#﹙ ❀ ， 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒒𝒖𝒚 ... sungjae 。 ﹚

[earlydew]

@entityforged sent , [ lonely ] sender finds receiver alone in a dark room ( noah + sungjae )

    papers were scattered all over his bed, evidence of his futile attempts to write as that's how he sungjae had chosen to spend his birthday. he felt thoroughly jaded. another year older, yet he was not where he had hoped to be in both his personal and professional life. just as he dwelled on those thoughts, the door to the room creaked open and it wasn't difficult for him to discern who it was. he let out a tired sigh but remained still in his bed. “ whatever you have to say, can we talk about it later? i'm not in the mood. ”

[earlydew]

     “ yeah, you're right. ” his voice quivered as he let out a faint chuckle. just like how it was easier for him to dream about success than to face the harsh reality of failure, it felt like the universe was playing jokes on him. “ i.... i don't know yet. maybe i just need to give myself the space to breathe and see where life takes me. ” @neveraftcr

" i get it... it's easier to think about, harder to actually do it until something comes along that just forces you into a decision. where would you go? what would you do? "

[earlydew]

muse: sungjae shin, 26, he/him, true crime podcaster. open to: 23-30. significant other/friend/anyone he came back to his hometown with. lowkey inspired by that one line in 'all too well' 😔. beta editor.

     sungjae's footsteps halted as he emerged from the washroom, eyes widening as they fell upon the other who was deeply engrossed in perusing the photo frames adorned on the shelf in the living room. “ hey, hey, no snooping through the baby pictures! ” sungjae chimed in with a coy smile, cheeks flushing slightly. “ i swear my mom put them up there on purpose. i don't remember these being here the last time i visited. ”

[earlydew]

closed starter for @neveraftcr ! ♡

     " what's it like? to leave everything behind and start fresh? "

[earlydew]

closed starter for @2minus ! ♡

     " i thought you teaching me how to cook would be all soft and friendly, like the great british bake-off ... but it's more like hell's kitchen. "

[earlydew]

     “ i was ahead of my time back then! ” sungjae replied playfully. his laughter echoed through the room as he tried to reach for the photo frame from his boyfriend's grasp but couldn't quite take a hold of it. finally admitting defeat, he let out a playful sigh and instead wrapped his arms around mj's shoulders, pulling him closer until their bodies were pressed together. “ you're a little shit. ” a fond smile played on his lips, his crooked brows reflecting his curiosity and amusement at the other's words. “ destined for fame, huh? maybe not in the conventional sense, but i think fate had a better idea and plans for me. ”

“i’m  not  snooping.  i’m  looking.  appreciating,  if  you  will.”  it’s  not  snooping  if  it’s  put  up  for  display  from  the  start.  mj  laughs  and  picks  the  photo  frame  up  and  out  of  sungjae’s  reach.  “look  at  you,  rocking  that  jumpsuit  with  yellow  socks.  damn,  isn’t  5  years  old  too  young  to  be  a  fashionista?”  he  teases  him  even  more,  chuckling  as  he  takes  in  the  details  of  the  photograph  despite  his  boyfriend’s  protests.  “you  were  destined  for  fame,  let  me  tell  you.  how  can  anyone  not  fall  for  that  smile?”  he  did  and  he  cannot  say  he’s  regretted  it  so  far.

[earlydew]

closed starter delivery for , @anti-rcmantic ♡

    “ did i mean nothing at all? was i just another ghost that's been in your bed? ”

[earlydew]

     " are you sure the food you've been feeding yourself is edible? " sungjae raised an eyebrow, a mix of amusement and concern on his face. " i guess i'll have to trust you on this one, even if it means risking a potential stomach ache. "

'i never said that i am amazing at cooking, just that i am able to feed myself,' mireu complained softly back, looking over the mess they caused. 'don't worry, it's going to taste great and we simply put everything in the dish washer,' nobody needed to know about putting in what he wasn't supposed to.

[earlydew]

     " no– well, maybe. lately i've just been feeling a bit stuck, you know? it's hard to explain... it's scary to step into the unknown, but the thought of staying in a place where i feel like i'm simply existing rather than truly living is even scarier. "

" exhilarating but terrifying. very, very scary. but i don't know, sometimes it's just the only thing you can do. why? thinking of running off and leaving everything? "