#✩ . * 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐃 𝐎𝐍; queue.

[rgerzaa]

ʳᵉᵍᵃʳᵈˡᵉˢˢ   ᵒᶠ   the   two   of   them   sitting   and   holding   each   other’s   hand   –   fingers   intertwined   ,   palms   pressed   TOGETHER   ,   warmth   grown   between   them   ,   thumb   brushing   over   the   back   of   her   hand   softly   ...   –   regardless   of   all   of   that   ,   her   words   came   as   a   surprise   to   him   .   too   deep   sat   the   memory   or   ʳᵉʲᵉᶜᵗᶤᵒᶰ   .   the   plumpness   with   which   she’d   told   him   no   .   the   words   she   had   found   to   reason   with   him   .   he’d   NEVER   believed   a   single   one   ,   becky   in   his   eyes   always   the   one   .   ᵇᶤᵗᵗᵉʳ   ᵖᶤˡˡ   to   swallow   to   realize   that   things   had   been   different   for   her   .   that   years   and   decades   he   had   seen   something   ,   felt   something   ,   that   just   wasn’t   there   .   time   wasted   .   or   not   .   not   because   she   was   still   so   IMPORTANT   to   him   .   rejection   hadn’t   changed   that   ,   ᶰᵉᵛᵉʳ   ʷᵒᵘˡᵈ   .   she   held   that   special   place   in   his   heart   ,   was   at   home   right   there   .   the   whole   thing   might   as   well   belong   to   her   .   surprise   igniting   it   ,   giving   it   a   KICK   START   ,   causing   it   to   jump   however   ,   consciousness   has   build   up   walls   .   high   and   ready   to   protect   the   ᶠʳᵃᵍᶤˡᵉ   ᵖᵃʳᵗ   of   his   soul   .   

captain   quiet   for   a   moment   .   looking   at   their   hands   .   his   so   much   larger   than   hers   .   rough   .   a   ᶠᵉʷ   ˢᶜᵃʳˢ   visible   .   completely   in   contrast   to   hers   .   SOFT   SKIN   .   gentle   .   the   hand   of   a   lover   where   his   always   just   seemed   clumsy   next   to   her   .   he   wants   to   look   her   in   the   eye   but   when   steve   makes   an   attempt   ,   he   gets   nervous   .   so   gaze   REMAINS   focussed   on   where   they   are   ᵗᵒᵘᶜʰᶤᶰᵍ   .   “   what   made   you   ᶜʰᵃᶰᵍᵉ   ʸᵒᵘʳ   ᵐᶤᶰᵈ   ?   “   and   that   ,   truly   ,   all   that   he   wants   to   know   now   .   the   only   question   left   to   answer   because   regardless   of   high   guards   ,   regardless   of   the   set   back   ,   of   the   small   moment   of   HEARTBREAK   –   fck   all   of   that   .   if   becky   was   willing   to   give   him   a   chance   ,   captain   wouldn’t   mess   it   up   .   if   their   love   finally   got   an   opportunity   to   grow   ,   ʰᵉ   ʷᵒᵘˡᵈ   grab   it   .

@unexceptional​   sent:   “   i   like   the   sound   of   there   being   an   ‘us’   .   “

[rgerzaa]

he   is   laughing   even   though   tony   noticed   before   he   could   really   reveal   the   truth   .   steve   tries   to   keep   his   own   AMUSEMENT   at   a   limit   to   make   sure   the   other’s   don’t   catch   wind   of   it   .   he   doesn’t   really   want   to   explain   that   he’d   decided   to   go   ᶜᵒᵐᵐᵃᶰᵈᵒ   to   make   sure   they’d   go   home   early   .   tony’s   old   COLLEGE   FRIENDS   were   fun   to   hang   out   with   .   unless   you   were   married   and   had   three   kids   and   a   whole   house   to   take   care   of   .   where   tony   had   grown   up   it   ˢᵉᵉᵐᵉᵈ   ᵗʰᵃᵗ   some   of   his   buddies   weren’t   quite   THERE   YET   .   or   at   least   not   when   they   reunited   once   a   year   .   and   truly   ,   there   were   only   so   many   topics   steve   could   talk   about   with   the   wives   ,   only   ˢᵒ   ᵐᵃᶰʸ   ʲᵒᵏᵉˢ   he   could   crack   ,   just   so   much   cleaning   talk   before   he   got   bored   of   it   .   their   life   seemingly   not   complicated   enough   to   have   the   issues   these   people   seemed   to   have   .   or   maybe   just   not   COMPLICATED   when   it   came   to   their   relationship   and   their   family   .   good   .   he   ᵖʳᵉᶠᵉʳʳᵉᵈ   ᶤᵗ   that   way   .   but   it   also   lead   to   these   evenings   feeling   endless   .   so   ,   tricks   had   to   be   played   to   ensure   a   REASONABLE   bed   time   .   

"   good   ,   because   it   would   have   gotten   reeeeal   AWKWARD   if   you   made   me   pull   down   my   pants   to   ,   ᵇᵉˡᶤᵉᵛᵉ   ᵐᵉ   .   “   grinning   wide   ,   palm   finds   the   back   of   boyfriends   head   to   PULL   HIM   IN   ,   kiss   placed   against   his   lips   .   he   lingers   .   mouths   still   touching   when   they   talk   .   “   so   is   it   going   to   work   ?   can   we   ᵍᵒ   ʰᵒᵐᵉ   ?   “   grinning   ,   another   kiss   exchanged   with   the   HOPES   of   the   lack   of   underwear   being   reason   enough   to   call   the   night   short   .

@iinventor​   sent:   "   predictable   little   shit   ,      i   know   you   .   “

[rgerzaa]

there   wasn’t   one   ex   that   would   have   been   tougher   to   face   .   not   one   of   his   exes   he   wanted   to   see   less   .   not   a   SINGLE   ONE   who   he   was   as   bitter   over   as   he   was   with   tony   .   maybe   because   he’d   been   his   first   love   after   all   .   maybe   because   he’d   so   ˢʰᵃᵐᵉˡᵉˢˢˡʸ   used   steve’s   naive   heart   until   there   was   nothing   to   use   up   anymore   .   until   it   was   broken   into   pieces   and   brunette   MOVED   ON   without   him   .   a   grief   that   had   changed   his   life   so   drastically   ,   steve   ended   up   changing   ᵃˡᵐᵒˢᵗ   ᵉᵛᵉʳʸᵗʰᶤᶰᵍ   about   himself   .   now   ,   nothing   left   of   that   skinny   shy   dude   .   now   he’s   grown   up   .   and   yet   ,   facing   him   didn’t   feel   any   less   distressing   .   there   isn’t   really   ANYTHING   steve   wants   to   tell   him   .   nothing   that   needs   to   be   discussed   now   ,   not   all   those   years   later   .   but   of   course   the   ᵗᵉʳʳᵒʳ   ᵗᵃᵇˡᵉᵗ   had   sent   them   on   a   date   .   of   fcking   course   it   had   to   CHOOSEN   making   his   life   more   miserable   when   it   could   .   “   you   couldn’t   have   picked   a   different   show   to   get   on   and   fill   your   bank   account   more   ,   hm   ?   had   to   come   here   to   taunt   me   .   i   shouldn’t   be   as   surprised   really   .   “   shaking   his   head   a   little   ,   steve   slurps   on   the   COCKTAIL   they’d   been   served   .   not   even   the   burning   taste   of   the   drink   helped   him   to   ᶜᵃˡᵐ   ᵈᵒʷᶰ   when   he   was   furious   inside   .   /   @iinventor​

[rgerzaa]

steve   hadn’t   even   bothered   waking   up   tony   after   trying   to   step   out   and   being   greeted   with   a   wall   of   snow   .   that   had   been   A   HELL   OF   A   STORM   last   night   and   luckily   tony’s   dad   and   he   had   already   discussed   how   they’d   handle   the   farm   for   the   time   of   the   storm   .   automatic   feeding   in   the   barns   they   couldn’t   easily   get   to   and   the   rest   dad   would   make   sure   to   check   on   .   good   thing   ᵗʰᵉʸ   ʰᵃᵈ   ᵉˣᵖᵉᶜᵗᵉᵈ   ᵗʰᵉ   ʷᵉᵃᵗʰᵉʳ   to   get   worse   for   a   while   .   with   tony   still   in   bed   and   deeply   asleep   ,   and   the   home   couldn’t   be   left   either   ...   there   wasn’t   much   to   do   .   even   if   he   was   awake   now   .   so   ,   STEVE   DID   THE   ONLY   REASONABLE   THING   .   after   making   a   little   fire   in   the   fireplace   to   heat   up   their   home   ,   cowboy   changed   out   of   his   work   clothes   so   he   could   slip   back   into   bed   with   his   husband   .   both   arms   wrap   around   him   to   ᵖᵘˡˡ   ʰᶤᵐ   ᶤᶰᵗᵒ   ʰᶤˢ   ˢᵗʳᵒᶰᵍ   ᶜʰᵉˢᵗ   ,   kiss   dropped   to   his   forehead   and   he   pulls   the   blanket   up   a   little   higher   .   “   are   you   cold   ?   “   he   speaks   in   a   quiet   tone   when   he   feels   tony   stirring   from   his   sleep   .

@iinventor​   drew:   12   our   muses   snowed   in   together   due   to   a   snow   storm

[rgerzaa]

it   didn’t   even   matter   which   traditions   they   would   follow   this   christmas   .   he   didn’t   want   to   choose   which   movies   they   watched   ,   what   they   ate   ,   didn’t   even   want   to   have   a   say   in   the   DECORATION   OF   THE   TREE   .   tony   and   morgan   could   gladly   decide   all   that   because   steve’s   biggest   dream   for   the   end   of   this   year   was   becoming   true   .   he’d   see   her   .   ˢʰᵉ   ʷᵒᵘˡᵈ   ˢᶤᵗ   ᵃᵗ   ᵗʰᵉ   ᵗᵃᵇˡᵉ   ʷᶤᵗʰ   ᵗʰᵉᵐ   ,   would   unwrap   her   presents   with   them   there   ,   would   play   with   morgan   ,   would   sit   on   his   lap   when   they   sang   a   christmas   carol   together   .   they’d   be   reunited   .   and   it   was   all   steve   could   ask   for   .   “   sure   .   we   have   a   few   at   home   from   past   christmases   .   emma   might   have   grown   out   of   hers   so   we   could   head   to   the   store   and   pick   up   a   new   one   for   her   .   “   this   was   good   .   it   gave   him   purpose   .   it   gave   him   SOMETHING   TO   WORK   TOWARDS   TO      .   a   perspective   .   if   they   were   finally   willing   to   let   him   see   his   daughter   ,   maybe   the   decision   to   let   her   come   home   wasn’t   far   off   .   ᵈᶤʳᵗʸ   ᵇˡᵒᶰᵈ   ᵗᵘʳᶰˢ   ʰᶤˢ   ʰᵉᵃᵈ   ᵗᵒ   ᵗᵒᶰʸ   .   “   you   wanna   head   down   now   ?   you   needed   some   more   things   for   the   tree   anyway   ,   right   ?   “

@iinventor​   sent:   “   everyone   wears   ugly   christmas   sweaters   ,   it’ll   be   fun   .   “

[rgerzaa]

it’s   hard   to   look   away   when   the   uniform   fits   her   perfectly   .   when   the   hat   sits   on   her   head   which   she   holds   up   proudly   ,   badges   worn   with   so   much   dignity   ,   the   smile   on   her   face   SO   PURE   AND   SO   HONEST   .   he   loves   it   .   even   if   they   have   not   truly   addressed   the   feelings   for   each   other   yet   ,   steve   loves   seeing   her   like   this   .   ᵐᵃʸᵇᵉ   ʰᵉ   ˡᵒᵛᵉˢ   ʰᵉʳ   ˡᶤᵏᵉ   ᵗʰᶤˢ   .   maybe   steve   rogers   is   in   love   .   maybe   .   so   many   maybes   .   all   of   them   irrelevant   today   .   her   big   day   .   he   was   going   to   take   none   of   the   attention   that   belonged   to   just   her   .   “   you   look   like   you   are   exactly   where   you   should   be   and   it   amazes   me   .   you   know   what   they   say   .   it’s   not   the   title   that   makes   the   man   a   champion   .   ᵗʰᵉ   ᵐᵃᶰ   ᵐᵃᵏᵉˢ   ᵗʰᵉ   ᵗᶤᵗˡᵉ   .   or   woman   .   and   i   know   you   will   .   i   know   already   of   all   the   prestige   YOU   WILL   BRING   TO   YOUR   TITLE   ,   captain   santiago   .   “   dirty   blond   stands   back   ,   watches   her   with   bright   eyes   ,   clearly   deeply   caught   in   his   adoration   for   her   .   not   nearly   as   slick   as   he   had   thought   he   would   be   .

@havenforged​   sent:   "   why   are   you   looking   at   me   like   that   ?   “

[rgerzaa]

gloved   fingers   ADJUSTING   the   velcro   on   the   other   wrist   to   tighten   fabric   around   it   .   eyebrow   dances   up   slightly   when   he   glances   over   to   the   younger   man   .   “   ᵈᵒ   ᵃᶰʸᵗʰᶤᶰᵍ   ?   “   short   pause   ,   thoughts   working   however   ...   “   what   did   you   think   we   were   going   to   be   doing   ?   “   steve   ʷᵃˢᶰ’ᵗ   ˢᵘʳᵉ   what   pietro   was   HINTING   at   though   ,   hands   sink   back   to   the   side   and   instead   ,   palm   meets   his   shoulder   to   give   it   an   encouraging   squeeze   .   questioning   eyes   find   those   of   him   ,   ᶰᵒᵗ   ʷᶤˡˡᶤᶰᵍ   to   ACCEPT   a   half-hearted   answer   .   

@hellspeed​   sent:   “   so   basically   this   means   we   can’t   do   anything   ?   “

[rgerzaa]

“   ʸᵒᵘ   ˢᵘʳᵉ   ?   i   can   train   without   ,   it’s   fine   .   “   though   steve   had   to   admit   that   he   felt   a   wave   of   excitement   when   archie   offered   him   one   of   his   ear   pods   .   the   gym   radio   would   SOMEHOW   have   brought   him   through   the   workout   for   sure   and   he’d   have   turned   down   the   offer   from   anyone   else   .   ʷᶤᵗʰ   ʰᶤᵐ   though   ...   he   felt   that   feeling   again   .   the   one   he   liked   to   pretend   wasn’t   there   .   THE   ONE   he   didn’t   want   to   give   more   room   until   he   wasn’t   sure   whether   archie   felt   the   same   .   he   could   ᶠᵉᵉˡ   ᵗʰᵉ   ˢᵃᵐᵉ   ,   right   ?   steve   wanted   to   think   he   stood   a   chance   .   wanted   to   believe   that   each   time   fingers   lingered   on   muscle   of   the   other   when   correcting   posture   ,   that   it   meant   SOMETHING   .   he   hoped   it   did   ...   ᶠᵒʳ   ᶰᵒʷ   ᵗʰᵒᵘᵍʰ   ,   honest   smile   on   his   lips   when   he   takes   the   ear   bud   and   presses   it   into   the   shell   of   his   ear   .   sharing   music   like   this   feels   so   ᶤᶰᵗᶤᵐᵃᵗᵉ   ,   like   their   own   little   secret   .   steve   ready   to   dive   into   archie’s   world   and   yet   ...   tried   to   play   it   off   as   cool   as   POSSIBLE   .   didn’t   want   to   appear   too   eager   ,   too   enthusiastic   and   then   run   danger   of   ᵗᵘʳᶰᶤᶰᵍ   ʰᶤᵐ   ᵒᶠᶠ   .   “   thanks   ...   what   are   we   listening   to   ?   “

@dtective​   sent:   sender   and   receiver   listen   to   music   together

[rgerzaa]

both   hands   pushed   into   the   pockets   of   jeans   .   casually   dressed   with   the   hopes   of   not   getting   ʳᵉᶜᵒᵍᶰᶤᶻᵉᵈ   ,   base   cap   sitting   on   his   head   ,   pulled   down   low   to   throw   shade   on   his   eyes   .   not   to   be   seen   .   not   seeing   ANYONE   .   not   until   he   was   here   .   here   ,   where   he   didn’t   belong   ,   where   he   shouldn’t   have   come   .   wells   had   every   right   to   ask   ,   to   be   surprised   .   if   it   was   ᵗʰᵉ   ᵒᵗʰᵉʳ   ʷᵃʸ   around   he   would   have   reacted   the   same   way   .   captain   clears   his   throat   ,   head   tilted   up   .   desperate   attempt   to   see   HIM   even   though   he   knows   that   part   of   his   life   is   over   .   in   the   past   .   jasper   and   he:   ʰᶤˢᵗᵒʳʸ   .   “   i’m   ...   not   entirely   sure   .   “   short   awkward   twitch   of   the   corner   of   his   mouth   .   this   place   isn’t   going   to   give   him   what   he   had   hoped   for   .   “   i   thought   ...   coming   here   would   give   me   the   FINAL   CLOSURE   .   “   self-destructive   in   a   way   –   that   he   had   hoped   to   see   something   that’d   anger   him   enough   to   finally   say   fck   it   and   ᵇᵉ   ᶠʳᵉᵉ   ᵃᵍᵃᶤᶰ   .   now   ,   instead   ,   ex’   best   friend   faced   .   “   my   bad   ,   sorry   .   i   didn’t   come   to   stir   the   pot   .   “   crap   ,   so   easily   making   a   fool   of   himself   .   so   obvious   to   the   fact   that   after   all   these   years   ,   he   still   knows   nothing   about   relationships   .   or   ending   them   .

@godbarks​   sent:   “   why   are   you   here   ?   “   

[rgerzaa]

steve   had   to   think   about   it   for   a   moment   .   many   years   had   passed   since   he   last   had   the   chance   to   truly   dwell   on   christmas   celebrations   .   to   get   THE   MOST   out   of   the   time   ,   out   of   the   warm   lights   ,   ᵗʰᵉ   ˢʷᵉᵉᵗ   ˢᵐᵉˡˡˢ   ,   the   feeling   of   family   .   so   long   that   he’d   almost   forgotten   how   much   he   used   to   enjoy   christmas   when   his   mother   had   still   BEEN   AROUND   .   touchy   topic   for   so   many   years   .   maybe   it   was   time   to   let   that   go   .   to   allow   himself   the   joy   of   it   once   more   .   maybe   ,   if   they   got   to   share   it   ,   he’d   love   this   ᵗᶤᵐᵉ   ᵒᶠ   ᵗʰᵉ   ʸᵉᵃʳ   once   again   .   “   i   used   to   love   ...   “   short   pause   .   gaze   drifts   .   tries   to   remember   .   tries   to   pick   a   favorite   memory   ,   faint   but   there   .   “   ...   going   out   to   pick   a   tree   .   MY   MOTHER   used   to   let   me   choose   and   once   we   hunted   down   the   one   we   carried   it   home   and   put   on   the   lights   .   we   used   to   craft   stars   out   of   straw   and   hung   them   in   the   tree   .   spent   ᵃ   ʷʰᵒˡᵉ   ᵈᵃʸ   on   it   .   “   small   smile   grown   ON   HIS   FACE   .   the   slight   tug   at   his   heart   accepted   as   the   ache   after   a   person   who   no   longer   was   in   his   life   .   but   she’d   always   be   there   .   always   where   he   felt   that   little   weight   on   his   heart   .   so   it’d   be   alright   .   ocean   eyes   find   face   of   the   other   man   again   .   he   is   also   at   home   in   steve’s   heart   .   “   tell   me   about   your   traditions   .   ʷᵉ   ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ   ᵈᵒ   something   we   both   ENJOY   .   considering   ...   we   get   a   little   while   here   before   the   world   goes   crazy   again   .   “

@atimebomb​   sent:   “   what   is   your   favorite   tradition   ?   “

[rgerzaa]

hands   drop   to   his   side   and   expression   stays   almost   blank   .   ᵘᶰᵘˢᵘᵃˡ   for   the   man   who   wears   his   heart   on   his   sleeve   .   however   ,   not   as   much   of   a   surprise   considering   WHO   had   uttered   the   question   .   the   words   core   of   why   they   stood   on   ᵈᶤᶠᶠᵉʳᵉᶰᵗ   ˢᶤᵈᵉˢ   instead   of   side   by   side   now   .   not   in   a   professional   manner   ,   not   necessarily   .   but   it   was   never   easy   facing   your   ex   .   steve   NOT   the   kind   of   man   picking   fights   ,   not   here   to   open   yet   ᵃᶰᵒᵗʰᵉʳ   ᵈᶤˢᶜᵘˢˢᶤᵒᶰ   of   where   they’d   gone   wrong   ,   what   could   have   been   better   ,   how   they   should   have   handled   things   .   they   were   over   .   wanda   an   he   COMPLETELY   over   .   for   a   while   too   .   or   ...   were   they   ?   “   it’s   fine   .   “   captain   mutters   through   a   tight   jaw   .   “   absolutely   fine   .   “

@hexsreality​   sent:   “   ‘   married   to   the   job   ’   …      how’s   that   marriage   working   out   ?   “

[rgerzaa]

once   again   ,   steve   is   holding   his   stomach   from   laughing   so   hard   .   corners   of   his   eyes   a   little   wet   as   he   tries   not   to   choke   on   his   own   laughter   .   it   had   always   been   like   that   BETWEEN   THE   TWO   .   a   few   sips   of   alcohol   and   they   turned   into   massive   clowns   .   tony   would   make   funny   faces   ,   steve   presented   his   favorite   party   tricks   and   a   few   shots   later   they’d   end   up   on   the   couch   kissing   and   behaving   like   teenagers   ʷʰᵒ   ʰᵃᵈ   ᶰᵒ   ᵐᵃᶰᶰᵉʳˢ   .   or   like   partners   who’d   shared   so   many   years   with   each   other   that   sloppy   touches   and   an   occasional   joke   in   the   middle   of   love   making   really   didn’t   matter   .   in   fact   ,   MADE   IT   SO   MUCH   BETTER   .   when   steve   managed   to   get   the   choking   under   control   finally   ,   he   took   the   eatable   eggnog   cup   to   put   it   on   the   tip   of   tony’s   nose   .   it   stuck   perfectly   thanks   to   the   chocolate   on   the   inside   .   not   that   it   stayed   there   for   very   long   .   steve   leaned   in   to   bite   the   thing   off   his   face   ,   ends   up   licking   at   the   back   of   tony’s   nose   to   get   all   of   the   eggnog   off   him   .   “   hm   ...   ᵃˡʷᵃʸˢ   ᵇᵉᵗᵗᵉʳ   ʷᶤᵗʰ   ᵃ   ᵇᶤᵗ   ᵒᶠ   ...   you   in   it   .   “   he   winks   when   he   leans   back   in   the   seat   again   .   “   you   know   ...   we   have   a   second   bottle   in   the   kitchen   .   should   we   drink   it   and   pretend   tomorrow   THAT   IT   WAS   JUST   ONE   ?   i’ll   run   to   the   store   to   restock   so   it’s   like   ...   the   bottle   was   never   gone   .   “   while   speaking   ,   steve   already   got   another   cup   out   of   the   box   .   it   was   out   of   question   .   they   were   doing   it   .

@iinventor​   drew:   16   our   muses   getting   drunk   off   of   eggnog

[rgerzaa]

“   here   you   go   ...   “   steve   hands   over   the   box   which   was   filled   with   a   pair   of   socks   .   socks   he’d   somehow   managed   to   make   himself.   ʷᵉᵉᵏˢ   ᵒᶠ   ᵗʳʸᶤᶰᵍ   ᵗᵒ   ˡᵉᵃʳᶰ   how   to   knit   just   to   come   down   to   this   moment   .   now   ,   presents   exchanged   .   “   i’m   accepting   honest   feedback   .   IF   IT’S   NOT   ...   how   you   like   whatever   i   put   into   that   box   ,   then   i   can   ...   just   open   it   .   before   i   give   away   what   it   is   .   “   chuckling   slightly   ,   shaking   his   head   ᵗᵒ   ˢʰᵘᵗ   ʰᶤᵐˢᵉˡᶠ   ᵘᵖ   as   he   watches   the   other   one   unwrap   the   gift   .

@goldshadows​   drew:   8   our   muses   exchanging   christmas   presents

[rgerzaa]

head   falls   back   against   the   couch   when   he   sees   the   movie   she   has   settled   on   .   generally   ,   steve   doesn’t   mind   watching   a   movie   he’s   not   too   invested   in   .   it   came   with   sharing   a   living   space   .   some   nights   HE   GOT   TO   CHOOSE   ,   other   nights   it   was   her   turn   .   but   when   gwen   settled   on   the   holiday   he   knew   what   she   was   trying   to   do   .   she   didn’t   just   want   to   watch   a   romance   together   .   nah   .   ᶤᵗ   ʰᵃᵈ   ᵗᵒ   ᵇᵉ   ᵗʰᵃᵗ   ˢᵖᵉᶜᶤᶠᶤᶜ   ᵒᶰᵉ   .   a   christmas   one   .   all   those   years   together   and   she   still   didn’t   want   to   accept   that   it   was   his   least   favorite   holiday   of   the   year   .   and   truly   ,   why   wouldn’t   it   be   ?   most   of   the   christmases   in   his   life   had   been   spent   alone   .   no   family   to   share   it   with   ,   no   one   to   meet   for   dinner   ,   no   one   to   wake   up   to   early   to   unwrap   presents   with   .   NONE   OF   THAT   .   ʲᵘˢᵗ   ᵃᶰᵒᵗʰᵉʳ   ᵈᵃʸ   ᵒᶠ   ᵐᵃᶰʸ   .   although   she   had   made   several   attempts   to   get   him   in   the   mood   ,   steve   still   didn’t   really   feel   it   .   “   you   sure   it’s   gonna   be   that   movie   ?   “   last   attempt   to   get   out   of   the   christmas   romcom   but   he   already   knew   that   if   gwen   had   set   her   mind   to   it   ,   they   would   watch   it   .

@midtownshope​   drew:   19   my   muse   isn’t   a   fan   of   christmas   and   your   muse   has   to   show   mines   the   spirit

[rgerzaa]

with   a   bit   of   a   sigh   ,   steve   pushes   himself   back   from   the   table   so   he   can   get   off   the   chair   .   “   i   know   .   “   dirty   blond   huffs   .   it’s   been   long   ˢᶤᶰᶜᵉ   ʰᵉ   ᶠᵉˡᵗ   ˢᵘᶜʰ   ᵃ   ʳᵃᵍᵉ   ,   long   since   he’s   been   so   angered   that   it   resulted   in   him   staying   calm   .   no   screaming   ,   NO   THREATS   ,   no   arguing   .   nope   .   he   just   sought   violence   .   revenge   .   needed   to   draw   a   line   ,   make   an   example   of   this   guy   .   “   i’m   not   doing   it   for   you   .   “   words   bitter   as   he   starts   to   gather   his   things   ,   ready   to   head   out   any   moment   to   go   after   the   guy   .   “   ᶤ’ᵐ   ᵈᵒᶤᶰᵍ   ᶤᵗ   ᶠᵒʳ   ᵐʸˢᵉˡᶠ   .   once   more   guy   disrespecting   our   relationship   and   i’m   going   to   throw   a   grenade   under   his   car   .   “   okay   .   maybe   THE   ANGER   STARTED   TO   SURFACE   .   but   this   time   he’d   do   it   right   ,   this   time   he’d   make   sure   that   she   wasn’t   the   one   who’d   be   on   the   receiving   end   of   the   fight   .   

@deadxbones​   sent:   FIVE   –   “   you   owe   me   nothing   .   “

[rgerzaa]

every   memory   the   two   of   them   make   ,   steve   is   convinced   he   deserves   it   .   he   is   convinced   that   thor   has   given   enough   in   his   lifetime   .   it   was   his   time   to   receive   .   and   if   STEVE   COULD   GIVE   HIM   THAT   with   as   much   as   his   own   time   then   he   would   .   any   day   of   his   comparably   short   life   he   would   .   ᵗʰᵉ   ᵈᵃʸ   ᵖᵉʳᶠᵉᶜᵗ   –   like   most   days   since   peace   had   found   its   way   into   their   life   .   morning   slow   as   they   shared   it   in   bed   ,   breakfast   rich   like   they   both   enjoyed   it   ,   time   spent   doing   things   that   lovers   did   to   make   time   pass   together   .   since   the   two   had   found   each   other   ,   everyday   was   a   day   ᶠᵒʳ   ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰᶤᶰᵍ   ˢᵖᵉᶜᶤᵃˡ   .   today   ,   nothing   short   of   that   .   crepes   at   the   christmas   market   had   been   delicious   .   TASTE   OF   NUTELLA   still   lingering   on   his   tongue   when   the   snow   had   started   to   come   down   .   the   wind   was   fresh   so   he   pressed   into   thor’s   side   more   on   their   walk   home   .   

“   look   .   “   gloved   hand   comes   up   when   he   spots   it   .   the   mistletoe   hanging   from   one   of   the   street   lights   ,   their   personal   spotlight   it   seemed   .   “   you   know   what   that   means   ,   right   ?   “   not   that   HE   REALLY   NEEDED   an   excuse   to   kiss   thor   but   it   was   ᵃ   ᵖᵉʳᶠᵉᶜᵗ   ᶜᵒᶤᶰᶜᶤᵈᵉᶰᶜᵉ   playing   right   into   his   cards   .

@thunderbringer​   sent:   ❄💋   for   our   muses   to   kiss   in   the   snow   .