#❥ aryin. bond: jetsam ﹕ poseidon quivers before him! fuck off!

[stellarhistoria]

unprompted . . . jetsam & aryin . . . @constellaeinfinitum

"It's hard to keep up the presentation that I'm okay. Addam, you, Cayde... you three, you know. I'm sure Mr. Smoker and Mrs. Vivian, they know too, by proxy of being who they are... but how do I tell the others? After Ace left, I'm... so scared of opening up again. I... my heart can't beat forever with so many pieces missing."

he had been rambling for a moment now, knowing jetsam would understand the feeling of loss in a way that wasn't... juliet, or gwen, or the others. the feeling of loss so soul deep that it feels as if your very being is shattered from the grief of it all, and the feeling of believing that if you stopped moving at any point, you'd crumble to pieces where you stopped, not wanting to get back up again.

the only thing that he hopes none of them experience - at least, in terms of juliet, never again - but the feeling of dying. he still doesn't feel like himself. he's not sure he ever will. he's not sure how he can be good enough for anyone, when he wasn't enough before, when he was himself.

and then there's fingers curling through his claws, and multicolored eyes look up towards jetsam with a curious but knowing look. he's no fool, he's noticing the signs faster than most, or well - most of his family at least. ace and aryin, they were always the most dense with feelings. aryin only slightly worse than ace himself. and that in and of itself was quite an achievement.

"Are you not afraid?" he asks with a curious whisper, not looking away from jetsam's face. ( don't let go. please don't leave me alone, i don't want to die like this. ) their markings have worsened over the years of learning how to be a mage with zee; the black along his arm reaching up to his midbicep and the pale white-gold reaching up to his near elbow at this point. at some point, eventually, he will stop being himself. "Does my appearance not frighten you?" ( do you not fear a monster in the dark? )

[stellarhistoria]

hold on i wanna rant about the team for a second so forgive me for this

ace lancealot cytos: aryin's adoptive brother and the only person aryin has ever known who would have ever fit the true name of the cytos' if there ever was a person. headstrong and fierce, determined and brave, always helping those in need but never sacrificing himself and his own well being to do so (though one would argue that getting constantly in danger would be self sacrificing). one time, aryin joked that, if he was born into a family, would they have been twins? cayde grimaced at the thought; zee looked as if it caused him physical damage. canonically has (had?) a psychic link with aryin prior to the player disappearing.

cayde pendraco: aryin's best friend and closest confidante, the very definition of "you've seen me at my worst; you chose to stay". one of the people who encouraged aryin to step away from the clutches of his father's desires and wishes for him during the first three years away from the rest of the group, cayde could ask aryin to do anything and aryin wouldn't blink. no hesitation. they're also both ex knights, which makes them bond more.

juliet herald: ( over at @stellafortunae ) aryin's childhood friend and girlfriend of ace. known for being headstrong and brash, juliet is ofttimes uncertain of the people who show her gentleness, believing her surroundings as unsteady as the shifting sands. aryin can't say that she's unwarranted though. he was where she was, once. before rose. before peter. daughter of the most powerful man in existence.

jetsam ryder: ( over at @constellaeinfinitum ) aryin's philosophical debate partner and someone who aryin has become quite fond of in the past few years of knowing them. an ex privateer turned pirate turned magic user turned chosen hero, jetsam is not someone who rushes headfirst into danger, often found questioning why things are the way they are, and grabbing everyone else by their collars to keep them safe. and if all else can't be done - they're usually on the frontlines with aryin, regardless of their, ah, unfortunate health pool. may or may not be questioning if what they feel for some party members is friendship or true love.

gwennen gawain: ( over at @zodiac--muses ) aryin's girlfriend and the long lost princess, and sole survivor, of the gawain family lineage. aryin has always been a hopeless romantic, but he never believed he would fall so hard and so fast for gwennen gawain, even with all that he knows about her and her family. and oh, do the history books not do her endless beauty justice. he doesn't believe he deserves her, and some days he questions how he managed to get her to fall in love with a monster like him. but if a princess can fall in love with a monster, then this monster will rend the world to keep her safe.

addam druei: aryin's new boyfriend and the recently put back together, only son of mordred druei (i know, i know, i GET IT). aryin had made a half-joke ( half serious comment ) to quell the nervous man's energy to something pleasant about being a polycule, and perhaps aryin wasn't against it. but... last time, last time... they weren't strong enough. what if they aren't, again? what if they can't protect him, OR HER? addam is determined to make that smile aryin wears a real one, because he knows it isn't.

teachers under the cut:

zee genarel: described simply as a strawberry blonde twink of a femboy, zee is aryin's magic teacher, who taught them through their days of being an uncomfortable druid and cleric, and then again as they navigated the new classwork of wizardry with absolute glee in his temperament. however, to call zee a good man would be incorrect. zee is confident, selfish, and goal - oriented. this does not make him a bad person, but he is not good at handling those who have lost everything, time and time again. aryin respects him. that is all.

vivian ashwind: ( seen only in anonymous asks ) a twin sister without her twin brother, vivian highwind is an unwitting, but not unwilling mentor for the group of keykids trying to find what they fight for in this raging war. she has been around a long time, and while she herself is a wanted woman, she is not one to go down without a fight. she is a good woman, abrasive as she may be. aryin does not know if he can call her a friend, let alone a teacher, not after...

grey ashlynn: deceased. a gunslinging spitfire of a man who went through a deep effort to keep these kids happy and safe through any means necessary, even if it meant putting himself in danger time and time again. in many aspects, he was their honorary group dad, but none of them wanted to say it. if they said it, that would mean he could leave them. turns out, they just needed to know it for him to be attacked, to be killed, to be taken from them. aryin misses him. aryin misses his dad.