#��... yael's talking

[acid-ixx]

Jon accidentally showing Damian a photo of reader, (I LOVE YOUR NEW FICS, IM OBSESSED, YOU'RE A TALENTED WRITER PLEASE LIVE FOREVER)

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yall hahaha... i got a fever for 2 whole days and just recovered right now hence why i wasnt able to reply to asks since i was in so much pain 💔 but anyways—

OMG 😭 !!! this is so beautiful wth ?? the confused look that damian gives jon, jon literally saying "they've been my parent ever since" like yes !! the fact that jon already sees you as a parental figure the moment clark meets you is such a wonderful implication. you don't need to prove yourself to the kent family to be considered as part of theirs, and i think that's such an opposing symbolism towards the batfamily because after all the times you tried your best to be there for them, all the wasted efforts— just for everything to be nothing. but with the kent family, all you need to do is greet them with a smile then suddenly you're part of their lives forever and ever. and yes, there's times where clark refuses you to go outside but with jon's company, you wouldn't really find a way to complain, right?

tysm for sending this in ! it is so pretty and ofc i love how you drew jon and damian in your artstyle and idk if it's intentional but the slight curl in jon's hair reminds me of superman's curl.

and for everyone, ty all for literally blowing up the fanfic?? i didn't expect it to get so much traction since i didn't have much of a direction for how i want it to go but yes i will write more for the series (hence the "#series" tag)

also... watch out for an upcoming soulmate au because... why not hehe

[perilegs]

chat do we think i have a type

[jewishcissiekj]

Look at my Doctor dawg I'm going to fulfill my Mutant drea- *gunshot* (my Moira ramblings and other stuff under the cut)

it's no secret that I'm fond of evil women but honestly at first I did like Moira for her kind heart (helping found Krakoa<3) and selfless actions (killing her son<3) and for being played by Rose Byrne but her immoral behaviors have captivated my heart and I love her for being her awful self now. And. Obviously the Hickman Moira X retcon does not line up with most everything in her old comics but I do find it fascinating to look at classic Moira through the retcon lens, since it's not like she's a saint to begin with and there's a fun quality to her knowledge and experience and the facade she supposedly puts on. Visually I fell in love with her because of Rose Byrne but likeness is hard to capture so let's pretend I combined Rose Byrne and comic Moira for this drawing lmao (I did work with a pinterest board full of pictures of both so i did technically do that)

also, I took pictures of this drawing at different stages and I think it's cool seeing how it changes

and the full picture of the current drawing before i adjusted it digitally a bit

I also doodled a few Muir Island residents around her and gave them some colors even if I don't really like how they came out

overall I think Moira's an awful woman and I love her for it and she's compelling sometimes which is nice and I think she looks cool and she's invaded my brain and it'll take a while to get her out and I have a few AUs centering her running around in my mind ok that's all (yes I drew her with no eyebrows so just pretend her bangs are covering them)

[143aina]

An acquaintance of mine asked what is my type. I couldn't answer.

Why is that? Because it is personal, and also because they wouldn't understand if I tell them my type is Yael. From @/kleinv01

[docholligay]

The Lions of Al-Rassan

Non-spoilery: A very interesting take on what it means to have something be “fantasy”. It actually kind of worked for me: This is an alt history of the crumbling of Moorish Spain.  There are no dragons or wizards or whatever the fuck. It calls itself fantasy because it renames the Jews and Christians and Muslims and El Cid and all that shit and then does whatever the fuck it wants with the history. I love a good Not!Place, but also...I would have accused this book of presentism VIOLENTLY. But then it calls itself fantasy. The fantasy is that people living in Asharite Spain on the edge of the Reconquista are going to act in ways entirely palatable to a mid 90s Canadian dude. And you know? WEIRDLY I WAS VERY FINE WITH THAT. It felt very truth in advertising. But I can only be pushed so far and boy did it sail on past that.

SPOILERY:

You ever read something, and have a BIG problem with it, and that big problem magnifies all the tiny problems you had with it? This was me and the Lions of Al-Rassan.

If you haven’t read this, you need to know a few offhand terms: Asharite = Muslim, Jaddite = Christian, Kindath = Jewish. This is very unsubtle in the text, so I promise you I am not stretching this when I say that. I’m not saying that in a negative way! Just a truthful one.

The good:

I love fake!Europe shit, like most basic Western bitches, because I know enough to never feel lost, but there’s a lot of flexibility there. I thought it was clever the way Kay has all three religions worshiping different aspects of the same sky in a none-too-subtle tip of the hand to his own thoughts on the matter.

I know I talked about this above, but I LOVED this sort of take on what it means for a book to be “fantasy” to a point. I feel Kay pressed that point til it bled, but I don’t think it always HAS to be that way, if he had backed it off JUST a hair, I think it could have killed. But make no mistake, Rodrigo and Jehane and Ammar act exactly the way you hope they will.

I thought it presented the history really well for people who had no idea. You would not need to know anything about the Iberian peninsula, including like, where it is, in order to enjoy this book.

There are SOME characters that you are allowed to love and hate in equal measure, or not understand. Unfortunately, they are all side characters, but I appreciate it anyway. The various kings of the lands are presented as imperfect beings at best.

The bad:

I mean, this is more the eh, but it’s hilarious to me that they try and set Rodrigo up as a distinctive choice for Jehane when we know like, from the word go that she’s going to end up with Ammar. I mean, come on. I didn’t care for the love triangle aspect anyhow, but this was just silly.

For fuck’s sake. For, the sake of fuck. The moment I gave up on this book was the moment they had a fucking blind man do brain surgery in the desert and the kid does so fine he grows up to be royal advisor. And this is after me giving the book MULTIPLE leaps in this direction. I waved it off, and waved it off, and when it came to this, a moment that could have actually been about the fucking bill for war, and how it comes to door, and when you live by the sword you die by it, but that’s not the issue, when you live by it, people who admire you choose to live by it as well, and in that, THEY sometimes die by it, and you have to know it was you that brought them there. Then, this brain surgery that doesn’t always work NOW, and certainly not without the risk of lasting damage (SKULL SMASHED IN BY A WAR HAMMER) works perfectly and fine and I was done. I was emotionally fucking done with the book. It could have done almost anything from that point on and could not have saved it, but only because this was a REPEATED offense, and this was the time they expected me to get emotionally involved.

Jehane never fails. Her father never fails. She either says it can’t be done, or she wins the day, but she never tries to save a patient and bitterly fails. This annoyed me, given the arts she was working with.

the ugly:

Eta: I am CLEARLY so much angrier about this next part than I thought I was. You’ve been warned, rant incoming

The 90s were a different time than the time in which I am currently living but Jesus “We killed him once and we’ll do it again” Christ, who do I have to kill for every Kindath not to be a peerless and upstanding moral fortress of loyalty and good? I don’t know if Kay is trying to exorcise something, or if he’s Jewish and trying to make people like Jews, or whatever, but I grew REAL tired of every single Kindath being a saint. It’s one thing to have Jehane lash herself the mast of her oath and refuse to go against it even in the face of the murderers of her own people, even in the face of the slaughterers of children. Great. We love an oath that takes its signature in blood in this house.

It’s quite another to have every single motherfucking Jew standin gracefully take horrific fucking treatment without deeply held resentment or desire for revenge. Her father is literally BLINDED and has his TONGUE CUT OUT for saving the kind’s mistress, and he says he’d do it again because of his oath to Galinus. I think it might have been appropriate for him to maybe not let that one go. Or for Jehane not to let that one go.

Actually--you know, I actually could have not just taken this, but loved this if it ever REALLY cost her something. So early in the novel she says she is going to make the king who did this fucking pay. I love that for her. But the book removes this from her aspect. Not only is she not the one who kills him, she’s not even there when it happens. So you have this moment where she could have been between her anger and her oath, and it could have been really compelling, but you don’t ever actually believe her anger. Because Kay sets the Kindath up as these people constantly fucking apologizing for being murdered.

Even Mazur, the advisor who is probably the closest to being a not-fantastic-all-th-time (but basically though) Kindath, chooses to sacrifice himself to torture and death to save his king. A Kindath who is murdered in the street by an Asharite mob was trying to save an Asharite child. Jehane hears about the destruction of a Jewish town, hears about babies being cut in two by swords for the crime of being born Kindath, and when Rodrigo is like “Oh, I am so sad, for I told you my people were to be trusted, and now they are not :(” Jehane, instead of saying something like, ‘I know what your people are, even if you don’t.” or something appropriately salty, is like, ‘I know it wasn’t you :) I would never judge you by your people:) You’re not like other girls :)” And you know what? Fuck you.

This probably wouldn’t have bothered me if it was JUST Jehane, but all the Kindath have this sort of thing going on. No one is angry. No one is resentful. No one wants to tell the Asharites or Jaddites to go fuck themselves, even in their own homes. It would have been nice to at least have Jehane be human enough to let whether or not Garcia de Rada (For those who haven’t read: A murderer and rapist) got an infection on his fucking cheek be between him and God, whichever that might be. But no, we can’t do that, because we’re a Kindath character, and so we have to tell him to clean up.

I did not actually realize how much this bothered me until I was sitting here writing this, but CLEARLY it did.

Also, I rolled my eyes so heavily when her parents were like, “That’s fine! We’re happy you found someone who doesn’t share our culture or ways of being, whose people have murdered ours whenever things get too hot. As long as you’re happy, honey!” There’s less struggle than Fiddler on the fucking Roof.

For all this, I actually wouldn’t say I hate this book! I just think it’s middling. A solid 5/10, 7/10 once I chill out maybe. I love the POSSIBILITY of it, I love the IDEA of it, but it ends up being more of a romance in many ways than it does a sweeping alt-history. I loved the first oh, 300 pages or so of it, and gave it a pass on the medical nonsense and presentism until it just passed a point for me where I was like “give a bitch a break”. I would not recommend this for people looking for complex Jewish characters. The Kindath don’t get to be complex. They get to be perfect victims.

[yaelibex]

sometimes all u need to do to feel better from the big sad is to moo at your childhood friend

[pokemonranch]

//Woah this one really broke containment. Im... Happy about it? I think??

Hey did you know that running into a bunch of Wooloos at night look EXTREMELY MENACING

[gregorycddie]

i hadn't even recognised her at first in matlock so it's amazing that my brain still automatically goes 'lesbian' whenever i see yael grobglas in a show

[fried-marshmelon]

There isn’t a version of me that could have looked away from you

[acid-ixx]

Okay, how about we call Alfred dad??? Sense he raised us and practically is our dad. Sorry I keep on asking. I just am a thinker

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a/n: don't be sorry for asking ! i like answering asks even if i do answer really slowly, so don't be afraid to send in questions ! this is a continuation to this ask.

it would actually be a given that if the reader wasn't too broken to the point that they genuinely could never consider anyone as a father figure, then alfred would be someone they would call their dad.

because at least in their 15 years they had been inside the manor, alfred would always be the one who would stand by their side. even if it's not always, he would be there for you when he could. and that effort alone is enough to consider him worthy as your father.

pre-yandere bruce wouldn't even know of your tight-knit relationship with alfred; calling him dad when you skip through the halls with him, calling him your "actual father" whenever you two would bake together, and even going as far as gifting him a mug with 'no. 1 dad!' painted sloppily into the ceramic. alfred would even teach you how to crochet, so you two would get matching sweaters for winter. although alfred wouldn't wear the sweater for the sake of formality, you would always be aware that he stores them somewhere safe and warm as some sort of treasure.

so, imagine just how heartbroken bruce would be once you are abducted by your family, calling out to your dad in your drugged state on your bed, bruce thinking that it was him that you're calling for help when all of a sudden, you make grabby-hands towards alfred, eyes hazily looking at the butler with such desperation that it feels like alfred is your actual father.

seeing you two act so close, bruce would be so, so conflicted. because at least, in the years of solitude you had spent, you find comfort in the very same man bruce considers as his father figure. but at the same time it should've been him that you call your father, it should've been bruce you look at for help and guidance, it should've been him that lulls you back to sleep, wiping the tears that run down your face.

it breaks his heart even further once he discovers all the little trinkets that you make for alfred, all the inside jokes you two share, the gifts you cherish in your cabinets from the apartment you used to live in; they were all from alfred— bruce wants to kick himself realizing that he never made an effort to gift you anything in your 15 years of living in the manor as a ghost.

bruce swears on his life that he'll make it up to you, that despite him being unable to stay the night frequently with you that he'll make it up during the day. he'll take you to business meetings, to arcades, to malls; literally anywhere to get you to bond with him as much as you did alfred.

he'll schedule holidays where the entire family is required to join and you'll be the center of attention. your birthdays will be extravagant, he would spend millions to make a show that you're his favorite child; that means he'll spoil you with gifts that pertain to your hobbies. and because your family loves you so much, please do expect a minimum of 10 gifts prepared by all your siblings and a credit card with no limit for bruce.

oh? you don't need material things? don't worry, you'll be surprised with just how meticulously your father would plan for vacations. any place you would choose would be taken into heavy consideration, even planning with him would feel like some sort of father-child bonding.

but really, he'll commit all his time and effort for you.

bruce would do everything to make you consider him as your dad.

[acid-ixx]

WHY ARE A LOT OF MY READERS HERE HAHAHA

i promise it's not because i lost interest but rather the amount of scenes there is in the entire again &. again series. i'm not fucking w/ y'all when i say almost the entire thing is planned out and the other characters aren't even introduced YET 😭 (selina kyle, talia makes an appearance, kate kane, a mystery character, etc). the next chapters are even more complicated and i've a lot of doubts whether people are going to like the direction of the story, so we'll see how it goes.

but if u guys want to know the main reason why i started again &. again, it's mainly because i was sad that klemen-tine's work, glass bones and paper skin, wasn't updating yet now here i am also not updating ☠️

otherwise, i have a lot of drafts waiting to be posted, so once i finish like 50 other assignments, i'll try to post more often again.

WHY EVERY NEGLECTED READER/YANDERE BATFAM SERIES I LIKE ALWAYS SUDDENLY ENDED UP IN HIATUS?!?!?!

Me rn:

[jewishcissiekj]

why is there nothing in the "from the ashes" era about the fact that a) with Krakoa fucking off to the white hot room, most non-x-men mutants (which is a lot since they resurrected Genosha) are not even on earth and b) that the non-x-men mutants who went to krakoa and came back after the fall of orchis are 15 years older than they were when they left. because. i think those are two very important factors in the current state of mutants but they were weirdly not adressed at all so far.

[cherishedteddie]

Takes a mental health day ( off from work ) to stay home and be mentally ill ( finish the last season of degrassi next class and cry my fucking eyes out )

[warriorfujoshi]

have to stop playing lkyt for today bc im pooped from all that hardcore visual novel gaming™ 😮‍💨 did all of takeru’s “good” ending and yael’s bad end tho!! and… (✧__✧) just know i want yael so bad it makes me look stupid. simply Trust that… he will be dealt with.

[acid-ixx]

— masterlist !

this is so... do u know just how much i am willing to sell my soul for u ??? all the drawings perfectly encapsulate all the emotions right 😭 your tags are so true, trans reader ftw !! that would definitely up the angst and ruin their relationship w/ the batfam for the absolute worst ☠️ the amount of effort you have put into this is astounding, im literally just so baffled by every single detail like you making their siblings merely silhouettes with no face means so much because they don't feel or look like family. hell, even the teacher has a face which (for me) means they probably saw their teacher in an even better light and conner omg !! his appearance in the mv is so significant to the plot point, like it is with my one draft about dick with the titans because they're bound to notice them better than their own siblings.

p.s. i saw the poll results and it's official that conner is now a love interest hehe, specifically the 90's vers hehe

@acid-ixx here it is :))

(excluding first three drawings)

first drawing:

dick's excuse would always be "sorry, baby bird! but i promised to spar with damian today. ah, but you can watch from the sidelines!" or he would be too busy saving bludhaven to even acknowledge your presence.

second drawing:

you can't deny the bitterness and the clenching of your teeth whenever you stumble upon a room and see your father and your younger brother watching a movie together.

third drawing:

it was your teachers who would be the one having to walk you up the stage whenever you achieved an award. alfred would be too busy sometimes to attend your school ceremonies because he had to assist bruce with missions.

fourth drawing:

it's ironic, really, for a child to prep and plan for their own celebration just to hope that a single member of their family to even walk by the kitchen and join them in on their already lonesome celebration.

too bad everybody only goes to the kitchen when alfred cooks for them. who would want to taste sadness in a sloppily made birthday cake, right? nobody, not even you would have the appetite to eat your cake with the knowledge that it was you who had to put all the effort to bake it because you didn't want alfred to feel obligated to.

fifth drawing:

your family celebrates holidays together as a whole, but you never once attended after that one time where everybody had forgotten to get you a gift for christmas, save for alfred who gave you a bracelet (one that you cherished deeply).

sixth drawing:

the older sibling who he used to threaten with his sword, who he called vile names — a bastard child, he told you one day.

seventh drawing:

you weren't one of his friends, like kon who he would spend weekly video game challenges with; and you probably don't exist as his sibling in his own little world filled with coffee and computers.

eighth drawing:

casual talks are unavoidable, though, when at the dead of the night he would be caught sneaking in to eat some leftovers and you were conveniently awake at the same time as him. he'll recommend you some classic literature he read or 'cafes/restaurants that criminals visit the least' lists, but before it would turn into a full conversation, jason would already be wearing his signature mask again, and with a pat on your head and a "talk to you soon, can't guarantee it'll be tomorrow again though, only here for alfred's meals of course," and he'll be gone. you shouldn't have let your hopes high, you wished you didn't because, duh! he wasn't there to talk to you, specifically. you were just there to bide his time! wiping tears away from your eyes

[yaelibex]

sometims ibispaint on phone just makes me feel lazy in loading the ads for extra and cooler brushes 乁⁠(⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠ര⁠ ⁠ʖ̯⁠ ⁠ര⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠)⁠ㄏ ive been using the default ones