#◜❝ 𝙰𝙱𝙾𝚄𝚃. ⟩⟩ i’m losing myself to rage. ❞◞

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venadeus io gets to break a chain. they don't change their name. they don't tie themself to the concept of magic. instead they become something else. a god, still, of course. a god of something violent, too. but a god of nature. cruel nature. destructive nature. violent nature. the ugly constant that many don't enjoy seeing. predation. belligerent animals who use violence as a defense. wildfire, drought, storms. quakes and tsunamis. and io finds peace in that. that's the most important thing. io gets to become exactly what they were always destined for. what they always yearned for. to be so powerful no one can touch them, but to also be able to retire to the one place that's always felt the most like home to them. io can't shake their violent nature, no matter how hard they try. so why not become it?

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io is demiromantic, but even that is kind of... a hit or miss. io rarely, rarely forms romantic attraction to people, and it will only happen after forming a close relationship with that person beforehand. for context, io canonically has romantically loved three people. and they have been alive for 1,800 years. that's how rare. however, sexual attraction comes much easier. io is not stranger to having purely sexual relationships with people, and sometimes those themselves may eventually change to romantic. otherwise, they do occasionally go for one-night stands and other flings. although these have dwindled in occurrence over recent years. any romantic relationship that does develop means io drops everyone else they might have been with, too. and, if io does not feel romantic feelings towards someone they were having an otherwise purely physical relationship with, but that person does, io will... well. io's really good at ghosting people.

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io doesn't share their own food - if its theirs, it's theirs and they don't want to change that. in fact, their habits with food could be described by others as a little... odd. they don't really like people handing them plates directly. sometimes they might ask for a plate to be set down so that they can grab it instead. and when they are eating, they have a tendency to pull plates and bowls a little too close or wrap an arm loosely around the dish. they have no difficulties for the opposite - they could eat off of someone else's plate if offered, or hand someone a dish without a hitch.

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io's blatant self-confidence in their own appearance will never not be funny to me because someone can flirt and tell them that they think io is pretty but the fucking second a love interest says something genuine and sweet and romantic io is a flustered mess who can't string two words together

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I know I mention sea/ocean things a lot when I mention io's favorite things (seabirds, sea shells, honestly they really like sea glass too) but that's because the beach/ocean/sea is one of their favorite places. it was the one place as a child they could escape too and feel unbothered and free and... like a kid. they could pick up shells and turn over rocks and peer into tidepools and watch the birds. it's still a place where io can act like a kid. they could spend hours on a beach. and if they love you, they're going to show you everything cool they found.

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was thinking about this and I want to clarify/point out some stuff with io and col? io could never. NEVER. forgive him for what he did. there is never a possibility of reconciliation. for good reason - col killed lucius. col tried to kill io the same way. the trust was lost in that moment and can literally never be put back together again. the trauma that io carries from just that one day will always weigh them down beyond understanding. col was a child that they raised, once upon a time. that they held when he cried and encouraged when he faltered. a child that they taught magic to. that joined them hunting and fishing and playing games by firelight. who raced horses with them and joined them while they cooked or wandered or picked up shells on the beach. col was a child once, and io loved him in that powerful way that only a good parent can. io still loves him - col wants io dead and io wonders if he's happy. if he ate a good dinner or did something that made him smile. and they hate that they think about that. but the trust is always gone. io resents him. io loves him. io is stuck in perpetual grief even though he isn't really gone. col did something absolutely unspeakable. it's no wonder that io has such a tenuous, rocky relationship with the concept of trust. if the boy they raised could do something so terrible, then to io, anyone is capable of anything.

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I've been thinking about this for... a while now, but I think that sometimes, sometimes io is more into the idea of only their partner's pleasure and not their own at all. in a way that I think is 100% dysphoria based on their part. it's not all the time. their dysphoria comes in waves here and there and for the most part they've gotten good at countering it. but their physical pleasure during sex is just... sometimes something that makes them uncomfortable and they'll pass on it in the moment. they might feel differently the next time around, they may not, they may ask their partner to work through it with them. it depends.

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io’s not a fan of sweets really at all, with some notable exceptions like fruit pies and vanilla ice cream. but they turn their nose up at sugary things. cake, frosting, cookies. brownies and milk chocolate. things like that. however, io is a sucker for natural sweetness. honey and fresh fruit. they’ll make themself sick on raspberries and peaches.

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the reason io turned to drinking is because things get to be too much. there's constant stress in their life. the hounds, recurring pain, the constant lingering effects of their trauma. but at least drinking makes those worries... ease. makes it easier to sleep. and it became a dependency that lingers on. most of the time, it's barely obvious. a drink every day in a nice glass. something slipped into their coffee. other times it's blatantly obvious, and io always feels guilty after getting drunk. they don't want anyone to see. they do it in private, in inter mundos, and avoid people the day after, too. they brush their teeth over and over. they scrub their skin raw. they try to cover everything about it up. and io knows that this is a bad, bad coping mechanism. io's tried to stop themself before. but, here's the thing - alcohol is one of the worst substances to withdrawal from and io has very personal and real experience with this. io now is almost certainly going to end up with delirium tremens if they try to quit again and they... do not like hospitals, doctors, etc. they also don't like asking for help. despite how badly they want to stop, io is scared of many things that come with it. withdrawals, needing to ask for help, and dealing with their stress and mental health afterwards. it's also one of those things that isn't just stubbornness that keeps them from seeking help. it's that age-old fear of theirs that their weakness is unseemly, that no one will want to deal with that. that they should bite their tongue and fight through the pain without a single wince because who wants to take care of someone like them?

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io feels their magic most in a couple places - their chest, near their heart, and along their inner arms. this also makes their skin rather sensitive in these spots. tracing the skin along their chest, over their inner wrist, etc., feels very good to them. going further and kissing, gently nipping, etc. will have them keening.

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venadeus has a magical presence that mirrors iovita's to a T. their magic is volatile, oppressive (sometimes even physically), and barely contained. their magic can often feel like it's constantly probing for an outlet. io's latent magic can be sensed by nonhumans or special humans with the ability to do so. it often carries warmth with it, as well. the electric, thrilling, and dangerous feel of a dry storm and wildfire intertwined, as well as all of the features listed above. io's magic, however, can also be felt by anyone when they're using it. it becomes a strong pressure, felt physically. venadeus's magic is able to felt always, and by anyone. he has a uncomfortable, unsafe presence to him. something that can evoke whichever feeling a person might feel when in danger. fear, anxiety, anger. he is a god, and his power is palpable. and beyond that, he is a god whose domain extends over any magic that has become violent, deadly, and dangerous.

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io doesn't celebrate their birthday because they genuinely loathe the fact that they were even born (something that would be even worse if they knew how their mother even went about conceiving them in the first place). they simply ignore it. venadeus, in all his annoying glory, however, will not be ignoring it. he loathes it for another reason - every year that passes is another year that io doesn't replace him.

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io is a mostly very graceful person. on top of that, they're very confident and enjoy an 'all eyes on me' kind of situation. i.e. they enjoy showing off and strut like a cat when they get compliments. so with all of that in mind you would think they'd be particularly good at and enjoy dancing. this is very much not true, and all of their grace and confidence falls right out the window upon even trying.

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my sunday fun fact for io is that they get louder the more overstimulated they are. get them to cum far more than once and they'll be trying so hard to muffle every moan and cry.

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🥵🥵🥵 there are some specific muses taking notes i just want you to know this

io’s shirts are very, very stealable. the quintessential button-down that should be stolen, and io agrees about this. and they love it even more when their partner is wearing nothing but their shirt. and they’d like it to stay on the whole time, thank you very much. having someone ride them while wearing one is such a classic fantasy of theirs when it comes to a frequent partner.

one of those things that comes with io’s trust in a partner is that they start… liking to be manhandled a little more. pushed/forcibly moved around, pinned down. it goes in hand with io liking the act of being silenced. finding a way to shut them up is like, the most effective way to actually being the more dominant one with io. and while they might give their partner a dirty look for it, they genuinely, actually love it. a gag, giving them something to occupy their mouth with, shoving their face down, whatever. as long as it’s not kind of physically violent (i.e. hitting, slapping) then io likes it a lot.

as much as io likes being the one to dole out praise to their partners, they like being praised just as much. no matter what position they’re in, if someone coos to them about how good they are, io will melt.

spicy hcs.

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this isn't to discount or take away from the fact that io can be and is cruel to the people they believe deserve it, nor the fact that io can be straight-up mean for seemingly no reason, but I do think it's important to realize that behind all of that is nothing but a hot nerve of pain and grief. they just really have no other clue how to cope with it except with anger.