#╰ ☾ ₊ ⸻ ooc ⧽ uttering insanities no one believes

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STARTER CALL ! I’d love to write with more of you, so like for a thing? Varying lengths, whatever muse decrees.

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On my hands and knees in the worst way I’m so down let me earn that affiliate title 😚

the way tempted to make lyarra’s canon end for her hotd verse that she dies horrifically trying save helaena and her children from their doomed fate

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Not Train trying to convince me it’s okay to use GOT Viserys as a Dance era fc…………

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OOC. Wasn’t on here last night because I was busy losing my mind over the concept of writing either a Luke OR a Gwayne

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OOC. I felt it pertinent to add this to my rules considering what I'm about to drop on the dash.

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OOC. Having just finally read it, by all accounts I vastly prefer the book version of Blood & Cheese. There’s more horror in making Helaena choose between her sons (and ugh, the threatening of Jaehaera) and then disregarding her choice anyway. Her torture just as much as watching her eldest son slain (I did enjoy in the show that it was more drawn out than a single swing….ANGST!!) being the knowledge that she had chosen, in the end. She chose one of her children to die.

Also find it strange that both scenes of Helaena with the children & their grandparents (her taking them to see Viserys the night before he died, then her nighttime routine of taking them to see Alicent) were completely taken out and go unmentioned in the show. Let her have family time and closeness, goddamn???

I had expected to go into this scene wanting to preserve a mixture of the show portrayal and the book’s on my blog. However, there is really nothing I care for about the show’s, save Phia Saban’s phenomenal acting. So, book Blood & Cheese will be this blog’s canon lmao.

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Okay, I’ve talked with Train about this idea a little more and I think I can write up this verse in a way that feels Coherent and Reasonable to me.

But bottom line is that after having seen Jaehaerys killed in front of her, and after her discussion with Aemond, she makes the decision that she’s going to leave with her children to some far away place where it won’t matter if they live or die in all of this, surely. Just away. Because she’s seen how Maelor dies, and she can’t do it. Not again. Even if she won’t be there to witness it, she’s seen it. Torn limb from limb. Screaming. Suffering. Bleeding. Not again not again not again not after Jaehaerys —

& maintaining that she may have seen a lot of the future, maybe enough (Dany) that she’s determined that the dance MUST happen for the future of Westeros or something. But she doesn’t know how much Maelor’s death influences Green shit and thinks just that taking her and her babies away from the throne and the war will be inconsequential. To Essos, somewhere far and remote where no one would know their names. And Dreamfyre will stay with her, away from it all too, so…also taking her out of the equation.

But something happens along her journey and she never makes it to Essos. So like, can still play around with keeping her available and in Westeros to write with muses here!

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surprisingly the url ‘ devotedvows ’ wasn’t taken :>

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Considering just making a multi tbh. I want to write but….do I have muse for Hel? I’m…. Not entirely sure. Though I’m also not sure who I do want to be writing at the moment. Wracking my brain as to what themes & topics I even want to focus on, and if they’re appropriate for Hel or if it would be better accomplished by a different muse :/

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OOC. does anyone want to see jacegan I doodled a little bit ago 👉🏽👈🏽

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Satin Flowers………I could……..

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OOC. I'm so conflicted because right now I think what I want to write is....well, not Helaena. And I've been trying awfully hard not to juggle more than one muse, but I miss writing deeply and unapologetically evil, unpleasant characters like I normally do asfhasfh. So I've just been plagued by indecision the last few days and wanting desperately to bring back my favorite OC and give her an HoTD verse (she's a D&D drow so she would work....extremely well as a Targ).

I'm sitting in my drafts & inbox now and hoping that I'll find the muse. But my heart is over with the worst possible character I could write right now.

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One of my favorite doll makers ever, actually

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OOC. questionable financial decisions were made ...

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Do you think. For science. If you pulled one of Jace’s curls they’d spring right back?

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Reading GRRM's latest blog post and yes, all of that. I agree with every little thing he said. But not only does the complete removal of Maelor effect events in KL's, but for Daeron's storyline as well. He burns Bitterbridge and does not show mercy despite being begged to because of his young nephew's gruesome end there.

In general I feel that changing B&C so drastically undermined Helaena. And for seemingly no reason at all, in some places - why have her offer a mere necklace, when it is already established that she offered herself up to the assassins instead? Which makes far more sense and shows a more self-sacrificing and motherly intention. (To be clear, I do understand the argument that she was panicking and not thinking clearly and not quite all there doing the events. Her eyes roaming around in pure terror, showing whites like a spooked horse - brilliantly performed. I don't mean to imply that show Helaena does not love her children, though we see so little of her. We are left to imply so much about her character and many others because the little screentime we have is spent on - that's another topic but :))))))) ). But since the book already gave us that she had offered herself?????? Ugh.

Yes, she 'chose' in a way by them making her tell which child is the boy, but it really didn't feel the same as the horrific nature of the choice she made between Jaehaerys and Maelor -- and then having it disregarded anyway. Her choice, that horrific, torturous, agonizing choice, made no difference in the end at all.

She also just. Isn't as despondent post B&C as the book makes her out to be? Which, while yes, it didn't go down as it did in the book, what did occur in show is traumatizing as is? So there's no reason she couldn't then still follow that part. But even that seems...not the case here.