#✘ ᶰᵒ ᵈᵉᶜᵉᵖᵗᶤᵒᶰˢ ᵇˡᶤᶰᵈ ᵐʸ ᵉʸᵉˢ ( headcanon )

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a little tva au that lives in my brain so i guess this can live here too . notes under cut:

agent "blank", aka simply Agent -- a variant of my shield agent original character, a demolitions expert whose love of explosives is as vast as her patience -- that is to say, it's infinite, thanks to a quirk of her mutation. here at the time variance authority, this variant of agent primarily works in the testing field to try out new equipment developed by r+d. she's often sent out on assignments to prune branches, or sometimes simply to watch over new prisoners ( or new workers. perhaps both. ) often works with agent "sharp", but has been given work orders to keep an eye on loki here and there when he and mobius aren't busy working together. she is perhaps the only person who is endlessly patient enough to truly accept all of his antics... though she can tell there's clearly some sort of plot forming in their mind. namely, it seems like they have some sort of interest in agent sharp.

loki variant L327, "agent viathan" -- you know him. he is the loki of this blog's fame. obviously has a fair bit of similarity to the canon loki, though they're more willing to cooperate with the time variance authority in order to unravel the mysteries and secrets it holds. has agreed to take on a position as an agent / analyst for now in order to effectively schmooze his way into learning more information, especially after noticing strangely edited discrepancies when it comes to the tva's file on himself -- namely, the time he spent living in victorian london is partly missing. if the first season had been longer, i really wish it had shown us more of loki working with the tva and traveling with mobius in order to slowly learn more about sylvie / 'the variant's' plans. so here he is. his codename comes from the official loki arg that kind of went off the rails and became more or less defunct. we may never know what they were planning to do with that.

agent "sharp" -- ( a ) theo bell from loki: where mischief lies' fame. he was in the wrong place at the wrong time, and now he's here for all time. always. he'd said it himself before: shakespearean love tends to end in tragedy. there was no place for theo on the sacred timeline -- if he had still been there when loki went back for him, it would have changed things irrevocably. the events of the mcu would likely never have happened, so he was taken by the tva. like other variant workers, he has no memory of his life other than being an agent, but certain little things still bleed through from time to time. he's met plenty of loki variants in his day -- this person, whoever they may be, seems cosmically destined to end up here -- but L327... they seem familiar for some reason. he doesn't know loki. but he feels like he should.

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&&.   ᚲ ᛜ  

            “  i  never  wanted  the  throne  !   i  only  ever  wanted  to  be  your  equal  !  ”  &&  it’s  true .  a  bitter  remark    spat    out  when  emotions  triumph  over  words  usually  chosen  oh - so  carefully .  loki  is  not  one  to  admit  things  openly ,  but  sometimes  things  cannot  be  helped .            loki  could  be  a  good  king .  loki  would  not  be  a  good  king .  diplomacy . . .  negotiations . . .   strategy . . .  all  a  strong  suit . (  the  resemblance  to  ODIN  far  stronger  than  one  cared  to  freely  admit ,  even  when  it  was  noticed  by  others .  )  deep  down  beneath  that  sharp  exterior,  the  false  confidence  so  often  used  as  a  shield,  things  are  different .  there  lay  a  claim  that  the  god  of  mischief  craves  power ,  &&  it  is  true ,  though  not  the  power  of  a  title  and  not  the  power  of  a  throne .  (  loki  has  a  THRONE,  in  a  frigid  realm  nestled  low  ‘pon  yggdrasil’s  branches,  &&  it  already  lies  NEGLECTED .  )                             real  power  comes  in  the  form  of  reputation ,  &&  unfortunately  loki’s  is  rather  terrible  in  just  about  every  way.  (  instead,  settle  on  whatever  is  easier  to  obtain.  )   the  trickster  is ,  at  deepest  core ,  at  truest  fault ,  selfish .  attention  seeking .  envious .  (  &&  who  in  the  world  receives  more  attention  than  its  ruler  ?  )  loki  does  not  ‘ WANT ’  to  be  a  king  queen  sovereign .  maybe  all  loki  wants  is  a  day  in  the  sun .   (  to  burn  BRIGHT ,  not  HAPPILY .  )

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          lbr.  there’s no way loki hasn’t let a  knife  roomba  loose in avengers tower before

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ENNEAGRAM TEST

TYPE 8: THE BOSS ( OR CHALLENGER )

Ego Fixation: Vengeance (objectification) Holy Idea: Truth Basic Fear: Being harmed or controlled by others Motivations: Wanting to be self-reliant, desiring to prove their strength and resist weakness, wanting to be important, needing to dominate and to "stay in control" of life Virtue To Learn: Innocence

The Holy Idea of "Truth" is the understanding that All is One: the entire universe, with all of its levels and dimensions, is an expression of the One no matter how fragmented the subjective mind perceives it.

When this fundamental understanding is obscured or lost, it can result in a personality type that sees reality in a very dualistic way (justice/injustice, strong/weak, good/bad etc.) and sees itself as essentially "bad" or "guilty." To numb the pain of this core wound, The Boss overcompensates by controlling others or by dominating situations so that they don't feel vulnerable.

'Active Bosses' tend towards intensity and rigidity, being disciplinarians given to conflict and aggression, and protectiveness towards the weak. 'Passive Bosses,' on the other hand, incline toward hedonism and indulge in excess. The Boss' behavior comes as a result of growing up in an environment where weakness (showing vulnerability) is frowned upon. Thus, The Boss learns that success lies in controlling others, not in being controlled by them.

On the other hand, The Boss tends to be fair, confident, and self-reliant.

TAGGED BY:  @galdrfetter

TAGGING: @marveliing @shieldworn @antiherod @soulstcne

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Is there any part of you that ever wonders about your Jotun heritage, or your biological family?

no  lies  in  this  chili’s  tonight    /   @fcrgedstrength  !

        2 / 5

         “  it’s a bit of a  MIXED  BAG ,  really .  ”

     SOME  DAYS ,  HE  THINKS  MAYBE  he  would  like to know more about the history of  jotunheim ,  the days preceding the first  FIMBULVETR .  curiosity was always his forte,  but in this particular case,  inquisition is overruled by  HATRED  and by  FEAR .

    HE’S  DISGUSTED  WITH  HIMSELF,  with the still-burning revelation that all he’d known himself to be was simply  FALSEHOOD.  (  perhaps that’s why he’s so  adept  at trickery, given that he himself is a  TRICK,  a  changeling ,  a cruel joke .  )  

         CONSTANT  WAS  THE  FEAR  of others learning of his  frostborn  half,  an ever-growing scare affected by the fact that each time,  his jotun form came about more  SWIFTLY.  common sense told that it was simply him learning to  CONTROL  this other side of himself,  to wield it  INNATELY  as he did his illusions and spells.  irrational  fright  told him that one day,  the frost would completely take him over  &&  he’d once again be lost to even himself.

             and  that  fear  was a good of a moll as any,  until the day came when he’d learned to accept  himself  first.  maybe then he’d dare to explore the  rest .

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              &&. HAIRCUT.

           when loki was young, shortly after he came out, he ended up cutting off all his hair ( re: the flashback scenes in the beginning of the first thor movie )  because he thought it would make him come off as more masculine in some regard. his family was pretty supportive of him being trans and he was so, so glad for that, but things still weren’t entirely perfect.        ( slip-ups and apologies and unknowing strangers )

     he was happy with his new, short hair for a while, but as time went on and the newness factor wore off, he started to hate it immensely. it just..... didn’t feel right. the nape of his neck felt too exposed && he missed when his mother would weave tiny little braids into the raven locks && he didn’t like the way the front would start falling in his eyes if he didn’t brush it a certain way. ( to top it all off, thor was starting to let his own hair grow out, probably as an attempt to be like father, and all it did was make loki jealous of what he once had. )

             SINCE THEN, loki has never cut his hair so short again       he likes it best when it’s just past his shoulders, though he’s occasionally been known to have it kept much longer at times. if you ever make fun of it, make any derogatory comments about his appearance, or make an attempt to cut off his hair, you’ll . . . probably be the recipient of a new knife lbr.

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         && ON WORTHINESS.

            HE’D ALWAYS TEETER-TOTTERED between light and dark          a tightrope line of GREY MORALITY that only he can truly find BALANCE. he’s no HERO. that much had been made perfectly clear over the eons           BETRAYAL && JEALOUSY && ANGER.

      (                       a volatile concoction able to be set off at any given moment. )

               YET SOMEHOW, villainy was just as WRONG of a title. loki looked out for HIMSELF and himself ALONE        always choosing whichever side fell to his FAVOR       but very rarely would he do so directly to HURT anyone without a proper reason.

       THE DESTRUCTION of asgard was not something he’d ever wanted        an end to the way the realm OPERATED, perhaps, but not of the world itself.               AND SO this time, the LIESMITH stood with the side of GOOD.

       dark green cape billowing in the wind, leather boots firm against the BIFROST, he stood not alone && not against, but rather WITH his brother, WITH the leader of the valkyries, && WITH the green creature that had once PUMMELED him. he stood with ASGARD and he stood against the CHAOS that was part of his destiny to bring forth.

              ( it left a strange, vaguely unwelcome feeling in the hollow of his throat. )

       THE DEATH GODDESS’ GAZE bore through him, ice cold like the frigid wastes upon his infancy had spent, but still he STOOD, thin lips curving into a crooked, death defying grin.

              ( the grin of a man who’s accepted himself, whoever that may be. )

        A DAGGER’S CLENCHED white-knuckled in one hand, frosty steel against his palm.

       WITH A SHOUT from its wielder, the mighty MJOLNIR, restored, sailed SWIFTLY across the battlefield, static clinging to the air. 

               ( echoes of the past, of TWO BROTHERS, one light and one dark, battling silhouetted against the pulsing rainbow bridge        of an ANCIENT PATH severed just as the bond between family       of a FALL into the unknown abyss. )

                                     the HAMMER connected with the back of a GODDESS’ SLENDER HAND, but rather than crushed in a VICE GRIP it’s sent careening away, ARCING across the bridge on a path that would take it FAR over the waterfalling edges of the realm.

     ( A DAGGER CLATTERED to the ground, skidding over the edge to plummet into the dark sea below. )

                                   ( ITS WIELDER UNNOTICING. )

                     and in a TRICKSTER’S GRIP the hammer’s handle hit, boots scrabbling for purchase against the glassy ground before slowing to a stop just before the FALL. the leather wrapping was WARM, mjolnir crackling with ancient energy that nearly set his hair on end.      a look of genuine SHOCK, of green eyes blown WIDE, of jaw slightly AGAPE in incredulity.          ( && the HAMMER dropped like a STONE at the recognition, a resounding thud in the buzzing silence. it’s only a few tiny seconds before it flew back into THOR’S awaiting hand. )

                                  yet for one small, SHINING moment, the god of LIES was worthy.                                   for that one single, BRILLIANT moment, loki had only wished to HELP.

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                    REMINDER that if you don’t think loki cares about sif, fandral, hogun, and volstagg, you’re wrong

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&&. PREFERENCES

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            i just realized that i’ve uhhhhhh never posted a proper reference for any of loki’s outfits in his main / canon divergent verse. and i don’t feel like drawing a full body ref right now but hey polyvore is always a thing. so here’s one he wears pretty often !

               the majority of his clothes are all from high-end brands. ( likely stolen. i wouldn’t imagine SHIELD would begin paying him until he actually started being useful. )                while most of the clothes he wears while on midgard are, well, midgardian, it’s actually exceedingly rare to see him wearing midgardian shoes. he prefers the weighted-sole leather boots that are rather common on asgard, both for familiarity and comfort. plus he’s got very high arches.

               LAEVATEINN almost never leaves his person, no matter what realm he’s in. it’s too important for him to let it out of his presence for long - though he may be one of very few that can use it, he fears losing it. ( perhaps it stems from the fact that it once was one of FRIGGA’S belongings. )        the blade usually rests in its standard spot under his coat, tucked against the small of his back - if he’s wearing something in which that doesn’t work in his favor it’s either in a hidden pocket of his satchel or tucked into one of his boots like his daggers tend to be.

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  ⸻ && FROST BITTEN.

1.      THE COLD KISSES HIS SKIN as he sets his hands on the CASKET and he can feel it   w r e n c h i n g   its way under his flesh. it’s as if it BURNS, and he steels his jaw to shut it out. he wants to LET GO but he finds himself unable - it’s all too soon before SENSATION leaves him && all that’s left are too-blue hands and tingling skin that feels no chill and a DISAPPOINTED presence behind him.

2.        IT COMES QUICKER the next time, as if unlocked by that ACCURSED box and he wishes he’d NEVER thought to touch it. whenever he draws near he can feel the FROST just waiting below the surface. HE IS WHAT THEY ALL FEAR and it is all he can do not to WEEP.

3.        HE LEARNS TO FIGHT IT. it creeps close and he pushes it D O W N, white-knuckled && teeth grit. when it BEGINS it’s too hard to STOP IT IN MOTION, desperate illusions clinging to his skin as he waits for the change to FINISH so that he can force it to reverse. he waits with baited breath.

4.        ILLUSIONS && SPELLS && INCANTS, trickster’s seidr becomes far more DIFFICULT to wield in the UNBECOMING STATE and if he can’t tune out the world and FOCUS, his dirty secret is going to be revealed. he twitches his fingers without THINKING and instead of GOLDEN LIGHT, delicate patterns of ice spiral out from under his feet.

5.        NUMB FINGERS reach to his face, alighting upon gently RAISED geometrics imprinted upon his flesh like a WAR BRAND and he TRACES them with the faintest sense of HORROR. the long-hidden twin s c a r s  are now visible upon his chest && he feels them like a punch to the gut.

6.        HANDS TRAVEL BACK to his face, feeling the tips of his ears just slightly pointed. they remind him of the creatures within stories his mother told him as a child. tongue runs over TEETH and they come to tiny, uniform points still far sharper than that of his ears, ivory contrasting TOO HARSHLY with the black of his gums.

7.        IF THE FROST NEVER CAME AGAIN, IT WOULD STILL BE TOO SOON.

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          HE IS NOT   E V I L           that has never been what he is. EVIL is an ugly word, an absolute, an eternal      and each of those things bear no echo to the prince. he is an AMALGAM   (   && he is shifting && learning && more unsure than he lets on.   )      he is CUNNING and he is a LIAR and he is oh so good at pretending that there is NOTHING in this world that could tear him down.           (  that so much is TRUE. he is already at his LOWEST and there is nowhere to go. )

      the void has always CALLED to him (  it was no surprise that he FELL  ) but for that which resonates so deeply within him       it is dark and it is alone and it is like a wounded animal retreating back into the night.

            (      in the past he   L A S H E S   out, rage and fury and pain alight           all too intensified by the loosely masked YELLOW within his grip. was it he who wielded the STONE ?  or was he simply its VESSEL ?       )

     VILLAINY was always a matter of perspective. he can be CRUEL and CALLOUS         it is simply who he is, the betrayal has shaped that much       but he is equally so DETERMINED to be the master of his  f a t e.

              (   he has a CHOICE;  and in this moment he has not sided with TYRANNY.  )

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silk & new leaf !

[ COLORS | @solehero // ACCEPTING. ]

SILK: does your muse care about appearances much? do they spend a lot of time on their own appearance, or do they just go with the flow each day?

                   HE IS PAMPERED, HE IS POISED— all that is fitting of nobility presides upon his stature. elegantly engraved platelets of ARMOR, custom-tailored SUITS && ROBES && COATS remain in his collection. raven hair falls rolling in gentle waves to contrast with angular features. ( perhaps the pursuit of PERFECTION provides him comfort among the ever-growing self doubt within. )             AND WHEN THIS IS DISRUPTED ?  a not uncommon occurrence of that which is an ILLUSION of grace.

NEW LEAF: what message would your muse send to their past self, if any?

                   A DEEP GAZE into the mirror, troubled thoughts WHIRLING at recollection of the past. this is a man who has been HURT,  whose life has been SCARRED in numerous ways and it hurts and he does not want it to be this way.             (  he misses the way things were when he was young.   )     “ be not so trusting of others, ”  comes the whisper, all too HARSH. his father, his brother, his friends         all that he had ever done, it was not for lack of LOVING them, of trying to do that which ( he felt ) was BEST, and yet they turned on him despite !          it was not fair.                  “ regard them as you would yourself. do not be so NAIVE- their tricks, in some way, outmeasure your own. ”

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crimson

[ COLORS. | @sarlatova // accepting. ]

CRIMSON: how passionate is your muse about the things they love most?

                            THERE LAY CLAIM to a notion that his actions are fueled by THOUGHT and LOGIC like that which he employs upon the minds of others — it is but FALSEHOOD to cover up that which is pain gleaned from LOSS. the liesmith would do anything for what he LOVES, ( even if those very things lack ADMITTANCE ) but he has learned by now that this is not a RETURNED IDEAL. betrayal has forged COLDNESS, WARINESS, PAIN && GRIEF within the confines of his heart && as such he acts as if he has NONE, ‘stead crooked grin formed swiftly over sharp features. facade-breaking rage, a contortion of emotion when the dam breaks again    that is all still left to be TRUSTED.                            HE WANTS TO BE LOVED. HE WANTS TO LOVE. HE IS A COWARD.

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         &&. LAEVATEINN.

       THE BLADE once rested within the depths of asgard, hidden away in the VAULTS below the palace. the only time it saw the light of day was during rare ceremonies, in which QUEEN FRIGGA would become its bearer - as ODIN with the staff GUNGNIR.

     THE LAEVATEINN was a relic that predated known ASGARDIAN history, said to have been found in an ancient realm and brought back for the ALLFATHER. it resonates with the same energy as the strange GAPS in the fabric of space-time, and to the BIFROST as well. its crystalline surface held far too many LOCKED SECRETS and not much came from its hidden power, trapped in the vault.

               FROM A YOUNG AGE, PRINCE LOKI WAS NO STRANGER                                                                    TO THE CALL OF THE VOID.               ( perhaps a cruelly ironic twist of fate. )

     his WANDERINGS, at first harmless, slowly developed into him finding things that he shouldn’t. the first time he fell through a GAP, he was very young - wandering about the outskirts of the capital city, close to the mountains. something caught his eye, and soon he found himself moving through seemingly SOLID ROCK. the air burned - acridly hot. this was none other than MUSPELLHEIMR, and his heart threatened to pound its way out of his chest. shuffling backward, he ......... was back upon asgard, as if he’d never left save for the SOOT upon his face.                         for a while, he was deeply AFRAID of gaps      though eventually he began to take running leaps, seeking them out and honing his skills. as centuries passed, he learned how to locate these disturbances - as well as have a vague sense of where they might lead.

            THE BLADE WAS LARGELY FORGOTTEN for a time          frigga had chosen long ago that it was to someday be given to LOKI, as MJOLNIR was gifted to THOR. upon frigga’s death, due to the fact that loki was IMPRISONED, the majority of things willed to him were never entrusted, with some more VALUABLE things being unjustly taken and sold. one particular BLADE caught the fancy of a certain collector.

      when loki was released from prison ( RE: MAIN VERSE - DECIDE MY DESTINY ), he learned that many of frigga’s things had been sold off. having had a bit of a GRUDGE with taneleer tivan for some time now, his first priority was to STEAL back what was STOLEN, sneaking in under another guise, offering something meaningless, and taking what was his upon the way out.

                     WHEN GRIPPING THE BLADE’S HANDLE, that all-too familiar buzz at the back of his skull intensifies, allowing him to seek out && locate GAPS much more quickly.         even after months, he still had much to learn yet about harnessing the blade’s power          knowing now that it has the ability to REND gaps, though only able to do so under his intense concentration or for shorter distance travel.        it resides UNDER HIS COAT at the ready, a secret well-kept from almost all he meets for nearly FOUR years now.                                              ( and he’s been PRACTICING. )

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