#ℋ ᵖᵃˢˢᶤᶰᵍ ʲᵘˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵛᵉ ᵐʸ ʰᵉᵃᵈ ; ᵃ ˢᵗᵉᶰᶜʰ ᵒᶠ ᵖᵘᵗʳᶤᵈ ᵈᵉᵃᵗʰ┊HEADCANONS

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` Angst meme !

Bold what applies, italicize what kind of applies

been cheated on | been bullied | told a horrible lie | stolen something of value | overdosed on drugs | been drunk | passed out | cheated | bullied | punched someone in the face | been beaten up | broken a bone | been admitted to a hospital | had a near-death experience | been drugged | done drugs | smoked | kissed someone you weren’t attracted to | bled severely | killed someone | had an attempt on your life | made an attempt on your own life | lost someone | loved someone | gone without food for over three days | gone without sleep for over three days | been tortured | been slapped by a parent or higher up | been abused by someone who should have loved you | had a panic attack | been in a car accident | had sex | had sex with a stranger | been raped | felt raped | passed out from pain | cried yourself to sleep | spent a whole day in bed | hurt yourself | taken your anger out on yourself | taken your anger out on someone you love | been used | felt used | used | been terrified | played a cruel game on someone | been dominant | been submissive | been forced to smile | been misgendered | felt too many things at once | felt nothing at all | laughed when you felt like crying

tagged by: tagged by @heroiclicrs ( merci, mon amie! )

tagging: @marinaive , @seishiumi &&. whoever else wants to! <3

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      the red sea’s corruption is absolute; or rather, it should be. 

      syake swears himself to the red sea, rejects the blue sea’s ideals &&. their beliefs, as he feels he’s been wronged by them &&. had everything taken away. while he had given himself willingly to those bloodied shores &&. accepted his prophecized title of ambassador, there had always remained a loose thread. with corruption &&. being reborn anew as ‘syakesan’, ‘manami’ had been considered long dead by syake himself. he would repress his past, hating every fiber of it, wishing it were gone &&. never existed --- the only thing he would hold onto was his jealousy, hatred, &&. bitterness that he had felt, as it had been his corruption’s fuel. 

       but being called by his past name will send him into shock. this manga panel &&. the focus on his eye always seemed strange to me, as did the colorization of his eye going from the red tint’s usual ‘grey’ to that sudden lighter shade. this only lead me to one conclusion: calling upon his past would have his old self fizzle in, in a way. his past self would start to bleed through again, if only sparingly --- but of course, syake hates that. he hates who he used to be. so naturally, he’ll only react violently in order to regain control &&. repress the memory once more: 

       he doesn’t want to be reminded. he doesn’t want to remember. manami is dead, &&. he shouldn’t be brought back.

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it is a known fact that neither samekichi nor sal / syakesan are the twin’s real names. while samekichi’s true name is supposedly minami ( from an image from DSP confirming that his son is named after him ) -- we are left to wonder what syake’s is. supposedly from another translation, it’s gathered that syake and samekichi were given distinctly similar names, as are they are twins.

where as minami means ‘ honorable wave’ ( 御波 ), i’ll be headcanoning that syake’s true name is manami, which means either ‘ love & affection + beautiful ‘ (  愛美 ) or ‘ love & affection + the sea ‘ ( 愛海 ) .

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&&. In-character Word Association!

Read the word then type the first word that comes to your character’s mind.

Tagged by: ( tagged by ai!! thanks binch salad <3 )

Tagging: ...er, i think everyone i wanted to tag has been tagged, so.

Rough: “ Love. ♪ ” Hide: “ The truth. ” Foolish: “ The Blue Sea . ” Sad: “ ... Long, long, long ago. ♪ ” Hate: “ Myself. Him. ” Light: “ Painful. ” Dark: “ Soothing.  ” Mother: “ ... Missed.” Father: “ Disgraceful.” Child: “ Endearing. ” Marriage: “ Immediate. ♪ ” Love: “Wadanohara. ❤” Soft: “ Flesh. ” Pet: “ Witch.  ♪ ” Dream: “  Repetitive. ” Divorce: “ You won’t, and can’t, leave. ” Water: “ Home .  ” Loud: “ Frustrating. ” Power: “Superiority .” Fight: “Kill .” Smack: “ Enjoyable . ” White: “ My pearl. ” Sick: “ Not anymore  ♪  ” Kiss: “ Wadanohara. ” Hug: “ Wadanohara.” Hurt: “ Him .” Happy: “ Wadanohara. ❤ ”

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Bold what you apply to your muse.

Tagged by: tagged by @hisempress thanks u fucker <3 Tagging: hey ai stop fuckening tagging everyone i was gonna tag

DEFENSIVENESS:

arms crossed on chest // crossing legs // fist-like gestures // pointing index finger // karate chops // stiffening of shoulders // tense posture // curling of lip/baring of teeth

REFLECTIVE:

hand-to-face gestures // head tilted // stroking chin // peering over glasses // taking glasses off — cleaning // putting earpiece of glasses in mouth // pipe smoker gestures // putting hand to bridge of nose // pursed lips // knitted brows

SUSPICION:

arms crossed // sideways glance // touching or rubbing nose // rubbing eyes // hands resting on weapon // brows raising // lips pressing into a thin line // strict, unwavering eye contact // wrinkling of nose

OPENNESS & COOPERATION:

open hands // upper body in sprinters position // sitting on edge of chair // hand-to-face gestures // unbuttoned coat // tilted head // slacked shoulders, droopy posture // feet pointed outward // palms flat and facing outward

CONFIDENCE:

hands behind back // hands on lapels of coat // steepled hands // baring teeth in a grin // rolling shoulders // tipping head back but maintaining eye contact // chest puffed up/shoulders back // arms folded just above navel

INSECURITY & ANXIETY:

chewing pen or pencil // rubbing thumb over opposite thumb // biting fingernails // hands in pockets // elbow bent/closed gestures // clearing throat // “whew” sound // picking or pinching flesh // fidgeting in chair // hand covering mouth whilst speaking // poor eye contact // tugging at pants/skirt whilst seated // jingling money in pockets // tugging at ear // perspiring hands // playing with hair // swaying // playing with pointer/marker // smacking lips // sighing // rocking on balls of feet // flexing fingers sporadically

FRUSTRATION:

short breaths // “tsk” sounds // tightly-clenched hands // fist-like gestures // pointing index finger // rubbing hand through hair // rubbing back of neck // snarling // revealing teeth/grimacing // sharp-eyed glowers w/ notable tension in brow // shoulders back, head up — defensive posturing // clenching of jaw/grinding teeth //nostrils flaring // heavy exhales