the right thing or a common habitual saying you had going on. You just wanted to take extra precautions since you both had been drinking the whole night, and there were quite a lot of problems existing because of it.
"Don't worry about me too much," Jisung soothed you once more. However he had no regards for what a sentimental moment that was happening between the two of you, immediately back to his ways of joking to dilute the air. "You should be worrying about if Minho can keep his dick in his pants near you."
You smacked him on his shoulder, "Shut up, he's right over there!"
"I mean...I see the way y'all look at each other, we all know, [Y/N]." He commented, giving you a playful look. You wanted to murder Jisung, and you would make it look like an accident too. Were you being that obvious about your feelings? But the way Minho acted around you didn't help too!
Jisung waved goodbye to you and to Minhoâwho was in the kitchen, washing up dishes and shot glasses. "I'll see you on Saturday for coffee if you can even get out of bed, bye!"
Nodding, as you watched him walk away from your apartment to the main elevator, realization hit later than expected. You yelled out in annoyance but Jisung would definitely laughed it off and ignore you. "Hey, we're not fucking!"
You had to stay up to finish a few reports and lone documents, so that meant you wouldn't be able to see Minho during his morning coffee. Coming over to offer another hand in cleaning up, it wasn't a big mess but was a mess nonetheless. You might take care of everything for Minho to get some well-deserved rest that he has been needing.
Minho turned around as he felt a tap on his shoulder, "Let me take it from here, you should be getting ready for bed by now."
"No, I'll help." Minho single-mindedly refused your offer. "And too, I can't sleep with this raging boner you gave me."
Too sudden, too out of nowhere, your neck snapped to him when you heard him said those words. His expression was neutral, as natural as if he had said and had done nothing wrong. Still washing dishes and bowls, scrubbing and rinsing like he has been doing the same thing for years. Did he heard himself at least, or was it a thought that went loose.
"Oh, sorry." What the fuck were you supposed to reply to that? Thank you? Was that a compliment in disguise of some sort? Feuling the fire even more, the desires becoming stronger and intense, he had agreed to throw away his principles already.
Minho inched closer to you, his eyes on yours as he asked nicely for attention. "If I tell you that I want to fuck you right here right now, would you be mad?"
Face flushed, hot as when you would place your hand on your tea cup to check the temperature. He was evil, disregarding your state of mental stability by saying things of the same kind so out of pocket. He, for a fact, waited for the right time to confess his sins. The kettle was boiling all night, the heat and steams were his deepest thoughts.
You turned off the sink, your hands cool and wet and smell of dish soap from the water. For a split moment, you were solely looking at each other, begging either one to make a move. Minho leaned in towards your direction, his bare forearms brushed gently against yours. The alcohol in both of your bodies made the moment all the more intimate, slowly yet steadily closing your distance between each other, breaking down the wall of sexual tension you had unconsciously built that stood with all its might.
The faint taste of his strawberry chapstick on your tongue, his lips was a little sticky but so soft that you didnât quite mind. There was no way of stopping him, as you too, did not want to stop the thrill ride that was ongoing. Letting out heavy breaths as he sucked dark red marks onto your skin, lips painting your blank canvas. May he be the only alcohol you would get drunk on, let you drink him up like your sorrows and distress.
âOh, Minho.â You breathed, moaning out his name as his hands rushing to take off your pants. Hot tongue making a line on your stomach down to your sex, freely as his mouth worked on you like how you dearly enjoyed his food. Both your legs resting on his broad shoulders just did nothing but helped spread you wider.
Your sweet voice singing out to encourage him, using his tongue in all directions that favoured you. Stomach knotting with alcohol and dinner and a heaven he had created for you, coming onto his lips, a result of prolonged temptations.
Every fabric that touched yours and his bodies that day were all scattered on the floor by second round. Never even seen your best friend naked, and here you were admiring his ex-boyfriendâs entire unclothed figure with no ounce of shame left in yourself. You could not keep your hands away from him, so greedily touching him in different places.
Neither could wait any longer, deciding to lay each otherâs pride out on the dining table. Minho placed his lips on yours, closing his eyes yet still seeing the vivid image of you in his dark mind. With each passing second, his cock making its way into the very depths of you. You hugged him quite tightly, as if you havenât scored anyone in a while.
Your eyes told him everything he needed to know, you body twitching and squirming under his embrace, the silent language that told him every one of your secrets. Thrusting faster and harder, wanting to hear you make some more music for his aching soul. Minho grabbed your legs, pushing them against your torso as his cock went deeper into you. You could barely keep your eyes open, or could you stay present with him. This pleasure felt like a dream, a dream that softly pulled you in.
Minho kissed your lips once again, âBaby, donât sleep on me, Iâm not done with you just yet.â
But as much confidence that he may has in him, he was nearing his high and coming apart for you along the way. Minhoâs vocals were heavenly when he sang for you, and were just as heavenly when he came into you. He kept going despite being out of breath and tired for you, he started something and he was going to finish it.
Second time felt much more powerful than the first, almost like he gave his all. You could feel his seeds dripping out from inside of you, onto the dining table and even the chairs. Dirtying everything all over again, now you had more cleaning to add onto your list. Guessed neither of you were going to get any sleep tonight.
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FIC REC - Luke Randolph (obviously)
I just found this on ao3 and I'm crazy in love with how adorable and so fucking canon accurate it is!!
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'You never expected the lips of the god of the dead to be sweeter than anything your tastebuds had ever touched.' Good lord we already starting off strong oooofđ«Łđ« 'Hongjoong smirked, sharp eyes locked onto the sight of his fingers pressing into your lips. His free hand traveled up your thigh' AHHH DVHVYXSGI IM NOT OKAYđ«Ą âBut I have a much greater taste and hunger for you.â ACK let me breathe gawh damnđ«Łđ€§ âThen feast on me until you have your fill.â UN MOMENTO POR FAVOR NSNSKMALSNSKSKđ±đ« đ escalated so quickly my poor heart woooh!đ€ 'You had never looked more divine than you did in this moment.' Damn Hongjoongđđ« This is so heated but yet so romantic at the same time omlđ„čđ âYou could unravel me in every way, bring my entire kingdom to its knees with just your touch alone.â ajasjnsjsnsi spoken like marriage vows!!đ«Ł âSit. Sit on your throne, goddess.â I'm deceased omlđ« đ
FORBIDDEN FRUIT
PAIRING â hongjoong x reader
GENRE â smut, greek mythology au, hades!hongjoong, persephone!reader, fem!reader, dom!hongjoong, sub!reader
WARNINGS â smut, unprotected sex, fingering, marking, corruption, sexual langue/dirty talk
WORD COUNT â 2.1k
SUMMARY â for underworldnetâs season of love event day three, something sweet.
You had tasted the most delectable of fruits, delighting yourself in an endless abundance in your mother Demeterâs gardens. All your life as a goddess you were spoiled with fruits that ran full with the sweetest juices.
You never imagined how those flavors would grow bitter in comparison to the taste of a handful of pomegranate seeds. You never expected the lips of the god of the dead to be sweeter than anything your tastebuds had ever touched.
You never knew yourself to be a glutton, but as his fingers pushed another pomegranate seed through your lips, you were suddenly insatiable. The seed overwhelmed your tongue with its tart sweetness, and you relished in it, humming in satisfaction.
Hongjoong smirked, sharp eyes locked onto the sight of his fingers pressing into your lips. His free hand traveled up your thigh, gathering the silk fabric of your dress and hiking it upwards. His palm felt the goosebumps on your skin, and he delighted himself in the way you whimpered as his hand sunk underneath your dress. âHave you always had a taste for sweet things, goddess?â
You gazed down at him through hazy eyes. He was a sight to behold, sitting underneath you, back reclined into his throne casually, power effortlessly exuding from him. You leaned into his touch, his fingers grazing against your bottom lip. âYes,â you replied, your voice quiet yet loud with arousal. His eyes left your lips to meet yours, and your heart fluttered at the intensity of his gaze. âBut I have a much greater taste and hunger for you.â
His eyes deepened and they were like endless pools of obsidian looking up at you. You saw the way desire swam in them; it was the same desire that steadily grew between your legs, and the same desire that filled the throne room with a thickness that rested heavy on your body. Hongjoongâs fingers pressed into the seem of your lips. âThen feast on me until you have your fill.â
But you could never have enough. The moment you stepped foot in the Underworld your fate was sealed; the pomegranate seeds werenât the only thing that bound you here. It was him, the god of the dead and king of the Underworld. It was him, the god that your mother despised. It was him, the forbidden fruit you were never supposed to taste.
Your lips wrapped around his fingers, tongue lapping at them as they plunged into your mouth. You hummed at the taste of his skin. The rings adorning his fingers were cold against your lips.
âAnd what if I told you that I hunger for you, too?â Hongjoongâs hand that had been under your dress reached further until his fingers met with your bare sex. You were soaked, and he was eager to plunge two of his fingers into your heat. He watched intently as your face contorted in pleasure, your eyelids fluttering shut as you reveled in the pleasure he offered you. You were warm and tight around his digits, your walls greedily enclosing around him.
Mewls and whimpers spilled from your lips, the sounds slightly muffled by Hongjoongâs fingers. You rocked against his hand in eager desire to chase the building high while your hands rested against his chest. You were happy to take as much as he was willing to give, and with the way he continued to plunge his fingers deep into your sex, it seemed as if his generosity knew no limits. It shouldâve been alarming, the way he was able to weaken you so quickly, able to melt you down to a smoldering mess. His deft fingers were quick to reach the most sensitive spot; so effortlessly it was as if heâd been exploring your body for all of eternity. There was an eternity with him to look forward to, an eternity youâd gladly spend just like this, suspended on his lap while he filled you full of the most intoxicating euphoria.
âYouâre so pretty like this,â Hongjoong whispered. His voice was reverent, and he worshipped you with his touch. âSo pretty stuffed with my fingers.â Long gone was the innocent goddess he had first met in the gardens. You had been so beautiful then, sun kissed skin and bright, wide eyes. Flowers adorned your head and cascaded down the lengths of your hair, and the faintest blush painted your cheeks. His heart was your prisoner the moment you gazed up at him through fluttering lashes, and he was certain then that he would have you for all eternity. Now you were straddled across his lap as you fucked yourself on his fingers, your body soft and pliable from the euphoria, and your skin flushed from arousal. Your hair was a mess of curls and strands hung loosely over your face. And your lips glistened with drool while your eyes rolled backwards at every curl of his digits. You had never looked more divine than you did in this moment.
Your high took you by storm, and he was there to be your solid ground, guiding you through it with soft kisses and praises against your neck. His fingers fell from your mouth so he could wrap his arm around your waist, holding you steady against him. You shook as you fell from your high, fingers curling into his shirt as an attempt for you to ground yourself.
Hongjoong rested his forehead against yours, eyes watching you closely. He smiled fondly as you breathed, air escaping your mouth in heavy pants. âYou look the most beautiful when you come undone for me.â He removed his fingers from your sex and brought them near his lips. You watched through hazy eyes as his tongue lapped at his slick fingers, and despite just coming off your previous high, your core reignited with new arousal. The god groaned as he tasted you. âYouâre delectable. So fucking sweet. Makes me want to feast on you from the source.â
You moaned when he pulled you against him until you felt the hardness of his erection against your bare sex.
âBut as much as I would love to do just that, I canât deny my own need anymore.â Hongjoong guided your hips back and forth over his erection, and you both moaned at the friction. âI desire to take you. To fill you so full youâll feel me for all eternity. Would you like that? Want me to fuck you, hm?â
You should have denied him, should have ran as far away from the god of the dead as possible. Your mother warned you to steer clear of him; but here you were, upon him and his throne and so deep within his grasp with no way of escape. The pomegranate seeds werenât what bound you here. Your desire was. And you were perfectly content to remain within the Underworld if it meant an eternity with him. Your eyes were resolute as they looked into his, and with one word you sealed your fate. âYes.â
Hongjoong brought your lips to his in a searing kiss. His hands were all over you just as yours sank down to palm his erection. This earned you a low groan from the god below, and the sound shot arousal directly to your core, and suddenly all you cared about was hearing that again. You stroked him over his trousers until you could feel the dampness of precum against your palm. You felt powerful with the king of the Underworld and the dead underneath you, groans of pleasure slipping from his mouth at your touch. âYou could unravel me in every way, bring my entire kingdom to its knees with just your touch alone.â
He spoke those words with such conviction you were left with no room for doubt. Pride and arousal flooded your veins; youâd never felt more like a goddess than you did in this moment. You worked to free his cock, and he aided you in slipping his pants down to his knees. You took a moment to admire the beauty that stood erect between his thighs. He was godly in every way, his cock thick and glistening at the tip with precum. You wrapped your fingers around him, and he hissed at the contact immediately. Your thumb swiped across his tip, smearing his arousal all over the head of his cock. You were content to worship his cock despite your raging need, but the calling of your name broke your attention.
Hongjoong watched you closely, eyes darker than they had been before. He replaced your hand with his own and guided his cock to your entrance. âSit. Sit on your throne, goddess.â
You sank onto him slowly, taking him in inch by inch. You groaned at the stretch, pussy aching in the best way as you accommodated his size. You relished in the foreign yet incredible feeling of being full. Your eyes found his just as his cock sheathed completely in your tight heat, and you could have unraveled there and then.
Hongjoongâs hands gripped your hips as he urged himself to remain still. You were so tight and warm and wet, it took everything in him not to buck his hips into you. In all the centuries heâd endured, heâd never found someone as perfect as you. âItâs like you were made for me, made to take my cock so perfectly. Youâre absolutely divine.â
It wasnât long before you couldnât endure the stillness anymore. You tentatively rocked your hips against him, and the pleasure was immediate. You mewled, continuing the motion before fully lifting your hips upward until just his head remained within. You came back down, taking him fully again, and the both of you cursed aloud. âO-oh!â
Hongjoong readjusted his hold on you. âFeels good? Do that again. Fuck yourself with my cock.â
You did as he said, bouncing on his cock over and over, steadily increasing your pace. Your thighs soon began to burn, and your knees ached from being bent for so long. Your pace became sloppy as you grew tired, but you were desperate to keep going.
Suddenly your vision was spinning. Your ass met the throneâs cushion as Hongjoong flipped you underneath him, his body now hovering over you. He withdrew himself out of you and slammed himself back in, the force so strong it shook your frame. He repeated this over and over until you were clawing at his back. âI could never tire of having you like this. Youâre so fucking perfect, and youâre all mine. Mine to have just like this, splayed out on my throne with your legs spread wide for me as I fuck you. My goddess, my queen.â
Goddess of spring, queen of the Underworld. Those were your titles now, but before you were either of those you were his. And you didnât care what the aftermath of this would be.
Hongjoongâs hands tugged at your dress until your sleeves fell from your shoulders, revealing your breasts to him. He leaned forward to capture one of your nipples between his teeth, eliciting a whimper from you. You arched into him just as he used his hand to show affection to your other breast, palm kneading the soft flesh. He uttered soft praises against your skin while leaving marks all across your chest. His hips kept their pace, his cock hitting the sweet spot inside you and making stars appear in the corner of your vision.
âHongjoong.â You spoke his name with both adoration and urgency as you began to spiral closer to your climax. Your fingers gripped at his back as you grew overwhelmed with the pleasure.
Wordlessly Hongjoong reached for your clit, pressing smooth circles into it as he kept his rhythm within you. He watched you as your high took over you, committing every moan, every expression of your face to memory. He was enraptured by your beauty and by the sight of your body as it shook underneath him. Within moments he found his own end, releasing himself inside you and enjoying the way you whimpered as you felt yourself be filled with him. He leaned forward and rested his forehead against yours.
Your breaths mingled as you both both lied there within the afterglow. Your hands traveled up his back and to his hair and you pulled at the strands until his lips met yours in a slow, languid kiss. You delighted yourself in the taste of him, his sweetness urging you to go back for more and more until your head was spinning. âYou said I could feast on you until I had my fill.â
Hongjoong hummed against your lips. âYes.â
You smirked. âAnd I am still hungry.â
⊠âMother you donât understand; I made Hades run to me. He saw my bones beneath, and offered me half his kingdom. Do you really think I ate the fruit unwillingly?â âŠ
AUTHORâS NOTE â this wasnât exactly meant specifically for this event, but the timing of me finishing it and the event itself aligned so well i just had to post it now. hope you enjoy hades!hongjoong as much as i do <3
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'you realized there probably wasnât a single universe where you didnât belong to him.' Oof we already starting off strongđ€ having me swoon with the cutenessđ„čđ 'because how could it; when the first thing you got to see was him?' Qksnsknslmdjsbsđ„șđ„č 'his hair disheveled and his eyelids heavy' ajsjsk bedhead Mingiđ„čđ€ ââBut I wanna be with you.ââ ahhhhhhhhh dkdnkswo don't mind me just sobbing from how adorable he isđđ ââBut Iâd rather be awake with you than be asleep with you.ââ aksjs my heartđ„čđ
counting stars. â song mingi.
pairing. song mingi x gn!reader
synopsis. even though the sun woke you up way too early, you can't bring yourself to complain.
genre/warnings. reader is whipped, they're so in love </3, smut ! mdni . (barely any smut)
word count. 2k
authors note. mingi brainrot. that's all i have to say. mingi. <///3
WITH YOUR FINGERTIPS GHOSTING OVER HIS BARE BACK, counting every birthmark and every scar decorating his skin, you realized there probably wasnât a single universe where you didnât belong to him.
The sun had risen only a few moments prior, the morning beams peaking through the curtains and had ultimately disturbed your sleep; your eyes fluttering open, only to close them just as fast as the sun greeted you. It had to be early, you figured, way too early, judging by the way your alarm hadnât gone off - and the fact that your boyfriend was still sleeping soundly beside you.
Turning your head, you squinted your eyes; your vision slightly blurry from just waking up. But even though your vision was slightly blurry, you could easily make out the shape of your sleeping boyfriendâs figure.Â
And the sight in front of you suddenly made everything more okay, like the sun waking you up early in the morning hours didnât bother you, because how could it; when the first thing you got to see was him?
With his back turned towards you, the sheets had ridden down his figure during the night, a result of his constant tossing and turning; exposing his bare back. Careful not to disturb your sleeping boyfriend, you slowly turned so you were laying on your side - your face sinking further into the pillow as you settled in.Â
The sun hit his skin, the yellow hue almost making it look like he was glowing; which to you, he almost was. You could see his shoulder slightly rising as he breathed, his chest expanding and small puffs of air leaving his lips; the sight causing a small smile to unknowingly form on your lips. A sight you loved oh so dearly.
Letting your gaze travel down his figure, you slowly navigated your arm out from underneath the warmth of the sheets, letting your fingertips gently come into contact with his skin. Blinking, you tried to clear your blurry vision, monitoring his breathing; trying to make sure your touch didnât wake him up. His shoulders raised once again, indicating that he was, in fact, still asleep; much to your relief.
Your fingertips softly trailed down his skin, tracing every birthmark and indent from the sheets. As your eyes followed your fingers, you found yourself wondering if he was dreaming. Was he having a good dream, you wondered, just like you wondered if he was having a bad dream and if you would have to comfort him when he eventually did wake from his slumber. Not that you wouldâve complained if it was the latter - the thought of embracing him and stroking his back, much like you were currently doing, caused a sense of warmth to spread across your chest.
He looked peaceful like this, you thought. He looked so peaceful, with the sun hitting his skin and his back slightly heaving as he breathed. You found comfort in knowing that there was not a single worry on his mind, that whatever there was bringing him down couldnât reach him, not now, not when he was sleeping.
He had a whole galaxy on his back, you were sure of it, a galaxy you could get lost in for hours; your fingertips ghosting over his skin, and it wasnât until you reached his waist the boy laying beside you suddenly slightly shifted his body. Stopping your movements, but still letting your hand hover over his skin, you focused on his breathing again - wondering if maybe you woke him up.
ââIt tickles.ââ
His voice was barely a whisper, and if you hadnât been so absorbed in him, you probably wouldâve missed the way the words left his lips so softly. But you didnât, no, you did hear what he said; his soft yet raspy voice tugging at your heartstrings as you found yourself smiling once again.Â
ââIâm sorry baby, go back to sleep,ââ You softly mumbled back, placing your palm against his back before gently massaging his skin; hoping heâd go back to sleep, so you could go back to observing him and his peaceful state. And so he did, or at least you thought he did.
Because a few moments passed and you were certain he had gone back to sleep, his breathing back to the calm breaths that had escaped his lips minutes earlier and you found yourself lost in the beauty of his sleeping figure once more. He, however, hadnât gone back to sleep; something you only realized when he suddenly shifted once more and suddenly, he was laying on his back.
Your smile only widened as your eyes landed on his face, his hair disheveled and his eyelids heavy; making it clear to you that he was still pending between being awake and being asleep. Bringing the hand that had just been resting against his back up to his face, you gently placed your palm on his cheek; letting your thumb softly run past his skin. He let out a low hum in approval, slightly tilting his head so he could lean further into your touch.
ââItâs too early for you to be awake, Mingi,ââ You mumbled, watching your own hand as you continued to stroke his cheek. With his eyes still shut, he tried his best to throw his arm over your pillow; his body still protesting against waking up just yet, making it hard for him to move properly. ââBut I wanna be with you.ââ
Six words, six words so simple, yet so heartbreaking.
His voice came out mumbled as he managed to bring his arm out of the sheets and place it around your pillow, slightly nodding his head as an invitation for you to move closer so he could wrap his arm around you. You stared at him for a moment, mostly in awe, before shuffling closer to him; a hum of approval leaving his throat as he wrapped his arm around your shoulder, resting your head against the side of his body.
ââYouâre with me even when youâre asleep, you know,ââ You lightly chuckled, making sure your voice was low enough not to wake him up properly; tiredness still lingering in your body as well. His fingertips lightly ghosted over your bare shoulder, his touch sending shivers down your spine as you looked up at him with your hand still resting against his cheek.Â
A small smile formed on his lips and you swore your heart almost stopped beating right there and then, his eyes still shut. ââI know,ââ He lowly hummed, pulling you closer to him, ââBut Iâd rather be awake with you than be asleep with you.ââ
You probably wouldâve called him cheesy if it was under any other circumstance, but not right now. Not when he was laying there, sleep lingering behind his features and his chest slowly heaving up and down; not when he looked so ethereal. Instead, you just smiled, a smile he couldnât see but you were sure he could sense it; his own smile growing even bigger.
His eyes slowly fluttered open, immediately meeting your own; blinking as he tried clearing his vision, just like you had done moments prior. You just looked at him, your eyes scanning his features as he fought against the temptation to just close his eyes and go back to sleep. But you could tell he didnât want to, especially when his other hand suddenly found its way to your face; gently cupping your cheek.Â
You just stared at him, your smile long faded and silence engulfing the room. Using the pad of his thumb, he stroked your cheek just like you had done to him, the contrast of his rough finger and your soft skin causing goosebumps to form on your skin.Â
ââYouâre so pretty,ââ You whispered, breaking the silence; your hand still resting against this face. His thumb continued to slowly stroke your cheek, another small smile forming on his pink lips before he parted his lips to speak. ââAnd Iâm all yours.ââ
His words caused warmth to flood your chest once again, slightly nodding your head against his skin. ââMy Mingi,ââ You mumbled, his smile widening as you continued to stare at him; admiring him. ââYour Mingi, only yours.ââ
Your Mingi. Heâs your Mingi, just like youâre his. And you wouldnât have it any other way.Â
Your eyes flickered down to his lips, and almost like he could read your thoughts; he leaned forwards and met you halfway, pressing his lips against your own. You almost let out a sigh into the kiss, his plump lips meeting yours almost making it feel like time stopped and like there was no one else in the world, just you. Just you, and your Mingi.
The kiss was short and sweet, almost bittersweet in a way, before he pulled away; his hand remaining on your cheek as he looked at you, your eyes meeting. It didnât take long before his lips were back onto yours, this time with much more force and not as sweet as the first one. No, instead his fingers gripped onto your cheek and pulled you even closer to him, using the hand he had thrown around your shoulder to gently squeeze your bare skin.
The hand you had placed on his cheek found its way to the back of his neck, slightly tugging at his nape in an attempt to pull him even closer to you; shifting your body so you could kiss him with ease. A low hum ripped through his chest as he moved his lips against your own, slow and wet noises filling the room, accompanied by need.Â
Your Mingi. Your Mingi, who runs his tongue past your bottom lip, whose touch makes you feel like youâre on fire; your Mingi, who you love.
Suddenly, youâre seated on top of him with your fingers gently tugging at his hair and his hands placed on your bare hips; his fingernails threatening to dig into your skin at any time. With his lips now leaving wet kisses down your neck, your eyes fluttered shut; you donât even need to ask, because before you can even utter a single word, heâs already tugging his underwear down his thighs.
ââI need you, Mingi,ââ You mumbled, his head still buried in the crook of your neck and his lips still leaving wet kisses to decorate your skin. ââI know, baby,ââ He mumbled back, his voice still raspy from just waking up and muffled by your skin. ââPlease,ââ You mumble again and youâre not sure why youâre begging, because you know he needs you just as bad.
Resting your hands against his shoulders and your forehead against his own, you sunk down on his length; his jaw clenching and a small yelp leaving your lips. With his hands still gripping onto your hips, he slowly guided you down his length, capturing your lips in a soft but messy kiss; a small whine leaving the back of your throat as he slowly filled you up.
ââMingi,ââ You breathed into the kiss, trying your hardest to kiss him back; suddenly feeling almost afraid that heâd slip away from you if you didnât. ââI love you,ââ He breathed, ââI love you so fucking much,ââÂ
Mumbling an incoherent âI love youâ back, one that he heard nonetheless, you slowly began moving your hips back and forth; earning a low groan from your boyfriend. Dipping his head back into the crook of your neck, he continued leaving open-mouthed kisses along your collarbones; mumbling praises between every kiss. ââSo perfect, so perfect for me,ââ he mumbled, ââIâll spend all eternity with you,ââ
His words combined with the feeling of feeling so full, so full of him, caused a trail of whines to leave your lips as you continued moving your hips; your fingers still tangled in his hair as you desperately tugged at it. His hands ran up and down your figure, almost like he was just as desperate to feel every part of you as you were to feel every part of him; which he was, you just didnât quite know it.
The sun was no longer peaking through the blinds and you were sure that your alarm clock was going to go off at any minute, not that you cared. No, between your whines and Mingiâs grunts, combined with the sound of wet kisses and skin on skin; you simply couldnât bring yourself to care about anything.
Anything other than Mingi, your Mingi.
#ateez smut#mingi smut#song mingi smut#song mingi#mingi x reader#đŻđrecs#sksnskdnsod this was absolutely super adorableđ„șđ„č#also encapsulated the moring vibes immaculately!!đđ€#Mingi in this was insanely precious omlđđ#had me screaming and kicking my feetđ€đ#man is just a cinnamon roll frfrđđ#also mc was so in love with him! just so adorableđ„čđđ#aidnsksnskdnke i love this so muchđ„șđ„čđ
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Me bc of this fic:
'Thereâs a crazed look in his eyes and you feel a slight chill run up your spine.' Oof that's a big no, would've left then and theređ âI know Hwa, which is why I decided to end it because I refuse to stay in another relationship where the other person expects me to solve all of their problems,â As y/n shouldđđđâYeah of course. Honestly honey, I think you did the right thing." Ajsnsjsj Hwa calls mc honeyđ„ș I love when friends give you cute fluffy nicknames!đ€ 'As you approached your door, you noticed that it looked slightly open.' Oopđđ âOpen the door sweetheart.â  it's the names I swear they stay having me giggle even though the scene is so gruesomeđđ 'kissing the back of your hand like the two of you were in the 1700âČs.' He may have just brutally slaughtered mc's ex but Joong is still a gentlemanđđ€ âSo you have the looks and the brains to accompany it,â cough, a very flirtatious gentlemanđ«Łđ€ âNow, you have me.â aksjnsiq, don't mind me just currently meltingđ«Łđ âI donât think you get it sweetheart. I want you.â aksnsjsnsi man.đźâđš making me blush and shitđ 'From where he sits at the dining table watching Netflix on your computer' Man really made himself at homeđ€Łđ âIâll be back,â oop he on his way to deal with Eric, mm as he shouldđđ âYou know where to find me.â Currently screaming omlđ”âđ«đ âI feel so strongly for you it hurts,â AAAHBAUSBQIANSOQNOANAIđ€đ± âIf you let me,â he glances from your lips up to your eyes. âI want to be your everything, the same way you are mine.â AHHHHHHHHHH SKSJSJSKSM I've died.đ«Ąđ âOh sweetheart,â he purrs. âWeâre going to have so much fun.â AOSNSKNSKQ OH MY GAWHDđ«Łđ”âđ«đ
heâs kinda hot | K.HJ
Pairing: Demon!Hongjoong x reader
Summary: After a decent run with your boyfriend, you finally decide to end it when his paranoia becomes too much. Except, maybe he wasnât crazy. And now you have a demon who refuses to leave you alone.Â
w.c. 4.6k
Warnings: fluff, slight angst if you squint, minor character death heâs a dick donât worry, mentions of blood and icky sounds but nothing is seen directly, suggestive content, cursing, desire hongjoong lives in my mind rent free
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"I just want you to be loved as you should be loved." That took me outđđ currently bawling my eyes out omlđ„șđ idk how to explain how this made me feel other than warm and loved!? Like you perfectly encapsulated the just warm energy Chan gives!! Oml. This was so soft and wow. Give me a sec to just recoverđąđ woah. I'm too soft rnđ„ș This is amazing. Y/n is right, how could anyone not adore Chan especially the Chan you wroteđ„șđđ fuck. Why is this literally so sweetđ«đ all the emotions were writen so perfectly that like I felt them too omlđą woah. I'm in love with thisđ„șđ„°đ
falling rain
falling rain â one shot [ back to general masterlist ]
this series (and this blog) are 18+ !! minors, please do not interact!!
âąÂ bang chan x female reader, other stray kids members are mentioned/featured, as well as other idols (itzyâs yeji, ateezâs san, nmixx's lily).
âąÂ non idol au, friends to lovers. angst, fluff, post breakup sadness and melancholia. drinking. explicit language. smut, oral sex (f receiving), protected sex.
âą word count: 11k (11,199)
You fell out of love. It happens. All you need is time to piece yourself back together. But as you and your friends meet for a movie night, you donât expect your ex to be there - yet he is, and it looks like heâs doing much better than you do. Luckily, your friends are there for you - especially Chan.
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The rain is cold against your skin.Â
You look up at the sky through your transparent umbrella. Swirls of pale gray cover the horizon, blurred by drops of rain sliding down the plastic material. It was darker earlier - the rain will stop soon.Â
The bus stops in front of you, its brakes squeaking. You close your umbrella and get on, sitting where you usually do, at the back, next to the window. Placed between your legs, your umbrella is getting your jeans wet, but you donât care. You close your eyes, letting the music in your ears soothe you. Youâve been taking the same bus route everyday for years, so you know exactly how much time you have before your stop. Itâs not like youâre afraid of falling asleep, anyway. You never sleep in transportation, and itâs not like your mind has been able to rest easy recently.Â
Your playlist transports you through melancholic melodies, pianos and violins lulling your senses. Your favorite songs do not let you forget the ache - they remind you of it, softly, tenderly. Thatâs what you want, anyway.Â
Youâre not interested in forgetting. You just want to heal.
When you open your eyes, your stop is a minute away. You press the button and get up, ignoring the inevitable looks of the other passengers on the bus. People are always staring. Always judging. Often, you care. These days, not so much. You canât control them, what they do, what they think. Theyâll see the shadows under your eyes, the pale skin, the chapped lips, and theyâll tell yourselves, she isnât sleeping much. She looks terrible. She must be going through something.Â
So what if I am, you want to tell them? Arenât we all?Â
When you step off the bus, itâs barely raining anymore and you decide not to open your umbrella. You let the rain slide through your hair, against your hands. Youâre so cold but youâre used to it. You havenât been able to warm up in a while. The rain feels good, actually. It makes you aware of your body, of your skin. As you walk towards your apartment building, you tilt your head backwards and let the rain fall down your cheeks like tears.Â
Daylight has almost vanished when you unlock your apartment door, and you step inside with a sigh. Youâve grown to hate this place so much, but there is nowhere else to go. You should look for another apartment, but moving seems like an insurmountable amount of shit to go through and you just donât have the energy. Maybe in a few weeks. Maybe in a few months. Maybe.Â
You start by taking a shower, the boiling hot water contrasting with your icy cold skin. You wash your hair, apply lotion. Your movements are slow but you get there eventually. Wrapped in your bathrobe, you open your closet and stare at your clothes. Itâs not that you hate them, you just have no idea what to choose. Youâre not going someplace fancy, so you end up slipping on a simple pair of jeans and a warm sweater.Â
You should probably eat something, but your stomach is in a tight knot. There will be food at Yejiâs place, anyway.Â
As you check your phone and realize you still have some time before you have to leave, you let out a long sigh and sit on your bed. Youâre not sure you really want to go, but your friends organized this movie night a while ago and they are excited for it. Yejiâs place is perfect for it - she has a projector, which allows the movies to play as wide as the wall. Everyone has been tasked to bring their favorite snacks and drinks. Itâs going to be a chill night, and youâll be happy to see your friends, but everything feels exhausting.Â
You promised you were going to be there. So you will go.Â
Itâs not like they will bother you, anyway. They all know you pretty well, although some more than others, but they are all aware of what is going on with you. No secrets to have. Still you donât want to be a bore, and you know youâll do your best to smile throughout. Itâs not that they want you to - but youâll still do it. Itâs just who you are.Â
At least he wonât be there. Yeji said he wouldnât - had plans already, apparently. It would be okay if your ex was there - actually, youâve seen him a couple of times already since your breakup. But you need to be in the right mindset - and today you arenât, so itâs good heâll be absent.Â
You let out a long sigh and stand up to dry your hair.Â
You apply simple makeup, a bit of eyeliner, some mascara. You put on your favorite necklace. You decide to wear perfume. Little things to make you feel better, like you arenât crippled inside, like you donât have a decaying organ in your chest. Itâs recent, that youâre able to do that. A week ago you wouldâve showed up in sweatpants and messy hair.Â
Little steps.Â
As you grab a tote bag to fill it with the snacks you bought yesterday, you get a text from Yeji.Â
Everything okay?Â
Come anytime <;3Â
Sheâs checking up on you and youâre grateful for it. Not a lot of people do, not even your closest friends. You donât blame them - you havenât been good company and sometimes itâs hard to find the right words. Some of them have been anxious that your breakup with San will mess up their friend group, and in fear of seeming like theyâre taking sides, they just decided not to say anything. They take care of you differently - but sometimes you hate that they canât talk about it with you.Â
Yeji doesnât do that. Sheâs been there for you at every step - and itâs not because she blames or dislikes San. Itâs just different for you and her, because your friendship not only goes way back when your friend group got together, but also way beyond.Â
Leaving in 5, you text back, and she sends a heart emoji.Â
Once youâre ready, you slip on your jacket and stare at your reflection in the hallway mirror. You look your normal self, except for the obvious exhaustion on your face, and the slightly vacant look in your eyes.Â
You can do this.Â
You wonât let your stupid, broken heart define you or your life.Â
When you get to Yejiâs, she pulls you into a tight hug. A few people are already there - Jeongin is already snacking on a huge bowl of popcorn, talking to Lily, whoâs on her phone scrolling down Pinterest boards. Changbin and his girlfriend, the newest addition to your friend group, are bundled up under a blanket on the couch and wave at you.Â
You follow Yeji to the kitchen, putting the cans of soda you brought in the fridge, adding your snacks to the pile on the counter.Â
âYou look really pretty,â Yeji tells you with a smile. âIs that the sweater we got together the other day?âÂ
âYeah,â you nod. âIâm still not sure about the color, though.â
âNo, it suits you. I promise.âÂ
You give her a sincere smile as she empties a bag of potato chips in a bowl. Itâs quiet in the apartment, but you know it wonât last very long - except for Changbin, the loudest people have yet to arrive.Â
âHow was work today?â Yeji asks.Â
âFine,â you shrug. âBoring.âÂ
She gives you a long look.Â
âYou know you donât have to stay there, right? You can find something else. With your skills it would be easy -â
âI know, Yeji,â you say in a low voice. âBut not right now.âÂ
You play with your nail polish, chipping a small piece from your thumb.Â
âRight now boring is good,â you nod, your voice a little more firm. âWhen I can focus more, Iâll look for something else. Promise.âÂ
She smiles, taking your hand to give it a squeeze. âI just donât want you to waste away where you donât belong. Youâre worth so much more.âÂ
âI appreciate it.âÂ
You put your head on her shoulder for a second as Jeonginâs laugh resonates through the apartment. Itâs a sweet and familiar sound, and you start to believe it was a good idea to come.Â
Grabbing the filled bowls of potato chips, you and Yeji join the others in the living room. You sit down next to Jeongin, who quickly shows you the funny puppy video Lily has shown him, and you giggle at the screen. As Yeji starts to set up the projector, the door opens on a few more of your friends and you know it wonât be quiet anymore.Â
Chan, Jisung and Minho are yelling about something, raising the volume of the conversation a million dozen decibels, and you shake your head at the sight of them. Chaotic and loud as they are, even in your state you are grateful for them, because whatever the circumstances they can always make you smile, or, at least, provide welcome distractions.Â
They drop down in the remaining spots, either on the couch or the floor, Minho diving his hand down Jeonginâs popcorn bowl and Jisung arguing with Changbin about the type of beer he bought - of course, as usual, Jisungâs only answer to Changbinâs complaint is a simple traitor.Â
âTHIS AGAINâŠâ Changbin yells at the top of his lungs.Â
You canât help but smile. That game has been going on since Changbin moved out of his apartment with Jisung and Chan to move in with his girlfriend - Minho took his spot since, and there really isnât any bad blood between them, but Jisung loves to remind Changbin how he abandoned them.Â
âHey, Y/N,â Minho says, sitting down between you and Jeongin. You took the spot at the end of the couch, a blanket covering your legs. âHowâs it going?âÂ
âIâm okay,â you say with a smile. âWhat about you?âÂ
âFantastic. Did you check out that link I sent you?âÂ
You start to talk a little - you and Minho work in a similar domain and itâs always nice to exchange ideas and anecdotes. You find yourself immersed in the conversation, the noise of all your friends chatting and laughing mixing into a background noise you canât get enough of - it definitely helps the black hole inside your chest. You donât feel so cold, you donât feel so empty. You know it wonât last, and reality will catch up to you quickly, but for now you allow yourself to relax.Â
âY/N.âÂ
You turn towards Chan, who has stopped at your level. Heâs smiling kindly at you, looking a little tired - but thatâs nothing out of the ordinary. Like you, Chan barely sleeps. Neither of you can stop the ceaseless train of thought in your heads - while you stare at the ceiling, Chan works.Â
âHey, Channie.âÂ
âYou want something to drink?âÂ
âYeah, maybe a soda.âÂ
âCool, coming right up.â
âOiiiii, what about me?â Minho whines.Â
He asks for a can of beer, followed by Lily who has finished her previous one, and soon everyone is yelling at Chan to bring them something to drink. He closes his eyes, taking a deep breath, and you chuckle.Â
âLet me help you,â you say, standing up. âYâall are lazy,â you add, squinting your eyes at your friends.Â
Their protests all tangle together and you laugh, following Chan to the kitchen.Â
Your friends.Â
They are all precious to you, all in their own way.Â
But Chan. Chan.Â
The first time you met him you felt your heartbeat accelerate because he looked so damn charming. A kind smile, eyes like stars, and an energy that immediately soothed you. It did not take long for you to develop a crush on him. How could you not? He was kind, funny, talented, and smart. He truly cared for the people in his life and never broke a promise. Handsome, too, of course. The kind of guy that made you weak in the knees, that sent your thoughts reeling whenever he touched you.Â
Your crush had always been one-sided though, which was fine. You had quickly worked to overcome your physical attraction to him and made it a priority to develop your friendship. Because Chan understood you. You found yourselves exchanging looks and agreeing on similar things often enough so that one day, you sat down next to him during a party to ask for advice and you ended up talking for hours, forgetting to get drunk like everyone else.Â
You are not particularly close. You donât know everything about each other. You mostly see each other with the rest of your friend group - rarely alone. You donât text each other everyday - in fact, you barely do. But heâs a steady presence in your life, a friend you rely on, and you know itâs the same for him.Â
Tonight, youâre especially grateful for him.Â
Chan gives you a smile as he opens the fridge.Â
âI like your sweater,â he says, handing you a pack of sodas.Â
You put it on the kitchen island, smiling.Â
âThank you. I like your earrings. Are they new?âÂ
Youâre used to Chan wearing his silver hoops, but today heâs sporting a simple black dot on one ear, a small lightning bolt on the other.Â
âYeah, I felt like a change,â he nods. âThey say itâs good for us, right?âÂ
âI guess,â you answer simply. âIt suits you.â
âThanks.âÂ
You exchange smiles, gathering all the desired drinks slowly. You glance at him sometimes, at the angle of his nose, at the dark curls that brush his ears. Your crush on Chan eventually faded away, although never entirely. You have just buried it so deep inside you sometimes you forget it is there - you havenât thought about it for a long time.
Then again, your heart has been entirely occupied by San.Â
Heart.
Body.
Soul.
All of which lay in pieces, now.Â
Chan must see the shadows in your eyes, because he frowns a little, looking intently at you.Â
âIs something wrong?â
You shake your head, trying to shake the bad thoughts away at the same time.
âNo, no, donât worry.âÂ
Chan gives you a smile and a short nod, although heâs still frowning. He can feel you donât want to linger on it - you hope he knows itâs not that you donât trust him. Besides Yeji, Chan is perhaps the friend you trust the most.Â
You remember every single hug heâs given you.Â
Always so warm.Â
Always at the right time.Â
He probably doesnât know some of them gave you the strength to hold on. The most recent one, about two weeks ago.Â
âCan I have another one, please?âÂ
The barman gives you a nod and turns to prepare you another beer.
Besides you, Yeji gives you a long look. âDonât you think youâve had enough?âÂ
âJust one more,â you tell her, lifting an index.Â
She smiles, throwing an arm around your neck. She keeps a close eye on you - thatâs why you feel comfortable to indulge in another drink. You need it, after all. Since your breakup with San, youâve barely touched alcohol, choosing instead to drown in snacks and utter isolation.Â
So for your friend, itâs a step forward that youâve agreed to come tonight.Â
Itâs just you, Yeji, Chan and Jisung. A quiet night at the local pub.Â
A few beers, a board game.
When you have a new full pint, you and Yeji head back to the table and sit down. All of you decide to play another game, and Jisung starts shuffling the cards, telling you some dumb joke. You know heâs doing that to make you feel better, and it works. You find yourself smiling so much your cheeks hurt a little.Â
You place your head on his shoulder, affectionately, and cross Chanâs gaze. Heâs smiling, too, fondly.Â
Your friends are talking and your heart hurts so fucking much.
You miss San. Youâve fallen out of love a long time ago, you now realize, but itâs still painful. You have to start over. You have to find yourself again. Itâll be long work - but youâll do it. And as you look at your friends, you think to yourself they will make it easier. Youâve been drinking a little, and the emotion swells in your chest.Â
âY/N, donât cry!â Yeji cries out, noticing the tears on your cheeks.
You have not even realized you are crying. You touch your skin in surprise, letting out a giggle.
âAwwww, no, honey,â Jisung says, drawing you in his arms.Â
He rocks you like a child and you laugh as more tears drip down your eyes.Â
âIâm sorry,â you say. âI love you guys so much.âÂ
âNooo, youâre gonna make me cry too,â Yeji cries out, taking your hand.
âI know itâs not⊠Not easy for you, because San is your friend, andâŠâ You sniffle. âI donât want this to be difficult for you.â
âDonât say that, Y/N,â Jisung whispers. âWeâre your friends, too.âÂ
âWeâre here for you,â Chan nods.Â
Crying and laughing at the same time, your friends decide to keep playing to get your mind off of things. Youâre grateful.
Yeji wins, of course. She always does. Once all your beers are finished, you agree to go. Chan will drive Yeji home - heâs only had one pint. Jisung lives close to you, so you decide to walk together.Â
You say goodnight to Yeji. She places a kiss on your cheek, squeezes your hand. Chan draws you into a hug.Â
Itâs so loving. So steady.Â
It takes the breath out of your lungs.Â
âI love you, Y/N,â he says in your ear. âIâm here if you need me.âÂ
Youâre too dumbstruck to reply. But you know youâll remember those words for a long time.
You do.Â
You still remember the words - you can still hear them.Â
Heâs here.
He loves you.
Like a friend, of course.Â
But that is more than enough.
âY/N?âÂ
Chanâs voice brings you back to the present. You shake your head and chuckle.
âSorry. I was just lost in thought.âÂ
He nods, biting his lip nervously. âBy the way, I wanted to ask. Thereâs this concert next -âÂ
Thatâs when you hear the door open - followed by a voice.
His voice.
Your blood freezes in your veins, and you stare dumbly at Chan, unable to move.Â
You feel like bursting out in tears. No, no, no.Â
Not him, not tonight.Â
You feel Chanâs eyes on you. Yet, you donât really see him. He delicately puts a hand on your wrist.Â
âY/NâŠâÂ
You try to gather your thoughts. You shouldâve prepared, just in case. You feel so stupid. Of course it was all going too well.Â
Youâre startled when Yeji bursts in the kitchen, puts her hands on your shoulders and seeks your eyes.Â
âY/N, Iâm so sorry, honey -âÂ
âWhat the hell?â you hear Chan mutter next to you. âI thought he wasnât supposed to come.âÂ
âHe wasnât,â Yeji hisses. âI swear, he told me he couldnât.âÂ
âFuckâs sake, this dudeâŠâÂ
You close your eyes and take a deep breath.Â
Slowly, you look up at your friends, gathering a smile.Â
âItâs okay,â you say, your voice clear. You take Yejiâs hands in yours, nod at her. âIâm fine.âÂ
âY/NâŠâÂ
âIâm fine,â you repeat. âIâll be fine.âÂ
You look at Chan next, and you feel like your heart will burst out of your chest. Thereâs something in his eyes you canât identify, a spark that is also a shadow. Heâs frowning, his body slightly bent towards you, like heâs about to pull you into a hug. You clear your throat and nod, praying to all you can not to let your voice tremble.Â
âItâs all right,â you say. âHeâs our friend. He should be here.âÂ
And to some degree, you mean it.Â
Yeji gives you a tight hug, and you can hear Chan let out a long sigh from behind you. You canât linger on it - you have to focus on yourself.Â
Stay calm. Breathe.Â
You can do this.Â
The breakup was hard for the both of you, you remind yourself. You loved each other, you really did, that much youâre sure of. San was never that good of a liar. You have a much more vulnerable nature than him, which was always a source of conflict between you, but you know your breakup affected him. You remember the tears in his eyes. The vein in his neck, pulsing, as he held them back. You remember the way his hand clenched yours. The way his words came out broken from between his teeth.Â
Itâs over, isnât it?Â
You fell out of love.Â
It happens.Â
You take a deep breath. You still want San to be your friend. Youâve agreed that you would try, and you intend to follow through on your words.Â
You take a step to follow Yeji back to the living room, but Chan puts a delicate hand on your shoulder. You turn around, plunge your eyes in his. Youâve always thought of them as a haven, a night sky full of stars, both deep and bright.
He stares at you with a clenched jaw and a furrowed brow. He smells as he always has, a smell youâve wanted on your pillow for so long - and it still makes you slightly dizzy although you know thereâs no chance with him.Â
âIf at any moment you want to go home, tell me, yeah?â he whispers to you. âIâll drive you.âÂ
Youâre a little entranced by the soft lines on his full lips and the way his low voice scrapes - but you manage a nod, after what feels like a long second.Â
âThank you.âÂ
He nods, gives your shoulder a squeeze and lets you go. The warmth of his hand lingers there, and it gives you courage to move forward.Â
San has already taken a seat next to Jisung and glances at you when you walk into the room. Your friends are kind enough to keep the conversation going, so the room doesnât fall silent, but your heart sinks at the bottom of your chest.Â
Because San doesnât look tired. He doesnât look sad.Â
In fact, he beams.Â
Eyes sparkling.Â
New clothes, new watch.Â
A smile so wide it slices right through your heart.Â
Fuck, he looks so happy.Â
You have to bite your tongue so you burst out crying. You stagger a little bit, but Chan is right behind you and it prevents you from falling back. His warmth, the voices of your friends, everything makes it better.Â
âHey,â you manage to say, although youâre not sure how. âYou look good.âÂ
âThanks, you too,â he tells you, but his voice is distant. His eyes are too, like he doesnât even see you anymore. Not like he did before.Â
Itâs abundantly clear - your ex has moved on.Â
Itâs not that you still have feelings for him - you just need time to grieve what you had. San was a huge part of your life for a long time, and suddenly he isnât there anymore. That absence, that void, thatâs what is difficult to deal with. Being so goddamn alone all the time. No one to make you feel loved. No one to love, either.Â
Youâre still putting yourself back together.Â
Youâre still healing.Â
Not him. Heâs done it.Â
You should be happy for him, and in a way, you are. Youâre not mad heâs moved on. But it happened so quickly. It hasnât even been two months. You were together for more than a year. Maybe youâre jealous, maybe youâre bitter. But mostly it hurts.Â
How long is it going to take you? Why are you so goddamn sensitive?Â
You breathe out and help Chan bring everyone their drinks. Sanâs laughter is a haunting melody and you canât wait for the movie to start so you can think about something else. You take your previous seat, and Jeongin rubs your back affectionately, offering you the bowl of popcorn.Â
Chan sits at the opposite side of the room. Pathetically, you wish he was still next to you. Instead you focus on the images that start playing, projected on the white wall in front of you. Itâs a movie youâve already seen, but thatâs ok. Itâs not like you can really focus, anyway.Â
Because all you can see is San. Funny, clever, happy. You know him, youâd know if he was pretending, but he isnât. Heâs liberated. Itâs the only word that comes to mind. You wonder for how long youâve been bringing him down. If he realized it and hated you for it. If he couldnât wait to get rid of you. If he was just looking for an excuse and -
You close your eyes and put a stop to the intruding thoughts.
No. It wasnât like that.Â
Was it?Â
You donât know anymore.
You barely follow the movie because your thoughts keep spiraling. Around you, your friends are chatting, making jokes, and commenting on the movie. Jisungâs laugh is so loud it takes over sometimes and you take refuge in it. But your heart feels frozen in place, in the middle of two beats, unable to go forward. You stare into nothing. You donât even touch your soda. The popcorn, either - so you hand it back to Jeongin. His presence feels good, too.Â
You hate yourself for being unable to live in the moment. For letting your mind wander like it is, dizzy and unkind.Â
In the movie, people say what they think.Â
In the movie, loving doesnât seem so hard.Â
In the movie, it doesnât rain.Â
Itâs a blessing and a curse that everyone is watching the movie, and that youâre sitting in the corner, in the dark. Your eyes are filled with tears and suddenly one escapes and slides down your cheek. You fidget in your seat, faking a yawn to wipe it away. You pull the blanket over your trembling body. You laugh when the others do, although itâs heartless. Nobody notices - or so you think - and itâs a good thing.Â
You try to focus on the movie. Itâs entertaining, itâs funny, and for a minute, maybe, you succeed in feeling better. Then you see, from the corner of your eye, San pulling out his phone. He stares at the screen, and in the dark, its blue light illuminates his face. He smiles at it and types a few words. You know that smile. Fuck, you were that smile, once.Â
You clench your jaw, hard, and wanting to look away you accidentally fall into Chanâs eyes. Heâs looking at you, and although you canât see his face very well in the darkness, you notice the worry in his eyes. He doesnât smile, he doesnât say anything - but you hear his silent question. You need to go?
You shake your head slowly, forcing a smile. Iâm fine. Iâm fine.Â
He nods. He doesnât believe you.Â
You stand up on shaky legs and head to the bathroom. Once you close the door, you donât even open the light. You wouldnât be able to stand the sight of your own reflection. You just breathe out, breathe in, and then breathe out again. The tears fall down your cheeks, warm. They taste bitter on your lips.Â
Why canât you be like him? Why canât you move on, be happy?Â
You take a few minutes to collect yourself. Itâs fine - you donât mind seeing San. Itâs good, if, unlike you, heâs able to rebuild himself. Itâs all you wish for him, and you know itâs all he wishes for you, too. Heâd probably be honestly sad to know you arenât doing well. You can never tell him, of course. Youâll pretend as well as you can - you canât allow yourself to be vulnerable with him for now. Youâll keep it for yourself, shamefully, selfishly.Â
It will be fine.Â
Youâll get over it. He did, so why not you?
Once you feel ready, you head out the bathroom, and Chan is there, leaning against the wall.Â
âOh, shit, sorry,â you chuckle. âI didnât realize someone was waiting. Did you -âÂ
You stop as Chan puts his hands on your shoulders and pulls you to him. You fall into his arms, and youâre a little shocked so you donât move at first. Still, Chan holds you there. You stammer.Â
âC-Chan, Iâm okay, you donât have to -âÂ
âY/N,â he says, and thereâs something about the way he whispers your name that makes your heart ache. âI saw you crying. Please. You donât have to hide.âÂ
Gently, you let your head fall against his chest. He hugs you a little tighter.Â
âWeâre friends, arenât we?â he whispers. âYou donât have to hide.âÂ
You nod. He said it in such a way, you donât know what it is.Â
You are friends.Â
Youâve been for a long time.Â
Despite your crush on him, despite the awkward period where he was aware of it but didnât say anything, despite all of that, you are friends.Â
But Chan has always been more than that for you.
Chan is a pillar, Chan is a mess.Â
Chan is both the lighthouse and the storm.Â
You like the feel of his arms around you. The way his chest moves as he breathes. The texture of his t-shirt.Â
Oh, God. Not again.Â
You canât let your crush come back running. Youâre just sad. Youâre just lonely. It wouldnât be fair to Chan, would it? Heâs your friend. Heâs not a pretty face you can choose to lust over whenever youâre lonely.Â
Donât do that to yourself, Y/N.Â
Donât do that to him.
Chan is your friend and he is only trying to be here for you.Â
âDo you want to go home?â he whispers in your hair.Â
You take a deep breath and nod. Chan takes a step back, smiling kindly at you. You do the same, although itâs a little faint. He bends his knees slightly to be at your height, gently rubs your cheeks to remove the tears and replace your hair.Â
âLetâs go, then, love.âÂ
You donât have time to gawk at him for using a nickname heâs never said before, because he turns and waves at you to follow him.Â
He tells your friends youâre feeling a little sick and heâll drive you home. You say thereâs the flu going around at the office, and you hate lying to your friends, because you know some of you will believe you and some wonât. Right now you donât really care - even if they all knew it was a lie, they wouldnât judge you. You make sure to not avoid Sanâs eyes and smile at him. You donât want him to start asking questions.Â
You get your things. Yeji gives you a quick hug and a kiss on the cheek, making you promise youâll text tomorrow. You nod, squeezing her hand and glancing at your friends. There will come a day when youâll be yourself again.Â
You just need time.
Time and a lot of courage.
When you step outside, with Chan right behind you, you realize itâs raining again. You look up at the sky, now a profound black painted by hints of grey clouds. You run to his car, the rain heavy and cold. Â
The car is clean and smells nice. Chan pulls back his hoodie, starts the engine and drives away as you look back at the apartment building. You wish you were stronger.Â
âI know what youâre thinking,â Chan says, one hand on the wheel, the other tapping on his thigh to the rhythm of the song on the radio.Â
âDo you?â you tell him with a smile.Â
âI do,â he nods, matching your smile. âYouâre telling yourself you should be stronger.âÂ
You gawk at him, feeling both embarrassed and scandalized. He shrugs.Â
âDidnât I ever tell you I can read you like an open book?âÂ
âTsk,â you retort. âWasnât that when we played Mafia?âÂ
âWhatever applies to Mafia applies to real life.âÂ
âNot sure thatâs true.âÂ
âThis is.âÂ
You glare at him and he does the same, playfully. You feel much more relaxed now that youâre here. It was always easy to talk to Chan - never does that change, whatever the circumstances. You are much alike in that you tend to put others before yourselves, often at the sacrifice of your own feelings. For some reason, though, that didnât work between you. The walls immediately fall apart.
âSo Iâm an open book, huh?â you say, staring at your hands.Â
âTo me, yes. When I have my eyes on you.âÂ
âAnd you had your eyes on me tonight?â you ask without thinking.Â
âOf course,â he answers, stopping the car at a red light. âI stayed sober, kept a close eye on you. Just in case.âÂ
You wince. âJust in case I started crying hysterically or made a scene?âÂ
He shakes his head, looking at you. The red light reflects on his face, enveloping the car in its hue. The rain thumps on the car in soft sounds. Chanâs dark hair is messy on his head, charmingly curled at the tips.Â
âMore like in case he did something,â he eventually says.Â
âWhy would he?â you ask with a frown, assuming heâs talking about San.
âWellâŠâ Chan sighs. âHe can be a dick sometimes.âÂ
Youâre surprised by his words - you never wouldâve thought that Chan disliked San. On all accounts, they are good friends. Chan chuckles nervously at your look, rubbing the back of his neck.
âSorry. I know you were a thing for a long time, but⊠Itâs just what I think.âÂ
âDid he do something?âÂ
Chan shrugs. âItâs just a feeling. Never really did anything. Except breaking up with you, of course.âÂ
You scoff. âHeâs an asshole for breaking up with me?âÂ
âYeah,â Chan stammers. âJust - like - who would ever let a girl like you go?âÂ
His words donât make a lot of sense to you. They come to you muffled, as if you are plunged in a dream or in a drunken state. You honestly canât believe your ears.Â
âWhat are you -âÂ
He quickly waves his hand, looks away from you to the road ahead - and fortunately for him, the light turns green, so he has a good excuse to change the subject.Â
âDonât mind me. Iâm just rambling.âÂ
You really donât want to let this go. Your heart is racing, and you honestly wouldnât know Sanâs name if someone was to yell it in your ear right now. All you can see is Chan, his tightened jaw, gripping the wheel of his car, driving you home. His words echo in your head, and youâre trying to put everything together.Â
Did you miss something? Clearly, Chan has something on his mind, an itch he canât scratch. Have you been so intoxicated by your grief and sadness that you blacked out? You havenât been a good friend, that much you know. You just wanted to feel better, first. You were of use to no one feeling this sad and broken. But Chanâs agitation has clearly been there for a while. How long have you been this blind?Â
You open your mouth, trying to find the right words. Chan, what is going on?
Chan, are you angry at me?
Chan, please, tell me whatâs on your mind.Â
You sigh in frustration. Youâre silent for a while, your thoughts spiraling, and just when youâre just about ready to ask, your phone rings. You glance at the screen instinctively, and Sanâs name is like a slap on the face.Â
Are you okay? he asks in a text. Tell me when you get home.Â
Hints of your boyfriend. Remnants of the past. The text feels like a ghost is speaking to you. It makes you angry. It makes you ache.Â
You might not love San anymore, but you miss him.Â
âAre you okay?â Chan asks.
âYeah,â you nod.Â
Youâre about to say youâre fine, which has become an automatic response, but you remember what Chan said. I can read you like an open book. So instead, you take a deep breath.Â
âItâs San,â you explain. âHeâs asking me if Iâm okay and to text him when Iâm home.âÂ
Chan scoffs, and there is nothing amiable in the sound. âThe guts on this guy,â he mutters. âIâm literally driving you and he knows that.âÂ
You frown, sensing the anger in his voice.Â
âSeriously, Chan, did something happen between your two?âÂ
Chan shakes his head. He doesnât want to look at you.Â
âChan,â you insist. âTell me, please.âÂ
He lets out a sigh, gripping the wheel tighter.Â
âWe mightâve had⊠an altercation.â
âAn altercation?â you repeat. âLike a fight?!âÂ
âNot a fight,â Chan sighs. âNot a physical one, anyway.â
âWhat the fuck happened?âÂ
The words escape your mouth. An uneasy feeling washes over you. Nobody has told you about this. Nobody has said a word.Â
âWhen did this happen?â you ask when Chan doesnât answer.
âLike⊠a week ago, I think.âÂ
âWhy didnât no one -âÂ
You interrupt yourself and close your eyes. Looking out the car window, you realize youâre already parked in front of your apartment building. How did it go so fast?
For how much longer are you going to keep losing track of time?Â
âChan,â you say, your voice shaking. âPlease tell me whatâs going on.âÂ
He looks at you with timid eyes. They shimmer in the darkness but you canât focus on them. You are trembling and you canât hold on to a single clear thought. Your mind is a blurry mess.
Chan looks out through the window before he takes a deep breath.Â
âI didnât want to do this tonight. You need to rest, you -âÂ
âIf you donât tell me now, Iâll never be able to sleep, so it will be worse.âÂ
You feel your hands shaking, so you clench your fists. Outside, the rain accelerates, pounds loudly on the car. The sound is almost unbearable but you donât care.Â
âIf youâre trying to protect me, Iâm grateful,â you add, when you see heâs still hesitating. âBut I can take it. Iâd rather know.âÂ
âI donât want to hurt you,â he whispers, his voice quivering.Â
âWeâre friends, right?â you tell him. âThatâs what you said. Be my friend, Chan.âÂ
He sighs and rubs his eyes. Youâre scared, and yet a part of you feels perfectly calm. You hate the fact that something was hidden from you, but youâre so ready to withstand whatever storm is heading your way.
Youâd rather stand in chaos than into nothingness.Â
At least the chaos makes a little sense.Â
âBefore I say anythingâŠâ Chan sighs. âI donât want you to take any of this on you, yeah? I know youâll feel bad, but please, just remember -âÂ
âFor fuckâs sake, Chan,â you say with a nervous laugh. âGet to the point.â
âHe has a girlfriend.âÂ
You stare back at him.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âSan. He has a girlfriend. I thought it was too soon, that it was disrespectful of you, so I told him and it got heated, but⊠Yeah. Shit. Iâm sorry, Y/N.âÂ
Itâs like the rain suddenly got quiet.Â
A girlfriend.Â
You shouldâve known. You saw it, after all. The phone, the text, the smile. The happiness in his eyes. The trendy clothes, the new watch. All the hints were there.Â
He has moved on.Â
More than you expected.Â
Everything happens quickly. Your body acts before your brain registers it, and in the blink of an eye youâre outside in the pouring rain. You slam the passenger door behind you, you forget your bag, you donât even think about it. You just walk forward.
Itâs bitter cold.Â
In seconds, youâre drenched.Â
Your knees feel weak and youâre sure you are going to fall.
A sob escapes your throat.Â
It shouldnât hurt that much.Â
You hate your heart.Â
You hate how vulnerable it is.Â
You want to move on, too.Â
âY/N!âÂ
You turn around, halfway to the door of your apartment, to find Chan running towards you. You raise your hand slowly. Itâs shaking like a leaf.
âItâs fine, Chan. Iâm f-âÂ
âStop saying that!âÂ
Youâre a bit surprised at the sudden anguish in his voice. He stops inches away from you, getting soaked by the heavy rain. It slides down his cheeks like tears, strands of dark hair sticking to his forehead. He looks at you fiercely, his eyes blazing with light.Â
âIâm sorry, I just - I see youâre hurting and itâs killing me.âÂ
You donât know what to tell him. You wish he would go away. You wish he would hug you. You wish the pain would just stop. Â
âY/N -â
âI donât care!â you scream, the sound getting lost in the rain.Â
Chan frowns.Â
âI donât care if he has a girlfriend,â you cry out. âI justâŠâ You shrug, your eyes lost in Chanâs. âI just want to heal, too. I want to move on, too. Iâm sick of being sad. Iâm sick of hurting.âÂ
There is such despair in Chanâs face you can hardly bear it. You wish you could tell him not to take the weight of your pain on his shoulders, but you know him better than that. He canât help it. Thatâs why heâs here with you.
âYou just have to give me time,â you say, your voice falling apart. âIâll be fine eventually.âÂ
He lets out a sigh, slides a hand through his drenched hair. A raindrop slides down his face, gets caught on his lips.Â
âPlease, letâs go inside,â he pleads. âLet me be here for you.âÂ
You hesitate, but the cold rain keeps you on your toes. You want to be home, in your own space, but you also donât want to be alone. So you nod, and Chan lets out a sigh, thanking you in a whisper.Â
When you step inside your apartment youâre a little shy to turn on the lights because itâs messy, but you canât really be bothered about that right now. Chan waits on the other side of the door, a hesitant look on his face.Â
âCome in,â you tell him.Â
He nods, closing the door behind him. Your place is modest, just big enough for one person, situated in the semi-basement of the building. It does not get much light, but it feels cozy and it is cheap.Â
The first thing you do is get a towel for Chan so he can dry his hair and his clothes. He hangs his hoodie on a hook near the door; luckily the t-shirt underneath is only damp. His dark blue jeans took the worst of the rain. You suggest giving him some dry clothes, but he insists heâll be fine.Â
You tell him to get comfortable and go to change in your room. Your limbs feel weak as you slip on a pair of sweatpants and a crewneck. You cannot stop thinking about Chan's words.Â
San has a girlfriend.Â
He has opened his heart to love again.Â
The rain keeps falling.Â
Itâs time you heal.Â
When you come back to the living room, Chan is anxiously staring at his phone. He puts it away when he sees you, smiling a little timidly.Â
âFeel better?âÂ
âYeah,â you nod. âWant a drink?â
âSounds good.âÂ
You give him a gentle smile and you both head to the kitchen, where you fill two glasses of soju. He takes one, clinking it against yours. You drink it in one go.Â
âNow that feels better,â you sigh.Â
Chan smiles at you fondly, and you nudge his arm.Â
âChan. Itâs all right. It had to happen.âÂ
âSo quickly, though?â he winces.Â
âWe all heal at different paces,â you say softly. âOr maybe itâs his way of healing. Either way Iâm happy for him.âÂ
Chan leans one elbow on the kitchen counter, giving you a long look. You hold his gaze, confused at the sudden calmness you feel.
âYou said you can read me like an open book,â you remind him, pouring yourself another drink. âAm I lying?âÂ
He smiles briefly. âNo.âÂ
âCheers.âÂ
He takes another sip, and you imitate him.Â
âHow about we sit down?â you propose.Â
Once in the living room, you sink into the couch. Chan sits at a comfortable distance, twirling his glass between his fingers. Itâs strange to see him at your place - because of the size of your apartment, you rarely have friends over. You remember him driving you home a couple of times, but he must have been inside only once or twice in the three years youâve lived here.
You talk a little, about everything and nothing. You drink some more, perhaps a little too much, but the soju warms your body. Chan relaxes, too. The bottle is quickly empty.Â
You both fall silent, and you stare at the bottom of your empty glass. The tears come back too easily.Â
âChan?âÂ
âYeah, love?â
You peck your lips. Hearing him say that feels too good. Itâs so new, but you already donât want him to ever stop.Â
âIs she pretty?â you utter.
âY/NâŠâÂ
âShe must be. Pretty and smart.âÂ
âDonât say that.âÂ
âDo you know her?âÂ
You look up, and Chan shakes his head. His hair is untidy, his cheeks a little red, his full lips as inviting as ever.Â
âI donât. Ji told me they met at a party.âÂ
You let out a shaky sigh. âSo everyone knows?âÂ
You hate the way your voice shudders, but you canât help it. Chan shuffles closer to you, gently taking your hand in his. Itâs warm and familiar.Â
âNo,â he answers in a soft voice. âJust a few. We wanted to wait for the right moment - well, actually, I thought San should be the one to tell you.âÂ
You laugh, wiping your tears. âNo offense, but that wouldâve been worse.âÂ
Chan snorts amusingly. âOh. Good thing it didnât happen, then. I thought itâd be a good idea.â
âItâs a terrible idea.âÂ
You both end up giggling, and Chan doesnât let go of your hand. You sniffle. You donât let go either.
âDonât take this the wrong way,â you say. But why are you so invested in this?â
âIn your breakup?âÂ
âYeah.âÂ
âIâm not invested in your breakup,â he shrugs. âIâm invested in you, youâre my friend.âÂ
âBut itâs - you donât have to, you can just be like the others, not take a side, you donât have to fight anyone.âÂ
âWhy wouldnât I speak out? It bothers me, you know me, I donât shut up when it comes to people I care about.âÂ
âBut San is your friend, too.âÂ
âBut youâre -âÂ
You frown. âIâm what?âÂ
âYouâre Y/N.âÂ
The tenderness in his voice takes you by surprise. It seeps through his lips, echoes in his eyes. You feel your heart twist and turn - and just like that, his fingers slip away from yours.
âSorry, IâŠâ He closes his eyes, shakes his head. âHell, Iâm doing it all wrong tonight. And I should really stop drinking. How the fuck am I supposed to drive back home?âÂ
âChan, wait,â you say, ignoring him. âWhat are you trying to say?âÂ
He sighs heavily. His face falls in his hand, and he breathes there for a second before he looks back up at you. He looks so tired. Â
âI know you had a crush on me,â he breathes.Â
You smile nervously. âWhy are you bringing this up?âÂ
âBecause I have a crush on you, too,â he says.Â
You blink, and itâs like the world tilts. You havenât been drinking that much, it canât be the soju. Still, you feel dizzy and warm. Chan is looking at you with fondness and anguish.Â
He didnât say had.
He said have.
His words are right there, still on the tip of his tongue.Â
In his eyes.Â
So damn bright.Â
No - heâs here because heâs your friend. Thatâs it.
Isnât it?Â
âI donât understand,â you breathe out.
âI never acted on it because San had wanted to ask you out for a while,â Chan explains with a shrug. âAnd you know me. I never put myself before others. And although I sorta knew you had a crush on me, I convinced myself San was better for you.âÂ
You look down at your hands, feeling completely overwhelmed.Â
âWhy didnât you ever tell me?â you whisper.Â
âBecause you were so happy with him,â Chan says, his voice shaking. âYou found each other and it was good, and who was I to say anything? At one point it didnât even matter anymore, and I buried it deep inside of me, told myself I was over you. You were over me, after all. It was just a crush, anyway. I was so sure youâd be in this with San for the long run.âÂ
So did I, you want to say. Your throat feels so dry, however, you canât say anything. You can just stare at Chan. He smiles at you almost carefully.Â
âWhen I heard about your breakup⊠Everything came rushing back. The other night, after we got drinks, and I saw you crying⊠I was just so worried about you. So gutted to see you hurt, it was almost unbearable. And then he said he found someone else and I couldnât understand, and we argued. It was heated, but itâs fine now. Weâre good.âÂ
You close your eyes because the world canât stop spinning. You were so cold earlier, but now youâre almost sweating. Youâre too warm. The world is ablaze.Â
Chan is your fire.
âIâm not saying Iâm in love with you. I canât say I am. But if I let myself goâŠâ He stumbles on his words. âI just might.âÂ
Time has stopped. You can barely breathe.
You feel the sting of shame.
The delightful warmth of Chanâs confession.
Youâve been so blind. Â Â
âYou just mean so much to me,â he says, his voice both low and soft. âI just want you to be happy. I just want you to be loved as you should be loved.âÂ
When you open your eyes, it feels like heâs sitting closer to you although he hasnât moved. Heâs not touching you, but his smell overwhelms your senses. You canât look away, and he watches you back.
âHow I wish I could,â he breathes, his eyes drilling into yours. âFall into you. Show you how you could be loved. âÂ
You drink his words like theyâre the essence of life. You feel, in each one, a wish, a hope, a possibility. Ropes that were drawn and never knotted together. Lifelines, waiting to be grasped.Â
âI never was,â you breathe.Â
He frowns. âWhat?â
âOver you,â you explain. âI never was over you. Iâm not.âÂ
He closes his eyes.Â
âFuck, Y/N, donât tell me that.â
âItâs true,â you say, voice trembling. âI loved San, of course I did. But you were always in my heart and you will never not be.âÂ
Chanâs eyes drip down your eyes to your lips. You feel an ache inside your chest. Itâs like itâs starting to rain indoors. What an odd feeling.Â
âYou donât love him anymore?â he asks carefully, weighing every word.
âNo.âÂ
Your voice comes in a whisper, but itâs full of certainty.Â
âBut Chan, IâŠâ You swallow. âI canât - I canât listen to what my heart says about you, itâs not fair, youâre not⊠Youâre not a stand-in, youâre not - youâre more important than that, andâŠâÂ
âCan I kiss you?âÂ
The question catches you off guard.Â
âJust once,â Chan smiles. âI want to taste your lips. Just once.âÂ
What could you say to that? How many times did you dream about Chanâs lips on yours, wondering what they felt like? Were his kisses kind, delicate, hungry? Youâd see him drink whiskey and wonder if the taste would linger on them. Youâd see him kiss another girl and picture yourself in her place.Â
And now he was offering you a kiss.
Hell, he wanted to kiss you.Â
So you find yourself nodding, and Chan takes a long look at you, as if heâs waiting for you to change your mind. You remain immobile, lips parted, awaiting his. Slowly, he plucks them, grazing them against his - and they sink into yours, soft, like a cloud, deep, like the ocean.Â
You collapse in his arms, wrapping yours around his neck. He slides his fingers through your hair, his other hand embracing your waist to pull you closer. You canât hold back a sigh from escaping your lips, and Chan responds by kissing you deeper, the movements of his lips getting almost feverish.Â
âChan,â you moan when you gasp for breath.
âFuck, I canât stop,â he growls, placing small kisses on your lips.
His fingers dig in your skin, and you desperately want to disappear against him, so you move your leg so you can straddle him. Chan wraps himself around you, and you feel the dampness of his clothes but you donât care. You take his face in your hands, plunging back into a needy kiss. Chanâs hands wander on your back, on your hips, on the back of your neck. You can only lean into him. His tongue teases your lips and you open your mouth to let it in. It plays with yours, and you can feel walls tighten.Â
By now you are fully making out, your hips grinding against his. You can feel him getting hard, and it sends your mind reeling.Â
âGod, youâre so perfect,â he moans around your lips.
âIâve thought about this so often, Chan,â you admit.
âSame,â he grins. âI⊠Fuck, I canât tell you this.âÂ
âTell me,â you insist, trailing kisses alongside his jaw, on the delicate skin of his neck. It makes him shudder, and can almost feel his cock pulsating under you.Â
âI thought about your lips,â he breathes out. âYour body. How you would sound moaning against meâŠâÂ
âFuck, ChannieâŠâÂ
You clench at his words, pressing your core on his erection. He grunts, his fingers slowly making their way under your shirt. You tug at his, and suddenly, like a flash of lightning, you realize what you are doing. Your heart skips a beat, and your mouth dries. Everything rushes back. You stop, and he does the same, leaning back.Â
He looks more attractive than ever with his hair tousled by your fingers, his full lips red and wet from your kisses.Â
âIâm sorry, I just -âÂ
âIs this going too fast?â he asks you gently.Â
You hesitate. âItâs not that. I just - I donât want to give the wrong impression.âÂ
Chan frowns. âWhat do you mean?â
âLike youâre just a rebound or something,â you shrug.
Chan smiles - that cheeky grin of his, his eyes sparkling at the same time. It toys with your heartstrings. How could anyone not adore this man?Â
âI donât care,â he answers. âIâll be your rebound.âÂ
âChan, Iâm serious,â you sigh.
âSo am I,â he says, twirling a strand of your hair around his index. âIf itâs something you want, then Iâm here. I want to. And it doesnât have to mean anything tomorrow, or ever. Weâll always be friends.âÂ
You breathe out, briefly closing your eyes. All you want is to keep kissing him, to forget the world in his arms. To be desired, to be loved.Â
Itâs all you want.
But your heart still aches.
So much has happened tonight - you feel so heavy.Â
You sigh again. âI just⊠Fuck, Iâm sorry.âÂ
Chan cups your cheek.Â
âItâs okay, love,â he says, placing a kiss on your forehead. âItâs all so fresh. I can leave if you -âÂ
âNo,â you quickly interrupt him, pushing a finger against his plush lips. âPlease. Stay with me.âÂ
Chan nods, his eyes not leaving yours. You should move. You should get going - get a glass of water, sleep it all off. But you canât move, lost in Chanâs gaze, your body a bundle of nerves. You lean forward, settling your forehead against his.Â
âItâs killing me,â you chuckle nervously.Â
Chan giggles, and the sound is delightful. âWe have time, love. I wonât let you go, now. I got you.âÂ
He places a soft kiss on your lips.
âIf youâll have me.âÂ
As an answer, you give him another kiss. You slide your fingers through his humid hair, inhaling his scent.Â
âWill you sleep here tonight?âÂ
âIâm here, baby.âÂ
The word makes something melt inside of you. You shiver, and instinctively, he sprawls his warm hands on your back.Â
Youâre overwhelmed by the tenderness and the hurt.Â
You feel so loved.Â
So abandoned.
So alone.
So supported. Â
So seen.Â
Your lips find him again like a magnet. You kiss him deeper than before. Youâre losing your mind.Â
âY/N,â he breathes in your mouth.
The words escape your lips. âFuck it, I want you.âÂ
He groans, his fingers diving in your skin. His cock twitches under you, making you lose all sense.Â
âI want this, Chan,â you sigh, biting his lip. âBut I donât - I donât want you to think Iâm using you, all right? Youâre my friend, I care about you, I -âÂ
He laughs. âYou can use me all you want.âÂ
He starts kissing you again, feverishly, as if it hasnât just been a few seconds since he last did it. You arch your back, closing all distance between your bodies. Chan starts placing kisses down your neck, his tongue teasing your thin skin.Â
âIâll make you feel good, baby girl,â he whispers. âIâll make you forget for a little while. Do you trust me?âÂ
âYes.âÂ
âItâs just you and me tonight. Let the rest fade away.âÂ
He puts his strong hands on your ass, and slowly moves it. You sway your hips, and the friction of his erection against you makes you moan softly. You plunge your face in the crook of his neck, kissing his shoulder blades.Â
âJust you and me, yeah?â he whispers.
âJust you and me,â you nod.Â
In a swift move he removes your shirt, groaning at the sight of your bralette. Itâs made of a thin lacy material, so he can perfectly see your nipples, and immediately leans in to brush his lips against them. You shudder, your nails digging in the back of his neck.Â
He removes your bra to gain access to your breasts, gently massaging them in his hands and sliding his tongue around them. Meanwhile, you caress his cock above his jeans, loving the way he tenses at your touch.Â
âHold on to me,â he tells you in a breath.
You wrap your arms around his neck and he lifts you up, only to gently lay you down on the couch so heâs on top of you.Â
âLet me see you,â you breathe, grabbing his t-shirt.Â
He obliges, removing the piece of clothing so you revel in the sight of his toned chest. You take off your sweatpants and stare as he removes his jeans as well, giving you a better sight of his athletic body. His boxers do nothing to hide his erection.
âBefore this goes any further,â he says, and his voice sounds so raw it sends shivers down your spine. âDo you have -âÂ
âBathroom,â you say with a nod.Â
He smiles, bends to steal a kiss and disappears. You look up at the ceiling, suddenly very aware of your nakedness, of what you are about to do.Â
It feels like youâve been through ten days in one.Â
This morning you woke up with dread.Â
Now you are filled with hope.Â
Is this going too fast? Should you wait?Â
Maybe.Â
You donât want to.Â
This feeling in your chest, that Chan helps surge, that threatens to burst - all this light, all this love. Itâs been a while since youâve felt that. From someone else, from yourself.Â
So what if itâs too fast? You want to live.Â
And if thereâs a person you trust, itâs Chan.Â
âGot it,â you hear him say as he reappears.Â
You donât really know what to say because you have all this love and light inside your chest and words would not feel enough, so you stay silent, only pull him back into a kiss. He lays on top of you, warm and a little unsteady. You can feel heâs a little nervous, just like you, but you donât mind. You need his softness. You need his realness.Â
You push his boxers down, feeling his cock touch your stomach. The sensation is enough to clear your mind, and you bite Chanâs lower lip a little. He answers with a slight chuckle.Â
You want to tell him how crazy he makes you. How nice it is to feel him so warm and hard. How much this means to you. But for some reason, you can bring yourself to say anything, and neither does he. You just breathe together, febrile and eager. His fingers graze your wetness, and you shiver. Sensing your pleasure, Chan applies some pressure on your folds, leaning two fingers on your clit. You arch your back, moaning a little louder than you expected. Your hands reach for him, palming his cock, your own fingers brushing his tip.Â
âFuck,â Chan grunts. âY/NâŠâÂ
âChannie, please,â you whisper.Â
âWait,â he answers. âI want to do something first, if this is my only chance.âÂ
You frown, opening your eyes as you feel him move. You quickly understand what he means, however, as his lips trace a path of wet kisses on your stomach and your thighs. Soon his breath is against your core, and you forget how to breathe.Â
When his tongue touches you, itâs like a hundred sensations at once, and you canât hold back a shaky moan. Your fingers grab the couch as Chan pushes your legs further apart. He kisses you, pressing his tongue into you, attentive to your reactions.Â
âYouâre gorgeous, you know?â he says, although you barely hear him. âKeep moaning for me, baby girl.âÂ
A surge of pleasure goes through your body, enveloping you in silk, and you grab Chanâs hair, instinctively pushing him against your clit as his tongue encloses it.Â
âFuck, fuck, Chan, IâmâŠâ you whimper.
âAre you coming?âÂ
You nod, and he buries his nose in you, embracing your sensitive spots. Your orgasm makes your whole body tremble against him, and he holds your legs as you do, making sure to accompany you throughout.Â
As you come down, slowly, you blink back into reality. You look at him a little timidly, realizing your fingers are still tangled in his hair. You place your palm against his head, caressing it tenderly. Â
âIâm so sorry,â you mutter. âDid I hurt you?âÂ
âNot at all,â he chuckles. âIt was beautiful.âÂ
You bite your lip and he moves so he can kiss you. Your taste is on his lips and his tongue and itâs making you a little dizzy.Â
Itâs been a while since youâve felt as good as this.Â
Not that the sex with San was bad - but it faded at the same time your love did. When you broke up you had not touched each other like that - barely kissed, even - for weeks.
Although youâre sensitive, you really want to make Chan feel good. You need him inside you, stretching you, making you whole. You align your legs so his cock falls between them, and you grind slowly. His breath hitches against your lips, and you take it as a hint he likes it.Â
âYou made me feel so good, Channie,â you tell him in between kisses. âI want to do the same for you.âÂ
âFuck, youâre so warm,â he lets out.Â
âI want you inside me,â you say.Â
He nods fervently, puts on the condom he got from the bathroom and aligns himself with your entrance. You feel so relaxed and tense at the same time, tucked in his arms on the couch, the rest of the world faded away. He enters you slowly, letting you time to adjust to his size, and you breathe out slowly.Â
He feels so different. He feels so right. You are a bundle of nerves he unmakes.
He thrusts his hips at a measured, exquisite pace. Each time he goes deeper, and you cry out in pleasure, your fingers digging in the skin of his muscled back. You feel the fever, you feel the want. He breathes heavily against your neck, holding you tight.Â
âYou okay?â he asks in a whisper.Â
âDonât stop,â you tell him, arching a little to facilitate his movements.Â
Chan doesnât stop. As he makes love to you - because it is what he is doing - you sense his thrusts getting a little more erratic. In the quiet of the living room you hear nothing but the sound of him plunging inside you, his cock smeared by your wetness, his breathing mingling with yours. It is so erotic, so loving, your second orgasm is building quickly and deliciously.Â
Chan accelerates. You pant, moaning nonsense.Â
âCome with me,â he breathes, and that is the last thing you need to come undone.Â
Itâs enthralling how your soul escapes you and yet stays right there, against Chan, around him, with him. As you clench around his cock, you hear a delightful moan escape his throat, rough and hoarse, and it keeps you right above the clouds with him as he comes inside of you. You feel him twitch before he relaxes slowly.Â
His lips find your forehead and he plants the softest of kisses there.Â
As you sink into the couch, he removes himself from you, and lays down on top of your body. You donât mind the weight - in fact, it feels just right. His nose is in your neck, his breath tickling your sweat-covered skin. Your fingers slide in his hair, and you close your eyes.Â
You give yourselves time to recover. As the high fades, you feel Chanâs breathing relax and get more steady.Â
âChannie,â you whisper with a smile. âDonât fall asleep.âÂ
âHm?â he groans, lifting his head to look at you.Â
With his hair all over the place, his small eyes and swollen lips, he looks ready to pass out. It elicits a large smile from you, and you tenderly caress his cheek.Â
âLetâs get to bed,â you tell him.Â
He nods. You stand up on shaky legs, and help him on his feet. Together you close the lights in the apartment, and then you take his hand to guide him towards the bathroom. You take the time to clean up and head to the bedroom. The lights are off except for the fairy lights hanging above your bed. Once youâre there, you open a drawer, take out a t-shirt that will fit him.Â
You slip under the sheets, Chan next to you. He pulls you into his arms, and you put your head on his shoulder.Â
The rain has slowed to a drizzle.
Who knows what the sky will look like tomorrow?Â
For now you just want to sleep against Charmâs warmth.
âGet some rest, love,â he whispers to you.Â
âGoodnight, Channie.âÂ
âGoodnight.â
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#bang chan x y/n#bang chan x reader#đŻđrecs#just wow#im still flabbergasted by how soft and warm this fic isđ„șđ#man Yeji was such a good friend tooâșïžđ#idk why her hugging y/n and kissing her cheek stood out to me but it didđą#such a small show of comfort and loveđđ#and Jeongin rubbing her back when she sat downđ„ș#jsnisjdisiwjwsidiejjwiw
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'His lips rested in a slight pout' San has resting pout face and it is just so cuteđđ 'You had realized trying to start a conversation was harder than you imagined. Every time you had built up the courage, your throat would close up and prevent any words from escaping.' I felt this on a spiritual level omlđđ 'You shook your head to yourself when you realized your thoughts were drifting to the man next door. Again. Goodness, you were hopeless.' Maybe hopeless, but I understand 10000%đ'The more he spoke, the more you realized he was intoxicated.' The door would have been shut and a cab called for the poor soul to get home safely smhđ€Šââïž "I can stay if you want. I donât mind.â skwnwnjs what a gentleman!!đ„čđ âI know,â he said, âbut just let me play doctor for a few more minutes.â AHHHHHHHH I WOULD'VE DIED ON THE SPOT OMLđ«Łđ€ 'San gave you a small smile. âBecause I canât let my mail buddy get hurt.â hehehehehe he knewđ€ âWhy would a pretty girl staring at me creep me out? I found it endearing.â KQNSKSNSKS SAN!! HOW COULD ONE EVEN FUNCTION AFTER THAT!?đ”âđ«đ
By Your Side || cs
"The quiet guy who lives next door to you hardly seems to notice you, but you can't help but notice himâhe's gorgeous. You've given up all hope of striking up a conversation until he comes to your rescue one night after your ex shows up at your house, drunk and looking to take you back, whether you want him or not." - Prompt
đ©č Pair: San x Reader(f)
đ©č Rating/Genre: NC-17; Fluff, slight comfort, slice of life, neighbor au, strangers to lovers
đ©č Word Count:Â 6.4k
đ©č Warnings: Minor injury (cuts/scrapes), small amount of blood, intoxication/drunk character, insinuating cheating, cursing
đ©č Authorâs Note: This is my first non-BTS fic, so Iâm nervous! Ateez has really stolen my heart. Theyâre now one of my ult groups, so expect to see more of them on my blog heh. Iâm excited to start writing for them. I have more Ateez fic ideas in mind that Iâm looking forward to writing in the future! As always, I hope you enjoy it.Â
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The slope of his nose was perfectly leveled. His hair was straight and parted in the middle to expose some of his forehead. His lips rested in a slight pout; his brows furrowed as he struggled to slide his key correctly into the keyhole of his mailbox. You would have offered to lend him a hand, but he soon got the key in successfully. The view of his face was covered by the mailboxâs door.
You should have torn your gaze from his profile. If he caught you staring, it would be too awkward to extract yourself from the situation. You would stumble over your words as you tried to formulate an excuse. However, he was like a magnet. Your eyes stayed glued to him, scanning what little you could see now. Perhaps it was the fact his hair color had suddenly changed from a bright pink to a dark black. Although you enjoyed his magenta hair, the black hair made him more alluring. While the obvious change in his appearance caught your attention, you couldnât deny that another reason why you were so fascinated with the man was that he was extremely handsome. From his soft eyes to his sharp jawline; it was difficult to ignore him.
San has been your neighbor for almost a year now. Recalling his move-in day brought a smile to your face. Not just because he was your gorgeous new neighbor, but because his friends came and helped him move his furniture and boxes. You were leaving your apartment to run a grocery errand and had stumbled upon yelling whispers. His friends were trying to stay quiet amongst their chaos, but it was clear whispering was not their forte. Although you didnât stay for long, you had gathered they were arguing about how to get your neighborâs couch through his door. Through the havoc, you had caught your new neighbor rolling his eyes with a smile on his face as he carried a box inside behind them. They were finished by the time you had come back from your grocery shopping. And even though you didnât see your neighbor and his friends, you could faintly hear them through the door. Usually, the noise would slowly boil your blood, but it was hard to get irritated by the contagious laughing next door.
A soft click and the rattling of keys tore you from your memories. Much to your horror, you were still staring at your neighbor. You ripped your gaze to your own open mailbox and hastily grabbed what little mail you had to distract yourself. However, your stare didnât go unnoticed as you swore you saw his lips curl into a small smile before he left without a word.Â
Your shoulders sagged when he was out of your vision, eyes dropping down to the two envelopes in your hand. You had never been the greatest with keeping up with checking your mail, but after your neighbor made himself a home next door, getting your mail was the highlight of your days. It became an excuse to get a glimpse of the eye candy living adjacent to you.
Eventually, you would grow out of this strange attraction you had for your neighbor. At least you hoped you would. You had realized trying to start a conversation was harder than you imagined. It wasnât because he gave you the cold shoulder, but you just couldnât bring yourself to say something to him. Every time you had built up the courage, your throat would close up and prevent any words from escaping. You wouldnât be surprised if he thought you were a creep at this point. He never struck a conversation either. Maybe you had already scared him away.
The thought had a sigh leave your lips. You didnât want to do that.
You shut your mailbox and twisted the key, locking it. You stared at the small, metal door. Today will be the last day for a while, you told the inanimate object. You were going to give your neighbor some space.Â
It was time to let go of the silly crush you had formed. It wasnât going to go anywhere.Â
Choi San was a quiet man.
He kept to himself and was never the cause for any ruckus that occurred in your apartment complex. Well, he may have been if he was with his friends, but never alone was he any trouble. He was an enigma, and you couldnât help but feel more drawn to him because of it. You wanted to know him for more than a pretty face.
Five weeks passed when you didnât check your mailbox every other day. You had been accustomed to visiting your mailbox frequently, so it felt strange not to. Any time you had seen San, it was simply through passing. He would be leaving his apartment while you were entering yours or vice versa. You kept your gaze averted, forcing yourself to resist the urge to steal a glance. It wasnât easy. Though, getting rid of any addiction was always difficult. No matter how weird it sounded, you had come to terms you were addicted to San. At least, you were addicted to the attraction you felt when you spotted him. You shouldnât have been so down the first time you skipped going to your mailbox. Whatever trance you were lulled under in his presence was too strong to ignore.
You shook your head to yourself when you realized your thoughts were drifting to the man next door. Again. Goodness, you were hopeless.
You snatched your phone from the counter and strolled to your TV. You sunk into the cushions, pulling the blanket that was slung over the couchâs arm over your body. Despite it being the weekend, you had no plans on going out.
Last weekend was a friendâs birthday, and you were still trying to regain the energy you had expelled. The nights were fun, but you needed a few weeks to recuperate.
Twenty minutes passed before knocks at your door startled you. A quick glance at your phoneâs clock informed you it was half-past eleven.
You were going to ignore the knocks as it was late, but the sounds persisted.
Sighing, you pushed off your blanket and shuffled to the door. You quietly glanced through the peephole and cursed inwardly when you saw who it was.
Normally, you would turn away from the door, but a part of you was worried about why your ex-boyfriend was knocking at your door so late. The relationship ended a little rocky, but you didnât hate him. You hadnât talked to him since and avoided his friends in case you would accidentally run into him. Because you didnât dislike him enough to feed him to the wolves, you opened your door.
Hyunwooâs eyes widen at the sound of your door opening.
âOh, Iâm sh-o glad you a-answered,â he sighed in relief, hand leaning against the frame of your door. Most of his weight was on that hand. You were sure if you moved it, he would lose his balance.
There was something off with him.
âAre you okay?â you questioned moving your hands slightly in front of you in case he was to fall.Â
âPeachy,â he answered. He tilted his head as his eyes took in your night attire. The long shirt and short shorts werenât anything designer, but it had Hyunwoo smiling.
âYou not occupied, are you? âM just wanna shee you. Was âboutâa go home, but Kwan droppedâe off here. I donât remember telling âim that though,â Hyuneoo rambled, his other hand waving aimlessly as he spoke. His gaze dropped as his brows furrowed at his last sentence. He looked confused suddenly.
The more he spoke, the more you realized he was intoxicated. If it werenât for his slurring, you would know from the smell of alcohol coming from his mouth.
It was late and you did not wish to spend your weekend taking care of your drunk ex.
You glanced behind him to see if his friend had come along tooâhopefully sober. Unfortunately, all you saw was empty space.
âWhereâs Kwan?â you wondered. Please say waiting in the car.
âGone. Sh-aid âm bettaâ off here.â Hyunwoo looked up at you again, face no longer scrunched with confusion.
âIs he coming back?â
Hyunwoo shrugged and looked down when he heard something drop. Following his gaze, you saw his phone on the floor. Before you could pick it up for him, he moved the arm resting against the door frame to grab it.Â
âWait-â you tried to stop him.
ââSâkay,â he mumbled as he reached down. Barely a second later, he was losing his balance.
Your hands reached out to grab his shoulders, but his knees had already hit the floor.
âOwww,â he whined loudly, making you do a quick glance at the other doors around you. Great. Someoneâs going to hear that.
âIs Kwan sober? Iâll call him and have him pick you back up.â You grabbed his phone and stuffed it in your pocket then pulled Hyunwoo up from the floor. You helped him lean against the wall outside your door.
âN-no!â Hyunwoo exclaimed and reached a hand to stop your movements. Your eyes widen at his fast reaction. âNot leaving âtil you talk to me. Wantâo talk.â
His head leaned back, Adamâs apple bobbing as he swallowed harshly. His hand still gripped your wrist. Despite your wishes, it appeared you would have to babysit him until you could figure out what to do.Â
âWhy âou look sh-ad?â Hyunwoo pouted. The hand on your wrist slowly moved up to your face. You grabbed his hand and stopped it from caressing your face. You moved it back to his side. âAlways hated sh-eeing you sh-ad.â
You ignored his words.
âLetâs get you inside while I call a ride for you,â you suggested and started to slowly move to your door. Your phone was inside, and you didnât want to leave him outside alone. You could drive him back to his home, but you didnât want to be responsible for him any longer than you had to. You werenât sure why Kwan would leave him here like this, but you werenât happy with that knowledge.Â
Forgetting he was unstable, Hyunwoo hastily pushed off the wall to stop you from going inside. Although you didnât understand what he was fearful of, you guessed it was because he wanted to stop you from calling someone.
âHyunw-â you gasped as you felt him grip your waist firmly and begin to stumble.
Unlike before, he fell with you in his hold.
You staggered to the floor.
âShit,â you hissed as you felt the heel of your palms burn from scraping the concrete floor. There was also an aching pain in your ass from falling backward on the hard ground.
Suddenly, the sound of a door clicking open stole your attention from the stinging in your hands.Â
Standing with a startled expression was your handsome neighbor. His hair was wavy and fluffy, making you want to ruffle his locks. He wore black sweatpants with white stripes down the sides and a grey muscle tee. You wondered how such a cute face could be on a body like that. The contrast was eye-catching.
After four weeks of barely seeing him, you wanted to stay seated on the floor with your eyes glued to his. Unfortunately, or fortunately, you didnât have the chance because Hyunwooâs voice brought you back to your situation.
âDonât worry,â Hyunwoo reassured your neighbor, hand waving him off as he tried to stand up. âJusâaâlil accsh-ident.â
Sanâs expression soon turned into concern as his eyes darted from Hyunwoo to you. He quickly moved forward and held out his hand.
âAre you hurt?â he asked as he waited for you to accept. His voice was tender like the gaze he had cast toward you.
Even though now was your chance to feel his skin upon yours, part of you didnât want to. You were too embarrassed at having been caught on the floor with your drunk ex somewhere behind you. You couldnât even entertain your lingering crush on him at the moment.Â
Because you didnât want to make the situation any worse, you took his hand anyway and allowed him to pull you up. His hand was large around yours and cool to the touch. You muttered a thank you as he lifted you. He was stronger than you imagined, and you accidentally stumbled from the strength he used to help you stand.
His hands rested on your shoulders to steady you while yours came to rest on his biceps. A slight blush bloomed on your cheeks at the feel of his bare skin, and you quickly retracted your hands.Â
âIâm sorry,â he said sheepishly then glanced behind you, not bothered with you having touched him.
âItâs okay,â you murmured. âIâm okay-â
Abruptly, San quickly held out a hand and grabbed Hyunwoo, stopping him from falling on you again and dragging you all to the floor. Sanâs other hand still rested on your shoulder.
He looked at you after studying Hyunwoo for a moment. âCan you walk?â
Once you nodded, San moved the hand that was on you to grab Hyunwoo. He could hold him up better.Â
âDid you want him in your home, or should I rest him against the wall?â San questioned, quickly assessing Hyunwooâs state. Although you both have never spoken to each other, the only form of exchange were head nods, you had heard his voice on occasions. Sometimes while he was on the phone or if his friends came over. Nevertheless, his voice was as smooth as you remembered. You would have indulged in the way it comforted you if it werenât for this particular situation. Â
ââM can walk!â Hyunwoo scoffed and attempted to push Sanâs hands from him. âYn, tell âim to let me go.â
âFollow me,â you quickly said and ignored your exâs whining. You didnât want another neighbor to see what was happening. You stepped inside your apartment again, holding the door open as San helped Hyunwoo stagger in. You gestured to the couch then shut the door.
âWhatchaâ doing, man? I sh-aid âm can walk!â
San disregarded Hyunwooâs pleads as he guided him to your couch. He eased your ex down on your couch, having to quickly push him back onto the cushions when Hyunwoo tried to stand again.
âYouâll be fine. Just sit for a while,â San said calmly to Hyunwoo, yet there was a firmness to it that made it sound more like a command than a light suggestion.
Hyunwoo huffed in his face but stayed seated finally.
âYn,â Hyunwoo called. âHe caâeave now.â He gestured to San who was hovering near the couch in case Hyunwoo decided to kiss the floor again.
You glanced at San, wanting to tell him you were okay now, but part of you didnât want him to go. Whether it be because you needed his strength if Hyunwoo were to fall again or if you simply wanted to be in his presence without standing near your mailbox.
As if San could sense your hesitancy, he offered, âI can stay if you want. I donât mind.â
âBut I do!â Hyunwoo protested.
âThatâd be nice,â you sighed, a headache forming.
âItâs not âike youâo ignore me,â Hyunwoo interjected; his body sagged against the cushions as if feeling defeated.
âMay you give us a moment? Sorry. You can sit over there,â you asked San and pointed at your dining room across the room.
âOf course,â he answered politely and took a seat at your dining table. He pulled out his phone and averted his attention from you. You figured he did that more so out of courtesy than boredom.Â
You moved closer to the couch to grab your phone.
âWhy did Kwan leave you here?â you asked Hyunwoo. One of his hands reached up to grab your forearm. He stared at you with half-lidded eyes, lips tugged down in a frown.
âSomething âbout me beinâ annoying. Sh-aid I needed to talkâo you.â He tugged, rougher than you believed he meant to, but it caused you to fall next to him on the couch. For some reason, your eyes quickly glanced at San, but he was still looking at his phone screen.
âOkay,â you said slowly. âWhat did you want to talk about?â
As you waited for his answer, you scrolled through your contacts to find Kwan.
âUs-h,â Hyunwoo said and gently rubbed your forearm. When he noticed your attention was heavily directed to your phone instead of him, he placed a hand on yours that was holding the device.
You finally glanced in his direction.
âMaybe we should talk about it another time,â you lied and tried to keep your voice low. Even though it was probably best to talk about that topic when he was sober, you didnât want to talk about it at all. You felt the conversation would be redundant as youâve already talked things through. At least, thatâs how you felt.
âPfft,â he scoffed and pushed himself farther into your cushions. Maybe he thought he could embed himself in your furniture so he couldnât leave. âYouâre ignorinâeh too much for meâo believe that.â
âHyunwoo,â you sighed and gently removed his hand from yours. âItâs been a year already. I thought you moved on.â
As discreetly as you could, you began searching through your contacts. When you found Kwanâs name, you sent a quick text telling him to pick Hyunwoo up if he was sober.
âA year?â Hyunwoo wondered. The look on his face showed he didnât realize how long itâs been. You barely have seen Hyunwoo after the breakupâcould count the number of interactions you had with him on your hands. Sometimes it was at a shared friendâs event or through passing at local stores since you both lived in the same city. Regardless, it was never more than 15 minutes at a time.
Hyunwooâs shoulders sagged, eyes squeezing shut as if to erase that thought from his mind. âRight,â he mumbled more to himself.
A vibration in your hand turned your gaze away from your ex. Luckily, Kwan was fine to come back. A silent sigh left your lips as you felt relieved that you wouldnât have to drive him home.
âGet some rest, okay?â you said. You wanted to say youâd talk about it later, but you knew you didnât want to, so you refrained from the offer.
Hyunwooâs energy must have decreased exceptionally. He simply nodded and let his head fall back. Gently, you adjusted him so he was laying down. You waited for a few minutes in case he woke up and became needy again. When he didnât, you carefully got up, placed his phone next to him, and went to where San was seated.
âIâm sorry you had to deal with this, but thank you for helping,â you said as you sat down across from him.
San tucked his phone into his pocket and sent you a reassuring smile. Your eyes flickered to his small dimples. You never saw them too much, but they always had your heart warm in your chest. They made him look much cuter.Â
âYou don't need to apologize,â San assured. âIâm sorry you had to get stuck with your drunk friend.âÂ
You opened your mouth to correct him, but why should you? It didnât matter if San thought he was your friend or your ex. The details were irrelevant.Â
Instead, you said, âIâm still grateful you helped me.â
ââCourse,â he murmured.
His gaze moved to your clasped hands on the table. You started to feel conscious of them under his stare and began to tuck them beneath the table. However, San was quick to stop the movement.
He slowly turned your hands over, palms up. You looked at him confused.Â
âYou should clean this,â he instructed kindly and traced a small area on your hands.Â
You averted your gaze down quickly.
On both palms were red areas with scratch marks. The areas werenât big, but you could still see the worry in Sanâs eyes.Â
The warmth in your chest spread at the fact he cared about your wellbeing even though he didnât really know you and the injuries werenât major.
âCome,â he said and carefully rose from his chair. The layout of the apartment must be similar to his because he navigated to the kitchen sink with ease. That or he saw it when he sat at the table.
Silently, he turned on the facet, checking the temperature several times as the seconds passed. You watched with more attention required. You had never imagined the neighbor youâve been smitten with would be in your apartment. Let alone helping you clean a wound.
You took the time to stare at his profile while his focus was on the running water. He had small stud earrings and his skin was light honey. His hair fell in front of his face, the wavy locks concealing his eyes. You were partly glad for that so he couldnât see you staringâŠagain.
Once San was satisfied, he hastily washed his hands and then held out a hand. You quickly placed a hand in his. Probably a little too fast, but you didnât want to be caught distracted.Â
He led your hand under the water. His movements were gentle as he cleaned your scrapes. For someone who was physically strong, he knew when to be tender. After he cleaned both hands, he dried them off with a clean towel you had handed him.
âDo you have band-aids?â he asked while drying your hands. Â
âIâll be fine,â you brushed off his question. Not because you didnât have any, but because you already felt he did enough. You didnât want him to think you were totally useless.
San chuckled lowly and peered at your face through his hair. You had the urge to move his hair to see him clearly but resisted.
âI know,â he said, âbut just let me play doctor for a few more minutes.â
His teasing tone caught you off guard and you lowered your head to hide the small smile forming on your lips.Â
âI-Iâll go get them then,â you replied and left to retrieve them before he could stop you. You could hear the faint sound of his laughter as you moved to your bathroom.
You wished you werenât so nervous being in his presence but after months of admiring from afar, you couldnât stop fumbling over your words and thoughts.
When you came back, San was leaning against the kitchen counter, hands resting behind him on the countertop. The position had his shirt stretch slightly across his torso. While he had broad shoulders, his waist tapered to give him an attractive figure. His gaze was on your ex sleeping on your couch. You couldnât read his expression and part of you wondered what he was thinking.
âBand-aids, Dr. Choi,â you announced and held out the box.Â
San turned his head to you, a smile forming on his lips at your joke. He stood up straighter at the title and took the box from your hold.
âThank you, Ms. Yn,â he played along. He pulled out some band-aids, picked the correct sizes, then started to open them.
âNow Iâm not sure if youâre my patient or my assistant. I donât think itâs appropriate for doctors to ask their patients to bring them items.â
You giggled at his dilemma and held out your hands when he gestured for them.
âI can be whatever you want me to be,â you teased, not taking the time to consider the multiple meanings that one sentence held.
Your response had San faltering in his movements, thumbs paused as he was in the middle of pressing the ends of the band-aid flat against your skin.
âI-I meant that I didnât care if I was a patient or an a-â
You stuttered as you tried to explain yourself; however luckily for you, loud knocking interrupted you.Â
The booming sounds of the knocks startled San and he quickly jumped away from you, letting the second band-aid flutter to the floor and a small yelp escaped his mouth. You bit your lower lip to stop smiling at his reaction. You hadnât even considered that San might be easily scared. Before you could go down the rabbit hole of thinking of his other traits, another knock emitted.
There was a groan near the couch, and you realized the knocking must be Kwan.
You quickly went to the door and swung it open, not bothering to look through the peephole.
âLong time no see,â Kwan said with a smile that didnât seem genuine. You had met him through Hyunwoo and while he liked you initially, he started to dislike you after your and Hyunwooâs breakup.
âHey,â you greeted. âHeâs on the couch sleeping. I can help move him to the car.â
You stepped aside to let him in. As you were about to guide him to where Hyunwoo was, he stopped you.
âWhat did he tell you?â
âWhat?â you questioned as you shut the door.
âDo you know why I left him here?â Kwan asked, not bothering to explain himself. His voice was pretty hushed. Maybe he didnât want to wake Hyunwoo.
âSomething about him being annoying,â you recalled.
Kwan scoffed. âThat, but also because heâs been so pathetic lately. All he talks about is you and how you broke his heart.â
You gave him a confused expression; you didnât like where this was going.
âThe breakup was mutual. How could I br-âeak his heart? You stopped yourself from asking because there was no point. You knew Kwan would just formulate a reason that would make you feel guilty. Although you didnât want to hurt Hyunwoo, you both ended the relationship in agreement. You were simply going in different directions in life.Â
âLook,â you sighed. âHe isnât my responsibility, and he needs to move on. Weâre not getting back together.â
You stood your ground even when Kwan sent a cold glare in your direction.
âEven if we did, you think I would be happy? You think me being unhappy would make Hyunwoo happy?â you tried to explain.
âYou could be happy if you just-â
âNo,â you stopped him with a raised hand. âIâve moved on. Hyunwoo is a good guy-â Kwan scoffed. â-But I donât see a future with him.â
âYouâre so-!â
âKwan?â
Both you and Kwan moved further into the apartment at his name being called. Hyunwoo sat up on the couch and began to stand. For once you were grateful for Hyunwoo. You didnât want to hear the rest of Kwanâs sentence; it was most likely filled with profanities.Â
âHey, buddy.â Kwan moved to help Hyunwoo stand. âYou ready to go?â
Hyunwoo hummed and then looked at you.
âCall me later, âkay?â He spoke slowly, voice a little groggy.
You stilled at the question. You would call if he wasnât going to try to convince you to get back together, but every conversation after the breakup consisted of him dropping hints of wanting to be with you again.
You must have stayed silent for too long because Hyunwoo exhaled a defeated sigh. Kwan sent you another scowl, threatening with his gaze to say yes.
âItâs fine. Never mind,â Hyunwoo said and waved his hand as if to push away the question that was hanging in the air.
âWhy canât you just talk to him like an adult, Yn?â Kwan interrupted rudely.
âItâs fine, Kwan,â Hyunwoo repeated. ââM not gonnaâ force-â
âNo, Hyun, you deserve a simple talk with her.â Kwan directed his attention to you again. âItâs the least she can do.â
You stared at him incredulously. Heâs acting as if you cheated on Hyunwoo with ten guys, but you didnât do such a thing. Why would Hyunwoo agree to break up if he really didnât want to?
âThereâs nothing else to say,â you argued.
âEvidently thatâs a lie because Hyunwooâs been moping-â
âHow is that my fault?â you snapped.
âAre you serious, Yn?!â Kwan exclaimed.
âIf she doesnât want to call, then she doesnât want to call.â
The new voice had all three of you turning toward the kitchen. You had forgotten San was still here in the midst of your personal chaos. Sanâs once calm demeanor turned fierce. You had never seen this side of San, but you had a suspicion he was holding back on saying more.Â
Kwan let out a dry laugh.
âAh, I see,â he said and shook his head. âWhen did you find him? A day before you broke up with Hyun?â
San clenched his jaw, body tensed as he forced himself to stay put when all he wanted to do was kick him out. Maybe not with force... Unless he had to. He saw himself as a lover, not a fighter, but that didn't matter if you were in danger.
It was clear Kwan had made a false persona of you. You were sure he believed you had done something sinister to Hyunwoo that led to the breakup. Though, it also made you realize that Hyunwoo let him believe that. Did he even try to save your face?
âI think itâs time for you to go. Thanks for picking him up,â you said and disregarded Kwanâs gibe. You didn't need, nor want, to listen to him anymore.
You moved toward the door, but Hyunwoo and Kwan didnât follow.
âWill you call him?â Kwan asked sternly. He wasnât going to leave unless you agreed.
Exasperated, you opened your mouth to say fine, but San cut you off.
âItâs clear she has nothing more to say. Drop it and leave.â
âThe question wasnât directed to you, pretty boy,â Kwan said, rolling his eyes.
âYet youâre meddling with issues they need to solve on their own,â San retorted. His eyes were glued to Kwanâs. If San had acted like this when you first saw him, you would have avoided him at all costs. Everyone has their dark side, per se, but Sanâs was much darker than you had imagined for someone who seemed like a loving cat.Â
âI have to because Hyun wonât gro-!â
âLetâs just go. Mâ headâs killing me, man,â Hyunwoo said, body struggling to stay upright any longer. Although he wasnât completely sober, the nap at least knocked some sense in him.
Kwan pressed his lips together but began to walk toward the door. You held the door open and watched as they made their way to the exit.Â
As they passed you, Hyunwoo tripped. You reached out to grab him, but Kwan held a hand to stop yours. The quick action had startled you and you pulled back. You could hear Sanâs hurried footsteps as he came closer. You werenât entirely sure why he was suddenly by your side, but you guessed it was in case Kwan tried to do something.
âDonât touch him,â Kwan snarled at you and led him out the door without your help.
The second they were out the door, you shut and locked it.
You pressed your back against the door and inhaled a deep breath. Your eyes stilled on the ceiling, trying to ease your tense shoulders as the seconds ticked by.
âDo they visit often?â San asked, pulling you from your thoughts.
âNo. They havenât been here in a long time,â you said and glanced down at your feet. Why did Kwan have to stir up unwanted emotions?Â
âIf they come back, you can just call me and Iâll come over,â he said earnestly.Â
âThey wonât harm me. I donât need to burden you.â
âThey are capable of it, though, and I donât want anything to happen to you.â
You looked up at San, head tilting as you tried to force yourself to be rational. The sentence had butterflies flapping in your stomach that you tried to ignore. He was just being friendlyâprobably would say that to anyone. Knowing how sweet and protective he seemed to be could confirm that suspicion.Â
âThanks,â you muttered. âBut I still don-â
âWhatâs your number?â
You stuttered incoherent words as you tried to grasp his question. In the back of your head, you knew he was asking so you could call him if you needed his help. Though, you couldnât stop the thought of him asking you this for another reason.
âShould I just give you mine instead?â San chuckled softly when you didnât answer right away.
âNo- I mean sure- No, wait, I can just give you mine.âÂ
San laughed again and pulled his phone out. He navigated his way to his contacts and added a new one.
âNumber?â he asked again.
This time, you gave it to him.
âI sent you a text so you have my number. Iâm serious; let me know if they come back. You wonât be bothering me. Iâll probably come over if I hear them anyway.â
âWhy?â you asked before you could stop yourself.
San gave you a small smile. âBecause I canât let my mail buddy get hurt.â
âW-what?â you gasped and looked at him with wide eyes. San laughed, a corner of his lips quirking up in a smirk. The sound of his laughter had you smiling involuntarily; however, they quickly dipped down when he continued.
âYouâre not very discrete,â San said teasingly.
âWhat would I need to be discreet about?â
âYou know, I kept thinking I had food or something on my face,â he started to say, âbut then I just realized you simply enjoyed looking at me.â
San grinned wider, eyes turning into crescents as he watched your expression change into horror and embarrassment.Â
âIâm s-sorry!â you said. You were uncertain what else to say and you sure werenât going to admit the reason why. The embarrassment you felt now would last a solid six months, even more. You didnât want to add additional time. However, it seemed San was having fun seeing you flustered.Â
âWhy sorry? Who said I didnât like it?â
A small yelp left your lips, and you brought your hands to your face to hide your flushed cheeks.
âWhy havenât you been coming to the mailboxes lately? I was getting worried.â Although Sanâs tone was still light, you could catch the hint of concern.
âI went.â Not entirely a lie because you did go, but very briefly and at times that no one would be there. âMust have missed each other.â
San quirked an eyebrow up in disbelief. âI highly doubt that,â he said and gave you an encouraging smile to tell the truth.
âF-fine!â you huffed and pulled your hands from your face. âI didnât want to creep you out.â
San stared at you long enough to make you feel awkward. You were about to apologize again when San spoke.
âWhy would a pretty girl staring at me creep me out? I found it endearing.â
You were sure your cheeks were already pink. Now, theyâre bright red.
âDonât say that,â you said bashfully.
âMhm,â he hummed as if in thought and kept a smile on his face. âVery cute indeed.â
His reply made you feel he was talking to himself. You hadnât prepared for San to say such things. Even when you daydreamed of interactions with him, they never turned out like this.
âWould you be okay with hanging out together sometime? Not just when youâre in need of a knight inâ Actually, I guess I would be a doctor in sweats instead of a knight.â
You laughed at his joke, recalling how he had tended to your wounds ever so carefully. The lighthearted tone had eased your nervousness.Â
âYeah, I would like that,â you answered with a smile of your own.Â
San nodded. âIâm glad to hear that. How about tomorrow?â
âTomorrow?â you asked, surprised. You were excited to finally be able to learn more about San, but tomorrow felt too soon. You needed time to mentally prepare.
âAbout five? I would say earlier, but itâs already so late that I doubt either one of us will want to be up early.â
At the mention of time, you quickly reached for your phone to check. However, you had left it somewhere and from where you stood, you couldnât see the clock in your kitchen.
âItâs two,â San said.
âO-oh wow. Iâm sorry I kept you up.â You didnât realize how long itâs beenâhow long youâve been keeping San from sleeping.
âYou apologize a lot, huh?â San observed to which you blushed again. âItâs okay, really. Donât stress about it. I wanted to stay. So, what do you say? Tomorrow at five?â
âWhere will we go?â
San shrugged. âI havenât thought about that yet. Just wear whatever you feel comfortable in. Iâm sure youâll look b- Iâm sure it wonât be anything fancy.â
Sanâs cheeks turned their own shade of rose as he quickly changed his sentence. Despite not knowing what he was going to say, you felt your heart beat a little quicker with the thought of what he had planned.
Iâm sure youâll look beautiful.
It may not be exact, but you let yourself indulge in what could be a false statement because it made you feel good. His pink cheeks were a good hint that you were probably correct, though.
It felt good to have him finally feel shy. It gave you some confidence.Â
âOkay then,â you said. âTomorrow at five.â
San beamed at you. You couldnât wait to see more of his smile.
âIf they ever come back, call me. I donât care if itâs four in the morning, okay? You have my number.â
âOkay,â you said and reluctantly moved off the door so you could open it.
âYou mean it?â
âI do.â
And you did.
Because Choi San was such a caring person you could feel how genuine he was being. You hadnât wanted to call him at first because you werenât sure if he was just saying that to be polite. However, you could sense he was being serious with every fiber in his body. Plus, you believed him when he said he would come on his own accord if he heard anyone disturb you.
You slowly opened the door for him and watched as he stepped outside, hands digging into his pocket to retrieve his keys.
Before he stepped into his own apartment, he glanced at you.
âSleep well, Ms. Yn,â he said sweetly.
You giggled at his reference. Playing along, you replied, âGoodnight, Dr. Choi.â
The warm smile on his handsome face was the last thing you could think of as you fell asleep, eager and anxious for tomorrow.Â
You werenât sure where your and Sanâs relationship was going to go, whether it will be platonic or not. One thing was for sure, though. You wanted Choi San in your life simply because he brought a light you werenât going to be able to replicate. And that alone was cherishable enough.
ATEEZ COMEBACK LETâS GO!!!!! IâM SO HYPED FOR IT. THESE PROMOTIONS ARE CREATIVE AND INCREDIBLE. Iâm extremely amazed by the marketing strategiesâunannounced posters, AirDropped codes??? These trailers for their movie comeback? Hello?! Stan Ateez lol. I love that theyâre using their storyline to guide their promos. Also, my favorite stage on Kingdom was their Rhythm Ta performance, so Iâm very anxious to see what all theyâve been working on. Anyway, Iâm just excited to get more into the Ateez community. I need more fellow Atinys in my life! Please be my friend đ« lol
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#own#relationship#choi san x reader#san x reader#ateez#ateez choi san#ateez san x reader#ateez san#đŻđrecs#Hyunwoo was drunk so his actions were not of his#Plus Kwan was the reason he was even theređ€Żđ#Kwanđ€ i don't like him smh WAY tooo into someone else's#also y/n is so right ateez's laughs are so endearingđ„čđ#especially when they are all laughing and Woo just comes in with his iconic laughđ€Łđđ and makes them laugh even harder!!#this was so cute!! suoer wholesome toođ„čđ#we love a wholesome gentleman San!!đđ€
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'The furthest you have gotten is holding hands and San kissing your cheek' akwnwjwj that is so adorableđ„čđ 'Saturday nights are San nights, he claimed them saying he needs to spend every Saturday night with you.' AKSMSKSMKS now that is super adorable omlđ« 'Now, San notices but he doesn't say anything, he doesn't even move. Neither of you moves' Both of them are nervousđ„č IT'S SO CUTE!đ€ 'His eyes are so kind and his smile is so soft and sweet.' Excuse me while I melt from the overwhelming cutenessđ Such a simple but absolutely perfect description of San tbhđđ 'When San pulls away from you, instinctively you chase after his lips' AHHH AJSNSJNSJSNđ„čđ€
Please Kiss Me
pairing: choi san x reader (genderneutral)
genre: fluff + first kisses
description: although shy and inexperienced, you were determined that this was the night that you were going to ask san to kiss you (700ish words)
note: so happy sm ppl enjoyed my first writing, hope this one is liked too ^_^
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San had taken you on five dates and officially asked you out three weeks ago, you were so happy but you were nervous. Being very inexperienced with love and only now in your first relationship, both made you scared to partake in any intimacy with San. The furthest you have gotten is holding hands and San kissing your cheek a few times after your dates. You have already noticed how touchy of a person San is, he is almost always touching or cuddling his friends. This makes you feel bad because you can tell he is holding back from doing a lot with you because you never initiate any physical touch first. But now you want to change that.
Saturday nights are San nights, he claimed them saying he needs to spend every Saturday night with you. Most of the time it is spent hanging out at either of your places to watch a movie, play games, or talk. This Saturday night is movie night so you are walking to Sanâs place nervous because you are going to ask San if he can kiss you.
Knocking on the door it only takes a few seconds before the door opens and San's cute face is smiling at you, ââHi lovely, I missed youââ
ââSan you saw me this morningââ you giggled walking in and walking to the living room to set down your stuff and the snacks you had brought as a surprise.
''You brought snacks! My favorite ones!'' San gleamed at you smiling so bright it made your heart warm. His eyes and the way his hands almost moved towards you, showing how badly he wanted to touch you. Instead, San unpacks the bag of snacks onto the coffee table and tells you about a few movies he picked for you guys to watch.
Halfway through watching movies you couldn't remember anything of what you have been watching, every time San moved you were so conscious of it. You were so incredibly nervous that your palms were sweating.
San was sitting next to you on the couch but there was some distance between the both of you. This seemed like a good place to start and give you time to work up the courage.
Slowly you moved closer to San until your thigh was lightly pressed against his, so light that San didn't even notice. You keep moving closer until your body is touching San's from your shoulder to your thigh. Now, San notices but he doesn't say anything, he doesn't even move. Neither of you moves until the third movie is over and San takes this as a chance to get up to get another drink.
''Uh-do you want something too?'' San asks, and it almost looks like there is a faint pink color on his cheeks.
''Water please'', when San comes back you were going to ask him to kiss you, it was now or never.
As soon as San sits down next to you, the same closeness before he left, you take a sip of your water and turn to him.
''San..can you,'' the nervousness is building up in your throat, making you stumble on your words, ''um, could you please,''
A hand comes to rest on top of yours and you pause to meet San's eyes. His eyes are so kind and his smile is so soft and sweet. Everything about him was beautiful, his soft imperfect skin, the shape of his nose, and how inviting his lips looked.
''y/n? Baby?''
Realizing that you have just been staring at him, your mouth decides for you and says, ''please kiss me''
San breathes out a small laugh before his hands come to hold your face, caressing your cheeks with his thumbs.
''Baby all you had to do was ask'' he teases
''Sannie-'' you start to whine but his lips on yours stop you. The kiss is so soft and his thumbs never stop moving against your cheeks. When San pulls away from you, instinctively you chase after his lips, making San laugh lightly at you again.
Letting go of your face his hands move to rub your upper arms, ''Was that good?''
''Mhm, thank you'' you blushed and leaned away from him so you could lean against the back of the couch, but San moved with you. He took your hand in his and pressed so close to you that your faces were only inches apart.
''I won't be able to keep my lips and hands off you now'' he whispered before pressing a soft kiss to your jaw.
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#choi san#san#choi san x reader#choi san fluff#ateez fluff#ateez san#ateez x reader#tooth rotting fluff#san x reader#ateez#đŻđrecs#tooth rotting fluff for real omlđ„čđ#Saturdays are for Sanđ#aknwksnwk this was so adorableđ#my heart is so fullđ„čđ#y/n and San are cutiesđ€đđ
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Honestly this was so adorableđ„șđ From y/n finding out her parents were dear to the king and queenâs heart to y/nâs friendship with Arinđ€§ not to mention Arin and Miyeon being absolute iconsđđđ the âforbiddenâ love was giving omlđźâđšđ I was like they are going to fall in love and not know what to dođ€ and the fact that the queen herself was like âselection who?â it was just so perfectđ€Żđ Also the little flashbacks to y/nâs childhood and Hongjoong sitting in the window wanting to play with the other kidsđđ€§ This fic had amazing suspense with suck a good warm ending! I loved it so much!!!đ„°đÂ
I'm The One
prince!hongjoong x reader
genre: fluff, angst, suggestive
word count: ~24k
synopsis: In the Kingdom of Wonderland, Prince Hongjoong is holding a Selection: 30 eligible candidates from the kingdom competing against each other, one of which would be his wife and the future princess. You, however, aren't one of the candidates, you're only translator to your best friend Arin, which means you get to talk to the prince directly. In an effort to remain in the shadows and pass unseen, Hongjoong only seems to notice you, and he can't help but think you're the one.
You never imagined that you'd one day get to step inside the Palace itself, let alone live in there and get to interact with the Prince, the King and the Queen.
As your friend Arin shook you back and forth with disbelief and excitement in her eyes, it took you a moment to comprehend the situation, and soon you were responding with equal enthusiasm, jumping up and down in circles as Arin yelled loudly about how if this was a dream, she never wanted to wake up.
You laughed, finally hugging her, so happy for your friend. "It's not a dream. Want me to slap you and confirm it?"
"Hell yes!" Arin grinned, her mother shushing her, telling her to act 'ladylike' because she'd be needing that now that she was one of the candidates for the future Princess and Queen of Wonderland.
The Kingdom of Wonderland was in dire need of a distraction- with the unison of two kingdoms into one- Wonderland and Utopia- just a decade ago, the initial happiness and celebrations had long since died down, the people beginning to question the wisdom of the decision, the previous residents of Utopia feeling less favoured since the kingdom was still called Wonderland, rebels growing because there was still discrimination between the Utopians and Wonderers.
Though the King and Queen had long struggled for equality among the residents of the two kingdoms, there had of course been discrimination from both the sides- bound to happen at one point, but the people were now frustrated and rebelling against the royals, because who better to blame?
So the King and Queen had decided to distract the people- to give them something to look forward to, a possible strengthening of the residents of the previously divided kingdoms- the distraction being holding a Selection- an opportunity for random girls to be selected if they met the requirements, which were basic enough (mostly age and specialties)- through which they would stay at the palace and compete for the heart of Prince Hongjoong.
And you were happy for Arin- she was selected to be one of those candidates for Prince Hongjoong along with 29 other girls, which meant that she had a good chance at becoming the future Princess of Wonderland. The only reason you were going to be tagging along was because Arin was bad at Korean- having been raised in an English household, so you were going to be her translator as she learned Korean. This was a drawback, and when Arin finally let you go to hug her parents, you wondered why she was selected- the King and Queen or the Prince, or whoever it was that sorted through the thousands of the girls to select 30 must have seen something special in Arin despite this very large language barrier.
Which meant Arin was special, and you, as her translator and teacher, were going to make sure she would have no problem and would learn Korean soon, for her sake and the Prince's.
Arin's parents told you to stay for dinner to celebrate, and you could barely hold in your smile through the hour, the phone ringing nonstop as Arin's relatives and friends congratulated the lucky girl and her parents, the neighbours stopping by to join the celebration as well, and you kindly excused yourself, saying you needed to prepare everything since you'd be leaving for the capital soon.
"I'm glad you'll be with me- I can trust you with anything," Arin told you as she hugged you.
"Thank you, Arin. I'm just glad for you, truly," you smiled earnestly at her.
Arin and you had met a few months ago when they had moved from Mist Island to the countryside. You were her neighbour, and when Arin realized you spoke fluent English, she immediately announced you her friend, and you had no objection to it- Arin was as sweet as one could be. She looked and felt like literal sunshine, her light blonde hair just adding to her bright personality. You smiled to yourself- she would truly make a great Princess, and you hoped it would happen.
Arin called you as soon as you stepped inside your house, informing you that the people from the Palace would come in two days time to inform Arin about all the rules and regulations that followed this process, as well as process your own application as Arin's personal translator who would be accompanying her basically everywhere she went along with the Prince- unless she wouldn't need you anymore or the Prince dismissed you.
You supposed that would happen sometime too, but you couldn't help but feel awkward about all of this- you would have to tread very, very carefully. You were going to appear nothing more than a shadow, only stepping in when you were needed, and pretending to be the walls or the trees whenever you were following Arin. No one could notice you.
As you picked the books out of the shelf, a picture slipped in from one of your books, and you bent down to pick it up, smiling when you saw that it was the only photo of the Prince that you had, in which he must have been around 10, where your parents had made you stand with the Prince as they clicked the photo, both of you with scowls on your faces.
Prince Hongjoong... He was an interesting character. He had great leadership skills, was great with speeches, didn't seem stiff. He was a natural, and people admired him for that. Girls swooned over his charisma and boys wished they were him. The fact that you would be seeing the Prince in a week... it meant so much to you, since the fact that your parents had served in the castle and had been on good terms with the Queen and the Prince, and had always wanted you to meet the Prince- properly. Not when you two were sticking out tongues at each other from afar.
You wished your parents were alive to witness this- you, finally meeting the Prince, though you laughed at the thought that if your mother was alive, she would have made you enter the Selection itself, just like any other mother of a daughter in this kingdom. You looked at the side, at the frame that contained the family picture, and picked it, slipping it inside the bag, then hesitating before slipping the photo of Hongjoong inside too.
One week. Your life would change.
You fell asleep wondering what the Palace was like and what the Prince was like.
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"Do I look horrible?" Arin asked you for the 15th time.
"If you ask me again, I'm going to say yes, and then you can start crying," you were pinching the bridge of your nose now, "For the hundredth time, Arin, you look beautiful. Happy?"
Arin grinned, making you grin back- you couldn't help it. She really did look beautiful in her cream coloured gown, diamantes at the neckline, her blue eyes brighter than ever. She had never looked better- the ladies at the parlour had polished and enhanced her natural beauty, not overdoing the makeup and keeping everything simple and elegant, just like Arin wanted.
"Alright, get your sleep- you look like you're gonna faint."
"I will," you pouted, closing your eyes shut.
It had been one hell of a week- two days from when Arin was selected, an official had visited, explaining the guidelines- you, as the translator, had explained everything- the guidelines being a set of rules she had to follow.
"You are now considered the property of Wonderland. You must take care of your body. You have to fill the several forms explaining the guidelines- any failure to comply on your part will result in your immediate removal from the Selection"
It started with you explaining the long list of rules, the official translator present making sure you were doing a good job, rules that informed her that the Selection could stretch as much as years but considering that it was Prince Hongjoong, it would last a few months only, that Arin could not leave the palace of her own accord once she arrives, that she would have to be dismissed by the Prince herself, not even the king or queen could force her out, though they could tell the prince that they did not approve of you, that the prince himself would arrange for her meetings and not her, that she could not stress or steal from other candidates, that romantic relationship with anyone else from now until the end of the Selection would be considered treason and would be punishable by death.
Though you were feeling weirded out by the set of strict rules, it looked like it made absolute sense to Arin seeing how her eyes were set and gleaming as she fiercely nodded along. You contained the urge to squeeze her cheeks at that. You just hoped she understood that it wouldn't be too easy.
You had three hours session with Arin each day- but they weren't very fruitful, especially when Arin was as excited as you'd ever seen someone ever, and you both couldn't help but forget all about teaching and learning Korean and instead memorizing the names of all the other participants and guessing who'd be nice, who'd had a chance, who'd get eliminated first, and having a good giggle over it. You supposed Arin needed these giggling sessions more, considering how stressed she must be because the weight of this was huge as well.
Today, the two of you had been accompanied to the airport after a teary goodbye to Arin's parents and annoying little brother who was just glad he had 'one more room to himself'. After reaching the capital where Arin greeted the crowd and even stopped to sign some autographs and take photos, you both were taken to the parlour first where even you were scrubbed and polished- literally. You told them it made no sense that you had to go through this torture as well, but the ladies just hushed you, saying that you had to look 'refined' since you would be making appearances literally everywhere too, and you realized it did make sense.
You were dressed in a comfortable deep blue suit, thanking heavens because they told you no dresses for you (unless the occasion called for it) to differentiate between the candidates and you, and you couldn't be happier. You wanted to feel sorry for Arin who would be wearing dresses and heels from now, but she looked so beautiful and happy that you realized she didn't need your pity at all- she was living her best life.
"You're smiling," Arin whispered in your ear and you opened one eye to glare at her.
"I'm smiling because I'm not the one in a dress and high heels right now," you told her.
The other two girls that were in your limo on your way to the palace were watching you both interact in English silently- not many in this kingdom spoke the language. But you had, in the beginning when you all sat inside the car, introduced Arin to them, and they had asked you if it would be tough for Arin to communicate with the Prince and if you though that could cause the elimination sooner, and you assured them that Arin was a quick learner and would be able to communicate without your help soon, which wiped the growing smirks on their faces.
You supposed it was going to be competitive- very, in fact. Some fought for the crown, and some fought for the Prince. Arin would be one of the few who genuinely liked the Prince. You hoped the Prince wasn't foolish enough to not notice that.
When you arrived inside the palace, you couldn't help but wow, the surprise echoed from the other girls in the car. The palace was a beautiful structure of coloured glass windows and deep brown rock, a vintage vibe to it even if it was built to be modern. The gardens with the greenest grass you'd ever seen was adorned with flowers of various colours and fountains every few feet.
As you got off the car, you were accompanied inside to the waiting room, the other girls already there, and Arin nervously fidgeted with her hands, biting her lips.
"You'll ruin your lipstick," you patted her shoulders, "You're probably not meeting the Prince right away, so relax."
"Doesn't make me less nervous," Arin laughed a bit, and you smiled hoping it would assure her.
The doors opened and an aged woman entered, glancing at each one of the candidates, and you stepped a bit behind Arin, the woman nodding at you and acknowledging you.
"My name is Sophie, and I will be your guide, watching over your progress and your lessons as you spend time in the palace. Please accompany me to the dining hall- I'm sure you all are famished. We can have a chat over tea, after dinner."
The girls erupted in satisfied sighs, you quickly summing up what Sophie had just said to Arin, and she smiled, the two of you moving along with the rest of the selected to the hall.
The dining hall was one generous hall, with food of every kind and desserts of every shape, making your stomach swoop. You had to remind yourself that you were only here because of Arin, smiling to yourself because you had to thank Arin. After all, when could you have had this opportunity to have so much food to select from!
"I know we're thinking the same thing," Arin laughed as she told you to sit beside her, and you did, figuring it would be easier to keep up with the conversation and translating it for Arin.
The girl next to Arin- Byeol, you recalled from the list of selected you had memorized- said hello, and Arin said hello back, asking how she was. The girl peeked forward to say hello to you too.
"Where are you from?" She asked Arin.
"From Mist Island. My mother... English. My Korean not good right now."
You patted Arin's back in encouragement- she had done well.
"Isn't it hard to be here? How will you even interact with the Prince?"
"It won't be too hard," you butted in with a polite smile, "Arin is able to understand better than she can speak, and I'm sure she'll catch up in no time. She's a quick learner."
"I hope so," Byeol let out a nervous laugh, "I mean, the competition's tough as it is. Wouldn't want her out because of language barrier."
"There are worst reasons to be kicked out," you smiled, hoping she'd get your point. You quickly summed what happened to Arin, who nodded in agreement, and Byeol only shook her head and smiled, as if she had the upper hand here.
Though Arin, being the epitome of kindness, didn't mind anyone's attitude one bit, you wanted to smear the chocolate pastry Byeol was eating all over her face. How dare she think she had the upper hand just because she was a native speaker!
You decided to do the observing as well as you ate, taking in the girls. It was so easy to figure them out, except the few that looked mysterious. You knew that as soon as they would get the first look at the prince, you'd realize if they were here for the prince or the crown.
After the dinner where you definitely did not hold back, Sophie got up from the main seat, clearing her throat and going in a speech of why the girls who were selected all possessed a worthy quality that had the king and queen vouching for them, and that they were to prove themselves in more ways now that they were here, and learn the ways of a lady who one day might bear the crown.
After the very long speech which you translated as she spoke, the girls clicked their glasses and had a drink, after which they left for the night. One guard stationed to accompany each girl stood and you bowed to your guard in greeting. He escorted you two to Arin's room, where three maids waited to attend to Arin, and the guard told you that your room was right next to Arin's, so she could call you whenever she needed. You thanked him, going into Arin's room first.
You helped her settle in with the maids- Sana, Momo and Mina, all very cute young girls, gushing about how they were so happy that they were assigned to Arin since she seemed like she was the sweetest of them all, and you assured them that Arin definitely was. They told you that language wouldn't be much barrier here since Mina knew basic English thanks to her lineage, and you sighed in relief, excusing yourself when Arin threatened to kick you out because 'I have this under control, go rest! We have a big day tomorrow!'
You took a deep breath as you entered your room- as big as Arin's but pretty much empty. Your bag was already placed at the edge of the bed and as you walked to it, you realized you didn't even have the energy to change anymore. You washed your face after taking off your coat, suddenly feeling overwhelmed.
Your parents had spent most of their life in the palace, you raised by your grandmother who lived in the town near. You'd visited the palace as a kid quite a few times, playing with the other children, but you'd never seen the Prince close enough. You, as a kid, wondered just why he couldn't simply play with kids his age.
As you sat on the bed, you suddenly missed your parents immensely. If they were alive, you would have been in their room in the palace right now. Feeling an ache in your chest that was only growing, you got up, drinking a glass of water, but when that ache didn't settle, you decided to get some air.
There was a guard stationed between the distance of your and Arin's room, closer to Arin's, and you informed him that you were going to the gardens to get some air. Since you weren't one of the selected, you had the freedom to roam around the castle (as much as a visitor could) and go outside whenever you wanted, as long as the guards allowed it.
You almost rushed outside, sighing in relief when you breathed in the fresh air- the air truly was different here. You walked around, recognizing the familiar fountains from your childhood, recalling that you used to mark the fountains as a kid as a 'proof' that you had been here.
Smiling to yourself, you bent down and looked under the basin, spotting the scratches- an eight pointed star. You went to the next fountain, and the next, your smile growing bigger as you found all those stars.
"Looking for something?"
You were glad your reflex action wasn't a scream like Arin's, just a jerk, and you immediately straightened to look at the source of the sound-
You struggled to keep your scream in.
It was none other than the Prince standing in front of you.
"Your Highness," you immediately bowed, cursing internally at your state- one too many buttons undone casually, sleeves rolled up, your feet in pink slippers.
"And you are? I'm sorry, I can't recall all the names of the girls right now-"
"Oh no, I'm not one of the Selected," you said and the prince raised his brow, "I'm one of the girls' translator- if you recall."
"Oh," Prince Hongjoong nodded, smiling, "I hope you find the palace comfortable."
"Of course," you smiled, standing awkwardly, not knowing what to do, taking a moment to scan him- his silver hair shining with a slight pink tint, his posture good and straight and you mirrored it automatically, and it looked like he was still in his uniform.
"So, what were you looking for?" Prince Hongjoong smiled.
"Nothing- it's... embarrassing," you laughed a bit.
"I once lost my father's ring in the garden and spent the whole night looking for it myself, telling the guards to warn me if he came. Nothing could be worse than that."
You couldn't help but laugh at that- the Prince wasn't as uptight as he had seemed to you- he was joking around so freely. You supposed he had a similar nature as Arin's.
"I used to visit the palace when I was young, my parents served here," you admitted, "The kids and I played around here, so I'd leave some marks on the fountains every time I visited."
"Oh," Prince Hongjoong's eyes flashed for a brief moment, "And where are your parents now? I'm sure I've met them."
"You have," you nodded, smiling sadly as you looked at the moon- a half-moon, "They passed away in the rebel attack 2 years ago."
The Prince's face fell, and he took a deep breath, "We lost many loyal subjects that night. I'm sure they're in a better place now, and are watching over you and are proud."
"Thank you for your kind words," you smiled.
"So what's the mark?"
"The mark? Oh-" you realized, bending down again and pointing, "Eight-pointed star."
"Eight-pointed star?" Prince Hongjoong bent down as well, examining the scratch, "And you marked most of the fountains?"
"Uh, I may just be realizing that I damaged the king's property..."
Prince Hongjoong threw his head back and laughed, "Kids do most of that, though we'd have to look into it if we catch you scratching another star on one of the fountains," he winked at you.
Once again, silence fell as the two of you stood side by side, watching the water in the fountain. It was you who decided to break the silence.
"If you don't mind me asking... how do you feel about meeting 30 potential candidates tomorrow?"
"I'm very stressed, actually, which is why I came here to take a breather," Hongjoong admitted.
"Oh, I should leave then-"
"No, no, I didn't mean it like that. I'm glad to talk to someone who is not my mother or father right now," he laughed awkwardly, "Actually, it's pretty intimidating. The girls will be expecting something from me during their course of stay, but I'm not sure I can give them anything."
"You realize you are not required to, right?"
"I know," he nodded, "I would just feel bad if they leave broken hearted. I'd feel like an ass."
You let out a short laugh, the Prince joining. "Well, the girls... they're new to this too. They're all pretty excited. You don't have to figure them all out right away. Take your time, roll along... you'll find yourself used to it soon, I hope."
"Thank you," Prince Hongjoong smiled at you, "And what about the girl you'll be translating for?"
"I'm probably biased when I say this but Arin is the sweetest of them all," you smiled, "I've known her for long now. She's the kindest soul, wouldn't hurt an ant if she could manage it, but she's also very strong. She knows where she stands. I'll do my best with the language barrier, but... I feel like you'll click with her well."
"You look like you admire her," he said, and you nodded, "I guess if I click with her, language wouldn't feel like a barrier anymore."
"Exactly what I mean," you grinned at him, forgetting for a moment that he was the Prince and not your friend, until you found him scanning your face.
"I should go," you said, "I just needed some air, and the guards were kind enough to allow it."
"You can come here whenever you like, I'll let the guards know," the Prince said, and your heart swelled in gratitude.
"Good luck for tomorrow," you smiled, "Whatever your decision, I hope you'll end up being happy."
"Thank you, truly," the Prince nodded in acknowledgement when you bowed before beginning to leave.
"I never got your name!"
You turned, laughing a bit at how he'd shouted this after you were a good few feet gone. You told him your name, waving at him before leaving with a smile plastered on your face.
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You told Arin all about how you accidentally met Prince Hongjoong before any of the girls, and Arin was all squeals and laughter, the maids struggling to make her stay in place as they did her hair.
"How is he like? Is he as handsome as he looks in the pictures? Does the new hair suit him?"
You rolled your eyes- Arin was literally the Prince's fangirl. It truly was a dream come true for her to even be in the proximity of the Prince, let alone be a candidate for his future wife. "I guess the hair suits him- it sort of looks pink with the light."
"Every hair colour suits him," Mina sighed happily, "But I'd personally love it if he goes back to his natural hair colour."
You nodded- the Prince was blessed in that department.
"So? Is he more handsome or more pretty?"
"I don't know," you shifted, looking in the mirror as you fixed your tie, "He seems to be both? I don't know how he manages that. But Arin, please remember what I told you before we came here, okay?"
Arin saluted, smiling. You'd had a nice talk with Arin the night before you'd arrive here, where you'd make sure that Arin understood that being a fan of the Prince was a separate matter, that she had to be completely unbiased now that she was here. Her responsibility would be that of a crown and a princess, and she had to keep in mind that.
"But what if I don't... like him like that?" Arin had asked you.
"I think not everyone is gonna like him like that in the first place," you had assured her, "And I'm sure the Prince would know that. I think you should tell the Prince if you think you won't be happy with him."
"All done!" Mina announced, and Arin got up from her chair, twirling in the deep blue gown that made her eyes look the brightest blue, her curls pinned with pearls and falling like a waterfall down her back.
The guard knocked on the door, announcing that it was time to go, and Arin squeezed your hand once before the two of you went outside, waving goodbye and thanking the maids, who wished Arin best luck. You were led to the Women's Room, where one by one the girls entered, all dressed in beautiful gowns that they couldn't stop touching nervously, and as you stood back and watched them, you realized that though they knew they were each other's competition, they also felt a kind of sisterhood, especially when they tucked someone's stray hair behind or wiped smudged makeup off each other-
"Ugh, why am I the only one wearing pink here?" One of the girls- Nara, who had to be the visually most attractive one present here, huffed as she looked at the other girls' dresses.
Of course there were girls like her too here. You smiled inside- she would get used to it soon, you hoped.
The room immediately quietened when Prince Hongjoong entered, all regal with his slicked back hair and navy blue suit, the girls all curtsying while he smiled, Sophie standing right beside him.
"Good morning, ladies."
The air immediately felt different, the girls now straightening and arranging themselves. The Prince smiled, "I'd like to introduce myself to you all, so if you don't mind, one at a time I will be calling you. I won't take much of your time- do forgive me if I'm a little slow with names."
As he said that, he surveyed the room once, his eyes landing on you and his smile getting wider- you weren't expecting that so you just smiled back, hoping no one else had noticed.
The girls giggled and grinned, waiting by the couch on Sophie's instructions, one by one moving to the Prince who stood by the window with a drink, what seemed like casual conversation flowing between them. It only lasted for a few minutes each with the girls returning with nervous smiles.
"I wonder what he's asking," Arin fidgeted.
"Maybe he's just wondering what's your favourite food," you scoffed, making her laugh a bit.
Before you knew it, it was Arin's turn, and she squeezed your hand before the two of you went to where he stood, Arin saying hello with a smile, you doing the same and standing beside Arin.
"Arin? You look lovely today."
You knew Arin understood that, and she bowed a bit, replying with a thanks. Prince Hongjoong smiled, "I heard you're English. I know a bit of it."
You translated that to Arin, and she replied in Korean, "Really?"
The Prince nodded, "Where are you from?"
"Mist Island, my parents had an English lineage, we moved to this kingdom before I was born."
The Prince looked at you and you translated that for him as he nodded, "Mist Island is beautiful. I've only been there once when I was little, but I hope to visit again. Maybe you could show me around."
Arin noticed the flirtatious smile on his lips as you translated that, and she beamed, "It would be an honour to show you around my home town."
"But you live in the countryside now, right?"
As you translated that for Arin and she nodded, you realized the Prince had done his own research as well- probably on every girl.
"Well, it's been a pleasure meeting you, Arin. I hope we can get along well despite this obstacle."
Arin got that, bowing to the Prince and you did the same, finding his eyes beaming as he looked at you. "You're doing a good job. I hope you find the palace comfortable."
"I do," you assured him with a thanks.
"I didn't get to say this last night, but," Hongjoong sighed as he ran a hand through his hair, "If you wish to visit your parents' room or anything like that, you can talk to Sophie. I've already talked to her."
You were surprised- was the Prince this generous or was this an exception? You shook the thoughts off, thanking him for his kindness and he told you both to join the girls in the dining hall after he announces what's next.
As you both went back, you told Arin what he had just said, who only sighed happily, saying something about how generous he was and how he was a born Prince. You shook your head, smiling as you reached the others, Arin immediately surrounded by the girls who asked what they talked about, and Arin told them in broken Korean, the girls laughing and correcting her mistakes.
Prince Hongjoong walked to the center of the room, clearing his throat, "If I have asked you to move to the dining hall, please follow Sophie out, the rest of you can stay here."
The girls looked at each other in nervousness, most of them following Sophie out, you and Arin along with them, and as you entered the hall, the King and Queen greeted the girls, everyone including you curtsying before taking their seats and digging into the food.
"I wonder why he asked some of them to stay," the girl beside you, Nayoung, said, "Did they do something good? Maybe he wants extra time with them."
"No idea," you muttered, "He wouldn't eliminate someone so soon, would he?"
Nayoung looked at you, "I doubt he would."
But he did. Just like that, 22 girls remained out of 30. And you wondered if Arin really had caught his attention or if he was just giving her a second chance because of the language barrier.
The next morning at breakfast table, everyone thought so as well. Why Arin was kept, why girls like Nora or Nayeon were eliminated, who clearly looked like they had potential. The girls ate nervously, all except Arin, and you had to keep yourself from laughing as Arin moaned after each bite of chicken. Prince Hongjoong sat at the end of the table, watching Arin with amusement in his eyes.
"Lady Arin? Enjoying the food?"
Arin almost dropped her fork, looking at you and you translated.
"Food delicious, but cake-" Arin waved at the dozens of pastries and sweets, "I make better."
The table erupted into laughter and Prince Hongjoong straightened. "Really? Is that a challenge?"
You laughed as you translated, and Arin nodded enthusiastically, the Prince looking at you as if to ask you if Arin was joking or not.
"Arin is an exceptional baker," you were beaming proudly as you announced, "And she accepts the challenge."
"Well," Prince Hongjoong, "I guess I'll have to arrange for a date in the kitchens- mother would be the most happy to learn I'll be stepping in there!"
Everyone looked at Arin in awe for securing her first date with the Prince, and as you conveyed that, Arin smiled and bowed her head a bit in acknowledgement. You felt proud at that moment- a very sisterly pride as you grinned at Arin. She had done it!
The Prince told you both after the breakfast that he would arrange for a suitable time and let you know, and by the time he left, you and Arin were practically jumping up and down, in a very unladylike manner- for Arin. Sophie let you both have your moment before she cleared her throat and told all the girls to write letters home and let them know how you were holding up. The girls sighed collectively in relief, rushing back to their rooms and while Arin went back, you decided to take that moment and ask Sophie about your parents.
"Ah, so it's you," Sophie's face changed as she smiled, "I remember the lot of you. It was always troublesome when the kids gather. Hongjoong would always be at one of these windows watching you all play enviously."
Now that was news. You always thought as a kid that the Prince was a stuck up snob who wouldn't bother to play with kids like you- but apparently all this time he wanted to join?
"You remember me?"
"Not much, but just the few kids playing in the gardens- it has been a memory I look back to sometimes. I was the one who'd always tell you all to keep your voices down, if you remember."
You gasped- it was her! Sophie laughed as you put a hand over your mouth in disbelief, bowing once in recognition as Sophie waved you off. "I remember you!"
"Of course you do," Sophie smiled, "I'll let one of the guards accompany you to your parent's room-"
"Not today," you hesitated, and Sophie looked confused, "I... I need some time. Can I visit once I'm ready?"
Sophie seemed like she understood, "Of course, dear. If you need anything, do let me know. Your mother was the most kind to me. The Queen misses her dearly."
"The Queen does?" You frowned.
"Don't you know? She was one of the queen's personal maids."
"Oh... They kept their work very private," you smiled. Of course she was. There was a reason she sometimes looked guilty when she slipped something about work- or the Queen- in front of you.
"Good to hear that," Sophie said.
"I'll take my leave now," you thanked her and left the room, feeling overwhelmed by the information and the weight of all this.
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The next morning, all the girls including you were having breakfast with the royal family, casual conversation flowing between everyone, the girls around Arin asking her if she had her date yet, Arin shaking her head no repeatedly with a smile.
You were just on your third chocolate cookie when you were interrupted by the sudden opening of the doors, the guards shouting 'rebels!' and the room erupted in chaos.
"To the back of the room, ladies, now!" Prince Hongjoong got up, all except two guards leaving while the two shut and bolted the door from inside, the King putting a protective arm on his wife leading her to a corner, a few girls following them on instinct, and you immediately grabbed Arin's hand, telling her that rebels were inside the palace.
Arin was positively scared and you shushed her, telling her that now was the time to maintain her calm if she wanted to get Prince Hongjoong's attention, and she straightened her back a bit as she followed the girls to the back of the hall. Some of them were quietly sobbing, while some were shaking. It looked like not many had experienced such a situation.
You saw Prince Hongjoong pull down the shutters of the windows one by one and instead of following the girls, you decided to do the same, going to the other end of the room and drawing the shutters down, until there were two windows between you and the Prince, and at that moment you caught a flying object in your direction-
"Prince Hongjoong, duck, now!"
You only had time to say that as you drew your arms in front of you and crouched down, a sigh of relief escaping you when you saw the Prince follow your lead, the sound of a crash following soon after, the shards of broken glass spraying around you.
You heard Arin's scream, glad when you saw one of the girls hold her back protectively, and you got up, waving to her to indicate you were alright. The Prince got up, shutting the remaining two shutters- the window right next to you was broken.
"Are you hurt?" Prince Hongjoong grabbed you by the shoulders as he scanned you.
"Are you hurt?" You scanned him, and he shook his head, looking at the broken shards of glass.
"You're hurt," he noticed a shard of glass buried in your palm, blood trickling down your hand. He took out his handkerchief, and before he could pull the shard out, you stopped him, taking it out yourself and wincing slightly- it was a few inches big. You let the prince tie the handkerchief.
"You should have been careful, I thought I told all of you to get back to the room."
"The girls did," you replied, "I had to do something."
"I clearly addressed 'ladies'," Prince Hongjoong smiled at you, "You fall there too."
"Sorry," you held back a grin but the Prince noticed.
"Get there, please. I need to make sure the situation is okay before I get to the girls," he looked back once at the huddled girls, beckoning you to join them before going to the guards and speaking to them.
You joined Arin who hugged you, "I thought you were hurt badly!"
"Nothing much," you shook her off, "You know my instincts are good- I saw it coming, literally."
Arin rolled her eyes and you smiled- good. She was relaxed now. "You holding up okay?"
"Yeah, I just never expected something like this, I guess," Arin bit her lips, looking at the girl next to her, "Should we comfort them?"
"You should," you smiled, "I'll... see. I should too, I guess."
Arin looked at you knowingly and you gave in- she knew exactly what was going through your head, that some of the girls were sobbing more than they needed so maybe the Prince could come and console them.
And he did, patting every girl's back, telling them it was okay, that they were safe. Some girls even dared put their heads on his chest as they sobbed, and you noticed that the Prince was clearly nervous as he comforted the girls. When he reached Arin, you were proud that she didn't cry and he smiled at you both.
"You should go to the hospital wing after all of this is over," the Prince said, "You might be needing stitches."
"It's just a small cut," you said, but Prince Hongjoong narrowed his eyes at you.
"It's an order."
You couldn't resist rolling your eyes this time and he laughed at that, you internally slapping yourself because how dare you roll your eyes at the Prince? But he didn't mind, telling you both to take care of yourselves as he went to the next girl and the next.
You did go to the hospital wing after everything settled, the nurses cleaning the wound and bandaging it saying it wouldn't need stitches, and you went to Arin's room after that. The girls were going to have dinners in their room since they were a bit shaken after the events of today, and you decided to have dinner with Arin.
"Do you think the rebels come here often?" Arin asked.
"I remember dad told me that they came at least three times a year on average," you said, "Some people aren't happy with the Selection, thinking the royals are neglecting the problems of the people, so I guess this was bound to happen."
"I hope it doesn't happen again," Arin shivered, "I'd hate anyone to get hurt."
"I hope so too," you suddenly weren't hungry anymore.
You decided to go for a walk before sleeping, just to clear your head, dressed in your deep purple silk pyjamas. The guard were now recognizing you and let you out without question, and you walked along the rows of flowers, your head blank, until you noticed a figure strolling casually as well.
"I guess you needed to clear your head too?"
It was the Prince.
You nodded, bowing once, "Are you... alright?"
"I am, thank you for asking," he said, and now that he was closer, you noticed that he was still in the same clothes, the coat off now and sleeves rolled, hair a beautiful mess. "How's your wound?"
"Oh, it's okay," you showed your bandaged palm, "It was a small cut after all."
"I've been meaning to ask you," he shifted, "How did you know to click the shutters close? Not everyone gets that on first try."
"Ah," you nodded, "It's my dad- he taught me how to when I visited the palace once, in case rebels came when I was present."
The Prince nodded, "When I told Sophie about you, she told me who your parents were- I was trained by your dad, in fact."
"You were?" Your jaw fell open- now that was news.
"I was, I knew your dad well," he smiled, "And your mother too. They were very close to us. I'm surprised you didn't tell me earlier."
"I... I didn't know," you admitted, "They always kept their work a secret from everyone, just said they served in the palace. I guess they didn't want anyone asking for favours or something, not even their own daughter."
The Prince noticed how confused you looked, "There must have been a good reason for that. They always talked about you. They were immensely proud of you- your dad was always comparing me to you as well."
"And how exactly? I don't think I can compete with you, Prince."
"Call me Hongjoong," he said, putting his hands in his pockets, "He said you were a better learner than I was. He said, and I quote, 'my daughter could flip you as if you weighed nothing but a sack of potatoes- an empty one at that'."
You couldn't help it, you laughed out loud at that. "I cannot! I mean, I could, but I'm not that good. I'm sure he only said that to get you to learn quicker."
"It worked," Hongjoong laughed, "So he trained you too?"
"Just a bit, mostly defense," you told him.
"Have you visited their room yet? Did Sophie update you?"
"She did, but I... I can't go visit their room right away."
Hongjoong paused a bit before continuing to walk. "Is there a reason?"
"I... I just need some time. Now that I'm here, it feels like they're still running around, mom nowhere in sight like always, dad with the guards while I wait for them to finish their work so we can go home. Plus, with all the new information about their jobs..."
"I understand," Hongjoong assured you, "Take your time. It must be hard for you."
"Thank you," you passed a smile, "Will the rebels be back anytime soon?"
Hongjoong realized you must know a great deal about rebels, "They might come back sooner than we expect. They're not happy with what's going on these days. It'll take some time to calm them down."
You nodded, suddenly aware of the time you'd taken. "I'm sorry- I'm always interrupting your alone time-"
"No, it's perfectly fine, I appreciate this," Hongjoong said, and you narrowed your eyes at him, making him laugh.
"I truly do. I like it when I have someone to talk to, to sort my thoughts out, but there's not many I can talk to. If you'd like... can we be... friends? Can we talk like this sometimes? No pressure though, don't feel obliged to accept just because I'm, well, the Prince."
You shut your mouth before your jaw could drop- did he really ask you to be his friend?
"You don't have many friends, do you?"
Hongjoong put his hands up in surrender, and you pretended to consider. "I guess we can. If you were friends with my dad... you should know I'm very much like him."
"Bad humour and no regard for authority? Can I take my offer back?"
"Too late, Prince," you grinned.
Hongjoong sighed dramatically, asking you if you wanted to take a seat with him and you nodded, sitting on the bench and watching the sky. "Can I ask you why you're holding this Selection in the first place?"
Hongjoong looked at you once before sighing and looking back, "I didn't want to, actually. The thought of 30 girls with their futures depending on my decision is more intimidating than I thought. But it was a tough time for everyone, and the Selection was killing two birds with one stone- providing a distraction and hope to the kingdom, while hoping I find someone who can stand me here."
You looked at him, "You think those girls can't stand you?"
"I know most of them will be changing their minds once they get to know me and this lifestyle more. It's more appealing from a far, as you must know."
"You do have a point," you nodded, "It must be tough. I'm..."
"Don't say you're sorry, I know that if you're like your dad, you're enjoying my misery."
You passed him a guilty look as you both laughed, and you shook your head, "I really hope you find someone you'll like in there. Someone who can actually stand you, the Prince and... Hongjoong. Both."
Hongjoong nodded at that, a little surprised, "Not many people know how I am really like."
"If you want, I can tell the girls you're the type to become jealous really quick."
Hongjoong frowned, and you grinned, "Sophie might have told me how you used to watch us kids play outside with a little scowl on your face-"
"I was a kid!" Hongjoong laughed out loud, "Of course I wanted to join you all!"
"You didn't tell me this the night I told you I was one of those kids," you looked at him pointedly.
"Should I really have told you that I was the one you called 'stuck-up brat'?"
You gasped at that, Hongjoong silly dancing victoriously while you looked away, ashamed. "It's okay, we were kids. I was envious, and you thought I was, well, a stuck-up brat."
"You're not denying it."
"You think I'm a stuck-up brat?"
"I don't know, are you?" You raised a brow, and Hongjoong grinned mischievously.
"I guess you'll find out soon."
The two of you stared at each other, not even realizing until you heard one of the guards walk past, the two of you suddenly drawing out of your trance, and you both got up, suddenly feeling aware.
"I should go," Hongjoong laughed awkwardly, "It's been nice talking to you."
"Same," you told him, brushing your clothes, saying bye and beginning to go back, pausing when you felt a hand stop you by the arm.
"Sorry, I just wanted to say... don't tell about our... interactions, to anyone- not even Arin. I don't want the other girls to give you a hard time because they'll think you're competition or something like that."
"Of course," you said, "I'm only a shadow here, don't worry."
You thought there was something sad about Hongjoong's smile as he said bye and went back.
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Hongjoong remained busy handling kingdom affairs while you were busy with Arin as you gave her language lessons, kept her up to date with everything, sat with her through the etiquettes lesson and guided her along. Everyone was getting used to conversing through you, and you were glad that no one could hate Arin- she was always so bright, always smiling and happy and clearly meant no harm, but you also understood that part of the reason was because the girls clearly thought Hongjoong would let go of Arin sooner or later.
But everyone sure was envious of Arin's date, scheduled in the evening before dinner. Arin sat in her room in pants and a blouse, wondering which recipes she should try.
"Tell me you'll help me too," Arin narrowed her eyes at you.
"Oh, I wouldn't want to interfere in your date," you grinned slyly.
"You witch!" Arin laughed, "You know we work better together."
It was true- Arin had taught you quite a few recipes and she was usually instructing you to do the menial tasks while she worked on the main ones to save time.
"Will you bring some for us?" Sana sighed dreamily, "It's been forever since I tried food that was not from the palace."
"I know right," Momo slumped in the couch, "I really want to go out and taste something new."
"Maybe you all should come and help us too," Arin said nervously.
"No, never," Mina scolded Arin, "Stop being nervous! The Prince will be here any second."
As if on cue, a knock sounded, and the maids immediately got up in a flurry, gushing over how Arin looked one last time before opening the door, letting Hongjoong in while they left, grinning.
"Ah, so you're prepared," Hongjoong scanned Arin- it was his first time seeing Arin so casual, yet she still looked elegant enough.
"Prince Hongjoong," Arin curtsied.
"Please skip the formalities and call me Hongjoong when we're alone," he smiled at the two of you.
"You're going in the kitchen in that?" Arin asked, and you kept in your laughter as you told Hongjoong what she had said.
"Now what's wrong with this-" Hongjoong looked down at his very polished black jacket, his prince attire- his usual attire.
"Do you think you're just going to be sitting back and watching her cook?" You asked Hongjoong, "You're helping."
Hongjoong's jaw dropped and as you told Arin what you'd said, she grinned, giving you a thumbs up, and Arin went ahead, snaking her arm in his and saying, "Lead the way."
"If I had known I was going to be the one doing the work," Hongjoong looked at you, "I would have maybe changed the location of the date and accepted Arin as a better chef."
"Which is why this was a surprise, but you should have figured it out," Arin said with a wink, making him laugh.
He led you both to the kitchens, where the staff greeted the Prince, Arin and you, saying this was a first time someone would have a date in the kitchen.
Arin asked for aprons, helping tie Hongjoong's and you smiled at how comfortable they looked with each other. Arin asked for the chef and looked at you as she said, "We're making brownies and scones. Should I leave the brownie batter to you?"
"Of course," you nodded, "I'll stay close by- you and Hongjoong can work on the scones."
You translated that to everyone and the chefs went to get the ingredients, Arin following them as she picked some of her own while you rolled your sleeves.
"You should roll your sleeves too," you said to Hongjoong who was watching you, "And do keep your arms tucked in as you work."
"Alright, ma'am," Hongjoong saluted, following your lead.
"So have you never baked before?"
"I have never cooked or baked," Hongjoong said, "I was always too busy."
"Well, first time for everything," you smiled, "Don't worry, Arin is a sweetheart. Even if you do something wrong, she'll tell you you did excellent with a smile."
And sure enough- Hongjoong was supposed to be following Arin but he was way too clumsy, which earned a good laugh from everyone, but Arin kept encouraging him- in Korean, thanks to the last lesson you'd given her where she'd specifically worked on phrases she'd probably need. It was cute to watch Hongjoong struggle with English while Arin struggled with Korean.
You were standing beside Hongjoong, not too far so you could help if they mistranslated anything, and the few cooks were following your lead, asking you about how Arin knew so much about baking- which you told them was thanks to her aunts being professional bakers.
"That looks way better than mine," Hongjoong looked at your batter as you dropped the chocolate chunks in the bowl, "can I have the chocolate?"
"No," you continued pouring the rest of the chocolate in, but Hongjoong slipped a hand in and picked a chunk, grinning in victory.
"Focus on your batter, Prince," you scoffed, "You don't wanna embarrass yourself on your first date, do you?"
"I'm afraid it's too late to worry," Hongjoong sulked as he fiddled with the spoon.
"Now we bake," Arin announced, smiling at you two and wriggling her brows at you, and you told her you just needed 5 more minutes to be done. Arin helped Hongjoong with the rest of his batter, and Hongjoong finally sat and watched as she set the tray and put it in the oven.
"Good riddance," Hongjoong muttered, and you kicked his leg from under the table before going to pour your own batter and tossing it in the ovens.
There were enough scones and brownies for everyone in the kitchen- a few people only, which meant you could take some back to the maids too. The three of you sat side by side as you watched the scones and brownies rise dreamily.
"I love this smell," Hongjoong muttered, "Maybe I should come in the kitchen when I want to relax."
You were sitting beside Arin so you quickly told her what he'd just said, and she smiled, "I used to do that. The smell alone made half my worries disappear."
"I can see that," Hongjoong smiled.
"The kitchens are open to you lot whenever you want to come," the head chef announced, "Especially you, Arin. I already know these are going to taste amazing. We could learn a thing or two from you."
Arin grinned, "Maybe I could learn from you all too- the food is amazing here. Thank you."
Hongjoong noticed how everyone was looking at Arin with admiration- she truly was humble and kind.
One by one the bells started to ding and Arin and the chefs picked out the trays from the oven, setting it on the tables to cool down, Arin swatting Hongjoong's hand away when he tried to pick one, scolding him because it was hot and 'a Prince should be patient' at which Hongjoong rolled his eyes and slumped down as he glared at the scones and brownies.
"Come on," you teased, "you're sulking way too much."
"Just because I'm a prince doesn't mean I can't," his sulk went deeper, making everyone around laugh.
Arin fanned one of the trays, making Hongjoong's face lift in hope, and when she finally touched the food to make sure it wasn't burning hot, she picked a scone and a brownie, setting it on a plate and adding a few toppings before handing it to Hongjoong.
"Go ahead and try," she smiled.
Hongjoong looked at you for confirmation and you nodded, and he finally picked the fork and took a bite of the scone, then a bite of the brownie, Arin eagerly waiting for him to react.
Hongjoong looked at the chef first, who raised his brows, then at Arin, then at you, and then slid his plate away.
"This is too good to eat."
Arin's face fell but you laughed, telling her what he had just said, and she almost cried, scolding Hongjoong for making it look like he hated it, at which he laughed, digging into his sweets again, everyone else passing scones and brownies too, compliments flowing for Arin and you didn't need to translate any of that- their faces said enough.
"For the maids," Arin picked some scones and brownies and asked for a box, and Hongjoong smiled.
"Maybe we should make these again for dinner one day. I'm sure the king and queen would love these too."
Arin gasped in surprise, but when Hongjoong nodded to assure her, she smiled, "Maybe."
"I should compliment you too, after all, you made the brownies," Hongjoong looked at you.
"This was Arin's recipe, I only followed the instructions," you told him.
"You know, my mother says that nothing tastes the same when made by different people even when the instructions followed remain perfectly same- the taste of one's hand- or heart," Hongjoong smiled, "you got that too."
You rolled your eyes but you were clearly pleased, "Thanks. I guess I do."
After eating until you all felt like you would throw up if you ate any more, Hongjoong thanked Arin for this experience, saying he'd never forget it and he promised to come to the kitchen more. Arin told him he didn't need to, but he could come if he wanted to relax. He walked her to the room, leaving with a kiss to her cheek that had her jumping up and down after he left, and you laughed at how she was going on about her 'fantasies fulfilled'. Entering, the maids waiting, you waved the boxes in front of them and they thanked Arin graciously before eating and moaning because these were too good.
The news of Arin's date got to the girls too, and you heard them talk about it the next morning, asking Arin how the Prince was like, if he was too uptight or if he was funny, etc. Arin truly felt like a star.
You sat through the history lesson, learning things yourself as you conveyed everything to Arin. It was the history about how the kingdoms of Wonderland and Utopia had united, how they always used to be at war for one reason or another, until about 49 years ago when the two had been united by the king, peace settling for a few decades, but the people growing restless with every passing year as discrimination grew.
Sophie asked how the rebels could be handled, and the girls had interesting answers to give- ranging from getting rid of the rebels altogether to actually finding a solution, such as a hearing from the rebels where they talk about the problems with the royal family and figure something out together.
Two days passed by, Hongjoong spending time with all the girls whenever he could, the girls who hadn't had a date yet getting insecure and nervous about it, until it was finally the day for the report- the first time the girls would have a live talk and reveal themselves to the public after getting in the palace.
Sophie had done you a favour and let you in on the script for Arin's questions, so she could prepare her English accordingly, and you were glad for it. Though you would be present and guiding her along, it would really help if Arin already knew what could be asked.
The maids insisted on getting you in a dress, but you strongly rejected- you really did not want to steal Arin's spotlight. You would only distract the public if you appeared the same as Arin. And even though Arin pouted and asked you (something you couldn't usually refuse), you had to shake your head no this time.
"Just dress me in the best suit," you winked at the maids, "I'll be good with that."
So while Arin had dressed in a deep red gown with lots of frill and pearls, her hair half tied with curls framing her face, you had dressed to match in a deep red three-piece suit. You absolutely loved it and thanked the maids for coming up with this- the pearls near the neckline were cherry on top. Your hair was slicked back, pearl earring in your ears the only jewellery you had along with a watch. You had matching heels to finish your outfit.
"We look more like a couple than I could ever look with Hongjoong," Arin grinned.
It was true. You grinned back, "We'll get Hongjoong to match with you one day and see who makes the better couple."
Arin slapped your arm playfully, and then you were escorted by the guards to the room where the broadcast would be conducted, and you had to blink your eyes a few time to adjust to the lights and the colours of the selected girls seated in the front. You both went inside, sitting side by side in the second row, Byeol next to you.
"Arin looks gorgeous, but you? Holy hell, woman."
"Is it too much?" You frowned- you hadn't expected to grab attention.
"I'm just saying you look great- if you weren't in a different dress, you could easily pass as one of the selected," she smiled, focusing her attention back on the crowd.
You thought about it- would people think the same after seeing you on television? Probably not. You were only a translator, you'd be sitting in the shadows as you translated everything to Arin- and you hoped she wouldn't need you.
The girls were pretty nervous, one even having to rush to the toilet because she felt like she was going to throw up. You looked at Arin- she seemed excited but the way she was unconsciously cracking her knuckles gave her away.
"If you crack your knuckles while you sit there I'll break your fingers," you warned.
Arin laughed, "You're such a mother. But if I do, feel free to poke me. I'll do the breaking myself."
You chuckled, the lights getting dimmer, and the host Kang Yeosang entered, his hair in a blonde mullet, and looking as beautiful as ever.
If there was one man you thought looked perfect, it was Yeosang. He looked too perfect to be real, and you were probably more nervous about getting to meet your favourite celebrity and host of variety shows or talk shows than the interview itself.
"I think I'm gonna have to shake you one or two times during the interview," Arin said as she closed your mouth shut with a finger, laughing at how star-struck you were after seeing Yeosang, and as you glared at her, you pointed to the girls- you weren't the only one with a hanging jaw.
"Good evening, Wonderland!" Yeosang announced, looking as much a prince as the Prince himself in his deep purple suit, "Tonight, we'll be getting an inside scoop from these young ladies I know you're all dying to meet. We'll learn how things are going with Prince Hongjoong, we're just going to ask! Let's welcome... Miss Kim Kahi from Utopia City!"
Kahi moved elegantly from the first row to the stage, greeting Yeosang with a curtsy before settling down. She was composed and did well, so did the others, but it was pretty predictable. Some girls were acting shy on purpose- you'd never seen them like this and you knew because you were usually the one sitting back and watching everyone objectively. Some were clearly nervous but Yeosang joked a bit, which helped them calm down.
Arin was called when there were two girls remaining- the two of you got up, you immediately rushing to the backstage from where you would seat yourself as Arin would walk to the stage and greet Yeosang. You stood waiting until Arin was ready to sit, which was when Yeosang shook your hand too, and you prayed your hand wasn't sweaty as you smiled.
"Miss Arin from Mist Island, a unique case here because of the language barrier- I hope you're holding up well?"
Arin looked at you in confirmation and you nodded, and she smiled as she looked at Yeosang, "I'm doing well, thank you for asking."
"Ah, you sound good! Do we have your translator to thank for that, Miss...?"
You told him your name, "Arin is a quick and eager learner, I'm sure she'll get the hang of this is no time."
"Definitely! So, Arin, tell us, have you had a date with the Prince yet?"
"I have, we made cake in the kitchen," Arin was gleaming, making Yeosang chuckle.
"Now that's something unheard of! So tell us- is our Prince as good at baking as he is at running the kingdom or does he need practice?"
Arin looked at you with confusion this time, and you quickly told her what he'd said, "He's very good! Pro!"
As she said that, she looked at Hongjoong sitting in the front row who was laughing and shaking his head, making the crowd laugh as well as the cameras panned back and forth.
"I think the Prince disagrees, now which one of you is lying?" Yeosang narrowed his eyes dramatically, and you told Arin, Arin instead asking you to explain.
"She says she would never lie about this," you tried to stop the grin appearing on your face.
"Let's hear from the Prince," Yeosang looked at Hongjoong, who picked up his mic.
"Arin refuses to admit I'm a bad chef, but I did exceptionally well thanks to Arin's instructions. She's an excellent guide and baker!"
"Ah, that's great to hear," Yeosang smiled, "So Miss Arin, how do you feel about the Selection?"
Now Arin got the question, and she spoke confidently, "I'm honoured to be a part of it, no matter the outcome. Whoever he marries will be a lucky person. And..."
Arin turned to you as she spoke, and you cleared your throat, "Arin says that Prince Hongjoong is an amazing person, and she hopes he finds a good partner through this process, no matter who that is."
Yeosang smiled warmly at the two of you, "Thank you, Miss Arin. We hope to see you again in the next report, good luck!"
With that, you and Arin took off, you going backstage while Arin stood for a few pictures before leaving the stage. As you made your way back, the girls grinned at you. "You two were amazing. Arin did such a good job, I feel happy for her."
"Thank you Byeol, Nayoung," you smiled.
After the interviews, you all were led to have dinner in the hall, where Hongjoong joined, applauding everyone for doing a good job with the interviews. He was going from one girl to the other to have small talk after dinner, and then he finally reached the two of you.
"Good job, Arin!" Hongjoong smiled and Arin thanked him, "You did better than I expected."
"You should thank her," Arin said, but the two of you shook your head.
"It was all you, Arin," you said, and Hongjoong nodded.
"A little bit of her too, but all you," he laughed.
Arin smiled, and Hongjoong looked at you, "Are we walking in the garden tonight?"
"Are we?" You cocked your head- was that an invitation? Hongjoong only smiled.
"I'm not supposed to tell you already, but there's an assignment coming up where Arin would have to present something verbally. Just dropping a hint- foreign visit taking place soon."
"I'll pretend I didn't hear that," you zipped your lips, squeezing Arin's hand as in 'wait'.
"I'll be taking my leave then, have a good night, Arin."
"Good night," Arin smiled and Hongjoong took her hand and kissed it before taking his leave, leaving Arin watching him dreamily.
"Snap out of it, woman, we have work to do," you clicked your fingers in front of her, "Assignment. Foreign visitors, you'll have to present something. Don't tell anyone- he only told us."
"Why did he only tell us though?" Arin frowned.
"He probably wants you to do a good job," you put a hand on your hip, "Which means you might be one of his favourites right now."
"Wow... that's good to hear," she let out a breathy laugh.
"Also... I should tell you this, but Hongjoong knows me from our childhood too- not much," you sighed, "Remember how I told you I used to visit the palace often? He's seen me around."
"Ah, that's so cool!" Arin gushed, "I wish he'd known me too."
"That's not cool in any way," you muttered, flashbacks of your dark past- especially the fact that he knew you used to call him a stuck-up brat flowing in your head, and you shook the thoughts away.
"I'll tell you more later- I found out that my mother was the queen's maid and father was Hongjoong's personal trainer- tell no one, okay?"
"Who would I tell, you're my only friend," Arin rolled her eyes, "But how come you did not know this? They didn't tell you?"
"That's what I keep asking," you bit your lips, "Why am I the last person who knows this?"
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You tried to ignore the excitement you felt simply because Hongjoong had very casually invited you for a walk. You supposed that now that you were 'friends', you'd be hanging out more. Plus, it really looked like he needed someone like you right now- someone who could understand Hongjoong but understand the selected girls too, help him sort his thoughts out.
What you did not know was the thoughts that ran through Hongjoong's mind when he saw you at the broadcast room.
Hongjoong knew it was somewhat wrong, seeing how there were literally 22 girls who all dressed up for him, in absolutely beautiful gowns- and they did look beautiful. However, when you had walked in with your slicked back hair dressed in a suit... he couldn't take his eyes off of you.
He would never say it out loud- there was a goddamned Selection going on just for him. But you were stunning, you were funny, you knew more about how the palace and this country ran than any of the girls here, and Hongjoong had one question in his mind that he wanted to ask you tonight.
Now that part was tricky. He would have to remain as casual as possible, and he knew you were very clever and would realize if something was off too.
Hongjoong thought it was crazy- you two hadn't known each other for two long, but the way you clicked... he supposed you were just one of those people who he'd felt like he'd known forever. And even if you were going to be just friends, he really appreciated that.
He arrived in the garden first- or so he thought, until he saw you playing with a flower in a corner and he took in your appearance- you were still in your dress, only your heels changed.
Hongjoong had to shake his head- this was downright cruel. He was sure you didn't realize the effect you had on him tonight but maybe the deities did and they were punishing him for having these thoughts when 22 girls were waiting for him.
As if you'd notice him watching you, you turned to him, smiling and waving at him, unknown to the fact that he had been here and thinking about you. Hongjoong neared, taking a deep breath.
"Long night," he sighed, "You didn't change."
"Neither did you," you pointed out, and he looked down as if he hadn't realized.
"I was busy," he laughed, and you raised a brow.
"I was busy too."
"With what?"
"Just this and that," you sighed, "Helping Arin calm down after all the excitement, playing a game of cards with the maids. I didn't realize it was so late until I went to my room, and I wouldn't want to keep our busy prince waiting now, would I?"
"I love how you always find a way to mock me with my title," Hongjoong shook his head.
"So," you turned to him, beckoning him to walk and he did alongside you, "Is there a reason you called me for a walk?"
"Can't friends do that?" Hongjoong pouted.
"True," you shrugged, "How was tonight then? Like anyone?
"Well," Hongjoong took a long time to think, "Arin certainly did a great job. Kahi was a natural. The people love Nayoung. Byeol is well educated."
"I asked about who you liked," you gave him a pointed look, and laughed at how torn he looked, "Too early to ask?"
"Yes," Hongjoong sighed, running a hand through his hair, "I don't know if I like any of them like that. I don't feel a spark with anyone- maybe there's no such thing as a spark."
"There is," you assured him, and he raised a brow.
"Have you felt it?"
"I felt it, tonight," you smirked, watching his expressions change into confusion.
"Who, exactly, are you talking about?"
"Well, who do you think? Come on, it's easy. Who looked like a Prince tonight?"
"Me?" Hongjoong pointed at himself, and you laughed.
"I said looked like a Prince. It was Yeosang, of course. I can't believe how handsome he is! The camera really doesn't do justice to his beauty, and that's crazy because he looks so beautiful even on tv."
Hongjoong groaned, "Come on! Yeosang?"
"And why not?" You put your hands on your hips, "Can't a girl dream?"
"Sure. Dream along, I won't stop you," Hongjoong waved a hand in dismissal, "For a moment I thought there was a special someone back home."
"Nah," you smiled, shaking your head, "Never has been, and at this rate, never will be."
"Why? I think you're pretty fun to be around."
"You think that because you have no one to talk to and I'm your best option."
"Not at all," Hongjoong shook his head, "I know a lot of people. I'm not lying."
"Okay, let's accept that I'm fun and likable. I never liked anyone. Well, maybe if Yeosang would give me a chance..."
"I'll banish him if he looks at you funny," Hongjoong mumbled, making you snort in a very unladylike manner, "But I was wondering... did you enter the Selection?"
"Me?" You looked at him, and he nodded, "No, I didn't."
"Why?" Hongjoong asked, and you scanned his face.
"A number of reasons, but the main one being the lack of self confidence I have. The probability of getting picked, and then getting picked after the Selection... it's too little and too stressful. Why would I do that to myself? Also, I don't think I'm princess material."
"Well," Hongjoong began, "I can understand that you thought you didn't stand a chance, but I think... I think you would have done well."
"Oh, come on," you slapped his arm lightly, "Stop making fun of me."
Hongjoong grinned, and you shook your head. You'd just never fantasized about Hongjoong or being a princess. You were glad for Arin though, who had. Hongjoong was staring at you and you caught him.
"Would you have liked me to enter?" You wriggled your brows, and Hongjoong pretended to throw up, making you mutter a few curse words under your breath.
"Anyways," Hongjoong exhaled, "I'm thinking of announcing an elimination tomorrow. I've talked to every one of the girls. I don't want to keep hanging this matter."
"Ah, do take your time. It's your future, after all."
"Of course," he sighed, "Wife. Friend. Partner. I don't know what I'm looking for, but I hope to find it soon."
"Don't worry about the sparks, by the way," you said, "you should really get to know the girls. Sparks will come if you click with them and begin to like them."
"I suppose so," Hongjoong said.
"Can I ask you something?" You said after a moment, and he nodded, "Will I be going home tomorrow, with Arin?"
"Isn't this cheating?" Hongjoong asked, and you rolled your eyes.
"I'm not telling Arin. Come on, as a friend, I should know if I should sleep after packing my bags or not."
"Well, you're not going. I like Arin more than most of the girls there- she's easy to be with. Plus, I think I'll keep her anyway if it means I get to eat those scones and brownies anytime-"
"Prince Hongjoong, are you out of your mind-"
"I'm kidding!" Hongjoong laughed, "About the brownie part. Though I certainly wouldn't mind- I'm just saying that I'll keep Arin for now. And don't worry, if I decide to send her home, I'll let you know beforehand."
"Can you promise me one thing?" You said, and Hongjoong stopped as he looked at you. "Promise me that if you don't like Arin, you won't keep her hanging in here. You'll let her go. She's my best friend, and I don't want her to live here longer if she would be living in false hope."
"Does she really like me?" Hongjoong asked, and you shrugged.
"I'm still trying to figure that out- if she's still in her fantasy phase or if she genuinely likes you. But can you please consider her, despite the language barrier?"
"Of course, I am already," Hongjoong assured you.
"Thank you," you gave him a nod, "I know I shouldn't be asking this of you- you're the Prince, for heck's sake-"
"I'm just Hongjoong when I'm with you, so... you can ask anything."
You looked at him in gratitude, trying to ignore the way your heart flipped when you heard that. "Thank you. Should we go now? It's pretty late."
"We should," Hongjoong said, and his face twisted into surprise when you tucked the little flower you had been playing with in his hair over his ear.
"You look pretty," you laughed, beginning to walk back.
"Hey," Hongjoong said, and you turned, "I don't think I told you... but you looked really beautiful tonight."
"Me?" You pointed at yourself, making him laugh a bit as he nodded.
"Yes, you. I like this look on you. I mean it."
You made an impressed face as you playfully ran your hands over your hair as if to slick them back, making him laugh before saying bye and taking off.
As you lay in bed, you tried to ignore the fact that he'd call everyone pretty in the hall just a few hours ago, but-
He'd called you beautiful. And he had said that he meant it.
You wondered what life would have been like if you had entered the Selection, and wondered if you were better off like this.
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The next few days were the busiest days you'd all seen so far- with the royal family of Halaland visiting Wonderland, it was all hustle and bustle in the palace, and you'd think the palace had months to prepare as they set the tents, as decoration was done and champagne of the highest quality was brought out from the cellars.
You'd all learn that the royals of Halaland were easy to offend, so the selected girls especially had to be super careful with their etiquettes and manners, but they were no boomers as well and loved to enjoy so you had to charm them. Natural charmers like Kahi and a few other girls were pretty relaxed compared to girls like Sohee and Wonyoung who were naturally shy and reserved.
As for Arin... she was both nervous but also confident now that everyone including Hongjoong had praised her for her natural charms, and you were glad she finally understood that she just needed to be herself.
This time, you had to give up wearing the suit, since it was a very formal event, and your maids came up with the brilliant idea combining the elegance of a suit with a dress- a sheath surplice neck asymmetrical dress with sleeves that reached a bit below your elbows, the length of it just above your knees. You felt strangely exposed after wearing suits and pants for so long, but you couldn't deny you felt good- the pale mauve colour of it seeming more purple when you shifted in the light- you couldn't help but admire the dress.
"You guys always outdo yourselves," you breathed as you looked at yourself in the mirror, paired with heels of the same colour, "How did you even come up with this colour? It's so nice!"
"Wait till you see Arin," Momo smiled, "She'll look different tonight- we've had enough of her innocent looks."
"Ooh," you raised a brow, "I'm looking forward to that."
"Come on, let me do your hair," Mina made you sit, tying your hair in a loose bun with messy curls falling, pearls in your hair, a pearl bracelet the only accessory you would be wearing tonight apart from your usual diamond studs.
"Dressing you up feels like you're one of the Selected too," Sana smiled as she patted your arm.
"Even I start to feel like it- you guys do too much to me, it's really unnecessary."
"Please, where's the fun if you hang beside Arin looking as plain as a mouse? Everyone deserves to look stylish."
You shook your head, the maids taking you to Arin's room who was already done getting ready before you, and you audibly gasped when you saw her in the midnight black off-shoulder dress with a silver belt on the waist, shimmery stars growing more as you looked down, her hair left straight and open, pinned at one side, her eyes bold and smokey.
"Now, now," you scanned her up and down, "Who is this? I don't think I recognize this sexy lady."
"Shut up," Arin laughed, "Is it too much?"
"I think it's perfect. Hongjoong won't be able to look away from you after this. And if he does, I'll assume he's blind."
Arin smiled half-heartedly, and you assumed she was nervous, asking her if she was feeling okay.
"Let's just go, I need to go over the things with the girls too," Arin said.
You reached the great hall where some of the girls were already there, and the way they gasped when Arin came, hugging her and complimenting her, you felt a little teary eyed. After every elimination, the remaining girls seemed to get closer too despite the growing competition, and now that Hongjoong had eliminated 6 more girls, they were down to 16.
"You look wonderful too, I'm glad I'm seeing you in something that is not a suit," Nayoung scoffed, and you scoffed back playfully.
"Ladies!" Sophie came hurriedly, dragging all the girls to the entrance so they could receive the guests, "Remember- chins up, backs straight, and don't forget to smile."
The girls stood in two rows, in front of each other. The sounds of laughter and chatter grew stronger with every passing minute, and you stood on your tiptoes to peek at the guests, noticing Arin doing the same, and you poked her from the back.
"Stand straight, miss," you ordered, and she gave you a guilty smile.
The ladies and the gents started to enter, all in the most elegant dresses you'd ever seen, mostly shades of blue and blacks, the girls all greeting with hugs and kisses, getting compliments with a smile. It seemed that the royal family of Halaland was very interested in the Selection.
As the guests dispersed, greeting the queen who looked regal in her own black gown, the king and Hongjoong were at the farthest corner of the hall, and the girls all dispersed around him, hoping to catch Hongjoong's eye.
You and Arin stood by the table, you sipping on the champagne which tasted as expensive as it must be, while Arin was looking around nervously.
"Go ahead," you told her, "I think you're good enough in Korean to have a basic conversation. Or should I tag along?"
"You should, just in case. I don't wanna embarrass myself," Arin pouted.
"Arin, honey, you're adorably sexy today and if you fumble a bit with words, that would only add to your charm tonight. I'll tag along, lead the way, wherever you wanna go."
Arin grinned as she led the way, the two of you walking around until one of the younger guests, who you assumed was the Princess of Halaland approached Arin.
"It's so good to see you in person," she said in English and took Arin's hand, "You're my pick, just so you know."
Arin gasped, "Really? Thank you!"
"You're cute," she grinned, looking at you, "And you're definitely doing a great job since she's still here."
"Thank you, your Highness," you bowed.
"Call me Miyeon," she said to the two of you, "Should I put in a good word for you with Hongjoong?"
"Thank you, but I think Hongjoong should like me without anyone telling him to," Arin smiled.
"That's wise," Miyeon grinned, "Do you like Hongjoong?"
"I was more of a fan before the Selection, but I'm trying to really get to know him and how the palace works."
"See?" Miyeon looked at you, "I had a reason I picked her."
You gleamed at Arin, "See? You're doing great, Arin."
Arin laughed, and Miyeon told you she could take it from here, that she wanted to get to know Arin and would introduce her to the royal family. You thanked her, and though Arin looked nervous, you told her it was a great opportunity to interact with everyone with you not by her side, and Arin reluctantly but happily went with Miyeon.
You watched the two of them go away like a proud mother, going back to sipping your champagne, watching the girls interact with Hongjoong one by one too, Hongjoong all polite smiles.
"Penny for your thoughts?" A deep voice sounded, and you looked at the source- a tall boy around your age with a sharp face and even sharper eyes.
"Just observing," you said, "And you are?"
"Prince San of Halaland," he bowed, and you gasped, curtsying and apologizing for not recognizing him.
"I'm not one of the Selected girls, by the way, in case you want to interact with them."
"Oh no, why would I want to interact with the ladies who are only interested in Prince Hongjoong?" Prince San grinned, making you shrug as you smiled, "I saw you on the TV, you know. With Miss Arin. My sister Miyeon is crazy about her, and with the amount of times she watched her clips in front of me..."
"Ah, is that so?" You couldn't help but grin at that as you looked at Miyeon and Arin talking like long lost best friends, "They do look like they have been apart for too long now."
"Indeed," San huffed as he put his pockets and shook his head at the way his sister was chatting with Arin, all laughs and giggles, "How's job as a translator?"
"I'm actually Arin's best friend before translator, so I'm good," you told him, offering him a glass which he took, "And what brings the Prince to a measly translator?"
"Well," Prince San looked at you as he drank, "This mere old Prince wanted a break from girls in frills."
You scoffed, "I could have been in frills tonight too."
"And I still would have approached you," his gaze was... flirty. You raised a brow, and he laughed.
"I'm saying I could use good company," Prince San said as he scanned you up and down, and you suddenly felt uncomfortable-
"Prince San," a familiar voice sounded and you almost sighed in relief when you saw Hongjoong, "Long time."
"Long time," Prince San hugged him, "How's the Selection treating you?"
"I don't even know how it's treating me," Hongjoong said, finally looking at you and smiling, "You're alone."
"Arin was snatched by my sister," Prince San put a hand up as in surrender, "She's a bit of a fan of hers."
"Ah, I forgot you both were fluent in English. It's good for her to hang out without a translator for once," Hongjoong looked at you.
"Definitely, I had to push her, but she really needed this," you smiled.
"Well, you've got eyes, Prince San," Hongjoong pointed to a group of older ladies calling him over, and he rolled his eyes, muttering a bye before taking off.
"What did he want?" Hongjoong asked you, and you raised a brow at his tone.
"Nothing, he was just talking."
"Be careful of him- he loves to talk to people and then use them for 'distraction'," Hongjoong sighed, and you nodded- you'd got that vibe from him too, "Anyways, I never thought I'd see you in a dress."
You rolled your eyes, "It had to happen one day."
"I'm not complaining, you look as beautiful as always," Hongjoong said.
"Well, thanks, I guess. It's definitely a change I needed tonight- I think it would have been odd wearing a suit tonight, no one's wearing one."
"Exactly," Hongjoong nodded, "Can we see you in a skirt next time?"
"Stop teasing me," you almost slapped his arm, remembering you were very much in public, "Don't you have other girls to go to and tell them they look beautiful or something?"
"No," Hongjoong smiled distantly, and you frowned.
"Hello, you're still in the Selection. Go. The girls are literally waiting for you to notice them, and do compliment everyone at least. They all probably spent the whole day dressing up for you."
"Ugh, it's so pressurizing!" Hongjoong waved dramatically, and this time, you did push him forward, sending him laughing as he walked away to the nearest girl, who eagerly snaked her arm in his.
The rest of the event was mostly boring for you, making small talk with anyone who came to greet you, trying to avoid Prince San, and running into Hongjoong again, who said he needed to charge himself for at least two days after this event. Food was served and you finally sat with Arin and Miyeon as you ate, mostly listening to their conversation, adding a joke or two in between.
The night was still young, and you needed to take a breather. Telling Arin you'd be back, you went to freshen up a bit, deciding to go outside and take a breath of that chilly fresh air. You took a turn and nearly bumped into someone-
That someone being Hongjoong, your faces incredibly close as you both took ahold of your footing, finally breathing when you stepped away.
"Careful when you walk, we could have crashed rather painfully."
"What's got you in a rush?" You asked as you tried to calm your beating heart.
"Nothing, just coming back after taking a breather," he ran a hand through his hair, "I guess you're in need of one too."
"Absolutely," you said, "See you around, Prince."
With that, you took off into the night, leaving Hongjoong staring at your back for a good minute before he shook his head and walked back inside.
The rest of the night was as uneventful as it could be, Arin and Miyeon engaged in a heated conversation and you couldn't help but smile at the two- good for Arin. She had little to no conversation with the selected girls and you really liked that she was talking to someone finally.
As for Prince San, he kept coming back to you after every half an hour, apologizing for making you feel uncomfortable, saying he just wanted good company since he would be here for three days. So you accepted, the two of you finding yourself talking about anything and everything, from childhood stories to habits.
"Don't tell anyone, but I really adore cats," he smiled.
"That's surprising, but nothing to be ashamed of. You should tell everyone this, in fact. Don't you have pet cats? If I were you I would have opened my palace gates for all cats."
"Miyeon's allergic, so I can't do that," he sighed, looking at Miyeon and smiling warmly.
"You two seem close."
"We're practically best friends. We tell each other everything."
"That's sweet," you smiled, "What do you do other than performing your princely duties though?"
"Well, I like working out. I like to play with my cats- stray cats, in the garden. I also like to sing in the shower."
"You should hold a shower concert sometime, your cats could be your audience," you said, and he laughed out loud, putting his hand over his face- a habit of his. "Also, I have a question- I'm curious about something."
"Ask away."
"Do you and Miyeon have as much responsibility as Hongjoong, or is it less of a burden to you?"
"It's definitely less, my elder sister is in line for the throne. In fact, don't tell anyone, but we were considering their marriage before the Selection."
You gasped, "Really? Did they know each other or like each other?"
"They know each other, but not really- they've only met twice or thrice. But considering how things are in this kingdom, we decided against the unison of our kingdoms."
"Ah, so it just happened."
"I think it's sad," San shook his head, "I can't imagine marrying someone I don't know or like. I can't imagine having a Selection either- I don't know how he's handling it."
"I know. I think it's sad that he doesn't have the freedom to date and explore. What if he doesn't like any one of them?"
"Let's pray he does," San said.
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The next day was chaotic, to put it lightly.
Kahi had basically announced that she and Hongjoong had kissed last night. Nayoung admitted that she had kissed him a few days ago too.
The reactions ranged from jealousy to anger to curiosity- what was it like? Who kissed first? How did it feel?
You supposed it was bound to happen sooner or later, though you were a bit disappointed in the obvious choices- Nayoung being the palace star and Kahi being people's favourite.
However, you were more surprised when you conveyed all of this to Arin and she showed little reaction.
"Did you already know?" You asked.
"I didn't," she admitted, saying nothing, but you didn't spot disappointment on her face either, so you shrugged it off.
Arin told you that she would be spending more time with Miyeon since she was here for only two more days, offering you to join but you turned it down. You didn't want to be the third-wheel and you really wanted her to talk to someone else as well. You were glad that she had a friend now.
You went to Arin's room, chatting with Momo, Mina and Sana, catching up with palace gossip such as what the selected were up to, who was whose favourite, etc. After a game of cards, you went to your room and slumped on your bed, wondering if it was time to finally visit your parent's room.
You were still conflicted, but you decided to go to the kitchen and steal something while you would decide.
However, you were surprised with the sight of Hongjoong sitting by himself in a corner, watching the brownies in the oven bake, the rest of the kitchen busy with their own work, paying no heed to the Prince.
"How long has he been coming over?" You asked a woman you knew was the assistant chef.
"Every other day, basically. Sometimes he eats, sometimes he just watches us, poor thing," she waved her hand in a motherly nature.
As if Hongjoong had felt your stare, he turned, his face lighting at the sight of you as he patted the spot next to him.
"What are you doing here? Don't you have a kingdom to run or girls to kiss?"
You cringed a bit, wondering if you sounded jealous, but he just put his face in his hands, clearly ashamed. "I guess everyone knows now."
"Well, it was bound to happen," you shrugged.
"I didn't mean to. With Nayoung... she kissed me at our date. And Kahi... I was really frustrated and- ugh, I feel ashamed."
You grinned, "No need to. You can kiss whoever you like."
Hongjoong clapped when the oven went off, and you got up to take the brownies out, placing them on the table you sat.
"Enough about that, why are you here?"
You sighed, "I was wondering if I had grown the balls to visit my parent's room."
Hongjoong choked on his brownie, muttering 'language'. "Do you want me to come with you?"
You looked at him, wondering if that was what you needed. Someone to be with you. Someone who knew.
"I don't know... I don't know if I am ready."
"Well, if you're here, you're ready," he told you, "Let's go after eating."
You watched him eat his brownie as he gazed at the rest dreamily. You wondered how you two had become so comfortable with each other- to the point you'd forget he was the Prince. Hongjoong caught you staring.
"What are you looking at?"
"You, obviously," you scoffed, shrugging awkwardly as you took a bite, "Just wondering how we got... here."
"I know," Hongjoong smiled, "I didn't expect a friend out of the Selection."
After eating another brownie, Hongjoong told you to wait while he got the keys from Sophie, and you sat trying to muster up your courage.
You were finally going to go to their room and not find them there, only their belongings left. You didn't know what to expect.
Hongjoong led you to the other side of the palace, stopping in front of a room you assumed was your parents. "If you really feel like not going in, I understand."
You shook your head, "Rather go in then turn around from here."
He smiled, putting in the key and turning, opening the door.
The first thing you noticed was the sunlight illuminating the white sheets on the bed, and it looked like someone had packed their belongings. You stepped in, Hongjoong behind you, turning once.
"This doesn't feel like their room anymore- everything's packed."
"Your mom's friend packed the stuff. Do you want me to leave while you look at it?"
"No- you can stay," you told him, and he took a seat, you bringing a box to the seat next to his, opening it to find your dad's clothes.
One by one, you opened the boxes- clothes, personal belongings, a few of their favourite books, and then you found a few pictures- pictures of you, pictures you had never seen. You didn't even remember half of the moments.
"You were cuter when you were little," Hongjoong laughed as he saw one of your pre-teen years.
"I admit that I was," you smiled, finding a photo album and flipping through it, Hongjoong bringing his seat closer.
You didn't realize you were crying until your tears fell on the album, and you hastily wiped your eyes, holding back a sob but failing when Hongjoong put a comforting hand on your back.
"It just... feels real, now that I'm in their room alone without them. They'd never let me come here alone," you smiled sadly.
"It's okay, let it out," Hongjoong rubbed your back as you sniffed, bursting in a sob and holding your face in your hands, Hongjoong's arm wrapping around you as he held you.
You really felt their absence now. You'd grown up away from your parents, but this was the one place you'd always be with your parents, with your dad's funny face as he cracked jokes while your mom would scold you both for being too loud.
Hongjoong handed you his handkerchief and you wiped your eyes and nose, apologizing for being a mess.
"It's okay, really," he said, "I know it's hitting now that you're here."
You nodded, another stream of tear escaping your eyes, and Hongjoong's heart ached- he had always seen you with a smile or a smirk on your face. He couldn't bear to see your eyes full of tears, pain evident on your face. He didn't realize what he was doing- he brought his hand to your face, cupping it as he wiped your tears, kissing your cheek once, drawing back rather slowly and you looked at him.
It was as if time stilled- his hand remained on your face, fingers unmoving, while the two of you stared at each other. You were the first to draw away from your trance, muttering a sorry, looking away awkwardly, staring at the distance as you wiped your face.
"Do you want to take some of these to your room?" He asked, getting up, "We can make a box and you can take that."
"That's actually a good idea," you got up, putting all the pictures and photo albums in a separate box, some of your mom's jewellery, your dad's favourite books, and then you were done. You noticed Hongjoong smiling at a picture.
"What are you looking at?"
"I think this is the most recent one," he waved it at you- he was right. It was from the time they visited your home, a candid picture of you where you were out in the sun with a hand in front of your face to block the light. Your mom was always clicking such random pictures of you. "I'm keeping this."
"You are not," you glared at him, coming forward to snatch it away from him but he only stepped back, holding it in the air, smirking playfully.
"I'm gonna frame it and keep it in my room, caption it, 'the only time she looked normal'- hey!"
Hongjoong was startled when you jumped, holding on his shoulder for support, but he took another step back, which was a mistake, and he ended up loosing his footing, his free arm automatically going around your waist for support, but he ended up falling back- thankfully on the bed-
And you on top of him.
You groaned loudly, getting up a bit and laughing loudly when you snatched the picture from him, waving it in front of his face in victory.
But he wasn't having any of that- and he really wanted to wipe the smirk off your face. He brought you closer- dangerously close- and you realized only then the position that you were in, your eyes going wide.
"You're giving me that photo back," his voice was hoarse, expressions smug.
You shook your head, putting your hand behind you, only one hand holding you up for support.
Hongjoong shook his head, muttering 'you're gonna make me regret this' as he pushed himself up and caught your lips in his, kissing you rather furiously, swallowing your surprised moan, his hand tightening around your waist as one hand snaked up your face.
He wasn't even giving you time to think or breathe as he moved his lips along yours, and you didn't realize you were responding to the kiss until you heard his own satisfied moan, your hand on his shoulder now squeezing it unconsciously, because this was wrong, this shouldn't be happening, but you didn't care in that moment, those thoughts being pushed out and out-
Hongjoong snatched the photo from you, and you thought he'd stop, but his hand went to the back of your head, guiding you along better, pushing into you until you both had switched position, your back arched very low.
You had to break apart for breath, your foreheads still joined as you both tried to catch your breath and you couldn't help but sigh at how out of breath you both were. His arms stayed around you as he drew apart, out of words as you stared at each other.
You shook your head, "All this for one photo?"
"I'm definitely framing it," he muttered.
You exhaled, licking your lips as your gaze fell on his, and you finally came to your senses, getting up and away from his warm embrace, suddenly feeling cold.
Hongjoong cleared his throat as he straightened himself, and you picked the box, awkwardly standing in the middle of the room.
"This was definitely only because you wanted to distract me and snatch the photo, right? Because you're in a goddamn Selection, Prince Hongjoong, and Arin is my best friend and I could never do this to her."
He felt his heart twist, but he nodded, "Definitely."
The two of you knew you weren't being honest. But you decided to ignore it for now. "Let's go then. I'll be taking this to my room."
"Alright," he said, motioning you to go forward, locking the room back. As he walked you to the chamber where the girls and you were staying, he told you he was gonna go to his room.
"Can I ask you something?"
"What?"
"That was... just how many girls have you kissed?"
Hongjoong realized you basically meant he was a pro, and he threw his head back as he laughed, making you laugh as well, the ice breaking for now. "I'm not that experienced!"
You made a face that said that you were not having any of it. "Liar."
"Believe it or not, before the Selection, I've only kissed twice," he admitted, and you gasped.
"I guess you're a natural. Let's forget about this, okay? Stay focused, Prince! 16 girls waiting for your response, and I'm not one of them."
Hongjoong saluted, going back to his room- once he was inside, he slumped down with his face in his hands.
He was glad you were cool and things hadn't messed up indefinitely, but...
One thing he was sure of was that he'd never felt anything like this in his life before- and he wanted more. He wasn't sure if he could forget this.
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You knew you were never going to look at Hongjoong the same way again.
Something had inevitably changed between the two of you, and though you were trying not to think of it, you were now aware of him, more than ever. And though Hongjoong was an excellent actor, you could see that he was a bit awkward too.
But maybe you two only needed time to forget that.
What you did not know was that Hongjoong was trying to forget about it, he really was. And he was busying himself in more work than usual, trying to interact with the Selected girls more, another broadcast taking place as well.
With Arin hanging out with Miyeon, you didn't have anyone to talk to- but you were scared to face Arin after that. If Arin really liked Hongjoong and was serious about it (of course she did, there were no ifs!), you had messed up. Your friendship with Arin was worth so much to you and you couldn't ruin it.
With Hongjoong busy, you spent most of the time in your room or with San- who was surprisingly very easy to talk to. You two had a lot in common, in fact, which created a very comfortable bond between you two.
You sat with San near the pond, the two of you glum as you tossed pebbles in the pond. If anyone would see you two, they'd think you'd lost a war- the amount of sighs you two were breathing were too much.
"What's got you so down?" You finally asked, "I thought you were enjoying your stay."
"I was, and I'm not ready to go back to my normal life. I need a break so bad," San sighed, looking up at the sky wistfully.
"Ah... I can't imagine going back to my normal life either now," you could relate to him- even though it had been only three days for him, he must have been needing this breather.
"I'm sure Miyeon must be crying right now, in Arin's arms," he grinned.
"You wanna cry too? I'll join," you laughed, and San shook his head.
"Why do you wanna cry?" San looked at you, and you pursed your lips.
"You ever do something that you regret?" You asked, and he scoffed.
"If there was one thing-"
"No, like," you turned to him, "It wasn't your fault. But somehow... you got involved. And it was a bad decision- there is too much at stake. And you regret that- nothing's damaged yet, but you can't forget it either."
San narrowed his eyes at you, "Is this what I think it is?"
"I don't know what you think it is, but it's not that, and no, I don't even want to hear what you think it is-"
San burst out laughing, shaking his head as he looked at you, clicking his tongue at you. "Does this involve Hongjoong?"
You opened your mouth to say no, but his eyes said he had you, and you shut your mouth. "Why do you think this involves Hongjoong?"
"I've seen the way he looks at you- and don't tell me I'm wrong. I know a man's gaze and what it means."
You bit your lip, turning your face away from him. What was going on? Was San right about this?
"Something happened between you two?"
"I'd rather not talk about it," you muttered, and San patted your back.
"There are some things in life we cannot change. But... I think we should be able to make our decisions without caring about someone else. You know what I mean? Sometimes we should put ourselves first, if the risk is worth it."
"I really don't understand what you're saying, and this... sober talking doesn't suit you at all, San."
San slapped your arm, "One day my words are gonna make sense to you. 'til then... Let's forget about this, eh?"
You glared at him, nodding as he smiled, pinching your cheek. "You're cute. I'm gonna miss you when I go back. You should visit Halaland with Arin soon- promise me."
"No promises," you huffed, and San started whining, making you cringe away and laugh as you promised.
"I don't understand what's so Princely about you. If anyone saw you whining like a little- can I curse?" San nodded and you did, "They'd strip you of your title."
"Come on, just because I'm a Prince doesn't mean I can be a little brat- and yes, I'm censoring it. You're too harsh."
"I'm stating facts-"
You heard a rustle, and the two of you frowned as you looked at the source of the sound.
It was Miyeon and Arin, hand in hand as they giggled in low voices, walking along the footpath. You almost got up to say hi, but San held you by your arm, putting a finger to his mouth as he shook his head, and you frowned, not understanding why-
You looked at Arin and Miyeon- they were too close. Miyeon was rubbing Arin's hand almost lovingly, but-
"They like each other- or so Miyeon says."
Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion as you looked at San, then at the disappearing figure of the two, then back at San.
"Like each other? As in?"
"You know what I'm saying," San looked grim, "They like each other... and they kissed. I told her to be careful- if Arin gets caught now... she'd have to face a serious punishment."
You felt as if you were drowning as the words from the set of rules rang in your head: if any of the Selected are caught in a romantic relationship with someone else during that period, it would be considered treason and be punishable by death.
"But... they only met 3 days ago!" You frowned- it didn't make sense.
"3 days is enough to fall in love," San's tone was serious, "And you know how they clicked right away. Don't tell me you didn't know about Arin's preferences."
"She never talked to me about that," you put a hand on your head, trying to make sense of everything, "I don't know why, but... San, she was serious about this Selection. She was practically in love with Hongjoong."
"She only knew Hongjoong from afar, she was a fan. Her heart could have changed with or without Miyeon being here."
"But... this doesn't make sense, I need a minute to think," you stared at the pond as you thought about it- how Arin hadn't been too excited these days. How she hadn't seem disappointed when she had discovered that Hongjoong had kissed the other girls. How she wasn't even waiting for a date anymore, too busy since Miyeon came.
"I know it must be hard to digest- I was surprised too. This is a first for Miyeon too."
"Really?" You looked at him and he nodded, "I guess... whatever makes them happy. That means Arin would have to get dismissed from the Selection without anyone knowing what was going on. Shouldn't they be more careful?"
"It's not like they're doing anything right now," San chuckled, "It's just them finding themselves right now. They decided to wait- Arin is gonna go on with the Selection and see what she really wants. Miyeon would spend time away from her- maybe everything will change. Maybe it's just the heat of the moment. We should give them time and space to think."
"I'm kinda hurt that Arin hasn't told me anything yet," you admitted, "Miyeon told you everything?"
"She really wanted to think this through. So much could go wrong, even for her. She's a Princess. There's much to consider."
You shook your head, "Everything is so messed up."
"But it's beautifully messed up," San smiled.
And two days later, it was time for an elimination.
You wondered if Hongjoong would dismiss Arin- he had gone on another date with her last night, but not much had happened- the two had walked, you following beside, and he'd just asked Arin about her hobbies, her life before Selection, getting to know her.
If Arin was dismissed today, you'd be going home along with her. There were more girls who were confident that they'd stay today than girls who weren't.
Hongjoong entered after breakfast, scanning the girls once, his eyes falling on you for a second longer before he drew away. "Ladies, I hoped you slept well last night. Today is the inevitable elimination- only 8 of you will be staying."
The girls gasped- they hadn't expected it to cut to half already. "I'll be announcing those who are staying now."
He started calling the names- and Arin squeezed your hand out of nervousness, you squeezing back as you heard the satisfied gasps and the sobs that rang through the room.
The last name he called was Arin's- and you looked at him in surprise, finding him looking at you instead of Arin. Arin only sighed, slumping in her seat.
"I'm sorry to all those who were dismissed- I hope you live a happier, healthier life from this point on. If you have anything you want to say or ask, you can meet me in the Men's Room."
With that, he took off, leaving the 8 eliminated girls sobbing, and you couldn't help but sigh in relief- wondering what your sigh meant. Were you happy for Arin or relieved that you weren't going home?
That night, you went to the garden, not surprised when Hongjoong arrived an hour later, sighing when he saw you, sitting down with you on the bench.
"You've been busy," you smiled.
"I really wanted to talk to all of them once more before the elimination, just to be sure," he said.
"And? Feeling any sparks yet?"
"Not really," he looked down, the silver tendrils of his hair falling down on his forehead, and you admired his side profile- he really had the most unique nose you'd seen on a person- "I don't know what to do anymore."
"What do you mean?" You frowned as he looked at you, his eyes full of worry.
"In the next elimination I'm supposed to cut this down to 3. I don't think I like anyone more than the others- I really don't feel anything for them. This Selection was a bad idea- the rebels won't calm down just because I get married. They've tried attacking again, two days ago, but they couldn't enter. I don't want to end up choosing someone because she's someone's favourite- the king's, or the queen's, or the people's. I don't want to live with someone I don't love."
"I understand, Hongjoong," you put a hand on his back, "It's hard, I get it. But... I don't think you can back out of this now. You're a Prince, Hongjoong. There are so many people looking forward to this, waiting for your decision-"
"I didn't expect you to say that- you really don't understand," Hongjoong shook his head in frustration, "I think... I don't think I like any of the Selected. I like you. I want you, not them. They don't know me like you do- and I don't feel comfortable with them like I do with you."
You almost sobbed- your heart absolutely ached at his words. "Hongjoong, this isn't about us, please. I shouldn't even have been here. If I wasn't here, you would have proceeded normally with the Selection and found someone you actually liked- you probably only like me because I'm not one of them-"
"No. I like you because you're you. If you were in the Selection, I would have chosen you. If you were one of the Selected... I would have ended it today."
"Hongjoong, think again- you're the Prince. You can't be selfish-"
"Just tell me- tell me you like me too. If you do, nothing else matters," he locked his eyes with you, pain evident in them as he waited expectantly for an answer, his hand on top of yours squeezing it unconsciously.
You wanted nothing more than to lose yourself in the moment, but you had to be rational, "Hongjoong, this really isn't about you and me. This is about the future Princess, who one day will be Queen. Who'll share the burden of your kingdom. I can only be your friend- I don't think I can be more."
Hongjoong's face fell, and he sighed as he looked at the sky, his hand still on yours. "Would it have been different if you had entered the Selection? Or if... if I wasn't the Prince?"
"I don't know. But Hongjoong... we've only kissed once. Please forget about that and focus on what's important. It was just in the heat of the moment, okay? You're confused- all this pressure with the Selection is making you look at me. Maybe we shouldn't even hang out anymore-"
"No- that would make it worse, I know that," he finally took his hand off yours, "Just tell me one thing. Promise me you won't lie."
You narrowed your eyes at him but his eyes were firm- he was serious. "Okay."
"No lies. Just a plain answer. A yes or no. I promise to go back to the Selection, I'll properly think this through, I promise, just don't lie."
"Okay," you laughed nervously, "What is it?"
"When we kissed... you felt something, didn't you? You still do, and you did before we kissed. Is that right?"
You scanned his face- his eyes were holding your gaze as if he could tell if you would lie. You pursed your lips, wondering how you should say it-
"Your silence says enough," a slow smile creeped up his face, "You don't need to say it. It's plain as day on your face."
"You could be imagining it, you know. You could be wrong."
Hongjoong looked at you, tucking your hair behind your ear as he patted your cheek. "I don't think I'm wrong about this, dear."
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As promised, Hongjoong spent more time with the girls, going on dates and actually talking to them and getting to know the 8. Arin had another date where the two played table tennis, and you only sat back and watched, because god, you sucked at table tennis and you'd only make a scene if you tried.
After that date, Arin told you she wanted to sleep in your room tonight, and you internally smirked, wondering if she was finally going to tell you everything.
"I really don't like Hongjoong that way," she finally admitted, "And I'm sure Hongjoong doesn't like me either."
You pursed your lips, and she narrowed her eyes, "Did you suspect that already?"
"Of course I did, I'm your best friend, Arin. I saw how your interest in him kept going downfall."
"I don't even know why he decided to keep me. Perhaps he wanted to give me a chance because of the language barrier. Anyways, I'm not wife material- I can't do this. I'll just wait for the next elimination."
"Is your heart somewhere else, Miss?" You tested the waters, watching Arin's cheeks go red- it always gave her away.
"Actually, it is," she admitted, and you gasped dramatically, putting a hand over your mouth, "I'll tell you once I'm out- I want to properly introduce her to you."
"Her?" You wriggled your brows, and it was her turn to gasp, "You know?"
"San may have told me."
"San?" Arin wriggled her brows, but you laughed and shook it off, "Nothing as juicy as your story, Arin. It's best we don't talk about it here. Let's just wait to go home."
"Should I, I don't know, disappoint Hongjoong and speed it up?"
"No!" You slapped Arin's arm, "Poor guy already has it tough!"
The two of you burst into giggles, but almost screamed when the door opened loudly and a guard stepped inside.
"Rebels are inside- please follow me," he went to the right corner of the room, clicking behind a frame and opening a doorway, "Inside, now. Follow the tunnel and you'll find yourself in the room with the King and Queen and the rest of the girls."
You felt your heart sink, wondering if Hongjoong was safe, and you and Arin made your way down the dark tunnel, you leading the way, one hand in Arin's and the other feeling the tunnel out, following the dim light until it grew and you were in the large hall with the Queen huddled beside the King, only 3 girls inside so far, trembling with fear, and Arin joined them, comforting them as best as she could.
You asked one of the guards about the Prince's whereabouts and he told you he was making sure the girls were coming here before he would join, and you felt your heart fill with pride- he was really out there making sure everyone of them was safe.
It took another very long 15 minutes until one by one the girls came, Hongjoong coming in last. Some of the girls were shaken so bad that they seemed numb. Hongjoong stood beside you, staring at them as he caught his breath.
"It was an ugly fight out there- these girls witnessed it. They want to go home as soon as this is over."
"Oh," you bit your lip, "What do the rebels want, Hongjoong?"
"They probably want to overthrow us, like every other rebel in every other country. They are not ready to accept that Wonderers and Utopians could be one."
The Queen called Hongjoong over, and Hongjoong looked at you, "Come over- I should introduce you to mom and dad."
"Now?"
"Yes, now. Now is the time they miss them the most."
He took you to them, and you awkwardly stood and bowed as Hongjoong told them whose daughter you were. The King smiled, saying the resemblance was uncanny, and the Queen smiled warmly at you as well, "I miss Mira the most these days. She would have had so much fun with the Selection."
"It's an honour to me that you remember my parents," you said, and they laughed as they shook a hand in dismissal.
"Your father was a fine man," the King smiled, "His sacrifice means a lot to us. We miss the two dearly, and you... You are welcome in this Palace anytime. I heard how you and my son are friends now."
You looked at Hongjoong and he grinned, "Mom was making fun of me, saying I finally made the friend that I should have made some 20 years ago."
You laughed, shaking your head as you went back to where Arin was sitting, and she put her hands on her hips.
"You, miss, have something going on with Hongjoong."
"I have nothing," you said, but she wasn't having any of it.
"Have you seen the way he looks at you? He's never looked at one of us this way," she said, referring to the Selected, "I say you've won his heart."
"Shut up, Arin, he's the Prince. I'm no one. I'm only his friend, that's it."
"Whatever you say, I can't hear this bullshit. You're both either blind as hell or stupid as fuck."
"Arin!" You widened your eyes at her language, "Etiquettes!"
She only grinned, silly dancing and you wished you could wipe that smug look off her face. But she had caught you red-handed. and you couldn't deny it now, it was too late.
You watched Hongjoong comfort the girls one by one. He really was better off with one of them, not you. You weren't princess material. You were only... you. Simple you who was only good at translating and being a friend. You couldn't allow yourself to hope, you couldn't mess everything- the whole kingdom was hanging on the Selection and who the future princess would be. You didn't want to create a mess.
You couldn't allow yourself the luxury of thinking that you could be Hongjoong's, because really, before anything else... He was too good for you. You didn't deserve him.
By the next night, 4 girls had gone home, leaving only 4- Arin, Kahi, Nayoung and Sohee. Sophie had announced that Hongjoong would make his decision and propose his choice on the live broadcast in a week from now, and now that the end was real, you found yourself more anxious than ever, and as you were making your way back to your room, you almost bumped into Hongjoong.
"Whoa, careful there," he looked at you, frowning when he saw your face etched with worry, "Something wrong?"
"No, just tired," you shrugged it off, and Hongjoong scanned your face.
"You wanna hang out tonight? Help the poor Prince relieve some stress?"
"Sure, poor Prince," you grinned, going to your room.
Before you could go down to the garden though, you heard a knock. You were still in your navy blue suit, your tie a bit loose, and you thought it was Arin coming to ask you something, but when you opened the door-
It was Hongjoong.
He scanned your figure rather slowly, taking in the loose messy hair and tie, and god, he would never get tired of seeing you in suits.
"What are you doing here?" You asked, your heart sinking at the way he was looking at you.
"I just thought I'd come by and surprise you," he laughed, "and you're very surprised."
"I am," you laughed a little, allowing him to enter, "What's up?"
"I just had a meeting with everyone regarding the Selection, he slumped on your couch and you sat beside him, shifting so you faced him, "They think Kahi might be the better choice."
"Thought so," you muttered, and he laughed at the annoyance in your tone, "She's the obvious choice. Do you like her?"
"Honestly? She's okay. Tolerable. She just goes along with whatever I say. She doesn't fight back, just accepts whatever I say or give. I think she just wants to end up with me because of her strong family connection and because she could be a 'Princess'."
"Ah, here for the title, and to please you while she bathes in the royal treasure," you giggled, "Somehow, I can picture that."
"Right! I can too," he scoffed.
"But that's what everyone thinks- what do you think?"
Hongjoong bit his lips, folding his hands, "I... I don't know. Not Kahi. Not Nayooung. Not Sohee and not Arin either. I mean, I could pick anyone, but I don't think I'll ever truly be myself with them."
"That's... maybe you will, Hongjoong. It might take some time, but eventually, you'll be comfortable with them. You'll find the happiness you deserve, Hongjoong."
"I think I don't deserve happiness," he sighed, turning to look at you, "Maybe I'm damned. I don't know why I'm going through this- mom and dad had a chance and they fell in love. They didn't need a damned Selection. Why am I going through this?"
You frowned, "What's really bothering you, Hongjoong?"
Hongjoong gazed at you for a few seconds before turning as if he was in pain, "It's useless to say it out loud."
You sighed, figuring you'd give him some time to sort his thoughts out, getting up and opening your drawer, smiling at the photo before you sat back down. "You might wanna see this."
Hongjoong scooted nearer, taking the photo and frowning before bursting out in a fit of laughter, "I look like a wimp, and you look worse!"
You laughed, "I definitely look better than you. This might be the most un-princely photo of you that exists- we should frame it and hang it in the Great Hall."
"I remember this," Hongjoong smiled at the photo, "Your dad actually slapped my head and told me to act like a Prince because he wanted me to impress you- but we both ended up like this. You got an earful from your mom too, didn't you?"
"She made me do this, I didn't want to," you scoffed.
"I miss being little," Hongjoong sighed, "When I had nothing to worry about. My only worry was not being caught staring at you kids from the windows."
"You should have joined," your smile was sad as you two looked at each other.
"Don't you think we were meant to meet each other and be friends, sit here together like this?" Hongjoong's voice was low as he scanned your face, "When I'm here, with you, I feel... like Hongjoong. Not the Prince that has to put up and act."
"Should I be honoured?" You teased, but he only smiled, holding your hand.
"I'm only myself when I'm with you," he caressed your hand and you felt your stomach swoop, "I really wish I could call you mine."
You wanted to take your hand away- that was what had to be the rational thing to do, but the way he was gazing at your joined hands with his eyes full of sadness... it made you pause. He looked at you, "Have you ever wanted something or someone so much that you felt like you were nothing without it? That if you didn't get it, you'd just be an empty shell for the rest of your life?"
"Chocolate?" You shrugged, Hongjoong almost wheezing as he laughed, shaking his head, mumbling something about how you ruined the moment, but you squeezed his hand.
"I don't know, Hongjoong, but I... I think it'll be too late before I realize that I let go of the thing I wanted."
His eyes flickered with hope, "It doesn't have to be that way. If you have a chance, don't you think you should take it?"
"You know... I thought about it, Hongjoong. I wondered what it would be like to be with you," you said, making his heart sink as you looked at your joined hands, caressing his hand, "I wondered if I could really do this. If I could call you mine and sit with you like this every night," you looked at him, taking your hand away only to caress his face, "If we could talk like friends yet... be more. But Hongjoong, I'm not one of the Selected, and you can only select one of them. It's for the better."
"How is it better for me," he leaned in to your touch, "if I won't ever have something like this with someone else?"
Your smile was sad and unconvincing, and Hongjoong leaned closer, already out of breath by you words, "I'd break the rules for you. I'd accept any sort of punishment. I'd lose my title if it meant that I'd get to be with you- with you, who I love with all of my heart, because you're the one that I want."
You cupped Hongjoong's face in your hands, "I know. I know you'd do that for me. I know you love me, Hongjoong, and I... I love you too." You gave yourself a moment to scan Hongjoong's face who couldn't have looked more relieved, "But you're a Prince. You have a whole kingdom to look after. Every subject of yours is waiting for an opportunity for you to slip, to make a mistake, so they can use that excuse and destroy your kingdom. You understand that, don't you?"
Hongjoong hesitated before nodding, taking your hands away from his face, holding them as he looked down and thought about it. "It's cruel that you told me you love me only to let me go."
"I'm sorry for that," your eyes teared, "We're not meant to be."
When Hongjoong leaned in to kiss you, you didn't stop him, tears rolling down your cheeks as he kissed you softly, his hands holding your face as if it was fragile, and when he drew back, his own eyes were glazed as he wiped your eyes.
"I only have one week," he began, "please don't let me be alone for this week. I don't want to let go of you without knowing what it could be like if you were mine."
You shook your head but he squeezed your hand as if telling you that it was alright, "One week, that's all I ask. Forget about everything else, forget about the stupid Selection and the fact that I'm a Prince. Just be mine for this week, please."
"And you'll let me go? After one week?" You looked at him, and he nodded.
"If that's what you want."
You leaned in to hug him- your answer. You sat in his arms for a few minutes, holding him as if someone would snatch him away from you if you let him go. "One condition."
"What?" He was caressing your hair.
"Please don't contact me after the Selection is over. I won't want you to be unfaithful to your wife because of me. And... I'd need time but I'll move on too. But please... don't contact me, Hongjoong."
He held you tighter, his heart screaming against this but he nodded, and you sighed.
Tonight was all about sweet lies anyway.
He held you for a few minutes longer, then kissed your forehead and told you that he'd be back tomorrow, that he'd be wasting no moment from now on and that he'd like it if the two of you weren't so sad every time you met, and you laughed, promising him and yourself that you'd make the most of this one week.
But tonight, you'd cry. You didn't know how long you sat on your couch and cried silently until Arin slipped inside your room, gasping in surprise and sitting beside you asking what was wrong and you cried your heart out for the first time in Arin's arms, and she shushed you as she held you and comforted you.
"You should tell me what happened before I pass away out of worry," she frowned.
You told her then. You told her that you hadn't meant for this to happen, that you two were just friends- until you two were so comfortable with each other and realized it must be love. Though Arin was listening somberly at first, she was nearly laughing by the end of this.
"I fucking knew it!" She clapped, and you resisted the urge to choke her, "I knew the way Hongjoong looked at you was different! He's smitten by you, and you were blind!"
"Arin, I'm trying hard not to cry again, you're making this worse," you said but ended up laughing because she was too excited.
"I say fuck the Selection! Fuck this kingdom! He should choose you-" Arin was interrupted by you putting a hand over her mouth and telling her to tone it down before anyone heard and got you two kicked out.
"I'm serious, though," Arin insisted, "Hongjoong like you, you like him. Simple. Who cares about the Selection? He should marry you. He should put himself first. What has this Kingdom given him anyway? A damned burden! If the people really cared about their Prince, they'd let him marry whoever he wants."
"It's too complicated, Arin, you don't understand," you said, shaking your head, "If it was as easy, I wouldn't have been sitting here crying."
Arin bit her lip, thinking. She really wanted to lift your spirits, which was why she kept joking around, knowing you always gave in after a while of wanting to kill her. "Well, at least I'm able to joke because I'm not involved in this. Can't you see? It was meant to be. Me meeting Miyeon, deciding Hongjoong wasn't for me- I know if that hadn't happened, you wouldn't have even looked at Hongjoong that way- or allowed this."
"Maybe Miyeon shouldn't have come. You would be getting selected next week then."
"Come on, that's not the point," Arin waved a hand, "Just... forget about everything else and make most of this week. We'll figure something out."
"There's no figuring this out," you sighed, "I've just prepared myself for the biggest heartbreak of my life."
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It was both painful and lovely to be with Hongjoong- a brush of your hands as you bumped into each other in the hallway, stolen kisses in secret, winks sent across the room- really, you two were making it obvious. But since Arin was with you most of the times, the remaining girls thought it was Arin who was getting this special treatment, and they were upset because of that.
But you couldn't care less. You had one week, and you wouldn't let anyone come in between that.
In the days, Hongjoong was mostly busy, making sure he spent some time with the girls too so that no one would suspect. Each night, Hongjoong and you would walk in the gardens, hands brushing playfully as you talked just like usual. And two nights later, Hongjoong led you to a secret room in the palace through the tunnels.
"I'm pretty sure no one knows of this room," he told you as he lit the candles, "I used to explore the secret passages, leave a string of thread along."
"Hongjoong!" You gasped, "You could have gotten lost! How careless could you be? Imagine if someone found your bones here after years of searching-"
"Well, I'm here," he blew the matchstick away, turning to you, "And I need you to shut up for a bit."
You rolled your eyes as he wrapped his arms around your waist and brought you in for a lazy kiss, your arms automatically going to his chest.
"I could never get tired of this," Hongjoong mumbled, tracing his nose along your cheeks as he breathed, "I could do this all day and all night."
"Shut up," you slapped his chest lightly, suddenly feeling shy and Hongjoong grinned at that, kissing your cheek and trailing his lips down to your neck, and you gladly let him take control. He was taking his sweet time, rocking you back and forth as he played with your neck. When he drew up, he smiled as he scanned your face. "What are you thinking?"
"Nothing," you shrugged, but he brought you closer, tucking your hair behind your ears as he whined, making you roll your eyes, "Thinking about how it started."
"Hmm," Hongjoong brought you to the couch, making you sit in his lap as he played with your hair, "Totally unexpected?"
"Totally," you laughed, "I was... so happy for Arin. She really, really was in love with you, Hongjoong- or so she thought."
"I think her situation is more surprising than ours," Hongjoong shook his head, "But I have to thank her for not being in love with me."
You laughed at that, "It would have been a mess if she was still in the game." You had told Hongjoong about Arin's situation, and he had suggested that she wait until the Selection was over and lay low for a good few months before going to Miyeon or anyone else for that matter since all eyes would be on the last few candidates for a good while. "But you know what? I think I would have fallen for you anyway. I think it wasn't because of Arin being involved or not."
"Ah," Hongjoong grinned, "Is that so?"
"I really wanted to meet you, you know. And when you caught me the first night in the gardens- I think that's how everything changed, no?"
Hongjoong's smile was sad this time, and you kissed him, "We promised not to be sad anymore."
"I can't help it," he cupped your face, "How will I be able to let you go after this? How will I ever be okay after knowing what it feels like to be in love and letting it go? What kind of a prince I am if I can't even choose my princess?"
You ran your hand through his hair lovingly, caressing his cheekbone, "I feel like this is enough- if I ask for more, I'll be selfish. The fact that we are here now... that's a blessing in itself. I can't be selfish with you, Hongjoong."
The two of you stared at each other for the longest time as if memorizing each other, tracing each other's face, and you spent hours just talking about this or that or kissing each other or teasing- it was just so natural. And throughout the night, Hongjoong held you close, making you lose your mind as he kissed you like it was his last time- and it very well might have been. Each passing night of this short week had you two getting more desperate to be with each other and feel each other, skin on skin had nothing on you.
And each passing day made you weaker inside- you really had grown used to the palace and everyday life here and most importantly, Hongjoong. You promised not to be sad in front of Hongjoong but whenever you were alone (mostly Arin there to hold you), you were crying. Sometimes it was silent tears rolling down your face, sometimes hysteric crying- even Momo, Mina and Sana were worried for you, though they were kind enough not to intrude on your privacy and ask.
It was your last night here- the last time you'd be in Hongjoong's arms. Everything was going to change tomorrow.
You sat waiting for Hongjoong in your room, staring at the moon through the window, barely holding it all in. You were afraid you were gonna break down when you saw Hongjoong.
But when the knock sounded, you immediately knew it was not Hongjoong. And when you opened the door, your jaw almost dropped as you bowed.
"Your Majesty- you could have called for me."
The Queen patted your cheek- she was in a very casual attire, as if she had just decided to come to your room. You had a billion thoughts in your head but only one question- what the hell was going on?
"Please, do sit and be comfortable," the Queen said, "I wanted to see you and have a little talk."
You scanned her face- she was smiling as if she knew something. She laughed at your expressions and began, "I know you must be confused. But I had to see the reason why my son was waking up with puffy eyes these days."
She knew.
"Your Majesty- I... I'm sorry-"
"Oh no," the Queen waved a hand in dismissal, "I'm not here to scold you, dear. Hongjoong doesn't know of this, neither did he say anything, but he's my dear son, and I could see something was weighing him down. It looked like he had lost a war."
You bit your lips, "How did you know then?"
The Queen laughed, "I knew you were friends, dear. But I also saw the way he looked at you- and the way you looked at him. Now what kind of a mother would I be if I couldn't recognize the look in my son's eyes? Your King looks at me the same."
You smiled at that, "So... I don't know what to do, I... I told Hongjoong to go on with the Selection. I told him that his kingdom is more important and that he has to consider his subjects before he makes a hasty decision. And he'll go on with this decision. I'll be here no more tomorrow."
"I'm sorry, dear," the Queen's face was sad, "if it were anyone else, maybe I wouldn't have understood. But since it's you... I can see why Hongjoong loves you, dear. Your mother and father were great people. They've taken our secrets to the graves. But they were also our friends, and me and my husband had love for them as a friend would. They cherished you, their only child. I'm sure they would be so proud of you if they were alive today."
You wiped your eyes and the Queen got up, putting a hand on your shoulder, giving you a reassuring squeeze. "Sometimes, the future has things stored for us that we do not expect. Do not be sad. You are my pick, honey. And tomorrow... stay, until the announcement. I have to give you something."
You nodded, surprised at her words but also confused at how cryptic she was being. She patted your cheek and left the room, and only a few minutes had passed, you still thinking about the Queen when Hongjoong knocked and entered, and you instantly knew that he had no knowledge of the Queen's visit.
You got up, going to his arms and silently hugging him. There were no tears left to cry now. It was only silence- comfortable sad silence surrounding you two as you hugged for the longest time.
"Can I hold you tonight?" Hongjoong drew back a bit, caressing your face, and you saw it then- his eyes, as puffy and red as yours. Anyone would have known, really.
You nodded and he led you to the bed, taking his jacket off and sliding inside the covers, spreading them over you both as you lay half seated in each other's arms, your head on his chest hearing his heart in sync with yours, his arm around you as he played with your hair- a habit of his.
"You're quiet today," you muttered, looking up at him- laughing a bit when you saw him pouting.
"I don't feel like talking tonight," he pouted again, "I'll listen tonight if you want to do the talking."
"Hmm," you shifted, "not even silly retorts or dad jokes?"
"I'll try to hold them back," he finally laughed, and you kissed him slowly, smiling into it.
"Let's not be sad tonight, Hongjoong," you kissed his cheek, "I don't want the last thing I remember of you to be your swollen eyes."
"I think that's quite a pretty sight to remember," he grinned and you shook your head, kissing him when he nodded, his hand going behind your neck as the kisses got more desperate and picked speed, losing all composure and calm because really, you were kissing like this because it was your last time.
You let Hongjoong cry as he kissed you, and you only realized your face was wet with your own tears when he wiped them away, never breaking apart. You both were smiling into the kiss anyway. And when Hongjoong and you lay in each other's arms, Hongjoong muttered something in your ear repeatedly that had you smiling like a kid.
"Can you stop calling me your princess?" You cringed back, his breath making you tickle and laugh way too hard, "It's getting annoying!"
"But you are the queen of my heart," Hongjoong mumbled it in your ear on purpose, making you giggle and slap his bare shoulders. "Ah, you're getting naughty."
"I'm not! You're making me- hey!" You were interrupted as he turned so he was on top of you, his eyes now dark and changed, making your stomach flutter dangerously.
"You wanna do that again?" He challenged, smirking.
"Do what- this?" You slapped his arm, acting innocent, and he laughed out loud at your antics, pinching your cheek because you were being way too cute, and then kissing you.
"You don't let me breathe, woman," he muttered, falling back on bed and bringing you closer.
You trailed your finger down his chest suggestively, "Don't you like this? Should I let you breathe once in a while?"
He shook his head- he'd had enough of you. He held your face as he muttered something in your ear that made you go red and your knees go weak. And then he acted upon it, making love to you, the two of you trying to push the thought that this was your last night together but it leaked in to your actions as he kissed you desperately, as you ran your hands all over his body like you were deprived of his touch, as you held each other throughout the night.
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The two of you slept in each other's arms, though when you woke up, his absence hit you so hard that you were screaming into your pillow. You had never felt so alone.
Gathering yourself for an act for the last time, you washed your face and let the girls do your makeup, Arin watching you sadly. You put on the deep red suit that Hongjoong loved so much, wondering if you would ever be able to wear suits again since it would be a constant reminder of your short time here.
You only drank coffee to keep you going, waiting in the Women's Room for the staff to call you to the broadcasting room where Hongjoong would announce his wife- the future princess of Wonderland. You suddenly felt nauseous- you couldn't watch that.
You wouldn't be able to.
You told Arin, and she understood, hugging you once, nice and good, but when she drew back, she was smiling.
"I am so proud of you," she patted your cheeks, "You'll get through this."
The ladies were escorted to the broadcast room, and you stayed behind, surprised beyond anything again when the Queen arrived, this time with Hongjoong.
"I told you I'd be back with something," the Queen smiled, and you looked at Hongjoong- even he was confused. She took off her wedding ring and handed it to Hongjoong- "Your decision, my son. It's time you think for yourself, as Hongjoong. Leave the kingdom to us."
You gaped at them, Hongjoong equally surprised, "But- father-"
"Your father is okay with this and he would have been here with me but he's handling the broadcast right now," she patted his back, "Go on, we don't have all day. If she is your happiness, then choose her. I don't want you to have regrets, son, and I don't want you to hate your parents who made you go with this Selection when they themselves didn't."
Hongjoong looked at you, then back at his mother, then finally smiled the most happy smile you'd seen on him so far, "You know, I had a ring of my own today. You beat me to it, mother."
You had to look away as you laughed and pinched your nose because Hongjoong pulled out his own ring, "I was going to go on with this anyway- I was going to tell you before you dragged me here, mother, you nearly gave me a heart attack! You should have warned me!"
"You should have warned me!" The Queen laughed, "Can you imagine the chaos if I hadn't made the connection and taken care of everything beforehand!"
"Unbelievable," you muttered, laughing through your tears, "Your Majesty... are you sure I deserve this?"
"My dear, you deserve to be Hongjoong's wife. The Princess thing- anyone can learn that, but I think the only person who could ever truly make him happy is you. Look at him smiling like an idiot- I have never seen him smile like that, and I am his mother!"
You nearly fell with relief, shaking your head in disbelief as Hongjoong stood in front of you, the Queen leaving you two. "So... can we stop crying and start being happy now?"
You laughed, shaking your head again as Hongjoong hugged you, sighing into it, "I told you last night. That you are meant to be my princess."
"Did you already have this planned out?" You looked at him, and he shook his head.
"All I did the whole week during my spare time was research over the past Selection laws, find a loophole, anything. But then mother came today and said that some laws needed to change anyway, so I better not disappoint her with my choice- you know you are her pick after all."
"I suddenly feel like I was one of the Selected all along," you groaned, "What about the girls?"
"Mom will break it to them. But enough about them-" Hongjoong drew back, taking out the two rings, "Which one are you gonna choose, Princess?"
You rolled your eyes, pretending to consider before putting both hands in the air, and Hongjoong slid his mother's ring on your right hand and his own in your left hand, kissing your knuckles before looking at you, and holding your face, kissing your lips so gently it felt like it was your first kiss, not quite able to draw back right away.
You only had a moment to yourself before Arin, not so ceremoniously, ran inside, squealing excitedly and hugging you and Hongjoong altogether, crying from happiness, saying she had 'too much of your sad ass' and scolding Hongjoong for not coming up with this earlier, which, even though you did not translate, he understood very well, apologizing as he laughed.
The staff called Hongjoong for the official announcement and he squeezed your hand, nudging you to come along. Arin took off her diamond studded hairpin, clipping it to your hair.
"Go show them who's the real queen."
You put your arm in Hongjoong's, walking proudly for the first time in your life.
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'You barely had enough brain power to comprehend this all.' Wine drunk and trying to save a cat, a true hero indeedđđđ "For fucks sake carrot I don't have time for this.â CARROT!? SKSJEIKSISJS OML THAT IS SUCH AN ADORABLE NAME FORNA ORANGE KITTYđ„čđđ 'Oh, to be a cat.' No but for real though, especially with a good ass owner!? Talk about set for life!!đ«Ą 'He opened it after a moment, his hair a mess and his eyes all sleepy.' Ajsbsuwnjs awhh sleepy Jonghođ„șđ âWhat do you need?â âYou.â AHHHHHH I would have passed away on the spot!! Literally would see my soul leave my bodyđ±đ âWe can't all be hercules, man.â frfr Jongho not all of us can break apples in half like they are nothing!!!đđ 'Muscle man laughed' idk why but Jongho being called muscle man killed međ€Łđ âAre youâŠthe ramen?â Damn. Cheesy pick up line got međ« But like it's Jongho in my head saying it so I feel as though that is justifiedđđ
...ramen before you go? choi Jongho (m)
đ pairing âą neighbor!Jongho x (fem) reader
this story is based on true events I have actually experienced. (Cat stuck in sauce can, cat stuck behind appliances) but sadly, no Jongho to the rescue. #saucecat
đ synopsis âą you thought things couldnât get worse after finding a cat in the dumpster behind the liquor store, but now here you were, alone in your new apartment, staring at that damn cat that somehow got stuck behind the washing machine. You needed some strong handsâŠ.but the minute you met him, you didnât want him to leave. Do you want some ramen before you go?
đ genre/au âą next-door neighbors au, comedy, smut, fluff
đ warnings/tags âą 18+ minors DNI, shower sex, completely unhinged and does not make any sense. this is all over the place and just for fun, so please have a good laugh, comedy to smut, oral sex (female receiving), hair pulling, cream-pie, profanity, jongho is the cat savior, and also a little sleepy and drunk off beer
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Your life flashed before your eyes.
Well, your catâs seventh life, that is.
âI swear to god, Iâm gonna go fucking insane.â you hissed. âI literally just found you and you already lost seven out of nine lives.â
You stared at your little troublemaker, the cat you found in the alleyway behind your favorite liquor store in the dumpster. Surely enough, he still caused the same amount of trouble since the very first day you found him.Â
The situation was even worse, especially because you were four glasses in on your red wine. You barely had enough brain power to comprehend this all.
He stared at you, bug-eyed, through the glass that surrounded his little headâan empty spaghetti sauce glass he had found in the trash can. You were in the middle of moving into this apartment. Boxes were all around you, your furniture not even set up yet, but here your cat was, stuck in a sauce can and sitting there like he did nothing.
For fucks sake carrot I don't have time for this.â you groaned, looking around quickly for paper towels. When you realized you didn't even have utensils out, yet alone paper towels, you let out an aggravated noise and waltzed over to your cat. âYouâre going to be the death of me.â
You grabbed onto the glass container, gritting your teeth while pulling it gently.
âMeow.â
âDude, I'm trying to help you, dammit,â you growled, playing tug of war with Carrot. âNow sit still.â
Carrot, in fact, did not sit still. You let go after the first battle, letting out an irritated sigh before trying again.
After an ungodly amount of time, you were finally able to free the dumpster cat, only for him to look like heâs had war flashbacks.Â
Covered in spaghetti sauce, Carrot looked like he was bathing in blood. You ran a hand through your hair as the little bitch stared at you like he was gonna screech. After a moment of uncertainty, Carrot licked his sauce-covered lips and waltzed away, still drenched in sauce.
âCome back here!â you yelled, but the more you followed him, the faster he went. You ran through your living room, covered with boxes, and down the hall to where your laundry room was. âI will literally break down right now if you get in that washer. Tears and everything. You better feel bad for me.â
Carrot turned around at those words, but then blissfully stared at the open washer. He had a habit of sleeping in it, and it did cross your invasive mind about how it would clean him up without the use of paper towels.
y/n, that would drown him. Shut the fuck up, brain.
âCarrot.â you swallowed your anger, knowing it was just your stressâand maybe the fact that in the last twenty-four hours, he ate your sandwich out of your hand, sat in the sink while the water was running, started hissing at his own reflection, drank out of your glass of alcohol, and got high of catnip and broke a picture frame. He was cuteâŠtoo cute. You wished you could get away with his antics. âDon't. Touch. The. washer.âÂ
If a cat could smirk, you were certain thatâs just what he did. With one swift movement, Carrot leaped into the washer, rolling around in it in sheer happiness.Â
Oh, to be a cat.
âYou know what? Fine! Roll around, do whatever.â you huffed, tossing your hands up in the air while turning around. As you tried to walk away from the devil himself, you heard a boom, a hiss, and a squeal.Â
When you looked back at the washer, Carrot was no longer in it. He was nowhere in sight, actually.
âCarrot??â you said anxiously, only hearing a terrified meow, causing you to run over to the machine as quickly as you could.
âMEOW.â
You looked over the washing machine to see bright yellow orbs staring back at you as he moved frantically behind the block of metal. You desperately tried to pull the machine back, only to feel like a goddamn weak ass shrimp.
âIâm trying, Iâm trying,â you breathed, groaning as you tried to move it. âNow's the time I am regretting quitting the gym.â
Several minutes passâyou were on the ground sweating like a lunatic. Carrot had gone quietâhe wasn't dead, just probably disappointed in your weak attempt to save his eighth life. He was most definitely shaming the hell out of you by now with his little judgy eyes.
As you thought about asking for help, you knew 911 couldn't save you now. Or ever.Â
So you did what any sane single woman would do after finding out a man lived across the hall.
You zoomed out the door to knock on his door.
He opened it after a moment, his hair a mess and his eyes all sleepy.
Awe fuck, did you wake him up?
Whatever, it's too late now.
âUm, hello?â he yawned, and as he did, you looked down at your watch to check the time. It was eleven at night, how could you totally lose track of time?Â
Carrot.
âHey, listen, um,â you sighed, running a hand through your hair as you noticed how good looking he was. âI need help. Are you strong? You look strong.â
He blinked at you, brown eyes picking apart your expression. His lips were pretty, his eyes were pretty, his arms lookedâŠ.strong. Mmhhhmm. Yummy.
âI guess so.â he nodded, tilting his head at you. âWhat do you need?â
âYou.â you spewed out, and then laughed at yourself. âDammit, I mean, yes I do need you, but not like in any other way than your strong arms. I mean that would be nice bit uh..fuck, You seem like a very nice manâŠ.â
As you trailed off, it was pure silence, other than the war cries of Carrot in the distance.
âI need you to free my cat from his imprisonment.â
âYou need me to do what?â
â
âYou couldn't move a washer?â
You and the strong gorgeous man stood in the middle of your laundry room, staring at the machine that held carrot captive. Strong man looked so sexy in his tight little t-shirt and sweatsâgod, you were so touch-deprived. Here you were creating scenarios in your head with a stranger that involved a washing machineâŠ
âOh, uh.â you gulped. âWe can't all be hercules, man.â
He yawed, causing you to look over in his direction. He looked young, maybe younger than you, with blackish brown hair and glossy eyes. His body looked delish, if you could say so yourself. You would pounce on him right then and there if you could.
âAll right, let me move it for you.â the minute he pushed up his sleeves, you swallowed your pride. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckâ
Within a second, he pulled the heavy machine with ease, letting out a sexy grunt that nearly made you moan. The wine was indeed hitting your slut system, for sure. The minute there was enough space for him to reach down to grab the garbage cat, he pulled him out, holding him far away from him after realizing how dirty he was.
âCarrot!! Youâre alive!!â
âYo, why is he covered inâŠsauce?â he made a face, turning to you with that gorgeous body of his. âAnd itâs name is carrot?â
âHe was born in a dumpster. Old habits die hard.â You said as a matter of fact my. âAnd heâs orange. Self-explanatory.â
Muscle man laughed, setting the cat down. âI guess that explains it.â
A few moments of silence. You didnât like the emptiness.
ââŠ.Do you think thatâs why he loves the washer?â you wondered out loud. âLike, it looks like a mini dumpster. Probably feels like one too when he rolls around like an idiot.â
The cat savior laughed shyly, but his eyes said otherwise.
âYou know,â you pondered as he looked at you as if he were going to tear you apart. âI don't know your name.â
âJongho,â he mumbled, a smile finally reaching his eyes. He still looked so tired, but you were too selfish to let this opportunity go. âAnd you?â
ây/n.â you smiled, looking him up and down like a crazy person. âI just moved in.â
âI know.â
âYou know?â
âMhm. Watched you fall down the stairs and play it off earlier. I was gonna help, but you seemed like you would have been embarrassed soâŠâ he started to laugh. âSorry. I should've helped you.â
You smirked. âWell, you made up for it now.â
You stood close, unaware how close you actually were. He smiled down at you while you looked at his lips.
âI should goâŠâ he hummed, eyes narrowed on you.
âYeah,â you breathed.
He looked at you lustfully for a moment longer, and then broke away from the trance to walk away. You followed him to the door, but right before he could leave, you blurted out the only thing on your mind.
âWould youâŠlike ramen, you know, before you go?â
He was facing away from you, and as you said those words, he stopped in the middle of the doorframe.Â
âDependsâŠâ he murmured, turning around to face you. His eyes were no longer sleepy, rather they looked murderous. âAre youâŠthe ramen?â
You nodded.Â
âMhm.âÂ
He smirked.Â
âI guess I can eat.â
You crossed the distance, tugging on his arm to pull him to you as you slammed the door behind him. You shoved yourself onto him, pressing his body up against the door, lips colliding at the same time.Â
His hands ravaged your body, moving from your hair, to your face, to your waist, to your ass. He moaned into your mouth causing you to arch your body into him like a cat.
âWanna move this into the shower? I need a shower.â you breathed against his lips as he kissed you.Â
âMhm.â he moaned against your lips, picking you up with that superhuman strength of his. âWhere is it?â
âLast door in the hall.â you slurred, his arms holding onto your back and your legs. He held you like you were a feather, hot damn.
He walked blindly towards the bathroom, bumping into the walls and door knobs aggressively. You gripped the back of his head, kissing him like you knew him forever.
You didn't even know him for ten minutes.Â
This is a new low, y/n. A new low.
Oh well, hot guy trumps embarrassment.
The minute he found the bathroom, you nearly tumbled into the room as he opened the door. He pressed you up against the wall, tugging at your lip with his teeth like an animal.
You slid off of him to turn on the water, sparing no time to undress him like a mannequin. He stood there, a boyish smile on his face as you pulled his shirt over his head, revealing his toned body. He was stunning, my god.
âIt must be the beer I drank,â he spoke lustfully. âBut damn, youâre the hottest thing Iâve ever seen.â
âDitto, hercules.â you hummed against his lips as you unbuttoned his jeans, smiling into a kiss. âNow shut the fuck up.â
He undressed. You followed, although he seemed inclined to pull your clothes off himself. He had a goofy smile on his face as he tugged your bra off, making you smile with him.
âSo pretty,â he whispered, tugging you back into him with a giggle. You stumbled into the shower, freezing cold water hitting your back and dripping down your head, drenching you from head to toe. You would have cared about the temperature any other time, but you were too focused on sucking this stranger's face. He didn't seem to mind, either.Â
You tasted the coldness of the water on his lips, your hands running up his bare skin to reach his hair. He moaned into your mouth as he bucked his hips into you, breathing heavily.
âI want you to eat me out.â you moaned as his hands danced at your hips. âThat was our deal.â
He smirked, burying his head into your shoulder as the water pounded against you. âYou want what?â he pestered, tongue dancing in your mouth as you lost your train of thought. âI didn't hear you.â
You groaned, tossing your head back. âI said I want you to eat me out.â
âEat what?â
âMe. Out.â
âMe out what?â
You shoved him against the cold tiles of the shower wall, glancing down at that sinister smile of his. âI want you to fuck me with your mouth.â
His hands smoothed your curves, his eyes everywhere on your body. âAlrighty then, no need to get harsh.â he laughed, gaining pleasure from having you repeat those words over and over again. âI heard you the first time.â
He knelt down in the shower, his lips meeting yours immediately. His hands were gripping your thighs, and you couldn't help but admit you liked seeing him, or any man, on their knees for you. His tongue slid through your core, igniting an eternal flame that only he could extinguish. He looked up at you through those long eyelashes of his, and you gripped his head, pulling his hair like your life depended on it.
âFuck.â you hissed, slamming your head back against the wall. âDon't stop.â
He hummed against you, his hands moving to grab your ass tightly. Every time he moaned it felt like a wave of electricity was flowing through your bodyâan intoxicating feeling on top of the wine.
He pulled back, even after hearing your command. As he looked up at you from his lowly position, it made you feel like you could rule the world.
âI would like to fuck you, you know, with more than just my mouth.â
You shivered under the coldness of the waterâand his touch. âYes, please. Go right ahead.â
He smirked at your response, standing up and gripping your hips without a word. He then shoved you up against the tiles, positioning himself just right, only to shove himself in like he owned the place. You gasped at his sudden entrance, your walls tightening around his dick.
He pumped into you, holding onto your waist from behind and pressing his other hand against the wall. You moaned as he quickened the pace, and either you were too lost in his trance or the wine added to the feeling, but you were so far gone that you didn't even notice when he picked you up mid stroke, holding you to his body as your back pressed against the wall. He fucked you silly, like he did it a million times before. You couldn't get enough of him, even if you just met him today. He was all you needed.Â
âCome inside me,â you groaned, your tone serious. His movements slowed at your words, unsure of what to do.
âH-huh?â he continued to pound into you, but he was reaching his high way sooner than he wanted to. âInto you? Are you on the pill?â
âPfft. yeah. Fuck children,â you shut your mouth, hating yourself for saying that while he was literally inside you. âThat sounded bad, jeez. What Iâm saying is you can come inside me. Please.â
He laughed at you, but was too focused on finishing that he ignored your craziness. His breaths began to quicken, his hips bucked in shallower movements as he reached his climax. You let out a cry as you felt the warmth of his come coat you from the inside, dripping down your thigh as his head fell onto your shoulder.
Your shaky breaths tangled together, the water slowly feeling colder and colder as you looked at each other.
And then you both laughed.
âIâŠwow.â Jongho laughed, setting you down slowly so he didn't hurt you.Â
You quickly reached to turn off the water, not holding back the string of curse words attached to your tongue.
You chuckled, wrapping your arms around his neck. âThat was fun.â
He smiled at you, leaning in to kiss your lips, once again like heâs done it before. âItâs nice to umâŠmeet you, y/n. I don't think I ever said that yet. Itâs not like I met you twenty minutes ago or anything.â
âIâm hoping youâll keep coming over to rescue my catâŠâ he mumbled, a knowing smirk on your face. âAnd to eat some ramen once in a while. A lot in a while, actually.â
âMhm. Just knock on the door, Iâll be at your service.â
Still in each otherâs arms, you were unsure about your future with the cat savior, but yet, this was just enough. It was strange, but enough.
For now, at least.
âSo, is now the right time to tell you Iâm ready for round two?â
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Runaway Princess (M) ~Bang Chan
Pairing: RoyalKnight!Chan x Princess!Reader Themes: Angst, Smut, Fluff, Strangers to Lovers, AU - Mediaeval Setting Warnings: mentions and depictions of domestic abuse (unrelated to Chan), graphic depictions of intercourse (smut warnings under the cut). hope i didnât miss anything Word Count: ~16k | AO3 Summary: Your best friend has sent her most trusted knight to help you escape your abusive home, an intriguing man with many facets you canât wait to uncover.
Authorâs Note: this piece started as just the mountain scene⊠but before i knew i wanted to expand more on it, blacked out, and suddenly it was twice as long. anyway, if youâre reading this, hope you enjoy! know that feedback is always appreciated.
Smut Warnings: dirty talk? i guess, fingering (F.Rec), handjob, oral (M.Rec, F.Rec only implied), dry humping, nipple play (F.Rec), cumshot, unprotected penetration (thereâs an unspoken notion that pulling out prevents pregnancy, this is all purely fictional, please protect yourselves irl!).
Disclaimer: the story represented in this work does not represent Stray Kids in any way; anything described in this story and all actions performed by the characters are purely fictional, this was created just for good fun.
âWho are you?!â
Finding yourself being pulled into a stable at dawn was not something you expected to happen today when you decided to go on a walk, much less finding the person that had pulled you into said stable to be a man you didnât know.
âIâm sorry for the⊠Well, the unconventional method to get you to meet meâ, the man gave you an apologetic smile, and a short bow of his head. âMy nameâs Chan, Your Highness. I am a knight of Queen Naeelâs guard. Her Majesty sent me hereâ.
Your eyes widened at the mention of Naeelâs name, your guard lowering just slightly. Now that the initial fight or flight feeling wore off, you took your time to analyse the man in front of you. Chan was⊠A handsome young man. He was certainly built like a knight as far as you could tell, very broad, his stance ready for any sudden movement you could make.
You scanned his face for a moment, trying to find any semblance of a lie in his expression. A mess of brown curls on his head, warm brown eyes, a big nose, plump lips, and a scar going from his right eyebrow to the middle of his cheek were all the details you could focus on, his attire that of someone who had indeed prepared for a handful of months travelling from one realm to the other. Interesting⊠Definitely a handsome young man, but no semblance of lies just yet.
âHow do I know youâre telling the truth?âÂ
âI have this as proofâ, Chan reached for his pocket, taking out what looked to be a piece of cord and handing it over to you. âHer Majesty said that would be enoughâŠâ He sounded sceptical, and you couldnât blame him. The thing was composed of several different colours of ribbons tied together, the fabric worn down and the colours washed out from years and years of use, a single star charm tied to the middle. You knew he was telling the truth as soon as you saw it, since you kept an exact copy but with a sun charm around your ankle.
Queen Naeel and you had been friends for years. When you met, you were both tiny little princesses, your parents had taken you both to a grand ball in the realm that separated yours, a friendship that bloomed through correspondence and even more meet-ups as you grew up. You had not known platonic love until you got close to her, and to this day she was probably one of the few reasons why you were still breathing in the first place.
âWhy⊠Why are you here?â You eyed Chan carefully, your fist closing over the friendship anklet, shaking slightly in your tight hold.
âHer Majesty saidâand please forgive me, Your Highness, these were her exact wordsâthat she couldnât let you continue living with your bitch-ass fatherâ, Chan grimaced slightly, and you couldnât help but chuckleâyeah, that definitely sounded like her. âShe read your last letter and got worried, so she sent me to help you escapeâ.
You father⊠He was the king of your realm, a powerful man who had only ever known greed and lust. He resented your existence, it was something he never let you forget, he would remind you at any chance he got how your birth brought the death of âthe only woman he had ever lovedââsomething you doubted was true, as that man had proven time and time again that he was incapable of feeling any form of love.
As you grew up, your father kept showing more and more distaste towards you. You were just like any other girl, rowdy, adventurous, with a thirst for knowledge that could hardly be quenched by the numerous volumes in the royal library. âYou should be focusing on embroidery and all those things princesses do, not on riding those damn horses and getting all dirty in the royal gardensâ the worst part was that you did like those things, too. You loved embroidery and needlework, and you doubted other princesses didnât enjoy riding horses or climbing trees, there was no way you were any different from any other girl out there.
Your suspicions were confirmed the first time you finally met other princesses, the exposure to other girls your age finally cementing in you the fact that your father simply hated you. It didnât matter what you said or did, he would hate you regardless, so you stopped fighting him altogether, opting to keep your mouth shut when he spit his hateful words at youâit was a lost fight before it even started, after all.
By the time you were fifteen he had already remarried, his new wife birthing a son shortly after, finally displacing you from the picture completely. âWho wants a rude, daft princess when I finally have a prince of my own?â you heard him tell one of his advisors once, you wouldnât lie, the words stung, they hurt, and you spent days holed up in your room cryingânot like anyone cared much about it anyway, if anything, only your maids showed concern when you eventually had stopped eating. Your father, his council members, your step-mother, none of them really cared about you.
A sigh passed your lips as you looked at the anklet in your hand. âDo you even have a plan, or did my dear friend send you here on a whim?â Your friend could be very⊠Spontaneous, to put it simply. Some would even say she was a bit eccentric, but regardless of her odd ways, she had a strong sense of morality. If she believed something was wrong she would act immediately, âletâs just do it! We can always figure out the details later!â She would often say, which, judging by the sheepish smile on Chanâs lips, was probably exactly what she had told him before sending him here.
âIâve been trying to come up with something, but⊠Itâs my first time in your kingdom, to be honest, so I donât know my way around that wellâ, Chan simply shrugged. âBased on what Her Majesty has told me about you, though, I was hoping we could figure something out together, Your Highnessâ.
You figured it wouldnât be hard to leave, considering your presence was hardly ever noticed in the castle anyway. So, after informing Chan of an inn he could stay at for the next few days, you two began to plot your escape. You would have to travel for months, so your baggage had to be kept at a minimum, clothes only as necessary, money, a few toiletries you refused to let go of, and the odd knick-knack with sentimental value were the only things you thought you might need. Chan seemed to agree with you, but he stressed the importance of the right clothes to take with you, no dresses or gowns, only garments that wouldnât obstruct your mobility, and thick coats were a must since you were going to cross snowy mountains.
Throughout the next handful of days you set on the task to gather your supplies as inconspicuously as you could, getting them out of the castle in small batches to not attract suspicions. The thick coats were the first ones to go since they were the heaviest, you brought them to the inn Chan was staying at for safe keeping, and the rest soon followed, until five days later you were able to bundle everything neatly so you could strategically place it on your horse afterâa suggestion Chan gave you alleging that âitâll be easier for her if you distribute the weightâ, which made sense to you.
On your last day in your fatherâs castle, you gathered as many jewels as you could, as well as any gold and silver coins you had stashed away for safe-keeping throughout the years. Deep down, you had always had the idea of escaping, so you had saved up, even if you hardly ever entertained the idea. You never had the guts to go through with it because you knew you wouldnât have been able to make it on your own. Now, though, your best friend and her trusted knight had given you the support you needed, so you took it, finally releasing yourself from your fatherâs abusive grasp.
You wouldnât lie, your first week was hard. You hadnât realised how privileged you were. Sure, you had been emotionally and physically abused for years, but youâd always had food and shelter and comfort⊠The first night you had to camp out you could hardly get any sleep, the floor was uneven, and the noises of the night scared you. âDonât worry, princess⊠I got you. I wonât let anything happen to youâ Chan had gently offered when he saw your panicked expression after a particularly loud noise. And, in a way, that did comfort you a bit.
Chan⊠Chan was gentle, he was proper, and so well mannered⊠At least, he was when he talked to you. As the days went by, youâd catch glimpses of his other facets, particularly when he thought you werenât close enough to hear, and it intrigued you. When you two went to any tavern to get some sustenance, and youâd separate from him for one reason or another, you could hear him talk with the attendant, or with another customer, and it was as if he was a completely different personâor rather, a different version of himself. Looser, cheekier, and with a mouth that would put any sailor to shameâall that gone and replaced with his stoic, responsible, and sensible side as soon as you came close and he noticed your presence. It was fascinating, really. And you would lie if you said your curiosity hadnât been piqued.
You started to notice Chan loosen up around two weeks into your journey. His stance around you relaxed, heâd joke more, tease more, and it gave you a very diluted taste of that Chan you had secretly seenâand heardâtalking with anyone other than you. You tried your best to make him feel comfortable around you, but you also tried your best to press his buttons, to get him to react to you, to annoy him a bit.Â
You quickly found out that Chan liked to lead, to be in control, and oftentimesâin situations that werenât that seriousâyou enjoyed defying him, you enjoyed seeing the way his jaw clenched and his gaze shifted, almost, almost as if he wanted to put you in your place, but as soon as you saw that shift in him, you relented, hearing the shaky intake of breath and seeing the whiplash of his own emotions reflected in his eyes.
âHow far are we?â You asked out of curiosity as you absentmindedly pushed the bright embers with a stick.
âIâd say⊠We probably have a bit more than a month and a half to go, Your Highnessâ, Chan simply looked at the bonfire, at how you pushed the burning pieces around. âWhy? Are you not enjoying the super comfortable soil at night, princess?â There was a glint of a teasing tone in his voice, that bit of sarcasm that intrigued you, that piqued your interest, and it made you snort, such an un-princess-like reaction that you knew your father wouldâve punished you for as soon as he heard it.
âIâll take the forestâs soil every night if it means being away from that goddamned castleâ, you commented, taking the stick out of the fire and waving it in the air to put out the small flame that had clung to it. âOddly enough, sleeping on the ground feels more comfortable than being trapped within those wallsâ.
You could feel Chanâs eyes burning on your side profile, almost as if he was pondering while he scrutinised your face. There was usually distance between you and Chan, both physically and metaphorically, but tonight, as you sat thigh against thigh by the bonfire trying to keep yourselves warm, you could almost, almost feel how those reservations of his were diminishing slowly, but steadily.
âYour Highness, if I may⊠Why did Her Majesty send me to get you? What was happening in there with your father?â Chan surprised you when he asked such a personal question, and it was almost as if he could infer what happened, but he wanted to be certain of it, why he wanted to know, though, you werenât sure. âYou know how Queen Naeel can be, she didnât give me any details other than what I told you when we metâŠâ
Your eyes were fixed on the dancing flames in front of you as you took in a deep breath. âMy father⊠My father is a man that doesnât know love. He claims he does, but he doesnât. He blames me for my motherâs death, says that, had I not been growing in her, she wouldnât have died trying to bring me into this world. Stupid, isnât it? Blame me, who didnât ask to be brought here in the first place, while he himself put me in there. Heâs just mad she died not giving him a sonâ.
It was as if a dam broke, words falling out of your mouth endlessly with no way to stop them. You told him everything that had happened to youâmaybe in too much detail, youâd admit. You told him how your father treated youâor rather, mistreated youâhow you were ignored, treated as a lesser being in your own home, how you couldnât simply be you, you couldnât exist. Food was kept from you when you spoke out of line, you were confined to your chambers when you didnât behave as you were expected to, those workers that came too close to you would be discharged as soon as your father found out, and whenever you did anything your father deemed unworthy, not princess-like, not to his standards, heâd hit you. With a stick, with an iron rod, with his hands, with whatever he could reach at the time.
Chan listened intently to every single word that left your mouth, and you hadnât even realised you were crying until you felt his hand holding yours, the soft caress of his thumb on your knuckles easing the trembles you didnât even know were coursing through you.
âIâm⊠Iâm sorry, princessâ, was all he said as he held your hand.
âThereâs no need for thatâ, you hiccuped as you used your sleeve to wipe some of the tears on your face. âThe only one that should be sorry is him⊠And even then, Iâm not sure I would ever be able to forgive himâ.
âYou donât really have to, princessâ, Chan offered, his tone gentle. âThere are things in this world that canât be forgiven. The notion that we must forgive to heal our wounds is⊠Is not for everyone. Not in my opinion, at leastâ.
âI think thatâs a fair opinion to haveâ, you moved your gaze from where it was fixed on your joined hands so you could look him in the eyes. Chan was already looking at you, the light of the bonfire had his brown eyes almost sparkling, and you couldnât help but feel your breath catching in your throat under his heavy gaze. Using every bit of royal tricks you had, you put up your walls, trying to appear more collected than you were when you finally spoke again. âHave you done it before?â
Chan blinked slightly, almost as if your question had startled him. âDone what, Your Highness?â
âHeal without forgivingâ, your eyes jumped around his face, taking in his features, his lips, his nose, his eyes, his scar⊠Had he been sitting this close the entire time? You could practically count every individual eyelash, and if you were completely honest with yourself, it was quickening your heartbeat more than you would like to admit.
âI haveâ, Chan replied simply, his eyes seemed to be also taking in your features for a moment, until he finally let go of your hand, bringing it instead to his face, pointing to his scar. âBoth physically and emotionallyâ.
You wanted to inquire more, to learn the story behind the scar on his face, but before you could, Chan stood up from the ground, huffing an âanyway, you should sleep, Your Highnessâ, effectively ending the conversation.
Something shifted between you two that night. You had expected Chan to treat you differently, perhaps trying to act sympathetic around you, or trying to act as if he were walking on eggshells when he talked to you after you told him what had happened to you, what had been done to you. Instead, he just opened up more, showing you more of that other side of himânot fully, but just⊠More. And it dawned on you then that at that moment, Chan started to see you, to really see you. As a person, as a woman, not some entity, some mindless princess living the perfect royal life. Heâd joke even more, tease you even more, and heâd play along when you defied him, and it was fun.Â
âBe careful, princessâ, heâd tell you when you got a bit too close to the edge, when you had pressed his buttons a bit too much. âOr what? What are you going to do about it?â youâd taunt him, and sometimes, youâd catch his eyes moving around your face, resting on your lips for a fraction of a second, before they snapped back up and simply diverted the conversation. âI might have to leave you right here on your own, Your Highnessâ, heâd tell you with a teasing smile on his lips. You knew it was all talk, so you would always scoff at the comment.
It was odd, really, considering you hadnât known each other for long. But Chan truly made you feel safe, made you feel comfortable, and in a way, you hoped he felt that way around you, too, all things considered. Somehow, it was as if there was something lingering between you two, when you talked, when you stood close, you felt almost as if there were sparks flying around, a tension that would build the longer you spent time together, a tension that was not uncomfortable by any means, it was just⊠There, as if you both were just holding your breath, expectant, and it truly, truly intrigued you.Â
âWeâre going further up the mountains tomorrow, princessâ, Chan commented as you two sat on the stools of the innâs tavern, watching as the attendant took the empty plates in front of you. âI heard from a lad just a while ago that itâs snowing heavilyâŠâ
Your eyes lit up, your whole body perking up as you snapped your head in his direction, looking at him. âReally?â
Chan blinked slightly, confused. âYes? Thatâs not⊠Itâs not something good for us, Your Highnessâ, he finished off with a laugh, taking another sip of his drink.
âOh, it isnât?â Your shoulders slumped slightly, feeling bummed out now. âIâve just never seen snow beforeâ.
Chan looked slightly surprised. âNever ever?â
âNever. It doesnât snow where Iâm fromâ.
Chan just hummed, thoughtful. âGuess we might need to get a few more supplies, princessâ.
You rolled your eyes in annoyance, not because of the comment itself but because Chan kept on calling you âprincessâ or âYour Highnessâ, and now, it was really starting to annoy you. âItâs been over a month already, Chan. Stop referring to me by titleâŠâ
Chan simply chuckled, taking a long sip of his ale and licking his lips clean right after. âYou are a princess, Your Highness. I must address you as such. Iâm only a Knight, after allâ.
You hated the way he said that, as if he thought of himself as being below youâalthough you did want him below you sometimes, just in a more improper way. âIâm asking you not to, though. Isnât that enough for you?â
Chan looked at you for a moment, then back to his drink. âThis feels like a trap questionâŠâ
âCome on, if our roles were reversed, would you want me to continue calling you prince? Your Highness? Or would you want me to be comfortable around you? To be myself?â The question was pointed, and when Chan stared into your eyes right as you asked it, you could see something in them, an emotion you couldnât quite decipher.
âPrincessâŠâ It was his warning tone, the tone that he started to use when you were almost pressing his buttons too much. âI am myself around youâ.
You scoffed. âPlease, not even you believe thatâ, you couldnât help the sarcastic laugh at that, taking a sip of your drink.
âI am! At least, a more⊠Proper version of myself, I guessâ, he admitted. âThe me whoâs a knight. A knight of Queen Naeelâs Guard, and as such, I must address royalty appropriately. Come on, letâs go buy a few blankets, princessâ, Chan added as he stood up from his seat, gulping the rest of his drink in one go.
You hated that he continuously put that space between you two, because you didnât want it there, because, by the time you had finally made it to the snowy mountains, you were burning up from the inside out, and you wanted nothing more than for him to let go of those inhibitions.
âItâs coldâ, you dumbly commented as you both seeked shelter in the mountains, the snow under your horsesâ hooves crunching with every step they took.
You werenât that used to such low temperatures. not because you had any particular heating system in your fatherâs castle, but because your realm was of a much warmer climate all year round, so much so it was considered as if there were only two seasons there, rainy and drought, with constant warm temperatures.
âYou donât say, princessâ Chan snorted, pulling on the bridle gently to stop his horse. âI think this place will do. The horses need to rest and itâs getting darkâ.
It was an almost cave on the side of the mountain, big enough to fit you two and your two horses with some room to spare. It wasnât completely closed off so it wouldnât provide as much insulation as you wouldâve liked, but you had to make do.
Chan looked for a place to tie the equines securely so they wouldnât run away during the night, all while you set camp. Youâd learn how to actually do these things on this journey, a skill that you were now grateful to have. Had you made your escape without Chan, you wouldâve surely died the first night out there, unable to set a safe space for yourself. You could still remember the first time you tried to start a fire with the two pieces of flint, you had given up after the twentieth time, and Chan had offered you an encouraging âitâs all about practice, princess. Youâll get there eventuallyâ. And you got there, the fire in front of you starting with a single flick of the two stones together proof of that.
âWeâre only two weeks away from Queen Naeelâs realmâ, Chan commented once you had had supper, extending his hands towards the bonfire. âItâll be much easier to move once weâre there, probably three weeks in total for us to reach the castleâ.
You simply hummed in response, scooting closer to the fire. âI canât wait to see her, I really, really miss herâ.
âYou two are really good friends, arenât you? For Her Majesty to do something like thisâŠâ
âWe areâ, you could feel your teeth starting to chatter slightly, so you tried to wrap the blanket you had brought with you tighter around your body. âI love her deeply. And after this, I donât think Iâd ever be able to repay herâ.
Chan chuckled softly. âHer Majesty wouldnât expect you to repay her, Your Highness. But if youâre close, Iâm sure you knowâ.
âOh, I knowâ, you tried to get as close to the fire as you could, taking special care to not get your blanket on fire. âBut still. I wonât be able to repay her, nor you. Iâm really gratefulâ.
âI mean, it was a royal order, so itâs not like Iâm making art for artâs sake, princessâ, Chan snorted. âBut I must say, it isnât as difficult as I thought it was going to beâ.
âOh? Why? Did you expect a bratty little princess high on her horse? Or did you expect for the journey to be riddled with traps and schemes like in the classic novels they teach at school?â
You heard Chan mumble something, it was hard to hear but you couldâve sworn he had said something along the lines of ââŠa bit of a bratâ but before you could question it he was shaking his head slightly and speaking again. âHonestly, Iâm not exactly sure what I was expecting, but it certainly wasnât this, Your Highness. Youâve made it really easy. Youâre fun to talk with, even though youâre a princess and Iâm a simple knight, you treat me with real respect when weâre not joking around. Iâve had fun all throughout and, in a way, Iâm gratefulâ.
Oh? So he did enjoy when you pressed his buttons, interesting⊠You blinked slightly, at his words, a little shocked. After a few seconds, you scoffed, a smile settling on your lips. âHow silly. I am the one whoâs grateful hereâ.
âItâs not a competition, princessâ, Chan chuckled, standing up from where he was sitting by the bonfire to lay on the blanket you had laid for him on the floor. âYou should get some sleepâ.
You simply hummed in acknowledgement, but you didnât move. Truth was, you were freezing. You had also laid a blanket on the floor for you to lay on, but you figured that if you were freezing sitting right here by the fire, youâd die if you laid down on the blanket. So you sat there, as close as you could to the fire, wrapping the blanket over your body as tight as you could.
You werenât sure how much time had passedâfifteen, twenty minutes?â but you figured Chan was fast asleep already, since he was completely silent. You sat there, debating whether you should go to your other blanket on the floor, maybe pick it up and throw it over your body as well and sit here to try and get some heat from the bonfire. But you couldnât move, you were just too cold and moving from this spot sounded like the worst idea ever.
Suddenly, you felt hands on your body, holding your upper arms over the blanket you had around your form. You tensed slightly at the unexpected contact, turning your face to find a concerned looking Chan staring at you. âYouâre shivering, princessâ.
âIâmâIâm really coldâ, your whole face felt as if it was about to fall off, and it was truly not pleasant at all.
Chan moved away from you, picking up the blanket on the floor and wrapping it around you. It helped a bit⊠Emphasis on a bit, as you could still feel your teeth chattering slightly. He noticed, so he moved away again, grabbing his own blanket.
âDonât youâDonât you dareâ, was all you could muster, seeing as Chan stopped in his tracks with his blanket still in his hand. âYouâll freezeâ.
âYou clearly need it more than I do, Your Highness. Iâm used to this climate, youâre clearly notâ, he attempted to wrap his blanket around your form, but you stopped him, a rush of coldness reaching you as your arms left the safety of your cocoon. âYour Highnessââ
âLetâs just⊠Letâs just share, thenâ, you werenât thinking much when you said it, you just desperately wanted some warmth, you didnât think you could withstand this for much longer.
Chan looked apprehensive for a moment, until he finally nodded, guiding you from where you sat by the fire to the blanket he had been laying on previously. As soon as you laid down, he threw all remaining three blankets over your body, finally tucking himself in as well after you gave him a disapproving look when he looked like he was thinking of not doing it.
Soon enough, with the amount of blankets on top of you, and another human body next to you, you started to warm up. Chan wasnât really that close to you, there was a fair distance, but the blankets provided enough insulation for his body heat to spread over to you, which you couldnât help but let out a sigh of relief about.
âBetter?â Chan asked after a while as he was laying on his left side, turned to you.
âMuchâ, you were still cold, but not freezing cold, so it was a start. You would surely warm up completely eventually. âThank youâ.
âYouâre welcome. Now, sleepâ.
You laid there for a while, waiting to warm up further so you could comfortably fall asleep, hearing how Chanâs breathing evened out. Every time you had to sleep in a new setting, it took you a long time to get to sleep, be it for the hard terrain, the changes in temperature, or the noises around you, it always took you a long time, which translated into you tossing and turning more than you probably should with another person sleeping next to you.
At first you laid on your back, then you moved towards Chan, but you couldnât help your eyes from staying open and focusing on his handsome face, so you laid on your back again, only to turn away from him and lay on your left side. You repeated the motions a few times, your coat coming undone in the process, opening and leaving your front exposed-save for the shirt below it, of course. Thankfully the heap of blankets provided enough warmth that you didnât really need to close it again.Â
As you continued to sporadically toss and turn, you couldnât help but come to the realisation that you were literally sharing your sleeping space with Chan. Somehow, that realisation made you warm up quicker, made you even more restless, which honestly was not what you needed right now. What if you inadvertently pressed yourself to him while you slept? Sure, you were attracted to him but you didnât want to make him uncomfortable, much less if you didnât know how he felt about the entire thing. He was still, after all, putting that space between you two.
You continued your almost struggle with yourself, with finding a comfortable position to sleep, until Chan suddenly moved, his arm wrapping around you and his hand holding onto your ribs, effectively stopping your movement. An annoyed huff passed his lips, the heat of his palm just shy away from your breast kick-starting your heartbeat. âStop moving so much, princess. Iâm trying to sleepâ, the low tone of his voice so close to your ear sent a shiver down your spine, you just couldnât help it, and you had to shut your eyes tightly, swearing at yourself for getting yourself in this situation.
Your senses were on high alert, suddenly aware of the lack of space between your bodies, Chan was not fully pressed to you, but one push and he could be⊠He could very well be flush to your back, the thought now worming into your brain, playing on a maddening loop and why wouldnât he just move his hand a bit further upâŠ?
âIâm trying to get comfortableâ, could he feel your racing heart against his palm as he held you? There was no way he couldnât, but you were still proud of the evenness in your voice, as if you were not burning from the inside out from your sinful thoughts and the mere feel of his hand on you.
âWeâre laying on the ground under a dent on the side of a mountain, Your Highness. Sorry to say, but I donât think youâll find any comfort tonightâ, Chan let out an amused chuckle, his words coming out as barely a whisper.
âIâm missing the inn we stayed at last nightâŠâ You commented absentmindedly. Your mind was too focused on Chanâs hand on your ribs, his hold firm, but gentle, succeeding at keeping you from shuffling too much and Gods why wouldnât he just move it up?
âAlmost two months of travelling and youâve already let your standards dip this low, huh princess?â Chan shuffled a bit, getting more comfortable, you presume. Was he closer now? You couldnât tell. There was still a fair bit of space between your bodies, space that the more you felt his warm palm on you the more you wished it didnât exist.
âBeggars canât be choosers, isnât that what they say?â What if you pushed yourself to him? Would he like that? Or would you overstep some boundary if you did? Chan was unmarried, you knew that much, and sometimes you saw the way his eyes looked at you, the way they settled on your lips longer than what was conventionally appropriate, the way he leaned forward just a bit only to step back and smile at you, the way his hands would linger on your skin whenever he had to touch you⊠Or had you imagined it? âThatâs whatâs brought us here, cuddled up under these blankets, barely even sheltered by the mountainsideâ.
âThis can hardly be considered cuddling, Your Highnessâ, there was a glint of amusement in Chanâs words, you could almost hear the smile on his lips as he said it.
Chanâs hand started to move, painfully slow, retreating carefully from your frame so it could go back to lay wherever he had been keeping it before placing it on your body. You couldnât let that happen, not now that you knew how having the weight of his hold on you felt like. Maybe the cold had effectively killed every single one of your brain cells, all reason slipping from you as your hand shot to his quickly before he got to remove it from you completely, tugging on itâthe sudden movement catching Chan off guard, making his chest press against your upper back with the motions.
You heard it.Â
You heard the way his breath caught in his throat at the contact, and the sound fuelled your impulsive actions, so you placed his hand right back where it was on your ribs, if only a bit further up, almost, almost touching the underside of your breast. âWe need to fix that thenâ, cuddling wasnât exactly what you had in mind right now, but it was a start.
Chan didnât move away, he didnât talk, you doubt he was barely even breathing, at least for a moment. There was silence for a bit, until you heard the shaky inhale, feeling the exhale against your nape right after. âPrincess⊠What are you doing?â His tone was tentative, checking the waters for what might be appropriate to say or not, just like he often did.
âIâm not doing anythingâ, you couldnât help the smile that crept onto your lips as you lied through your teeth.
âBullshitâ, youâd truly only ever heard Chan swear when he thought you werenât close by to hear, and even then he was usually so far away it barely even felt like it was him talking. Now, you had finally heard it clear as day against your ear, and it shouldnât have affected you, but it didâyour thighs pressing a bit closer together to ease a bit of that ache that was steadily building between your legs.
Chan didnât make any attempts to move, not closer nor away from you. You could feel his chest rise and fall against your back in short spurts, and you knew you had caught his attention with your stunt. Maybe the cold had truly killed your reason. âWhat if I am doing something, though?â Your voice was barely a whisper, but you could hear a pin drop in the silence that surrounded you, so you knew he was listening.
You heardâand feltâhis deep intake of breath, the thumb of the hand you kept pressed to your ribs moving ever so slightly, back and forth, back and forth, slowly, each stroke almost touching the underside of your breast. âI shouldnâtâŠâ
âYou donât sound too convincedâ.
âIâm notâ, he admitted immediately, almost as if the words had escaped from a place deep within him where they had been contained. âYou⊠Youâre a princess, Your Highnessâ.
âAnd? I told you my story, my title has brought nothing but despair and desolation to my life. Besides, Iâm running away from my land, I wouldnât be surprised if the King has revoked it alreadyâ.
Silence fell between you two, but your positions didnât change, nor did the movement of Chanâs thumb on you stop. The more the silence stretched out, the more unsure you started to feel, insecurity creeping into every secluded area of your mind.
âUnless you⊠Unless Iâm making you uncomfortable. You can say that, too, if thatâs what this is, and Iâll stopâ.
Chan chuckled softly behind you, the sound almost incredulous. âI must be a better actor than I thought if you think you are making me uncomfortableâ, he went silent for a bit, until his upper body shuffled a bit closer to you, fully pressing his chest to your back as his lips came close to your ear. âThe only uncomfortable thing right now, princess, is my traitorous cock straining my pantsâ.
Your breath hitched in your throat, your thighs further pressing together, an involuntary reaction upon Chanâs confession. Encouraged by his words, you held his hand tighter, dragging it further up so he could finally cup your breast, a shaky exhale passing your lips as his hand groped you as soon as you had placed it there.
âFuckâŠâ Chanâs lips attached to your neck, leaving kisses and licks wherever he could while his hands grew bolder, dragging to your other breast to provide it with as much attention as the other, gently teasing your nipples over your shirt. âIs this why you were tossing and turning so much? Because you were thinking of me touching you like this?â
âI wasâWas truly trying to get comfortableâŠâ Any time his lips pressed on your skin, you felt a jolt of excitement spark from the spot and shoot straight down to your core, your clenching thighs doing absolutely nothing to ease the ache that continued to build between your legs. You needed him. You needed Chan to touch you without barriers, you needed to feel as much of his skin on you as you could. âChanâŠâ
âFuckâ, his hand shot down from your breast to cup you over your trousers, pulling you to him so your rear was flush to his crotch. You couldnât help the whine that escaped you as you felt him, hard and warm, grinding slowly against you, with his hand still on your mound. âIf you keep making those sounds, if you keep saying my name like that⊠Iâll do something you might regret in the morningâ.
You pushed further into him, your bum dragging over his crotch, making him swear under his breath. âDo itâ.
His hand moved, slipping past the waistband of your trousers, under your underwear for his fingers to find your slit. âShit, so wet and Iâve barely even touched you, princessâ, coating his fingers in your essence he brought them up to your clit, rubbing teasing circles on your skin, moans catching in your throat as you bit your lower lip to dampen the sounds.
âChan⊠A bitâbit softerâ.
Chanâs fingers complied, adjusting the pressure of his slow movements on you. âMmm, like this?â
âGo up a biâOh, shitâŠâ
A soft chuckle passed Chanâs lips, raising goosebumps on your nape as he mumbled against your skin. âSwearing, princess? Such a dirty mouth⊠I wonder what else it can doâ.
âYouâŠâ Swallowing thickly, you gathered your thoughts, the slow, almost teasing movement of his fingers on your clit making your head spin. âYouâd be surprisedâ
âIâm sureâ, his pace picked up, your legs parting enough to give him more space to manoeuvre, holding onto his forearm for dear life as your breathing became more and more laboured. âIâve been⊠Been thinking of doing this, princess. Of touching you, kissing you⊠I know I shouldnât have, but I wasâ.Â
âBeen⊠Been thinking about you, tooâŠâ You could feel heat spread on your face the more he worked you up, his lips on your skin aiding the movement of his fingers on building and building and building your impending orgasm. The slow grind of his hips against your rear was maddening, the feel of his hard length on your bum suddenly making you feel empty, the need to have him in you growing exponentially with each swipe of his fingers on your clit.
âSpread your legs further, lay it over my thighâ.
You did as asked, right as Chan pushed his knee between your legs for you to move them further apart and give him more space for his fingers to dip from your clit to your entrance, his ring and middle finger entering you with ease, a shameless moan escaping your mouth at the sudden feeling of fullness. You were sure it wouldnât be as fulfilling as his cock, but it would do for now.
 âGuide me, princessâ, Chan whispered against your ear, his tone confident, but slightly urgent, his lips brushing your skin with every syllable. âTell me how you like to be touched hereâ.
âBit more towards the entrance⊠More⊠HarderâŠâ
Chan adjusted his fingers to follow your direction, prodding your walls until he finally found the spot you were guiding him to. Your sigh of relief did not go unnoticed, an amused chuckle falling from Chanâs lips as the movement of his fingers inside of you picked up, his palm lightly stimulating your clit. âYouâre fucking dripping all over my fingers⊠You have really been wanting this, havenât you? Shit, I bet if it werenât for these many layers of fabric we could hear the wet sounds as my fingers go in and out of youâŠâ
âShitâŠâ The faster he moved, the more you cursed, your moans and whines becoming more and more frequent. Desperation started to cling to you, your hips rolling to chase his fingers as well as to rub yourself against his crotch, your walls clenching around him the further that familiar knot in your stomach tightened. You needed your release, and you needed it now. âChan⊠I needâWant toâŠâ
âCome on, princess. Give it to me. I got you, remember? I got you. Let me hear you come for meâŠâ
Your vision blurred, the knot in your lower belly unravelling as your climax hit you after a few more flicks of his fingers against your walls, letting warmth spread within your body in its wake. You might have moaned out his name as you did, you couldnât tell, your senses momentarily shut off, completely overcome by the entire feeling.
Chan removed his fingers from your core, his hand dragging out of your underwear spreading the remnants of your release on your skin as it went, sneaking under your shirt and settling on your lower belly, softly kneading your flesh. âIâm fucking ruined, princessâ, his lips pressed kisses on your skin between words, making you flush further. âHow can I go back to acting normal around you now that I know you can moan so prettily for me?â
You were still panting, your nerve endings still on fire, but that didnât stop you from turning around, finally coming face to face with Chan. The full moon and the barely lit bonfire provided enough light for you to make out the features of his face, to see his eyes scanning your face intently. âIâm sure we can figure something outâ, taking a hold of the collar of his coat you pulled him to you, crashing your lips with his, a surprised yelp escaping Chanâs throat with the action, surprised as if he had not just had his fingers in your cunt, as if he had not just coaxed a mind-numbing orgasm out of you.
As soon as the initial shock passed, he sprung into action, his tongue making its way into your mouth to hungrily push against yours. His hands found purchase on your bum, eagerly groping you as you palmed his crotch, firmly pressing against his length, the action making Chan bite your lower lip with a grunt and his hips buck forward.
You wasted no time undoing his coat, unbuckling his belt, unbuttoning his trousers, and pulling his zipper down, finally slipping your hand in his underwear to get a feel of him all while you continued to devour his mouth. Chan was warm and heavy in your hand, the sensation making you feel dizzy with all the chaotic thoughts that suddenly started to roam freely in your mindâhow he would feel in your mouth, how heavy he would feel on your tongue, how he would stretch your cunt open, how he would fill you upâŠ
âShow me how you like itâ, you mumbled against his lips as your fingers wrapped around him, your thumb spreading the fluids spilling from his tip around his head, aiding you to give a couple tentative pumps to his cock.
âShit⊠Spit on your hand, princess. Make it feel as if it were your warm, wet cunt on meâ.
Chan truly was swearing a lot, you had heard him before, but you werenât prepared. The contrast of his usual way of addressing you and this had your head spinning. Seeing him and hearing him lose himself enough to let his mouth run freely was immensely gratifying, and you wanted nothing more than to continue to hear him let himself go like this.Â
So you did as asked, ungracefully spitting on your hand so you could wrap it around him once again. Somewhere in the back of your mind you could remember your father reprimanding you when you were little for spittingâ âproper ladies do not spit, much less princesses. Thatâs something only peasants doâ. To his standards, proper ladies surely didnât let knights from other lands finger them on the mountains, yet here you were.
âTighterâ, Chan whispered against your lips, bringing his hand to join yours around his length, helping you tighten your grip around him to his liking. âFuck, yeah⊠Just like thatâ, his hand moved from yours so he could grope your breast instead, while the other pulled the hem of his shirt further up his torso to not get soiled by his fluids. You took advantage of that, placing your free hand on his abdomen to feel his soft skin under your palm, feeling his muscles clenching ever so slightly the more you worked his cock, the more you touched his bare skin.
Removing your hand from his length briefly, you spit on it again to further lubricate him as soon as your hand resumed its motions. His hips bucked, fervently chasing your hand, the movement producing obscene squelching sounds that had Chan grunting against your mouth.
You both had gotten under these blankets however long ago cold as a sealâs bum, it was still snowing out of your makeshift shelter, but the second Chanâs hands had touched your bare body the temperature started to rise. Now, as his hips continued to thrust into your grip and your lips eagerly moved against one another, sweat collected on the back of your neck, the warmth and heat produced by your bodies completely all-consuming.
It was getting harder to breathe, your lips moving from his to attach to his neck instead, pressing kisses there as you tried to get some air into your lungs. âFuck, you couldâyou could make me blow like thisâ, Chan was breathless, his chest heaving the faster you moved your hand around his length, focusing now all your attention on his tip.
âThatâs the planâ, Chan had wanted to hear you come earlier, and now you wanted to hear him come for you, too.
Groans and grunts fell from his mouth, albeit slightly muffled as Chan bit his lower lip to dampen the sound. As you continued to lick and kiss his neck you could hear him mumble, something akin to âfucking ruinedâŠâ while his hips started to move faster, fucking your hand to chase his own release.
Chan tilted his body slightly, a warning passing his lips as he held his shirt higher and as he tried to create some space between you two and the blankets over you. With a few more pumps of your hand he finally came undone, his release spilling from his tip and landing all over his abs as a drawn out groan fell from his mouth.
âShit, what a messâŠâ
âI got youâ, you reached your free hand out of the mess of fabric on top of you towards the bag resting above your heads, blindly rummaging its contents until you found the handkerchief you kept in there.
You did your best to clean him up, using the last bit of dry fabric after to wipe your hand while Chan buttoned up his trousers again. It was really warm under the blanket, but you knew that if you removed yourself any further from here youâd freeze in record time, so you stayed putâChan clearly having a similar thought.
Silence fell for a while between you two, you could see Chan looking at the ceiling of the cave, a hand in his hair softly massaging his scalp and lightly tugging on the strands between his fingers as he seemed to mull something over. The fact that he seemed to be making a conscious effort to not look at you made you feel anxious all of a sudden. Was he regretting what just happened? You didnât regret it one bit, if anything, this felt like just an appetiser, something to mildly ease your hunger until you could finally stuff yourself full.
âPrincessâŠâ His voice startled you, but you turned to look at him regardless, finding him already eyeing you, almost tentatively. âIâm gonna⊠Gonna kiss you now, yeah?â
He sounded⊠Nervous? Almost as if he thought you wouldnât let him. You couldnât help but scoff at the thought. âKiss meâ.
His lips were on yours before you could even finish saying âmeâ, soft, tired pecks against your lips, his arms pulling you further into him for your head to lay on his arm while one of his legs slotted between yours, keeping you close. âIâm truly, truly ruinedâ, he mumbled against your lips, his hand coming to hold your hip. âRoyally fuckedâŠâ
âThatâd be two of us, thenâ, you pressed kisses back on his lips as you spoke, your hand coming to play with the hair on the back of his head as his thumb drew patterns on your hip. âIs this now cuddling enough for your standards?â
A soft chuckle fell from Chanâs lips, giving you another kiss as his hold on you tightened. âNow it is. Before it was just me trying not to rub myself on you the second we got under these blanketsâ.
Chan pulled back slightly, just enough to look you in the eyes. Sneaking his hand from your hip to your bum, he squeezed your buttcheek, the motion making you hike your leg up his torso, pulling him even closer to you. âStill cold?â
You shook your head, and Chan simply leaned in, pressing a kiss to your lips briefly, accentuating his next words with a tight squeeze to your bum. âYouâre not gonna get rid of me now, princess. As soon as we make it to the next inn and I get you on a bed Iâm gonna make you all mineâ.
You chuckled softly, leaning in to press a loud kiss to his lips. âIâll hold you to thatâ.
As Chan held you, softly caressing your back, your bum, your thigh, and with the aftereffects of your orgasm still pumping through your veins, you finally fell asleep.Â
The next morning you woke up as soon as the first rays of sunlight touched your closed lids. Once you regained your senses enough you could feel warmth all over you, and you realised then that Chan was clinging to your frame, holding you so tightly in his arms you could hardly breathe. You tried to wake him up, gently caressing his back and softly murmuring his name. Your attempts only made him whine, musing a sleepy âfive more minutesâŠâ before he nuzzled his face in the crook of your neck.
All you did was chuckle softly, threading your fingers in his hair to massage his scalp, eliciting a satisfied hum against your neck. Just as you had not been prepared for Chanâs unfiltered swearing, you had also not been prepared for this facet of Chan, the clingy, touchy Chan. Even as you broke camp, he remained as close to you as he could, with his hands on you as much as he could, touching you, hugging you, even kissing you. A completely different demeanour from the one he sported when you had gotten into that almost-cave the night before.
And you retaliated, of course. With your own touches, with your own words, with your own mouth, finally able to physically display your feelings. When Chan bent over to pick up the last bundle of blankets so he could strap it up to his horse, you were presented with an opportunity, something you had wanted to do for so long but you hadnât dared. Now, though, you could. You could indulge, so you did, reaching to him and pinching one of his buttcheeks. Chan stilled for a moment, but he resumed his movements almost immediately after, regarding you with a smirk as he finished his task.
Just as you were about to hop on your horse, you felt his hand on your rear, gripping the flesh tightly as his free hand cupped your cheek, bringing your mouth to his, stealing the air out of your lungs with his heated kiss. All you could do was whine as you brought your hand to his nape to attempt to pull him impossibly closer to you. It was truly exhilarating, feeling Chanâs warmth all over you as he kissed you, his tongue feeding the fire in the pit of your stomach, and his, too, if the hardness you felt against your belly was anything to go by.
Finally, letting go of your buttock, Chan landed a harsh smack on your rear, making you simultaneously gasp and laugh, completely in disbelief. Chan simply shrugged, alleging âyou get your fun, so itâs only fair I get mine, tooâ before he helped you get on your horse, moving to mount his as soon as you were seated.
Once you both left your former campsite behind, and got back on the trail, you couldnât help but ask, âso, how long until we reach some civilization?â
âProbably a day, or half a day if there are no eventualitiesâ, Chan offered. âWhy, princess? Wanna get fucked that badly?â You could practically hear the smirk on his face as he talked, and you couldnât help but scoff, incredulous. Oh, how you liked this side of Chan, tooâŠ
âOh, I do want to get fuckedâ, you heard Chan laugh next to you, seemingly also in disbelief at your honesty. âBut, Iâm asking because Iâm truly curious, besides, I figured since you already had your fingers in my cunt, might as well stop being all mysterious and tell me more about yourself on our way thereâ.
Chan chuckled, but he humoured you regardless. It wasnât as if Chan hadnât told you things about himself before, he had told you enough to intrigue you, to want to inquire more on his life, and you had managed to gather a few things here and there just by looking at him, just by the way he did things, said things, or the way he carried himself. So, as you continued your journey, hearing him tell you about his humble up-bringing, about his family, about his knighthood, steadily satisfied some of that curiosity you had towards him.
You learnt that Chan had two younger siblings, and his parents were still alive. His mother worked as a seamstress, while his dad was also a knight in the Queenâs Guard, âit was almost a given that I would take the oath as well and follow my fatherâs steps. And honestly, so far I havenât regretted itâ, he commented as soon as he mentioned his fatherâs profession.Â
You learnt that he lived on his own, and that on his âhardly existent time offâ as he put it, he enjoyed hanging out with his small group of friends, playing bocce, or going out to eat, or going out for drinks. âIâd say Iâm a very simple man, princess. Boring, evenâ, he added with a chuckle. âBut what about you, though? Other than, you know, the thing with your father⊠What do you do to keep yourself entertained? Youâre adept in embroidery, right?â
You had told Chan in passing once when you were camping in the woods that you liked to embroider to keep your mind off of things, you were honestly surprised he remembered such a mundane detail. âI mean, Iâm not sure if adept is the word to use, but yes. Iâm fairly into needlework in generalâŠâ
You told Chan you enjoyed playing draughts, how you used to play it a lot with the maids that got close enough to you, or even with Queen Naeel when you two would meet. âIâd like to try new things though, things that I wasnât allowed to do. See if I can find anything that brings me joy, I want to have funâŠâ
Your conversation flowed like this, smoothly, seamlessly. Slowly but surely peeling layers and layers of yourself and showing them to Chan, just as he did the same. It honestly felt almost the same as before, you had never truly been uncomfortable speaking with Chan, on the contrary, he was quite enjoyable to talk to, but now, with no barriers between you both, it all just felt⊠Easy, soothing.
By the time night fell you had found yourselves in a small town close to the base of the mountain. An excited âholy shit, hot springs!â leaving Chanâs lips as soon as he spotted the many signs, and you couldnât help the sigh of relief as he said it, the cold was truly not something you could withstand for much longer, so hot springs sounded like heaven at that moment.
As soon as your horses were secured and sheltered, you made your way to the attached inn, finding the attendant with ease for Chan to confidently ask for one room. Taking both of your belongings, he urged you to go to the hot springs, âyou must be freezing. Iâll take these up, and we can meet later for supper once weâve warmed up, yeah?â An offer you gladly took.
The warm water eased the tremors that had started to course through you when the sun was no longer providing any heat as you travelled. A couple of old ladies engaged in conversation with you while you bathed, their presence was comforting in a way, they were nice and provided you with some company as you scrubbed your body clean. But even if they were nice, you did try your best to keep your body underwater, or to always face in their direction, not wanting to attract too much attention to your back.
When you warmed up enough and felt clean enough, you made your way to the tavern area of the inn, ordering some drinks and securing a table by the corner. Chan joined you shortly after, with a towel still draped over his head and a bright smile on his face making his dimples pop and his eyes almost disappear into crescents, and you simply couldnât help the flutter in your heart at the sight.
The food was surprisingly decent, better than the last few inns you had stayed at throughout your journey. You heard from the attendant that the place was quite popular among travellers, mostly due to the hot springs, and you could understand that completely. You and Chan took your time eating, and even after your food was finished, you stayed there for a while, a relaxed aura settling between you two as you simply enjoyed each otherâs company, drinking, talking, flirtingâŠÂ
However, as soon as you made it to your room, as soon as the door closed behind you two, it was almost comical how fast Chan made his move, pinning you to the closest wall he could find as his lips connected with yours, kissing you with force, with want. Gripping your thigh, he hiked it on his hip as one of his legs slotted between yours, his thigh adding just the tiniest bit of pressure against your heat, making you moan and whine against his mouth.
You liked kissing Chan, you truly did, but right now, as your hips rolled to get some stimulation from his thigh between your legs and both your hands and his held and groped anywhere they could on the otherâs body, you just couldnât wait anymore. So you untangled your legs from his and pushed him towards the bed as you continued to kiss.
With one final push on his shoulders, Chan sank, sitting on the edge of the bed for you to climb on his lap and straddle him, cupping his cheeks to pull his mouth to yours once again almost immediately after. He grunted as soon as you lowered yourself fully on his lap, his hands roaming your body, fondling your hips, your thighs, your back⊠All as you quickly worked the buttons of his shirt, swiftly unbuttoning each one so you could finally get a full feel of him.
âDonât be alarmedâŠâ Chan mumbled against your lips as soon as you unbuttoned the last button of his shirt.
You pulled back from his lips and looked him in the eyes. Chan looked almost⊠Apprehensive as you looked back at him. Slowly, you brought your hands into his open shirt, feeling his abs, his pecks, reaching his shoulders. You could feel his heated skin under your fingertips, every dip, every curve, but most importantly, you could feel every raised bump that seemingly didnât belong there, and as soon as you slid the shirt off of his shoulders and moved your eyes from his to take in the sight of his bare skin, you understood why he had given you a warning, why he asked you to not be alarmed.
Chan was well built, broad, fair skinned, all defined muscles that flexed and relaxed under your touch, but by far the most distinctive feature of his physique, were the numerous scars littering his body. They were everywhere, on his chest, on his arms, his abs, you wouldnât be surprised if they covered his back and his legs, too. Chan simply looked back at you, expectant as you took in his form. Youâd lie if you say you werenât surprised by the sight; sure, he had a scar on his face, but that paled in comparison now to the amount of scars on his torso. Deep, superficial, keloids, faint marks, it was all an assortment of different textures and shades of his skin tone and there was no way you could just⊠Not notice them.
Your hands moved, tentatively, slowly, tracing the many different shapes, feeling each of his intakes of breath with your touch. You didnât know how long you sat there just touching him, but finally, you settled your palms on his pecks, shamelessly feeling him up as your eyes fixed on your hands and you tilted your head slightly to the side. âChan, you⊠Youâre really handsomeâ, you emphasised your words with a squeeze on his pecks, which made him huff an incredulous laugh. âIâm not alarmedâ, you turned your gaze back up to meet his, looking him right in the eyes. âIâm just⊠Curiousâ.
Chan just hummed, his hands moving from your thighs to hold your hips. âIâve been in a lot of⊠Altercations. Some related to my knighthood, some⊠Not so muchâ.
âWill you ever tell me the stories?â Removing your hands from his chest, you proceeded to unbutton your own shirt, slowly, leisurely flicking every single button open until you could finally shrug it off of you, leaving your torso completely exposed.Â
âOnly if you have a few hours to spare to listen to themâ, Chan took in the sight of your bare chest, you could literally see the moment his eyes zeroed in on your breasts, growing impossibly darker. Youâd let him have his fun, but there was something more important you wanted to do, or at least, to show him. So you took his hands from where they were fondling your hips, his hold relenting immediately as you brought them to your lower back, pressing his palms against your skin.
âFeel themâ, was all you told him, a look of confusion crossed his face briefly, but his hands moved regardless, slowly moving up the expanse of your back, that look of confusion quickly replaced with that of shock, his eyes going wide and his eyebrows rising high in surprise, only to scrunch with concern right after.Â
How could you be alarmed about something you yourself carried with you every day of your life, too? Chanâs fingertips traced every single dip, every single bump, every single scar on your back, all as he looked deeply into your eyes, all as you got lost in his eyes as well. âMy father was a monster, but he wasnât stupid. Heâd only leave his mark where he knew no one else could see, not unless I let them see them, at leastâ, you offered, shuddering slightly under Chanâs featherlight touch.
You would usually hide your marks pretty well, always told your lovers you liked the thrill of getting intimate with clothes on, that it added a sense of obscenity to the entire thing. Truth was, you simply didnât want to deal with the looks they could give you, or to explain anything to anyone, mostly out of fear of what would happen if you spoke up against your father. Chan already knew, though. He knew what youâd been through and he had shown you his own scars, so there was no point in hiding them, no point when you could see in his eyes no semblance of judgement or disgust towards you, if anything, all you could see was fire, burning brighter the longer he looked at you, the longer he explored and touched you.
In his exploration, his hand found the back of your head, pulling down to crash your lips with his. Chanâs kiss was urgent, loaded, all passion and fire overflowing into you with each grunt, each groan. His hands brought you closer, bare chest against bare chest sharing your warmth as your fingers threaded in that mess of brown curls of his, tugging him impossibly closer to you while your tongues pushed against one another. It was both suffocating and freeing, stealing the air out of your lungs while simultaneously filling you with life.
The second your hips started to move, grinding against his hardened length his grip on your body tightened, his hands roughly palming your thighs, your hips, your rear, anywhere he could reach without breaking the contact of your chest against his, almost as if he wished to continue enjoying that feeling of warmth of your bare skin against one another.Â
You felt yourself moving, Chanâs hands keeping you firmly in place as he stood up and manoeuvred your bodies so you could lay on the bed with him on top of you, right between your legs. Pulling away from your lips, he rested his weight on his hands, looking down at you just as you looked up at him. He took his time, just scanning the features of your face for a while until his eyes moved, taking in the sight of your bare upper torso, his eyes moving almost frantically as if he didnât know where to look first. And you let him, mostly because you were also doing the same, taking in his breathtaking features, taking in every bump on his skin.
âI havenât done this in a whileâ.
Chan surprised you by saying that. He didnât look particularly ashamed or bashful or anything, he just looked⊠Serious. And somehow, it made you chuckle. âCouldâve fooled meâ.
âDonât wanna fool you, thoughâ, a smirk crept onto his lips as he lowered himself on his elbows. His lips found yours, one of his arms sneaking under your neck for you to rest on it as his opposite hand found your thigh, pulling you to him so you could hold onto him. Chan rolled his hips, letting you feel him, hard and warm right at the apex of your thighs, making you moan into his mouth.Â
Suddenly, Chan moved, rolling to the side and moving your body along for you to now straddle his hips, the motion earning a surprised yelp from your lips. His mouth trailed open mouthed kisses from your lips, to your chin, your neck, your collarbones while his hands roamed your back, all as you shuddered under his touch.
âGoodâŠâ you gulped the saliva that had collected in your mouth, feeling as Chanâs lips finally found their way to your breasts, kissing everywhere but where you wanted him most. âChanâŠâ You didnât mean to sound that needy, that urging, but that was how your call of his name came out, and honestly, you didnât care if you sounded desperate, because you were.
âShh, donât be so impatient, princess. Let me enjoy you for a bit, thereâs no need to hurryâ, Chan mumbled against your skin as his hands came to cup your breasts, squishing them together to create the perfect space for him to dive his face into with an appreciative hum, his thumbs coming to graze your nipples, his touch so featherlight it was almost as if he was teasing you, giving you a small taste of what you could feel and it was steadily filling you with anticipation.Â
A shaky gasp escaped your lips as you felt Chanâs lips suck on the tender skin of one of your breasts, leaving a purple mark right as he gently pinched both of your nipples between his fingers. âIs this okay?â his mouth barely even moved away from your skin as he talked, and you nodded, only for Chan to lightly tweak your nipples, the barely there stimulation sending a shiver down your spine. âWords, darlingâ.
âYesâŠâ You gulped, looking down at him right in the eyes as you spoke. âItâsâItâs okayâ.
Chan simply hummed, satisfied with your answer. So his lips returned to your breasts, sucking purple roses on the delicate skin all as both of his hands worked in unison to tweak and twist and pinch your sensitive buds, the combined stimulation eliciting quiet moans to spill from your lips. You felt yourself heating up further the longer he spent working your chest, touching you, marking you, and it was right as you were close to begging that you finally felt his tongue, landing tentative swipes against one of your nipples for him to finally suck it into his mouth.
âOh, thatâs goodâŠâ your fingerâs tangled in Chanâs hair, tugging the strands gently. Chan hummed, sneaking his free hand to your rear, holding one of your buttocks tightly as his mouth and his hand continued to work you up. You hadnât realised you had started to move until you felt him buck up into you, your hips slowly grinding against his, feeling his hardened length against your core, providing you with that relief youâd been desperate for even with the fabric that still separated your flesh.
Chanâs hand on your rear tightened, almost urging you to move faster, to move harder against the outline of his cock, and the moment you felt his teeth graze the sensitive skin of your nipple you couldnât help but do just that, moaning from all the different sensations that completely clouded your senses. His mouth on you, his hands on you, his hardness under you, all combined sent sparks of pleasure everywhere within you, kindling that fire in the pit of your stomach, burning brighter with each roll of your hips against him.
Once Chan was satisfied with his work on your nipple, his mouth moved to the other, his hands switching positions to continue with the same treatment as before, one holding your other breast, stimulating your nipple and the other gripping your rear as tight as he could. You knew you were too far gone the moment you looked him in the eyes again, seeing his lustful, almost greedy stare looking back at you with his lips attached to your breast, so your hips sped up, chasing that feeling that was building between your legs the more you ground yourself against his hardness, and before you knew it, you were coming, trembling as heat spread within every crevice of your body, as your mind clouded with only bliss and pleasure and Chan.
âFuck, fuck, waitâŠâ You mumbled, breathless, firmly tugging on Chanâs hair to get him to detach his mouth from your nipple. âToo much, sensitiveâŠâ
Chan chuckled softly, moving his mouth to press kisses on your neck as he removed his hand from your breast, too, moving it to join the other to fully cup your rear. âEnjoyed yourself?â His mouth found the skin behind your ear, pressing a kiss there, only to move along and take your earlobe between his teeth, tugging gently, making you swear under your breath with the action. âCouldnât even wait, huh? Had to use me as your mount to get off?â
You simply shook your head, taking in deep breaths. âCouldnât waitâ, was all you said, completely shameless. âNot when you looked so good with my tits in your mouthâ, your lips were on his in an instant, muffling Chanâs groan as you kissed him, relishing the taste of his tongue on yours and the tightening of his hold on your rear, whether the action was due to the motions of your kiss or the impact of your words, you didnât know.
Resting your weight on your knees and separating your hips from Chan, your hands trailed down his torso until they found the waistband of his trousers. âOffâ, you mumbled against Chanâs mouth, giving him enough space to manoeuvre and remove the offending piece of clothing, his underwear coming off with it, leaving him completely bare for your curious eyes to admire.
Just as you imagined, Chanâs legs were also covered in scars, of many different depths and shades, on his thighs, his shins, his calves, they were everywhere. You shuffled lower on Chanâs body, getting comfortable enough for your fingers to delicately trace each bump of raised skin they could, until finally, you moved your attention to his length, hard, pink, and prettyâespecially so as precum pooled around the tip where it laid on his abdomen.
Chan was unmoving, propped on his elbows simply looking at you, the expression on his face somehow both lustful and relaxed as he let you explore him as much as you wanted, however you wanted.
âYouâre staringâ, there was a glint of amusement in Chanâs tone, highlighted by the smirk on his face and it made you look away from his cock to his face again.
Licking your lips, you regarded him with a smirk of your own. âWhat? Feeling shy?â
âWith that look in your eyes? No, just feeling desiredâ, he said it so naturally, so unabashedly sure of it, you couldnât help but chuckle.
The moment your fingers wrapped around his length, you could see his chest rise and fall as he took a deep breath. âRemember what you told me back at the campsite?â Your hand moved, slowly dragging up and down his length, focusing on his tip.
âI told you many things at the campsite, princessâ, Chan licked his lips, his eyes jumping back and forth from looking at your hand working his cock and your face as you talked to him.
âYou told me something⊠Something that made my mind wanderâŠâ Tightening your grip around him, you moved closer to his length, and you couldâve sworn Chan was holding his breath in anticipation. âWanted to do this so bad, you have no ideaâ, with that, you replaced your hand with your mouth, finally, finally getting a taste of him.
A shaky breath and a loud âfuck!â fell from Chanâs lips as soon as you took him into your mouth, as soon as he felt your tongue landing firm swipes against his frenulum and your lips dragging over his tip. You took your time, savouring him, building his pleasure as you kept a rhythm, aiding your movements with a hand on what you couldnât fit in your mouth.
His jaw went slack, quiet groans and curses spilled freely from his mouth as Chan took in the sight of you working him up. One of his hands reached for you, moving your hair out of your face to keep it from obstructing his view, settling to caress your cheek after, his touch almost tender, a complete contrast to your lewd ministrations.
âFuck, you do have a dirty mouthâŠâ
You simply hummed around his length in response as you continued to move. With a deep breath, you took him further into your mouth, right to the back of your throat, making Chan close his eyes and throw his head back, biting on his bottom lip to muffle his groans.Â
Wet, gagging sounds filled the room, joining Chanâs constant swearing and groaning and grunting, and the combination of that along with the feel of him in your mouth had your head spinning, had you all worked up and burning up as your inner walls clenched around nothing.
âFuck, fuck, fuck, youâre so good at thisâ, you felt Chanâs hands on your head, pulling you off of him as he quickly scrambled to get close to your mouth. âYouâre too good at this, donât wanna blow yetâ, was all he said as he crashed his mouth on yours, savouring you, devouring you, all while tugging the waistband of your trousers and your underwear for you to finally take them off. Heat spread all over your face, blushing at his words, at his hands on your back, at his hands on your rear, at his tongue in your mouth.
âI want youâŠâ Your back hit the mattress as Chan mumbled his words between kisses. His middle and ring finger found your dripping core, entering you with ease to rub against that exact spot within your walls that drove you up the wall, that exact spot that you yourself had shown him how to find, making you moan against his lips as he continued to ravish your mouth.
âI need youâŠâ His fingers diligently worked you up, loosened you up, preparing you for him, all as your palm found his length, stroking him leisurely and your fingers tangled in his curls, tugging him even closer to you. It wasnât enough, though. Not enough closeness, not enough fullness.
âCan I have you, princess? Hmm?â Chan pulled away from your lips, enough to look you in the eyes, to take in every single one of your features, your heavy lids, your slightly agape mouth, the way your brows furrowed as his fingers continued to pleasure you, to stretch you open.
âYou have me, ChanâŠâ
You missed his fingers within your walls and the weight of his cock in your hand immediately, the feeling soon replaced with anticipation as Chan took a hold of length and dragged his tip along your folds, coating himself in your essence. Chan looked into your eyes, looking for any signs of you wanting to back out, to stop this now. He clearly found none, if anything, all he got was you rolling your hips, enticing him, tempting him. So he moved, finally stuffing you full of him in one swift motion, eliciting a shared sigh of relief as soon as he was buried snugly within your walls.
You pulled him to you, wrapping your limbs around him and connecting your mouths almost desperately. Chan kept himself propped up on one of his forearms, with his hand holding your head in place and the other hand moving below you to find one of your buttocks, holding you tightly as he started to move. Gone was the Chan that wanted to take his time, to take it slow, the Chan that claimed there was no hurry.Â
His hips collided with yours repeatedly, his pace steady, relentlessly pounding you to the mattress, his cock hitting just the right spot within your walls to get you moaning for him as soon as he started moving. You felt lightheaded, between his thrusts and his mouth on yours you could barely breathe, but it was hard to register it when all you could think about was how good this felt, how right it felt.
Chanâs lips moved away from your mouth, your moans now filling the room as he left wet, open mouthed kisses from your cheek all the way to your neck, whispering against your skin. âSo good, fuck⊠You feel even better around my cock, shitâŠâ
âChan, please⊠Need to⊠Want toâŠâ You could barely talk, but you tried anyway. You wanted your relief, you wanted to feel it while he was inside of you, you wanted him to feel it while he was inside of you.
The hold of your limbs around him relented, letting Chan pull himself away from your space to rest his weight on his heels. His thumb found your clit, the contact immediately sending that jolt of excitement up and down your spine. With one of your legs over his shoulder and you holding onto the other one to keep you spread open for him, he kept ramming into you, stealing the air out of your lungs with each thrust as his thumb rubbed your clit diligently, building your release and getting so, so, so closeâŠ
âYou have no idea how much Iâve been wanting to see you like thisâ, Chanâs thumb sped up, looking you in the eyes as he spoke, panting slightly. âSo pretty, just taking my cock so well, arenât you? Is this what you wanted too, hm?â All you could do in response was frantically nod and continue to roll your hips to meet his thrusts. âLook at you, canât even talk, fuckâŠâ
You simply shook your head, reaching for his hand on your thigh. âCloseâŠâ
âClose?â Chan snapped his hips harder, faster, the movement of his thumb on your clit not stopping. âCâmon, princess. I got youâŠâ
When you came, you came hard, a sob of his name falling from your lips as you held onto Chanâs hand on your thigh for dear life, his groan of appreciation almost going unnoticed as your mind went blank. âFuck, fuck, princess⊠Such a good cunt⊠Feel so good around me, tight, warm, shitâŠâ
Throwing your other leg over his shoulder as well, Chan moved impossibly faster, holding onto your hips tightly, chasing his own high. âSo closeâŠâ His voice was barely a whisper, completely lost in the feeling of it all as he continued to indulge in your body, in the feel of your walls clenching around him, in the way your tits looked when they bounced with every single one of his movements against you.
Pulling out, Chan held his cock in his hand, wrapping his fingers around it and pumping himself to completion right on top of your lower belly with a groan. You couldnât help but shiver at the feel of his warm seed on your body, a sensation that you immediately knew would plague your wettest dreams, along with the sounds that ran freely from his mouth.
Chan plopped down next to you, panting, breathless. Much like yourself, just trying to catch your breaths. Closing your eyes you set to enjoy the feelings coursing through your body, the ringing in your ears, the aches and the burns and the warmth, all pure bliss and satisfaction.
When you opened your eyes again and turned your head to the side you found Chan already looking at you, and, as if there had been some pulling force between you two, you found each other once again, your mouths sealed in a slow, passionate kiss.
âSo much for taking your timeâŠâ You teased him as soon as he pulled away from the kiss, making him laugh.
âCouldnât resist when you looked so good with my cock in your mouthâ, Chan reached for his discarded shirt, using it to wipe the remnants of his climax from your body, dumping it on the floor right after.
Once he laid back down, he pulled you to him, holding you close to enjoy the post-coital bliss as one of his legs slotted between yours.
âWe have a problem, princessâ, Chan mumbled against your hair.Â
Your hands traced patterns on his back as you cuddled, feeling the scars there, too. Humming in acknowledgement, you urged him to continue, trying your best to act as if those words hadnât brought the tiniest drop of concern in your mind.
Chanâs arms held you tighter, humming as well until he finally spoke. âAgainst my better judgement, against all that is proper, Iâm utterly smitten by you. How are you gonna take responsibility for that, huh princess?â
Pulling back from Chanâs chest you looked at him, at the teasing smile on his face coupled with the serious glint in his eyes, and you couldnât help but chuckle, with a genuine smile on your lips. âI guess youâll have to court me and find outâ.
âYouâd like that?â There was a tone of hopefulness in his voice, and it made you giddy. âI told you, Iâm a boring man, darling. Youâd get tired of meâ.Â
âIâd like that very muchâ, you pressed a kiss to his lips. âBesides, youâve already marked me, youâve got to take responsibility for these, tooâ, you gestured to your chest, to the numerous purple splotches Chan left behind, a sheepish smile appearing on his face as he looked at them.
Cupping your cheek, Chan looked you in the eyes for a bit, taking you in until finally he leaned in and kissed you again.
That night, even though you were both tired from the long journey, you both spent as much of your energy as you could just exploring each other, enjoying each other, until your bodies couldnât keep up anymore. By the time the moon was at her highest in the sky you and Chan were already spent, so you simply held onto each other as sleep finally claimed you both.
When you woke up the next day, the light coming from the window was enough for you to infer it was close to midday, and slightly alarmed, you tapped on Chanâs arm that rested around your waist. âChan⊠Chan⊠Itâs morning already, we oversleptâ.
Chan simply grumbled, moving his hand to your ribs, right below your breast, tightening his hold on you as he buried his face in your hair and pressed his chest flush to your back. âAnd? Itâs not like weâre camping, doesnât matter if we sleep inâŠâ He mumbled, clearly only half awake.
You immediately relaxed in his hold, youâd gotten so used to getting moving as soon as your eyes opened that it almost became a part of your routine, but Chan had a point, there was no hurry to move when you were staying at an inn like this. Taking a hold of the hand he had placed on your ribs, you moved it so you could place a kiss on his calloused palm. The action made Chan let out a satisfied sigh, moving as close as he could to you as you clutched his hand to your chest.
âMaybeâŠâ Chan spoke again after a while, mumbling against your shoulder as he started to press kisses on your skin, making goosebumps raise under his touch. âMaybe we could even stay for another day⊠So we can, you know, recover from the long journeyâŠâ
Chanâs hand moved away from where you were holding it against your chest, softly caressing the skin of your abdomen, your belly, your thighs, reaching your bum only for him to squeeze one of your buttocks, making you chuckle. âWhat do you think, hmm?â
You pressed yourself further into him, feeling him already hard against your rear. âWhatâs one more day to a two month trip, right?â
âExactlyâ.
You moved, and as soon as you were on your back Chan was already on top of you, kissing your neck, your chest, your nipples, your belly⊠Slowly, leisurely, he left kisses everywhere on your torso as his hands massaged your body, mumbling words of praise against your skin as he went âso beautiful, driving me fucking crazyâŠâ Until he finally found himself between your legs, making you shudder and tremble with his tongue, with his mouth, with his fingers⊠Certainly one of the best âlazy morningsâ you had spent in a long, long time.
You did rest that extra day in the inn, going into the hot springs, eating at the tavern⊠But admittedly, most of the time you were just in your shared room, all tangled limbs, sharing moans and groans and grunts, sharing your warmth, sharing your stories. And by the time you left the inn, hopped onto your horses, and continued with your journey, you realised that this is what real peace felt like.Â
After a few weeks, after you saw the first of many banners signalling Queen Naeelâs territory, after many more stays in inns throughout her realm, after many days and nights spent just enjoying Chanâs company, you finally made it to your friendâs home. The second you stepped into her castle you were almost winded by the collision of her body against yours, holding you so tightly against her that you couldnât help the tears that welled in your eyes.Â
âYouâre hereâŠâ Naeel sobbed against your shoulder, only to quickly pull herself away from you to hold you by the shoulders, her eyes frantically scanning the features of your face.
You couldnât help but giggle, bringing her into a hug again, quiet tears spilling from your eyes as you held her in your arms. âIâm here⊠All thanks to you, and Chan, of courseâ.
âOh, Channie!â Naeel removed herself from your embrace, jumping instead towards Chan who had been standing behind you, looking fondly at the reunion, his expression quickly changing to that of shock as Naeel hugged him tightly, too. âYou did well, thank you, thank youâ.
âYour⊠Your Majesty, pleaseâ, Chan cleared his throat, awkwardly patting Naeel on the back.
âAh, right, physical contact, big no, noâ, she regarded him with another smile, reaching for your hand to pull you closer to her. âI trust you two had a safe journey?â
âNothing out of the ordinary, Your Majestyâ, you had spent the last few weeks with the unfiltered, carefree Chan, it almost made you laugh to see him back into his Proper Knight mode. âBesides, Her Highness was an excellent companion all throughoutâ.
âOh? Was she?â Naeel looked back at you, with a glint of something in her eyes, something insufferable you were surely going to have to deal with as soon as you two were on your own.
Chan just hummed in response, adding a âif thatâs all for now, Iâll be taking my leave, Your Majesty. Iâm sure you two would like to catch upâ.
âYes, yes. Youâre dismissed, Channie. Take a week off, or two, or three, as you see fit, you deserve itâ, with a couple of pats on Chanâs shoulders, Naeel pulled herself away from his space, coming instead to your side and slinging an arm over your shoulder, pulling you tight against her side, making you smile.
âYour Majestyâ, Chan bowed his head towards Naeel, then turned to you, offering his hand. âYour Highnessâ, you placed your hand in his, and felt heat creep on your face as he brought it to his face, placing a soft kiss on your knuckles, regarding you with a warm smile and an even warmer look in his eyes. âIâll see you soonâ.
With that, he left, leaving you a blushing mess. A blushing mess as if you had not let him fuck you for days on end.
Naeel quickly took you to the courtyard, her attendants bringing you cakes and biscuits and tea for you to spend the afternoon in a resting area that was clearly just set there for her to relax in. âSo, how was the trip?â Bending at the waist, she expertly tied the anklet you had given back to her around her ankle, once again matching with you as you still wore yours religiously.
âNot that badâŠâ You commented as you chewed the sugary treats. Speaking with your mouth full wouldâve surely earned you an angry slap from your father, but he wasnât here, he was hopefully no longer in your life, so you could be as free as you wanted, knowing that Naeel wouldnât judge you, if anything, she was just like you. âCompared to, you know, living with my father, it was rather enjoyable Iâd sayâ.
Humming softly, Naeel took a sip of her tea. âAnd Chan?â
âChan⊠Chanâs nice. Really⊠Really niceâ, you took a sip of your tea as well, trying to hide from your friendâs inquiring eyes as she looked at you.
âHe is! Just a bit too stoic sometimesâ, she chuckled, reaching for a biscuit. âI was hoping he would loosen up a bit with this trip. Heâs one of my best knights, but he needs to relax, to detach from work a bit. I hope he managed to distract himselfâ.
Your mind quickly filled with memories of the nights you and Chan shared, in the mountains, in the inns, in your campsites⊠You could almost feel the phantom of his touch on your skin, and it was heating you up way too quickly. âI think he⊠He did loosen up a bit. Or thatâs how it seems to meâ.
âMmmâ, Naeel gave you an inquisitive look. âYouâre quite feisty, and he likes that sort of thing, so I sure hope you gave him a hard time and got him a bit out of his elementâŠâ
You stared at your friend, blinking. It dawned on you then, why your friend chose him for the task, why she sent Chan to get you, and your jaw wouldâve hit the floor if it hadnât been attached to your face. She was playing matchmaker. She had not only rescued you, but she was trying to get you laid. âYou sent Chan with intent! You sent him specifically on purpose!â
âOf course I did!â Naeel laughed, loudly. âI knew youâd like him, and judging by the way you were looking at him I was right! And I was sure heâd like you, too. Havenât seen him smile as bright as he did when you guys parted earlier!â
âNaeel, dearâŠâ You couldnât help but scoff a laugh, utterly baffled. âI love you so, so much. Youâre nutsâ.
âYou know me well, my dear. And I love you, tooâ, Naeelâs smile couldnât have been any brighter, and it warmed you up. You truly, truly loved your friend deeply, even if she was a bit nuts. âSo, does that mean that you guys got acquainted with one another as I hoped?â
You looked at her for a moment, completely silent, your face going dead serious, which made a look of worry flash on her face. Until you couldnât stop the smile that crept onto your lips. Slowly, you unbuttoned the first few buttons of your shirt, showing Naeel the purple marks on your chest, the marks that Chan had not let fade since the moment he first pressed his mouth on your chest, the marks he left time and time again, making Naeel gasp and bring her hands to her mouth.
âOh, wow!â Throwing her head back she laughed again, lightly kicking her feet. âIâm a fucking genius! I should be crowned again, Queen of Matchmaking!â
You couldnât help but laugh with her, reaching for your cup of tea. âI canât believe you, NaeelâŠâ
Figuring out the logistics of you staying with Naeel was easy. You didnât want to live at the castle, it reminded you too much of your old life, and you also didnât want to be pampered anymore. You wanted a new beginning, a different life to that you had known, so your friend helped you settle, giving you a humble house in the castle town and offering you a job as a royal seamstress within her already established team âIâve seen your work, and Iâd love to have you design things for me!â. It was a privilege not many could have, and you were aware of it, so you took the offer. If your friend believed in you and your abilities, why wouldnât you believe in yourself for the task?
Your new home was cosy, just big enough for one person, with enough space for your few belongings. You thought youâd have a hard time your first night there, but it was surprisingly easy for you to fall asleep there. Almost as if your body knew there was no danger, as if it knew you could finally rest.
For your first few days there you didnât see Chan. You didnât know where he lived, and you hadnât had the time to ask Naeel about it, so you settled for waiting until you could run into him, and although there was a part of you that knew he would come looking for you, there was still a part of you that worried he mightâve decided you were not worth his time anymore. That was, until you heard a knock on your door and you opened it to find the man standing right there at your doorstep, with a small bouquet of flowers in his hand.
âHer Majesty told me where you were stayingâ, he had a sheepish smile on his face, shyly handing you the bouquet, and you couldnât help the smile that made its way onto your face as you took it. âI was hoping to⊠To maybe show you around?â
âIâd like thatâ, stepping into his space, you leaned in, pressing a soft kiss on his lips as your front door closed behind you.
One of Chanâs hands found your waist, pulling you closer to him with an appreciative hum as the other held the back of your head, angling you a bit so he could deepen the kiss. You didnât care if anyone saw you, just like he also didnât seem to care, if anything, he held you in his arms confidently, and it made you chuckle against his lips. âI take it youâre no longer conflicted about your feelings for me?â
Chan simply shook his head, removing his hands from your frame so he could link your arm with his and pull you along to walk down the street. âItâs too late for that, princessâ.
âAh, but youâre still calling me princess?â There was no ill intent in your voice, if anything, only a bit of a teasing tone.
âOf course! You are my princess, after all. Are you not, darling?â
You couldnât help but laugh, tightening your hold on his arm as you continued to walk with him, following him anywhere he pulled you to. âThen Iâll be your princess, and yours onlyâ.
Chan simply smiled at you, one of those smiles that made his face light up, his dimples pop and his eyes disappear, and as usual, you couldnât help the flutter of your heart at the sight. You didnât feel like a princess anymore, not like a real one at least, but the switch from it being a title, a title that had only meant pain in your life, to it being a term of endearment, a term used by Chan and only Chan, helped you cope, and you hoped that, in due time, you could finally fully heal.
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'finally submitting a 20 page paper that your professor had so rudely assigned.' Aksnskns I felt that in my soulđźâđš 'Your heart drops when you see that itâs a man wearing dark clothes, hood thrown over his face and hands hidden in his pockets.' At that point I would have booked it to the 7-Eleven!đ âIâm on my way right now, stay inside and stay as far away from the man as possible.â akwnsknsks forever a knight in shining armorđ„čđ âWhat did I tell you about remembering to eat? You always get too lost in your assignments. You need to take better care of yourself.â sosnxjdn he remembers mc's bad habits omlđđ„ș I am in shambles!!đ„ș âIâm almost there baby, Iâm almost-â ACK HE CALLED Y/N BABYđ ik it was probably an accident but omlđ« 'his jaw clenching when he notices how close the hooded man has managed to get.' Angry Yunho!!!đ€đ« âWait. Did you run all the way from your place to the 7/11?â He ran the whole wayđđ âIâve missed you,â Yunho whispers.' AHHH AHHđ« I'm too soft omlđđ
Convenience Store Chances | J.YH
Pairing: ExBoyfriend!Yunho x reader (fem implied but not explicit)
Summary: Itâs the typical story of right person, wrong time. But maybe an unfortunate situation might turn the wrong time into the right time.
w.c. 2.5k
Warnings: creepy man, cursing, being followed, comfort, fluff
a/n: good oleâ mutual pining and second chance trope. also, this picture of Yunho is too good, I had to use it.Â
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âYunho,â your voice cracked, and you let out a soft sob. âWhere are you?â He demanded.' Ajsnsjsnis that was quick, and why does that have me blushing omlđ«Łđ€ âHe doesnât deserve to be loved by someone like you.â mmhm mmhm Yunho is correctđđđ sisnsus he's such a good friend omlđ„ș âPermission to touch youâŠâ His large palm flattened, curving against your cheek as his thumb prodded your bottom lip, âto kiss you,â aksnsisnosd that escalated quickly omlđ«Łđ ppsshh brain turned to mush, goodnessđ€ 'prison of modern clothing.' Ahahahha oml thats too funnyđđ€Łđ€ŁÂ
Jaws
Synopsis: Yunho is prepared to do everything to help you forget. Even if that means doing something youâve never done beforeâŠ
Warnings: Soft Dom! Yunho, sensory deprivation (blindfold), bondage (use of Yunhoâs tie), dom/sub dynamics, pet names, (princess, darling, etc.), friends to lovers. Lmk if I forgot anything <3Â
Word Count: 2.4k (yea. Pure filth⊠heh.)
I'm not here to be the savior you long for.
Hot tears rolled down your cheeks as you angrily type in a familiar number. You had given your boyfriend- your now ex-boyfriend, one too many chances. You hated when Yunho was right, but this time you had nowhere to turn. You were standing outside your apartment in your slippers and pajamas and his jacket, waiting for Yunho to answer the phone. You were trying hard not to cry harder as you heard Yunhoâs voice on the phone, âYes?âÂ
âYunho,â your voice cracked, and you let out a soft sob. âWhere are you?â He demanded. âHome. Standing outside-âÂ
âIâll be there soon.â With that, Yunho hung up. You stared at your phone in disbelief. You had no other option but to wait for Yunho to arrive, trying not to shiver. You didnât want to go back inside, you didnât want to risk running into your ex, who was still in your apartment. You wrapped your arms around your body, watching the rain begin to dribble as you stood underneath the awning of your apartment building.Â
After a few moments, headlights flashed down the street, and you see Yunhoâs dark car pull up to the curb. Hot tears fill your eyes again as you watch him slide out of the car, holding an umbrella. His eyes fell on you and you could see anger flash in his dark irises. âY/n.â He groans, rushing to you. You sob as he wraps his arms around you, âCome on. You must be freezing.â He ushered you to his car and helps you inside.Â
He doesnât ask you anything as he speeds away, you could see that he was upset. But, you didnât want to fight anymore, you were tired and wanted nothing more than to be around someone who wanted you. The drive back to his place didnât take long, but before you got out of the car, Yunho simply sat there staring ahead of him. You slowly look over to him, âYunho,â you murmur, âPlease. I donât want to hear about it right now⊠I donât want to hear how you were right.â You sniffle, causing him to scoff, âDo you want to hear what I want to say?â You shake your head, âNo-â You begin to say but he interrupts you, âHeâs a piece of shit. I want to break him, limb from limb.â He turns to face you, âI want to make him hurt in ways he could never fathom. So, yes, I was right. It doesnât make you feel any better.â He put his hand on your knee, âHe doesnât deserve to be loved by someone like you.â You turn to look at him. âI just donât want to feel anything right now.â You whisper.Â
There was a long pause before Yunho speaks again, âLet me help you.â He opens his door and climbs out, helping you out of your door. He takes your hand and guides you up the stairs of his home and opens the door. You donât say anything as he guides you through his house. Through his dimly lit hallway to a room at the end. His room.Â
You turn to face him as he looks down at you, his eyes soft, understanding, waiting. âI need your permission, Y/n.â He murmured. âPermission?â you cock your head to the side slightly, not sure what he meant. âPermission to touch youâŠâ His large palm flattened, curving against your cheek as his thumb prodded your bottom lip, âto kiss you,â his voice was deep, and so soft that you could barely hear it. âTo make you forget.â you couldnât breathe. Yunhoâs mouth was so close to yours that you couldnât think straight. His warm breath skittered across your face, and the smell of toothpaste and his cologne swirled around your body, fogging your mind further.Â
Sure, you thought your friend Yunho was extremely attractive, who couldnât think that? You became friends with him nearly 6 months after dating your now ex, meeting through mutual friends. After all, Yunho was part of the reason your relationship fell on the rocks. You gulp, âI need to hear you say it, darling.âÂ
âSay, say what?â You whisper, your voice failing as he steps closer, his body now pressed against yours. âSay, yes.â His lips were so close to yours, if only you had the nerve to move just a fraction of an inch, they could touch. âYunho,â you whimper, eyes fluttering as his lips ghost yours. âSay it, y/n. Say the word and Iâll make you forget the pathetic bastard ever existed.âÂ
âPlease,â you plead with him, âI donât want to think- I donât want to think about him. Help me forget, please.â His breathing stops for a moment, and he pulls away. You gulp, your mind whirling as he reaches for his door, his free hand latching around your wrist as he tugged you into his room. You follow like a lost puppy, allowing him to guide you to the edge of his bed, pushing you so your legs were against the mattress. You gulp, watching him as he knelt down, pulling your shorts down with him. You feel your cheeks heat up, realizing that you werenât wearing any undergarments, whatsoever. His hands ghost up your thighs, squeezing as he went, placing soft kisses along your hip. Yunhoâs thumbâs hooked around your shirt, pulling it over your head, tossing it with your shorts in a heap.Â
His eyes were lust-filled, watching your every move like a hawk. He moves to his nightstand, pulling out a silk sleep mask, âPull your hair back, princess.â he murmurs, his voice rumbling your chest as he comes to stand in front of you again. You do as youâre told, and for whatever reason, you obey without questioning him at all. You pull your hair into a loose ponytail at the nape of your neck. âIâm going to put this over your eyes. Donât take it off. Donât touch it. Youâll lose your hands.â He warns, nudging you to sit on the bed. You nod your head, âVerbal confirmations here, now, y/n. Nodding your head does not count. I want to hear your voice.âÂ
âOk.â You whisper as he offers you a sexy grin, âGood girl.â He slides the mask over your eyes and gently pushes your shoulders back. âScoot back a little bit, baby doll.â He guides you so that youâre laying in the middle of his soft bed. You feel the bed dip, and heâs now standing somewhere in his room. You hear him moving around the bed, but youâre unsure of what heâs doing. âHow Iâve dreamt of this, y/nâŠâ He sucks air through his teeth, groaning as he moves to your feet, using his fingers to dance along the inside of your calf. You gasp, the sensation going straight to your groin. You clamp your legs closed, a strangled whimper escaping your mouth.Â
As suddenly as his touch came, it was gone again. Your skin was aflame with desire, and you shuddered, âYunho, please.â You beg, shifting as he moves through his room. âPatience, y/n. Youâll be rewarded soon.â You groan frustratedly as he pauses. The bed dipped, and you could feel him on your left side, âI want to see you squirm first.â Your head moves toward him, and you feel his breath fan across your chest. You gasp, shivering as he pull away, âYunho,â you move to remove the blindfold but his hands were faster. âWhat did I say, Y/n?â He says, his voice low. Annoyed slightly. He tsks at you and leaves you alone on the bed. âI suppose I canât be surprisedâŠâ he chuckles, and you hear him walk away. âWhere are you going?âÂ
âI thought you would be a good girl,â he begins, his voice further away than before. âIt seems that I was wrong. So, now, I need to improvise.â He says, his voice growing louder at the end. âHands. Now.âÂ
âYou canât be-âÂ
âDonât.â his hands wrap around your throat, squeezing slightly. You moan, his mouth hovering over yours, âBack. Talk.â You feel him gather your hands and the sensation of something cool and smooth wraps around your wrists. âI think this is going to be my new favorite tie.â he chuckles to himself as he restrains your hands above your head. You gulp as he climbs over your legs, pinning your hips with his. He was wearing shorts- or he had undressed to his briefs, you werenât sure. But you could feel his muscular legs moving against yours as he rolled his hips into yours. You gasp, arching into his chest, his hands running along your sides as he nibbled your neck. âYunho,â you whimper, pressing your face into his hair. He chuckled, âYes, princess?â He hums, lapping at your right nipple. âPlease- please,â you whine. Yunho moves to the opposite nipple, his tongue trailing across the valley between them. He hummed in reply, his mouth consuming your breast; his teeth scrapped your sensitive bud as he pulled away, âPlease, what, y/n? Hmm? What is it that you want?âÂ
âYu- Yunho, please.âÂ
âMe?â He chuckles, his lips hovering over yours again, âYou want me?âÂ
âYes.â You said, your voice coming out harsh. The desire building in the pit of your stomach was making you desperate. âOh, well,â he chuckled, tsking at you as if you were a child. âTalking to me like that will get you nowhere.â He rumbles, his chest pressed against yours as his hand dances to your hip, âmanners, darling. Use. Your. Manners.â You shudder, âPlease.â You whimper, feeling useless against him. âPlease, what, Y/n? Iâm not a mind reader, love.â He teased, licking a hot stripe up your neck to your chin. You groan, chasing his mouth. He luckily allowed you to catch him, his mouth and yours hungrily meet. His tongue danced around your mouth, prodding your tongue and lapping at it expertly. Your mind was spinning as you were helpless, he was pulling away, âNo- no, please.â You whine, grinding your hips into his. âSo greedy. My, oh my, someone really needs to teach you some proper manners.â He chuckled.Â
âYunho, please. Stop teasing. I canât take it anymore.â You gasp. He pauses for a moment, his hands dancing to your hips and pinning you down, âCanât keep up?â You shake your head frantically, as he chuckles. âGuess weâll have to build that stamina then, huh?â He pecked your cheek, âIs my sweet y/n getting too worked up? Hmm?â You nod, âYes.â you whimper pathetically. He chuckles, âOh, pretty angel. What to do?â You groan as he giggles to himself. âAwh, alright. I guess Iâve seen you fidget long enough.â He sighs, lips attaching to yours like a man starved. You feel him move his hand between your faces, âOpen up. Spit.â You donât even think twice as you spit onto his awaiting fingers. You hear him chuckle and listen to the sound of him spitting as well. His hand moves between your bodies and frees his strangled cock from its prison of modern clothing.Â
He hisses as he drags his hand along his cock, using the leftover spit to run his two digits along your folds. You gasp, bucking your hips toward his fingers. âSo wet⊠Did we even need spit?â He teases, his mouth on yours as his cock prods your entrance. âFuck,â you gasp, feeling as he teased you, entering slightly and pulling back out. There was a slight pop! making you whine as he hissed. He chuckled darkly, âTight.âÂ
His lips were back on yours within moments, his hips softly rolling against yours. You both moan, his hands dug into your hips as he stills, bottoming out. You tug at the tie around your hands, âYuyu.â You cry out, squeezing your eyes shut as he leisurely moves his hips, testing to see if you were going to be in pain. âFuck, y/n.â He grunts, his hips pausing slightly, his face buried into your neck. You canât speak. You canât think. The only thing keeping you from going insane was the moans from Yunho and the feeling of his cock moving in and out of you. You wrap your legs around his hips, making him chuckle, âFuck.â He hisses, grabbing your throat, âIâm not gonna last like this.â You nod your head, unable to admit that you were about to come undone as well. But, it wasnât like he couldnât tell.Â
Yunho grunts, feeling you orgasm and catching your cries in his mouth. He doesnât stop as you shake, pushing you through the longest orgasm you had ever experienced, the sensation coming in waves. He moans, squeezing your throat as he pulls away, holding your hips as he picks the pace up suddenly. You cry out, another strong orgasm threatening to rip through you again. Your words are nothing but incoherent whines and moans as his hips met yours, pornographic noises echoing around the room as he grunts. You feel his hand rip the blindfold off, âI want to look in your eyes as I fucking cum.â He growls. You thought you were dreaming. The sight before you was enough to make you sob. Yunho was covered in a thin sheen of sweat, his abs flexing as he moved, his biceps taught from holding your hips prisoner, his large hands wrapped and digging into your skin as if he was attempting to melt into you.Â
He uses one of his hands to interlace with yours, his lips gathering yours as he groans, thrusting one last time into you, hard and deep. You feel a warm sensation spread through your womb and you buck your hips against his.Â
You both lay there for a moment, unsure of what to do next. Panting, he pulls away, looking into your eyes as he undoes the restraint. You didnât realize how tired your arms were until they went slack above your head. He pulls out of you and flops beside you, staring up at the ceiling. After nearly five minutes of no talking coming from either party, Yunho turns you. âY/nâŠâ he trails off, causing you to turn just enough to look at him. âYuyu.â you feebly reach toward his face, and he leans in, pressing a soft kiss to your lips. âIf I would have known you felt that way, I would have come running.â He chuckles as he kisses you a few more times, pulling away to look at you.Â
âYou definitely came something⊠Maybe not running⊠At least not with your legs⊠Definitely down them.âÂ
#ateez smut#yunho ateez#ateez yunho#yunho smut#yunho x reader#đŻđrecs#oml talk about my brain malfunctioning while reading this woohđ€đ«Łđ#oml Yunho is a dangerousđłđ#aksnsjnsjdnrje the petnames got međźâđšđ« đ#absolutely amazing omgđđ€
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