#☂ ⇆ ( where’s my fucking teenage dream?! | child | )

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he still wonders why his brother didn't get the chance to be extraordinary like the rest of them. viktor out of all of them had the hero instinct that years of superiority had bred out of their siblings. but somehow he was left as the one baby born with them that wasn't special. it had forced viktor to listen to five rant about time travel among other selfish wants. he'd missed him greatly in the silence broken only by delores. "dad must have some information i can use." if anyone would be able to predict the end of days it would be their asshole father.

he still wonders why his brother didn't get the chance to be extraordinary like the rest of them. viktor out of all of them had the hero instinct that years of superiority had bred out of their siblings. but somehow he was left as the one baby born with them that wasn't special. it had forced viktor to listen to five rant about time travel among other selfish wants. he'd missed him greatly in the silence broken only by delores. "dad must have some information i can use." if anyone would be able to predict the end of days it would be their asshole father.

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@bardbattled​ asked: “   are   you   tired   of   me    yet  ?   ”

“ not at all, elsie. you, ben and viktor are the only three i can stand. ” it’s coming up on one am and their father has long since abandoned his research to a quiet night. it’s become common for one of the four latter numbers to sneak into each other’s rooms and he’s sure that six and seven are currently talking about music or whatever catches their fancy. five is taking the time to run his calculations again. preparing for when he’d ask his father to time travel. “ are you still worried about the mission? you shouldn’t listen to luther. idiot can barely tie his shoes together let alone lead a team. ”

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@mothsomen​ + you got a traumatised child

the first thing he feels is cold. not uncommon in the apocalypse but since he had been in june it’s an odd feeling. there’s no burn of acid from the nuclear winter and he’s sure that he’s not in the same location. for a start, the world isn’t on fire. had he finally cracked it at eighteen? five stumbles into a run and breaks out onto the street. he probably looks insane. aviator goggles resting over his eyes and body covered in dirty scavenged clothes. but there are people. who aren’t dead. a laugh of hysteria bubbles out of him and he grabs the first person who walks past. ignoring the fact that the feeling of human skin is already overwhelming. “ where am i? and what’s the date? ”

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@bardbattled​ asked “ i’m  afraid  that  it’s  only  leading  to  darker  places. ”

he sits next to her after a long training session hoping that perhaps they can have five fucking minutes. even dad had to know if they were pushed too hard it would be detrimental. five had reached his limits on blinks for the day and he’s sure she’s about spent too. “ you won’t have to kill anyone, elsie. if anyone will, it’s diego. i’m honestly surprised he hasn’t attempted a bloody coup to take number one from luther. and...dad would probably send me to kill someone since i can get in and out in a nanosecond.”

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nmbreight·:

it was true what five said , valid points made and driven home by his mention of their father . but it does nothing to assuage her guilt . “ . . . i mean , okay so you’re not WRONG . ” a beat , a sigh . teeth go to momentarily chew at her bottom lip . “ . . . it’s just , did i , do YOU think i took it too far ? ” memories of dead bodies , blood pouring from their eyes like tears , haunts her .

“ i’m never wrong. ” a cockiness born into him by his advanced intellect. their father had made sure he understood his power beyond the physical. no, he understood the math and science of it all. so he’s sure that he knows better than her fears. “ you saved lives. pretty much all we’ve ever been trained to do. so as long as you are doing that there isn’t a too far. but next time...let me handle the take down. ” despite how they’re the same age he’s always taken on more of an older brother role to the higher letters. he’s too smart for the lower numbers and too powerful for the lower so he makes sure he can fit in both places. even if it’s obvious their father is grooming him to take over in that role.

" . . . what if i don't belong here , " gaze averted from @equationsoff , singular hot trickles down cheek . " what if i'm just a MISTAKE , . . . a MONSTER ? "

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@tragicsongs​ + viktor!

three years of hell. trapped in a world of his own creation. but he has a date. he knows when to stop it. and if a blind jump got him here then a blind jump could get him back. delores had said to check his math but he’s desperate. sixteen years old and he doesn’t want to wait till eighteen to save their lives. save the world. so he pulls and forces himself back in time. feels the pain of his body being buffeted by something he still doesn’t entirely understand before he falls face first into an...orchestra pit? his back meets a drum set and the sound is enough to cause alarm. five checks his pockets for the book and the eye since he needs them. now, he just needs to find out the date and he can move on with saving his family. “ shit. ” he breathes, feeling the pain of his fall and the hunger pangs of starvation. jumping is going to wreck havoc with his system till he can re-energise on something. “ what’s the date? the exact date. ” yes, five. don’t even acknowledge how you fell from a time portal.

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it's been a long time since he'd heard another human being speak aloud. sure, delores spoke to him but she often spoke softly so not to spook him. could he be blamed for devolving into flinching from noises when it usually signalled danger? no, he didn't think so. especially when his power relied on the food he had to ration in order to survive. so he couldn't just blink out of an issue unless he wanted to pass out where he ended up.

there was a chance he was hallucinating. that he had finally lost the final few strands of sanity that weren't wrapped in his need to find a way out. if he stopped the apocalypse then his family wouldn't be four filled graves and two empty ones for those he could not find. he didn't need diego of all people there to remind him of his goal. it screamed at him every god damn fucking day.

his brother ran at him and he couldn't help himself. he, obviously, put delores and the cart behind him and took a step back. sure, he could glare this person into submission but at the same time it probably lost most if not all the bite he intended for it when he probably looked a shadow of the thirteen year old child who'd left them at the breakfast table.

" right. i'm hallucinating. cause one, you wouldn't actually be able to find me since i doubt you can throw a knife through the end of the world and two..." he didn't want to say it. but maybe speaking it would get the hallucination to at least quit the rescue act. somehow, the rescue ones hurt more than the hateful visions. " i highly doubt any of you idiots would come looking for me. " he had a literal book saying they gave up searching for him a long, long time ago.

it's been a long time since he'd heard another human being speak aloud. sure, delores spoke to him but she often spoke softly so not to spook him. could he be blamed for devolving into flinching from noises when it usually signalled danger? no, he didn't think so. especially when his power relied on the food he had to ration in order to survive. so he couldn't just blink out of an issue unless he wanted to pass out where he ended up.

there was a chance he was hallucinating. that he had finally lost the final few strands of sanity that weren't wrapped in his need to find a way out. if he stopped the apocalypse then his family wouldn't be four filled graves and two empty ones for those he could not find. he didn't need diego of all people there to remind him of his goal. it screamed at him every god damn fucking day.

his brother ran at him and he couldn't help himself. he, obviously, put delores and the cart behind him and took a step back. sure, he could glare this person into submission but at the same time it probably lost most if not all the bite he intended for it when he probably looked a shadow of the thirteen year old child who'd left them at the breakfast table.

" right. i'm hallucinating. cause one, you wouldn't actually be able to find me since i doubt you can throw a knife through the end of the world and two..." he didn't want to say it. but maybe speaking it would get the hallucination to at least quit the rescue act. somehow, the rescue ones hurt more than the hateful visions. " i highly doubt any of you idiots would come looking for me. " he had a literal book saying they gave up searching for him a long, long time ago.

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five can’t help but be a little rough at the edges. a little feral. three years of no one but delores has left him changed forever. especially when he apparently only has seven days to save the world from the apocalypse he’d spent three years in. so he had to get this wound sorted, get delores and then find out who the eye belongs to. a plan he could work with. “ it was certainly ballsy. airing out the family secrets. you didn’t say anything that wasn’t true. ”

five can’t help but be a little rough at the edges. a little feral. three years of no one but delores has left him changed forever. especially when he apparently only has seven days to save the world from the apocalypse he’d spent three years in. so he had to get this wound sorted, get delores and then find out who the eye belongs to. a plan he could work with. “ it was certainly ballsy. airing out the family secrets. you didn’t say anything that wasn’t true. ”

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lips purse to the side , shaking her head as she finally finds the courage to look her brother in the eye . “ no , five it’s not them , i promise . i’m just . . . ” a beat , temporary silence . “ . . . after the last mission , after what i did , i just feel like i’ve crossed a line i can’t uncross . ”

“ you say that like luther didn’t break someone’s neck against a wall, diego didn’t stab someone in the gut and ben didn’t eviscerate someone. ” they’re all monsters in a way. but it’s for the good of the mission. “ you can always come back from that line. just cause dad was pissed doesn’t mean he’s right. the old man only wants us perfect and forgets that we’re all fucked up kids with superpowers. ”

" . . . what if i don't belong here , " gaze averted from @equationsoff , singular hot trickles down cheek . " what if i'm just a MISTAKE , . . . a MONSTER ? "