#🌱kit's journal

[undeadself]

hi guys, i missed the last few days of the challenge because i ended up b1nging. :/ i'll start posting again tomorrow. those few days weren't all bad (i did go to the gym & move a lot through all of them) but i did still overeat multiple times and ended up feeling bloated and gross for it. we can do better than this. i'm gonna work out right after posting this and tomorrow i'm gonna make sure things go great.

[pluralasking]

Answers to: Post #108 (System Rules)

[pt: Answers to: Post #108 (System Rules)]

Since these were not posted yet, sorry about that. I hope you enjoy, and that to some, this might be helpful. This is a very long post.

Note that some of these include potentially triggering subjects. Some of these topics include: alcohol, smoking / nikotin, drugs, intrusive thoughts (about inappropriate relationships / feelings), and slurs.

Please read carefully.

- 🌱 Avery

"If you choose to eat it, you must front during the gastrointestinal consequences."

"No birds in the house."

"Check the archive to see how much caffeine we've had today before consuming more caffeine."

"Don't get us arrested without unanimous consent of all frequent fronters."

"Decisions that affect our general wellbeing in major ways should be discussed as a group."

"No matter what skin color, mental disability or any other factor that gives you rights to a slur you should not say that slur if the body isn't allowed to say that."

"No using profanity or crude language outside of headspace but, avoid saying many curses in front of headmates under 14."

"Respect alters boundaries."

"If you are at front and a new alter shows up, please tell them what is going on and help them set up a profile on Plural kit & Simply Plural."

"Anyone our announcers and or gatekeepers have marked off limits , we aren’t allowed to talk to OR we have to be cautious around."

"As a system we have a very high justice system. Not In the way we have trials but in the way we have councilmen for every layer of the system. The rule is to always respect the rules of the overseer in that layer. Not in a dictator or whatever way , just like make sure to keep the place clean and shit."

"If you have a job in headspace you should always make sure it’s something that doesn’t require money (we don’t have such a thing in headspace). If you have a job related to that we just have trades or give stuff away for free."

"If you encounter anyone that’s not the main partner in our partner system , just be safe n ignore em unless they say hi"

"Always go to a higher up if you want a prnscc made or a card or an anything like that."

"Anarchy: no hierarchies, no one is "in charge", no one "owns" the body or life, collaborative, consenting, compassionate."

"Take care of the little."

"Respect our collective friends."

"Avoid damaging the body (e.g. no smoking)"

"Respect each other's beliefs, privacy, and wishes/boundaries. Don't try to disprove everyone you disagree with. Don't go trying to recall other people's memories, or try to watch when they want privacy."

"Maintaining the body + the singletsona are of utmost importance. Follow the pre-set routine as best as possible when involved in front."

"Don't be a dick. Especially do not be a dick to the short list of system friends; they are the trusted few and these relationships are to be preserved. Before engaging in public spaces make sure you know or can otherwise internally access the local etiquette. Do not damage or remove meatspace belongings. Respect closed doors within headspace."

"The external world does not have the same understanding that the internal one does- some things must be hidden for the continued peace and/or online safety of the system. (eg, Fakename1, bi lesbian, should not get involved with identity discourse. Fakename2, a fictive who was considered a grown adult in her source world but is a minor in this one, cannot interact with nsfw spaces/content and express her sexuality without claiming the body's age instead of her own.)"

"We made it a rule to not get apps or make purchases online without consulting others. This is in part to help make sure impulse purchases are less likely, as well as to help give some protection against viruses and such."

"We use Lighthouse, which allows each member to keep their own private journal. We made an agreement that we wouldn't look at anyone else's journal without their express permission, which we don't ask for unless we have to. This is primarily so we don't have to deal with individual passwords, but we've also carried this over onto other sites, such as chatrooms on Simply Plural, which are chats that are meant for us to have private conversations, and no one is allowed to look in a chatroom they aren't a part of unless invited in another channel."

"We decided that we would keep any and all in-system romantic relationships private. We've seen a lot of people being weird about them, and we didn't want to deal with that. We made this rule when two of our members decided to start dating. We've considered extending this rule to *any* in-sys relationship, as we've seen others being weird about even siblings who are siblings in-source, but at the moment it's just romantic relationships we keep private."

"Our main rule is no self-harm that could permanently damage the body, and no putting the body in situations you know are dangerous."

"As an adult system, we do allow our system members to drink, but the rules remind them that the body's tolerance is low. As drugs including weed are illegal where we live, it is against the system rules to have them, or smoke nicotine."

"Follow server rules is another one, which includes a subclause about persecutors not being an asshole to people we like to try to push them away."

"In our system we allow tattoos, piercings, and hair dye, but we ask that system members think about what would look nice on the body rather than just what they want. We kinda view the body as a dress up doll."

"Be kind and considerate to other members and to people outside the system unless necessary / it's to avoid harm to another or ourselves - this includes asking everyone involved with something that happened for permission for sharing details about said thing, especially ones that are more personal to them, not joking about, say, someone's source if they don't want it even mentioned, etc."

"if there are walk-ins asking to join the system (because our system works like that,) we need to make sure everyone consents to them being around, ESPECIALLY people who oppose them / the orgs they're a part of insource (ex: our hsr boothill fictive when considering IPC members, etc.) we can't exactly just disengage if we're uncomfortable, as our ability to hold our mental tongues / walk away from insys conversation is unreliable at best and just useless at worst, so we're extra careful with who we consider part of the system."

"no claiming to be Literally Part of X Culture when we're bodily not. members can, like, unclaim our bodily race / culture if they feel like it - most of us don't resonate with the body's ethnic experience, even if we do live it - but claiming to be say, black when we're actually 100% not black will never be on the table. this also means no joking about other people being X race, no making comments, etc."

"no purposely using slurs / derogatory terms towards other members or other people irl. if we know something is a slur and someone uses it as an insult knowing it's a slur, that's breaking this rule."

"no yelling or screaming / argue quietly and don't be mean about it, even if someone's being stupid. this one actually started as a way to tiptoe around trauma triggers (waves in trauma holder host) but then we realized that this has 100% helped our own conflict resolution skills and made it an actual thing."

"if someone brings up something they want to do and the brain pushes back, it's off the table 100% until further notice. we have autistic PDA so it's not like it's just a preference; we literally can't branch out that much."

"if two people are hanging out alone in front and are not partners, they must call another person to be a "buffer" the moment someone catches intrusive feelings for another, especially if they're siblings and/or if one is an adult and the other is a minor. i know!! this sounds extremely problematic! so some context: sometimes, our OCD will force members to get crushes on other members, especially if the one of them is being hyperfixated on, and it's always with people that cannot date without one or both going to jail. **it's not something we want**; it shows up and goes away at random and everyone involved hates it the entire time, but we have to deal with it anyway so that's why we have this rule. attempts to just. walk away from co-con for the time being and wait it out just don't work because they'll just teleport back, so we call up a buffer (90% of the time one of the people involveds' actual partner, because of course the brain chooses people in existing relationships too) to distract the brain with jangly headmate-shaped keychain."

"No one is allowed to touch alcohol or drugs."

"Do not intentionally do anything to harm self or others."

"Cursing is banned(with exceptions for words we are more comfortable with)."

"Any breaking of the rules will result in a temporary ban from fronting or certain areas of the inner world depending on where the rule breaking took place."

"All other major decisions must be put to a vote"

"Take the meds everyday"

"Respect the headmates' relationships"

"Respect the body"

"Reach out to our partner systems if needed or in danger"

[chaos-bites]

☀️ Subtle Baldr Worship 🌱

@broomsick helped a lot with this list!!!

Drink herbal tea or tea that you like; raise a glass to him!

Take an herbal or relaxing bath/shower

Grow your own herbs or produce

Collect flowers; press flowers; decorate with flowers; make a flower crown

Have a candle that reminds you of him (no altar needed)

Keep a picture of him in your wallet

Wear jewelry that reminds you of him

Have a stuffed animal of animals that you associate with summer; keep childhood stuffed animals or ones that comfort you

Have symbols of sunrises, sunsets, summer, flowers, citrusy fruits, or anything you consider beautiful around

Decorate using fairy lights or lanterns

Practice writing if you'd like (poetry, stories, etc.); read your old writing, and celebrate any improvements you notice!

Sketch or draw - any sort of creative expression

Practice forgiveness and compassion, especially towards yourself

Set time aside to relax and decompress

Take a walk/hike in nature/a forest, especially on a sunny day

Meditate or sit in the sunlight

Fall asleep/meditate to the sound of birds or ambient forest sounds

Eat fruit, especially citrus fruits

Nurture and express your wonder towards the world around you; let yourself view the world from the perspective of a child; find the beauty in every day things

Practice emotional regulation as well as feeling your feelings

Find healthy emotional outlets; drawing, boxing, dancing, singing, etc.

Cloud-watching and star-gazing

Camp in the forest; sit in nature for awhile

Listen to music that calms or comforts you

Spend time with loved ones or pets

Support humanitarian or environmental preservation organizations

Cook yourself a delicious meal

Cook a warm meal for someone in need

Donate clothes, food, blankets, hygiene kits, etc. to homeless shelters

Take care of yourself physically and emotionally

Exercise; get some movement throughout your day, even just stretching

Play with your pets

Engage with childhood media/activities

Keep a self-care/self-love journal

Keep a personal diary filled with both positives and negatives; sketch in it, add stickers to it, make it your own!

Make a list of things you enjoyed and things you disliked about the day at the end of it

Make your space comfortable for you; make it your own!

Hang your accomplishments, drawings/paintings, or creations on your walls

Celebrate your achievements, even the little ones

Dance to music you enjoy, especially if it makes you feel lively

Light a bonfire for him; sit alone or gather around it with loved ones

Make s'mores or similar treats on a summer night

Tell stories around a fire

Try new things; take risks, and go outside of your comfort zone; be spontaneous

Visit an amusement park, local fair, or local festivals; engage with celebration and fun!

Learn about the local flora and fauna

Learn about herbs and their different properties/usages, especially in a Norse/Viking context; try to use them in those ways

Clean trash in your neighborhood or environment; recycle if you can

Feed neighborhood birds, cats, dogs, etc.

Practice mindfulness; try meditation if you can

Try bird-watching or wildlife watching

Practice open-mindedness; try to comprise with others; agree to disagree

Honor your ancestors or passed loved ones; learn about your family history

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I may add more later on! For now, this is my list of discreet ways to worship Baldr. I got a lot of help from @broomsick who is extremely knowledgeable on Baldr and other Norse gods. I recommend checking them out if you have any questions! Thank you, and I hope this post helps! 🧡

Link to Subtle Worship Master list

[solar-sunnyside-up]

Hi! A sprout here. I'm hoping you can give me your thoughts on something.

Bit of background: I'm a substitute teacher, and I'm the director of the elementary DnD after school club. I am also very easily pegged as queer and liberal.

I want to start a club for kids outside of the school system. I had a brief conversation with a librarian today about my 2 ideas. She thought they sounded cool, but the lady I needed to talk to wasn't in today since it's the weekend.

My 2 ideas were: a ttrpg club (I have like 6 or 7 systems that are designed specifically for kids) Because I have so many it's not really possible to do all of them in the scope of the dnd club, if I'm even allowed to branch out and try them.

My other idea was: a scavenger hunt/art club. That one would be open to all ages. I've just gotten into books by Keri Smith, the creator of Wreck this Journal, and they are so wonderfully goblincore and they teach you to look at the world around you in a different light.

When telling my fiance about the ideas he thinks they're good ideas, but that he's worried that if parents wanted to look into me at all they could cause a lot of problems for me at work. He said that if I used my position as a substitute teacher to spread the word to kids at school parents could say it's indoctrination bc I'm so easily pegged as liberal and queer. I'm in a really small (pop. 11,000) conservative town.

Idk. I was really excited, but my fiance brought up really good points. When I told a friend she said she would also be worried if I started a club. I'm feeling a little defeated now

- @sakura-sophie

Hey there Sprout 🌱!! Wow your such a cool teachers!!!

I think this is an amazing idea and I believe you can make it work!

I do also, sadly, understand your loved ones concern for you about some ramifications of going forward with it.

But I honestly think separating your career and this post work activity would solve it. I kinda doubt given the population size you'd have one, but a Boy and Girls Club would very much help out start something like this. If there isn't one, I would go forward with the Scanager hunt one.

Given the values and ideals of the more conservative side of things, getting kids out doors, maybe doing some Agricultural based stuff, and in "fresh air" will be a lot easier for parents to justify for themselves even if you are fruity. This also would allow you to give out "home kits" potentially of "here's a list of stuff you can do solo if you can't join the group activity" and you can still be a point of contact for people. (You could even do some art gruella work in the name of geocaching maybe??)

Also separating it from the school system may also assist in a "mandated reporter" sense if your in a district that requires to give kiddos personal info to their parents. Extra curricular activities aren't held up to those laws in the same way.

If your wanting to Advertize the program to kids directly I would suggest, once the club is started, hitting up HoHs, PTAs, leaving info as posters in libraries etc... places where parents and kids might both find them and ask about it while also keeping your teaching career seperate.

I truely wish you the best of luck with this!! Be safe first and foremost, and gimme updates when you can ok??

[the-harvest-system]

Hello! We're the Harvest system, welcome to our blog/public system journal! 

Our collective name is Harvey (very creative, we know /sarc) you can call us Nico too though! Please use he/they(plural) pronouns on us! 

Keep in mind, we're bodily a minor, and while we may make some dirty jokes, we do not want to have an nsft interaction/view nsft posts.  

Both our simply plural and pronouns.cc are a WIP however, they'll be linked as soon as we finish them. 

Autism, adhd and possibly social anxiety - so talking to/interacting with people is hard. 

We're a traumaendo/mixed origins system of around 100 (member list is unupdated) We form new headmates easily. Like, very easily. Fictive + nonhuman heavy. Disordered, probably DID.

We won't be sharing everything about our system, since we'd still like to keep some privacy for safety reasons. (You never know on the internet, it's even worse as a system)

ASK GAME ASK GAME ASK GAME

Collective interests include: hermitcraft, empires smp, life series, The magnus archives. That's it, yeah.

Most of us are dogkin/caninekin, almost all of us are non-human in some way, and we're collectively foxkin.

Follow our spotify for amazing music recs ;3

Spotify - LemonMuncher

Stances, DNI, tagging system, blinkies/userboxes and system members below the cut.

STANCES:

Pro endogenic (we're critical of the community but think that endogenics do exist)

Anti Radqueer

Anti TransID

Anti proship (we won't harrass people, we just find the whole proship thing very weird and uncomfortable personally)

From the river to the sea, Palestine will be free.

Pro good faith identities + we're mspec mono ourselves (pansexual gay)

DNI:

anti-endos

Proshippers/comshippers

Radqueers/TransID

MAPs, Zoophiles, etc.

Israel supporters

Singlets that can't be normal about systems 

Anti-alterhuman/nonhuman

TERFs

Transphobes, homophobes, racists, ableists etc. (Surprising there's any on this site but...)

TAGGING SYSTEM:

harvestposting - original posts

harvestinfodump - system infodump

harvesthottakes - opinions, mostly syscourse

*emoji* writing - the headmate that wrote the post

harvestfandoming - fandomposting

harvestsillies - stories from headspace + quotes

SYSTEM MEMBERS

note: updated barely at all, not all headmates are featured here, "neos" stands for neopronouns

🍁Maple/Harvest - they/fox/He, gatekeeper and the headspace personified

👁️Xel/Cyrus - they/neos/it/he, protector

🌞Grian/Sunny - he/sun/other neos

🌈Neon - they/neos/it

📼Tubbo/Tobias - he/neos, archival assistant

💥Inni/Tommy - he/him, adhd holder+social headmate

🪻Ranboo/Cranberry - he/they/neos/xe

🦷Lennox/Lynx - he/they/neos

🔑Karl/Grayan - he/him

🔪Wiktor - he/him

❄️Scott - he/aer/neos

🐟Jimmy - he/him, memory keeper

🏺Kaian/Joel - he/him

🫧Lizzie/Meri - she/sea/they/any

🌻Peril/Pearl - she/neos/they

🍄Shrub - any/all

💐Katherine - she/neos

🎆Gemini - she/they

🧨Fwhip - he/him

🌙Pearl - she/they, junior gatekeeper

🔦Grian/Elliot - he/they, archivist

🪦Cleo - she/they/it, protector

🌲Gem - she/neos/it

🐺Ren - he/paw/neos, caretaker

🌱Bdubs/Oakley - he/neos/it

🎙️Etho - he/neos, no role

📻Oscar/Scar - he/xe

🌿Jellie - she/xer, sassy shit of a cat (affectionate)

⚙️Mumbo - he/they/it/neos

🔥Tango - he/flame/it

🍃Joel - he/him

📟Doc - he/any

🧊Cub - he/ve/it

🪽Angel/Halo - they/he/she, comforter

🐅Cassian - they/he, protector

🌼Will/Finn - he/star/shark/bloom/⭐️/🦈/🌼

🥕Brownie/Arvey - social anxiety holder

🕯️Kit - he/they/it, traumaholder

⛓️ Icarus - he/it, comforter

📀Cyn - xe/they, mood booster

✨Milo - they/them, former host

🐾Alex - he/they/it

🦴Amaranthus - he/they, traumaholder

🪵 Cedar -they/them

✴️Felix - he/neos

🐾Alex - he/they/it, therian identity holder

🕓Bdubs - he/him, gatekeeper

🌸Lizzie - she/they

🎀Minx - he/she

🌊Raffy - he/it, animal headmate

🫚Ginger - he/him, animal headmate

🥀Valerie - she/her, protector, caretaker

🕊️Ophelia - she/her, caretaker

🎸Xavier - he/him

🦝Bastian - he/it

🦅Phenic - mirror pronouns, protector

🧸Scout - he/paw/it?

🐕Cody - he/him

🦊Fern - they/them

🍄Faye - they/them

🃏Finley - xe/ve/fizz

💻Alistair - they/them, social protector

🪶Grian - he/him, architect

🌳Scar - he/him

   + Jellie - she/her, non-fronting

♦️Max - he/him

🧪Zedaph - they/he

🌷Stress/Sylvie - she/her

👾Xisuma - they/he

🪓Fallon/Faolan - they/she/he

🧳Antique - they/them

☁️Ghost - she/hxr

+Two littles we'd rather keep private

[aladeanblogs]

🎉 A Fresh Start: Creative Ways to Welcome New Year 2025 with Joy and Gifting Magic 🎁

🌟 Introduction: Embracing 2025 with Excitement

The new year is not just a date on the calendar; it’s a fresh chapter brimming with possibilities, dreams, and opportunities. New Year 2025 is here, offering us the chance to reflect, celebrate, and step into a brighter future. But how can we make it truly memorable? Let’s dive into a world of innovative ideas, heartfelt gifting, and vibrant celebrations to start the year on the right note! 🎇

🕛 Countdown to Creativity: Unique Celebration Ideas

✨ Midnight Stargazing Party

Gather your loved ones under the starry sky to bid farewell to 2024. A telescope, cozy blankets, and a cup of hot cocoa can turn this into a magical night.

Gifting Tip: Present guests with personalized star maps or glow-in-the-dark constellations as keepsakes. 🌌

🎭 Themed Costume Bash

Dress up as your future self or your favorite character! A themed party brings laughter, creativity, and memories to cherish forever.

Gifting Tip: Give out quirky accessories or mini props matching the theme.

🕯️ Gratitude Bonfire

Write down memories or challenges from 2024 and toss them into a bonfire as a symbolic goodbye. Then, pen your aspirations for 2025 and seal them in a jar.

Gifting Tip: Provide decorative jars or gratitude journals to all attendees.

🎁 Gifting Ideas: Spreading Smiles This New Year

Gifts are a universal language of love and appreciation. Here’s a curated list of New Year gifting ideas to suit every personality and preference.

💎 Personalized Keepsakes

Custom name pendants, engraved photo frames, or monogrammed diaries bring a personal touch to your wishes.

🌿 Eco-Friendly Gifts

Potted plants, bamboo utensils, or reusable shopping bags make thoughtful, sustainable presents for environmentally conscious friends. 🌱

📚 Books for the Soul

Inspire and uplift loved ones with books tailored to their interests – from motivational reads to thrilling fiction.

🎨 Creative Kits

Unleash creativity with DIY kits for painting, candle-making, or terrariums. Perfect for fostering hobbies in the new year! 🖌️

🍫 Gourmet Hampers

Assemble baskets filled with artisanal chocolates, exotic teas, and handmade cookies to delight food lovers. 🍪

🌍 Global Festivities: How Cultures Celebrate New Year’s Eve

🧧 China: Lantern Lighting and Red Envelopes

The Chinese New Year is vibrant with fireworks, dragon dances, and the giving of red envelopes for luck. Consider gifting red-themed presents symbolizing prosperity.

🎭 Brazil: Ocean Offerings

Brazilians wear white and make offerings to the sea goddess Yemanjá. A beach-themed gift set can capture this essence.

🎉 Scotland: Hogmanay Traditions

Scots celebrate with torches and hearty feasts. A bottle of premium Scotch whiskey makes a fitting tribute to their traditions.

💡 Unique Resolutions for 2025: Stepping Into a Better You

🌟 Spread Kindness

Dedicate each month to a random act of kindness. Small gestures make big differences.

📵 Digital Detox Days

Schedule tech-free days to reconnect with nature, friends, and family.

🚴‍♂️ Explore New Horizons

Try a new hobby or travel to an unexplored destination every quarter. Life is all about experiences! 🗺️

Add charm to invitation cards 🎀.

Highlight your excitement in texts and social media posts.

Create games like “Guess the Emoji” for your party.

🎆 The Perfect Year-Start Playlists

Music sets the mood. Here are some genres to suit every celebration:

🎶 Party Anthems: Dance to the beats of energetic pop hits.

🧘‍♀️ Soothing Tunes: Begin the year with calm and mindfulness.

🎸 Rock Classics: Relive timeless hits with your friends.

🌟 A Year Full of Love and Laughter

New Year 2025 is more than just a date; it’s a promise of hope, joy, and togetherness. From heartfelt celebrations to thoughtful gifts, let’s make it an unforgettable journey filled with love and positivity. Wishing you all a magical 2025! 🥂

[ageresources]

Hello! I'm an agere / petre (+ etc!) resource blog! I'm here to archive just about every resource I can find!

I may also reblog things from outside the community if I find they may be helpful or overlap!

Here is a handy tag guide! It is a work in progress! (I tag them with emojis so tumblr doesn't make other posts with just the words in them pop up)

Please feel free to tell me if I've tagged anything by the wrong tag by mistake or if you have any tag suggestions! ✨ More tags to be added + updated w/ links soon! ✨

🌱 dni banners 🌱 🌱 masterposts 🌱 🌱 terms 🌱🌱 positivity 🌱🌱 discreetly small 🌱🌱 help regressing 🌱🌱 by age range 🌱🌱 sleepy time 🌱🌱 sick day 🌱🌱 self care 🌱🌱 rules n reward systems🌱 🌷🌷🌷 🌻 🌼 🌼 🌻🌻🌷🌻

🌱 activities 🌱🌱 crafts 🌱🌱 small kit diys 🌱🌱 journaling 🌱🌱 coloring pages 🌱🌱 worksheet pages 🌱🌱 screen time🌱🌱 food 🌱🌱 stuffies 🌱

🌱 holidays 🌱🌱 christmas 🌱🌱 kwanzaa 🌱🌱 hanukkah🌱 🌱 new years 🌱 🌱 fall 🌱🌱 halloween🌱🌱 thanksgiving 🌱 🌻🌻🌻 🌼 🌻 🌻🌻 🌷 🌼🌼 🌷

🌱 petre 🌱🌱 puppyre 🌱🌱 catre 🌱🌱 bunnyre🌱🌱 bearre🌱 🌼 🌼🌼🌷 🌷 🌻 🌼🌻🌻

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[inestheunicorn]

Happy Springtime guys! 🌻 Me and the lovely @yetitia.illustration are so excited to finally bring you a huuuge Journaling Kit that we've been working on during the past months! 💐 This is a printable/digital kit of 8 pages filled with fun prompts and activities for the new season! It includes a bunch of interactive notes and popups to decorate the pages of your journal! 🌱 And there's even more! You also get 2 lovely undated calendars, that you can use any month, colourful wallpapers for desktop and mobile devices and a super cute printable envelope where you can store all your Springtime stickers and memosheets 🍓 The whole bundle is available here:

https://www.etsy.com/listing/1185485572/spring-printable-journal-planner-kit-3d

or you can also get it on @yetitia.illustration 's page as well! Happy Spring and I hope you enjoy this set! 🌳🌸🐌

[undeadself]

past couple of days ive been able to keep myself on track! really tried hard to listen to myself and not force myself to keep eating when i didn't want or need to.

today i did unfortunately overeat, but not to such a degree where i feel very bad about it. i just ate more of a snack than i probably needed to. i'm trying to be nice to myself about when i make mistakes cause it's really not the end of the world. i tend to spiral sometimes into a "ugh this is why i'm so fat, i'll never get better and i never learn" mindset and that's obviously not gonna help if i wanna recover!

i got a TON of exercise in yesterday and now i'm super sore but proud of myself. my last workout was a good while ago so it felt nice to be active again.

[undeadself]

tried the losertown website & apparently if i eat 1800 a day i could be 134lbs by december 31st this year!! that sounds like a pretty simple goal to me so i'll try and stick to it :) i can hardly imagine what it'd be like to be 134... i haven't been even close to that in years!

i switched my cal goal on my app to 1800 starting today, and today i ate 1,795 so we're off to a good start :) maybe ill do weekly updates with the cals i ate every day so i don't have to post daily but i'm still holding myself accountable. yippee

[undeadself]

🌿 december challenge day 31!

here are the rules i'm following.

☀️ breakfast

196g plain greek yogurt - 118

2 pcs 5 seed low carb bread - 222

15g strawberry jam - 41

1½ tsp butter - 51

calories - 432 🌱 protein - 28g

⛅ lunch

200g teriyaki glazed pork belly - 360

½ cup white rice - 121

½ cup cooked bok choy - 10

¼ cup sliced avocado - 58

calories - 549 🌱 protein - 17.6g

🌖 dinner

1 serv. pumpkin & onion ravioli - 255

1 serv. 4 cheese ravioli - 300

calories - 555 🌱 protein - 19.3g

🌌 snacks/dessert

pecan maple danish - 377

2 pcs mini veggie spring rolls - 75

calories - 452 🌱 protein - 8.7g

🌿 . . .

calories: 1,988 -- protein: 73.6g

🌿 . . .

summary: the very last day of the challenge. the numbers here are probably not the most accurate ever but that's alright. decent protein, could've been higher considering the calories.

anyway, let's review how i did. i really only had a handful of days where i overate/b1nged which is good. i had a surprising amount of days where i underate. i didn't do so well with my exercise goals, but i at least exercised more overall than last month. and i kept up with posting! i'm surprised i managed to get through a whole 31 days of logging and posting and remembering to do it all.

as for how the numbers changed... i'm actually not sure. there's some factors at play that are temporarily affecting my weight, to put it vaguely. i'll monitor how it changes the next week or two.

so that's it! and now we're in the new year. my hope for this year is to finally see some significant change after being so slow for so long. i'll do my best to move more and eat smarter. i'd like to do more things like this challenge in the future, honestly, it really helped keep me accountable with my fitness goals. maybe i'll set something up, who knows.

[undeadself]

🌿 december challenge day 30!

here are the rules i'm following.

☀️ breakfast

whole fresh mango - 192

175g plain greek yogurt - 105

calories - 297 🌱 protein - 17.7g

⛅ lunch

nasi goreng with chicken, bacon, & egg - 717

lemon lime slush - 119

calories - 836 🌱 protein - 60.4g

🌖 dinner

60g grilled chicken - 118

1 beef kebab - 74

85g pork sausage - 229

½ cup quinoa salad - 75

chickpea & kidney bean salad - 140

calories - 636 🌱 protein - 52.2g

🌌 snacks/dessert

2 small servs. banoffee pie - 357

calories - 357 🌱 protein - 4.5g

🌿 . . .

calories: 2,126 -- protein: 134.7g

🌿 . . .

summary: ate a lot today! i got invited to a cookout and the food was very good. i felt like i could afford to eat a little more than usual since i really underated yesterday. and i got plenty of protein in! today was a good day. just one more day to go and then that's the end of the challenge!!

[undeadself]

late posting twice in a row. oh no!

🌿 december challenge day 29!

here are the rules i'm following.

☀️ breakfast

2 pcs 5 seed lower carb bread - 222

2 tsp butter - 68

30g strawberry jam - 81

140g plain greek yogurt - 84

calories - 456 🌱 protein - 23.4g

⛅ lunch

3 pcs salmon sushi roll - 117

3 pcs chicken teriyaki sushi roll - 75

2 pcs steamed prawn dumpling - 96

handful of french fries - 89

15g tandoori mayo - 78

2 tsp soy sauce - 4

1 tbsp pickled ginger - 5

calories - 463 🌱 protein - 24.5g

🌔 dinner

5 pcs dry rub wings - 450

12 oz lightly sweetened iced tea - 48

calories - 498 🌱 protein - 38g

🌌 snacks/dessert

1 ferrero rocher chocolate - 74

calories - 74 🌱 protein - 1g

🌿 . . .

calories: 1,491 -- protein: 86.8

🌿 . . .

summary: calories are much lower than i'd like today, but my protein is great! this morning i found myself craving something sweet so i tried making myself something nutritious and high protein while including some sweetness with the jam. and it worked! craving satisfied without immediately jumping to taking the much easier route of eating premade sweets.

[undeadself]

late posting again :P

🌿 december challenge day 28!

here are the rules i'm following.

☀️ breakfast

2 whole eggs fried in butter - 186

4 pcs bacon - 173

2 tsp ketchup - 15

calories - 374 🌱 protein - 26g

⛅ lunch

nothing :P

🌔 dinner

leftover steak burritos with rice & cheese - 740

2 tbsp hot honey barbecue sauce - 60

calories - 800 🌱 protein - 47.1g

🌌 snacks/dessert

5g dried seaweed snacks - 24

10 pcs cashews - 86

2 slices baguette & 7g strawberry jam - 182

206g edamame & 2 tsp crunchy garlic chili oil - 393

whittakers mini milk chocolate slab - 84

calories - 770 🌱 protein - 39.8g

🌿 . . .

calories: 1,944 -- protein: 112.9g

🌿 . . .

summary: woah! i went over my protein goal! i was hungrier today because i did a fairly difficult workout in the morning, but i was able to keep what i ate to pretty high protein stuff. reasonable amount of sweets! i'm proud of myself for working out and eating well.

[undeadself]

🌿 december challenge day 27!

here are the rules i'm following.

☀️ breakfast

nothing :P

⛅ lunch

grilled tuna burger - 510

700ml coconut water - 135

calories - 645 🌱 protein - 37.1g

🌔 dinner

200g grilled sirloin steak - 352

150g ratatouille - 123

1 cup scalloped potatoes - 216

calories - 691 🌱 protein - 62.5g

🌌 snacks/dessert

dark chocolate dole banana dippers - 100

3 chocolate chip cookies - 330

3 pcs ferrero rocher - 221

calories - 651 🌱 protein - 7.3g

🌿 . . .

calories: 1,987 -- protein: 106.9g

🌿 . . .

summary: quite pleased with my protein today! and as you can see i had quite a fancy dinner. i had the same lunch as yesterday but didn't like it as much as the first time at all. went a bit overboard with the desserts, all the sugar honestly gave me a headache so idk why i did that :/ other than that though today was pretty good.

[undeadself]

🌿 december challenge day 26!

here are the rules i'm following.

☀️ breakfast

nothing :P

⛅ lunch

grilled tuna burger (was sooo good) - 510

calories - 510 🌱 protein - 32g

🌔 dinner

beef & veggie stir fry - 452

2 tbsp rice - 30

a few bites of my mom's carbonara lol - 101

calories - 583 🌱 protein - 39.8g

🌌 snacks/dessert

600ml coconut water - 116

various cheeses i had as a snack - 111

10 cashews - 86

whittakers berry forest slab mini - 79

5 pcs ferrero rocher (various flavors) - 263

calories - 698 🌱 protein - 17.4g

🌿 . . .

calories: 1,792 -- protein: 89.2g

🌿 . . .

summary: quite happy with today! made up for the fact i woke up too late for breakfast by having the cheese, cashews, & coconut water between lunch and dinner. all my meals today were satisfying and really tasty :) and i had the chocolates for a fun little dessert treat. my protein turned out great today! my injury is feeling better too so i can work out again soon.