#心碎了

[shirozen]

Noise of a shattered heart

[jingyuanyuan]

(Observations from Chinese fandom idk what it’s like in the English side, also idk translations for some of the names of things)

A lot of blade fans dislike jingliu (hmm perhaps for killing their guy hundreds of times) but I think people forget jingliu was possibly the most direct victim of the incident. She had to kill the cursed dragon made from baiheng’s flesh (I don’t read liuheng fics but I kind of passively ship them because it makes this more knife and more tasty) which basically immediately triggered her mys and drove her insane (altho she was already very old 1000+ by this point) so effectively Dan feng and ying xing caused her death as well, and thus altho she considers herself one of the 3 sinners due to going insane and killing fellow soldiers, you could also consider that to be Dan feng and yingxing’s fault too. From this point on jingliu is dead, and iirc the document in game says the casualty count was in the thousands and I don’t think jingliu killed blade that many times, if you want to calculate it like that.

I’m not a blade 推 he’s just very interesting to me, his suffering fascinates me lol, I’m a jing yuan 推 tho so I suppose I also have complicated feelings about the current, mys jingliu because of the trouble she and luocha did and will bring to xianzhou and thus jing yuan… she really is not herself anymore. The jingliu who taught jing yuan 吾等云骑，如云翳障空，卫庇仙舟 is gone… that jingliu would never use the lives of everyone on luofu as just another means to achieve her goals.

And if you look at blade altho he is probably normal most of the time when he’s not exposed to mys triggering things from his interaction with firefly he seems pretty quite and reserved (altho still cracks jokes which were then heavily memed hhh 点刀哥经典语录：死不了) which is very different from famously arrogant yingxing. That arrogance was probably why he helped Dan feng, for Dan feng he also had to consider this could be the way to save the future of his race but for yingxing I interpret his motivation as helping a friend and the short lived race’s desire to do what no one has done before and leave his mark before he’s gone. Blade probably considers his arrogance as one of the fatal character flaws that led to the disaster. I suppose time both sands down ones edges and wears away everything but the most pure desires and goals, and everything else is in service of that goal. For blade the goal is his eventual death, for jingliu it’s to kill yaoshi, and altho jing yuan hasn’t mys-ed you could say for him it’s all in service of luofu

[murderedbyhomework]

Li Xiangyi is the sun, Li Lianhua is the moon, but have you ever considered:

There’s not much difference between the sun and the moon, really, not in the end. The sun might be brighter, it might be more magnetic and all consuming and eye catching, so that you can’t help but stare at it even as its light blinds you, the moon might be paler and more damaged, it might be dimmer and easier to stare at for ages, but they’re both the same, in the end. They’re both beautiful yet so so distant, hanging in the sky more precious than any jewel you could want, but they’re unreachable, you could leap into the sky, you could throw yourself into the sea just to catch its mirage, but you’ll never touch them. That’s okay though, because even as you plummet from the sky or sink into the depths of the ocean, you can derive comfort from the way their light caressed you for an instant. And that makes it all worth it, doesn't it?

[antsloveyun]

[lacyen]

Có thể để lại một câu nói chữa lành gửi tặng tớ được không? (phần 2)

1. 日落是免费的，春夏秋冬也是，不要觉得人��是那么无望，希望你也快乐!

Hoàng hôn miễn phí, xuân hạ thu đông cũng vậy, đừng cảm thấy cuộc đời này là vô nghĩa, hi vọng cậu hạnh phúc!

2. 世界上最美好的事情大概就是：WiFi信号满格，对方正在输入，水温刚好，旧衣服里的零钱, 快递正在派送，出门是晴天，手机还有1%刚好到家，喜欢的人刚好也喜欢自己。一切都刚刚好

Những điều đẹp đẽ nhất trên thế giới này có lẽ là: wifi luôn full vạch, đối phương đang nhập (tin nhắn), nước ấm vừa đủ, tiền lẻ trong quần áo cũ, đơn hàng đang trên đường giao, ra cửa là ngày nắng, vừa hay về đến nhà khi điện thoại còn 1% pin, người bạn thích trùng hợp cũng thích bạn. Mọi thứ thật vừa vặn.

3. 每天看到的那些不美好而伤心的。我们生下来的时候就已经哭够了，而且我们啊，谁也不能活着回去，所以，不要把时间都用来低落了. 去相信，去孤单，去爱去恨去浪费，去闯去梦去后悔，你一定要相信，不会有到不了的明天.

Mỗi ngày đều vì gặp chuyện không tốt mà đau lòng. Chúng ta ấy à, khi sinh ra đã khóc đủ nhiều rồi, làm gì có ai có thể quay trở lại quá khứ được đâu, vì vậy, đừng để thời gian trôi qua lãng phí. Hãy cứ tin tưởng, hãy cứ cô đơn, cứ yêu, cứ hận, và cứ lãng phí đi, hãy xông lên, mơ ước, hối hận, cậu nhất định phải tin rằng, không có ngày mai nào là không đến.

4. 生活不可能像你想象得那么好，但也不会像你想象得那么差

Cuộc sống sẽ không thể tốt đẹp như cậu nghĩ, nhưng cũng không xấu như cậu tưởng tượng.

5. 你就做自己吧，有点奇怪也没关系，和别人不一样也没关系，我永远站在你这边.

Cậu hãy cứ là chính mình thôi, có một chút kì lạ cũng không sao cả, không giống mọi người cũng không sao cả, tớ sẽ mãi luôn ở bên cạnh cậu.

6. 愿你一生努力，一生被爱。想要的都拥有，得不到的都释怀

Mong cậu một đời nỗ lực, cả đời được yêu. Muốn gì được nấy, không được cũng không cần phải đắn đo.

7. 太阳下山，夜里也有灯打开，你看这个世界其实并不坏。

Khi mặt trời xuống núi, bóng đêm cũng sẽ được thắp đèn, cậu nhìn xem, thế giới này thực ra cũng không hề xấu xa đâu.

8. 你也有自己的宇宙，不要再敏感和易碎了，多关照自己的情绪和身体，你也很辛苦，我都知道. 你的眼泪多么珍贵呀，以后只在喜极而泣的时候哭吧.

Cậu cũng có vũ trụ của riêng mình, đừng nhạy cảm và mong manh nữa, hãy chăm sóc cơ thể và tâm hồn mình, cậu rất vất vả rồi, tớ biết chứ. Nước mắt của cậu quý giá lắm đó, sau này hãy chỉ rơi vì hạnh phúc thôi.

9. 愿你所有快乐，无需假装。愿你此生尽兴，赤诚善良

Mong tất cả hạnh phúc, đều không phải giả vờ. Mong một đời thoải mái, đều là chân thành và lương thiện.

10. 每件事到最后一定会变成一件好事，如果还没有，说明还没有到最后

Mỗi một việc đều sẽ trở nên tốt đẹp khi đi đến cuối cùng, nếu nó chưa tốt, vậy nhất định là chưa đi đến cuối cùng.

Lạc Yến dịch

[a-putain]

“不要忘记今天是什么日子哦”

我的主人，菊地小姐在我耳边轻声呼唤；我猛地想起，今天便是我即将被她宰杀的日子。

“是的，主人，我已经完全准备好了”我告诉她。

她用细绳反绑我的双手，然后脱下日常的衣服，露出做饭时的比基尼并戴上一身围裙。在她的指示下，我躺在菜板上，仰面朝天，赤裸的身体一览无遗地暴露在菊地小姐面前。

“真是壮硕的鸡巴呢，就这么宰掉真是可惜。你想不想活下来呀？”她轻轻抚慰我的阴茎，剥开包皮，甚至揉搓龟头，令我兴奋无比。

我坚定地摇摇头：被主人宰杀是我的荣幸，我怎肯放弃这份荣誉？

于是菊地小姐满足了我的要求：她先是用刀背在我的脖子上划来划去，让我提前感受被割喉的快感；然后，她趁着我的阴茎涨成紫红色的某个瞬间，迅速地将刀插入我的喉咙，通过锁骨之间的缝隙直抵心脏。

瞬间，我的鲜血喷涌而出，却在菊地小姐双手、双足的抚慰下没有带来多少痛苦；事实上，她正同时按摩着我的两颗乳头和阴茎，让极度性愉悦抵消了被割喉宰杀时的疼痛。在巨大的羞耻与愉悦作用下，我最终在菊地小姐的抚慰下射出精液；射精量之大前所未见，玷污了菊地小姐的双脚和围裙。而她却对此并不生气，因为为被宰杀的男奴排精本就是一项必要的操作；因为只有排过精的男奴，肉质才不会骚。

最终，我的阴茎也因为失去血压而变得绵软，菊地小姐继续用玉足抚慰、挤压之，直到龟头变得苍白，直到最后一滴精液也被从我的身体榨出。随后，她终于可以进行下一步。

菊地将我的身体剖开，从胸口到小腹。她掏干净我的内脏并丢弃，只留下一副空的皮囊，随后将我大卸八块，并按照肉质的优劣分门别类地摆放好。最后，她邀请她的女友前来，一同享用我的肉体：我最终被她们消化，永久地成为她们的一部分...

至于骨头，菊地小姐另有处理：她将我的骨头打碎、埋葬在后花园里，第二年春天，这片土地上果然开出了最美的花朵。菊地小姐蹲在地上，手指抚慰花瓣，如抚慰我的龟头那般温柔：“你看，男奴果然可以被利用得如此彻底呢”

[beyourselfchulanmaria]

(づ￣ ³￣)づ 紋身🌸一朵花女兒 Tattoo 🌸 a flower adorable daughter (she got it a couple week ago/ her first one.)

上週到這週我和女兒見面約會兩次；自從她從紐西蘭回來之後，她又隻身去了一趟南韓/釜山過聖誕節假期，並且她正兼職和學習鉤針手藝課忙碌於準備今年快則二月、慢則三月將去愛爾蘭自助旅遊和工作，她告訴我學習手藝若在愛爾蘭鄉村工作之餘她才不會無聊 。🥱😜haha

她兩週前到另一個城市刺青，這是她人生的第一朵七彩小花刺青，我覺得超可愛的，花兒挺像她的風格。然後我告訴她：我怎麼第一眼聯想到「奧運會標誌」。😂 她又告訴我：她將會在手腕處再買一個刺青是中文字：「羽」。（羽毛 🪶的’羽’是她的中文名字的最後一個字。) um hummm… sounds cool! 😎 🫶 and 我跟女兒說：聽過有此一説～”但凡刺青之人都會對紋身上癮。”😏🤔

説真的，我很喜歡觀察並且好奇研究別人身上的刺青。我曾經夢想過、也被承諾過要和心愛的人一起去刺青作為「永生的紀念」，但遺憾的是我的命中不可能會有這樣的事：一生永遠在一起/雙雙對對，因為只要任何人變成我的夢，這夢就會碎。🥲💩🦕

昨天紋身🌸一朵花女兒 lol 來我的工作室，她來教會我關於如何把智能手機便利且普遍地使用在現代人與生活結合的一些瑣事 😵‍💫 。還有她上週把感冒傳染給我 😆，我想她來檢查並確認看看… 她的媽咪千萬別昏睡/死在工作室。 hehe 😂😷🛌💀 Lan~*

There was a little drizzle/showers last night ... I love it but we both are caught a cold, so we feel cold then we had a simple street food - Stir-fried squid Taiwanese Pasta, want to back to studio quickly. XD

[xinyuehui]

Scissor Seven Season 5 OP

坠入了坠入了 这深渊 看光影掠过我身边 跟着漂流的时间 拼不完的碎片看不清楚的脸 幻想着 幻想着 哪一天 被痛苦刺穿碎裂的手 能再拨开充斥着 黯淡且又绝望的 那 片 黑 夜 白昼的月 洒在心间 拼不出你笑颜 复杂错综的时间 四处散落我的碎片 每一个瞬间的颜色 组合成我梦境中的天 答案永远都不会 出现在犹豫的时间 那不如一头栽进残忍的世界 啊 如果我们的人生 只剩下三分钟时间 你会选择戴哪种面具去演 或不再演 答案永远都不会 出现在犹豫的时间 那不如一头栽进残忍的世界 创造明天

English lyrics translated by me, please do not repost ty

Falling, falling Into this abyss Watching the light and shadow pass by me Drifting along with time Endless pieces I can't put together, faces I can't see clearly Imagining, imagining That one day The hand pierced and shattered by pain Can push away the darkness that fills That bleak and despairing night The moon of daylight Shines on my heart I can't piece together your smile Time is complex and tangled My fragments are scattered everywhere Every moment's colour Forms the sky in my dreams The answer will never Appear in moments of hesitation So why not plunge headfirst into a ruthless world? Ah If our lives Had only three minutes left Which mask would you choose to wear Or would you stop pretending? The answer will never Appear in moments of hesitation So why not plunge headfirst into a ruthless world? And create a tomorrow.

[jiangwanyinscatmom]

Hiii I'm curious about something, are you the type to listen to music and go "omg this is so wwx"? If so...which song?

Hmmmm... my answer may disappoint a bit since I guess when it comes to songs they make me think more of scenerios for characters I think would fit...

But for a full answer to your question, I think maybe the original audio drama's song for Wei Wuxian is really the perfect one for him for me personally.

Lyrics Hanzi and English ( I am not going to admit how many years I've had this translation sitting in my notes and I keep messing with it)

入梦的，带不走，

初醒的，看不透。

重逢前，临别后，

拨雪寻春，烧灯续昼。

此身葬风波，还以为相忘旧山河，

你我往生客，谁才是痴狂者。

百鬼过荒城，第几次将横笛吹彻，

而此刻，又何以为歌？

是跌碎尘埃的孤魂，在天涯永夜处容身，

听谁唱世外光阴，洞中朝暮只一瞬。

是生死不羁的欢恨，问琴弦遥祝了几程，

就用这无名一曲诺此生。

长行的，不停留，

归来的，飘零久。

临别前，重逢后，

林泉渡水，白云载酒。

此身赴风波，还以为今时不识我，

惆怅人间客，谁才是忘情者。

清风过故城，又一次将横笛吹彻，

而此刻，又何以为歌?

是跌碎尘埃的孤魂，在天涯永夜处容身，

听谁唱世外光阴，洞中朝暮只一瞬。

是生死不羁的欢恨，问琴弦遥祝了几程，

就用这无名一曲诺此生。

长行的，不停留，

归来的，飘零久。

临别前，重逢后，

林泉渡水，白云载酒。

是风云浴血的故人，在天地静默处启唇，

低唱过世外光阴，洞中朝暮只一瞬。

是出鞘即斩的霜刃，避不开心头旧红尘，

就用这无名一曲诺此生。

是跌碎尘埃的孤魂，在天涯永夜处容身，

听谁唱世外光阴，洞中朝暮只一瞬。

是生死不羁的欢恨，问琴弦遥祝了几程，

就用这无名一曲诺此生

He Yige ( "Whence" Song or Where does this song come from also know as Nameless Song)

Those dreams don't take them away

All's a blur when I first wake

Before the reunion, after the farewell

Snow melts into spring

And the lanterns are lit for the day

I died in chaos and thought I'd be forgotten by now

Yet you and I meet as strangers again, who's really the foolish one now

A hundred ghosts roam an empty town, how many times have I played this flute

What is this song and who do I play it for now

(Chorus) Lonely souls have turned to dust, I have no place within this world

Listen as I sing to the world from the dark of a cave if only for a bit

It's the wild joy and hate for life and death

Ask the zither's strings how many journeys it has had

Just use this nameless song as a promise through this life

La la la la la(x7)

la la la

Those who roam don't stay for long

Those who return are beloved

Before the reunion, after the farewell

Cross the water of forest springs, the clouds carry the scent of wine

After the chaos I had made, I thought you would have forgotten me by now

All alone within this world, who is the one who really forgot

The wind blows through the city once again, I raise my flute another countless time

What is this song and who do I play it for now

(Chorus) Lonely souls have turned to dust, I have no place within this world

Listen to who sings out to the world from the dark if only for a bit

It's the wild joy and hate for life and death

Ask the zither's strings how many journeys it has had

Just use this nameless song as a promise through this life

Those who roam don't stay for long

Those who return are beloved

Before the reunion, after the farewell

Cross the water of forest springs, the clouds carry the smell of wine

It's the smell of old blood on the wind, open your lips in the silence of the heavens and the earth

Listen as I sing to the world from the dark of a cave if only for a bit

It's the frost of a blade that's unsheathed and left to cut, that can't avoid the old stain on a heart

Just use this nameless song as a promise through this life

Lonely souls have turned to dust, I have no place within this world

Listen to who sings out to the world from the dark if only for a bit

It's the wild joy and hate for life and death

Ask the zither's strings how many journeys it has had

Just use this nameless song as a promise through this life

[tt345s]

郭文贵：一个网络骗子的诞生

郭文贵潜逃国外，成了丧家之犬，有家不能回，有国不能归，貌似在国外混得风生水起，镜头面前谈笑风生，可这种如无根浮萍飘在异国他乡，随时一个大浪就能将其拍得粉身碎骨的凄凉落寞之情以及无处不在的危机感，想必他内心是深有体会。这个昔日在中国呼风唤雨的隐形富豪落得如此狼狈地步，可能是他早前所料想不及的。人间正道他不走，歪门邪道他倒是手到擒来，为证明自己是有价值的，争得不被美国人抛弃的风险。

[shirozen]

Left with a broken heart

[murderedbyhomework]

愛他幾乎是本能，想抓住他恍如水中撈月，想象中得光明美好只會支離破碎，在手指縫隙中流逝。但是你曾在手中握過一刻的光，哪怕只是一瞬間，但也是目睹了，驚鴻一瞥，亂我心神，刻骨銘心。畢竟，能碰到他一時，就算只是一個幻想，也算是完夢了吧?

(Loving him was innate, yet trying to hold on to him was as futile as capturing the moon by dipping your hands in the water that contains its reflection, the imagined beauty and light fragmenting and dissipating, slipping through your fingers. And yet once, you held that light in your hands, even if it was just an instant, but you witnessed that light, stunning, mesmerising, scattering your thoughts, yet engraving itself into your memory, your bones, your heart. After all, being able to touch him for a moment, even if it was just a delusion, counts as fulfilling your life's wish, right?)

真悲傷啊。不能白頭皆老，不能長相厮守，連自欺欺人的權利都沒有。

(It's such a tragedy. Being unable to grow old and gray together, unable to accompany and watch over each other to the end, with even the freedom of self delusion stripped away.)

[rainibao]

watching an yingdu OP analysis vid on bilibili and GUYS

Maybe some people already noticed it but I sure as hell didn't :"

The vid:

[astranauticus]

Link Click single "Prometheus" Fan Translation

translation under cut!

让黑夜吞噬最后一点光

Let night swallow the last bit of light

就当是一场梦

Pretend this is all a dream

如果无法挣脱索性就让一切都失控吧

If I can't escape, then let everything go out of control

尝尝我的痛

If you have a taste of my pain

或许才会明白哭到失声根本没有用吧

Maybe you'll understand that there is no point to crying

倒数着三二一零

Count down, three two one zero

卖弄可笑的六欲七情

You're still playing up your laughable emotions and desires

这世界已经天翻地覆

This world has already been turned upside down

不如和我一起跳到深渊感受这失重吧 Why don't you jump into the abyss to feel this weightlessness with me

叫他们的幻想蒸发

Let their dreams evaporate

像是面无表情撕碎玩具那般从容

As simple as coldly tearing apart a stuffed toy

谁叫他们学不会听话

It's their fault they keep falling into my hands again and again

还是一次又一次地落入我的手中

Because they can't learn to stay in line

早听腻了烦人的叽叽喳喳

I've long grown tired of this annoying chattering

用绝望在墙上染个碎花

Use despair to paint a splatter on the wall

请他们永远永远闭上嘴吧

Invite them to never, never speak again

[(LTX:) piano solo]

隐秘的血色的黑夜童话

The hidden, blood-soaked midnight fairytale

刹那间将所有光芒抹杀

Smothers all light in an instant

偷走那神的火把

Steal the torch of the gods

坠落下万丈悬崖

Fall down the bottomless abyss

没有归处的人等待世界崩塌

The ones with no home await the world's collapse

（最后的 狂欢吧

(The final carnival

最后的 狂欢吧）

The final carnival)

偷走那神的火把

Steal the torch of the gods

坠落下万丈悬崖

Fall down the bottomless abyss

没有归处的人啊

The ones with no home

静静沉睡吧

Sleep peacefully now

暂时藏起了利爪和鳞片

I'll conceal my claws and scales for now

魔鬼躲进她黑白的琴键

The demon hides in her black and white keys

收起你那套因果循环

Keep your talk of causality and repetition to yourself

我会遭报应吗？反正还没应验

Will I receive retribution? We don't know that yet

都是我的消耗品

(LX:) They're all expendables to me

被我牵着鼻子走还抓不着要领

I'm dragging you along by the nose and you still can't figure it out

一个 两个 三个 四个

(LX:) one, two, three, four

心跳加速只是我的白噪音

The sound of a racing heart is just white noise to me

撬开一层层的保险

Prying away the layers of safeguards

像茶余饭后的消遣

Just to pass the time after a fine meal

对黑夜缺了点敬畏

You people who get hurt needlessly

白白受伤的人

Because you lack respect for the night

看着我千万别眨眼

When you look at me, never blink

下一秒骇人的画面

Lest you miss the scenes of carnage

命运她由我来加减

I am the one who will alter fate herself

我是那灭灯的神

I am the god that extinguishes the light

隐秘的血色的黑夜童话

The hidden, blood-soaked midnight fairytale

刹那间将所有光芒抹杀

Smothers all light in an instant

偷走那神的火把

Steal the torch of the gods

坠落下万丈悬崖

Fall down the bottomless abyss

没有归处的人等待世界崩塌

The ones with no home await the world's collapse

没有归处的人啊

The ones with no home

静静沉睡吧

Sleep peacefully now

(bonus: my translation of 321!)

[thesnazzysharky]

All Alone - A Inner Monologue from Specimen 9

TW: Implied rape and graphic descriptions of violence. You can also view this story on AO3 as seen here ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ 我孤身一人。 (I was all alone.) 我從我以為的永久死亡中醒來。濕的。冷。黑暗。我的身體塗滿了黏土。被所有的「木頭」包圍著。 (I woke up from what I thought was my permanent death. Wet. Cold. Dark. My body coated in clay. Surrounded by all the “logs”.) 我的心碎了，支離破碎。我不再知道自己是誰。我是誰？我幾歲了？我叫什麼名字？我以前是住在安靜舒適的家中，還是寒冷破落的街上？我有過妻子或孩子嗎？ (My mind was broken and shattered. I no longer knew who I was. Who was I? How old was I? What was my name? Was I previously living in the quiet comfort of a home or the cold and decrepit streets? Did I ever have a wife or kids?) 我再也記不起… (I could no longer remember…) 那些鬼子… 日本人… (Those demons… the Japanese…) 我記得一些事情 我記得他們所做的一切 實驗 折磨 酷熱 嚴寒 注射 切割 尖叫聲 所有被折磨的男人、婦女、兒童、嬰兒… (I did remember something. I remembered everything they did. The experiments. The torture. The heat. The cold. The injections. The cutting. The screams. All of those tortured men, women, children, infants…) 他們對待我們的方式。我們甚至不被視為人類。對他們來說，我們只是小玩具。他們可以為所欲為的玩具。 (The way they treated us. How we weren't even viewed as human. We were just little toys to them. Toys that they could do whatever they wanted with.) 我仍然記得每天籠罩在我們頭上的絕望。我還記得當那些孩子的父母沒有回到牢房時，他們淚流滿面的表情。我還記得我牢房旁邊的婦女在男人們打開門鎖後，是如何默默受創，她們… (I still remember the despair looming over us everyday. I still remember the tearful looks on those children's faces when their parents didn’t come back to their cells. I still remember how silently traumatized the woman next to my cell was after the men unlocked the door and they…) … 我還記得他們把我剖開的情景。我的身體在劇痛中扭動。我的尖叫聲充斥著整個房間，並在大廳中迴盪。當他們把他們的手和所有的小工具塞進我脆弱的身體時，我向他們求救。然後一切都暗了下來… (I still remember them cutting me open. My body wriggled in agonizing pain. My screams filled the room and echoed down the halls. I begged for help as they jammed their hands and all of their little tools into my fragile body. Then everything went dark...) 現在我變成這樣了 (And now I'm this.)

我把自己藏在陰暗處好一陣子 但總覺得不對勁 一種愧疚感，混雜著對那些……東西的憤怒、憤怒、憤恨。以及他們對我們所做的一切 (I hid myself in the shadows for awhile, but something felt wrong. A sense of guilt, mixed with this burning, bubbling, raging ocean of hatred for those... things. And what they had done to us.)

我回去了 急於報仇，解放我的人民。是時候讓仇恨的海嘯沖垮他們了。就這樣 (I went back. Eager to get my revenge and free my people. It was time to let that tsunami of hatred come crashing down on them. And so it did.) 這是一次奇妙的經歷。他們可憐地向我開槍，卻毫無作用。當我走向他們時，他們試圖逃跑的樣子。他們尖叫的美妙音樂傳入我的耳朵。 (It was an amazing experience. The way they pathetically shot at me to no effect. The way they tried to run away as I made my way towards them. The way the beautiful music of their screams made their way to my ears.) 我喜歡折斷他們的骨頭。我喜歡看見他們的身體在痛苦中扭動和掙扎。我喜歡用我新發現的力量讓他們燃燒。我喜歡撕開他們的身體。我喜歡看我的殺戮有多有創意。他們在死之前能承受多大的痛苦。如果我這樣做而不是那樣做，他們的尖叫聲會有多大。我可以讓他們承受多大的痛苦。 (I loved snapping and breaking their bones. I loved seeing their bodies squirm and writhe in pain. I loved setting them ablaze with my newfound powers. I loved tearing their bodies open. I loved seeing how creative I could get with my kills. How much pain they could handle before expiring. How loudly they would scream if I did this instead of that. How much I could make them suffer.) 他們現在是我的小玩具……因此，我的腦海沉醉於孩子般的本能殺戮慾望。我不再思考 我只想盡可能地讓那些可怕的日本鬼子痛苦。我繼續殺戮。我盡力確保那些惡魔一個也逃不出我的手掌心。我放火燒毀了周圍的一切。 (They were now my little toys... and so my mind became drunken with a childish and instinctive desire to kill. I was no longer thinking. I just wanted to cause as much pain to those horrible Japan devils as possible. I continued the killing. I tried to make sure not a single one of those demons escaped my grasp. I set fire to everything and everyone around me.) 然後我就醒了 (Then I woke up.)

突然，當我檢視周遭環境時，周遭的一切都被摧毀了。建築物消失了。我的身體塗上了紅色。一些火苗仍然揮之不去 而且到處都是燒焦的屍體……而且大部分都不是科學家。 (Suddenly, as I examined my surroundings, everything around me was destroyed. The building was gone. My body was coated in red. Some flames of fire still lingered. And there were charred bodies everywhere... and most weren't the scientists.) 我把他們全殺了 我所有的族人 所有我想拯救的人 都是為了報復那些殺了我的人，盲目自私的憤怒。有些人因為跑出大樓或那天沒去上班而躲過了我的憤怒。我沒有機會殺死那個戴圓框眼鏡的人… (I killed them all. All of my people. All of those I wanted to save. All in a blind selfish rage to get back at those who murdered me. Some of which were able to escape my rage due to running out of the building or simply not showing up to work that day. I never got to kill that man in the round glasses...)

我現在是個怪物了 (I'm a monster now.) 我再也不能在人行道上隨意散步。我再也不能安安靜靜地坐在家中。我再也不能吃喝拉撒睡。我再也不能友善地向鄰居打招呼。我再也不能參與有趣的嗜好。我再也無法擁抱我的孩子，告訴他們睡前故事，或是在工作前給我的妻子最後的一個吻，如果我有他們的話。 (No longer would I be able to go for a casual stroll on a sidewalk. No longer would I be able to peacefully sit quietly in whatever home I had. No longer would I be able to eat, drink, and sleep. No longer would I be able to give a friendly hello to a neighbor. No longer would I be able to take part of fun hobbies. No longer would I be able hug my kids and tell them bedtime stories or give my wife one last kiss before work, if I had them.) 我再也不能做人了。 (No longer would I be able to be human.)

即使是這樣，我也可以成為英雄。一個救世主。一個領導者。一個演說者 但現在我認識的所有人都死了 沒有人能知道他們的痛苦 因為只剩下我一個人了 (Even in this form, I could've been a hero. A savior. A leader. A speaker. But now everyone I once knew is dead. Nobody will be able to know of their suffering as I'm the only one left.) 我能做的只有哀悼。哀悼那些被我謀殺的人。哭泣。哭泣，淹沒在我內疚和羞愧的淚水中。尖叫。為了我變成的怪物，為了我永遠失去、永遠也回不去的東西，尖叫幾個小時。 (All I can do is mourn. Mourn those I had murdered. Weep. Weep and drown in my own tears of overwhelming guilt and shame. And scream. Scream for hours on end about the monster I became and what I have permanently lost and will never get back.) 我對著天空尖叫了幾個小時。把我所有的痛苦和煎熬都吼了出來 不知道是否有人會聽到。我的喉嚨乾了，聲帶也繃緊了，但我的求救聲仍未得到任何潛在的神甚至人類的回應。 (I have been screaming into the sky for hours. Blaring all of my pain and suffering. Wondering if any of it will ever be heard. My throat dries and my vocal cords strain, yet, my pleas for help have yet to be answered by any potential god or even human.) 我一個人。 (I'm all alone.)

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Hello everyone! It's my b-b-birthday! I wanted to post this earlier, but I ran into some internet problems and I had other stuff to deal with. Now it's finally posted! Originally I wanted to write about a slice of life story between Spooky and her father for my birthday, but I simply never had the proper time to fully flesh that out. So, I wrote this last night! Specimen 9 is one of my favorite specimens, so I wanted to make a little short story about him and how tragic he is. As a bonus detail, I added Chinese text to fit with Taker's origins. I didn't want to use Google Translate and call it a day, so I used DeepL Translate. Supposedly the world's most accurate translator.

Lastly, you may have noticed my profile pic changed. Check out this post from my awesome friend @alaskinapples99! She made this amazing artwork of me for my birthday that really warmed my heart. Thank you so much! And thank you to everyone else for liking or reblogging and showing me support over these past few months! I wrote this theory months ago and I still get a notification about it every now and then. Which is pretty crazy to me. Definitely one of my most proud posts. Anyways that's enough of me yapping. Thanks for reading and have a snazzy day!

[a-putain]

虽然我很早便见过舞台上的柏木小姐，但直到被处决的那天，我才有机会与她面对面。

她穿着一身黑色的连体衣，出现在探监室的对面。

“可怜的东西，你终究还是要死了”

她的语气中充斥着愤怒与控诉。

“早知如此，何必当初？你做出罪恶的事情之前，难道就没考虑过自己的结局？”

“我本来就打算自杀”我嘴硬道。

“那你为什么提出上诉？难道不应该在初审判决后尽快伏法，偿还你的罪孽吗？”

我一时间哑口无言。

“你竟然只用躺在床上，舒舒服服地接受注射，这真是不公平。等着吧，我一定会让你...”她咬牙切齿，说话都变得口齿不清。

她终究被劝离探监室；而当我被带出探监室进行行刑前的最后准备时，我忽然发现自己竟在她的威胁和注视之下勃起、流出淫水，好像自己即将经历的并非可怕的死刑，而是某种我十分期待的东西。

我被捆绑在死刑躺椅上等待接受死刑。参观者逐一入场：官员、律师、警察、记者，清一色都是女性；当然还有受害者家属，几小时前对我破口大骂的柏木小姐。

我的上身赤裸着，乳头在寒冷的空气中勃起，下体也不住地顶起内裤，将淫水涂抹在内裤里：这全都仰赖女人们的注视。

在她们眼皮子底下死去，我感到十足的耻辱；早知如此，我还不如在家里拿一根绳子了结自己的生命，虽然那样做肯定会被解剖验尸，但在女人们的注视下死去显然比那更下羞耻。我能感觉到自己的内裤正在被浸湿，不知道她们会不会脱掉我尸体的裤子检查我的尸体；那样的话她们必然会发现我在死前流出的淫荡玩意儿，从而无情地嘲笑我。

女护士在我的手臂上扎入针头；她的轻触使我更加性奋；几滴淫水奔出马眼，涂抹在内裤上，让我感到淫靡的湿滑。

“还有什么遗言吗？”护士无感情地问。

“能帮我挠挠痒吗？”我请求道：“我的下边好痒，帮我揉一下...”

“这里是有录音的”护士无情地说。

她的话语打碎了我的所有幻想：原来，我死前的每一个微小的举动都正在被记录。现在，我的最后一句话即将成为女人们论证我淫荡本性的论据。

护士启动了她手边的注射机器，药液快速注入我的身体。我感觉到疼痛，继而身体变得轻浮而柔软，好像一切都正在离我而去。最终，我感觉到了死亡到来前的窒息，想要痛苦挣扎，却只能表现为轻微的抽搐；也就是在此时，大股精液喷射而出，彻底浸湿了内裤。

我在护士、柏木小姐和其他所有人的注视下平静地化为一具尸体，护士在我赤裸的胸部倾听，确认我再无心跳后解下注射设备，并将行刑室大门敞开，供女人们近距离观赏我的尸体。

“可以脱下他的裤子吗？”一个女人问；包括柏木小姐的所有人便都笑起来。

护士快速剥去我的裤子；于是我那根勃起、沾满精液的鸡巴便暴露在众人面前。对她们而言，这着实是个新鲜事：毕竟很少有人见过死亡时还会射精的男人。

在柏木小姐等人的请求下，我被送入医学院解剖，并割下鸡巴和睾丸作为标本进一步分析；而我的其他部位则被焚化成灰，洒在一条不知名的河流里。

许多年后，柏木小姐依然会提起我；但只是作为谈资。

“你知道吗，那个时候，我亲眼见证了一个男人的死刑”她对她的朋友说。

“你猜最搞笑的是什么？那个男人竟然在死的时候射精了！真是不知羞耻的东西！他很快便得到了他想要的：在医学院里被解剖、做成标本。这样他便可以把那玩意骄傲地永久展示给别人了，哈哈！”