#✧ 𝐈𝐒𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 ╱ barbie wire : introspection.

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𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐍  𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐓  𝐎𝐅  𝐎𝐁𝐒𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍

patron  saint  of  devotion.  of  dedication.  of  passion.  of  everything  you  won't  call  it,  in  the  spaces  between.  patron  saint  of  holding  tight  to  it  until  it  bleeds.  patron  saint  of  pushing  it  too  far.  patron  saint  of  staring  into  the  sun  until  you're  blind.  patron  saint  of  gazing  onto  beauty  until  you  can't  see  anything  anymore.

tagged  by  @ephemaera  ,  beloved  ! tagging  @spidrboots  ,  @pomniegranate  ,  @sinnrhotel  ,  @hellmxses  ,  @8elphgor  &  @4nge1s

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what tragic death will you suffer ?

the betrayal .

you die at the hands of the person you love most. maybe there are tears in their eyes as they drive the sword into your chest, maybe there is none. there are certainly tears in yours. your mouth will open to ask 'why' only to spit blood instead. you will die never knowing if they loved you at all, wondering if you could've done something to prevent this, or if it was always going to end this way.

stolen , tagging @spidrboots , @ephemaera , @hellcrwn , and you.

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she's alone for sinsmas. for some reason, this year , it's bugging her more than most.

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my mother's kindness died with her. it never made a home in my veins, it never found a place in my chest. i claw at the earth, i claw through the dirt searching for it... the more i dig into the earth, the more coldness i find. my mother's warmth died with her. i dig and find my knuckles bruised. the cold earth has no answers. there is no warmth, there is venom on my tongue, dripping from my teeth. the only heat within me burns like a fire, all consuming and destroying... my father's rage will burn me alive so why are the night's so cold?

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barbie crossing out her marking on her forehead is so interesting??? ( note to hestia stop saying shit is interesting ) bUT LIKE ??? bc yeah, it's severing her tie to blitz.... but it's severing her tie to her father too. what was the intent? she is so so much her father's daughter, and yet.... she comes to despise that part of herself. but she despises blitzo too. i think..... she v much was a caretaker for her father (alcoholics don't live forever) and like... she has so much anger at her roots and at her family and her father for being the worst man alive and her brother for killing their mother and just.... it's the burden of being your father's daughter!!! it's being told you look like him when you hate that!!!! she wants to look in the mirror and see her mother but she only sees her father... and her addiction and struggles.... she is cursed to be cash's daughter. anyways!!!

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why does she visit cash once a week ? she asks herself many times . maybe it's because it earns her the title of favorite child . maybe it's because she thinks she deserves every drunken tirade and insult. maybe it's because she does think she'll finally snap and hit him like he deserves -

maybe it's because she thinks her momma would want her to .

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' you slipped through the noose ' and ' quiet girls don't make it home , why can't we just go back home ? ' and ' unless somebody stays behind to keep them occupied and suddenly i know what i have to do ' and ' now every move that i make is a bid to survive ' and ' you didn't think you could die , neither did i ' and ' swan would've beat him but i am no swan blitzø ' and ' i'm doing my best just to make it til dawn '

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listen , she appreciates pretty people equally ... but she has a slight preference for women.

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barbie's self esteem is.... super low. she was a performer, and she was never enough, especially not for her father. she was never going to be as good as her mother once was. her self loathing tells her she's ugly too, her minds tears herself down more than anyone else ever could... and every relapse drives her further into her self loathing, that fact she thinks she's ugly and the worst... but she'd be the first person to tell anyone else that they're hot as fuck and a bad ass and to hold their head high. even her brother, if he needs to hear it. she hates herself, she thinks she hates him... but the psycholgoical damage that was ifnlicted on her stops with her.

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half of my heart is in your chest [ ... ] i'm not a mama's boy

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i guess you never know someone you think you know , can't see the knife when you're too close , it scars forever when someone you called a brother shows you the truth can be so cold

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this love is getting kinda dangerous , feels like it's a loaded gun , my - my , it's turnin' like a cloud of dust , my heart always wants to turn and run , oh - oh - oh , if you want a cowboy on a white horse , ridin' off into the sunset , if that's the kinda love you wanna wait for .... hold on tight girl , i ain't there yet .

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oh brother , i see you burn like me , singes on our skin like a brand

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thinking about barbie wire and sacrifice as her love language , but also .... her undoing . she'll sacrifice her peace to have cash in her life , she'd sacrifice anything for her brother ( she'd take the blame for anything he did , she'd put herself between him and cash ) , she'd sacrifice her life bc .... her life doesn't mean that much to her !!!!