#♡. kairos.ic ⁄ ⁄ the belief of a better dream .

[stellarhistoria]

a huff, "If only."

[stellarhistoria]

A New Light

kairos had never believed he'd get this far, not again.

he'd always been the sort of person to believe that he'd be damned to repeat the same years, the same people, the same lines of dialogue over and over again. he'd always believed, thought he KNEW that he would have to pay penance for his "crimes". no matter how self imposed that guilt was. he believed that he didn't deserve this love, didn't deserve this peace, didn't deserve this HAPPY ENDING.

and a part of him revels in the feeling of knowing that this is no ending. because endings are always terribly sad.

in the words of his parents: this is just a new volume in that story of yours.

and as he looks down at his newborn daughter, who he had been preparing for for so many months now, only for her to surprise himself and katie both by being a couple of days early before even the time that she was supposed to be due... he can't help but feel at peace the same way he had when he had believed he didn't deserve to feel it in the first place. he can't help but feel like he's finally done something right for once, in all his colossal mistakes throughout his long lived life.

her unfocused eyes stare up at him, all his shiny colors that she cannot parse just yet being a bokeh effect of various little shines in her peripheral. as he smiles at her, her wide eyes stare up at him with confusion and awe - or perhaps she's just stunned by the light of it all. but in her swaddled state she cannot reach out to him, only stare.

how comforting it is, to know that you helped to bring something so fragile and yet ever so sturdy into the world simply by committing such as act as love. how comforting it is, to know that because of your love, you have the proof of it, the proof of your commitment, the proof of your hope in your arms. even when you believed it wasn't possible.

he sighs and leans back slightly, looking over to his sleeping wife, and chuckling. they've been through so much these past nine months, and amaurath will be thrilled to be a big sister to the young girl in his arms.

ah... he'll have to tell the family, he supposes. if they don't already know.

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kairos tags

♡.   kairos.ic     ⁄ ⁄   the belief of a better dream .

♡.   kairos.aesthetic     ⁄ ⁄   the belief of a better dream .

♡.   kairos.visage     ⁄ ⁄   the belief of a better dream .

♡.   kairos.v01 ( main )     ⁄ ⁄   archfaerie of dreams and memories .

♡.   kairos.v02 ( submain )     ⁄ ⁄   if you have to ask then you aren’t paying attention .

♡.   kairos.about     ⁄ ⁄   i know the pain it takes to stay strong .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( mutemade.katie )     ⁄ ⁄   say the word ; i’ll lasso the stars .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( azurescaled.izumi )     ⁄ ⁄   drawn to your passion like a neon sign .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( voidedfate.clemency )     ⁄ ⁄   forever & always .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( whisper )     ⁄ ⁄   to my soul ; to a day we hope never arrives .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( kaito )     ⁄ ⁄   i can’t imagine a day without you .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( ian )     ⁄ ⁄   more than blood more like soul .

♡.   kairos.thoughts     ⁄ ⁄   i only sink deeper the deeper i think .

♡.   kairos.asks     ⁄ ⁄   o’ captain o’ captain !

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unprompted / / @gamenu. / / nicole & kairos.

"My travels?" he straightens himself out for a moment, back cracking slightly as he slumps forward again, his newly found large wolven size for a monster form making him seem much bigger, when he still feels so small. "I wouldn't know where t'begin, Nic'. But I'll start with a fairytale, that ain't all that fair."

"A long time ago, there was a pair of princes. These princes were named Starlight and Moonlight. Starlight dreamed of a future where the people they bled for, trained for, worked so long to put dreams into the clouds for. Moonlight dreamed of a future where everyone could live in peace, away from fighting, away from the spirits that haunted their hearts, away from the noise of clashing blades."

he sighs, fidgeting with his claws absentmindedly. it's difficult to remember 'this fairytale', but at the same time it felt almost relieving to talk about something that hurt for a change, instead of relaxing all the time like he knows he probably should. ( and so, he continues, with a sharp inhale ── )

"And so, Moonlight and Starlight came up with a plan. They would give their dreams to the people they loved so dearly. They would sacrifice everything for it, even if it meant sacrificing their lives in the process. Starlight did not come up with this plan by himself, however. No, Starlight was GIVEN this plan, by a cruel man... we'll call him End. See, End was not your average do no good do all harm type of man; his end goals spanned more than a few months, years, or decades. He would wait eternity, if it meant getting what he wanted. And it did not matter who he used, betrayed, and broke in the process."

a weary smile crosses his expression, "End held no regard for life, as all life ends eventually, so all he was doing was speeding up the process. What harm would it be to sacrifice a few willing princes in the process of getting what he, and thus everyone else, wanted? Alas, this is not the way the story was written. This is not the way it was meant to go. But End, End was a selfish man, once filled with an icy envy and a malicious indifference towards the world before his untimely end. At least, his first End."

he has to stop for a moment, shoulders shaking with bitten back tears and screams that it wasn't fair, he was just a child - THEY WERE JUST KIDS! but the past is past, and the past is prologue.

"... End, manipulated the kingdom and its people, its king and its queen, into believing he was in the right, and as a result, End managed to find a way to sow seeds of discord through the royal courts. He managed to do all of his work unintended, unsupervised, untested. And when someone noticed, it was far too late. The pieces were set, and End already knew every move. By the time they realized who had poisoned the two princes, the game had finally met... its End."

he sighs.

"But, legend has it that you can still feel the presence of the two princes in the night sky. When the light of the moon does not keep you safe, the light of the stars will guide you home."

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@azurescaled. / / morning drowsiness. / / kairos & izumi.

"Mmmmm," he hums softly, closing his eyes against the feeling of a beloved's touch musing his hair while he's already barely awake to begin with. "Y'know me, my love. I've always gotta show how much I love the people who love me f' me. No matter what form I take."

he raises his head slightly to lean forward and press a gentle kiss to izumi's cheek, wanting them to feel the light smile on his lips as he does so, lingering just long enough for that to happen before leaning away again. "I'd love to take the day off. I'd get t'spoil ya, as y'should be every day."

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@abysmalwitch. / / her darling boy. / / kairos & ravenna.

"I'm fuckin', ffh." he takes his hands from her shoulders and starts to absently talk with them, though that seems to help his anxiety very little. "Yeah this is my second child but that doesn't mean I was particularly in the know about the first! My first child is part DRAGON, mom, and he doesn't even know that part yet! I don't know how to bring it up!"

there's a quiet whine, as he slumps forward just a little bit in both defeat and wanting to seem as small as possible. "I didn't think I'd live long enough to start a family of my own, let alone so soon. It just, fuckin' hit me recently that I'm safe enough to actually live my life the way I want to live it, and it's fuckin'── I'm freaking the fuck out!"

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new kairos tags

♡.   kairos.ic     ⁄ ⁄   the belief of a better dream .

♡.   kairos.aesthetic     ⁄ ⁄   the belief of a better dream .

♡.   kairos.visage     ⁄ ⁄   the belief of a better dream .

♡.   kairos.v01 ( main )     ⁄ ⁄   archfaerie of dreams and memories .

♡.   kairos.v02 ( submain )     ⁄ ⁄   if you have to ask then you aren’t paying attention .

♡.   kairos.about     ⁄ ⁄   i know the pain it takes to stay strong .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( mutemade.katie )     ⁄ ⁄   say the word ; i’ll lasso the stars .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( azurescaled.izumi )     ⁄ ⁄   drawn to your passion like a neon sign .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( voidedfate.clemency )     ⁄ ⁄   forever & always .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( whisper )     ⁄ ⁄   to my soul ; to a day we hope never arrives .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( kaito )     ⁄ ⁄   i can’t imagine a day without you .

♡.   kairos.bond: ( ian )     ⁄ ⁄   more than blood more like soul .

♡.   kairos.thoughts     ⁄ ⁄   i only sink deeper the deeper i think .

♡.   kairos.asks     ⁄ ⁄   o’ captain o’ captain !